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carma-bis · 11 months ago
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I think the one thing that always kept me peaked was playing video games with my older brother since I've been 7. I was safe when people thought I was male. Voice comms, team chats, online forms for the games, didn't matter. If I was male, I was safe. Sure people were mean, rude, downright disgusting, but even by the time I hit 12, and I started seeing how "grown" girls/women couldnt hide behind prepubescent innocence anymore (mainly do you sound young enough to be a boy before voice cracking) and just how night and day the behaviors males exhibeted towards them were, in a bad way. They stop responding to your callouts, then act like someone could have stopped their shitty decision (and then they dont talk to you for the rest of the game), they shout over you almost excessively, you're forced into support roles, "bitch" always ALWAYS has more vitriol, your opinion means nothing when the group is asked what they want to do, or you're put on a pedestal and all the men complain the entire time so you do it for 5 minutes then cave. Then you start getting groomed, older men start complimenting you more and more. they start questioning you when you push back. Every man you run into asks you out, no matter if youre friends or not or how long you've known each other, once you hit 16, it's like there's a fucking tag put on you. And its not immediate, one day you just start getting treated like that. Its gradual (except once they find out your 16, wild shit there). But I never understood why it could be so insulting for someone to think youre a man. It's literally the safest way to exist. And ya, because it has nothing to do with being safe, its about controlling a narrative. I never FORCED other men to call me a man, but I never corrected them when they called me one. And that's the difference, I think. And it's why i never fully went under lol. Cause literally no man wants to hear me talk about my experiences about it and thats peak material in and of itself. Why do I have to listen to you all the time but you refuse to listen to me?
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deoidesign · 8 months ago
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when your main characters start dating after years of writing so they finally get to be like this
#rare WIP preview from me#this is in like. 10 episodes. lmfao#its been really hard working this far ahead#my editor isnt giving me any feedback and my friends are very busy so it's felt quite lonely#which is fine! for my friends I mean. but its my editors job to give me feedback...#but the webtoon editors are extremely extremely extremely overworked and my series is set to end so I understand its low priority#its not her fault its webtoons fault. however. its still demotivating...#oh well l m a o#I should be much further ahead ngl LMFAO I want like 12 done but I come back in 2 weeks.#we'll see#when I get really stressed out I go full gamer mode#and usually I'll sink like 60 hours (like 5 days) into a game and then I'm good and move on#but this recent game that grabbed me is. its too much actually#bit uncontrollable ngl I think its an ADHD thing I mostly have just quit playing videogames at all#cause its like yeah being stressed cause theres too much work to do is not going to be helped by losing a week and a half to a game...#and yet.#anyways the game is satisfactory#my friend bought it for me and we've been playing together#and our shared file has. 100 hours on it. and we still havent beaten the game#we're close to beating it and it's not like we're rushing or anything#cause its fun to fuck around and zap eachother or whatever#but it's got me doing math. the exact kind of math I love to do. optimization#and its reminding me yeah in another life id have been an engineer#I'm glad I'm an artist but its always weird like yeah this is easily a path I could have gone down#'artists hate math' speak for yourself doing math calms me down! I love math!#I love math and I love business. I'm almost the perfect artist but I hate advertising so. we can't have it all#anyways theyre so fucking cute its sickening. I love them so much. I could cry#WIP#lineart#time and time again
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godsfavoritescientist · 2 years ago
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Biting the bars of my enclosure about autistic ford tonight. There's something about him using vocabulary and turns of phrase that seem "outdated" or "pretentious" that feels so painfully genuine to me. When people say he talks like that just to "try to sound smart" I wish I could explain what it's like to be so ostracized from your peers growing up that you spend all your time reading instead, to the point where you pick up your way of speaking from books instead of from people. And then what it's like for people to call you out for "talking weird" over and over again, not able to wrap their heads around why the fuck you would choose more archaic or technical or formal words than the simpler ones that surely come to everyone's minds first. What it's like to have to dedicate a sizable chunk of attention to filtering through every single word you say out loud in real time before you say it, to make absolutely sure that it isn't a word people will judge you for using or make fun of you for using, just so you'll have a chance of being taken seriously. Learning through trial and error how to filter out the words that other people don't think are normal or casual enough for the conversation, even though for you, the word choice that's "natural-sounding" enough for them is the third or fourth word you came up with when searching for the right way to phrase something in your head. I wish I could explain just how long it takes to say fucking anything after spending a lifetime doing that during every single conversation, and how repetitive and long-winded you end up being when you spend so long coming up with alternative ways of saying every little thing you ever think. And I wish people realized that, at the very least for autistic people and autistic-coded characters, speech that's seen as pretentious is really just the way they talk when they're not putting in the extra effort to filter through every word they say just so others will take the time to listen.
#ford meta#actuallyautistic#everyone go read the wikipedia page for 'stilted speech' right now#long post#ford isnt very good at masking. he doesn't have the kind of (unintentional) autistic coding that is Palatable To Neurotypicals.#definitely looking-too-deeply-at-a-kid-cartoon right now but in *some* ways. a world where the majority of people think its easy to like an#-understand ford is a world that would feel safe for me to unmask in.#i truly truly hate that fully explaining my thoughts on ford requires me to say so much about myself. but god is it such a crime-#-to use a fictional character as a lens through which to try and explain to people how to be more understanding and accepting-#-of things like this.#making fun of stilted speech is so normalized that people don't even realize they're making fun of someone for being weird.#people think its Someone Thinking They're Better Than You but its something people lay awake at night wishing they could stop doing.#and yet they still end up using the Wrong Words and being labeled a Pretentious Asshole just for talking differently than the norm.#maybe there really are people out there who deliberately use big words to try and sound smarter than everyone else. I don't know.#all I know is. in a world where its pretty obvious that people who use a discongruently complex vocabulary get made fun of for doing that.#why would someone deliberately trying to impress people do something that would only get them laughed at.#sorry for being genuine on main. as if its my fault </3
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sieglinde-freud · 1 year ago
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ohhh i j remember i pulled arcane ophelia when she dropped and just never fuckin used her… i ALMOST gave her tome to odin to fix him up, but…. hehewgahehe laurentttttt i have some shiny new toy for youuuuu come home baby girl come HOME!
