#thanks for coming to my little cringey talk I guess...

[dantakeyoman]

I would reallyy love if you could write about how when the Sully family reaches the new tribe all of the Metkayina girls are trying really hard to get Neteyam to notice them (Cause you know he's the oldest, a good warrior and is gonna be a leader soon) but they dont know he already has a mate and the reader gets jealous. So neteyam has to comfort her and when she realizes she is being silly and has nothing to worry about...this one metkayina girl really pushes it....(im talking getting touchy with neteyam, always finding ways to get him alone and is rude to the reader) and she loses her absolute shit and you can decide what she does but i want it to be very possessive like behavior😏 sorry this is long😅

Metkayina Girls Start Falling At Neteyam's Feet and You, His Mate, Get Jealous (SFW)

Reader is Fem! Omaticaya

CW: a story of jealousy with aa twist, these girls are really shameless, Kiri and Lo'ak duo, sorry im posting so late, my stomach actually really hurts rn, but not writing for so long has been driving me crazy, anyway, enjoy <3 ( i barfed in my mouth a little bit writing some of this cringey shit )

"Humans?! That must've been so scary for you! What happened next?" Leyelu asked as she stretched, laying herself stomach-down in the sand in front of Neteyam, batting her eyelashes.

"Yeah, did you fight them? I'm sure you did, since you are such a strong warrior," Nayat smiled, scooching her seat closer to the boy.

"Um...well, I didn't-." "Impossible. I can imagine you swooping in and saving your family. All heroic-like," Srraza smirked, openly raking her eyes up and down Neteyam's body, not caring how uncomfortable he looked.

Their shameless display made you want to vomit, and possibly scream, at the same time.

There were a total of three girls. Leyelu, Nayat, and Srraza. And all were practically throwing themselves at Neteyam.

It had been about a week and some change since you and the Sullys arrived at Awa'atlu. And every day, without fail, these girls managed to tail Neteyam, following him and showering him in praise whenever they could.

You hadn't had not two seconds alone with him before one of them, or all three, came barging in with some fake excuse of a heavy basket they needed help lifting or a boat they needed help loading.

You knew Neteyam never entertained their advances, and were thankful for it.

But being his mate, you couldn't help but feel frustrated. (and maybe a little jealous)

"If you scowl any harder, it's going to become permanent," Kiri playfully warned, your face amusing her.

"Are you alright?"

"I'm fine," you curtly answered, tearing your eyes away from the scene angrily.

"Yes. I'm fine is stretched tightly across your face right now," Lo'ak smirked from his spot in the sand, hands behind his head as he subathed.

"(y/n), I hope you know that Neteyam would never-." "I know," you sighed, already guessing what Kiri was going to say.

"I trust Neteyam completely. It's just-."

You couldn't finish the sentence. It was embarrassing.

"Just what?" Lo'ak asked, ears perking in intrigue.

"Give her a minute," Kiri shushed, smacking him in the arm, earning an annoyed ow! from the boy.

"It's not that I'm scared Neteyam will leave me. It is just...I don't see why he won't," you started, staring down at your feet in shame.

Kiri and Lo'ak both whipped their heads towards you in disbelief, their expressions contorting into ones of confusion.

"What the hell are you talking about?" Lo'ak asked, confused.

"Lo'ak!" Kiri scolded.

She was thinking the same thing, but he could've been a little easier on the delivery.

"Look at them," you sighed, holding out your hand to the girls, who were still fake listening to Neteyam's story.

"Leyelu's father is one of the best hunters in the clan, only second to Tonowari. Nayat's mother is incredibly skilled on the loom, who is now teaching Nayat everthing she knows. For Eywa's sake, Srraza is studying under Ronal to be a healer."

The brother ans sister's expressions slowly softened, the meaning behind your words now coming to light.

"You are the best dancer the Omaticaya have ever seen. And the best the Metkayina have seen, as well," Kiri tried to comfort, a warm smile on her face.

"Oh, yes, because dancing can help me hunt for food. And dancing can help me make clothes. Let's not forget, it can help me heal as well," you sarcastically agreed, snippy.

Kiri sighed.

She didn't take it to heart, not one bit. She understood your frustration.

"They all have spent their years learning skills that can be of use, be important. All I have to show for mine are a couple of dance moves."

Lo'ak looked like he wanted to say something, but decided against it until you were finished.

"And the best part of it is they are all gorgeous, the most sought after girls in this village. And I'm just...me."

Kiri felt her heart ache.

She had no idea you had been feeling this way this whole time.

She thought it was just a small case of jealousy. But it seemed to be much deeper than that.

"So, no. I'm not frustrated or scared of Neteyam leaving me. I am frustrated and scared because he has every reason to."

You turned back to the scene, only to see Leyelu resting her hands on Neteyam's chest, leaning into his face.

"Hey, Neteyam. Have you ever given thought to who could possibly be your mate?" she asked with a smirk, peering up at him through her beautiful eyelashes.

It was as if you didn't even exist.

"(y/n), wai-." But you ignored Kiri, abruptly standing up, not wanting to watch the scene any longer.

"Dammit, (y/n)! Sit down and look," Lo'ak groaned, roughly pulling you back down and turning your face to watch Neteyam.

"Do not touch me," Neteyam sternly ordered, grabbing the girl's wrists and pulling her hands of him, harshly.

"I know that you know I already have a mate. And you trying to make advances on me while knowing that is incredibly disrespectful."

The girls were giving him puppy dog eyes, as if that would guilt him into stopping.

It made you gag.

"I do not appreciate how you've been disregarding (y/n) this entire week. Especially when she has done nothing to you."

"That's exactly the point. She does nothing. She is just there with you. You two do not even act like mates," Srraza scoffed, rolling her eyes.

"That is true. I never see you two hug, or kiss, or embrace each other romantically at all," Nayat agreed.

"Because any time I get alone with her is interrupted by you three!" Neteyam exclaimed, annoyed.

His sudden burst shocked you.

You didn't know he felt this.

"I only get time to myself every once in a while, and I like to spend it with (y/n). But ever since I've gotten here, you three have used every mean under the sun to keep that from happening. For Eywa's sake, that was what I was on my way to do now before you all came along!"

"But why? She doesn't hunt, she doesn't loom, she doesn't heal, she can't even carry a tune. She's boring, plain. Why would you willingly want to spend time with her?" Leyelu asked, cocking an eyebrow s she crossed her arms.

Ouch.

"That's why you look like a dead fish, bitch!" Lo'ak loudly called, making you and Kiri die in snickers.

The girl whipped around, glaring daggers at the boy.

"Lo'ak!" Kiri tried to scold, but couldn't through her laughter.

"It's true! If her eyes were any farther apart, she'd be able to see the back of her head," he huffed.

You were his friend. And he didn't like people talking shit about you.

Meanwhile, Neteyam was using every ounce of his strength to not bare his teeth at the girl.

"I don't care about what she can't do. I love what she can. She's a phenomenal dancer, and has forgotten more moves than you three will ever learn. She's funny, she's kind, she's caring, the farthest thing from boring. And her beauty makes the three of you look like a patch wet sand. I am lucky to call her my mate, and if you all would excuse me, I'm going to spend the rest of the day with her," Neteyam angrily corrected, pushing past them and walking towards you.

And as he drew closer, you smiled, wider than you had in a while.

You felt foolish for thinking he could do better than you.

Especially after he just confessed that he believed he could do no better than you.

It made you feel happy, and loved, and secure in your relationship.

There was no one that could take your place because you were the place, and the only one who could ever be it.

And now knowing that fact, sent you over the moon.

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[goldensunbathed]

anything ansgty with latino!james?

i usually wouldn't take an ask this vague, but jamies always on my mind so yes! thank you for requesting bb, forehead kisses<33

this isn't very angsty, but when I get into that mood I'll write a little something else

cw: surrounding topic is christmas, slight arguing, mentions of a sick and dying relative, probably horrible spanish

474 words, latino!james x f!reader

You weren't scared to tell James your parents wanted you at theirs' for Christmas, you were scared of the way he'd feel about it. You always do Christmas Eve at your parent's house, and Christmas day at his.

Usually, if this were to happen with any other guy you'd just say fuck it and stay home for Christmas, but not James. James practically worships his parents.

"Guess what, mi amor!" James shouts as he walks into your flat, dropping off large brown bags in the kitchen.

"Hm?" You hum back.

"San Nicolas is coming soon! Snow is pounding down outside, look!" James says, boyishly.

"I actually have to talk to you about that, James."

