#since vegan fast food and snacks are a thing now

[eddieydewr]

"I'm boycotting kalemyname!!"

That's a health food restaurant. We all know those fat fucks weren't going to go there anyway.

damn, anon 😭

[thessalian]

Thess vs Self-Reflection

I'm not sure if it's really good or really bad that I do this much self-reflection. Thing is, everything interests me and I like to poke at the logic of things in general. I guess starting with myself is as good a way as any to go about it. After all, the mysteries of Me are close to hand.

See, yesterday I had to go out to the Sainsbury's for some ingredients for the upcoming Baking Extravaganza - sour cream for the banana bread, eggs and sugar for ... like, everything ... stuff like that. And I had just literally missed a bus that only comes along every 10-15 minutes because the bus driver did not notice (or just plain ignored) the person with the cane desperately hobbling in the direction of the bus stop as they meandered past. No, seriously, that bus cannot go very fast in this area because it uses a two-lane road that has cars parked on it on both sides, effectively turning it into a one-lane road and everyone has to kind of do some funky swervy Red Rover shit to get anywhere if someone's driving in the opposite direction. So they had time to see me if they were checking their mirrors but just ... nope. Ambled on past.

So since there wasn't really time to go back home and sit for awhile, and also because I wasn't going to go up the hill from the bus stop to my house more times than I had to, I popped to the corner shop briefly for a chocolate bar and then still had a five-minute wait for the bus, more or less. And I'm standing there with my reusable shopping bag and my chocolate bar and my aches and pains from two trips to the communal skips (dumpsters, whatever) with loads of trash and recycling (because I can't take too much at one time, what with the cane and all), on top of the aches and pains of just existing with fibromyalgia ... and I sat there and wondered, "Why the fuck do I do this to myself? Why can't I just buy snacks like normal people? Spend fewer spoons, y'know?"

It was as good a way as any to kill time waiting for the bus, thinking about that.

There are a few answers, I guess. A goodly part of it is spite, I think, and it comes in two parts, both aimed at "My body has betrayed me but I am not giving it the satisfaction of winning". Which is honestly stupid if you think about it too long, but it also makes sense in a way. Like, I developed a gluten intolerance and suddenly there was all this stuff I simply cannot eat unless I want to be really sick, and capitalism is such that most of the gluten-free options on offer are also vegan, and those two things don't go well together just because of the nature of gluten-free flour. So I could give up all semblance of having a baked treat now and then ... or I could say "Fuck you; if capitalism and my own body won't let me have tasty treats, I'll make them myself". That's the easy part.

The harder part of that is ... well, I'm going to hurt anyway. That's my life now. I could sit doing nothing and I would still hurt. Maybe not quite as much, but it depends on the day and the weather and all manner of other shit. And obviously I'm not going to court pain too much, or for things I can more or less avoid, or things that don't matter so much. I won't court pain for video games (or ... well, not many video games). I won't court pain for my job unless I really have to, and even then there are limits (specifically "DO NOT MAKE ME COMMUTE AN HOUR AND A HALF EACH WAY, ESPECIALLY IF I'M DOING ILL-ADVISED OVERTIME BECAUSE OF 'UNEXPECTED ABSENCES' AND UNDERSTAFFING").

...I won't court pain unless it's worth it, I think is what I'm trying to say. MCM Comic Con 2023? That was worth it. It was excruciating, but it was worth it. So the question becomes, is treating myself well worth the pain? Is making sure that I have food that I enjoy, the occasional treat, and the sheer joy I get out of creating something nice, worth it? The answer is yes. The answer has to be yes. Otherwise, what's the point?

I've been at a "what's the point?" stage before. I have more actual reason for one now. If I can have random spasms and unbelievable fatigue and occasional brain-fog moments and unreasonable bowel upset and constant pain, I can see how easy it would be to start thinking, "What's the point if the rest of my entire life is this? And probably getting worse as time goes on because the body deteriorates anyway..." So I have to make it worth it. I have to do whatever I can to keep from absolutely despairing about what I can't do anymore. I have to do things that I can be proud of, and that I can turn to and say, "I am worth the effort and the pain involved in doing this for myself".

Do I sometimes still despair that the rest of my life is going to be spent in pain? Yes. I can't pretend I don't. I'm still grieving a halfway normal life, and I probably always will be. But ... well, fuck fibromyalgia; I can still make banana bread. And I deserve banana bread. As long as I can think that way most of the time, I'll be okay.

[felinemotif]

i am also nosy <3333

4, 21, 24, 33, 34, 41 (or other hot drink), 43, & 46

two nosy gals <3333

4. which cryptid being do you believe in?

listen i LOVE cryptozoology my dream is to one day go to the annual mothman festival in west virginia and spend an entire weekend. i don't necessarily believe-believe but if at least one were real???? like say....the yeti... i would not be shocked. honestly it makes me pretty happy to think that there are all sorts of interesting creatures out there. so maybe not true belief but wanting to believe?

21. something you’ve kept since childhood?

my childhood dog passed on when i was a teen. her name was jackie, and she had a white collar with a diamond bejeweled bone. the leather got worn down over the years but i still have the jeweled bone!! eventually i would like to get a copy of it tattooed + have the pendant remade into a bracelet or hair clip.

it's actually one of the only things i still have from my childhood! some things are just worth saving.

24. if we were together on a rooftop, what would we be doing?

definitely eating for one. i don't know how you feel about fast food but it's not something i eat bc i worry about cross contamination (no meat outside of seafood for me) so it'd have to be either a picnic or convenience store snacks. totally painting each other's nails and talking about childhood comforts and fiction.

33. the last adventure you’ve been on?

i did a roadtrip with an old coworker of mine. he moved out to idaho about a year and a half ago now, but we were good friends fast so we try to stay in contact. he had to drive back my way on his way to go see his parents so he stopped, picked me up, and then we went all the way up to NH together. it was a lot of fun. i really appreciate his calm way of going through life; he lived out of his van by choice for a few years straight out of hs and then saved up to buy a plot of land so he could start building his own place. he's like a strange cousin to me.

34. is there a song you know every word to by heart?

so many!!! memorizing lyrics is easy for me. i've been singing un puño de tierra by becky g (my girllllll) in the shower though lately. and while washing dishes. and driving. basically all the time. i rarely even play the song anymore since it's already so stuck in my head.

41. how do you take your coffee? (or other hot drink)

if i'm very tired i'll just drink regular old black coffee to wake up, no milk. for hot drinks i really prefer to have matcha or a bay leaf and cinnamon stick tea.

43. what’s your take on spicy foods?

i'm latina; if it's not spicy, i don't want it lol. i have been really into indian food recently actually and have been learning tons of new recipes bc they have such a large amount of vegan and vegetarian dishes that all have a kick to them. it's great.

46. favorite holiday film?

i'm a the nightmare before christmas girl all the way. one of my favorite films in general, even outside of the holiday category. i also like to watch the low budget horror films they come out with for holidays (mostly the halloween ones but the christmas ones are always pretty funny too).

[rainyfestivalsweets]

9/29/22

Traveling day.

Made pretty good choices. Cleaned and ate before I left, watching Gotham. So hopefully I won't be going home to a pig sty.

