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ill-go-with-that-then · 5 years

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A NEW ERASERMIC AU I'LL NEVER WRITE!

Imagine Aizawa works at Buzzfeed, and gets the idea to write an article about how Twitch streaming is stupid and pointless (because he’s a video game snob.) He chooses Present Mic’s channel to watch at random, because he’s super popular, but Aizawa immediately goes from undercover reporter to absolute fan. No middle ground. Just “huh, okay i was wrong” and subscribes.

He tunes in to all the live streams, because Mic is very funny and also very good at video games, and it’s cool to watch him play. He has skills, his commentary is A+, and Aizawa develops a little crush. But it’s not a big deal!! Mic is a celeb, Aizawa knows they’ll never meet, it’s harmless.

Sometimes the chat for the stream gets assholes in it, as you’d expect. Mic can’t monitor the chat too much, but Aizawa has no problems telling jerks where to stick it. And once, after a particularly egregious incident where some moron said something crude about women in gaming and Aizawa ripped him a new asshole, Mic sends him a personal message thanking him and asking him if he wants to be a mod, which of course, he does. He doesn’t know how to reply - this is his big chance to talk to Mic!! So of course he just says “sure” - no further conversation.

Aizawa has, of course, zero personal details on his Twitch account. No info, no icon, his screen name is a random string of numbers, he’s a ghost. The Ron Swanson of video game enthusiasts.

So Aizawa is working at Buzzfeed, living his best life writing articles like “10 Video Game Themed Products You Can’t Live Without” because journalism is in shambles and he drinks to forget, and one day his editor is like “hey, we’re gonna do a feature on Twitch streamers. Everybody is gonna go sit and watch a stream in person and get the behind the scenes info. Here’s a list of people who agreed.” And PRESENT MIC IS ON THE LIST

One of his colleagues reaches for Mic’s info sheet, rolling his eyes and sighing. “I can’t believe these are considered celebrities. Have you ever heard of any of them?”

Aizawa practically slaps the paper out of his hand. “Present Mic is a consummate professional and his content is high-quality and entertaining. I wouldn’t expect you to understand it since it involves technology more current than a compact disc.”

The room goes silent. Nobody’s heard Aizawa say anything nice about... maybe anything? Ever? But his editor, Kayama, pounces immediately. “WELL if you like him so much, Aizawa, that can be your interview!!”

Aizawa panics. On the one hand, he wasn’t going to let anyone else take that assignment. But on the other hand, now he’s going to meet Mic IN PERSON. During a LIVE STREAM. Is he supposed to tell him he’s a fan? Is that tacky? Will his crush be obvious? What if Mic sucks in person?? This is a double edged sword.

He only gets more nervous on the day of the interview. He’s tempted to dress up a little, look his best. Mic is a good-looking guy after all, and he’s always well put together when he streams. And even though Aizawa knows, knows he really doesn’t have a chance, he still doesn’t want to embarrass himself.

BUT he also doesn’t want to look like he’s trying too hard. That’s not who he is, and dressing up would be admitting to himself that he DOES want something more than a simple interview, even if it’s as little as Mic’s good opinion or positive attention.

He debates too long. While he’s still thinking about it, the alarm on his phone goes off, alerting him that it’s time to leave. He’s still in his pink sweatpants and he hasn’t shaved, and he realizes, just at that moment, that he probably should have tried harder at least for the sake of professionalism. But it’s too late. He has to go.

Mic actually doesn’t live all that far away. Just a short train ride, less than 20 minutes, and Aizawa is standing in front of his nondescript apartment. It’s a little odd - Mic is a very popular streamer, theoretically with income to match, and his style seems flashy. Aizawa had expected something a little more over the top. But this place is simple. Storing that information away for later, he knocks.

“COMING!!” He hears from inside the apartment, followed by the thud of footsteps. Aizawa just has one moment to brace himself because this is it before the door opens and there he is. Present Mic himself, all smiles. “Come in, come in!! You’re from buzzfeed right? Wow, this is so exciting!!” Mic ushers him in the door, taking his jacket and hustling him into a tidy living room before Aizawa can even respond. And of course, when he finally gets himself together enough to say something, the first words out of his mouth are “You’re... tall.”

He wants to smack himself. Yes, Mic is taller than Aizawa had realized from the stream, even a little taller than Aizawa himself. But those are thinking words, not speaking words. Certainly not the first words you use to introduce yourself to your celebrity crush. But Aizawa, a champion moment-ruiner, has made his bed, and now he must cry in it.

But Mic just laughs. “Yeah,” he says, bringing a hand to the back of his neck. “I get that a lot. Sorry?”

“Don’t apologize,” Aizawa says immediately, then wonders if he is, in fact, under some sort of curse. “Shouta Aizawa,” he introduces himself.

“Hizashi Yamada, also known as Present Mic!” Yamada’s smile is friendly, like Aizawa hasn’t made an absolute fool of himself so far, and Aizawa has to look away from it. He glances around the room, which is tidy and clean, but cluttered with various objects that seem to have no connection to each other. There are books in a variety of languages, musical instruments, shelves of CDs, and an assortment of other things that have nothing to do with video games.

“Quite a collection you have,” Aizawa says, because it is, and because he’s curious.

“Yeah! I have too many hobbies but what can you do? Come on, I’m sure you’d rather see my workspace.” It’s not true, Aizawa has seen the office where Yamada streams before, and he’d much rather stay here and poke around, build up his mental picture about who Yamada is outside his Present Mic persona. But he’s not here for that. This is business.

But the streaming room is also not what Aizawa expects. Some things are familiar - the area visible to the camera is the same, set up and ready for tonight’s stream, but the rest of the room, the part that isn’t on screen, is PACKED. There’s a wobbly desk in the corner, covered in neatly stacked papers and binders labeled by month and year. The wall over the desk is a massive whiteboard filled with notes and ideas for upcoming streams. And there, in the lower right corner of the whiteboard, right where it would be even with Hizashi’s eyes as he sits at his desk, is a familiar string of numbers - his own Twitch username. And next to it is a little note - don’t forget. Good dude.

Aizawa sees his username and just - freezes. It hadn’t occurred to him that Mic thought of him at all outside of that one occasion he DM’d him, let alone that he considered Aizawa important enough not to forget. And the idea that Mic thinks he’s a “good dude” makes his face BURN in pleased embarrassment. He wants to say something but what? Is it weird? It’s weird, it’s too weird, and before he can think of how to do it, Mic is talking again.

“Okay, this is where the magic happens!! Actually, it’s more like weeks of frustration and repetition followed by 3-4 hours of intensely stressful streaming, but hey! People seem to like it!!” Aizawa wants to say something here - Mic is being a little too self-deprecating for his taste, but he stops himself. He can’t defend Mic’s honor to Mic himself - can he? The moment passes while he debates.

“I wasn’t sure if you’d want to be on camera or not?” Mic says, tentatively.

“I’d rather not, if it’s all the same to you,” says Aizawa. “I’m more the behind the scenes type.”

“Totally, no problem!” Mic says, gesturing to his desk. “You can sit there, if that’s okay? The only other seat is by me.”

Aizawa looks at the chair, then back to the small couch where Mic will be streaming from. “I think I’ll have to be closer to get photos for the article, if that’s all right.”

“You’ll be on camera,” Mic bites his lip. “I mean, maybe i could re-angle it, but then the screen-“

“It’s fine,” Aizawa says. “Journalism is about hardship.”

Mic snorts, and Aizawa can’t keep a little smirk off his face, proud that he got a laugh.

The stream goes smoothly - Aizawa likes it even more like this, without the chat to distract him, and close enough to notice things he’s never seen before. Mic’s feet twitch when he’s focusing hard, and his socks have cats on them. It’s adorable. Aizawa takes no notes - he doesn’t really need to, he’s seen enough streams to write this article in his sleep, and anyway, it’s not like he’s going to forget a minute of this.

Afterwards, once they’ve signed off, Mic talks him through his post show routine, everything from calculating how much he made and comparing it to previous weeks in a spreadsheet to going over the chat. “Huh,” Mic’s eyebrows crease as he looks at the chat logs. “Things got a little out of hand tonight.”

“Oh?” Aizawa says, shuffling uncomfortably. He suspects he knows why that is.

“Yeah, one of my regular mods wasn’t on tonight. I hope he’s all right - it’s not like him to miss.”

“You have a lot of viewers,” Aizawa says, tentative now. “Do you know them all so well?”

Mic shrugs, embarrassed. “No, i wish I did! But this guy’s special, he’s really funny and he keeps all the trolls in line. I’d DM him to see if he’s okay but that’s weird, right? That’s weird. And anyway I tried to talk to him once before but he shot me down.”

“I didn’t-“ Aizawa says before he can stop himself. The curse is real. Mic stares at him, open mouthed, confused at first but then his eyes widen as he realizes what must have happened. Before he can say anything, Aizawa cuts him off. “Sorry. That i couldn’t mod tonight.” He mumbles, hand buried in his hair. He can’t meet Mic’s eyes anymore. “I’ll be back next week.”

Mic opens his mouth to speak, but Aizawa interrupts again, before he can. “And I didn’t - I didn’t shoot you down. I just didn’t think you’d want to talk to me. Why would you?”

Mic blinks, and Aizawa isn’t sure what he’s going to say. Will he be mad? Aizawa kind of lied to him. Is he disappointed? Does Aizawa not look like he expected? Has he been too silent? Too unfriendly? Does Mic not want to get to know him anymore? But when Mic finally speaks, what comes out is

“I can’t believe you made me memorize that stupid fucking username, we’re picking you a new one right now.”

#erasermic #maizawa #my writing #my ramblings #I have no explanation for anything I do ever

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munsonstyles · 5 years

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“oh, it was live?” | david dobrik

Requested? Yes: You are honestly the best writer I’ve come across! Please consider possibly writing an imagine about David dobrik that is friends to lovers where he takes you to a movie premiere but all the reporters assume ur his gf and it’s awkward but then later he admits to you he wishes you did come as his date

A/N: whoa look who’s back from the dead !! lmao. i never write for any of the requests i get anymore but i read this one and the idea wouldn’t leave my head. so everyone welcome back, me, dobrikstyles. (also, THANK U SO MUCH FOR THE SWEET COMPLIMENT)

——-

being best friends with david dobrik is not at all what it is hyped up to be among his fans.

yes, you get invited to parties.

& yes, you’ve been able to meet so many cool celebs.

but, the man (child) is actually a psychopath. (you and the rest of the vlog squad are still trying to convince shane dawson to do a series on proving that, but that’s not the point right now.)

in all honestly, he really was great. just sometimes he looked at you with his (sweet) puppy dog eyes and begged you to do something for him.

thankfully, today he was only trying to convince you to come to a movie premiere with him, not trying to convince you to shoot one of the boys with a paint ball gun (for the twentieth time).

“y/n.. please. no one else will go with me & jack says i can’t make any excuse to get out of this one” he groans, throwing his body back against the love sac to look at you upside down, a small pout forming on his lips.

“oh fuck off. good to know i’m your last option” you scoff, crossing your arms across your chest, as you sit on the couch.

he quickly sits up, shaking his head. “no, no- fuck. that’s not what i mean, y/n.”

you shake your head back at him, rolling your eyes teasingly, “mhm.”

“y/n. please come with me. i’ll buy you - fuck, i don’t know,” he pauses as he bites his lip in thought, “i don’t fucking know. whatever you want. just please come with me.”

you raise a single eyebrow at him, “hmm... anything?” you smirk.

he nods hesitantly, a look of fear on his face.

“okay. buy me a tesla.” you state.

he opens his mouth in shock, “y/n- c’mon. what - fuck. is that - god, y/n. is that really what you want? fuck, i gotta call ian. he’s not gonna be happy, he just helped me buy that fucking ferrari.”

you watch him panic and look for his phone, muttering to himself. you throw your head back in laughter after a few minutes, “fuck, david, no, i’m seriously kidding. i don’t want a fucking tesla, of course i’ll go with you. don’t you realize you don’t have to bribe me with money or gifts anymore? we’re friends, dave.”

he stops his frantic searching for his phone and glares up at you, “fuck you, y/n y/l/n.”

“ah, ah, ah,” you sing, shaking your finger at him, “i wouldn’t be talking to me like that after i just willingly decided to go to a movie premiere with you, mister david dobrik.”

he reluctantly shuts his mouth, holding back any other remarks he was planning on making at you. you smirk, “good. now, what do i need to wear?”

——

a couple of days later finds you at david’s house again, this time getting ready in natalie’s room for the movie premiere.

“and why can’t you go with him?” you sigh, putting the last finishing touches of makeup on your face.

you watch natalie roll her eyes in the mirror, “because, y/n. i’m getting over having the flu. i have explained this to you four times already.”

you sigh again, turning around and facing your friend on the bed, “i know, nat. it’s just - is it weird that i’m nervous?”

you nervously mess with some of your dress as you continue talking, “like - i know i’ve done this before, but the rest of you guys have been there, or at least someone else has gone. but this time it’s just him and i, and you know -“ you pause, groaning slightly.

“i know you have a huge, giant, massive crush on the literal psychopath in the next room?” she teases quietly.

you groan even louder, “shut the fuck up. if you weren’t sick, i would beat the shit out of you right now.” you joke, pushing at her leg.

“i’d like to see you try, y/n. but listen, friend to friend, you’re gonna be fine. like i’ve told you thousands of times - yet you still refuse to believe - he likes you too. i’m sure he’s just as nervous, if not more nervous than you right now. so seriously, you’re gonna be fine.”

you roll your eyes, “stop fucking saying that. he doesn’t like me. i would know.”

she rolls her eyes right back at you, mumbling under her breath, “yeah, you would think you would know.”

——

you step into david’s tesla, sitting in the passenger seat, “thank god we’re not taking the ferrari, i couldn’t deal with my hair messing up right before we go in front of hundreds of photographers.” you joke, buckling up.

you finally turn around and make eye contact with david, who quickly turns his head down, a soft blush high on his cheek bones.

“you, um - you look good, y/n. really good.” he mumbles, starting the car.

“fuck off, david.” you joke, trying not to make it too evident in your voice that you’re actually freaking the fuck out inside.

“i guess you do too.” you say, almost too quietly.

he giggles softly, “fuck off, y/n.”

——

your nerves had finally started to wear off in the car with david, you actually almost forgot you were about to step out into a media frenzy, until you actually did, and the nerves hit you all over again.

you turned to david, panic evident in your eyes.

he rests his hand on the small of your back, leaning forward to whisper in your ear (it was very loud, okay.) “hey, you’re good. they’ll just take pictures and i have to do like one interview. it will be fine.”

you take a deep breath, making eye contact with him and nodding your head, “we’re good. it’s fine. i’m fine. why are we even still standing here? let’s go dobrik.” you ramble, grabbing his wrist and dragging him up to the (red) carpet.

he laughs (yes the cute vlog one), and follows after you.

his interview is with someone from ET (Entertainment Weekly). you stand off to the side, holding his camera and watching some celebrities walk past you, and glancing at david every now and then.

you weren’t paying much attention to the interview until you heard your name.

