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warpfactor9 · 2 months ago
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finest officers in the fleet, everybody
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bitegore · 9 months ago
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okay i cant focus for sht so im just gonna lay down and work on some stupid writing bullshit instead of trying to do my assignment. everyone cheer and clap or something
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antigonewinchester · 2 years ago
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the refusal to see Jack's agency and his making choices is also why people misread "Moriah," imo. which I've never talked about specifically so here's my read of the end of S14:
Jack burns off his soul to save Sam/Dean/Cas & kill Michael, thereby losing his moral compass; he kills Mary because he can't handle her disapproval of his killing Nick and the future disapproval of Sam & Dean; he realizes he's made a big mistake, tries to fix it, and can't (because ultimately death is final and everyone dies); he goes to visit his grandparents because he wants their approval/love and they reject him too, but instead of lashing out like he did with Mary, he runs away. talking with Cas in the graveyard, Jack laments that he keeps hurt people & making mistakes, and faces up to that reality. then, when Dean arrives, Jack doesn't lash out or run away. Jack still has his powers; he could've teleported somewhere else, or taken the gun from Dean, or even attacked him, but he doesn't. instead, Jack is willing to face Dean and his judgement, face up to his own mistakes, even if it means his death...
meanwhile Dean is grieving Mary's death, upset that maybe if they'd known something was up with Jack they could've helped him before it got to this point. Dean's also grappling with the fact that he was the one who originally unleashed Michael, using his power to save Sam and Jack; that he & Sam were the ones who brought Jack back by using the power of Jack's own soul, which he then burned off saving them all from Michael; and that if Dean had gotten into the Mal'ak box like he'd wanted to, Jack wouldn't have lost his soul and Mary would still be alive. the last thing Dean saw Jack do was attack him, Sam, and Cas -- after Jack got out of the Ma'lak box, he could've just teleported away, but instead he attacks them angrily first -- and for all that Dean knows, that's still how Jack is reacting: lashing out and hurting people with his powers. and if Jack is capable of preventing the whole world from lying, how many people could he kill if he lashed out against the world itself? someone has to stop Jack before he hurts or kills millions or even billions of people...
but at the graveyard, Dean doesn't see a Jack who's angry or violent or lashing out. he sees Jack choose not to attack him even when he learns Dean is there to kill him! Jack says he understands, acknowledges what he's done, says he knows he's a monster... except would a monster choose to die so he wouldn't hurt anyone else? if Dean kills Jack, he also kills himself; if he condemns Jack as a monster, he condemns himself as one too; and if Jack has chosen mercy, if Jack has put down his metaphorical gun, can't Dean put down his literal one?
and Dean does.
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genderoutlaws · 2 months ago
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whats your beef with the public universal friend? /lh
oh sorry not a fun or lighthearted answer at all but to be real them and their church were regressive christian colonizers, the Society of Universal Friends went from being intermediary between the Haudenosaunee and the developing US government leading up to the US annexation of six nations lands, and then were some of the first to settle that annexed land
edit cuz sorry i hate being that guy just saying shit, heres several sources
https://blue-stocking.org.uk/2019/06/14/an-agender-american-evangelist-the-public-universal-friend/
https://archive.org/details/pioneerprophetes00wisb/page/n10/mode/1up
https://www.jstor.org/stable/24474871?read-now=1&seq=25#page_scan_tab_contents
https://wrldrels.org/2022/03/22/the-public-universal-friend/
https://openpub.udel.edu/read/unsettling-sexuality/section/d7fbccb1-71e1-45f8-8e72-be0f1716c829
and another one that i cant find but will add later cuz my adhd hyperfocus brain is latching on to this specific quaker adjacent apocalypse cult for some reason and still reading more n comparing accounts hfjdjd
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twintailedsiren · 1 month ago
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A Scythian goddess on Apulian vases
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These are five vases likely showing the elusive Scythian ancestral goddess. 
I love the floral imagery, but I’m also frustrated that I can’t find much information about the tendril-limbed female figures. I’m fairly certain that these images, aside from the siren, depict the Scythian ancestral goddess, but I can’t find any art historians who specifically discuss the figures. I’ve found several articles that talk about the vases in general, but they only focus on the flowing vines and the main scenes, not on the likely Scythian deity herself.
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Apulian red-figure oinoche, about 350-320 BCE. Photo by courtesy of Dr. Matthias Recke, University of Giessen, Antikensammlung Museum. Photo via Peter on Flickr.
This vase could also be a siren, the lovely singers of Homeric fame. While the other Scythian goddesses only have wings, this woman has bird feet. Sirens were bird-bodied women to ancient Greek artists. However, this siren is unusual as her tail feathers curl out on either side of her, like the Scythian ancestral goddess’s tails do.
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Apulian Red-Figure Loutrophoros about 330 B.C. Attributed to the Painter of Louvre MNB 1148 (Greek (Apulian), active 350 - 330 B.C.) Info from Getty Museum.
This woman has wings, a basket on her head like the Vergina mosaics of the Scythian goddess, and a dress like the Carytids in the Thracian Tomb of Sveshtari, Bulgaria, except her upper body is topless. The lower part of the vase shows the mourning of Niobe.
The figure is described but not identified in: Occasional Papers on Antiquities, Greek Vases In The J Paul Getty Museum. An Apulian Loutrophoros Representing the Tantalidae. By A.D. Trendall. 1985. Pages 140-41, fig, 14.
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Winged woman with tendrils, likely the Scythian goddess. Apulian red-figure vase, about 340 BCE, Varrese Painter; Antikensammlung Kiel, inventory number B 724. Picture taken by Marcus Cyron via Wikipedia.
This woman also has wings, a basket on her head, and the distinctive curling chiton dress like other Scythian goddess figures wear. She’s mentioned in the article “Half-Human Half-Vegetal Hybrids in Eastern Mosaics” which does talk about Scythian goddess imagery, but the author doesn’t specify that this is an image of the Scythian goddess.
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Likely Scythian goddess, Baltimore painter, loutrophoros with wedding scenes, about 325-320 BCE. Matera, Museo Archeologico Nazionale. Photos via Saiko on Wikipedia.
Our next goddess has a different style dress, and much more elaborate tendrils— but she also has wings and perhaps a basket on her head. It’s interesting that most of these goddesses have bare toros, as she Scythian goddess is usually shown with a full dress.
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We also have a confirmation that this imagery is related to the Scythia goddess, in an article on her imagery:
“The female winged deity with lower part of the body resembling a palmette or acanthus leaves is a widespread image on Apulian vases. Two characteristic examples are the “Niobe” amphora (4th century BCE) from Naples, featuring an aedicula stepping on a base decorated with several such figures (20) Fig 7 and a case which was sold at Christie’s in 1979, dated to the last decades of the 4th century BC.” (Valeva 1995.)
This article could be referring to the Getty vase, as they're both showing scenes with Niobe. Image from Baggio 2013.
The figures are also described in a chapter about Scythian goddess imagery, by Ustinova, on page 103:
“In Italy, the chthonic symbolism of this goddess was conspicuous: on an amphora from Neapolis, featuring a Niobids-scene, Niobe is portrayed in a naiskos, its foundation decorated with a group of tendril-limbed winged figures, calathi on their heads (Curtius 1958: fig. 33).
Update: I found one more example of this motif on a vase here.
Sources.
Valeva, Julia. “Valeva-1995 The Sveshtari Figures (An Attempt to Specify Several Hypotheses).” Thracia 11, Studia in honorem Alexandri Fol, Sofia. (1995): n. pag. Print.
DERWAEL, Stéphanie. “Half-Human Half-Vegetal Hybrids in Eastern Mosaics.” Journal of Mosaic Research, no. 16, 2023, pp. 89–110, https://doi.org/10.26658/jmr.1376718.
Heuer, Keely. “Tenacious Tendrils: Replicating Nature in South Italian Vase Painting.” Arts, vol. 8, no. 2, 2019, p. 71, https://doi.org/10.3390/arts8020071
Baggio, Monica. “Sistemi Di Immagini, Sistemi Di Oggetti Le Loutrophoroi Del Pittore Di Baltimora.” Cahiers « Mondes Anciens », no. 4, 2013, https://doi.org/10.4000/mondesanciens.1072.
Ustinova, Yulia. The Supreme Gods of the Bosporan Kingdom: Celestial Aphrodite and the Most High God. Boston: Leiden, 1999. 
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xcusememrdickens · 6 days ago
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One of the things that exists at the forefront my personal Outsiders canon is that Soda’s always exhausted at the end of the day bc he’s so fidgety and a million places at once and a mile a minute that the second he lays down he’s done for
Source—the following book excerpts:
“Sodapop, who had already jumped into bed by this time, yelled sleepily for me to turn off the light…” (page 14)
“Sodapop was stretched out on the sofa, sound asleep.” (Page 42)
“Soda must have pulled my shoes and shirt off for me…He must have been too sleepy to undress himself, though.” (Page 87)
“Soda was dead to the world.” (Page 92)
“He put his head in Darry’s lap and went to sleep.” (Page 84)
(And the part where they hardly sleep while pony is gone and then he almost cuts himself with a razor so Darry sends him to bed) (page 134)
I feel this is just so important to me. Bros so sleepy
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seospicybin · 2 months ago
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EVERMORE.
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CHAPTER I
Bangchan x reader x Hyunjin. (s,f,a)
EVERMORE MASTERLIST
Synopsis: When your daughter’s wedding weekend brings you, a former it-girl and Chris, a legendary rockstar back under one roof, the two of you must navigate old memories, unexpected feelings, and the chaos of family. As laughter, love, and a hint of scandal unfold, you're both reminded that some love stories don’t end—they just change shape. (22,8k words)
Author's note: I suggest reading this with an open heart and let it take you places ♡
Chris Bang Shares the Sweetest Surprise: “My Baby Girl’s Getting Married” July 14, 2024 — by Peter Han. Rock legend Chris Bang, frontman of the iconic ‘90s band Bang Theory, shocked fans this weekend—not with a surprise single, but with something far more personal: his daughter Tigerlily is engaged. The 47-year-old musician shared the news on his private Instagram, posting a rare father-daughter photo with the caption: “She used to hold my hand crossing the street, now she’s holding someone else’s. My baby girl’s getting married. God help him.” The post quickly went viral as fans poured in their congratulations (and nostalgia), remembering Tigerlily as the tiny girl who used to appear backstage during Bang Theory’s heyday. Sources close to the family say Chris has known about the engagement for months and has been "surprisingly chill" about it—though insiders claim he gave Julian, the lucky fiancé, “the talk” every overprotective dad dreams of delivering. “He’s proud,” said a longtime friend of the singer. “Even if he grumbles a lot, you can tell he’s thrilled for her.” Tigerlily, an illustrator and low-key darling of the city's creative scene, has kept the relationship mostly private. The engagement ring, however, is anything but. Fans spotted the vintage cut diamond a few weeks back—sparking early speculation that something big was coming. As for wedding details? Chris joked in an interview last month, “I’ll be there in a tux, crying into my whiskey.” We wouldn’t expect anything less.
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The sun filters gently through the windows of the little bakery-slash-café Tigerlily picked for the cake tasting, its soft golden glow casting a peaceful warmth over the morning. You're perched beside her at a small round table near the corner, notebooks open, samples of cake laid out like precious little treasures on delicate porcelain plates.
It’s surreal, watching her like this—flipping through pages of catering options, seriously contemplating between lavender shortbread cookies and chocolate-dipped biscotti for the wedding favors. She’s focused, her brow furrowed slightly, her pen tapping her chin.
“You’re taking this very seriously,” you tease, breaking off a corner of sponge cake to taste.
She glances at you, mock-offended. “Of course I am. This is the cake. The most important cake I’ll ever have.”
You laugh softly, and she smiles, biting into a piece of vanilla almond before shaking her head. “Not this one. Too sweet.”
You nod, agreeing. “The buttercream’s nice though.”
“I’ll make a note of that,” she says, scribbling a little star next to it in her notebook.
The morning rolls on like that—cake tastings, discussions about savory vs. sweet hors d’oeuvres, the pros and cons of giving out mini olive oil bottles as favors. Eventually, the two of you take a break, coffees in hand, sitting outside the shop under the early spring sun.
Tigerlily leans back in her chair and studies you for a moment, sipping her latte. “You’re glowing.”
You raise a brow, pretending not to know what she’s talking about. “It’s the buttercream.”
She squints at you, unconvinced. “No. It’s something else. You’re… happy. Like, really happy. Did something happen?”
You offer her a vague smile, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. “I don’t know. Maybe I’m just enjoying today.”
Tigerlily gives you a look that says she knows you better than that, but she doesn’t push. “Well, whatever it is, I like it. You look like someone who just remembered what it feels like to be a little selfish with your joy.”
You chuckle under your breath. “Maybe I am.”
She bumps her shoulder against yours. “Good. Keep doing that.”
You glance at her, your heart warm. “And you keep remembering that your wedding cake is supposed to make you happy.”
She laughs, and just like that, the moment folds itself gently back into the rhythm of the day—the two of you turning back to menus and ribbon swatches, sipping coffee in the sun, wrapped in the easy intimacy of mothers and daughters, quietly grateful for how love, in all its forms, continues to find its way back to you.
Back home, the sun has dipped behind the hills, casting a warm golden hue through the kitchen windows. The scent of garlic sizzling in olive oil fills the air, mingling with the sound of music playing in the background. You’re chopping tomatoes while Tigerlily stirs something in the pan, humming to the music, her movements fluid and light.
There’s something peaceful about this moment. The simple rhythm of cooking side by side, the way your conversation flows in and out of silence so easily—like waves, effortless and familiar.
“You know,” Tigerlily starts as she grates cheese over a bowl, “I love when we do this. Just the two of us in the kitchen. Feels like home.”
You smile, sliding the chopped tomatoes into a bowl. “It is home.”
She glances at you, a soft look in her eyes. “You’ve seemed… happier lately.”
You raise a brow. “You said that earlier.”
“I know,” she says, turning back to the stove, “but now I can really see it. The way you move, the way you talk—it’s like there’s a little spark in you again.”
You pause, stirring the basil into the sauce, trying not to smile. “Maybe I’m just excited about your wedding.”
Tigerlily grins, not buying it. “Maybe. Or maybe it has something to do with a certain someone...?”
You let out a soft laugh. “You don’t give up, do you?”
“Not when I think something—or someone—is making you happy.” She leans her hip against the counter, watching you carefully. “You don’t have to tell me everything. But… does he make you feel good?”
Your hands slow as you stir. You glance up at her, thoughtful. “I guess... yeah.”
Tigerlily nods, her voice gentle. “Then I think that’s enough. For now.”
You reach out, brushing a loose strand of hair behind her ear like you used to when she was a little girl. “You’re wise beyond your years.”
“Thank you. I get it from my mom,” she says with a smirk.
There’s a knock on the door just as you’re draining the pasta, steam rising up in curls. You glance toward the front of the house, wiping your hands on a towel.
“That must be Julian,” Tigerlily says, already untying her apron. “Can you check the sauce for a second?”
“On it,” you call after her, giving the pot a little stir as you hear the front door open.
But instead of the familiar laughter or a fiancé’s greeting, there’s a pause. Then you hear Tigerlily’s voice float back, tinged with surprise, “Oh. Hi.”
You lean around the doorway just in time to see her stepping aside, revealing Hyunjin standing at the door. He’s holding a brown cardboard box. His white shirt clings faintly from the warmth outside, sleeves rolled up, and he looks as casual as ever—until his eyes find you.
“I just came by to drop this off,” he says, lifting the box a little. “Your pottery piece. It’s done. I figured I’d bring it over before I forgot.”
Your lips pull into a smile without you even realizing it. “That’s really kind of you.”
Tigerlily glances between the two of you. And then, casually, with the slyest little smile tugging at her lips, she says, “Well, Hyunjin. Since you’re here… why don’t you join us for dinner?”
Hyunjin looks at her, then at you—his eyes searching for an answer in yours. You give him a subtle nod, soft and encouraging. He smiles, just a hint shy, like he wasn’t sure he was allowed to be this lucky. “Yeah. I'd love to.”
Tigerlily beams, already heading back into the kitchen. “Hope you like pasta.”
You take a step toward him, meeting him halfway to take the box from his hands. Your fingers brush briefly. “Thank you. For bringing this.”
His voice dips low as he smiles, “I figured you’d want to see how beautiful it turned out.”
You raise an eyebrow, playful. “The pottery or the delivery guy?”
Hyunjin chuckles, slow and warm. “Both, I hope.”
And you’re smiling again—because how could you not?
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The three of you settle around the dining table, plates filled with steaming pasta and roasted vegetables. The mood is light, cozy, laughter from the kitchen trailing into the soft hum of music playing from the speaker in the corner.
Tigerlily reaches for the cardboard box Hyunjin had placed on the table earlier. “Is this it?” she asks, already opening the lid.
You nod, twirling your fork. “Don’t expect too much.”
But when she pulls out the finished plate, her eyes go wide with delight. “Wait—this is actually beautiful! Mom, you made this?”
“She did,” Hyunjin says proudly, his voice warm. “First try too.”
Tigerlily turns to you, mouth parted in disbelief. “When did you even make this?”
Hyunjin answers before you can. “A few days ago. In my studio.”
There’s a glint in his eye, a teasing edge to his grin as he throws a quick wink your way. “She was… very committed. Focused. Hands-on.”
You nearly choke on your wine at the innuendo hidden in his voice, shooting him a warning look. He only smirks deeper, clearly enjoying himself.
Tigerlily squints suspiciously between the two of you. “Wait. What kind of pottery class was this exactly—?”
A knock at the door cuts her off.
“That must be Julian,” she says, hopping up from her chair and leaving the room.
As soon as she’s out of earshot, Hyunjin leans in slightly, his fingers brushing yours under the table before gently, confidently, slipping into your hand. The warmth of his palm is grounding, calming.
You glance at him, heart skipping as he quietly says, “Don’t worry. Your secret’s safe with me.”
You hear the front door open, Tigerlily’s bright laugh greeting Julian as they come inside. And still, under the table, Hyunjin doesn’t let go.
Julian’s eyes widen the moment he sees Hyunjin sitting at the table. “Oh! I didn’t know our best man joining dinner tonight.”
Hyunjin rises slightly from his seat, giving Julian a quick hug. “I was lured in with the smell of pasta.”
Julian chuckles and teases, “And by my girlfriend's mom, apparently?”
You shake your head and give Julian a playful glare. “Julian, please, just sit down,” you tell him.
The food is warm and comforting, and conversation flows easily. Most of it stays light—talk of flower arrangements, DJ options, the pros and cons of buffets versus plated dinners. Julian and Tigerlily finish each other’s sentences more than once, making you smile. You feel Hyunjin’s thumb brush gently along your palm under the table. It’s barely noticeable, but grounding.
Then, somewhere between the second glass of wine and the tiramisu being passed around, Tigerlily turns to you. “Hey, Mom… what was your wedding like?”
You pause, surprised by the question.
Tigerlily shrugs. “You never really talk about it. I mean… you and Dad. Did you do a big thing?”
You exchange a quick glance with Hyunjin before shaking your head. “No. No big thing.”
Julian tilts his head, curious now too. “Really?”
You smile faintly, brushing your fingers around the rim of your glass. “Chris and I got married on a whim. It was… spontaneous. We were both young and in love and reckless. He was on tour. We were somewhere in between cities—I don’t even remember where exactly—and we just decided to do it.”
