#song is agape by nicholas britell

[l0st-exe]

the beauty of celebrations

[goghskypoestry]

"It brings to you like a bird brings a letter, from the palette of colour you chose for your scenery. It is a love letter slowly turning into grief, like oil spreads on water."

- Daphnae, on Agape by Nicholas Britell

[kathaynesart]

REPLICA PLAYLIST

MUSIC UNDER CUT

I have been receiving requests for any songs that inspired Replica, so here, have my personal playlist. Sorry it’s not Spotify/Soundcloud but they don’t have some of these songs available so uh… guess you’re stuck with YouTube vids. For fun I'll include my personal titles for them (which might give a few hints of what to expect in the future/end).

Replica Main Theme - “Die for You” by Grabbitz Like Father Like Son Like Brother (Omega and Shelldon) - "As Above So Below" by Alistair Lindsay Mikey's Theme / The 1st Vision - "Suzume no Tojimari" by Nanoka Hara Military (Mad) Dogs / Central Park Colony - "Imperium" by Madeon Shanghai - "Icarus" by Madeon Boom Goes the Donnie-mite (Mikey/Donnie vs the Sweeper) - "The Red Zone" by Mitsuoto Suzuki The Day the Sky Bled Red - "7 Seconds Till the End" by Nobuo Uematsu Going Out Like a Boss (Raph and Leo) - "Agape" by Nicholas Britell Remembering the Right Way (Mikey and Leo) - "The Souls of Many" - by Alistair Lindsay Mystic Hands / The 2nd Vision - "Am I Dreaming" by Metro Boomin x A$AP Book 2 Trailer - "Sea Dragon" by Covet 7 Years Later - "Iron" by Woodkid Leo's Theme / Attack on the Labor Camp - "Ego Death" by Polyphia Omega's Theme - "Touch" by Daft Punk Flat Lines (Omega Alone) - "Die Toteninsel Emptiness" by 1000 Eyes Spear - "Monsters" by Tommee Profitt Final Protocol - "The Kraken" by Katie Dey Rise / Epilogue - "Close in the Distance" by Masayoshi Soken & Tom Mills

I will admit, it's a little embarrassing since you can easily see the patterns of what I've been listening to for the past year or two. I swear I listen to more than just videogame OSTs, these songs just jive well with the story and I often find lyrics distracting when brainstorming scenes. Regardless, the music I listen to is such an important part of my creative process and some of these songs really defined the scenes I now have locked in my head. So I figured it was only fair to give them the credit they're due.

I will continue to add to this playlist, and will note in comic updates when one of these songs is applicable!

[remedyturtles]

firefight arc 1 playlist

this is just me wanting to share the music i was listening to on repeat while writing hahahah

as always you will have to look the songs up yourself and make your own playlist as i don't have spotify lol ... interpret all songs as platonic of course LMAO so hard to find platonic only songs hahahah

firefight by jimmy eat world

OBVIOUSLY.

sooner or later by breaking benjamin

i have listened to this one the MOST probably. i love it because of the change from 'throw your life away' to 'throw my life away' to 'throw our life away'

the end of love by florence and the machine

when two are one by atreyu

take you down by illenium

time of dying by three days grace

hey, i'm just like you by tegan and sara

heavier things remain by anberlin

some other songs in my playlist that reminded me more generally of firefight:

agape by nicholas britell wish you were here by florence and the machine the other side of paradise by glass animals out of the woods by taylor swift glory by bastille and the songs that were in my playlist not really because they reminded me of firefight but because i was listening to them a bunch:

talk by coldplay scapegoat by ghost and pals loved you a little by the maine is it over now by taylor swift love from the other side by fall out boy life itself by glass animals time 2 by half alive THERE ARE LOTS OF SONGS THAT ARE FIREFIGHT SONGS BTW. this is just what i was ACTUALLY listening to while writing it hahaha

thanks for indulging me hahaha i am very inspired by music so i like to talk abt it

[j0kers-light]

Your blog is my my favourite after work stress relief! Can I request joker sending reader to get some DNA from batman so he can find out his true identity and maybe they kiss and joker isn't happy at all?

His Lighthouse: A Little Favor (LedgerJoker x f!reader)

A Little Favor - Oneshot

KEEP IN MIND THIS IS NOT A STORY UPDATE!

Hey hi anon!!! 🖤✨

August 10th! I've sat on this ask for... good Lordt. I don't do well with taking breaks but slowly but surely I’m cleaning out my ask inbox! Progress. Anyhoo! I combined this wonderful request with this one! I hope everyone enjoys this oneshot as I continue to rest up my hand. The next chapter will probably be updated next month.

Edit: I'm so happy to know my blog is your after work stress relief! That's why I work so hard to make great content for people to enjoy! Sending love your way! Read this tomorrow after work beloved!

Edit number two: I forgot to add the song choice lol

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At the end of the day, you had to understand that this was Joker's idea.

He fabricated this crazy idea and dragged you into it. Naturally, it quickly spiraled out of control and yet, it was still his idea.

Joker had no right to be mad at you. You did what was asked of you, although his reaction to it all still hurt. Should you have known getting DNA from Batman would be the catalyst for you and Joker's first fight, you would have said no when he asked you.

At the time it was a far fetched request, it still was, but you saw how much it meant to Joker.

He was stressed out for days trying to orchestrate some outrageous plan with no results so far. He wanted something new and original to annoy Batman with and no run of the mill tactic would do.

Nothing was worse than watching Joker try and scheme and not come up with any ideas. Joker quickly became irritable and moody even towards you.

You tried offering hugs or encouraging kisses but he shrugged you off and continued working on his schemes and useless intel as if they held the answer. You were hurt about being pushed away but decided to work on your work far away from Joker and his bummy attitude.

You were honestly getting fed up with the cold shoulder treatment until Joker literally popped up out of nowhere with an eerie grin on his face. "Bunnnnnnyyyyyy, can ya do me a lit-le favor?"

His cajoling voice should have warned you. It was manipulative and sickly sweet, but it was the only source of attention Joker gave you in days– so you paid it no mind and sucked up his attention like a sponge.

Joker knew you had separation anxiety. He iced you out on purpose knowing you'd do anything for his attention. And Joker wanted you desperate enough to do anything.

What he was about to ask you was no easy task.

"Y-You want me to w-what?" Surely, you heard him incorrectly but Joker just grinned and kissed both of your cheeks, your eyelids, and finally your nose.

He was being too affectionate but it didn't dawn on you at the time.

"Aht aht, you heard me correctly, doll. I want yooooouuu, to, uhh, get D-N-A from my dear friend Batsy." He said it like it was the easiest thing in the world. You weren't sure if he was serious or not.

