#sorry if you don't like grapejuice

[elioslover]

Green-Eyed Monster- Harry Styles x Reader (kiss prompt).

[Premise: Harry has been pining over his best friend's older sister for as long as he can recall. Here's some angst when the band goes on hiatus].

Prompts: "You're jealous, just admit it, you want to be the one kissing me." // “If you wanted to kiss me, all you had to do was ask.” 

Word count: 2.6k.

More Grapejuice / Other Writing

🍷 the guest 🍷

There is no reason for you to feel as bent out of shape as you are in this very moment, zoned out of a conversation with an old friend because standing behind her is the man himself- leaning against the balcony with a collection of adoring guests gathering near, Harry Styles. 

Harry Styles; whose boyband had just announced a hiatus. Harry Styles; is properly back in his hometown for the first time in half a decade. Acting- as you deem- far too nonchalant for someone as global as he seemed to be. He had simply slipped back into his old groove as if no time had passed at all. 

But all you can think about is how much time has passed. Harry seems almost unrecognizable- hair and tattoos only increasing in length and number. It’s only when his face takes intervals to crinkle with glee- smile cheesing, eyes squinting with joy- that you see the Harry you’ve known so long it feels as if life never existed before him. 

Even as his life is about to change completely- a whole new chapter challenging his past and now his future- Harry seems to have little reservation about embracing happiness. Perhaps his nonchalance is the reason your observation stirs into frustration and confusion, causing a sort of panic you were sure to have never felt prior. Who is Harry Styles now? 

Then again, your sudden distaste may also be attributed to the adoring attention he has been receiving all night- particularly that of the beautiful people who were visibly blessed with the chance to praise and pet him… And they were indulgently taking advantage of the opportunity. 

Harry, by the looks of it was eagerly lapping it up, happily reciprocating touches and even looking at some of them with a gaze you had once noticed when it was dedicated to yours truly. 

He definitely isn't a teenager anymore, and it dawns on you how impactful and influential his introduction to stardom had been. 

Where were these thoughts even coming from? Your mind never wavered to the thought of Harry unless a One Direction song came on in public or Jack dropped him in conversation. 

All the questions you had never pondered were causing your brain to swell, your body stuck in a frozen frenzy of how much has changed- for all of you- starting with the obscene and sudden assessment of his features- had you ever considered him as anything other than just… Harry? Has he always been so pretty? 

All of those thoughts shatter as you raise your glass for a sip and across the room, Harry’s arm wraps around an unknown auburn-headed woman’s waist- which, at the least, makes your stomach clench and at the most, has you tilting your head back to empty the glass in one desperate swallow. 

Without consideration, you hastily dismiss the person still animatedly engaging in a one-sided conversation and turn your back on the oddly upsetting scene happening against the balcony railings. 

Ignoring the high possibility of tripping, agitation carries you to the kitchen- abandoned and almost silent in contrast to the party vibing merely meters away- and you immediately get ahold of the nearest bottle of chilled champagne, filling your flute to the brim and have a hearty sip before finally settling, taking a deep breath, trying to untangle your thoughts- hopefully rid yourself of them for good. 

A couple minutes- what sounds like the length of a song- pass before you feel grounded and sane enough to rejoin the festivities. So, with a deep breath and a final sip for good luck, your faithful docs exit the kitchen and trail into the chatty confinements of the living room.

Lo and behold, Harry Styles is everywhere you go, practically blocking your path with his body pressing up against Auburn from outside, and he looks mere moments away from engaging her in a kiss. 

That silly sickly feeling threatens to return if you stay a moment longer, so your stare meets the floor and your feet pick up their pace, heading directly for the barricade that is Harry. 

His eyes bore into your own with a fervour that you will never forget and for a moment he has you pondering how such a magnificent emerald forest, framed by the wispiest of lashes, could have gone unnoticed for so long- how had you granted his adoring gaze such little attention? 

🍷 the host 🍷

Harry is in two minds about this evening- he can’t help but indulge in the praises and doting that showers him from each and every direction, his pulse is racing with ecstatic at the relief of finally being home again. 

His fears of everything changing have long passed, leaving his worries at the door as he is embraced with excited and excessive welcomes from anyone and everyone who looks his way. 

With his oldest and best friend, Jack, by his side once more, Harry feels no different than he did at that farewell party at least five years prior, enthusiastically greeting familiar faces, accepting each praise with a gracious humbleness. 

But Harry can’t tell if humble is even an accurate definition anymore and it isn't long before he feels his social battery starting to stutter and it’s clearly time for a drink. 

By the end of drink number two, his body is as relaxed as his mind, and Harry is now encouraging the constant vying for his attention- his supposed importance- especially when it includes an array of beautiful people stroking his extremely inflated ego. 

Leaning against the balcony railing, Harry cradles a whisky in one hand and the waist of a dazzling woman in his other. He hasn't actually been listening to a word said around him, nodding every so often as the small group around him eagerly bantered on. 

He’s just happy to be here and doesn't think it could get any better until he spots the only thing on earth that could permanently put him on cloud nine- his greatest dream all wrapped up in the gorgeous physical being that is yours truly- and suddenly Harry feels as if all of the happiness he currently feels is merely an appetizer to the type of joy he could be feeling if he were only across the room staring into your eyes. 

Oddly enough, your eyes are already set on him, suspiciously staring him down with an unreadable gaze that fills his stomach with an odd sense of unease. You look older- the same, but older- and something about that freaks Harry out and reminds him of his own age, how different things actually are now, even if it doesn't feel that way. 

And as if he were seeing you for the very first time, Harry cannot stop staring with bewildered admiration- his eyes darting from your trusty Docs to the extremely fashionable clothing you donned, sternly studying the dips and curves of your body before settling back on your grumpy, but heinously beautiful face. 

He felt it unreasonable- borderline evil- how much better you seemed to get with each interaction, how the hell was he to garner your attention now when he was already hardly capable of doing so for the last decade?

After you disappear into the sanctuary of the kitchen, Harry is too antsy to keep it together any longer and he finds his legs blindly following after you. 

He’s hardly in the hallway by the time his female company comes from outside- he didn’t bother learning her name. Her auburn hair was identification enough- and she caught up and captured his bicep between her cold hand. 

She ascends to her tippy toes, puckered lips finding their place just below Harry’s earlobe, her breath fanning over his sharp jawline as she seductively slips sensual suggestions his way, her free hand trailing up along his torso, fingernails tapping his chest. 

For a good moment, Harry truly does start to forget what he had gone on the hunt for, easily distracted by the shower of affection drizzling all along his body by the unknown woman. 

But, with a sudden shock, the kitchen door violently swings open to reveal your rigid figure, eyes furrowed and lips trapped fearfully between your gritted teeth.  

You are the spitting image of a deer in headlights, staring up at Harry with a look that has him stopping in his tracks, realizing that fate has struck again and he has his elusive person right where he wants you. 

Except, his plan to finally confront you had not included a third party and Harry could feel his face swelling with red blotches of blushy embarrassment. 

For a reason he can’t pinpoint, shame creeps its way into the pit of his stomach, fists clenched as his body turns to brick, and Auburn, still semi-latched on, is becoming so suffocating he feels like a lobster about to boil inside out. 

Rudely, and far too obviously, Harry disarms himself, shrugging his body from beneath Auburn’s grip and muttering some dismissive promise of meeting up with her later on- praying that his words are muffled enough that you don’t hear them. 

You aren't stupid though, and by the height your brow manages to raise in suspicion, Harry confirms that his words did not go unnoticed. 

His dismissal of Auburn seems fine by her as she smiles hopefully, giving him a swift kiss on his cheek before slipping past Harry and disappearing back into the party. 

Unfortunately, he isn’t surprised as you attempt to pretend this interaction was even occurring by disconnecting your shared stares, glancing your focus to the living room, and planning an escape route. But there is no choice other than to pass Harry and there is zero chance he will let you get away with it. 

Harry steps and then tilts his body closer, hoping to encourage you to do the same, but you stay put and only glare up at him expectantly and impatiently. He ignores your frigidity as if it were just a farce- it is- instead his smile turns to a full-on grin, reaching his eyes and crinkling cutely at the corners, and it spreads along his features with a fondness so fierce that you find yourself working overtime to avoid your face from breaking out into the same smile. 

“Avoiding me, hm?” He muses with a precious pout, “Y’know that hurts my feelings, klutz.”

“That’s not true.”

“It is. You do it every single time.”

Arms folding across your chest, face frowning with the preparation of upping your defensiveness in the name of dismissing Harry- just like old times,

“I see you enjoy lying for fun now.” 

Harry nearly scoffs but it projects as a sly smirk and points it at your painful scowl, 

“Y’do. Dipping in and out of patios… kitchens… Yet you always meet me in the hallway.” 

The stomach-knotting realisation that this is factual- how many times had this happened before? How many times would it happen again? Have it your way, and this will be the last time,

“Meeting and cornering are not the same thing.” 