Tigerlily blinks. “Just like that?”
“We found this little church. We had a very small, quiet ceremony. No guests. No dress. Just the two of us, the band members and a couple of strangers as witnesses.”
There’s a quiet that falls over the table. Not heavy, just thoughtful. You hesitate a little before glancing at Hyunjin, unsure of how he might take hearing all this. Would he think you were careless? Impulsive? Too much of the past still tangled in you?
But he’s already looking at you and he’s smiling. Soft. Warm. Reassuring. Then you feel it—his fingers wrap gently around yours beneath the table, giving your hand a tender squeeze. It tells you everything you need to hear. That he sees you. That your past doesn’t scare him. That he’s still here.
Tigerlily breaks the silence with a gentle sigh. “That’s kinda romantic though.”
Julian laughs and nods. “Very rock-n-roll.”
Hyunjin doesn’t say anything. He just continues to hold your hand quietly, letting his thumb trace slow, soothing lines across your skin.
The night eventually comes to an end and you send everyone on their way out of your house. Tigerlily gives you a warm hug followed by a kiss to your cheek and Julian takes his turn next.
“Dinner was perfect,” he says. “Thank you again.”
You smile, eyes flicking toward Hyunjin, who lingers just behind them. When it’s his turn, you can feel the air shift—your body naturally leaning toward him, instinct ready to close the space for a hug. But you stop yourself. Tigerlily is right there. And you’re not ready. Not just yet.
Hyunjin seems to understand, offering you a simple smile instead as he says, “Goodnight.”
“Goodnight,” you echo, softer than you meant to.
He turns to walk toward his car, and you watch him go, your chest tightening with each step he takes away.
“Hyunjin,” you call out before you can stop yourself.
He turns, brows slightly lifted in surprise. “Yes?”
“I—” You hesitate, then clear your throat. “I need you to help me with something. Inside.”
He tilts his head, confused but nods. “Sure.”
Just as he starts walking back toward you, Tigerlily and Julian pull out of the driveway. She rolls the window down, grinning and waving at you. You lift your hand, wave back. Only when their headlights disappear into the night, do you step back inside and hold the door open for him.
Hyunjin steps in after you. “What can I help you with?”
You close the door behind him and immediately turn on your heel. Without a word, you reach for him and kiss him. His body stills at first, caught off guard—but only for a second. Then he’s kissing you back, his hands catching your waist, pulling you closer.
When you finally break the kiss, breath shallow and cheeks flushed, you whisper, “It was just an excuse. I couldn’t— I'm too embarrassed to kiss you in front of Tigerlily. Or Julian.”
Hyunjin stares at you for a moment, his lips curling into a grin. “So you made me come back inside for that?”
You smile, a little embarrassed. “Yes.”
He chuckles once, low and warm in his chest—and then he’s spinning you around, your back pressing into the door with a soft thud as his body finds yours again. He cups your jaw and leans in, lips brushing yours as he murmurs, “Next time, you don’t need an excuse.”
Your back is still pressed against the door, lips tingling from the kiss Hyunjin just stole, when he leans in again, cupping your jaw and kissing you once more—slower this time, like he wants to memorize the feel of your mouth. You respond instinctively, hands slipping up his chest, fingers curling into the soft fabric of his shirt.
Time feels suspended. The only sound is the quiet hum of the night and the soft breaths exchanged between kisses, one melting into another as if neither of you wants to let go just yet. But eventually, you gently press your hands to his chest, letting your forehead rest against his.
“It’s getting late,” you whisper, voice low and reluctant.
He pauses for a second, lips barely brushing yours, before pulling back with a soft chuckle. “So it is,” he mutters, still close, eyes half-lidded with affection. “And I should be a gentleman and go home.”
You laugh, nodding as you slide your hands down to rest at your sides. “That would be the noble thing to do.”
He doesn’t move just yet. Instead, he brushes a few strands of hair away from your face, his fingers grazing your cheek as he tucks it gently behind your ear. He holds it there for a second, like he’s framing your face with his gaze alone.
“Goodnight,” he says, softly, as if saying it too loud might break the moment.
“Goodnight,” you echo, your voice just as tender.
He leans in and kisses you again—just once this time. Soft, warm, brief. Then he steps back, slowly pulling himself away like it physically pains him to leave.
You watch him walk out, the door clicking shut behind him. And for a long moment after, you stay where you are, heart full, smile lingering.
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The bridal shop smells faintly of fresh flowers and fabric softener, and the soft classical music in the background sets a dreamy tone. You sit on a plush ivory chair, sipping on complimentary tea, watching as Tigerlily disappears behind a curtain with a stylist and a few dresses in her arms. You're looking at the shop catalog when Tigerlily pulls back the curtain and steps out in her first gown.
You gasp, mouth hanging open and unable to say anything until a moment later. “Oh, sweetheart,” you say, standing up with a hand over your chest. “You look like a dream.”
She spins slightly, admiring herself in the mirror. “It’s nice, right? But I think we can go bigger,” she grins, already cueing the stylist to bring the next one.
The two of you only have one hour and a half to try the dresses and Tigerlily makes a good use of the time by trying everything that suits her style. She slips into the fourth dress with a glimmer in her eyes—and this time, when she steps out, she doesn't say a word.
You inhale sharply. “Oh…”
She stands tall in the mirror, draped in delicate lace and layers of flowing silk. The bodice hugs her perfectly, the train trailing behind her like a soft whisper. She turns toward you, a little breathless herself. “I think this is it,” she says quietly.
You nod, trying not to get emotional. “You look… perfect. Oh, my goodness!”
The stylist hands her a veil, and as soon as it's pinned to her hair, the both of you lock eyes—and tear up.
“Okay,” Tigerlily says, wiping at her cheeks, “that’s enough of me for now.”
You laugh. “What do you mean? You’re the bride.”
“Yeah, yeah. But we’ve got time left in our session, and we’re not leaving until you try something on.”
You blink. “Me?”
“Yes, you. We need to find your dress too. And you’re not showing up to my wedding in some boring beige thing off a department rack. You’re trying on dresses, Mom.”
Before you can protest, the stylist is already leading you to a different rack—sophisticated, elegant evening gowns in rich tones and luxurious fabrics.
“I can’t believe I let you talk me into this,” you mutter as she zips you into a soft lilac number.
Tigerlily laughs and pulls out her phone. “Hold still,” she says, already dialing.
You hear a familiar voice on the screen. “What’s going on?” Chris’s face pops up, framed by what looks like a dressing room backstage.
“We’re at the bridal shop. Look what I made Mom do,” Tigerlily grins as she turns the camera toward you.
Chris’s eyes widen dramatically. “Whoa. Okay. Okay—hold on, are we sure you’re not the one getting married?”
You roll your eyes, smoothing the fabric down your sides. “Don’t be ridiculous.”
“I’m serious. You look—” he whistles low, “—absolutely stunning.”
You feel a small blush creep up your cheeks. “Stop it.”
“She’s trying to upstage me,” Tigerlily deadpans to the phone. “I knew it.”
Chris laughs. “I mean… if anyone could, it’s her. That dress? Ten out of ten.”
You glance at yourself in the mirror and smile softly. “It’s been a while since I wore something like this.”
“You should wear things like that more often,” Chris says through the screen, his voice quieter now. “It suits you.”
And though the moment is playful, there’s a quiet sincerity in his tone—and Tigerlily catches it too. She glances between the two of you, her eyes softening, but she says nothing. “Alright,” she chirps after a beat. “We’re gonna keep playing dress-up, I’ll call you later, Dad.”
“Bye, sweetheart. Bye, stunning mystery woman,” Chris teases as he waves.
You roll your eyes again but can’t stop smiling as the call ends.
“Okay,” Tigerlily says, arms crossed as she eyes your reflection. “We’re getting that one.”
By the time the two of you pull up in front of your house, the sky is blushing with the colors of early sunset. You unbuckle your seatbelt, still smiling from the day you've had.
“Thanks for today,” you tell her, reaching over to squeeze her hand.
“Don’t thank me yet,” she grins, reaching into the back seat. “I’ve got something for you.”
You narrow your eyes as she plops a glossy pink box with a silk ribbon into your lap. “What’s this?”
“Just open it.”
You untie the ribbon and lift the lid. Nestled inside are some fun bachelorette party essentials—mini champagne bottle, a personalized satin robe with your name embroidered on it, a face mask, a little card that says Bride Squad, and a gold foil invitation.
You lift your gaze to her, amused. “Tigerlily.”
She’s already looking at you with big, hopeful eyes. “I want you to come to the bachelorette party.”
You blink. “No. Absolutely not. That’s your night to go wild with your friends. I’m not—this—look at this,” you hold up the robe, “I’m too old for this.”
“You are not too old,” she says with a huff. “And even if you were, I don’t care. You’re still my best girl. I want you there.”
“Tigerlily, sweetheart, you’re supposed to drink questionable cocktails out of straws shaped like—”
“—Don’t finish that sentence,” she says quickly, then grins. “But yes. And you’re coming.”
You chuckle, shaking your head. “You should be partying with your bridesmaids, not your mother.”
“I want both,” she insists, wrapping her arms around your shoulder. “Please? It won’t be all chaos, I promise. It’ll be fun, just us girls, nothing crazy. Just come and be part of it. For me, please?”
You sigh, already losing the battle. “You’re impossible to say no to, you know that?”
She beams, leaning in to kiss your cheek. “That’s the point.”
You look down at the robe in your hands again and let out a soft laugh. “Fine. I’ll come.”
Tigerlily cheers and hugs you tight, rocking you side to side in her excitement.
As you step out of the car and wave her off, you stand at your front door for a moment, still holding the box. Your smile lingers. The robe, the invite, the day you just had—it all makes you feel like you’re slowly stepping into something new, not just for her, but for yourself, too.
-
Hyunjin’s studio is warm with late afternoon light filtering through the tall windows, casting soft golden hues over the clay-splattered floor. The two of you are standing at the workbench, sleeves rolled up, aprons on, fingers already dusted in fine powder.
"You know," Hyunjin says, handing you a neatly portioned piece of clay, "we should make something that fits together. Like puzzle mugs."
You raise an eyebrow. "Puzzle mugs?"
"Yeah," he grins. "Like, yours has a little curve and mine has a little bump and they fit together when we put them side by side."
Hyunjin is an artist yet he suggests something silly like this, you can't help but chuckle at it. “You’re such a romantic.”
“I'm not ashamed to admit it,” he says, leaning in to bump his shoulder lightly against yours.
You just smile, settling in at the wheel as he sets up beside you. As you begin shaping your mug, Hyunjin watches you like a hawk—only under the guise of being your personal instructor.
"Your fingers are too tense," he murmurs after a while, stepping behind you.
"I think I'm doing just fine," you say, even though you secretly enjoy it when he helps you.
"Let me help you," he says anyway, his hands gently slipping over yours as he guides the movement. His chest brushes your back, warm and steady, and his voice is low in your ear. "There... see? Perfect."
You’re pretty sure he just wanted an excuse to be close. “You know,” you tease, glancing over your shoulder at him, “I’m starting to think you just like hovering.”
“What gave it away?” he smirks, not even trying to deny it. Then he leans in and presses a soft kiss to your cheek, lips lingering just a second longer than necessary.
You try to return to focusing on your mug, but every time you settle back into your work, he finds another excuse to touch—helping you fix the handle, brushing clay from your cheek, nudging your hip with his playfully. And each time, he steals a kiss. A peck on the temple. A brush along your jaw. One, right at the corner of your lips that almost makes you drop your clay.
“Hyunjin,” you warn softly, fighting back a smile.
“What?” he says innocently, grinning like the devil as he presses another kiss to the back of your neck. “I’m just helping.”
“You’re distracting.”
“Exactly,” he says, and finally leans in to steal a proper kiss—gentle, warm, slow. His lips taste faintly of the coffee you shared earlier and his hands settle at your hips like they belong there. When he finally pulls away, you’re both smiling, cheeks flushed, hearts beating just a little faster.
The studio hums with a quiet kind of satisfaction—the kind that comes after creating something with your hands, something just yours. You wipe your hands on your apron and step away from the wheel, wandering toward the shelves that line the studio walls. His latest pieces are perched there—soft-glazed bowls, sculptural vases with rippling textures, experimental forms that look like they’re breathing.
You tilt your head, admiring them, fingers tracing the air just above their surface. “I see that you’ve been busy,” you murmur.
From behind you, you feel the slow, steady presence of Hyunjin as he steps close. Then his arms slip around your waist, pulling you gently back against him. His chest warm against your spine. You smile without even realizing it.
“I had inspiration,” he says into your neck, his voice low, his breath teasing your skin.
You turn your head slightly, your body already reacting to the soft press of his lips just beneath your ear. He places another kiss just under your jaw, then another lower, slower, right where your pulse flutters. Your breath hitches.
“Hyunjin…” you whisper, but it comes out less like a warning and more like a sigh.
“Mhm?” His mouth is still at your neck, smiling against your skin.
You tilt your head a little more—partly to tease, partly because you can’t help it—and he takes it as invitation. One hand stays curled around your waist, the other slides along your hip, and when he finally turns your head toward him, his lips find yours in a kiss that starts soft but deepens quickly. His mouth moves with slow purpose, like he has all the time in the world, like he wants to taste every part of you.
When you finally pull back, just enough to breathe, his forehead leans against yours and he murmurs, “I could stay like this forever.”
Your hand comes up to rest against his cheek, your thumb brushing the clay-smudged skin there. “We’d have to eat eventually.”
Hyunjin chuckles, his dimples flashing. “Only if we eat from the couple plates we made.”
You smile, caught in the bubble of this quiet, golden moment, his arms still holding you close. And somehow, even in the silence, you can feel the beat of something new beginning—carefully, naturally, without needing to rush.
Hyunjin's arms are still wrapped around you when he leans in, lips brushing your cheek in a gentle kiss that makes your heart flutter. “Let's go somewhere this weekend,” he murmurs. “Just us. Somewhere quiet. Somewhere far.”
You turn your head to look at him, and he’s already smiling—eyes filled with that kind of mischief and affection that always seems to undo you. You open your mouth to answer, but your thoughts momentarily scatter at the sight of his beautiful face so close to yours, lit with the fading light and warm contentment. You almost forget what you were trying to say.
“I can’t,” you finally manage, with a soft, apologetic laugh. “I have Tigerlily’s bachelorette party this weekend.”
Hyunjin’s smile falters into a playful frown, his brows drawing together. “So… you’re going to have fun without me?”
You nod slowly, teasing. “Exactly.”
He scoffs, mock offended. “What if you meet someone younger and prettier than me?”
You give him a long, dramatic look. “Younger, maybe. But prettier?” You shake your head. “Impossible.”
Hyunjin bursts into laughter, his dimples showing as he grins wide. “You’re so biased.”
“Only a little,” you say, brushing your thumb gently over his cheek. “And you have the bachelor's party too, right?”
He hums, then leans his forehead against yours, his voice dipping lower. “Still… I’d rather be alone with you.”
You smile, cupping his jaw. “It’s just for the weekend.”
Hyunjin groans quietly, burying his face into the crook of your neck like a sulking child. “I miss you already.”
You laugh, soft and breathy, your fingers tangling in his hair as you hold him there. “We’re literally together right now.”
“Not the same,” he mutters, his voice muffled against your skin.
You let your eyes fall closed for a moment, just savoring the closeness, the way your body molds into his so naturally. It’s been a long time since you felt this light, this wanted—this adored. And the truth is, you’re starting to miss him already too.
He rests his chin lightly on your shoulder, the curve of his smile brushing against your skin. You place your hands over his, but then slowly turn in his embrace to face him. His eyes are soft, searching. And in that moment, with his face so close, his hands so gentle on your waist, your heart swells—too full, too fast.
“Hyunjin,” you begin, your voice barely above a whisper, “I need to say something.”
He straightens, listening and he holds your gaze, giving you all of his attention.
“These feelings between us…” you take a breath, “they’re strong. Maybe a little too strong sometimes. They make it hard to think clearly.”
His brows knit just slightly, not in worry—just in quiet attention.
You continue, “When I was younger, I rushed into things. I followed my heart blindly because that’s what you do when you’re young, right? But now... I’ve learned. I don’t want to make the same mistakes.”
His expression softens even more, lips parting slightly as he listens.
“I want to do this right,” you say. “I want to take things slow. I need you to understand that.”
For a moment, he says nothing. Just watches you, his eyes unreadable. Then, slowly, he nods. “I understand,” he says softly.
Your chest loosens with a breath you didn’t know you were holding. And then a smile curves at the corner of his mouth—playful and warm.
“I can do slow,” he says, tilting his head as his thumb brushes lightly along your waist. “But just so you know... I’m still going to kiss you every chance I get.”
You laugh, a soft, breathy sound, because of course he’d say something like that.
“But only after I ask,” he adds with a wink, “like a gentleman.”
You roll your eyes, but your heart flutters anyway. Slow, you think. Yes. But that doesn’t mean it can’t still feel like falling.
-
The bachelorette weekend takes you to a vibrant coastal city, the kind that pulses with energy even before the sun sets. Tigerlily books a gorgeous suite for herself, her closest friends, and you—even if you keep joking that you're the designated chaperone.
But she’s not having that. “You’re not my mom tonight,” she says as she tosses a glittery, body-hugging dress onto the bed in front of you. “You’re my hot bestie. Now get changed.”
You laugh, holding up the dress. “You do realize I’m going to need a chiropractor after this.”
“You’ll need a shot, not a chiropractor,” she grins, already pulling on her heels. “Come on. Let’s have fun.”
The club is loud, crowded, and alive. Music throbs through the walls, and the lights flicker in time with your heartbeat. Tigerlily's friends are instantly swept onto the dance floor, but you take your time at the bar, ordering a drink just to ease into the chaos.
As you wait, a man—mid-thirties, maybe younger—leans on the bar beside you. “Let me guess,” he says, eyeing you with a slow smile, “you’re not from around here.”
You arch a brow. “That obvious?”
“In a good way,” he says smoothly. “You’ve got this whole... mysterious elegance thing going on.”
You chuckle, amused but not buying it. “Mysterious elegance, huh?”
Before he can continue, Tigerlily appears at your side like she’s been watching the whole thing. She slides her arm through yours and grins at the guy. “Sorry, she’s taken.”
You sputter a little. “Am I?”
“You are tonight,” she replies without missing a beat, already dragging you back toward the dance floor.
“Was that necessary?” you ask, laughing.
“Absolutely. That man looked like he was about to write you poetry.”
You shake your head, but you're smiling. “I still got it?”
Tigerlily bumps her hip against yours. “You never lost it.”
The two of you dance. And for the first time in a long while, you let go. You laugh until your cheeks hurt, sway to the beat, sip cocktails with sparkly straws, and feel a version of yourself you haven’t seen in years stretch awake. And you realize—you're not just doing this for Tigerlily anymore. You’re doing it for you.
Despite Tigerlily’s words saying that you’re not the chaperone. That tonight, you're just one of the girls. But the second the night winds down and heels start coming off, the music now just a low thump in the background of your ears, your maternal instinct takes over like second nature.
You count heads and then guide swaying bodies down the hallway of the hotel. One by one, you get them to their rooms—someone’s missing a phone, another forgot their keycard—but you manage. You always do.
