#soberthoughts

[thelastday1]

This weekend I went to Atlantic City to visit my best friend. She loaded her fridge with heinekens for me, got champagne to celebrate my belated birthday, and prepped for a fun boozy girls weekend.... imagine how awkward it felt for me to say nah, I think I'm good, and a dozen different variations for why I wasn't drinking other than simply.... I quit drinking.

We went out for dinner & I got a grapefruit juice while she had two fancy cosmos, she continued her evening with nightclaws, then we went to walmart to pick up board games to play back at the house. Again she asked me if I wanted a drink, and I went deer in the headlights for a good 20 seconds before finally saying no. In those 20 seconds the wheels in my head were spinning a thousand miles an hour, picturing me drinking just 1 and resetting my sober day clock, picturing that 1 turning into 5, picturing myself hungover with my head throbbing on the 3 hour drive back the next day.

No. I'm having too much of a good time to ruin it with poison and guilt and shame and go back to square one. Thank you but no thank you, thank you but no, no no no, not today not tomorrow, I'm good.

[itsthatsoberguy]

What will you do?

[thegratefulnuts]

Happy Hump Day errybody! 🐫 Anyone else needing a little encouragement to make it to Friday?? We talk an awful lot about our experiences, mess-ups, and victories on our recovery journey’s… (which is kinda the point for this page, I guess LOL) HOWEVER… let’s give that a break for a moment, shall we? We’d like to hear from YOU. What’s on your mind today! What experience, strength, or hope do you have to share? Are you struggling? Did you grow through some challenges this week? How’s work? What are the kids up to? How’s ya momma and’em 🤣😂 • • • • #sharethegoodnews #experience #strength #hope #sobersupport #recoverysupport #soberblogger #recoveryblog #sober #sobriety #sobercommunity #recoverycommunity #addiction #addictionrecovery #soberthoughts #whatsupwednesday #wednesdayvibes #humpday #positivevibes #soberinstagram #soberinspiration #sobermovement #sobermotivation #sobertribe #odaat #carrythemessage https://www.instagram.com/p/CpiD41duDkK/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[sober-in-a-nutshell]

Monsters

June 28th, 2023

I have been sober for a week now. Even in extreme cases, it really only takes around 14 days for the body to rid itself of all of its alcohol.

I’ve found that the hardest time of the day for me is the early afternoon. By 2 o’clock I would generally be stopping by the store and getting ready for my dinner-time routine with wine or a hard-kombucha.

Talking to my friend about it yesterday helped. She let me know that she felt the same way about her drinking that I do about mine. It helps knowing that I’m not the only one that is struggling with this revelation. 

However, after our talk, and the feelings of elation that came from it, I had the biggest urge to drink. Every time I’ve quit drinking I’ve noticed that around the completion of week one I cave. 

You would think that talking about the positives that came with sobriety, I wouldn’t feel so inclined to drink again. But that monster is still always there.

[fixquotes]

"Always do sober what you said you'd do drunk. That will teach you to keep your mouth shut"

- Ernest Hemingway

[recoverthyself]

Breaking up with alcohol is like breaking up with a bad boyfriend or girlfriend - it's hard to do, but it's necessary for your own well-being. And just like you wouldn't try to do it alone, you shouldn't try to break up with alcohol alone either. That's where counseling comes in - think of it like a relationship coach for your relationship with alcohol. Your counselor can help you identify the patterns in your relationship with alcohol that is keeping you stuck, and develop strategies to move on. They can help you navigate the ups and downs of the breakup process, and provide a listening ear when you need to vent your frustrations. And just like any good relationship coach, they can help you celebrate the small victories along the way - whether it's going a day without a drink, or discovering a new hobby to fill the void. So if you're ready to break up with alcohol for good, don't do it alone - find yourself a relationship coach (aka a counselor) and let them guide you through the process. Who knows - you might just find the love of your life (aka sobriety) on the other side.

[nynie96]

#soberthoughts https://www.instagram.com/p/CnKaRLLOSXatx1IuQ5ctg6WLypr3Jaa2zAU2Aw0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[sober-thoughtsss]

Yikes.

I never thought I would be opening a new account after years of forgetting the existence of this space.

I know. Uhm, I actually don't know. I don't know what I'm doing here.

It's 4am and I just finished a movie. I was left feeling empty after. I felt an empty hole in my chest and a little pain in my stomach as if I was elbowed unintentionally. It was a familiar feeling but for some reasons, it's not. And No. The movie? It's no melodrama or something. Typical movie people would enjoy during weekends when they want to destress after a week of hellish workdays.

