#should i like tag this as negativity or something idk

[hamofjustice]

who's ready for the indigo disk, a $35 DLC required to finish the story the $60 base game of pokemon scarlet and violet started because corporate rushed it out too early, to not be allowed to acknowledge any of nemona arven and penny's virtues, deeper problems, and motivations, if not just outright contradict or mock them

who's ready to never have nemona hit level 100 or use EVs/held items, never make food with arven, never... uh... do anything fun with penny, never adventure with them again once the new story's over despite it being a coded and previously used feature in the game that introduced the union circle, never get to call anyone on the phone we supposedly have their numbers registered on, never get to do emotes together with anyone but other players, and never get to say what or who our own treasure was when nemona's was us

who's ready for the story to not acknowledge that ditching our friends but especially nemona to transfer schools to another country in pursuit of New Content, right after she basically opened up to us about her secretly being a horribly lonely neurodivergent disabled kid trying to fight her "gifted" label and we promised to be with her forever, would be extremely traumatizing

who's ready to still not have a real postgame without crowdsourcing it from other players with the internet connectivity that they're going to take offline a few years later

for my health, i must be prepared for all of these things rather than writing a big fluffy post getting my hopes up about how they're going to utilize some of the realest characters in pokemon (though i can do that too if you want)

especially when the company seems too afraid, secretive, or unprepared to advertise the damn thing and haven't shown or mentioned those three main plot driving characters again in the entire 9 months from DLC announcement to release as if they simply won't be in it at all (which is stupid, of course they will)

i just wanna see the rest of the beautiful story they were trying to tell before three year cycle hell made a bit of a mess of it and the cast suddenly vanished or became statues when we were just about to hang out and live happily ever after. i would've really appreciated the anime actually being about them, too (horizons isn't even really about Paldea lmao)

[sleepsucks]

[autisticlee]

sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.

but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.

I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.

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[bread-squid-uwu]

Honestly the animation style was EXPECTED they've been doing block boobs since the MCD thumbnails guys

It's cute overall, but yeah a little strange, it's definitely got that vibe of their newer content to it which was definitely expected

Idk, I don't hate it. They have the opportunity to give characters different body types now, which I doubt they will do but hey, hope is a thing.

The boobs and curves are icky, but you're lying if you say you didn't see that coming

[if-loki-was-a-fox]

(just a heads up: this is an angry discourse-type post. Discretion is advised, don't read this if you're already mad or anxious about something)

Weird question maybe, but like... Why is it so normal to just tell people to die/kill themselves on here?

Like why is "you specifically should kill yourself" just a comeback people use for bad takes sometimes

Why is "if you think XYZ then you should die" a fine and dandy post format that people will just post and reblog sometimes

I would like to think the people I follow are generally good and reasonable people but??? That can't seriously sound like an okay thing to say, can it? You don't seriously think it's okay to tell people that if they had a thought they deserve to take their own life, do you?

"kys" being a common comeback in discourse is literally the original reason I decided to never ever get on Twitter. And it's just. It's here too. And y'all act so high and mighty all the time

This and a lot of other Tumblr discourse genuinely makes me feel crazy for thinking that it's a good thing to encourage growth and becoming a better person, and that people shouldn't be damned for eternity for every mistake they make.

I already thought the concept of hell was total BS when I was being raised Christian, it's even more fucked up now that neither I and no one around me claim to believe in it

[dez-wade]

One of the reasons I wanted conflict is because I want Forever to open his eyes so Dramatrio and Eclipseduo could have died for good. I think they're good people, good for each other, but not for Forever. They don't trust him, every single talk he has with them becoming a 4D chess of them trying to twist Forever's words or actions into something more sinister and that has been happening way before he was president. He always has to get on the defensive about everything when they talk to him. They sided many times with each other "against" him, but the opposite never happened. They had deep talks with each other but never with him. They like him, care about him. But they don't trust him.

Despite Baghera trying to mostly keep BBH in check, I can see these two going "Aren't you tired of being nice? Don't you wanna go apeshit?" and joining forces but I don't see that ever happening with Forever.

When I think about the people who mistrusted Forever the most, it's always these two. Even the people who had reasons to distrust him, like Foolish and Jaiden, don't. When I think about people who mostly trust him is always Cellbit + the Brazilians (maybe not Mike at the moment). And funnily enough Phil and Roier. Hell, Roier hypes up Forever all the time and he doesn't even need to. (I think Max trusts him a lot too, but sometimes I feel like he has a more idealistic version of Forever in his mind)

So I always kinda just wished he'd find someone who he can be himself, that he could speak with every time he wants to about things that are worrying him that is not Cellbit because that's the closest thing he got.

And even when the chat points it out, he thinks they're talking about actual cc!Baghera and cc!Bad. Like that's not the point, we're talking about RP! The friendship with the CCs is amazing and I hope they keep being friends forever. But I want q!Forever to find other friends.

[risingsunresistance]

twitter is entering their "rts > likes" phase now that likes are private after they spent years calling us ungrateful for being demotivated by ratios lmao

[vincent-sinclair-deserved-better]

hm

thinking of my blorbos but not in a "i love you you love me all is well" way but a "i love you hope you kill me" way lol

[orcelito]

Hm

Something that kinda bothers me with trimax vs tristamp is the framing of Choice

In tristamp, it's framed as this whole big thing where he has to choose between humans and plants. "Who's side are you on?" Repeated over and over again, & he continues to not give an answer because he doesn't WANT to choose. Which in and of itself, I think this is narratively interesting, but like...