"B-But how?! I mean, I know the guy– we're on speaking terms," you missed Joker's jaw clenching. "But that won't help me get.. Joker, do you know what you're asking me to do?!"

He did. Joker thought you were the perfect candidate for this job.

You were an innocent civilian and the caped crusader would never suspect someone like you to be up to any nefarious deeds. You could outsmart a fox with your wit and rob someone blind with that smile of yours.

You were perfect for the job. It didn't matter if you succeeded or not, in fact; Joker expected you would fail but he still wanted you to try. There was more to this insane scheme than just getting a sample of DNA, but you didn't need to worry yourself over the details.

"Y/n.. Bunny. Sweetheart! Look at me." He waited until you did and rubbed your pouting lower lip with his thumb, "M'not askin for much. A napkin with some sweat on it, a swab of uhhh, saliva, ideally a piece of hair! It's. Not. That. Hard. Y/n. Do anything it takes. Butttt, don't fail."

During his speech Joker's tone became dark and you knew he was getting serious. It wasn't a request, this was an order.

You still were unsure but you didn't want J upset with you! He trusted you with this task and even though you were underqualified, you'd try your best!

One look into his dark jade eyes made you cave in.

"O-Okay..." You mumbled.

Joker gasped and hugged you close. He then showered your face with kisses and soft, "That's my girl! Thank you, Bunny!" into your ear.

Each little praise made you feel sick to your stomach. Just what did you agree to?

The next day you were a ball of nerves. Joker left a little after lunchtime, leaving you alone with your doubts.

What if you failed? What if you got caught? Should you seriously go through with this?

You were already an accessory by helping Joker with whatever plan he cooked up this week. Although the role was small, you could face some serious jail time– as if harboring a fugitive wasn't already a serious offense. That thought sent you down another spiral. What if Batman figured that out and arrested you? This was a big risk you were taking.

"Okay, Y/n calm down. You're overthinking things. Just stick to your plan, you got this." You psyched yourself up and headed out the door.

Gotham City was full of crime and even busier people.

You usually kept your head down and stayed out of trouble, but tonight, you wanted trouble to find you. The quicker something happened, the quicker the possibility of Batman swooping in to save the day could happen.

Now, you understood that Gotham was a huge place. The population was well over ten million and stretched out between three connecting islands. The probability of Batman coming to save you was negative zero. He had far more important things to do than save a random citizen from petty crime.

However; there was a zero chance of you running into Joker all those months ago when he first escaped, yet here you are. Dating a wanted criminal.

Anything could happen so you applied the same principle to Batman saving you. You sighed to yourself and waited for the walk sign to turn green.

The plan was to get mugged– an easy objective in this wretched city– or be a witness to something bigger. Nothing too violent or dangerous but high profile enough to warrant the bat's attention. It was only eight pm so you had all night to run into the Dark Knight and begin your actual mission.

But first, you needed a bite to eat. Your nerves were shot so you headed over to a nearby corner store that sold hot food. You'd kill for a birria taco right about now.

Joker promised that you would have extra security tonight and that nothing would happen to you on their watch. All you had to do was lure Batman out, get a sample, and book it back to your apartment.

If only things in life went as planned. While you were walking across the street, two men dressed in black nodded to themselves and followed. Around the corner, your security detail got distracted by a rival gang and started a fight, leaving you alone and without backup.

The store's bell chimed when you walked in. The smell of beef and spicy peppers hit you instantly and made your stomach cry out in glee. Rows and rows of convenient food and drinks were inside the store but you ignored it all to head over towards the hot food section. Javi spotted you coming and greeted you warmly.

Javi and his wife treated you like family since you were a regular at their store. You were always polite, a great tipper, and you respect your elders.

Iliana wanted you to join the family for real and matched you with her nephew but you weren't interested and neither was since he stood you up on the first date. You smiled fondly and cast the memory aside. You were happy with Joker even if things recently were a little rocky at present.

You came to a stop near Javi's counter with a heavy sigh. Javi already knew your order and began to prepare it.

"Dang, at least let me pretend to order!" You laughed.

He waved you off. "I know what my hija wants. Birria taco, jalapenos on the side, extra cheese, with four limas, no?"

He laughed at you feying offense. "You ain't gotta call me out like that.. but yes."

Two men bursting into the store carrying guns interrupted the playful banter. Your pension for trouble was impeccable. The night had just begun and already you found yourself in a pickle.

A gun was pointed at Javi's head as a robber demanded the money from both cashiers. Javi started speaking Spanish to stall but paid the price with a punch to the face. Thankfully he was able to hit the panic button as he fell.

"Javi!" You cried out his name as the other thug walked up behind you. He eyed you up and down with a lecherous grin.

A few patrons tried to make a run for it and were riddled with bullets. A hand covered your mouth and yanked you back into a chest before you could scream.

"It would be a shame if I blew your head off. D__n, you fine." You felt the gun dig into your temple followed by a wet kiss trailing down your neck.

The two men quickly took control of the store and then it was just you and Javi in a sticky situation.

Where was your security detail at a time like this?! You blinked back tears as minutes dragged on in a state of dread.

You were forced to watch as Javi was ordered to empty out his cash registers. Thank goodness Iliana wasn't working tonight, the woman had quite the temper and would've been shot if she opened her smart mouth. You on the other hand was smart enough to keep quiet even as the robber got handsy with you. Javi didn't like that one bit but staying calm was the only logical thing to do in this situation.

He locked eyes with you when you whimpered. "It'll be alright, Y/n. Focus on me." You nodded and tried to ignore the stranger groping your body.

"QUIT STALLIN' OLD MAN!" Javi was hit again and forced to empty the drawers faster.

You flinched away from your captor when he nuzzled your neck. "Y/n, that's a pretty name.. Hey whatcha doing later? Wanna come with me?"

Was this man, the same one holding you gunpoint, asking you out? You had no comment and shuddered in disgust when he sucked on your neck harder and humped your leg as his partner did all the work.

Javi tried to reason with the thugs to let you go, but you knew this wouldn't end well.

For starters, neither of them wore any masks. And two, the robber already had his gun raised to shoot Javi when the lights suddenly went out. The store was plunged into darkness and the two goons were immediately spooked. "What the... who turned off the lights?!"

"Ion know man but I don't like it." The gun pressed to your temple wavered. 

Then you heard it. Soft footsteps to your left.

A whooshing sound was heard and then you were pushed away from your captor. Since you had good night vision (all thanks to Joker and his love for the dark) you watched a shadow darker than the night fight off the two robbers.