His eyes brighten as he sets the milk gallon in the refrigerator. "Mami is making that pozole that you liked for Christmas dinner, I've been craving her cooking so bad lately." James says, moving his hands and arms around as he always does to express his language easier. Your heart cracks a little, you both haven't seen Fleamont or Euphemia in over 3 months, and for the Mama's boy, you know it's difficult.

"James, I can't be at your mom's Christmas dinner." You say, a frown on your face. His shoulders drop, his smile fading.

"What, why?" He practically whines.

"I'm sorry, Jamie, my parents want me home this year, you know my grandpa is sick."

"Yes! But-." James stops himself and rubs his eyes under his glasses.

"You can still go! I just won't be there." You try to bargain, but James shakes his head immediately.

"No! I don't want to be without you on a day that's supposed to be filled with happiness." He almost pouts.

"James, I don't want you to miss out on seeing your parents. Please, please go on and stay with your mum and dad on Christmas."

"¡No! Es contigo con quien quiero estar en Navidad. Por favor, ¿por qué no podemos hacerlo como lo hacemos normalmente?" James exclaims.

"I'm gonna go in the other room and let you take a breath, when you can speak to me maturely, come on in." You sigh, standing and walking into your bedroom.

Of course, you want to be with James and his lovely family on Christmas, but your grandfather could be dying!

Only a few minutes pass by, hearing James pace, until he comes into the room and sits next to you on the bed.

"I'm sorry, I just really want you there."

"I really want to be there, Jamie."

"Maybe we can FaceTime the whole time? And I can drive back home after or something."

"No, love, your parents live almost 3 hours away. It'll be okay, next year we'll go back to normal."

"I'll miss you."

"You're very cringey. It's only one day, honey, we'll survive." He smiles, and ultimately, Christmas turns out okay.

[galaxycunt]

My Dinner With Buggy pt 2

I love playing with dialog so I figured why not keep going. As with part one it’s all dialogue so enjoy the ride everyone lol

Tagging @gingernut1314 @gayafsatan as yall requested a part 2 a million years ago

Sea spray hits your face as you left the restaurant, “so, what’s the move?”

Hands appear in front of you holding two bottles of wine, “one for each of us.”

“Really? In front of a lieutenant like that?”

“You gonna handcuff me, officer?”

You giggle, “miss Impel Down that much, huh?”

“God! Let’s not talk about that fucked up place. Take the wine, honey.”

“I let you order steak and this is how you repay me?”

He wags his tongue, “I’m covering dessert.”

“Gross.”

“You love it, shut up. So where’s this room you got?”

“Couple blocks down. You don’t wanna go to a bar?”

“I haven’t seen you in at least 6 years. I wanna make up for lost time.”

“Tch. Shooting for the stars tonight?”

Buggy frowns, “I thought this was a date.”

You falter, “hey. I thought we were teasing. Come here, Bug.”

Your lips taste sweet, “I missed you a lot. I’m not the only salty dog missing their lost love, but hey, you’re more important, so there.”

You kiss him again, “let’s go out for a little bit?”

“Sure, I’ll take you anywhere you wanna go. Oh shit! I forgot, I left something for you on the ship.”

“We got road wine, let’s go get it”

“This is nice, by the way.”

“It is. Too bad you ain’t a civ, easier. Even easier if you were a marine.”

“I’m gonna ask again. You’d like it.”

“I dunno, man. Lot of baggage with that. Especially on the Grand Line.”

“Not with me.”

“You already got captured once, baby.”

“I know, I know. But you hate this shit. Been in the game too long, why?”

“I dunno, maybe I felt we were doing something good. Too old for that shit, I guess”, the Big Top is as nice as you remember it, “there’s the old girl.”

He smiles, “my two girls, together at last.”

“I wonder if that note I left is still there.”

“Note? What-“

“-captain! Oh shit, look who it is!”

“-Cabaji! Glad someone’s keeping Bug outta trouble!”

He smiles at the two of you, “we should catch up. Later.”

“Thanks, man. See ya.”

“So what note?”

“Oh! It’s uh, not important. Just something I wrote last time I was here.”

“Where’d you hide it?”

“In the galley, deep, deep in the pantry.”

He kisses you, “let’s go find it then.”

“Buggy, no. Come on, you’re supposed to take me out.”

“Real quick. I promise.”

You tug him away, to no avail, “Buggy. It’s really stupid, you’ll enjoy it after a few drinks.”

“I got a few bottles in my room. We can read it there.”

“What about my gift?”

“Just a buncha jewelry, who cares? I’m finding that letter.”

Turns out he can find anything with ease if he wanted to, “aw. Your handwriting is so cute sometimes.”

“Oh, shut up.”

He kisses your temple, he’s getting very touchy, you realize, “lemme guess, treasure map?”

“Look, it’s something I wrote when we were like 18.”

“….really?”

“Uh huh.”

He jerks his chin toward his cabin, “let’s take this somewhere quiet.”

You hear your heart beat in your ears, cheeks on fire, “it’s really cringey. I was 18.”

“Do you really not want me to read it?”

“You’ll make fun of me.”

“I won’t. I really won’t.”

“Okay.”

“I already know you love me.”

You laugh, “shit. Guess you’re right.”

He clears his throat, “Buggy, our paths are unwinding, the red string of fate tugging us apart.”

“Oh Jesus, it’s worse than I thought.”

Heightening his voice he continues, “if only I knew the devil’s pact I made, and the one you sold your soul to. My love I can’t bear it. You don’t even know I love you.”

“See, that’s why I didn’t wanna read it.”

“So why even give it to me?”

“Because I didn’t think you loved me.”

He grows serious, “I did. Why did you think I did that stupid shit? To impress you, dummy.”

“You’re such a clown.”

“Exactly! You liked clowns.”

You smile, “yeah, I remember that asshole at the pier.”

“Join my crew, I’ll marry ya.”

“Only if I join?”

“We been apart too long, I’m not waiting until I hit some shitty village every six months to see you.”

“Ah, that makes sense now.”

“Sometimes I’d lower the Jolly Roger, just see if our boats can pass by, if I can see you on the deck.”

“I didn’t know that.”

“Yeah.”

You stare at his lips, you wouldn’t be the only Marine turning, “marry me tonight then.”

“Don’t think captains can officiate their own wedding.”

“Let’s find someone.”

He looks at the clock, “and if we can’t?”

“Ask me again tomorrow. Do it for real.”

Buggy picks you up instead, “can we just skip to the wedding night?”

“I’m not gonna marry you then.”

He smirks, “according to that letter, we’ve been married for 18 years already.”

[ryuichirou]

Hi Ryu!I really like your art! I hope it's not a very personal question, but is there any character that you find relatable? I hope you have a great day! 💚

Hi Anon! Thank you so much for liking my art, I really appreciate it! <3

And don’t worry about the personal question, I don’t mind answering that. In fact, we did have a post about twst characters that I find the most relatable, but apparently it was half a year ago (yikes) + I didn’t really elaborate much about them. To be honest, I thought it would be too cringey to read.

But screw that; let’s be a little bit vulnerable.

I’ll start by saying that a lot of twst characters are pretty relatable in general. Once again, Yana is a good writer and conveys characters’ feelings and struggles very nicely, so even if the situation itself isn’t familiar to you, the emotions that characters go through are understandable and easy to “feel”. There are a lot of aspects of Idia’s and Vil’s story that hit on a very personal level, especially the artistic aspect, I guess.

But the ones that I mentioned in my previous posts were these doofuses. Doofusi. Idiots. What a squad, really.

I’ll post the tier-list again so you can admire my mistake in the word “menace”. The tiers are also pretty self-explanatory, but I’ll add something about each of them.

Crowley is here half-jokingly, I can’t say much about him; Kalim is so stupidly relatable at times though that it hurts. His obliviousness that comes from being kind of sheltered and super detached and naive and expecting good things from people is a good source of comedy, but it also made me reflect on some of the things about my own upbringing (no don’t  have that kind of money god I WISH), my relationship with people and frankly my clumsiness lol Katsu always likes to joke about how there are some things that Katsu does but I get credit for, and because of that I always do the “HEY DID YOU KNOW THAT KATSU IS AWESOME” thing. It’s going to be a reoccurring theme in this reply…

The second tier is also the second-most relatable. Sebek is pretty much the way I used to be at his age: he is so FUCKING STUBBORN and so focused on things that he thinks are right and has so little patience for anyone who doesn’t fit these molds, sometimes I genuinely want to choke him because of how annoying he is lol but I also adore him for that. The sheer adoration he feels for the person he admires is also shamefully relatable. There is a lot of Sebek in the adult me as well I guess lol But I at least try to be somewhat open-minded. But the simp in me lives.

