#tbh i'm just having such a hard time doing evil now that I've done a good run and got attached to everyone

[carmsgarms]

breh I'm at the point of act 3 where I have so many choices about what to do next and I don't know which quest to do first - everything is a little different because i'm doing an evil durge run but I've done act 3 before so I kinda know where everything is (I think). Does anyone else get indecision anxiety in act 3?

A/Astarion spoilers below cut

Also un-romanced Ascended Astarion is fascinating. He just acts like he's above it all. Mr. "Oh yes the trifling little matter of that brain we have to deal with." He truly has no reason to stick around with us but he thinks everything is just so entertaining.

he does seem to have an odd sense of...happiness...that spawn astarion doesn't have. If you have him look in a mirror he's just like "wow can't believe I haven't been able to see this face in 200 years." but not in a sad, melancholic way, no it's almost celbratory. The way he says "ah, my favorite travelling companion." to a high approval un-romanced durge is also so so fascinating...it's almost a little disconnected? Like nothing really has power over him, he's completely untethered to anyone or anything. and he's an absolutely unstoppable force in battle, it's wild how being evil really does make you so much more powerful in this game but you also literally have fewer allies.

like damn this game really makes you pick between having power and having friends.

anyway this wasn't supposed to end up an astarion analysis.

act 3 is great but i'm overwhelmed and the only thing i've been able to manage doing is ascending astarion, the wizard tower and accidenally finishing the murder case.

[galadrieljones]

Gala! I need to hear all your thoughts about seeing Solas again!! (When and if you’re willing to share ofc) ☺️

Omg. Honestly, I don't know. It's been so long, and in so many ways, I've moved on completely, but also, like, no. I will never move on lol. It seems I will probably need to go back and replay DA:I this summer, which is perfect, because I'm just about done with Death Stranding, and this will be a great way to pass the time between now and the Fall (at which point Daryl Dixon season 2 also starts so idk how I shall survive the inundation with characters I love--I will just have to find some sort of balance LOL). I really do need to brush up on the lore and try to even remember what was happening, and also get back into Sene's POV, because I do believe the Inquisitor is going to make an appearance in this story, and I am very excited for that but also very anxious. I do actually trust Patrick Weekes to give closure to the DAI fans and Solavellan shippers, particularly knowing how hard he worked to give us that notorious "COLE GREATLY APPROVES" moment in Trespasser 😭 Tbh though, I'm just not sure entirely what that will look like. I'm nervous!

I will say that I am really very happy to see how Solas is portrayed in this scene with Varric. He's actually nowhere near as cold as he seems at the end of Trespasser. He seems much more reluctant than he did back then, like he legitimately doesn't believe there's a better way. He doesn't seem evil or beyond repair. I wonder if that's because he's spent so many years alone, plotting, and it has actually served to soften him. In those first two years, after Corypheus, it's clear he was able to scrub his experience with the Inquisition from his heart, but most likely what he's learned is that it was merely a cosmetic fix. The connections he made back then are still with him, and seeing Varric again bubbled them up to the surface, even if only briefly.

I won't lie when I say that I actually really did not like the reveal trailer at ALL, which came out a couple days ago. It gave me like, Fortnite vibes and I was really concerned, because I've been out of the loop and not paying attention to the development of the game at all. Like this came completely out of left field for me, and then the name change...yikes. BUT the gameplay trailer fixed all of that. The game looks dark, gritty, and EXTREMELY fun. I love that they will start us out with Varric and Harding. I love them both so much, like old friends I haven't seen in such a long time. It filled me with warmth when Varric tried to reason with Solas, because that is EXACTLY what Varric would do, and even just hearing his voice, and Harding's voice, and of course Solas's voice, it made me tear up. I cannot wait. I am SO excited!!!!!!!!

I'm also really excited to reconnect with some of our old crew on here. I know lots of us are still around to various degrees even as we've all dispersed to different fandoms and real life circumstances for years. But Solavellan was my first real ship and Dragon Age was my first true fandom, and in my heart, we and our Lavellans will always be the GOAT. 💫

HOW are you feeling about all of this @bearlytolerant??????

[pillowfriends]

my thoughts on the WoT characters after book 5

before I start posting Lord of Chaos thoughts, I wanted to sum up what I think of the characters after The Fires of Heaven (and New Spring) so I can look back on it later. I’m sure I’m missing some, just listing everyone I have thoughts on.

Alanna: I have my eye on her after those sus forced bonding comments… time will tell but I don’t trust her at all. I like her though, she’s fun.

Asmodean: he was funny as hell, what a pathetic guy, and had objectively the most hilarious death in the series so far.

Aviendha: this is probably the character I have the least complicated feelings about. I just like her. she’s funny, she’s badass, her relationship with Rand is great.

Birgitte: a hot bicon. every word that comes out of her mouth is gold. she’s such a bro.

Egeanin: standout side character to me I love her so much. yes girl unlearn your cultural biases! and be unhinged and horny on main!! she better come back!!

Egwene: girl I want to like you but you're making it so hard 😭 as a character she's great. as a person I'm struggling with her dumbassery and her superiority complex and the way she's treating Nynaeve.

Elaida: she’s cringe and bad at her job but I kind of stan. she’s doing her best and it is absolutely not good enough and she’s being puppeted by the Black Ajah and only succeeded at deposing Siuan because a bunch of teenage boys stabbed people for her. I can’t even be angry at her tbh.

Elayne: book 5 was so great for Elayne. she's maturing a lot and she really shot up the list for me. her interpersonal relationships are so funny and I love how excited she is about making ter'angreal.

Faile: maybe absence makes the heart grow fonder but I miss her and want her back. she was so silly but also loved Perrin so much and I’m such a hopeless romantic that I loved the sappy parts.

Gareth Bryne: this man is a CREEP!! Siuan get AWAY from him! ugh ugh ugh. and I know it’s only going to get worse.

Galad: unfortunately this man is one of my favorite character archetypes. I didn’t vibe with him at first but now I really do.

Gawyn: I want to put him in a paper shredder. I am so angry at this man even after a full book to cool down post-coup. please let me deck him. I do think my feelings will change but right now I’m still angry as shit.

Graendal: problematic queen. do I think RJ will do anything interesting with her, probably not, but am I intrigued, yes.

Lan: THIS MAN BREAKS MY HEART DAILY. ohhhhh my god. not normal about him.