“Stop tryna be smart.” Harry slightly, but softly snaps as his lips smack together.

“You’re ruder than I remember.” 

All snippiness leaves as soon as it comes, Harry sinks back into a swell of adoring amusement, 

“You rate?” 

“Ignoring your guests is a party fowl.” Definite diversion on your part. 

“Avoiding the host is a party fowl.” He counters. 

Weakly attempting to walk past him, only renders your back pressed up against the red abstract wallpaper. He remains put- which, to you, is rather unnerving- and upset is racing along your prickling skin, 

“I told you, I’m not avoiding you.” 

“Why don’t I believe you?” He edges closer with curiosity. 

“Just because you’re used to people throwing themselves at you doesn't mean I'm avoidant." You spit and suddenly, he’s so close. 

“They don’t all do that.” 

“Sure, Harry.” 

Have you two ever been this near before? Most certainly, but you could always chalk that up to intoxicated confusion- at least on your end had it ever felt this… intense? Is there any worldly justification for the suspicious stirring of curiosity now that he has so calmly and tenderly crossed the threshold of your personal space. 

Harry knows he has never felt as satisfied as he does whenever your bodies threaten to blend into one, but for perhaps the first time, he thinks you may consider this palpitating chemistry as something more than a silly game. 

But, he does so fondly enjoy the game, and if he pushes even a moment longer, Harry knows your patience will wither and guide you away from him for good. He uses a tried and true tactic,

“I like your hair.” He does. 

“Yours is like longer than mine.” It is.

“D’you like it?” Harry is deep within your space. 

“It’s alright.” You shrug, lying through your damn teeth. And you could leave it at that, but the bitterness has clearly taken over, “I’m sure the groupies are creaming, though.”

Hell, Harry has missed the pleasure of being in your preference, how electric and alive his body expels excitement and the anticipatory flames you will surely attack him with. He loves it- hates how much he does, can’t help but prod and provoke, 

“I can tell you’re agitated.” 

“Does that make you feel special?” 

“Can’t put my finger on why…” He ponders- Harry’s missing context, the type you are unwilling to confess- the only evidence he has is your pointed stare flickering with fury- wait, envy? “Oh.” 

“Oh, what?” 

“Oh, you’re jealous.” 

Your throat chokes on your stomach as you croak out a spluttered, “What?” as Harry’s chest brushes your shoulder blade and his spearmint-scented breath fans across your neck, 

 “I think you heard me just fine.” 

“You are delusional.” 

Is he, though? Has jealousy been the reason for your distaste and discomfort this evening? Are you as delusional as you believe Harry to be? He seriously thinks so, skin tickling your own,  

“Maybe… Still think I’m right.” 

“Fuck off, Harry.” 

He won’t though. Hand coming up to play with a strand of your hair, twirling it around his finger as his righteous gaze bores into your own- frozen and wide with bewilderment- and finally, his lips threaten to brush the back of your ear, 

 "You're jealous. Just admit it. You want to be the one kissing me."

“No-” 

“Never looked at me like this before..”

You know, and you hate that he kdoes too. You should leave. Now. But with a compulsion too fierce to fight off, a culmination of fascination that ignores your conviction of moving away,

“I don’t-”

“If you wanted to kiss me, all you had to do was ask.” 

Harry says it so matter-of-factly that it shocks your body, and brain, into returning to reality and those succulent tingles swirling in your stomach twist sourly, threatening to suffocate you inside out. 

With disappointment that is mostly directed at yourself, your sudden enamourment switches to the act of pressing your palm to Harry’s sternum and pushing sternly until he stumbles back in surprise. You cannot risk leaving without gifting him a cruel and crushing tongue-lashing, 

“You’re a frat boy in the body of a former pop star. I would never want to kiss someone like you.” 

You slip past him with zero resistance, no consideration for confirming his reaction as your back turns to Harry. 

Well, Harry thinks he’s glad you grant him some privacy because the guttural disappointment melting his face into a frown is shameful enough.

He doesn’t understand the sudden stinging of his tear ducts, the shrill ringing in his ears. Suddenly, Harry doesn’t quite feel like celebrating his return. 

Head bows as he carries his hurt and frustration to the confinements of the kitchen. It’s about time to spiral. 

🍷

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[leatherandlacerry]

ride, cowgirl

Prompt: Harry and Townes(ladybug) share an encounter at a busy bar that just happens to have a rodeo themed night.

Warnings: 18+, daddy kink, exhibitionism, degradation, switch!townes, swearing

Word count: 2.9k

Authors note: hi! This is a snippet from my fic on wattpad called Grapejuice Blues. I thought it would be a good little intro to the tumblr world but I will be putting out a one shot soon. Let me know if you like it:)

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It's not fair.

The asshole knows what he's doing.

Harry looks up from his conversation to send me a smirk. His face is stupid, a stupid pretty face that makes me feel completely normal.

But his eyes always found a way to get to me. A pretty green with leaves of golden sunlight. I looked into them and saw something that terrified me, hope.

My heart skipped a beat when the girl in front of him started to rub up on his arm. There was this urge in me to do something but I couldn't. This bar was filled with decent men I could sleep with, but no. The cowboy-themed night was a cherry on top, he looked good in a hat.

As much as I can sit here denying it, I don't like seeing him with other girls. I didn't like seeing him with Forest and I didn’t like this.

I'm not dumb, I know I have no say over what the fuck he does or who he does. That doesn't make it any easier to ignore it.

Who does he think he is? He goes around acting like he’s the boss of anyone who walks in his path and I’m supposed to let him? Fuck that, not even to mention how he kissed me not even 45 minutes ago.

Before I can logically think I'm walking up to them. My feet carry me in his direction, his focus now on my next move.

"Sorry, am I interrupting?" I ask, tapping the girl's shoulder. The bitch turns around so fast I step back. She looks me up and down with a disgusted face.

"Clearly," she snaps, turning back to Harry. He just sits there with an amused face, watching this play out.

If he can walk around and demand what’s his, so can I.

"Damn Harry, I didn't know your type was cunt," I scoff, watching Harry's eyes widen. The girl once again turns back to but with a look of rage.

"What the fuck did you just say?!" Now I feel bad, I don't know what's come over me. I don’t know what I’m doing, I’m not mean like this but he gets me so angry sometimes.

"Take your desperation somewhere else, 'cause he's not fucking you tonight," She spits, leaning back onto Harry who honestly looks uncomfortable. I was going to walk away but after that, I have some things to say.

"Do you seriously think you’re getting lucky tonight Dolly Parton?" I bite back.

"You're such a bit-"

"That sucks, he owes me an orgasm," I push past her to grab Harry's hand without another word. He doesn't say anything and lets me pull him away.

I push through the crowd to make my way to the nearest bathroom. "This is the woman-"

"Shut up," I cut him off.

We make it there and surprisingly it is empty. I lock the door behind us and go to double-check the stalls. Once I get to the biggest one, I turn back to decide what my next move is.

I don't get that luxury because a pair of hands are on my waist, pushing me against the door of the stall.

Harry's lips find mine in a second. We make it into the stall, falling against the wall. His moans fill my mouth as I grab onto his hips.

"Her voice was fucking annoying," He groans, pulling my body into his.

“Look at you twins, stop talking”

I shut him up as I knocked his cowboy hat off onto the floor, feeling his damp hair under my fingertips. I give one of his curls a slight tug, he breaks the kiss with a gasp.

Soon enough he's back on me, sucking away at my bare neck. Almost immediately he finds my sweet spot which has me rolling my eyes back. His teeth graze my skin every once in a while just using me as he pleases.

"Didn't know I owed you something," He mumbles, watching as he grinds his hips into me. I now see the red lipstick smearing over his lips

Fuck.

"Yet here you are," I tease, tugging on his bottom lip with my teeth. He loses himself before placing a sloppy kiss on my lips.

It's all happening so fast and the mix of alcohol is adding to the intensity. Don't blame me, it’s Tito’s problem now.

"Are you trying to use me, ladybug?" He asks with a smile, his hand wrapping around my neck. His thumb and middle finger press against this point that has my head swirling.

The pressure and rage create an addictive bliss but I have to stick my ground.

"You could be useful for once and get on your knees," I mumble out, finding my mix of dominance with him. He doesn't seem like he would take direction well so I'm not sure where this is going to go.

"Please?" I plead out, not knowing what to say.

His mouth parted, and I felt my hand slide down his thigh. He nods his head and lowers himself to his knees in front of me.

I feel proud that I've gotten him to this point twice now.

"That was easy,"

"Like you," he mumbled, eyebrows scrunched together when he started to pull my skirt up. I wore these lace bottoms just in case anyone was seeing them tonight.

Harry disappears under my skirt, his hot breath spreading across my core. I throw my head back at the feeling, curling my hands into fists.

