#so hard to describe. i dont mean HOW it smells

[amphibizzy]

the smell that used to bother me at wlmart in the backroom, its in the house. its through the entryways/stairway and its creeping into my space. im so fucking confused

[whokilledsamara]

I loved both of ur scarletella hcs 💕 would it be possible to get more with mr crawling?

MR. CRAWLING HC {N/SFW}

a Mr. Crawling x reader list of sfw and nsfw hc. {an : ahh ty! ofc! i love him hes so puppy coded}

warnings!: smut, nsfw, soft sex, switch!reader, cunnilingus, blowjob, public {?}, slight marking, afab and amab genitalia described.

SFW HC

a list of sfw hc on what it would be like to date Mr. Crawling

for starters, Mr. Crawling has got to be the perfect lover out of all of the boys.

hes sweet, caring, and just a touch of yandere. {no where near as much as Mr. Scarletella...}

in a relationship with him, it would be like normal just x10.

he is a very touchy lover. when he is crawling he likes to be as close to you as possible. he says its for your safety but you know its more than that.

at night when you are sleeping, he stays near you constantly. he doesn't need to sleep, but if you let him, he will hold you while you sleep in his arms.

he goes out of his way to find gifts and food for you, even engaging with the others to GET it.

if you choose to take him home, {why wouldnt you...} then he will become almost like a housewife.

hes a fast learner so he can easily figure out how to clean, MAYBE cook, and really anything else. hes such a good boy!

speaking of a good boy.. he LOVES praise. he will do anything he can do just to hear you praise him. it really sets off his endorphins when he hears those sweet sounds of love come out of your mouth.

though he doesn't understand how it works, he likes kisses! he loves pressing his lips to yours or you giving him face kisses, like forehead or cheeks.

his hair is a big thing, he wants you to play with it or experiment with it. if you put his hair in styles, like braids or buns, he will be so happy !!

as for baths, he needs your help to teach him. in the underworld, smell wasnt really prominent too much. and there wasnt really a way for him to stay clean. his skin is sensitive, but he likes when you help wash him. he does enjoy baths!

his biggest concern is his face. he is very insecure about it, so PLEASE constantly remind him and tell him that he isn't ugly.

he gets so giddy at any sort of touches, even accidental.

he has major jealousy issues and gets upset if you talk to other people, so make sure you give him regular attention. {he could never be mad at you hehe}

you could look like/wear ANYTHING and he would think you are the most beautiful thing alive.

NSFW HC

a list of nsfw hcs on your sex life with Mr. Crawling

you might have to teach him what sex even is honestly. being locked up in an abandoned apartment complex with no sexual activity will make it hard to even know what it is.

hes so cute during sex. guaranteed. at first he is surprised you even want to have sex with him, like he is genuinely shocked.

once he is out of his clothes he is already a whimpering mess. still semi worried you are joking.

when i tell you he doesnt last, i mean it. a few thrusts in and he is already cumming. dont worry, he has unlimited stamina, and can go for hours or as long as you want.

after a few times, he learns that he LOVES giving you head. whether afab or amab, he is all up in that.

very submissive during sex, but is still the one manhandling you.

as said earlier, call him a good boy and he could probably just orgasm from that. praise is definitely a huge turn on.

he is a very fast learner {as are all of them}, almost instantly finding those spots inside of you.

he has very long, slim fingers. take that as you will.

he likes having his hair pulled. wants you to grab ahold of it and use him.

anywhere, and anytime you need him, he will be there. he will even find a random corner and go to town on you if you wish.

absolutely would have bloody sex. any blood, doesnt matter.

ill write more another day on a separate fic, for now here is a small paragraph for him going down on you. {could be afab or amab depending on how you look at it}

{ made by @whokilledsamara }

[nuggetpool-hi]

Tehee found another one. The reason why I never did this one it's because its really l o n g and since its a more "serious" comic it would have my slightly more detailed style so yep, Im lazy what can I say

I edited it a bit to make it more readable, my comic notes are a hot mess only describing important stuff and getting dialogue shoved in there without clear indication of whos saying what so... its still very bad but SO MUCH better than how it was trust ☝️

Smell

Logan smells Wade as he walks near him "that smell again" he thinks "feels internal... sick? diabetes maybe? High pressure? Or.." his face goes blank, then his brows furrow with concern.

He goes to a hospital and sniffs people around like a creep and hes like "Oh" a nurse asks him to leave and hes like alright.

He goes home, hes like idk how to tell him this. Wade is happily watching TV and Logan sits with him

"Wade" he says serious.

Wade looks at him tilting his head curious

"yes honeybuns?"

Logan sighs "Ive been smelling something in you.."

"kinky"

"Wade." Logan stares at him angrily, barring his fangs slightly, then softens his face. "Didn't know what it was 'til today..." his throat is closing up, he tries to look at him directly.. he cant hide the fear in his eyes "Wade you... got cancer"

Wade stares and then starts laughing uncontrobably "Duh, Im literally covered in tumors, smartass" he points at his whole face

Logan is confused, trying to decipher if Wade's joking or not... "what.. I.." hes looking at Wade's face like it owes him money "though they were burn scars"

"Everyone thinks that" Wade shakes his head like saying duh idiots peoples. "Carcer's the whole reason I accepted being turned into some weird experiment to mutate me" bit more serious now.

Logan shallows hard and stares at the floor, then at Wade again, expression sour "I still dont get it, shouldn't your healing factor fix it?"

Wade slaps his knee "HA! no, in fact its more of a dying factor, dead cells replaced with dead cells constantly, I'm always dying but also not?, its weird really" He ponders for a bit

Logan sill staring like wtf is this dude talking about

"Mutation was also like- getting super cancer, outside and inside, I'm infested its insane. A sick joke haha" Wade laughs but his eyes are a bit sad

Logan tilts his head, trying to collect his thoughts "Isnt... cancer.... painful?" He speaks softly, trying so heard to look stiff and angry but hes concerned

Wade just smiles sadly at him, sighs "I mean- yeah I-Im..." he looks at Logan, wondering, then looks away "Im always in pain, sometimes better, sometimes worse but its always there"

Logan nods, still trying to process the situation "Is there-"

"Nothing you can do" Wade interrupts not even looking at him

"....right" Logan looks around "Well uh- you still won't.... um"

"I'm not going to die" Wade says, still not looking at him. Expression serious shoulders tense

Logan looks at him, nods gently "...good"

