#so i kept going... and got into a huge rollercoaster of feelings... im...

[aria0fgold]

Well... I uhh-- I... I... that was-- well... that... huh... Iiiiiii neeeed to go back to act 4 after this.

[redundantz]

What are your thoughts on how the characters were written for stampede? You sounded kind of :/ about Meryl at one point.

Hello! Yeah it was a bit of a rollercoaster for me personally. ⚠ STAMPEDE SPOILERS ⚠ BUT they really pulled it together in the end i think (for the most part) Since we now know for sure this is a prequel and where its now going after the finale it puts more perspective on things. I have OG Trigun brain so take my own opinions with a grain of salt. I think if people enjoy this new series on its own merits thats wonderful. HOWEVER I still think the series has severe pacing issues and we miss a ton of important character moments imo. And I wish we got to see more interaction with uhh actual humans. After the first 3 eps and then the one with Rollo we basically dont interact with any other humans who live on the planet and its so weird. (also my god we need more fun time in this show was a depression speedrun istg) Have a graph of my emotional journey:

Vash: oh man haha this one is tough. now that the season is over and we got a HUGE payoff with him so I am very happy now but yeahhh. Some parts I was like wow this is Vash he's perfect. But then as the episodes went on I was getting so frustrated. Because he just would stand there giving everyone UwU eyes and not do anything. Especially for his flashback with Knives. Which I understand it was "shock" but he basically stood there with a blank expression the whole time and it was so...??? Being a pacifist didn't mean he is a limp noodle and doesn't take action. Like don't get me wrong he did have a few moments where he fought Livio and the Badlads but that was about it. I think a lot of my frustration might be because he kept using hand to hand combat compared to using his gun which I am used to. again though, they really brought it back in the end 10000% and brought it into perspective so I can forgive some of the previous stuff. Meryl: She was made more cutesy and naïve. Which definitely got on my nerves here and there. But I was okay with it for the most part ( im not immune to cute lol) They got the most important part of her character where she is touched by Vash's convictions, and his love for humanity. She didn't start off jaded and roughened by the planet this time so I think it has a bit less impact in that regard. But I think the best thing they did for her is she is basically the stand in ambassador for humanity and its strength of character. Wolfwood: I don't have to much to say for him personally. but dude needs to have some fun. First ep with him was pretty great but after that was just a lot of angry yelling and nasty looks. Like...for awhile I couldnt even see how him and Vash are friends besides the fact that Vash is nice to him. Him and Meryl almost had more nice moments than both of them. I LOVED finally getting to see more of his backstory though esp with Livio that was so great. But I really wish we got to see how much he cares about kids and him interacting with them. All we would get is NOT THE ORPHANAGE!! but we never get to see it in action really. Besides him giving Zazie a lollypop that one time and the flashbacks but those only included Livio for the most part. Roberto: NGL I loved him he was cynical and grumpy LOL I was pretty offput at first because it felt like he was replacing Milly. I dont think he wasnt really utilized to his full potential though. Especially because he dies later. I feel like we didnt get enough time with him or character moments. I think it could have made his death hit harder. Also just a shame that he was just there to further Meryls arc. But i think he was meant to mirror Meryls drive to help against his pessimism. Milly: millyseason2millyseason2millyseason2!! That's the main group anyway. Thank you for the ask!

[demonicintegrity]

KIPO S3 ANALYSIS

Under a read more for length and potential spoilers/theories

you’ve been warned

- Multiple mutes with the TimberCats in the first(?) HMUFA meeting. I see the cats, umlat snakes, ratland rats, and fitness raccoons.

- I’m assuming being friends with Kipo encouraged them to be here, but I wonder if they knew that coming here would involve talking about what Emilia is doing

- Scarlemange is still wearing his get up

- He also got out! Only to be captured again. I wonder if he escaped because he wanted to deal with Emilia himself or if he just wanted to be out of naught monkey jail.

- We Wolf use this rope like weapon either, so either this is Wolf capturing him (likely motivated by Kipo in some way) or this is a new character that will teach Wolf how to use this weapon. I don’t think we’ve seen her use ropes for anything other than traps before. Stalky and those fight sticks were blundering weapons.

-Return of the dragonflies!

- Now did Dave convince them to help (since he speaks dragonfly) or did a frog lend them? If it’s a frog it could be Jamack since he knows his way around them, or it could be a mod frog.

-Also, Kipo and Wolf look some degree of pissed with determination. I’m not use to seeing Kipo be outright mad like this.

- When I was curious of seeing if we’d see more mutes like Dave, I didn’t mean it like this.

- The concept of multiple Daves, all be immortal/immune to dying by age is not only fuckin something, but it could also mean they have the key of filling in the history we’re not aware of.

- I wonder if they were an underground society just Vibin all this time and the only reason Dave’s not with them is because he got bored and curious.

- J A M A C K

-Would you believe me when I said I didn’t notice Jamack the first two times I watched this? because I didn’t. I was focused on the hummingbomber and the whole zoomed out frame is shown only briefly.

- Also??? Jamack pressing his hands against Kipo’s through the glass??? GOD that’s such an emotional move, wanting to touch Kipo because it’s been heavily implied that was never a thing in mod frog society on the whole “no friends” basis. He really has grown and learned to be in touch with emotions ;-;

-The fact that Emilia and her crew were able to capture multiple different mutes in what we can assume is in a short time after the coronation is startling. She had a plan and it’s being executed well. She also has a lot more humans working with/for her which can’t be well.

-There’s an empty cage, next to said hummingbomber.

-Jamack was traveling with TheOtters, Rad confirmed this. I don’t like that we don’t know where they besides that Jamack was with them and combined with fact that theres the empty cage...

 ... and combined with the fact that we see what could be a mega mute otter beside Jamack. It could be a beaver or groundhog since the coloring appears to be a bit different, but seeing the empty cage doesn’t sit well.

- Idk if Emilia would make a mega mute. She enjoyed having Song in her control because such a large creature is useful in a fight, so she easily couldve tried to make a mega mute she could control or it was an accidental side effect of trying to take away the sentience of an otter. Depending on where we are when this scene happens, Emilia could be still working out the kinks in the “cure”

- There also other figures sitting on top of the dog, BeakBeak, and otter/beaver/groundhog, so this is likely one of many coordinated attacks on Emilia. And Jamack seems to be leading it!!! and that makes me so happy cuz 1) it means he’s finally working alongside Kipo now and 2) he’s pushing down his fear of mega bunnies to help!! Go Jamack!

- Rad,,,, please,,,,, give us Jamack content,,,,we’re starving,,,,

- S O N G

-Now there’s debate on if this is a flashback or not. It shouldn’t be because she turned into a Mega Monkey right after Lio was escaping with Kipo and Lio has the clover patch of the burrow he raised Kipo in.

-But it makes me wonder where did Song get those clothes then??? Because correct me if im wrong, but those look really similar/the same as the clothes we see in the flashbacks??? And i get Kipo kept her clothes after coming back from being a Mega Jaguar because y e a this is a PG show but if Song came back wouldn’t they give her new clothes??? idk idk maybe im not suspending my belief where I should.

-Maybe it’s in the dreamscape?? Mullohand is with her, and he can make people “dream” together like Dave and Benson did if I recall correctly.

Other thoughts w/o screenshots:

- we see a scene where humans attack the Timbercats home and I do NOT feel well about it. Scooter Skunks were present there too so Idk if theyre helping Kipo or Emilia is forcing them to be on her side.

- Emilia and her gang are fuckin armed to the nines. Not only crossbows, but darts filled with chemicals, and fire and a boat!? Not only does this woman not care that she’s going to kill a child but she does not care about collateral damage.

- Overall, it’s a much more serious and intense feel. Just about every scene implies danger which is such a turn from the first two seasons where there was danger, but Kipo and Co were trying to enjoy themselves to a degree.

- Still holding out on seeing Jamack in different clothes/ at least ditching the tie as he hopefully gets over the Mod Frogs. I don’t think he’s gonna return to them, even if Sartori is out of the picture and especially since Kwat and Harris are also gone. Please, where is Jamack’s reaction to their deaths????

- Speaking of, how the hell are the Mod Frogs doing now that Ms. Sartori is dead? Is there a new leader and are they gonna help/be on screen at all?

-I keep rewatching and I know there are so many things im missing but I’m still just REELING from it all holy s h i t. There’s a LOT going on for being 1:30min teaser.

- Someone pointed out Emilia is in formal wear a couple of scenes, and she is, which makes me wonder if she’s making a celebration of this whole thing. And if she is, does that mean she feels she’s the one that should be celebrated for “curing” the mutes and putting them in their place?? If so, that’s a pretty fucked parallel to how Scarlemange was putting humans in their place and how he wanted to be celebrated for it.

-Bruh I’m hyped because this season is gonna be one huge curveball and rollercoaster of emotion i just know it.

- Im also v scared about how Rad is gonna rip out our hearts this time. First it was Wolf’s backstory, then Hugo’s backstory, then gilding the mod frogs, this show is brutal and i am in f e a r.

[bi-cookie]

Are you still open for requests? Can I ask one fluff of Eiko Matsunaga x mc? 7- “I’m melting, I can’t take it you are too cute.” Perhaps Eiko interacting with Zoe?

“ Ferris Wheel”

⇾ 𝗣𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: Selena Day x Eiko Matsunaga

⇾ 𝗦𝘂𝗺𝗺𝗲𝗿𝘆: a trip to the town’s fair leads to a love confession.

⇾ 𝗪𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁: 1.4k

⇾ 𝗪𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴(𝘀): fluff / alma being a nugget / typos?

⇾ 𝗣𝗿𝗼𝗺𝗽𝘁 𝘂𝘀𝗲𝗱: 7# – fluff // dialogue prompt list

⇾ 𝗔/𝗡: I truly apologize of how long this has taken. This has been in my inbox since last December and I didn’t wanna mess up Eiko’s character so I took my time w this, doing my research and all that. I hope I didn’t mess this up and I apologize in advance cuz it’s me and I probably effed something up. I changed how the prompt is used i hope you don’t mind, it just fits the course of the story. Once again I’m sorry and enjoy.

It was a scorching hot summer day; perfect for a day at the fair. The sky was dotted with a few candy-floss clouds. The entrance could be seen in the distance and the long queues edged forward slowly. People were becoming increasingly excited and impatient as they took a few steps forward every so often. Faint music could be heard from beyond the tall gates with the occasional happy scream suddenly piercing the air. Closer to the entrance and the massive structures of the rides could be seen: a rollercoaster, a big Ferris wheel, a helter-skelter. Below, kids stood watching, eating their sweets and snacks. Ice creams wobbled perilously over the cones and dripped down their small fingers as they melted from the summer heat.