Tigerlily is last. She's clutching onto your arm, half-laughing, half-mumbling something about how the room keeps spinning. She can barely walk straight, so you wrap an arm around her waist and hold her steady.
"You’re so bossy when you're sober," she slurs, giggling into your shoulder.
"I’m always bossy. Sober or not," you mutter fondly, helping her into the room.
You ease her down onto the bed and begin unlacing her heels. She flops back dramatically with a groan, like the soft sheets have defeated her.
“No sleeping until you drink this,” you say, pressing a cold glass of water to her lips.
She takes a few sips, grumbling. “You're worse than Julian.”
You smile and gently pull a blanket over her. "Duh! I'm your mother."
Once her breathing evens out and you’re sure she’s asleep, you head to the bathroom to wash off the night. The cool water feels good against your flushed cheeks, and by the time you’ve changed into a loose shirt and shorts, your feet are aching, and sleep is calling. Sighing to yourself that you're indeed too old for this.
You slip under the covers beside her. The hotel bed is wide and soft, and for a moment, you stare up at the ceiling, thinking about how tonight felt like a glimpse into another life. A little wild. A little young. A little free.
Tigerlily mumbles something in her sleep and shifts closer, curling into your side like she used to as a kid after a nightmare. You smile, gently smoothing her hair.
"My girl’s getting married," you whisper to the dark, a little in awe of it all.
You're just about to doze off when your phone vibrates on the nightstand, the screen lighting up with Hyunjin’s name. Your heart does that little skip it always does when it’s him.
You answer quietly, voice soft in the dim hotel room. “Hi.”
“Hi,” he says, and even through the phone, you can hear the smile in his voice. “Did I wake you?”
“Not yet,” you whisper, glancing at Tigerlily snoring softly beside you. “I just got into bed.”
“I miss you,” he says without hesitation.
You smile. “You just called me this afternoon.”
“Yeah, and that was already too long ago,” he murmurs. “How was the party?”
You sigh, rolling onto your back. “Loud. Wild. There was a lot of dancing, a lot of drinking. Oh—and a couple of guys tried to flirt with me at the bar.”
There’s a beat of silence, then—“What?”
You bite your lip, already amused.
Hyunjin groans dramatically. “Were they cute?”
“Hmm… not really my type.”
He scoffs. “So you have a type?”
You let out a soft laugh. “Apparently, yes.”
“Let me guess. Tall. Buzzcut hair. Has paint or clay on his hands at all times. Annoyingly charming.”
You grin into the darkness. “Sounds familiar.”
“I can’t believe you let someone else talk to you,” he mutters, pouting so hard you can practically hear it.
“You’re so dramatic.”
“I’m possessive,” he corrects, “and jealous. And currently imagining you in a crowded club looking way too good while I’m stuck thinking about you while everyone else is having fun at Julian’s bachelor party.”
You shake your head, heart fluttering. “You have nothing to worry about. I spent the second half of the night chaperoning drunk girls to their rooms. I’m pretty sure that killed the vibe for everyone.”
He groans again. “Why are you like this? So good. So angelic.”
You roll your eyes, but you’re smiling. “I’m not that good.”
“You are,” he says, quieter this time. “You’re kind. You take care of everyone. You have no idea how rare that is.”
There’s a pause. You blink up at the ceiling. “Are you drunk?” you tease, voice softening.
“No,” he says, “Maybe, but also... stupid in love.”
You hold yourself back from smiling but in the next second, you catch yourself doing it on the reflection on the mirror.
“I miss kissing you,” he says suddenly. “I miss the taste of your lips. I keep thinking about it. How long until I get to do that again?”
You go quiet, warmth blooming in your chest, spreading slow and tender. “I miss you too,” you finally say.
He hums. “Do you think about kissing me too?”
You bite your bottom lip and smile to yourself. “Goodnight, Hyunjin.”
“Oh, come on—”
“Sleep well.”
“I’m imagining it anyway,” he says, smirking through the phone.
“Bye,” you laugh, and hang up before he can say anything else.
You set your phone down, heart beating fast, and lie there in the dark for a long moment—grinning like a teenager, feeling like one too. God, you missed this feeling.
-
The energy is electric in Tigerlily’s suite tonight. The whole room glows under soft, warm lights and the scent of vanilla candles mingles with the sugary sweetness of the cakes piled high on the coffee table. Laughter bounces off the walls as music plays low from a speaker tucked in the corner.
You’re all dressed in matching silk pajamas—rosy blush pink with embroidered initials on the pocket, courtesy of Tigerlily, of course. The fabric is smooth against your skin, the kind of luxury that makes you feel girlish and a little silly, but it’s infectious.
Someone pops another bottle of champagne and the fizz makes everyone cheer. Flutes are constantly being topped up, hands full of chocolate truffles and strawberry cupcakes, and someone just declared it was time for a group selfie with whipped cream on their nose.
Tigerlily is glowing in the middle of it all, a tiara nestled into her soft waves and a sash that reads BRIDE TO BE draped over her shoulder. She looks at you from across the room with her eyes sparkling, and you smile back, shaking your head fondly as you take another sip of your drink.
“Come on, you’re not getting out of this,” one of her friends laughs, dragging you toward the bed where they’re setting up for a game of “Truth or Dare.”
“I thought I was just here to supervise,” you tease, sliding onto the edge of the mattress.
“Not tonight,” Tigerlily grins, sitting next to you and leaning her head on your shoulder. “Tonight, you’re one of the girls.”
You feel warm—not from the champagne, but from the comfort of being surrounded by joy. It’s been a while since you’ve had a night like this.
You narrow your eyes at her and say, “Truth”
A collective gasp and a series of excited giggles erupt from the circle of girls, and one of Tigerlily’s friends—a bold one named Minji—leans forward with a mischievous grin. “Okay then,” she says, eyes gleaming. “Since it’s all girls here and we’re already past tipsy, we want to know—how was the sexual chemistry between you and The Chris Bang?”
The room explodes into shrieks and laughter.
You blink, caught completely off guard. “Excuse me?” you choke out, a flush rising up your neck.
“You picked Truth!” Tigerlily sings, covering her face in secondhand embarrassment.
You laugh, flustered but not backing down. “Are we really doing this?”
“Rules are rules!” someone shouts.
You glance at Tigerlily, who is already groaning into a pillow. “I’m only answering this to scar my daughter for life,” you say dramatically, and everyone howls with laughter.
You pause for effect, taking a sip of your champagne with a smirk. “Let’s just say… every night was a new adventure and Tigerlily’s dad is a very skilled lover.”
A wave of delighted squeals and gasps ripple through the room.
“OH MY GOD!” Tigerlily yells, throwing the pillow at you while everyone collapses into laughter. “MOM, NO! I didn’t need to hear that!”
You can barely breathe from laughing so hard. “You asked for it!”
Minji claps her hands gleefully. “Best answer of the night. I have no regrets.”
You and Tigerlily are both flustered—her from horror, you from champagne and the sheer chaos of the moment—but the laughter is infectious.
The room softens as the champagne bottles empty and the sugar rush fades into warm, lazy giggles. The lights are dimmed now, casting a golden glow over the suite as everyone lounges on the fluffy rug or leans into the plush pillows scattered across the floor. One of the girls starts playing soft music in the background, and someone else—Juni, you think—sighs dreamily.
“Okay, okay,” she says, tipping her empty glass toward Tigerlily, “before I start crying for real—can we talk about how lucky we are to know this woman?”
A chorus of “yes” follows, and the room starts to glow with something softer than champagne.
They take turns—each of them sharing stories. Some are sweet, like the time Tigerlily stayed up all night helping a friend through a breakup. Some are silly, like the time she tried to impress a guy at a party and ended up slipping on her own drink. And some… are a little wilder.
“She once went skinny dipping once and almost got caught by hotel security,” Minji blurts out.
“MINJI!” Tigerlily yells, lunging for a pillow.
Everyone’s laughing again, and in the middle of it, Tigerlily covers your ears with both hands. “You didn’t hear that,” she says, eyes wide with mock horror.
“Oh, I definitely heard it,” you say, smiling as she pouts and hides her face.
More stories come, even more heartfelt ones. Her friends talk about how fiercely loyal she is, how she’s always been the glue that holds everyone together, how she lights up every room she walks into. And the whole time, you sit there beside her, watching her cheeks flush pink, her eyes glimmering from the emotions threatening to spill over.
At some point, she leans into your side and links her arm with yours. “I love them so much,” she whispers, voice soft and sleepy.
You press a kiss to her temple. “They love you just as much.”
It’s warm, the kind of warmth that settles in your bones. For a second, everything else fades—the wedding, the planning, even Hyunjin—and all that remains is this moment, your daughter surrounded by love, and you sitting right next to her, proud and full-hearted.
-
The suite is quiet once everyone have left. The laughter has faded into soft snore and the occasional rustle of satin against sheets. You and Tigerlily are curled up on the bed, wrapped in a cozy tangle of blankets and the lingering scent of champagne and cake. Her head rests against your shoulder, her breath warm and slow, still tinged with the sleepiness of wine and emotion. She murmurs something incoherent, and you chuckle softly, reaching up to remove the little sparkling tiara still resting askew on her head.
“There,” you whisper, placing it gently on the bedside table. “Queen of the night, now ready to sleep.”
She hums in response, eyes barely open, and you run your fingers gently through her hair, brushing it back from her face the way you used to when she was a child falling asleep in your lap. For a moment, the years blur — she’s no longer the grown woman about to become a bride, but your baby again. Just your little girl.
Then her voice comes again, quieter this time, like a secret unfurling in the dark. “Mom, do you know the real reason I brought you on this trip?” she asks.
You smile, looking down at her. “Why don’t you tell me, honey?”
She shifts, propping herself up on an elbow, her eyes glossy now, shimmering in the low light. “Because after you told me how you didn’t even get a real wedding with Dad, I realized… this is your first time too. First time doing all of this. First time experiencing... life.”
You open your mouth to say something, but she’s not done. “I started thinking about how much you missed. You had me when you were barely older than I am now. And while everyone else your age was out discovering the world, you were raising one.”
Her voice cracks, and she blinks fast, but the tears slip out anyway. “You missed a lot, Mom.”
You reach up and gently cup her cheek, brushing a tear away with your thumb. “Maybe. But I also gained more than I ever thought I could.”
She looks at you, really looks, her heart in her throat.
“I wouldn’t change a thing,” you continue, voice steady despite the lump forming in your chest. “If I had a chance to do it all over again, I’d still choose this life. I’d still choose you. You were never the thing I missed out on — you were the gift. The best one I’ve ever had.”
That’s when she breaks, she buries her face into your chest, arms wrapping around you tightly as her sobs come freely now. Her words are muffled, broken between sniffles and hiccups.
“Thank you,” she cries, “thank you for being my mom. For everything. For always being there.”
You hold her close, your arms strong around her trembling frame, your lips pressed gently to her hair.
“And I thank you,” you whisper, “for being mine. For choosing me back. You’ll always be my baby. Even when you’re someone’s wife. Even when you’re old and gray. You’ll always be my little cub… my Tigerlily.”
She cries harder at that, and you let her. You stroke her hair, her back, hold her like you did when she was small and scared of thunderstorms.
“I love you so much, baby,” you murmur as you kiss the top of her head.
And in the hush of that hotel room, surrounded by the remnants of a celebration, you feel it — the profound, unshakable bond between mother and daughter. One that no wedding, no passage of time, not even the miles of growing up, can ever change.
-
The taxi pulls away from the curb, and you stand in front of your house, suitcase in hand, the night air brushing cool against your skin. The neighborhood is quiet, the kind of silence that seeps into your bones after a long trip. You unlock the door and step inside, greeted by the familiar hum of home—and the stillness that now feels a little too heavy.
You set your bags down by the door, slipping your shoes off as your gaze sweeps across the dimly lit living room. It should feel comforting to be home, but the silence echoes strangely. Maybe it’s the way the weekend had been so full of life, of laughter, of your daughter’s arms wrapped around you, her voice in your ear. Maybe it’s the realization that her wedding is only a week away. One week until she starts a new chapter—without you at the center of it.
You sigh, about to head to the bedroom when your phone rings. Your heart lifts the moment you see his name on the screen. Hyunjin. You answer with a tired smile. “Hey.”
His voice comes through warm and eager, “Are you home?”
“Yeah,” you say, confused but already softening.
“That’s great,” he replies, and you can hear the grin in his voice. “Because I’m outside.”
“What?” But you’re already moving, already making your way back to the front door, heart kicking in your chest. You pull it open and there he is.
Standing on your porch in the glow of the porch light, hands in the pockets of his coat, smile stretched across his beautiful face. “Hi,” he says, gentle and breathless.
You don’t even think. You throw yourself at him and he catches you with a laugh, wrapping his arms tightly around you, the kind of embrace that grounds you instantly. Your face buries into the crook of his neck, and you breathe him in — warm and familiar, like something you've been missing without realizing.
Later, the two of you are curled up on the couch, mugs of coffee in hand, the glow from a single lamp painting the room in soft gold. You’ve traded your travel clothes for something more comfortable, and Hyunjin hasn’t left your side since you walked through the door.
“I brought you something,” he says with a spark in his eyes, reaching for the small box he placed on the coffee table earlier. You tilt your head as he opens it and pulls out two perfectly shaped mugs. The couple mugs you made together in his studio.
You take one gently, brushing your thumb over the glaze. His signature artistic touches are there—little swirling patterns on the handle, the bottom rim etched with a tiny heart. The craftsmanship is beautiful, but it’s the meaning that steals your breath.
“Hyunjin… they’re beautiful.”
He grins. “I know. You’re getting pretty good at this, you know.”
You raise a brow. “You’re just saying that.”
“No, I’m serious. You’re a natural.” He plucks your mug from your hand and places it beside its twin on the kitchen counter. “And I want you to keep them here.”
“Here?”
He shrugs, slipping his arm around your shoulders as he comes back to sit beside you. “Yeah. This is where they belong. With you.”
You blink at him, lips parting. He offers you a sheepish smile, like it’s nothing. But to you, it’s everything. You lean into his warmth, head resting on his shoulder as the steam from the coffee curls in the air between you.
“How was the trip?” he asks softly, his hand running gentle strokes up and down your arm.
You exhale slowly, gaze fixed on the steam rising from your mug. “It was fun. Loud. Chaotic. A little overwhelming.” You chuckle. “Tigerlily made me dance at a club. Can you imagine?”
He smiles into your hair. “I can. And I bet you were stunning.”
You laugh, shaking your head before your voice turns quieter. “But it wasn’t just the party. There was this moment… with Tigerlily. Just us, after everyone left. And in a week… she’s getting married. She’s starting her life.”
Hyunjin listens, pulling you closer, fingers lacing with yours.
“And when I came home… it just hit me. The silence. The shift. Like something changed and I didn’t realize how final it was until I walked in that door.”
He doesn’t speak for a moment, just lets you rest against him, his breath steady and grounding. Then he whispers, “It’s okay to feel that. Change is hard. Even good change. But it doesn’t mean you’re losing anything.”
Your throat tightens at that, your eyes stinging again, but not in a bad way.
Hyunjin lifts your hand and kisses your knuckles. “You’re not empty. You’re evolving. And I’ll be here. Through every version.”
You look up at him, heart aching in the best way. “You always know what to say.”
“I just say what I feel,” he says with a soft smile. “And what I feel is... I’m really glad you’re home.”
You press a kiss to his cheek, lingering there for a moment longer than you need to. “Me too.”
The soft lull of the evening hums in the background—rain patters lightly outside the window, and the room is quiet except for the gentle clink of mugs being set aside. You’re still nestled in Hyunjin’s arms when he tilts your chin up, searching your eyes. His thumb brushes across your cheek as he leans in to kiss you.
It starts slow—familiar and warm, like finding something you didn’t know you missed. But the way he presses into you speaks of how much he’s been holding back. You feel it in the way his hand cups the side of your face, in the way his lips part against yours, deeper, more certain.
“I missed you,” he whispers in between kisses. “So much.”
Your breath catches as his mouth moves again, softer now, teasing. “I kept thinking about kissing you like this…” His lips brush against yours again. “Touching you again…” Another kiss, slower this time, more drawn out. “And now I can’t stop.”
It’s dizzying—the way he says it, the way he shows it with every breath, every brush of his hands on your waist, your back, your hips. You clutch the front of his sweater, kissing him back just as fiercely, tasting the longing that matches your own. But as it grows, so does the awareness in your chest—the deep pull of trust, of something safe and real building between you.
You slow the kiss, your hands rising to cup his face, and you look at him—really look at him. His lips are swollen, eyes dark with affection and something more primal, but his expression softens when he sees the look in yours. “Hyunjin,” you breathe out. “Do you… want to stay over tonight?”
A silence settles for a moment, but only because he's searching your face for meaning. Then, the corners of his lips curl up into a gentle, knowing smile. “Yeah,” he says softly. “I’d really like that.”
He kisses you once more—slow, tender, unhurried now. Like he understands what this means. Like he’s willing to hold it all gently.vAnd in the safety of that moment, with his arms around you and the warmth of his smile pressed against your lips, you realize—Maybe it’s time. Not to rush. But to let yourself be loved.
-
The rain has settled into a soft rhythm outside your window, a hushed lullaby that fills the silence between you and Hyunjin as you lie tangled together in the quiet of your bedroom. The lights are dim, casting everything in amber warmth, and his body is curved around yours like he’s meant to be there—one arm draped across your waist, his fingers tracing absent-minded shapes along your hip. His voice is low and soft when he speaks. “It’s raining.”
You smile, your cheek pressed gently against his chest. “It was raining the night Tigerlily was born,” you murmur, nostalgia coating your words. “The heaviest rain I’ve ever heard. I remember thinking it was the sky weeping with joy.”
Hyunjin hums, brushing your hair back behind your ear as he listens. “Tell me everything,” he says quietly. “Tell me what it was like. Tell me about you. About the parts of you I haven’t met yet.”
You tilt your head slightly, meeting his gaze. He’s looking at you like he wants to memorize it all. So you tell him. About your favorite book as a teenager. About the first concert you ever went to. About how you decided to not go to university and went to auditions instead. About the coffee shop you used to write books in. About the day you found out you were pregnant and how you cried, terrified and overwhelmed but already in love. About how motherhood changed you. About how you still feel like that twenty-something girl sometimes—just trying to figure it out. He listens to every word, never interrupting, never pulling away. His fingers draw lazy circles on your arm, and you can feel the quiet weight of his attention.
You smile softly after a while, your voice dipping into playful territory. “So... do all of that make you rethink this? About me?”
He turns his face into your hair, chuckling. “It makes me love you more.”
And just like that, the moment stills. You shift to look at him, propping yourself up on your elbow as you search his face. “You said it,” you whisper, a bit stunned.
“I did,” he says, not missing a beat. His voice is calm but sure, eyes steady on yours. “I know we’re taking it slow. And I’ll go as slow as you need me to. But that won’t stop how I feel about you. I can’t help it.”
He reaches out, cradling your cheek in his hand. “I love you.”
The words land in your chest like a heartbeat. Warm and undeniable. And then he leans in, kissing you like he means it—with depth, with tenderness, with the weight of every quiet, growing feeling he’s been carrying since the moment he met you. His thumb strokes your cheek as your lips move together, and the sound of the rain outside continues like a hymn for something sacred blooming between you. In this moment, you believe him. You believe in this. You believe in love—again.