I have continued to think about possible hangup and how to move past this plateau. 🤔

When I was in the 230's and 240's before, the [sic] love of my life started cheating on me with an 18 year old gastric bypass patient. It was hella traumatic. I lost everything. My heart was beyond broken. I ended up selling my house to her and leaving, basically losing the family I had fought so hard for.

I have felt untethered since then.

I did eventually remarry, so someone who basically loved me more than anything ever ( & got me fatter than ever) until they didn't--and some 21 year old puppy wannabe came along.

Got divorced. It was all chronicled on a blog that tumblr deleted. So again, thanks for that. I should have written it somewhere safe, because this wasn't and there was so so so much shit you guys.

So what was my takeaway from that? That my person will leave me if I become successful at weight loss??

How is that stopping me? My gf and I are not super serious. We don't have sex. We live separately. We actually seem better over the phone than in person. I struggle with their affection signals. [Sigh]

So why am I hung up here? How is that previous experience applicable to this situation?

It doesn't matter if she breaks up with me. Granted, I will be sad and lonely.... but it won't be fucking tragic.

So I am working on doing some mind reconditioning to change my inner language. Trying to redirect myself whenever I think bad thoughts. Honestly, I am just touch starved and body lonely. I can barely have an orgasm anymore, because I often start crying during, which probably doesn't fucking help.

It is safe for me to continue losing weight. I still have a large amount of fat. I will reconsider after dropping under 200 to see where I am with muscle mass. But I still have a rather large spare tire right now. So I know it isn't because I am in a physical danger zone. Mid 240s is still high for a female almost regardless of muscle mass.

So other wins: I am trying to concentrate on foods with lots of veggies, low calorie noodles, and protein.

So back to today- mostly good choices with the exception of breakfast. Which was a snickers and an apple while I cleaned my car. I had lunch before I left- which was veggies & gravy leftover from the other night, and a vegan harvest bowl. I gave the steak to mom to lower the cals for me. The bowl thing I bought a bunch of while they were on clearance and I wanted to try it. Small bowl of chickpeas and lentils in like a curry seasoning. 360 cals. So perfect to have with a veggie.

Road snacks. Drinks-- A pink Starburst crystal light thing, dt coke, cherry coke zero, and a pumpkin apple chai with fiber. Snacks-- Sweet c jelly, snow peas, carrot chips. Hard boiled eggs.

When I got to the hotel, I just got ready right away. Played in my phone a bit. Decided to wait to eat.

Went to an awesome show! It was great. No drinking, had a bottle of water.

Walked to the grocery store after. Bought 2 bananas, a pack of pickled green beans, and a cauli pizza bowl.

Ate a banana 🍌 right out of the store. Ate the pickled beans on the way back to the hotel.

Got back to the hotel, ate a salad first- but without most of the dressing.

Then ate my pizza bowl.

Took a bath and had 3 "moments."

Out of all the ways I could have undercut my healthy diet today, I think I won. No fast food. No drinking. Healthy food. Good choices all around except for the snickers. My workout was cleaning. I was sweating during but I wanted to be able to come home to a semi clean house.

[doublesidedgemini]

11/8 - 11/9

Oh, man. Where do I even start lol. Yesterday was great. Today? What the fuck.

Yesterday I went out to the barn and had a much better ride! Still had some issues with my horse, but way better than over the weekend, so that made me feel really happy. And I was able to fit into a pair of breeches that were always just too tight. I could still stand to lose more in them, I did still have a muffin top cos they are low rise, BUT they were not squeezing the death out of me and actually felt comfortable! Progress!

But that progress doesn’t feel fast enough. And today made me realize a lot of things. In addition to purging, I also romantically connected with this 6’5” skinny ass man and that in and of itself is a very complicated story. I need to get a real journal because there’s just too much.

Anyway, tw: cal log, wiaiad, purge, ed after the cut

11/8

Breakfast: Celsius, dragonfruit lime packet — 10 cals

Lunch: 1 cup of garbanzo beans w/ kale & tomato — 200 cals; 1/4 cup white rice — 50 cals; 1/2 small avocado — 80 cals;

Dinner: 1 can of Upton’s Naturals vegan Italian wedding soup — 200 cals

Snacks: 2 pieces of chocolate — 43 cals; 1 lightly salted rice cake — 35 cals; 1/2 small avocado — 80 cals; 1 tbsp plant based ranch — 35 cals; 1/2 a medium large cucumber — 17 cals; 1 ritz cracker — 16 cals; 2 tbsps white rice — 19 cals; 1 full size Kit Kat bar — 210 cals…. I know I know it’s not vegan!!! Don’t judge me!!! I needed the sugar before my ride :(

Exercise: Grooming + riding = -429 cals! Fall is mud season which means long grooming sessions. I have no idea if MFP’s calorie counts are accurate for these but whatever

Total: 614! Pretty good!

11/9

I was on a good track for today… Mixed half an avocado with some ranch dip and ate it with cucumber slices and grape tomatoes for breakfast, had a banana + a caramel rice cake w/ pbnj for lunch, then ruined it all my last hour of work by binging on kitkat bars I stole from the barn and takis.

Normally, if I lose control around food, I either take it in stride and adjust for the rest of the day or just give up for the day. But I had already been feeling nauseous prior to this so I just… threw it up. I’m not sure if I got it all up, and I’m not even shocked that I’m worried about that. When my “relapse” was “triggered” for the first few weeks I felt a chill of fear as the rational part of me noticed my behaviors changing and now… this. I don’t typically purge. That was never a thing for me in the past. But I just couldn’t let all that food sit in my stomach.

I wanted a beer but after throwing up no thank you. I felt so nauseous still I didn’t want anything else. I had two cups of vegetable broth and a few bites of vegan mac n cheese since then just to put something in my stomach. Life comes at ya fast. I guess we’ll see what happens tomorrow.

[mrsaas]

Japanese snacks online

Snacking is one of the simple pleasures in life, and it can also be necessary to get you through a tough workday, give you energy after a workout or sate cravings midday. Since subscription boxes became popular, it seemed inevitable that snack boxes would become a thing, too. If you're looking for the best japan snack subscription boxes on the market, read on -- we've curated a collection of the best international snack box options filled with amazing treats that are sure to sate your cravings. Similar to meal delivery services and other subscription services, snack boxes have really taken off these past few years. Thanks to the internet and lightning-fast logistics, we have better access to rare and interesting snacks from all around the globe. A snack box or monthly snack subscription that curates deliveries of interesting and, in some cases, hard-to-find snacks is one of the best ways to track 'em down and decide which ones you think are the best. There are loads of snack delivery operations in 2022, many with a niche or a specialty, curating mailings of munchies in a specific category. There are even healthy snack boxes that offer vegan snacks and keto snacks made with nutritious ingredients (like dried fruit, jerky and nut butter) for health- conscious snackers or people with dietary restrictions. You can have a food box delivered through a monthly subscription option or get a one-time order for a specific tasty snack, should you prefer. It all comes down to your snack preferences, appetite and budget. Through a series of painstaking tests (just kidding, it was the most fun ever) we've tasted, tested and ranked some of the most popular services to find the absolute best snack box subscriptions available now. Snack boxes and subscription services make a world-class gift for kids and adults alike. I mean, who doesn't love delicious snacks, especially new and interesting ones? Even better, order a snack subscription for your own darn self: If you're anything like me you'll totally forget you did and when that box of sweet and salty delights arrives each month, you'll thank yourself for treating, well, yourself to a little snacking surprise. In the spirit of better snacking and tastier gifting, we've rolled up our sleeves and unwrapped the best snack subscription boxes and snack delivery services in 2022. Regardless of whether you have a sweet tooth, an office of hungry employees or are just in the mood for a variety pack that scratches your international snacking itch, we're sure we have a snack box subscription option for you. Japanbasket (japanese subscription box) Japanese snacks online is another service that collects snacks, cookies and candy from Japan -- which I've declared the snack capital of the world -- and sends them out to you. Honestly, I'm beginning to wonder just how many amazing snacks exist in Japan because my Tokyo Treat box has almost none of the same stuff as Bokksu but was equally delicious. One thing I'll say is that Tokyo Treat boxes seem geared just slightly more towards kids or families with lots more classic salty or strawberry-flavored snacks and fewer laced with seaweed or green tea.