Ok no Im reading it again and its absolutely awful but Im still sharing it I dont care

Also the date this thing was OLD like genuinely one of the first few comics I wanted to do sad

[zubzooks]

what are some kingfrin thoughts and feefees and hcs u have... i love ur arts of them!!!!!

alright so

i've discussed a little about them before but like... the fact that they are from the same mutual country that they both have lost and grieve is naturally a reason they'd have curiosity for one another. i mean this is pretty laid out in kingquest, siffrin thinking about the king and beginning to understand his motivations frequently to the point where they keep repeating "i need to ask the king about this" or "i need to talk to the king"

the king's curiosity in siffrin comes through him singling them out and talking directly to them a couple of times, of course asking them if they remember, but also him being very willing to answer any of siffrins questions. PRETTY MUCH ALL OF THIS IS PRETTY CLEAR INGAME that siffrin and the king, while fighting for different goals, understand one another.

also there's the flower thing which . i dont even know how to explain that it's just so. the king wants to be remembered by the one person who understands him. and wants this memory to stay. and i did that comic with the frozen flower and auaauhaah. fuuuck

most of my thoughts for kingfrin come from a sort of hc or alternate canon that there may have been some loops where siffrin might approach the king alone to ask his questions, not wanting the rest of his party to be suspicious or put at risk. after all, siffrin begins to feel a sense of temporary frustration (and even what he describes as "hate" in one bathroom scene during kingsquest) towards the others, who all cannot relate to what he is going through at all and don't remember a single thing about the Country or even the Universe belief. they don't know and cannot know about the loops, about how hard he is trying to save everyone and escape the loops himself... AND they don't know and cannot know about what its like to lose their home, their identity, their faith, losing it all and having nothing left to show for it. they're in a privileged position, but siffrin also wants to protect his relationship to them... maybe if he stays with them, if his journey can remain with them... he won't ever have to worry about losing anything anymore. the stability and eternal integrity of home can be shared amongst all of them. siffrin decides to leave the party behind so that there won't be any judgemental glances or questions about what he's doing asking the king about different things. there's also siffrin's desire to protect his family, ensuring that they don't get potentially hurt by the king when all siffrin plans to do is speak with him and probably loop back. It's an act of saving his family, even if it all just resets. siffrin and the king have something only the two of them can relate over, and they talk privately about what shared memories and experiences they do have. it's tense but... somehow, the two can find reassurance in one another that they sort of know what the other is experiencing. of course, siffrin can never open up about how he's looping, but the king isn't stupid and can literally smell wish craft on him. also the king is sniffing siffrin apparently? strange behavior.

there has to be some sort of... comfort that comes from a reminder of home. from the clothes they wear, the accent, the way they behave... it must produce a spurring feeling within the king, and probably even siffrin, of familiarity, and comfort. something they want more of but can never have. they both want to have a whole, they live with only remnants, but seeing the pieces in each other and empathizing in grief... they can provide a unique sense of understanding to one another.

anyhow, i imagine all of this has to happen before the end of kingquest where bonnie dies. i do believe that once bonnie dies, it's all over. even if one iteration of the king was almost benevolent to him, in one loop the king chose to kill bonnie and make siffrin watch and suffer, and for that he can never be forgiven. siffrin has to hate the king after that, no question. it's all fun and kingfrin until bonnie dies!!! because what the fuck!!!

even still, i'd like to point out that during act 5, when it's only siffrin fighting the king solo... the king chooses to slow siffrin down to the point of frozen sleep, rather than outright killing/crushing him. its merciful, i think. he didn't have to be merciful, and to choose to freeze siffrin. the king seems to also freeze things that he wishes to stay maintained, that he values. i generally hc that the king would choose to keep siffrin frozen rather than dead in pretty much every loop. even if he despises what siffrin is doing, keeping him from victory... siffrin remains the walking reminder of his home. and is the only other one who can maybe understand. he doesn't want that ever to be erased.

so, i guess like i said a while back in a textpost, i don't think of it as like... explicitly romantic or anything? its just a really interesting dynamic... tense but also full of the potential for shared comfort??? i like thinking about it and making art about it...... what they have is pretty tragic and a little scary

sorry if so much of this is just insane rambling i've been trying to get my head together on this all day and hoouuh it's real late at night and my brain is not braining

[pandoraroid]

I FINALLY GOT TIME and hehe giggles twirls hair im watching fool Fooliverse Guy

"who is it?" hand in marriage NOW. i have no fear in saying he sounds like my type.

ooohhh so it kinda is like a reverse of prime honey and guy?

"you're welcome to hang. you always are." I SMILED SO WIDE. I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE

"at this point the only good thing about this place is... well you." GIGGLING AND KICKING MY FEET STAWPPFNWJC

HIS LAUGH / GIGGLE OMG JVDFKNJ so smegsy of you guy what fuck

"you really like hugging, huh?" i have nothing appropriate to say to that.

"it's cool. i didn't say i didn't like it. i'm just uhm... not used to it. it's nice when it's you though." so how far are we going to dissect that.

"there. now you got plenty of room... goof." the way my foot stepped on the brakes!

ARE WE CUDDLING WITH GUY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA MALFUNCTIONING AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

"in ten or twenty years when i actually finish something for once, you'll be the first to know.” that's so sweet oh my god jsadhbfvxbhjn

"duh. you're my best friend. you got me for the long haul. i'm not going anywhere if you're not." HAND IN MARRIAGE NOW.

“metaphorically at least." ILL TAKE WHAT I CAN GET YOU BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL SOUL

"yeah, i meant it." THE THING IN HIS VOICE THE THING IN HIS VOICE. idont know how to describe it BUT THE THING IN HIS VOICE WHEN HE SAYS THIS "i don't wanna live somewhere else but... i still wanna live with you, if you do." you seriously may as well have proposed and bonded our souls together atp

"sick." JESUS "it's easy with you." HAND IN MARRIAGE. NOW.

in my head, i'm thinking that this is seriously just how prime honey is. just lowkey dropping heartfelt confession one after another but guy is either too oblivious or too in denial to act on it? not sure if im right but its a funny thought.

A DRAWING??? OH MY GOD my artistic king I LOVE YOU

"oh to be loved by a writer" "oh to be loved by an artist" trope WOULD HATE TO SEE THESE BITCHES COMING.

"saying shit is hard. writing it is easy."

