#spoonie swiftie

[justatorturedpoet]

Hate how can't make my body and mind release the excitement chemicals for speak now tv LIKE I JUST CANT GET EXCITED FOR ANYTHING

[chronically-evie]

help i need more chronically ill/disabled swifties to be friends with😭😭

[everytaylorswiftsongisaboutcats]

I imagine that, instead of being a lonely Zillennial (roaring 20s tossin tossing pennies in the pool, it’s supposed to be fun turning 21, how can a person know everything at 18 but nothing at 22-ooo oo ooo, she’s still 23 inside her fantasy and your sitting in front of me) woman (she/her; feel free to tell me your pronouns) covered in cat hair (it’s a party) drinking in my wine-aunt bi-wife energy (I am the bi-but-not-so-much-wife; LGBTQIA+🩷💜💙), I am a ghostly Victorian lady (a better way to put Chronically Ill/anemic spoonie🥄🦓🦄 INFJ/INFP w CPTSD🩵SA survivor) wandering through the backwoods with a candle in a candlestick holder, writing only on parchment with a feathered quill (instead of ranting from my not-so-new phone on Tumblr at 3:00 a.m. like the Midnights become my afternoons insomniac I am, off to some secret garden in my mind or fangirling on a Swift Stream).

Just a folklore / evermore girlie that would’ve could’ve should’ve been a head writer/artist in The Tortured Poets Department if only my crying a lot was more productive instead I just try to keep making art & am an avid reader of all of the books beside my bed.

I mostly speak now in English (& I try to keep up with swift fluency for Swiftie acronyms iykyk-yoyok🤣).

🫶 So, It’s me, hi 👋 you can call me “the problem” or Lila (as an anon nickname) or Lav aka @lavendarneverlands the 1 main blog of ✨mine🪻 (cause lavender haze was taken & alas, there’s nothing I hate more than what I can’t have), so I guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats, alone… but if you follow this page you can come along💖 I’m usually running back home to you here on what’s the seven-th-ish Tumblr side-blog I have for fandoms like this!

So, Welcome Swifties! Long live the magic we make!

P.S. yes, I’m still a believer: that every Taylor Swift song is actually about her cats.

If you want the D.L.X. bio there’s a more chapter below:

Here’s some basic Q&A’s to trade friendship bracelets:

My Taylor Swift cry song is: Champagne Problems

& if I don’t scream/sing “She would’ve made such a lovely bride what a shame she’s fucked in the head” then I have been beamed up in a cloud of sparkling dust.

Same with “And you were tossing me the car keys, "Fuck the patriarchy" Keychain on the ground, we were always skippin' town. And I was thinkin' on the drive down, "Any time now, He's gonna say it's love," you never called it what it was. 'Til we were dead and gone and buried; check the pulse and come back swearin' it's the same, after three months in the grave. And then you wondered where it went to as I reached for you, but all I felt was shame and you held my lifeless frame.”

I have never been to a Taylor Swift concert. & It is not for a lack of trying. Yes, I hate it here.😂 But yes I watch every stream I can, I love Surprise Song o’clock. Minus the fact I’m bad at math for CT.

Confession: I’m horrible at hearing lyrics right & either really good or really bad at acronyms.

First album heard & album experiences: Debut I heard but it was brief it was really Fearless as the first album I got super into & then went back to Debut after, Speak Now was my age group/childhood, Red was the obsession phase & only sanity in my life, 1989 will forever & always be a bop, Reputation is severely underrated, Lover was all I listened to that entire year, folklore was my true love at first sight, evermore saved my brain in a really tough time, of course the re-recordings are all I listened to Taylor’s Version all day everyday (just waiting for Debutation) Midnights is perfection I loved it day 1 to wherever we are now, Tortured Poets Department is THE album everyone I know heard and went LILA ITS YOU (or should I say ME!).