“so, david. i see you brought y/n here with you tonight, although she’s only in a few of your vlogs.” she says in a suggestive tone.

you continue to look the other way to not make it obvious you were listening in.

“well, i mean, everyone else was busy, so she was my last option.” he jokes, laughing at himself.

you try your very hardest not to roll your eyes at the boy and make a snarky comment back.

“no, no. i’m kidding. she’s great.” he says, not actually answering her question.

“oh c’mon, david. give us all the details! is she your new GF,” (who actually says the letters like that instead of the whole word anyways?), “she’s pretty cute and i know some fans have been speculating!! what’s the tea?!” she fishes.

you glance at david for a split second, noticing his hesitancy, “i mean - no. she’s not my girlfriend,” he pauses, “yeah - no. we’re not dating.”

your stomach burns with a million different types of emotions, and you can’t pinpoint what any of them actually are.

“that was a strange way to answer that, david dobrik,” the interviewer jokes.

he shrugs, glancing over at you to make sure you’re not listening, his famous grin over taking his face once again as he leans in to whisper to the interviewer, “how about you ask me that question again the next time i see you?” he suggests, causing your brain to short-circuit and your heart to start racing.

shit. you really had to pretend you didn’t hear him now. what the fuck does that even mean anyways?

you were too lost in your own thoughts to even realize that the man of all your inner turmoil was standing in front of you.

“earth to y/n. you good?” he waves his hand in front of your face, pouting when you slap it away.

“yes i’m good. how did that interview go anyways?” you ask, nonchalantly.

he shrugs, a fond smile on his face, “good. you ready to head in?” he nods his head towards the entrance.

you nod, “lead the way, dobrik.”

——

after the premiere, you were sitting in david’s passenger seat again, heading home.

you finally fished your phone out of your dress pocket, unlocking it to (what felt like) a million and one notifications.

“what the fuck?” you mumble to yourself, thumbing through them.

“everything okay?” david asks from the drivers seat, glancing over towards you.

you begin reading all of the notifications, only to find one common thing among them: The Clip of David Talking About You in the Interview ™️. (which you had efficiently blocked from your memory, thank you very much).

you hadn’t realized david peeking over your shoulder until you heard him speak, “fuck. it was live?” he groans, and as you turn to look at him, you notice the blush rising on his cheeks.

“david dobrik. what the fuck is this?”

he bites his lip, parking the car, (which made you realize you had actually arrived at his house already).

“i may or may not have made the interviewer believe that i may or may not have a crush on you?” he says in a high-pitched tone. “and she may or may not have asked me if you were my girlfriend and i may or may not have suggested that she asked me the next time she saw me?”

you stared blankly at the boy you (somehow) had a giant crush on, “and why, david dobrik? would you ever do something like that?”

“because i may or may not have a giant, massive crush on you, and i may or may not have been planning on asking you on a date soon?” he tilts his head to the side, squeezing his eyes shut a little, a hopeful smile beginning to form on his face.

you don’t say anything for a minute, allowing the tension to get heavier. after finally deciding to break the tension, you say, “well, which one is it?”

he looks at you with a confused expression on his face.

“which one is it, dobrik? may or may not?”

a smile begins overtaking his face once again, as he glances down before looking up at you again, “may,” he whispers quietly. “i mean - i was - am. i am planning on asking you on a date soon, and by soon i mean, right now.”

you blush softly, grinning at him and nodding at him in encouragement to continue speaking.

“y/n y/l/n, will you please do me, david dobrik, the honor of going on a date with me?”

your grin (somehow) gets wider, and you nod at him once again, “fucking finally.” you cheer.

——

a couple of months later, finds you and david in (almost) the same scenario again, except this time, when the interviewer from ET asks if you and david are dating, you get to squeeze his hand, and nod along with him as he says,

“yes, after fuc - oops. after forever, yes, we finally are.”

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theodcra-blog · 4 years

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✱ kim doyeon. she / her. cis female. — i know that theodora “ theo ” jung is one of the roses. which makes sense because the twenty year old’s parents are hollywood royalty known for producing and recording multi-platinum awarded albums. rumors say that they are the quixotic of the group , but who knows if that’s true. + plucking petals off of daisies in the name of a crush , steeping teabags for too long , the scent of perfume left behind on a pillowcase.

hello ! im xan and im late as usual but alas ... 😔 im 22 , from the est timezone ( even though my sleeping schedule … does not reflect that sjbdwjkbdjdw ) & i go by she / her pronouns ! i truly ... never know what im doing with intros they just turn out long & messy aha ... are u ready ? *jungkook vc* let’s get it ! 😋

━ ˙ ˖ ☆ QUICK STATS !

full name: theodora marie jung.

nickname(s): theo, teddy, dora ( but only by bullies 😠 ).

zodiac: libra sun, aqua moon ( click ! )

sexuality: bisexual.

occupation: singer / songwriter, model.

birthplace: los angeles, california.

current residence: wherever this rp is taking place aha x

━ ˙ ˖ ☆ BACKSTORY ! ( tw: sexual themes )

so her parent’s story was actually a pretty big scandal in the 90′s ! basically theo’s mom was the pretty famous front woman of a band ( think stevie nicks in fleetwood mac ) who was long engaged to the guitarist of that same band....until one day it was announced she was quitting the group and starting her solo career, leaving her fiance, and signing to a new label.....which was run by theo’s father, a young up & coming producer taking over the family business. not even three months later theo’s mom releases her first solo album, produced and co-written by theo’s father, basically detailing this years long affair the two had been having... in a series of really catchy, moving, and wildly successful songs.

the public went crazy over the drama, especially when rumors started circulating ( through detailed analysis of the lyrics to all of theo’s mom’s solo songs ) that the well known band had actually been quite toxic. basically it was enough to convince media outlets and fans alike to forgive theo’s parents for being cheaters and breaking up the band JSDBWBDJWBD. by the time theo was born in the last year of the iconic decade that launched both her parents into stardom, everyone couldn’t be happier the two stars were getting the happy life they deserved <3

so here comes baby theo.....and the world kind of just immediately labels her as america’s sweetheart. her mom had some minor health issues which just meant it would be safer to not have anymore kids after theo, so not only was she this little angel to the public, she was also her parent’s little miracle baby ! lets just say she had some big shoes to fill bc of all the expectations ..

luckily no one had to worry abt her being a demon child JSBDJWDWJ because she turned out to be a very sweet kid ! she was a HUGE daydreamer since she spent a lot of time alone growing up </3 her mom had retired from singing and was now helping theo’s dad run the label, and the two of them were always busy looking for new talent to sign. she didn’t have any siblings and although she had a really attentive nanny it just .. wasn’t the same ?? so to #Cope JSBDWBSBDJW theo was always creating these super elaborate little fantasy worlds. it wasn’t uncommon for u to find her deeply engrossed playing barbies alone like she had scripts and everything

by the time she was a preteen her parents were both really pressuring theo into thinking about a singing career, so wanting to please them ( and knowing that it was something she was kinda into anyway ) theo said ok sure ! and that’s where.....things start to take a turn. since she was so young she had this very very clean, innocent, cute image ( think disney stars ) & most of the music she was making was used for kids shows or movies. she didn’t really mind it so much but she noticed that her creative process wasn’t really valued ? or taken very seriously by her parents, because in their eyes like that’s their kid you know she’s still young, she’s always had her head in the clouds, they just really didn’t think it was a big deal if they took control.

so theo put up with it, but the years kept going by, she kept getting older, and nothing was really changing. she still had a squeaky clean image, little say in the type of music she was making, but on the outside everything looked great. the public loved her, she was a role model for kids ( even though she was a teenager now ), it was all perfect.....until it wasn’t. when she was 16, she had a scandal akin to the vanessa hudgen’s nude photo leak, except it wasn’t as explicit ( not a nude, just a suggestive pic ) and it was way way worse considering theo was a minor.

legal action was immediately taken by her parents, but once something’s out there you can’t really stop it from circulating, so the photos existed, just not on any official media sites. it was traumatizing for theo having her privacy breached like that, especially because instead of talking about how disgusting it was that someone would leak those photos when she was just a teen, gossip sites & fans alike were too busy talking about how her image was ruined. since she’d had such a clean, innocent reputation, people kinda forgot that... she was an actual person going through life growing up, and that she wasn’t perfect.

theo, being the optimist she is, was like hey you know what? this is my chance to stop making music i dont love. after what was probably her first truly honest convo with her parents, they agreed she should be free to figure herself and her art out. so for the remainder of her teenage years theo fell off the face of the music world....

only to pop back up in the modeling one ! like most celebrities, social media had a big say in this. since reputation wasn’t something theo had going for her anymore, what she did have was a hell of a following still and two famous parents ( not to mention ... shes tall JSBDJWBDWJ ) she did maybe one runway show before deciding she hated that. tbh she hated any modeling that felt too constricting, which is why she never ended up doing anything for big names & mostly does stuff for foreign brands & magazines.

she liked how much aesthetics had to do with modeling, and to some extent being a part of shoots satisfied that creative itch she had, but music was always her first love. theo really wanted to go back and revisit it, but she was scared the public’s reaction wouldn’t be what she hoped /:

so following in her mother’s footsteps, theo’s re entrance into the music scene was an ep ( 100% written, produced, edited, you name it, by her ) she released on the eve of her 18th bday basically explaining everything she went through with art. it was only four songs + an interlude, which would become the most talked about part of the whole thing because it was snippets of various reporters talking about that photo leak.

the public had mixed feelings ! unlike with what happened with her parents, not everyone was ready to “forgive” theo. and since she hadn’t done any promo for her music, or for her career as an artist independent from her parent’s famous label, it wasn’t like she was making crazy money and getting all this recognition. but !! she was insanely insanely happy, and that’s when she realized making music wasn’t something she did for other people, just something she liked to share, so what did it really matter if she could be more famous if she was an artist under her parent’s label ?

cue present day theo, model & singer, although the labels are pretty loose. although her music is getting way more recognition than it did three years ago, she’s still trying to do things independently from her parents, and she still has yet to become a chanel ambassador or anything crazy SDWBKWKFW. because of that she’s kind of garnered this new reputation for herself as one of those celebs that don’t really feel like celebs, like maybe she’s just like u except let’s be real she’s rich and her experiences are NOT universal even if her cute insta pic talking about ~her feelings~ in the caption makes u think they are

━ ˙ ˖ ☆ PERSONALITY + TIDBITS !

not even gonna lie to u guys....she is baby. i dont mean that in a uwu shes 20 but im gonna weirdly make her act like a child way im not a freak shes just baby ! like i mentioned earlier theo was a HUGE daydreamer growing up, and tbh she still is except now that’s she’s older her overactive imagination can kinda get her into trouble. a good example of that is the fact that since she’s so keen to see the silver linings in life and the bright sides, she can neglect the bad sides of people and situations so things still fit into her romanticized vision /: this was the cause for many heartbreaks in theo’s life, and she’s still guilty of doing this although she’s trying to work on it !

very much the kind of person to treat everyone like a friend ( that means strangers too ) until you prove you should be treated otherwise. it takes a lot for her to not fuck with you, so if she doesn’t like you then you probably did something to deserve it /: she’s always had a curious personality as well so it’s really easy for her to connect with people just because she’s constantly fascinated by what she doesn’t know about a person. sometimes it can make ppl uncomfortable just how casually she can have a deep convo, but she just never had that filter where she has to know you for 5 years before she opens up about her trauma </3 you know how when bp’s rose and red velvet’s joy had dinner for the first time rose made joy cry bc she was talking abt her family and stuff ? JSDBWBDW theo is rose ... she’s out there sharing trauma deepening that bond day 1 of knowing you baby ! 🤧

despite all that she’s still kind of maintained this elusive air to her? it’s not like she does it on purpose, or like no one knows the real her, it’s more like just when you’ve learned one new thing about her you realize there’s that many more things you don’t know. it also doesn’t help the fact that she’s constantly romanticizing everything, most of all herself, so she’s really crafted this “dream girl” persona without fully realizing it. im not exaggerating when i say john green wants what she has </3

a lot of times people see her as naive, not because she often sees the good in people or anything like that ( although she does ), but because she has this overwhelming sureness that everything works out in the end. to be fair though, for her, things usually do. call it good karma, luck, whatever you want, but the fact of the matter is even when it looks like there’s no way a situation can turn out well for her, somehow it does. it’s a healthy combination of money, privilege, and a charming personality but to theo it’s proof that she’s right.

naturally.....as an air sign JSBDJWBJWBD she’s a huge flirt ! the media’s always linking her to someone because she really makes it seem like she’s dating half of hollywood when the reality is she’s just being friendly. when she actually likes someone it kind of turns into a huge deal like she gets infatuated with her crushes, swears she’s in love — and then poof. one day she wakes up & realizes she’s kinda over it ... until the next person comes along of course <3

hates conflict and confrontation.....and i mean HATES it to the point where she doesn’t even confront stuff within herself ( i.e. “negative” feelings like sadness ) until one day it all bubbles over and she’s having a legit breakdown and dying her hair red.

yes, that’s exactly what happened last year, although if you ask theo about it she’ll just be like aha what do you mean i just wanted red hair luv x

pictures like these ( click ! ) of theo when she'd be walking around LA in her school uniform used to go viral on twitter.

desperately wishes she was the type of singer ppl would throw their bras at on stage when the reality is she’s out there making some chill bedroom pop kind of stuff so rip that dream </33333

knows how to play the piano and the guitar, but keeps joking one day she’s gonna make an album and only use her recorder as the instrumentals.

has a white british longhair kitty named zoe.

is 100% that bitch that can only drink sweet drinks & fruity cocktails and u know what she’s valid for it !

if she wasn’t famous she’d be making slime. legit running a slime making insta, those were her guilty pleasure & shes so mad they aren’t that popular anymore JSBDJWBDJW

u know that post that’s like “i hate making tea i always feel so bad about throwing away the tea bag i feel like i should just eat it” ? thats theo

━ ˙ ˖ ☆ WANTED CONNECTIONS !

BEST FRIENDS: a power duo the public either loves or hates, ride or dies, that 1 person theo would drop everything for no matter what.....yeah 🥺 they’d be the person she’s closest to & vice versa !

CHILDHOOD / FAMILY FRIENDS: their famous parents were friends, so it’s only natural they wanted their kids to be friends too. just imagine the stories ..... the memories .... maybe they got along really well and are still friends today ! or maybe theo pushed your muse off of the swings ( she claims it was an accident ) and your muse never forgot and to this day they’re sworn enemies.....</3 or less dramatic......they just drifted apart and now it’s like hey we used to be so close aha thats awkward let me just smile at you and walk away ....