The bastard toys with me at first, sliding his thumb across the wet patch on my underwear. Hed applied subtle pressure that had my knees buckling but not for long.

His lips were on the inner thing, just mere centimeters away from where I was aching.

"So wet, all for me?" He peers up with his eyes, curling a finger into my underwear so he can pull it to the side. I softly moan and give him a nod to keep going.

He's not having any of that.

"Words, baby," He demanded, blowing air straight into my clit. Naturally, my legs tried to shut but he wouldn't let that happen.

"Yes Daddy," I let out, practically begging him to give me what I wanted.

"There's my girl,"

Finally, he licked a stripe up my cunt, groaning at the taste. He took my clit into his mouth, sucking ever so softly to the point where it was driving me crazy.

The way his tongue dips into my cunt, curling inside to have me almost falling over. I could fall in love on the spot.

"I GOT IT!"

or not.

I gasped, my heart dropping as the door burst open, thankfully I locked our stall. Harry looks up at me but not stopping his assault on my clit.

There's a group of girls mingling and drunkenly laughing in the bathrooms now. I go to push Harry away but it feels too good.

He takes his time between my legs as I bite back my moans. My fingers have now made their way to his hair, tugging more as I get closer.

"And then he dumped me for my sister!" This girl bursts into tears as her friends comfort her. I can't believe this is happening, but I couldn't find it in me to stop.

Harry smiles into my cunt, placing a kiss straight onto my clit. Suddenly he’s back on his feet, grabbing my chin to capture my lips.

There was something about his lips that made my mind go all fuzzy. The soft yet plump touch that I'm graced with couldn't be matched.

His hands roaming my body made me feel safe. It felt as if it was just him and I here, no one else.

We continue to make out until I feel his hand rubbing between my legs. He starts to suck on my neck more, whispering dirty nothings into my ear.

"You're such a slut for it, with all these people in here?" He whispers into my ear, plunging his finger into my soaking hole.

There were only a couple of seconds where he slowly moved his finger in and out. The tip of his middle finger circled my hole then surprised me when he would slide it in.

At first, he was testing the waters and not giving it to me fully. His fingers were much longer than I thought, reaching spots inside that I didn't even know could feel like this.

He curls them inside me, not breaking eye contact at any point. My eyes flutter close, feeling his grip on my jaw.

"Look at me, you owe me that," He whispers against my lips before placing a soft peck on them. It felt more like a plea rather than a demand. Either way, he could say anything at this moment and I would be on board.

Then he picks up his pace, watching me fall apart in the palm of his hand, literally.

“Fuck-“

"I know, baby, I know," He reassures, making it even harder to think straight.

He doesn't hold back in the slightest, rapidly fucking me with his fingers. I wasn't sure how much more I could take with being quiet. The girls on the other side of the door were getting louder so it was a little easier.

"Harry, please-" I gasp into his chest, fisting at his shirt.

"What a piece of trash, fuck that guy!" Another drunk girl slurred her friends. This reminded us that we're not alone and we could get caught at any moment.

It felt wrong to like that thrill, but it only made us want to keep going. Just the possibility, it was only thrilling when I was doing it with him.

I feel the burn in my stomach start to swirl as I'm about to release. Harry takes notice using his other hands to slide his thumb into my mouth.

My lips wrap around it, looking up at him through my lashes. His sea-green eyes darken with lust as I bob my head slightly.

"You gonna come?" He taunts me, all I can do is nod my head weakly. A second later he's back on his knees, fingers still deep inside me.

There's now the mix of that and his mouth back on me that drives me off the edge. He shakes his head with his tongue flat on my clit.

"Come in my mouth, Townes," He practically begs, cuddling his fingers in just the right spot to have me finishing all over his lips.

All I can hear is his sucking up any part of my release that he could. I can't help but gasp as he rubs on my sensitive clit. My legs run weak to the point where they wobble.

"Why was the door locked?" Someone asks.

I look down at Harry with a grin, pulling him back up to taste my cum on his lips. Chills run down my spine when his warm hands never leave my skin. He clutched onto me for dear life.

"You taste good, Ladybug," He grins, sliding his tongue into my mouth. "Anything else I owe you?" He cheekily asked.

I shake my head, did he not want anything in return?

My hands reach out to graze the part of his waist that was exposed. His head drops to watch my next move, placing a hand on my wrist.

"You don't owe me anything," He says.

"I want to," I say, leaning up to kiss the corner of his lips. He blushes at me and falls to my neck.

"Did you forget we're not alone?" He whispers into my ear.

Fuck, I did forget.

I quietly groaned, kissing up his neck. This is odd, this is the most domestic we've been with each other.

"Time to make my exit," He mumbles, his thumb gliding across my bottom lip before placing a kiss on my cheek.

Before I'm able to stop him he's grabbed his hat from the floor and is unlocking the stall door.

"Har-"

The group of girls turns back to see Harry wiping his mouth and me fixing my skirt in the background. They all stare in awe as he walks up to the sink to grab a paper towel and turn back to hand it to me.

"You're lipstick-smeared, bug," he tells me.

"Ladies," He turns back to tip his hat to the group of girls gawking at him. One of them looks back at me with shocked eyes and a wide grin.

“Ride it, cowgirl”

[foxes-that-run]

Have you done a Hunger analysis/can you do one

Hi, I haven't, I love that song though. So here it is:

Hunger

It is about Harry looking back on a relationship he is not over. It was leaked in 20 April 2022, the week he played Coachella. See 2022 timeline if you subscribe to the thought the leaks are timed.

When it was written is less important because it's quite reflective, but based on 'one year into two', if I had to guess, I think this song is from the first week of January 2017:

4 January 2013 - Blue dress on a boat

6 January 2015 - Harry and Taylor were ambiguously dating (and touring) since Valentine's Day 2014. Harry arrived in LA on the 2nd and neither was seen for a few days. Taylor posted this photo with 'This Love' Lyrics. Harry then reappeared. Things seemed tense at Lily Aldridge's birthday on the 19th and Taylor went to Maui with the Haim sisters while Harry stayed in LA. Taylor started dating Calvin a few weeks later.

6 January 2016 - Harry posted this photo of rain on a window. Out of the Woods MV was just released, it aired NYE 2015 in the same show as the last 1D TV appearance.

5 January 2017 - The leak Lately included that it was written on 5 January 2017, He flew to LA on the 6th. Lately was leaked on 6 January 2024. That is one year turning two from 2015:

Lyrics

Candles burnt down to the floor Wearing less than you wore before Shoes sitting by the door never put them on We would stay in my house for days Spilling breakfast on pillowcases Your stuff don’t taste the same Now that you’re gone

The first verse is reminiscing of the good times, of enjoying spending time together in a hedonistic way.

To me the first lines are on New Years Eve 2012 which Taylor also included in New Years Day "Candle wax and Polaroids on the hardwood floor / You and me from the night before". If written in January the shared NYE memory would have been timely.

I love the line "shoes sitting by the door" it sounds to me like they were to go out but stayed in to be together.

"Your stuff don't taste the same" to me is her music, especially Red and 1989, I imagine hearing them after they were actually over would hurt with how much the themes of 1989 especially are "built to fall apart and back together again"

I guess I’m prone to overthinking One thing goes wrong and I can’t adjust I’ve lost the taste for the good in us And I’m sorry

The second verse is talking about feeling sad that Harry wasn't able to keep the relationship and his engagement with it.

"Lost the taste for the good": reminds me of the Two Ghosts, "We're not who we used to be". Two Ghosts was written around Valentines Day 2015, soon after this break up. To Nick Grimshaw Harry said about it "sometimes things change, and you can do all the same things, and sometimes it’s just different, you know". I think this is a similar detached loss of connection, later to Zane Lowe Harry said he was 'just coasting.'

I think with more time for reflection this song has matured to see with regret why he lost the taste for the good in what he lost, which Two Ghosts doesn't get into.

"Prone to overthinking" is interesting, Harry seems like he would. He uses this word again in Grapejuice about Taylor, he acknowledges she worries about other girls and assures he doesn't want anyone else "You're always there, so don't overthink, I'm so over whites and pinks"

We had a hunger then only each other then Couldn’t get enough when we started Always a hunger then now it’s just emptiness We were in love, we were starving We had a hunger then

To me, the song title and chorus has a double meaning:

In the first half of the chorus Harry is singing about Hunger in the sense of an insatiable desire for each other. The bliss of a new relationship where you just want to be together all the time.

This ends with 'now there's just emptiness. He uses emptiness as an analogy for being emotionally depleted in Ever Since New York also "There's no water inside this swimming pool" and in Two Ghosts "We're just two ghosts swimming in a glass half empty"

I hear a second meaning with "we were in love, we were starving." The theme of the song is reflecting on where it went wrong, I think he is referring their mental health and wellbeing at the time as being a factor for why it didn't work out.

We could ruin a perfect night On my birthday I made you cry You told me you learned to drive I guess you lied I could never get sick of you I just bit off more than I could chew And as one year turns into two I’m still not over you, still not over you

As the song says, they are still not over each other.