Lanfear: hmmm complicated feelings about book Lanfear. I found her introduction painful and annoying - it’s way too obvious - but she improved and I do love how crazy she is. it didn’t really sink in for me until her conversation with Rand in Tear that she’s delusional and obsessed with LTT to the point of being completely out of touch with reality, and therefore v scary. TLDR I love her now. RIP gone too soon.

Leane: I have no idea what’s cooking with her, I just have to RAFO. I’m either going to think she’s an icon or get angry at RJ for being sexist and I don’t know which.

Liandrin: the balls on this woman are actually insane, trying to Compel Moggy. she’s way too cartoonishly evil to be really interesting though. but she makes so many sexually charged dog references which I love tbh.

Logain: he’s fine I guess. hard to tell where his story is heading and he kind of hasn’t done anything.

Loial: he has never done anything wrong in his entire life, he's perfect and I love him.

Mat: I've come around and I like him now. his memory stuff is really interesting and so is the way he interacts with fate/the Pattern.

Melaine: best Wise One I love her so much.

Min: she’s never clicked with me as a character and I think her motivation is kind of dumb and repetitive. I also really dislike how salty and disrespectful she is towards Siuan but that has to do with my personal issues about the Siuan plotline so I can’t totally blame her for that.

Moghedien: I NEED to put her in a petri dish and poke her with a stick. girl you are not subtle about your petplay kink. somehow she’s scary and pathetic at the same time and I just love her a lot.

Moiraine: I can’t even put it into words. she’s my everything.

Morgase: I feel so fucking bad for her, her POVs were horrific, what a survivor. I'm excited for when she gets a bigger plotline.

Nynaeve: my favorite character who’s on page at present. first of all she has a Forsaken collared. second of all she’s so angry and I love angry women. also she has no self awareness which makes her POVs very amusing, but also sometimes devastating — I love her struggling with fear and her perceived cowardice in TFOH.

Perrin: I constantly forget he exists. not in a bad way but not really in a good way either - he’s just bland to me.

Rand: he is my idiot baby boy. go insane faster please it’s interesting.

Rahvin: good riddance you creepy fuck. not even awful in a compelling way to me, just awful. good as a character, well-written, but AAAA.

Siuan: her arc after being stilled is distressing to me and I don’t like reading it - her loss of power and influence, the way the other Aes Sedai all treat her, the sexual harassment… so I have a hard time separating that out from Siuan herself. I’m… torn. I love some of her scenes and some feel very out of left field. we’ll RAFO again.

Suroth: GIVE ME MORE. her POV was fascinating and she’s so awful.

Thom: against my best wishes, I actually like him now. he’s so dad coded and protective of Nynaeve and Elayne, and a badass, and has a good sense of humor.

Verin: what an icon!! favorite Aes Sedai bar none now that Moiraine is gone.

[inevitably there will be a part 2 when I realize I forgot some really obvious people]

[muzzleroars]

Cyrus was wrong for his methods and for depriving people of choice, but was he really wrong about much else? Life is painful. Most days you’re unhappy pretty much every second you’re awake, trying to enjoy yourself is a waste of time because you feel just as bad the second it’s over, and anything that does make you numb for more than an hour hurts your health. Emotions are important to make sure we survive and care for our young, but is it worth it? If Cyrus offered everyone the choice to join his perfect world, I think a lot of people would take it.

this is why i genuinely connected with cyrus in many ways tbh, because i saw the worst of my depression reflected in a character with desperation i could understand. in those times, all you want is safety, you want things to just stop, and your emotions get so bad you think, in fact, it would be better to trade both happiness and pain away. and when you're grieved (as i believe cyrus is), it brings out this constant, awful anticipation where you're always waiting for the other shoe to drop. something terrible happened, and something terrible will happen again because now you've lost your sense of safety. it's wild how much that eats you up inside, and that's what i saw in cyrus - this guy is only in his 20s and he's just barely hanging on because he's been so badly hurt, he feels so alienated from his own emotions AND no one's ever been able to connect well with him (nor him connect with others) and like. OOF did i get that!!! at the end of the day, cyrus's motivation was literally just to see no more pain. he was done with all the hurt inflicted on both humans and pokemon, and i think you're right in saying many probably would actually see it his way because we've been hurt too, we've been in so much pain and so isolated that we understand this in a way some other people can't.

BUT i do just want to say i totally understand where you're coming from anon and i know life is hard, especially right now. my mental health has been suffering, i've been feeling my depression more and more, but i want you to know you're not alone in what you feel. honestly i'm so grateful we have characters like cyrus to connect with because it shows, through media, that someone else gets it - i've said over and over i'm a sucker for happy endings, which is why i'm so happy he got that in pokespe. cyrus has so much love in him (so much gratitude at being proven wrong!!! like!!!) and when it was recognized by shaymin, it hit me so hard i wanted to cry!! he gets to live, to take care of his team (his friends, really) and he gets the ending he actually deserved because there isn't truly evil in cyrus imo, just pain and desperation. so i want to hope we can be happy too, that life will get better, and i think that's absolutely true no matter how hard it can be to believe at times. i hope you can take good care of yourself anon <3

[journey-to-the-attic]

Thoughts on the new game for Obey Me coming out and how it relates to IK?

(Sorry if I am super late to the party on this ask btw)

i played through a chunk of it today and it really exceeded my expectations in terms of story!! definitely has already outdone at least s3 + s4 in terms of character development. very curious in particular about barbatos' role in mc's time travel, and also his past self's beef with solomon

though i have two chief complaints - 1. the 3d models unnerve me (mostly in in the knockoff tiktok app and that one video call during the tutorial, where you see them and the really awkward expressions up close - it's not as bad from afar in the wanderer's whereabouts hangout things. speaking of the ww feature, i like the concept, but the harry potter reference does piss me off a little)

2. i HATE the remixes they use for the rhythm games. they sound so bad. please just use the original songs for the love of GOD

i'm also a little confused by solomon's role - i appreciate him being a lifeline, but he's weirdly blasé about the whole situation, and i can't tell if he's being written with his relationship with mc kind of out of focus, or if we're meant to be suspicious about it. also i would like to know more about what's going on in the present? wonder if there'll be any cutaways in hard mode that might tell us