And he also lives in me with my kinship with Rook fucking Hunt because this man just gets it. The way he talks about Vil and art and beauty of everyone and everything, I really admire that but also can’t help but nod aggressively whenever he says something. He just cares so much about these things?? It’s so wonderful but also heck yes the colour of leaves is as important of a thing as the shape of your loved one’s calves today. He is also this weird mix of being brutally honest sometimes because he doesn’t always have an easy time having any fucking tact (having no tact and weird relationship with one’s own emotions is also a reoccurring theme here lol), but also finds a way to say something nice when there is nothing nice to be said. I do get in trouble for both of these things sometimes, and even though I try to work on them, I still find it relatable af. But the simping and appreciation of arts is the main thing here lol

Now, Ortho. I wonder how many of you thought that out of the two Shrouds it was Ortho who is more relatable to me lol this is what Ch6 does to a person. Although retroactively, a lot of their vignettes started to hit very close to home too.

The reason why I told in my very old very long Shroud-related shipping post that there are some things about their relationship that I find very relatable is that I do find myself in these situations quite often. There is a person in my life that I love really dearly and that I get very protective of, and I used to be even more protective and get instantly aggressive when I got even a faint idea that someone might think badly of them. Like I mentioned in that post, ”I just don’t want him to be misunderstood” is the line I felt very deeply about. This is kind of a complicated topic, and a more personal one at that, so I won’t dive deeper in this post; let’s keep it more light-hearted. I am also small and cute, so here’s that lol

Speaking of smallness and cuteness, god I wish I had more similarity to Lilia fucking Vanrouge, he is way too awesome. But he also has this aura of protectiveness and wanting better things for someone dear to him that hits close to home; (Now leaving: Wholesome town, Next stop: Cursed city) he also has this aggressive top aura, which is obviously our headcanon for a lot of it, but the way he talks and acts and teases is at the same time admirable and hilarious; Katsu has a lot of “this is just you…” moments with him. But then again, 50% wishful thinking.

Azul has kind of a similar upbringing to me, but he is also super fucking ANNOYING, the vibes I get from him are similar to Sebek’s: a lot of it is stuff that I used to struggle with when I was younger, but I kinda still do. I’m a horrible control-freak and I just know I wouldn’t be able to fly on a fucking broom or ask for help because I would stand there like an idiot and try to do it myself, even though my concentration and overstressing would keep ruining the whole thing. I also work a lot and get excited about things that I can do and make stupid plans and god how much I hate it here (just kidding, I love it, being a control freak is fucking awesome)

The Tweels is just my edgy inner self wanting to be scarier and more intimidating, to be honest, nothing to add here. And Riddle is a dork who doesn’t know how to play videogames, so yeah been there.

Damn it took longer to write than I thought it would lol I hope this wasn’t a tedious read, and please keep in mind that I’m saying a lot of these things half-jokingly.

Thank you for your ask, Anon!

[sassyandclassy94]

Get To Know Your Fic Writer

When did you you post your first ever fanfic?

May 22, 2018 - after two months of contemplation, I finally posted ‘Secrets Lies and Blessings’ to WattPad (I hate WattPad though and would like to remove all my fics from there but alas! My best friend likes that format and prefers to read it there so I’ve left them there)

First character(s) you wrote for?

Emma and Baelfire of course! (But when I was like 11/12 I actually wrote out little skits about some of the characters from Little House and Love Comes Softly🥴 but we won’t speak of those cringey things okay?)

Main character(s) you’re currently writing for?

Baelfire/Neal Cassidy. Though I am working on a first person story from Henry’s point of view (be on the look out for that one👀)

Character(s) you haven’t written about before but plan on writing about soon?

I’d love to write a story about Albert Ingalls🥹 And Hiccup and Astrid. But sadly, I lack plot ideas and such😔

Fandom(s) you’re currently writing for?

Once Upon a Time

Platonic pairing(s) you currently write for?

None…? When you’re a single hopeless romantic desperate for love, where’s the fun in writing that?

Romantic pairing(s) you currently write for?

Neal Cassidy and Emma Swan (the superior OUAT ship have you💁🏻‍♀️)

Your top 3 tags on AO3 (if you post your world on AO3)

Alternate universe - medieval; Storybrooke; Realm: The Enchanted Forest - Mist Haven (Lol… so me🤪)

Current platform where you post your works?

AO3

Snippet of the WIP you’re currently working on: (I’ve got a few. Hold on to your behinds…)

Secrets, Lies, and Blessings:

Emma barged through and helped herself through the doorway. “You can cut the ‘Your Highness’ nonsense, Rumpelstiltskin; I’ll be your daughter-in-law after next week so there’s no need for stupid formalities.”

“Fine.” He rolled his eyes. “What brings you to my door at this hour, Emma? Do your parents know you’re out galavanting through the forest?”

Emma waved off his question as she removed her hood. “They have no idea I left the castle.” She paused and turned as she watched Rumpel close the door. “I need to talk to you; it’s urgent.

Rumpel rolled his eyes and gestured toward a chair, pulled it out and offered it for Emma to sit.

“Thank you.” She gave a brief nod before sitting down.

The Wedding Night:

Emma and Baelfire didn’t have a conventional love story by any means. They met each other one cold December evening after sneaking out of their homes. Upon meeting, a startled Emma almost ran a very surprised and dumbfounded Baelfire through with her sword before he finally convinced her that he was unarmed and meant absolutely no harm. “I'm just out taking in the sights, same as you.” she remembered him saying with his hands held out in front him, palms facing her. After that night the two of them became friends and began to meet in secret in fear their parents wouldn’t approve of their friendship. Before long their friendship blossomed into romance, continuing to keep the relationship a secret. But eventually, their secret came to light two years later when Emma learned she was pregnant. Naturally, she was forced to tell her parents the truth about her and Baelfire and, after the initial shock, Snow and David accepted the ordeal as graciously as possible; with them deciding that the best option was for Bae and Emma to marry.

Where My Demons Hide:

“Neal,” Emma whispered, shaking her boyfriend awake. “Neal!” She said louder.

He groaned and shifted under the blanket while Emma continued to rouse him.

She shook him again, this time more rough. “Wakey wakey, Sleeping Beauty!” She chanted with a giggle.

Neal threw the blanket off of his head and sat up with a sigh, rubbing the sleep from his eyes.

“Sleep well?” she asked all too cheerily.

He only groaned in response before stretching - as well as he could, anyway, in their stupidly tiny stolen Beadle. “I guess so.” He looked at Emma through sleepy eyes. “What has you so happy this morning?”

Reflections:

My name is Henry David Cassidy. I’m twenty-eight years old and am about to marry the love of my life, Violet Morgan. It’s a bittersweet occasion. But why, you ask? Because I won’t have the privilege to share this occasion with my parents; they’re gone.

Princess Kidnapped!:

Then she remembered her tiny little one growing inside her and she suddenly felt a rush of protectiveness wash over her; whatever this sack of horse manure was planning on doing to her, she promised her unborn child that she would do whatever it took to protect it.

Tags: @themeepyfreak @phoenixwrites @fictional-at-heart @notyourspookygirlfriend @redbone135 @swanfireprincessmydear @coneygoil @ljf613 @oldfarmerbillswife

[astral-lucy]

I want to ask about the venus and mercury sign. I’m a Leo in Venus and Mercury while my boyfriend is a Scorpio in Venus and Mercury. I find that our communication is often hindered by my ‘strong af ego’ and his ‘dark/not so enthusiastic sometimes’ way. And then sometimes we’d end up in this position not of not talking and feeling cold towards one and other (well, mainly me. he’d be like “I don’t know why this is happening again”) The thing is i love him so much and i treasure him a lot. But i feel insecure telling him this?! Somehow?! I feel like it’s too… cringey? I think mainly I don’t know how he’d respond (he’s a capricorn moon too). But yeah i do love him a lot and i really want us to stay with each other. sometimes he’s like my soulmate but sometimes he’s like my biggest enemy. Do you have any advice for me? 💛 thanks so much💛

hi honey!

i'm afraid i might be answering this a little too late, but here i go anyways.

my advice, no matter what, is always to talk. that sounds stupid and obvious, it is, but i understand where you're coming from and it really is that simple.

he does sound like he can act super cold with that scorpio venus+cap moon but, to be honest, he might be scared as well that his way of loving is not enough for you, that you want or are looking for something that he can't offer. he's always second-guessing himself and if he's doing too much or too little.

he's bad at talking about feelings lol but the fact that he doesn't doesn't mean that he doesn't love you any less, maybe he's waiting for you to start a conversation, but leo mercuries do put their ego first and it bruises it a little when the other person just doesn't know what's going on with them.

even if it sounds cringey, tell him. you're both passionate people, you may just need a little extra push to fully feel able to express yourselves.

hope this wasn't too late and it actually helps you!

