#the beginning of Levi's insomnia

[leviraaaaaa]

Levi nation, how we feeling today? 😔🫶

“What am I to you, Levi?”

The question was sudden, soft words reaching through the silence that had been until then. Levi looked up.

“What?”

You tilted your head, stretched on his sofa. You laid on it so casually, with your head resting on your folded arms, leaning against the armrest, one would think you were right at home. In your hands, you held a book, but he knew it had been on the same page for a while and that you hadn't been reading a word from it. No. He knew because your eyes had been on him instead.

“What am I to you?” You repeated when he didn't answer.

He looked at you as you watched him with a subtle eagerness behind your eyes. He was unable to form a reply. Why did you always say the most unexpected shit out of nowhere? You were so casual about it too, looking at him as if you merely asked him how his day was.

“What the fuck.” He muttered.

“What?”

He sighed, leaning back as he closed his pinched his eyebrows together. He chose this, he reminded himself for the hundredth time in his life, he brought this upon himself when he picked the most infuriating cadet to be his second. It was his fault and no one else's, that everyday he had to tolerate you and your ridiculousness. Why the hell had he done that?

“Stop with the stupid fucking questions.” He groaned irritatedly.

“Maybe if you answered them, I'd leave you alone.”

“Did you come here to distract me?”

You laughed softly. “Am I distracting you?”

“Don't think I haven't felt you staring at me.”

Your face showed no sign of embarrassment whatsoever at the very true accusation, instead there was amusement in your eyes. You leaned in, determined.

“Do you like me Levi?”

It's the way you looked at him. You knew. Of course you knew. He blinked, his chest suddenly tight. Suddenly, the room was suffocating. He looked anywhere but you.

“..in what way? Because you as a person is pretty shit."

But no, you see right through him. There was disappointment in your face. You sighed. “Liar.” You looked away from him, slumping back on the couch and draping an arm over your face. “What a shit fucking liar you are, Lev." You muttered out loudly. "I'm making this so easy for you. So fucking easy.”

He didn't have to look at you to know what you had meant.

Coward.

It was so easy, wasn't it? All he had to do is admit. To tell you yes. But he couldn't. Not even that.

“What if I die in tomorrow's expedition? How would you feel then? Knowing you had the chance and you didn't take it?” Your voice was casual, but there was reproach underneath. Levi flinched. It was a very real possibility. You hit right on the nail.

“Bull.” His expression darkened. “Don't say shit like that. We aren't even supposed to interact with titans.”

That was literally not the point, you thought annoyedly. But of course. Levi, the king of avoiding confrontation. What were you expecting? No, you hadn't expected much better from him in the first place, did you?

Your voice was tired when you spoke again.

You looked so exhausted. There were no expectations in your eyes. It was your way of giving him a way out, he realized, to let him know you didn't expect an answer from him. That he could just remain silent if he wanted to.

“Are you ever going to tell me?”

And he wanted to.

But he looked at you and felt something tight in his throat.

You pushed your hand off your face, sitting up to look at him with surprise. You gazed blankly for a moment. That was as close as a confession you'd get.

“...Maybe.” He murmured finally, his voice so quiet you could barely hear him. But your eyes widened. “Someday.”

You smiled.

—

“Someday.” You echoed.

Levi was sleeping.

Somehow he was aware he was sleeping.

There was a blunt ache somewhere in his chest. But he couldn't remember being hurt. His face felt dry, lips chapped, his eyes heavy. He was asleep, but he still felt so tired.

“Do you like me, Levi?”

He stirred, his consciousness returning back to him slowly as his mind registered the voice. He knew that voice. He knew those words. Like a twisted echo of something he couldn’t escape. A feeling of familiar sinister dread crept to his stomach.

Don't look. He tells himself. Don't look. If he didn't look, you'd go away.

He does anyway.

You're back on his couch, grinning slyly at him. When he looked at you, you’re smiling at him, eyes twinkling with amusement as if you were sharing a joke with him. An inside joke that only the two of you will understand.

You were sprawled on your stomach, the way one would to sunbathe. With both your arms on the armrest, you had your chin resting atop them, staring at him with those eyes. As though you belonged there, as though you’d never left. It was such a casual scene. Such a normal scene. Yet, he felt nauseous.

There was a vacancy in his chest, a suffocating emptiness. He hated it when you did that.