ANYWAY all that aside, about ik!! i do confess i've already started thinking of how she'd cope in the same situation as mc, but there's a lot that we'd have to change about the situation - 1. ik can't do magic, so a lot of mc's feats are unaccomplishable for her, and 2. given the major size difference between demons and humans in jtta, it'd be very hard for anyone to mistake her for a demon

tbh one word for ik in this scenario: burnout. she's trying her best but the love of god can she not have a peaceful life

also (and this may be a little evil), honestly i don't think i'd give ik the present-solomon lifeline. i've got this sorta idea in my head of a different kind of lifeline, where ik's pact with the brothers and the sheer strength of their found family bond, plus the weird nature of time around her, means that every now and then, the present-brothers briefly snap into the minds of the past-brothers that ik's currently stuck with

the only thing i've done with this concept is the idea of present-lucifer briefly zapping into past-lucifer's consciousness, and comforting ik about how cold the past-brothers are with a hug - then midway through the hug, he gets booted out again and past-lucifer zaps back in. he just sort of finds himself holding that random human kid, and for some reason he just keeps hugging her. he's not sure why, he just feels like he has to...

idk what the exact set-up the devs were going for with the time jump, so i'll leave that to the theorists for now, but we could say that in the jtta version, ik needs to re-forge her pacts to be able to give out a strong enough magical signal across time for barbatos to get her back home

[notafunkiller]

This is my first time here. I believe we've interacted on other SM & I've always enjoyed your level headed approach. For my two cents:

As someone who is closer to Sebastian's age than most of his fandom, and have experienced relationships in my late 30s-early 40s, what they exhibit is NOT a 'mature' relationship. You do not go from one relationship where you are photographed w someone's hands up your pants and 6 months later always make sure to walk with enough space between you & your partner to drive a truck thru, or use something convenient like bags, a phone, a dog or just fiddling w your hat, to avoid holding their hand while they hang off your arm or hold your finger like they're pulling a tired child. Or hardly EVER be photographed alone. It's off.

I also think much of what is taken as her 'baits' (i.e., liking things in NYC, or a designer, or following a pregnancy yoga instructor) are made out to be SO much more than what they are - someone following something they like, not bc it's a 'signal' as to the 'status of a relationship'. TBH, I don't see AW putting that much thought into it. Her public persona through her interviews and what others have said about her professionally (Charlie Hunan and Guy Ritchie in particular) is that of a vain, selfish, shallow person w no work ethic. It's hard to imagine someone like that spending time looking for ways to 'bait' SM. She's not some 'evil genius'.

Not that she DOESN'T stalk his - and her ex's - SM and anyone they're involved with. She's been caught out too many times for ANYONE to deny that. That shows, again, a very vain, selfish and INSECURE person.

Personally, I think this was something very casual on Sebastian's part. When you're over a certain age, the drive for a 'relationship' isn't paramount in your life, not when you have something as major as his career and being on the brink of what an actor like Seb wants and deserves - recognition. And, right now, it would seem that's where he's at. All of this nonsense about how he 'must' be in LA w her - the unscheduled pap capital of the world - is just that, nonsense. The last time there was even a HINT of them being in LA together (I'm talking with something besides a single 'spotting' on DM that never got posted) was a photo from October that DIDN'T show her & was from so far away, you couldn't be sure it was Seb. That's so far outside the law of averages as to be impossible. But, of course, someone like AW will use him, his co-stars, his family members, his friends, for attention to herself. It's what she's done her entire career and that's that.

Sorry for the long ask. I tried to encapsulate all the convos into one. 🤣

Hiii

Thank you and please don't apologize for writing long messages.

I agree completely that it is NOT a 'mature' relationship or how a mature relationship should look like. And you can't change so fast, as you said.... plus the distance and the fiddling, and it has nothing to do with privacy.

And yes, he is hardly ever photographed alone by paps. Especially in New York. It's very off.

I think what she baits is content with his shoe, his back, his arm or even his voice, but she cannot fully display him.

The rest aka the pregnancy yoga instructor or designers? I did not even think about it.

"what others have said about her professionally (Charlie Hunan and Guy Ritchie in particular) is that of a vain, selfish, shallow person w no work ethic."

I remember this! Guy Ritchie cut her off so much because he was disappointed in her performance, and I know Charlie was upset about it too.

(I went to look for the links: here and here, so I won't be accused of spreading lies again)

"When you're over a certain age, the drive for a 'relationship' isn't paramount in your life, not when you have something as major as his career and being on the brink of what an actor like Seb wants and deserves - recognition. And, right now, it would seem that's where he's at. All of this nonsense about how he 'must' be in LA w her - the unscheduled pap capital of the world - is just that, nonsense."

Thank you for saying this because many people make it look like it's a tragedy, for example, he doesn't want to get married and how he must change his mind. And how he has to marry AW.

It's absolutely disrespectful to him as a person (with his trauma, life experience, values and beliefs) and it also shows how they infantilize him and see him (without even realizing) as puppet.

Many are so obsessed with his location and where both of them live. It's like they're trying so hard to project onto him and them in general.

It's actually kinda scary and dangerous, too, especially knowing that he had to move from his previous apartment in NYC to another and that they exposed the address of the house Ale and him stayed in during the pandemic (I think).

And it's even pointless bc guess what? He travels most of the time.

And again, PR relationships = common, and I can't believe how some people do not know this.

(Benefits are different for both of them.)

[ashen-laguz]

i'm ngl i think on a certain level, shuu is the funniest character in all hatoful. this isn't even about the fact his morbid / murder-y humor is very to my taste, i mean moreso on the side of how all the characters are written

like i've mentioned before that my favorite thing about hatoful is how morally gray the game's writing is. how, honestly speaking, most of the major characters aren't exactly fully innocent in the grand scheme of things, but it's hard not to sympathize and understand where they were coming from with whatever crimes might be up their sleeve - hitori's gone through more trauma then any one person could withstand and i do not blame him for wanting to avenge his last remaining family, yuuya was young and in a position where he had no good options, ryouta was so broken down by the end of bbl by going through so much in such a short span of time that if there's anyone who genuinely blames him for simply going along with what shuu wanted, then clearly they just don't understand how draining and awful going through that much would feel, ect ect.