#ann cries about feh#arcane devourer for inigo and arcane whatever for laurent my boys are SO IN IT#hopefully severas prf is good but. its severa. of course its good.#you know im kind of winning with most of the awakening kids#i’d say most of them are actually really fucking solid units with their refines#my owains kind of bad but thats probably my fault… i put all my investment into odin instead cuz he was easier to merge#but like kjelle yarne cynthia nah lucina m!morgan all got solid refines#kjelle especially shes one of my crutches for her#geromes was kind of mid but he makes up for it by being a walking ball of attack and def stats#and if i get lucina (WHICH I WILL. SHES COMING HOME. IM NOT MISSING ANOTHER LUCI) he can take her axe#also yeah im still missing legendary lucina and spring lucina#i have the worst legendary banner luck… i always get something but never what im looking for#and spring lucina… WHY IS SHE COLOR SHARING WITH FUCKING XANDER#SPRING FUCKING XANDER GET AWAY FROM MEEE#ugh. anyways. what was i talking about#oh my noire sucks. i pulled a -atk one and didnt build her cuz i was convinced she’d be on the eventual second gen banner#she’ll almost definitely be on the next awakening banner now but who knows when thatll be#time to give in and build her but i REALLY hate her summer alt… i really do#and its like. the art isnt BAD. it looks good. and it looks like noire. but its like. she looks so scared and uncomfortable#like not my girl why would u do this to my girl….#ANYWAYS THO LAURENT IS WHO I WAS TALKING ABOUT YES NEW TOME FOR HIM WOOO
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hwanswerland · 8 months ago
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the ateez Europe tickets are really fucking overpriced wow
#fio.txt#seems like germany is worse than everyone else but what the fuck#im not paying 180 fucking euro for a standing ga ticket?????#my sister got tswift ones for like 90#even 130 from what i saw for brussels for ga is expensive when you know theres no chance to really see anything#bc all the vip tiers are jn front of you#speaking of. german ult vip is 550 which is more than i pay for rent. the FUCK#i know this isnt ateez fault#but i hate what a money grab everything about them has become#ive been not really into them lately bc i thought the last album and japanese somg sucked but i was looking forward to seeing them live agi#but not for this kind of money????#the cheapest tickets are still 75 but ive been to the worst tier in that arena before and its really not great to be up there#so 75 when i know its not even going to be close to the amazing experiences ive had before? idk man#fuck you kq and fuck capitalism#ive never in my life seen ga standing tickets be more than like 105 euros. no artist no matter how big ive seen has ever wanted me to pay#almost 200 this is ABSURD and im so mad about it#no one tell me about usa prices are much higher. i know that. however in relation to quite literally#every other concert ive ever attented#this is so infuriating lol#and 180 too for like tier one seating when on the fucking website you apparently cant even select your seats yourself#seriously debating trying to get any tickets atp#i want to see them but not for this much money. like for 500 euros i can go on holiday to another country for an entire week
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maudlin-scribbler · 1 year ago
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Mother has told me she thinks that my behaviour has been getting worse lately and that apparently she doesn't recognise me anymore but it's really that I'm so tired of her shit and my family in general + school + my mental state that I barely care to pretend around her anymore and yes maybe I am more of a dick around my family. But whatever me sometimes raising my voice at them and telling them to leave me alone is only like 5% of everything they've ever put me through
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beeseverywhen · 2 years ago
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Still makes me so mad that the hospital stole my teeth when I was too out of it from the anesthesia to fight them on it. I grew those! Just because they turned on me and I needed them out of my body, doesn't mean I didn't want to keep them.
#as opposed to the dentist who after fitting me for a new retainer was like 'so the 3d printed model of your teeth. you want that right'#that's a man that understands me#fuck yeah i do#even gave me a little bag to take it home in. that's how sure he was that I'd want it#offering to let you keep these things should be the bare minimum imo. of course I'm attached to them! they're mine. not yours#and i mean the bond between me and my teeth was much stronger than that of the 3d model#seeing as id personally grown them. carried them around for a good while. and! most importantly: they almost killed me#the bond between a girl and a thing that spent 2 years doing its damnist to make her die a timeless kind of death: irreplaceable#nothing makes you feel closer to your ancestors than regular systemic infections from a bad tooth#tho in the tooths defence. it personally was very healthy. i did a great job of growing it really. it just grew in at the wrong angle#leaving me with a gaping wound in my mouth for two years (no really. it should have been removed immediately but shit happened and it took a#ridiculously long time until eventuality mid pandemic they were like 'yeah let's do that surgery you've needed for 2 years')#by the end i was on antibiotics like once a month. and the really nasty ones too. the swelling was so bad ppl kept thinking i had mumps#no! just my tooth again#honestly we went through a lot together (even it was the tooths fault) i hate to think of the fact that it was incinerated along with#everyone else's set aside body parts. it deserved better.#i feel something that tries to kill you that many times is owed a certain amount of respect. they robbed me of the chance to give it that
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justjwab · 10 months ago
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Top 10 posts customer service workers hate reading
very controversial opinion here, but sometimes customer service workers are the problem 😶
#once again reminded to be nice to the customers#reminds me of a time a customer wasn’t mean but was really overbearing and took like an hour to finish assembling his gift#admittedly a very nice gift for his mother#part of that hour was him coming back to the store and wrapping the box right in front of me#and he was doing such a terrible job i just ended up helping him anyway#i had to ask my boss to stop me if he came back because i couldn’t tell this guy to fuck off because he was being nice#but that kind of nice where you say stuff like oh i must be so annoying right now#yeah you are get out i wanna sit down#hate this post especially because i absolutely cant be mean at my job because most of the people who do get on my nerves are parents#who usually have their kids with them#and i always feel bad whenever i have to raise my voice at children or teenagers#like im not perfect and i know my shortcomings but what is this post achieving#not to mention being a little rude is normal we get angry for a reason thats why customer service workers put up with it#that and we need to keep our jobs and pay rent#and deal with 50 more customers for the rest of the day#but then again i guess that customer i got impatient with has to deal with 50 more cashiers today so tough world#I agree with op but its one of those things that is such a little problem compared to the other bigger problem#IM JUST BEING TOLD TO BE NICE AGAIN#if you made it this far you should read Bright-sided by Barbara Ehrenreich#its about toxic positivity in the united states#like why is everyone in this country so opposed to being upset#dont get me started on food service#which is already a high stress environment#with most of the staff in kitchen not even getting the opportunity to have a word with customers#and the ones that do are usually teenagers anyway who should not be judged for giving attitude#like i started these tags from the mind of a retail employee#but now i remember i worked in food service#some of the nastiest stuff you hear from people day to day isnt even from customers but your coworkers#who may have to pick up your slack if you fall behind whether thats your fault at all#anyway cool sentiment but this post reeks of i-never-worked-a-customer-service job or i-did-but-im-complicit-in-worker-suffering
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castor-redd · 2 months ago
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I can’t decide if I want my Rook’s canon to be sending Neve or Bellara to deal with the wards. I hate missing the final romance scene and the interactions with romanced Neve following the Isle of the Gods (my warden really needed her support), but I also want the juicy drama that comes with Neve getting yoinked and blighted. My Rook spent the entire game fretting over her friends getting blighted. She also did her damndest — and failed miserably — to dodge love. So to potentially lose Neve to the blight… That’s some good angst.