What made it worse you didn't even expect a fucking answer. You knew him too well for that. You came here every night for no other reason than to entertain yourself with his helplessness, like a sick, twisted little game.

“Must you do this every night?”

He asked. He could hear his own pleading tone, like he was begging you. He knew how pathetic he sounded, how miserable he must have looked. But you were grinning at him like he said something funny, it was such an obvious answer after all.

“Were you ever gonna tell me?” You asked him, grinning, like it was so fucking funny.

Fuck. Fuck.

“I would've.” His head hurt. He felt hollow. “You know I would've.”

“You didn't though.”

“I would've.” He repeated. Yet, he was doubtful of his own words, Would he have?

“Someday.” You hummed, reminding him, taunting him. It was a knife to his chest. He couldn't breathe.

Someday. The accusation was obvious underneath your casual tone. Someday. Just not today. Not then. Not now. Not ever.

“You're not being fair.”

“Oh.” You sighed softly, almost mocking him. “But Levi, when were you ever fair to me?”

He shook his head, your words creeping inside his brain like a parasite. “Leave. Please.”

You let out a laugh, like it was the funniest thing you'd ever heard. Then you pushed yourself off the couch, standing up straight. You took your time, stretching your arms lazily like you had all day in the world, shooting him a soft smile. Then with every step you approached him with, he could feel his heart sinking. A little. A little. A little. More.

He let out a shaky breath, squeezing his eyes shut. He knew exactly the words you would say next. Every night. It was the same every night. And there was nothing he could do to stop it.

“But I'm not here.”

Your voice was soft beside his ear. A haunting whisper. He felt your fingers trailing the edge of his jaw, tilting his face towards you. Your hands slid down his neck and he shivered, opening his eyes to meet yours, all your playfulness gone. Now you just looked sad.

You were so close. So fucking close. It took everything in him to not reach out, to not pull you in. He was stiff, pressed against the back off his chair, trying his best to put distance between. But it was no use. He was only a man, after all.

“Why are you doing this to yourself, Levi?” You said sadly, his name was soft in your lips, you said it like it was so fragile. “Why don't you let me go?”

“Wake up, Levi.” You told him. “Wake up.”

Your next words were a warm whisper against his lips, just a breath away.

And when he opened his eyes, he was staring at the dark ceiling of his bedroom.

9 months, 2 weeks and 4 days since the day he'd lost you. 9 months, 2 weeks and 4 days of sleepless nights. It had been 9 months, 2 weeks and 4 days of dreaming about you.

[mysicklove]

AREN'T YOU JUST THE CUTEST LITTLE THING? (intro)

Welcome to my first kinktober, my loves! I've decided to make my own list of kinks for this year, so it will not line up with the official kinktober 2023 prompt list. I had a lot of fun with this, so I hope you all enjoy!

Fandoms included: mha, kny, bllk, jjk, aot

SIT. STAY. PAW. GOOD BOY! (general info)

ALL of these will be Dom! Reader. So, most of the kinks will be the character on the receiving end. I participate in aging characters up. Reader will either be: Gn! or AFAB (+Fem). It will be mentioned in warnings. Each fic will be released at 8 AM PST time and will be reblogged twice a day (most likely.)

My tag for this event is, #Barkforme!

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OCTOBER 1st | PET PLAY w/ Izuku Midoriya and Katsuki Bakugou

☆ BARK FOR ME! cw: gn! reader, collars/leashes, dog ears, reader forces katsuki to bark, reader is purposefully mean to izuku, mlm (they are forced to makeout), hand jobs, slight orgasm control, tons of sappy nicknames 5.0k

OCTOBER 2nd | SUB SPACE + MOMMY KINK w/ Satoru Gojo

☆ FIX ME cw: Fem? reader (no pronouns just use of names: mommy and mama), unreleastic portrayal of sub space, mentions of BDSM (rough treatment, degradation,whips, mistress/master use), safeword use (at the end), lots of cooing, Gojo unable to think properly, praise, comfort, clingy/needy Gojo 2.2k

OCTOBER 3rd | ORAL FIXATION + FACE FUCKING w/ Rin Itoshi

☆ BAD MOUTHING cw: reader is fem coded, gagging, lots of drool and saliva, unrealistic potrayal of oral fixations, cringey dialogue in beginning, tears, reader spits in his mouth, cumming in pants, biting 2.2k