Eiko and Selena walked in hand in hand with Zoey trailing right behind them, as she admired the fair and occasionally screamed about the space-themed games, all the while both Eiko and her mother would smile and encourage her to try the rocket launch wheel.

After running around all day, from one booth to another stuffing their faces with every cheesy fair food there is and after Eiko won a stuffed bunny for the little space princess (that’s Eiko’s nickname for Zoey) at the ring toss, to which Zoey decided to name Saturn (it was her favorite plant because it has 62 moons). On their way to the rocket launch wheel, they bumped into Alma and Levi.

[ one small talk and bad mom puns later ]

Selena pulled Alma aside near a ring toss booth,

“Hey, I know this might not be the right time and this probably your day off, but can I ask you for a favor ?”

“Point me to the body and it’ll be gone before you know it.”

“What no that’s-“

“It doesn’t matter now it’s gone and yes I’ll be your alibi.” Alma winked at her friend.

Giggling the mother gave her friend an eye roll.

“I’m kidding. I’m kidding. Unless there is a body and In that case of course. What can I do for you babes?”

“Never change Alma, never change. So anyways I wanted to take Eiko on a Ferris wheel ride you know trying to do this whole romantic thing and I’m kinda gonna drop the ‘L’ word and maybe.. kinda of.. sort of.. ask her to be my girlfriend?”

“The ‘L’ word? You mean Lesbian?”

Shoving playfully at her friend’s shoulder, Selena laughed.

“Alright say no more, Levi and I were headed to the hall of mirrors we’ll happily take Zoey with us. Go ahead do ya thing. I ship you guys so hard. GO!”

After saying goodbye to everyone and making sure that Zoey was okay with this, the two lovers went on their way hand in hand once again.

The line was a bit long at the Ferris wheel, but it was good a thing; because it gave Selena time to rehearse what to say to Eiko when they would be up high in the sky. This also spiked up her anxiety level to an impossible rate. I mean there she was about to ask this magnificent, beautiful, brilliant, breathtaking woman to be her girlfriend. after the hell she went through her whole life and recently with the custody battle you’d think she could face anything by now, she’d fear nothing. And for the most part, it was true. yes, she had no fears anymore well maybe one fear... what if Eiko doesn’t feel the same? What if she says no? What if she wants to keep it casual ... all these thoughts and what-ifs raced through her mind as she took a step forward into the line. Soon enough it was their turn.

The rest of the people in line got into the other empty carriages, and the operator started up the ride. Selena and Eiko’s carriage pulled up into the air.

As they sat side by side Selena was muttering the courage to take the first step and just come out and say it, but all she could think about was how close they were. Their thighs were almost touching, and that small, one-inch space seemed to be electrically charged. She has been with Eiko multiple times they have been dating for a while but they’ve never been this close and it drove her wild, her heart almost leaped out of her chest.

From this height, everything seemed so small–so far away–but Eiko was right there, so close to her. The rest of the fair, the rest of the town, the rest of the world, was just a backdrop behind her. All the people, the rides, the sounds, they all blended into the background, it’s like time froze at that moment.

The air was cold; a slight breeze blew through Selena’s jacket and lifted a tuft of Eiko’s hair up. And even though she was a hundred feet in the up in the air, with the whole town below her, that didn’t faze her at all. What made her stomach flip was the sight of the brilliant woman sitting next to her. 

Being with her made Selena’s heart bump at the speed of light, being in her presence sent heat traversing through her body, being with her took her breath away. The sky was full of stars. The fair was full of light, and the young brunette was more certain than before that she was absolutely in love with one doctor Eiko Matsunaga.

The wind blew past them again, carrying with it the faint smell of candy apples and the distant sound of people cheering, and Selena knew that this was the right moment.

“Hey, Eiko,” she started, looking out a the fair around them. “I have to tell you something.”

Her breath caught in her throat,

Trying with all her might to steady her beating heart, she took a deep breath and held on to the hem of her top for dear life.

“What?” the brilliant doctor whispered turning around a bright smile on her face.

“I, uh, I don’t know how to say this, oh dear god,” Selena stopped again letting out a shaky breath this time.

Eiko watched as her date tried to find the right words. all the while trying her hardest to keep from erupting with happiness.

She knew what Selena was trying to get at because she felt the exact same way.

“IM IN LOVE WITH YOU!” The brunette blurted out practically screaming.

A few seconds of silence went by and Selena wished the earth would swallow her whole.

When suddenly Eiko erupted into a fit of laughter “I’m melting, I can’t take it you’re too cute.”

The young doctor reached over for one of her soon-to-be-girlfriend’s hand; interlacing their fingers and closing in the space between them. No amount of stars or lights in the night could compare to the brightness Selena saw shining in Eiko’s eyes.

The young brunette let out a relived sigh, feeling like the weight of the world had been taken off of her shoulders. They both kept eye contact with each other, neither of them moving, both only inches apart.

“I love you too.” Eiko smiled, closing in the short distance between them, keeping her eyes closed mostly in fear of how strongly her heart was beating.

Their lips met, and the world stopped.

All around them, the fair faded away. There were no lights from other rides. There was no music. There were no other people. The stars didn’t even exist anymore. It was just them in their own little piece of infinity.

Selena felt as light as a feather. If not for the warmth of Eiko's lips, she would’ve thought she was floating, already high above the fair, past the stars, somewhere in a milky way.

They pulled away from each other, both with their eyes closed too, savoring the moment, and stretching their little infinity a bit longer. When Selena opened her eyes, she found Eiko staring back at her, making her stomach do backflips.. hell at this point it’s a full-on acrobat team down there.

“So does this mean I can call you my girlfriend now? Because I’ve been dying to get matching t-shirts.” Selena asked with a huge smirk on her face.

“Yes to the girlfriend part, and how about matching helmets so whenever my beautiful, sexy, smart, wonderful girlfriend would need a ride home, we’d be prepared.”

Blushing crimson at the way the word ‘girlfriend’ left Eiko’s lips, Selena nodded in content.

The Ferris wheel started moving again and startled Selena who had forgotten where they were entirely.

Sitting back against the seat–this time with no space between both of them beamed with joy, and for the first time in their lives they were blissfully happy.

Fin.

[kinktae]

holy crap!! I just noticed y/n’s family in bitchin is like stranger things !!!! I love that sm omg love it so far btw ♡

YESSSS thank u for noticing!! I have a lot of fun with writing bitchin i do hehe

(warning: literal 80 asks under the cut)

Anonymous said: not @ me reading bitchin’ during math literally SLAMMING YHE DESK

crystalsnowd said: I LOVED BITCHINNNN OMG UR SO TALENTED I CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT PART

Anonymous said: I was going to stay up to wait for Bitchin but I went to sleep instead because today is my first day of school (second year of university) so I decided to get sleep while I still could. Also I read the update on the train sitting next to a random lady and I really hope she didn’t look over at my phone lol. I loved the update and I can’t wait for the rest of the series!!!

Anonymous said: OMG BITCHIN WAS SO GOOD! You're such an amazing writer!!!

jun-sohyunnie-dotnet said: Just an fyi, bitchin' jk is my FAVORITE jk I've ever had the pleasure of reading. Ever. He could stomp all over me and I'd thank him profusely. (And you're writing is absolutely captivating 🥺💕💕)

sugarkinky said: Bitchin just wrecked me for real, U ARE AWESOME ROSE mierda que te amo chica ¿cómo consigues escribir así? Eres perfecta ❤

Anonymous said: Bruh bitchin was everything I wanted and more thank u baby

Anonymous said: Bitchin’ is amazing! I have so many feelings ahhhh!!! I love you and your work 🥺

awkwardaegyo said: YOU HAVE GOT ME SO THIRSTY FOR JUNGKOOK FUCKIN PARCHED D-HYDRATED IF YOU WILL BITCHIN HAS GOT ME FUCKEC UP!!!!!

Anonymous said: Bitchin' is literally my favourite fic right now, it's so good! 😍 Can't wait for the next part!!

gardenofrosesx said: Im in love with bitchin 🥺💗 I think that the song that represent it so well is Wait a minute by Willow Smith, every time a hear it I imagine this fic💗 I send you thousands of good vibes and love and peace to your side! Keep going 💗

Anonymous said: Ahhhh I just wanted to say bitchin is absolutely amazing and is so well written and I’m just completely hooked!!! YOU DID AMAZING!!! Also is there gonna be angst in future chapters BECAUSE IM REALLY NOT READY IF BOTH JUNGKOOK AND OC DENY THEIR FEELINGS FOR EACH OTHER

Anonymous said: girl, I finally got around to reading bitchin' and I CAN'T BELIEVE I DIDN'T READ IT SOONER. it's been a while since I've found a chaptered fic that kept my interests but I was hooked with pt 1!!! I love your spin on tatbilb, and I love the characters you created. I have to honestly say, I'm also absolutely in love with the way you write. your descriptions and dialogue hit me in all the right places. I can't wait to see where this story takes me. thank you for doing what you do!

Anonymous said: Love Bitchin so far!

Anonymous said: i keep rereading bitchin pt. 5😭😭 love it so much

Anonymous said: hi!! I just wanted to leave an ask and let you know that you’re one of my absolute favorite authors and your work is incredible!! the concept behind your rewind series is so unique and interesting and all of the stories have been wonderful so far. I’m so looking forward to the rest of bitchin’ because it has been so so so good and I love the way that you’re developing the characters and the plot. I hope you have a wonderful day!!

Anonymous said: just finished bitchin 5 and ................ i cant believe how ure able to write jungkook to Life and characterize him in such an attractive way it makes it so artistic and aknejdjdj it’s art it’s everything

Anonymous said: Argh the grind is real! I’m about to start my exams too so we can both be working our asses off! Also Bitchin is such a great series and I wanted to let you know you’re an amazing writer!!! The series made me so emotionally invested in the characters and I can’t get enough of it!! ITS SO GOOODDD THANK YOU FOR WRITING SUCH A MASTERPIECE

sanniinnas said: Hiii! Love your writings soo much! You have such a talent with words! You inspire me as a writer and make me want to learn writing and English better.

