#thanks for the clarification anon!

[justiceburst]

You're the first person I've met who I'm not afraid to let see me fail, but who I still want to succeed for, because I love the way you react when I do. Every new piece of you I see, I like more than the last. And I wish I could have said it all to your face.

On anon, tell my muse what yours thinks of them

Goro locked his jaw, blinking rapidly. "Is that... so?"

It didn't... it didn't sound like they were speaking to him. The person they were describing... that wasn't him. Was it? Maybe. It could be.

What were these pieces of him they claimed to see, to like?

He wanted to believe it, though, to believe that he had such a profound effect on someone. That someone liked him that much, that they wanted to impress him. It made him feel warm, giddy.

"Why don't you come out of hiding and tell me now, then? If you like my reactions so much, there's nothing to worry about!"

[realjoehours]

https://www.tumblr.com/realjoehours/784926817407631360/they-shouldve-called-him-ass-ketchup?source=share. Him -> https://shorturl.at/akMow

oh! him!

yea i think they should've i think it would've been funny

[hodangelphoenix]

Heres my awesome art request:

Draw Martlet from UTY clothes-swapped with Ceroba :3

Also very kind of you to take requests!! Only draw if your feeling like it no pressure X3

I dones it :>

Yaey!

second version and doodle under the cut

Second version! They kept their colors

Doodle (from me trying to figure out what to do)

[dailykeiji]

gril cheese anon here. i was copy pasting the message into other daily ask boxes so it’s they/them to apply to whatever character

sorry if I’m over explaining. they/them keiji ftw though

today’s keiji is: they/them keiji shinogi eating their grilled cheese

[illusioncanthurtme--art]

I'm not the last anon, but a smash cake is where you put characters you'd smash or find attractive on it.

BAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAAAA

OH MY GOD THAT'S EVEN BETTER!!!!!

LMAOOO

THANK YOU ANON

[polls-about-fandom]

Do you use ship names to refer to both platonic and romantic relationships? Ship name: the mashing up of two or more names like Bert+Ernie=Bernie for examples sake

Never, ship names always connate a romantic relationship for me

Sometimes, I mostly use ship names for romantic relationships

Yes, I use them for platonic and romantic relationships equally often

Other

I think this means without specifying that it is platonic, "platonic Bernie" vs. Just "Bernie"

Do you assume just "bernie" is being used platonically, or do you initially always assume it's meant romantically

[jubshead]

I have no fucking clue why people censor the word "France" or "French" like WHAT THE FUCK 😭😭😭 It's probably some running joke

⁽ᵃⁿʸʷᵃʸ ᴵ ˡᵒᵛᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ᵃⁿᵈ ʸᵒᵘʳ ʷᵒʳᵏ ˢʲᵈʰˢʰʰˢʰ⁾

- 🐇

DUDE EXACTLY I WAS SO CONFUSED!!

I mean idk if this is like an American thing, cause people in Brasil don’t do this

I thought it was some sort of “dirty” word, like French kissing or anal idk lolll

(thank you, little bunny!)

[starlos-soulmate]

I love it when I'm so hungry I'm nauseous and I wanna eat stuff. I have food right there in front of me but I can't eat it. And that's making everything worse

[pamela-lntt]

About the cc Forever Situation:

A brazilian twitter user posted a translation of Forever's statement from today's stream, in case anybody needs it (tw // suicide mention )

https://x.com/twcwya/status/1743374034304213095?s=20

Also included is some context at the end of the thread and links to threads of what is being discussed ( tw // pedophilia )

I'm sorry if i missed any tws, i'm just trying to help

EDIT: reblogged with screenshots of the thread for those who don't have Twitter: https://www.tumblr.com/pamela-lntt/738713715054116864/translated-statement?source=share

[seraphirism]

what happened at the end of chapter 4?? im not really updated anymore due to busy schedule :/

hii, and I’d be happy to explain (*^^*)!

readers, please be aware that there are spoilers below (of chapter 4 and “wish upon a black rabbit” or 黒兎に願いを込めて event story) so proceed with discretion!

I tried my best to condense it but I wasn’t sure how far you had read, plus the story following part 3 of chapter 4 till part 5 is completely connected (in a way that you wouldn’t understand one part if you didn’t know the previous part) so I gave it my best shot! I’ll include a tldr at the very end so you can read that if you want to avoid the barrage of text; I went kinda overboard?

in chapter 4, as we know, Boschi’s demon took over him; he lost control to it. but unlike the case of Bastien, Haures and Lato where they lost control because of an emotional outburst (caused by extreme despair or rage), Boschi gave control to his demon on purpose.