You told me you learned to drive

This could be read two ways, as many anons have said to me today :)

Taylor used driving as a metaphor for their relationship in Treacherous and throughout 1989 and Harry did in Keep Driving. The line is saying that she told Harry they could make it work but she lied and they didn’t. I really like this interpretation, it reminds me of Fools Gold where he also called her a lair for him feeling like his commitment to their relationship wasn’t reciprocated

This reminds me of of a Gatsby quote Jordan says to Nick: “You said a bad driver was only safe until she met another bad driver? Well, I met another bad driver, didn’t I? I mean it was careless of me to make such a wrong guess. I thought you were rather an honest, straightforward person. I thought it was your secret pride.”

On my birthday I made you cry

Taylor also refers to this in Coney Island the male part sings "Were you standing in the hallway / With a big cake, happy birthday". Sadly there are options for this, I think the big cake is a metaphor for an special gift:

2015, he threw a big party with lots of famous people in LA just before he left for tour. After possibly break up 6 January, on the 17th Taylor shared a photo of her kitchen with the framed Temper Trap Lyrics on her stove, (below). She then went to Maui with the Haim sisters, on the 23rd - 30th (I wonder if Harry was meant to go). On Harry's birthday she was in Nashville.

2013 Taylor had Temper Trap write and sign the correct lyrics/Arm Lyrics/Tattoo and framed it for his birthday, but they broke up before she gifted it. She included it in the photo again in 2015. :( The blue dress on a boat was 4 January, however she was in London on the 21st and rumoured to see him. There were reports she had booked a week in Italy as well as other gifts. Harry had a wild 19th birthday with a £5k bar tab and strippers.

I could never get sick you

I hear "I could never get sick of you" as responding to something said directly to Harry. However, in November 2015 Taylor used those words to Vogue. It's an interesting comment that was foreshadowing the Reputation era. If this song was written in early 2017 it would have been the thick of that:

"I'll need to give people a certain breather from me because at a certain point they're going to get a little sick of hearing about me, so then I'll need to go away for a while and then depending on my gauge on how sick of me they are I'll decide when to put out the next album,"

I just bit off more than I could chew

I think this is the crux of it, Harry was quite young when they started dating and the One Direction schedule of a tour and album every year was intense. In his more recent interviews he's talked about mental health, and his band mates have also spoken about the toll it took on them. I think Harry was not available or ready to provide an older partner who was also anxious the support she was looking for. In his words in To be So Lonely, he "Wasn't ready for it all".

[easypeasylindyvesey]

here are all the songs on my ITISWNK playlist that y'all can listen to while reading to kinda fit the vibe (if you wish). artists are listed on the left, corresponding songs are listed on the right :)

the 1975: about you, love it if we made it

6LACK: rent free

adele: someone like you, when we were young, all i ask

aidan bissett: more than friends

alicia keys: if i ain't got you

angus & julia stone: take me home

arctic monkeys: i wanna be yours

ariana grande: boyfriend (with social house), be alright, into you, leave me lonely, sometimes, thinking bout you, don't wanna break up again, the boy is mine, we can't be friends (wait for your love), imperfect for you, ordinary things, why try, just a little bit of your heart, safety net, pov, better off, goodnight n go, bad idea, ghostin

aron wright: build it better

berlin: take my breath away

between friends: affection

big time rush: nothing even matters

billie eilish: birds of a feather, i love you

billy joel: turn the lights back on

blackbear: dead inside

børns: electric love, american money

brent faiyaz: wasting time

briston maroney: freakin out on the interstate

bruno mars/silk sonic: leave the door open, after last night, put on a smile, love's train

bryan adams: (everything i do) i do it for you

cage the elephant: come a little closer

calum scott: you are the reason

camila cabello: my oh my, bad kind of butterflies, dream of you

the chainsmokers: closer, it won't kill ya, beach house, if you're serious

chance peña: in my room

chicago: hard to say i'm sorry (2009 remaster)

chris brown: forever

the cinematic orchestra: to build a home

coin: talk too much

coldplay: sparks, yellow, fix you

conan gray: forever with me, disaster, yours, memories

the cranberries: dreams

dave matthews band: crash into me (IYKYK)

dayglow: can i call you tonight?

disclosure: latch

doja cat: agora hills

don toliver: drugs n hella melodies

drake: yebba's heartbreak, imy2, hours in silence, i guess it's fuck me, flight's booked, teenage fever, lose you, from time, summer games, finesse, sooner than later, take care, doing it wrong, the real her, show me a good time, find your heart

dua lipa: break my heart, these walls

duster: stars will fall

dvsn: all that matters (spotify singles)

dylan conrique: birthday cake

eden: sex

ed sheeran: how would you feel (paean)

ellie goulding: close to me, something in the way you move, love me like you do

faye webster: i know you

fitz and the tantrums: out of my league

forest blakk: if you love her

frank ocean: godspeed

french montana: unforgettable

gabrielle aplin: skylight

gavin degraw: she sets the city on fire

gayle: ur just horny

(g)i-dle: i do

giveon: for tonight

gracie abrams: friend, feels like

greyson chance: shut up

grouplove: tongue tied

halsey: now or never, sorry, so good

hannah montana: he could be the one

harry styles: adore you, fine line, grapejuice, as it was, daylight, satellite, meet me in the hallway, two ghosts

hippo campus: way it goes

hoobastank: the reason

hozier: work song, cherry wine- live

hugo brijs: mol y sol

imagine dragons: next to me, start over, wrecked, bad liar

instupendo: comfort chain

james arthur: certain things, car's outside

james bay: wasted on each other

james blunt: you're beautiful

jess benko: a soulmate who wasn't meant to be

john de sohn: love you better

john legend: conversations in the dark

jonas brothers: hesitate, five more minutes

jp saxe: a little bit yours

justin bieber: as i am, off my face

jvke: golden hour

jxdn: beautiful boy

kanye west: heartless, devil in a new dress

katy perry: e.t.

kendrick lamar: die hard

khalid: don't pretend, better

the kid laroi: love again

king princess: 1950

labrinth: skeletons (lexi needed a break)

lana del rey: summertime sadness, a&w, let the light in, lust for life, norman fucking rockwell

lany: if this is the last time

lifehouse: you and me

lil nas x: tales of dominica, void

lil peep: star shopping

little mix: notice

lizzo: if you love me

lizzy mcalpine: ceilings, the elevator, come down soon, like it tends to do, staying, i guess, you forced me to, vortex

lord huron: the night we met

louis tomlinson: written all over your face, lucky again, chicago, angels fly, that's the way love goes

lovelytheband: i should be happy

luke hemmings: place in me, a beautiful dream

the lumineers: where we are, never really mine, just like heaven, sleep on the floor, my eyes, patience, white lie, donna, salt and the sea, slow it down, morning song

m83: wait

maren morris: nervous

maroon 5: stutter, never gonna leave this bed, if i ain't got you - live, bet my heart, it was always you, unkiss me, feelings, my heart is open

max: butterflies

***mazzy star: fade into you*** (this is the song that the fic is based off of!!!)

metro boomin: creepin'

miley cyrus: you - live, rose colored lenses, river

milky chance: stolen dance

mitski: my love mine all mine

monsume: jade

montell fish: fall in love with you., love you more than me

morgan wallen: wasted on you, not good at not, you proof, wine into water

the mowgli's: say it, just say it

muni long: time machine

nessa barrett: die first

ne-yo: let me love you (until you learn to love yourself)

nf: if you want love

niall horan: this town, put a little love on me, still, heaven, meltdown, must be love

nick jonas: close

noah kahan: stick season, come over, strawberry wine, everywhere, everything

ocean park standoff: if you were mine

olivia rodrigo: bad idea right?, logical, love is embarrassing, teenage dream, good 4 u

one direction: steal my girl, where do broken hearts go, fool's gold, spaces, infinity, end of the day, if i could fly, long way down, what a feeling, love you goodbye, temporary fix, a.m., home, kiss you, little things, they don't know about us, truly madly deeply, magic, what makes you beautiful, one thing, i want

parson james: stole the show

partynextdoor: come and see me

patrick watson: je te laisserai des mots

phillip phillips: dancing with your shadows

p!nk: true love

post malone: stay, take what you want, i know, leave, wrapped around your finger

preston pablo: flowers need rain

quinn xcii: let me down, good either way, the lows

rag'n'bone man: anywhere away from here

reneé rapp: in the kitchen

rihanna: stay

ruby haunt: answering machine

ruth b: dandelions (slowed + reverb)

ryan woods: bad texter

saint jhn: the best part of life

sam fischer: ready

sam smith: lay me down

sarah barrios: mourn the living

sarah kinsley: the king

sasha alex sloan: dancing with your ghost

selena gomez: a sweeter place

shawn mendes: it'll be okay, why, wonder

stephen dawes: don't hate me when it's over

stephen sanchez: until i found you (with em beihold)