#datv spoilers#spoilers#im just musing#i said i was gonna go make my other rooks and then i got curious about what changed if you sent your romanced pal to deal with the wards#you do get a little scene at the end of the game that’s like. half the original final romance. but it’s like 2 seconds#tbf tho it’s not like the ‘official’ scene is much longer. i do have a bit of a gripe with how short the romance stuff is in the game#no i do not play dragon age solely for the romance#…but i do look forward to the romance the most probably. that and general companion interactions#I’m leaning toward sending Bellara because that final romance scene is too good to miss tbh#(we are so deprived of romance in this game…)#and there’s still a lot of angst to work with if Bellara goes. since she’s probably my Rook’s best friend#well… the only surviving bff after Davrin dies :’)#i was so gutted to pick him to die. but my rook thought he was invincible#not like consciously but she never really… she kind of assumed he would come back. always.#because he is in her eyes the paragon of a warden#he’s so tough and cool and gentle all at the same time. surely nothing can kill him! he’s a grey warden!#and while she’s close with Harding she DOES underestimate what Harding is capable of#so she makes Davrin the boss of the distraction team and… well.#she takes his death incredibly poorly#however when canon talks i plug my ears and go lalalalalala can’t hear you#nobody dies on tearstone island!!! they find a way to live and come back after the game!!!#no i haven’t figured out HOW but i have Thoughts:tm:#and they involve making additional rooks and inserting them into the story as if they’re companions#my favourite thing to do with dragon age#the number of wardens and hawkes and inquisitors I’ve made… (and scrapped)#i think the number of rooks I’ll make ‘canon’ is higher than any other game though#i only ended up with 2 wardens. 1 hawke. 1 inquisitor#(whittled down from 4 wardens and 2 ‘Hawkes’ (only one was Hawke) and… I think *5* inquisitors?)#I can’t remember it’s been ages since i thought of inquisition tbh. it’s my least favourite in the series i think?#i don’t HATE it. i just prefer the other 3. for all its faults I really did enjoy Veilguard
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brightdeadthing · 4 months ago
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#hi sorry to ventpost on the poetry blog again#but i gotta write this out so i can get my brain to SHUT UP and maybe sleep. anyway.#its just so interesting because like. i fear there is something wrong with me. i fear i am in fact fucked up for no good reason#smth smth imposter syndrome except im the actual imposter#and like. the issue i keep coming back to right. there are two options.#either this is just The Way That I Am or it's some chemical imbalance in my brain that i inherited#so either i have to do work to change as an actual person or do work to find myself treatment#because again. no one is coming to save me. there is no miracle cure i can take to be a different person.#and the thing about me. i had changing. i hate doing work. i dont want to do any of that.#tbh the problem right now is i dont really want to do anything except read and sleep and stare at the wall so you know. par for the course.#but even under the best of circumstances im just. a lazy person. i dont want to do things and i dont.#and re: there are two options right. like fundamentally it doesn't matter because this is still something i am. who cares if its my fault.#i still have to deal with that. i still might just fucking torpedo my career and my life and every opportunity ive ever been given#because i simply can't be bothered. because i would rather waste my money and my time just fucking rotting.#and what gets to me the most is the opportunity part too. i am SO FUCKING LUCKY to have the people and the life and the resources i do#and yet im still like this#if it was just a question of me i think i'd be able to bear it#but thinking about all the people who took a chance on me and believe in me and like me for some fucking reason is crushing#and admitting i cant get it together would be letting them all down#but keeping on like this still feels horrible bc im similarly letting them down by lying and allowing them to believe im a good person#I KNOW THIS SOUNDS DRAMATIC but do keep in mind i am in fact actively lying and hiding and making up excuses. i promise there are fr issues#and like i know the important ppl will stay regardless but thats almost worse somehow?#im just so scared of going from a loved-because to a loved-despite#even though i think that's the best kind. but Its Different When Its Me because obviously it is#if it turns out i just need to switch meds im gonna feel so fucking stupid in a week#except this has been a reoccurring theme for much longer than that so. re: i fear this is just the way i am. sigh#okay enough this isnt doing shit time to pass out woooo#to delete
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corneille-moisie · 2 years ago
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i cant wait to recieve that feliway thing, i really really hope it is gonna help storm realize that wendy is her friend and has been for freaking 3 years 🤦🏻‍♀️
its suppose to help with anxiety and i do believe thats her problem rn 😩
wendy is mostly chill, she hasnt been hissy at all the whole time, but she's still afraid of storm :( (tbh i am too sometimes 😬)
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butterfly-ribbon · 8 months ago
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still in disbelief about how mizu5 genuinely captures the subtleties of transmisogyny so accurately like nothing else i've seen before especially with the nuances with which mizuki's story is told … all it takes is a single sentence, a few words … i love that the classmates saying that shit don't even … realize how cruel they are, bc that's how it /is/ and bc "oh no, we said something weird to a Normal Girl, that makes us look bad" - transmisogyny is just a punchline to a joke for them, that's how detached they are from their own cruelty and it's really not any different from the 'average' misogyny and how that tends to be a joke amongst boys. what ena ended up being exposed to is really just the classmates' 'boy's locker room talk' leaking out, so to speak? ena's probably heard jokes from people about how unfeminine her behavior is in the past and she quickly spits out "that's not funny" bc ena and mizuki are both "pretty girls" who like fashion and dolling themselves up, and hearing them talk about how mizuki's cute in this way … i'm sure it reminds her of her own experiences with being an 'influencer' - people like her when she shuts up and makes herself cute and appealing and ena must've absolutely received her fair share of comments and messages from weirdos for posting selfies of herself online, but i think what drives this home to me as such a fantastic narrative is the way that they call mizuki "attractive as long as she's not making any trouble and being a pain" bc it really speaks to how trans girls are objectified and only deemed 'acceptable' as long as they make themselves into limpless dolls who are acceptable targets for any form of abuse and misogyny instead of trying to claim their own subjectivity as women, so there's so much crossover in how mizuki's experiences work alongside ena's? but also mizuki faces so much more constant and direct criticism, all her actions and choices so closely under scrutiny.