For every poor mistake, there is genuinely sympathetic reasoning behind why someone would do that.

and then there's shuu.

i think the most that could be said in defense of him still isn't really a proper defense tbh. the most one could really say is just bringing up how he was practically raised by the hawk party - ya know, the group who wants all humans dead. growing up surrounded by very specific beliefs like that will have a strong effect on how you think and live your life. breaking out of the mold that you were raised with is honestly a lot easier said then done.

but like... when his goals in BBL are just straight-up genocide, when he's just killing students whenever he feels like for whatever he feels like, especially when this is when he as a grown-ass adult who is now VERY capable of thinking for himself, breaking away from the hawk's beliefs, and realizing the very basic "wait maybe its not good to kill all humans," then it doesn't really matter how you grew up! that straight up makes you an evil person!

especially the student murdering tbh cause the whole hawk party thing doesn't really cover that. they want birds to thrive, and murdering other birds doesn't exactly uh. it doesn't rlly fit with that lmao

it's just so comically over the top evil. this is like you plucked one of those 'teehee imma destroy the world' antagonists from a saturday morning cartoon and dropped him into a story full of characters of multi-faceted, morally complex characters. he just kind of sucks and tbh i love that for him.

[suzannahnatters]

MOON LOVERS: SCARLET HEART RYEO has deaded me and I've never been so happy about it

EUN!!!!

I'm not okay.

of course So was always going to make this choice, and I suppose it's hard to just opt out of a system when you and everyone you care about it trapped inside it, but there tragedy is definitely HERE

oh heck no, did he just lie to her? after promising he wouldn't?? and when the real thing he used as an excuse was a genuine point of conflict that could have served the writers just as well???

everything was going so WELL

Jung has no damns left to give either :3

big fan of the way nobody's wearing pastel robes anymore, they're all in black and guyliner

cept Baek Ah, please stay alive my child

dying over the internal thematic resonance here. So wants to be king so he won't be someone's killer anymore. but if you take the throne you have to be willing to throw everyone else away. And that's what he's already done to our girl, as happened to Lady Oh before her

taking the throne is the leading cause of insanity in this kingdom, looks like

ok they actually resigned me to the Break Her Heart To Save Her bit by downplaying it a whole lot and justifying it pretty well. it's still not my favourite & it IS cruddy of him to lie but also the king IS very actively using her to control him.

most of the time this trope happens I'm like "in what universe does this even make sense" but in this case, well it's a stupid decision but one I can actually imagine making

So explains why he wants the throne: at first he just wanted to protect the people he loved but now he wants to FIGHT THE SYSTEM, YEAH

*cough* or make things better for the normies

she's 100% Ophelia but he's better than Hamlet so I support him tbh

it's on, even Baek Ah is in armour now

not so evil queen gets the thesis statement: you must throw away love in order to gain the world

aaaaaaaaaaaAAaaaaAAAAAaaahhh

did...did our girl poison king Guyliner (no but it was convenient yes?)

what was in the letter

our girl getting to be the first to acclaim the new king yessss

well HECK the throne-induced insanity is setting in quick this time

I repent, I repent, he should have listened to our girl T_T

astrologer is Concerned and so am I

I'm so happy for Rebel Princess getting to stab someone at last

augh Wook very correctly points out to our girl that she's stuck by So as he makes the same decision Wook did

and then she retorts that at least he was honest about it with her

well played and game over

oh no I knew it wasn't good that she was clutching her heart

the sheer stress of the lifestyle is getting to her...the way it did to Lady Oh

and our girl's protege Chae Ryung is in love with a prince, it's all starting another tragic cycle huargh

fascinating how the back half is contextualising the show's treatment of the original king.

I hate that it went easy on him, but it quickly started to be apparent that the king is similarly caught in the system as everyone else. one person wanting to change isn't enough.

this show is so much more complex than I gave it credit for!

well I have a three page list of Reasons Why Marrying Princess Smirks-a-Lot is NOT Good Realpolitik

oh the pain is ON now our boy is making a whole parade of bad decisions and the show...isn't letting him off for them?

like, it's showing him yielding to the pressure of the system but also our girl takes a good long hard look at him and...

is this show going to Do The Thing

couples who pledge love over this swimming pool never end well, goodbye Baek Ah

no this is almost worse, Baek Ah gets to live in the most heartbroken manner possible

meanwhile So is gradually losing the bits of his humanity one by one T_T

SHRIEK

Jung just came to get our girl in the dumbest way possible, this is why you do not ask the general to rescue you from the deadly court

WOOK, DID YOU JUST DO SOMETHING LEGITIMATELY UNSELFISH

oh the sad king lurking in Jung's garden all eaten up with jealousy is the BEST THING and totally what he deserves

oh I LOVE this - our girl makes sure Chae Ryung's last letter gets to Won ahhhhh

the actor for Wook has just done an amazing job of visibly aging from 20 to 50 before our eyes, and he's done it all with facial expressions and body language

our girl has made it back YESS

and left history a little better in her wake

that rates as a happy ending in my book

THEY DID THE THING

I NEVER THOUGHT THEY WOULD BUT THEY DID

IT'S OPHELIA IN ANCIENT GORYEO

look idk what I expected from a story about a modern girl going back in time to charm 8 cute princes but it sure wasn't a brutal Shakespearean tragedy about power corrupting even the truest love

10/10 perfect ending, no notes. Bittersweet, agonising, fitting, PERFECT.

review to come

[haleigh-sloth]

This is probably really stupid but I can’t help but wonder this 😭 now obviously I know there will always be those horrible takes about Touya and his abuse, but I felt like there was such a volatile reaction to his trauma where he was being called a “spoilt brat” “born evil” and the one to blame for the state of the family. Just being all round invalidated, and it made me wonder do you think people would have been more empathetic or sympathetic towards him. If we had gotten his backstory 1) through I guess his point of view first and 2) before Endeavor’s change of heart? Like I think it’s being handled very well, but I hate how some people have reacted to it and always wondered if Horikoshi hadn’t decided to humanise Endeavor first and then reveal Touya’s backstory would have people been more willing to empathise with him?

Hmm

It’s not stupid lol

I can't answer on the what ifs, because I don't think it's a matter of those circumstances tbh.

In my personal opinion and experience with this fandom and ever since the hospital chapters released, the biggest problem is that people expected another Shouto situation.

Shouto's situation was quite easy to read. He was beaten, hit. He witnessed his MOM get beaten and hit. He saw his mom have a mental break down and his dad took his mom away. Shouto hated his dad.

Easy to follow, easy to see who is the bad guy.

Touya's situation is....a lot more complicated. Because Touya's abuse was strictly emotional. The damage he took was psychological, while all the physical damage was inflicted upon himself. And to add a cherry on top of what's already a complicated mess, the emotional abuse was due to Touya wanting attention from said abuser. When people think of emotional abuse they'll probably most likely think of berating, name calling, intentional damage being inflicted. But with Enji that was not the case. Clearly. It was abuse inflicted by avoidance. And the avoidance hurt Touya, because he wanted his dad to be the biggest part of his life, just like he was when Touya was very young.

