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blearyfaced · 2 years

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#why does it always have to be me #why am i always expected to be the bigger person why is it up to me especially when ive been wronged or hurt #why is it always like that #i thought home was supposed to be safe and its not in fact it all stems from here!!! wtf!!!!#im just so tired #its not my fault and im tired #im not the best at communicating im so aware of that but i did nothing wrong!! and more importantly i never give up i always keep on trying #and it just hurts because its very obvious that if i dont take the first step then things are lost!!! but maybe thats for the best idk #except i live here #i dont know but im tired #this time i refuse to do things about it if its never fixed then so be it #if no one cares and everyone is allowed to be indifferent then so am i #im done caring #i wonder if i just look or behave a certain way that makes others be like this with me #in the end it's like theres no value to anything i do #anything i say anything i am #nothing #so idk im done #no one cares if im hurt and im an idiot because in the end the only one who cares is me and i feel so alone #no ones afraid or worried to lose me or that ill leave because im dumb enough to stay/to ask to talk/to keep it all in and move on #to take on all the work and im always trying to make things right why does no one else care?? i sound so whiny and i hate it but im just so #it hurts????? why am i even here whats the point of me #and omg im not perfect i make mistakes i knowww but at least im here im trying im not giving up i say sorry and i tryyyyy and i keep at it #but what has that ever done for me maybe its time to stop for good #im so tired and no matter how much i care and no matter what i do im always falling short im never enough and things never change #its so unfair the way its almost always onesided always my fault its exhausting #funny how it also maybe feels like not even my family thinks im worth keeping or fighting for except i think i get it now it makes sense #its fine it doesnt matter im just really tired #personal

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littlelightfish · 6 months

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Funny things I found out playing with language setting in Netflix while looking episode 15:

Chilchuck's scream sounds HAUNTED in brazilian portuguese. Give it a try if you can.

(You can hear it here)

In spanish dub, Senshi says: "tocó mis senos de hombre", which means "he touched my man boobs" in Spanish. And I think that's the best dub line one so far.

#i love replaying certain scenes (usually screams) to see how they nailed it in other dubs #ive done it with Chilchuck & Mickbell screams because they're the funniest ones #give it a shot if you can #its really funny to hear certain character voices in other languages #for example. brazilian portuguesse gave both mickbell and chilchuck un-childlike voices (in japaneese both sound like little childs)#and they reused Chilchuck's japaneese screams for most of the other languages because he is so high-pitched and full of terror that it work #dungeon meshi #chilchuck #chilchuck tims #dunmeshi #delicious in dungeon #senshi #senshi of izganda #senshi dungeon meshi #idk how do you people screen record the episodes #if i knew how to i would put the shots here #my shit #thanks to the one that made the clip on Chil's scream im in love here <3

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datcravat · 2 months

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tetotetotetotetotetotetotetotetotetotetoteto!!!!!

#ILY TETO IM SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU'RE GETTING YOUR REINAISSANCE #my art #drew this to match the previous Miku and Gumi #it is now a vocaloid AND utau art series haha #since I've done teto and miku I think I should do the one that wasn't in mesmerizer next idk #teto #kasane teto

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arinmoss · 4 months

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Elliott!! :3

#the colors r pissing me off so im just gonna post it otherwise ill keep fiddling with the overlay layers #and i mSICK im SICK of it i dont know what i need to do to fix the colors so im calling it DONE #anways #elliott again :3c #art #elliott #stardew valley elliott #sdv elliott #stardew elliott #elliott stardew valley #stardew valley #sdv #sdv fanart #fanart #artists on tumblr #illustration #also his face is still pissing me off but alas #idk my painting skills aren't where i want them to be but oh whale #stardew

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obsob · 9 months

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bedtime story with my love !!

#mine #cats #oooooooooogh im so cold....bath time bath time :3 !#i hope everyone is hvaing a good week i am now DONE with work !!!!! hehe !!!!!!!!!!#i might not do any drawing for a little while . maybe just felt tips #also. cannnot for the life of me decide what 2 read...am like 30% way thro assassins fate but Um its . a little intense so im taking a brea #idk what im in the mood for....something....fun... but isnt bad #i feel like all 'light' books r bad. maybe i will just reread the goblin emperor. as i always do when all else fails #also. am going ice skating tomorrow i am SO excited . i hvent been in so so long its so exciting !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#mwah. hve good evening :3

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milanocookiesandivyprofen · 3 months

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first you're mad at us for not having sex, then you're mad at some of us for having sex???? pick a struggle man, we already know you get no bitches

#asexual #aphobia mention #fuck aphobes #idk if this has been done before it might have but idk i thought of this and it works so im posting it

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juniemunie · 4 months

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[Abandoned by the Lightners, his heart became cracked with hatred.]

Hitting a lil' too close to home?