mizuki loves and appreciates the attention of girls and when she first met ena she saw herself in the art that ena made - ena draws a girl in pain and mizuki goes "she's me". in the scene where mizuki gets outed, ena is speechless not bc she thinks mizuki is "gross" or bc she's mad mizuki "tricked" her? she's just horrified that she just got degendered /by association/ and then had to listen to these boys speak about the girl she's in love with in this /aggressively/ violent way, especially since mizuki has a meltdown, knowing, apologizing for hurting, even as ena would absolutely say "no, i'm sorry, im sorry, please don't hate vourself" bc mizuki feels like she's the one at fault for feeling like ena would assume the worst of her, but mizuki also feels like she doesn't have the right to be angry at people … this is the first time we get to see mizuki's rage and it's so palpable … i love so much that she hates the idea of niigo's kindness being born out of her 'abnormality' as a trans girl … she hates everything about this. she hates the idea of coming out, she hates the idea of having a question attached to her girlhood..
mizuki logically knows that niigo are going to accept her bc they've also gone through so much turmoil themselves and understand what it's like to be on the fringes of society, but she still can't shake off all those intrusive thoughts about how they might only accept her out of pity or consideration bc they feel too bad for her rather than a genuine understanding and the idea that things might change between them bc of that is too terrifying to embrace… such patronizing 'kindness' burns too much for mizuki to accept, so she'd rather run away and shut herself out completely… for mizuki it's like being stuck on a bridge where the only two ways out are ones where nothing changes and this hurts in its own way bc she can't tell how much of it would be genuine and how much would be an act and the other way is them /trying too hard/ to be considerate and this can easily become alienating bc mizuki truly just wants to be "one of the girls" in the most natural sense? she doesn't want to be made to feel like she's being accommodated, but there's also all the guilt that she's been internalizing for being "deceptive" and not saying the truth sooner that further complicates things and makes her feel like she's undeserving of any kindness that she may be offered… even though she genuinely was going to tell ena the truth herself, it doesn't matter anymore bc someone else told her before she even got the chance to do so herself and that's something she actually wished would happen in the past, so is there anyone to blame but herself? mizuki's entire thing is that until now she's been "writing" a fictionalized cis girl version of herself when she's with niigo and obscuring her own transness bc she doesn't want to be treated as an Other or have an asterisk attached to her girlhood bc she just wants to be treated as one of them instead of having to explain herself or prove anything but she has her facade violently stripped away from her in the most traumatic way imaginable and now she's entrapped within dysphoria induced suicidal ideation...
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thewitchblue · 3 months ago
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"So, don't be mad."
Bruce heard behind him. Tim watched with wide-eyes as you spoke. He knew where this was headed, and he was trying to subtly tell you to turn around and shut up. Bruce will have a heart attack.
Bruce closed his eyes to mentally prepare for the worst before turning around and seeing exactly what he's supposed to be "not mad" about. You were holding a toddler. He blinked at the toddler in confusion, and she blinked back at him. She seemed equally confused about him as he was about her.
"Who...?"
Who's the other parent? Who is the toddler? Where did you get the toddler? Why did you get a toddler? What's going on? Bruce was baffled. He had so many questions that he knew he won't like the answers to. You said sheepishly,
"I may or may not have accidentally combined my DNA with Wally's, and now we have a child that we kind of had to adopt and that I forged legal documents for."
You actually had twins, but you didn't want to tell him that. His heart wouldn't be able to handle both of them.
Bruce, for what it's worth, managed to keep his cool. What did he expect when they gave the scientist kid all the ingredients needed to clone? Really, it's Bruce's fault for allowing you to keep the kit Dick gave you for your birthday. He should have known your creativity would've wormed its way into your far too curious brain.
The Flash family have already invited you into their family despite you somewhat accidentally cloning one of them. You actually hoped to have cloned Wonder Woman, not Wally, but you mixed up all the vials and picked one. Now you had two red-haired demons running around. Bruce asked in a baffled tone,
"How long did you wait to tell me?"
You really didn't want to answer that question. Bruce narrowed his eyes at you when you remained silent for a suspiciously long amount of time. You mumbled your answer, so he turned to Tim when you didn't speak any louder. You two are the closest. He'd know the answer. Tim raised his hands in surrender. He really didn't want to pick a side. You would start a war against him, and he's revealed a lot of information to you that he revealed to no one else. You were excellent at making his secrets impossible to uncover, and he'd hate for you to go digging for worse.
You walked away with your little girl in your arms. She's three years old and you've hid her from everybody for two of those years. The Flash family accepted them both without problem, but you had to hide it from Bruce until the Flash family could bond with your precious babies. If Bruce makes you put them up for adoption, the Flashes will happily adopt them.