[deidaratheartboi]

Reiji Leaves

I will try to upload at least on Diabolik Lovers story a day or a week. Sakamaki Group Chat Reji: I have an announcement to make and I expect everyone to listen. Ayato: lmao he acts as if we have a choice Reiji: At least you're smart enough to realize that. Now I will be leaving to take care of some business in the demon world and I expect this house to be the same way I left it. Ayato: Aye aye captain Kanato: I can't hear you! Ayato: Aye aye captain! Kanato: OoooOOooohhhHhhh Ayato: Who lives in a pineapple under the sea? Reiji: Stop this nonsense and listen. Shu: Yeah we got you'll be gone now please go already. Laito: What are you gonna do in the demon world? Reiji: None of your concern. I'll be back in two weeks. Reiji has gone offline. Subaru: That's that Laito has invited you to "Reiji's Gone Let's Get Stoopid Group Chat" --------------------------------------------------- Reiji's Gone Let's Get Stoopid Group Chat Laito: As we all know he is now gone and we can all indulge in our desires. Subaru: Leave it to you to make it sound so sexual. Laito: It's a gift darling Subaru: Never call me that again Laito: So I propose we throw the biggest party ever! Subaru: With what friends? Laito: Mine because of course none of you have any I invited them to the chat. Shin: Yo Yuma: Hi? Kou: Hiiiiiiiii Azusa: Why am I here? Shu: We all know them dumbass Laito: But, I'm the only one on friendly terms Yuma: You tried to "weave snatch" Kou's hair claiming it wasn't real. Kou: That shit hurt! Shin: Wish we got that on camera haha Yuma: Oh I did Ayato: Hah sweet man! Laito: The point is we are going to throw a party where's Carla? Shin: Taking care of some stuff in the demon world. Azusa: Same with Ruki. He left in a rush. Laito: Anyways we need food, decorations, drinks, games, and music, Yuma: I got food Ayato: I got the drinks Shu: Guess I can handle music Azusa: I got decorations I have the perfect thing in mind. :) Shin: Ooooo I got games! Laito: Ok good let's go! Suabru: And I'm out. 2 Hours Later Laito: The fuck is this Yuma? Yuma: What do you mean? Laito: All the food are fruits and vegetables! Yuma: It's food isn't it? I'm doing them a favor for their health! Laito: Broccoli really?? Yuma: Mother nature's gift Laito: And, a taste bud curse! And, Shin Monopoly really? Dungeons and Dragons, Life, Clue, and Pin The Tail On The Donkey??? Shin: They're games aren't they? Laito: I haven't seen these since I was 6! And, Shu what the fuck is this music? Shu: They're classics Laito: More like making my ears bleed turn it offff. Azusa... Azusa: You like the decor? Laito: I just love these creepy ass doll staring at me Azusa: Glad you do. :) Laito: It was sarcasm! Azusa: I thought since it was Halloween- Laito: I don't pay you to think! Ayato: Fuck off and you don't pay us shit dumbass we were doing this cuz we wanted to. Laito: At least you got the drinks right. Yuma: Don't listen to him Azusa I think your idea was great. Shin: Yeah I would have put up a few pumpkins and cobwebs Azusa: :) Shu: Laito can have his own party. I'm leaving Shin: I say we have our own in the garden? Yuma: Great idea Laito: Fine I'll do it myself! Laito does it and WAP is playing in the background. He calls all the guests and the party begins. It was nice at first then they ran out of snacks. And, someone was vegan. Jane: Hey I'm vegan also who ae those guys out there in the garden? They look like they're having fun. Is that pineapple? Jane moves outside catching the attentipm of other partiers as the whole party moves outside. Laito: Are you fucking serious? Guy 1: Ew this couch is sticky! Girl 1: Omg this music is so lame. Not everyone likes rap ya know Guy 2: I'm on a diet soooooo Laito: Uhhh More complaints are thrown around a Laito gets overhwhelmed and frustarted. Laito: EVERYONE LEAVE NOW! People leave as fast ad they came. Laito sits down on the couch defeated and tired. He feels a hand on his shoulder. Ayato: You good man? Laito: Yeah the party was a bust Ayato:

We still have some punch and fruits outside. Laito: :) -------------------------------------------------- Yuma: This is a mess Shin: Yes Azusa: If we had the dolls this wouldn't have happened Laito: I'm sorry can you forgive me?? Azusa: Si Kanato: CANDY! Shu punches Kanato. Yuma: How about we clean this all up and have ourselves a party huh? Laito: Sounds good Hope you enjoyed! Also I think Reject introduced more Diabolik Lover characters in the game not the anime. Is that true? I'll just look it up

[abiteofnat]

If you’re reading this, I’m coming back to Chicago, beetch

The non-existent rumors are true. After a brief 10-month exit from the city to soak up the fresh air and social distance-friendly suburbs, I am now returning to Chicago as a single, slightly more anxious version of myself. While I’m still trying to kick some of the anxiety and OCD that COVID-19 pushed from “lifelong tagalongs” to “all-controlling demons”, I feel 97% ready to be back where I feel most myself, and cannot wait to welcome that change. While that 3% still makes me a little uncomfy and hesitant, I’m a believer in pushing your boundaries to allow yourself to grow, and also, I am really sick of suburbs food. 

Ha! I joke. I wouldn’t move downtown simply for access to more diverse & higher quality food... or would I? All I know is while there are plenty of gems in the North Shore, I’ve eaten take out from all of them ten times over, and I did not foster my dislike of cooking out of nowhere. My parents do not enjoy cooking, my sister pretends to enjoy cooking, and I will cook if it is 5 ingredients or less. My latest speciality is a toasted bagel with butter, hummus, and EBTB seasoning. Voila. So when it comes to dinner, we are living off of a carousel of suburban favorites, and are losing steam as we are still not comfortable with dining inside (or dining inside in the city, where the fun food is). 

All of this to say, it’s exciting to imagine what life is going to be like in a few short weeks. While I’m still extra precautionary, I can’t wait to have my own space downtown, where I can enjoy coffee on my little balcony (!!!) and dream of the days friends can come squeeze into my studio safely while I lay out an entire table of sharable spreads and snacks from Ema (Charred Eggplant Spread is the best one, don’t fight me). 

So you may ask, how did you come to this decision to move to the heart of downtown out of seemingly nowhere, you hermit? 