Batman actually showed up. You were relieved yet curious. Weren't store robberies beneath him?

The fight hardly lasted a minute when the lights were turned back on. The convenient store was secure and you looked around at the aftermath in awe. Two robbers were lying on the floor in pain, a few dead bodies were near the door, and Javi was lying unconscious behind the food counter.

You were the only one left standing as Batman secured the store. You didn't want to follow through with your mission— I mean the man just saved you, but this was your only chance. The Dark Knight looked everything over once more before locking eyes with you.

His footsteps barely made a sound as he approached.

"Are you alright?" His modified voice sent shivers down your spine. It sounded familiar yet so foreign, but this was a friend. You weren't afraid of Batman.

You were however in shock. Getting a sample of his DNA sounded plausible in theory but now as he stood before you, you were humbled real quick.

"Y/n? Did he hurt you?" Batman asked again and reached out to touch your elbow.

You didn't know you were shaking until you collapsed into his arms with a wet sob.

The only sound in the store was your muffled cries. Joker broke his promise and your security detail failed to do their job. You were held at gunpoint and a random man put his hands on you. You could only imagine what Joker would do once he found out. Just thinking about him made you tense up in Batman's arms.

Somehow you had to get DNA from your savior. Your e/c eyes shot up to Batman's concerned ones. They were a lovely shade of blue unlike you've ever seen.

"I.... I uh. I'm f-fine." You mumbled.

Batman's eyes squinted and accessed you pensively. He wanted to say more and parted his lips to do so, but the sound of approaching sirens snapped him back to reality.

Batman sighed and was turning to leave when you stopped him, "Wait! I haven't thanked you!"

"Quit getting into trouble and you wouldn't need to thank me."

Good point. You pursed your lips with a scoff. "... Well I can't guarantee that."

Batman spun on his feet and you panicked. He was leaving and you had yet to get anything off the man! Your window of opportunity was closing so you had to think fast.

You thought back to Joker's request. 'A napkin with some sweat on it, a swab of uhhh, saliva, ideally a piece of hair!' You glanced at Batman's retreating form.

His cowl covered his hair and the black Kevlar suit guaranteed that no sweat was accessible to you. Which left....

"Do anything it takes. Butttt, don't fail."

You squeezed your eyes shut. "Bats wait!"

He wasn't supposed to be here. The panic button Javi hit sent a distress call to the GCPD and since Batman was in the area, he decided to check it out.

It was a simple robbery in progress until Batman realized you were inside.

You had a knack for getting into trouble and you were also very easy on the eyes. Nightwing teased Batman about it constantly. You were a weakness to the Caped Crusader. Whenever Batman heard a crime in progress with victims fitting your description, he dropped everything to come save you.

Bruce had a crush on you and he hoped you reciprocated those feelings.

It was the only reason why you batted your eyelashes, took the time to talk to him (like a human being) and thanked him in your own special way whenever he rescued you. It was the reason why he stopped in his tracks and gave you his undivided attention tonight.

There were a million and one things he could be doing right now yet he waited for your next move.

You rushed over, grabbed Batman by the face, and pulled him down for a kiss. He was caught off guard but you were on a mission. You and Batman had kissed in the past; a chase peck here or there, well before you had met Joker, but nothing like today.

Today, you gave it your all.

Your tongue swiped the roof of his mouth and danced with his tongue to collect the highest amount of saliva you could.

You made this kiss count and made sure it was wet and sloppy. Batman held you close with a strong hand on your waist and you tossed away your guilt of infidelity in order to get what your lover wanted.

Do anything it takes, but you would not fail Joker. He could never find out about this though. 

The GCPD cruisers finally arrived at the scene and Batman shoved you away. He gave you one last heated gaze before he left the way he came. You watched him go as you dug in your purse for the plastic baggie you had inside.

When you were sure he was gone, you spat inside of it and hid it right as cops stormed into the store.

Javi was coming to and so the interrogation began. Your bag burned hanging by your side. You did the impossible, you actually got DNA from Batman! You just hope it was enough.

The first thing you saw when you returned to the penthouse was Joker pacing in the living room.

The last thing you wanted to do was confront Joker after being interrogated by Jim Gordon and his men all night. Joker pounced on you the second he saw you.

Joker grabbed you by the shoulders and shook you roughly. "WhaT. Happened?!"

He already had an idea on what happened. He got a call from a recon team in the area saying you were taken to GCPD headquarters for questioning after being involved in a robbery.

Despite personally sending you into danger, Joker's heart dropped to his stomach. Were you alright? Did you manage to trick Bats or were you unsuccessful? Judging by your defeated face, it was most likely the latter. The report from his men didn't include details yet you never seemed to surprise him.

"I-I'm okay. Javi and I were held at gunpoint at his corner store tonight. People died so I had to make a statement downtown."

That didn't answer his unspoken question so Joker asked you point blank. "Did you get what I asked for?"

You stared at him in disbelief. Joker was perfectly calm in light of what you just said. "Joker? I said I was held at gunpoint tonight."

J smacked his lips with a shrug. "OK? Did ya get what I uhh asked for?"

You blinked in silence. There was no way this was the Joker you knew and loved.

Possessive and yandere Joker would jump at the opportunity to kill anyone who dared lay a finger on you. Mind the fact you were teary eyed! That alone would have a normal Joker on his knees trying to make you happy again. The man in front of you now was all business so you shoved him away in anger.

Joker looked confused by your actions but you didn't care. You were tired of his attitude.

"You promised me I would be safe tonight but guess what? The exact opposite happened! I almost died!"

"But you didn't." Joker interrupted. Your jaw dropped to the floor and his callous remark. It was the last straw.

You were ready to scream. "Unbelievable. Unbelievable! What is wrong with you?! Is your stupid plan to kill the bat more important than my safety?" You saw Joker open his mouth and you quickly cut him off. "Don't answer that."

His response would only break your heart even more. You shook your head and tried walking past Joker but he yanked you back by your arm.

"I won't ask again, Y/n." He glanced at your satchel. You followed his gaze and grew defensive. So you did the impossible after all. He was impressed. "Hand it over."

"Get your hands off me." You fired back.

You were tired and beyond frustrated with Joker. For an entire week he neglected you and your needs and gave you the cold shoulder for absolutely no reason. Yet when you finally do something for his sorry behind, he's the one that gets an attitude? Tough cookie.

You weren't going for it and he would not get to benefit off of your pain. You almost died to get this D.N.A. Screw Joker and his plans, you weren't giving him anything.