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

Good evening Sex Witch,

I have a question re: forming a healthy relationship with one’s own sex drive.

I’ve had a complicated relationship with sex. I’m male, in my 30’s and gay. I’ve only had a few encounters, and while I don’t regret any of them, I also feel a lot of cringe re: my own performance and have similar fears about future encounters.

For some context, I’m a big guy (fat and tall) and I don’t have much physical dexterity or stamina. I also have body image issues (because ofc) and some lingering anxieties that come from a background of purity culture/ aids and std scare tactics (conservative small town childhood). I guess I feel like I need to “git gud” before I try reinstalling grinder, but I know a lot of of that’s just the internalized body/fitness shame talking, along with a little remaining prudery. You can’t git gud without practice after all.

Don’t worry, I’m not asking for magic bullets. I’m working on other issues I’ve got, and I do have a therapist. But if you have any thoughts about what a first step towards finding a better relationship with sex is re: performance anxiety and feeling safe… well, I’d love to hear them.

Thanks for reading!

hi anon,

listen: looking back and feeling cringey about your past self is totally normal. it's totally fine as long as you aren't being unkind to your past self for doing the best they could at the time; instead, take that feeling of discomfort as a sign that you want to do better by yourself in the future by having sex you feel more confident about!

so, how do we do that? of course there's no one thing that works for everyone, but let's talk about some places to start.

if you're worried about your physical prowess during sex, I'd recommend looking up sex tips for folks who are elderly, disabled, or otherwise have mobility problems. now, you or someone else reading this might be saying "but Makenzie, I'm not elderly or disabled! the idea of accessing those resources makes me feel uncomfortable and defensive for reasons I suspect you're about to make me unpack!"

look: ideally, you are going to be old one day. and the odds that you will reach old age and still be exactly as spry and mobile as you are in your younger years are VERY low, but you (like many other elderly people!) may still want to have sex. so first off, think of this as a chance to take a look at the answers before the test. secondly, the tips are there, and if they work for you then they work for you. why wouldn't you want to make sex more comfortable, enjoyable, and low-stress as possible? whether it's trying out new positions that are easier on your body, using strategically-placed pillows to make things easier on an aching body, or using toys to help extend the experience when your flesh and blood body taps out, there are sexual accessibility aides for almost everyone.

being nervous about AIDS and other STIs is very normal, but also a very addressable fear! keep your condoms at the ready (external or internal, take your pick), know about STI testing near you (remember: two weeks after a new partner is ideal if you have concerns), and have an honest conversation with every partner about your respective STI statuses. if necessary, look into PrEP and PEP options near you - PrEP for if you're planning to have sex with someone who is or might be HIV-positive, PEP within 72 hours if you find out a partner was positive after the fact.

and remember: sexually transmitted infections are not the end of the world. they have no moral bearing and do not say anything about you as a person, and nearly all (with some exceptions) can be completely cured with the proper medication - so make sure you're aware of what's normal when your body is healthy and heading to a doctor as soon as possible if anything changes!

you want to git gud? the best way to do that is developing a firm sense of what's right for you during sex so that you can come to potential partners prepared with an informed conversation about your health and ready instructions for the ways you like to have sex. you know what's hot? people who know what the fuck they want. I don't even mean that in a dommy way (although, sure, if that's your cup of tea!) but rather people who have put the time and effort into figuring out what they like and want to try and readily communicate that with partners so they can share in that pleasure instead of having to guess.

spend some time thinking about what that looks like for you, and what you might want to try out with other people. you don't need to be perfectly smooth about it; a willingness to mess up and laugh it off is actually vital.

tl;dr: don't go into sex acting like you need to apologize for being you, babe. show up ready to show your partners exactly what you like, and open the space for them to do the same in return. that's the space where magic happens.

[cloudninetonine]

I’m bored and sad again so guess what time it is? Head canons!

-Legend is a force to be reckoned with when it comes to anything player related. Like, after he remembers he is basically a constrictor snake around them, has to be touching them at all times, he even hisses whenever anyone comes too close. He has had so much torn away from him (including player if, on his side, they had to leave for every in between of his journeys. Don’t know if that’s the case, but it’d be angsty as hell if it was. Having them leave, to coming back, only to leave again and repeat the cycle until they stopped returning.) and he is not going to let one of the things he just got back again go.

-Player must pet every. Single. Dog. They see. Big retriever? Pets. Little angry chihuahua? Pets. Big wolf- HOLY-! Better yet they know it’s Twilight and by the looks on the others faces most if not all of them don’t know. So they get to make puppy talk all they want and won’t be deterred by Wolfie’s grunts or growls because they know he won’t actually hurt them, while they also are completely aware of his situation and why he isn’t turning in front of everyone else to stop the merciless petting.

-There have been times where the player has (begrudgingly) looked up the answers to puzzles online, but they have done it so rarely with the Zelda series because it’s their favorite and they’d hate to spoil anything. This means they are the Loz puzzle pro and can take just one glance to solve half a dungeon, they are just that used to the Zelda formula. Every time the boys are stuck on a puzzle player comes swooping in spewing out orders faster than Epona can run, within a minute they’ve made it to the next room and can continue with their lives. It’s very strange for the chain.

-Player has shown them a cutscene or two from Botw, where in that game there is voice acting. One of the boys asks “do we also speak in your quote on quote ‘games’?” To which player, innocent (evil) smile on their face, shows them a ten minute video of all the Links over the years making their wide range of grunts, yells and “HYAH”s.

-Player shows them all the silly little games they have on their phone, to which the gang get addicted to playing temple run or something and strive for a better score than everyone else and proceed to very quickly drain the phones battery over the course of a day. Player is not pleased to say the least.

-“So basically they are metal carriages with no horses and a spinning wheel inside to move it about?”

“Hit the nail on the head!”

“…Yeah, not sure I believe that.”

“Wah- oh come on!”

-Player has mentioned Fi before and freaked out Sky. Like- “how do they know? Did Fi come to them at night and tell them? Are they also a spirit in a sword and they all know each other or something?!? Is that why (Name) is so weird?!”

Player: Thanks goodness the other two aren’t here!

Time: What other two?

Player: These two other Links I know, you wouldn’t want to meet them.

Wind: Ugh! You’re telling us there are more? Just when I thought I was free from even more overbearing adults.

Player: Nah, I bet you won’t ever meet them. One’s game is… a little too out there, and the other doesn’t even have a game, it’s all perfectly fine-

Koridai and Courage, emerging from a random portal: Heeeey-

Player: (screeches)

Anyway, that’s it. I hope my description on Korodai and Courage was accurate. I believe they are the cd-i Link and the, “Well excuuuuuussse me, princess” Link respectively, but I may be wrong on that.

(You're completely correct on Courage and Koridai babes, those cringey boys)

ALSO LOVING THE HEADCANONS KEEP THROWING THOSE MY WAY THEY MAKE ME HAPPY TO SEE THEM!

"Nah, because- something like the divine beasts makes sense but a car doesn't!?"

"Yup."

"That's it, put your hands up we're about to fight."

My personal experience with puzzles is that they're literally the light of my life, fucking love those things (hate having to look for solutions to hard puzzles tho) so Player happily commits to the puzzles in the dungeon while the Chain is debating their next move.

"So, if we-"

"Done."

"....What?"

PLAYER NEEDING TO PET THE DOGS-

"....(Name)?"

"Yeeeeeesssss?"

"Why are you cuddling a wolf?"

"This is a dog?"

"No...no it's not..."

"Huh....well, she ain't done anything yet so I'm not bothered."

[fettuccinewrites]

I AM HERE to give a fic review nobody asked for but i have no one else to talk about it

I have finished CWM couple hours ago and i've been obsessing over it ever since. Firstly would like to point out that cwm was already in my reading list and when i decided to start reading it after sending you that first ask i kept asking myself "why didn't i read it sooner?" cause i do have a severe case of love square brainrot and i have an unresolved passion with ice skating so why haven't i read that indeed.