(just in case if you don’t know/remember why, let me give a brief summary!)

Aruji and the second floor butlers were sent over to guard the Seirans/セイラン, a noble family in the East. this was after kidnappings and attacks were done by an unknown assailant (the white headed, elf looking guy). the stranger was specifically targeting nobles associated with the Sardis family.

while they were there, the butlers were at the same time investigating if the Seiran family had been in cahoots with the Sardis family (you know in, child trafficking and experimentation).

earlier in the chapter Boschi revealed that around 300 years ago, his mother and grandmother (who was actually his nanny) were killed on the orders of Seiran family. (that was a long story; if you want me to explain that, please send me another ask, I’ll do that separately :D!)

then skip to a week later, while Aruji and the butlers were staying at their residence (and doing their guard duties) the elf guy kidnapped the head of the Seiran family. Boschi decided he and Ammon would protect Aruji and the wife of the head of the family (while they stayed in the Seiran family’s residence), and Haures and Fennesz would leave to search for the head of the Seiran family with the help of his guards.

elf guy was targeting the families associated with Sardis. that’s because a large group of his people/compatriots went missing/were kidnapped; he suspected the Seiran family was involved with it (due to their association with the Sardis family that were publicly exposed to be carrying out human trafficking. )

it is later revealed that the Seiran family was responsible for that, in particular the wife of the head of the family (because of her twisted obsession with beauty; you’d need a separate post to understand her). she was later injured by Seraphim and killed by elf guy. unfortunately for elf guy, his people are then taken by Seraphim and Cherbim.

then Chrone/スローン attacked Aruji, Boschi and Ammon whilst this happened. however this time was different; instead of trying to kill the butlers, he was attempting to kill Aruji (so the butlers would become seriously upset/angry and thus fall under the control of their demon, fight Chrone in that state to see how strong the butlers really are. (his mission was to access the full strength of the butlers).

whilst fighting, Boschi loses his prosthetic arm protecting Aruji.

(boschi’s demon is called Zaebos/ザエボス by the way!)

Zaebos offers to give Boschi all his power for this fight (basically unlock his full potential) if Boschi agrees to give up his life to the demon (i.e die) by the end of the fight. their whole talk and meeting happens in Boschi’s subconsciousness. Boschi agrees after he loses his prosthetic arm, the incident acting as a trigger.

(he realised he and Ammon couldn’t defeat Chrone by the time Haures and Fennesz would arrive and Aruji could lose their life.).

before fully losing control to his demon (like how Bastien and the rest did), he gives Ammon a warning. then he attacks Chrone. in the end, both Ammon and Boschi managed injure Chrone enough for him to agree to leave when Seraphim asks him to (since they got an idea of how strong the devil butlers are under the influence of their demon.)

but Boschi, having lost complete control to his demon side, now attacks Ammon. Ammon, having trained with Boschi for years and years on end, well aware of Boschi’s moves and what was Boschi’s weakness in a fight (—he gets exhausted easily and rapidly loses energy to fight.), exploits this. Boschi collapses in the end, Aruji comes over and does their whole usual going into their “heart”.

this time though, when Aruji goes there, Boschi was chained to a throne (I think it was a throne?) and asleep, and Zaebos (who has the form of a leopard by the way) appeared and told Aruji that it’s no use trying to awaken Boschi because he had promised his life to him in return for power.

Aruji tries their best (which was a very emotional scene by the way, the way they kept calling out for Boschi despite Zaebos telling them that Boschi is gone for good 😭) and Boschi finally manages to hear their voice (he was in a dream-like place with his mother and grandmother, possibly passing over to the other side/about to die). he comes back and tells his demon that while he did promise to give his life to the demon, he did not specify “when” he’d give his life up (that was such a move on his part, our king ✨). so long story short, Boschi promises to give his life up to the demon when Aruji dies in the future (so he’ll die when Aruji dies.).

next thing you know, he manages to wake up with Ammon collapsed at his side. Fennesz and Haures arrive with the master of the Seiran family (who they found on their way back in a bad state). His wife, Falin is dead. there will be trials in the East to implicate the Seiran family officially.

there’s a whole mess going on with Eastern Lords Alliance but Finley will attempt his best to settle the situation; he also adds that the butlers may be asked for their assistance in the matter of finding the stranger (mr elf; please devs, give him a name already or I’ll—).