Joker just rolled his eyes at you and ripped your bag off your shoulder. You had no time to stop him, it happened so fast. Perhaps you were more tired than you thought.

He stormed straight to the dining room table and dumped the contents of your bag out on top of it. "Excuse me, what are you doing?!" You yelled at him.

You shuffled behind him as pens, crumpled receipts, your lip balm, wallet, etc. fell out of your bag along with a plastic bag that caught Joker's eye. He turned his nose up at the contents since it was a liquid and clung to the plastic.

He held it up to inspect it more closely. "Do I wanna know what this is?" You took one glance at the clear liquid and then proceeded to look away.

Nothing got past Joker. He was too smart and probably identified the contents already as you remained silent. He was only asking to belittle you and that made you even more mad at him. Joker was insulting you left and right tonight.

He shouted your name to get your attention. There was no reason to lie to the man and you wouldn't be nice about it with the way he was acting.

"What does it look like?" You snipped.

Joker wondered how in the world you got spit from his enemy but focused on the other things like your tone.

"Watch it, Y/n." Joker noticed your closed off demeanor and grew suspicious. "How did you geT it?"

Why did it feel like you were in the principal's office? Joker had what he wanted, there was no need for another interrogation tonight. You already went through three at the police precinct.

Joker could pretend that he didn't care all he wanted but the man put the J in jealousy. You were not going to explain how you got that sample. His foul mood stunk up the room and telling him would only make things worse.

You cleared your throat while scratching the back of your neck. "I'm tired after being held at gunpoint to witnessing a murder, to being questioned over and over by the police. It can really drain a girl... so I'm gonna turn in for the night."

You eyed the time with a grimace. It was almost midnight.

Joker knew what you were doing. He hated when you ran from things. The fact you were, was confirmation that you were hiding something.

"You know I hate, uh, re-peat-ting myself but I'll do it one moooore time. How. Did. You. Get. It?" Each word chilled you to the bone and Joker's aggressive aura had you cowering in your boots.

You had never seen this version of Joker before. He was treating you like you were one of his henchmen. And then it hit you. You were. Joker sent you on an errand and he wanted answers, however; you weren't under his employ and you owned him nothing, especially with how he was treating you.

"It doesn't matter how I got it, Joker. You wanted it, so I got it. Honestly, a thank you would suffice. Now move. I'm tired."

You shoved Joker to the side but in doing so, you presented your neck to his gaze. He zeroed in on the fresh hickey blooming on your shoulder. He was too busy this past week to even talk, let alone touch you. It wasn't his work. And then he knew why you were so fidgety and dodging his questions.

His left eye twitched and he saw red.

You were nearing the hallway when Joker caught up with you. You yelped at his sudden appearance but you weren't expecting him to slam you into the wall and yell in your face.

"Are ya too tired after uh, fooling around with Batsy? Really Y/n? Are ya that desperate for attention you'll let anyone touch you?"

You were insulted until you remembered that one of the robbers left a hickey on you before Batman knocked him out.

You tried to tell Joker this earlier but he wouldn't listen. "J.. that's not.."

His fist collided with the hall next to your head, making you jump. It was too close for comfort.

"Shut! Up! All.. I needed you to do was spook the dumb bat! Make him think I wanted to know his true identity! NOT drop your pants for him! Did ya enjoy having sex with your ex?" Your eyes widened in fear.

That was a secret you vowed to take to the grave. How did...

Joker laughed right in your face.

"I know Bat's is an old fling of yours, Y/n. Don't act all sur-prised. Why do ya think I want him dead soooooo badly, hmm? Gotta take out the competition. He asked for it, touchin what's mine. But don't worry, I got juuuuust the thing to handle our dear Bats. But I know you, Y/n. You.. you like to follow instructions. I asked for DNA and I know you got iT. Let's spread your legs and find out just how much of an obedient whore you reall–"

You ended Joker's rant with a loud slap to his face. Joker blinked in shock. He never thought you'd hit him but sure enough, it kinda stung.

You were just as speechless (and a little scared of the consequences) but you wouldn't stand around and be insulted.

Joker slowly turned his head to face you once you gained the confidence to speak your mind. 

"How dare you? I risked my life for you but the only thing you care about is how I got the sample? You wanna know? Fine I'll tell you, I kissed him! I kissed Batman because you asked me to! I was held at gunpoint, groped, and kissed on by a stranger because your men failed to protect me! A guy touched what you think is yours but you only care about me kissing Batman! You don't even care about me and my well-being! I-I watched people die tonight. I feel awful for cheating on you but is it wrong when YOU asked me to?"

He stepped back when you started to cry.

"You can't use me and then get upset when I do anything it takes to appease you! I am not her!"

"You know that I'll do anything to make you happy! This stupid plan of yours was driving you insane all week so I agreed to help but you manipulated me! Am I guilty for what I did? Yes! I am but I shouldn't have to apologize. I was simply following your orders. I did anything it took to not fail."

All was quiet in the hallway as your words sank in. Joker finally saw how much this affected you and he was at a loss on how to rectify this situation. He could start by drying your tears.

"Y/n, please." Joker raised his hands but you slapped them away.

"No. Don't touch me, I'm done. I'm done." You smiled and Joker knew you meant it. You were the only person he knew that could cry and smile at the same time and still look beautiful.

His worst nightmare was finally coming true. You were waking up from your fantasy and were kicking him out of your life. Joker never wanted this day to come but it was happening.

Joker loved everything about you but your eyes were his favorite. They were so expressive, a literal window into your soul. He knew exactly what you were thinking and/or feeling with just one look and today, your e/c eyes told him everything.

You were done.

You stared straight into his green eyes and your gaze didn't waver. Your conscience was clear and with a voice of an angel, you doled out Joker's penance. "Get out of my apartment and don't come back."

Joker slid to the floor just outside your front door in shock.

Perhaps this was one of those out of body experiences people talked about for he felt absolutely numb. He couldn't hear anything and he looked down at his hands only to find them shaking. Joker couldn't believe it. You were done. You wanted him gone and you had every right after what he did.

He failed to protect you, subjected you to a near death experience, and forced you to betray your morals and your loyalty to him— just to follow his orders.

He treated you as if you were one of his hired goons.

He treated you like he did her.

He knew he failed when you pointed out that fact. Joker promised that you'd never be involved with his organization but he broke that promise and sent you out.  How dare he not treat you like the goddess you were? He failed to cherish you and now you were done with him.

His hand came up to touch his sore cheek. You had every right to slap him. You were everything to him and he neglected you to focus more on his work. He betrayed you in the worst way.

You opened his eyes to the path he was leading you down and he felt sick to his stomach.