The rain is still falling outside, a soft, steady backdrop to the way his body settles closer, his hands moving over the curves of your waist, the dip of your hip. He kisses you again, deeper this time, and his hand slips beneath the hem of your nightdress, starting to inch it upward when you stop him with a quiet touch to his wrist.
“Wait,” you breathe, your voice barely above a whisper.
Hyunjin pauses instantly, eyes flicking up to meet yours, concern etching into his brows. “What is it?”
You swallow, your hand still wrapped gently around his wrist. “I’m not what you think I am,” you murmur, heart beating too fast. “I’m not young anymore, Hyunjin. My body’s not perfect. I have lines, softness, marks from time. I just—” You hesitate, searching for words. “I don’t want you to be disappointed.”
For a second, there’s only the sound of rain and your breath between you. Then he smiles. That beautiful, slow, devastating smile that always seems to unravel something inside you. He leans in, brushing a soft kiss to your lips, then your cheek, then your jaw.
“You think I don’t see you?” he says gently, voice low, threaded with something that feels close to awe. “I see all of you. I’ve seen you laugh, cry, carry the weight of the world with grace. I’ve seen you fall apart and still be strong. And you’re beautiful. So beautiful to me.”
Your chest tightens, something deep and old melting at his words.
Hyunjin lifts your chin so you’re looking at him, really looking. His gaze is steady, sincere. “Let me see you,” he says softly. “All of you.”
And with trembling breath, you nod. Your fingers let go of his wrist, and Hyunjin helps you out of your nightdress with patient care, not like he’s undressing you, but like he’s unveiling something precious. When you're bare beneath him, you brace yourself—but he only looks at you like you’re the most breathtaking thing he’s ever laid eyes on. His hands move gently over your skin, warm and grounding, and then he leans down to kiss you again—slow, deep, filled with everything words can’t hold.
In his touch, in his gaze, you feel it: desire, yes, but also reverence. Love. A quiet promise that he sees you—not just your body, but your story. Your soul. All of you. And to him, you are beautiful.
Hyunjin takes his time with you—like he’s memorizing every inch of your skin, every shiver and sigh. His lips meet yours in a deep, lingering kiss that makes your heart ache in the most exquisite way, and when he pulls back, he trails kisses along your jaw, your neck, your collarbone. Every touch feels like a vow.
“You’re so beautiful,” he whispers, the warmth of his breath dancing over your skin. “I’ve dreamed about this. About you.”
His mouth moves lower, over the slope of your chest, down to the valley between your breasts, his hands cradling you gently as if you might break. He pauses just long enough to look at you again, like he wants to be sure you're still with him, still saying yes—and when you nod, he smiles and continues, kissing down your ribs, your stomach, slow and reverent.
He murmurs sweet things between kisses. “You don’t even know how you look to me,” he says, his voice hushed, like a secret he’s only brave enough to share now. “You’re out of this world. You’re art.”
When he reaches your hips, his fingers ghost over your sides, grounding and careful, his lips brushing the sensitive skin there. Then further—over your thighs, your inner thighs, where his kisses turn softer, slower, like he’s worshiping the very idea of you. And then, like a final act of devotion, he kneels and lifts your foot gently, pressing a kiss to your ankle, then to the inside of your calf, like there’s no part of you undeserving of love. You feel your breath catch in your throat. Not from arousal—though that coils steadily too—but from the overwhelming way he sees you. All of you. And still chooses to love every part.
As he makes his way back up to you, his eyes meet yours again, tender and warm. “I want to know everything about you,” he says, his voice barely above a whisper. “Every scar, every story, every soft place you’re afraid to show.”
And when he kisses you again, it feels like surrender—but the safe kind. The kind where you let yourself be seen and loved, completely.
Hyunjin flashes you a smile before he disappears between your thighs like he’s slipping into a world made only of you. His hands settle on your hips with a kind of tenderness that makes your chest ache, grounding you as his mouth begins its slow, deliberate worship on your pulsating cunt. Every flick of his tongue on your clit is thoughtful, every kiss between the folds is reverent. He’s not just trying to please you—he’s trying to learn you, to know you and you’re unraveling beneath him. But still, you’re quiet. Holding your breath. Biting your lip to keep any sounds at bay, your fingers curling into the sheets instead of his hair.
Hyunjin notices so he lifts his head, lips slick and eyes dark with adoration and something deeper—hunger, yes, but also love. “Why are you being quiet?” he asks softly, teasingly. “You think I don’t want to hear you?”
Your breath stutters as you look at him and he leans up just slightly, presses a kiss to your inner thigh. “Let them out,” he murmurs. “All those beautiful noises you’re holding back—I want to hear them. All of them.”
Your pulse thrums in your ears then he lowers himself again with a smile that’s both wicked and gentle. And when he starts again, landing his plush lips on your drenching core, slower this time, more insistent, you don’t hold back. And Hyunjin—he hums his satisfaction against your skin like it’s his favorite sound in the world.
It doesn't take long for Hyunjin’s skilled mouth to take you where you need to. You fall apart beneath him—trembling, gasping, your fingers tangled in the sheets as waves of pleasure roll through you. He doesn’t stop running his tongue between your wet folds until you’re completely undone, your body twitching with the aftershocks, your breath ragged and uneven.
Only then does he pull away, slowly, languidly, as if savoring the last taste of you. There’s a smug little smirk tugging at his lips as he rises, and the look in his eyes—it’s all heat and devotion, mischief laced with reverence.
You’re still catching your breath when he leans over you again, his mouth brushing yours. The kiss is unhurried, deep, and when your tongue meets his, you taste yourself on him—warm, intimate, dizzying. He groans softly against your lips. “Thank you,” he murmurs, voice low and wrecked. “For coming so beautifully like that for me.” His eyes flicker over your face, lips brushing yours again. “You taste so good, I already want another.”
You let out a soft, breathy laugh, your body still buzzing from the high, your fingers curling into his hair as you pull him in for another kiss, and you’ve never felt so wanted, so seen completely his.
After a while, Hyunjin sits back on his knees, eyes locked with yours, his breathing still uneven. Without a word, he reaches for the hem of his shirt and pulls it over his head in one smooth motion. His skin glows under the soft light, golden and lean, the shadows carving definition along his chest, his arms, the delicate lines of muscle and bone that move with each breath. He watches you watch him, a slow, knowing smile spreading across his face as he unbuttons his pants, not rushed, letting every movement stretch, deliberate and teasing. Piece by piece, he undresses for you—until there's nothing left between you. Then he leans down, his hands bracing on either side of your body as he hovers over you once more, heat radiating from him as his bare skin meets yours. The sensation is overwhelming—startling in its intensity. Chest to chest. Stomach to stomach. Legs tangled and breaths mixing in the space between your mouths.
Your body arches instinctively, responding to the feel of him, the way he fits so perfectly above you. One of his hands strokes along your side, memorizing the lines of you with reverence. His voice is a whisper, brushing your ear as he lowers himself fully against you.
“There’s nothing in the world that feels better than this,” he murmurs, kissing your temple.
With that, he lets the moment settle around you like silk, like warmth, like something you never want to end. Then, your hands lift on their own, hesitant at first. Your fingertips trace the line of his collarbone, down the slope of his chest, across the gentle dip between his ribs. You feel the way his heart races beneath your touch, the way his muscles flex subtly as your fingers explore him. He watches you in silence, his gaze soft, his lashes lowering when your palm rests just over his heart. There’s a faint tremble in your voice when you whisper, “You’re so beautiful.”
His breath hitches. The smallest, most vulnerable sound. A shy smile curves his lips as he leans into your touch, eyes fluttering closed. “You really think so?”
You nod, letting your hand move lower—over the dip of his waist, the subtle trail of muscle that disappears beneath the sheets. “All of you. Every inch of you,” you murmur, and he exhales slowly, like he’s been holding his breath waiting to hear you say that.
Hyunjin kisses you again, and this time there's nothing tentative about it. It's deep, warm, and possessive—the kind of kiss that curls your toes and makes your body arch instinctively toward his. His hands roam, slow but confident and you gasp softly against his lips when his palm slides down your side, cupping the curve of your hip.
The kiss grows hotter with each passing second, his body pressing you further into the mattress. His breath is ragged when he finally pulls back, just enough to rest his forehead against yours. “Do you have any condoms?” he asks, voice low and husky with anticipation.
You’re still catching your breath, nodding slowly when he suddenly adds with a crooked smirk, “Not that I’m planning to give Tigerlily a younger sibling… not yet, at least.”
You let out a breathless laugh, the sudden flash of humor easing the last of your nerves. “Drawer in the bathroom,” you reply, voice soft but steady.
Hyunjin grins at you, a glint of fondness—and something deeper—shining in his eyes as he brushes your hair back from your face. “Be right back,” he says, and then he leans down, giving you one last kiss—sweet and slow, as if he doesn’t want to leave your lips even for a second—before slipping off the bed and disappearing into the bathroom.
Not long after, the bathroom light flicks off, and soft footsteps pad against the floor. You lift your head slightly as he returns, a quiet smile playing on his lips and a tenderness in his eyes that makes your chest ache in the best way. He walks over with the same graceful ease he always carries, but there's something else now—something deeper in the way he looks at you like he's seeing all of you, and wanting every piece. He sits on the edge of the bed, the mattress dipping under his weight. You hear the soft crinkle of the foil packet, that small sound somehow thunderous in the silence of the room. It makes your skin prickle with anticipation. You can’t see everything he’s doing, but you don’t need to. The intimacy of it, the knowing of what’s about to come, makes your breath catch.
When he finally turns to you again, Hyunjin shifts closer, slow and deliberate, his body warm as it presses into yours. He doesn’t rush. Instead, he leans in gently, one hand finding your cheek, fingers featherlight as they cradle your face. His thumb brushes your skin, and you feel the slight tremble in his breath as his forehead touches yours.
“Hey,” he murmurs softly, like you’re a secret he wants to keep safe.
You look into his eyes, and for a moment, there’s nothing else. Just you and him. Then, he leans in, kissing you with that same softness, his body melts into yours, skin to skin, the kiss deepening as his hand glides from your cheek to your waist, pulling you closer, anchoring you to him. Every inch of you fits against him like you were meant to be held this way.
And in that quiet, sacred moment, nothing else matters but the way he kisses you—as if he's telling you without words just how much he wants you, and how deeply he already cares.
Your fingers curl gently against the slope of his back as he settles between your legs, his body warm and familiar now, like something you’ve known all along.
Hyunjin nudges his nose against your cheek and murmurs, “I’m going to take it slow this time. Really slow.” There's a teasing glint in his voice, soft and sultry, and it pulls a quiet laugh from your throat.
“You say that,” you whisper back, voice already tinged with need, “but you never do.”
He grins, brushing a kiss along your jawline. “I mean it tonight.” And you can tell he does, not just in the way he speaks, but in the way he moves. He aligns his cock to your entrance and then he pushes his throbbing length into you slowly, carefully like he wants you to feel everything.
And you feel it, you feel all of it. Every inch of his hard length entering you, filling you, every breath, every shared heartbeat. The two of you let out a raw, satisfied groan at the feeling of being inside each other, at last.
The moment Hyunjin starts to move, it’s almost too much—the fullness, the stretch, the heat of his cock inside you. Your body reacts before your thoughts can catch up, instinctively tightening around him, your breath catching in your throat.
He lets out a guttural groan, dropping his forehead against yours. “You can’t do that,” he breathes, voice thick and frayed. “If you keep clenching like that, I’ll—” He swallows hard, eyes fluttering shut for a second. “I’ll embarrass myself.”
You try to bite back a smile, only half-successful. “Sorry,” you murmur, not sounding sorry at all.
His eyes open again, and there’s laughter there, but also something deeper—adoration, restraint, the ache of wanting to last. “This is our first time, let me make a good impression,” he playfully says, and then he kisses you again, slower this time—true to his word—as he begins to move with deliberate tenderness, making sure every second counts.
A moment later, Hyunjin moves within you in slow, deep rhythms—measured, reverent, like he’s savoring every second. His breath hitches now and then as he buries his face in your neck, whispering praise between kisses and sighs. “You feel so good,” he murmurs, voice rough with awe. “So warm, so perfect…”
Each word wraps around you, deeper than his touch. “I’m so lucky… to feel you like this. To have you like this.”
Then he leans back just enough to make you meet his gaze, his hand cradling the side of your face. And in that moment, you feel completely seen. Not just your body, but your soul. The walls you’ve built over the years, the scars, the quiet fears you’ve kept tucked away—he sees them all. And he stays.
A wave of emotion crashes over you so suddenly, so powerfully, it steals the breath from your lungs. Your lips part beneath his kiss, but your body trembles beneath the weight of feeling, and you can’t bring yourself to kiss him back.
Hyunjin notices and he pulls back immediately, concern etched across his features. “What’s wrong?” he asks, his voice soft and urgent. “Did I hurt you?”
You shake your head, eyes closing just as the first tears slip down your cheeks.
He stills completely, pulling out of you without hesitation, wrapping his arms around you as if he could shield you from whatever it is that’s hurting you. “I’m so sorry,” he whispers, kissing the corners of your eyes, your cheeks, your jaw. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to—”
“You didn’t,” you choke out, your voice cracking around the lump in your throat. “You didn’t do anything wrong.”
Hyunjin pulls back just enough to look at you, brushing your hair out of your face, concern still dark in his eyes. “Then what is it?”
Your gaze locks with his, and for the first time, you let the fear rise to the surface. “I’m scared,” you admit, barely above a whisper. “Of this. Of you. Of what I’m feeling. It’s so much.”
He doesn’t say anything right away. He just wipes the tears from your cheeks with the backs of his knuckles, his thumb tracing along your cheekbone gently, grounding you.
You swallow thickly, your voice hoarse. “I don’t want to get hurt.”
At that, a bittersweet smile curves at the corner of his lips, his brows furrowing just slightly. He cups your face in both hands, presses his forehead to yours, and kisses you again—slow and full, the kind of kiss that says everything he can’t yet put into words.
When he finally pulls back, he whispers against your lips, “I'm not going hurt you. I promise.”
In his eyes, you believe him. You pull him close again, wrapping your arms around him, your fingers wrapping around the nape of his neck.
Hyunjin hesitates only a moment—watching your eyes, searching for the unspoken permission—and when he sees it, he slowly slips himself into you again and starts to move, his body rocking against yours in quiet devotion.
It’s different now. The fear is still there, but it no longer weighs you down—it lifts, transforms into something new, something freeing. With every slow thrust, every kiss that brushes your skin, you feel your heart split open, not in pain but in release, like something you’ve held too tightly for too long is finally being set free.
You let him in. You feel him. All of him. The weight of his body, the cadence of his breath, the way his heart stutters against your chest. And in the stillness between movements, in the soft moans and whispered names, in the curve of his mouth against your neck—you feel the truth of the connection between you. It’s real. You hold onto him tighter, not to cling, but to anchor yourself in this moment.
“I’m here,” he murmurs between kisses, like a vow. “I’ve got you.”
With one final, aching stroke, the pleasure builds, wraps around both of you until you fall into it together—his name breathless on your lips, your name a prayer on his. You come undone in his arms, and he follows, holding you like you’re something sacred. In the quiet after, as your bodies settle and your hearts slow, there’s no fear. His skin is warm, his arm wrapped protectively around you as you lay curled into his side, your leg tangled with his beneath the sheets. Your eyes flutter shut as you let yourself melt into him, cheek pressed to his chest where you can hear his heartbeat. It’s grounding, comforting like a lullaby made just for you.
“You okay?” he asks softly, voice raspy from the night but threaded with affection.
You nod against his chest. “More than okay.”
You sigh contentedly, letting yourself soak in the warmth of his body and the calm that settles between you. Nothing about this moment is rushed. Nothing about it feels unsure. It’s just you and him—bodies entwined, hearts open, quiet and full.
-
It's like the rain didn't happen last night as the sun is shining so brightly the next morning. You’re at the stove in your robe, humming to yourself as you flip a pancake, already plating the crispy bacon beside it when you hear footsteps shuffle in—slow, heavy, and unmistakably sleepy.
You glance over your shoulder just in time to see Hyunjin appear in the doorway, shirtless with the sheet from your bed still clinging to one shoulder like he didn’t bother shrugging it off. He’s rubbing his eyes and yawning, but that sleepy smile—so sweet and lazy—stretches across his face when he sees you. He walks straight to you and wraps his arms around your waist from behind, burying his face in the crook of your neck.
“You weren’t in bed,” he mumbles, voice gravelly from sleep. “I woke up and you were gone. That’s not fair.”
You laugh softly, continuing to stir the eggs in the pan. “Someone has to make breakfast.”
“Wrong answer,” Hyunjin grumbles, pressing a kiss just below your ear. “I wanted morning cuddles.”
Before you can respond, he’s already turning you around gently and lifting you by the waist with ease. You let out a small squeal as he sets you on the edge of the kitchen island, your legs dangling off the side. He places his hands on the counter on either side of you, caging you in with that warm, sleepy grin on his face. You return the smile, wrapping your arms loosely around his shoulders.
“Good morning,” he murmurs, leaning in to press a slow, soft kiss to your lips.
You kiss him back just as softly. “Good morning.”
His smile widens, and then he’s peppering your lips with quick, playful kisses—one after the other, barely giving you time to breathe between each one. You giggle, trying to squirm away, but his arms tighten around your waist and he buries his face in your chest with a content sigh. You rest your hand on the nape of his neck, holding him close, the warmth between your bodies matching the gentle golden light spilling through the kitchen window.
Hyunjin stays nestled against your chest for a long, comfortable moment before he lifts his head and looks up at you, eyes still sleepy but filled with something softer—something warmer. “So…” he starts, voice a little hopeful. “Can we finally take that trip together now?”
You let out a laugh, brushing your fingers through his hair. “Are you forgetting something?”
He blinks. “No?”
You tilt your head, raising an eyebrow. “The wedding is this weekend.”
Hyunjin pauses, then groans dramatically as he drops his head back against your chest. “Nooo, right. That.”
“You’re ridiculous,” you say, giggling.
He pulls back just enough to look up at you with a pout. “Okay but… hear me out. What if you just told her to push the wedding to next weekend instead?”
Your laughter echoes through the kitchen as you lightly smack his shoulder. “You want me to reschedule my daughter’s wedding so we can go on a trip?”
“I’m just saying,” he shrugs playfully. “Priorities.”
You shake your head, still laughing. “Anyway, as the mother of the bride, I’m only going to get busier this week with the final prep.”
Hyunjin groans even louder this time, letting his head fall against your shoulder like the world is ending. “Ugh. Being the best man sounded more fun in theory.”
You grin, wrapping your arms tighter around him. “You better take that duty seriously. Tigerlily will haunt your dreams if you mess it up.”
“She already does,” he mutters with a dramatic sigh.
You laugh again, leaning down to kiss his cheek. “You’ll survive. And once the wedding’s over…”
He perks up, eyes sparkling. “Trip?”
“Well, I was going to say...” you pause to pick up your mug of coffee, “coffee?”
Hyunjin gasps in delight as he sees the couple mugs you made filled with hot, steaming coffee. “Coffee first then the trip,” he murmurs with a grin as he picks up his mug.
Before taking a sip, he kisses you right then and there—soft and triumphant, like he’s already picturing you both somewhere far away, together.