[also, I nearly forgot to add; mr elf is being suspected for the crime of killing Falin, the mistress of Seiran family since she was killed with a sword and the public believe angels would not use swords to kill, rather their light/power. in actuality, he attempted to end her life with a quick blow of his sword instead of leaving her to bleed to death from Seraphim’s attack which was from a sword.

the angels use swords now too by the way ✨ like yay, their powers weren’t enough.)

then, we’re back at devil’s palace (yay! our visit was more than a week long, less than 2 weeks, if I’m not wrong). Aruji and the second floor butlers get some much needed rest. Boschi shows Aruji their new prosthetic arm (which was made from the material of his old prosthetic arm.).

he seemed much more at peace now (but we later learn in the black bunny festival [黒兎に願いを込めて] event story that losing his prosthetic arm did trigger his memories of losing his actual arm, so now whenever he spars he gets flashbacks of Chrone cutting his prosthetic arm off. those flashbacks make him freeze up while fighting. for this reason, he trains a lot more to get over this, than he did prior to this incident.

anyhow, that event story and his card story sheds light on to boschi’s state right after chapter 4, in a bit more detail.).

lastly, Berrien visits Belen and says he hopes to be able to save Belen someday.

i read the story about 2 weeks ago; though, there’s a huge chance i might have gotten something mixed up/wrong. so feel free to correct me in the comments or send me an ask! there’s also a lot of stuff i left out because i was afraid it would get too long (it still did 😭) like about:

a: Falin/フアリン, the mistress of the Seiran family, who i’d say was the most interesting character in this chapter. i could write paragraphs upon paragraphs about her.

(i love the writing of aknk but i also believe they could have given more information on Seiran family and how they came to be what they are. They have a lot of potential for a follow up event story or even a side story. I hope in a side story we get more information or maybe in the next main story?)

b: Boschi’s past; we got a lot of information about his life and, how after everything he came to meet Berrien and became a butler.

c: Ammon! we got insight into his thoughts and feelings from when Haures became demonized, and how he feels inferior to the other butlers, how he puts less effort into training because he feels he can never reach the level Haures and Boschi are on. And so on!

d: i also skipped explaining the first two parts and a bit of part 3 of chapter 4 since you asked for the ending; (but that involved Berrien, Belen, Lono and were not exactly relevant to what happened with Boschi and the ending of chapter 4.).

Tldr: Boschi loses control to his demon after losing his prosthetic arm, he manages to defeat Chrone with the help of Ammon. Aruji brings him back from the control of his demon though ultimately he will have to give his life up to his demon the day Aruji dies. there’s investigation going on into the Seiran family, the stranger (mr elf) and his identity. his people (from the valley) are still missing because Cherubim and Seraphim took them. the butlers might get a request to aid in the investigation of mr elf.

i hope this helped (^^)! feel free to send another ask if you’re confused about something or want further explanation; i like talking about aknk so it’s no trouble for me. i hope your schedule eases up a bit, please remember to take breaks and eat/drink — have a wonderful day ✨!

[finding-proship-fans]

Oops sorry I'm the one that sent the YGO ask. I meant any aniYGO series such as DM, GX, 5D's, Zexal, Arc-V, Vrains, Sevens, anddd Go Rush! I'm open to befriending anyone that likes any of these :D!!

📣📣📣

[gayaest]

is it okay to reblog your art onto cpunk blogs/blogs with cpunk in the url? or would you rather your art not be associated with it at all

If it’s in the URL, and everything is reblogged the same way (for example, a picture of a sunset is reblogged next to my art and so forth) that’s alright.

So yeah, if it’s in the url that’s alright — i just ask to not tag my work with the cpunk or c slur in any capacity.

[candyheartedchy]

i meant "cute" in a platonic sense, i just like the voice actor, sorry for any discomfort 🫡

It’s okay, I just been getting a few anon asks lately about folks liking him and been kinda on edge rn.

[marshmallowprotection]

Hi Kait, i hope youre having a good day/night when youre reading this!