LIKE SIBLINGS: someone who sees theo as a sister, and who theo considers her unofficial sibling. most likely she’s gonna bother the shit out of this person as siblings do but they really mean a lot to her because it’s the family she never had /:

CONFIDANTS: the one person theo keeps finding herself talking about the things she usally keeps inside with. i think it’d be funny if both of them find it weird to do things like go out to lunch or shop together because that’s not what they’re used to !

ACQUAINTANCES: friends who are only really friends when both of them are wasted or friends who only comment heart eye emojis and fire sign emojis under each others insta posts but don’t actually talk much for whatever reason

FRIENDS THAT DATED: maybe things just ended amiably between them, or maybe it’s like an “everyone told us we should date so we tried it and boy was that the weirdest thing we ever did” situation. either way the outcome is they’e still friends <3

CAHOOTS: what is this u may ask ? someone theo can be in cahoots with. she has a dumb idea that no one else is likely to say yes to? she goes to ur muse. ur muse has an idea no one in their right mind would say yes to? they go to theo. these two are in cahoots !

BAD INFLUENCE: although that america’s sweetheart reputation is gone, overall theo is still seen as a “good girl” by the public. she’s not one to be in a lot of scandals so i think it’d be really fun if your muse is corrupting that ( whether they’re doing it on purpose or not ) and whenever theo’s with them she just somehow always manages to end up in trouble.

THE BIG EX: theo’s first real relationship, and first real heartbreak. everyone before them had been an infatuation, but your muse was the real deal. maybe the media ruined it, or they ruined it themselves by being too scared of their feelings to stick around, or maybe one of them was willing to try but the other wasn’t. either way it ended badly, and whether those feelings are resolved or not....thats a secret i’ll never tell x

SUMMER FLINGS: give me past & current ( or maybe even recurring ) summer flings where they both know it’s temporary but boy is it fun while it lasts. google their names together and you’ll find paparazzi snapshots on the backs of vespas, on million dollar yachts, holding hands in museums or sunbathing on the beach but by the time fall comes creeping in the romance is over.

HOOKUPS: friends with benefits and it’s not awkward between them, friends with benefits and it’s super weird between them because they may be crossing over into real feeling territory, one night stands / hookups that were huge mistakes, one night stands or hookups that were or are being kept secret from the rest of the roses for whatever reason, someone who leads theo on but never gets serious about her, or someone she leads on but she never gets serious about, her go-to hookup on a night out when she’s partying, etc.

WILL THEY WON’T THEY: a friendship that always teeters on the line of something romantic ! maybe they’re both oblivious to the chemistry / tension or maybe they’re aware of it because they get jealous when they hear about the other being with someone else… maybe they refuse to do anything about it because they don’t want to complicate things or maybe they purposefully cross lines when they feel that jealousy…..could be more angsty or it could be more wholesome depending on which way it goes 😈

ARTIST TO ARTIST: i don’t think .... we have any other singers / ppl in the music industry but i could for sure be wrong JSBDSJBDJWD but ! i still would love to have people theo’s worked with before. maybe if your muses has been acting since they were little, theo could have mingled with them back when she was doing music for kids shows & movies. maybe your muse is a model and theo and them have done shoots together before. maybe theo’s written a current song for a movie / tv show your muse was a part of. maybe your muse is a model and theo asked them to feature on the cover of one of her albums. maybe she hired your muse to act in the music video of one of her songs ! maybe your muse can also sing even though that’s not their main thing and theo’s asked them to feature on a song with her. there are soooo many possibilities that could be lots of fun <33

MISC: “we used to party together all the time until that one thing happen that neither of us talk about and now we don’t do that anymore”, someone who took care of drunk theo once and ever since then she’s taken that as an open invitation to knock on your muse’s door at 3 am completely wasted, “we tried to date but the paparazzi caught us on a date and we were too scared / sick of the public eye so we never got far”, flirty friends who say no i’d never sleep with you haha…unless you’re down?, your muse was theo’s first time OR theo was your muse’s first time, stereotypical happy go lucky and grumpy relationship where the grumpy muse pretends not to enjoy the other’s presence, enemies but it can’t be anything petty it would have to be pretty serious so if u want that drama....

that’s the end i promise it’s finally over 😭😭😭 i truly just ramble & ramble im really so sorry abt that JSDJWBDJWBDJWBDJW i tried to include as much info as possible to make plotting a little easier for all of us so lets pray this works </3 u can come message me on discord to plot @ seulgi ily ʕ´• ᴥ•̥`ʔ#8172 so give this a like if u wanna .... do that ahahahaha x

#╰ ♡ . 𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒆 𝒇𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒔𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒆 𝒇𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒔𝒊𝒆𝒔 ── ooc !#i didnt proof read a thing if u find a typo u can keep her <3 JSBDJWBDJW #this is . ridiculously long for no good reason im so sorry but now u know the real me ...#roses:intro

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crowdedimagines · 5 years

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Buzz - David Dobrik

word count: 1964 summary// imagine that David Dm’s Y/n (david’s celeb crush) like he DMed Lana Del Ray during the Allure interview an: italics are the messages exchanged between Y/n and David back and forth.

New direct message from David Dobrik!

The notification caught you off guard. The name held a certain familiarity so I tapped on the notification.

Hey super busy today, but would love to maybe grab a drink this weekend If not that’s fine No no let’s do it But again totally up to you

Attached with the messages was a selfie of presumably on the set of what looks like an interview. I can’t help but smile before responding.

Love to. When and where?

I turn off my phone and continue on with my day. I have a few more meetings to discuss my filming schedule. On my way home I finally get to look up David to figure out where I know the name from.

I scroll through his channel filled with videos. One catches my eye that has John Stamos featured. John and I worked together on set of Grandfathered with him and Josh Peck. I was a supporting role, this really was before my career took off. I left the show and shortly after the show was canceled anyway.

I kept in contact with John pretty well, he sort of became a step in father figure in Los Angeles. I’m sure that he’s mentioned David at some point.

I go back on Instagram to see that David responded a while ago.

Holy shit! I never thought that you would actually respond to this. Do you actually want to meet up??????

I think for a few seconds and decide to call John. It rings twice before his welcome voice picks up.

“Hey, I have a random question.” I laugh.

“Oh boy, what is it?”

I can practically see him roll his eyes as he says it.

“Who’s David Dobrik?” I laugh while asking it.

“He’s a great kid. Funny, kinda crazy. Why?”

“He sent me a message earlier and wants to meet up.” I open the door to my home with one hand while the other presses the phone to my face. “He isn’t going to like murder me or anything?”

“No, you’re fine with animals right?” He laughs.

“You’re joking.”

“Eh, kinda.”

“Oh, god.” I kick off my heels and take a seat at my counter.

“No no, he really is a good kid. He has a healthy obsession with you, just to let you know.” John explains.

“What?”

“Yeah, it’s pretty well known online too. He has quite the following on social media. He watches like all of your stuff, he’s been a fan for a while.”

“Awe, that’s kinda sweet.” I smile.

“Yeah, he’s a good kid. If he’s crap let me know, I’ll teach him a lesson.”

“Thank you.”

“Anytime.”

We both hang up the phone and I go back to Instagram.

I’m definitely down. Tonight too soon? Kinda want to get out of my house.

Coming home to an empty house really gets to me sometimes. I was so happy once I made it ‘big’ to buy a home but now I wish I had a roommate. Or at least a dog. My family isn’t too close so that makes things lonely sometimes here.

Never too soon for you;) Can I pick you up?

Sure. [Address] What are we doing?

Dinner?

Sounds great! I’m starving

Do you care if I film? I don’t know if you know but, I have a youtube channel

Yeah that’s fine, John told me lol

John Stamos?

Yep

Uh oh, haha he didn’t say anything bad about me did he?

Only that you’re obsessed with me

I’m going to kill him.

Haha it’s cute. Six o clock?

See you then

I decide to change into something a little more comfortable than my outfit from meetings today. I settle on a very simple outfit that looks cute. I actually take off a bit of makeup that I was wearing earlier.

Sometimes heavy makeup can too much for first meeting someone. I settle on curling my lashes and a swipe of mascara. Before I know it, it’s six and my doorbell goes off signaling that someone is here.

I walk over and I can’t wipe the smile off my face. I swing the door open to reveal David, smiling like an adorable idiot.

“Hi!” I grin.

“Oh my god, hi! Can I give you a hug?” He laughs.

“Of course.” I open my arms to welcome into a hug. He holds me tightly in a comforting way. We both pull away after a few seconds.

“Let me just grab my purse.” I turn back and walk back in the house, “You can come in.”

I shout the last part over my shoulder as I run back upstairs to my room to grab my bag. I come back downstairs and notice David is standing in the hallway looking at the pictures on my wall.

“Whatcha looking at?” I tease, walking over.

“Oh, just you.” He blushes, “Your house is amazing by the way.”

“Thank you.”

We both leave and get into David’s Tesla which is impressive. Kind of make me want one. We make small talk as he pulls out of my driveway. He explains how he was in an interview when they asked him to message his celebrity crush.

“So what do you want?” He asks, glancing over at me taking his eyes off the road every few seconds.

“I don’t care.” I shrug, trying to be polite.

“That’s such a lie.” He calls me out with a laugh.

“Okay, I kind of care!” I admit with a chuckle, “What about getting something to go and then I know this spot where we can go. I made the plans, now you have to pick the food.”

“Fine, I think I know a good pizza place not too far from here.” He makes a turn and we head in towards the city. At some point David puts his camera on the dash.

“Do you guys see who I’m with right now?” He yells at the camera freaking out a little bit making me laugh, “You guys, I messaged her today randomly and now we’re on a date!”

He smiles and looks like a kid on Christmas.

“Who said this was a date?” I tease, his face pales for a second. I reach out to his shoulder, “I’m totally kidding.”

“Oh my god, my heart just stopped for a second.” He huffs out a breath of air. “You just scared me so bad.”

“Okay now Mr. David Dobrik, you seem to know an awful lot about me and I don’t know much about you.” I turn in my seat slightly to face him. The camera is long forgotten for both of us. “What’s your favorite color?”

“That’s your big question?” He smirks, glancing over to me.

“Do you know what mine is?” I smirk right back, trying to prove my point that he knowns significantly more about me than I do about him.

“Yeah, its Y/fc.” He rolls his eyes, “My favorite color is red.”

“How long have you been making youtube videos?”

“Um a few years now, I started right around when I moved out to L.A. I started after vine died.”

We continue to talk until we make it to the pizza place was talking about. We both order a slice of pizza and David pays which I try to object to.

“Okay, now where to?” He asks after putting our boxes in the backseat.

I give him the general directions until we make it to a lookout spot. It’s beautiful here, I come here to think a lot. I haven’t really brought anyone here with me before.

“Wow, it’s beautiful here.” He admires, putting the car in park.

The sun is setting perfectly over the San Fernando Valley.

“C’mon.” I take off my seatbelt and reach behind his seat to grab the pizza. I open the door while balancing the pizza with one hand. I hop up on the hood of David’s car, setting his box next to me. David takes a few seconds to come out, but joins me on the car.

“Oh my god, this is bigger than my head.” I laugh holding up my piece of pizza.

We talk for a long time about everything we can think of. The pizza is gone with any hint of orange in the sky. It’s gotten colder as the sun disappeared, I lean in closer to David. He scoots closer too.

“This has been really nice.” I whisper, it’s as if I spoke too loudly it would ruin the bubble we’re in.

“I was thinking the exact same thing.” He turns to look at me with a grin.

We both lean back and look up at the stars, still shoulder to shoulder. I can’t fight the shiver that runs through my spine.

“Cold?” He asks, turning his head to face me.

“Mhm, just a little bit.” I turn to look at him too, “But I don’t want to go yet.”

“Good.” He smirks, leaning even closer now. “Wait, I think I have something!”

He quickly hops off the car and runs around to the trunk. I sit up a little wondering what could have been worth ruining our little moment. He comes back with a black sweatshirt and a proud smile.

“You can wear this!” He hands it to me, I sit up and hold it out to look at it.

“Is this your merch?” I ask with a laugh. The sweatshirt is plastered with his name.

“Yeah, it’s the only thing I have with me.”

I slip the sweatshirt on and lean back into David’s side. We’re closer now that we were before. I can’t tell if the sweatshirt is warming me up or the close contact is.

“Only the first date and you’re already trying to give me your name.” I tease.

“Hey!” He reaches out and starts mercilessly tickling me. I can’t hold back my laughter and he’s laughing too.

“Okay okay!” I push him off, struggling to regain my breath. I push him back down so we can snuggle once again, his arm wrapped around my neck to pull me close.

We stay that way for a while, only talking a little. The silence is welcomed, until all too soon it’s late. We both reluctantly untangle our limbs before getting back in the Tesla. David drive slower than he did earlier to drop me off now. It doesn’t take long and he’s already walking me to my door.

“I had a really good time.” I bite my bottom lip in a smile.

“Me too. This was unreal.” He shakes his head.

“Well have a good night.” I take a step into my house.

“You too.” David grins taking a few steps backwards.

I decide to take a leap of faith and rely on my courage to close the gap and connect our lips. My hands are in his hair and his hands take a few seconds to find my waist. Once the do, he pulls me closer with a tight grip. I smile against his lips, absolutely loving the feeling.

“Goodnight.” I whisper, hands still on his face.

“Goodnight.” He says, staring in my eyes. He brushes away a loose strand of hair that escaped during our slight makeout.

I have to push myself away from David to finally let him go. I quickly shut the door behind me and immediately lean up against it. I can still feel the buzz on my lips, I haven’t felt that since I was a kid.

All of this over one little DM...

there is a part 2

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t-egertonn · 5 years

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Could u do an imagine where you and Taron are co stars in a movie and people on set let it slip to Taron that u said in a interview that he was your celebrity crush ever since you’ve seen him Kingsman and you’re mortified and he thinks it’s cute and ask u on a date

Yes of course love!

*A year ago*

You were walking a red carpet for an award show when an interviewer you asked you a question. “So Y/n have you seen any good movie lately.” “Actually yes I have, I just watched Eddie the Eagle, Taron Egerton and Hugh Jackman are in it.” “That is a pretty great movie, Taron was great as Eddie.” “Oh my gosh yes and he was so adorable as well.” “Do a sense a crush blooming here?” When the interview said that your face started to turn red and you really couldn’t hid it now so you let it all out. “Actually Taron has been my celeb crush since the first Kingsman movie came out and after watching Eddie the Eagle I fell more in love with him. I hope one day that I get to work with him.” “Aww it so cute, we hope you get to work with Taron one day as well.”

