#so much niall still xD

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Fic Rec: Parenthood!

So when I presented this theme, I said it was inspired by my new nephew. And that's sort of true. But then I went to select the theme in my spreadsheet, and realized that I'd already assigned this theme to this week. Because it's also Father's Day tomorrow.

I can't even blame it on baby brain XD

Regardless of the reasons or the path to get here, I present to you nine lovely fics featuring some of our favourite boys as parents -- new parents, old parents, coparents, pregnant parents, and more. Please enjoy, leave kudos and comments to provide your neighbourhood fic writer with enrichment, and look out for the next theme coming soon -- even I don't know if I've already picked it out!

That Rusty Old Minivan by Pointerbrother (125522, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) Warnings: Lots of drugs. Threats of violence. Bad decisions. Real life unhappiness.

Louis is living in a minivan, raising his siblings and his infant son. And a Niall. Then he meets Harry.

Reccer says: Original plot. Superb writing. Twist and turns and lots of OMG WTF

Heart Beat by allwaswell16 (35139, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post

When Harry returns to start a music academy in his hometown, he finds himself face to face with his high school crush—and his charming daughter who wants to learn to play the drums.

Reccer says: The fic is very charming, but it's like you get multiple adventures in one from the author's note adventures in addition to the actual fic!

All in the Golden Afternoon by leoghllbealright (126007, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post

Single dad Louis meets hippie preschool owner Harry when Louis’ daughter Goldie needs a new school

Reccer says: Honestly one of my favorite fics of 2024. This is Harry’s first thought on meeting Louis: “Have you ever, like, smelled someone and known with, like, every bone in your body that you want to marry them and have their children, and, like, draw their bath every night?” He’s weird and quirky in an entirely original way. And Louis is just brilliant.

Bitter Ends Turn Sweet by Allwaswell16 (30000, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post

Harry and rock star Louis broke up years ago, they meet again in Chicago.

Reccer says: The author writes kids SO WELL. This felt like a true parenthood fic, as well as a story about finding love

Aqueous Transmission by littleroverlouis (2148, Explicit, Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Harry is heavily pregnant, so when their backyard pool time turns into a different kind of fun, it's not surprising that she has to pee.

Reccer says: Incredibly hot but also incredibly soft and loving at the same time.

Meet In A Minute At The Rendezvous by LiveLaughLoveLarry (3621, Explicit, Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles) – fic post Warnings: mentions of sports-related injuries (everyone turns out fine)

Harry and Louis' sons are on rival high school football teams. Whenever the teams play each other, Harry and Louis sneak off to hook up in the restrooms after halftime.

Reccer says: The banter is so fun and funny, instead of the teasing coming off as mean for the rivalry it just shows how close and comfortable they are

No (Birth) Control by haztobegood (2888, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post

Harry's heat is just around the corner when he discovers that his toddlers have been using his diaphragm as a toy. With protection off the table, he and Louis decide it's time to try for baby number 3.

Reccer says: I don't know how to articulate this but I love how... down to earth it feels? It's such a mundane situation, but also such a genuine one, and it just feels so honest -- the complications of accessing birth control or how it feels, the hormones making emotions so much more intense, the struggle of still gentle parenting when you're super upset but know that showing that won't fix anything. It just feels so real and I love that.

Knife's edge by SadaVeniren (1483, Teen, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson)

Practicing kink goes a little wrong, but parenting has to go on!

The Coach Tommo Universe (series) by enchantedlandcoffee (8800, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post Warnings: N/A

Louis is the football coach of Harry's daughter, and Louis and Harry have a past.

Reccer says: a series of short, fluffy, funny little reads!

[starlostseungmin]

HI DARLING OH MYB GOD YOU POSTED IT ALREADY OH MY GOD OMOGOGM im the anon who requested skz x 1d songs im so sorry i locked in the whole day bc i have anatomy finals tomorrow for uni xD

listening to 1d songs as i read it (i miss my 1d boys <//3) fr i was a directioner before i was a stay and this makes me so happy

i agree so HARRRDDDDD perfect and little things are both made FOR chan and BY chan omg you’re so right the way he can be so insecure about himself i just wanna shower him with compliments and remind him that hes beautiful every hour every minute every second of the day </3 and the way you made hyunjin’s last first kiss was PERFECT🥹 i love this song so much (take me home 1d’s best album, i stand by it) han and felix would be the type to be in a fun and adventurous couple doing just about anything and everything and just vibing midnight memories & why dont we go there describes them so perfectly ❤️‍🩹now onto my baby my innie <//////3 both summer love and fool’s gold are so angsty but when u put it this way it is beautiful 💔 i want to for real go on dates with jeongin where we go on picnics and just vibe, or go restaurant hopping and rate their burgers and just be silly together and now i’m realizing he is also so change my mind coded AAAAHHHHH

this is so very delusion inducing and i’m gonna be brainrotting this for WEEKS while listening to 1d songs with a smile on my face again !!! the way you wrote for each member and matched them with one direction songs I AGREE SO HARD i cried you actually posted this bc i’ve been looking through ao3 wattpad and all of tumblr and ONLY YOU did it im so happy this is my 1dxskz crumbs fr THANK YOU SO MUCH 🥹 i’ve been following you since 2022 and have my notifs on HAHAH :D i love ur works and i just wanna know what your favorite one direction song(s) is/are 💗

sorry for yapping i just appreciate this so much xD

HI HI HI OMG GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR FINALS TOMORROW!! YOU'LL DO GREAT 💖

i was actually waiting for your response in regards with the headcanon AAAAND i'm so happy that you loved it!! i was a directioner way back in 2012-2015 tho and i still listen to their songs until now (fr fr i miss them too and has been waiting for a freaking reunion 😭)

it took me hours to find a song that would suit each member, skimmed and scanned every possible songs with their lyrics HSKSKSK i was supposed to write What A Feeling for seungmin, No Control for lee know and Happily for jeongin but yeah 🥹 there are a lot of 1D songs that could describe the members HSKSKSKSKS i wish i could write them all down HAHA hyunjin could be Long Way Down too yk? the one that really got me is Last First Kiss for him and Temporary Fix for changbin, chan is obviously Perfect of course and Lixie has a lot of potential songs, Han too 🫶🏻✨

i appreciate you having to ask me about it, and i apologize it took a while to have it posted here 😭 i wanted to write more of this but i have another series to finish HSJSKSKS too many wips in my google docs too AAAAA and thank you so much for being with me since 2022, for having my notifs on and for loving my works 🥺 i wasn't expecting it, you’re so precious honestly!! ☹️💖

as for my favorite songs, THERE'S A LOT OF THEM LIKE; Love You Goodbye, Infinity, Ready to Run, Why Don’t We Go There, Where Do Broken Hearts Go, More Than This, Half A Heart, I Wish, Moments, They Don’t Know About Us, Olivia, Spaces, Up All Night, Perfect, Best Song Ever and the list goes on 😭😭😭 ooooh and i loved harry and niall btw 😔 how about you? mehehehe

[horansqueen]

What show were you going to go to? And are you still a fan? I feel like he has died down so much and honestly im kind of over him. To me it seems he only comes around to promote stuff and not just be there just becsuse. I know I'll probably get hate for this ask anyway lol but people dont seem to be on Tumblr anymore so maybe not XD but yeah i just feel like the fans have gone drastically down because everyone that i knew was a fan isnt anymore and i am one of them, even though i have to go to his concert because im meeting a friend there ugh lol

I was going to one of the new york shows. Tbh im not really a fan anymore? I like him, i love his first 2 albums, and i still consider myself a fan of One Direction, but i do not love Niall like i used to. I miss writing but i was more motivated to write when i loved Niall more. 😕

[bazzybelle]

Thank you @angelsfalling16 @aroace-genderfluid-sheep @facewithoutheart @gekkoinapeartree and @you-remind-me-of-the-babe for the tags.

Got some more COBB, though that may soon change because I joined TWO fests (which may have been stupid), and I have the little COTTA voice in the back of my head poking at me.

I also realize that I have a vastly different idea of light-hearted than most of you guys, so sorry for that xD.

ANYWAYS, enjoy?

My final initiation is in less than two months, and I still don't feel ready. There is so much I need to learn, and it's getting more difficult to get a moment to myself. Between Snow never letting me out of his sight, and the stupid Purity Brigade (or rather, the Mages Men) (fuck's sake) patrolling the grounds, I'm constantly at risk of getting caught with "dark" artifacts.

