#that's a very real possibility and it is scary 😔

[running-in-the-dark]

I watched the second and third The Librarian movies yesterday, sooo. I might start watching The Librarians tonight. maybe. I'm not sure. I'm scared 😔

[etherealstar-writes]

I WANNA BE YOURS | LIONESSES X READER | PT 8

pairings: lionesses x reader

summary: in which you're accidentally added to a random group chat, not knowing they're all actually famous footballers, and obliviously end up having many of them competing for your love and attention.

part: eight

part one here

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THE NATIONAL DIVING TEAM

stairway y/n, i gotta tell you something very important

the imposter okay? what is it?

stairway

the imposter when and where?

stairway i was thinking a beach wedding this weekend

willybum WOAH WOAH WOAH hell nah gimme a chance

the REAL karate kid i can be a way better girlfriend than all of them y/n

neev no meee!

the imposter as much as i love all these offers you guys don't even know what i look like

elton wdym? we all know what you look like

the imposter well that's not creepy at all i never sent you guys a photo of me wait a second so you guys are stalkers! OMG I KNEW IT!!

elton NO NO NO WE ARE NOT your friend sent us that one time she was on your phone we assumed you knew that

the imposter WAIT WHAT NO I HAD NO CLUE OMG WHAT PHOTO WAS IT?? SHE DELETED IT ON THE CHAT

stairway wait a sec

the imposter WHATT I DONT EVEN REMEMBER THAT THAT IS SO UNFAIR OMG hang on how do you even have that?

earpsy half of them have it saved on their camera roll in favourites

lauren 1 exposed haha

the REAL karate kid shut up

the imposter ..... um okay then that's not scary at all it isn't even a good photo

neev iSnT eVEn a GoOd PhOTo GURLLL shut upppp you're gorgeous i'll marry you instantly

the imposter aw tyyy ily <33

neev

the REAL karate kid NAHH BACK UP RN

stairway

i'm coming for you charles

neev

elton hold on you guys i just realised

the REAL karate kid oh hell no

lotte what could she have possibly thought of now

maya everyone prepare yourselves

elton if pregnant women were to go swimming would they be classified as human submarines bcuz you know they're pregnant

the imposter

earpsy you really have outdone yourself this time

willybum

neev toone how the hell did you even think of that 😭😭

stairway no but she lowkey has a point tho ... they technically are if you think about it

lotte not you too 😭

the imposter ella bae ily but .....

the REAL karate kid i second that

elton

honestly you guys are just jealous jealous of my

meado

lord save me

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THE NATIONAL DIVING TEAM

the imposter how are my favourite stalkers doing? y'all have been quiet lately and i haven't been spammed with notifications from this chat it's kinda concerning hope y'all are doing well

lotte i would say enjoy the silence while it lasts lol but i'm doing well thanks! hope you're having a good day too <3

the imposter that's great to hear, and thank you!! xxx

stairway i'm doing good too!

neev i'm doing alright too thanks

elton oi we don't stalk you .... all the time

the imposter hold on okay i'm back

willybum WE'RE NOT STALKING YOU 😭

the imposter

guess this is goodbye my stalkers this has to end 🤝😔

stairway Y/N NOOO

the imposter

just booked myself some karate lessons see you guys on the streets ✌️

neev oh my god 😭

elton that's it i'm never going outside or leaving my house again

willybum nahhh this isn't fair Y/N come backkk

the REAL karate kid y/n my lovee plsss 🥺 i blame ella for all this

elton oi it's not my fault!

stairway it's okay we'll just wait here .... y/n?

neev okay its been half an hour y/n and still not an answer pls answer

the imposter a bit desperate are we, guys? what if i was just peeing?

stairway no of course not

willybum pfft we're not desperate

lotte um if you were peeing for about 30 mins then i would be seriously concerned and would be booking you a doctor's appointment

the imposter yeah yeah whatever you say, my stalkers :)

part nine here

[yanderecrazysie]

Could you possibly do an oikawa alphabet?

Yes I can!

Oikawa Tooru (Haikyuu) -The Yandere Alphabet

🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐🏐

Warnings: yandere themes, spanking

A is for Affection: How do they show their affection for their darling? How often do they show it?

💖 Oikawa is VERY affectionate, and is a huge fan of PDA. He would have his hands on you 24/7 if he could.

💖 Along with it just being enjoyable, it also shows everyone that you belong to him.

B is for Blood: How messy are they willing to get for their darling? Why?

🔪 Oikawa doesn’t like to get messy, but he can. He’ll dispose of any threat he needs to.

🔪 He doesn’t kill out of jealousy or anything, but he will out of revenge on your behalf.

C is for Care or Cruelty: How would they treat their darling when they kidnap them? Would they mock them?

💔 While Oikawa can be a little smug, he’s nothing but spoiling and sweet. Your time with him will be almost enjoyable.

D is for Delusion: How delusional are they when it comes to their darling? Do they believe their darling loves them?

💭 Oikawa can get a little delusional out of ego. All the girls in school love him, so why wouldn’t you?

E is for Expose: How much of their heart do they bear to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling? How much time will it take to trust them?