-
You open the front door just as the cab pulls away from the curb, revealing Chris standing there with his suitcase in one hand and his daughter Riley beside him, hoodie pulled over her head, nose buried in her phone.
Chris offers you a tired smile, stopping right on the doorway to give you a quick hug. “Hey.”
You smile warmly, stepping aside to let them in. “Hey. How was your flight?”
He shrugs nonchalantly, brushing his hair back as he steps inside. “Fine. Long.”
You give him a knowing look—his eyes are a bit bloodshot and there’s a weariness in the way his shoulders slump—but you don’t push it. Instead, your eyes drift toward Riley, who’s still in her own world, thumbs tapping at her screen, headphones on.
“Riley,” Chris says with a light nudge to her shoulder. “Say hi.”
She looks up for the first time, pulling her headphones down just slightly. “Hi,” she mutters before stepping in and giving you a quick, one-armed hug.
You wrap your arms gently around her, unfazed. “Hi, Riley. Good to see you again!”
She nods and offers a polite smile before slipping past you, already pulling her headphones back on and wandering further inside, eyes back on her phone.
You glance at Chris with a knowing smirk, and he sighs. “Teenagers.”
“She’s grown up so much,” you say softly, watching her disappear into the living room.
Chris chuckles, dragging his suitcase the rest of the way in. “Yeah. She’s got that whole ‘too cool for life’ thing down to an art.”
You close the door behind them and gesture toward the hallway. “Come on in. I’ll show you both your rooms. You can rest a bit before dinner.”
Chris nods, rolling his shoulders. “Sounds good. Thanks for letting us stay.”
You glance at him with a playful look. “You’re still family, Chris. You don’t have to thank me.”
His eyes soften at that, and for a moment, there’s a quiet understanding that passes between you—years of history wrapped in a single look. “Still,” he says, “thank you.”
Later that afternoon, the house feels warm and quiet, filled with the subtle scent of fresh cookies and the soft clinking of mugs. You and Chris sit across from each other at the kitchen island, a plate of chocolate chip cookies between you and steaming cups of coffee in your hands.
“So,” Chris says, leaning back slightly in the stool, “you’re still making those cookies I like.”
You smile over your cup. “You think I made them just for you?”
“I choose to believe that,” he says with a grin before taking a bite.
You laugh softly, stirring your coffee. “How’s life back in the city?”
“Busy,” he answers, nodding. “The label wants to reissue an old Bang Theory album, so I’ve been working on it. Lots of meetings, a few studio sessions, lots of… nostalgia.”
You hum, intrigued. “That sounds kind of nice. Do you miss it?”
Chris considers the question for a moment, then shrugs. “Some parts of it, yeah. Others… not so much. Touring at this age isn’t as fun as it used to be.”
You chuckle. “Your back can’t handle the stage dives anymore?”
He snorts into his coffee. “Exactly. What about you? Still working on that book?”
You nod, your smile softening. “Yeah. Actually, I’ve been… into pottery lately.”
Chris pauses mid-sip, eyebrows lifting slightly before he nods. “New hobby, huh?” he chuckles, then takes another cookie. “Good for you.”
You both settle into a brief, comfortable silence before he glances up again. “So… rehearsal dinner. What should I expect?”
You perk up at that. “Oh! It’s at that restaurant by the garden terrace downtown. Casual but elegant. Lots of wine. Julian’s parents are hosting it.”
Chris nods, then takes a breath. “And… his family? What are they like?”
You give him a curious look. “Why? Are you nervous?”
“A little,” he admits, scratching the back of his neck. “I mean, I’m just… her dad. You know? Want to make a good impression.”
You lean forward, grinning. “Wait—you? Chris Bang, lead singer of Bang Theory, is nervous about meeting some suburban in-laws?”
He groans. “Don’t make fun of me.”
You laugh, then soften. “I’m not. I just think it’s sweet.”
He raises an eyebrow, mouth curling into a teasing smirk. “You calling me sweet now? That’s dangerously close to flirting.”
You roll your eyes and take a sip of coffee. “It’s called reassurance.”
Still smiling, Chris leans his elbows on the counter and looks at you. “So, what do you suggest? Show up in leather and play it cool?”
You grin. “I think just be yourself. You’re already charming and likable. You don’t even have to try.”
Chris watches you for a beat, and his smile turns just a little bit softer. “Thanks.”
You shrug, playful. “Don’t let it get to your head.”
“Oh, it’s already there,” he says, popping the last cookie into his mouth.
He takes a slow sip of his coffee, then lets out a deep sigh, tipping his head back slightly as if the weight of the world rests on his shoulders. “There’s just one problem, though.”
You glance at him, raising an eyebrow. “What’s that?”
He gestures vaguely to the room upstairs where Riley is resting in Tigerlily’s old room. “Riley. She’s impossible. I swear, she’s glued to that phone like it’s a limb. I can’t get her to talk, help out, or even look up most of the time.”
You chuckle, resting your chin in your hand. “Classic teenager.”
He groans dramatically. “Yeah, well, classic teenager is driving me insane. I’ve tried being cool dad, strict dad, let’s-talk-about-it dad… nothing works. I need backup. I need you.”
You give him a slow, amused look over the rim of your mug. “You need me?”
He nods, with the exasperated sincerity of a man who’s been bested by a teenager. “I’m begging. Please. I don’t think she even knows we’re here. She could be texting someone in another dimension for all I know.”
Laughing softly, you set your mug down and lean back in your chair. “Chris, relax. I’ve got this.”
He narrows his eyes suspiciously. “You sound way too confident.”
You give him a sly smile. “Because I am confident. I know how to handle a teenager.”
He leans forward, elbows on the counter. “Okay, now I’m curious. What’s the game plan?”
You wink. “You’ll see. But let’s just say… I've got it.”
Chris lets out a chuckle, shaking his head. “God, I forgot how terrifyingly effective you can be.”
You grin at him. “Don’t worry. Just leave it to me.”
-
You walk quietly down the hallway and knock gently on Tigerlily’s old bedroom door, the one Riley is staying in now. After a brief pause, you push the door open to find her sitting cross-legged on the bed, phone in hand, headphones hanging loosely around her neck, her thumbs busy tapping away.
“Hey, Riley,” you say softly, offering a warm smile. “Just wanted to check in. Do you need anything? Snacks? Water?”
Riley barely glances up, her tone monotone. “I’m good. Thanks.”
You step inside anyway, gently closing the door behind you before crossing the room and sitting on the edge of the bed. “Okay,” you say, watching her fingers move rapidly across the screen. “Well, I just wanted to thank you for coming.”
At that, she shrugs, eyes still on her phone. “Well, my Dad made me come so...”
You chuckle, not offended at all. “That sounds about right.”
She lets out a small laugh—barely audible, but you catch it. You smile softly and add, “Well, thank you anyway. I’m really glad you’re here.”
Riley hums noncommittally, still not making eye contact, but you don’t push. You let a few seconds pass before casually continuing, “You know… I follow your Instagram.”
That gets her attention. She blinks and glances up at you, just briefly. “You do?”
“I do. You’ve got great style. I love your outfit posts—your mirror selfies are seriously top-tier.”
Riley raises an eyebrow, the corner of her lips twitching slightly. “Really?”
“Mm-hm. I like clothes too. Always have.” You lean in conspiratorially. “Wanna see my wardrobe?”
That’s when her eyes truly light up. She lowers her phone just a little, the blue glow no longer dominating her expression. “Wait, really? Like… now?”
You nod, grinning. “Of course. Come on. I’ll even let you try them on.”
Riley finally sets her phone aside, her posture shifting from uninterested to intrigued in seconds. “Okay… yeah. That sounds kind of cool.”
You stand and hold your hand out toward her. “Come with me then.”
You lead Riley into your wardrobe, flipping on the warm overhead lights as the space glows to life with rows of carefully organized clothing, shoes lined up like museum pieces, and soft fabrics hanging in every hue imaginable.
Riley’s eyes go wide. “Whoa…” she breathes, stepping in like she’s just walked into Narnia. “This is insane.”
You smile as you watch her scan the racks, fingertips grazing along silk, velvet, denim, and tulle. “Insane in the best way, I hope?” you tease, enjoying her wonder.
Every few seconds, she gasps or lets out a quiet “Oh my god,” especially when she stumbles upon something particularly glamorous or vintage. Then she freezes in front of a sleek black number with subtle rhinestone detailing and a high slit—one you’d worn to a fashion event years ago. “Wait. Is this the dress you wore to the Paris thing? I saw a photo on Pinterest. You looked iconic.”
You laugh, a little flattered she noticed. “That’s the one.”
“Can I… can I try it?”
You raise a brow. “Of course you can.”
In minutes, you’re helping her zip it up, smoothing the fabric against her frame as she steps in front of the mirror. It's uncanny how it fits her like a glove. She turns to the side, then full-on beams at her reflection. “I look like I’m about to get photographed on a red carpet.”
“You kinda do,” you say, snapping a few pictures of her with her phone as she poses, giggling in between.
Then your eyes catch on a lace-detailed dress with soft pastel floral prints hanging nearby. You pull it out, holding it up. “This one… I got it after doing a shoot for Italian magazine. They let me keep it. You’d look beautiful in this.”
Riley’s eyes widen with excitement. “Wait, can I try that one too?”
“Absolutely!”
She changes into it quickly, emerging like a flower blooming, delicate and glowing as she twirls in front of the mirror. She watches herself with awe, running her hands along the fabric.
“That,” you say, stepping behind her with a soft smile, “is the perfect dress to wear for the rehearsal dinner tonight.”
She stops spinning and looks at you through the mirror, eyes wide. “Wait, really? I can wear this?”
You nod. “Yes, you can. You’d make that dress proud.”
Without warning, Riley turns and throws her arms around you, hugging you tightly. “Thank you,” she mumbles into your shoulder. “Seriously. Thank you.”
You hold her close, smiling as your heart swells. “You’re welcome, sweetheart.”
Still wearing the dress, Riley continues combing through your wardrobe like it’s a treasure trove. Her fingers glide over hangers until she pauses in front of a garment bag tucked into the corner. It’s slightly dusted but clearly protected with care. “What’s this one?” she asks, curiosity peaking as she gently tugs at the zipper.
You turn just as she peels it open halfway, revealing the edge of intricate lace and delicate beadwork—ivory, timeless, unmistakable. It's a dress you wore when you got married to Chris, it's not even a designer piece, you bought it at a vintage shop in the city Chris’s band was touring in. The sight of the dress evokes the memories and it's so vivid as if you just pulled open a pandora's box. Your breath catches for a moment, your smile faltering just slightly. “Ah…” you walk over casually, your voice soft, “That one’s… it’s torn at the seam.”
Riley looks up at you with wide eyes, clearly still interested but sensing something in your tone. “Oh, okay,” she says, releasing the zipper and stepping back with respect. “Still looks really pretty though.”
You give her a gentle smile and nod. “It used to be.”
She shrugs and moves on to the shoes, gasping at a pair of jeweled heels. “These are insane!”
You wait until her attention is fully stolen by the footwear before stepping back to the corner. Quietly, you zip the bag all the way up, your fingers brushing over the fabric through the plastic. Then, with a soft breath, you tuck it further back into the closet, behind a row of coats. Hidden, again. Where it belongs.
You turn back to Riley with a smile as she holds up two pairs of shoes in each hand, debating which one to wear with the floral dress. “Help me choose?” she grins.
“Sure,” you say, walking toward her again, brushing the past off your shoulders like dust.
-
The sound of Chris’s voice echoes through the house. “Hey! Can I get some help here or am I tying this thing myself and risking public humiliation?”
You head toward his room, already dressed and putting on your earrings. As you enter, Chris turns around and does a once-over with an appreciative grin.
“Well, damn,” he says, eyes twinkling. “You clean up dangerously well.”
You wave him off with a roll of your eyes, “Focus. I’m here to save you from that crooked tie.”
You step in front of him, fingers deftly fixing the knot and as you do, you notice some silver hair on the side of his head. As you straighten the fabric, he tilts his head slightly. “How’s Riley?”
“Handled,” you reply with a pleased smile. “You’ve got nothing to worry about. She’s dressed, she’s excited, and she actually spoke more than three words.”
Chris looks genuinely impressed. “Miracle worker.”
Before you can respond, the soft clack of shoes against the stairs makes both of you turn. Riley steps down carefully, dressed in the floral lace dress you lent her, her makeup subtle and pretty, her hair styled loosely. She’s trying to play it cool, but her eyes are scanning for your reaction.
You gasp dramatically. “Chris. Look!”
Chris immediately joins you in the praise parade. “Oh my god. Is that my Riley bear?!”
Riley rolls her eyes, cheeks a little pink. “It’s just a dress, dad.”
You and Chris start clapping like over-enthusiastic parents. “JUST a dress? You’re glowing!”
Chris ruffles her hair, earning a swat, and you step in. “Okay, okay, hold still—give me your phone, Riley. We’re documenting this transformation.”
She reluctantly hands it over, trying not to smile. You snap a few photos of her, letting her pose. Then Chris steps in beside her, slinging an arm around her shoulder. “Come on, let’s show them where she got her style,” he jokes.
You take several adorable shots of the two of them, and when you lower the phone, Riley looks at you. “Now one with you.”
You blink, surprised. “Me too?”
Chris is already stepping behind the camera. “Come on. In you go.”
You move in beside Riley, wrapping an arm around her as she does the same. Chris captures a few shots, then Riley grins and pulls out her own phone. “Okay, selfie time.”
The three of you squeeze together—Riley sandwiched between her two very proud, very amused parents. The moment she taps the button, all three of you are laughing. Caught in the blur of joy and history and something that, just maybe, feels a little bit like family again.
“This is fun but we should go or else we'd be late for the rehearsal dinner,” you remind them as you grab your purse from the sofa.
The drive to the restaurant is lit with the golden hue of the setting sun, and the soft hum of the road beneath the tires fills the pauses between chatter. You sit in the passenger seat, Riley lounging in the back, headphones tucked away for once as the three of you settle into a rare moment of shared ease.
Chris glances over at you, tapping the steering wheel absently. “So, tell me again about Julian’s family. I need some common ground. I can’t exactly open with ‘Hi, I used to headline stadiums and wreck hotel rooms.’”
You smile. “Julian’s dad was a big-time broker. Wall Street type. Retired now, enjoying the fruits of his labor. They’re older than us by a good stretch.”
Chris exhales, visibly relieved. “Older is good. Older might think I’m mature by default.”
You chuckle. “They go on boat trips every other weekend. Sailing types.”
Chris nods, keeping his eyes on the road. “Boats. I can do boats. Talk about waves, sea breeze, sunscreen—yeah, I’ve got material.”
Then, with a hesitant glance at you, he asks, “Do they know about me?”
Before you can answer, Riley leans forward between the seats, totally deadpan. “You’re not that famous, dad.”
You burst out laughing. “She’s got a point.”
Chris’s mouth drops open in mock offense. “Excuse me?”
Riley shrugs, clearly enjoying herself. “I mean, unless they were obsessed with rock bands in the 90s… probably not.”
Chris pouts and glares at her through the rearview mirror. “You too, Riley?”
You reach over and pat his thigh consolingly. “She’s right. Julian’s parents don’t know about the world tour, the platinum albums, or... the groupies.”
Riley pipes up again, her voice playful, “You know, back when dinosaurs roamed the Earth.”
Chris groans dramatically. “Unbelievable. The women in this car are ganging up on me.”
You and Riley catch each other’s eyes and exchange a conspiratorial smile, both suppressing your laughter. “Better get used to it,” you tease, nudging his arm. “It’s a girls’ world now.”
-
The soft buzz of laughter and clinking silverware filters out from the warmly lit restaurant as you, Chris, and Riley step through the doors. It’s cozy and elegant, decked with white linens, twinkling fairy lights, and thoughtfully arranged floral centerpieces—Tigerlily’s touch, no doubt. The moment she spots the three of you, her face lights up, and she hurries over, Julian in tow.
“Mom!” she beams, throwing her arms around you, then turning to Chris. “Dad! You made it!” She gives him a long hug before pulling back to smile at Riley. “And Riley, you look amazing.”
Julian adds his own greetings, hugging you and Chris warmly. It’s all easy, affectionate, natural. But before Riley can slip away into the corner with her phone again, you gently nudge her forward and catch sight of Maude nearby, cheerful and stylish, and chatting to her girlfriend Alexa.
“Riley, this is Maude,” you say quickly, catching her before she can disappear. “She’s Julian’s sister and knows everyone here. Maude, could I ask you to keep her company?”
Maude grins. “Of course! Come with me, I’ll introduce you to the good mocktail table.”
Riley hesitates, but with a glance back at you—and maybe some hope at escaping parental banter—she follows Maude with a small, grateful nod. You watch her go, a little relieved, and then turn your attention back to the next task: Julian’s parents.
You and Chris approach them together. Julian’s father, dapper in a navy blazer, shakes your hand warmly. His mother, elegant and composed, greets you with a smile and a gracious air. You’re used to this, the polished rhythm of pleasantries, the light conversation about the venue, the weather, the flowers—but beside you, Chris is just slightly stiff, the way he always gets when he’s not sure of the social cues. He’s doing fine, polite and charming, but you can feel it—that slight lag in his rhythm, the way he hesitates before reaching for the wine glass, unsure whether to join in the toast or wait.
So you start guiding, gently, without calling attention to it. When a toast is offered, you clink glasses first so he knows it’s time. When Julian’s mother mentions their yacht trip, you slide in a prompt. “Chris is a fan of the sea too, aren’t you?”
He picks it up with a grateful smile, easing into the conversation. When there’s a lull, you fill it, helping him navigate the small talk minefield. You even whisper reminders now and then—a soft nudge about names or who’s married to whom.
Through it all, Chris stays close, often glancing at you with that familiar mix of gratitude and amusement. He leans over at one point and murmurs near your ear, “I’m way out of my depth here, you know.”
You smile without looking at him. “That’s why I’m here.”
Once Chris has finally found his rhythm with Julian’s parents, tou quietly slip away from the table. You spot him a few feet away, deep in conversation with Julian now—his brow slightly furrowed, his arms crossed, and that unmistakable dad energy radiating off him as he most likely doles out the classic father-of-the-bride threats in the nicest way possible. You chuckle quietly to yourself, amused by the sight. Poor Julian, you think.
At the bar, you thank the bartender as he hands you your drink. You bring the glass to your lips, letting the bubbles fizzle pleasantly on your tongue when a warm voice calls out your name, familiar and unmistakably fond.
“Wow,” Hyunjin breathes as he approaches, eyes shining with awe. “You look…” He pauses, head tilting slightly as his gaze travels from your hair down to your heels. “Beautiful doesn't even begin to cover it.”
You feel the warmth rush to your cheeks as he takes your hand gently in his, not caring if anyone’s watching, and with a playful smile, gives you a slow twirl. The hem of your dress flares softly around your legs as he drinks in the sight of you from every angle, murmuring a quiet, reverent, “Beautiful,” with each pass.
You let out a flustered laugh, brushing a hand over your flushed cheek. “You look gorgeous yourself,” you say, letting your eyes drift over his striped suit, perfectly tailored to his tall, lean figure.
He leans in, gaze flickering to your lips—but you catch him, palm gently meeting the center of his chest to halt him. “Not here,” you murmur lowly, glancing discreetly toward the direction of Julian’s parents. “And definitely not in front of Julian’s parents.”