Anonymous said: I am seriously laughing from the asks that have been send to you and i cannot wait to read the ff because now i am busy :( also random fact, my biology teacher told us aboit Rosa Franklin and i already knew about her, and all i could keep thinking was bitchin pt5 and i started laughing. They thought i was a maniac 😎🤙

Anonymous said: just wanted to say bitchin’ is *chefs kiss* and i can’t wait for part 7 🥺 i’m not trynna rush you i’m just excited 🥺

nochusbutt said: okay but FIRST OF ALL, YES BITCHIN’ YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. secondly, my name is Rose too I’m so, what? omg yes I literally share a name with a legend. quote me!! 🥰☺️🤪

Anonymous said: Ahhh I am so excited for Bitchin Pt 6!!! No exaggeration this is my all time favorite fic, I think ab it a lot honestly. Whenever I see 80s aesthetic BTS edits I think of Bitchin and lots of love songs make me think of this fic too. I’m not a huge fan of smut but this fic is just so good. The OCs and Jks interactions are precious and I’m obsessed with the 80s theme! I am a huge fan of angst so I am ready to cry my eyes out. Thank you for writing this amazing fic

Anonymous said: aight...time to go re-read bitchin again ....[insert /ah shit, here we go again/ video]

Anonymous said: I CANT WAIT FOR BITCHIN

hear-me-growl said: Wait! Bitchin' is not done?! It's one of my favourite fics ever! I love the whole cliche college vibe, the dialogues are sooo good and the chemistry between Jk and the girl it's just perfect, really. And now you tell me it's not finished.😱 I AM SO EXCITED! you've made my day! Keep up the good work, you are amazing 😍

Anonymous said: AAAAAAAA THE BITCHIN UPDATE WAS SO GOOD !!!!! but also Kiri that bItCh y/n don’t fall for it 🤡😩

Anonymous said: i want sleep but BITCHIN

Anonymous said: IM PUMPED FOR BITCHINYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Anonymous said: Thankyou for updating bitchin sis!!!! But im so sad because this is their first fight(?) i hope they can talk about it and hoping kiri doesnt talk nonsense tp y/n ok :( but I AM GLAD JUNGKOOK REALIZE HE LIKES OC OKEY OKEY! 💜💜💜 sending 💜💜💜💜 to you because you deserve it👏🏼

diortae said: rose I have class in a few minutes and all I can think about is how much I want bitchin jk to raw me what have u DONE

Anonymous said: BITCHIN WAS GREATTTT 🥰 RLLY CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT CHAPTT 🥺🥺

sunnyoongles said: bitchin is literally so good*chefs kiss* i love angst*chefs kiss* i love drama*chefs kiss* i just love the whole rewind series*chefs kiss*

Anonymous said: BITCHIN’ PART 6 EXCUSE ME STOP TRYING TO HURT MY FEELINGS IM NOT READY FOR THE ANGST

ppampin said: so yesterday i read bitchin pt. 6 three times in a row because it was just so good and now i can't wait to pt. 7 to come out

Anonymous said: Finally got to read bitchin 6, WTF IS GOING ON!? I’m so confused!! Do I trust my so called boyfriend or do I trust “girl code” by my boo’s ex who tried to scare me away from my boo the first time we met ??!!?

Anonymous said: i really need to know something about bitchin 🤔 is kiri a bitch or we don't have feminine rivalry here? help me out rose

Anonymous said: It is almost 1 am in here and I have a morning class but guess who is gonna binge re read all the Bitchin because the last chapter was so good?? 🤔

Anonymous said: I’m so ready for you to break our hearts in bitchin. I live for the angst 😭😭😪

Anonymous said: Rose you are KILLING ME with this story like I'm not even caught up on my favorite TV shows this week but goddammit I still made time for Bitchin' 💕💕💕

cheeky-kookie said: Girl I am sooooo fucking happy with Bitchin' 6. Like I love the small progressions Jungkook is having coming to terms with his actual feelings with Y/N. Also btw, loving the whole Yara/Tae moments going on ;) As always, I'm in love. Thank you for blessing us with this masterpiece

Anonymous said: Rosie !! I just read Bitchin’ and BIIIIITCH you have my feelings on a rollercoaster !!!!!! I’ve never been so invested in a fanfic like this and imma tell you how much I appreciate you for putting your work out on the internet. Especially for free like wtf ! Your writings are some quaLITY shit that I would purchase without hesitation 👌🏽👏🏽 I was wondering if you ever considered going into the writing career ? Anyways have a lovely day 💛💛 -MC

Anonymous said: This ch 6 getting all the attention away from my precious zombie Jungkook 😤 But who am I to say I love Bitchin😂😍 This Kiri better not be playing dirty games we are already not in good terms with her 🧐 And why is nobody talking about the fact that Y/N finally got her event she dreamed of?? Congrats girlll 🎊🎉🥳👌👏

Anonymous said: EXCUSE ME DID I READ THAT U SAID BITCHIN WILL BE ANGSTY FROM HERE ON OUT WBAT MY HEART I CANG FJSHSHDJS

sapphireprinces5 said: I am 1000% not ready for angst between the precious y/n and Jungkook in Bitchin’ omfg i’m honestly terrified and going to buy some tissues from the cvs across the street

Anonymous said: I JUST FINISHED READING BITCHIN 6 AND JUNGKOOK PLS TELL ME THAT JUNGKOOK IS OVER KIRI )))): he couldn’t have been lying about the way he felt for y/n even though it was reheated, right??? I’m SADD. But Rose, you are so beyond talented!!! I love reading your works!!!

Anonymous said: Ok, Rose you gotta let me know if Bitchin’ will have a happy ending, because I don’t know if my emotions can handle an upseti spaghetti ending. Anywho I love you and your writing, everything is chefs kiss. 💗

Anonymous said: bitchin will have 10 parts?????? ma'am u got the power

Anonymous said: OKAY SO BITCHIN’ IS AMAZING AND LIKE— I LOVE (1) DUMB “”””COUPLE”””” Your writing is amazing omg

Anonymous said: Me: already read bitchin completely You: reblogs pt.6 Me: a little refresher wouldn’t hurt 👀

Anonymous said: I wish u the best during your hiatus!!! Take lots of care bby :3 Just wanted to tell you how much I love the 'Bitchin' series, I'm shooketa at how well written it is. Y/N is a really refreshing character, especially as an STEM major myself, it's so relatable to some extent, especially when it comes to appreciating compliments about your inteligence, that really got me, since it's kinda unsual. I hope I found a Jungkook one day then :') jk, but really, I absolutely loved it, you're the best!!!

Anonymous said: hi just so u r aware if u make the end of bitchin’ sad i will cry. that will be on u. my tears will be UR fault.

Anonymous said: i just wanted to say thank you. when bitchin’ came out, there was a part where y/n talks about why she hated her twin sisters. it was comforting to know that i wasn’t alone in feeling uncool or boring. i never brought up my brother because i thought people would see how uncool i was and so i put my effort into school instead. thanks for bringing me comfort and for pushing me to love myself more and to change my viewpoints on the parts of myself i view as boring!!!!! 💛💛💛💛💛💛🌼

this made me :’))) i love knowing that you can find comfort in my characters!!! there is a little piece of me in all my characters but I do try to make them all somewhat different so that other people can relate. best of luck lovely!!

purplealiensblog said: Yo ily and cant wait for the next chapter of bitchin but i have to share: i got a notif on a new chapter and was all excited and then i discover its tumblr being glitchy again and notifying me on the last one :( i hope you will find time soon to write the rest and thank you for writing i love your work🥰♥️

Anonymous said: BITCH I JUST FINISHED READING BITCHIN IN JUST ONE DAY AND NOW I’M CRYING BECAUSE THIS IS MY NEW FAVORITE FIC OF ALL TIME!!!.!.!.! (also sorry my bad englisheu i’m not native lmao)

Anonymous said: HELLO LOVELY AAAAAAAA IM HAPPY YOURE BACK 😩 are u reallyback tho? Hehe im so shookt with the new chapter of bitchin’ has me yearning for more😭 im def a proud bitchinator😔👏 tHANK YOU FOR THIS GIFT BEFORE CHRISTMAS😃 WE LOVE U!!!!💜 we MISSED YOU!! 💜 i hope u are loved and happy and cared for! 💜K

Anonymous said: Hi there !!I hope your doing well ! Taking your time to recover and work on yourself I literally just finshed bitchin to the last update and oof I just gotta tell you what the f How do you write the characters so well... I love me some good characterization like oof ICANNOT JJK IS SO I WANNA SMOOSH HIM IN MY ARMS LIKE PLEASE THE STORY IS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING HAHA I HOPE IM NOT SCARING YOU WITHMY CAPSLOCK I just wish to sincerely get my excitement across hahaha I love you boo take care x

nonecesitodenadie said: I rarely send asks but... I'm reading bitchin and I'M LOVING IT, really it's amazing i hope that you can continue it, i send you much love and thanks for your work you're so talented 🥺❤️

Anonymous said: can i just say bitchin' is honest to god such a good good good fic like i'm so in l*ve with it 😩 i've probably reread it thrice waiting for a new update ): i also happen to love your other works so much as well!!

sydney--chan said: Okay so no cap yesterday I was talking to my friend (who also reads your work) about me and my bf n she was like "he loves you the way Bitchin' jk loves Y/N aND I SOBBED ROSE IT MADE ME CRY FOR HOURS

usagionthem00n said: Lol I know you’ve been kinda quiet on here BUT IM HERE TO PLATONICALLY HARASS U???(tbh idk I’m just trying to find a reason to bother you) I-I miss u 👉👈 HOPE THIS POST MADE U SMILE ILL BE BACK BITCH (Um speaking of bitches I still need to join the bitchinators :/) I PROMISE ILL GET TO IT!!!

Anonymous said: HIIII! so, one night I spent about two hours trying to find another great Jungkook story... I was losing hope in finding one BUT THEN I FOUND “BITCHIN” and omg it’s amazing, I absolutely love it!!!!! take care always, have a great day!! thank you for creating such a beautiful story.

Anonymous said: Can I just say.... bitchin is so good! like it’s been so long since I’ve liked a fic as much as bitchin??!!? Everything about it has me like :)))) so yes just wanted to let u know hehe

Anonymous said: IM ACTUALLY OBSESSED W THE “BITCHIN” SERIES YOU DONT EVEN KNOW 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

SO MANY OF U LOVIN ON BITCHIN!! MAYHAPS IM OVERWHELMED (in the best way possible). Thank u everyone who sent an ask in, i am the happiest bean in bed rn reading all these asks C:

[bakugou-tm]

hello !!! may i request a scenario of baku and his girl hanging out with the bakusquad and when baku leaves the group for a quick second, a boy comes and tries to hit on his girl & the boys of the group come and help her cause she looked uncomfortable ? im not sure if that’s within ur rules, if u have any, and if it even makes sense LMFAO but u dont have to write it if you dont want to. im a hugee fan of your work

Totally I love this idea! Bakusquad protecc, but they also attacc ;) Sorry it’s so short I’ve been a bit busy, but I hope you enjoy!

“Wow Bakugou, how’d you catch a girl like this?”

The ash blond groaned at his friends question while you giggled softly at it, holding on to your boyfriend’s side.