💧 Oikawa can be surprisingly guarded, so he’s careful with what he shares with you. It takes a long time to trust you and be vulnerable with you.

F is for Fight: How would they react if their darling fought back?

👊 Oikawa would take any injuries you give him with honor, and he finds that it’s a real turn-on when you fight back. He likes a challenge.

G is for Guilt: What would it take for them to feel guilty about their actions? Or do they feel guilty from the start?

😔 Oikawa would never feel guilty. He’s too sure he’s doing the right thing that, even if you got seriously hurt, he wouldn’t feel guilt over it.

H is for Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

🔥 Oikawa gets really quiet when angry and, while he can get a little rough, it’s not particularly scary. The worst part, instead, would be the punishments because some can get physical.

I is for Ideals: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?

👩‍❤️‍👨 Oikawa wants a big family, with lots of kids that are that perfect mix between you and him. He also wants a romantic wedding, one that you go through willingly.

J is for Jealousy: How easily do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?

💢 Oikawa doesn’t really get all that jealous because why would he? He’s the best option, so there’s no way you’ll pick anyone else over him, unless it’s to make him jealous, of course.

K is for Kidnap: How would they go about kidnapping their darling? How much do they plan it out?

🔒 Oikawa would prefer not to kidnap you, but he will if needed. He’ll charm you into following him or coming over, then never let you leave.

L is for Love Letters: How would they go about courting or approaching their darling?

💌 Oikawa’s very flirtatious, charming you the best he can. He’s very romantic too, so you just might fall for him!

M is for Mask: Are their true colors drastically different from the way they acted before?

🎭 Oikawa’s a bit more sadistic, but other than that, he’s exactly the same. Charming, flattering, and romantic, along with a little delusion here and there.

N is for Naughty: How would they punish their darling?

🚓 I fully believe Oikawa is a fan of spanking. He may also shorten your chains.

O is for Oppression: How many rights would they take away from their darling? What rights can be earned with time and trust?

📜 Oikawa wants you to be happy, so he does his best to not take away too many rights. Even more rights can be earned with time and good behavior.

P is for Patience: How patient are they with their darling?

🕊️ Oikawa can actually get really impatient at times, expecting you to catch on quickly or do what he wants when he wants it.

Q is for Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?

🏃‍♀️ Oikawa would never recover from that and would blame himself forever. However, I think he’d try to fill the hole in his heart by dating and sleeping around.

R is for Rage: How do they act when angry? How do they calm down?

��� Oikawa gets a little scary, but mostly silent. The only thing that’s not so much fun is that he’ll grab your arm really tightly and drag you around.

S is for Soulmate: What made them fall in love with their darling? How did they first meet? When did they realize they loved their darling?

💍  Oikawa would fall for someone that isn’t like his fangirls- someone who isn’t interested in him or is chubby or not classically pretty. He thinks he’s doing them a favor by liking them and it gives him an ego boost.

T is for Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

😭 He would feel a little bad, but mostly I think he’d be annoyed. So many girls would gladly take your place, you know.

U is for Unique: Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?

👌 Oikawa has a big ego and is therefore delusional in ways that a lot of yanderes aren’t.

V is for Visit: Would they allow anyone else to visit their darling? Do they trust their darling to talk to their loved ones (in person, on the phone, etc.) or not at all?

🧳 Yes, Oikawa would use burner phones and allow you to speak to relatives ONLY after a long time of living with him.

W is for Weakness: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

❌ With a lot of time, you can abuse one of the rights Oikawa gives back to escape. Whether it’s revealing something over the phone or running away during an outside walk, just be careful or you may lose that right forever.

X is for Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over?

🛐 Oikawa gets frustrated when you don’t love him back, as that’s his greatest wish. He’ll get desperate pretty quickly and try to gain your love by any means possible. 

🛐 However, he doesn’t exactly worship you because of his ego.

Y is for Yearning: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?

😍 Oikawa can wait a long time to kidnap you, however he reeks of desperation pretty early on and can’t handle rejection. 

Z is for Zero Tolerance: What is the thing that always makes them snap? What things will they not allow their darling to do under any circumstances?

0️⃣ Rejection makes him snap every time. He knows you’re playing hard to get, but come on! Knock it off already!

[ratcandy]

Do you know how you could make a good characterization of the personality of the characters of ahit for fanfics? I'm planning to make a fanfic but it always gives me that fear that that I can't write the personalities well and they feel silly or OOC 😔

ALRIGHT I've been thinking about this ask since I saw it sometime earlier this morning. And my answer is sorta complicated to bear with me here.

To start with, I just wanna mention that I totally feel/felt this when I started writing fanfics. Actually, I refused to write fanfiction for the longest time purely out of fear over getting characterization wrong. The whole entire idea of writing a character slightly off made me paranoid, and I... honestly still get this sometimes, but not nearly as much. Shit's scary, and it made me so anxious to post fics every time in case some little thing wasn't in-character enough.

But I really, really would not worry yourself too much about this. It's a lot of unnecessary stress. How you characterize should work and make sense to you, and while you'll never fit everyone's individual views on that character, you should have fun, and not stress over something like that.