Hyunjin frowns with a pout, clearly not satisfied with that response. “Then let’s sneak out. Just for a few minutes. I want to kiss you.”
You laugh under your breath, swatting at his chest playfully. “Behave,” you whisper, trying to reel him in. “You’ll cause a scene.”
Just then, a voice cuts in—deeper, familiar. “Who’s this?”
You both turn to find Chris standing a few feet away, his expression neutral but eyes sharp with curiosity. Your breath catches for a moment before you clear your throat and take a step closer to the two men.
“This is… Hyunjin,” you say, gently slipping your hand into Hyunjin’s. “He's the best man and... My boyfriend.”
It’s the first time you’ve said it out loud in front of Chris—and for the briefest moment, something shifts in his face. Just a flicker of something unreadable. Surprise, maybe. Something quieter, deeper. But just as fast, it’s gone.
Chris steps forward, extending a hand toward Hyunjin. “Nice to meet you.”
Hyunjin, ever polite, takes his hand with a firm shake. “It’s really nice to meet you, sir.”
Chris’ brows twitch upward at the sir, and the corner of his mouth quirks slightly. “No need for that. Just Chris is fine.”
Their handshake lingers just a second longer than it needs to, and even though no words are spoken in that pause, you feel it—the silent exchange of acknowledgment, respect… and perhaps a little wariness.
You hold your breath, watching the moment closely, your hand still lightly resting on Hyunjin’s arm. Then Chris releases his grip and offers a small smile. “I’m glad you’re here,” he says simply, looking at you.
And then, from across the room, Tigerlily calls for his dad. “Dad, come here,” she waves her hand in the air, gesturing him to come.
Chris flashes both of you a polite smile. “Sorry. Duty calls.”
As Chris walks off, Hyunjin watches him go, the corners of his mouth twitching up with amusement. As soon as Chris is out of earshot, Hyunjin turns back to you with a sly glint in his eyes, that playful smirk already forming.
“So,” he says, leaning in just enough to make your heart skip, “boyfriend, huh?”
You feel your cheeks heat immediately, your gaze flickering anywhere but his face. “Don’t start,” you mutter, attempting to brush him off—but that only encourages him.
“Oh no, I’m definitely starting,” he grins, eyes lighting up. “You said it so naturally, too. Just—‘this is my boyfriend.’ Like it was the most normal thing in the world.”
“Because it is,” you argue softly, trying not to smile.
He leans in again, voice low and teasing, “Yeah, but to your ex-husband?”
You swat at his arm, flustered and amused. “Shut up.”
He laughs, catching your hand in his. “I’m not judging. Honestly, I’m honored. Just… didn’t expect to be introduced that way tonight.”
You finally glance up at him, your expression softening. “I guess I didn’t either. But it felt right.”
Hyunjin smiles at that, his teasing nature giving way to something more genuine. He squeezes your hand, his thumb gently brushing over your knuckles. “Well,” he says, eyes sparkling, “for the record, I like being your boyfriend.”
You can’t help the shy grin that spreads across your face, and before you can say anything back, Hyunjin brings your hand to his lips and presses a soft kiss to your knuckles. “And I’m definitely not letting your ex-husband be the only man who’s crazy about you tonight.”
Everyone gradually finds their seats as the waitstaff begins to move through the room, setting plates and pouring water and wine. A soft hum of chatter surrounds the long table, silverware clinking, glasses being lifted in early toasts. The atmosphere is warm, glowing with low golden lights and quiet laughter. Then Julian stands, gently clinking his spoon against his glass to get everyone’s attention.
He clears his throat and glances down at Tigerlily, who looks up at him with a soft, expectant smile. “I’ll try to keep this short before I embarrass myself,” he begins, the room quieting. “But there’s no way I could go into this weekend without saying something about how thankful I am.”
He looks around the room—at his parents, at yours, at all the people seated at the table—and his voice wavers just slightly as he continues, “Tigerlily and I are really lucky. Not just to have found each other, but to be surrounded by people who love us, who raised us, and who’ve taught us what real love looks like.”
You catch Tigerlily’s face as he speaks—her lips pressed together, her eyes shimmering. She's trying not to cry, already reaching for the edge of her napkin. You smile gently, heart full and aching at once. When you glance to the side, your gaze falls on Chris. He’s uncharacteristically quiet, his expression unreadable, jaw slightly tense, eyes fixed on his daughter. You know that look. It mirrors something in your own chest—pride, joy, and that sharp, bittersweet ache that comes with letting go.
Without a word, you slide your hand beneath the table and find his. He immediately laces his fingers with yours, holding on so tightly like he’s anchoring himself to something real, something steady. He finally turns to look at you, his lips tugging into a small, tender smile. You return it with a soft one of your own, no words exchanged—just the silent, lifelong understanding of what it means to love someone so deeply and now watch them begin a life of their own.
Then, as if pulled by the same thread, you both look at Tigerlily. She’s laughing through her tears now, her hand on Julian’s arm, her eyes sparkling with happiness. She looks radiant. In love. Right where she belongs. And in that moment, hand in hand, you and Chris both realize—this is exactly how it's supposed to be.
-
A moment after everyone got home, the house has settled into a gentle hush. You peek into Riley’s room one last time, knocking softly before opening the door just a crack. She’s already tucked into bed, still scrolling on her phone, but she looks up at you.
“Need anything before bed?” you ask, keeping your voice low.
She shakes her head. “No, I’m good. Thanks.”
You offer her a small smile. “Alright. Goodnight, Riley.”
She surprises you with a quiet, “Goodnight,” and just as you’re about to close the door, she adds, “Thanks for today.”
Your heart warms at her honesty. “Anytime.”
You close the door gently and make your way downstairs to check in on Chris. You knock on his door, and his voice comes through, muffled but clear. “Yeah, come in.”
You open the door, only to be greeted by the sight of him in nothing but a pair of grey sweatpants, barefoot, hair a little messy from travel. You let out an exasperated sigh and avert your eyes.
“Seriously? You could’ve told me you weren’t dressed.”
Chris glances up from his suitcase, entirely unfazed. “What? It’s not like you haven’t seen me naked before.”
You shoot him a glare. “That was years ago, Chris. Put on a damn shirt.”
He chuckles, clearly enjoying himself. “You knock, I answer. It’s not my fault you walked in without mental preparation.”
You roll your eyes. “Go to the bathroom.”
He gives you a slow, curious look. “Why?”
You hold up the dye kit in your hands. “Bathroom. Now.”
Chris groans as he drags himself off the bed. “Seriously? What’s wrong with silver?”
“Tigerlily will scold you if she sees those roots showing,” you say as you guide him toward the bathroom. “And it’s not a crime to look your best at your daughter’s wedding.”
He mutters under his breath but follows you anyway. Minutes later, he’s seated on a stool by the sink, a towel draped around his shoulders as you brush the dark dye through his hair with careful hands. “This feels like punishment,” he mumbles.
You nudge his forehead. “Stop moving.”
He grumbles but stays still. The silence settles in comfortably between you, only broken by the soft sound of the brush through his hair and the tap dripping behind the sink. After a while, the dye sets, and you gently guide his head back over the sink to wash it out. Water flows over his scalp as your fingers move through his hair, rinsing with care. His voice comes low, soft under the rush of water.
“I still can’t believe our little girl is getting married tomorrow,” he says, his gaze distant as it rests on the ceiling. “I feel like I blinked and she grew up.”
You pause for a moment, then resume gently rinsing. “She’s still our little girl, Chris.”
“Yeah,” he breathes. “But I missed so much. And now I feel like I’m scrambling to catch up.”
You turn off the water and begin patting his hair dry with a fresh towel, eyes on your hands as he keeps speaking.
“I didn’t always get things right,” he admits. “There are a lot of things I’d do differently now.”
You look down at him—his head still leaned against the edge of the sink, eyes searching yours with something unspoken swimming just beneath the surface. Regret. Grief. Maybe love. You feel your chest pull tight, so you look away before it reaches too far inside you. “What matters is you’re here now,” you say softly, tucking the towel around his shoulders. “That’s what she’ll remember.”
He doesn’t answer right away. Just looks up at you with a kind of quiet intensity that makes your breath catch. You clear your throat and gently step back.
“Dry your hair. Don’t stay up too late.”
He’s still watching you, a wistful smile tugging at the corners of his lips. “Yes, ma’am.”
You stop in the doorway and glance back at him, one hand on the frame. “Goodnight, Chris.”
“Goodnight,” he replies, voice low but warm, towel in hand, heart in his eyes.
You slip out of the room, closing the door gently behind you, the silence folding around you like the echoes of something once familiar.
-
The late afternoon sun dips low in the sky, casting a golden glow across the garden as soft chatter floats through the air. The scent of fresh roses and blooming lavender perfumes the breeze, and strings of fairy lights hang from the trees, gently swaying. Everything feels like a dream, a romantic still frame of the perfect moment. You sit on your seat on the bride’s side, nestled between rows of white chairs, surrounded by family and friends dressed in soft pastels and summer suits. The aisle is a winding path lined with petals, leading toward a floral arch that frames the altar, and beyond it, the endless sky.
Julian stands at the front, fidgeting with his cufflinks and taking anxious glances down the aisle. He looks more nervous than you’ve ever seen him, his mouth pressing into a tight line as he shifts his weight from foot to foot.
Beside him is Hyunjin, the best man, looking entirely too composed in his sleek black tuxedo. The sunlight catching on his cheekbones like it’s trying to show off for him. He catches your gaze and grins, eyes sparkling.
“You look beautiful,” he mouths, followed by a playful wink.
You feel your cheeks warm as you shake your head at him with a smile, mouthing “Behave.”
Then the music shifts. The gentle notes of the string quartet swell as the bride chorus begins to play. Everyone rises from their chairs. You stand too, breath caught in your throat, eyes fixed on the archway at the start of the aisle.
And then she appears. Tigerlily. Your baby girl. She walks out slowly holding a bouquet of Tiger Lilies, her arm tucked into Chris’, the train of her dress sweeping across the grass. The sunlight catches on the delicate beading of her gown, making her shimmer like something out of a fairytale. Her face is radiant, cheeks flushed, eyes glistening with emotion. You almost lose it. You feel tears prick your eyes, the kind that tug at your soul and make your heart swell with pride and nostalgia all at once.
Chris walks beside her, steady but quiet. His smile is soft, but you know him too well—you see the storm behind his eyes. You know it’s taking everything in him not to crumble. He looks like he’s walking her toward the end of something, not the beginning. Like letting her go is breaking him in the most quiet, graceful way.
They reach the front. Chris lifts her veil and kisses her forehead, saying something that makes her smile through her tears. Then, with a deep breath, he takes her hand and places it in Julian’s. You watch that exchange, your heart clenched and full.
Chris walks over to you and takes the seat beside you. He doesn’t say anything at first, just exhales like he’s been holding his breath the entire walk. “She looked like you,” he whispers, voice low and full of everything he’s feeling.
You smile through your tears. “No. She looked like her own.”
And together, you both turn your eyes toward the altar, watching as your daughter—glowing, loved, fearless—stands at the beginning of her forever.
The ceremony unfolds like a dream under the soft golden hour light, with the gentle rustle of leaves and the occasional chirp of birds punctuating the vows. Julian’s voice wavers slightly as he speaks his promises, and Tigerlily’s hand trembles in his—but she’s glowing, absolutely glowing. And when it’s her turn to speak, her words are steady and full of warmth, brimming with all the love she’s always carried in her heart.
You catch Hyunjin stealing a glance at you from across the aisle, and your heart stumbles a little. He doesn't smile this time—not fully. His gaze is calm and steady, almost reverent. Like he's seeing not just you, but the idea of forever with you. Like this moment, this ceremony, is a mirror of something he imagines for the two of you someday.
You glance down, the thought so sudden and visceral that it lodges itself deep in your chest. When you look up again, he’s still watching you. Still quietly imagining that future. But then your attention shifts—to your right, where Chris is sitting still, his hands folded tightly in his lap. His jaw is clenched, eyes glassy, blinking fast to fight the tears. You nudge him lightly with your elbow and lean in.
“You’re crying,” you whisper, teasing gently.
“I’m not,” he mutters, voice thick.
You smile at him, your heart aching in the softest way. You reach out your hand, palm up, inviting. He hesitates for a second. Then takes it. And just like that—your hand in his, Tigerlily’s laughter ringing through the garden as she slides a ring onto Julian’s finger, and Hyunjin's eyes still quietly resting on you across the aisle—it feels like everything has aligned. The past, the present, and the future, all suspended in this one, perfect moment.
Chris squeezes your hand once, tightly, and doesn’t let go until the officiant finally announces: “You may now kiss the bride.”
The guests erupt into applause and joyful cheers, but you stay there, sitting side by side with Chris, hands linked. And somewhere in the space between it all, you find peace. And hope. And the fragile, blooming warmth of something just beginning.
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The sky has shifted into deep lavender, strings of fairy lights twinkling above the garden as the celebration comes alive with soft music, clinking glasses, and laughter echoing between tables. Tigerlily and Julian share their first dance beneath the glowing canopy, their movements slow and tender, like time has slowed just for them. You watch them with your hand over your heart, your emotions still tangled between pride and awe and that bittersweet ache of letting go.
As their dance ends and the applause fades, you feel a familiar hand reach for yours. Chris gives you a little smirk, bowing with exaggerated flair. “May I have this dance?”
You roll your eyes but slip your hand into his anyway. “You may.”
He leads you onto the dance floor as another slow song begins, his hand settling naturally at your waist, your other hand clasped in his. The rhythm is familiar. Easy.
“She really went and married him,” Chris says after a beat, watching Tigerlily and Julian mingling through the crowd.
“She really did,” you say, smiling.
He sighs dramatically. “Still can’t believe that kid had the nerve to steal my little girl from me.”
You laugh, full and bright. “Chris, she’s not ten anymore.”
“She’s still my baby.”
“She still is. Just… someone else’s baby now too,” you tease, giving his shoulder a little squeeze.
He shakes his head like he can’t stand it, and you soften your smile. “You should move on already.”
“Oh yeah?” he challenges.
You tilt your chin and gesture across the dance floor to where Riley is laughing with Maude, her whole face lit up. “You’ve still got one more daughter to walk down the aisle.”
Chris groans, loud and dramatic. “I’m locking her in the house. She’s never dating. Not on my watch.”
You swat his chest lightly. “Be serious!”
“I am serious.”
You pull back just enough to look him in the eyes and say, “Go ask her to dance.”
He raises a brow. “Right now?”
You give him a gentle push in Riley’s direction. “Yes. Go on, before someone else steals her first dance from you too.”
Chris grumbles, but he grins as he lets you go and heads toward Riley. You watch as she lights up, surprised and a little embarrassed, but delighted all the same as Chris bows again and takes her hand like he did yours. You're smiling as you watch Chris spin Riley into a laugh, the two of them dancing under the soft garden lights like time had rewound just for them. But then—
Strong, familiar arms slide around your waist from behind, and before you can turn, Hyunjin’s voice hums by your ear, low and mischievous. “Excuse me,” he murmurs, “but I believe it’s my turn.”
You barely have time to catch your breath before he spins you into the middle of the dance floor with a dramatic twirl. You laugh, the sound spilling from your chest like it’s made of air and starlight. “Hyunjin—!”
“Shhh,” he grins, pulling you in until your body fits perfectly against his. His hand holds yours firmly, his other palm resting warmly on your lower back. “Let me have this.”
You feel his breath brush your cheek as he leans in, nose nearly touching yours. “I want to kiss you.”
You dart your eyes around, heart hammering. “Not here. Not in front of everyone.”
His lips brush against your temple instead, soft and electric. “When can I kiss you then?” he murmurs into your skin, voice playful but laced with heat.
You fight your smile and reply with a teasing lilt, “Well... Not now.”
Hyunjin chuckles, and with a wink, he twirls you again, the hem of your dress fluttering like petals in bloom. When you spin back into his arms, he pulls you even closer—so close that your chest presses flush to his, your breath caught somewhere between your ribs and his heartbeat. “I’m done waiting,” he whispers against your ear, his voice deep and full of longing. “Come with me.”
Before you can answer, his fingers lace through yours tightly, and he tugs you gently away from the celebration. Past the tables, past the strings of lights, past the slow dancing and laughter. Into the quiet, into the night, into something only the two of you can name.
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The laughter and clinking of glasses fade into a distant hum as Hyunjin leads you between the tall, leafy hedges lining the garden's edge. The lights from the celebration barely reach this far, just a soft golden spill through the leaves as if the night itself is conspiring to give the two of you this moment.
And then he’s on you. His lips crash into yours like he’s been holding back all evening. Hands cradling your face, he kisses you again and again—urgent, breathless, hungry. Only when your hand comes up to rest against his chest, a gentle push for air, does he finally pull away, panting softly as his lips trail down to your neck. He kisses along your pulse, over the delicate skin just under your jaw, sending a shiver down your spine.
“Hyunjin,” you murmur, breath catching.
He finally stops, brushing a few strands of hair from your face as he cups your jaw with both hands. His eyes are crinkled with a soft smile, tender and dizzyingly full of emotion. “The next wedding,” he says quietly, “is going to be ours.”
You freeze for a beat, heart leaping and stumbling all at once. “Hyunjin…”
“You must think that I’m like most guys who dates for fun, huh?” he asks gently, his thumb brushing over your cheek. “I don’t do that. I’m dating you because I want to be with you. I want… this. You. Forever.” His voice isn’t rushed. It’s not pleading. It’s just steady, like it’s the most obvious truth he’s ever said.
You feel a mix of things rise up in you—warmth, affection, fear, disbelief. The way he says it, so certain, so casually serious—it makes your chest tighten. “We agreed to take it slow,” you remind him softly, not out of rejection, but to anchor the moment.
“I know,” he whispers, his thumb now gliding over your lower lip. He leans in and kisses you—just a featherlight touch. “And I will. I’ll wait as long as you need. I’m not going anywhere.”
Another kiss follows, this one deeper, slower, like a vow made without words. When he pulls back, he grins with a twinkle in his eye and murmurs, “But… maybe don’t take too long. I’m dying to see you in a wedding dress.”
You roll your eyes with a breathless laugh, shoving lightly at his chest. “Hyunjin…”
He smiles, presses one last kiss to your forehead, and whispers, “I mean it.”
Hidden within the tall shrubbery, Hyunjin crashes his lips on yours again, slower this time—his lips moving with a kind of reverence that makes your chest ache. You sink into him, your hands curling into the lapels of his suit as his arms wrap tightly around your waist, anchoring you to him like he can’t bear to let go. His kiss deepens, coaxing soft sighs from you, and you feel his fingers sliding into your hair, cradling the back of your head as if the world outside this hidden place doesn’t exist.
And then you hear the crowd erupts into cheers, and from the distance, a familiar sound blares through the night air—the unmistakable opening chords of a Bang Theory classic.
You freeze against Hyunjin’s mouth. He stills too, forehead pressing lightly to yours. “Is that…” he breathes, blinking in disbelief.
“Yup. That’s Chris and his band.” You laugh under your breath and grab Hyunjin’s hand. “Come on.”
He doesn’t hesitate, just lets out a chuckle and runs with you. The two of you tumble out from the hedges like teenagers sneaking out of detention, laughter bubbling between you as you dash back toward the celebration. Lights twinkle overhead, the night air is pulsing with music and nostalgia, and your heart pounds—not just from the running but from the moment you just shared, and the one you’re about to run into.