This past week was stressful but he went too far. He twisted your love and trust and crumbled it up like tissue paper to accomplish his goals. Nothing could rectify this but he had to try. He couldn't lose you. He just couldn't.

Joker was still seated outside your front door like a lost puppy. He considered scratching on the door if that would prove just how sorry he was. He was a fool for manipulating you and dragging you into his world, but he would spend the rest of his days doing everything in his power to earn you back.

Of course, he had no clue how to win you back but if one thing Joker was good at, it was being resourceful. His eye caught the small display case of flowers you kept in the hall off the elevator and a light bulb went off in his head.

He couldn't lose the best thing that ever happened to him. He needed to make a phone call. Joker could only hope that Morgana looked past their differences and helped him.

In the meantime, J kept an eye on you with the security camera app on his phone. You disappeared into your master bedroom and had yet to come out by the time Morgana and Mac arrived many hours later.

They looked at the infamous clown sitting on the floor and shared a look. This was worse than they thought. Morgana was weighed down with items but nudged the blond with her elbow. 

Mac sighed but cleared his throat to get Joker's attention. "Boss? Boss. We got everything you asked for." Mac said on deaf ears. 

Joker was spacing out, staring at your black front door– lost in thought. What if this didn't work? Was this truly the end? He couldn't lose his reason for existing. You had to take him back.

Morgana was getting impatient and adjusted her handful before speaking up. "He's been sitting there all day.." She whispered to Mac and he slowly nodded. He had never seen his employer look so defeated before.

The green haired clown looked like it was the end of the world and he already accepted his fate. But Mac wouldn't be here if Joker didn't have a plan in place to win you back.

Although if this didn't work, then Mac was genuinely concerned for Joker.

J had camped outside your apartment for the entire day, refusing food and water– not wanting to miss if the door opened and you welcomed him back with open arms.

Even Frost came by, not believing it when Mac reported that Joker had 'broken down' outside your place. You and J never fought before so everyone was at a loss on what to do.

"Is she still inside?" Morgana asked out the blue.

Joker came out of his fog, nodding listlessly. He looked up and saw the items he asked them to bring and jumped to his feet to help. Morgana yelped at the sudden motion and almost dropped her stuff. J rolled his eyes but took control back over the situation.

He fished out his phone to check on you. No motion detected for hours. "Hmm. She's been inside her room since this morn-ing. It's now or never."

Joker unlocked the front door and gestured for Morgana and Mac to follow him inside. Morgana glanced around and set down her supplies. When she heard Joker's idea over the phone, it didn't sound plausible, but now looking at the space, he was a mad genius.

He looked at her with an arched eyebrow. "I can work with this." Morgana assured him.

"Great, then I'll grab the rest." Mac sighed. He left the apartment to start hauling supplies up.

For the next few hours, the three of them worked on turning Joker's apology into a reality.

You woke up to the apartment's stereo system crackling to life. What was Joker up to now?

You patted your bed for your phone to check the time. Your eyes blinked in disbelief reading the time. It was close to nine pm. You slept the entire day. Granted, after you kicked Joker out, you showered, and cried yourself to sleep but you didn't think he would bother you anytime soon. You told him to get out and not come back.

But this was Joker here. Since when did he listen to anyone? You groaned to yourself and got out of bed to tell him off again.

This wasn't a small offense that he could sweep under the rug. Joker couldn't treat you like one of his goons and think it was okay. He hurt you with his careless behavior and you deserved an apology.

You knew Joker would never own up to his mistakes and apologize so you had to be an adult and assume responsibility instead. You needed some time away from Joker to think about your next course of action. Sending him away was a spur of the moment decision, one that you regretted making all day. You were never one for separation. Not having Joker nearby ate away at your heart even if you were upset with him.

Good thing Joker always thought two steps ahead of you.

The apartment was completely dark save for a path of lit candles in glass vases, situated in front of your door. You almost tripped on them walking out the door. You rubbed your eyes thinking you were dreaming but it was real.

A trail of light began at your bedroom door and led down the hall into the unknown.

You heard an instrumental playing in the background and immediately teared up. You could smell what lay ahead but it still felt like a dream. The distinct smell of roses in the air told you this was really happening.

Your hardwood floors were covered in roses and candles, creating a sea of red towards your living room.

Rose petals clung to your bare feet but you kept going. You had to see this through. The path kept going until you saw the huge arch made entirely of flowers– no doubt Morgana's doing. It was well over six feet tall and immaculate in design.

Red and pink balloons hung from the vaulted ceiling and their silk string tickled your shoulders as you walked through the dense field.

It was straight out of a romance film, everything was over the top. You had never seen so many flowers in the same room before. There had to be over a thousand individual rose petals lining the floor and over a hundred more stems in luxury vases scattered throughout the room.

You didn't know where to look, it was too much to take in. You were surrounded by roses.

You came to the end of the path and sobbed reading the giant pink balloons that spelled out, 'I'm Sorry.'

They said what Joker could never express.

Your living room was unrecognizable in a sea of roses and the soft glow of candles. Each detail sent your heart aflutter, but there was no Joker to be found. The song continued to play on a loop as the violins and trumpets set the mood perfectly but it meant nothing if Joker couldn't apologize to you directly.

You didn't know how he managed all of this while you slept. This had to take well over four hours if not more to assemble. So you waited for Joker to show and explain himself. As seconds turned into minutes, your anticipation turned into disappointment. You really thought Joker would be brave enough to come out but once again, he failed you.

You sighed and turned to head back to your bedroom when you finally spotted Joker.

He stood by the balcony door with his hands in his pockets. He had washed his makeup off and stood before you bare and honest.

The candlelight bounced off his freckles and highlighted handsome face, scars and all. His lips were bitten raw and you swore his eyes were puffy but Joker wasn't a crier. There was no reason for him to do so yet to your amazement, he blinked back his tears before speaking.

"B-Bunny.. I uh.." Joker raked a hand through his sunkissed locs and sniffed his nose. It was endearing to see a man like Joker at a loss for words. And haunting to see him so emotional.

But despite all of that, he used your favorite nickname. Earlier he only used your real name; a clear indication that he was mad at you. Now Joker was back to calling you bunny and that small detail made you crack a smile.

"Hope you don't mind.. I uh dec-or-ated a bit. You see– I uh, trieD staying away. I really did. but I can't. I can't just go away. I need my Light.. and I know ya need me too so.. P-Please, don't make me go."

You stayed still as Joker came over to cup your face. His palms were shaking but warm against your dry, puffy face and Joker noticed.