Current album rankings: — (trying to think technically) — folklore, evermore, Midnights, The Tortured Poets Department, 1989, Reputation, Speak Now, Red, Lover, Fearless, Debut — (trying to think subjectively) — evermore, folklore, The Tortured Poets Department, Midnights, Red, 1989, Reputation, Lover, Speak Now, Fearless, Debut

Swiftie-ness: I do LOVE Fall & I don’t care that I’m basic. Why would you make fun of someone for being excited? In a world where we can like whatever I’m happy to be excited over enjoying TS music. And I wanna be remember for the things I love! + I think she is a gifted storyteller. And her music has put words to what I cannot, I’ve grown up with it steadily, got more into it during Lover, super into it during folklore & super next-level Swiftie during Midnights & Eras Tour but I’ve never not been a fan. Minus the one thing I hate getting stereotyped for: I don’t get weird with it; death threats are too far, stalking someone isn’t being a fan it’s being a stalker, be kind & enjoy enjoying something, but be people people. However that’s not the Swifties I know, I like the friendship bracelet group of y’all! Let’s fandom about it!

Clowning Levels/Thoughts/Theories: I predict Rep first, & Debut being called Debut Taylor’s Version… though “Taylor Swift Taylor’s Version” would be epic. TBH I’m just excited for whatever they are :-) & yes, I, Eras Tour clown an embarrassing amount😅😂 while also loving where we are in this era/age.🫶💕

[hauntingmesostunningly]

get to know hauntingmesostunningly ★

BASICS:

♥︎ call me S, she/her, MINOR

♥︎ jewish

♥︎ GAD, BPD, MDD, ADHD, ARFID, autism & more (unfortunately)

♥︎ spoonie (POTS, Scoliosis, PANDAS, FND, ME/CFS)

♥︎ swiftie

♥︎ lesbian

YES:

taylor swift, gracie abrams, sabrina carpenter, olivia rodrigo, phoebe bridgers, formula one racing, legos, books, cds, writing, drawing, fanfic, mauraders, harry potter, the hunger games, twilight, fourth wing, wlw romance books, country music, handwritten notes of appreciation, jellycats, the beach, sharks, whale sharks, veterinary medicine, cats, service dogs, pink cowboy hats, vacations in mexico, kittens, bully breed dogs, forearm crutches, compression socks with designs, lesbians, tanning, sunny days, vineyards, camping, forests, birkenstocks, greys anatomy, marvel, pumpkin spice, fall, christmas, tarot, gossip girl, arcane, orcas, wiener dogs, alix page, fairy lights, grace enger, redbull, academic validation, sambas, rain at night, foggy mornings, dragons, the beach.

NO:

volleyball, sweating, mean teenage girls, ice spice, polyester bed sheets, atmospheric rivers, the red queen saga, tight fitting hoodies, vans shoes, greek mythology, homework, tests, medical gaslighting, school presentations, white chocolate, judging people's mobility aids, DC, hot topic clothes, sun burns, oily sunscreen, bangs sticking to your forehead, wet socks, anime, pe class, kanye west, rap music, hating on swifties who watch KCC football, taylor swift hate, girls picking on eachother, polyester shirts, yelling children, abelism, soccer, misogyny, steak, dehydration.

DNI:

over 20 y/o, under 13 y/o, abelist, antisemitic, pro-palestine, anti-zionist, (just don't talk to me about the war, ok), mysogonists, T.S. haters, racist, queerphobic, ect.

asks are ok, but DM's are not unless we are mutuals.

(just be nice and not creepy)

[thedoorsofmyheart]

Me explaining why I won’t be sleeping tonight because Taylor Swift has an interview and music video release - Like it isn’t me every other night of the week (when there isn’t a Taylor Swift release) and I’m still up at 3 am not sleeping

[redsodaswift]

@taylorswift thank you for always being there for me and keeping morale up during recovery

Had a liver transplant 5 years ago, and now on the list again for a new liver because my rare autoimmune disease returned, but I have plenty of reasons to smile (like waiting for @taylorswift to drop new music)

[lavendarneverlands]

I both love how the chronic illness community kinda runs the vast majority of my fan bases, gif makers☑️ live streamers☑️ Ao3 writers☑️ like everyone might feel like death but my goodness we/y’all make the content I live for😂🫶

[findyourrare]

Our FALL collection has dropped ➡️ findyourrare.com

[evelynswiftie8]

So this might have been last night but I saw a couple posts so we’re going to pretend it’s disabled selfie night tonight. SO happy disabled selfie night from your local depressed/anxious swiftie who also finally got her autism diagnosis (and adhd for I think the third time?) today!