Imo, Touya gets such negative reactions because he poses as a very hard pill to swallow. Children in abusive families are not always going to ask for an escape, to be taken away to a better house with better parents, nor are they always going to place blame on the parents for the things they've done. That's just not the reality of it. Often times they want to stay with their parents that suck, stay in their home that sucks. Often times they lie to protect their parents.

Now, the Todorokis weren't being investigated or anything lolol--BUT Touya poses as that kid who continues to want that relationship with the parent who is hurting him. Each of the Todosiblings exhibit a different reaction to their trauma, and it's obvious how closely Horikoshi was trying to hit the nail on the head with that idea. And I feel that based on some things I read from people, the visceral reactions are either due to personal reasons that this sub plot touches on for them, or people just lacking an understanding in how children and families work.

Both I am understanding toward. But I stop feeling sympathy for those people when they insist that their idea of how to react to abuse is the right way--as if there is such a thing, or when people plug their ears and close their eyes and refuse to learn a thing or two about abuse and continue screaming their shit takes.

Imo I've seen 2 distinct groups who hate Touya:

Shouto stans who insist that Touya is bad for Shouto and the Todorokis or something, or continue comparing his situation to Shouto as if to prove a point about what abuse is or isn't

Villain haters in general (not worth even engaging with tbh cuz they're a lost cause)

I'm generalizing--because there are more groups of people who hate him for different reasons.

But when it comes to understanding the Todoroki dynamics and what the story is building up toward, there are a lot of things within the sub plot people don't want to talk about.

One of them being the fact that Touya wants his dad. In his life. He may not NEED his dad in order to live a life, but he WANTS his dad's presence in his life. And the story is building up to giving the LOV trio what they want--which means Touya and Enji will be in each other's lives, under the pretense that this is what they both want. Most importantly what Touya wants.

The other big one is acknowledging that Rei failed too, and contributed to Touya's downfall.

A couple of things I've touched on in this post but didn't expand on I talk about here and here.

[mermaidsirennikita]

Who are your favorite, top tier, iconic romance heroines?

Oh, love this! Of course, it changes from time to time.

I reeeeeally adore a lot of the IAD heroines, so I'm going to limit myself to two from their ranks, 10 heroines total.

Neomi Laress, Dark Needs at Night's Edge--A former burlesque dancer turned ballerina turned vengeful (and horny) ghost??? Tbh, the moment when I knew Neomi was a forever girl for me was when she was attempting to prove that Conrad could see her by doing a striptease for him while he desperately tried not to react. She's both fun and sweet and tragic and bitter. She's super gentle, and at the same time very sexually bold and borderline hedonistic. This is one of those books where I genuinely didn't know how there would be a happy ending even though I knew there had to be, and I was clutching my pearls.

Ellie Peirce, Lothaire--I've actually spoken to people who are reading this series and haven't read Lothaire yet, and they're so bummed because they know his Bride is a human... And I get that on paper, the Big Bad falling in love with a mortal girl sounds disappointing and cliche. But Ellie is SUCH an icon. Brash and defiant with a cunning streak a mile wide and a bone deep vulnerability. I love that she's tough as nails, while also having a really tender heart, even if she tries not to let him see it. Like, she's never afraid of getting her hands dirty if it'll save her life (how much do I love a heroine who sees that the villain hero is DESPERATELY horny and is like "I'll fuck my way out of this") but then you have scenes like her sobbing in his arms about the hopelessness of her situation, or her being genuinely really hurt and degraded by the way Lothaire treats her after sex.

Elayne/Elena, Shadowheart--A new favorite of mine, just a really gorgeous heroine with an amazing journey. She begins as this very innocent, sheltered girl with no concept of her true importance, and she develops into this natural political mind who makes some truly tough decisions. I'm a sucker for books where the heroine is a with a Bad Man who mentors her in his evil ways (see: Lothaire lol) and this is a perfect example. Allegreto literally teaches Elayne to be his undoing, and I don't know exactly how aware he is. Also, Elayne's discovery of her sexuality and what she wants from him is so, so good. Like, her being all "UMMMM I WANNA PRETEND YOU'RE MY CAPTIVE PRISONER AND FUCK YOU WHILE YOU HANG FROM THE CEILING *hides face*" is so... weirdly.... cute? I love her.

Nellie Young, The Duke Gets Even--I loved Nellie before she got her own book, and I loved her even more after. She really gets a very "hero" type story. She's seductive and can't get any closer to a man than what a casual fling provides. She's rebellious and breaks the law for what she believes in. She has a deep-seated pain and woundedness she wants to hide from Lockwood so badly. Nellie is a true female rake and she's executed so well. The moments when you can hear her internal screaming as she realizes she's in love? Adore her. Also, would for sure recommend this book to people who are a fan of Megara from Hercules, now that I think about it.

Isabel Beckinhall, Thief of Shadows--She's beauty, she's grace, she picks up grievously injured men from the street and strips them down to tend to their wounds and makes them rock hard. I love that Isabel is shamelessly sexual, I love that she withholds herself from the kid she's caring for (her dead husband's illegitimate son, at that) because she doesn't want to let herself care; I love that she's so naturally caring and bighearted, but has been hurt so many times she can't bear to let on. Her breakdown about her past is such an achingly sad moment, but she has such strength and resolve. Winter gets a lot of attention for this book, and rightfully so, but Isabel is a fabulously done heroine; the ideal "refined lady getting seduced by the masked vigilante", but flipped in her superior experience, her jadedness contrasting with her desire to feel alive again. Also, she absolutely blew that boy's mind. In many ways.

Hester Wyatt, Indigo--I call Indigo one of my favorite rake/virgin romances, which I don't think a lot of people expect when they hear about the book at first. Indigo does have a very emotionally heavy plot (and it's also very fun and adventurous) but there's also a classic "quiet and practical virgin blossoms under the affections of a ladykiller in love" plot. Hester has been through so much, and she's a lot older than her years, and she stands up for what she believes in with such quiet passion... And I kind of love that, for all that there is a big Plot Plot, there's also this evolution of Hester and her ability to accept pleasure and joy. I also just really love her "oh FUCK" realization when the big Gesture is happening.