Then I got the scene in which Adrien's ed is revealed and it was a big OH THAT'S WHY moment for me. I have been recovering from an ed myself for years and i try to avoid the topic because i dont think i'm there yet yk? ANYWAYS. That did make my reading take a little longer than planned, out of caution really, but nothing i couldn't handle (my therapist will be very proud). On that note, I would like to apologize for needing to skip some of the more in-depth ed related parts, but to also congratulate you on the way you handled the subject. I don't usually feel safe reading these type of stories, but cwm was an exception due to your writing and story telling skills.

MOVING ON cause i feel cringey talking about my ed but you really deserve the praise for this

It really is amazing how well you are able to sell rivals to lovers narrative. dymdc and cwm both had me invested in their rivalry. It didn't feel forced, the progression of the relationship had incredible pacing and the reasons behind were believable. Like, writing this trope is so hard because it's easy to fall in traps of the narrative – not making the rivalry strong enough or making it too strong and having to bullshit a reason to end it – but you do it SO WELL. LIKE. i actually don't have words, I keysmashed three times over this so yeah i guess that's what i have to say.

Something I would also like to point out: the choice of performances. bruh. You matched the characters vibes to the choreographies so well. Like I know nothing about the fem skater from the 2010 phantom of the opera but I can see Lila so clearly in her expressions that makes me want to punch her in the face. The way the snake dance has Kagami's seriousness and precision and Luka's edge and style. *chefs kiss*

Now on the note of Moulin Rouge for Adrienette, i feel like keysmashing is not enough i need to bark. The way the story of the performance is a parallel to their relationship AND andrien's condition. Part of me thought he was going to die. I lost cound how many times I cried while reading this and I wish I could have recorded the way i GASPED when they came in twelfth. Had me shaking and tearing up ngl.

The one thing i did not understand tho was why Marinette kept that Gabriel remade their costumes a secret. Like I get Adrien making his piece with the relationship with his bio father, and deciding not to pursue one with him anymore, but Marinette not telling him felt a little shady for me. Maybe I missed something, but I don't think that shutting that door was up to her. I like the ending for Gabriel and Adrien, but idk maybe i just don't like that Marinette kept it a secret from him.

Alright I think I've said enough for one ask holy shit look at the size of this so i'm gonna stop it here. I think I said everything I wanted to say, but if I remember anything else – and I'm still welcome in here –i'll come back to dump more unrequited opinions.

Thank you so much for sharing your amazing work with us 🧡

omg! thank you!! one thing about me is i LIVE for long comments, particularly about cwm (my forever favorite story) so you are always welcome

i figured the ed parts would be difficult for some people to read, so they are 100% skippable & i’m glad you were able to take advantage of that and still enjoy the story ❤️

i love that you actually went and looked up the performances bc i just feel like it enhances the reading experience so much??? moulin rouge felt like the ONLY choice for them, i am soooo glad the parallels were noticed bc it was very much my intention :)))))

re: costumes… really just needed to wrap up that plot line and didn’t know how else to do it haha. I’d spent far too long on it already, and thought of it as like a parting gift kinda thing? A was done with G so (in my head) she didn’t see a reason to tell him, i guess. 🤷🏻‍♀️

anywayyyyy always happy to talk cwm! or writing! or dymdc! or anything else <3333

[cahrlotah]

𝐍𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞

Hey bitch, I hope you like it! @eddiesdungeon

Word count: 1.9k

trigger warnings: cringey fluff, friends x lovers not really that much, accidental confession (?) No prove reading because i’m a lazy whore

Going back to my hometown after three years has made me feel some kind of way. Coming back to it where everything and everyone has changed but at the same time everything and everyone just stays the same. The people just have grown older while the buildings look a little bit worn down. Apart from all this Hawkins looked the same as it did three years ago, when  my dad decided that it would be amazing for us to move out of state to New York city, just for better opportunities in life. But things didn’t work out as well as my dad had expected so now we are back in town. 

The cold morning air enters my room sending shivers down my spine. It is mid October and the leaves are starting to fall down and some families have already started to decorate their front porches with Halloween decorations. I get ready quickly and go down stairs, where my parents are already waiting for me to have breakfast. We all eat in silence, my mum is mad at my dad so for the last couple of weeks she has been giving him the silent treatment. 

When I open the front door cold air hits my face, provoking my cheeks to turn red. My body is filled with anxiety as going back to my old classmates is going to be weird, also having in mind I will have to see Eddie Munson again. My crush ever since I was seven and one of my closest friends, due to me moving away we have barely talked, after a few months we lost contact, so I’m definitely intrigued on what he is doing now. 

The drive to Hawkins High is short, too short to even prepare myself to be the “new girl” at a small town high school. There are some people in the parking lot when I arrive, they all stare at me and start whispering, I try to ignore it. My way to the secretary’s office is just the scene from the parking lot but instead of ten people max now is almost the whole school. I walk as fast as I can trying to find my destination, when I crash into someone. We both fall to the floor. What a great start to a new school.

“Holy fuck, I’m so sorry. I didn’t see you” I help her pick her stuff up. When we finally make eye contact I can recognize one of my other friends, Chrissy Cunningham. Her look of surprise lets me know that she has recognized me.

“Oh my god! (Y/N)!” She hugs me tightly. “When did you come back into town?” 

“Couple of days ago, I’ve been busy with all the moving in and emptying boxes and all that stuff” I say awkwardly as all her cheer friends are looking at us. `It was nice seeing you again but I really need to get to the secretary’s office and I don't know where it is, so I need to get going '' I rush to help her pick up the last papers that are laying on the floor.

“Let me take you there” she suggests as she locks her arm with mine. “Bye girls!” she says waving at the cheerleaders. Slowly we make our way through the empty halls as the empty. “Soooo” she starts “ how have you been, tell me everything about New york”. We both looked at each other. 

“It was great, just too many people “ we both laugh. The secretary’s office is right next to a lab. “ I guess I will see you around?” I ask.

“ Sure! Come and sit with me during lunch today.” She sounds so excited and I Know I can’t say no to my old friend. She walks away, her ponytail moving from one side of her head to the other, in a couple of seconds she makes a turn disappearing from my sight. I knock on the door, a lady opens the door.

“You must be (Y/N) Murphy, right?”she questions, I nod my head. “ Here you go, your time table, your locker number and its combination. If you need more help please come here again and I will try to help you” she smiles at me, I thank her and look at the timetable, French in class 103, just down the hallway. 

The morning classes go by super slowly, the only thing on my mind is to go home and sleep. When lunchtime comes, I try to find my locker just to find a group of boys in front of it, not allowing me to even open it.

“If you guys excuse me for a second I really need to use my locker” the all turn around, when I see the doe- eyed boy I’ve been missing for the last three years. “Eddie?” his gaze softens as he realizes who i am. 

“Holy shit (Y/N)!” he wraps his arms around me, picking me up and spinning. “When did you come back?” he asks

“A couple of days ago. Sorry for not trying to contact you, I’ve been busy with all the “moving in” shit” I explain. We start chatting, not even caring about eating lunch.

“Do you want to meet up after class? You know to catch up and all that stuff” he asks scratching the back of his neck. “I mean you don't have to if you don't want to” 

“ I would love it” I smile at him, but his friends start to complain that they need to do some meeting about a club they run. “ If you are busy I can wait until you finish” he nods and stats walking away

“I’ll be done around 6:30, is that okay with you?” I nod in agreement. He and his friends disappear, mixing in with the crowd of students. I leave some of the textbooks and notebooks in my locker and make my way towards the cafeteria. When I walk inside, Chrissy is waiting for me, we grab something to eat and start walking to where she would normally sit, a table full of basketball players and cheerleaders. After some introductions we all start talking about Halloween, what we are going to be , who is organizing the party and all that relates to it. 

After lunch, the last two periods are fun but the time pases slowly. The last bell rings and Chrissy, literally forces me to go to her cheer practice giving me the excuse they need someone to fill up for a girl that has to go to the doctor. I insist that I don’t even know how to dance but she drags me by my arm, almost ripping it off. It doesn’t bother me that much, it is more of cringe that I fear the most, the failing. 