He took in every detail and commemorated it to memory since he saw you last. The tip of your nose red and raw from crying, your quivering lower lip, to the way your eyes watered staring up into his.

"My pretty girl.. You're right. You're not her and I shouldn't treat ya like that. I won't treat you like that ever again but ya gotta give me another chance. I can be anything you need me to be but I... Please let me come back. I need ya, doll. I need my Light."

You gasped in shock when Joker fell to his knees at your feet. "J-Joker!"

He left a lingering kiss on your stomach poking through your top and looked up at you.

Joker gazed at you as if you hung the stars and the moon in the night sky. His eyes rivaled them with how they gleamed in the candlelight, begging for a chance at redemption. Another song played on in the background but the two of you paid it no mind. You were keen on Joker's lips parting to speak.

"I don't deserve ya but I'll spend every day proving that I do." You carded your fingers through his hair and watched Joker close his eyes. "Please, Bunny." He sighed.

He kissed your palms and trailed his kisses up your wrist until you had enough. With a high pitched whine, you yanked Joker up by his hair and captured his lips in a desperate fever.

Joker didn't complain about the pain but heeded your unspoken command. He stood to his full high and kissed all of your pain away. You tried to talk in between gasps for air but Joker silenced your attempts with his fervent passion.

"You hurt me." You moaned.

Joker nodded and pushed you backwards until the back of your legs hit the couch.

"I know. I'm sorry, Bunny." He pushed you down and took in your beauty amongst the candlelight and sea of red.

Joker dropped to his knees again and helped you spread your legs. "Lemme make it up to ya."

[number-one-van]

AUTISM ACTIVATING

Natalie Holt DEFINITELY used the song Agape by Nicholas Britell as inspiration for Purpose is Glorious. give them both a listen and tell me otherwise.

Several times they have deleted scenes that make Loki look less like a villain and more like a miserable kid who never meant for things to go the way they did. he was never trying to get the throne, it was thrown upon him. (obviously not an excuse for literal attempted gen0cide, but you know what i mean.)

In s2 ep1, when Loki stands in front of the mural of He Who Remains in the war room, he stands DIRECTLY in front it. like it was teasing the finale all while foreboding music played.

Loki never drinks on missions in season 2, despite Mobius’ insistence. remember when he got drunk on the train on Lementis and got him and Sylvie thrown out? then Sylvie scolded him for drinking “at the expense of the mission”? he really took that on board, huh?

Tom H said himself that he did not feel he was the right person to represent Loki’s queerness as a straight, cis man. of course it’s frustrating to not get great representation (not denying your rights to be angry, ofc), but i find it quite honourable that he acknowledged that. and i was honestly just so happy to see it confirmed. (before i get hate for that, i’m bi and genderfluid myself, and this is also just how i personally feel.)

we die with the dying;

see, they depart, and we go with them.

we are born with the dead;

see, they return, and bring us with them.

also i can’t remember basic maths but i can talk about Loki all day ☝🏻🤓

[bl00dst41ned]

'*•.¸♡ love songs (kóstas edition) ♡¸.•*'

pairing: kóstas tsimíkas x reader

summary: in which I describe a relationship with your favs using songs

author's note: in my Kóstas era, that guy is so cute I can’t (notice how i say this with each player I did)

ᴠᴏʟᴜᴍᴇ : ▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮

how you guys met

Summertime Magic - Childish Gambino

You two met during the summer as you were on vacation in Greece and Kóstas was visiting his family. You were just at a bar enjoying the night when you stumbled upon Kóstas. The drinks you had gulped down made you a bit more cheerful than usual, and talk endlessly to an amused Kóstas. After that night, you met again during your entire time there. Through boat rides and walks, you rapidly developed a strong bond.

how the relationship grew to become official 

We Might Even Be Falling In Love - Victoria Monét

Your short-term adventure felt like a teenage fantasy. As summer ended, the growth of your relationship was fast. The deep connection you felt in Greece didn’t fade, even when you two went back to your normal lives. Although you had not known each other for long, you both knew you were meant to be. After making your dream date come true (just as you told him), Kóstas asked you to be his girlfriend, to which you could only say yes.

how to describe the relationship

Yo x Ti, Tu x Mi - ROSALÍA & Ozuna

The two of you felt like you had found your soulmates and were made for one another. You both could and would do anything for each other. Anybody that met you would think you had been together for decades, even in the earliest days of your relationship. Obviously you had downs but always overcame them, coming back stronger than before.

how is Kóstas in the relationship

Agape - Nicholas Britell

Kóstas was the sweetest guy you ever encountered and was truly devoted to making you happy. What amazed you the most was how he would cater to you. Bring your favourite snacks when you’re on your period, randomly offering you flowers or washing your hair for you. He did everything possible to make you feel the best with him.

how are you in the relationship

Fly - Aya Nakamura

You definitely received the “princess treatment” from Kóstas. The way he cared more about you than yourself made your love for him bigger than ever. Men like him were rare and you were always grateful to have him. You were on cloud nine every minute you spent at his side and were excited for all the years to come.

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masterlist for more

[bloodiedrogue]

put your spotify (or non-spotify equivalent) on the 'on repeat' playlist, shuffle it and then share the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people.

thanks for the tag @fictionobsession!!

what is it about me by lola young

hurts me by santea2

if you care by post-modern connection

can i call you rose? by thee scared souls

agape by nicholas britell

otra vez by prodmarvin

touch tank by quinnie

these days by st. panther

never wanna let you go by david hale

redbone by childish gambino

tagging: @justporo @megs-98 @aurasyn @bearhugsandshrugs @feydstan @boop-le-snoot @imgoingtofreakoutnow @infinitystoner @the-lady-amphitrite @gunslingerorchid and whoever else wants to join in!

[shouldering-worlds]

🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨

ok!! okok

Atlas by The Dip

The Underdog by Spoon

You're Dead by Norma Tenaga

Bang Bang by Hippo Campus

Collide by Tiana Major9 and EARTHGANG

bonus because I love her: Agape by Nicholas Britell

[goghskypoestry]

What does Agape tell you? The soft nostalgia of a home you never had. Agape is running in the hilly meadows, drying your clothes out on a summer afternoon. A moment where you held him and nothing else mattered. A moment you held yourself and nothing else mattered. A moment of your dream you still carry because it still has the freshness of freedom you don't possess and maybe never will. The moment free of every design of the world, where you taste the sand of your childhood, touch the sunsets you missed, hold the tunes of the violin while you walk past, listening to the pictures of your future. It ennobles every moment you have thought of, every strand of hope you let out in the sky through the air bubbles, every blink you waited to notice. Agape is your soul reaching for your bones through your skin, it is the peace Rumi talked about finding on the other side of the mountains. It brings to you like a bird brings a letter, from the palette of colour you chose for your scenery. It is a love letter slowly turning into grief, like oil spreads on water."