“A year later” Well turns out a year after that interview you got to work with Taron on a movie! You were so excited to be finally be working with Taron. You were so nervous to be working with Taron since you have liked him for so long but the moment that you met him your nervousness went away. You were having so much fun filming with Taron that you forget all about that interview you did. Until one day when you and the rest of the cast were having lunch together. You and cast were talking about your favorite movies that each other have been in were. One of your castmates asks you. “Hey y/n, what movie of Taron’s is your favorite?” “I would have to say Eddie the Eagle.” “Thats funny that you say that, didn’t you say that in an interview one time?” “Yeah I believe so, I love the story, it was such a cute film and Taron did a really good job,” “Are you sure its not because Taron is your celeb crush and you love everything he is in?” When your castmate said that your face went bright red and you looked at Taron and he was smiling. “Taron, ummm I’m….” “Y/n, no need to explain yourself to me, I find it really cute actually.” “Wait…. you do?” “Yeah I do, I find you really cute, so do you maybe want to go out sometime?” “Yes I would love to.” Your castmate cuts in before Taron could say anything else. “You guys better thank me at your wedding.” You and Taron just look at each and laugh. “So how about I pick you up at 7 and we can go for a nice dinner and afterwards play laser tag.” “I would love to Taron and I’m so going to kick your ass in laser tag just saying.” “We will have to see about that now won’t we.”

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theanonymousk · 6 years

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Calling for a Single Rider imagine

This imagine has to do with Chris Evans and Disney World. Let me know what you guys think! Enjoy!

You were spending the week in Disney World with your family. Usually your family likes to go during Spring, but life happens, so you postponed the trip to Christmas time. The air was crisp, there were decorations galore, children laughing and people smiling. Magic was in the air and you could feel it in your bones, this was a special time and truly the happiest place in the world. Or maybe it was just the cold temperature causing the chill running through your body.

It was your first day in the parks, and it had been decided to do Animal Kingdom since you hadn’t seen the Pandora part of the park yet. To say you were amazed was an understatement.

The day had gone by so quickly, you hadn’t even realized it. As the day came to an end, you had seen all the animals and ridden all the rides except one, Expedition Everest. You liked to leave this one for last just because you found it so thrilling.

“Ughhhh I’m so tired, do we really have to go on it? I kind of just want to go eat already,” your sister complained as you neared the entrance to the ride. Glancing over at her, giving her an annoyed expression.

“I don’t think my stomach can handle a coaster, right now” your mom had joined in. It had been a mother daughter trip, so it was just you, your mom and sister here.

Feeling betrayed you sighed and pouted as if you were 5 years old again, “I guess we can skip it this year.” So, you began to turn to head toward the nearest restaurant.

“Oh look, there is a single rider line” your sister pointed out, grabbing you by the shoulder to turn you back to the entrance. The was a hidden entrance for Single Riders.

“I hadn’t even realized they had that, would you guys mind if I went on my own?” you looked from your mom to your sister, clasping your hands in front of you. Your sister shrugged as she went to go sit on a rock by the entrance, “You are such a child sometimes” she muttered.

“Are you okay doing that on your own?” Your mom had always been a concerned mother, but you loved her none the less.

“If I can live on my own, I think I can handle a little roller coaster, I mean I’m an adult” you kissed your mom on the cheek and handed your sister your purse, only keeping your jacket, not even bothering to grab your phone.

Making your way through the line, you looked at the artifacts and walked quickly, getting excited with every step you took. You could hear footsteps behind you and glanced back to see a pair of girls, they looked to be about high school age. You missed coming to Disney as a teenager, but you knew how to let your inner child out even at your age. Finally, the front of the line came up and you stood there with one of the cast members and the 2 girls behind you.

“I can’t believe that Chris Evans is actually here at Disney” you overhear the girls. This perks your interest.

“Yeah, he was spotted at one of the Disney hotels yesterday, he must have just gotten here. I hope we run into him because he is just so darn dreamy,” the friend sighed.

You put your hand over your mouth to keep from laughing. You smiled to yourself thinking of how you were when you were their age, being obsessed with celeb crushes. Who were you kidding, you still were like that. And you couldn’t believe Chris was actually in the same state let alone in Disney World at the same time. That was enough to make a girl faint just thinking about it.

The cast member turned to you with a big smile. “I need the next single rider, I think a spot opened up at the very front, do you mind that?”

“Nope not at all, I would love that” you rubbed your hands out of excitement and also trying to warm up a little from the cold air.

“Okay let me go check to make sure you can sit with the family that’s up front” the cast member walked toward the front. That seemed strange, usually they just automatically tell you where to sit. You followed the direction she was heading in but all you could see was a tall guy with a baseball cap and a pair of boys waiting. The cast member finally reached the family, the guy bent over to hear what she had to say, he quickly glanced up in my direction and then responded with a nod toward the cast member. But he wasn’t quick enough cause in that moment you felt yourself hold your breath at the same time that the girls behind you gasped. It had been Chris who had looked over.

“Omg you are so lucky” one of the girls grabbed your arm as she squealed.

“That I am,” you smiled at her and squeezed her hand back as you watch the cast member return.

“You can follow me” she said, and you trail behind her in a daze. With each step you told yourself act cool, act cool he is just a dude. Who were you kidding, this was not a dude, this was a man. You got closer and could finally see Chris standing at the front talking to the little boys that were situated to go in the seats behind him. When you finally got to where he was, he glanced up and smiled saying “Hi”. For a second you just stood there and stared at those blue eyes, he was sporting a beard that looked as soft as the Disney sweater he was wearing that was hugging his muscular arms. Blinking a few times, you snapped out of it and gained your composure enough to say hi back.

“Why are you riding this by yourself?” a little voice said from next to you. You look to see the two boys that were staring at me wide eyed, bundled up in little Disney jackets. They looked like they were about to burst from excitement and nervousness.

“Hey guys, come on. Please excuse my nephews they seem to have forgotten all of their manners” Chris shook his head, raising an eyebrow at them and laughed at the same time.

You let out a giggle, “Don’t worry, they can ask me whatever they want.” You turned to the boys, “To answer your question, the rest of my family were just wimps and weren’t brave enough to face the Yeti with me,” you moved forward so that you were leaning you arms against the railing between us.

The youngest one piped up, “Do you think the Yeti eats people?” He asked.

Chris let out one of those laughs, where he leaned back and put his hand on his chest. You couldn’t help but laugh as well, between how terrified the little boy looked and how contagious Chris’ laugh was.

You smiled to the boy saying, “Don’t worry I heard this Yeti only eats sheep, so unless you are growing wool under that jacket and go BAA, I think you are okay”. The minute the word comes out of your mouth you instantly regret it. Both boys start with uncontrollable giggling and Chris is almost hunched over in laughter. You stand up straight and join in the giggling, not believing that you just did that in front of Chris. The boys start to get excited, when they see the empty coaster train approaching.

Chris puts his arm behind your back and leans over to whisper in your ear, sending a shiver down your spine that had nothing to do with the cold weather. “Thank you for that, he was getting nervous and I didn’t know how to calm him down. I thought for sure we were going to have to get out of line before you arrived.” He was so close you could smell his cologne which was heavenly.

“No problem, I love kids. It probably comes from being a kid at heart, I’m glad I could help” you smiled up at him and you starred at each other for a minute, those blue eyes hypnotizing, before he turned around to get in the cart.

You followed him in, sat down and brought the handle bar down. Before Chris sat down he leaned over the back of the seat and made sure the boys were seated safely. “You guys okay?” he asked. “Yes, Uncle Chris” they said in unison. Watching a guy be caring toward kids always made you swoon. You smiled as Chris went to sit in his seat and he said, “Their mom will kill me if anything happens to them”.

“I totally get it, I would kill you too if anything happened to those sweet boys” you pointed your thumb to them.

“Great now I have to worry about you too” he laughed. You scrunched your nose at him, sticking out your tongue. He shook his head with the biggest smile on his face. You looked over your shoulder at the boys, “Get ready for the best ride ever,” and the boys yelled “Yay!” The cast members came around to make sure all the handle bars were secure.

You looked back and noticed that Chris still had his cap on. You pointed to his head “You might want to take that off”.

“Oh, shit I forgot” he took it off, holding it in his left hand while he fixed his hair with his right. The oldest boy yelled, “Language!” You burst out laughing as did the boys and Chris rolled his eyes, but you could tell he was trying to hold himself back from laughing. He turned to you and pointed to his hair “Okay?”

Once you collected yourself, you surveyed his hair which looked amazing even after he had just had a hat on. “Great,” you felt yourself blush, so you glanced down and rubbed your hands together.

“Are you okay?” Chris said with concern, “Are you nervous for the ride?”

You knew you had a habit of rubbing your hands together when you got nervous, but you knew it had nothing to do with the ride and everything with the man sitting next to you. Thinking fast you say, “Oh no I’m just cold”.

He smiles broadly at you as if he had a secret he was going to let you in on. He puts his cap in his right hand and extended his left hand, “Here give me your hand, everyone always says that my hands are warm”.

Hesitant to take it but he nudges his hand a little more toward you and you can feel yourself turn red as you lay your hand in his. You felt the warmth spread through you the minute your hands touch. “Good?” he asks. And the only word that could describe the situation is: “Perfect” he gives your hand a squeeze as the cart begins to move forward.

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svt-energyskincare · 6 years

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ldr bf!mark

omg you’re so sweet !!! thank u for your support xoxo

✭ sorry, did i hear someone say the world’s BIGGEST SHIP ???

✭ YES I DID

✭ BC YOU AND MARKYBOY ARE THE WORLD’S FAV SHIP

✭ I’M SERIOUS

✭ LIKE

✭ amongst celebs, one of the BIGGEST ships ever

✭ amongst fans, the amount in which they ship you two is so crAZY

✭ there were rarely any people who didn’t support you two

✭ because literally everyone can see how much mark truly loves you

✭ and how much you truly love him

✭ and how good you are to each other and for each other

✭ it’s been proven time and time again

✭ being that you were two idol’s in a long distance relationship

✭ being that he lives in korea with the boys

✭ and being that you live in the states

✭ you could only imagine the struggles you’d go through as a couple that’s always in the spotlight

✭ and long distance as the cherry on top

✭ but you both always pushed through any struggles you came across

✭ no hesitation or anything, you’d go through anything for each other, are ya kiddin!!

✭ despite all those factors

✭ you, hands down, were one of the strongest couples out there :’)

✭ and i bet you’re curious as to how you two met huh??

✭ WELL

✭ LEMME TELL U

✭ IT’S JUST LIKE A MOVIE OMG

✭ OK

✭ SO

✭ u know your boyfriend mark tuan??

✭ yes, him

✭ well, he sorta…

✭ kinda

✭ a little bit

✭ a lOT BIT had the biggest crush on you since EVER

✭ he truly adored everything about you

✭ he tried to make his crush on you as subtle as he could

✭ but the boys eventually found out

✭ by how, whenever they drove, his driving playlist was 70% your songs

✭ yes, he did know the lyrics

✭ he sang your songs all the time that he didn’t even notice sometimes

✭ like he’d be tidying up the dorm and he’d start unknowingly singing your latest song

✭ it’s not his fault your music is LIT AF

✭ and when they asked him in interviews if there was anyone he wanted to collab

✭ he always mentioned you

✭ he thought your voice was the most beautiful thing he’d ever heard

✭ and he felt like your voices would compliment each other

✭ imagine a track with your breathtaking, impressive vocals with mark’s smooth rap flow??

✭ one word. SNATCHED.

✭ so yes, mark had a cute lil celeb crush on you

✭ not only did he adore your music

✭ he also absolutely adored how passionate you were about things

✭ he could always feel the passion behind your songs

✭ to the way you were able to hit such high notes so smoothly, to the way you were able to hit the lowest of notes

✭ to the riffs that you’d do at the end of each drug out note you song

✭ to the way he could feel the emotion behind the songs you sung

✭ to the way you would get so immersed into it

✭ the heart you had for not only music

✭ but for everything around you

✭ you were a very compassionate person, very down to

✭ pure and genuine gal who didn’t let fame change her one bit

✭ talk about dream!girl!alert!

✭ but what mark didn’t know……

✭ …. was that you had a little crush in him too!!

✭ you found that you two were very similar, and for every reason he liked you, you liked him

✭ you were so clueless of how the other felt untilllllll

✭ the night of the infamous album listening party

✭ so one of jackson’s good friends was having a listening party in the states to see which songs he was going to have released in his new album

✭ jackson was featured on one of the tracks, so he had to be at the listening party

✭ mark was good friends with the guy, so he invited him as well

✭ the listening party was held in a fairly large studio, enough to fit a whole bunch of people

✭ and as if they wanted to push the limit as to how many people would be able to fit

✭ they did bc it was hard to get your own space in there jEez

✭ there were quite a few songs to get through

✭ tons of features

✭ tons of celebs from across the world filling the room

✭ and as for you……

✭ guess what

✭ ……you were at the listening party too!!

✭ because you had a feature on the album as well

✭ you weren’t too keen on being in the center, so you chose a spot in the back of the studio

✭ whilst mark and jackson were on the complete opposite side of the room

✭ but u already know jackson made his presence known

✭ you noticed and recognized him immediately

✭ bc your mutual artist friend is good friends w him and talked about him all the time

✭ and because, well, you were an ahgase yourself!!

✭ you noticed who was standing next to jackson

✭ noticing the contrast between the two

✭ jackson was very extroverted, whilst he was more introverted

✭ he was socializing w/ people ofc

✭ but he wasn’t super extroverted

✭ you kind of adored that about him

✭ not to mention you even mentally drooled because he was even more handsome in

✭ now, mark had no idea you were there

✭ like at all, or else he woulda been mentally !!!’ing or drooling like you

✭ and it wasn’t until your featured song had come up next in the listening party, that he found out

✭ the song started off with your friend rapping

✭ everybody looking in concentration

✭ and despite the fact that it was your feat. song, you weren’t in the middle of the attention

✭ instead, you were still sitting in your lil chair, sipping your little drink

✭ then your part of the song came and eveybody woOted+shot glances your way with big smiles

✭ despite the fact you had tons of concerts, you still got shy when people did things like that

✭ blushy y/n comiN thRu

✭ mark’s head shot up when he recognized your voice

✭ “isn’t that y/n?? that means she’s here right? holy shit’

✭ he searched through everybody and followed their fixated gaze

✭ and there you were

✭ and oh bOy you were even more beautiful in real life (real life quote from mark himself)

✭ jackson noticed mark’s gaze and nudged him, wiggling his eyebrows as he knew of his crush on you

✭ in which mark pUshed him

✭ anywho mark tried his hardest to focus on the song

✭ honestly speaking

✭ not biased at alL

✭ mark really loved it

✭ he thought it was a beautiful song

✭ u hAd his vote

✭ it was getting close to the final songs/the end of the listening party

✭ and mark wasn’t going to leave without telling you how much he appreciated your work

✭ and jackson wasn’t going to let him leave without doing so either

✭ hype!man!/wing!man!alert!

✭ so after a pep talk mark was like oKay oKAY I’M GOING STOP POKING ME-

✭ despite mark having those cute little crush jitters, he remained very calm and walked on over to you

✭ you saw him coming towards you and couldn’t help but smile

✭ and also get nervous

✭ sorry, extremely nervous

✭ your celeb crush was walking towards you!!! in real life!!! with the cutest smile on his face!!! how could you not be a nervous mess??