strawberry guy: mrs magic

suki waterhouse: good looking

surfaces: falling again, find a way, hold onto me baby, so far away, stay

sydney rose: turning page

sza: awkward, snooze

taio cruz: break your heart

tate mcrae: that way, hate myself, go away, run for the hills, hurt my feelings, stay done, messier, think later, slower, you broke me first, wish i loved you in the 90s

taylor swift: out of the woods (TV), this love (TV), i know places (TV), wonderland (TV), you are in love (TV), "slut!" (TV) (FTV), say don't go (TV) (FTV), is it over now? (TV) (FTV), all of the girls you loved before, champagne problems, tolerate it, evermore, august, illicit affairs, invisible string, miss americana & the heartbreak prince, false god, afterglow, question...?, sweet nothing, bigger than the whole sky, would've, could've, should've, message in a bottle (TV) (FTV), dress, sparks fly (TV), the story of us (TV), enchanted (TV), electric touch (TV) (FTV), i can see you (TV) (FTV), fortnight, loml, the alchemy, you're losing me (FTV)

timaland: the way i are

troye sivan: angel baby, talk me down, for him., wild

the walters: i love you so

the weeknd: shameless, earned it, how do i make you love me?, out of time, here we go...again, best friends, don't break my heart, the knowing

whitney houston: i will always love you, i wanna dance with somebody

wrabel: ritual

yungblud: 11 minutes

zach bryan: i remember everything, spotless

zayn: dusk till dawn

**updated 5/28/2024

[writingbirdy]

Hello! I was wondering if you'd be comfortable writing a reader x Travis Phelps type thing?

Whether it's just jot notes, a paragraph of Travis' thoughts, or anything is fine with me!

I very much love the idea of a stuck up, religious man (Travis, early 20s) being very pissed off at himself for falling in love with someone like me 😅 like, he's so confused and angry but can't get me off his mind at all. I'm a chubby, hairy queer guy who's very short and silly. I like punk clothes but I also like wearing skirts as well. I drew a little picture of myself recently (though I also have glasses and... well, obviously I don't have green skin) so here:

Maybe Travis finds himself going to a shitty coffee shop he doesn't even like too often, and gets embarrassed when he realizes it's because he likes TheReader who works there. Maybe TheReader was hired by Kenneth to clean his house or work on his yard for the summer and Travis (still expected to live there so Kenneth has a close eye on him) finds himself getting fixated on TheReader. Whichever type of story you'd want to do with this Reader x Travis trope is fine with me!

Thank you! (Totally okay for Travis to be insulting towards himself for liking me or be rude directly to me btw, I won't take offense!)

Sure! I'd love to do your request sorry if its a bit late never had a chance to check my inbox!

Request by @lemon-grapejuice

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Coffee shop love

It had been a long week for travis with helping his father in the church, or going to work but he finally had a chance to relax and go out a get coffee.

Walking down the pebbled path of the cafe, a small chim of the bell rang when travis pushed open the blue glass door. The smell of coffee floated about in the air as he walked up to the counter.

"Hello how can I help you!" A young man asked with short brown hair and glasses "I'll have two regular black coffees" Travis said rolling his eyes at the punk style the man was wearing. "Okay! That will be ready soon. can I get your name" "Travis phelps." He said bluntly.

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After getting his coffee and walking home travis sat on his couch thinking about the guy from the coffee shop. Something about him caught travis' attention wether it was his punk style or his pins on the jacket he was wearing but what ever it was it wasn't leaving travis' mind anytime soon.

For the past few weeks travis kept going to the coffee shop for one reason and that was the cashier but he refused to admit that was the reason. "Hello again! A regular black coffees?" (Y/n) said. "Yes...." Travis said grabbing money out of his back pocket. "How come you always come to this coffee shop i can tell you there are way better one...." (y/n) asked.

Travis' face was a slight red as he waited for his coffee to be finished. The more he waited the more he released that the cashier was the reason he kept coming to this shitty coffee shop. It infuriated him every time he thought about it. But he knew there was nothing he could do about his feelings not with his father still hovering over his life all the time....

A/n im sorry its short I just haven't had the motivation to write but really wanted this done

[bluewinnerangel]

hiiiiiiii! I was checking your playlists tag and saw the last hslot 2022 is that one from residencies? and if so is that really a dma song there……….

Hey! First of all I don't think that tag is very consistent but I guess there was an attempt. I unfortunately haven't heard a single word about any of the preshow music played at any of the residencies apart from grapejuice being played before the show of the night of the New York Lesbian Larrie Run. But I want to know about it. I want a list pls🥲 If anyone was there and kept track please send it my way. But I'll try to gather a list of songs through mentions on twitter at some point either way and it will be far from complete but itll be something. Anyway.

The DMA song (And Yep it was The Glow) was heard in Manchester I believe. So before Louis started mentioning it in relation to his new album. I mean they've been doing this over and over ppl just dont pay enough attention to their playlists and song recs. Like (Sorry this is getting ranty) we've known since the beginning of it all they (harry mostly) were putting out .. vibes.. to say the least through posting song lyrics and shit but now we're just not even registering the songs played at their venues and I need some justice for their song reccing pls... think of it this way: if you're an artist.. and your number one passion is music? And you're in a position where you can't directly say all you would want to say? Wouldn't you do it through music? Wouldn't you find those pieces of work that you resonate with or are giving that vibe you wanna transfer onto the people willing to listen or take those songs that are basically claimed by your loved one and just kinda.. put things on your mind out in the open through that? Just. It's all in the music? Like. Pay. Attention. To. Their. Playlists. People.😤

[septembersghost]

Hi again! :) I'm so sorry if this question has been asked before. What are your top McWexler songs? The songs that, when you listen to them, you can't help bu think about Kim and Jimmy?

hi lovely!!! i don't think this has been asked actually - someone asked me for an in-character list, and that one's harder for me to place working from their times and tastes than it is choosing songs that subjectively make me think of them! i have my top five taylor list (which could easily expand to ten), and of course cowboy like me remains thee ultimate song for them. and i mentioned silver springs by fleetwood mac and slow like honey by fiona apple. something stupid probably goes without saying ;___; <3

also! a bit of an aside, but in lantern, when chuck is playing jazz, it's "it never entered my mind" by miles davis, and it was SO eerie to me because frank sinatra's version of that song was already in my head as being very jimmy/kim whenever they might separate, because i think too much about things that make me sad!

so i'll give you five modern ones and five old ones, with apologies that somehow these ended up leaning way towards the melancholy.

♥ hate to be lame - lizzy mcalpine feat. finneas (it's always in the back of my mind/maybe my mistakes are the reason that I made it back to you in time/if i could rewind, would there be some butterfly effect?/what if we never met? what if the stars never aligned?)

♥ grapejuice - harry styles (there's never been someone who's so perfect for me/but I got over it, and I said/"give me somethin' old and red"/I pay for it more than I did back then/there's just no gettin' through without you)

♥ hold out - aly & aj (you know I never meant to be a burden to ya/I never wanna cause you harm/I know what heavy conversation does to ya/I wish I never brought it up at all/but some days, I need a rescue/hey you, if you hear me calling/hey you, if you see me falling/will you catch me?/will you hold out your arms and catch me?/will you catch me?/do you think that you're strong enough?/you always told me that these days would get better/but I'm afraid that you were wrong)

♥ new normal - sasha sloan (wake up alone in an empty bed/it's quiet in the livin' room/go for a drive like we always did, in the middle of the afternoon/havin' a drink at our favorite place like we always used to do/this is my new normal without you)

♥ the louvre - lorde (a rush at the beginning/I get caught up, just for a minute/but lover, you're the one to blame/all that you're doing/can you hear the violence?...our thing progresses/I call and you come through/blow all my friendships to sit in hell with you)

♥ a case of you - joni mitchell (you're in my blood like holy wine/you taste so bitter and so sweet/oh, I could drink a case of you, darling/and I would still be on my feet/I am a lonely painter/I live in a box of paints/I'm frightened by the devil/and I'm drawn to those ones that ain't afraid)

♥ like a lover - brasil '66 (how I envy a cup that knows your lips/let it be me, my love/and a table that feels your fingertips/let it be me, let me be your love/bring an end to the endless days and nights without you)

♥ these foolish things - ella fitzgerald (the winds of march that make my heart a dancer/a telephone that rings but who's to answer/oh, how the ghost of you clings)

♥ you've got a friend - james taylor (or carole king!) (if the sky above you grows dark and full of clouds/and that old north wind begins to blow/keep your head together and call my name out loud/soon you'll hear me knockin' at your door/you just call out my name/and you know, wherever I am/I'll come runnin' to see you again)

♥ two sleepy people - carly simon (here we are, out of cigarettes/holding hands and yawning/see how late it gets/two sleepy people by dawn's early light/and too much in love to say goodnight)

[lavenderdameron]

Happy (belated) Valentine's Day! It's finally time for my Valentunes 2023 playlist for @itsthedamnseason 💗

I'm sorry this took so long, I had it planned ahead of time but then I was not online to post this timely!