It's becoming glaringly obvious how unprepared I am. That flower spell should not have been so difficult for me to cast. My mother was casting sonnets when she took her final initiation rites.

I wrap my arms around my knees and pull them up to my chest, burying my face. There's no one around me, and I'm not expecting anyone to intrude. I allow myself to let go, for just a moment. Everything I've been feeling --that I've been keeping locked inside-- pours out of me in waves of emotions and tears.

"I'd cast a 'Misery Loves Company', but I can see that it's not really necessary."

I snap my head up to see Dev and Niall leaning casually against the entrance to the chamber.

"Fucking hell," I snap, quickly wiping away any evidence of my outburst. Dev and Niall don't say anything more and allow me a few moments to compose myself. "What are you two doing here? Shouldn't you be at your own ceremonies of remembrance?"

"We never do much during our own ceremonies, and they get rather dull," says Niall, coming to sit beside me.

"It'll be more exciting in three years when The Veil lifts. There's always some big scandal that gets revealed," says Dev. He walks to my mother's tomb and places a small bouquet of flowers beside my budding moonstones. "Hello, Auntie," he says before coming to sit on my other side.

Tagging @f-ing-ruthless-baz @fight-surrender @carryonsimoncarryonbaz @amywaterwings @ninemagicks @excalisbury @aristocratic-otter @bookish-bogwitch @sillyunicorn @wellbelesbian @palimpsessed @shemakesmeforget @martsonmars and @letraspal

[maxrev]

For the kiss prompts: "in the snow" and "life or death" if I can combine them like that? your call) for an otp of your choice.

IT IS DONE...I had no idea this would explode into such a long prompt lol. I mean, I gave it a title and even added a quote xD. Anyways, here you are :) Thanks SO much for the prompt! A bit angsty but I figured the prompt called for it! 

Under the cut because...wow...

I’d like to thank @spaced0lphin for her wonderful musical work, as it provided inspiration to write this piece and @theoriginalladya for checking it over 

When I Took to the Sky 

Death is a challenge. It tells us not to waste time… It tells us to tell each other right now that we love each other. Leo Buscaglia

Arcing through the debris, the drop shuttle came to rest amidst the debris of a ship, snow puffing up into the air as it landed; flakes sparkling as they danced and whirled in the air before once again coming to rest on the ground. Pulling on his gloves, the pilot reached for his helmet resting on the passenger seat and tugged it on, twisting it snug with a snap. 

He took a deep, steadying breath...and stepped out onto Alchera. 

Ever since Niall had received the message from Admiral Hackett about placing a memorial here, he’d been pushing it aside. A memorial to honor those who’d laid down their lives for the Alliance. Hardly seemed enough, considering how dismissive the findings the crew of the Normandy had presented. But the fact he was employed by Cerberus now was cause for surprise in being contacted. Other questions followed though; why had the Alliance waited so long to decide on a memorial? Had he not rose from the grave like Lazarus, would they even have bothered? 

Once he’d agreed, he continued to push it aside. There were other missions to take precedence, a ragtag bunch of crew members to hunt down and recruit, and the Illusive Man to annoy - his personal favorite agenda. Anything took precedence over coming here. He simply wasn’t ready to face the part of his past which had changed everything.  There was hope coming here would heal old wounds, rather than deepen them.  

His steps were measured, faltering when he came upon a piece of the Normandy, his mind thrown back in time invoking memories he’d suppressed of a life changing event from over two years ago.

Two fecking years! 

It was a constant struggle to process the passage of time; dying and then being resurrected without any knowledge of it.  

Pausing at the mako, he was thrown into the past, scenes flashing behind his eyes…Kaidan's white knuckled grip as Niall slid the tank through snow and ice up the mountain on Noveria; Ashley yelling with uncontained glee as he'd skidded close to the edge of the lava pools on Feros; Garrus' mandibles twitching when he'd observe the mako on return to the Normandy; Kaidan's resignation upon being turned down again upon his request to drive...the near kiss they'd shared inside the cab a few hours before their last drop when their world ended.

Lost in his thoughts, he didn’t hear the approach of another drop shuttle.

A sound came from behind him, out of place in the absolute stillness around him. Niall whirled, one hand reaching for his maglocked weapon, the other erupting in a blue glow. Setting eyes on the source, both hands dropped to his side in shock. 

Kaidan.

Right away, he noticed he LT had changed. They’d spent so much time together; on the ship, off the ship, on the battlefield, he’d learned the LT’s subtle mannerisms. Gone was the quiet, sensitive marine soldier with stars in his eyes, the romantic he’d claimed to be back on the SR-1. In the eyes staring back at him carefully, in the posture of the man before him, there was a confidence and maturity he’d not had before. There was also doubt. 

It's me, Niall wanted to say, to reassure. It just wasn't so simple.

He watched the play of emotions in the deep brown eyes he'd dreamed about so often. Their eyes locked and he was thrown back in time. Although for him, it was only a few months ago...not two years, when they’d been sitting in the mess on the SR-1, drinking coffee and going over their notes on the Terminus. Niall had been going on about the goose chase they'd been sent on...

“I cannae believe they sent us out to the arse end of space for nothing! Wasted two fucking weeks looking for something which isnae even here.” He slammed his fist on the table, other soldiers in the mess startled at his outburst. Niall ignored them. 

“I’m sure they just wanted us out of the way but we’ll find something, Shepard. We just have to be patient.” 

Niall snorted, “My patience ran dry about an hour inta this mission. I’ll contact those doaty bampots and tell 'em what I really think.” 

Kaidan chuckled, took a sip of his coffee before answering, “Not your best idea by a long shot.” 

Winking at him and enjoying the slight blush across the cheeks, Niall smiled, “Aye but it’ll be fun and blow off some steam.” 

In the end, nothing came of it as the ship rocked hard to port and alarms began to blare around them...

A cough brought him back to the present, watching the brown eyes change in the light, the initial confusion fading to doubt, then replaced with wariness. 

"Who are you?" The first words to be spoken aloud between them, in the same velvety rasp which had haunted Niall’s dreams.

They cut deep, hurt worse than any wound he’d endured. He straightened up, pushing the pain away and answered. 

“Who d'ya think it is? Jolly ol' St. Nick? Tis me, Kaidan. Niall.” He felt like he was stating the obvious, words coming out sharper than intended. 

Silence followed his outburst, the sound of wind wailing in the distance filling the stillness. As the quiet stretched on, Niall reflected on the situation, quickly realizing if roles were reversed, he'd be suspicious as well. Indignation sailed away like a balloon on the wind.

Ready to apologize, Kaidan spoke before Niall could ready his words, “I thought--” voice hoarse with agony, he choked on whatever he’d been about to say, unable to continue. Looking away from Niall, he composed himself, took a deep breath and despite his attempt to remain calm, blurted, “You...you were dead.” 

Biting his tongue against voicing the LT’s mighty powers of observation, Niall fought for something a wee bit more serious and relatable. Now wasnae the time for jokes. 

“Aye," the words ‘but now I’m not’ still echoing in the air between them. How could he begin to explain what he dinnae understand himself? As if he were stuck in quick sand, he felt the more he tried to climb out, the deeper he sank. 

“So, the rumors were true.” 

“Och, aye, guess they were.” 

“When?” 

The wealth of emotion in the single word struck Niall right in the heart, nearly making him stagger from the pain. He fought for an answer, disregarding one after another as they came to him. 

With a heavy sigh, he decided on the truth, “Several months ago.” The dark brows inside the black helmet furrowed downwards into a frown he was all too familiar with. Even to his own ears the response sounded lame. “I dinnae know until then. I was...uh...I doonae even know what to call it...brought back to life?” He threw his hands up in frustration. 

Disbelief followed his statement, turning quickly to suspicion. He could see the change in Kaidan's eyes through the visor. Tone flat, he echoed, “Brought back to life." At Niall’s nod of confirmation, his voice rose, "How is such a thing even possible? Who is...capable of such a thing?” 

Knowing how Kaidan felt about the organization, Niall didn't spare him the facts. He'd find out anyway. “Cerberus.” 

The climate of Alchera was cold and frigid, unfit for flora or fauna to sustain life. Even inside his armor, Naill could feel the chill in the air and had simply wanted to walk through the ruins and leave quickly. He’d never expected to find a dog tag or get lost in memories. 