You texted Wally to pick you both up, but Bruce was ready for a speedster to show up and countered Wally's speed by silently setting up a trap. It worked immediately to your dismay.
"Not so fast. I have questions."
Bruce said calmly with a stoic expression. His stoicism broke, however, when your baby boy slide in as well and rammed into Wally, giggling. Wally gave Bruce an awkward smile and held your boy in his lap, bouncing him nervously on his knee. Wally fidgets often when he's anxious and Batman makes him incredibly anxious.
You gave Bruce a worried smile. You didn't mean to make twins. They mutated like that. They multipled too fast to stop them and suddenly you couldn't. You had to separate the fetuses and incubate them faster than you could stop. You tried to smooth the glare on Bruce's face,
"Before you get mad, I didn't mean for this to happen. Well... I didn't mean for twins to happen. I very much meant to create a clone."
Wally lightly hit your shoulder to get you to stop rambling before you start. You don't need to reveal everything about your lives together.
Your relationship kind of just... happened. You didn't think Wally would be happy when he found out about your twins (by accident, of course), but he was surprisingly excited. Anybody else would have likely hated you, but Wally? He loved his little ones with his entire heart. He didn't even hesitate when he saw the speeding redheads. He knew they were his immediately, but he didn't know who until you tried to subtly call out their names in a low hiss. Where could they have gone? They could have been in France for all you knew!
You were horrified to see both of your troublemakers in Wally's arms. You didn't know how long you planned to hide them, but it was terrifying to see Wally look at you with raised eyebrows while holding his squirming twins.
"I would say I can explain, but I feel like the explanation would be worse than your guesses."
You had said as you attempted to take them back from Wally. Wally didn't want to hand them over, however, and actively evaded your reaching arms.
"Nuh-uh, not until I know how and why."
He said with a smirk. You groaned and rubbed your face in your empty hands. He's serious.
"Dick gave me a DNA kit as a joke and I thought, 'I wonder if I could make a clone like Conner,' so I got a DNA sample of everyone and mixed up all the vials."
You managed to snatch back your twins as Wally processed the information you gave him. He watched you coo over your toddlers and realised he wanted that. He wants to be with you, and he wants to be in his children's lives. He wants to play with his kids and put them in little Flash costumes. He wants to see your smile reflecting on their little faces and hear their mischievous giggles before they run to play in the Russian snow or chase each other like they have eternity together. He wants to see your warm eyes look at him every day and know he's the reason you have so much love in them. He wants this life. He wants to be a dad.
You had frowned in thought when Wally asked to be a part of your lives and told him he was the first to even know about the twins and you didn't really plan for them to ever know their dad.
"It's nothing personal. I hadn't considered telling anyone about them, truthfully."
You mused on the thought for seemingly forever to his superspeed thinking before finally accepting him into your lives.
You couldn't keep the relationship a secret in a family of detectives, but they wouldn't know to look if they didn't have a reason to look, so you kept the relationship silent. You introduced your kids to the Flash family long before you ever revealed your children to your own family. You told the kids to keep it quiet. You called it a family secret, and they took it as a challenge to keep everything hidden from the detectives.
"How old are they?"
Bruce asked with great exhaustion. You mumbled, but Wally answered with his running mouth,
"Three years in January."
You lightly touched his knee when it sped up in a silent way to tell him to slow down for the normal eye. Bruce's eyes unnerved Wally as they stared him down.
"To clarify, I missed three years of my grandchildren's lives. Why?"
You shrugged. You didn't know how to explain, so you simply didn't. Bruce is an intimidating man, and making him angry is like walking towards a tornado. You asked like you already knew the answer,
"Are you not angry?"
Okay, you have a point. He is furious, but not for the reasons you had feared. He was furious because it was kept from him, not because it happened. You said quickly when you noticed his subtle anger,
"You shouldn't have given me a DNA kit if you couldn't accept what I could do with it."
He shook his head in disbelief. That's your defence? He wasn't even the one to give it to you, so he didn't consent to your shenanigans. Dick should have known better than to give the scientist Wayne a DNA kit. In fact, he'll have to call Dick and yell at him later.
Tim was watching with a nervous gaze. He knew you had kids. He didn't know the other parent, nor did he anticipate it being Wally. It felt like a sitcom, and he couldn't change the channel. He couldn't believe it. Wally? Really?
Bruce sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose. It's a good thing he likes the Flash family because he wouldn't be able to handle it if it was Hal's kid. You hesitated before asking quietly,
"Do you want to hold her?"
Bruce looked at his granddaughter, and he couldn't help but soften. His anger vanished in an instant. Her big beautiful eyes looked at him so innocently that he couldn't stop himself from reaching out and taking her from your arms.
You subtly helped your son and Wally out of Bruce's trap as Bruce fawns over your baby girl. Maybe he can get used to being a grandpa after all.
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star-5truck · 2 months ago
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A letter to you
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Sypnosis:The final letter Dabi Touya sent you before the final battle.
Pairing :T. Todoroki x Reader
Two posts in a day? Its a miracle lowk
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Dear [Name],
    By the time this letter reaches you, I’ll probably be dead. I plan on making sure this arrives unscathed at your side, since I’m aware you’d still be in a coma when it arrives. I’m a little disappointed I won’t get to see your pretty face on the battlefield, but it’s better than you getting hurt. To start off, I ask you to forgive me for everything. I know I wasn’t the one who put you in your state, but I still apologize for that nonetheless.
Now, this letter isn’t for me to apologize like some beggar. I just want you to know my thoughts. I’d rather I not die without giving you a clear conscience. I know when I left that night without a word it hurt you. You really shouldn’t forgive an asshole like me, I hurt you in ways words can’t describe when you’ve been nothing but understanding towards me. So, I hope that through this letter, you get to understand me more. Because in the one hundred thirty-six days, three minutes, and five seconds we’ve known each other, I never really opened up to you.