The gym is spacious and full of light, cheerleaders are the only ones there. While the others warm up Chrissy and Amber teach me the routine. Some ass movement every now and then but not too scandalous. We spend the next two hours and a half rehearsing and just changing the choreography to make it look as good as possible. I look at the clock above one of the baskets seeing that it is almost six thirty. I excuse myself with the girls and run towards the parking lot. Just in time to see Eddie and his friends coming out from one of the doors. They are laughing, and walking towards their cars and bikes. The three that seem a little bit younger than Eddie leave the first in one old car that looks like it could break down at any time. The two youngest stay with Eddie chatting about something interesting. I slow my pace signing to the boys to act like they don’t see me, they play along and when I’m close enough to the black haired boy I cover his eyes, a smile forms in his face as he turns to look at me. 

“Hi there m’lady” he bows. “Ready to spend the afternoon with me?” he says looking into my eyes.

“Hey you two, get a room. Eww” the curly haired boy exclaims.

“Dustin, shut it. I mean it” Eddie tries to be intimidating. The two young boys put their hands up, knowing that they can’t defeat Eddie. 

“They are Mike and Dustin” he points at them “ the next additions of Hellfire club” he looks so cute when he talks about what he is proud of. 

“Nice to meet you guys” I smile at them, then we start talking when out of the sudden Dustin looks at his watch and starts to freak out. 

“Shit shit shit I need to go home I forgot I had to help my mom with my grandma” him and Mike go to unlock their bikes “ See you around (Y/N)” he shouts as they ride away leaving Eddie and I alone. 

“ I was thinking we could go to the cinema, like the good old days” he says, and he looks nervous? 

“I would love that Eddie” we make our way to Eddie’s van. “Umm Eddie can I ask you something?” he nods “ Why did you stop replying to my letters” I ask. He stops. “ I really don’t understand it and it really hurt me when you stopped replying '' the sadness in my voice is noticeable.

“ (Y/N) I-” he starts.

“Please don’t start with the excuses, just tell the truth. I think I deserve to know why.”

“ I started to think that you would eventually find some new friends and forget about me and I decided to be the one to make the first move just so I couldn’t get hurt by you forgetting about me”. Knowing Eddie, I know how hard it is for him to open up about his feelings. 

“Eddie… Why would you think that? You are seriously my best friend. I could never replace you. Like for fucks sake you were my first crush ever, even when I was in New York I would still think about you and your stupid metal bands. And then when I saw you today, all those feelings just came back fuck Eddie, you still look amazing with those brown eyes of yours looking at me like I’m the only girl in the world” Fuck, did I just confess my feelings towards my best friend out of anger?! He looks surprised. “Shit fuck, forget I even said. I should have kept it to myself. Shit I just ruined our frienship fuck fuck fuck” I start to panic walking aroud in circles, he walks towards me, stops me by putting his ring filled hands on my shoulders, I stop locking my eyes with his. His gaze goes from my eyes to my lips and without me realizing he locks our lips together, his hands cupping my face. When he finally breaks the kiss he puts his forehead on mine.

“You didn’t ruin anything because I feel the same way you do.” he locks our hands together. “So, how about we rent some movies and go back to my trailer? You can spend the night if you want to” he asks. 

“ That sounds amazing”, and with that, we both hop into his van driving away into the sunset. 

[mlobsters]

supernatural s6e18 frontierland (teleplay: andrew dabb, daniel loflin; story: andrew dabb, daniel loflin, jackson stewart)

i know vaguely of dean's cowboy thing. i may expire from embarrassment. (telling myself to just let dean enjoy things). supernatural i will pay you $5 if you stop including bobby's bad evil ear worm speech in the recaps

wait so are all the campbells dead now? wiped out the family. *research montage to funky jazzy rock*

sam and dean's mutual excitement over the colt journal is about the cutest thing. a genuinely happy moment for them both at the same time, in my supernatural?! (thank you, writers)

DEAN Like the Colt. From... Samuel Colt's Journal.

SAM What?! That's his?

DEAN Yeah.

SAM Dude, no.

DEAN Dude, yes.

--

RACHEL I'm his friend.

SAM What, you think we're not?

RACHEL I think you call him when you need something.

i mean, show me the lie. he's like... a work friend.

DEAN This here is, uh, Walker. He's a Texas Ranger.

LOL okay. played the long game on that role, apparently!

SHERIFF So, what can I do for you boys?

SAM Uh, we're looking for a man.

JUDGE MORTIMER I'll bet. (gesturing to Dean) Nice shirt, there.

le sigh. as ever, side eyeing the gay joke there.

listen. i just. if dean was going to buy clothes to wear in this time period, i don't believe he'd be going for something so relatively flashy. having seen all those movies a million times, he knows the aesthetic. the bad period clothing for time travel low hanging fruit was done in back to the future 3 (he also stepped in horse shit)

back to the future part 3 (1990)

*deep breaths* i can do this. just get through this saloon scene.

okay. the posse magnet thing. something a fic made me appreciate, or maybe try to reflect on, when dean is being a goober and embarrassing himself; sam expects him to be like this and rolls with it. trying to channel the fond little brother vibe so i can roll my eyes with a smile instead of wanting to shrivel up and hide under a rock

thinking to myself, well j2 are from texas, surely they know their way around horses. but then, i lived in phoenix for half my childhood (in an area with a lot of semi-rural horse people), had family we visited semi-regularly with a farm and horses in nebraska. and i've never been on a horse! okay but padalecki clearly has LOL riding just fine before hamming it up

RACHEL Castiel, I've been hearing things. Things I don't want to believe. Just tell me if it's true.

CASTIEL If what's true?

RACHEL You know. Your dirty little secret.

CASTIEL I have to defeat Raphael.

i'm guessing this is the souls thing but i still don't get it. but i guess they're throwing down in this warehouse abandoned factory or whatever over it

uh oh cas sprung a leak, how's he gonna get the boys home now

SAMUEL COLT Well, when you've done this job as long as I have...a giant from the future with some magic brick doesn't exactly give you the vapors.

cute

SAMUEL COLT You go put on a few more miles and come back, and we'll talk.

SAM Trust me, I've got plenty of mileage.

thanks for reminding me of all the suffering in hell he's got cooped up in his brain

all right so, souls are like. batteries. for the angels??? slippery slope this rebelling and free willing, apparently

all right so they had to give the phoenix a tragic event to turn all this on, of course it's the sexual assault and murder of his wife. OF COURSE.

he's swimming in that coat 😔

LOLOL how exactly did samuel colt get the address off his phone? just gonna ignore that ridiculousness.

made it through in one sitting, it's a miracle. surely gotta be done with the cringey episodes until next season. suffering and misery from here on out?

[boxwinebaddie]

nina do you have a beta

thank you for asking this nonical! i don't and how obvious is it, hahahskjahsd? i do not have one but...if i am honest, i am not particularly inclined to have one nor do i...necessarily want one?

for a couple of reasons....i think. bear with me.

not that i wouldn't appreciate the help or anything, like every single one of you pulled me out of that ditch with the strengths of your hearts, characters and will! the writing aspect of peppermint, i really just prefer to do alone.

like kyle pile, i'm sort of an introvert sometimes, don't like group projects and am kind of a lone wolf, in the least cringey incel man way to say that.

also a large part of the reason i disappeared from stress was because peppermint had turned into this kind of production almost, with so many moving parts, people pulling me in all kinds of directions...it was too large. it was very overwhelming for me to navigate and my own fanfiction was starting to feel like it almost did not belong to me which was identity crisis forming because i put so much of my heart, soul and blood in to it. ( literally my hands look worse than stan's...)

which kind of segways into this next part wherein another large part of why i disappeared was because i had gathered a tremendous anxiety over how my work was being perceived, if was lacking or comically bad or really good...which should, i guess, be what a beta is for, but i think if i were to hand someone something...that i am already terribly nervous about and have them run through it with a fine tooth comb...i would feel a looming sense of dread. :(

see, in school, if i were a sim from like the sims video game all of my points were put into english/reading/writing mostly and there were almost no other points put in any other subject. so i got straight as in english and i nearly failed every other subject...the government should not have been able to waterboard this information but alas...writing was my favorite part of english but my least favorite part was peer grading. other than being stressful, it does create more flawless work...but with a lot less life for me.

i know that pep is messy....the format in some chapters...the spelling...it's so bad i'm surprised any of you can read that. i know how imperfect it is...but something about knowing that every stupid bold space underline was me...all those spelling errors it were poorly spelled with love by my illiteracy...makes pep feel organic to me.