The Bakusquad decided to spend the weekend out at the city fair, and since Bakugou knew how much his girlfriend loved rollercoasters he regrettably invited her to join his group of friends.

“Seriously she’s the sweetest girl on the planet! You two are polar opposites!” Mina said with a grin, her pink arms hugging onto you.

“Dude Mina’s right you two are polar opposites! She’s funny, you’re not. She’s smart, you’re not. She’s interesting, you’re not. And she’s hot and you’re not!” Kaminari said teasingly, earning a growl from Bakugou.

“Shut it dunce face, last time I checked you barely fucking passed the exam. I got the second highest grade!”

Looking up to your raging boyfriend you kissed his cheek in an attempt to calm him down, “That’s my smart boy, all though you didn’t get the highest grade.”

Bakugou glared down to your smirking form as his friends bursted into laughter, causing the once fuming boy to actually begin smoking in annoyance.

“This one is definitely a keeper.” Kirishima said with a toothy grin, causing you to smile back. 

All of your friends had told you that if your boyfriend’s friends don’t like you, then your relationship would never work. Of course you didn’t believe them but the fact that his friends did like you made you feel a tiny bit better.

“Whatever I’m going to use the damn bathroom before I piss my pants, stay here.” Bakugou hissed, glaring down to you before he shoved his hands in his pockets and walked to the restrooms.

Shaking your head with a grin you looked back to his friends, attempting to listen in on their talk about class today. Even though you didn’t go to UA you loved the stories you heard, the life at a top notch hero school was far from boring. 

Listening in you couldn’t help but snort when they talked about their teacher, “W..Wait, your teacher come in.. in a sleeping bag?”

The four looked to you with grins nodding quickly, how on earth did the teacher even walk around?

“Yup he’s the most powerful lazy guy I’ve ever met, he just crawls around in this puffy sleeping bag all day.” Sero explained, your giggles continuing at how absurd it sounded.

While the Bakusquad continued on you kept on listening until you felt a tap on your shoulder, causing you to turn around to see who it was.

“What’s up little momma? What are you doing around here dressed like that?” Raising an eyebrow to the three boys you looked down to your outfit. All you had on was shorts and one of Bakugou’s sweatshirts, what was so bad about it?

“Um, do I know any of you?” You spoke quietly, assuming they were probably upperclassmen that went to your school or something

When the three boys chuckled at you like you weren’t even there you raised an eyebrow, especially when the tall one slung his arm around you, “Not yet you don’t but if you hang around with us for awhile…”

Your (e/c) eyes widened when they tried to lead you away from your new group of friends who were distracted with their own conversation.

“L..Look I don’t know you guys, and I have a boyfriend.” You said more sternly this time as you ducked out from under the boy’s arm, but your response only made the boy annoyed.

“Stop being so annoying chick, we’re just trying to have some fun that’s all.” The boy to his right said grabbing you by the sleeve of your hoodie and tugging you foward.

“Hey! Stop that!” You yelped, whipping your head back to your friends in hopes that they would notice you. Luckily Mina already caught on to what was happening.

“Guys (s/o) is being bother by those guys.” Mina hissed, narrowing her eyes to the three boys that kept putting their hands all over you.

Narrowing his eyes, Kirishima stormed up to the three boys, Sero and Kaminari close behind.

“Excuse me but I don’t think our friend here wants you grabbing all over her.” Kirishima said sternly, his red eyes narrowing to the tall boy.

Your (e/c) eyes softened when you saw the three familiar boys appear, feeling much better about the situation until a firm arm wrapped around your waist, tugging you back against a hard body.

“Why don’t you mind your own business shark teeth and we’ll be on our way.” The boy responded in a cold tone, holding you away from your friends as you tried to wriggle out of his grasp, not wanting to make a big scene.

“Hey man, let her go before we force you too.” Kaminari hissed, his hand beginning to spark up as his three friends followed in a fighting stance.

The boy holding you sneered, keeping his grip tighter on you causing you to squeak in pain as his two friends got in a fighting stance. “Take these hero wannabes out so we can take the girl home.”

Those were the boy’s final words.

When the first boy’s arm formed into a hammer, Kirishima and Kaminari were quick to dodge the attack swung at them while Sero went after the guy holding you.

Kirishima wasted no time to harden his arm, punching the hammer boy in the face before grabbing his hammer shaped arm and swinging him into an empty tent stand.

Kaminari focused on the next boy that was running to him with a sticky substance dripping from his fingers, not knowing what the substance was the blond made sure to stay away from his touch, shocking the boy before he came close enough to touch him.

Sero watched as the boy holding on to you attempted to walk off into the crowd, his tape flying from his elbow to wrap around the boy’s torso before flinging the two of you back to him.

“I’ll take her.” Sero hummed, snatching you from his grasp before Kirishima came up to the boy who was once holding you and punched him in the face with his hardening quirk, causing him to fall to the ground.

Once Sero let go of you, you looked around to the crowd that was staring at the five of you before looking back to the boys with a grateful smile. 

“Y..You guys are amazing, thank you so much.” You muttered, the boys smiling to you as Mina wrapped her arms around you with a concerned face.

“Oh my gosh are you okay (s/o)? I’m so sorry we didn’t come sooner, we didn’t even see you get dragged off by those guys!” 

Letting out a sigh you smiled to the girl, hugging her back before pulling away, “Yeah I’m fine, I thought I might’ve known them but when they started getting all grabby it was too late.”

Shuddering at the thought of what could’ve happened if the Bakusquad wasn’t there, you had never been more happy to hear your boyfriend’s familiar angry voice.

“Oi oi, what the hell is going on here?” Bakugou hissed, shoving through the crowd to get to the five of you.

Looking up you quickly latched on to your boyfriend, feeling completely safe at his side before moving away just enough to talk to him.

“Some creepy guys tried to take me away, b..but your friends where there to save me.” You explained, watching the fury on his expression slowly rise, “Your friends are really awesome by the way.”

Bakugou’s crimson eyes looked down to you to make sure you were okay before looking over to his friends with a somewhat grateful look.

“Thank you shit heads, I owe ya one.” The ash blond murmured, his friends smiling at the sorry attempt of gratitude before Bakugou’s fists began to smoke, “Now where are the fuckers that tried to take (s/o) away?”

Kirishima sneered as he pointed to the three pathetic looking boys trying to crawl away from the group unsuccessfully, “That would be those three.”

Bakugou’s lips formed into a sinister smirk as his punched his fist against his palm forming a small explosion “What do you say we make those bastards make sure they never touch another girl again?”

The Bakusquad grinned up to their leader before their eyes fell to the three boys now praying for their lives.

But they would need a lot more than praying.

[yuzuria]

for 1, komahina, pekozuki, kirizono and for 2 komaeda and kirigiri. sorry if its too much;;

not at all!! i appreciate spamming me more, thank you oliver~ ily <3

001 | komahina: (i’ve had this meme before and answered this but i’ll do it again and see if some stuff changed hehe)

when I started shipping it if I did: a lil after dr3 ended and i fully got back in dr fandom after 3 years o(--(

my thoughts: always the first spot in my heart, i always rant about them in twt and i don’t think i can ever fully convey what i feel about them but they’re the most canon ship i’ve ever had and it gave me fulfillment ha ha ;;;

What makes me happy about them: all of their interactions are significant and sheds light on each of their development, komaeda continues to push hinata forward even after his death and meanwhile hinata destroyed komaeda’s toxic worldview and mind you, didn’t give the hope to komaeda but made komaeda realize the hope is within himself and overall their rship conveys such a strong message. komaeda may not be the one who made the final act to make hinata move on and face their future but he’s the one hinata’s with in that future 

What makes me sad about them: facing the other is like facing oneself and their flaws which makes this ship really complicated because they argue a lot even if that’s the process to becoming better people where komaeda’s pushed to stop accepting what comes to him and learn to change himself while hinata needed acceptance within himself, but because komaeda offed himself their rship ended rocky like a broken wild rollercoaster and it was thrown over and we’ve seen how much komaeda’s death affected hinata because hinata only thought that he wouldn’t see komaeda anymore after the killing game over not because he died, what makes me sad is this complex exploration will always be limited in the fandom bc people will see it as abusive or unhealthy or for yaoizz sake from either haters or fans, it’s sometimes sad to be in this fandom and see all misinterpretations and hate all around but ha ha #justfandomthings

things done in fanfic that annoys me: the ridiculous fanon characteristics, you know what are they, too many to mention, i hate most of their interpretations im a really cranky grandma as a result with fight or flight response to their content online

things I look for in fanfic: rn i want more tdp <3

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: the people i dont mind for them are already dead (matsuda (which in my heart is komaeda’s canon first love) for komaeda  and natsumi for hinata) 

My happily ever after for them: dr3 sucks but they already have the happy ending i could ask for, just... hopefully they came to terms and closure from the simulation and are in whatever situation they think best for their future, not even me can dictate it for them <3

who is the big spoon/little spoon: hinata/komaeda

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: having dates in animal cafes...like cat cafe....dog cafe..hedgehog cafe... *sobs*

001 | pekozumi

when i started shipping it if i did: has it been last year or early this year i cant recall

my thoughts: they both have a problem being selfless and looking out for others over themselves and i think it balances out if they’re the one who looks out for each other... 

what makes me happy about them: their tdp is so good!! koizumi taking a picture of peko smiling and making peko realize the things that make her happy is so pure.... 

what makes me sad about them: we didn’t get to see a resolution with you know... “i killed you for my master who killed your former girlfriend who killed his sister...” 

things done in fanfic that annoys me: it doesn’t exist

things i look for in fanfic: ANYTHING

who i’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: nope, their major ships are lowkey my notps so no thanks

my happily ever after for them: i want to see them explore the world together, koizumi taking pictures of smiles as the world is being rebuild while peko looks for her own happiness recovering from her attitude with seeing herself as a mere tool

who is the big spoon/little spoon: they switch <3

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: koizumi learns to love taking selfies only with peko bc they make embarrassed faces but they think the other is v cute so they do it often <3

001 | kirizono

when I started shipping it if I did: also in 2016, i saw them beside each other and it shook me how blind for so long for not noticing them

my thoughts: tragic highschool sweethearts

What makes me happy about them: even though they didn’t interact once in dr1 we have enough idea how they would act towards each other, they both can read people well and are both reserved and dedicated to their talents and those are, but in their class pictures they looked close so i’ll hold on to that they were lovers before the killing game and sayaka died without them remembering it, also their one (1) interaction in tdp is precious,, they can read each other so well and are concerned for each other uuuu;;;

What makes me sad about them: they. didn’t, interact, AT ALL!! UNTIL TDP AND THAT UMBRELLA POSTER  SPIKE MADE. 

things done in fanfic that annoys me: i havent read much but from what i’ve read eeee it’s fine but not my flavor (i want more angst and more mundane situations...)

things I look for in fanfic: non despair au where they go in adventure and fall in love, hpa days where they fall in love, when kirigiri remembers their hpa days and grieve, au where naegi dies instead of sayaka and she becomes the protag (i’ve had this idea before drv3 okay)

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: non

My happily ever after for them: kirigiri holds onto sayaka’s memories and doesn’t marry/have a relationship with anyone (fuck naegi) until she dies and reunite with sayaka..... or sayaka lives... pls LET SAYAKA LIVE I’M CRYING SO MUCH 

who is the big spoon/little spoon: switch <3 but they mostly face each other, tender eye contact and soft touches before they lull to sleep together....