Gia Mancini, Mafia Madman--YEEEEEEEEEEEEAH BITCH!!!! Gia is a big favorite of mine, because she is such. Such. SUCH. A bratty heroine. I love the contrast of Frankie falling in love so quickly despite her attempt to put up a fight with Fausto, to Gia genuinely being like "I am going to fuck. This. Man. UP." with Enzo. She's so angry (rightfully so) and bitchy (very rightfully so). How can I not adore a heroine who gets kidnapped by a loony tunes hero and locked in a cage... realizes he's watching her through cameras... and does naked yoga...? That's icon behavior. Also, trying to escape a yacht by grabbing a couch cushion and jumping into the ocean. It's no wonder Enzo fell so hard.

Sara Fielding, Dreaming of You--I will go to the mat for Sara. I adore this bitch. Shoots a man dead within... what? The first 5-10 pages of the book? Is like "oh fuck; oh shit; whoops" before sizing up Derek Craven and asking him to let her shadow him at his club like he's a fucking goblin king and she's owed a favor for saving his life??? Gets so horny she would've let him take her virginity on like? A COUCH? AT A PARTY? Honestly, Sara is a total chaos agent. It's no wonder he's in tears over her at the end.

Lennix Hunter, The Kingmaker/Rebel King--Such a GREAT heroine. You get everything from her. The "don't call me kid, don't call me baby" anger, the activism and passionate beliefs, the brokenness and determination to keep going. Also, she's SUPER hot, it must be acknowledged. Never has it been more understandable for a hero to become absolutely obsessed with a woman.

Ling Suyin, The Dragon and the Pearl--I really love Suyin because she's so composed and seductive and knowing, while also having a truly innocent core. She doesn't want to fall in love, because she knows it will break her; but she can't resist. She's jaded beyond her years, she's cool, she has a deep desire to be loved and vulnerable. I find her very sweet and almost tragic? Everyone thinks she's a sly femme fatale, but she is in fact baby.

[hxhhasmysoul]

Well, it is true sukuna is evil ( and a piece of shit, but I love his expressions) but he is a delicious sin XD everything about him is quite delicious XD Anyway XD

I am happy some more people find my probably failed reading comprehension of yorozu's gift ruining sukuna, a good idea XD thank you, I just like some stuff like and to torture characters XD

Yes! I am excited about them too! It seems it will be bangers XD there is so many possibilities of what the plan could be that this talk would be endless XD

Maki could jump on Sukuna, but maybe they have some kind sequence to fight him, not saying yuuji and Hiromi will die necessarily, just maybe a down time.

Or maybe she will help Kinji?

But I do agree that yuuji pisses sukuna off for many reasons and would be interesting to see what he can do against sukuna, not just ability wise, but also psychological wise!

I was also thinking that, maybe Yuji could switch bodies with sukuna and then kill sukuna on his body? Might be a stretch, but it's a possibility. But that would mean that yuji would have no body to go back to so either him or megumi would die? Idk... just ideas XD

Also I wonder what will happen to poor megumi, boy needs a break and a big hug XD

I have list of issues with the whole gojo situation tbh, I am mostly confused and I this point with so much discussion around him, I got tired and confused XD his relationship with megumi is one of the things that leaves me a bit bitter and confused.

I see, I thought the same thing, it doesn't make sense for ke jaku to switch bodies right now.

Gojo techniques is cool and all, but it doesn't have the reach Geto's have. It would also make everything uo until now a big ass waste of time.

But I do think that they should dispose of gojo's body the right way, just in case XD and everyone else who might die tbh.

I got the feeling that while kenjaku is not much of a fighter, he is really good at it as if he does not quite enjoy fighting, just does it to keep doing whatever he is doing at the moment.

And he has a lot of experience too which helps tons against the "baby" jujutsu XD

It's very fun to chat with you! I don't feel judged and I am glad to have someone to hear me out and just chat. No fandom bs XD

Thank you!

Thank you for your asks, it's fun to speculate.

It'd've been fun if Yorozu's gift was a double edged sword. I reread 237 and it's said there that the weapon is her gift, I forgot about it because I forgot to read the chapter in order after the leaks. I love the leaks but they are fragmented and it messes with my understanding and memory.

I'm sure Maki will be brought in at some point but it's hard to say in which fight, she'd be an asset in any of the fights.

If I had to bet on some body swapping action with Yuuji's soul powers, I honestly would see him more switching himself into Megumi's body and getting Megumi into his own. One that's not transformed into a 4 armed behemoth, one that would likely be easier to reform. And like Sukuna can't be left unsupervised in a separate body. Sukuna needs a jailer and Yuuji is the only one who knows how to do that.

I've discussed Gojou so much recently that seeing him irks me at this point XD So I get you.

Also yeah, Kenjaku isn't one to choose a physical fight as a way to win but they will fight if they have to, and they do have skills.

And lastly I'm always happy to chat with fellow Sukuna enjoyers. He's an awful man with a hot 4-armed body and 2 lovely sexy smiles. I really like him as a thirst object but also as an antagonist. He has a fun personality for an antagonist.

I'm really curious for more Yuuji and Sukuna interactions, I really want to see Yuuji getting under his skin, messing with his beliefs and his self-image. He's done so much emotional and psychological damage to Yuuji, yet at the same time Yuuji never yielded to Sukuna, never cowered, never admired him. It'd be funny to see Sukuna yield. See Yuuji prove once and for all that his soul is stronger in every respect.

[bitchesgetriches]

Hi bitches!!

I had a horribly toxic job in the tech sector for three years straight out of college, but luckily I was able to save up enough to quit without another lined up back in January.

It (and let's be honest, not just the job, the pandemic didn't help) did a real number on my mental health so I've been living on savings and focusing on myself, not finding work, since then. I'm in a much better place now, but realizing that it's hard for me to find a job for three reasons:

1) it's always hard! I don't have any leads or anything, and throwing my resume at random jobs online obviously isn't getting me much of any traction

2) companies don't love to see six month breaks on your resume

3) tbh it's hard to motivate myself to look for a job when my only full time work experience was so unpleasant.

Any advice?

Oodles of it, honey nut cheerio!

1) Job hunting is hard. BUT. You can do it. Start here. Then check out {MASTERPOST } Everything You Need to Know about Getting a Job, Raise, or Promotion.

2) Don't worry, a gap in your resume isn't nearly as big a deal as people think it is.

3) Not every job is going to be like your toxic first experience, I promise. However, if you are hesitant to commit, you could start with a side hustle/part time job to give you the flexibility in your schedule and your finances to take your time finding a full time job that's a better fit.