But, still. To answer your question:

If you'd like to get down-pat how a character is so you can figure out how to write them, it'll come down to a lot of studying dialogue and actions of characters. Picking apart tone and intention and body language and all that fun stuff. Actual hell sometimes but also if you want it to be as close to canon as possible, that's the way to go.

For instance, when I write Cooking Cat, I listened to audio of her voicelines over and over and over again, picking out little ways she spoke and then connecting that with her body language (she uses a lot of fast hand movements while she speaks, for instance). Her voice is light and comfortable, approachable, sweet, etc etc. She sounds like she's talking to a child when she speaks, which she is, and that helps a lot in getting a more maternal feel from her when compared to other characters.

She's also southern. So make sure ya know your southern dialect if you wanna go real hard into it lmao.

Mafia Boss, on the other hand, is incredibly bombastic and loud and I feel bad for his voice actor because this man yells so much his throat has to feel like hell. Also the fact his boss battle takes place in a theatre gave me a lot to work with, as there's a lot to take away from that and what it could mean for his character, even if it's never really touched on in canon. Even as a jar, he's incredibly expressive and constantly moving and STUPID dramatic, so that just worked out for me in how I wanted to write him! Bombastic and egotistical ("The most powerful man you will ever witness" sir you got beat up by a child w/ an umbrella.. to the point u exploded..) and so over the top dramatic it's almost comical.

And that's the thing, honestly! Taking small little elements and just going crazy with what it could mean. Just running with what makes sense to you.

When it comes to AHIT specifically, you have quite a lot of freedom in how you portray characterization for just about anyone; fanon and canon are very separated from each other, and most people don't really notice a difference. I wouldn't worry too much about sticking too firmly to one characterization or another.

Especially in the sense that. if you ask "how do you characterize xyz" to any other person in this fandom, you'll get a different answer every time. Some people prefer Beta Conductor since he actually acts like a grandpa and isn't a self-centered asshat. Other people prefer writing Conductor along the lines of canon and just making him shouty and awful and mean to Hat Kid. It's entirely up to you.

Honestly, AHIT itself is very silly . Writing dialogue for fics of this game has always been fun for me, because they're incredibly silly. The game handles itself in a light-hearted way, despite implications in plot, so I wouldn't worry about being silly funny goofy if you want too!

TL;DR: AHIT characters all boast very exaggerated personalities, and fanon and canon separate so hard they're practically not the same thing anymore. I wouldn't worry too much about writing a personality "correctly," as different views of a character will appeal to different people. Just write what makes sense to you! That's what I do! N I hope this all made sense it's been a very long day for me ahdksjghksjh I dunno how coherent I am

[ruminate88]

TikTok keeps saying “Oh they’ll get justice it’s coming” 😢 but don’t you want to forgive them instead?

So okay… I’ve experienced “Betrayal Trauma”. I’ve been exploited by my “friend” Jake, he posted all my private photos on Twitter… he humiliated me and I was so ashamed of myself!! 😭😭😭 (I regret even sending Jake the photos but I trusted him and I had to accept what I had done but I also chose to let Jake go. I did not request punishment for him)

I’ve been ghosted by a guy named Cody, whom I believed was the most special person in my whole world!! I adored Cody but yet poof. He walked away without a goodbye. It was the biggest slap in the face for me. I did NOT understand how he could just walk away from me like that. However, I had to accept his choice and also walk away. I carried a burden of that for years. I felt cold and isolated after Cody but I could not change anything about the whole situation but rather understand Cody has internal issues and emotional barriers that prevents him from healthy relationships and it saddens me for him.

Finally, I was with a guy for over a year named Andrew and I believed I was falling so in love with him but then I caught him cheating with a friend of mine, he blamed me for it and couldn’t say he loved me. I broke up with him and he was a robot. NO EMOTIONS. Just blank. Then weeks after, tells me he “pretended all his feelings for me” basically telling me he lied about everything and nothing he said he felt for me originally was real. Sure… that was a gut punch!! A knife stabbed into my back 😭 That caused me to try to end my life 3 times. I was the worst version of myself and hated myself. I still couldn't stop loving Andrew though because love is sooo real. I didn’t want to hurt Andrew just because he was hurting me. 😔💔❤️‍🩹 (it’s possible Andrew also has emotional barriers)

DESPITE IT ALL… My feelings and love was genuine. I loved Andrew and wanted him to be okay; even while he’s inflicting pain on me. I don’t want evil done to him even if I believe he caused me great pain.

I believe in order to have forgiveness or mercy in your life, you have to be able to give it. I believe you reap what you sow or “get what you give”. I do believe unless you have forgiveness, you’ll get what’s coming to you. That’s super scary 😢😓 I am not perfect. I’ve made my share of mistakes and messes! I don’t want to reap my bad actions. I constantly ask for forgiveness from God, myself and others. I pray my exes want forgiveness and I want to give it to them ❤️‍🩹

Forgiving my exes doesn’t take away all the pain I feel from them and it does not change the past but it sets the path to a brighter future. I don’t trust my exes but I still love them. I do believe Andrew and Cody lied to me and were fake with me but my love was real. Andrew may have pretended to be sweet when we met so I would give him my nudes and I am sorry I gave him my nudes. I didn’t respect myself back then but I still care about his well-being. I think of both him and Cody all the time.

as for Jake, I hope good for him too. I don’t think of him as much cuz I long forgave him and decided I can’t ever trust his friendship but he’s totally free. Be out of my hair and just go enjoy yourself. Have a very happy and healthy life!!!