- Daphnae on Agape by Nicholas Britell

[girl-tips]

𝙼𝚢 𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚛𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚖𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝 Part 4

𝚁𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚢 𝙳𝚊𝚢 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚢𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝 🌲

I was all over her by Salvia Palth

Without her by Core 2

Think of me once in a while, take care by Take care

Limerance by Yves Tumor

Killswitch Lullaby by Flawed Mangoes

Poison tree by Grouper

QKThr by Apehx Twin

Suicide Cleanup by Birth day

Hinoki Wood by Gia Margaret

Remembering by Ever so blue

(Dream) by Salvia Palth

The sound of myself by Disasterpeace

Remember you (Omnichord) by Trillian

Genesis by Grimes

𝚁𝚘𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚌𝚒𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚌𝚑𝚘𝚘𝚕 𝙿𝚕𝚊𝚢𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝 ☕️

I wanted to leave by SYML

Fairy Fountain by Super Guitar Bros

The mercy of the wind by Million Eyes

Somewhere in between by Jacob LaVallee

English garden by Great Grandpa

Once upon a dream by Invadable Harmony

Once upon a december by Invadable Harmony

Agape by Nicholas Britell

Jacob and the stone by Emile Mosseri

Ballerina by Yehezkel Raz

New home by Austin Farwell

Golden house (piano version) by JKVE

Rue Des trois Freres by Fabrizio Paterlini

So young at heart by Judson Crame

Une barque Sur L'ocean by Andre Laplante

September (instrumental) by Sparky Deathcap

Lady fingers by Herb Alpert

The swan by Yo yo ma and kathryn Scott

Gymnopeide No.1 by Erik Satie

Experience by Ludovico Einaudi

Reflections by Toshifumi Hinata

Merry go round of life by Joe Hisaishi

My darling by Daniel.mp3

Prelude by Over the garden wall

Clouds by Luke Faulkner

𝙰𝚞𝚝𝚞𝚖𝚗 𝚅𝚒𝚋𝚎𝚜 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚢𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝 🍂

Back to the old house by the smiths

Sunday by the cranberries

Sea, swallow me by Cocteau Twins

Trees and flowers by Strawberry switchblade

Kingston by Faye Webster

Show me how by Men I trust

Heart to heart by Mac Demarco

Dreams by The Cranberries

Moonlight on the river by Mac Demarco

The blonde by TV Girl

Step on me by The Cardigans

Kiss me by Sixpence and none the richer

There she goes by The La's

Angel of death and the codeine scene by Hozier

Vienna by Billy Joel

Love crime by Siouxsie

Cherry coloured funk by Cocteau Twins

Halah by Mazzy Star

Flightless bird, American Mouth by Iron Wine

Duvet by Boa

Twilight by Boa

A new kind of love (demo) by Frou Frou

Need 2- Pinegrove

Break by Alex G

Je te laisserai des mots by Patrick watson

Welcome home son by Radical face

Ophelia by The Lumineers

The charming man by the smiths

Bigmouth strikes again by The smiths

There is a light that never goes out by The smiths

This night has opened my eyes by The smiths

Let down by Radiohead

Somethin' Stupid by Frank Sinatra

The world we knew by Frank Sinatra

Blue ridge mountains by Fleet foxes

Chateau Lobby #4 (in C for two V1rgins) by Father john Misty

Dear Arkansas Daughter by Lady Lamb

The moon will sing by Crane Wives

Like real people do by Hozier

Mary on a cross by Ghost

Half a person by the smiths

About you by the 1975

Sweet by Cigarettes after sex

Head over heels by Tears for fears

Those eyes by New West

Suffocation by Crystal Castles

Pretend by Alex G

Sarah by Alex G

-Photos found on Pinterest

Finally, were done, I didnt realise I had so many songs in Playlists!

Hope this encourages you to expand you music taste a little

[arbitersart]

AIYCYE Playlist + Explanations *✧･ﾟ

Hello! After the wonderful responses I've gotten on And If You Close Your Eyes, I wanted to assemble this little guide to the playlist I made for it as well. Music is a huge source of inspiration for my fic writing and I love sharing just what it is about each song that fits + the lyrics or fic lines that are relevant.

Obvious warnings for fic spoilers below the cut. The songs are in mostly chronological order and don't yet include chapter 5 songs, because it hasn't been release yet. I'll update this post when it does :)

*✧･ﾟ Pompeii - Bastille And if you close your eyes, does it almost feel like nothing's changed at all?

The song that titled the fic. It fit due to its overall "oh shit the world is ending" vibes that still maintained a level of upbeat-ness. The highlighted line references Grian traveling from reality to reality and seeing all sorts of different things, but finding the same fundamental truth in all of them.

*✧･ﾟ Help I'm Alive - Metric

This song is for every single time Grian wakes up in a different reality— it feels akin to having ice cold water dumped on him, or the air knocked out of his lungs. God I love the drums at the beginning of the song so much.

*✧･ﾟAs the World Caves In - Matt Maltese

The impending dread with every new reality. Self explanatory.

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*✧･ﾟThe Flower Garden - Joe Hisaishi

For the flower field scene :)

*✧･ﾟAll This and Heaven Too - Florence and the Machine And all my stumbling phrases never amounted to anything worth this feeling

This is for Grian and Scar traveling up the mountain and Grian struggling not to admit to himself how desperately in love he is. In the previous iterations, he's never let Scar get this close, but with this being the last time, he's desperate for any and all help, and at the end of his rope. He's understanding how happy he is by Scar's side too late.

*✧･ﾟceilings - Lizzy McAlpine But it's not real, and you don't exist, and I can't recall the last time I was kissed

Grian's memories of the world in which he and Scar were married. In that reality, Scar kissed him once on the forehead, after Grian insisted they stay away from each other so he could focus on searching for the elytra.

*✧･ﾟThe Eagles - Howard Shore "And Scar, dancing. His hair had been long then, half braided and tied off with ribbons. It framed his smile perfectly as Grian twirled him around."

Grian remembering his Scar back home. He sees the memory in slow motion. This is is a direct reference to the LOTR scene with Sam and Frodo remembering the shire and Mt. Doom comes down around them: "Rosie Cotton dancin'... she had ribbons in her hair..." That's the kind of desperate love and yearning Grian is feeling.