Are You Working on the Next Fyre Festival?: Identifying a Toxic Workplace

Season 3, Episode 12: "I’m Done With Evil Bosses and Toxic Workplaces. Can I Stand Up Without Being Hammered Down?"

Bonus Episode: “I Can’t Stand Another Day at My Toxic Workplace! Can I Walk Away Without a New Job Lined Up?”

[sapphic-courtship-for-dummies]

hey! this is so dumb but my gf randomly told me that her tarot cards told her im manipulative which was a shock bcs no one has ever called me like that and I don't think of myself in that way, I'm pretty sure she didn't mean to hurt me and it's probably my fault for being so soft but it truly hurt me

Hi Anon, I know it's been a long time so I'm sorry I couldn't get to this earlier. I really hope everything worked out okay, and I hope it's still helpful at least to someone if I answer now. This particular ask stuck out to me as someone who reads tarot, because it automatically rubs me the wrong way.

Firstly, she should not be using her cards as an excuse or segue into trying to address someone about their behavior. If she has noticed you repeating certain manipulative behaviors (knowingly or not), then she should be direct and straightforward with her examples and how your behavior is affecting her. Second, it just feels like a misuse and disrespect of her cards tbh, she shouldn't hide behind them or scapegoat them to try to hide how she really feels.

It is alright to be soft. It is okay and normal to be sensitive and have your feelings be hurt when there is reason for them to be hurt. Even if it's true, it can still be painful to realize your actions or behaviors may have caused harm. I've had my own realizations regarding ways I've accidentally perpetuated harmful behaviors in the past that were manipulative and even toxic. It's hard. It's a process. I guarantee you that every person on Earth has knowingly or unknowingly done something inadvertently or outright manipulative or unethical at least once. It doesn't make you evil. It doesn't make you a bad person because you made mistakes. All you can do is be mindful of your actions and behaviors, own up to and learn from your mistakes, and work hard to do better and make up for it.

So when someone confronts you about your behavior, it's important to reflect and consider the criticisms seriously. If you find them to be true, then it's important to apologize and work toward making amends. However, it is also important to not project how you are feeling onto someone else or backlash out of defense. It seems like, from what you said, that your girlfriend was not as direct as she could have been, so I hope that she is coming from a place of honesty and good intentions, and not projecting her own feelings about herself onto you. It is also possible that she may have misinterpreted the cards. Either way, I want to emphasize the importance of you being honest about your feelings while respecting hers.

There's no perfect answer to a messy situation. All you can do is try to move forward by doing the next right thing. I wish you the best in deciding what that thing is for you, and my inbox/dms are always open.

Sincerely,

Sappho ❤️

[nancydrewwouldnever]

I'm one of the anons and I'm going to leave your blog. But I wanna say this. No one was talking about the victims of the sex industry. You're overreacting. I was talking about grown up women who made the decision to make money off of their sexuality. I'm not going to celebrate it and sell it as female empowerment when in reality it's male empowerment. We make objects out of ourselves and lie to ourselves to make it less uncomfortable. No one wants to be just some body parts for the male sexual pleasure. And by making it all about our bodies we give more power to men. I've never mocked victims because I have been a victim myself and it's disgusting of you to put those words in my mouth when I haven't said it nor did I implied it. I'm free to have an opinion and I will not allow people to controll what I think or believe. You're literally forcing me to think like you! I rather leave. Good bye./// Here comes the victim card! Whenever someone gets called out for the right reason and they don't have the guts to admit their mistake because they have a big fucking pride/ego they try to gather sympathy points just to prove their point Sorry to tell you anon it is kinda hard to believe that you are also a victim. If you are you will be a little more sympathetic and have empathy for others since you have been through something terrible too you have greater ability to process someone else's pain but you are doing the opposite. They are also human who you are judging so freely. Your words are hurtful and the biggest triggering point is you don't even realize it and I feel sorry for you for having a rock like heart since you can't understand other's emotions and feelings.

Don't let the door hit you on the ass on the way out./// Thanks Nan for doing this. Idk how some people feel so entitled to judge others and never ever think that every one of us may have done something to hurt others which to me is one of the most terrible things to do in one's life. No one is better than anyone, if someone is better among us it will be the person who stays away from hurting others intentionally. Tbh they are self righteous and self absorbed people.

A simple rule of thumb:

SLUT-SHAMING IS A TOOL OF MISOGYNY AND IS NOT OKAY

And now we are letting this go, because otherwise we just perpetuate the continuing Woman v Woman scenario/discourse that is the aim and goal of the patriarchal system, because it keeps us all so distracted in fighting one another that we never stop to think what could happen if we started fighting the poisoned system instead. Even within the bowels of the most radical faction of the Feminist movement, Ti-Grace Atkinson saw this:

Sisterhood is powerful. It kills. Mostly sisters.

It's time to stop figuratively killing each other. It's time to start destroying the very real evils that keep crushing us.

[thepurplewombat]

U mentioned that jgy is one of your favorite characters of all time, can I ask about your other fav characters of all time? I'm very curious bc u seem to be a cultured individual

Oh boy you sure may! *turns into an unskippable cutscene*. Not so sure about a cultured individual but let's see what consensus is once I'm done.

Olay so I'm going to go roughly chronological here, because everyone who has ever been a blorbo to me is, on some level, still a blorbo. So they all still count!

Okay so at the top of the list is one Jean-Luc Picard (Star Trek The Next Generation) . My mom loves to tell the story of how I, at age three, decided I was going to marry Captain Picard and we would have six children. To be honest if he showed up in front of me today and asked me to run away with him on the Enterprise, I'm not sure I'd say no. He's such a wonderful character in so many ways - wise, kind, diplomatic. My first memory of watching television is the episode where he was assimilated by the Borg. The episode where Jean Grey from the X-men movies was an alien who became the perfect mate to the first person she saw when she hatched from her egg thing, and the first person she saw was Picard and so she still married the slimy guy from the enemy planet because Picard's perfect mate would never sacrifice duty on the altar of love lives rent-free in my mind decades later.

Dana Scully (X-Files). She's amazing. I love her. I love the fact that while she doesn't believe in the stuff Mulder does, she is openminded enough to acknowledge that science doesn't know everything, you know?

Neri from Ocean Girl. I watched this show when I was in primary school and I've got to tell you, Nonnie, for Literal Years all my Barbies wore wraps made out of rough hemp cloth. Her best friend was a whale named Charlie and she could swim underwater forever, she was amazing.