Then I think about what the big Choice is in trimax, & it feels kinda cheap in comparison.

Bc see, the Choice in trimax is over whether he should ever take a life. Wolfwood says it, Legato forces it, even fucking Nebraska Dad says it. Someday, Vash is going to have to make that choice whether he wants to or not. He spends over a hundred chapters running from this, REFUSING to choose one life over another, citing that all life is sacred... he really, truly believes this, and he really, truly wants to live by this.

But sometimes in this hell of a world, you really do have to make a choice. And in the end, he's forced to make that choice. One Time, he chooses to kill in order to save someone else's life. It happens only when his hand is really truly forced, but it Happens. He kills someone, and it nearly destroys him.

And we see this during the time where the earth forces have gotten the order to bomb Gunsmoke to combat Knives, Despite people telling them that they've got plans in motion to combat him without killing a great many people. Bc the people on earth many many miles away are more concerned with risk avoidance, so they're willing to accept killing a Lot of people in order to remove the uncertainty & risk to a great many more.

Zoom back in on Vash. He literally passes out from the mental agony of it & goes into a fever dream of all the people he knows that has died. The man he killed was an awful person, caused so much harm to both Vash and many many more people. Objectively, it should not have been a hard decision.

But for Vash, it was.

And that's what really gets me about it all. Vash is a staunch pacifist. He sticks to this despite people telling him over and over again to give up, to just accept that he has to kill people sometimes... And he eventually learns that they were kinda right in the end, but Even Still, after all is said and done, he STILL refuses to give up on any life he could possibly save.

This framing of the Choice is really, truly moving to me. It's a key part of what really made trimax Hit for me.

So tying it back in with tristamp's framing of choice... idk, it just feels kinda cheap in comparison. In trimax, Vash never really has any doubts about the plant vs human thing (aside from when he was a kid, post-tesla). He knows he's a plant. He knows a lot of humans wouldn't accept him for that. He knows a lot of humans would Fear him for that. But he still loves them and never once wavers in his pursuit for love & peace.

Overall, I just really enjoy the framing of moral questions in trimax more, I guess.

[good-to-drive]

whyyyyy do the beatles have so many solo stans this site is so weird

[luckycaricature]

Just finished the fallout show. That ending was bullshit :/

[spearheadrampancy]

every time i come back to fandom spaces - like, the concept of A fandom at all - it seems like everyone is just so... hostile.

and yes some of the things that people are getting riled about are legitimate concerns and stuff, but it seems like everybody is just at each others throats more and more. feels like fandom is less a community and more a kind of label that some people present as some army rank or something.

i dont know. there's just something really sad about it. to log on and see shit like "if you think the princess would ever dare to wear a PURPLE 🤢🤢 skirt instead of the PINK one she is always seen wearing then you should kill yourself and i mean that genuinely." all the time. from all fandoms. from fandoms you didnt even know existed. from fandoms youve been entrenched in for years.

over the last couple of weeks i had started to wonder why i slowly felt less and less comfortable with being in fandom territory over the last 10 years, and i saw a post today talking about how tumblr itself is generally just hostile in the worst way and it clicked. it isnt really a fandom specific issue, it just happens to be prominent in fandom. it's not just a tumblr issue, or even an internet issue though. people on a day to day basis talking to their friends make jokes that are genuinely so aggressive and violent; there's some level of normalisation at play. i'm not sure where it comes from. there's something to be said about how it probably isnt healthy that we're constantly surrounded by news of Yet Another Moral Failing somewhere in the world, how there's a latent anger at everybody and anybody in every direction.

i'm not saying we're in the wrong to be angry at the world. i just think its sad that we've turned art and appreciation into a battleground for some reason.

fandom used to have rules like "dont yuck someone else's yum" and a whole litany of other phrases. but now everyone is just hostile all the time. it sucks. makes me want to stay far away.

[squiddlysquoo]

The Nine Inch Nails gabriel thing is because he goes CMON MACHINE, FIGHT ME LIKE AN ANIMAL! Which is probably a reference to Closer by NIN (i wanna fuck you like an animal)

Oh well in that case I think we should all make him a Sleater Kinney fan both because of their song ANIMAL & because I think riotgrrrl music could fix him

[girlyliondragon]

I have online therapy next week and yet I still feel like I have to bottle up shit around others to keep from off my ass, man isn't mental health great. /s

So yeah anyways I'm gonna really hope I don't relapse until then or am pushed to do so. It's just a week away, feels like eons. >.>'''

[wickedhawtwexler]

i get sooo worried about going off my adhd meds, but honestly i feel like i sometimes exaggerate how bad my adhd is because the last time i was unmedicated for a long period of time (right before i was diagnosed) i was also literally suicidal and had severe anxiety which uh. definitely exacerbated the lack of focus 🫠

[heytheredeann]

are u watching tw blood origin?

I don't think so, I have no real interest in it?

You'll probably see me reblog some Eile stuff as it crosses my dash because I'm gay and weak (I think there's actually a post about her in my queue already?), but I don't really feel like watching it, I honestly don't even know what her role is LOL.