I did a lot of blog stalking after I sent that ask about your favorites! First, I decided to name the playlist after a mashup of our usernames, so I landed on Lavender Season! I kept the playlist name in the back of my mind while coming up with a theme for the songs. One thing I noticed in some of the Taylor songs you mentioned liking was a mini recurring theme of flowers! So, based on that I set out to make a playlist of Taylor, 5SOS, pop, and country songs that mention flowers, a specific type of flower, or anything similar! I also added a few generally love/Valentine's Day-themed songs. Some of these songs are from my own favorites so I'm just guessing about whether you'll like them. Songs & explanations will be below the cut!

Lavender Season: A Valentunes Playlist

❤️ by Coldplay, We Are KING and Jacob Collier (aka Human Heart): "Oh my human heart/Night and day and light and dark/Any day it could be torn in half/Only got a human heart"

Back to December by Taylor Swift: "You gave me roses and I left them there to die"

Black and White by Niall Horan: "Yeah, I see us in black and white/Crystal clear on a starlit night/In all your gorgeous colors/I promise that I'll love you for the rest of my life"

Call It What You Want by Taylor Swift: "All my flowers grew back as thorns/Windows boarded up after the storm/He built a fire just to keep me warm"

cherry blossom by Kacey Musgraves: "Early April you walked up to me/Changing colors on city streets/Petals surrounding us in every shade of pink/We happened quickly as humans do/Summer was coming and change was too/Look at me now, I'm falling at your feet"

Clean by Taylor Swift: "The drought was the very worst/When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst"

Comfortable by Alessia Cara: "I'm used to loving slowly/But this time, you already know me/I hope you like all the broken parts"

Dandelion by Kacey Musgraves: "Falling stars and lucky pennies/Have let me down so many times before/And you're just one more/Oh, dandelion"

Defenceless by Louis Tomlinson: "And I'm too tired to be tough/Just wanna be loved by you"

Everything I Didn't Say by 5 Seconds of Summer: "Flowers I should've bought, all the hours I lost/Wish I could bring it back to the start"

Fireproof by One Direction: "'Cause nobody knows you, baby, the way I do/And nobody loves you, baby, the way I do/It's been so long, it's been so long, we must be fireproof"

Grapejuice by Harry Styles: "Yesterday, it finally came, a sunny afternoon/I was on my way to buy some flowers for you/Thought that we could hide away in a corner of the heath/There's never been someone who's so perfect for me"

The Great War by Taylor Swift: "We can plant a memory garden/Say a solemn prayer/Place a poppy in my hair/There's no morning glory/It was war, it wasn't fair"

Hearts Don't Break Around Here by Ed Sheeran: "Took my heart upon a one-way trip/Guess she went wandering off with it/Unlike most women I know/This one will bring it back whole/Daisies, daisies perched upon your forehead"

Lavender Haze by Taylor Swift: "Talk your talk and go viral/I just need this love spiral"

Maroon by Taylor Swift: "You were standing hollow-eyed in the hallway/Carnations you had thought were roses, that's us"

New Year's Day by Taylor Swift: "Don't read the last page/But I stay when you're lost, and I'm scared/And you're turning away"

Seeing Blind by Niall Horan and Maren Morris: "I was young, my heart was always on the run/But you make lovin' fun/I never knew it could be"

Slow Burn by Kacey Musgraves: "You know the bar down the street don't close for an hour/We should take a walk and look at all the flowers"

Sunflower, Vol. 6 by Harry Styles: "Your flowers just died/Plant new seeds in the melody/Let me inside, I wanna get to know you"

Sweet Creature by Harry Styles: "Sweet creature/Running through the garden, oh, where nothing bothered us"

Sweet Nothing by Taylor Swift: "They said the end is coming/Everyone's up to something/I find myself running home to your/Sweet nothings"

Valentine by 5 Seconds of Summer: "Throw balloons, teddy bears and the chocolate eclairs away/Got nothing but love for you, fall more in love every day/Valentine"

Wildflower by 5 Seconds of Summer: "You're the only one who makes me/Every time we/Tell you what I like/My wildflower"

Your Love's Like by Sabrina Carpenter: "It's like flowers in the springtime/Every day is Valentine's/So good, it's hard to describe"

[lets-talk-spirituality]

“You’re always there so don’t overthink”

Sorry I’m struggling with this one,. I always thought grapejuice was a love song to wine haha

Could you do a deeper analysis

Grapejuice analysis

Yesterday, it finally came, a sunny afternoon

What came? A sunny afternoon… good weather, positive mood, warmth, joy

I was on my way to buy some flowers for you (ooh) Thought that we could hide away in a corner of the heath

Okay he’s in a good mood and wants to share it, do something sweet and thoughtful

There's never been someone who's so perfect for me But I got over it and I said "Give me somethin' old and red" I pay for it more than I did back then

So he’s never felt better but he wants to go back to something old, something that hurts him to go back to, something he pays for, he got over feeling like someone’s perfect for him, why? To go back to pain,

hmm two interpretations, one is this happy go lucky daydream world he lives in with the you he buys flowers for and now he’s going back to what he’s comfortable with… reality, “while he plays pretend” back to playing pretend,

that or he’s met someone new but he goes back to what he knows, old and red, something that has been established and he pays for it, what? Waiting on this person, sabotaging new connections because of this one he’s waiting for, the idealization and excitement about someone new and he just “got over it”

There's just no gettin' through Without you A bottle of rouge Just me and you

Getting through what? Playing pretend? He needs alcohol to deal with being away from them, does he feel them with him when he’s drinking wine?

Sittin' in the garden, I'm a couple glasses in, I was tryna count up all the places we've been, You're always there, so don't overthink, I'm so over whites and pinks

If they’re always there with him, then they’ve been all the places he has. He’s saying I’m over lighter and sweeter wines, I want something with more body, flavor, time. To me it’s him saying, I’m ready for the real thing, I want a deep relationship, not casual easy things, you’re always with me so don’t worry or think about the other stuff, what you see, I’m over that anyway, nothing to be worried about

The grape juice blues

He’s feeling sad and lonely and he’s drinking and thinking about love, he’s thinking about what he wants

Now sure maybe it is about wine, totally, from a 3D level, but from a higher perspective it’s basically him saying you’ve always been with me, I don’t want anyone else, I’m waiting, I’m ready.

Y’all behave in my inbox if you ever want me to interpret his lyrics again.

[kitsutaes]

song tag game :-)

rules: list 10 songs you really like, each by a different artist, and then tag 10 people to do the same

tagged by @joonary !! (tenkyew for tagging me, it's been a while since i've done any tag games) these are the songs i've been listening to on repeat for finals week!

死ぬのがいいわ (shinunoga e-wa) - fujii kaze

world’s smallest violin - ajr

it isn’t real - fantasy guys

blunders - the polar boys

grapejuice - harry styles

merry-go-round - sokodomo, zion.t, & wonstein

btbt - b.i

running up that hill - kate bush

hot - seventeen (*sobs* bc hansol <3)

senior skip day - mac miller

tagging: @sketchguk @masterninjacow @gukniverse (that's all i'm tagging bc i don't know who else is active at this point jhdsdbd it's been like a year I'M SORRY)

[falsegoodnight]

Hiii do you know Which songs on the album do you think are about louis and why ?

ahh i think honestly majority of this album is distinctly about loving someone (daylight, daydreaming, little freak, grapejuice, keep driving, etc) and i would go as far as to say it's just a series of love letters :') however, i hesitate to say fully that all of these songs about louis or were written "for" him bc i don't know for sure!! and none of us do, really.

it's kind of hard for outside parties to determine the true meanings behind songs – like, even songs that are clearly and obviously love songs don't necessarily have to be specific yk??? like, i think harry would have someone he loves in mind when writing these lyrics/songs but i'm sure he also draws inspiration from other areas. sometimes a song is just meant to tell a story, not his story. but again, as i said, i'm sure harry often has people in mind when he writes songs, whether it be louis or his friends/family (or himself for songs like "lights up," "boyfriends," etc) and i feel like that influence ends up bleeding into most if not every song he writes by principle (like, when writing about love in any context, you're drawing from your own knowledge/experience/ideas of love which are ofc dependent on the ppl you love) but also that doesn't mean that every single lyric is taken from real life or has meaning beyond sounding nice. or that the actual meaning would be what we expect.

i might be wrong but i think he said "love of my life" was about england and though i originally automatically believed it was about louis, i can also sort of see him writing it about his relationship with england too. who knows, it could be both! the only person who knows the meaning and context of the songs 100% is harry himself!!

sorry, i know this isn't a good answer by any means (i feel like harry in interviews lol) and not what you wanted but just in general i am bad at anything related to song/lyric interpretation so sjskls what about you tho?? 🧐 i'm curious to what you think!!!