I have been thinking about this for some time and I would love to hear your opinion about this : if Saeran's MC was male, would he experience some form of internalized homophobia? I'm assuming neither in the Minteye or at the Cathedral he has seen any type of same sex attraction or just any type of queer existence, so I wonder if this would later on make him feel like he is 'different'? Or would it make him hesitate to come out to Saeyoung or anyone in the RFA? Maybe if they're not being already treated like a couple as in canon, just seen as friends throught the AE? I know Saeyoung is queer and a lot of people (me included!) headcanon other members to be queer, if he had no knowledge of this, how would this realistically affect him?

That is quite the long ask, I'm sorry for that but I just love the way you analyse characters and how much you care about them. Also, if there's any mistakes or typos, please excuse that, english is not my first languege. Thank you so much

TW: Homophobia

That's an interesting question to think about. Would he experience some sort of internalized backlash?

Honestly, in my opinion, I don't think so. Internalized homophobia stems from being forced into a world that constantly hammers home that you're "bad" for not fitting the mold they want you to fit. If you're not taught or shown the bias these people experience, you're far less likely to experience any internalized shame. How can you feel bad or ashamed if you were never taught to feel that way? If you don't know about the bigotry, why would you ever feel bad?

Just speaking from experience here, I didn't begin to experience any shame or fear about my sexuality until I reached middle school and I had to deal with different kids slinging slurs at my head that I didn't understand and hadn't ever heard before. I didn't know what any of the words they were calling me meant, but I understood they thought those words were "bad" and used them to hurt my feelings because they didn't like me for one reason or another, and figured using those slurs would hurt me because "other" is bad.

I hadn't even figured my feelings out yet but people began to single me out and call me words I won't repeat. It took me until a little later to figure myself out but having kids pull my hair and call me slurs did not help. They made a journey that should've been safe for me into a difficult experience that made me fearful for my safety. Unlike other kids who were "allowed" to have crushes and experience all kinds of firsts, I felt singled out. Othered. I knew I would never be able to have a "normal" experience like teenagers did in the movies and it crushed me.

All because I wasn't straight. All because I was "different". The world makes young people feel like they're "wrong" if they don't fit these bullshit molds based around bigotry, homophobia, and misreadings of the bible used to further someone's hate agenda. The more you're forced to live in a society where you're told you're "wrong", the more you might start to feel horrible about who you are as a person and I'm angry we still live in a world that does this to young people. I'm angry it's happening to our trans family as we speak.

Kids are not born with biases. They are taught these biases at home, even if they don't understand them at first. Bigotry is TAUGHT and it comes from their guardians and the people around them who talk all about other people in monstrous ways in front of them. These things are normalized for the kids over time and they learn to be just as cruel as their guardians.

Saeran was not raised around these biases. He spent so much of his life locked up in a room with his twin brother where the world could not reach him. His life experience is so much more limited than the one his brother has experienced. Saeyoung got to experience a lot of the world because of the deal he made with the agency, and through that, he was able to learn more about his own sexuality!

He had the language he wouldn't have had before because he got to go out into the world and learn more about himself. I'm sure having a word for his bisexuality felt like such a relief. He had a word to finally describe his heart. I'm glad Saeyoung was able to get that even if he's the type of person who holds himself back when romance knocks so much of the time because he's self-sacrificial. But, it will never change the fact that he's bisexual and his MC could be anyone.

For Saeran, I've always imagined that he has fantasized about having a prince, princess, or a knight to come and save him. It felt as easy as breathing. He wasn't taught to believe otherwise. Nothing in his diary implied the cathedral he was attending was spewing homophobia at the front door! He went there for classes and to play in the gardens... and in my mind, was never exposed to people saying that it would be wrong to love more than just a princess. (I HC him biromantic demisexual, btw).

In fact, it's probably stranger for him to see someone be a bigot.

Why are you angry about someone loving another person? What's wrong with love? This isn't to say Saeran hasn't come across hate speech before. I'm sure in his time studying the RFA and more about the world they live in he's never been allowed to know, he's seen and encountered things he never expected to learn about otherwise. That could cover any subject. That could be any piece of information in this world. Bigots exist everywhere in this world, unfortunately, so it's not impossible to say Saeran's seen someone be cruel.

But, Saeran has a very kind, gentle heart. He has no reason to feel ashamed about who he loves or who other people love. It's people who bring hatred to the world that bothers him. Even if he did feel internalized shame, that shit would go out the window once he knew who he was and that his MC would always love him. Nothing will ever make him feel like he's wrong for being himself after he has the day of peace where he reclaims his sense of autonomy.