Xena (from Xena). Idk what to tell you, Nonnie, she was like, at least a third of my queer awakening.

Buffy (Buffy the Vampire Slayer) she tried. So hard. Like, she had a Destiny and she didn't want the destiny, but she was stuck with it and so she was going to do her damn best to live up to it. Spike, from the same show, is also on the list. He was just fun to watch, you know? (also Faith because I shipped her Buffy quite hard for a while)

Severus Snape, Harry Potter. He wasn't nice, but he was good, but tbh I adored him from the first time he appeared. Also, Hermione. Big hair and loves books? It me!

Everyone in Seaquest. Especially the captain and Lukas, who I'm pretty sure was included purely because TNG did it. But hey, I was like 15, I thought he was great.

Daniel Jackson, Stargate SG-1. He's just such a nerd? I love him tbh. I shipped him with Jack O'Neill but I appear to be alone in that (or all the archives where their fic was are dead now rip)

Teal'c, also from SG-1. It's just...how much courage does it take to turn on your literal actual god who is the source of your life? Also, the sass.

Garrus Vakarian, Mass Effect. I love him, your honor.

This one is chronologically in the wrong place since I read it when I was about 11, but Taita, from River God by Wilbur Smith. I loved that sneaky little asshole so damn much. I named my cat after him. (I was very annoyed when, years later, I read one of the sequels to River God, and on the first page Taita had a beard. Taita was a eunuch...)

Sarah Kerrigan, Starcraft. I could write a book about her. I have written a book about her. The first thing I ever wrote was a Starcraft fanfic (I had no idea fanfic even existed) about Kerrigan's clone Tedra. I'm weak for stories about evil governments, people who are treated like weapons, and assimilation narratives, so you can see why she captured my attention. (also I loved Zeratul, he was amazing)

Lestat from Interview with a Vampire. He was just cool.

There are a bunch more (I haven't even got to when I discovered danmei yet) , but unfortunately my power just went out and this post is already hella long, so take this as part 1 🤣

[revasserium]

i love your replies to the writer’s ask! about the compliment you gave yourself, yes. i do agree. i’m trying to recall which HQ fanfic of yours i first read. i’ve read so many of your works from that era. as i’m sieving through my memories, a few works of yours pop up like kageyama & the world responding?? daichi’s story with the prompt on goodbyes? adore the way you hook and drag. without looking at your masterlist, which story immediately comes to mind when you think of “time”?

about driving, since i’m still new i haven’t driven much. i’m very excited to cruise on the roads, but i’m also really bad at overtaking (i.e. i can overtake—or else how would i have passed my driving test—but i haven’t done it when cars are going fast & when it’s crowded… road conditions for my test were milder). it’s scary… SJDJSJDJSJ. i’ll hopefully be driving soon with my parent who can instruct me. i think for the time being, as i get used to the car, i have to focus, but i look forward to blasting music while driving 👍 — @anonymilk

also the poem you gave me was so great 🥹 thank you!! are there any poems from that author you like as well?? why do you like them specifically?? — @anonymilk also what happened the past 2 weeks r u alright :( — @anonymilk

combining ur asks! <3 hope u dont mind and sorry i take so long lol but answers in the cut!

uGH that reaper!kageyama x angel!reader fic is still one of my all time favs u__u im so happy you remember that one. sldkfjasd and the daichi story T^T -- i realized that pre-hiatus i was so so so kagehina biased with a hard sprinkling of suga but then post-hiatus i came back and suddenly i'm a daichi stan like is this..... IRL character dev bro. am i just into the Greenest of Green Flags now. not that i dont still adore kagehina bc i do. u__u they are my babies.

in terms of "time" -- i think the one that comes to mind most immediately is the hinata "length of daylight" fic i wrote! it remains one of my fav hinata fics i've written to date :D

for driving -- it def is something that needs lots of practice! but you'll get there!!! i'm excited for you!!!! and yeah to this day, i hate overtaking ppl but it's a necessary evil LOL

re: agha shahid ali YES oh my god okay. i love his stuff. i actually found him when i saw a poem of his on the new york subway lol im not even kidding. and it still remains one of my favorite poems of his to this day -- it's called Stationary, and it goes like this:

The moon did not become the sun. It just fell on the desert in great sheets, reams of silver handmade by you. The night is your cottage industry now, the day is your brisk emporium. The world is full of paper. Write to me.

i think the reason i fell so in love with it is because every single line is so vivid. not to say that most of his other poems aren't like this as well but like. idk something about this just spoke to me so much? i love love love metaphors about like irl things turning /into/ paper or ink or like... writing-related stuff. it's just such a beautiful image to me. also like there's a phrase in every line that strikes me "reams of silver", "brisk emporium" -- and something about the sentence "the world is full of paper" makes me like want to yell bc it's so??? GOOD??? bc yes!!! the world is full of paper!!!!!

and obviously, the ending just SMACKS you doesn't it? write to me. ugh. UGH. ugh its so good.

sometimes this poem still comes back to me in random moments and it makes me happy.

and now for some not so fun stuff. tw for like... ilness and death but yeah uh.

this entire summer has just been kind of ass tbh??? like. during the single month of july, we had 4 people in my family/friend circle pass away -- 2 grandparents, 1 uncle, 1 friend of a friend (who was literally only 24yrs old!!! bruh!!!! WTF!!!). we thought August was going to be chiller, but nope. last day of Aug, last thursday, my boss's wife passed away after battling with cancer for 2+ years.

it hit hard for our entire team at work bc like. she was younger than my mom. and my boss is such an industry veteran, and he and his wife have been married for 17 years, they have a 13yr old son like... it just sucked all around. we all went to the funeral this past wednesday. it was a beautiful service, but obviously really freaking sad. half our entire office was there, everyone was crying. i was crying like. it was a mess.

and then right after, i think my body had had ENOUGH of this nonsense, and i got a really bad fever literally ONE HOUR after i got home from the funeral. and i've been sick since then.

it's just been... unreasonably rough... i'm really hoping that this is the last big bad thing that's gonna happen for the rest of the year. like. im so exhausted -- pls @ the universe LOL. take it easy on us okay.

so yeah. i try to keep the heavy stuff off this blog bc it's supposed to be a place where i come to be happy and write things that make me happy so i haven't talked about this much but u__u since you asked, i didn't wanna just be like "oh yeah everything is fine" when it's not LOL

i do hope that the summer is treating you better though! <3