[itreachedthatpoint]

My Review of the Leaked Songs on First Listen

Nobody asked for it, and it's been done by others at this point I'm sure, but I ended up live reacting to @mediawhorefics while doing my first listen and I thought I'd share, for those of you who wanna listen to the song later (or only CAN listen to the songs later.) Not that this is gonna be helpful to anyone not in my head because I apparently feel music in scenarios.

I've also linked to a few of my Spotify playlist so you can compare the other songs that are there and get a feel for the mood of the song. Here we go:

Medicine: I know I've been asking for a studio version for a (long) while now but I now realise the error of my ways: what I actually want is a clean live version. Sorry Harry, my bad, as you say in a lot of your song through all your albums: you don't know what you have until you don't. Don't get me wrong: The song is still amazing, the fact that he replaced the audience screaming the missing lyrics with a tease to the missing lyrics is perfect, but also please release a clean live version coz that ENERGY. And I'm someone who mostly prefer studio version over live ones. Medicine is different.

Complicated Freak: makes my rock lover heart very, very happy. It feels like dirty jeans and cigarettes. Old rutty couches and a bunch of friends laughing with a beer in hand. Will go in my tiny Rock playlist even though it's softer a bit than the rest I believe the spirit is the same as those already there.

Baby Honey: So many thoughts about this song. It is. Wow. (also the fact that they both have song that say they miss the other/can't get over them I just... insert the "now kiss" meme) It's the kinda song you play loud in the car with one arm burning outside the window half cooking on the metal door, with the smell of warm car fake leather and yelling the chorus at a red light. Kinda has Carolina vibes in its summer intensity. Going into my In the Summertime playlist for sure.

Boyfriends: the reason why HS3 is available as a record is so you can understand the start of this song. "you love a fool who knows how to get under your skin", man... The song feels like watching your life in 3rd person? I really, really love it. It feels very short even thought it stands at 3:12 minutes. It's like a lullaby, but because of the lyrics it's either a lullaby to ignore the problem of your relationship, or a hug to comfort you when you're near breaking point but just not quite there yet.

Cinema: This is DEFINITELY going to end up as an OST at some point for sure. It's the perfect kind of track for that and the lyrics would match a good few movies, too. I love the yelling in the back "Bring me back to the cinEMAA!" Great song to play pool to.

Daydream: It's a fun son, I really liked to PaPaPaPaPa'd to it, but I think it's just going to be a song I like when it comes in the rotation and not one I would put in my most listened playlists.

Daylight: I really like it, but I can't place it. Probably would go in my Sunday Morning playlist, but it doesn't fit the mood exactly. It's definitely a song to step-dance to throughout the flat while singing the lyrics even if you don't know them. It kinda feels like Fine Line, except not at all. Confusing Song. I like it.

Grapejuice: Good song to vacuum to. Or mindlessly listen to while focusing on writing or drawing. Keeps you in. Will go in my Writing Playlist.

Late Night: Is less for me, personally, but it's a definite style of his that I get why people like it. There's definitely other songs that fits this one in his discography. Good radio song choice.

Keep Driving: Cute song, very carefree, I love it. It sounds like a cooking a brunch together. Another song that is definitely going to be a "oh I like this song!" when it comes into the rotation, while not having it's own spot in to overplayed mood playlists.

Little Freak: If this isn't a Lighter Song I don't know what is. It's so soft and spacey? and also very Smoll. Which is very fitting. Will either go in my Late Night Drive or my Low playlists...

Love of my Life: I looooooove this song. It's a great End-of-the-Night slow dance, even though they don't do those anymore, it's like looking at a dance floor once the lights came back on. It's very bittersweet and I just love it.

Matilda: UGH. fuck. It feels like a song you listen to on a stuffy couch with a blanket over you. Not something I would be listening on repeat unless I'm in this kind of "stuck" mood depersonalized or depression, when you stare into nothing and you just need that one song to function But also the LYRICS fuck. yes yes yes. And it WORKS. Great song. This is the found family song and it does strike that chord, which makes it go into rotation.

Music for Sushi Restaurant: PaaaPa PaaaaPa PaaaaPa Paaaa I like it. It's a very fun song, just like it's title. Not summery enough to go in my In the Summertime playlist, but it might go well in my Sunday Mornings, even though it's slightly more active than most of the songs there. Great song to cook pancakes to.

Satelite: This one is definitely going to go on my Late Night Drive playlist, where all the music that goes around you when you're in that weird state of "being tired but awake and focusing on the road but are you?" go. I really love the lyrics as well, they fit with the mood of the music and it's very vivid of a description. Really ties up with the other songs on the same theme.

[evilovesyou]

Harry's House ⌂

Last night, three hours before the official release of Harry's House, I finally had the peace of mind to listen to it. I can be very particular about listening to new albums — I need to be in the right headspace to receive new information and enjoy something I don't know yet — but it felt important to hear it before it came out officially, somehow. Because at this point I'm 99% sure that's how it was intended.

Without further ado, I will now give you a rundown on the songs from my perspective. Perhaps I will only say things that have been said before, but if I'm lucky, I might have noticed something that hasn't been discussed yet.

Music For a Sushi Restaurant

What a fun start to an album! It's like a soundtrack for a movie about musical theater? Big Heath Ledger serenading Julia Stiles in the stands in 10 Things I Hate About You vibes. He could unironically win Eurovision with this. <3

Late Night Talking

SO. ROMANTIC. Feels like his response to Always You. And he sounds like he's smiling. 🥹

Grapejuice

I think this is my favourite. I've only listened once, but this one made me cry. I was a mess, @chaotic-bells can confirm. My first thought was that he should do asmr. I don't even get those tingly feelings from it, but his whispering in this goes straight to my skull. Ugh. This song. Fuck. He's. SO. IN. LOVE.

As It Was

I obviously had heard this one a bunch before, but I have a thing about listening to albums in order and I'm glad I did it here too. Because right after Grapejuice, this hits kinda different??? It just goes on? Like. It's all about being with someone long-term. I wonder why...

Daylight

The absolute vibes of this song?? Here's my best bet for an original thought: He says something about "life out there" and "bicycles", right? Is that a reference to E.T.? I haven't seen that movie in years but I thought it was kinda funny, especially considering the fandom joke of him being an alien. Is there some Big Gay Thing in E.T.?

When he says "my kitchen" all I can see in front of my mind's eye is him with his little mixing bowl telling a professional chef "get out of my kitchen".

And just. The lyric "You'll be the spoon / Dip you in honey so I could be sticking to you" annihilated me.

Little Freak

He said "Jezebel" and all I could think about was that one Eurovision song and how I'd thought the guy in that was singing "there's a bear"... 🐻🐻

Anyway. I love the lyric "wet dream dangling" and the guitars in this song.

Something about the lyrics and feel of this just reminded me of his relationship with Zayn? I don't think that's what it's actually about. I also know that's #controversial and would take up too much space to explain. I will just leave the thought here.

Matilda

Harry just has this way of writing lyrics that are so evocative?? I had a similar experience listening to She for the first time, where it felt like a series of images flickering in my mind as he was singing. (There's another bit about bikes and flying in here that made me think of E.T. again.)

Using these references and this story to speak about the themes that his chose was so smart! Matilda is just an inherently queer tale, isn't it? It's about being different, finding information you're not supposed to know on your own, being forced into a mould, facing hate, and then overcoming all that and finding your own family. And here we have the second time I cried. When he switches to that falsetto and sings "I knooow" I couldn't contain myself. Because he does know. <3

Cinema

Hearing "darling" out of his mouth... <3

Here I have something to say about how people will take any remotely sexual lyric of Harry's and immediately say it's about a woman. Bells and I talked about this last night. Sorry if this is TMI but I don't "get myself wet" for anything. It just happens. Taking the active action of "getting yourself wet" isn't a thing most women have to do.

(And while we're here let me mention "you lost your head so I'll give you mine" from Complicated Freak. "Giving head" can be used for either gender, but it's generally more common for blowjobs, no? And Watermelon Sugar could be any bodily fluid. Thank you for coming to my TED talk.)

DESPITE ALL THAT!! This song feels innocent? "I just think you're cool / Do you think I'm cool too" ??? That's ADORABLE.

Daydreaming

This song reminds me of something. I think it's an animated movie?? I wrote down Hercules / Emperor's New Groove / Astérix in America vibes???

Keep Driving

It's another one of those very evocative songs. He says something about maple syrup and pancakes for 2 and I can see him in Tim Horton's. This also contains my favourite lyric of the album, which is "sideboob". <3 The concept here just works flawlessly.

Satellite

The beginning of this song gave me absolute goosebumps, and then he somehow makes the whole song spin??? I had my eyes closed and physically got dizzy and a little disoriented with it. That was so cool!