"these notebooks, these sticky notes, these napkins... bag of the receipts people don't want from deliveries. all this paper... this is where i put everything. all the crazy, stupid thoughts in my head. the shit that jump arounds a million miles an hour. all the stuff that i... wouldn't know how to say out loud. it can live on the paper.

words in there are all the parts of me that i don't know how to give anybody.

i want you to read it. i just want you to read it once its good. i want you to get the best version of it. i want it to be the version of me worth knowing."

you already are !!!!

"[scoffs?] shut up." NO YOU "if you say so." ME AND THOUSANDS OF OTHER PEOPLE GUY BABY YOU ARE SO LOVED

"you smell good. [laughs]. that's not weird. you're weird... yeah well i like weird so fuck me i guess." BET

"can i... can i ask you something?" yes i will marry you. "no uh, it's just... you joke like that with me a lot. it's funny... and it's fun i like it. no, it's not [i dont understand what he said my bad ToT] i don't throw it back as much but that's because i'm not that quick... uhm, i just- i never seen you joke like that with anybody else, with any of your other friends.... yeah that isn't a question. nevermind i guess." THE WAY MY FOOT STOMPED ON THE BRAKES. WHAT THE FUCK

PLEASE SAY IT. I MEAN THIS IS SO GOOD AND THE TENSION(?) IS THERE BUT FOR THE LOVE OF GOD PLEASE JUST SAY IT.

"what? tell me what?" THE THING IN HIS VOICE THE THING IN HIS VOICE "yeah of course... wait what?" AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

"are-are you serious?" YES BABY IM SERIOUS. IM SERIOUS ABOUT YOU. I LOVE YOU. IM ON MY KNEES BABY I LOVE YOU

the sound of the bed creaking... honey trying to leave or turn away to not make things awkward but GUY STOP THEM OH MY FUCKING GOD "hey wait. dont't- don't go. please. don't... apologize."

"i like you too... like that yeah." AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

SOUND THE WEDDING BELLS. EVERYONE IS INVITED TO MY HOUSE IM COOKING A FEAST. IM SENDING OUT THE INVITATIONS. THE WEDDING COLORS ARE-

but to be for real there is something so sweet and soft about this entire confession this entire fucking video and i love it. i love you guy in every universe.

"i didn't mean to say it like that just... i didn't know you felt like that for real. i thought it was just jokes so i didn't i never said anything because i didn't wanna make you feel weird. i didn't want that closeness to stop. i like being close with you."

THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS. THE KISS.

"wow." yeah that was a romance movie kiss for real. "just because i don't show it much doesn't mean i don't feel stuff deep. the stuff that matters. you matter. a lot." AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

kithes i love kithes i love you guy :(

"fuck." THE SMILEE IN THAT VOICE. "... i guess i found a way to keep you from being bored after all." honey hititng him in every universe (affectionately) is a win.

"oh yeah?" MADE ME WEAK

"i can think of a couple of things i can get used to too. [laughs] you tell me." AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

KISSES I LOVE KISSES I LOVE YOU MY POOKIES

in conclusion, "ceilings" by lizzy mcalpine IS THEIRR SONG IN EVERY UNIVERSE

i love guy and honey so fucking much they deserve the world.

imagine that the world is fucked up as it is and couple that with supernatural politics, magical species, the unknown, and the apocalypse possible approaching

and you're in love with your best friend. they are your roommate and you get to come home to them.

that is so fucking cool.

[velvetpaku]

23, 53, 55 and 98 :3

hellooooo angel thank u for the ask ^___^

23. describe ur dream date

as sum1 whos technicslly never been on a date ive had a lifetime to romantisize this 😭 but uhm uhm um. well. i really very really enjoy impulsivity.! so my dream date day would begin like any other. so it could be at the start, middle or even end of the day id be struck with the inspiration to do something impulsively grand to make this random blip a night to remember forever even if it's for a small thing! i would rush and rush and rush into drawing/writing a big letter for my beloved inviting them to find me in either a place thats meaningful to us both, a place that means a lot to ME specifically so I could share it with them, or a completely random place picked at the drop of a hat! after they arrive the seconds would turn to minutes that turn to hours of talking dancing and reminiscing on all the reasons that made me cherish them enough to wanna be w them in the first place !!! and i would stare aimlessly into their eyes again and again and again whispering "i love u" with every blink until i know for CERTAIN that they got the message. and hopefully. hopefully... cap it off with a gift. preferably smth handmade in a spur of the moment. itd look awful! as though a child had made it!!! but if they were my partner i think theyd appreciste my eccentricity LOL. and as the night fades and the stars grow faint w the final hours.. id kiss their foreheads and embrace them one final time!!! before mimimimimi :3

or some such miss with that gay shit sister 🚬🦖 holy shit dinosaur smoking a cigaratte!!! u see that?!?!?

53. Opinion on smoking

when i was 10 i went to turkey and this secondary family that was with us and the travel guide smoked profusely. it was then i learned i really liked second hand smoke's smell 💀 i tried smoking multiple times and literally reeled back so hard i fell once bc im that much of a weakling but i still like the smell :p so theres that LOL (ur not slick asking me this, missy :p)

55. What is your dream job?

to have no job 😭😭😭 PLEASE DONT MAKE ME GET ONE!!! but if i had to id probably choose smth with minimal interactions lmao. ppl r gay and strange and id cry if i had to spend time w them too much. but being an english major chsnces are i might end up a professor or teacher so uhm... im also 1000% not against the idea of being a housespouse cuz i love cooking cleaning n taking care of things so :p idkkk

98. favorite month?

May has always been the month where im done with school/uni for 2-4 months until the next year begins so uh. May :3 its either that or March cuz i love looking forward to my bday no matter how sad i get on it LOL

[kit-williams]

I dont understand the hate astartes get! It's absurd, especially chaos astartes! People act like they're some evil abominations that attack innocent people, its ridiculous! Hell, I was raised with a pack of World Eaters since the day I was born, and it was perfectly fine! Even when my (human) gaurdian had to go on weeks-long work trips, I was perfectly fine to be left with them, it wasnt the end of the world!

There's all these posts "ooh theres an astartes that hangs arround oooh its so scary!" It's not that bad! They might have a strange language, but its not that hard to learn, and most the time, they're pretty friendly! I just dont get it, do you??