✭ but something about him made you smile, and suddenly become comforted

✭ which was weird because he was the one making you feel nervous, yet he was so soothing at the same time?? the power of mark tuan everybody

✭ ”hey! i just wanted to say that your feat. track was amazing”

✭ ”aw thanks mark!”

✭ mark’s eyes widened and his eyebrows rose, which made you question what you said

✭ ”you know me??” he said with that same cUTE ASS SMILE

✭ ”oh shit- wait i mean, jeez sorry! yes. yes, of course i do!” you blurted out, probably actually sweating at that point

✭ you were so embarrassed, but mark gave you the most reassuring smile, as if it were like he were hugging you

✭ and you couldn’t help but blush

✭ and mark couldn’t get over how adorable your reaction was

✭ all blushy and flustered

✭ he was like aww look at her :’))

✭ there was a bit of an awkward silence after that

✭ you didn’t know what to say

✭ he didn’t either

✭ you both kind of just smiled each other and awkwardly giggled

✭ ”sorry, i get nervous sometimes” you blurted out

✭ mark noticed your nervousness+regret and gave you, yet again, a reassuring smile

✭ ”hey, no worries! i am too” he leaned next to you

✭ and immediately you both blushed, but couldn’t look away from each other

✭ you ended up hanging out the rest of the night, both coming out of your lil shells bc of how comfortable you felt around each other :’)

✭ sitting back, sipping your guys’ drinks, telling jokes and just having such a chill, good time :’))

✭ ofc you got each others number before the night could end

✭ there was a mutual admiration for each other, even in those few hours you spent together

✭ tbh the both of you weren’t quick to jump to texting

✭ matter of fact

✭ the first text was you saying “i wanted to wait a bit before texting, but i don’t know when the right time was so i’m just gonna take a risk.. so hey”

✭ he replied almost immediately and said “me too LOL hey!”

✭ and down you two went on the road to relationship :’))

✭ you knew that being in a long distance relationship could be a difficult thing to have

✭ but it was almost like you two didn’t care about that

✭ you only cared about each other, so you both went through with it :’)

✭ lemme tell you something

✭ both of you are so similar

✭ but you don’t clash

✭ you compliment each other very much

✭ and fights???

✭ yes, you guys would disagree or misunderstand on things sometimes

✭ but you both remained as calm as possible and thought as rationally as possible

✭ legit nothing could get in between you guys

✭ and people have tried to break y’all apart, but you both wouldn’t have it

✭ i’m telling you

✭ you were INSEPARABLE

✭ you often times would visit each other, considering you both had tours and free time to visit

✭ and whenever he came to the states or whenever you’d go to him

✭ surprisingly you both didn’t gO aLl oUt

✭ chill is one very prominent word to describe your guys’ relationship

✭ you enjoyed just being in each other’s presence since you didn’t get to everyday

✭ since you guys were in a LDR, you enjoyed even being in silence

✭ people always thought you always had to be doing something

✭ always had to be having extravagant plans every day to get the most of the time you had together

✭ but being idols, it’s rare for you to get a while to relax

✭ and who better to relax with then each other?

✭ and you knew there was going to be more time to be together, you both were in it for the long run so you both never worried

✭ mark was always the type of boyfriend to show you how much he loved you in subtle, yet impactful ways

✭ when you two were together, he’d always give you a kiss on the forehead whenever you went to sleep

✭ or when you woke

✭ or even randomly out of nowhere

✭ like you guys would be in the car driving on your way to the store

✭ just jamming to the music playing

✭ and then mark would grab your hand, and give it the softest kiss while his eyes were still focused on the road and his other hand on the wheel

✭ and he’d hold your hand for the rest of the drive

✭ he’d tell you he loves you in the most out of the blue times

✭ like when you’re getting ready in the morning, he’ll be brushing his teeth next to you

✭ and i kid you not, with bubbles in his mouth, looking at you fixing your hair in the mirror

✭ you hear a faint, mumbly “i love you”

✭ or when you’re playing his fav game overwatch together, and you end up getting the play of the game

✭ he just looks at you on the screen, giggling like the cutie he is

✭ all you hear is “look at you!!”

✭ ”that’s my girl”

✭ ”oh my goodness, i love you”

✭ and when you two weren’t together, he’d call you on his free time during rehearsals just to check up on you, and tell you how much he loves you

✭ you both tried to call each other whenever you were able to

✭ but it wasn’t to an excessive amount

✭ it was just right

✭ same with you weren’t exactly blowing up each other’s phones every second of the day, but there were some days where there were exceptions

✭ sometimes the boys would catch mark on his phone, smiling with his feet propped up on the couch for hours

✭ and what was he doing??

✭ texting his cUTE ASS GF

✭ not to mention he literally smiles like a goofball whenever you send him selfies

✭ it was hard for you to get him to send you selfies back, but when you did OOOOOO BICTH-

✭ but all in all

✭ you two always gave each other the space you needed, despite it being a long distance relationship

✭ the trust and love between you two is beyond unbreakable :’)

✭ that’s why you were able to remain calm and patient in your ldr

✭ that’s why you didn’t feel the needs to always spam each other’s phone every hour of the day

✭ because you both knew that the other was thinking about them

✭ and you knew that there wouldn’t be a day that goes by where you two don’t have your routine call every night

✭ the call you tried to do every night, which switched off from being korea’s nighttime to the state’s nighttime

✭ where you would go on about how your days went, and maybe even watch movies together, play games together, anything your little heart’s desires

✭ it always ended with one of you falling asleep on the other, with either of you smiling about how much you loved the other

✭ whispered “i love you’s” before you’d fall asleep too afterwards

✭ you both are so strong and confident in each other and your relationship

✭ you met in the summer of 2017, and you both are still going strong in this february of 2018

✭ you truly loved each other with everything you’ve got, and there wasn’t a doubt about it to you both

✭ there wasn’t a doubt about it to got7’s fans

✭ to your fans

✭ to anybody that knew you two

✭ yes, there were times where your ldr would get difficult

✭ of course there were times where you wished you could just be together like everybody else

✭ but did you work through those times?

✭ of course you did, is that a rhetorical question!!

✭ you were each other’s other halves

✭ and no distance was going to change that

✭ he was your boy

✭ you were his girl

✭ you were ahgase’s girl

✭ and nothing could get in the way of that :’)

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lesbian-ed · 7 years

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🌸Hi, a few years ago when I was 16 (19 now)I was forced out to my friends by this homophobic girl, and I came out as bi (still in the closet to my family), I'm no longer friends with any of them, but I can't figure out what label I should have, I really want to just know who I am. I said to them I was bi, but I've never felt right with that label. I read about comp het and it makes so much sense to me, but I still don't know. 1/5

🌸I feel, like, attracted to male celebs, but only when they’re in films or tv, and watching interviews of them ruins it?, and whenever I’m around guys I get these thoughts I can’t control about kissing them and sleeping with them and I feel rlly self conscious, I said this to a friend who said it’s a crush, but I get it with people I don’t like at all 2/?

🌸 And sometimes I have a phase where I feel like I could date a guy and marry him and have kids and be happy but it feels like I’m imagining a perfect version of me that actually im not like at all? And as well I can only imagine myself with a young guy, once I think about a 30 yr old or older I don’t want it anymore, but the perfect fantasy seems so appealing idk 3/?

🌸I feel different about girls but I don’t know I’m catholic and I feel like it’s always been other people are gay and that’s ok but not me? And I don’t know whether I feel no attraction to girls or I’m pushing it down bc when I see girls kiss on tv I literally have started crying and I saw a lesbian couple in public once and I got butterflies and also Ive found myself changing pronouns in songs in my head without realising but I’ve never had close to a crush on anyone especially not a girl 4/5

🌸Ive never even met a gay girl except for one pan girl at school but she was really weird and rude so I don’t know what it’s supposed to be like to like someone? writing this all down it makes it sound like I’m definitely a lesbian but that scares me so much bc ill never have a normal life and I can’t shake this feeling that actually I do want to be with a guy but I’m trying to be interesting or I’m faking this or something. Pls tell me your thoughts on this 5/5

Oh, anon. This literally all feels as if my younger self came into my ask box just now to ask for advice.

I understand your pain, I really do, I went through so many of the same thought processes you’re describing now. It’s good that you’re aware of compulsory heterosexuality, since I believe that will make sorting your feelings easier. Still, I recommend you look through our tag (if you haven’t already) to read more thoughts on this. It’ll help.

I obviously can’t tell you what your sexuality is for you, that’s your own journey to make, but this sounds so much like my own experience that I’m pretty sure what the answer is already.

Anon, let me tell you a story, I went to a catholic school and while my parents are pretty liberal and not that religious (in fact, my dad’s an atheist) I was also raised with the idea that ok, there were gay people out there, and I didn’t care what other people did with their lives! But honestly that was kind of weird and I couldn’t be like them, because they weren’t normal, like I should be. I was bullied a lot as a kid, because I was weird and ugly and way too shy and easy to pick on, so I grew up with this idea that whatever else happened, I had to stop being like that, I had to be beautiful and normal and acceptable. And that of course included a perfect fantasy of marrying the man of my dreams after he fell in love with men when I suddenly grew up to be the most beautiful woman there was, and having kids, and holding down a successful job that I was happy doing and having lots of money and well, just having the most perfect life. How could I not want that? Ever since I was old enough to walk, society fed me the idea that this was my ideal endgame, how could we ALL not dream about that at some point?

I used to be obsessed with those stories where the “ugly” girl suddenly turns beautiful and the Nice Perfect Popular Boy finally notices her and they get together, those stories were my dream life. As a kid and young teen I’d fantasize about them constantly, I’d make up characters that would always end up fulfilling those same tropes. It was the way to prove to all those who ever called me ugly or belittled me because I was nerdy that “see? I got the happy ending” so when I was twelve, and suddenly all the girls were having crushes on boys I felt nothing for, while I started noticing seemingly out of the blue just how incredibly beautiful so many girls my age and older were, I got veeery scared. I couldn’t like girls like that, I wasn’t like that, I was already weird and had no friends, so how could I ever hope to find a girl who liked girls who’d like me? And if I did, everyone already hated me, so how would I bear it? The stares and the insults and the danger we’d face if people saw us together on the street? So I pushed that attraction down as far as I could, I convinced myself I was actually just too inmature to start thinking about crushes and all that stuff, and obviously when I was mature enough and the time came, I’d like boys, because that’s what Normal Girls did right? And I had to be normal.

In my school’s equivalent of US’ eighth grade, a new boy came to our class, he was pretty, and friendly, and most importantly, blonde! and he was the school sports star! It felt like every movie-like fantasy I ever had come to life. Every girl was in love with him, so one time I had a dream where we were dating. I woke up being absolutely ecstatic, that must have meant I had a crush right? I liked a boy? I was definitely straight?

I never actually began feeling nervous around this boy, or looking at him any more than usual until I had this dream and decided that meant I was in love. I told a friend eventually because I was excited about being in love and the fantasy I had created for myself about our perfect relationship (which did involve us kissing and having sex, and I never actually felt turned on about it but I did imagine it a lot because it meant we were In Love, so those fantasies happen even if you don’t actually like like the person in question, dw!), and isn’t that what you do when you like someone? Gossip about it with your friends? She told some of my bullies and the dude found out, so he started laughing at me in the middle of the class and calling me ugly and saying he was traumatized at the mere idea of me liking him.

And I… felt nothing. I was angry of course, and sad, but it was just the same anger and sadness I felt when some random I didn’t like made fun of me, it wasn’t even like what I felt when former friends said nasty stuff about me. And I wanted to be heartbroken I wanted to wallow in the misery and the drama of it, but I just wasn’t, it was the same “well this shit sucks and I’m angry about it but it happens everyday so wyd?” There was no deeper feeling there, not even any special resentment, there was nothing. I never felt anything ever again when I looked at this boy.

Now, sometime later, the same boy starts dating a girl from our class, and it was around the same time that I was coming to terms with the fact that the latent attraction I had started to feel for women when I was younger had never actually gone away but rather had grown. Things were purely about sexual attraction for me at that point, not romantic feelings. I hadn’t actually been in love with a girl either by that point. Because even tho I was accepting my sexual attraction to women, I still had the idea in my mind that ideally I would end up with a boy, because when so much of my hopes for the future relied of me being beautiful and a man falling in love with me forever and ever so that I could have a normal future, letting go of that dream took a while. I called myself bisexual for a while, only to realize very little later that it didn’t actually fit me. When I did, it was hard, because I had to re-come out again to my mom and the two friends I had told, and that really scared me, because I felt like some fake, like what I felt was not actually real. I put it off, and my friends & mom were accepting but they also were like “you’re just confused about your sexuality!!/this is just a phase!!” so that fed into my insecurities. Even when I realized I was sexually into women only, I still hadn’t fallen in love with one, so that made things more confusing for me (I hadn’t fallen for any boy other than the one I mentioned earlier and one I met on a vacation that thought I liked for like a week because he had a pretty voice and was pretty androgynous lmao, but again, no heartbreak when he went away)

Eventually, (funnily enough through fandoms and f/f ships and fics that depicted them in loving relationships, And I cried when I read about girls kissing too, at first I thought it was because I was a Good Straight Ally, but I was just a lesbian lmao) I realized that I could also be happy in a relationship with a woman, that it was not only a possible future for me, but one that I wanted, one that felt right, one in which I wouldn’t be the beautiful, perfect, feminine, smart, succesful career woman I had dreamed of as a kid, but in which I’d be me, with all my quirks and faults, with another woman with her own quirks and faults who’d love me for who I am, because that was possible! It was possible to be happy like that!. When I realized this, that me liking girls romantically and sexually, and exclusively girls was okay, it felt like a veil was lifted from my eyes. Suddenly, all the feelings and attraction I had thought I had felt for boys paled in comparison to the intensity of what I felt for women, I learned what actual sexual desire was like, I yearned for a future with a real me in it with a real woman by my side, instead of the fake ideal I’d wanted to be when I was younger. It was around that time I fell in love for the first time.

Remember how I mentioned the boy I used to “like” got a girlfriend? Well, guess who I fell for? Me and her were assigned seats together one year in high school, and I got to know her through the first term, every time liking her more and more, until one day, she just walks into class, and I think she did something different with her hair? Whatever it was, seeing her felt like someone punching the breath out of me, it felt like watching literal perfection embodied. And I was gone, I was just so so sooo gone. I felt sparks when we sat next to each other, I couldn’t stop smiling like a fool whenever I looked at her, she’d say something nice to me and it felt like my soul was flying out of my body. And of course it was idealized, it was a crush on a girl I didn’t know that well, but the feelings I had, I had for her, for her actual personality, her actual sweetness, her actual kindness, even her actual rashness sometimes, not the fantasy I had made up of her that I projected onto her like I did when I “liked” her boyfriend. I liked her as a person. Plus the intensity of both crushes was just so fucking different. When I liked her, I cried when we were apart and at the thought of her with her dumbass idiot boyfriend, I listened to a love song and could relate to it for the first time. I understood finally why people would write poetry and songs and do all sorts of crazy things for this feeling.