I wish the same for Andrew and Cody. Be safe, healthy and happy. I pray you fall in love and it’s real. I pray you have happy and healthy families. I miss you both every day and I’m sad to be without you both but it’s ok. I’m growing each day and I hope you are too ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 sure to get an apology sounds good in theory but only if you truly understand it and mean it. Don’t apologize just for my sake. I want it to be from your hearts cuz you both truly have made changes in your lives. I also apologize for anything I had done to you or by you. I’m sorry my love was not enough for either of you I really did try and give it my all ❤️‍🩹 (hope you realize how hard I tried for you both)

[sungbeam]

BFF I’M BACK LITRALLY THE DAY AFTER AND BOY DO I HAVE UPDATES FOR YOU 🤭🤭🤭

1. I STARTED OUTLINING AND DRAFTING MY FIRST FIC EHEHEHE AND SUPER EXCITED TO START WRITING IT 🤭

2. I FINISHED READING [REDACTED] AND I THOUGHT ABT THE MOST HEART WRENCHING, TUMMY CHURNING, EYE BAWLING PLOT AND TBH IF I DO GET SO INCLINED TO STICK WITH IT THEN IT MIGHT COME OUT BEFORE THE FIRST THOUGHT OF FIC LMAO

3. I NEED TO KNOW ABT ‘A STUDY IN MONSTERS’ RIGHT NEOWWWWW 😫🙏 CAUSE I JUST THOUGHT OF LIKE 5 DIFFERENT GENRES BASED OFF THE VIBES/p

Ok time for a more calmer vibe LMAO

For the first fic I genuinely think that any member would be suitable for the ML? And so I decided to let you (my fav author and parasocial bestie) to bequeath which member this fic shall belong to 🤭 (uhhhh spoilers/insight: dream realm(?) but not in a soulmate way, angst, possibly abrupt/open ending but also happy in a way, v fluffy moments at the same time tho, manic pixie dream boy???)

And finally after adoring the movie I decided to go read [redacted] and LORD WHY DID IT HURT 39475629 TIMES AS MUCH AS THE MOVIE LIKE

Movie: light work, no reaction

Book: oUUuU, okay, its got a lil kick 😨

But I got an au perfectly inspired by this in a modern retelling typa way ig SPOILER ALERT THERE IS A LOVE CORNER, CHANHEE AND SANGYEON OR YOUNGHOON(???) we WILL be getting a lil Kevin up in here tho TRUST

And tbh it could go in 2 different directions rn but I’ll have to see which one will get a conclusive ending but the vision is definitely there dw

And DAMNNNNNN I didn’t know there were so many WIPs/nm/p like I know I got a lil snippet of 3 in the past but with each drop of a new WIP I get even more excited 😭 just seeing your creative process is motivating to me lolol and the banners AHHHHHHHH IT REALLY DID GIVE “graphic design is my passion 🤭” YUHHH YUHHHH

but wait also looking at the list again I wanna see more into the ‘bones (orig.)’ and ‘bones (remixed)’ 😳

OH AND BEFORE I FORGET TO MENTIONNNNNNN that Spiderman!Sunwoo and Spiderman!Eric did have me REEEEEEELINGGGGG esp since I finally got the chance to watch across the spiderverse PHEWWWW Spiderman!Eric is just so cheeky, so himbo, so smoochable like damn I do think he is capable of wanting to attempt the Toby Maguire upside-down kiss but then getting too nervous/excited/antsy that he lets go of his web and crashes on the ground AJNDJBVINWI

AND SUNWOO AS STARLORD WOULD ALSO WORK CAUSE HE REALLY HAS THAT SELF-DEPRECATING HUMOR THING GOING ON and then his cheesyness too omg I think Sunwoo is perfectly corny to be starlord 😫🤞

AND ALSO MY ATEEZ BIAS ISSSSSSSSSSSSSS -drumroll please- 🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁

Wooyoung! 🥳🥳🥳

He’s just so sweet and caring and hot and beautiful and hardworking and loving and he’s so, he’s so, he’s so- ☹️☹️☹️☹️

Yeah, I love Woo with my whole being 😔🙏

Kk that’s it for nowwwwww talk to you soon!

- Toodles!, 🌷anon 

HI BEST FRAN WELCOME BACK 🤩✊🏼

OMG THE DRAFTING HAS BEGUN???? LESGO????? I AM SO EXCITED FOR U AND SUPER EXCITED ALSO TO SEE UR JOURNEY AND THE FINAL OUTCOME 👀✨

HELLO WAIT what is [REDACTED] 🤨 i need to know for research purposes and cuz im a nosy mfker and cuz i also scoured thru our prev interactions and don't think we talked abt it previously 🤨

AHHHHSHAHHAHAH A STUDY IN MONSTERS IS COMING RIGHT UP !!