It starts with my mom and I having a brief, simultaneous breakdown and coming to the conclusion that we would both feel comfortable doing a staycation downtown, as long as we wore masks, sanitized always, and braved the cold to eat outside. This was big for me! As a person with real OCD, not cute TV show “I have to keep my pens straight” OCD, this would be the most exposure I’d had to a lot of uncontrollable variables since the pandemic started. If you’re thinking, “you get to spend a weekend downtown in a hotel with your mom, shut up”, know that I hear you. I am unbelievably grateful that I’ve gotten this time with my parents, and that we can do a staycation. However, having anxiety comes at a cost, and that cost is blowing everything way the fuck out of proportion instead of being able to rationalize it sometimes. Let’s! Normalize! Having! This! Discussion!

So, we went downtown in early March for a two-night stay, and oh my goodness. The realization that we got to be in a different space, and do different things, and eat different food for a weekend made it feel like a legit vacation, and not like we drove 30 minutes to get there. The view from our room was of Michigan Ave, and hearing the traffic and seeing the people out and about instantly made me feel a sense of peace I wasn’t expecting. I’ve lived downtown for 6 years, but it always shocks me how much the city feels like an extension of me once I’m in it after being away. My mom and I went out for a walk (gentle yet forceful reminder to please wear a mask), then decided to grab dinner while we were out. The plan was to bring it back to the room, but there was a warm spell, and there just happened to be a table for two at Topolobampo on Clark, and suddenly we were sitting on the patio under the lights eating masa quesadillas dipped in a spicy salsa verde. It just happened!!! 

Before getting downtown, I was tentatively looking at apartments for the spring. I was looking at Lincoln Park, Old Town, maybe Lakeview, and came across a listing in the Gold Cost that caught my eye. That one was swiped out from under me within days, but I couldn’t stop thinking about the area. Then I discovered another unit that was available, and couldn’t shake it from my mind. Over mushroom tacos I discussed it with my mom, and we decided to go see it. Totally not what I had been planning for in terms of location, but why not? 

Once we polished off breakfast the next morning (Eggs Benedict with fried eggs, extra hollandaise) we headed out to see the place. Let me say I have never seen my mom fall in love with a single apartment I’ve lived in, and she was ALL. FOR. IT. Unreal reaction on her part. Once I saw the west-facing views and the incredible natural lighting, I was 100% in as well.

We spent the rest of the weekend wandering the downtown area, enjoying another dinner outside at The Gwen and my mom’s first visit to the Starbucks Reserve Roastery, which was 95% more empty than I’ve ever seen it given we went in a pandemic at 8:30PM. Shit on Starbucks all you want, but that Roastery is an incredible use of space (in non-pandemic times) and the coffee & Princi pastries are really, really good. 

When we got back home feeling refreshed and like we had actually gone on a vacation, I jumped into apartment shark mode real fast and signed as many documents as the very kind realtor could send over. One week later, whabaam, I was a Gold Coast girl. Ahem, *lady*. What better way to celebrate than going to Somerset and having the Rapini & Roasted Garlic Flatbread and Wild Mushroom Risotto? No clue. As I sat outside, yet again with my mom, I felt a wave of excitement come over me and realized, this is it. This is the sign and feeling I’ve been waiting for, telling me it’s time to move back to the city and start over. The creamy, herbacious risotto also helped solidify that. 

SO. After all of that, the news is I’m moving, and you’re probably wondering why I shared all of this on a blog about food. I meant for this post to be about everywhere I ate during my staycation, but realized quickly we ate at some very basic places - DELICIOUS, but still basic. Oops. Below are all the dishes I had and a rundown of the flavors, textures, etc., however don’t expect to find any new, revolutionary restaurants. Sorry! 

1. Topolobampo 

This Rick Bayless restaurant has been around forever, and unfortunately, you can tell by the interior. We’ve eaten here as a family a couple of times before, but never had a noteworthy experience. I can confirm that in a pinch, the patio covered in fun lights & mini piñatas, and the sharable, filling bites will do just fine. This was my first time going to a Mexican restaurant as a non-alcohol drinker, and instead of my typical mezcal margarita, I opted for a Fresh Limeaide which was refreshing and flavorful. We split the Guacamole and Chips, which if you’ve ever stopped at the Frontera in O’Hare, you know is good as fuck. It’s smooth, creamy, tangy, and topped with chopped onions and cilantro for a little crunch. It’s not the most life-changing, but it is consistently satisfying. Next, we got the Mushroom Tacos and Masa Quesadillas. The Masa Quesadillas were a fun surprise, as instead of a tortilla, the masa is what makes up the outside. They are almost like empanadas and stuffed with gooey, melty cheese, and come with a spicy salsa verde on the side. I would come back for these alone - they’re rich yet light, warm, and comforting, all the things you would want when dining outside when it’s still a little chilly. The Mushroom Tacos were quite frankly unreal, because whatever they seasoned the mushroom slices with and grilled them on made them taste unlike any mushroom I’ve had before. There was definitely some meat crossover on the grill, so don’t order those if you’re vegan, or ask them to prepare the mushroom separately. I however was LOSING MY MIND. Over mushrooms. The joys of being vegetarian! 

2. The Gwen

On a happening Saturday night in Chicago, Upstairs at The Gwen is sure to be a packed scene. Located in River North, this hotel bar/restaurant offers a somehow cozy rooftop filled with loungey couches, fire pits, and ambient lighting, even though you’re surrounded by apartments and skyscrapers and there is nothing “cozy” about River North. Every table was filled, yet since you’re outside and it’s fairy spread apart, it still felt safe. I got my new classic, a Lemonade, and we got the Burrata to start. With sourdough, roasted beets, squash, pomegranate, pistachio, & arugula, this plate was nothing short of mouth-watering. It has textures! It has flavors! It has pomegranate seeds, the TikTok must have of the moment! The bread was 10/10, the burrata was 8/10, and all of the toppings made for a very find bite of salad on their own. For my main I got the Lobster Fettucine, a beautiful bowl of “charcoal fettuccine with saffron-tomato sauce, lobster, calabrian chili butter, and basil-brioche crumbs” as listed on their website. Take any of those ingredients and it’s going to be delicious, but all of them TOGETHER? INCREDIBLE. The chunks of lobster were huge, absolutely making the dish worth its price tag, and the sauce was flavorful, unique, and unlike any sauce I’ve tasted in the last few years. It’s typical to do a squid ink pasta with seafood and tomato sauce, but the saffron added a new element I very much appreciated. 

3. The Starbucks Roastery 

I KNOW. THIS IS A TOURIST DESTINATION. All I am saying is if there’s no line, go get an iced latte with two packets of sugar in the raw. That’s all. It’s really good after something like, I don’t know, Lobster Fettucine. 

4. The Penninsula 

You cannot go wrong with hitting up The Penninsula for breakfast or brunch, especially if you are staying there and have the option to do room service. Typically we would go to Pierrot Gourmet, the cafe in the ground floor of The Penninsula, however it has been closed temporarily. If there’s one thing to order with your breakfast, it’s the smashed fingerling potatoes. Delish. 