And now, with his confession, the temperature seemed to drop even further; at least where the two of them stood. Kaidan stared at him for several long, agonizing seconds. He didn’t bother answering, turning around and walking away.

Niall jumped forward, his gloved hands capturing Kaidan’s stopping him, “Wait, please. Don’t go.” 

His gaze dropped down to where their hands were joined; Niall's did as well, heart skipping in his chest. “Please.” He wasn't above begging, not when it came to Kaidan. 

Pulling his hand from Niall’s, Kaidan turned away; yet, he didn’t leave. Several minutes went by; Niall held his breath. “How could you? It’s...they’re Cerberus! You know what they’ve done. The...the things we saw!” 

Fully aware of what his impassioned words implied, Niall felt his anger rise in response, “Did ya think I had a choice in this? As if I could pick and choose who would ha’ the honors of...of fixing...of rebuilding me? Fuck! I wouldnae have chosen this at all...if anyone had ever bothered to ask me first. But here I am and will damn well make the best of it, ya ken?”

Silence stretched on around them. “Are you…you?” Kaidan whispered.

How many times had he looked in the mirror wondering the exact same thing? “I doonae know, Kaidan…" He repeated in a whisper, "I doonae know."

With the admission, he could not look at Kaidan anymore, gazed around them instead. He saw a glint of something shiny; another set of dog tags perhaps. 

To fill the void, he explained, “Saw something sparkle in the sun shortly after I landed. Walked over and found a set of dog tags belonging to Pressly. As I wandered among the wreckage I found more from the crew...the ones who…” he couldn’t say it out loud, felt a hand settle on his shoulder. 

Startled, he turned to stare at it, unable to process the gesture with Kaidan’s protests from a few short minutes ago. Did he believe him now or was it all just for show? Yet, Kaidan had never been superficial. Something Niall admired about him, then and now. 

“We’ll do it together.” The words startled him even more than the touch, but he was grateful. 

“Aye. Tapadh leat.” **

Searching the pieces of the Normandy side by side. As the looked, Niall noticed the sky darkening overhead. Caught up in the past, neither of them had paid any attention. A storm was approaching; a large one. Seeing another glint of metal, Niall brushed off the snow and wrapped the chain around his gloved fingers. 

The storm had intensified and was coming at them fast and furious. There wasn’t time for them to get to their drop shuttles and leave.

He turned and tapped on Kaidan’s helmet. “We need to take cover. Now! Get inside one of the drop shuttles!” Niall took off at a dead run towards the one closest, Kaidan hot on his heels. 

Jumping inside, Niall slammed his fist against the touchpad, shutting the door just as the storm growled over them, ice chips beating a staccato against the steel hull. Wind buffeted the Kodiak, causing it to rock before sliding a few inches along the ground. Unable to radio out and with no one able to contact them, they were sitting ducks at the mercy of the storm.  

Niall reached up and took off his helmet, scrubbing his shorn, itchy scalp with gloved fingertips. 

“You...you’re...the scars?” Kaidan finally managed. 

Niall had forgotten. Not completely healed when the Lazarus project had been sabotaged, he was left with scars where his skin hadn’t had time to knit back together. Chakwas told him by remaining calm they would eventually heal and fade but with stress, they would remain...or get worse. 

Well...

He turned towards Kaidan, their eyes locking. Niall wasn’t the man he’d been the last time they’d seen each other. 

“Aye, scars. I wasnae fully healed when...well, when I was brought out of my coma.” He went to replace his helmet. 

Kaidan stopped him, hand on his arm. “No, don’t. I don’t care what you look like, Niall. I just...I was surprised.” 

He nodded. No moreso than he when he first looked in the mirror. The image staring back at him had been a great shock. That mirror had been replaced. Niall went and sat down on the bench in the back; Kaidan remained standing, neither one speaking as the storm raged on outside. It might last an hour or maybe days. 

“Look, Kaidan--”

“Niall, I--”

Both of them spoke at once. Niall gave a weak grin as Kaidan chuckled and he noticed the pink hue covering the tips of the ears. Some things hadn’t changed. He felt as if a weight had been lifted and he’d been granted a boon. 

Looking at Kaidan straight on, he began again, “I ken how it looks. I do. But, before you draw and quarter me, I dinnae now what to do, where to go. The Alliance won’t ha’ me now and I talked with Anderson and Hackett. They know what’s going on with the human abductions. The Council won’t listen.” He spat the name, no more enamored with them than in the past. “What would ya ha’ me do?” 

“Plead your case, push them. Be relentless like you were before. They have to see reason.” 

Shaking his head at Kaidan’s blind faith, he countered, “Do they? Have they ever? Have ya forgotten Sovereign? The Citadel doesnae even remember, the damage wwept away like so much garbage, forgotten and moved on.” 

The shoulders slumped. Niall studied him, drinking in the sight of a man he hadn’t realized how much he’d begun to care about. Until he was gone. Yet, here he was right in front of him. And they were arguing, Kaidan too blind to see what was so obvious. He stood up, stepping forward until they were nearly nose to nose. Kaidan looked up. 

Niall lost himself in the brown eyes, a golden amber when the light overhead caught them just right. How had he never noticed before? The laugh lines spreading out from the corners of his eyes, the freckles above his right eyebrow. So many details he’s missed. No, he’d never bothered to find. Now, he noticed them all...and more. 

Adrenaline surged in his blood, excitement unfurling within him. He remembered the scars over Kaidan’s lips, wanting to touch them, see how they felt beneath his fingertips...against his tongue. They were right there in front of him now. Overcome with a tidal wave of pent up emotions, he acted on impulse. 

Leaning forward, he captured Kaidan’s mouth with his, losing himself in the scent and taste of him, in the soft lips, his tongue tracing the scars...finally. 

Lost in a longing he had no name for, it took Niall several seconds to register there was no reciprocation. His heart twisted painfully inside his chest. So, this was it, then. He took a deep breath, ready to apologize. But, as he stepped away, he stumbled, Kaidan surging forward to initiate the kiss this time. 

The Kodiak faded away, as did the storm outside. Only the two of them existed in this perfect moment and Niall drank it up like a parched man in the desert until they both broke away, simply in order to breathe. 

** thank you, Scottish Gaelic, informal

[btsandvmin]

I was a 1D fan too! I still like them individually. Sometimes I feel like Tae is like Zayn, Suga is like Niall, RM is like Liam, Jimin is like Harry, JH is like Louis LOL of course they are nothing alike and I like them not for that reason but sometimes I see small things that remind me of them which is weird I know but yeah.

Yeah, I don’t follow them as much now individually as I did when they were a group, especially since the group dynamics are one of the things that really appeal to me (musically as well I love group performances). Also Zayn was my “bias” so he kind of broke my heart... T-T

I think it’s natural to see similarities, and I totally see what you mean with the members you paired so I don’t think it’s weird. But yeah, I personally don’t think anyone really translates too well to a BTS and 1D counterpart. Though I do feel the Liam/Namjoon trying to lead a bunch of rascals and then just giving up is a whole vibe. XP I have seen similar comparisons between BTS and EXO as well and I think it’s really funny... It’s just simple entertainment and not meant to be taken seriously. (Though some do take it seriously and get offended but yeah, over protective fans is a bit weird at times.)

Anyways, yeah... I am very much a group type of person when it comes to music. Literally since Backstreet Boys, through J-pop, 1D and K-pop that’s just what I am drawn to musically. And even more so when it’s a group I can really enjoy watching and follow as people as well. It takes something special for me to fall for them though, and honestly only Kanjani8 and BTS have really stood out to me as family, and I am all the more in love with them for it. Thank you for the ask, and sorry for taking so long to answer it. :)

(Also Niall is my spirit animal, in particular when he gets in that salty mood, but don’t quote me on that.)

edit: here is a video of what happens when Niall doesn’t get to be the one to hold the phone for selcas. Watch from 4.10 and look at him reach for that phone and then go “I’m not even in it.” XD  Ok, sorry. I just had to.

I sometimes wonder if it’s ok for me to talk about other fandoms on this blog, but then I realize it’s my blog and as long as I don’t shove other fandoms in your face or talk too much about them it should be fine right?