The first time I met you, I thought you were a lunatic. I was injured, on the brink of death, and about to pass in peace but then I saw you. I thought that ‘this is it; I die to the hands of some hero without putting up a fight.’ Yet my demise never came. You took care of my injuries, brought me to your home and treated me like a human being.
What hero tries to talk it out with a villain? Newsflash, you, apparently. I’d like to inform you that you have not changed my views on heroes at all. I still believe they are all self-serving assholes that don’t care about anything other than themselves. I loathe them all… except you. If anyone is going to make the hero society a better place, it’s going to be you.
I don’t think the hero commission took it well when they found out we were having rendezvous’, eh? I always told ya we’d get caught one day. I knew that if I stayed, you’d be in bigger trouble than you already were. I truly believe it was for the better good when I left you that night. Yet with that being said, I’ll never regret meeting up with you every now and then.
You were definitely one of the good things in this hell. I haven’t found myself enjoying someone’s company in a long time. You’re some sort of blessing- to me and the world. I’m not super religious myself, but if there is some God out there, I’m real grateful they made you a part of my life. I haven’t been good enough for the God’s to respond to me, but for some reason they sent me you and I don’t plan on letting you go.
But that’s a lie and we both know it. Technically- I am letting you go. I’ve done it multiple times, actually. Kept pushing you away again and again but you kept coming back. Why is that?
I don’t deserve a soul as kind as yours. You were my light in the darkness, or however the saying goes. I think somewhere along the way I dimmed that light. There are times where not even the brightest of lights work. It’s not your fault, anyway. Because you did get rid of the emptiness I’ve always felt. I ruined myself on my own terms. I’ve always been fucked from the start.
You almost succeeded with your goal on changing me. When you told me to hide away with you? I almost caved in. To tell you the truth, I could never say no to you. You’re everything to me, minus the L.O.V, but they aren’t important right now. You are the one place I’d call home.
It is incredibly selfish for me to say that I’d like to keep you at my side forever. I bring pain wherever I go, and you- dear hero, are too kind to be treating a villain like this. I’d rather you hate me than going off and trying to save me. We both know I’m too far gone. Nonetheless, I appreciate the fact you thought I was capable of change. At some point, you made me believe it, too.
You’ll be the only thing I’m going to miss after I’m gone- that and crashing at your place. The time I’ve spent with you is something I’ll cherish, which we know is rare coming from me. You’d be the seven minutes before my death. I would’ve loved to run away and hide with you, [Name]. You saved me in every way possible. But I am driven by hate that even I can’t escape. I will do anything it takes to take down Endeavor, even if it means bringing down myself with him.
So, for the first and the last time, I love you, [Name].
Love, Touya Todoroki.
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seat-safety-switch · 20 days ago
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If there's one thing I hate, and I think we can all agree on this, it's slow drivers. Folks, I'm just trying to get where I'm going. Why are you wasting my time, sitting in my lane, holding me up? If you don't know where you're going, just pull over and phone someone who does.
Have you been feeling like you have too much optimism and faith in the course of our civilization lately? It's probably because you haven't been driving much. After just five minutes driving in a straight line, you'll turn into a regressive, psychotic crank like the rest of the commuting rabble.
Recently, I was forced to walk places for a little bit. It's not my fault: blame whoever at Plymouth in the 1970s decided that cars need oil. And batteries. And engines without a hole in the block. Round tires. Functioning starters. A windshield that's not covered in "parking violator" shame stickers and impound receipts. Really, it's amazing that any of my several dozen Malaise Era sedans have ever run. Be that as it may, I needed some food from the grocery store, and so I had to walk there on my own.
Now, I've walked a pretty good distance before, usually because one of my cars broke down and I had to go home to get another. This is the first time when I've had to walk away from my house. I found the journey somewhat exciting, as soon as I got over the anxiety of not being surrounded at all times by a two-ton steel-and-rust cage. When I got there, I picked up my two-litre of Pepsi and my four-litre of milk, and turned around to head home. On the way back, I saw something amazing.
An enormous traffic jam had formed in my neighbourhood, thanks to two SUVs making kissy-face at the highway on-ramp. If this had happened while I was in my car, I would have been stuck here with the rest of them, swearing at their idiocy while keeping an eye on my water temp gauge. Instead, I was able to walk past the vast quantity of stranded traffic, and pick up the barely-leaking 12-volt car battery that had been ejected from the shattered mass of one of the cute utes. At road speed, I never would have noticed this. On foot? I was noticing all kinds of sweet garbage stuck in the gutters from various low- and high-speed crashes.
It took a little bit of rearrangement of my load in order to carry all this heavy, awkward junk all the way home, but I got there. That evening, after dinner, my Volare had a working starter battery again, courtesy of the Hyundai Whatever that had given its life attempting a low-speed merge into a Hyundai Somethingelse. That wayward battery was now ready to be devoured by whatever rat-chewed wire kept sparking against the floor whenever my fifty year old shitbox was parked in one spot for too long. I was ready to rejoin the commuting masses.
Did I learn anything from my momentary experience as a member of the human race, instead of the rat one? Yes. I probably should buy some shoes, because boy do my feet hurt.
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f4ggydog · 1 month ago
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mari x reader🔞: you look so fine
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tags: smut, nsfw, reader has a dick, cum painting face, cum swallowing, oral, blowjob, porn without plot, a little filthy but not dark, pussy eating, a bit of overstim, hopefully not too ooc, established relationship
“Hey you.” You smirk at a slithering Mari whose crawling up next to you. You play with a strand of her dark hair and chuckle. “Don’t you think it’s a bit late to be up right now?”
Mari doesn’t entertain your question. Oh, you know the drill. Unfortunately, you’ve grown to have quite a weakness to those big doe eyes. Those brown eyes could turn you to mush within a minute and Mari knew that.
“Sooooo, are you gonna do something about it?” Mari shrugs.
“About what, babe?” You roll your eyes. Everybody in the cabin was already asleep. Mari should be resting too. But of course she had to get her way before she could seek out a proper slumber.
Maybe it was your fault that you were such a sucker, that those big eyes weren’t something you could easily say no to. It was your favorite feature of Mari’s. Not that you’d trade any of her features for the world, but her eyes in particular lit a warmth inside of you that wasn’t comparable to any previous encounters you’ve had with other women.