ITS LIKE BEAUTY AND THE BEAST BUT EVERYBODY'S A BEAST ???? well, the main cast is all considered some kind of "monster," but ofc, the real monsters r the humans who have belittled them and villainized them. but reader basically has like,,, medusa powers??? and chanhee has like a demon trapped inside him and younghoon is like fae but THE SCARY fae you feel??? but any who, i've gotten some back story done and it's not meant to become like a 30k one shot or anything; i was trying to aim for it to be kind of like the length of simple gifts, but we'll see where i go w it !!

OKAY BUT WAIT U SHOULD TELL ME WHAT U THOUGHT OF WHEN U SAW THE TITLE CUZ IM VERY CURIOUS !!

okok i have so much to say abt the next part of ur ask 😭😭 1.) BEQUEATH 💀💀💀💀 2.) hello stop that rn flattery will get u everything u desire 🤧😌 3.) MANIC PIXIE DREAM BOY AHAH OMG IM SO HYPED 4.) eric, juyeon sounds abt right 😻😻

OKAY BUT LIKE books > their movie adaptations tbh lsnfkenfk there is so much that books can show that movies can't, and also vice versa !! but WTF DYM BY LOVE CORNER (´Д⊂ヽ GIRLIE BESTIE HONEY WHAT IS A LOVE CORNER 😭😭😭 w chanhee sangyeon younghoon AND beloved kevin too???? my /guy/ do u want me to cry 😃 wait don't answer that—💀 omg i feel like i almost never have an idea of what an ending looks like UNTIL I GET THERE LMFAOOOO like i really don't care abt endings cuz i can't get to the ending if there is not story substance, u feel 😭😭😭 but im sure the ✨right ending✨ will appear in ur horizons as u go forth !!

KANDKDNDKN i had to keep quite a few wips off the list 😭💀 it's embarrassing akdnkdnf BUT im so glad that seeing my process motivates u TT that's very cool to hear and i also like talking abt the writing process a lot so thank u for feeding into my self esteem /hj AHHH SHUSH UR GONNA MAKE ME BLUSH I LOVE MAKING BANNERS SO THANK U 😚 im too tech grandma to use canva or photoshop so i feel like a lot of mine r a little simpler and more minimal which isn't bad ofc but yeah, thanks so much :'))) BRO i wish i could go into graphic design skfnkdndk

OHOH the bones orig and remix ver LMAOOO

both versions r meant to be like murder mysteries yk?? and they're both set in time settings where it's not quite the future, but im also not a historian so they're also not completely historically accurate T-T they just take place in the past LMFAO but the original ver is more like dark academia centered where the murder takes place at this elitist academy/boarding school in the middle of nowhere, and reader is like a "charity case" whose uncle took her under his wing after her parents were murdered or something, and changmin is like studying to become a physician and they both get looped into the investigation. i have a some written of that ver but it's not very interesting 💀

AND recently like two days ago 💀 i went back to one of the ideas i had for the banner before i started writing the dark academia one (wow that's such a long sentence). anyways, said idea was to take place in like ,, not a school 🤡 but idk if you've read the stalking jack the ripper series but it's based on that !! AND a little bit of six of crows too 🤡 it's not fantastical or anything, but changmin is like a doctor in the lower end and someone's been out here murdering people and shit. changmin is also kind of inspired by daredevil and kaz brekker, but i'll have to get into that some other time 💀

that was one of my favorite parts lol i think this ver of bones has captured a bit more of my interest than the other ver? tho, i would love to see where the other ver went, just cuz i already put so much thought into the storyline and characters and headcanons and back stories, etc.

AHHHHHH YES I AGREE ABT SPIDEY!ERIC I LOVE SPIDEY ERIC he's just ,, yk Just Some Guy™ LMAO so he's a perf spiderboy !!! he's kind of modeled after tom holland's spiderman and sunwoo after miles morales ofc, but eric would TOTALLY try the upside down kiss and fail miserably 😭😭😭 but i think he's def the type to keep trying UNTIL he gets it down 🤤😋 and just crafting the different earths btwn sunwoo and eric was just so much fun cuz i was trying to figure out what i wanted each universe to have and ksnfkdndkkd ANYWAYS . STAR LORD SUNWOO HAS ME REELING CUZ LIKE AKDNKDMD i NEEDED this man to be w the raccoon it just didn't feel right if he wasn't. like he was either gonna be nova or starlord, and i feel like the only other boy besides sunwoo who can do star lord justice is hyunjae, but he's already IRON MAN lol

OMG UR A WOOYOUNG STAN??? that actually feels so right 😭😭😭 wooyo be snatching up hearts ALL OVER THE PLACE lately 😭🤧 like damn, get it bro 🥂 but i totally agree, he's such a sweetheart and so funny and so talented and just sknfkendn mwah wanna give him a big smooch !

WHEW what a long recap/catch up reply 🤣 but anyways, hope ur doing well as always 😚 love u lots, my honey bunches of pollinated petals 💖

[raksh-writes]

<beware, self reflection post incoming>

So. This year has been a tough one.