5. Somerset 

Somerset is becoming a quick go-to of mine for an impromptu dinner downtown, given it’s in the heart of Gold Coast and is cute if you’re sitting indoors or outdoors. The food is nothing too innovative, but it is done well, which is the most important part with “cuter” restaurants that may focus on the Instagram appeal over the food sometimes. Each time I’ve gone I’ve gotten the seasonal flatbread and a pasta or risotto, usually something with mushrooms, and it’s always been plate-licking good. To drink, I got -you guessed it- a Lemonade! For dinner I went with the Wild Mushroom Risotto which was everything you could hope for in a risotto, topped with olive oil, herbs, and local parmesan. We split the Rapini & Roasted Garlic Flatbread which was as it sounds, flatbread covered in rapini, garlic, and ricotta, which added a nice crunch and had enough rapini to feel like it was replacing a boring vegetable side dish or salad. The patio vibes were wonderful, the judgemental girls in the greenhouses looked like they were having a good time, and our waiter couldn’t have been sweeter. I will be going back to try the Fontina Arancini, which I just noticed on the menu. FRICK. 

So there you have it, a very long-winded explanation of the last few weeks of my life and where you can find me on a staycation in Chicago. Hopefully once I move back to the city I’ll have endless new spots to try and won’t be basic anymore! 

Until next time, Happy Eating!

-Natalie 

[cooking-in-the-desert]

Protein Smoothie + Blathering About Running and Body Acceptance

For those of you who are unaware- I'm a middling mid-distance runner.

And by middling - I mean *slow*. (My average pace is 13:30/mile - sometimes faster, sometimes slower depending on how tired I am or how much I trashed my legs at the prior day's personal training session).

Now - I won't bore you with loads of details (we all know y'all are here for the recipes- not some 30-something's blatherings about a hobby that most people legitimately loathe and only partake in for the purpose of continuing to fit in the jeans they wore during their 20's and to fight the onslaught of age related weight creep). Just wanna chat a bit about what it means to accept the body you're in- with it's flaws and imperfections and yes... belly rolls and squishy bits.

I spent years fighting myself - starving to achieve a particular pant size, running until I gave myself stress fractures - I've been struggling with an eating disorder since high school- and my worst periods happened in my teens (when skinny gymnasts were still the preferred aesthetic), and in my late 20's.

Both times were sparked by years of sharp weight gain - and a lack of control over circumstances in my life. (Ironically this was a period where I was most successful in ny career - and it was unsustainable).

I have always used diet and exercise as a mechanism to exercise some form of control at times where I feel that I otherwise don't have any. My therapist when I was younger said this is typical of individuals with ED's - and it becomes an obsessive sort of behavioral pattern. I certainly excelled at making being skinny my goal- and I burned out.

Fast forward three years - I am 20 pounds heavier, up 2 pant sizes, have changed religions, and have a... more neutral outlook on myself. I also have asthma, chronic gastritis, and acknowledge that my anxiety and depression are just parts of me that I have to live with and that the voice in my head screaming at me is often wrong and I need to ignore it, no matter how persistent it is.

I still run - a lot. In fact, I still run enough that I should be skinny. But I'm not. And I've stopped trying to make myself disappear. Life is worth more than a number on a scale - and I'd rather just feel okay enough to enjoy it than continue to obsess about some sort of unattainable perfection.

In short - enjoy the ride, and don't feel guilty about the ice cream you have along the way. You only live once.

Now - the smoothie.

It's nothing spectacular - however it tastes good, has lots of protein, isn't particularly sugary, and is plenty filling. It makes a good pre-run meal or post run snack. It isn't particularly low calorie - it has healthy fats, greens, protein, and fruit. It also has artificial sweetener- but if sugar is your jam, by all means - throw some agave nectar or honey or cane sugar syrup in. I don't judge and food is meant to be enjoyed. (I use the artificial stuff because I do unfortunately have to watch sugar intake but if you don't need to worry about it - don't worry about it).

Ingredients:

1/2 ripe frozen or fresh banana

1/2 cup frozen mango

1/4 cup frozen pineapple

1 scoop vanilla or unflavored vegan protein powder (I use isopure unflavored protein and just add a dash of vanilla extract)

1/8th tsp vanilla extract

1 tbsp splenda powder

1 cup spinach (I won't judge if you, like me, totally picked the spinach out of your spring blend mix that has been languishing in the refrigerator's crisper drawer for a week).

1 cup plant milk (I used 2 tbsp coconut milk, 4 tbsp almond milk, and topped it off w/ water - I didn't have boxed stuff so it was high fat and while I don't really calorie count, I do have to mind how much fat I take in else my insides will happily remind me that no, I in fact cannot eat fatty things).

Method:

Combine in a blender and blend until smooth.

Makes 1 very generous serving (approx ~290kcal, according to MyFitnessPal)

[flow-green]

Potatoes are not the enemy

I thought that today, I would share some thoughts and facts about food and my eating pattern, as they have been a great influence in my life for a long time now. I am vegan, have been vegan since 2016.  I made the change not because of my eating disorder, or, well, perhaps, a little, since back then I ate no meat during working days as I avoided excessive calories. I only ate some meat when I visited my parents. Thus, the transition was easy. At first it was mainly for health reasons, later on I got more concerned about our environment and the wellfare of animals.

This year, I will start to balance out my eating habits. Over the years, I have tried out so many different diets and patterns: fasting, keto diet etc. None of them have been sustainable and rather made me more miserable. For example, one spring I decided to try out a longer fasting, for 120 h. That’s five days! 0 calories, only water and black coffee. I was feeling proud, it wasn’t even that difficult. The fast breaking was a challenge, as I had lost my appetite and stomach had shrinked so much I barely managed to force down one single apple. I guess that was one of the main triggers that resulted in my first ever epileptic seizure. Never again.

I have no idea, why I hopped from one eating habit to another, as I knew from personal experience that what suits me best is a well-balanced diet mostly filled with complex carbs such as whole grain pastas, bread, potatoes, fruits and veggies, and with little less of fat, and no worrying over protein. Back then I had long, beautiful thick hair, strong nails and my skin was glowing.

Before Christmas, our vegan circle in Facebook decided to organize a secret santa event. We all got our names and sent gifts to each other. My secret santa got me this book, as if (s)he knew that I need a nudge to get my things together:

The whole book praises the foods that have been my fear foods for a long time: pastas, breads, potatoes, barley, quinoa, rice, rye, oats, fruit. It was like a wake-up call and this week I took the courage and stocked my pantry and fridge with all those foods: my shopping cart was full with fruits like grapes, bananas, mangoes, grains like oats, rice, quinoa, rye flour; beans, chickpea flour... and I feel confident and at peace. The whole week I have been making dinner with rice, potatoes, having fruit for snacks, and I enjoy every last bite. I feel light, yet fulfilled. Without anxiety. Most importantly, I stepped on the scale today, since it’s Friday (one of my goals  for this year, 100 total, I will share some light on these later on). I felt calm, and happy. The weight that had slowly climbing up this last half a year, has slowly started to go down, but I dd not feel euphoric or overly excited. I just noted the number, wrote it down and moved on with my morning. I have not been thinking about my weight at all.

I am so grateful for this secret vegan-santa for this book.

I’ll share a picture of my favourite food from this week, a simple fried rice with veggies. I also have started to bake my own bread since I got a bread maker for my birthday. And it is amazing.