Bring on the fight if need be. He isn't afraid of fighting people who have wicked hearts. You will not tell him he can't be himself because you don't like it. He's already fought that battle his entire life. He can handle your nonsense and tell you to screw off if you think he's a bad person for loving his partner. He's kind to a fault but he will not put up with hatred. He's not a pushover.

I don't think he'd hesitate to tell the RFA that he's with his male MC romantically, either. The RFA is accepting. Contrary to what I see from bitter homophobes who think they have the "right" opinion on the RFA, the RFA is a found family that loves one another no matter what. If you're queer, you belong with them. It doesn't matter what you HC the RFA as specifically, at the end of the day, you being queer will not stop you from being a part of their family. You'll get support down to the letter. No hesitation.

The only bigotry I think you're going to encounter is from Saejoong Choi, but that's to be expected because he seems like the type as a noted conservative politician who prides himself on "family values". The game makes some of his politics and views pretty clear as you're playing through Another Story.

Oh, and another thing, just because people try to erase our existence as queer people by attempting to eradicate any mention of us being ourselves and simply existing doesn't mean they'll succeed. You can attempt to raise a child "far away" from queerness but that won't stop them from being queer if they are. Being queer is not a thing you just choose one day. We're born this way and there's nothing wrong with us. But! There is everything wrong with people who think we need to change to suit their bigotry. They're the ones that need to change.

You can try to withhold language and history from someone but that won't stop them from being who they are. Even if you don't have the words to describe what you're feeling, you'll know what you're feeling isn't what they're trying to sell you as "normal" and that can never be erased.

For Saeran, I can only imagine his heart breaking when he realizes how deep this world is coated in hatred but he will fight every day to be kind to counteract this hatred. That's his strength, after all. To be kind when the world says otherwise. That's his act of rebellion to the people who want him to lay down and die. No. He will choose to be kind and continue on his way because he deserves to be happy and alive, just as much as anyone else.

[good--merits-accumulated]

how would you say you've come to hone or find neil and todd's voice in your fics? i feel like you characterize them really well. also, i just wanna say i love when people in academia write fanfiction because they have all kinds of allusions and technicalities and sort of bizarre premises and it's the exactly the kind of thing i look for because it's also how my brain works. everything i study in uni i can relate to anderperry😭

Thank you, anon! That's a great compliment. :')

Unfortunately the honest answer is: I spent a number of years (6? 7? Going on 8 now) thinking about Neil and Todd, and I have very severe fandom brain. Also I would like to note that my characterisation of them is STILL evolving, all the time!

Specifically, the way I started thinking about Neil and Todd's characters some years ago was to take the defining traits with which they're often assigned and start shoving nuance into them. Like, Todd is shy. OK. What kind of shy? There's infinite different shades of shyness! Find a core "type" that appeals to you, because those are more fun to write, and start building up layers of personality around it. (Personally, I really like writing a shy! Todd with a certain self-aware wryness, and an outgoing! Neil with a kind of affability.) I cannot stress this enough: if you're confident enough when writing your character interpretations, it will work!

(Another thing is to note is that characterisation is inextricable from environment by nature. You don't have to be zealously faithful to the movie if your guys are on, like, Mars. You don't even have to be zealously faithful to the movie if they're still in Welton IMO)

If you wanted serious advice that's more about characterisation in general, I think the main thing to remember is that Good Characterisation isn't as limiting as it seems from far off. In real life, shy people aren't shy all the time with one solid response to every situation, etc. Walt Whitman quote: I am large; I contain multitudes. You can make a character say anything or act in almost any way as long as you can explain it within the confines of the story, and in fact that's often what makes a story compelling - making someone act in an uncharacteristic way and then spending a bunch of time trying to make sense of why they did that. Just write a lot and see what sticks and what doesn't. Observe the people around you! Look at human behaviour! Take notes! It is the most fun thing in the world.

Also P.S. I wish I was in the type of academia which would actually lend itself to writing the type of fics I want to write! Unfortunately I've got no wish to write about Anderperry in the anatomy lab or doing cardiac exams or whatever. I agree with you - great fics invariably come from people on ao3 who are doing their PhDs or masters in incredibly niche subjects lmfao. Tell me about your niche area and how it fits Anderperry. I want to know :3

[mars-ipan]

Bestie I was calling YOU the prophet because of the kmhn bible thing. That was NOT a music rec💀🙏

guys i’m so fucking smart. i’m the smartest man on the planet i can interpret language like a pro. my reading comprehension is so incredible you’d think i invented english