[alexwritesfiction]

random question: today i showed a friend my quote wall, so i want to hear about your favorite quotes! any from books or other media? or from a person? my quote wall is written in pen, pencil, and a little bit of sharpie; would you/have you ever written on your own walls? or scrawled notes in your favorite book? anything else that reflects how you make something your own!!

oh oh i absolutely love quotes! reading and writing both! i don’t have a quote wall (welp) but i do have a blog dedicated to them. so many of my inspirations come from quotes.

i could probably go on and on about these but here’s my fave quotes

Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same | Wuthering Heights

If the whole world was watching I’d still dance with you | Niall Horan, This Town

and so many more but these two top the list i guess

also for sure i’d love love loveeeee to have a quote wall. maybe i’ll try painting one :D

and yes of course i’ve highlighted so many things from so many books it’s hard to keep count nowadays haha :) my own books are a mess of quotes and plot points XD

something i always do to mark it as mine, kind of like a watermark, is always give it a name. like not a piece name, i give it a lyric or a generic name that it reminds me of.

thanks so much! what are your favourite quotes? :)

[a-lil-perspective]

sunflower: if there was a door that went to a city that was a good representation of you, what city would it be and would you go through the door?, waterfalls: describe your perfect date., clouds: list your top 5 songs at the moment and how they make you feel

Sunflower- Picking another country again and saying Italy. I can’t pinpoint what it is but yes.

Waterfalls- Picnics or hikes come to mind. Lowkey chill stuff that’s not set at a certain pace and leaves room for soft interactions and getting to know the other person through more than just words. I’m simple to please. Just lie down in the grass with me, maybe h*ld my h*nd and I’m satisfied. XDD Though okay I do love getting all fancied up just... not attending gatherings or fancy dinners and everything that usually comes with it. I just wanna dress up and go for a midnight walk in a pretty square with no one else around lol.

Clouds- (Sorry this is long oop)

1.) Hideaway by Jacob Collier. Good Lord just... please heed the words of this jazz hoe and go listen to the masterpiece that is this song... it is so inexplicably wonderful and is a daily repeat. Gorgeous song, beautiful vibes. It’s about being filled with so much yearning and love towards one’s “hideaway”, their safe haven. It’s taking comfort in the knowledge that it/that person will always be there. It’s so serene yet carries this wistful and actually an incredibly romantic complex to it... it calms me when I’m out of sorts. It’s like seven minutes long and it makes me feel so many things also this is on the Hunter playlist and the inspo for the majority of my works for him so take that as you will. And Jacob Collier has this gorgeously full range voice that makes me 😍❤️.

2.) In Too Deep, also by Jacob Collier (with Kiana Ledé). Uhhh. Another incredibly sappy and amazing song that makes me feel things that single people typically don’t lol but alas, I’m too emotionally immersive for my own good.

3.) Literally every song on Taylor Swift’s newest album evermore but especially that particular song itself. Another solid repeat except one that makes me sob uncontrollably because I guess I like to hurt. XD

4.) Dangit okay I’m really setting myself up here LOL but you did say top five so Put A Little Love On Me by Niall Horan (yesh I have a Hunter fic titled that that’s where I got it from) and uh yeah. Got some real good lonely/yearning vibes which I crave. XD Found it actually describes me pretty well, too. For example //Are you all dressed up but with nowhere to go// Are your tears falling down when the lights are low// Another Friday night tryna put on a show// Do you hate the weekend cause nobody’s calling?// I’ve still got so much love hidden beneath this skin//Will someone put a little love on me...// Like if that bit doesn’t describe me idk what does.

5.) Epiphany by Taylor Swift (in which the Kix fic thingy came out of that one time). Such a good, forlornly song. Deepens my Clone Wars feels. :’D It’s got really calm undertones but deep lyrics. Kind of my overall vibe.

6.) because also Hamilton deserves to be here for real.

[1dcommunityficrecs]

Space Fic Rec

As we sit upon a rock spinning at 1000km/hr, and hurtling through the cold, empty universe at 100,000km/hr, illuminated only by a giant ball of gas and nuclear fusion 150,000,000km away from us that keeps us gravitationally locked in its orbit... I bring you six space fics! Cause space is cool as heck! Even if it's a little terrifying!

Take a look through, and if any catch your fancy then drop a kudos or a comment or a reblog -- your friendly neighbourhood fic writer appreciates it!

The Stars Look Very Different Today by kingsofeverything (43032, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post

For Harry Styles, child genius turned glorified spaceship mechanic, rescuing lost or broken down ships is a fairly common occurrence. There’s nothing common about his latest mission, the ship, or that ship’s captain. The last thing he expects to find in a distant galaxy is the one thing he’s been missing on Earth.

Reccer says: I think the future world-building is incredible!

ghost of you by beckywritesthings (109111, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post Warnings: Graphic depictions of violence

a Star Wars AU where Harry is Obi-Wan, Louis is Satine, and somehow there’s a love story between the cracks where there shouldn’t be

Reccer says: An incredibly written, epic royal space fic! Even if you've never seen Star Wars, you'll fall in love with these characters. And if you have seen Star Wars, you'll be amazed by how this writer plotted this story!

foothold by turnyourankle (18358, Mature, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post

Louis has crossed the galaxy with a ship full of crystals; they’re the only thing he has to offer in exchange for safe harbor. He thought getting to his destination would be the hardest part, hoping that once he got his family to safety everything would fall back into place; Louis struggles to adapt while his sisters thrive.

Reccer says: Such atmospheric, visual writing that was used to create such an interesting world! The characters are so complex and have inner demons that eventually reveal themselves.

Don't bring the Starbucks by LadyLondonderry (4814, Teen, Niall Horan/Rory McIlroy) – fic post Warnings: Minor character death (but as the author says, it's no one you like)

The one where Niall is a perfectly normal university student, until he finds himself an ocean away in the middle of Ohio with a strange man telling him to stop wandering off. Then he’s in space. It’s a whole thing.

Reccer says: Emmu's fics are always their own special brand of charming and this fic is no exception. It's so delightful and odd and it makes me so happy.

in other words by sarcangel (3758, General, Niall Horan/Louis Tomlinson) Warnings: mentions of past injuries leading to prosthetics

Niall works on a space cruise line, dancing with passengers, but the person he most wants to dance with is the captain.

Reccer says: A really fascinating worldbuilding (is it still called worldbuilding if it's in space? XD) I feel like we know so much about the background of these characters and this universe, even in only a few thousand words.

Breaking Through the Atmosphere by dinosaursmate (40416, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post

Louis is recruiting folks to colonize a new planet; Harry is the sweet, homesick painter/veterinarian he recruits.

Reccer says: Brilliant descriptions of what their life is like on another planet! And such a gentle, slow burn into realizing that you’ve fallen in love.

[fenharel-babe]

@ma-serannas-vhenan

Daily update of me :))).

I keep wanting to listen to this demon and let her and the man be happy even though it’s a lie for him. But Ik I can’t let them go :(.

So WAIT?? THIS DEMON JUST PUT US TO ASLEEP?? AND NOW IM IN THE FADE?? This mission is going on so long. I came here for mages to help free Connor like yo-

Duncan🥺. I had to fight him and now I’m in another part of the fade.

AAAH I CAN BECOME A MOUSE!! AN ADORABLE MOUSE!! YES!!!!

I keep accidentally running into the fire and dying sjabsb. I’m just used to DAI and running into the fire but living. But I just opened a door and there’s fire and Oop I died XD.

I’m still going through this fade thing like JESUS DNABSB. But I keep running into fire-

I saved Wyvern (I forgot her name), Leliana, and now it’s time to save Alistair🥺. And then when this is done I have to do the option “I need to tell you how I enjoy your company,” >:))).

AAAH ALISTAIR IS WITH HIS “SISTER” AND HES SO HAPPY DJSBSJ. He’s like that child that’s like “pretty please can we stay?” but it’s reversed. “Can you stay? Please!” I love him—

He’s like “Hey!” and he sounds like a KID I LOVE HIM DHAHSB.

I had to say bye to Niall and he’s dying😭.

NODBABS. I get to see Cullen. Idk whats wrong but he’s like “I know what you are. I won’t let you trick me,” BABY DJWNSH. I just wanna give him a kiss🥺.

HES CRYING HYDRA FJSJBD. He’s crying. And he said “a mage nonetheless”. I think he meant it got involved with a mage? Or is it that my warden is saving him and she’s a mage? Maybe I misunderstood idk. But the baby’s been tortured...😭.