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: card games

002 | komaeda

how i feel about this character: my dearest angel

all the people i ship romantically with this character: hinata, matsuda, kamukura im trash

my non-romantic otp for this character: sonia, kirigiri, kuzuryuu, koizumi, amami

my unpopular opinion about this character: komaeda isn’t gaga for kamukura because he’s the embodiment of hope and talents, it’s quite the opposite lmao, komaeda believes in natural-born talent and the will to make it flourish and improve which kamukura neither isn’t so it’s so so so boring when people only thinks of kamukoma this way, komaeda is capable of hating kamukura, in fact he’s more likely to hate kamukura than love him because of his passive listless attitude despite being capable of turning tides

one thing i wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: what i wanted in canon already made magi happen so i don’t expect much anymore bc kdk isn’t the best person wrapping up his characters that’s why it’s so convenient 60+% of his characters are dead

my otp: hikoma

my cross over ship: komaeda/amami for that fwb au i have... also platonic komaeda/tae (gintam) where they cook together and make everything on fire

a headcanon fact: komaeda’s first love is matsuda, komaeda’s house/mansion isn’t empty but rather have a huge well-kept collection of his eccentric tastes and things he got via his luck and remember each story behind them, how many people was caught up with his bad luck or what he experienced

002 | kirigiri

how i feel about this character: my bestest girl

all the people i ship romantically with this character: sayaka

my non-romantic otp for this character: komaeda, dr1 girls, sonia

my unpopular opinion about this character: ppl barely talk about her so idk what’s unpopular or popular... maybe i just don’t see naegiri as a romantic thing or tonaegiri as a trio

one thing i wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: be an actual good character in dr3 like who she is in dr1

my otp: kirizono

my cross over ship: no

a headcanon fact: she rides a motorcycle

[smireyac]

fuck this year man u dont even get cute emojis in the title this time

so lemme just start by saying fuck 2020 

now that we’re on the same page, lets get into it

so i dont have to explain all the reasons why this year sucked bc u just need to google 2020 and there will be a million reasons why it was TOTAL FUCKING GARBAGE...... usually when so many people collectively say a year sucked ass, i can be like “oh it wasnt *all* bad for me, personally” haha not this year!!! 

its super fucking depressing to look at how hopeful and positive i was about 2020 a year ago..... ofc there was no way for me to have known it would all go to shit but i still really appreciate the tone i had set... reading over the previous reflections and seeing how harsh and negative i was @ myself made the softness of last years post super refreshing.... 

now i said i dont *have* to explain all the ways 2020 was shitty, but i am gonna explain the biggest reason this year was shitty for me, personally..... it might seem really small in comparison to the ways 2020 was shitty as a whole on like a global scale? but really the biggest reason 2020 sucked ass was i didnt get to really hang out with any of my friends in real life for 9 out of the 12 months of the year.... and really it was like the first week of march that shit hit the fan so like really it was only 2 months that we got to see each other....... if u rmbr p much every previous retrospective post ive made, there was a big emphasis on friends..... ive come to realize that im actually a very *extra*verted person??? despite my overall shyness and homebody attitude, i would always choose to hang out with people over being alone so stay-at-home orders FUCKING SUCKED??? when we all thought it would be over in a couple weeks, maybe a month it was fine?? hey its a good time to draw or catch up on that reading and/or writing i said i was gonna do maybe even start learning to drive?? it’ll be no big deal THEN it wasn’t over in a month and it wasnt gonna BE over anytime soon and no one important was doing anything about it and its an election year and black lives have always mattered and yet everything is so uncertain and

[inhale]

[exhale]

this year was..... a lot...... too much in fact

in 2018, i had said that i watched vox’s video on the year in 5 mins and cried... if i watched this year in five minutes, i dont think i would be able to breathe...... 

SO instead of making myself CRY..... lets try to think about any GOOD things that happened and think about what we can do to make 2021 good for ourselves:

GOOD THINGS THAT HAPPENED:

-i *didn’t* lose my job!! sad that so many others cannot say the same but im trying to make myself feel *better* not WORSE so i got to keep my job and i actually work more hours than before so!!

-i actually *did* learn to drive this year!!!! and im pretty good at it??? for someone that just started this year anyway?? i probably *would* have my DRIVER’S LICENSE right now if it weren’t for a surge in cases in a certain STATE that i happen to live in......... but w/e its fine i get more time to practice and im ~~**DEFINITELY**~~ going pass my test and get my license ~whenever it is that i can reschedule my dmv appt~

lmfao its so funny that last year, i was absolutely *dreading* learning to drive but i so fucking get why everyone was like ‘you need to learn how to drive’ i legit love it so much???? ive always been a car person but that was like purely for the aesthetic but now that i can drive im just....... WOOOW this really is what freedom feels like.... like ik that public transportation is amazing and i will always champion it but nothing beats being purely in control of your destination.... i also wanted to buy myself a car for my birthday even tho i couldnt really drive yet but then sien had to fix smthg on her car and it was EXPENSIVE AF and my mom was like “u dont need to buy a car yet” so i put the brakes [haha] on that... but soon... once i get my license,,, then i will have u my love................. so with that being “my most serious goal of 2020″ im glad i did it

-i was one of lucky ones and got unemployment when i couldn’t work so i have a lot of money saved in the bank??? pls no one steal my identity i wanna use that money to buy myself a car and/or for when we move out 🤞🤞 we’ll just have to wait and seeeeee....................

-i had mentioned playing dnd last year too and thats been going STRONG as hell thank goodness....... we couldnt keep playing in person but when we moved it to online, not only did we actually get to hang out a lot more, we made more friends??? introduced new people to the group?? its so good and in fact probably the only thing that kept me even a little bit sane this year...... 

-this is more of an honorable mention than an accomplishment but im this 🤏close to catching up with critical role and thats partially thanks to the pandemic lmao sooooo ??? 

aaaaaaand thats p much it lol i didnt really accomplish any of my other goals bc reasons................. but!!! as cliche as it sounds, with a light at the end of the tunnel, im confident that i can turn that all around this year.... so if 2016 was the year of change, 2017 was the year of getting used to shit, 2018 was the year of getting *too* used to shit and 2019 ended up being the year of friends, 2020 was the year of absolute shit and it doesn’t fucking count....... i learned a lot this year, biggest lesson of all is that life is short and if i were to have died at any point last year, what the fuck would i have to show for it??? so usually i end up giving a theme or name to a year after its done but this time im determined to make 2021 into what i want it to be SO i am declaring this year, the year of our lord 2021, the year of new experiences!!!! what the fuck does that mean you ask? well ill tell you!!! im gonna try new things this year!! make a very pointed effort to do things outside my comfort zone?? and for my goals this year, im going back to my old way of making a huge list of stuff u wanna do and seeing how much i can actuallly accomplish!! now i said theres a light but we really dont know when all this shit will end and life will go “bAcK tO nOrMaL” so whos to say ill get to accomplish any of it? at the same time, there are plenty of stuff on the list that i can do within the pandemic set parameters so!! lets see this list!!

2021 GOALS:

[check boxes bc there is no plain box emoji lmao]

☑️ read new books!! i’ll keep last years goal bc i didnt meet it and i have good reads now which tells me i just need to read 1.5 books a month to reach that goal!! huzzah!

☑️ watch new shows and new movies b4 u end up watching shit you’ve already seen a million times... i bought an old planner for 2020 instead of 2021 by accident but i hope it will help keep track of the movies/shows along with the books too!

☑️ listen to new music!! this years spotify wrapped was garbo it only had like 3 albums and a bunch of other shit i always listen to so i gotta fix that lmfao

☑️ write new stories!! i am comforted by the shit ive been writing for the past like 7 years but if my screenplay class taught me anything its that there are a lot of stories to tell and i got so many ideas floating around in this noggin!! instead of an arbitrary word count, why dont i say write idk 3 new stories, start to finish, in whatever medium idc screenplay, short story, comic, twine WHATEVER!! do it!

☑️ eat new food!! lmao this one seems the most silly to me but ive never had indian food, ive never had [not really anyway] korean food, i want to find new restaurants and eat new food!!! yum!

☑️ go on a road trip!!

☑️ visit some place ive never been before!!

☑️ go on a hike??

☑️ go to mexico again

☑️ ride a scary rollercoaster you previously wouldnt have

☑️ go to a club

☑️ get silly drunk fr 

☑️ FUCK IT go on dates!! self date friend dates sister date cousin dates R- Romantic... dates ??? FUCK IT!!! YEAH!! DATE ALL UP IN THIS BITCH!!

☑️ learn to use blender

☑️ animate something 

☑️ make a big painting

☑️ cosplay ???? AHH

☑️ learn to roller skate lmao u bought the skates and were so excited for them!! 

☑️ go somewhere SUPER DARK and go see some real stars!!!! 

☑️ and to top it all off, throw the airbnb house party that we’ve been talking about for MONTHS lmao 

hmmmm,, i think thats a good enough list for now ?? another thing i wanted to accomplish.... that im scared to speak into existence bc then i cant back out of doing it...........and it doesnt align with the whole “new” spirit of 2021 but.......... i want to like start making apartments for rent????? like i want to have something of it to show by, if not the 8th anniversary then by the end of the year HHUFF THERE I SAID IT......... no turning back now.......... 

alright its almost midnight on.... whats this? its already jan. 1st??? lmao yeah fuck it i didnt keep up with anything i normally did this year who cares i made up the rules i can break them too lol  

so yeah 

we’ll see what this year brings us,,,,

hoo boy

[jmowatstuff]

Monthly Media - June 2017

June flipping whizzed by. However there was some media consumption for sure.

MOVIES

Oh, Hello: On Broadway (2017) - ★★★★

Treat a 4 like a 6 and she'll be grateful?