( also when i majored in english i actually specifically wanted to go into editing! so going back through every chapter to fix little errors when i find them and having to reread chapters to do so helps me remember stuff i've written and fix the errors as i go xx )

i like that when i put it out everyone gets excited and doesn't know what to expect and that as a little family we all chat in the comments together and it's this fun experience. it's such a magical and special thing. i feel like i don't want to take that away from someone and i also don't want to single one person out. also to make someone do my formatting...i would not wish that on my very worse enemy.

if i did have someone beta i think it would have to be someone that doesn't actively read my fanfiction so i wouldn't get nervous and could talk to them freely about it with spoilers for chapters way in the future. like maybe even someone on here that only wrote creek or bunny/kenjorine...or like someone i know irl who is not even in the sp fandom like one of my personal friends. with all the love in my heart...they are dorks...and in radically different fandoms than me.

i'm talking too much because as always, i am terribly nervous, but i love this little minty community that was built around my fanfiction and i love interacting with you guys, but while it's a thing we collectively come together for...peppermint is very personal to me...she's kind of like my baby and i am very protective over her. it's very difficult for me to just hand her off to someone else, not that she wouldn't be in incredibly safe, gifted and creative genius hands.

i hope this made sense and i hope, my dear friends, that we are okay with me writing a fanfiction that is eccentric and odd, may take a long time to come out with no idea what to expect, might be formatted strangely, spelled absolutely abysmally...but is written with all the love and care i have for the boys, the written word and all of you...from an extremely neurotic, chaotic, fake blonde, bisexual, mentally ill, but vulnerable, authentic and passionate source. <3

-uncle nina <3

p.s. with that said i think beta'ing someone elses fanfic could be kind of fun haha i wouldn't know what i was doing but i'd love to read all of ur work! it must be as stunning as all of you are <3

[edgyeddiefan]

Summary: Season 5. Time changed and Steve is stuck in the past. Can he change the turnout of time?

Warnings: language, angst?, fluffy moments, Steddie/Ronance.

Notes: I wrote this for a fan I follow. The problem is I am not a writer so this may be cringey, and/or suck.

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“Steve. Steve. STEVE!” The brown haired boy sat up from the grassy outdoors. His eyes still cloudy from the bright sun. “Steve! Thank goodness. Are you ok?” Nancy stood above him looking down at his squinted eyes. “Huh..?” Steve answered confusion plastered on his face. “Steve. You passed out.” Nancy said helping the teen up. “What in the..” he looked at Nancy to see her long straight brown hair. Nancy cut her hair. And it wasn’t straight last time he saw her. “Are you sure your ok? You don’t look to good. Maybe you should stay home from school.” But didn’t they graduate already? Steve looked around at the scenery. The bright blue skies and no sign of Hawkins ever even being destroyed. Steve looked at Nancy. His pale face had the girl confused and in some state of panic. “Hey Nance. What year is it?” *2 days earlier* The gates had completely destroyed Hawkins. Eddie was dead. Max…no one knows exactly. Vecna was still out there somewhere and he wasn’t going to stop until the whole world was his. “Hey Steve. You doing okay?” Robin asked walked up beside Steve. “Yeah. I guess. I’m worried for Dustin. He isn’t doing too well.” Steve answered looking over the hill to see Eleven, Mike, Will, Lucas, and dustin talking about only god knows what. Dustin still had a tear stained face and that blank emotion. “Hey. He’s always going to be with us. Dustin just needs time to cope. It’s not everyday you lose one of your best friends let alone role model.” Robin says sitting in the grass at Steve’s feet. She pulled on his pant leg motioning for him to sit too. “Thanks Robin. I just wish there was something I could do. Like…go back in time. Change things. You know?” Steve says sitting and looking off in the distance at Hawkins destroyed form. “Sure. We all want to go back and change something but if we did we wouldn’t be the people we are today.” Robin answered. “Whoa. Where did that come from? Miss. Inspirational.” Robin laughed. “I wish. I saw it from a movie. Im not smart enough to come up with that on my own.” Steve smiled “sure you are. You just don’t want to.” Robin looked down at Hawkins. “Yeah. I guess so.” The silence between the two went for a couple minutes before Steve finally stood up. “I need some air. Watch the little shits for me?” “Sure Steve. Whatever you say.” Steve walked out of the meadow and back into the forest towards Hoppers cabin. The truth was he also needed time. The fact he couldn’t save Eddie or max or anyone else got to his mind. He did need air but he was also scared that if stayed any longer he would have broke down. The stress put on him was high and the fact he was scared that he couldn’t save anyone else. He decided it would be best to not bother Joyce or Hopper if they were home. He strayed from the path little by little. He knew these woods well. From lovers lake to skull rock. He even knew the little things like where trees were or even bushes. Though he never stopped walking. He followed another path down to the city. Walking through each fallen building. Each crack of the upside downs destruction. Every shop him and his dates had ever been too. The memories of the town flooded his brain. It saddened him that the small town in which he grew up was gone. That exact thinking is what led him down this hole. When he finally gave in. He was sent somewhere else. Somewhere only the ‘King of Hawkins High’ would know. To the past. ———————————————————————- I hope this isn’t terrible. Let me know if anyone wants a part two?

[reflections-in-a-critical-eye]

Hey hey lesbian army here, wanted to pop in and dump something that's been on my mind. I have been stanning bangtan since 2015 and have watched the fandom grow and evolve and it's never been something drastically noticable until the pandemic era. It still shocks me to come across delulu shit online from (I'll give the benefit of the doubt) mainly naive teenagers who blindly follow and borderline worship the tannies. It makes me feel so out of touch and question do we even follow the same content?? Maybe it's cause I'm an og army but I remember how things USED to be and I'm still stuck on that...

The wave of pandemic era armys are so keen to fetishize and objectify the guys and completely disregard their lyricism or work ethic (which has sadly declined since the pandemic, so I guess naturally the fans are turning more to just talking about the guy's bodies). But still, it saddens me because this fandom used to be a place where I could engage with others in meaningful conversations but now it makes me feel sort of isolated because I feel like a lot of the og ones have left at this point, and as a lesbian I can't and neither do I want to partake in the increasingly sexualized commentary on the guys (comments like "choke me run me over daddy" or "he can slap me w his dick" etc etc). Like yikes these are sometimes 14 year olds saying these things?? Makes me wonder what bangtan thinks about the way their fandom has evolved and if they're scared of them cause honestly I'd be too 😅

But thank you for being a space where we can chat about more discourse related things and feel like we have a corner of the fandom where more is being talked about then just ogling over Namjoon's thighs or Jungkook's abs

Hey anon, thanks for the ask and for bringing up this topic because I think it can turn into a healthy debate. I don't totally agree with you, but I see where you're coming from.

Fandom discourse can be easily shoved into little boxes and it's heavily influenced by the social media platform where it takes place. I haven't been here before the pandemic so without doing some actual research into how fandom behavior changed, I can't say much about that, although you're not the first to say that it's different now and there are a lot of fans who saw the change coming since 2018. I do see the worshipping issue being very prevalent and just today, after a twitter space in which journalists gathered and talked about the bullying in k-pop fandoms and army as well, there were threads made by army for other fans so they can block all those who spoke. Because damn journalists, they're all evil. The worst is that the majority of people do it, they click the block button without actually thinking for themselves because they're so easily influenced. Individual and critical thinking is not encouraged and that's the biggest flaw in this fandom. It would be such a better place and a more accepting one if differences in opinion would be allowed and people wouldn't be demonized for not agreeing with everything or for not being obsessed.

I also understand how it can be weird, uncomfortable seeing young kids/teenagers talk about certain stuff, without probably having any experience, but I would say that it's part of their transformative years, except it's a period that is fully displayed on the internet and they do have access to more information in a way that in some situations leads them to a hyper focus because they also think it's cool. 12 year olds are writing bts smut fanfiction on Wattpad and it's really obvious how they don't know what they're writing about. It's cringey and they lack a lot of education, but that's today's generation, not just army.

I think that having some deep conversations while also fantasizing about men can be done and there's no harm in it. I've talked about fetishizing here before, but in case someone only sees a person as an object, then that's fetishizing. If not, if they are also fans of their music, their lyricism, how they present themselves and they also fantasize about them, then I personally do not see a problem. Women can be allowed to talk about pop stars in a topic that also involves sexual themes. I don't know what the members think, but I'm assuming they wouldn't see a lot of harm in it, given that they themselves talk about putting out some sexy performances or they slowly get rid of some clothes. They're adult men in an entertainment business and they know what fans like, on top of everything deep they put out. It's always been like that.

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jiminiy cricket for the ask 🔫🦗

Sexuality headcanon Idk man... This guy is p straight.

OTP Come on now... The choice is clear: Jiminy and Tallulah aka my super mega foxy awesome hot OC.