Boyfriends

My very first thought was that the harmonies in this song would sound great if OT5 sang it together.

It feels like this song is a direct line between him and us fans, kind of? Like he's reciprocating the parasocial relationship we have with him... In the way that Louis' dlibyh is a little bit like you have a friend that you can call upon for advice and he's there. Telling you that your boyfriend ain't shit and you deserve better.

Love Of My Life

The expectations for this were big. Love Of My Life by Queen is one of my favourite songs, ever.

The screams at the beginning?? (Around 7 seconds in.) Bells hadn't even noticed them but I heard it and my brain cinema immediately played the slow motion video of Harry and Louis hugging LOL

He said "baby" and my heart melted. He also said "you don't know what's lost til you find it" which reminded me of that Plato quote from the Symposium where he talks about how humans were originally one creature with two heads and four arms and legs and Zeus was so afraid of their power that he split them into to two, forever doomed to be searching for "their other half"...

"And when one of them meets with his other half, the actual half of himself, whether he be a lover of youth or a lover of another sort, the pair are lost in an amazement of love and friendship and intimacy, and one will not be out of the other's sight, as I may say, even for a moment…"

That being said, this song feels almost incomplete? Like he's telling one perspective of a story that has two, like there's a response, another person who lives like him, a second part that's somewhere out there... (I expect to hear it on LT2.)

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All in all: This album is really fun? Like sonically, it feels like something I would listen to when cooking or something that would be on during a dinner party? The kind of music you can have on in the background as you dance around your house, but also the kind of music you might listen to before you go to sleep.

So there we have it. My thoughts and feelings about Harry's House after listening to it for the very first time. I know most of you have talked about it extensively already, but if anyone wants to chat about it, I'm here and new to the party. 🥰 I'm gonna listen to it again now.

[twopoppies]

I haven't read yet the take of loml being about harry but i must say...it is heartbreaking for me that we don't all agree it is about louis to be honest because for me that is the greatest purest love song i mean the lyrics!! take you with me every time i go away!! baby!! I'm a bit sad sorry I want to think about them lovey dovey every time i listen to the song 🥺

What songs from hs3 do you think are definitely about louis? Or do you think maybe there is not an entirely song about him but more like lyrics in different songs about him?

Well, I think if that's how you read the song, then that's okay. There's no right answer here (except that it's not about Olivia, Camille, Kendall etc etc).

I don't have any definites, because I actually haven't spent time really looking at the lyrics. But right now I feel like Satellite, Daylight, and Keep Driving feel the most about them. But also maybe Grapejuice, maybe Cinema (baby boyfriends), maybe Late Night Talking (although what I heard about the music video made it sound like it was about private life vs public scrutiny) .

@indiaalphawhiskey floated the idea to me that maybe Boyfriends is written from the POV of Patrick's My Policeman character and I've been sitting with that and thinking about it.

Matilda seems like it's about the LGBTQ+ experience. I love the hypothesis that LOML is about the loss of privacy. Music For A Sushi Restaurant I can't quite figure out. Little Freak seems possibly about gender. Daydreaming I'm not sure.

This is all very much an initial impression. I'm still listening, still thinking, and very much look forward to seeing what, if anything, H will say about the songs.

[spencersmagic]

can we talk about how most all artists have developed their creative voice through the pandemic and the other horrible, life-changing things we've gone through? it's bittersweet, but so beautiful at the same time, to see my favs expressing themselves in such unique ways.

billie went from being purple to golden, harry is writing such sweet, coffee-shop-y, 90s soft disco/indie music, rosalia wrote a freaking collage instead of an album, mitski is getting louder in some strange way...

here's my opinion of harry's house:

music for a sushi restaurant: felt very 90s video game energy. i woke up and the first thing i did was listen to this, and i want to set it as my alarm. i would wake up with a smile on my face, ready to complete my little tasks of the day.

late night talking: i really just wanted to get up and dance. the harmonies are amazing. just. wow.

grapejuice: right off the bat, i'm horny. it's a hot song. H de horny, de harry, de "here i am: comeme todo el grapejuice". i want to have sex to it. the counting? my insides are twirly. but it's also weirdly romantic? like, we know, harry. you've had sex and it feels great.

as it was: disco crying. it feels like sobbing in the floor of a narrow bathroom at a party hosted by someone who hasn't acknowledged you all night. you can try to fool us with the jumping, fun music video but we know the truth. it's sad.

daylight: the lyrics. he's on the roof and they are on an airplane???? he's trying to reach them. i'm crying. also at 1:05 when the drums come in???? it feels so helpless. he's trying so hard. + the ending? devastating.

little freak: you're walking out of the bathroom at a party after crying. tear-streaked, lights everywhere but on you. you're insignificant. little do you know, someone is watching you as you look down to your feet. they're forcing their twitching hands to stay still, and if they don't concentrate hard enough, their body might just intuitively reach to you.

matilda: sobbing in big sister. literally, crying in the library in front of the books i study for everybody but myself. "you don't have to be sorry for doing it on your own". also that 7th on the outro?? goosebumps. i am a new person after listening to matilda.

cinema: okay i was definitely spiraling and this is the best. i can't wait to get the vinyl and listen to this at 2am. "do you think i'm cool too, or am i too into you?". that's it. the adlibs on the last 45 seconds. i'm alone this evening at home, and i'm definitely going to scream the adlibs. pray for the neighbours.

daydreaming: okay harry we get it. you're good at sex. you're a romantic guy.

keep driving: summer. listening to this song after failing my drivers test. driving in a convertible with a bandana on your hair, eyes closed and arms in the sky, laughing with your whole chest. did he just say side-boob? as he should.

satellite: bo burnham spiraling vibes. it's so bittersweet. you know when you're hanging out with a friend and someone they know comes up and starts talking to them? and you're standing on the side, waiting to be interesting enough to resume whatever you were doing? like a satellite.

boyfriends: i genuinely don't give a shit about harry's sexuality, but i hope he finds peace. now, onto the commentary. men are trash. it's vulnerability, it's trying over and over again. what's worse: it's asking him to try. it's him dismissing you. it's confusion. this one broke me.

love of my life: again - the harmonies??? hyperventilating rn, and im not even joking. a love letter. AAAAAH THE PIANO THINGY. I'M SHAKING. THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL.

[septembersghost]

I really hate that people reduce harry's house success by saying it has 'nothing important to say'. It was the perfect pop album from 2022 that captured our mindset from quarantine perfectly without tiring us. He said everything someone who was locked in his house for 1-2 years would say. When he spent so much time alone he spiralled into self loathing(AIW)He reminisced about his old flames. We find out some was a cute what if (little freak) while some left a permanent mark(satellite,grapejuice, daylight). We see him falling in love as if a calm against the storm(LNT,cinema). We see him longing for emotional connection (daydreaming). We see him being scared for his career(MFASR). We see him missing his home(Loml). We see him trying to ignore noises and look for bright side(Keep driving). He reminds us to spread love and be more empathetic towards struggling ones(Matilda). We even have him giving us love advices he usually gives on tour(boyfriends). Like if that doesn't sum up a quarantine experience idk what will! Plus he covered all those grounds without making even one song out of place. Music is supposed to be enjoyable and connect with us which he nailed.

(Inspired by a recent debate with someone. The way people diminish his work is so annoying to me)

okay hi bestie, this message is great, and i'm sorry you got me on overwhelmed by Takes That Make Me Angry and Sad On Multiple Topics day, but i actually have something beyond "ignore annoying people, you know what you love!" to add to this!

there's a curious thesis statement buried in as it was: nothing to say, when everything gets in the way.

it does not mean he actually has nothing to say, and funnily enough this is more relevant now after my feeling of overwhelmedness and not knowing how to help or assuage people's hurt today - sometimes things are just so much, you don't know where to start, and you spiral in those darker and heavier thoughts. everything else gets in the way of your clarity, your heart. all you feel like you can do is sit on the floor before you work through it.

i take certain umbrage with the idea that music simply must have a Deep Poetic Meaning for it to matter in general, because sometimes you just want to enjoy it and vibe and there is nothing wrong with that!, but sometimes people also demand meaning in a sense that's actually missing what's there. certain listeners seemed to pin an idea of this being his folklore onto it and then were disappointed, but that wasn't his goal. he was creating his OWN tapestry of that period of time, his experience, his sonic landscape, and the emotional effect that's intended is very different. the album does precisely what it sets out to do, that's the cool thing about it! that's the achievement and what makes it such an enjoyable and comforting listen.

i love your breakdown of the purpose and reason for all the tracks here and could not agree more.

Like if that doesn't sum up a quarantine experience idk what will! Plus he covered all those grounds without making even one song out of place. Music is supposed to be enjoyable and connect with us which he nailed. this is exactly it, and i feel like we're so lucky to have that and to have clicked into it and found the melancholy and the loneliness and the joy and the escapism in the world of that record. 💛💛💛