Hmmm,,,Cullens hatred for mages and it slowly dissolving (not entirely-) in DAI and him ending up with a mage. I like that idea :)))). Even if Elle is technically an elf and a mage while being a warrior but hey that’s not important.

Seeing Cullens voice be so angry and sad at the same time makes ME sad. And the way he just wants to kill the mages is making my mage heart dIE.

They’re torturing this poor mage. And Irving is there witnessing it. I thought he was the one being tortured but it’s someone else aND IM SO SAD DJWNSB. SO MUCH IS HAPPENING. I JUST CAME HERE FOR MAGES TO HELP CONNOR DNWN.

Irving being stubborn and resisting makes me love him even more. You go Irving💙. Even tho you might die idk-

Irving lived and I defeated the bad man (forgot his name. Ik it starts with a U) and I’m SO HAPPY!!

Seeing Cullen so angry and sad has me sad😭.

That’s all for today :)))). I’m still enjoying it so much.

[siarven]

Find the Word tag

I got tagged ages ago by both @authordai and @jaimistoryteller for Heat, Fall, and Vivid, and another time by @authordai for Fresh, hair, black, watch, caress AND hate, tall, pour and friend. Also by @cirianne for concerned, stone, decide and tough. 

These are a lot of tags I’ve procrastinated XD Thank you all for tagging me, though :’D 

These are from three different POVs, Ava, Ben, and Amber/ Emma

Heat

The world snaps into sudden sharp focus, the overlaying effect gone. Iuri is holding me in her arms and Azrae stands right next to us, looking at me with worried eyes. They reel back when I start to glow, the fiery heat spreading from my chest — probably my heart?— to my hands. Then Iuri starts laughing, a helpless, relieved sound.

Fall

And even though the panic is blooming in my chest, making my hair stand on end and my heart race, I fall sleep. Because sometimes there’s power in words, and afterwards I’m never quite sure if I dreamt it all or not. It doesn’t make sense, but then so little ever does.

Vivid

“I think you had a very vivid dream, Ava”, Papa admits finally, “but I know how real dreams sometimes feel.” I stretch my tongue out at him. “I know”, I say grimly, “It sounds stupid and made-up, but it wasn’t a dream, and the monsters were real, too, but you never believed me then either.”

Fresh

The monster turns around and sees Emma, and then it opens its mouth in a hug grin (so many horrible white teeth). They’ve got hooks and they’re probably longer than my hands! I shiver. The mouth is far larger than it should be, and it glows, too (like the eyes). Are those even eyes? Maybe they’re just holes cut into its skin? Evil red, like fresh blood, only glow-y. I’ve never felt this cold, not even during winter!

Hair

“I know, kitten”, Mom answers quietly, also ignoring my presence, and tries to smooth down her hair. It doesn’t work. Ava’s hair is the killer of no less than five combs and three hair brushes, and its death toll would have been much higher if Mom hadn’t stopped trying.

Black

Then I notice what she’s holding, and somehow it makes everything worse. There’s this black plushie-cat that Grandma made for her when Ava was still a baby, and there haven’t been any nights when she hasn’t clung to that. Tonight she has my Pillow, too. It drives tears into my eyes and I just stand there stupidly, trying to think of something to say.

Watch

I take the coward’s way out and say nothing. I really want to help, but only … slightly. I also really want to play, to think nothing serious for a few hours, to just watch the animals, watch the gardeners, have fun.

Caress

“I—”, he whispers, then visibly shakes himself. “Thank you, Bennie. I— I knew that you were still there. I am so proud of you. My little boy…” He caresses Sleeping Me’s face, and then he stands up and leaves. Smiling widely through the tears drying on his face.

Hate

“I hate the Asim”, I whisper angrily as we’re climbing the stairs. Papa stops abruptly and looks at me in alarm. I cross my arms in front of my chest and look back defiantly. “What? They broke you when they took Elinor and now Ben is — hurt — and they do nothing! It’s all their fault!”

Tall (don’t have that one)

Pour (don’t have that one either)

Friend

Now I’m frowning, too. “She’s your best friend! And Niall, too! They’re not the kind of friends who’d leave you behind after a fight. Sure, maybe Amelia will be a bit angry at you for a week. But in the end you’ve been friends for half your lives now, that must count for something! And Niall? He’ll never leave you. I’d bet anything on that.”

Concern(ed)

“Good morning?”, I repeat, trying unsuccessfully to force my uncertainty away. Something must have happened, something bad. Does it concern me, too?

Stone

The longer we walk the darker the path seems to get. The stones get older and more black, rougher, more and more spiky, with less plants growing on them, and even the mist around us seems to change. At first I don’t even notice it because the transition is so gradual. Then Azrae pulls out a small stone, turning it in their palm, until it suddenly starts to glow brighter and brighter. And only now do I realize that the world has grown dark and scary, and that I’m no longer in the place that I knew before.

Decide

She looks up for the first time, eyebrows drawn together. “Ava, get back from the hole! I can just about see you falling!” I shake my head stubbornly and wisely decide not to tell her about the adventures Ben and I had, climbing up the trees in the Sanctuary. “I can sit here as long as I want, and I’m going to stay until you tell me why. Why are you fighting again? You were hugging in the hospital! And now you’ve gone back to shouting and being angry?”

Tough

I can’t let go. Not when there’s still hope. I can’t betray them like that. Have to remember that when times get tough. Have to remember that there’s always hope, even in the darkest of times.

I’m tagging all of you back ( @jaimistoryteller @authordai @cirianne) and also @romenna @writin-maaagic @sincerestaffect @paper-shield-and-wooden-sword @asttralhell and @fynniana to find me read, cat, tree, rock, dream and cloud. 

[littledreamybeth]

Fragile

Wow that escalated quickly! I’m sorry this is bullshit xD But I still would like to know what you’re thinking about it! Third part to “The letter”

Part 1

Part 2

“How do you expect me to go home, when there’s no home without you?”

Y/N could hear her heart cracking in between her chest. There had been plenty of things that broke her heart in her life time but nothing had ever hurt as much as the question Harry had asked her just a few seconds ago. She knew how desperate he was without her, how much love he held for her, yet she was determined to let him go and find his true happiness. As stupid and selfish as it might sound, she wanted him to find the true love of his life because from her point of view she was anything but the right girl to spend an eternity with.

“Home without you is nothing what it used to be, love,” Harry said quietly, his voice shaking as his eyes locked with the gentle holding of their hands. “I can’t go back there, knowing you won’t wait for me when I open that door. It kills me.”

He took tiny steps towards her and moved her so that her back was pressed against the cold wall behind her. He needed to feel her close, he had to feel her warmth because if he didn’t he would go insane. The sweet scent of her perfume, oh that sweet and familiar scent hit his nostrils and took him completely under its spell. It had become his favourite scent and Harry would always recognize it everywhere.

He reached his hand out and pushed a strand of her behind her ear with a tender motion. Y/N shuddered at the loving touch. “I don’t want to live in a world where you have no part in, can’t you see? I’ll give everything for you, I’ll even die for you as long as you stay with me. Please love, come with me. Come back home. I don’t wanna be alone.”

Y/N closed her eyes, trying to swallow down the thick lump that had developed in her throat. She struggled hard to not letting his words having an effect on her. She was stubborn, Y/N had an aim in her mind and she would fight for it until she had reached what she wanted so that’s why Y/N pushed him aggressively away, despite the pang of pain in her heart as he bent forwards and attempted to connect their lips to a kiss. Harry almost fell onto the ground but luckily he managed to keep his balance. Shock and confusion was written all over his face. He couldn’t register what just had happened. Not for once had she ever reacted like this before.

“No, Harry!” Y/N spoke firmly, shoving away the guilt in the pit of her stomach. “I already told you were over. Why can’t you understand? Leave me alone!” She intended to escape this situation as soon as possible, however Harry would have none of it. His hand grasped tightly around her delicate wrist.

“Oh actually, you ended things with me over a damn letter like a fucking coward!” he hissed at her face.

“Let go, Harry!” Y/N whined, trying to free herself from his grip. “You’re hurting me!”

“You told me you loved me, how could you forget it so easily?”

She did. She loved him with her entire being but she would do everything put his happiness over hers. And before she could prevent this from happening, she already spoke the words she hoped Harry would never hear. 