I've become a huge fan of Nick Kroll very recently and rapidly after seeing his seemingly carefree and totally unphased character work. This is a total example of that, with some bits seeming like they don't land as best as possible, but Mulaney and Kroll's sheer commitment to each character pulled it through for me. The more I got to know the disturbed George and Gil the more I found them funny. Was also great to see them interview Steve Martin and nerd out hard over the fact he is an absolute comedy legend and they are relatively young in the game. Or that’s how it seemed, which I liked.

Logan (2017) - ★★★★

Finally got round to watching this. Forgot it was R-rated until I saw multiple decapitations and swear-bears. Hearing Charles Xavier swear cracked me up. Also thought Stephen Merchant crushed. Huge Jacked-man OBVIOUSLY crushed. Double Hugh was appreciated and unexpected. Muchos enjoymenté.

My Scientology Movie (2015) - ★★★½

Watched with context of knowing that it was different to most of Louis' films, so that made the stylised filming and editing easier to get on board with. However it did kinda make Scientology seem like a joke when at multiple points in the film it seems obvious that Scientology is a poisonous thing that is hurting people under David Miscabbage. However I did enjoy some lols as well as some knowledge gained.

GAMES

Monument Valley 2 (2017) - ★★★★

There aren’t any iOS games good enough to make me pay £5 for their sequel without a second though, apart from Monument Valley. After the beautiful, puzzley experience of the first game, it was a no-brainer to buy the sequel. I didn’t even know it existed until Mr. Bingo sold-out and advertised it on his Instagram, but I’m REAL GLAD HE DID. Isometric brain-meltage now mixed with mother & child emotional rollercoasting??? Sign me UP! This made many subway journeys a total joy, to the point that I was totally engrossed in it and was snapped at by a middle-aged woman who rightly wanted me to move up as I was holding up approximately 29 people trying to get into my carriage. Sorry lady.

TV

Mad Men: Season 1 (2007) - ★★★½ (so far)

So I haven’t actually finished this season, but I wanted to write about it as it’s the first show in a while I’ve actually managed to get over the inertia of starting, whilst knowing there are multiple seasons ahead of me to plow through. However, Jon Hamm’s cool, dirty, messed-up, mysterious antihero has intrigued me enough that I need to know how the Drapes will hang. The first episode perplexed me a little, with the retro editing style and the deliberate cheese, but both those things are serving as refreshments compared to the usual hour-long drama formats I’ve seen.

READING

Mountains of Schoolwork my Parents Kept From Ages 5-14 (1999-2008)

Being a vain narcissist, when I found out mum & dad had a large collection of my schoolwork from my younger youth, I had to dig it out and read it and reminisce about how much of a child prodigy and/or legend I was back in the day. Obviously that is not true and I was a total assbean, but still hilarious to read. Highlights included my short stories written in a very cringe-inducing format with many ellipses and middle-aged-woman-style exclamations and phrases peppered throughout. Thanks Mum.

PODCASTS

Bill is Boring (2017 - present)

When you hear about ordinary people you know making a podcast, you are met with the clashing emotions of excitement and scepticism. Naturally. However, even though my encounter with Billiam Robinson was fleeting in a skatepark in a summer camp in Ontario in Canada in Earth, the encounter did suggest that he was an endearing and humorous fellow. This podcast has proved such suggestions, as he keeps the conversation hyped and intelligently dumb which is what a podcast should be. Go listen!! They’re an independent podcast and your support will make you feel nice!

MUSIC

Thanks to Obscurify Music I was able to get an actual statistical insight into my most listened.

J Dilla (artist)

Thanks to the Bill is Boring (see above) episode with the musical prophet Matt Im, I heard about J Dilla, even though I’d literally never heard of him before. I went and listened to his top tracks on Spotify, and ended up leaving him on for like 3 albums without noticing. Great, chilled, major-key beats, that satisfied my usual dis-satisfaction with modern rap/trap/hip-hop/rip-rap/trapped-myself music.

Black Sabbath (artist)

Had an inkling for some classic Ozzy vocals and booming shreds this month. I like to navigate amongst the ‘life is the worst and therefore so is whoever god is’ to the ‘yeah lets do it i love drugs and being hardcore’ songs, cause they get me amped. To be fair to them, they do have some pretty good philosophical lyrics, but I came for irresponsible Ozzy.

Tame Impala (artist)

Had another refresh with different ozzies (haha), who I’d almost forgot existed, which is a tragedy as they are just great. Currents is a beauty of an album, with just the right amount of ambience and beat to get you through some work. It’s almost as if you have an impala but instead of being wild it is house-trained or something similar.

A Man Called Anthony - Magnus International (song)

This song is just a summery banger that is literally the same beat over and over and over again but the melody is just very nice on the ears and the bass is nice on the diaphragm so why change it? Exactly.

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All in all a good month of media. Also really enjoyed exploring some illustration style with the accompanying illos. Going to try and keep it up in some form every month, picking a certain way of drawing and sticking with it for every illustration. Yeah. DRAWING!

[sincerely-amyd]

july 2017 updates

a boring title just for organizational purposes... 

currently listening to fa ru xue by jay chou. its like almost 2am aka my fav time ??? i always get these random nostalgic weird moments where im like woah what am i doing with my life and who am i??? k gonna type properly now lol

So I kind of just need to journal it all out to figure stuff out. It makes me feel like I’m being myself. That doesn’t really make sense but when I’m listening to my favorite songs and just typing whatever comes to mind, I feel so at peace. It makes me remember how much I miss thinking. I literally love just thinking. When I visualize it, I see a tree being watered and the water going to each of the roots and the tips of the roots... in the same way I have to think through all my thoughts to water them all. Then I feel replenished. Some times I know I have all these thoughts but I don’t have time to think through them. I rush through life too much. I miss being me. Happy, simple Amy.

I feel so bitter about my past 4 years. Everyone had so much fun in university and I feel like I’ve been robbed of the experience of could of have. I f*cking hate U of T with a passion. I feel like a teen mom. With countless expectations. I’m tired of living for my parents. I just want to do what makes me happy. I want to be selfish. I’m tired of being bad cop. I’m tired of being the one who cares the most. I wish I was carefree, easy going. I want to be happy. I feel like I’m not happy. I have this huge desire to travel and see more of the world. I feel so insignificant and tiny.

I have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life. When I listen to mando pop it does make me wish that Jeff was mando and that he could understand how much I love Taiwanese music. I feel like we don’t connect over the same songs. The songs that make me feel so much he can’t understand. I guess its the same vice versa. I kinda want to watch another Taiwanese drama. 

Updates on my life: Jeff and I have a good relationship. Things are stable, I’m happy. He treats me well. I know he cares. I trust him. I hope we get married. I still overthink but I can sleep at night and I don’t get anxiety anymore. I know he would never say anything to hurt me and that he means what he says. I do appreciate that he’s being honest but I need to be more trusting of him verbally. One thing is that I wish he would cook for me and be more like... wifey???? I don’t want to be the only one taking care of the house. Also, I really want to travel and I’m scared he doesn’t want to go. 

I want to have a love that is passionate. I want to make out randomly and be so in love.... I know its supposed to be a “high” or the honey moon phase or all emotions but I think I could literally be like that forever. It’s built into me. I’m so...intense with my feelings. I feel like I have all this love and I just want to love hard. It should hurt hard too when I’m sad, but that’s how I know I love hard. I like feeling emotions some times because it makes me feel alive. When I feel sad, I feel real. I feel likes its life. I’m scared what if I’m tricking myself that I want to be married? I want to ask Jeff to watch my fav dramas with me. I want to be able to share this side of me. I want to side in a field of grass on a sunny day and just be held. I want to just enjoy being with him and who he is. 

I want to learn how to cook and bake. How to write mando and speak canto. I want to be fit and look good naked and run 5k under 30. I want to be confident. I want to discover who I am and be that. I’m tired of living for people. I need to grow on my own.

Jeff has taught me a lot over this past year and I’ve learnt how to be more mentally stable. He’s shown his love to me in so many ways that I never expected before. He never lets pride get into the way when we fight. He makes me feel pretty and loved. I do wish he was more “in the moment” but maybe its also good his not? I just want to have random makeout seshs..... and be pushed against a wall lol. But he always does stuff in a joking way that its not cute but its funny. Funny isnt bad but still I want to be romanced???

Also I dont know if I want to consider david a good friend anymore. Looking at bad at our relationship, hes been very selfish. Hes never been there for me when I truly needed him, he turned his back on me and I feel like he still is. He only cares about himself and his own needs. I don’t want to invest anymore time in him. I do think Neil will be a good friend. I think hes over me. I think we can be friends. I mean not too close but I’m willing to help him and I know he would be there for me. I legit see him as family now its weird. I dont hate him, some times I get a little cringe from before but I think its okay.  

I want to be more confident. I want to be me and discover what that means. I’m tired of being SHY. I want to be HAPPY. I need to make hobbies and do stuff more. Some times I wonder how Eric is doing. It’s such a shame we aren’t even friends, I don’t get why he had to block me everywhere. I think I would like to catch up....some day when hes more mature. I don’t want to just do it now its like “I have a doctor bf” or show off. I genuinely want to see where he is. I fully don’t feel bitter, its been so long I cant remember the happy or sad anymore.... I do recall feeling so happy when he texted me in the very begining, I can remember him yelling at me a lot, the lies, the jealously, the hurt. Then reading tumblr reminds me of how much it was an up and down rollercoaster. The 3 hour long fights over skype where I bawled my eyes out until 4 am.... waking up at 7 the next day for school with swollen eyes and seeing him do the same. I remember we kept skype on all night. We were pretty in love. But it was ... too young ?? I mean we got along in a spiritual slash soul like way. But living life with him would be hard. We were too emotional and similar. He was manipulative. He stopped caring first. When I looked at him sometimes when he was crying....I felt ....disgusted. He always cried. It was unattractive. He got angry so fast it was scary. Idk it wasnt as cute as I reembmer. Oh well. I learned lots, I don’t regret it. I hope he figures out his life and finds a girl who will complement his personality. I genuinely wish the best for him.

Ugh I can’t imagine being not with Jeffrey. Like thinking about not being married = breaking up which is like .......losing my best friend and best everything. He is so funny and I’ve never met anyone who has the same humour as me....pervy humour??? I don’t liek to admit it. I like how I dont have to be fake nice and pretend like I don’t like seeing fat people fall. I love how honest I can be with him, it feels so good to be me. I love how cute he is lol. Then how hot he can be too. He eats like a little fatty. He literally is the cutest thing in my life. I wish he looked older though cause people think I’m a pedo dating a high schooler -_- I can’t wait to be able to see him everyday, to share our lives together and build a family together. 

I am not depressed anymore. I am happy. I go to the gym 4-5x a week. I eat ok. I love Jeffrey. I need to figure out my spiritual life but that can be an update for another time. Pce.