As you round the corner and reenter the garden’s glow, the music is in full swing, and there he is—Chris on stage, guitar slung over his shoulder, grinning like the rockstar he once was and always will be.
Hyunjin leans in close as you both slow down and catch your breath, his hand still wrapped around yours. “I can’t believe your ex-husband is literally the entertainment,” he says, wide-eyed.
You nudge his side, laughing. “Welcome to my life.”
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The garden is alive with music, lights twinkling like stars overhead, and the unmistakable sound of The Bang Theory floods the air—loud, raw, and full of heart. People are on their feet, clapping and dancing, and you’re still catching your breath when you spot her—Tigerlily, radiant even under the stage lights, her veil slightly askew as she laughs with Julian by her side.
You weave through the crowd and reach for her hand. “Come on!”
She looks at you, confused for a beat, but then you’re both swept into the music, jumping and dancing like you used to in the side of the stage when she was still small enough to ride your hip. Chris stands center stage, belting out the lyrics with the same fire he had back in the day, but his eyes? They’re all on Tigerlily.
It hits you like a wave. You remember those afternoons when Tigerlily was still tiny, running around barefoot on studio floors while the guys messed with chords and amps—Chris tuning his guitar while she banged on the nearest drum like she belonged there. She did belong there. That loud music, that messy chaos—it was the soundtrack of her childhood. And now here she is, in a wedding dress, jumping and dancing to her father’s band like she used to before she even knew what weddings were.
You and Tigerlily scream the chorus together, laughter spilling out of both of you, your hands joined as you spin her around. Chris catches the moment from the stage—his grin faltering just enough for a shimmer of emotion to shine through before he launches into the next verse like the proudest dad in the world as Tigerlily dances to the soundtrack of her childhood on the very night she’s stepping into her future.
The music is pulsing through the garden like electricity, laughter and cheers erupting louder with each beat, and Chris is thriving in it—completely overtaken by the high of the moment. He’s grinning ear to ear, sweat glistening on his forehead as he shreds through the final chords, nodding his head in rhythm, his whole body moving like he’s twenty-five again and headlining a stadium.
“This one’s for you, my little cub, my Tigerlily!” he shouts into the mic, pointing directly at her with a wild gleam in his eyes.
The crowd erupts. Tigerlily throws her arms up, shouting back, “I love you, Dad!”
And that’s when Chris—caught in the euphoria, lost to the beat and the cheers—does the unthinkable. He backs up two steps, pumps his arms like a stage diver prepping for flight, and with the agility of a man who should not be this agile anymore, he launches himself forward into a full somersault on stage. Gasps ripple through the crowd. Time slows. He flips. He rotates. He almost nails it—
But then, his boot catches something—maybe a coiled cable, maybe the corner of a pedal—and the landing doesn’t come. Not properly.
There’s a loud, crack of his foot slipping. A snap of something else. His arms flail mid-air.
And then—
THUD.
Chris faceplants off the stage with a dramatic, unforgiving crash. The mic hits the ground with a screech. His leg still tangled in the cable. A drink spills nearby. The music cuts out mid-note. The garden is dead silent. Everyone freezes. Mouths open. Eyes wide. And Chris… doesn’t move.
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The sky starts turning that lazy shade of early evening gold when you pull up to the driveway. The tires crunch softly against the gravel and when the engine cuts off, silence settles for a beat before your phone starts ringing. You grab it from the passenger seat without even checking—some habits are muscle memory by now.
“Hi, Mom,” Tigerlily chirps, her voice crackling slightly through the speaker. “Just landed. It’s sunny. I can smell coconuts.”
You smile as you push open the car door and sling your bag over your shoulder. “You two made it?”
“Mhm. Luggage in tow, no delays, miracle. What about you? What are you up to?”
“Just got back from driving Riley to the airport,” you say, juggling the keys as you step onto your porch. The lock clicks under your hand. “She couldn't stop thanking me for the dress.”
“That’s good,” Tigerlily says. “How’s Dad?”
You step inside the house, voice softening as your eyes land on him right where you left him—stretched across the sofa, casted leg propped stiffly on a pillow, laptop on his lap, the crutches standing by next to the sofa. He’s scowling at the screen, probably editing something with the same intensity he once reserved for writing songs about heartbreak.
“He’s fine,” you say as you shut the door behind you. “Still alive. Still... working.”
Tigerlily hums. “I’m not that worried. He’s with you.”
You pause for half a second, just long enough to let that sink in before you shake your head and move toward the kitchen. “Don’t start. Just enjoy your honeymoon.”
“Okay, okay. Love you and send my love to dad. Bye!”
“Love you, cub,” you murmur before the call drops.
You fill a glass of water at the sink, and behind you, you hear the faint shuffle of headphones coming off. “Hey,” Chris calls, voice hoarse like he hasn’t spoken all day. “How was Riley?”
“She’s good. Boarded safe,” you say, turning with the glass in hand. “Oh, and Tigerlily sends her love.”
You lean against the counter. He looks at you from the couch, hair a little messy, turning curly from the humidity. The house is quiet in a way it hasn’t been for days. You take a sip of water, your eyes meeting his across the space.
“So, Chris,” you say, tilting your head. “What do you wanna do now that it’s just the two of us?”
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yourfavoritehouseplant · 2 years ago
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I watched James Somerton's final video, and all I got was this 6 page document
As soon as I learned his final unreleased video was on Revolutionary Girl Utena, I knew I had to hate watch it. I didn't know that I'd spend the following 4 hours making a comprehensive doc on everything I hated about it. But here we are.
The TLDR (is this too long to be a TLDR?)
The intro section, as well as Part 2, are directly plagiarized from wikipedia. The rest is unclear.
He makes a “haha this show is so weird right guys” joke 10 different times
He reads Anthy as so emotionally stunted she literally has to be taught how to think for herself, and believes that being the rose bride makes her feel good
He says that his reading is ‘vastly different” from the rest of the community, before boldly stating that this is because he sees it as a “deeply allegorical and symbolic story”
He sees the sexual abuse as “not to be taken literally”
Insists that the show be separated into parts that are strictly literal and strictly allegorical for the entirety of parts 3 and 4, before making the contradictory move of analyzing characters as allegories during part 5
The only characters that get dedicated sections are Akio and Dios, who he doesn’t believe are the same person. 
He says Dios gets his powers by “deflowering women”
He calls Akio, known child predator, a chaotic bisexual
Uses 14 year old SA survivor Anthy’s passive personality to make a joke about her being a bottom
His final point is that Utena was the real prince all along
There are no citations
Anyway, full version for people who hate themselves under the cut. With time codes, because I cite my sources.
Part 1: Intro
This entire section is almost exclusively quoted from the Wikipedia article for Revolutionary Girl Utena. Words have been changed, but the order at which certain topics come up is not. Highlights include:
0:56 In his introduction of Be-Papas, lists the founding members in literally the exact same order as Wikipedia.
1:40-2:00 His list of Be-Papas previous works is lifted entirely from wikipedia, only with the words changed. This leads to a strange moment at 1:52 where he claims Be-papas ‘lent their talents to’ Neon Genesis Evangelion, a show which started production at least a year before Be-papas was founded. On the wikipedia article for Utena, this is instead referring to the previous work of Shinya Hasegawa and Yōji Enokido
4:23 he uses a quote by Yūichirō Oguro describing the production as a “tug of war”. He seems to have lifted this in its entirety from Wikipedia, as he does not cite the actual source it is from (the box set companion book, btw)
As for James Somerton originals, at 0:44 he claims that out of all magical girl series,”none to my knowledge have been more discussed and dissected than the 1997 series Revolutionary Girl Utena” He will go back on this at 5:05, where he states that “Sailor Moon takes the lion’s share of discussion” in regard to influential magical girl anime
Part 2: Part 1
(At least I know I’m not funny, unlike James Somerton)
Speaking of which. Here is every single time he makes a “wow this show is sooooo weird you guys” joke: 6:00, 8:50, 10:40, 10:58, 13:46, 17:07, 24:16, 30:34, 41:19, 48:01
Here’s every time the punchline to the joke is the existence of Nanami, a character who he otherwise completely disregards: 10:56, 12:05, 16:22, 42:40
6:16 Claims that the “Apocalypse saga” and “Akio Ohtori saga’ are two names for the same several episodes, depending on the release. This is untrue. Instead, different releases either only have the Apocalypse saga, or split the episodes into an Akio Ohtori saga and then the Apocalypse saga. 
7:58 Claims Utena intervening on Anthy’s behalf begins the first duel. While this happens in the movie, Touga intervenes in the scene he uses clips from (like literally right after the shot he uses in the video). Utena only gets drawn into the duels when Wakaba’s love note to Saionji is posted. Youtuber Noralities’ Utena video also gets this wrong, which makes me wonder if this was copied.
9:09 Claims Akio’s “End of the World” moniker is actually more closely translated to “Apocalypse”. In reality, the translation moves away from a more apocalyptic reading, with 世界の果て (Sekai no hate) apparently translating closer to “the furthest reach of a known world” or “edge of the world”. (Love the implications of this translation, but I digress)
9:10 As can be assumed from the previous point, this means I can’t find any sources that point to them not using the title “apocalypse” for religious reasons
10:10 Uses Anthy’s extreme passivity under her Rose bride persona to make a top/bottom joke. I’m gonna repeat this in case you’re just skimming. He uses a trait that likely stems from years of abuse, (possibly exaggerated by the persona Anthy uses to manipulate people), and uses it to call her a bottom. 
He also just doesn’t seem to understand how the whole point of Utena constantly telling Anthy that she's just a normal girl who should make more friends is framed as Utena imposing her will on Anthy, just as much as the previous Engaged have done. 
11:54 Apologies in advance for my most “um, actually!” point yet, but technically his statement that Anthy stops being host to the Sword of Dios is wrong. Akio literally pulls a sword out of her chest in the final duel. It's a more evil-looking sword of Dios, granted.
13:02 !!! CANTARELLA SCENE ALERT !!! He interprets it as them fighting over Akio?? Which like. I will allow people to have their own interpretations of vague and symbolic scenes. I will. I swear. This is not technically incorrect. It just makes me want to eat my own intestines.
14:44 Bad Anthy take #1: He states Anthy “is emotionally stunted to the point where she needs people to make decisions for her because she does not know how to think for herself” This ignores several moments of Anthy clearly making her own choices throughout the show, including the suicide attempt Somerton mentions about a minute prior. This also strips Anthy of what little agency she has throughout the story, usually exerted through messing with Utena or Nanami. (The fact that she repeatedly makes choices that contribute to her own abuse is, in my opinion, one of the most interesting parts of her character, and it's a shame that Summerton’s ‘reading’ of the story completely disregards that)
Additionally, he once again reads Utena ‘urging Anthy to think for herself” in the first arc as an unambiguously good move, and not as something critiqued in the show.
14:52 Summerton reads the Swords of hatred as symbolizing men’s hatred specifically. Again, I’m trying not to completely disregard differing interpretations to a show like Utena, but this feels very simplistic, especially considering the harm we see aimed towards Anthy by other women
16:42 Here he claims that his reading of the story seems to be “vastly different” from the bulk of Utena discourse. What is this reading? That the show shouldn’t be read literally. Or, in his words, “[we can interpret] Revolutionary Girl Utena as a deeply allegorical and symbolic story about the struggles of coming of age amidst widespread institutional corruption in a high school and which describes a passive culture of inaction in regard to brazen instances of domestic exploitation in which there is not only a question about the caporeality of the events transpiring but also which events can be taken for granted and which events are meant to signify abstract sociological institutions.” The idea that he believes this is in any way a new reading of the material honestly baffles me.
Part 3: Part 2
17:48 through 18:50 differently quotes the Wikipedia article for postmodernism. He even makes a joke at 17:55 about Wikipedia. Please kill me. 
The first three themes he lists at 19:11 are just the three main themes listed on the Revolutionary Girl Utena Wikipedia page. What was that about a “vastly different” reading, James?
You’re gonna have to take my word for it, but this section is so short because it's just him talking about the various ways the story can’t be taken literally. He does, ironically, call this a hot take.
Part 4: Part 3
Here’s where the reading falls apart folks
At 23:15, he states that some things in Utena are allegorically coded, while others are to be taken literally. This is true. However, he seems to take this to mean that some parts of the show are Strictly Literal, while others are Strictly Allegorical for things going on in the Literal World. 
This is apparently why he prefers the Anime to the Movie, where there basically is no separation between the Literal and Allegorical
This take is bizarre to me for several reasons, but here is my favorite. At several points, he mentions how Revolutionary Girl Utena is a work of Magical Realism. Magical Realism is literally defined by its blending of the “literal” and “allegorical”, the mix of fantastical elements in a mundane, realistic setting. This idea of the impossibility of a blurred line, that Utena must either have lore where the magic is all real and means nothing, or dedicated allegory segments quarantined from the rest of the story, is contrary to the very idea of Magical Realism.
I can’t help but wonder if Somerton took his mentions of Magical realism from a previous work, due to how little it is consistent with his final argument. Either way, this section suggests a great lack of creativity in his analysis, a shame for such a creative work.
24:36: Shiori slander, for those who care
After this he gets really worked up about people assuming symbolism in everything, even when the author ‘doesn’t make it clear something is symbolic’. He shuts down a reading of a shot in the Lord of the Rings. Miley Cyrus is there? Very The Curtains Were Blue of him. 
28:22 Claims that Wakaba is the key to telling where the Strictly Literal segments end and the Strictly Allegorical segments begin. He states that, under this lens, deeply personal moments of character suffering such as all of the sexual abuse and Anthy’s suicide attempt (which he literally cites) should be read as symbolic and be “approached with uncertainty rather than confusion”. (28:24-29:13)
This also somewhat falls apart when you consider Wakaba is the jeep in the movie's car chase
And then he rants about people not liking his Attack on Titan video for a bit. Since its potential symbolism also doesn't follow hard enough rules to be symbolism. Once again, the separation of “fact vs allegory” I haven’t watched AOT, so that's all I’ll say.
Part 5: Part 4
Thank god this part is short. Much like Dios’ on-screen presence.
32:55 Makes the extremely bold claim that Dios is not Akio. As in, never even became Akio. because Dios is Strictly Allegorical.
Just to be a pedant, this is pretty explicitly disproven in the show
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Confusingly, both earlier and later he will address these two as the same character. 
33:04 he also explains the root of Akio’s name in a tone that suggests this is supplemental information and not like. Literally something he explains out loud in the show?
Part 6: Part 5
This section is nearly entirely about Akio Ohtori. I would like to note that him and Dios are the only characters with dedicated segments.
38:30 The part where he states that Dios gets his powers from deflowering women.
38:46 Claims, once again, that Akio’s abuse of Anthy “may not be literal”. 
38:59 “the instance of exploitation here is used because assault has deep roots as indicating that akio's gender is the source of his imbalance”  THE ASSAULT IS ABOUT AKIO NOW???
39:45 Bad Anthy take #2: “Anthy’s conformity to the Rose bride is based around the fact that she feels good being subservient because this is the only thing in her life that has ever brought her any kind of positive reward”. This is a direct quote. Anyway, I can’t think of any instances in the show where Anthy’s subservience gives her a positive reward, except maybe when she’s intentionally using it to manipulate others. As for her feeling good being the rose bride. She tries to commit suicide. Dude.
Side tangent, but isn’t this exactly what Akio says during the final 2 episodes? That Anthy enjoys being a witch? Is the main villain, who consistently says things during that very episode that are blatantly false, our source of information for this take? I guess so, since this is the dedicated Akio section.
At 40:20 he decides to introduce the concept of Anthy, Akio, and Utena as stand-ins for wider concepts, which is antithetical to his approach in analysis beforehand
Part 7: Part 6
42:40 he finally acknowledges that he’s been spending too much time talking about Akio, and literally no time on characters like Nanami
46:10 states that Utena’s exclusive motivation “is to protect Anthy from the predatorial intentions of the other dualists”, which disregards the fact, which she states herself, that she was largely participating in the duels and protecting Anthy to feel like a prince
48:04 The part where he says that Akio has ‘chaotic Bi vibes’ in regards to him sleeping with Touga, who is 17 and implied to be a long-term victim
Part 8: Part 7
54:01: His concluding point is that Utena was the real prince all along. 
In true Somerton fashion, the video then ends over a scrolling wall of patrons, with not a single citation in sight.
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daily-kabru · 2 months ago
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I know I said one Kabru a day, but I wasn’t sure how to split this up evenly, so you all get this picture with several Kabrus today!
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14 April 2025. 14/4/25 or 4/14/25
Source: Extra
Section: Anime Ref Sheet
Page: 1
Short: E-AnimeRefSheet-1
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azsazz · 1 month ago
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Over Ice (Part 14)
Hockey!Rhysand x Reader
Summary: Anon Req: She’s walking around Campus and BOOM right smack dab into Broody McBrooder!! She THEN finds out he’s the tutor for one of her hardest courses (personally Psych would be a good one) and they become super duper close with him and the team!!!
Warnings: None
Word Count: 3121
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Rhysand’s professor has been droning on about the innerworkings of counseling psychology for the past forty minutes, and his body has been fighting sleep for the past thirty-seven.
He really should be listening to this, especially since the slide projecting on the screen says something about positive well-being, and his has been in the dumpster all semester.
It’s been the busiest six months of his life. Between rigorous hockey practices and homework, mixed with tutoring sessions that always seemed to run longer because he just couldn’t seem to say goodbye to you, Rhysand’s been running on fumes. And now his low energy has started bleeding into his classes, hence why his eyes keep fluttering with exhaustion.
Rhysand shakes his head and slides his phone from his pocket, checking the time. Ugh, he still has ten minutes, and then it’s onto the next thing in his long list of to-dos for the day. He has weight training with his team, and then he has a research paper to find sources for, and then, maybe then can he fall face first onto his mattress and pass out for the night.
The damn paper can wait to be started until tomorrow.
He doesn’t even realize he’s zoned out until his phone vibrates in his hand. The girl sitting beside him shoots him a look from the corner of her eye. He offers her an apologetic look, but not that apologetic because she’s the one who spent the first six minutes of class relentlessly organizing her colorful pens across her desk while he was still actively trying to listen to Professor Hybern. The rampant click, click, fucking click of her retractable pens as she tested the colors across the top of her notebook page tested his fucking patience. He was close to moving seats entirely, but class had begun and she was blocking his exit to the aisle.
He's trapped between the wall and her, but what’s a little payback between classmates?
Rhysand opens his texts. He hopes it might be you, but even after the conversation you had during your last study session together, you’ve still been giving him the cold shoulder. He’s found out quickly that you’ll reply to messages regarding studying and occasionally an off-hand comment about what you’re doing, but nothing else. He’s tried everything from flirting to joking, pleading. He’s invited you to parties and games, but nothing. No response. You’re much more stubborn than he ever gave you credit for, but dammit, he’s going to be friends with you, one way or another.
He almost groans when he sees the three messages from Amarantha. As much as the both of you tried, she still isn’t believing that you’re a couple, and it’s probably because you haven’t attended that last home game, nor the party that followed. Rhys hadn’t allowed her to corner him, though, sticking to Azriel’s side throughout the night.
He must say, leaning up against the wall while his own party rages around him isn’t as interesting as Azriel makes it seem. Rhys quickly found himself abandoning the party to wander aimlessly around his neighborhood, the entire time spent wondering what you were doing.