“I don’t,” she gasped. “I don’t love you anymore. Never will again.” 

Hopefully, this was enough confirmation to make him hate on her. It would break her though, but for her it was the best way. Harry needed to get over her, forget her, erase her from his mind.

Unfortunately, she reached exact the opposite of what she was aiming for. Harry stood there completely petrified, his body frozen like an ice statue and his eyes eyeing her in unbelief. He denied believing what she said, he didn’t want to accept it. What happened to the woman who would declare her unconditional love to him in every occasion? That woman was not his Y/N, she looked like her but she wasn’t her. She had changed so much over the few months they had been separated.

Before Y/N could react, Harry’s knees were already making contact with the ground and loud sobs escaped his mouth. He did not make an effort to cover his face, he was tired and he was hurting. The woman he thought he would marry, having kids and grow old with just told him she didn’t love him anymore. How could his fragile heart endure so much pain? He simply wanted to die here and now, right on the spot his was kneeling.

“Tell me you’re lying!” Harry screamed loudly, gaining everyone’s attention on the hallway. The people around them who were shooting them confused glances wondered what caused the Harry Styles so much ache that he cried about it in an open place.

Y/N felt nothing but remorse eating her out and she felt terrible speaking nonsense. She tried to hold back her own tears, took a deep breath and spoke again. “It’s true, Harry. I don’t love you anymore.”

Harry looked up to her, his eyes blood-shot and his cheeks tear-stained while he shamelessly continued crying. He silently begged her to stop torturing him, he simply wanted her to take him back. He craved for those days in which they lied in each other’s arms, nothing but devotion and affection visible on their faces. If she took him back, he would forgive everything she had done to him.

“I’m sorry, Harry. But it’s time to go separate ways,” Y/N told him.

As on cue, Scott, the man Y/N was accompanied with, joined the two of them. Seeing Harry on the ground being a crying mess, made him shoot a questioning glare at Y/N. He damn well knew who he was, because Y/N entrusted Scott everything about her former relationship, but experiencing Harry in his probably worse state made Scott feel nothing but compassion towards this young man. Harry belonged to one of the people who deserved endless love and happiness.

“Is everything alright?” Scott asked, gently touching Y/N’s elbow.

Harry wanted to kill this man. He wanted strangle him because he blamed him for losing the love of his life. If he wasn’t there, Y/N would still love him. How dare he to touch her if he should be the one who was allowed to touch her?

But he couldn’t blame her. Scott was admittedly attractive und he could guess he was also quite charming. No wonder Y/N had fallen for him.

“Man, are you okay?” Scott addressed him, however, Harry made no effort to answer. Getting no response from him, the young man turned towards the woman beside him.

Her eyes were fixed on Harry.

“I want to go, Scott.” Y/N choked out, being at the verge of crying too. “Please take me away from here.” The room began to suffocate her.

The young man complied, offering Harry who was still crying his heart out one last sympathetic glance before taking Y/N’s hand and dragging her away from the crowd of people which was already surrounding them. The air started to lack in her lungs and Y/N needed time to breathe and let everything settle down.

She never turned her face back to Harry but her ears didn’t miss the desperate plea of him.

“Y/N, don’t go, please!!”

“There is no turning back, Harry,” she mumbled under her breath and soon leaving the bar with Scott, with every ounce of her insides being burned.

It was only a few hours later that Y/N was wakened up by loud thumping on her front door. She looked at the alarm clock on her nightstand which indicated it was 5 AM in the morning. She threw the blanket away from her body and stood up, rubbing the sleep off her eyes. The loud banging still continued and Y/N really questioned herself who her visitor might be. She rarely had people over at this time.

When she opened the door, the young blonde man was the least person she expected to see.

The way he looked at her crept the shit out of her. She wanted a black hole to appear out of nowhere and to swallow her. 

“Niall?” she spoke in confusion.

His face was covered in nothing but rage and his normally loving blue orbs stared at her colder than ice.

“What are you doing here, Niall?” Y/N dared to ask.

“When will stop playing this game, Y/N?” the Irish man spoke, ignoring her question, his very low voice causing shivers down her spine. She had never heard him talking to her like this.

“What are you talking about?”

“Cut the bullshit! When will you stop playing stupid games?”

Y/N was completely caught off guard. What the hell had she done to him that he was standing at her door in the early morning?

“Niall, I really don’t know wh-“

Another loud bang was to be heard right next to head. Her whole body flinched with fright.

“Fuck! Harry was involved in a car accident last night!” Niall screamed at her like it was her fault. “He’s in coma now! Are you finally happy?!”

Y/N’s vision became dizzy. She needed to support herself on the door so she wouldn’t slip down.

In that moment, the whole world stopped moving around her.

[maxrev]

OTP Asks - I'm going to be lazy and ask for all of your boys for the following questions: 1, 7, 10, 17, 22, 36, 43. Thank you!

Putting me through my paces here lol. Whew....Thanks though, this was fun! 

From this list here

1. Who wakes up first?

Knox x Kaidan - Knox. He doesn’t sleep much to begin with, so is always up before Kaidan. He can’t understand how someone who is such a stickler for rules, can’t drag himself out of bed an hour before his alarm lol

John x Kaidan - neither. They both roll out of bed around the same time xD

Jon x Kaidan - Jon but primarily because he’s such a light sleeper and often gets up to watch the sun rise over the water on the beach. It’s his favorite part of the day. 

Niall x Kaidan - Kaidan lol. Niall gives Kaidan a run for his money when it comes to sleeping in. He’s a night owl and stays up late at night. He says he does his best work (winks at Kaidan) at night O.o

7. Who comes up with the cheesy pick-up lines?

Knox x Kaidan - definitely Kaidan. Takes Knox forever to realize he even has feelings for Kaidan, then to even act on them. The pickup lines aren’t cheesy on purpose, it’s just Kaidan being...shy and awkward!

John x Kaidan - John without a doubt. In fact, he purposely comes up with THE cheesiest he can think of in order to make Kaidan blush, the crew roll their eyes, and everyone take bets as to what he’ll come up with next ;) His top used one is ‘come here often’ when he ends up in the same place as Kaidan on the ship. The crew mouth the line behind his back because they always know it’s coming!

Jon x Kaidan - hmmm, not sure on this one. Tbh, probably Kaidan just to get a laugh out of Jon as he tends to be too serious at times. 

Niall x Kaidan - Niall for sure. Kaidan has a few but Niall beats him every time for sheer cheesiness and ridiculousness. It’s a point of pride with Niall after a while lol

10. Who sets the other’s ringtone to something loud and obnoxious behind their back?

Knox x Kaidan - neither. Kaidan knows better, so he’s never bothered to try. Knox doesn’t do ringtones. 

John x Kaidan - equal. John loves to drive Kaidan nuts this way. Usually, it’s some truly obnoxious rock music, heavy or classic, or something from a very old sitcom, John finds hilarious but Kaidan doesn’t. So, in retaliation, Kaidan will find something he can get back at John with, usually with Joker’s help!

Jon x Kaidan - Kaidan likes to shake things up for Jon and often it’s something Jack has picked out, so it’s super loud and obnoxious xD

Niall x Kaidan - Oh, Niall for sure. It’s always something to do with bagpipes and loud drums ;)

17. Who carries all the important documents while traveling?

Knox x Kaidan - Knox. Kaidan tries but Knox is uber organized and will NOT relinquish control. 

John x Kaidan - Kaidan. John could care less and Kaidan even goes behind him and makes sure he’s packed everything he needs. More than once, he’s left something important behind. 

Jon x Kaidan - Equal. They’re both pretty on top of things when travelling, so it’s usually whoever scheduled the trip. 

Niall x Kaidan - Niall will deny he’s not organized enough but Kaidan knows better. To make things go smoothly, he gets to the documents they need beforehand just so everything is ready to go and there’s no mix-ups. In fact, he usually puts them somewhere Niall can’t find them just so he doesn’t get his hands on them!

22. Who texts more often?

Knox x Kaidan - Kaidan! He tries not to smother because Knox hates it but it’s a very fine line. Knox is just...busy and forgets. Also, he just doesn’t see the point in it. 

John x Kaidan - Oh John without a doubt. (I have a...lot of ideas for this) But yeah, silly one liners, ridiculous sayings, anything mundane that pops into his head. Kaidan gets it ALL. 