[whattaylormademedo]

I just cried and screeched like an injured monkey at the trailer for “folklore: the long pond studio sessions” trailer when Tay started playing “cardigan” and my dad was in the hall outside of my room after my thigh injection

SO, he said calmly, “are you screaming because you’re in pain again or because of Taylor?” and I screamed back (with 0 chill), “BOTH.” and he didn’t even reply

THEN, @taylorswift started playing “august” and so I scream-sobbed to him (still in the hallway) “NOW SHE’S PLAYING AUGUST AND SHE’S DOING A THING WITH HER HAND AND I DON’T KNOW WHY I ALWAYS PICTURED HER DOING THAT EXACT HAND THING WITH AUGUST BUT SHE’S DOING IT AND I CAN’T HANDLE IT” and my dad flatly-replied, “that’s nice”

like Idk when I reached this level of Swiftieness to make my dad have ABSOLUTELY NO CONCERN at all for why I’d be SOBBING AND SCREAMING about that, but I did. it did mean everything. he just knows that’s me being myself and has accepted it. tbh, I’m kinda proud

[katie-sierra]

I really think Taylor would like these pictures using the folklore filter of my chronically ill cat, Sofie.

Guess I'll just stumble on home to my cats

@taylorswift @taylornation @taylorswift-news

[spoonie-swiftie]

I’m falling apart.

Physically, mentally, spiritually,

Everything is falling apart.

Between not being able to afford my meds,

being 200+ mi overdue for oil change,

trying to save everything for Flynn’s service dog training so that I have some independence

while also trying to take care of myself all alone,

feeling like I’m useless and a waste of space,

having PTSD flashbacks alone in my house & needing a therapist who will do telephone appts who’ll charge my insurance but nobody will see me because of the risk and since I’m not already established somewhere I just have to sit and wait.

Also my chronic pain is getting much worse and I don’t have the money to fly back out to Rhode Island to see my EDS specialist and I definitely don’t have the money to pay for the treatments I need, the weekly massage therapy I need ($89-120 a session) so I can get my joints back into place, even things like getting CBD ($30-120) to see if it helps my pain and nausea (since MMJ is illegal in Nashville) or my oxygen tubing (the one I have on needs to be replaced and my central line supplies are low but the order will be $45+) or even a home massager at a lower price range that works to help relax my super tense muscles at home so I don’t keep falling apart physically too.

I feel like the biggest asshole because every single time I come on social media I’m seeing a new super deserving Swiftie get a Taylor notice or a donation which makes my heart so, so full and happy.

But I can’t help but have a part of me that wishes I could have something like that to hold onto...

It’s just...

...it feels like I’m drowning & I’m 100% invisible always.

To my family, my friends, and the people I look up to most. I could disappear from the world for weeks and nobody would know.

I’m having so many problems with my health that are just in limbo because I can’t leave my house and see doctors without a severe chance of catching COVID19 and knowing that because I’m already on oxygen at 28 and have lung damage they most likely won’t do anything if I catch it cause I won’t come back from it.

I’m having so much survivors guilt because here I am, bed bound and burdening, and there are mothers and fathers and people with their whole life ahead of them who aren’t making it.

I feel so icky cause I know and am friends with amazing people and so deserve all the goodness.

I just wish I wasn’t so needy and struggling and scared while also hopelessly invisible 1000% of the time.

I’m too tired to fight like this but I’m holding onto hope that like @taylorswift said “it’s just a matter of time, up there’s the finish line”

So I’m running.

Hanging on because it gets easier, and then it gets okay, and then it feels like freedom.

Here’s hoping these things will change.

🤟🏻😘♥️

-lovelovelove-

-Mandie

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(PS photo cred to @newseptemberz for the middle picture, she’s amazing.)

[swiftieinred13]

Guys this is like the grown up “Mean” like we are now living in those big cities and they are still pathetic but those snakes never broke our bones

[shariarchinoff]

Happy New Year’s! Ok so I’m a few days late, but that’s how I roll. I posted this video of Taylor Swift’s New Year’s Day last year, and just a few more views will get me to 113 which seems like a very Swiftian goal.

If any Swifties see this, help a girl out? (please and thanks!)

Hope you all have an amazing 2020! My New Year’s Resolution is to make more music. What’s yours?

xo

Shari

[dundermifflin-thisis-estesghost]

✨ Starry eyes sparklin’ up my darkest night ✨