Tldr: I also fantasized about the ideal boy and I was never able to allow myself to feel anything for a girl because of how much I had repressed my sexuality due to fear of backlash until I was able to recognize that yes, liking women was OK and then all my repressed feelings came pouring out like a tsunami.

If that sounds like something you can kind of relate to, then that’s your answer anon. However, it might not be, or maybe you don’t know if it is yet. That’s alright! Sexuality can be complicated and it can take a long time to figure it out. You’re not on a deadline here, you don’t have to stress about it.

As for the normal part, yeah being a lesbian in this society sucks a lot. And I still get terrified of the idea that I will not be “normal” and that I can never be happy. Even if I know deep in my heart that I can never be happy with a man, sometimes I wonder if it’d be worth it to spare me the pain. The answer? Hell no, I’ve got one life, one, what’s the point of wasting it on loveless unfulfilled relationships when I could try to go for someone I’ll actually be happy with? There’ll be pain, of course there will be, I live in a small town and I’ve only just started meeting other lesbians & bi girls offline this year because I’ve gone to university, and I’ve only ever actually started talking to and becoming actual friends with the ones I knew online this year too because I was so terrified before! All of them tell me about their hurt, and how lesbophobia affects them a lot, and yet I see them talking about how much they love their girlfriends/wives (I don’t have that because I’m an awkward potato but I’m trying) and also other lesbians, and it gives me hope, because I can be just like them, finding genuine happiness amidst the pain.

I hope this answer helps you.

Mod M :D

#anonymous #answered asks #advice #lesbophobia #positivity #lesbian positivity #mod m #original #mod m gets personal lmao #compulsory heterosexuality

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rogersstevie · 7 years

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i think the reason unnecessary (and often untrue) criticism of taylor swift bothers me so much more than it does with other celebs i like is because it just feels so personal

there are celebs that are just as important to me, that i love just as much as taylor. other celebs who have made me happy during hard times

but the thing with taylor is how her music has been there has been there during my worst times, since middle school, when life started getting harder (even if those things back then seem so silly now, they mattered then). i first heard should’ve said no at a party in seventh grade (shoutout to that girl amanda that i never talk to anymore, she was a gr8 friend through most of high school tho) and i was just listening and it changed everything. not that i’ve ever been cheating on, unless one of those Super Serious middle school boyfriends cheated on me and i don’t know about it. but i did relate to the song in an entirely different way.

and i was hooked.

i think i must’ve listened to a lot of her stuff on youtube all the time, because i remember shit like invisible and teardrops on my guitar and everything about the guy you like liking someone was else was EVERYTHING TO ME during in seventh and eighth grade, like wow. i know self titled is my least fave album, but those songs really are what my early teenage years were like.

her first album that i got was fearless, followed by her self titled and speak now (i’m assuming i asked for them as gifts, which is why it wasn’t chronological, but i don’t remember). but speak now came out in the fall of my sophomore year. right after i started crushing on a guy i’d known forever, who would start dating one of my best friends a few months later (and another good friend a few months after that), so you can guess that some of her older songs were fitting when that happened. well, the beginnings of that crush had me putting sparks fly as my ringtone for him and basically being head over heels in the best way possible.

sophomore year was really lonely, and taylor’s music was (and still is) one of the best things i had

and when we stopped talking so much, and i was convinced that he wanted nothing to do with me -- because the second friend of mine he dated told him i liked him, talk about betrayal (where was bad blood when i really needed it?) -- even though that probably wasn’t the case at all, and i was just being paranoid, it felt like the end of the world. and haunted was the song

i didn’t get over for him for a very long time. our friendship was very off and on, but that was probably my fault more than anything. i wanted to stay away and let him make the effort if he really wanted me in his life, but he didn’t really, and i kept coming back. but i think he just wasn’t that kind of person, which is sort of funny because now i’m the kind of friend who finds it really hard to put in the effort and reach out, though that particular friendship experience along with others may have something to do with that. anyway, i’m not here to psycho analyze myself.

we were probably the least close throughout junior year, but the whole off-on thing didn’t go away. we hung out close to the end of summer before senior year with two friends who had recently started dating and we had such a great time and i started having hope. and at least considered telling him how i felt, whether he knew i still liked him or not. and then a little bit into senior year, he started dating someone. and then red came out. red, my favorite album of all time.

he started dating someone. and i started distancing myself again. but once again, it never lasted. i wasn’t as lonely senior year as i had been the previous two years, but it wasn’t perfect. and he was one of few people who made me really happy back when that loneliness began, which i think is part of why i fell so hard and it was so hard to get over him.

but red. god. i could talk about this album forever. i almost do? come back...be here? all too well? treacherous? obviously, a lot of the songs are very blatantly relationship/breakup songs. but i was able to take certain lyrics and they just summed up how i felt perfectly. so much of that album applied to what i was thinking and feeling and i loved it. all too well was my favorite song for a couple years, but i think for that time, i almost do was really the situation with us. how many times did i want to reach out to him, but had to tell myself not to? we talked things through towards the end of senior year, i explained how i liked him and felt like he wasn’t making an effort and why i kept distancing myself. and i thought things were better. for a little while, they were. i’m 22 now (ha), a college graduate, and i have not spoken to him since before we graduated high school.

that summer went by, freshman year of college went by, i still wasn’t totally over it. i sent him a letter beginning of freshman year, because i was Brave, and looking back it seems so stupid, but i needed that closure. only it didn’t really work, because i just got even sadder that i never heard from him again. but was i listening to all too well (hey, it might not have fit exactly, but it’s really fucking sad like i was) and say something by a great big world (okay, i know, not taylor, but it FIT -- also wow, imagine if she covered that, i would die) late at night and crying because i had never felt that way about anyone the way i did for him? yeah, i was.

now, 1989 came out during the fall of sophomore year. now i’ve never related as strongly to that one. in part, i think a lot of the album is very uh, contrived lyrically, but also i’ve only had a few crushes here and there over the last few years. but some of the lyrics DO go back to that situation i’ve been discussing. like, i was absolutely yell-texting my friend “where was “people like me are gone forever when you say goodbye” when i needed it???”

also bad blood. i had a few Bad Friendships in high school and you can hate that song and say it’s sexist all you want (it’s not, it doesn’t even use gender specific pronouns), but it’s SO RELATABLE.

so uh, yeah, now that i’ve written this ridiculous fucking essay, i just wanna say that taylor swift literally means so much to me. her music was there for me when no one else was, which sounds so cliche, but it’s true. i love her and i love her music and even though my opinion of her has shifted some over the last five years, i’m always gonna love her. she’s always gonna be the girl who had me sitting at a party and silently losing it because no one else had ever written how i felt so CLEARLY before.

i didn’t really become part of the fandom until after red came out and even more so after 1989 (i just didn’t follow every aspect of her life or what she was doing, i was just listening to the songs and vaguely aware of people she was friends with/dating/”dating”). i wish that i’d gotten tickets to red and maybe even speak now, but me and my sister did get to go to the 1989 tour in kansas city together and it was one of the most fun nights i’ve ever had.

i’m not naive. i don’t think taylor is one hundred percent honest or perfect or genuine or selfless. but i think she is a hell of a lot more genuine and selfless than a lot of people in this world. i know it’s weird, but i don’t think vocals are the most important part of being a singer. because like, look how many pop singers and indie dudes Cannot Sing Live. taylor's vocals have definitely improved over the last few years, but for me, it’s about those beautiful lyrics she writes. how straight up she is in her songs, even if i think a lot of the things her songs are based on are not totally genuine, ya know. a nineteen year old girl wrote dear john. a nineteen year old girl wrote that entire fucking album.

taylor swift is talented. she’s incredibly intelligent, she’s hilarious and snarky and sarcastic. she’s so fucking sweet to her fans, and you can say her niceness is an act but? it’s better than how many celebs are honestly just mean. like, there’s a reason all the fans and people who meet her (aside from a few celeb feuds) say how kind she is. personally, i prefer people to just be nice, unless the situation calls for acting otherwise. and most of the time, she’s stuck with being nice (that in no way means i think she’s in the wrong for calling out people who have been shitty to her, like john mayer, who is an abuser and deserves to be dragged through the mud for it).

it really horrifies me how much people wanna say a woman who has constantly been a victim, since she was just a child writing songs about boys, is just playing the victim. i will never know everything about her or the situations she’s been in with other people, but the way she’s treated is honestly despicable, and how i feel about her makes it so much more upsetting. i think she can handle it, i don’t think fans need to baby her, and i don’t think writing songs about it is bad. she’s made it very clear that she writes songs about her experiences from the beginning of her career.

so yeah, taylor getting attacked makes me sad, and i imagine it bothers her sometimes, but she’s probably more chill about it than i am. but i just love her so much, and i know not everyone is gonna like her, but seeing someone who means the world to me constantly super criticized over really minuscule things is really ridiculous and annoying and upsetting.

call her out on actual shitty behavior like you would anyone else, but god if you don’t like her or her music or something literally harmless that she does, just like, shut up about it sometimes. some people just wanna love her in peace.

#i did NOT need to read this much but i feel the need to explain everything lmfao #i love writing essays about her lmao bye #taylor swift #personal

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starrypawz · 7 years

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Ok i don’t tend to talk much about ace stuff on here but that post I reblogged pretty much summed things up for me? (It’s hard to work out your orientation full stop)

I’d rather people not reblog this post ok

Also apologies because I ended up rambling a lot

I sort of grew up just like ‘Well i guess I’m straight?’ I remember ‘learning what gay and lesbian meant’ before I finished primary school (probably not in a necessarily positive way because kids are assholes like that but you know I knew what they were) and that I knew that people get married and so well... I guess I’d eventually get married? (Not necessarily an ace thing but I never like really imagined stuff to do with that)

But I remember in primary school when boyfriends and girlfriends started happening and being a bit like ‘uh ok?’and like talking about people being attractive and like ‘uh ok? I don’t get this’

But I mean I was an awkward nerd kid (I still am an awkward nerd ok) and it was like ‘Well I’m not interested? Why are people interested? I’d rather just keep reading books and doing other stuff that everyone seems to have outgrown’ I’m just a kid ok.

I didn’t have a lot of friends and spent a lot of my childhood and teens quite socially isolated in all honesty. I know in a sense probably some of my social development was a bit jacked up. Also chuck in dyspraxia too and it’s a bit of a mess over there,

I grew up in a Christian household, now it wasn’t so much like ‘you are banned from dating’ or anything but my parents didn’t talk much about relationships and stuff with me, they’ve never pressured me like ‘You need to date’ or ‘Get married’ or ‘Grandkids now!’ but that and a Christian school sort of just like enforced ‘You just don’t talk about sex, that’s for when you get married and you get married cause you’re supposed to GOD WILL LEAD YOU TO THE RIGHT PERSON’ like not directly? but it was there it wasn’t normal to talk about this stuff

I think when I was around 16 I sort of had a few thoughts like ‘i guess a boyfriend would be nice? I don’t know’ but didn’t put much thought in it, guessed I’d maybe find someone. At 16 I was suddenly chucked back in the real world and around ‘normal’ people my own age after leaving my weird church school . I remember a few cases of ‘we’re talking about sex ehehehe sex!’ and I was just incredibly uncomfortable in those conversations but I mean i was a weird sheltered kid so ofc i’d be uncomfortable right?

Also online growing up I was sort of exposed to slash and shipping and was a bit like ‘uh ok i don’t get this? people do this but why? IT’S WEIRD’ (thats changed ngl)

Then in about 2012 (20-21 y/old) at this point for some reason I got it in my head to try online dating? i found a website/app that seemed pretty friendly. I met a guy we start talking we’re getting along pretty well he seems nice. It’s nearing the time there’s a con, there’s a vague idea ‘hey if i go we can meet up in person’, he makes suggestions we should hook up, I’m like ‘Uh I’m not sure’ (I mean we’ve not met in person and so you know it doesn’t seem safe and tbh that was probably the good option anyway) but he seems ok with it we agree to keep talking but that doesn’t happen we can’t get past that awkward hump. I also at that point had gone from ‘further education college’ to ‘unemployed and on benefits’ it was in all not a great point, we don’t talk again It’s not just the awkward conversation but also the mental state I was in.

Then i remember starting to think, starting to sit down. I’d kinda come across the term Ace in a community I was in that wasn’t tumblr but didn’t think much of it other than ‘ok that’s a thing’ but yes tumblr educated me a heck of a lot about stuff ok. I started thinking

Wait why do i think I’m straight? I have no evidence for this? wtf? WHAT IS GOING ON OVER HERE PLEASE SEND HELP

I mean that stuff above all reasons why maybe I was but just very sheltered and lacking a social network as it were (as in a network of people) to go out and hey go and find mr dream man? I’m just a late bloomer, it’s not the right time, I’m not looking for a relationship right now

But then it was like ‘wait i’ve never crushed on anyone i think? not really?’ ‘Not really on any celebs or people I’ve known or seen?’ and yeah it threw me for a loop a bit.

Then yes it started clicking I didn’t really seem to feel anything? About anyone?No matter the gender. I mean other than ‘well aww relationships seem nice? I like reading stuff about them? I like seeing happy couples?’ but me in one? me perusing one? wtf is all that about?

I could see someone and it’s like ‘oh that’s a nice looking person’ but it’s like ‘ok and what does she do with this information?’ people would talk about I WANT TO SLEEP WITH THIS CELEBRITY/MARRY THEM and I’m like ‘I would like to be friends with them? i would like to meet them they seem a nice person’

Over time I got used to sex scenes and talking about sex and I learned more about it. it no longer makes me uncomfortable, I’ll discuss it for characters cause ‘hey it’s sort of an element of character development’ and ‘it can be part of a couple’s dynamic’ like ‘Well sex happens’ and well sometimes it can be funny or sweet to come up with scenarios that happen between two characters and so forth.

I enjoy reading and writing relationships, i enjoy seeing strong couples, i enjoy shipping them together and so forth. I think that stuff is good. Please give me all the media with good relationships, let me embrace the diversity and so forth.

This process of ‘unpacking’ probably took two years and then for for 2 years? I think I’ve been like ‘Ok I’m like 99.8% sure I am ace in some form?’ the little bit is to cover ‘i might be something else and don’t know it yet’

I doubt it quite often though that little ‘Maybe I’m a bit screwed up?’ ‘Maybe I’m just too sheltered/too much of a hermit to meet people’ and so on. it’s tiring being under the Questioning Q at times.