Feels like it has been tougher than all of those before, ngl, but it's hard to tell how much of it is skeved memory and how much just how strong those feelings are today. But it has been an awful year -- the first half was kind of alright, but the second? Yeah, everything went downhill there.

I slid into one of the worst depression holes ever. I quit my job two months ago, because it has been contributing strongly to that, but remained unemployed and stressed out of my mind because of that and feeling completely listless since. Unmoored. With no purpose whatsoever. It's... not a good place to be. On top of that, I got real sick with covid this week and barely started feeling somewhat better today. Guess it's a suficiently shitty end to an awful year, huh? What hurts, too, is the heart breaking writer's block I got in that second half of the year too.

I wrote barely anything this year, posted even less. Got very disconnected from that part of myself that carried me through the rough times of the previous years -- and maybe that's why it feels worse than ever now, when I had at least that joy back then but it feels like it's been taken from me. It's... rough.

I've always been in the middle of something before too. Always going back to classes, to uni, got a job last year, but now? Well...

I did start taking steps to crawl back to life. Trying to at least. Baby steps.

So, I wanna make a list of those baby steps. The ones Ive already started taking, the ones Im gonna soon, the ones I wanna try to make. Make a path out of them, maybe. So:

Im back to therapy, that's good. Working through new and old stuff, it's definitely helping, but... there's a lot more to work through than I imagined. It's okay, though. I can already tell some of it helped, it's been a good helping hand in digging myself out of this hole - or at least starting to dig myself out.

Im also starting an internship at the job office on monday (hopefully most of my symptoms are gonna be gone by then 🤞). It's a 6 months one, not as well paid as a full job, of course, but it's experience, it's a start, and I can always search for smth different in the meantime. And it's stability a dearly need.

I want to go back to studying too. I found I miss it a lot, having that goal, broadening my mind, etc. I wanna sign for some post-diploma library studies classes in the city where I intern, near where I live. It might not open up, but if it doesn’t, I think I'll try going back for actual Masters. It's something Im actually sort of looking forward too, even if it makes me a lil' anxious.

Been idly thinking about maybe going back to the city. Trying to live on my own again. Study, find a job to pay for it. Might not be quite possible, though, with prices of pretty much everything going up to 3x what they were and still going up. It's an idea for the later part of the year, though, if Id actually try going for it.

Maybe the most obvious one -- I want to write again. And post, too. I miss interacting with readers. Seeing that someone Gets it. That it brings people joy. I miss it a lot. These last months, even if I managed to write a little, I didn't even had the drive to post. No drive for anything, really. Feels like death to a creative soul 😔 So I want to write. And I want to share it. Im still thinking of my Beauty and the Beast Voiles AU -- I have a couple chapters of it done, maybe I could start posting and see where it goes, even if I dont manage to finish it? Then I got obsessed with VegasPete, an amazing ship I recommend to all that like Voiles or just enemies to lovers! I even managed to write some lil bits of them, some I Could post even, but I can’t get myself to... maybe it's a goal for the near future. To break through that block and engage with new fandom beyond just reading and commenting, but trying to contribute some of my own. It's scary, but it might do me good? It'd be nice..

I want to try and do more typesetting this year too, and properly, since Ive been thinking I could maybe do it part time in the future, do a project here and there, but for that I'd have to polish up my skills. Maybe do some smaller projects, that wont take me months to finish like the fics I did lately.

Have my eyes peeled for opportunities and have the courage to reach for them. I want to do library studies and Id love to work in a library one day, but its hard to get into one, so I gotta have my eyes open for any possibility. Or working in a book store, Id love that too. Anything with books, tbh. So, be on the look out. And work on having the courage to reach for it and battling down my anxiety.

Go out and meet with friends I haven't seen in a long time. I think Ive isolated myself a bit too much this year and it definitely hasn’t helped. So I need to try more to get out of the easy, lazy way and go out to meet people.

And that's it, for now, I think. Goals for the new year? Maybe, but being in the place I am, baby steps feel better. Im sure Im not the only one that had an awful year and if you're reading this, feeling the same, I see you. Can’t promise it's gonna get better, but we gotta have hope and try taking those baby steps towards making it better. So, Im not gonna go into elaborate wishes, Im just gonna be simple.

I wish you all good health, because it's so important and yet we don’t appreciate it enough, and also wish all of us courage, especially those struggling. To reach for what we want. To reach for what we fear. To get out of our comfort zones, one baby step at a time. To put ourselves out there. To win over our anxieties. To live.

Im slowly, very slowly, trying to take those baby steps. To crawl back to life. It's hard. And slow. But I hope it's gonna be worth it. It's gotta be better than the misery of last months. So, that's what I hope for in the next year. Taking the baby steps to a better future.