[comicteaparty]

February 25th-March 3rd, 2019 CTP Archive

The archive for the Comic Tea Party week long chat that occurred from February 25th, 2019 to March 3rd, 2019.  The chat focused on AntiBunny: The Gritty City Stories by Vincent Davis aka Vinnie D.

Featured Comment:

Chat:

RebelVampire

COMIC TEA PARTY- WEEK LONG BOOK CLUB START!

Hello and welcome everyone to Comic Tea Party’s Week Long Book Club~! This week we’ll be focusing on AntiBunny: The Gritty City Stories by Vincent Davis aka Vinnie D.~! (http://AntiBunny.com/)

You are free to read and comment about the comic all week at your own pace, so stop on by whenever it suits your schedule! Remember, though, that while we allow constructive criticism, our focus is to have fun and appreciate the comic. Below you will find four questions to get you started on the discussion. However, a new question will be posted and pinned everyday (between 12:01AM and 6AM PST), so keep checking back for more! You have until March 3rd to tell us all your wonderful thoughts! With that established, let’s get going on the reading and the chatting!

QUESTION 1. What has been your favorite scene in the comic so far? What specifically did you like about it?

QUESTION 2. At the moment, who is your favorite character? What about that character earns them this favor?

QUESTION 3. Who or what do you think “Dark Pooky” is? Why does “Dark Pooky” refer to Pooky as Ptolemy and what does the supposed missing gap of 50 years have to do with it? What do you think “Dark Pooky” has intended for Pooky?

QUESTION 4. What is the mysterious glow that surrounds Penny that only Agent Wesson and Agent Smith/Ed can see? Unrelatedly, do you think Penny will fix the robot she found? How will either of these scenarios affect her and the other characters’ futures?

AntiBunny

Hi everyone. I'm the author of AntiBunny. I'll just be quietly reading here and gathering feedback. I really appreciate this opportunity to hear some in depth thoughts on my work, and as always I invite you to draw your own conclusions.

Delphina

Are there navigation arrows somewhere I'm not seeing?

RebelVampire

theyre on the right side bar

Delphina

Ahhh, thank you

RebelVampire

QUESTION 5. What do you think happened in Pandora’s past that made her so well-known but ultimately got her killed by Agent Wesson? Do you believe Mulligan will get his revenge at the end of the day?

RebelVampire

1) im picking two scenes cause i can and nobody can stop me. the first scene i really liked was the warehouse confrontation with the bomb. i liked pooky both got some answers but also basically went "nope im out yo." the combination worked for me and made it both humorous and narratively satisfying. the other scene i liked was the scene where hannibal is waiting in the hospital and just casually talking to mulligan without realizing who he is. then mulligan reveals himself in the most crass way possible. again, i just like the combination. its funny, but narratively satisfying since i kept wondering when wed get to see penelope's dad ever since he was mentioned. 2) penelope. Idk. theres just something i really like about penelope. She's go this good sense of optimism and faith, but shes not overbearing or crazy. And even if she's not some rebellious sleuth or fighter or anything, the comic shows that her words have the power to change things just as much the fighting and other elements. 3) Well given a scene that was part of nailbat's story, Pooky is pretty obviously involved with enchanted forest. I imagine some boss type figure. And Pooky might be some prized experiment somehow? like the next step in bunny evolution or something like that. but maybe pooky had like the longest incubation period known to all sapient kind. As for what dark pooky intends, more evil science. I mean you don't get to be called dark pooky if you do the good science.

4) I'm not sure I have good theories about the glow. Like, maybe again, another part of dark pooky science somehow. Like a desire mutation that is a signal for the next stage of evolution. As for the robot, yes, i think penny will. and I'm really looking forward to it considering who that robot is. I think it's really going to be an emotional rollercoaster for everyone. 5) well given superheroing is a thing in this world, probably that or something. maybe not superheros but like a step down. like neighborhood watch on steroids. or maybe a group of detectives. i think pandora discovered something she shouldnt have though, which put her at odds with agent wesson. as for mulligan's revenge, nah i highly doubt it. more just because i think someone is going to get to agent wesson long before he does. and narratively speaking, i think mulligan's arc will be more about putting his kids first and revenge second.

RebelVampire

QUESTION 6. Do you believe that Pooky will once again become a successful reporter? What trouble might Pooky’s pursuit of this cause? Alternatively, what good might come of it?

RebelVampire

QUESTION 7. Who do you think Agent Wesson works for? Also, what do you think happened to Agent Wesson after the bridge explosion, and what consequences will that have for the story?

RebelVampire

6) I don't think Pooky is gonna rekindle that journalist career. Mostly because if Pooky lives to see the end of this story I will be very surprised. However, I think Pooky's pursuit will change the world regardless and force humans and rabbits alike to confront ugly truths about themselves and the world theyve created. Cause that seems to be a heavy theme and Pooky has shown to know how to work the media to drive that message home. 7) Enchanted Forest. And Agent Wesson is probably alive and probably plotting some hardcore revenge against Pooky. Agent Wesson will also bide time and wait until we've basically forgotten the character and then blamo, everything is ruined, sad times are had, etc. etc. etc. It will not be a good time

RebelVampire

QUESTION 8. Do you think Penelope will manage to testify against Mr. Huge, or will she inevitably be silenced by the many obstacles in her way? In the meantime, what do you think Auntie Fae is up to? How will this affect Penelope?

RebelVampire

QUESTION 9. Do you think that the characters will be able to change Gritty City and/or human-rabbit relations for the better by the end of the comic? Of the characters, who do you think has the highest chance of doing so and why?

RebelVampire

8) I think Penelope will manage. Shes the determined sort who will probably persevere. Although I also feel that her testimony wont matter and that inevitably the bad guy will win. As for Auntie Fae, I'm not sure besides being racist. Although I actually think she has a bigger agenda then the characters realize quite yet. In the sense that theyll think she just wants to get rid of rabbits when shes up to bigger things. like helping out evil scientists or something. 9) I think they'll change relationships for the better but not by much. Change is a slow, slow process and the more you try to force it, the less it usually works. But that's okay and I think whatll maatter is just changing the hearts of even a few ppl. Like what happened with Nailbat because I found Nailbat's story was really strong because of that aspect. Even though Nailbat was just one person, he changed some people lives and also had his life changed. If I had to pick someone who would actually instigate change, then Penelope. Cause Penelope is a badass with words insofar and really seems to leave an impact on all the people she interacts with.

snuffysam

i haven't been able to get through the archive yet, but right now my favorite scene is when we first see penelope street preaching. i don't know why, but I like the idea of this stalking amy-rose-type turning out to be something completely different

my favorite character so far is juju. gets introduced as a witch, and immediately gets herself trapped in a doll. love her.

RebelVampire

QUESTION 10. What are you most looking forward to in the comic? Also, do you have any final thoughts to share overall?

RebelVampire

10) a lot of stuff. like im really looking forward to the robot being fixed, to pooky exploring the dark pooky stuff more, seeing penelope more, and so forth. theres a lot of really great threads that are building up and id love to see them start paying off and how cause im sure itll be epic! in general, while it took me a bit to get into it, i really enjoyed the comic once i did and the story started to show its hidden depths.

Delphina

I just want to pop in and say that I did make it partially through the archive this week, but probably won't have time to finish, and thought Penelope was a very cute character. I paged through a bit of the later pages too and loved seeing how the art/craftmanship progressed.

Delphina

((I don't know what the policy is on critique in these segments, so I will definitely strike this from the record if it's not appropriate @RebelVampire , but when the story started alternating between the Pooky storyline and the Nailbat storyline every other page is when I started to lose focus and eventually dropped off reading because it was too confusing to keep track of the story. I think these storylines would benefit from not being mixed in the archives. I definitely know the challenge of spending time fixing old stuff versus using that time to move forward, but if you decided to migrate the story to a PHP-based solution in the future instead of static HTML, archive curation would be a factor I'd strongly recommend considering.))

RebelVampire

@Delphina critiques are allowed as long as theyre constructive, respectful, and dont become the predominant topic of the conversation. so in my book this one is fine.

RebelVampire

COMIC TEA PARTY- WEEK LONG BOOK CLUB END!

Thank you everyone so much for reading and chatting about AntiBunny: The Gritty City Stories this week! Please also give a special thank you to Vincent Davis aka Vinnie D. for volunteering the comic and creating it! If you liked AntiBunny: The Gritty City Stories, make sure to continue to support it via some of the links below!

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[bledroots-blog]

SORRY I HAVEN’T BEEN HERE. there’s a reason, though part of it is emotionally i’ve been feeling awful and the other... well, that’ll be mentioned under the cut. i’ll try to be here, can’t promise anything about responses, but i’ll be available at least for things.

alright. so for the past few weeks or so, i’ve been on an emotional rollercoaster. a part of it has been because i was riding a horse that made me feel anxious to the point of having dreams about it and crying in my sleep. it just wasn’t a good situation, but i got myself out of it thankfully. and coming up to the end of the semester, i’m having anxiety about my classes as well so that just adds more one.

but another reason i’ve not been on for at least the past week is because of this. i’m a HUGE cartoons fan. like, i love shit like inv/ader z/im, da/nny ph/antom, be/n 10 and so on and so forth. i also really love cartoons more targeted towards people older than early teens, such as futu/rama, ar/cher, amer/ican dad, and such and such as well. now, binge watching these shows is one reason i could have been off, but another reason is because i feel like i’ll be judged if i come out saying i like this to the people that follow me right now on tumblr. the rp community has groups where i feel like real life fiction, comics, and animated fiction are kept very separate (not because of certain people but because i have rped in each of them and made personal observations). comics and real life fiction interact with each other a lot and that makes me comfortable when i add a comic character to this blog because i know people will either know or want to interact. but adding people that i would enjoy writing from the cartoons I watch, it’s a short list but there is still a list, feels like that will shatter things. for me, it would mean branching out to that little animated bubble and integrating more things i like into the blog that seem to really stick out. and i feel like it’ll either work well or end up just making me feel like i can’t feel comfortable writing anything, the latter seeming more possible.

 recently i got into gr/avity f/alls and ri/ck and mo/rty and i have fallen in love with these shows. i’ve mentioned watching them to only a few friends i know because, again, i feel like i’ll be judged for acting childish and liking them. but it is that childishness that i love and cling to because there is so much that can be done with it as well. maybe that’s not the best assortment of words i could use, but it’s all i’ve got right now. but i’ve been interested in rping/writing as a character from either one of those shows and i thought of bringing it here. but the amount of anxiety that came from possible judgment made me just back away from tumblr, save going through the character tags. as much anxiety as this is causing me, i decided to come to a decision. either i’m going to bring the characters here and see how it works out or i’m going to make another multi muse blog specifically dedicated to the animated characters i want to rp as. i’m not sure which i am going to do yet, but i just wanted to get this all out here. 

for anyone that decided to read through this and thought this was a waste of time, i apologize. for those that think i’m being ridiculous for wanting to bring cartoons to this blog because cartoons are juvenile or thinking negative things, there’s the unfollow button. and for those that think i shouldn’t have anxiety over this and i should just do what i want and damn the consequences, please talk to me about it because i need to be told that it’s alright to really get it through my head. i’ve an overwhelming fear of disappointing people or being judged and i need to be reminded that i should do what makes me comfortable, especially if it’s something like writing characters.