“You look cold,” Mari giggles. “You know, I heard somewhere that going to sleep cold could, uh, make you more likely to die.”
“Are you a scientist now Mar?” You lay your hand over your forehead.
“It’s just frostbite! It has to do with frostbite! I don’t know, I remember reading it in a book.”
“Baby, while I do appreciate your efforts to convince me to have sex with you right now, I do think there’s too much of a risk with everyone around us.”
“We’re in the attic, idiot. Remember? Nobody’s gonna come up to the attic because they hear some groans or something. They probably will think it’s some ghosts.”
God, your gorgeous girl and all her excuses.
“It’ll be quick,” Mari begs, flashing you some of the biggest puppy eyes you’ve ever seen. “Need you a lot right now.”
“Mar,” you sigh, wiping your face. “Can’t we wait till we’re on a hunt or something? Then, we can sneak off into the forest and do what we need to do.”
“We don’t have to do anything crazy right now,” Mari whines. “Please. I’ve been thinking about you all day. You barely talked to me today, dumbass. It’s like you hate me or something.”
Yeah, she always adds the insult at the end.
“C’mere.” You invite Mari to pull down your pants. “But we can’t be so loud though, okay? Even if either of us feel really good.”
Mari makes quick work of your jeans. She pulls them down to your ankles and your semi-hard cock springs out from the containments its been kept in. You always find yourself giving into that pretty princess. But saying no is always simpler stated rather than done.
She quickly takes your cock between her hands, pumping slowly at first. Then, she places a kiss on your tip, which makes your hips twitch.
“You like what you see, Mar?” You gently caress the back of her head.
“I’ve seen bigger,” Mari teases, leaning down anyways to plant kisses along your veiny shaft.
“You little brat,” you growl. “How would you feel if I just started fucking your face for saying that?”
Mari whimpers, using one of her hands to now fondle your balls. She may still be clueless at proper foreplay, but she’s touching as carefully as she can.
“Too big for you?” You coo, a sly smirk resting on your lips.
“Shut up. I’ve literally sucked you off before.”
“And let’s not pretend that you didn’t struggle. That was one time, Mar.”
Mari’s cheeks are a rosy pink and she lowers her head in slight shame.
“Don’t get shy on me now, pretty girl. You were such an eager beaver before.”
“Don’t s-say eager beaver,” Mari replies. “You sound corny. What kind of loser still uses that term?”
“The loser who’s cock you’re about to suck.”
You had a talent for matching Mari’s energy. A little banter could never squash your ego.
“Fuckkk,” you groan, slowly guiding Mari’s lips onto your cock head. “There you go. Just start with the tip.”
You buck into her mouth ever so tenderly, making sure not to bruise her throat or cause it to go sore. She’s still your beautiful girl at the end of the day. The sex wasn’t about agony or punishment or teaching her a lesson. Sure, you occasionally used playful little threats to entice Mari and give her ants in her pants. But, at least for now, you knew that you couldn’t go super rough on her. Mari was the definition of “too cute to harm,” like a butterfly flapping its wings through the forest.
“Just like that,” you encourage. “Mhm, there you go, Mar. Take it nice and easy.”
Mari nods, her doe eyes locked onto your gaze. She briefly pulls away to catch her breath before diving right back onto your hunk of flesh. Her nose nuzzles up against your pubes, inhaling that scent she’s craved so intensely.
Though, any compliment of your body parts wouldn’t do justice to Mari’s own beauty. She’s a gift sent to you from the heavens, an angel wearing the disguise of a semi-rude teenage girl. Her body’s divine, a treasure that you didn’t deserve. But yet, life was generous enough to supply you with the most beautiful royalty on the planet.
“So good Mari,” you praise. “Such a good girl for me. That’s it. Oh, you use that pretty mouth so good.”
Mari muffles her gratitude. All previous attitude has slipped out of the window. She couldn’t even think about being bratty. Her head was empty and filled with nothing but thoughts of gathering your cum.
One particular suckle makes you jolt and you pull Mari’s head in deeper. You wait to see if she’ll tap on your thigh, letting you know that she needs room to breathe. But Mari doesn’t. She hollows her cheeks and trains herself to take your decently sized cock better.
Your eyes roll back, your lip quivering as Mari pleasures you. “Yeah, I love looking at those pretty eyes while you suck my cock, baby. Such a pretty princess, aren’t you? Look at that adorable little face.”
“T-Thank you,” Mari whimpers. “Trying to be good for you, want to have your cock in my mouth a-all the time…”
“I know baby.” You pet Mari’s head like she’s a cuddly kitten. “Doing so good for me. You can take it, baby. I know my brave girl can handle it.”
Mari gasps. She’s hesitant to deepthroat you, but she senses that you’re reaching the edge. You’re both gonna die one day. Mind as well live on the edge.
Mari widens her mouth and unclenches her jaw. She takes you all the way to the base and doesn’t pull back as swiftly as previous times. Her eyes water and gagging sounds ensue. But she’s your brave girl, and she’s ready to tolerate another challenge life tosses her way.
“You’re taking me so good. You’re doing so good, baby. So proud of my sweet girl.”
Mari’s gotta keep going. You’re so close. She can feel it in her bones. Her own toes curl at your cock hitting the back of her throat.
“Oh fuck, fuck,” you purr, struggling to keep the volume of your voice down. You even forgot that other people were residing in this cabin along with you and Mari.
Mari redoubles her efforts.
“Fuck, I’m gonna cum all over that pretty face. You’re so fucking irresistible. You have no idea what the hell you do to me, Mar.”
Mari chuckles. She adores getting you to a state where you’re drunk on lust and gratification. Before Mari can gain control of her breathing, you pull her off and spray her with white. Thick, hot fluid squirts onto Mari’s face. It covers almost every part except her eyes and some even slips into her mouth. Mari initially wrinkles her nose at the salty taste, but opens her mouth keenly when you scoop some cum off of her skin and press it to her lips.