Happy New Year, everyone, and I hope y'all have a lovely last day of 2022 💗

[thesecrimsonstrings-if]

can u tell us about bram, please don't give us daddy issues too

i– well i never– okay fine, no daddy issues this time 😔 i'm sorry but i usually tend to project when it comes to these matters 💀

abraham is a hardworking artist who had an interest in the occult during his college years. he wasn't losing in the ‘good looks’ department but his interests were a little wacky for him to get a girlfriend. it was then when he met hel sitting on a bench at the park near his dorm. he didn't know what compelled him to talk to her that night, but he did and the rest is history.

bram would describe her as being ‘hauntingly beautiful, yet a little scary’ when he first meets her. hel definitely had that goth girl aesthetic going on in the 90s, which was also one of the reasons why bram was so taken by her. she, on the other hand, was taken aback at how he noticed her so easily despite her clearly using glamour to seem as uninteresting as possible. she'd then correctly deduce that bram had the gift of seeing through the glamour. he'd always visit the same spot at the same time again and again, just to meet her and even hel fell in love with his awkward charm, humour and personality.

they started dating soon after and hel would eventually reveal her ‘real’ form to bram, despite being very scared of what his reaction might be. will he find her repulsive? will he die of fear and shock? will she have to erase his memories, and ultimately erase herself from his life? fortunately, the period of shock lasted for a few seconds before bram just told her that she was beautiful in whatever form she took. the thing is that he actually caught brief flickers of the other half of her face whenever she had her guard down. and since abraham could already see through glamour he wasn't completely in the dark about it.

they never really got married but hel gave birth to the MC shortly before she had to return to helheim. because of her frequent visits to midgard and ‘mingling’ with humans, her realm was in utter disorder and odin had to eventually step up to give her a stern warning. he knew that she was even considering giving up godhood to be with someone—a human, no less—to the point that a lot of gods were getting worried.

many asgardians were even debating on killing off abraham and their child and trapping their souls so they would go to neither of the three realms of the dead. odin was the one who was firmly against this notion and had showed up personally to shut it down. although, he did warned her that she could never visit her lover or her child ever again. odin's kindness and warning would cause hel to firmly remain neutral during ragnarok, neither supporting nor opposing the gods. this would be the catalyst which would result in the gods and the giants turning to her child, expecting them to be on their side when ragnarok comes since their mother is an unpredictable piece in the chessboard.

[obeymehasinfluncedmythoughts]

Brothers Scare MC

I feel like my stuff hasn't been as good as it used to be?? Idk. Maybe I've lost my touch 😔.

But anyways thanks for 700 followers??? Like wow??? 😳🥰❤

Lucifer

He doesn't even recognize what he's doing until he notices you preforming some sort of physical sign of distress.

Lucifer will have to take a step back, breath, and collect himself before he continues.

He's afraid to proceed without properly choosing his words.

Obviously speaking without thought has put you in a spot of fear. He doesn't want you to be scared of him.

That is, infact, the opposite of what he wants.

Lucifer prefers you to treat him like an equal. He desires you to speak to him like you would any normal human.

But the horns and the wings makes that hard, he understands.

He'll try to comfort you, and he will most definitely apologize, but truthfully he doesn't know how to change.

Mammon

Mammon, for the most part, just isn't scary.

He's a goofball. The one who tends to be scared of people, not the one people are scared of.

But he isn't afraid of getting out of hand when he feels you are being threatened.

This often ends whatever issues has arisen, but it also spawns a brand new one with you.

He might be so caught up in the fact that he "saved" you that he doesn't notice you're actually afraid of him.

Cue one of his brothers yelling at him to stop his gloating and look at what he did.

Mammon will then proceed to overwhelm you with apologizes. He won't acknowledge it later, but for the time being he'll grovel.

Leviathan

Leviathan doesn't really think he has the capability to be scary.

Sure, maybe to Mammon, but to everyone else he's just an annoying otaku.

He won't recognize when he's scaring you. Not unless you make it obvious.

From there he doesn't really know what to do. How does someone apologize in a situation like this?

Levi will get embarrassed. He'll blush, and frantically search for something to say.

Seeing a scary, demon of hell become a anxious apologetic mess might actually calm you down a bit.

(It could even make you laugh).

Satan

He does have a better grip on his anger then his brothers, but that doesn't mean he isn't frightening, it's just that he doesn't show it as much.

When he does though, he's possibly worse then everyone else combined.

Satan is pure rage. He's anger and hatred and everything that fuels the worst of humanity.

He can be unnecessarily cruel and rude, it's almost like talking to a different person.

Won't even notice what he's done until the next day, when you go out of your way to avoid him and he's on the receiving end of his brother's dirty looks.

He'll apologize in a very formal manner. Brings flowers and admits that things got out of hand. It's all incredibly straight forward. Almost to the point you don't even regonzie what he's saying.

Expects you not to forgive him.

Asmodeus

Asmo is scary in a "Devil Wears Prada" kinda way.

Except he's a literal devil wearing Prada, and you can't tell if that's better or worse.

(Probably worse, based upon the transformation Asmo undergoes that is definitely not in the movie)

Asmodeus will make threats that sound so real. Things you believe he can and will do based upon the pure bitterness emanating from him.

He'll realize once he's calmed down how "bitchy" (his way of putting it) he may have been, and he'll apologize.

Responses vary depending on his mood and how you react though.