Jon x Kaidan - Fairly equal, though there are times Jon goes dark and then Kaidan worries. 

Niall x Kaidan - close but I think Niall edges him out...juuuust a bit. 

36. Which one is the secret snuggler?

Well, to me, Kaidan is a snuggler in general, so not really secret in any pairing of mine! 

Knox x Kaidan - Surprising no one...Knox! He is the big spoon and on the rare occasions Kaidan wakes up first, it’s to find Knox wrapped around him. He doesn’t do it consciously and only when he’s completely zonked out. He denies it when Kaidan tells him lol

John x Kaidan - equal snugglers. Touch is comforting to them both and John likes wrapping his arms around Kaidan...and his legs…and draping his body over him xD

Jon x Kaidan - Jon is still processing having someone touch him, so definitely Kaidan when Jon feels up to it. 

Niall x Kaidan - Niall because at first, he just kinda flops around the bed, kicks Kaidan a lot when they start sleeping together, hits him over the head. Niall is a bed hog lol. But overtime, he gravitates to the touch of skin on skin, the safety and security of Kaidan and his warmth, though Niall isn’t exactly cold. 

43. What is the first thing that changes when they realize they have feelings for the other?

Knox x Kaidan - ooooo. So, Knox is kinda poleaxed on Horizon when he hears Kaidan’s voice, then sees him...then devastated when he walks away. Sure, he gets it and would do the same. Just takes him by surprise to feel that way. Knox wants to be a better person for Kaidan and begins to change in little ways, begins to think WWKD, in many situations - even if he doesn’t always change how he tackles a problem. At least, not right away. 

Kaidan tries to get to know the man behind the mask, understand him better, see why he makes the choices he does and meet him halfway in how they process their decisions. 

John x Kaidan - I think they realize it right away at the book store, so John’s just...relentless in his pursuit but still never pushes. Kaidan has to come to him. For Kaidan, he stops...running away. 

Jon x Kaidan - Jon tries to sabotage any budding feelings the minute he realizes he has them. His self hate is very real, very up front and center and it leads him down a dark path. Thankfully, Kaidan is endlessly patient and understanding, so when they’re finally on the same page, it’s awkward but ultimately healing and chock full of feels. 

Niall x Kaidan - Niall is oblivious for a long time. Kaidan knows he has feelings but refuses to act on them. Think...slooooow burn here. But, when they both realize it and quit circling around each other and missing the mark, they are in complete tandem and their dance is beautiful to behold. 

[swimmingwolf59]

Fireflies

(A/N) I've always thought Ronan's dreaming ability is the absolute coolest - like it's such an awesome idea, and Ronan always creates the most amazing and beautiful things. So of course I'm a sap and had to devote at least one prompt to how beautiful Ronan's mind is xD No warnings for this chapter, just pure fluff! Hope you enjoy c:

In the wee hours of the morning, Adam wakes up to a room full of fireflies.

He’s just gotten home for winter break, only the second time he’s been home in nearly five months. He’d come down for Thanksgiving, but that had only been four short days compared to the three weeks he now has with Ronan. It had been harder to leave the second time, and Adam had wondered as he drove away and saw Ronan’s face fall in the rearview mirror if it would ever get any easier.

Being apart from Ronan is…hard, to say the least. Ronan hates being on his phone and he can never handle it for very long, even for Adam. Their calls last about ten minutes every day and it’s not even comparable to talking to Ronan in person. 90% of how Ronan communicates is through his body language, and being unable to see it makes it hard to understand and just makes Adam miss him more.

Skype calls are a bit better, as at least Adam can see Ronan, but 90% of how they communicate is through touch, and not being able to touch Ronan or pet Chainsaw or hug Opal when he talks to them is torture. Though Adam has been starved of touch all his life, the three months spent at the Barns before coming to college had spoiled him, and now he can’t remember how he ever lived without it. He misses Ronan’s absentminded touches, from him briefly placing a hand on his lower back when they move around each other to slinging an arm around his neck when they watch TV on the couch. Adam’s hands have never been colder without Ronan’s fingers between them or his feather light kisses on his knuckles. Ronan had sent Adam off with about a suitcase full of his dream lotion for his hands, so at least they’re not cracked anymore, but it’s never the same.

The worst part, Adam found in the first few weeks of college, is that he has trouble sleeping without Ronan now. It’s too silent, too cold, too empty. Adam had gotten used to Ronan’s warm skin pressed against his, the sound of his breathing, the faint roar of his EDM pounding out of his headphones. Ronan usually plays with his hair while he falls asleep, something Adam never knew he liked until Ronan started doing it and something that he misses with an aching passion in college. He misses being able to shove his cold feet in between Ronan’s warm legs, making him yelp; he misses Opal running into their room, screeching and jumping on their bed until they get up; he misses the soft way Ronan will kiss him good night, never bothering him even when Adam falls asleep right away and he stays awake for another three hours; he misses being warm and happy and known and loved.

He even misses Ronan’s dreaming, good and bad. It gives Adam a sense of excitement upon waking up, to see what magical and mystical thing Ronan has brought back this time. Of course, not all he brings back is good, but they’ve got a system down of taking care of it together. If it’s blood related, Adam methodically strips and washes the sheets while Ronan clings onto him, desperate to know he’s alive. If it’s night terror related, they keep a shovel by their bed that Adam uses to kill it before they haul it outside together and Ronan uses that very same shovel to dig a grave for it. Adam doesn’t really like the killing part after the fact, when he worries for the millionth time he’s turning into his dad, but when he’s irritated at being woken up and the thing is trying to kill Ronan, his Ronan, he doesn’t have as much of a problem with it.

He’d do just about anything to keep Ronan safe.

Ronan’s nightmares had started occurring less and less with Adam staying at the Barns, but Adam worries about him now that he’s not there with him. Who knows what his nightmares escalate to without Adam there to calm him down? But Ronan never talks about it, and Adam has given up asking. Ronan seems okay, and from the secret conversations he has with Opal it sounds like his nightmares are for the most part staying at bay. He has his farm work to keep him busy, and Opal and Chainsaw to keep him company.

It makes Adam feel a bit better knowing that, but he still wishes he was there with him.

Even if he can’t be, though, the next best thing is when Ronan drives up to visit him at Princeton. He loves showing Ronan the campus, even though he knows he really must not give a shit, and introducing him to his college friends and roommate. Of course, he loves it most of all because he can have Ronan with him again, reaching out to touch him, sleeping with him in Adam’s small dorm bed. He gets more sleep than he does any other time when Ronan visits, and just for a little while it feels like home.

They have to be careful about Ronan’s dreaming, what with Adam’s roommate sleeping across the room, but the morning of when Ronan has to leave Adam always wakes up to find some little trinket on his pillow. The first time, it was a little statue of a raven that caws like Chainsaw when Adam taps it. The second time, it was a cashmere blanket that always smells like Ronan, even when he isn’t there. The third time, it was an opal, shiny and perfect. Adam keeps all of them on his bed close by, so it feels a little bit like he’s still with his family.

But Princeton will never compare to the quiet of the Barns, a blanket that smells like Ronan will never be like sleeping next to Ronan for real, little dream trinkets snuck into his pillow will never be like waking up to a room full of magic and wonder.

So when Adam wakes up that first morning to the fireflies, he nearly cries he’s so happy and relieved to be home. He’s missed every little aspect of Ronan so much.

“Ronan?” Adam whispers as he rolls over to face his boyfriend, but Ronan must have fallen back asleep for once, a rare blessing that Adam isn’t about to strip away from him.

So Adam just watches him sleep, admiring the way the faint glow of the fireflies illuminates Ronan’s pale skin. The insects wink on and off as they flit around, making it seem like the room is full of stars. A couple of fireflies land on Adam’s arm, their little feet walking across his skin tickling him. He stares at them in wonder, delighted that they don’t fly away when he leans in closer to get a good look at them. All of Ronan’s dream creatures love him, for a reason that doesn’t need to be kept secret anymore. It’s a little overwhelming for Adam sometimes, when Matthew crushes the air out of him in a ferocious hug, when Opal carefully grabs his hand and leads him around in the forest, showing off all of her discoveries, when Chainsaw lands on his shoulder and cuddles into his neck, content to fall asleep there.

Even after a year of dating Ronan, he’s still not fully used to being loved.