But that’s it, it’s just like ‘Nothing there’, it is like that scene from Bojack Horseman with Todd for me. I understand what makes someone ‘sexy’ apparently according to mainstream standards, I can identify an attractive person, I know what love is, I know what relationships are, i know what sex is and so forth but it’s all theoretical?

It’s like.. how a bird flies I may be able to learn everything about it and then tell you how a bird flies but I don’t have wings I can’t actually experience what it is to fly with a pair of wings. I just know about it but I don’t seem to feel it. There’s a disconnect of some sort between it and myself like ‘the info is there but what do i do with it?’ fish and a bicycle.

I’m not scared of relationships or commitment, i’m not scared of intimacy and sex i think, I kind of want intimacy (I’m kinda lonely at times in all honestly) it’s not like I want to run away from it as such. I do think I kind of maybe want a romantic relationship at least once but as to with who I am not sure. But in a sense the thought of entering dating seems a bit of a mindfield considering I can’t even answer ‘Who do you like?’ at this point. And well i’m pretty sure ‘mainstream dating’ is not the place for me, it’s a scary place.

As far as I can tell I’m not ill, everything works as it should do. Nothing physically/chemically wrong with me.

I’ve generally been ‘ok’, but then at the same time i’m not really out. I mean to ‘real life’ people I know. People I think just assume I’m chronically single or something. I’ve had a few conversations with people where I’ve just wanted to yell I AM ACE I DO NOT KNOW LEAVE ME ALONG OK PLS THANK YOU

I can’t say if I’m an ‘aroace’ I’m not sure, i don’t think I’m aro but then I can’t really say if I particularly experience romantic attraction to people either I’m still muddling this out over here and have no idea in what direction that’s going to go if any.

I guess end of this, I am going to be 25 in a couple of days, and well. I’m like 99.8% I am asexual in some form.

I am ace.

#starry's rambles #long and rambly post but like...#idk i just had to get this stuff out i think?#god i hope i don't regret making this post #if you managed to read through all of this kudos to you #i don't think i wanted it to get this long but whoops

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peachy-jy · 7 years

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ye olde tag game

I was tagged by @got7peaches and I want to know if you came up with the title

(I think this was supposed to be fun and light but it ended up going to a really deep and verbose place so I’m putting it under the cut)

not tagging anyone cuz no one should have to read this lololol fml

how tall are you? 5′6″ and I’m not a fan... short people are cuter what color and style is your hair? red and long and curly what color are your eyes? they’re blue around the edges and green around the pupil and I know that sounds like a description straight out of “my immortal” but no I’m not making this up do you wear glasses or contacts? both but I prefer glasses do you wear braces? never have never will what is your fashion style? I don’t think I really have a “style.” That would require more money than I am willing to spend on clothes. But I love everything Claire wears so... if I could afford Claire’s style and pull it off I would dress like her when were you born? October 22 (burn this date in your mind) how old are you? 24 do you have any siblings? 2 brothers, one older one younger what school/college do you go to? this seems like tmi so I’ll just say I’m in nursing school (as if everyone didn’t know that already I never shut up about it) what kind of student are you? the worst. I’m that asshole who puts in 10% effort and turns in everything late and somehow still does ok what are your favorite subjects? anatomy was super fun (the human body is weird and amazing) but I think my favorite class I’ve ever taken was formal logic (it’s the satisfaction of completing mathematical equations with none of the actual math) what are your favorite shows? 30 rock, parks and rec, the office, community, scrubs... basically good sitcoms with 5+ seasons. I’m also a slut for reality tv (dance moms anyone?) and competition shows (great british bake-off what whaaat) what are your favorite movies? the one I always pick when I have to pick just one is when harry met sally but I am a huge cinephile and I have dozens of favorites so if you’re looking for a movie rec hmu what are your favorite books? my book choices are a lil outdated cuz all I read is fanfic lately lololol but old OLD faves are hitchhiker’s guide to the galaxy, the giver, ready player one, and the hunger games series what are your favorite past times? my favorite past time is collecting past times, getting decently good at them, and then abandoning them. I’ve taught myself to play the ukulele, painting and drawing, niche board games, pottery, baking, the basics of a few languages, and a few video games here and there. The only hobbies that I’ve done consistently for several years are knitting, watching movies (specifically going to the movie theater because you can’t beat that atmosphere tbh), and writing (mostly fanfiction; I haven’t written anything original since high school). do you have any regrets? I wish I had never gone to the second university I attended... I basically wasted three years of my life in a hick town. I was miserable but I learned a lot about myself and also a lot about people and how to not be a shitty one so I guess it wasn’t a total waste. It sure felt like it though. what is your dream job? I wish I had the self-confidence to be a fiction writer full time. If I really worked hard at developing original concepts, I think I could be pretty good at it. Plus I would never have to leave my apartment and I could wear sweatpants 24/7, which is the real dream, let’s be real would you like to get married? where? I kind of flip flop on this one... sometimes I think I’d like it but then again I’m such a loner that I think I would suck at marriage sooo... my brother says I need to find someone who is as smart as me but total shit at something I’m good at, so I can take care of them and feel needed. I don’t know that marriage necessarily needs to be involved... Plus if I ever did get married I’d prob elop or only invite my immediate family sooooo do you want kids? how many? I don’t think I’d want to create life but I’d be 100% down for adopting... then again when my celeb crushes say they want kids I’m all I VOLUNTEER so who can say do you like shopping? If I magically come into extra income then yes. If I’m on a budget, shopping for something I need is like torture. The exception is always make-up/skincare. I buy myself new make-up when I’m sad. how many countries have you visited? 7, all of them European, but one of them was just for a day so I feel like it doesn’t really count. I really want to visit some Asian countries, though. what was your scariest dream? The scariest one that comes to mind was being locked in an office building with office workers and there was a serial killer-type guy in a jigsaw mask who kept turning the lights off and abducting people one by one and disfiguring their faces. No fuckin clue where that came from tbh. I’ve never even seen Saw. do you have any enemies? I’d like to think I don’t? I try really hard to treat everyone well regardless of how they treat me because I like being liked... but honestly there are a few people who hate my guts and won’t meet me halfway to reconcile sooooo yes, I guess I do. I don’t hold it against them, though. If they ever took a moment to see things from my point of view they would realize that I never meant them any harm and I’m just a flawed person, trying my best. But apologies don’t go very far with people who like to hold grudges and feel like the world is against them, so I can’t do anything about that. do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend? I don’t have the energy for that. Right now, having a S/O sounds kind of terrible actually lmao they’re so much work

THIS GOT HELLA LONG I’M SORRY BLAME CLAIRE

Put your music on shuffle and list the first fifteen songs without skipping:

We Hate You Please Die - Crash and the Boys (Scott Pilgrim anyone? no? ok)

Amsterdam - Imagine Dragons (I downloaded the whole album bc I liked Radioactive but I’ve never actually listened to this song)

Green Onions - Booker T & The MG’s (idk don’t ask)

The Curse of Curves - Cute Is What We Aim For (a one hit wonder but I still know every word to this song)

All Alright - Fun.

Classic Rock Medley - The Cat’s Pajamas (a local acapella group from my high school days)

Bellas Final - the Pitch Perfect Soundtrack (ok this plus the last one is making it seem like I’m obsessed with acapella I’m really not)

East West - Herman’s Hermits (...I actually love this band don’t judge me)

Here It Goes Again - Ok Go (say what you will about the song but that video with the treadmills was iconic)

20 Dollar Nose Bleed - Fall Out Boy

Sims Holidaze - The Sims 2 Bon Voyage (I may or may not have the entire collected Sims soundtrack on my ipod...)

Lesson 4 Pronunciation - Rosetta Stone Italian Level 3 (Remember when I was fluent in Italian? yeah me neither)

Whistle (Acoustic) -Blackpink (I like the original better)

Come So Far (Got So Far To Go) - Hairspray soundtrack (ok but this whole soundtrack is a bop I forgot I used to love this)

Mowgli’s Road - Marina & the Diamonds

What have we learned? That hitting shuffle is not at all indicative of a person’s taste in music, but instead exposes their sordid musical past.

#I just spent two hours doing this oh my god Claire you owe me #tag game #shut up jenna

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sarahsrp · 7 years

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☯ for celebs!!!

send me a ☯ for a brotp meme

Billie/Jason/Jonathan (yea, I’m doing the ot3)

who’s older?: Jason and Jonathan are the same age. Probably a couple months apart. Billie is the baby.

who’s more protective?: Hm, maybe Jonathan. He’s always ready to fight for them. Billie is protective of Jason though. He was her first friend after she moved to LA. But she’s also protective of Jon. Not as much though since Jon fights his won battles often. Jason is protective of the both of them too though.

what’s their origin?: Jon and Jason met at some gala years back. Jon hated it, of course. He hates going to those kind of things. He hung around the bar for most of the night, which is where he met Jason. Despite the major personality differences, they hit it off. Years later, Billie got cast as a very, very small recurring role on a show where Jason is a huge star. I imagine he hits on all the female extras, hit on her and she just LAUGHED in his face. Jason then introduced Billie to Jon and they’ve all been friends since then.

what are four words to describe their relationship?: Sarcastic, boozy, funny, breezy

how does each one feel when the other gets into a romantic relationship?: do they get jealous? are they super protective? proud of their friend getting out there?? Billie and Jon definitely tease Jason whenever he gets in a relationship since he’s all about the PR relationship. They don’t really take them seriously. Jon and Jason also tease Billie when she dates someone but are generally protective. They get all older brother like and have to check the guy out and make sure he’s worthy of her. When Jon dates and is actually open about it, they’re happy and surprised. He isn’t really the lovey dovey type so again, there is a lot of teasing. But I think in general, happiness and being proud that he put himself out there and opened up to someone.

list three problems that they’ve encountered in their time together: Finding time to actually hang out. They’re all busy with their film schedules so sometimes they can go a long time without seeing each other. Also, finding a nice place where there won’t be a bunch of fans or cameras in their faces. And…that’s only two but that’s really all I can think of.

how often do they fight?: Every time they see each other. But it’s never anything serious. They’re all kind of sarcastic assholes with each other. So it’s all for laughs.

what would their biggest fight be about?: Australia vs. England/Who’s Homeland is better? Jon and Jason say England. Billie says Australia. It’s never ending.

nicknames/terms of endearment?: Billie calls Jason - Jayso and Jon - Jono from time to time. Jon calls them by their names because he doesn’t do fluffy/cutesy nicknames. Jason usually sticks with the normal names too, maybe calls Billie hon or sweetie but not too often and probably usually before saying something sarcastic.

how long will they last?: do they fall out a few months after friendship blooms? do they laugh at their respective grandchildren together while looking over photos from decades ago? I’m gonna say FOREVERRRRRRRRR! They all love each other and like hanging out. I can’t imagine them not staying close to each other.

how well do they know each other?: They know a lot ore about each other than Wikipedia does. No, really. They’re close. Between all the teasing they do have somewhat serious conversations. They know each other’s likes and dislikes, goals in life and details about their past.

which of the two is more: violent, expressive, affectionate, irritable, intelligent, attractive, kind: Jon - Violent, Irritable. Jason - Attractive, Kind. Billie - Expressive, Affectionate. They’re all fairly intelligent. Even if they joke and say Jason is just a pretty face.

are there any chances of them n o t staying platonic?: Well, Jason and Jon definitely aren’t going to hook up. Billie and Jon look at each other like siblings. I wouldn’t put it pass Billie and Jason to drunkenly make out at least once but that would be them super, super drunk. They’re all very platonic.

how would they react if the other were to die?: Devastated.

what extent would one half of the brotp go for the other?: Billie would defend her boys like crazy, Jon would fight people like crazy and Jason would also defend them like crazy. They’re like a little family, really. They would do a lot for each other.

list headcanons for them based around: a slide, a laptop, winter, coca-cola, braiding hair, shoes, two of your choice: Winter is actually kind of an argument with them. Jason and Jon say that winter is during the obvious December to March months. But Billie is a backwards Australian and insists that nope, those are summer months. And whenever it’s in the middle of ACTUAL winter and it gets a little chilly, she gets all dramatic and wears a coat and says “it’s so cold for summer” and then an intense debate will break out for three days. Billie is in love with french braids. Especially the cutesy french braided pigtails. She absolutely loves them. However, she can’t do it herself. Whenever she tries it looks all loose and uneven. So, she has somehow convinced both Jason and Jon to learn. They watched numerous videos online and now whenever Billie wants her hair braided, she finds one of them and has them do it. As payment, she always buys the first two rounds at the bar.

Tyler/Nikki

who’s older?: You know, I have no clue. Nikki might be though.

who’s more protective?: Tyler is more protective over Nikki. He’s known her for years and has a huge crush on her and everyone knows it. And he’s very protective. He gets really defensive any time there is something bad said about her in the press.

what’s their origin?: Probably at the Kids Choice Awards. Tyler was very young when he was discovered and so was Nikki. They probably presented at the award show and then hung out afterwards. They saw each other a lot at these kind of events and eventually just became friends. As they got older they would hang out at bigger, more mature events then silly award shows.

what are four words to describe their relationship?: Playful, lively, flirty, flawed

how does each one feel when the other gets into a romantic relationship?: do they get jealous? are they super protective? proud of their friend getting out there?? They get jealous. Tyler already makes it known he’s interested in Nikki so obviously he gets jealous. But in the end, he’s also happy if she’s happy. He’s not really a sore loser about it. And Nikki gets jealous too. She likes the attention Tyler gives her and when he’s dating someone he isn’t being all flirty with her and so she gets a bit jealous.

list three problems that they’ve encountered in their time together: Tyler’s feelings for her, Fans/paparazzi inserting themselves in their business (Tyler’s fault), Nikki leading him on here and there

how often do they fight?: I don’t think they’ve ever fought. Sure she gets annoyed when he’s openly says he likes Nikki but she denies him and he gets jealous when she’s with someone else. But they don’t ever let that get in the way of their actual friendship

what would their biggest fight be about?: If they actually got into a fight, like a real one, it would be Tyler’s feelings for her.

nicknames/terms of endearment?: Babe, hon, sweetie, baby, sexy, stuff like that. Also Ty and Nik.

how long will they last?: do they fall out a few months after friendship blooms? do they laugh at their respective grandchildren together while looking over photos from decades ago? They’ve been friends since they were middle school aged and nothing has come between them yet. I don’t really thing anything could. They’ll be friends a really long ways down the road.

how well do they know each other?: I imagine they know pretty much everything there is to know about each other. Again, they’ve known each other since they were like 10/11 and they’re in their 20′s now. There isn’t much they keep secret or really can keep secret.

which of the two is more: violent, expressive, affectionate, irritable, intelligent, attractive, kind: I’d say - Nikki is more violent, irritable, intelligent and Tyler is more expressive, affectionate and kind. They’re both very attractive people though so tie on that.

are there any chances of them n o t staying platonic?: Yes and no. They’ll definitely dabble in something more but never actually date or be exclusive. They’ll always be first and foremost platonic friends.

how would they react if the other were to die?: It would be a huge blow to either of them. They’re like each other’s longest lasting friends.

what extent would one half of the brotp go for the other?: Tyler would do anything Nikki asked him to do. Honestly, he is a sucker for her. She would do a lot for him too but not quite as much.

list headcanons for them based around: a slide, a laptop, winter, coca-cola, braiding hair, shoes, two of your choice: Nikki and Tyler have had a pretty nice tradition over the years that right after a party or an after party, they get some fast food and go back to one of their homes to crash. Because of this, Tyler has acquired so many pairs of Nikki’s shoes over the years that she has her own shoe rack in the guest bedroom’s closet. She comes over, kicks off the uncomfortable heels and forgets to grab them as she heads out the next day to her car. Sometimes she’ll have him bring them over to her but there’s enough left behind that he had to do something with them. Tyler will never admit it to anyone other than Nikki but he’s actually afraid of heights. But he loves water parks and going up on the big slides they have. But again, afraid of heights. When he was younger, he told Nikki this in confidence and she promised to go on every water slide with him. That way he’d have someone with him and wouldn’t be so scared. Now, as an adult, he’s still not a fan of heights but isn’t too afraid to go up on a water slide alone but he’s so used to Nikki being by his side that he generally won’t go on one without her.