Beelzebub

He kinda goes blind to his surrondings when he enters his "rage state".

There aren't many things that could have set him off, just food and you basically, but either way the results are always horribly destructive/loud as hell.

Beelzebub takes a while to calm down too, and he doesn't just stop for anyone. So whilst you're shaking in fear, you and Belphie are going to have to talk him off his rage high.

He'll apologize right after. Like, as soon as he gets his wits about him.

(Might talk like a father apologizing to his kid. I mean like, he admits his faults but kinda avoids the whole promise that he will change lmao. Beel definitely knows it's his greatest flaw but baby doesn't think it's something he can fix.)

Belphegor

Watching Belphegor get angry is like watching someone descend into madness.

The last time this happened he literally killed you. So, it makes sense for you to be freaked out.

He won't calm down either, not unless someone gets seriously hurt.

The good thing is he is quick to catch himself. He'll always seperate from the issue before things get too bad. When he doesn't though, he will apologize.

His apologizes are usually always the same. He begs for your forgiveness, and Hope's you will still stay by him.

(Honestly boy has a lot of guilt after what happened the first time)

[loiswolf]

Day 21 June 8 Beauly - Carrbridge 65kms

Day 21 June 8 Beauly - Carrbridge 65kms

I thoroughly enjoyed my 4 days off in Beauly. It’s a gorgeous little town and I was staying just a short distance out in a granny flat off to the left of this house. Yes, you can see it in this photo.

I wasn’t too sick at all but just chilled out with my Kindle, Netflix and the multitude of channels on the TV. I had my own little lounge/dining room, a spare bedroom to spread all my stuff out in, a fridge and microwave and best of all, a washing machine and dryer. I was able to wash all my clothes properly and most importantly my extra filthy, disgusting backpack. It’s beautifully clean now but probably won’t stay that way for long. There was also an outdoor area where I enjoyed sitting in the sun a couple of times and a clothesline for the backpack.

I didn’t get many photos today as I was stuck on the motorway a lot of the time and then it rained when I was off it later. I was unable to insert these photos of Ullapool and the view from the ferry as we sailed in last Saturday. Tumblr can be fussy sometimes! So here they are

I was still not feeling 100% this morning but I had booked Shirley in with Duncan the cranky bike mechanic in Inverness as well as the hotel here in Carrbridge. I also had to vacate my lovely granny flat. 😔

The ride to Inverness was pretty easy. Mostly downhill but unfortunately I had to ride the motorway for a while. Usually I am not worried about cycling motorways but the Scottish ones are particularly scary. There are barely any shoulders and the cars all seem to go very fast. I’ve seen other cyclists on them so it must be legal but as soon as I spotted a side road I exited.

There was a big bridge coming up so I made sure I rejoined the main road for that

My sense of direction is still not great so I just followed the signs to the town centre and was surprised when I noticed the train station. Hmmm, didn’t realise I was coming in that way. Easy to locate the bike shop from there so it was up the steep hill to the bike shop. Now Duncan just proves my theory that the friendly, smooth, good-looking bike mechanics are not to be trusted. The grumpy monosyllabic unfriendly ones, just like Duncan are the real bike whisperers. He instantly told me he didn’t have time to do anything but replace the chain and cassette. I just smiled and bowed and backed out of there and went to find coffee.

He was supposed to call me when he finished but since I’m still not sure of the prefix to my Australian phone number he couldn’t ( I gave him the wrong number) so I returned after about 90 minutes. He had done a whole bunch of things including the chain and cassette so I paid him a small fortune and headed off to Carrbridge.

Once again I hit the motorway. I tried  to stay as far to the left as possible and crawled up a long gradual hill for the first 6kms. I knew that this part off the ride was going to be mostly uphill so I just clicked back through by perfectly calibrated gears and took my time. The view wasn’t too bad from up near the top

Things got even trickier when the roadwork began and I was hopping all over the place trying to stay out of the way.

Finally I saw a cycle route sign on the other side of the road. It was route 7 again! Pretty sure I followed that trail from Lismore to Fort William. I guess that’s the other end. Anyway it was blissful on the quiet back road and track after the busy motorway.

With about 15kms to go I came to Tomatin which had a lovely big cafe/ general store. This is the view from the window

I stayed there for quite a while because check in was not until 5pm. However when I came out it was raining, I knew from the weather report that it wasn’t just a shower. Thinking of my compromised immune system I donned my clown pants, put up Pinky’s rain hood under my helmet ( it’s really snug like that) and took off. Again, the path was very pleasant and only had one awkward gate. ( I noticed in one of the mirrors in my granny flat that there are a series of holes down the back of my lower leg, probably a result of getting through one of these gates)

Soon I was approaching my destination. I had to turn back to get a photo of this

What a claim to fame!!

There were a lot of tourist taking photos of this too

Even though I was early I was invited to stand in front of the fire for a while then was escorted to my room by the lovely Garth. He then took Shirley off to the bike shed for the night. The room is tiny but quite adequate. No kitchen so I’ll probably eat in the hotel. Weather forecast for tomorrow is 18°. That’s a heat wave here!