Rolling onto his back, Adam lays there quietly, watching the fireflies and listening to Ronan’s soft snores and the distant braying of cows and goats. They still haven’t figured out how to wake Niall’s cows, but Ronan has added new ones, both dreamt and bought, to the herd. He also bought a couple of goats and chickens, as well as one particularly feisty dream pig that likes to sneak up behind Adam and head-butt him. Ronan also grows all sorts of crops now, and last summer Adam had helped him set up a greenhouse for a rather impressive flower collection. The Barns are growing and expanding, in a magical and rewarding way that is every day becoming less like Niall and more like Ronan.

And maybe even a little bit like Adam.

Adam has taken it upon himself to start planting trees everywhere, from orange trees to pines to redwoods and everything in between. Ronan had offered to dream him up some soil that will make sure anything he plants grows, but Adam had refused; he wants to learn how the trees work for himself, what helps them grow, what doesn’t, what will and won’t grow in this climate. It’s his own personal memorial to Cabeswater, and maybe also a promise to himself to be more prepared to understand magical forests in the future.

He had let Ronan wordlessly hand him an unidentified seed, though, and when Adam planted it it grew into a completely blue tree. Its bark is a dark cerulean blue while its leaves are sky blue, and it apparently grows at random every type of blue food imaginable. Adam had even found blueberry cotton candy growing on it once and he’d laughed so hard he’d startled Sledgehammer the pig, who takes to following him around everywhere.  

He can’t believe Ronan, sometimes – despite all effort to suggest otherwise, his boyfriend has the most beautiful mind out of anyone Adam has ever met. Every day he surprises Adam with his innovation and seemingly endless amount of imagination. Ronan will think of something in an instant, something beautiful and creative and smart, that Adam would never be able to create in a lifetime.

He loves him for it – he’s so happy he has the privilege of being allowed to be this close to Ronan.

Adam isn’t sure how long he’s laid there staring at the fireflies when Ronan wakes up again. When he’s not paralyzed from taking something out of his dreams, Ronan’s awakenings are violent and sudden. One minute he’ll be absolutely still and the next he’ll be thrashing around wildly, throwing the covers off of him and rolling around until he’s comfortable and has worked out all of his sleep kinks.

It’s endlessly amusing to Adam, even if he often gets kicked in the process.

“You always act like the world is on fire when you wake up,” Adam whispers, unable to hold back from teasing him. He reaches out and presses a palm in between Ronan’s shoulder blades once the thrashing has calmed, gently tracing a hooked talon of his tattoo with a finger.

“Well, the one day I wake up and the world is on fire, you’ll be thanking me,” Ronan growls. He’s still half asleep, Adam notes wryly, as his eyes eventually widen when he realizes who exactly had been talking to him.  

“Adam?” he mumbles sleepily as he reaches up to cup Adam’s cheek in his palm. The soft way his first name comes out of his mouth still makes Adam’s heart melt.

“Hey.” He grins and places his hand over Ronan’s, hooking his fingers easily into the spaces between Ronan’s.

“What the hell are you doing up so early?” Ronan murmurs, impossibly soft. Before Adam can reply, though, Ronan looks around the room and sighs exasperatedly as he sees the fireflies. “Ah shit.”

Adam laughs – even in the dark he can tell Ronan is blushing. He wonders how much sappy dream stuff Ronan has had to tuck away while he was gone so that he’d never find it, too embarrassed to show Adam how much he missed him. It’s sweet, adorable, and Adam’s love for him surges warmly in his chest. This is what he’s been missing all this time.

So instead of making fun of him, he leans forward and leaves a soft kiss on Ronan’s temple, hugging an arm around his waist as he settles in next to him again. “I missed you too.”

[danixinhahhh]

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Heya!

After another month without posting here I am again!

Things really got out of my hand and after starting school I just got stuck with other stuff so I had to leave the blog behind. But today I am here to update you on everything that happened in the end of my holidays and in the start of uni until now so let’s start!

So, something that I’ve been doing a lot, during holidays and still to date, which I don’t know if I’ve already tell you but, it’s watch movies. Me and my sister have been watching a lot of movies, doing like movies nights and stuff and there’s some that I really enjoyed! Most of those I mentioned on my Summer Favourites video as well as in my latest video “October Favourites” so if you wanna know just check out my youtube channel ;D

Something else that has been changing a lot in the last few months is my ‘home’. Turns out I have to move houses and the last couple of months me and my family have been dealing with looking for houses and doing some construction and just selling some stuff that we don’t need anymore so, that have been making my life CRAY-ZAY!

Guess I don’t need to mention that I watched a lot of series during my holidays. I started 6 new series: MacGyver, Humans, The Defenders, Big Little Lies, True Detective and Midnight, Texas.

Actually, talking about Midnight, Texas... I went to the premiere of it, here in Portugal. It was pretty cool because it was in a totally different place, really reminded of the town where the show takes place, we had free food and we watched the first episode so, it was really nice!

Then, in september it was also one of my friends from High School birthday so I also went to that.

Also in that same month Comic Con Portugal announced that KAT MACNAMARA IS COMING AND IS COMING ON MY BIRTHDAY! As you can see, I got really really happy! I still don’t have a ticket because I don’t have anyone to go with, but I REALLY REALLY wanna go and I just know I’m going, I just have to find out someone to go with me :x

Then, in the very end of September I went to the ‘mother!’ movie premiere and WOW! That movie is so mindblowing! I talk a little bit more about it in my Summer Favourites (again) so if you want to know about it check it out, but I’m going to say this here, I TOTALLY RECOMEND YOU WATCH IT! It’s so fucked up but so good!

Well, needless to say that a few days after this I got back to Uni.

I don’t really know what to tell you about my ‘uni life’ this year. All I can tell you is that it’s been pretty chill. Actually too chill xD I barely have assingments and, because we basically cut ‘relationships’ with those other ‘friends’ that were making us stay in school every single day and just piss us off, everything have been chill and we all do stuff at home and our projects are almost all done so it’s been pretty good.

Something not Uni related that I need to talk about is the fact that NIALL HORAN IS COMING TO PORTUGAL! That’s right! And he got tickets to see him! It was a little difficult because they sold out like in an hour or something, but my mum was able to get tickets for me and my sister so, in May, We are going to see him here in Portugal! :D

A few weeks after I started school my actually came back from Angola for a week and as you can guess me and my sister spent much of that week with him. We still had classes so we couldn’t be 24/7 with him but every day, after school, we were meeting with him and going out for dinner and sometimes going to the cinema. Actually, while we were with him we went three times to the cinema! First we went to see IT, which was so freaking cool, really liked that movie! Everyone gotta watch it! Then, on the weekend, we spent it all with him, and we went to see Blade Runner which was actually better than what I thought, and it is always good to see Ryan Gosling, and then on Sunday we went to see Kingsman: The Golden Circle, which was also so freaking dope! Still prefer the first one but it was pretty good as well.

After a week my dad I had to come back to Angola and after that I tried to catch up on everything that I left behind while he was here.

And a few days later my sister actually was invited to a beauty event because of her blog and she asked if I could go and so on Wednesday, Oct 18th we went and it was pretty interesting. It was a little bit too long, three hours, but it was interesting :)

Then, Oct 25th was actually a pretty good day! Not only I didn’t have the only class that I was going to have, but I also went out with one of my friends to do one project, which was cool and then I WENT TO THE JIGSAW PREMIERE! That was such an achievment to me! PLUS The movie was so freaking amazing LOVE SAW SO DAMN MUCH!

After that, on Oct 31st it was HALLOWEEN! Halloween is my favourite time of the year (I love it even more than Christmas #sorrynotsorry ) so I obviously I had to celebrate it! I didn’t do much tho, just a dinner, dressed up and watch horror movies, but that’s my description of a good time so, it was really nice!

Well, and I guess that’s pretty much it.

This last couple of days all I’ve been doing is, as usual, watch some series, I’ve been updating my series blog like A LOT, I also posted a video yesterday (like I mentioned before) and I actually went shopping yesterday. I didn’t buy much tho, but I also went to Starbucks so it was a good day!

And yeah, I finally updated you on everything!

I’m sorry for taking this long with the update. I know I’ve been rubish with both my blog and my youtube channel. I’m going to try and be more active from now on.

Until then, you can always find me on my series blog.

Love,

D.