So when they first showed up the majority were Loyal Astartes (Loyal, Traitor, and Chaos are all terms that they use to describe themselves as well as using the word Feral is one they use) Most older people did not bond with Astartes which is how a lot of their societal quirks got established. (i.e. legion bases and their own relative autonomy eventually more Astartes showed up and these were the Chaos Astartes...

There's still a lot of information I don't know (believe me I've tried to do the research even going so far as to try and asking an Astartis myself) they are a secretive bunch but they all talk about an Emperor (God/Corpse/Carrion) something about a Heresy (usually the Egyptian God is referenced: Horus) and the fact that there is a large time scale in the thousands of years from the earliest to the latest arrivals (at most it could be ten thousand years which is WILD to think about) ((and notes about how a few of the Chaos Space Marines are that old))

Some people (Read Humans for Humanity type of people) point out how... scary Astartes can be. Think about them like large dogs. Sure you might love dogs but someone might get scared by large dogs the spikes and skulls don't help them... and the smell of blood that lingers around the ones with a lot of brass on them....

I mean you have to remember there are human killers, just like there are cows that have killed people, some of them are accidental but some of them seem to seek out people. You also were raised with World Eaters not everyone is lucky to socialize with them (at most there's a few hundred thousand at the higher estimates like think about population of Iceland sort of numbers, and these are global numbers for them) they like to stick close together or at least close to a legion base/chapter base.

But yeah they're big mysterious fellas I mean... don't think too hard about it... yeah I think I can see how some people get spooked.

@egrets-not-regrets @liar-anubiass-blog @barn-anon @bleedingichorhearts

[jovenshires]

You’ve probably been asked this before but what’s like your fanfic writing process?? Like how do you end up writing your fanfictions?

i actually haven't but i'd be happy to talk about it!! i'm actually writing fic right now, so here's what i've done in the past like. hour. im gonna put it under the cut bc its EXTREMELY long but if you ever wanted 'katie's guide to fic writing,' here it is!

i'm pretty easily distracted, so i've gotta make sure i'm in like. The Right Conditions. that means phone face down or away if i can (rn i've got to be on call in case my boss needs smth but you get the gist) bc i WILL just open tiktok or play a mobile game. even just now writing this answer i have picked up my phone and opened pinterest. i cannot be stopped so i try to stay off it and put it down when i catch myself!!

more and more often i cant even listen to music while i write - partly bc i tend to read my work aloud to myself to make sure it sounds right and partly bc my brain will be like "you know this song omg the words are in your brain" or "you should go look at what song this is bc you kinda like it". cannot trust myself even with sound. if i AM listening to music while i write, it's either the specific playlist for that fic, playlists with the right vibes (ex: rivals-to-lovers for iwks), OR anime openings bc. less likely to get distracted when it's not in english tbh.

(huge on all of the senses so i also usually have a candle lit. im super sensitive to smells so if there's an unpleasant smell somewhere around me i will be unable to focus <3)

all that being said about distractions, i think it's important to take breaks - dont just FORCE yourself to write. that's why i'm huge on setting goals for myself - deadlines, word count goals, timed breaks. like "okay im gonna sprint write for 10 minutes and then after that ill watch some of this danny gonzalez video" or "i'll write until 3:30 and then i should go take a break and read a book." im not always faithful to my goals but i try my best!!

as for the actual writing itself, i typically just go for it. i can usually see an image in my mind and i try my best to write that out/describe it as best i can. and then if it sounds wrong i just reword it again and again until i've got it. this is kind of where my reading aloud bit comes in - if it sounds right when you say it out loud, that generally means it sounds right in the text.

sometimes i'll just have a certain scene or just scraps of dialogue and i'll write that out and be like "okay how did they get here." i never embraced writing out of order until recently, but now that i have. no going back tbh i highly recommend it. rwylm and iwks especially had scenes WAY later down the line that i wrote first. just write what comes naturally and go from there.

occasionally i do outlines, but not super often, and when i do they're vague as hell. i think a lot of my iwks outline was just "game" and then "another game but tommy is there this time." i think outlines that go too in-depth kind of take away from the freedom of writing so. if it's for you then slay but its usually not for me

i try not to worry too hard about. the style/grammar/little things as i go. of course im guilty of this and i'll stop and edit my own works along the way sometimes but i've found it's best if you keep writing and then go back later!!

sometimes when i'm writing a new smosh cast member i'll go back and watch videos/compilations of them just to reorient my brain. i've done this a lot with chanse recently!! but i also think. it really isn't that deep too NSDKFNKNK like these are fictionalized versions of fictionalized selves and so on and so forth so don't worry about 'voice' too much im trying to kick that habit myself

EDIT: oh i've talked about this before but. as for ideas/where my fic ideas come from?? i truly try to grab from my every day life. oh i went to the grocery store today? what if smosh member a and smosh member b went to the grocery store. i watched a horror movie and you know who else could do that. otherwise i pull from music/movies/tv shows/other media and be like 'this but for smosh.' i really just be pulling from my life and repackaging it thats all. start small (haircut fic) and work your way up (homoerotic soccer epic)!

and i think that's it?? i'd like to think im pretty chill about the whole thing. (read: i am not chill in any way at all but im trying my best.) anyway, it's something i'm always happy to talk about - thank you for asking!!

[austinsastrology8991]

> Issues I have with you/occult / world < *long post* do not read if you don't want to waste your time < a subjective analysis of Astrology, numerology, manifestation, and a subtle exposé of my life

I got issues... but more importantly i got issues with you. I do a lot of research n i hate being told what to do/ and the occult gotta habit of telling me who tf i am.

and Im better at telling myself who tf I am.