Brotp This guy has like no friends outside of a little wooden boy, so I guess that's gonna have to be my answer? Although I don't feel entirely comfortable labeling their relationship a brotp...

Notp There are a lot of ships out there. Jiminy and Tinkerbell, Jiminy and the Blue Fairy, even Jiminy and Timothy Mouse. I don't hate any of them. They all make sense one way or another. As long as none of them get in the way of what him and Tallulah got going on, I won't get salty.

First head canon that pops into my head Horny as fuck. Not exactly a head canon considering we see evidence of this in the movie, but I can guarantee you this guy has paid a prostitute for head at least once in his life. It gets pretty lonely out there.

Favorite line from this character "Whatdya say to sitting out the next one babe, huh?" I literally cannot say this out loud when I hear it I cover my face and squeal cause I'm a girl.

One way in which I relate to this character He's funny as hell and talks to himself a lot. I am also funny as hell and talk to myself a lot.

Thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character He had to do these educational films in the 50's/60's and I have yet to watch them because I know one of the songs and it's just so cringey, like this guy was really strapped for cash back then, huh?

cinnamon roll or problematic fave? I think the world would say cinnamon roll, but they don't know him like I do. He's not problematic, but he isn't a perfect man. He's somewhere in the middle. 

Thanks for the ask friend! :D

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Soul of the Sword

AAAAHHHH!!! That was my immediate reaction upon finishing this book. I was a little bit apprehensive since I loved the first one so much that perhaps this one wouldn't be quite up to that level. I was wrong. The last few chapters had me literally squealing and commenting out loud in my college's cafeteria. People were just enjoying their food and then all of a sudden you hear me go like "you did not just kill the dog!" and they're looking at me like

Anyways, I have so many opinions on this book that I have no idea where to begin. The same things about Kagawa’s descriptions and writing style that I said about Shadow of the Fox hold up for this book too. I also LOVED getting to see more types of Yokai and spirits. The illusion magic Yumeko did in this book was super cool and badass and the final battle at the end had my emotions going crazy like “wait, what just happened?” “HOLY SHIT DID HE JUST DIE?!” “Oh, no he’s still alive, thank god” “NO NO NO NO NO!!”

To be quite honest, I found the romance a bit cheesy (honestly almost everything that comes out of Daisuke’s mouth is flowery enough to put Shakespeare to shame). That didn’t mean that I didn’t completely eat it up though. I was just sitting there like “this is so cringey, give me MORE!!” The cheese was, in a way, kind of refreshing actually. I’ve gotten so used to reading about romances that are, like, 95% angst. A fluffier one was a bit of a treat. Also, KAGAWA PUT A ROMANCE BETWEEN SECONDARY MAIN CHARACTERS IN THE FOREFRONT!!! I feel like so many times beta couples (as tvtropes.org calls them) get kind of shoved aside in order to build up the main pairing. Soul of the Sword manages to build both romances while still having the Okame-Daisuke (Daikame? Okasuke?) romance being the main focus instead of the Tatsumi-Yumeko (Tatsuko? Yumesumi?) romance. Then there's poor Reika who's got to deal with trying to save the world and keeping everyone else else from acting like a bunch of lovestruck idiots. The thing I loved the most about the way the romances were written in this book was that it didn't overshadow the adventure. Instead of being a romance book with adventure in it, it was an adventure book with some romances.

Oooh, ok, I also need to talk about Hakaimono. I loved getting to see chapters from his point of view. The characterization of Hakaimono was awesome. He's a demon but instead of falling into that "demons are all simply evil incarnate" trap, Kagawa gives Hakaimono his own individual personality and goals. As Hakaimono himself puts it, he is more of a refined demon than, say, Yaburama. He's not trying to cause as much chaos and bloodshed as possible like the rest of the demons and Yokai in Genno's entourage. Hakaimono is in the business of revenge, he has a more complex goal and motive.

Characters

Yumeko: I loved the way her character developed. Yumeko's magic and fighting skills increased, as did her confidence in them, but she kept her relative naiveté when it came to social interactions. No matter how much magic she learned and how badass she became, she still took every sarcastic comment Okame made literally. Honestly, I found this character development to be really accurate because Yumeko is using her fighting and magic skills. She is not, however, interacting with many people outside her little group of misfits. Yumeko's character is honestly one of the more relatable literary heroines to me. Her reaction to either Daisuke or Okame's dream (I'm guessing it was Okame's for reasons I will explain later) was so fucking relatable. The other thing I loved about Yumeko is that she’s one of those rare heroines who I can’t imagine sitting on a rock in a garden somewhere picking petals off of flowers and muttering “he loves me, he loves me not.” She just seems to spend a lot more of her free time having fun and messing around than angsting about the state of her love life.

Tatsumi: I didn’t see much of him in this book, I’m guessing it probably had something to do with his soul being trapped in a psychological prison by a demon. Anyways, when we did see Tatsumi peek out it was honestly kind of heartbreaking. As terrible as it is that Tatsumi’s body wound up being hijacked by Hakaimono, I did appreciate the fact that that allowed me to see more about Tatsumi’s true character than I learned in the first book. When Tatsumi‘s soul peaked out, like when Yumeko met him in the dream realm and when she possessed his body too, he was actually feeling something. Yeah, his hopelessness was upsetting to read about, but we got to see his true self without him pushing down all his emotions.

Okame: The dude really shone in this book. We finally got to see some backstory on him, that his brother is dead, and it seems to have been extremely important in shaping Okame’s personality. It also puts a whole different perspective on things. It seems like Okame blames himself for his brother’s death and now I can’t stop mentally comparing him to Matthew Fairchild (from The Last Hours, which you need to read if you haven’t already). Now his carefree “let’s do ill-advised shit cause it’s fun” attitude seems more like an attempt to ease his guilt by either making him forget what happened or punishing himself for it. I also said earlier that I thought the Kdrama dream Yumeko stumbled into was Okame's and I think that's because the class gap was mentioned in the dream and Okame was the one to bring up the class gap in the scene with the flute (that Yumeko spied on again because she's a whole-ass mood). I think despite Okame's confident attitude, he's got a really low opinion of himself. It seems to me that he brings up the "honourless Ronin dog" thing because if he owns it, that means it can't be used as an insult against him. Okame just really needs that reassurance from Daisuke that he's good enough.

Reika: Dear Lord, Reika! She's quickly rising up my list of favorite characters. I've noticed that usually in YA books, all the characters are tangled up in some kind of romance and when they're not, it's usually a boy who's the third, fifth, or seventh wheel for example TJ in the Magnus Chase series or Leo in the Heroes of Olympus, (ok, so maybe it's just a Rick Riordan thing). Still, I love that they have a female main character who's voluntarily an anti-romantic (*cackles in MOA*). She's just an unbothered queen (but at the same time she's always bothered by the boys and Yumeko's shenanigans). It seems like nothing can rattle her and even when she discusses her worries about the plan with Yumeko and we see that she is actually worried, she still manages to keep her composure in almost every situation they're in. I'm lowkey getting Professor McGonogall vibes from her and I love it.

Daisuke: Alrighty, here we go. My favorite of the core five. I think I’ve figured out why I love him so much. My favorite book character of all time is Jem Carstairs from The Infernal Devices and Daisuke honestly reminds me of him a bit. Both characters have silver hair and can be described as “nothing but kindness” (in Tessa’s words). This makes me a bit nervous though cause Cassandra Clare liked to pick on Jem and now I’m terrified Julie Kagawa’s gonna take a page out of her book (so to speak) and pick on the sweet silver boy. He also just seems way too excited to die an honorable death in battle. I’ll admit, he doesn’t seem to have as much character development as Okame, Yumeko, and Tatsumi, but hey, it’s kind of hard to improve upon perfection. I’m sorry, I just love this man with all my heart, thank you and goodbye.

Suki: This girl (ghost) is massively relatable. I, too, am hopelessly in love with Daisuke. Anyways, moving on, I don’t have any particularly strong feelings about her, but I will say that she turned out to be far more important than I thought she’d be. I mean without her, the main characters would be dead about a thousand times over.

Seigetsu: I don’t trust the man.

Taka: Look, I know he’s not as important as a lot of the other characters but I just had to mention him. Seriously, that kid is adorable. Like, I wanna scoop him up, wrap him in blankets, and protect him from everything wrong in the world. He’s just such a sweet and innocent baby and part of my disdain for Seigetsu is because he keeps using Taka’s abilities to look into the future even though it seems to hurt Taka.