*✧･ﾟRule #2 Moonlight - Fish In a Birdcage All I need is to come home to you All I want is to be close to you

*✧･ﾟ Agape - Nicholas Britell “I may not be your Grian, but through all this I know that he loves you. Enough to trust you with his name and to break his promises.”

Every quiet confession and moment of vulnerability these two have exchanged is Agape.

*✧･ﾟThe Great Gig in the Sky - Pink Floyd

This song is for Grian remembering the feeling of his wings being ripped out of his body. It's the bridge between himself and Alt!Grian. They are indeed mirror images— where Alt!Grian is the speech about the quiet acceptance of death, our Grian is the melodious wailing. Alt has spent an incredible amount of time planning, rebelling, mutilating himself, and keeping secrets from everyone he loves. Our Grian has lived in willful ignorance, going along with the Watchers' will because he wants nothing more than to go home. Their choices are different, but their pain is the same.

*✧･ﾟThe World We Knew - Frank Sinatra

This is for Grian waking up on a blown-up mountaintop while the Cleanse swirls above him. The beginning of the end.

*✧･ﾟHow Far We've Come - Matchbox 20 "Then, above them, the cavalry arrives."

The beginning of the battle, when everything is almost... joyful. It's the feeling of all of Grian's friends showing up for him in the 11th hour, uncaring that this is how their world ends, committing to spend their last moments to the fullest. It's the love you only find in a group of people you come to love like family, a love of multitudes.

*✧･ﾟFix You - Cody Fry Grian hears.

This is for the moment Grian regains control over the elytra, the moment his memories come back, the sounds, the sights, the feelings. It's on here almost exclusively for the 2:26 timestamp but whatever lol.

*✧･ﾟLight My Love - Greta Van Fleet "Grian takes flight for the first time in two years, and it's absolutely everything."

*✧･ﾟI Am Satisfied With My Care - Henry Jackman

They're so close to the finish line, so close to their triumphant victory, when something isn't right. Fun fact, Scar knew he was fading right as Grian came to pick him up.

*✧･ﾟ you are my sunshine - Christina Perri Please don't take my sunshine away

*✧･ﾟTessa - Steve Jablonsky

"When I touched the elytra back in the cave, I saw… everything. Every reality I’ve existed in. All at once. And there wasn’t a single one in which I didn’t love you.”

*✧･ﾟKing of the Monsters - Bear McCreary "My name is Grian."

Grian's rage. Grian's grief. Grian's love. What I tried to accomplish with the drawing of this scene and the descriptions was how absolutely bat-shittingly scary Grian becomes. He has nothing left to lose, and he's just pulled out his trump card. Grian understands the full magnitude of what the avians are, what it means to be a torn piece of the fabric of the universe. And he is overwhelmed by sheer power.

*✧･ﾟNot Strong Enough - boygenius Always an angel, never a god

I imagine this is sort of the "credits" song that plays out chapter 4. It's for Grian teetering between the hubris that made the Watchers what they became and the festering need to rest. Something I wished had been more strongly suggested at the end of the chapter is that this is Grian fully giving up. He's making no effort to do anything else, he just lets his magic overflow until there's nothing left. To put in more casual terms, Grian is submitting to being doomed by the narrative.

[elwenyere]

🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨

Thank you for the ask, my dear!!! I picked five songs that I feel like I've been listening to most regularly over the past few months.

Sufjan Stevens, "Shit Talk"

Mitski, "I'm Your Man"

Nicholas Britell, "Agape"

Janelle Monáe, "Crazy, Classic, Life"

Rilo Kiley, "The Frug"

Loving all these music recs in the world!

[thyme-in-a-bubble]

rules: pick a song for each letter of your url and tag that many people

thanks for the tag my darling @chvoswxtch ♡

t - the very thought of you by al bowlly

h - heat above by greta van fleet

y - you don't own me by lesley gore

m - miroirs: III. une barque sur l'océan by andré laplante

e - erase me by lizzy mcalpine, jacob collier

i - i wanted to leave by syml

n - new home (slowed) by austin farwell

a - agape by nicholas britell

b - ballerina by yehezkel raz

u - unbroken by gustavo santaolalla

b - beving: ala by joep beving

b - beautiful stranger by laufey

l - leah by seeing double

e - enigma by jacob lavallee

no pressure tags: @ghostlyfleur @fxllfaiiry @venuslore @amorchai @slvttyfied @bruisedboys @vhagarlovebot @inklore @midniteluv @appocalipse @cosmal @inkluvs @oncasette @mystcldydrms

[alluralater]

26, 29, 38 and i hope it havin a good night :)

-🦋

26. Talk about things you do when you’re sick.

when i’m sick i get scrambled egg brains. like i can’t think, i can’t concentrate. but i like to stay SUPER busy. so i’ll clean, i’ll draw, i’ll paint. pretty much absolutely anything to avoid doing nothing

29. Talk about what turns you on.

a lot turns me on actually. pretty flowers, cold air in my lungs, fabric on my skin, laughter. i definitely have a voice kink. brown eyes turn me on for sure (too much lmao). eye contact. anytime someone tells me i smell good (because i do but it’s always so… weirdly sexual when people say it so now it just turns me on to hear it). emotional people turn me on because they’re… really good in bed. that’s why i like cancers so much ;) the expressiveness is top tier sexy. humor is SUCH a turn on oh my godddd. make me laugh and you’ve made me wet. i like certainty. liking someone’s confidence is one thing but someone who is sure of themselves is completely another. i like someone who is secure in themselves and their decisions, it’s like peak turn on for me because i’m that way. it’s sexy to know i don’t have to worry about someone projecting any insecurity onto me or other people. self respect and high self worth is endlessly attractive. there’s so much more but i can’t think of anything right now

38. Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.

i’m most reminded of certain people in songs when it comes to love or grief. i’ve been in love just once and it was more than enough for me like i’d rather not be again for a long time lmao.

I Thought About Death, About Time - Benjamin Gustafsson

Escape - Kilgore Doubtfire

Nocturne in D-Flat Major “Un rêve” - Eric Christian

Agape - Nicholas Britell

those all remind me of that love. and my grief. i was dealing with both at the same time for awhile and it proved to be… hard. lmao i listen to a lot of music with no lyrics because i’d rather feel things on my own and see what comes. i’ve got sooo much music set aside like playlists upon playlists with lyrics for that love specifically. i haven’t listened to any of them in a very long time and i won’t. i made my choice and i’m keeping to it. the intensities and subtleties of these four are in ways, more eternal than anything i’ve ever felt. what can i say, i’m a whore for good tunes that rip me apart

thanks, babe <3 i hope you’re having a great day