THIs is who i am. <^> stop googly eyin me; foo

This is a fkn mess of a post > try your best to read; it was meant to be a story but im incapable > I just want you to have headache (me after reading this shit 20 times or whatever it is) i;m tired. now go away. or read. or die in a hole. all the same to me. astrology is a subjective subject. IDGAF how many books youve read or how many people you speak too; we are literally looking at a planet in space and are saying shit liek " oh im dat type of pretty (venus), im dominant over here (mars), and thats why my life sux (saturn) " meanwhile, the planet still just rotating and we like acting like we apart of its orbit. Its objectively a subjective subject... > its objective only in your natal chart - where the planets are etc.... but interpretations > subjective Sidenote- Im obsessed with astrology.... because my life sucks. and i need to like feel productive somehow - stfu i know this isnt productive, but tell me what you doing? don't act all jiminy cricket on me, when your soundtrack is that of a cricket beginning of rant Also: the mythology and practise of intepretating planets and asteroids, and well the complicated drama that is greek/roman mythology. while there is plenty of overlap, the sheer concept of 2 different intepretations created upon from, 2 seperate cultures, creates different texts and slight differences inherent within each story. this initself creates a subjective intepretation of aforementioned stories > not to mention other cultures who likely put their own narrative of these mythos > it allows us to also intepret it in our own way > it is all just imagination at the end of the day. Whilst the themes are uncannily similar, the form is always different, and thats why I like to intepret it in my own way, and i recommend you do tooo (Alike everything in this subject) ; however we need some clear rules, and guidelines, to make this subject actually palatable, but i fear this community would rather keep it confusing so we can treasure the secrets of the occult on our own. and to that I do understsnd, however, anyone reading tumblr astrology, I believe to already be taking that leap into the occult and should be granted at least some introductory access. and here is (1) problem

Astrology signs are the how, and the houses are the where, > yet you all describe 2nd house a whole lot like tuarus, 10th house lot like capricorn. I mean Ik its similar but yall acting like its different yet your intepretations aint all dat different from each other..... but if the how for you is the where for me, then how tf is it so hard for me to see the differences?… if there is such a startling difference like yall always claim.. to me the themes are so fkn similar whereby > i think its the same > degree, house, sign; same shit diff smell

This however made 4 years ago me, very insecure.:.. 😢I couldn’t figure out the difference and I felt dumb 🤧 but That was 4 years ago - I was noob…. made me realize things like: we got an attitude problem today - we youngins always apologizing, trying to make others comfortable about our bullshit (Anxiety skill issue), yet the old fucks are hella comfortable telling us what to do (authority skill issue), like bro. you dont even know me, and im supposed to bow to you, just so your gonna bread crumb me with some bs self professed 'useful' advice??? if you talked to each other youd realize you all have the same advice... and you too old to keep up with my problems, so stop acting like you know.....

and so like uh, its not bold of me to say that; if your a legit astrologer you know you can just read people. yes everyone has free will, and other explanations to undermine the importance of astrology, but we know whats going on > try me > *sales pitch noise*<

Tumblr astrology is good but not proffesional, just: posts about random asteroids, random observations, random sexytime, and the occasional ‘official’ astrologers bread crumbing us to incentivize us to pay for a reading…. Now I got nothing better to do with my life (nor do you clearly) so we all on here fucking around> but I made da sacrifice > I spent real money

And these 'readings' > dog shit I tell ya > oh don’t worry none of them were from tumblr people. But people in my city and they knew less than what I knew (from reading your tumblr shits)

So it turns out you guys lowkey experts - we done a million random astrology observations - and if your a lurker, you lowkey know more than some pros; and da concept of analyzing people in your life with astrology has made you a *drum roll* > an average astrologer. your not average, if the experts are only 20% better than you (lets say). so with this in mind your not that far off their expertise.. oh you cant measure it? tell me what i dont know < (tell me more) IM HUNGRY, MORE POSTS, MY FEED IS FUCKInG HUNGRY

Now however wasting my money > pissed me off… but its a blessing, becasuse i became >.....> not depressed!!! Finally I got my energy back >>> legs go...

So I learned to read astrology. I just kept reading these websites and interpreting them and well.. I think they overcomplicate a lot of things, and they say it like a report card, when obviously you and I are multiple planets, aspects, houses, degrees, house lords, persona charts, midpoints, asteroids, not to mention composite, synastry, transits solar return , and all da other fkn ones that I cannot be bothered mentioning. Yet there’s a whole fucking essay about one aspect… like bro you couldn’t make a summary? and im supposed to read each of my other aspects? (ofc i did) but like this is just trying to make me spend money (too much reading) and well Im a greedy little fuck so imma drain your resources and not give you a dime >t > SWIPER NO SWIPING <

and i hate watching people trynna act like they know shit yet eat their own words n adjectives like you aint a professional; you just labeled yourself one > wheres your doctorate at bitch? Had enough shitty readings to not trust another 'tarot reader', but its cool the 'psychologists' aint did much better > thank you mother for the birth of my existence but shi dis place a fkn willy wonkin fsctory - and its foul - most places that try to help you that is.... ' you need to be able to receive help' bitch stfu yall underestimsting my problems and overestimating your ability to make me feel better; BITCH I STFG you dont know shiiiiitiittttttttttt > and yall look happy dont you > "dont trust a bartender who dont drink bitch" - KanYe. Numeroloy 'master numbers' > So many sites only use master numbers from 11 > 22 > 33... but wheres the 44? the 55? the 66?????? dont tell me yall didnt realize that every 'master number' still reverts back to each number (9). > 11 =2, 22 = 4, 33=6, 55 = 1, 66 = 3, 77=5..... bro god stsyed outta this mess clearly..... and its always the ones that be inventing new gods that fuck everything too 🤫 furthermore annoyances of numerofuckology - because they reduce the number back down.. .e.g. you have life path 89 > which is simplified to 17 > then to 8.... why not use 89? why we dissin 9 ????? let alone the complete number??? why not intepret both numbers together???? yall just wanna do 1 because your simple with it. and 9 getting left out fr... and yall always celebrating how special 9 is yet he always left out (magic of math - adding 9 - always reverts back to original) honestly - sometiems its so obvious why yall became numerologists sometimes...... Dont even get me started on ANGEL NUMBERS i could neva stfu

i mean yall still trying to test how true it all is, but if you throw a fish at a pisces they gonna go all googly eye on you. tell a scorpio that you intimidated and now your their favourite informant... read their life path number, and you know what they wanna be doing with their life.... i mean it really is a key, and yall locks are looser than you think... watch yo back.. i wouldnt trust someone who can help me (what do they even want), let alone get help from someone who is useless; why would you? dont act like you dont have trust issues, its like our way of relating to each other at this point. your good at sex if you have.... what about the other person? i mean if you masterbate to yoself maybe.... but if a composite chart / synastry have say - chiron eros? pluto saturn? mars dejanira.... how much are you gonna be fucking yourself when you fucked a dirty fucka..... rip virginity - and rip yo self esteem - dangerous game to value your sex appeal as much as you do...... or maybe your living a fantasy on the internet, and that is healthier, but thoughts are manifestations.... oh shit what da fuck have i manifested oh shitttttttttt IM BEING SUCKED IN A VORTEX OF MY OWN SHIT, SOMONE CALL A MANIFESTOR AGHJH AGJJGH please dont be offended, i do like this community; im just a devils advocate... sometimes 👹