#sierrasrps #ot3: accent squad #brotp: but i ship us

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hey so idk of you're the right person to ask this, but maybe if you can't help me you know where i can get help, but i'm a girl and i've been labeling myself as bi for a while now but now i'm wondering if maybe i'm not into guys after all? so i'm thinking i might be a lesbian but idk. it's all really confusing. how do i find out if i like only girls or guys too?

hey, okay, so it can be really hard because of compulsory heterosexuality and everything. so first of all i wanna say try not to stress about it too hard. like don’t think you have to have it 100% figured out before you identify one way or the other because it can be so hard and complicated to figure out and even after you decide you’re sure you can still sometimes question again. and it’s totally fine if you decide you are a lesbian and start identifying that way and then down the line realize you were wrong and start identifying with a different label again.

but anyway, as for trying to figure out if you do actually like guys or if it’s compulsory heterosexuality or whatever. this is definitely something i’ve struggled with before because i used to think i was bi actually. and something you can try is imagining yourself dating or marrying or whatever a girl, and then imagine the same thing but with a guy and see how you feel about it. like for me when i imagine myself with a girl i get butterflies and get really happy, and when i imagine myself with a guy it’s not like that.

or like compare how you’ve felt about crushes toward girls with how you feel about crushes toward guys. like these can feel different and you can still be bi! but like for me, it’s not so much that they’re different as it is i realized my attraction to guys wasn’t real. like it was just me trying really hard to make it real. like when i have a crush on a girl all my feelings come so easy. but when i was younger and would get a crush on a guy it’d be because i’d be like “oh, that guys nice to me and i guess he’s not terrible to look at so i have a crush on him now. now that i have a crush on him, i should feel this way about it and do this, and act like this” so it was like i would have to tell myself how to feel instead of just feeling that way

another thing is if you notice you get crushes on real life girls but you only get crushes on celeb guys or fictional guys that could also be a sign that you actually only like girls. because like, you’re only getting crushes on guys who are completely unattainable and that could be because you’d never actually have to act on them, you know?

or also for me (and a lot of other lesbians) when i was young and thought i liked boys and would get a “crush” on one i’d be super into him, until he started to like me, and then i’d be like “NEVER MIND GOTTA GO” so if you’ve ever noticed that about yourself too that could also be a sign.

also, like, you can think guys look good without actually being attracted to them. like just because you think a certain guy is nice to look at doesn’t mean you actually like guys and i think this is something that a lot of people like really struggle with. but like straight girls still have the ability to see when other girls are pretty and gay guys can tell when girls are pretty and (even though they usually won’t admit it) straight guys can tell when other guys look good, you know? so like lesbians can also tell when an attractive guy is attractive. so like if you’re thinking “okay im pretty sure i’m a lesbian, but like that guy is good looking so maybe i’m not!” that doesn’t necessarily mean you aren’t because like, yeah okay maybe he’s nice to look at but would you actually want to date him or have sex with him or anything?

but yeah, anyway, it can be hard and confusing to figure out so just take your time and if you think lesbian is right for you, try using it! see if it feels right. i get more sure about it the longer i identify this way.

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107.

5000 Question Survey Pt. 27

2501. What image, scent, memory, etc. would you take with you into the dark/light, the land of dead, heaven, infinity…..?

everything?

2502. Who is the most annoying musical artist EVER?

most rapper, in my opinion. or scream-o artists

2503. If you HAD to go to one of the following concerts, which would it be:

Snow

Vanilla Ice

NKOTB

Milli Vanilli

BSB <—– this one

NSYNC

2504. Do you believe in manifest destiny?

yeah

2505. Have you ever fallen for an email forwarding hoax (send this to 13 people and old navy will send you a $200.00(100 pound) gift card)? Do you ever think ‘well, maybe…’ and actually forward those damn things?

never. i

2506. Let’s say there are 2 schools. one for boys and one for girls. They are both supposed to offer the same facilities so that the girls and boys get equal education. Would you take this to mean that the same courses should be offered to both girls and boys or that the same amount of money should be spent on each school?

the same courses are being offered but i feel like in turn that means that the same amount of money should be spent on both schools

Imagine that in the boys school fifteen boys sign up for calculus. In the girls school only five girls sign up for calculus. Should the girls calculus class be dissolved and replaced with an easier one?

no. they should just do the class with 5 girls in it. a class does not need a whole bunch of people in order for it to run properly

2507. Would it bother you if you found out that the fruits, vegetables, and meat that you eat is genetically altered (in lots of cases it is!)?

i mean, it already is so i don’t really have much of a choice lol

2508. What does this world need?

peace

2509. Is there anything you do just because you want to even though it has no redeeming social value?

yup.

2510. If you drink what kind of drunk are you?

an affectionate and talkative one

2511, Do you ever 'conveniently’ forget something you don’t want to remember?

nope.

2512. If you have any cousins are you close?

i’m not close with any of them honestly

2513. Are you in love with yourself (your beautiful self)?

for the most part, yeah

2514. What was the first movie you got on dvd?

oh damn, i don’t even know

2515. If you’re sexy and you know it clap your hands. Did you clap?

yeah lol

2516. have you ever called a:

psychic hotline?

suicide crisis line?

sex line?

dating line? none.

2517. Have you ever placed a personal ad anywhere?

nope.

2518. Do guys look good in make up?

hell yeah they do. everyone does

2519. What are 5 things you don’t care about?

wrestling, politics, history, my next door neighbor, and th weather

2520. wHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO UNTIL YOU DIE?

live

2521. What 'issue’ do you think your opinion is so right about that you end up trying to sway others to your point of view?

i mean i don’t want to sway people to believe my opinion is the right one because no ones opinion is right that’s why it’s considered an opinion. however, i am very adamant about declawing cats. i would never declaw my cats because i have seen one up close and actually experienced and done intensive research and know the bad things that can come along with it.

2522. What age do you hope to live until?

at least 100

2523. Do you like to tie others down during sex?

no, i like to be tied down. but if my boyfriend asked to tie him down... i wouldn’t refuse

Have you ever been tied down?

yes

2524. Do you own any “toys”?

no.

Do you ever use them?

2525. Have you ever been spanked in that sexy way?

yes, i actually just asked to be whipped with a belt the other day

Have you ever spanked anyone else?

not sexually, just for fun

2526. Do these questions make you uncomfortable?

no.

Do you like that feeling?

huh?

Does it turn you on?

no.

2527. You know those ___ for dummies books (COMPTERS FOR DUMMIES, SURFING FOR DUMMIES, GOLDF FOR DUMMIES, WICCA FOR DUMMIES)?

yes.

Which one do you need to read?

computers, history, lots of other things

2528. What do your socks look like?

puma socks just plain

2529. Which of these really famous music artists started their career as a mime:

Alice Cooper

David Bowie

Bruce Springsteen

Moby

Jewel

Frank Zappa i have no idea

2530. Does love float away if you let go?

nah

2531. Do you think that most people in today’s society are:

kind? no

calm? no

humble? no

peaceful? no

helpful? no

happy? no

spiritual? somewhat

creative? no

friendly? no

independent? somewhat

intelligent? no

having fun? yes

coming up with new ideas? yes

able to think for themselves? not really

able to really connect with others? sometimes

If you answered no to any of the above, why do you think that is?

people are just horrible nowadays. honestly, most people only care for themselves and aren’t worried about anyone or anything else.

2532. Do you believe that every action has a sexual motive (think Freud)?

not at all

2533. Speaking of Freud, did you know he was on drugs (think cocaine)?

i think i heard something about him being drugs but i can’t say whether that’s true or not

2534. Do you trust psychology as a valid science?

for the most part, yeah

2535. ID: In Freudian theory, the division of the psyche that is totally unconscious and serves as the source of instinctual impulses and demands for immediate satisfaction of primitive needs(sex, food, aggressive behavior, drugs, alcohol, yelling, anger, fighting).

SUPEREGO: In Freudian theory, the division of the unconscious that is formed through the internalization of moral standards of parents and society, and that censors and restrains the ego.

So, which one do you express more, your ID or your SUPEREGO?

probably more ID

2536. Do you think that people who are alone and depressed are depressed because they are alone or alone because they are depressed?

it can go both ways, i think

2537. Can you complete any of the following lyrics:

I stop and I stare too much, afraid that I care too much…

You’re a new and better man, he helps you to understand, He does everything he can, he’s….

Took the needles from my arms and put them to the sky…

Top Gun shut down your Firm like Tom Cruise….

Don’t you take it so hard now, And please don’t take it so bad….

i don’t know any of these

2538. How about these?

From around the way, born in '73, Harcore B-boy named…

And this feeling shivers down your spine, Love comes in colors I can’t deny….

Before he hung up the phone he took a deep breath, stopped, and replied….

When I want you in my arms, when I want you and all your charms, whenever I want you all I have to do is…

Silly games that you were playing, empty words we both were saying…

nope

2539. Have you ever been to see a ballet?

yes

2540. What is the difference between Satan and Pan?

who is pan? peter pan?

2541. What should a poem be or do if it is a successful poem?

give a sense of imagery and make you think and feel something

2542. When you interpret a poem can each line mean anything you want it to?

absolutely

2543. Are you an orgasm addict?

well i like having them but i’m not addicted to them lol

2544. Are you a sugar junkie?

i don’t really like sugary things actually

2545. WHAT are you DOING?

this.

WHY aren’t you marching in line with the rest of them?

????

2546. Do you only hear what you want to?

nah

2547. Are you anal-retentive?

huh?

2548. In and Out

Over and Under

Around and ???

what?

2549. What was the last thing you returned to the store?

i’m going to return a septum rings today or tomorrow

2550. Why ask why?

why not?

2551. What is your favorite song or artist that is:

jazz:

metal: alice in chains

rock: ac/dc

new wave:

psychedelic: bob marley

2552. What are your feelings about:

Picasso? does some really creative, cool artwork

Van Gogh? incredible. i love the way he paints, he has a very different style than most artists i’ve seen

Michaelangelo? very good details

Da Vinci? also very good artist

Einstein? very freaking smart guy

Tesla? very fast and very expensive cars

2553. Who else can you think of that made a MAJOR contribution to art or science?

there’s so many people

2554. Who can you think of that made a major contribution to modern thought?

idk

2555. Why is it called 'coca cola’?

no clue.

2556. Would you ever buy a Ford car?

probably not

2557. Donald or Daffy duck?

donald.

2558. What is the most memorable thing about Pee-Wee Herman?

i don’t know

2559. Lease or buy a car?

buy.

2560. Have you met Real Talkin’ Bubba?

no.

Do you love him to death?

2561. Have you ever been in a situation where you weren’t sure if you were seducing or being seduced?

nope.

2562. Can you 'pinch an inch’ on your belly?

yeahhh

2563. Have you ever been to:

a temple? there’s actually one by my house

a bar? plenty

a massage parlor? yes.

2564. Would you ever want to visit Thailand?

i wouldn’t mind it.

2565. What culture are you fascinated by?

all of them

2566. Have you ever worn a cape?

not that i can remember

2567. What is the difference between 'nude’ and 'naked’?

nude sounds classier

2568. What can you get for a dollar (.59 british pounds)?

a pack of gum maybe

2569. What makes you who you are?

my genes

2570. How do you search for meaning in life?

try really hard

2571. If your partner collected internet porn pics of celebs s/he thought was hot would that bother you?

i mean, it’d be weird if he collected it, but i wouldn’t mind if he just looked

2572. You are alone with your lover’s diary. What do you do?

jack wouldn’t every keep a diary lol

2573. You read some and find out that a whhhiiillle back your lover had a crush on someone else, but you two were together. You both still hang out with this person. What do you do?

fuck him up. lol jk, i’d talk to him about it

2574. Are you an old fart?

i feel like it sometimes

2575. What were your favorite things to do in the yard as a kid?

play in the grass, have friends over, play with the dog

2576. Why don’t people have more fun?

they’re probably too stuck up their own ass

2577. Have you ever wanted to have a pet skinned and turned into an article of clothing?

wtf? no

What pet?

What article of clothing?

2578. Do I come off sounding normal, mildly irrational, blatantly insane or completely certifiable?

insane

2579. Did you ever feel that you were unable to function in society?

i used to

2580. Is it nap time yet?

very soon.

2581. Do you have to have the space next to the door or can you walk from the other end of the parking lot and still be okay with the world?

i need to be as close as possible

2582. Do you like trains?

i don’t mind them

2583. What’s in Hungary?

hungry people haha

2584. Have you ever felt like you were holding someone else back?

oh yeah

Has someone ever held you back?

yup

2585. What do you think of the term, 'organized religion’?

i don’t really care

2586. What do you think of the name 'Orson’?

sounds different

2587. What frustrates you?

people.

2588. Winkin, Blinkin and Nod, one night, sailed off in a sea of dew..

cool.

2589. Is ten dollars (5 pounds) a good price to pay for one lipstick?

sure, i have no idea honestly

Does anyone else remember when lipstick was, like, 2 or 3 bucks?

some still is $2

2590. Are you ill?

no.

2591. Where were you the night of…..oh hell, last night?

at my house

2592. Do you pronounce the 'er’ sound at the end of words(lookER or lookA)?

2593. Do you drink only 100% juice?

nada

2594. Do you remember the bills you have to pay…or even yesterday?

yes.

2595. What duck?

donald.

2596. Do you collect coins?

no.

How about stamps?

no.

2597. wHAT’S the best way to learn a new language?

taking a class

2598. Is god in you?

doubt it

2599. Are you in god?

2600. Do you know which fork to use at a formal table setting?

no idea lol. whichever fork i grab first

#bored #survey #quiz #questions

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