“Good girl.” You nod your head. “Just suck it off my fingers, baby.”
Mari cleans your digits off, your hand caressing her hair with care.
“Atta girl. God, such a pretty sight, your face mostly splattered with my cum.”
“Don’t try to embarrass me!” Mari lightly punches your arm. “You’re the one that was completely lost a few seconds ago. Your face was all twisted in pleasure just from my mouth.”
“Oh, you’re so very descriptive, Mar. Maybe don’t get so cocky though because you’re next.”
“Good.” Mari’s smile stays arrogant. “It’s only right that you return the favor. Wouldn’t be a fair exchange if you didn’t help me.”
“Don’t talk so smart with me. You’re the one who’s gonna have dried cum on her face.”
“Shut up asshole,” Mari groans, undressing and pushing her own pants to the side.
There’s a wet patch on her underwear and you cherish the way Mari jumps when you press down on the spot. It’s like pushing a button on a teddy bear at the store to get it to make certain noises.
You slip Mari’s underwear down to her ankles and then off her feet. You notice the way she closes her legs, like she’s trying to hide something. But her arousal doesn’t lie. There’s wetness costing her inner thighs and shining on her pussy.
“Someone was excited.” You crawl closer so that your mouth can be centimeters away from her slick cunt.
“Don’t tease,” Mari pouts. “Need you down there…”
“You need me down there?” Your eyes twinkle. “Yeah, need me to make you feel good, baby? You want me to make that pretty pussy cum?”
Mari throbs, hard. She wasn’t expecting that line.
“Oh, you poor thing. Do you feel deprived, Mar? Does your little pussy feel neglected? Hm?”
“S-Stop it.” Mari crosses her arms, looking off to the side. “I…ugh, fuck you.”
You understood exactly how to rile your girl up. And Mari’s too focused on her mortification to notice you diving straight for her slit.
You spread her pussy out a little wider with your fingers, lapping at her entrance to warm her up.
“Baby,” Mari whines. “Baby, I…”
“It’s okay, Mar. You were right earlier. Your cute pussy needs some attention too.”
Mari sucks in her breath and gasps as your tongue starts swirling on her clit. A heat flash washes over her and she begins sweating. Her hands form into fists and she claws her nails into her own palms.
Mari always had a problem with sensitivity and cumming too fast. You swear one flick on her clit could send her into an earth shattering orgasm. You don’t recall ever having Mari last longer than ten minutes. It remained difficult to treat her fragile body like a glass sculpture.
“S-So good,” Mari squeaks. “I-It’s so good, baby. A-Ah, wait I-“
“It’s okay baby,” you soothe, still suckling on her nub. “It’s okay. It’s supposed to feel good. Let it feel good.”
“I don’t wanna cum so fast,” Mari sobs. “B-But, it feels really good. Please don’t stop, please, please.”
“I’m not stopping,” you reassure between licks and kisses. “My pretty girl deserves all the love she can get.
Mari’s eyes fill with tears. Her body thrusts into your mouth, overwhelming her further. Her lip can’t stop trembling and it’s nearly impossible for her to keep her noises of ecstasy at the right volume. You’re both surprised nobody’s woken up to witness the chaos yet.
“Just feel good, Mar.” Her pussy pulses against your face. You slide in a finger so your mouth has more room to talk her through it. “I know it’s a lot, but that just means you’re feeling incredible. It’s a good thing. I’m right here, baby.”
“Fuck, fuck. Y/N, I think I’m already…”
“So close already?” You decide you owed Mari a bit of good faith ridicule. “Yeahhh? You already want to cum? Poor thing can barely keep herself together.”
“I know, I know.” Mari shuts her eyes. “Please, please. I, fuck, I can’t take much more. Please, a-ah!”
Mari was melting underneath you like a snowman in the sun.
“Fuck, please, please. Please.”
“Is that the only word you know how to say now?” You chuckle mischievously. “Has my baby gone all dumb with her thoughts? All she can think about is her pussy getting slobbered on?”
“Don’t talk to me like that,” Mari protests meekly, despite knowing she loves the condescending baby talk.
“Like what? You don’t like when I talk to you like a little puppy, Mar? Hm? You don’t like when I treat you like a squirmy little puppy?”
“Fuck, fuck!” Mari sobs. “Fuck, it’s too much. It’s too much, please!”
“Nooo, but you can take it for me, princess. Cause you’re a good girl and that’s what good girls do. They take my finger and my mouth, yeah?”
Mari cums right on your tongue. She rocks her hips against your face, riding out her orgasm. The pleasure consumes her so deeply that it turns into pain and overstimulated tears run down her cheeks. She cries and cries, babbling like a mess while she cums undone. Meanwhile, your mouth is still running, egging her on so she doesn’t waste this high she’s riding.
“That’s it Mari,” you coo. “That’s it. Such a good girl. Just keep cumming. Make sure you get it all out, okay?”
“I’m exhausted,” Mari pants. “F-Fuck.”
“God, my pretty angel is such a mess. Look at how soaked you are. I can still taste your juices in my mouth.”
“D-Don’t make me throb again,” Mari mewls.
“It’s so fun to watch you unravel though.” You grin wickedly. “I almost want you to go another round.”
Mari gulps. “A-Another one? But I’m already so sensitive.”
“That’s what makes it fun,” you purr.
You were sliding on the thin line of not wanting to coax Mari to the point of distress, but enjoying when your girl was spoiled.
But you see a glint of fear in Mari’s brown eyes, so you stop. You quickly swipe your hand across her pussy, cleaning up any remaining fluids that were sticking to her genitals. Then, you pull Mari in for an embrace and a kiss on the forehead.
Mari sits herself in your lap and snuggles against you like your body functioned as a pillow. She hums into your chest, still a shy mess. You rub Mari’s back and hold her as tight as you possibly can.
“Did so good today princess,” you praise. “You’re always such a good girl for me, my special girl.”
Mari lets out a cute yawn.
“Someone’s a little sleepy,” you comment. “I really did tire you out, did I?”
“Shut up,” Mari remakes. Still a fighting spirit, even in exhaustion.
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