#junie art post #ink sans #error sans #utmv #errorink #implied. but yea not the focus #this has been turning around in my mind for quite some time. im glad to finish it lmao idk if my ramblings make sense even.#so like listen. do you ever think about how similar the function of the utmv is to the dark worlds in deltarune.#in a meta narrative to fandom sense? idk the word #we are making exaggerated expanded worlds of the ordinary tools and entertainment of the real world and make it into something more #isnt that very very interesting?#and we explore every sort of possibility in that creation. both good and bad #and when all is said and done. every possibility found and the entertainment and secrets has all run out #we put it away. abandon and leave it behind #what is left? what happens to the world and characters we have created? can it sustain without us?#what of the ones left in the dark?#idk if yall saw me a few months ago but i reblogged comyet's old post of ink begging us not to leave him alone and to keep creating #yea that never left me #and seeing exactly THAT SCENARIO in deltarune made my brain iTCH #imagine an ink in King's position.... wait isnt that just underverse #mmmmmmm. darkner ink.....#also error is here too. not just for errorink or that i can't separate these two to save my life #but error is also one of the few people to be able to GET IT?? he can hear the creators too. ink cant #but hes pretty much programmed himself to avoid having a mental break down to this via reboot memory loss.#and ink has his own internal coping mechanism (hooray for short term memory loss)#these two idiots will do anything but confront truths lmfao #ahhh my favorite idiots. never change #mmmmm #deltarune

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francy-sketches · 5 months

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cringe ass family ❤

#asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #valyrianscrolls #tywin lannister #joanna lannister #cersei lannister #jaime lannister #tyrion lannister #joffrey baratheon #myrcella baratheon #tommen baratheon #2 many of them......8 whole guys...#one day I'll draw a proper family portrait but for now all you get is floating heads. at least this time they have shoulders #um tywin looks weird idk whats wrong with him. like physically i mean. think i made his eyes too big #ive decided to give all of them slay earrings ❤ except i couldnt figure out what 2 give tommen so he doesnt have them 😔#he does have his ears pierced tho ☝ maybe he like just got it done bc hes a baby #im aware thats not how that hat works btw ik the hair's not supposed 2 be out. idgaf #my art

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fiovske · 1 year

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just a couple of french braid crowleys

(insp)

#good omens #idk is this anything #i would've done a painting but im so so sleepy...#for now we have to settle for a couple of crowley cooldown sketches #fiovske draws

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inkskinned · 1 year

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there are days that it is hard, and unfair, and some horrible part of me wishes i could have been born in a different world. i love being queer, i hate how others react to it. when i first came out at 15, my mom whispered: please don't say that. your life would be so much harder.

it is harder.

it is also a tuesday, walking my dog. we are both skiving off of work, and yes both of us have dyed hair and pronouns. mine is patchy - it was my first time trying bleach; i didn't have enough. theirs is a resilient toadstool green. a little girl comes up to us and asks um, excuse me? is your hair real? 'cause jason says you're a fairy.

it is sunday brunch, all of us talking over each other, overfull on love. she is trying out a new name today, and we made her a cake with today's name scrawled in shaky purple letters. she laughs so much she cries and then gets frosting in her hair. someone young at a different table keeps giving us these large, wide eyes: the same look we have all been on the other side of. the kind that says, breathless: wait, is that possible?

it is a half-fight in a supermarket because he loves "dance moms" and says abby's tiktok is funny and meanwhile i think the children in that show should be allowed to sue abby lee miller for child abuse. i tell him that it led to the casual acceptance of child harassment for mainly adult views; and then i am standing, suddenly, in someone else's thrown soda. there's a white lady standing there, furious, saying something about hell-on-earth. i had forgotten i was wearing stuff with pride colors. and then it is this: he had just been casually arguing with me - and within an instant, he squares his shoulders and goes after her like i am his sister

on saturday i sat in a circle while beca played with my hair and we were all over 30 and we laughed about how much happier we are being this old, how much more we appreciate our community. 25 minutes from now, we will be on stage to dance in baggy beige clothing, but for now we look on with envy to the dancers in loud-and-bright buttondowns. where are they getting these shirts! i cry, distraught. everyone laughs. one of our friends has a mushroom witch hat. this would have been cringey in high school, probably. instead we are all delighted with each other; happy just to be here and alive and moving

it's that last week my new friends cried with joy for me when they heard i'm getting top surgery. every so often i have the honor of being the first person someone feels comfortable enough to tell. i'm trying to make long fluttery butterfly wings to wear to pride; but i don't know anything about fabric or dye, so my friends have been sending me their personal advice.

i think in a different poem i would talk about how sometimes you walk into a room and put the mask back on. but i'm sleepy and my whole brain is fuzzy so i think in this one, it's a monday, and my dog and i took a nap on a couch, and i had missed texts from friends. i used to wake up lonely. i think this poem is about walking into a room and seeing someone and just knowing, the way you just-know-sometimes, and then giving them that little smile, and seeing them light up with joy and relief. it is how we always seem to be able to find each other in a crowded room. how we always seem to make friends with each other before even we know-it-to-be-true. it is saying: we're very different people; but i belong to you.

it is harder, yes. but it comes with a built-in family.

#wish this was better written!!! but im sleepy!!#writeblr #pride #lgbt #but for real please help me make these lesbian wings. gonna get the supplies tomorrow . i have #no sewing machine but know how to hand sew #have never done a good job with tie dye so idk why im just runnin with it #ps im specifically going to boston pride next weekend come hang out with me

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choccy-milky · 6 days

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