[mclovinnnnnn]

May 29, 2017

May for me is always a rollercoaster of emotions month. Really great and really bad things always happen to me during the month of may. Mother’s Day is always in may as well so I have a huge weight on my chest watching everyone celebrate their moms while I kind of just sit away in the corner. Anyways, as many mays before this one, it was one hell of a roller coaster.

Let’s start from the beginning of the first may I’ve remember. I was in middle school, super excited about ending my first year. The vibes were rad, I remember loving my life, my friends, my year was awesome. I got my first ever boyfriend in may. May 21st, 2006 to be exact. He was awesome and I liked him a lot. We grew up to be good friends and now ya know, there’s a hi or bye every now and then.

Fast forward a few years and my very first, extremely committed relationship of somewhat 2 years is funny enough, the exact same date as my first boyfriend. May 21, 2015. Crazy lol so as we all know, may is an unforgettable month for myself. I’ve met and lost a lost of great people.

My most recent event of may is this silly little guy I fully met last week. Let my crazy ass go into full detail about this event in my life that I still can’t fully believe or begin to comprehend to whether or not it’s still true.

So let’s rewind back a couple months ago. I know every single person that walks through the doors of Starbucks. I’ve had the same customer base for the last 3 years I have been working there. There are always new faces and I always get to know who they are. This random union worker that I’ve never seen before comes in and it catches my eye, obviously. New faces, especially at work, is always enlightening to see. Also, I’ve been hitting on the same guys forever and if I haven’t gotten it in with them, then move on to the next, right? So this cute little guy comes in and I find him to be so cute and attractive. He orders a double espresso and I call out his drink. He comes by to pick it up and doesn’t even acknowledge me and barely says thank you. Red flag. I move on from even thinking about making moves with that one.

Fast forward a couple months and it’s may. He’s been a regular in my store, every morning, same time, everyday. When it gets to that point, you’re fully aware of who they are, how they like to be talked to, treated, all that good stuff. Working in customer service serving the same people every single day, you kind of mold yourself to how the person is. You basically treat them the way they want to be treated. Odd enough, it’s actually true. For him, I’ve become flirty as fuck because that’s how he likes to be treated. Construction workers love when baristas are just sweet little angels towards them. It’s just how the game is and they are always flirting back (I gotta get my tip money up, don’t judge me. It’s all part of the game)

A couple of weeks ago, I’ve slowly just have become more attracted to this guy, like I’m in love with the cold shoulder and he has this cute little smile and slicked back hair. So my flirtatious attitude is real. At first it was my customer service skills, but now I’m showing some real emotions towards him. My coworkers all know I have a crush on him and everyone sees me blush when I’m around him or when he even just comes into the store. He sits in this perfect corner of my store where it overlooks its entirety. I’ve caught him plenty of times staring in my direction and have even made complete and awkward eye contact with one another. That’s obviously game over for me and I’m in full “hey, I’m gonna try my hardest to get this guy” mode.

So I work two kinds of shifts at work, barista or shift. Last Monday, and most Monday’s I work a barista shift, where I get to play around and be a barista and not responsible for whether or not the store is on fire. I hardly ever get to make drinks and my shift in charge usually puts me there on my barista days, which is really cool because I really get to interact with the customers there. So as I’m there slaying drinks and what not, look who comes through the door and decides to switch up his old sitting spot. At this point into the story, I should probably tell you his name. So joesph comes in, grabs a coffee, and sits at the bar seating. Bar seating overlooks how the entire front of house staff is working. He sits and hangs out with me while I work and we talk about our weekend and what not. It’s a pretty awesome start to my Monday if I do say so myself. He leaves to hang out in his usual spot with his coworkers and we’re just back and forth flirting until literally every one of my coworkers and his coworkers literally can cut our tension with a knife. I typically take my lunches at 730 and he typically leaves for work at 750. Don’t ask me how I know, I just know my customers and their normal routines, can’t say that I can’t read these people like the back of my hand. I totally can. I’m sitting on the bar area on my break, more so to be near this guy I have a huge crush on. I’ve already talked to everyone at work about how I like him so everyone is fully aware. He’s on his way out for work and he just screams back at me “bye Karen! Have a great day at work!” MY FUCKING HEART. I LOVE LITTLE TINY CUTE DETAILS SO IM OVER HERE BEING FUELED BY LITTLE BUTTERFLIES hahahaha don’t forget, I am a child.

Disclaimer: I can’t remember much of these events but I was definitely live tweeting everything because I have been in so much awe so I’m basing it off my live tweets haha

So Tuesday rolls around, I’m definitely excited to talk to this boy again. I take my lunch around 630am (barista life) and he typically gets in around the same time so we’re both kind of just hanging around at the same time. I take my lunch, put my hair down (obviously) and go sit at my typical bar area. From what he told me, he took that as the first move he needed to make. He came up to my coworker and asked if he could get a refill of coffee and I jokingly said “no” and he smiled and sat down next to me as he waited for his coffee. We talked about your typical like first talk topics. Not really getting to know each other but talking about surroundings and what you see in that moment. He told me I looked good that day and I had a cool jacket on. He put his hand on my shoulder to “feel the jacket” haha so my typical routine consists of the same thing everyday. I usually smoke a cigarette ten minutes into my lunch and I told him I was heading out for a smoke. He asked if he could join me and I told him of course he could. He was obviously nervous and didn’t know whether or not he should hold the door open for me or let me walk ahead of him. He let me walk ahead of him and tried to hold the door open from behind haha nervous little kid he is. We had your typical first smoke conversation. How long have you been smoking? I’m trying to quit. All that good stuff. After our smoke break, we get back inside and he sits with me back on bar. I told him I had a few minutes to get back to work and he asked me what time I got off work. I told him noon and he told me that’s when he has his lunch and he asked me out for a lunch date. I told him I’d try to make it work, mainly because I actually got off at 1230 and not 12 haha he said he should probably take down my number and that’s how that boy has won my heart lol I was in awe all day. I ran to the back after my lunch and just screamed from how happy I was? I’ve had a crush on him for a while but I never really thought he liked me enough. It was an amazing feeling and I’ve never had a guy that I met in person and not from like tinder or some shit, ever ask me out. It was really something else.

So of course, I tell everyone. My best friend works across the street and I texted her and she comes darting into the store like 20 minutes later lol it was a whole ordeal. I got literally everything I needed to do done before noon so that I could go on this date. Once it hit noon, my best friend literally tried to run to Starbucks to make it before joe which, she didn’t lol. He waited for me to get off work and she interrogated him of course. Typical Christina. I get off work and we get lunch. It was nice. I liked spending time with him for the most part. He could be too much sometimes but that opens up my shy bubble so I’m not complaining. Christina mentioned that she was going to the bar after work and inviting us along so we were on for another date. 3 dates in one day fuck I don’t know how I’m still surviving and how my heart hasn’t exploded yet. We meet up for our third date and he tried to teach my how to play pool and it’s all bad because I can’t hold a pool stick to save my life lol the 3 of us got to know each other a bit, of course, he’s also dating Christina if he’s dating me. He kept mentioning how pretty and beautiful and how much he liked me. Like it was so cute. He made my heart flutter all mother fucking day.

After that ordeal, I spent most of my night at his house. We watched movies and got to know each other a little more. I literally had an amazing time with him and I still couldn’t believe that he asked me out.

We’ve been hanging out and seeing each other pretty much every day since then. He’s taken me out on dates, he brought me to the beach and paraded me around in front of a bunch of people. Like it was amazing. My favorite thing ever is when someone refers to me as “their girl” because they just makes me feel like I’m wanted. I’ve met his parents already, not sure if that means anything in this time and age, but they seem to like me so far even if I’m not 100% sure if we’re truly a thing.

He’s slept over my house, we’ve spent countless of hours together, I think so far we’re doing pretty good. I don’t wanna rush things and get bored of him easily cuz one day we did spend 26 hours straight together and it was a bit much but you know, were both still around and we’re both still keeping up with each other haha let’s see how far I can take this one though. I’ve had an amazing week with him and I have pretty good vibes about him so I’m hoping we can make things work. I’ve been so happy though. Like extremely happy. I still can’t believe that this is how my love life is going. It awesome

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a letter to jeff.

Where to even begin. Am I right? (little laugh here) 

Oh jeffery boakye. You have seriously made such a huge impact on me. From putting me through several mini-heartbreaks to making me a much more confident person. These past three months have been close to a comparison of riding a rollercoaster. I thought that we would eventually end up together and be a strong couple. I gave you everything that I had in me. I still remember when you told me that you loved me over the phone...you went on to talk about something else and I was just there stunned. As if I was stuck in that moment for a long time. I remember feeling so happy and went out to buy your favorite things so that I could send it to you and to demonstrate that you had someone that cared for you. We kept on going back and forth on what we wanted. Well truth be told that was me. All you wanted at the time was to not be tied down by a 19 year old while you still had so much better options that you haven’t experienced. i suppose. I honestly don’t know why I still kept coming back to you when I knew that what I wanted was too much for you. Was it love or just stupidity? I couldn’t let you go. Finally you have demonstrated that all you wanted was sex from me. To this day, It still gets to me. fuck. im crying right now while listening to all night by beyonce. I decided to end things and I cried so much that night. I later went on a date with someone and got into a relationship. Wasn’t the smartest move but I think that if it wasn’t for that then we would still be stuck in the same loop. But now you tell me that you love me and that you want me back and be in a serious relationship with me. Hearing you say that put me through another rush of emotions. Excitement, anger, sadness, and disbelief. We talked for hours and I actually considered going back to you. But I am in a relationship and for the first time I have someone to show me how a relationship full of love should be like. We had times like those but it wasn’t real since we were just fuck buddies. You can’t give me guarantees but you promise that you would try. And you told me that you slept with other people while we were seeing each other. I love you but I dont know how I can look past that. I forgive you and I know that I love you but I just cant trust you. Every relationship requires a strong sense of trust in its foundation but we already fucked up there. I want us to work out and I am willing to put in the work but our relationship that lasted over a year shows me that we can’t work out. im sorry love.