Muse (the Be Not Afraid remix)
Claude/Aryllin, 1100 words.
For @dennydraws who did the original comic this follows directly on from. I hope you like it!
He couldn’t help chuckling, shaking his head softly. He’d heard it all before, of course. That he was used up, washed out… a fraud. Whatever it was they felt like saying that day. He’d even believed it, at one time. It was why he left Withergate, after all. Driven out by the whips of their scorn.
Sun Haven was different, though. There were still whispers, but they were easily ignorable. The town’s most influential people had stood up for him and made him feel welcomed and allowed him to just… be.
And then She had arrived.
His fingers idly tapped out a curious little tune as he remembered their first meeting. He had been deep in this neverending gloom that often enveloped him, yet even then she seemed to pierce through it like a ray of eternal sunshine, soothing a chill in his soul he hadn’t even noticed.
“I’m Aryllin! Good to meet you!”
And that had been where it began.
He smiled as the tempo increased, memories of Ary flashing through his mind. Her smile, her good cheer, her thoughtfulness. The music swelled around him as he sunk further and further into his memories. His bafflement over her gloves, right up until she kissed him, became a soft moment of hesitant notes that quickly shot to an amazed climax before subsiding into pleased yet bashful beats that lined up with the way his heart pounded around her. The memory of her precious gift of her halo was a rising crescendo of joy that held a single ecstatic note in fermata… before shattering into a gloriously chaotic burst of delighted quarter tones that expressed his own amazement at his boldness when he’d gathered her up into their first transcendent kiss. Even the time he had gone to the beach party was represented in a series of pleased fortepiano notes that buzzed with his laughter at how she had gone so very red and froze up completely. He then reversed it with a complimentary series of sforzando notes to reference how completely he had frozen up when she had so innocently declared that she should, “be on top”.
It turned softer then, almost contemplative, when he remembered nights of companionable playing with an entranced audience of one. How she so dearly wished to stay awake as long as he was with her, but would always succumb to her dreams when he slowly segued into lullabies. The music hinted at those old, old tunes, but was always underscored by the added harmony of his devotion before trailing off into a soft, sweet homage to the care he took in gathering her up and depositing her in bed. His awed reverence of those nights, where he would gently brush her face while she slept, softened the tune to almost a wistful whisper, the music itself glorying in him finding something he loved even more than music.
Then it rose again, sharp and harsh as he remembered how she had come to his defense earlier that day. How glorious and otherworldly she had been in the throws of her indignation. How majestic she had looked prepared to smite… But the whole way through there was a thread of his laughter as he cherished her so very dearly. How he had scooped her up and left with her, despite the most adorable pout he had ever seen gracing her lovely face. A couple of silly gossips weren’t worth the trouble it would cause both of them with Lucia and Nathaniel if Ary went after them with her sword, of course. Still… he was more moved than he could put into words that she would try.
Into words… but not into music.
He blinked down at his piano, coming back to himself suddenly. A wide grin broke across his face as he contemplated the piece he had just played, composed entirely on the fly. It was even better than the masterpiece he was best known for, and he eagerly reached for some blank music sheets next to him, patiently waiting for him to regain his creativity. The first few lines were scrawled hurriedly out before a stray thought stopped him in his tracks.
Ary will be so proud of me.
The thing was… the thing was… Ary was already proud of him. She didn’t judge him for his creative block, or think he was only worth the works he could show to others. She didn’t expect him to put his heart and soul out to be a spectacle for the common folk to earn her love, and she didn’t ever want to see him diminished into only a commodity to be paraded around. She saw more than that, believed more than that… And of all the bits of himself he was willing to offer up with his music, his love for her was not one of them. He couldn’t stomach the thought of sharing the delicate intimacy of their feelings with the world. He would rip himself to shreds in search of an outlet, display his innermost self in a way that left him bleeding and raw just to feel as big as he was able to… But not when it came to her.
She had done what no amount of soul-searching or practice had managed and had reignited his emotions, fanning them effortlessly into a blaze as intense as it had been when his music had still only brought him clarity and joy. The proof was in the brilliance of the piece he had just composed. But now he knew it wasn’t a fluke. Now he knew he was capable of more than one masterpiece.
In time he would prove it to the world. There was no way to avoid that now that Ary had drawn the depths of his heart back out into the light, guided by her own effortless radiance. He’d never been able to contain his own intensity before others had taught him how the backlash burned… But Ary was born of heavenly fire, and had given of herself to protect him from it. She would shield his heart from the fickleness of fame as easily then as she had from the harsh words today, but now was not the time for that. For now, he would bask in their idyllic life here in this quiet backwater, honing his skills and savouring the sweetness of her love. For now his whole world was just the only person that made it all good again, and he would protect her as fiercely as she protected him.
No, this song was not for the unimaginative and tasteless masses. This song was just for him and Ary. The proof of how they felt, the pinnacle of their love.
The twinned tune of their hearts, interwoven and finally, gloriously…
One.
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