you guys put too muhc importance on manifeststion, and i mean if you think its facts, look at what the people around you are manifesting.... OH thats why you isolate so much. so your manifesting loneliness.... oh you try to help people, so your just a trash can for a rubish person.... you see what i mean, manifestation aint so clear cut as you seem to believe. I believe in it, but Im so used to receiving crap, I learned to enjoy eating shit (we all did) and what is "one mans trash is another mans soap" - fight club Oh and Pluto my favourite - every curse a blessing and every blessing a curse.... stop complaining > he gave you the sauce and the only way to show you was to make you cry > lil bitch > pluto profile pic winking at you rn natal > persona > midpoint > composite > synastry > transit > return charts this is the offical order governed by me- so much more imporatnt to understand yourself over what the world got installed / what your partner doing - work on yo insecurities rather than be worried about something you have no control ova

hmmm thats all the issues i have for now.... just look at me as the boy who cried wolf. they aint a wolf here yet; but they gonna be, and im warning yall > why people dont get it...its because there are too many contradictions > but i fully believe, ive had so many spiritual experiences where if i denied them, id be drinking alcohol and pretending i aint a alcoholic. and i do love yall, but sometimes your an eye roll 29th post requires. 29 degree typa energy - YOlo MOfo

[umeboshi--bones]

Don't imagine Cross or Fellswap Papyrus with a blind S/O?

(I have never written for anyone with a visual impairment, I dont mean to offend anyone! Also! Thank you vixen for kick starting my brain!)

(Fellswap for this one)

Don't imagine the gentlest touch to rouse you in the morning, while the sun warms your cheeks. 'hey…g'morning snippet.' You don't need to see his smile, it's like his voice smiles along with his face. You tell him this and he laughs under his breath

Don't imagine turning over to face him, finding and tangling the strings of his hoodie between your fingers, your brow crinkles a little. 'what's up, pup?' You don't remember what you were supposed to do that day and were worried that it was something really important. 

Don't imagine the short gasp that leaves him. But it IS important. It's your birthday! You have so much to do! You shoot up in bed with a cry of delight, he lurches forward to steady you when you rock forward a little too hard, laughing. 

Don't imagine after showering and dressing, he catches you around the waist, warning you first with a short, low whistle. He finds your shoes and offers to help, if you want. You shake your head. Maybe not this time. He takes up your hand in his and forms 🤟 with you. With the other hand you pap lightly around his temple then, you squint and lean forward to peck a kiss off center on his forehead. 

Don't imagine walking out the door only to find the weather slipped on past you; it was pouring. Don't imagine that he doesn't even falter in step, grabbing his keys and leading you to the car.

Don't imagine going to that restaurant you love so much, the smells and sounds of it familiar and welcome. Don't imagine him describing what the desserts are, being unable to choose and with a shrug he flags the waiter. 'screw it. bring 'em all.'

Don't imagine he leans in a few times to describe some of the instances of people watching he does. How someone looks very very pressed about something. 'ah, yep. it's a mistress.' Don't imagine nearly choking on raspberry mousse at the sheer casualness of his words. There's a lot of dessert left, so you take it home.

Oh, and don't imagine turning towards him in the car on the way home, to ask what the weather ruined for your birthday plans. 'nah, im still gonna do 'em. so no telling.' You huff at him, crossing your arms in mostly mock upset. He smirks, finding that while he was glad you didn't catch his cheek, he really wishes you did.

[bunnyboy-juice]

9, 19, 43?

9. You can only perform 1 sex act for the next month, what would you pick? Why? Would that change if it was a year?

ORAL - u know how much i enjoy it (and for those who dont: i fucking love sucking her dick more than breathing. will make out with her tip for fun. love the smell texture taste - being in between her legs is my happy place) and I mean the only difference between a month and a year is how much ur willing to put up with my tantrums 😝😘

19. What is the funniest sexual thing that has happened to you or someone you know?

this one is literally so hard......... okay I'm gonna rattle off a few different ones:

- the one time we fucked so hard u put ur knee thru ur phone and it literally turned into the latest flip phone 💀

- the many times you've forced me to cum while telling me strange facts

- that one time we had sex in my sister's basement to the bee movie

- the one time i had sex with an ex to Tangled and we had to pause, while fingers were in them still, because i couldnt stop myself from singing along

- the one time with a different ex we put on a live action scooby doo movie and they tried initiating but immediately noped out bc they couldnt stop laughing at the movie

- when we had that foursome last year where that one person and i were playing Minecraft while u and the other person were bein gay and we proceeded to make fun of y'all while playing

ummm theres definitely more silly stuff, but idrk what the Funniest would be

43. Describe your ideal genitalia. Is it the same for your ideal partner? If not describe theirs too.

i...... still think for me its mr. potato head like body parts: genitals edition. im very wishy washy on what genitals i Want (and its part of why i have complex feelings wrt grs for myself) and ideally i think I'd have nothing unless i wanted to use them for things - but i would want full feeling in them still too when i did use them (hence not wanting just Nothing but specifically mr potato head style interchangeability). i dont particularly care much about partners genitals, i have a slight preference for dick rn but idk how much thats an Actual preference and how much its "this is the gentials type ive interacted with most the last 4 years". i dont actually think ive thought much about it - when i have sex dreams everything below the belt is not visible unless its Specifically my face In it for oral so i guess similar?

[hababa]

4 months on T yesterday . observations under the cut (some talk about bottom growth

i noticed my first proper dark/thick chest hair coming through in the shower this morning . The hair on my upper legs got thicker straight away and so did my tummy. Not much happenibg so far on my face (my stache is a little thicker). My arm hairs are a bit darker. I also noticed my head hair thinning a little, more of it falling out in the shower. I have acne all over my face chest and back. My voice is noticably deeper . I smell stronger and muskier . My libido is much higher and my junk is considerably bigger than it was. it also smells like dick and balls where it didnt used to smell much of anything before lol. My fat has moved from my hips and thighs towards my stomach a bit, im less curvy and got more of a gut. My appetite has gone up but i havent noticed the change in taste buds like some ppl report or a craving for meat? (For protein and bulky foods though yah i have)

My mood is different but hard to describe i am way more energised and find it much harder to sit still. Mentally things seem to move faster like the pace of my thoughts and feelings? part of this means i find it much harder to focus for long periods and get things done that i don't really want to do. i didnt really have adhd-like symptoms before but recently i find i'm much more scattered and find it hard to concentrate, i'll start things, get bored quick, leave them and forget, start something new, forget what i started... Things seem to get on my nerves more now, but i also find that i am a more immediate (impulsive?) person and dont tend to dwell on my feelings as much, but tend to act quickly. For the first time in my life i often feel the urge to exercise where before i dreaded it haha.