I don't know why I opened this app. Maybe, I want to vent. Or to process my thoughts these past few days, uhm weeks, through writing. But my head, and I think also my heart, are so heavy that I can't find a reasoning that'll will help this mess in my head makes sense.

I don't know. I'm sleepy. But I can't sleep. I'm sleepy. I want to sleep.

[sober-with-u]

Hindi ko akalain

Na may pagkakataon na ako'y magigising,

at ang una kong makikita ay ang iyong muka.

Hindi na magtataka kung bakit ang aga ng pagmulat ng mata.

Hindi na din mangangamba kung bakit,

ikaw parin hanggang sa panaginip.

Basta't ika'y nasa aking tabi ay okay na.

Ang yakap ng kahapon, ay yakap pa din ngayon

Sana magkaron ng pagkakataon

Na araw-araw ikaw ang katabi hanggang pagbangon.

[drunkenwordsmindfulthoughts]

The Lonely Boy

It is often that we long to be with someone, to love someone and have someone to love us. We spend our entire lives, seeking love or what the idea of love is. Does anyone really know? Have we been programmed by this idea of “love” only to seek it so many times and end up at a dead road? Why does something that is perceived the be one of the best things that can happen in your life, be one of the hardest things to deal with. Human meets Human, humans fall in love. Sometimes humans fall in love and realize this is not the love that they were seeking and they question, “was it really love to begin with?”. We are filled with so many emotions and we are told what all of these emotions mean, some of the make total sense and others, we go through life trying to find the meaning. I am in love or what I perceive love to be. Why does my love seem lonely? isn’t love supposed to fill that void?

[poetsdiscretion]

1st Video in 3 years

here’s the link https://youtu.be/EyKYsJFVT4s

[thelastday1]

I don't hate myself, and I'm not generally sad.

But there's an everforming, gnawing feeling inside me, disappointed in my alcoholic self for digging my present self into a hole of confusion, uncertainty, clutter, and dishonesty.

How did we get here? I used to know you so well...

The more I focus on fixing my messes, the clearer it is to me how self destructive, demanding, and impulsive I have been. What kind of asshole does that to themselves? Someone who doesn't love themselves, maybe, or cares what happens to them.

The realization that I didn't care what happened to me for a solid 8 years is quite striking.

I sit in my bed sober, on a Monday night, proud of it, and also feeling silly for being proud of it. There have been hundreds of Mondays spent in my exact position, cradling my 6th and last beer, wide awake, cursing myself for not getting a tallboy single in addition, or another emergency 6 pack.. feeding my disease into the wee hours of the morning, mindlessly. Hell, only 3 weeks ago I was .... that. Doing that. Drinking into oblivion or until there wasn't a drop left, praying to God at 3AM "please let me hear my alarms" so I can roll out of bed, drive half drunk to work, and repeat it all over again the next day.

Taking a breath of fresh air, I can ground myself and truly appreciate my clear mind. My feelings. And oh, there are lots of feelings. But tonight I'm not numbing them out..I am inviting them to get a good night's rest with me, and tomorrow we will do it again.

Onwards to day 11.

[itsthatsoberguy]

Dream big and never settle for less than you are worth!

[thegratefulnuts]

Always forward, forward always Not everyday sober feels like a step forward, but each day sober is leaps and bounds ahead of where we were in our drinking days. Remember that sobriety is not a race. There’s not finish line, no first place prize, you don’t have to feel guilty if it’s taking you longer than you thought to get to where you want to be. It’s been said a million times, a million ways, but it worth repeating. This whole sobriety journey is all about progress, NOT perfection. • • • • #onwardsandupwards #progressnotperfection #alwaysforward #forwardalways #onedayatatime #onefootinfrontoftheother #onestepatatime #sober #sobriety #soberjourney #recoveryjourney #sobercommunity #recoverycommunity #addictionrecovery #wedorecover #recoveryispossible #carrythemessage #sobervibes #soberthoughts #easydoesit #keepitsimple #friendsofbillw #alcoholicsanonymous #recoveringalcoholic #mondaymotivation #sobermotivation #soberinspiration #soberinstagram #sobermovement #soberliving https://www.instagram.com/p/CqTCZVKOXzv/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[milkandwhiskeypodcast]

[transgendergoblinfromspace]

Every nerve in my body is screaming at me to use. I’m 397 days clean and it’s taking every bit of energy I have to not find a way to score. 397 days and the mental cravings have me paralyzed where I lay. If I get up, I don’t know what will happen. I have really felt that; aside from my mental illness which I am still managing well, that I had also for the most part moved so much further ahead of where I’m really at. This is fucking disappointing. I won’t use but I’ll still feel guilty for even wanting to in the first place.