Rhys would never admit this out loud, but he considered standing outside your window in hopes to catch a glimpse of you.
He talked himself out of that quickly.
He ignores the messages from his ex, eyes brushing over your name. His heart tightens in his chest. He can still feel your lips against his, how they parted so easily for him. The soft noises you made as his hands wandered up the soft skin of your legs, wrapped tightly around him. His cock twitches at the thought and he blinks, hard, glancing at the girl beside him. She doesn’t seem to notice anything out of the ordinary, or if she does, she thankfully keeps her eyes to her notes.
There’s a new message from his sister. Rhys clicks into the thread.
Araphel: Hey. You coming home for Thanksgiving break?
He frowns. He hasn’t been home since freshman year because his team always has a game, so why would this year be any different?
Rhys: I don’t know if I’ll be able to make it this year, A. Everything alright?
Araphel: No worries.
But that’s exactly what Rhys does. Something is definitely up with his sister, something she doesn’t want to talk about over text. Something he doesn’t have the time to dig further into because the room flickers dark for a split second while the slides switch at the front of the room, and he’s drawn away from his phone.
It’s now he realizes he missed writing notes about the last slide. Rhys swallows a sigh. Only a few more minutes until class is over, then he’ll get his quiz back, pick up a coffee, and meet his team at the weight room.
He’ll text his sister later, he decides, locking his phone and stuffing it in his pocket. He picks up his pen and quickly scribbles down the information at the front of the room, trying to keep his notes as legible and organized as possible.
His mind wanders to you. What are you doing for the holiday break? If you’re hanging around campus, would you want to come to his game? The extra days off of class would give you ample time for studying, and maybe he can even convince you to come over to his house, or he can go to your dorm. Mor always travels back to Phoenix for the holidays, so she wouldn’t be around if something were to naturally happen…
He knows you’d want to hang out. He’s irresistible, for one. It’s only a matter of how hard you’re going to fight against what you want. And he thinks he knows that answer to that, too. You’re going to fight pretty damn hard against your desires.
He’d never curse his cousin’s name, but right now, he’s pretty close. Why did she have to put a no-pursuing-her-friends rule out there? Of course, Rhys is going to want what he can’t have. The thrill of breaking such a rule just makes the forbidden fruit that much sweeter.
“Mr. Cunningham.” He jumps, head snapping out of the clouds. He swivels in his seat, ignoring the girl beside him who fails to hide her smile in her notebook. Rhys manages to keep his eyes from rolling, turning his attention to Professor Hybern, who holds out a paper to him.
“Thanks,” he says sheepishly, taking the quiz. He didn’t even realize Professor Hybern had stopped talking. The projection on the screen has switched again, showing his outline for his final paper is due next week and for no one to leave until they have received their quizzes back. The TA is on the other side of the room, handing out more.
He settles back into his seat as Professor H continues up the aisle. The girl noisily packs her pens away, and Rhys might be annoyed if he didn’t just flip his paper over to see a C+ written and circled in red. There’s also a question mark, insinuating this is unlike you, and it is.
This isn’t good.
His brows furrow in confusion. Shit, he’s never done worse than a B in this class, so this is new. It proves he’s been slacking more than usual. Everything he’s been trying to dip a foot into this semester is finally starting to take its toll: hockey, tutoring, partying.
If his grades start suffering, coach will be on his ass about it. He wants to be a good role-model for the players on his team. He wants to lead them into victory in the Frozen Four this year. He needs to focus. And that means not thinking about you during class. It means focusing on his own studies. It means being a good captain and not abandoning his friends at hangouts or parties.
Rhys sighs and stuffs his paper into his bag. The girl beside him is still packing up, and he won’t ask her if he can sneak by, because with the looks she was throwing his way, she probably wouldn’t move anyway.
Just like the rest of the things in his life, he’s stuck.
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“How are things with Amarantha going?” Cassian asks, casually, and Rhysand’s arms give out.
He squeezes his eyes shut. The last thing he’s going to see in his very short life is the rack of weights falling. He didn’t get to graduate or win the championship or experience anything more than a kiss with you. This is it. What a sad way to go out.
Azriel curses, and the bar never slams into his chest. Never crushes his bones. Rhys peeks an eye open just in time to see his broody teammate lifting the bar back onto the rack, a deathly glare pinned on Cassian.
Rhys nods in thanks to his friend. His heart is beating so hard in his chest, adrenaline pumping, that he barely remembers Cassian’s question. When it pops back into his head, he scowls. “Things with Amarantha?” Rhys sits up, swiping across his forehead with the back of his arm, collecting sweat. He stares up at his friend, confused. “What things? There are no things?”
“Woah,” Cassian holds his hands up in surrender. “Dude, chill.”
“No, I will not chill.” He’s worked up now, could probably add another plate to the bar with how much fire fills his veins. “What the hell are you talking about?”
Cassian shrugs, shuffling back to his own bench. He picks up his free-weights and settles onto the bench. If he thinks Rhys isn’t going to question him while he’s the one with something heavy in his hands, he’s sorely mistaken.
“Cass,” Rhys grits. He really doesn’t have the energy for this. He’d forgone coffee in favor of calling his sister, but she wasn’t giving anything about why she wanted him home for the holiday so badly away. He’s even more confused than before, and by the time their conversation ended, he’d only had time to change into his gym gear before weight-training started.
Coach grunts from somewhere across the gym, but the noise spurs Rhys into motion anyway. He doesn’t need to be caught slacking in hockey like he has been in his classes. He stands from the bench when Azriel motions for his own turn, laying back. Rhys takes up position to spot his teammate.
“That’s not what she was saying last weekend,” Cassian mumbles between breaths. His muscles glisten, straining with each press of his arms up. He’s the only one to have whisked his shirt off as soon as he stepped over the threshold into the gym. He probably wouldn’t be wearing one at all, if it weren’t for Coach’s rule about being fully clothed while walking from the locker room to the gym.
“The fuck?” Last weekend? When was this? Where was this? And who was she talking to?
Rhys opens his mouth to ask when it hits him. The party. The one he left because you weren’t there. Amarantha must have been spouting off about him and he hadn’t been there to deny any of the allegations.
Fucking hell. This is the last thing he wants to deal with.
He grinds his teeth. “What did she say?”
Cassian glances at Azriel, who shrugs, as if telling him ‘You got yourself into this mess, you get yourself out.’ Cassian rolls his eyes, then sets his weights down to face Rhys more fully.
“I don’t remember everything she said,” he starts, and Rhys really doesn’t like the sound of this. Confront Amarantha. He adds it to his never-ending list. “But there was some giggling over how you’d gone back to her apartment to get her coat for her.”
Rhys groans and threads his fingers through his dark hair. He’d left the party that night because he couldn’t get you off his mind, and he didn’t want to be anywhere near Amarantha.
Apparently, she’d taken that to her advantage.
“And…” Cassian continues sheepishly and Rhys almost wishes Azriel didn’t save him. “She said something about how she doesn’t think your relationship with (Y/N) isn’t real, which is funny, because I didn’t even know you were in one with her.”
The entire room seems to go silent. Rhys can feel his friends’ gazes on him, waiting for an answer.
“As far as Amarantha knows, we are,” is what he finally mumbles, lifting his head from his hands. All he can think is, you’re going to kill him.
Azriel and Cassian share a glance. “I think you have some explaining to do, captain.”
Ugh. He hates when they call him that. But they’re his friends, and he doesn’t take kindly to the betrayal in their eyes. He needs to come clean.
Rhys takes a deep breath. He’s not ready to air his relationship out right here in the middle of the gym, but he owes it to his friends at least. He knows that if he explains, they’ll keep their mouths shut. He can’t have Mor finding out about this. If she does, his neck is on the line, and since you’ve been so adamant in your worry about the same thing, he feels like he’s betraying you, too. “I—”
“Rhys—” Balthazar cuts in.
Rhys whirls. Fire ekes into his voice before he can stop it. “What?”
His goalie’s steps falter. His features pinch in confusion, and Rhys’ shoulders lose their defense when he sees the dark circles under Balthazar’s eyes.
It seems like he’s not the only one on the team who’s sapped of energy.
“Sorry, B,” Rhys sighs. Standing, he shoots Cassian and Azriel a pleading look. They both nod in response, understanding to stay silent until he can explain. Relife falls over him like a raincloud, but not for long. He strides closer to his teammate, placing a hand on his shoulder. It does nothing to wash away the thread of worry in Balth’s brown eyes. Fuck. He’s been a shitty captain, hasn’t he? He should be making more time to talk to his teammates, not avoiding them in favor of his cousin’s best friend. “You okay?”
“Yeah,” Balthazar replies distractedly. He shakes his head, floppy chestnut hair flying. “Coach wants to see you.”
Rhysand’s stomach drops faster than the bar had slipped from his grip.
He plasters on a fake smile and claps Balthazar on the shoulder. “Thanks, man. If you need anything…” He trails off. ‘I’ll be around’ is what he should say, but that would be a lie.
He needs to get better at this whole captain thing.
“Thanks, Rhys,” Balthazar nods anyway, and takes the spot Rhys vacated, spotting for Azriel.
“What kind of coach would I be if I didn’t check in with my captain?” Coach asks, but it sounds rhetorical, so Rhys doesn’t answer.
He sits in the chair across from his coach. It feels like he’s in the principal’s office, about to get in trouble. It feels all too similar to the last time he’d been called in here, though that time, he’d been offered the role of captain of the Velaris Bats.
He wonders if this time, Coach is going to take it away from him. It’s a silly thought, but a possibly outcome nonetheless.
“How’s my team looking for the rest of the season?”
Rhys is stunned. He’s the coach, he knows exactly how the looks. Is this some sort of test?
Rhys’ response is immediate. “Strong, coach.”
Coach Devlin gives him a look before he returns to shuffling the papers scattered on his desk. “This is a place you can speak your mind, son.”
He swallows hard. His mind is frazzled, but he tries his best to sift through the unnecessary drama he’s been dragged into, past the images of you, racking his mind for what upcoming games they have.
“I think we have a chance at making it to the Frozen Four this year, Coach.” It’s true, the Bats only need to beat the Badgers and the Sealions to enter the tournament. They’ve already slaughtered the Wasps in a 5-1 game. “The Badgers have the best defense. From what I’ve seen, if we go aggressive on our offensive break-ins, we should be able to create a power-play. Those Badgers are hot-headed, and will have no trouble hooking or tripping to keep us from getting to the net.”
Coach Devlin looks at him like he’s never seen him before. Rhys has been giving as much attention to the game as he can. It’s his senior year. He knows scouts are watching the team. Velaris Hockey have made a name for themselves in the time Devlin’s been coach. He has a decent chance at being drafted. He hopes.
Devlin looks at him over the brim of his glasses, giving Rhys his full attention. It should worry him, the scrutiny of his coach, but he’s used to being watched. Putting on a show. And hockey is what he knows best.
“And the Wasps?”
“They’re a little trickier.” He leans back in his seat to think. Now that he’s thinking about his team, the sport he loves, everything else that he thought was going to make him explode outside seems irrelevant. In the grand scheme of things, nothing outside of this room, this facility, matters. “They’re strong and confident,” he begins.
“So are my boys,” Coach defends. He accentuates his statement with the slam of a closed fist to his desk.
“I couldn’t agree more, sir,” Rhys placates. “They’re cocky, which leads to turnovers. And our team is quick. We can easily slip through the Wasps gaps to take control of the puck. If we skate fast enough, we can get men by the net and they won’t even know what hit them until the pucks in the back of the net.”
Devlin contemplates. Rhys wipes his sweaty palms down the thighs of his jeans. He hopes he’s said the right things.
Eventually, his coach answers. “I like the way you think, boy.” Rhys almost melts into the chair in relief. “We’ll push agility drills this week.” He nods to himself, tugging on a random paper and jotting notes down.
Rhys takes his as his cue to leave. “Sounds good, coach.”
“You’re doing good work out there, boy,” Coach calls. His head is still buried in his work, so he doesn’t see the grin threatening to overtake Rhys face. He manages to keep it under wraps. “Keep it up, and keep your head on straight.”
It’s the most praise he thinks he’s ever gotten from Coach Devlin, and he’ll take it. Pride surges in Rhys chest as he stands, showing himself out. “Yes, sir.”
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Coming Home (But Not to You) + Someplace New Physical Bind
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i've done a few rebinds of paperbacks to hardcovers but this is my first ever full bind :')
i really love this universe written by @lesbianherald and i'm so delighted to have a forever copy! i keep coming back to it, so having it on paper will make it much easier to tab out my favourite parts when i need them.
there's definitely mistakes, especially with the cover (pls don't ask about the back cover it's none of my business). i hit a point where i chose done over good because otherwise this would have taken me 6 months. there is no prize to perfection etc.
Coming Home clocks in at around 360 pages and Someplace New is about 60. i included the playlists for both since i'm a sucker for 'bonus content'. in paper, that means 107 sheets of a4 split into 14 signatures of 7-8 pages.
some retrospectives and the guides i followed below:
what went well:
the actual process of folding signatures and sewing the binding was my favourite part. basically all the work that didn't involve fighting technology lmao
i struggled sourcing a4 short grain but i'm really happy i used it! it's such a floppy, soft book and it sits open on it's own
i hated the cover design in canva but on the book it looks sick as hell. very trust the process kind of deal
what didn't go well:
i'll never learn my lesson about text and heat transfer vinyl. this is where i almost lost my mind
speaking of htv, i really screwed up every step of the case creation. my boards are a little short, i wasted a load of book cloth, and i used to much glue for the endpapers that it seeped through a little. not enough to do major damage to the textblock, but the first and last 20 pages are a little wavy
Resources:
How To Typeset in Google Docs - i followed about 3 different tutorials for doing it in word before finding this video. very easy to follow and she shows how to impose to signatures afterwards
How To Bind on a Budget (Beginner Friendly)
French Link Stitch Bookbinding tutorial
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onlyangel4 · 11 months ago
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healing a heart i didn't break. LH44. MV1. SMAU. part two.
cheater! lewis hamilton x reader. max verstappen x reader.
when your boyfriend of three years fumbles, his rival is there to put the pieces of your heart back together bit by bit.
warnings: 14 year age gap with lewis. cursing. cheating. super super angsty.
author's note: this is still building up the angst the proper max fluff will be next. for context reader and lewis broke up eight weeks before the austin gp.
part one // part three
faceclaim: camilla morrone
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f1wags: y/n y/ln and alexandra saint mleux pictured on a dog walk out near y/n's childhood home. this is the first time y/n has been pictured in a week following the revelation that lewis hamilton had been cheating on her with y/exbff. no one knows how long they have been cheating but sources seem to think it did not start last weekend and has actually been going on longer. we hope that y/n is okay.
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user12: oh how i would love to hear the goss
user45: alex looked angry in some of the other pictures. i just know y/n is sitting on business
f1fan22: alex flying out to see her is true friendship y/exbff could never.
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y/ninsta: i'll be okay. i've got my girl.
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alexandrasaintmleux: my love, i am honestly amazed how strong you have been the past three weeks. i wish to be half the woman that you are.
y/ninsta: i would not have been this strong without you and charles alex. i love you both, thank you for taking me in before i found my new place.
y/nfan: lewis cheated on her with her best friend and took the house and roscoe (WHO THEY BROUGHT WHEN THEY WERE TOGETHER) all y/n got was her husky lilo and a broken heart. I HATE MEN
charlesleclerc: i took this photo
y/ninsta: yes charles you did. well done
user37: y/n is gentle parenting charles omg
maxverstappen: hope you have been okay y/n, been thinking of you recently, missing you around the paddock.
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user17: omg even max in on her side
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f1wags: y/n is in her revenge dress era. the ex wag has arrived at the austin gp. she came in and watched fp1 and fp2 with charles and alex and is in the ferrari garage. we here at f1wags are so happy to see her back in the paddock. also lewis and the other girl have arrived but i don't want to post about that.
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y/nlover: what a serve
f1fan43: THE OTHER GIRL even wag pages hate y/exbff
user48: lewis hamilton found screaming, crying, throwing up in the merc garage
user21: did you guys see max. he saw y/n walk in he stopped what he was doing jogged over to her and they had like a proper long conversation.
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f1updates: a story in two pictures.
picture one: lewis and y/n were photographed arguing behind the mercedes motorhome. y/exbff was also there. the video shows them talking to y/n and then y/n running off crying.
picture two: a shaky video captures the moment max watched y/n run off crying and he jogged after her. she said something to him and then he pulled her into a hug while she sobbed on his shoulder. he led her inside but when she pulled away from the hug max's white shirt was almost see through. y/n is obviously going through it. we are left wondering what lewis and y/exbff told her.
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f1fan: oh thank god for max, she looked so lost. looking around for someone to help her while paparazzi started calling her name when she was fucking sobbing.
hamiltonupdates: i am really questioning lewis rn
user23: y/n would not have gone to talk to him about just anything. this has to be big.
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y/exbff: sixteen weeks ago we made what we thought was a massive mistake that we vowed to never talk about but eight weeks ago we discovered it was the best thing ever to happen to us. baby coming march next year,
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ashwantsafreepalestine · 3 months ago
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4 April 2025.
After 14 hours of devastating missile strikes by the US-backed terrorist state of Israel on Dar Al-Arqam School in Gaza, a baby was miraculously pulled alive from the rubble.
If this baby had been Israeli, the world would've lost their minds. Front page of every news outlet.
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yurimother · 10 months ago
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Independent Yuri Magazine 'Galette' Crowdfunds First English Edition
Galette, the independent creator-owned Yuri manga magazine, has successfully crowdfunded its first English edition on Kickstarter. As of writing, over 300 backers raised 3.7 million Yen (25,000 USD), more than doubling the project's initial goal of 1.8 million Yen (12,000 USD) with 14 days left in the campaign, which launched on August 2.
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The project hit three of its four stretch goals, adding a book cover and new color illustrations and pages from the various contributing authors.
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The first English edition of Galette includes a translated selection of titles previously published in the Japanese edition. These works are:
Liberty by Izumi Kitta and Moto Momono
The Last Winter Sun Shower (Girl Friends extra edition) by Milk Morinaga - Girl Friends is licensed in English by Seven Seas Entertainment
That Woman in the Infirmary by Miyuki Yorita
Fluffy, Fuzzy, Dreamy. by Mera Hakamada
The Girls' Arcadia by Haru Yatosaki
Sky Blue Melancholic by Ringo Hamano
I Want You to Show it Only to Me by Nekohariko 22
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This is the first of seven planned English volumes of Galette. Each volume will be crowdfunded, and after all seven are released, Galette plans to publish Japanese and English editions simultaneously. Future volumes will not be published if any volume fails to meet its required funding goal.
Galette is an independent magazine that began publishing quarterly in 2017. The magazine just celebrated the launch of its 31st issue. It is largely crowdfunded through memberships, along with sales of print and digital editions of the magazine, the spinoff publications Galette Meets and Petit Galette, and publication of collected volumes and works from the magazine, including Moto Momono's The Rain and the Other Side of You (licensed in English by Digital Manga Inc.) and Milk Morinaga's My Cute Little kitten (licensed by Seven Seas Entertainment).
You can check out the Kickstarter for the English Edition of Yuri Manga Magazine Galette and contribute to the project today.
Disclaimer: YuriMother has pledged to the Kickstarter Source: Official Kickstarter Page, Galette X account
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