[almond-milk-is-life]

05 .11 .20

I’m down 0.7kg since Monday I think which is great haha ✨🍥

Very happy about it, ngl 😂

Now I just gotta lose + 0.6kg to get to my gw for this week 😌

Also, I’ve been eating around 1000cal each day (which seems like too much and too little at the same time) and plan to do it each day till I reach 45kg 😅

I’m expecting to reach the 45s by the end of 2020, so I gotta stay focused for 2 months = 8 weeks which is good 🦎✨ I feel in control

I’ve been eating a small bread with soy butter for lunch (which is a snack for most ppl 😂) and I eat it in 2 times, a quarter during the morning and the rest is my lunch and I feel great and don’t even think about food!

Today my caloric intake was about 1020cal (probably overestimated) but maybe I’ll get some grapes 🍇 after showering bc of my mother 🙃

Anyways, today I tried out some clothes that I’ll buy tomorrow since today I forgot my wallet at home and yes, I spend like 85% of my money in clothes but at the same time I can spend MONTHS without buying a single thing so it’s not THAT bad I guess... Definitely wanna lower my ecological footprint 🌿 and not buying fast fashion or at least less than I buy is one of my goals 🥰 and veganism is going great btw 🌱🐮❤️

That’s all for today, 

Pls be kind to yourself and remember that you’re trying your best and that is enough ✨✨ 

Stay safe my loves 💗

[uncloseted]

Hey, do u have any tips on how to lose weight? I have tried working out and it didn’t turn out so well (I broke my ankle)

I hope your ankle is better now!  The good news is that the secret to weight loss is that 80% of weight loss in in the kitchen.  I think a lot of people assume that you can outrun your diet, but that’s not really the case.  The reason is because it’s much more effort to exercise than it is to eat.  30 minutes of running will burn somewhere between 240 and 355, depending on your height, weight, and a couple other factors.  For context, a Starbucks Blueberry muffin is 420 calories.

When it comes to weight loss, first things first, if you can, I highly suggest talking to a nutritionist or doctor about this.  I have a pretty good working understanding of nutrition and weight loss, but I’m not a professional in this area and it’s important to make sure that you’re approaching weight loss in a way that’s healthy and sustainable for you.  I can provide the basics, but ultimately, weight loss is an individual process and these are just generalizations.

When you’re trying to lose weight, the first thing to figure out is how many calories you actually need a day.  A lot of companies and websites and weight loss Instagram pages will try to convince you that there’s one easy trick to lose weight or that not all calories are created equal or that people have huge metabolic differences that make it impossible for some people to lose weight, but none of that is really true except on a pedantic level. Weight loss is really just a math equation. If calories eaten is less than the calories you burn, you gain weight. If the calories eaten is equal to calories burned, you maintain your weight.

You can calculate roughly how many calories your body needs per day here. If you have a smart watch (like an AppleWatch or a FitBit), it may be able to give you a more accurate estimate of how many calories you burn in a day, since it can account for heart rate and activity levels, but that should be a pretty good working estimate.

From there, it may be helpful to calculate how many calories you’re consuming a day.  If you’re burning 2000 calories per day but you’re consuming 3000 every day, that’s a gain of about two pounds a week (1 pound = ~3500 excess calories), or around 100 pounds per year.  Obviously most people aren’t consistently eating at a 1000 calorie surplus every day, but it can be easy to accidentally eat more than you think you are, either by eating foods that are deceptively high in calories (nuts and nut butters, granola, olive oil, in addition to the more typical culprits like a pint of ice cream or a Chipotle burrito), mindlessly snacking, or misjudging portion sizes.  Getting an idea of what your daily consumption looks like will give you a good baseline for understanding what changes you would need to make in your diet in order to lose weight.  Then, you can figure out how many calories you can reasonably cut out of your diet per day.  A 500 calorie deficit (or a pound of weight loss per week) is generally considered a good, sustainable starting place. 1200 calories a day is the minimum amount anyone should be eating, regardless of height, weight, age, or overall size- any lower will create health problems such as malnutrition.

Once you have the math figured out, you’ll need to figure out what lifestyle changes are doable for you.  This is different for everyone, which is why there are eight gazillion diet programs that people swear by.  For some people, calorie tracking with an app like MyFitnessPal or LoseIt is the easiest way for them to manage their weight.  For others, a diet like Atkins, keto, WeightWatchers, paleo, vegan, etc. is helpful because it limits options and typically cuts out high-calorie foods.  For other people, intermittent fasting works really well because they’re busy and never really had time for breakfast anyway, but prefer calorie dense foods.  You might have to try a few different methods to see what vibes best with your personality.  I would also keep an eye out for any triggers you might have- do you eat when you’re emotional or bored, for example?  A lot of the time, we use food for things that aren’t hunger/nutrition related.  Working through the emotional associations we have with food can be an important part of weight loss for a lot of people.

The last thing I’ll say on the weight loss point is that it’s important to think of weight loss as a lifestyle change instead of a diet.  What I mean by that is a lot of people think about diets as temporary- you restrict your food for a set period of time, and then you go back to the way you were eating before. But that kind of mindset will only result in weight gain when you return to your old eating habits.  For lasting results, you need to change the way you think about food and the relationship you have to it.  This can be really hard, since our relationship with food is typically ingrained in us as children.  Meeting with a therapist throughout this process to begin unpacking those associations can be a really good idea, so I would suggest looking into it if you think your eating may be emotional in nature.

Last thing- be kind to yourself. Regardless of your weight or your physical appearance, you’re deserving of love, kindness, and good things.  Try to think of weight loss as something you’re doing to help your body.  Weight loss is hard and requires patience, and all that will be easier if you’re practicing self-love along the way.

[thedisneychef]

Dole Whip Float Disneyland – Aloha Isle

Welcome to this month’s Blogorail Teal loop. Today we are sharing some of our favorite summer recipes. What’s cool, a little sweet, a little tart, and floats? Why, it’s none other than Walt Disney World’s most iconic dessert, the legendary Dole Whip Float. More Delicious Recipes You Will Love: - Dole Whip – Aloha Isle - Tusker House Character Breakfast Review: Donald Dining Safari - Fettuccine Alfredo – Italy Pavilion When I wrote about making Dole Whips at home almost a year and a half ago, I actually was embarrassed to share it because it was so ridiculously easy. Apparently I’m not the only one who wants to get my Dole Whip fix at home… And when I shared that my copycat recipe was low calorie, gluten free, fat free, vegan, requires two ingredients, and tastes exactly like the real thing, you guys really freaked out. Since then I’ve gotten emails from people from all over the world who’d tried my recipe at home and loved it, which is simultaneously very flattering and very humbling (shout out to the two readers in Serbia and Kosovo who sent me thank you emails!). The question I’ve gotten about this recipe is if it can be done with a blender instead of the Dole Yonanas Ice Cream Maker that I featured in my post. So I figured I’d do some experimenting and I’m delighted beyond words to say… I did it.  Not just did it, I got it pretty darn close to the real deal. Now I will share that when it comes right down to it, the better tasting Dole Whip comes from the Dole Yonanas Ice Cream Maker. And no, I’m not being paid to say this, getting free goodies, and this isn’t a sponsored post. The simple fact is it’s easier, faster, and the overall texture and quality of the Dole Whip is much better and much truer to the real thing. That said, you’re not going to turn your nose up at the blender version if you choose to go that route. It’s still cool, creamy, and oh-so-refreshing. So now, you literally have no excuse to not make this at home. It’s still totally healthy, allergy and special diet friendly, inexpensive, and fast. You’re just a bag of frozen pineapples and a blender away from reliving one of the best parts of the Magic Kingdom. Conclusion In conclusion, the Dole Whip Float at Disneyland is a refreshing and delicious treat that lives up to its reputation as a beloved Disney snack. Through experimentation, we have found that the combination of the creamy and tangy Dole Whip with the sweet and bubbly pineapple juice creates a perfect balance of flavors that is sure to satisfy any sweet tooth. And while the Dole Whip Float is a popular choice at Disneyland, it's also fairly easy to make at home with the help of the recipe and tips available online. Whether you're at the park or at home, the Dole Whip Float is a must-try for anyone looking for a sweet and refreshing treat. In addition to the delicious food and recipes, Disney World is also known for its unique dining experiences, such as character dining and themed restaurants. Whether you want to have breakfast with Mickey Mouse, dine in a replica of a sci-fi drive-in theater at Hollywood Studios, or enjoy a meal with an ocean view at the Coral Reef Restaurant in Epcot, there's something for everyone. And with the help of Recipes Today and the How to Make category, you can even recreate some of these magical dining experiences in your own home. So why not start planning your next Disney-inspired meal or dining experience today? Read the full article