I feel good about getting hairier, my body fat redistributing, my voice getting deeper, my face looking a little more masc, bottom growth. I find my inner emotional landscape changing a bit difficult to understand - i got pretty good at recognising what different feelings felt like before but now i cant always tell whats going on. Puberty 1 was a difficult time for me because i was also going through abuse which i coped with by dissociating from my body. its nice i feel a bit more present during this puberty (if a bit awkward for going thru puberty as an adult now haha), but the emotional stuff is a bit difficult because i feel out of control/confused by my inner landscape sometimes. But its good that im more immediate, less in my head at times, i speak up more when something bothers me. Im not thrilled about the acne and losing my hair. I hope i can keep my hair long for a few years then rock a shaved head. I dont mind about the smell. I sort of want to be able to grow a moustache just to see how it looks.

[sk1nn13-l0v3-06]

this is going to be more of a rant/vent post sorry guys

this is going to come out messy and hard to understand since i dont really know how to word all of this im just typing as the words come into my head,

i am really not doing ok at all, i dont even know how to explain the emotion im feeling since i have never felt it before, yeah i have had really depressive episodes many times over the past 7 years, i've had my fair share of panic attacks and attempts etc.

but this, i dont even know what this is, all i know is that i hate this feeling so much, i was starting to feel better a few days ago after feeling really low for a few months, but then out of nowhere this weird emotion hit me and hasnt gone away yet, i cant sleep and havent slept for 3 maybe 4 days, i find myself no being able to understand whats going on at points as if i just forget who i am and where i am and this will last for a few seconds before i just feel really weird, ill have this feeling of dread as if something really bad is about to happen, followed by extreme paranoia, ill feel extremely nauseous at random points in the day, then at some points ill just get this rush of su1cidal urges, all the things i just listed are the feelings that im experiencing that are accompanying the bigger feeling that i cant describe, if i was to try to explain the big feeling thats causing all this i would maybe say its like a discomfort? but to everything, my skin, the smells around me, the colours and temperature, like i mean EVERYTHING, and not in the overstimulated way, i mean in like an odd way that i literally want to end it all so i dont have to experience it anymore,

i also keep being convinced that there is people outside my window about to break in, or even things in my room but this part could just be due to the fact im extremely tired

anyway thats all, i just really wanted to get this out and see if anything knows what the fuck is going on right now because i have no clue what im experiencing

[thetableistryingtoeatme]

1-30

Youre a ho

what song makes you feel better?

My YT music wrapped always says my top vibes or whatever are Happy and Up beat, so most of my saved music makes me feel better tbh. But Tongue Tied by Grouplove always makes me think of when you (the ho who sent this) told me to think of you dancing to it whenever I got stressed out during my exam. It was th only way I coul get through the exam and I still sometimes think about it to get through hard exams.

2. what’s your feel-good movie?

Stardust

3. what’s your favorite candle scent?'

I really want a candle that smells like smoke and fire itself but I dont think they make those

4. what flower would you like to be given?

Snapdragons. But in a pot. Don't give me something dead unless its the bodies of my enemies

5. who do you feel most you around?

My dog

6. say three nice things about yourself (three physical and three non-physical).

Physical: I have nice hair, I'm strong, and my dimples are very cute

Non-physical: I'm funny, I always do my best to be kind, and I am very determined

7. what color brings you peace?

rainbow sparkle

8. tag someone (or multiple people) who make you feel good. 

@pinkhobofish

9. what calms you down?

A night walk where I can look at the moon and stars

10. what’s something you’re excited for?

I start physics of astrophysics class next week and I'm very excited to learn about astrophysics!

11. what’s your ideal date?

April 24th. Its my birthday and thus the perfect date

12. how are you?

Sick :(

13. what’s your comfort food?

Cookie dough (or whatever sweet I'm obsessed with at the time) and vegan mac with chicken nuggets

14. favorite feel-good show?

Parks and Rec

15. for every emoji you get, tag someone and describe them in one word.

I haven't gotten any

16. compliment the person who sent you this number.

You are far smarter and more capable than you think. If you believed in yourself half as much as I do, you would be amazed at all the things you could do. And you deserve to do great things.

17. fairy lights or LED lights?

Fairy

18. do you still love stuffed animals?

Yes. I have a stuffed Grogu that my brother got me that I sleep with every night. And if it isn't Grogu, its a fat unicorn one of my students gave me when I had to leave school early for health reasons. I love them with all my heart.

19. most important thing in your life?

Me

20. what do you want most in the world right now?

NASA Pathways Internship

21. if you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be?

This is not the end. We will come back to our dreams.

22. what would you say to your future self?

Damn, bitch. You look hot

23. favorite piece of clothing?

My comfy or my cropped, plaid blazor

24. what’s something you do to de-stress?

Exercise

25. what’s the best personal gift someone could give you (playlist, homemade card, etc.)

I love any gift that shows someone cares. I know thats kind of a cop out, but different people have different skills or things they like to make/give. An engraved sword

26. what movie would you want to live in?

Star Trek: A Voyage Home. I want to see the future whales

27. which character would you want to be?

The Doctor

28. hugs or hand-holding?

Hand-hodling

29. morning, afternoon or night?

Night

30. what reminds you of home (doesn’t have to mean house… just things that remind you of the feeling of home)?