[2badshewonteatacookie]

HOW TO STOP BINGING

Hey guys,

I see a lot of people who are struggling with binge eating in this Community. And I don't mean the "oh I ate over 1000 calories" binging, I mean the 3.000 -over 10.000 calories binging.

My Story : I always had a fast metabolism and was always the skinny girl who would eat a lot. Then I discoverd the pro-ana community and I thought I could become even skinnier, so I started restricting, but I always stayed over 1000 calories. I lost a lot of weight people where concerned and always commenting on how skinny and unhealthy I looked blablabla, I loved it. But then I would have these cravings and I would eat a lot, so I got back to my starting weight, over the years it got worse because I would try to restrict during the week and always binge on the weekend. Holidays where the worst, because I had no routine and would binge every day. Last year I finshed high school and started a gap year in the USA and maybe going to the US with binge eating disorder was the worst Idea of my life. In the last 8 month I gained over 22 lbs /10 kg. A lot of shit happend at home and I wasn't there, so I would eat my feelings, I would stay in bed for weeks and eat 10 whole meals a day until I thought I would die from a heart attack because I ate so much. I have a 9 to 5 job in an Office right now, so I dont move a lot. Most days I get up go to Work and have lunch, go back home have dinner, eat a lot of Snacks watch TV go to bed. But since a few weeks I am binge free, I still eat too much and not healthy all the time, but it's getting better slowly and I already lost some Weight. So here are my things that help me.

🌻Accept it.

You have Binge eating disorder, Yeah it sucks, and it's gonna happen again! Nothing sucks more than having this anorexic beauty standart /goal in your head, but binge eating at the same time. But this is where we are right now, so accept it. And dont promise yourself to never binge again, this will put you under pressure and you will most likley binge again! Promise yourself to get better.

🥗 Eat healthy.

All this processed food will lead to more cravings and wont make you full. Also healthy food is lower in calories, more nutrional and will make you feel better.

📺 Eat mindful.

Don't eat in front of any media. If you have time prepare your food and eat slowly. I used to eat every meal while watching something on my Phone, to the point where I couldnt watch something without craving food. Yeah eating in silence is boring but it will stop you from over eating. Also dont eat in your room!

🕛Eat regulary

Try to eat at the same time every Day. That doesnt mean you have to eat exactley at 12pm but try to eat around that time. What Works for me is having 3 big meals a day. But there are so many options like 3 meals two snacks etc. Just try to have a routine. It helps especially when you have trouble knowing when you are hungry or full. I try not to eat after 7pm because I know that thats mostly emotional /binge eating. And dont freak out if something unplanned is happening and you can't eat at that certain time. Its ok thats life. Try again tomorrow.

👭Eat with friends.

Especially when you feel like binging. Call a friend, do a sleepover. Eating with others will stop you from eating like a pig. Maybe you will still overeat but at least not until your stomache hurts.

😴 Get enough sleep.

If you lack of sleep your body is trying to get the energy from food, so you will eat more. Try to get 7-9 hours every night. And have a certain bedtime. I had most of my binges after 10pm but if you sleep you can't eat!

🏡 Get out of the house.

If you are at home it's easier to binge. No one is watching you and you have all the food around you. Try to have something to do every Day. Meet with friends, get a hobby. Even if you have work to do, do it somewhere else like the libary.

🙅Avoid Stress.

Bad feelings like stress will lead to binging. If you have a big project to do and you don't know how to start and you procastinate, that will lead to guild and stress. Start early, ask for help, prepare for a binge. Dont let other people Stress you, especially family members love to tell you how many things you should be doing and how far you are behind and how easy it is to do All of this. Its ok, breathe, especially with Depression and an eating disorder it often feels like you are stuck in life and everyone else figured it out. Its not like that! Your trying! As long as you keep trying you are not stuck!!!

👸Don't compare yourself to others!!!!

This is maybe the most improtant one. Dont compare yourself, yes there are people where it seems like there are perfect, they have all this energy and they are good in everything. But who cares? They are not you, you should only compare yourself with yourself. Everything else will make you feel like you can never do it and you will never be good enough. But if you only Focus on your own progress you will get happy and stay motivated.

🐢 Be slow.

Yes I know we all want to see change as soon as possible. But change takes time. Think about where you would be right now if you made slow but constant progress?! Yeah we see all these people who eat under 1000 calories exercise every day and have straight A's. But you tried that right? It worked for a week and then you binge again. Dont overwhelm yourself Start slow. Start with one challange a week. Set yourself realistic Goals. For example exercise 4 times a week. Thats your goal for the week nothing else. You could stay in bed all Day and eat, as long as you exercise 4 times a week. It works, I promise you wont stay in bed all Day, but if your brain thinks you could then it doesnt feel like restricting and you wont binge. Its So weird but the Moment you tell yourself Im gonna binge again and it's ok, you are less likley to binge. The mindset, I never gonna binge again, is the most dangerous.

⭐Dont be a fucking perfectionist!

I told myself so many times Im gonna eat healthy and then I would eat one drop of olive oil and be like fuck it now Im gonna eat 10.000 calories of junk! There are so many diffrend ways to reach your goal! Not this one perfect way. And even the most perfect people are not always perfect. You dont have to be perfect to reach your goal!!!!!!!! Slow progress!!!! Kill your All or nothing mindest!!

🍕Enjoy your binge.

If you are about to binge, keep calm, Trink some water. Call a friend, prepare your binge food, try to make it more healthy,for example vegan junk food or stuff like hummus and Avocado, wich are tasty and high in calories but healthy. Binging on more healthy food will make you feel better than binging on McDonalds and your skin is not going to break out, also it is hader to eat as many calories with healthy food. Enjoy the food, dont just swallow it!

🚫Dont restrict the day after!

It seems so logic right? I binge, now Im gonna starve the next Day. But this will ALWAYS lead to another binge. Dont skip meals! Move on as if nothing happend!