When my dog wakes me up in the middle of the night to ask to come under the covers and then nestles in as close to me as she can and we both fall back to sleep

[ranvame]

one year older

everything became so clear to make us believe that life was short, last time i was a girl who love to enjoy my moms food living a beautiful laugh for my dad, loving sisters and brother and for many dearest friend, now im more older to face my life

i want to thankful that i can feel how life till now cus many people outside there didn't get a chance to achive what they want have to be, well that was something that we have to grateful for, something smash for yourself to getting better day by day

im so grateful that i can see clear, i can hear msny songs, i can taste spicy, i can smell so good, i can feel, i can dance, i can walk, i can eat, everythings the little things become so valuable for you who become older

we never know what were going to face even tomorrow, in hours, minutes, or even second. So we never know are you going to left this damn world tomorrow or even just in a minute left. It is what it is what something that will be happen it will happen, im just enjoying my life as myself in this world there's so many things that i want to say to myself that u already work hard for this body and soul.

for my mom and my dad, you are more than everything in this world i can't aside a love that i feel when i was around you. I can't imagine that day will come to me when u have to let me grow as a human body when i was alone in this space and you just left me, im always hope that u will be get healthier more day by day. Because when i lost you, everything even the little things part of me never gonna be the same

For my sisters and brothers just fucked up, i dont care are u gonna feel what i fell you guys just a bunch of a selfish human that i ever seen, but aside of that im thankful for a moment and the lessons that i've got. I hope you guys can live a life that u wanted and enjoy for that

for my friends especially for ayu nadya and nisya, i met ayu and nadya when i was in high school and nisya in college. I love them sm im just love them and i cannot describe what meaning love of friendship, i just can say i really cannot let them go and i dont want to lose them really and so bad, like you already put your little hope into someone so you dont want to lose that hope

and for me, i know you were tired , you always trying to be perfect, to get a chance, to get everything that u want. If i can say something to my little me i said "i hope there's a time machine i want to go back in the moment that i dont have to think about many things"

It's so clear to me to see when u became older, everything moment in the past that you think before gonna be the moment that you can feel in the future and its like a circle just like people said "you're gonna feel what ifeel " like when i was junior i was to think to be in high school, and when i was in high school i use think how is it fell in college and next on it just a like circle life till u die

aside of that, important to me to feel what i feel rn. If i said that im okay than im not trully okay. Something that i really hate from myself when i have to aside the feeling when i want to tell how is it so hard so bad just because you scared of people that will be compared the hard moment that you've been through between them. so what you gonna do? well im just being shut down and yeah just let it

But more that you being shut up you feel that you save the toxic traits in your heart day byday became like a cell of cancer its broken and its spreading to the other cell and you died

So after all for now im trying my best to giving the best for myself i put myself become my top priority, i have to do something that will be the right way for my life. Im trying to aside the holes that im going to fall, i dont know if that going to be that deep if i fall, i have to wake up and im gonna trying hard again and again to reach the top no matter how much i fall again and again.

cause your life was short all you have to do in this world you cannot stay away from your god if you always stay on the way then you're gonna feel that world is a little hard things that you have to face

happy birthday bila, there's so many things that i have to say to you, but i think you already know it dept of my heart

you're the cutest girl that i ever seen and gonna be always, you precious than just a words

love from me now you have to forget your teenage moment bye bye and say hi to your real life

[mhagun]

Diluc general hcs…★!

characters :: you (duh) diluc (also, duh)

t/cw :: mentions of depression and nightmares. nothing too heavy tho

a/n :: uhh uhh hhh VAMP ANTHEM 🧛‍♂️🧛‍♀️ listened to 'watch me' while editing this bcos,,, BANGER ??

☆ i (we) heart the grumpy old adult !!

☆ absolute bear man. He’s warm and his clothes and hair are soft and he likes drinking hot stuff so his cheeks are always warm and he mostly smells like cinnamon and grapes and he tastes slightly sour because he’s always drinking hot apple cider (no, he does not drink coffee. I refuse to believe so.) Also, posture. He’s horrible when no one is around, esp when he’s stressed. He’s lowkey embarrassed by it, and immediately straightens his back once he realizes that you’re in the same room.

☆  and bcos of his aforementioned horrid posture, his spine hates him. Therefore…. ��back massages 🎇. You might as well have a professional license due to the skills you’ve picked up since he asks you to help him out.

☆ also, slight perv diluc 🤨????

☆ im not even kidding that man could stare at your ass for dayyyyyss. Makes you wait tables around Angel’s Share (unpaid btw) just so he can stare at butt while you walk around and rush to take orders and serve guests. Also, avid ass slapper. They’re typically not hard smack, unless he gets tipsy, because while he has never been outright drunk, he is constantly of that wine grind 💪 (but he gets rly upset at himself and avoid you for the rest of the day).

☆ likes to have his hair styled by you. It doesn’t matter if it’s elaborate and detailed or as simple as a fucked up braid, it’s the thought that counts <3. he does have a favorite hairstyle tho… the aforementioned braid ! specifically little tiny braids that intertwine with his regular ponytail. he thinks their cute :)

☆ pls make fun of him for having maids. PLEASE. he cannot do laundry omg, and he can barely cook !! just because he is a big beefy man that would hold you in his arms, does not mean he is the entire package !! get’s rly confused when you go to the kitchen to make your own food, like, he was genuinely shocked. likes to do laundry with you tho, he finds it relaxing and sometimes dozes of while folding the warm sheets, especially if he’s had a rough day/week. He just loves laundry in general. He loves how warm everything feels, he loves the smell of soap and linen, especially when it lingers on your skin so that he can smell it when he kisses your hand. 

☆ also, diluc is not 6ft?? don’t get me wrong he’s tall, but not 6ft tall. he’s more,,, 5’9-5’10, plus he’s kinda… thick??? like, he’s more heavyset than tall lean muscle. dw tho, man boobs are preserved, abs are preserved, biceps ykyk. He also was pretty thick hands, and warm palms :)

☆ alrighty YOU ALREADY KNOW WHAT TIME IT IZZZZZ:: diluc depression and nightmare segment -_-

☆ has nightmares pretty regularly actually. Most aren’t that bad, and he can usually go back to sleep relatively easily, but some nights he gets it bad. So bad, that it would wake you up and make you freak out. he doesn’t go back to sleep those nights, but after a while of holding him and rubbing his back while he sniffles into your shirt and drinks chamomile (i dont think he’d like peppermint), he’s usually pretty mellowed out.

☆ get’s rly upset sometimes, usually after a rough night of non stop work or nightmares. sometimes he will snap and yell at you over petty shit, but will always make it up to later. when he’s not screaming in incomprehensible frustration, he’s just uncomfortable and overstimulated and does know how to describe it. it’s the level of irritation a person with a stutter would exhibit when they are experiencing a word block (which, coming from a person w a stutter, is a hair pulling teary eyed level of anger i have to regularly suppress). all i can say is be patient. treat him like any other human and not a potential business partner he will literally die 4 you.