🤸Learn to fill the void

Lets be honest there are only 2 reason why we binge,1. You don't eat enough and your body is trying to get the nutrition. And 2. you're trying to feel better. Tasty food is releasing Dopamin and we feel good, at least while we are eating. But after you binge you feel disgusting and like a failure. So you have to find something else to fill that void. I read once that for every Bad habit you want to break you need 5 good habits. So find something that makes you happy. Start your Day dancing to your favourite songs. Meet with friends. Exercise. Watch your favourite Show without any distraction. Draw. Masturbate :) whatever makes you happy.

🌈Stay motivated.

Remember, progress is slow. Sometimes you wont see any change, your brain will tell you it's not worth it and to just give up. Remember why you started. Keep a tumblr with stuff that inspires and motivates you, but don’t compare yourself with others! Search for people who have the same problems it's not a race, be Kind to each other motivate each other. And don’t use your whole energy for this one goal, focuse on other things in life, time will go faster that way. Dont search for change in the morrior everyday! You got this!

🍑Hope this helps someone. If you have more Tips please share. If you have questions ask me and if you want to chat, message me.

Sorry for my spelling btw.

[jovalencia]

Hi there! How are you doing? I hope you're doing well (or at least well enough for the circumstances) and I'm sending you lots of hugs because oi. This is a mess. --- anyway. I'm here to tell you about my not-so-secret secret drawer. Basically few months ago I was at the store and I bought myself two mugs because you know... mug aesthetic. When I got home my mother looked at me as said "we don't have any more space in the cupboard, you'll have to figure out somewhere to put those". (1/2)

So my draw started out with just 6 mugs, but they got really lonely. I casually stole some tea from our cupboard and bought some chocolate bars and other odds and ends. Now, here we are. I have a drawer with 6 mugs, 1 tea tin, 1 tea box, 1 mug with teabags in it, some chocolate bars, vegan yummy bears, dried mango, and my two mini spoons. No one has really found it or taken anything from it yet, and I honestly forget that I have sweets in it... so yep! That's the story... 😂 ❤

you have an emergency tea drawer my respect for you just skyrocketed. Especially since you have not only chocolate but also dried mangoes. dried mangoes are the superior snack and that’s a fact. I’ve never head vegan gummy bears but I might try them some day. And, I’ll be honest, I don’t like tea. It’s fine when it’s over and drowned in sugar, but any kind of hot tea is on the very long list of things that give me headaches and migraines lmao. Anyway, I’m doing okay considering the circumstances. Could be better. I have a fuckton of hw that I can’t even look at let alone focus on without wanting to have a breakdown so that’s fun. But I am getting fast food for dinner and your bitch loves to be unhealthy so that makes my day a little bit better. Anyway sorry I went on for so long lmao thanks grey *hugs you*

[morbidcals]

30-Day-Thinspo-Challenge except I'm doing it all in one post because I'm bored :]

day 1, hw: 124lbs / sw: honey i don't remember i was like 12 years old / lw: 114lbs / cw: 114.6lbs / ugw: im not sure, it used to be 110lbs but since im so close to it, i think i should lower it. i know i can't go any lower than 112lbs because uh oRGAN FAILURE? but my disordered brain wants SKINNY / bmi: 17.3

day 2, i'm 5'8" and i really dislike it because i won't be able to weigh under 100lbs without dying

day 3, @/e.unjee on insta

i love her tiny waist and thin arms, she looks ethereal in all outfits <3

day 4, im scared of going to sleep one day and never waking up. or my family becoming worried and pitying me. im also scared of getting hospitalized with the tube :/

day 5, i really just want to lose weight to prove to myself that i can do something, that i have control of my life. i also just want to love my body and take pictures like a normal teen

day 6, occasionally, but what i consider a "binge" is usually when i eat anything that's processed or unhealthy, or if i eat more than one serving. so i don't know if that's really a binge- and usually it happens because i need to make sure my parents don't get worried or because if i fuck up i let myself go

day 7, my mom knows, and one time she got worried and asked why i wasn't eating. but im mostly at my dads, and he doesn't notice. he only gets upset when i make excuses for skipping dinner. my stepmom doesn't notice either.

day 8, i don't have one, i just do random ones i find on tumblr often. but, i do skate 3-5 times a week if that counts

day 9, yes, all the time. ever since i was a kid, my classmates, "friends" and parents have made comments. even now my sister constantly makes negative remarks and feels the need to remind me that im fat. like okay thanks :/

day 10, probably giving up snacking, or my parents dinner. i used to have a really bad habit of just snacking all day,, and i also feel super guilty whenever i have to make excuses to skip dinner since my dad and stepmom make it and expect me to eat

day 11, i don't have a favorite thinspo blog

day 12, i don't have a consistent eating pattern, usually im either drinking water or black tea. i also chew gum often- i fast whenever i can

day 13, definitely unhealthy 🗿 i eat like twice every other day

day 14, i don't know my ugw, i just want to be thin, at this rate, hopefully I'll be thin by october

day 15, im not vegan or vegetarian, however I've always wanted to be. i can't afford vegan alternatives to things, but when i can it will for sure be considered

day 16, dude i don't even remember, it was probably in 7th grade? maybe 5 years ago?

day 17, ive never been diagnosed, so i don't want to say. but im pretty sure stable people don't starve themselves 😳 bdhfhskgsf

day 18, NOODLES OR RAMEN. I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE SO HIGH IN CARBS AND SO GOOD :(((

day 19, the last time i ate fast food was- mmm i think two months ago? 👁👄👁

day 20, my favorite diet is wendys diet (from red velvet) it's where you have 1/2 a cup of rice for breakfast and 1/2 an apple for dinner. personally, it was easy because i love both those and it's easy to prepare

day 21, i actually don't know my clothing sizes. i buy everything in large or medium because i prefer larger clothes

day 22, im at my lowest weight right now, let's hope i don't gain 👁👄👁

day 23, the media definitely played a role in my desire to lose weight

day 24, the terms proana and promia make me uncomfortable. how can you be pro-deadly disorder for anyone? i know there's people out there who don't want help for themselves (like me) but i don't think it's right for you to be pro-anamia for anyone else

day 25, i've never purged, i promised myself i would never. i have tried to though but i lowkey have a fear of vomit :/

day 26, oooooohhhh im so excited to look tiny in big sweaters and to have extra small jeans be too big for me, i want to look good in all outfits and to love my body

day 27, usually whenever im around food i have a habit of wrapping my arms around my waist and bouncing my leg, or i'll wrap my hands around my wrist without even trying

day 28, i do want a gap because i think they're pretty :)

day 29, i believe that theres beauty in everything, and that our physical look is only temporary. we are just souls in a temporary world. but for some reason i still hold myself up to societies beauty standards 💀

day 30, 10 facts about me??

1. im a big pierce the veil fan, i tOlD yOu iTs nOt a pHaSe mOm

2. despite kinda obvious signs or disordered habits, my friends and family have yet to notice (probably because i intentionally hide it lol)

3. i love astrology!! im an aquarius sun.

4. i play guitar and like,, three songs on the piano lmao

5. i like kpop and bts, i used to be a hardcore stan but i rarely listen to them nowadays. i still support them though <3

6. woMEN!!!!! I LOVE WOMENNNN :) and men sometimes 😐

7. i study the law of attraction and listen to subliminals, ever since 2017

8. help idk what else to put lmao