OCTOBER 4th | SENSORY DEPRIVATION w/ Kyojuro Rengoku

☆ LIGHT AS A FEATHER cw: gn! reader, blindfold/gag/earmuffs, feather usage, ice usage, nonverbal safe word discussed (not used), implied wax play, crying, begging/pleading, reader is a liar. 2.7k

OCTOBER 5th | SPANKING w/ Eren Yeager

☆ MAYBE NEXT TIME cw: gn! reader, crying, Eren trying to be good, cursing, mean reader, slightly sadistic reader, handjob/hand humping, restraints, Eren is a good and then a brat for a bit 1.6k

OCTOBER 6th | CUCKHOLDING w/ Seishiro Nagi and Reo Mikage

OCTOBER 7th | FEMINIZATION w/ Yuuji Itadori

☆ PRETTY GIRL cw: gn! reader, men in skirts/feminine clothing, yuji being shy and embarrassed the entire time, teasing reader, praise, reader refers to him as a "she" and "her" throughout the entire thing, handjob 1.7k

OCTOBER 8th | TOYS w/ Giyuu Tomioka

☆ LEARNING EXPERIENCE cw: , gn! reader, modern-day au, vibrators, bullet vibrator, anal play, nipple clams, vibrating cock ring, reader lowkey sadistic, safeword mentioned, giyuu crying/sobbing, 2.1k

OCTOBER 9th | CORRUPTION w/ Tanjiro Kamado

☆ EXPLORATION cw: afab! + fem! reader, hand jobs, tanjiro has sexual fantasies, reader is a tease/has experience, mentions of pee, tanjiro fondles boobs lol, brief mention of sexual harassment 3.6k

OCTOBER 10th | SOMINOPHILIA w/ Levi Ackerman

☆ DREAM A LITTLE DREAM OF ME cw: gn! reader, nightmares + insomnia mentioned, oral (m! receiving), handjob in dreams, implied age gap, set in around season 2 timeline? im kinda forgetting which season erwin was in... kissing..lots of kissing, reader being puppy coded and levi is sick in love 3.2k

OCTOBER 11th | COCK WARMING + NIPPLE PLAY w/ Suguru Geto

☆ SIT BACK AND RELAX! cw: afab!/fem! reader, reader gets called "ma'am" once, geto nipples are abused :/, bottom reader, creampie, reader is a bit of a pervert, nipple piercings mention, begging and crying 2.5k

OCTOBER 12th | SOUNDING w/ Keigo Takami

☆ SO FULL cw: gn! reader, sounding, HEAVY sub/dom spaces, hints of sado/masochism, mentions of anal fingering, keigo crying and twitching, cursing, pee/urine mentioned throughout 1.9k

OCTOBER 13th | DEGRADATION + COCK STEPPING w/ Douma

OCTOBER 14th | LEG HUMPING w/ Ryomen Sukuna

☆ ONE TIME THING cw: Gn! Reader, Yuuji and reader r dating (Yuuji x reader), lots of threatening of death/small violent acts,, reader slaps him, sukuna has 2 cocks in his true form, heavy power dynamics, mention of subspace, previous cuffing, small mounts of blood 4.4k

OCTOBER 15th | HYBRIDS w/ Megumi Fushiguro

☆ PURR OF AFFECTION cw: cat hybrid! Megumi, AFAB + owner! reader but no pronouns, reader is implied to be smaller than him, vaginal penetration, creampie, slight breeding kink, birth control mentioned and used, purring/licking/mewling, he calls you his "mate" and u tease him bout it, needy megumi 2.4k

OCTOBER 16th | PILLOW HUMPING + PHONE SEX w/ Tamaki Amajiki

☆ THE CALL BEFORE BED cw: sub! top! Tamaki, bottom! gn! reader, praise kink, slight breeding kink, reader is a slight tease and tamaki is trying not to pass out from embaressment, fantasies, creampie in fantasy Y/N? does that need a tag? 3.1k

OCTOBER 17th | VOUYERISM w/ Meguru Bachira and Yoichi Isagi

☆ PARTNERS TOUCH cw: Sub/bottom isagi, sub/top bachira, mlm, anal sex, AFAB! reader because of mentions of pegging, but rest is Gn!, overstimulation, doggy style, picture taking, hand job, praise, nickname "baby" once for Isagi 3.1k

OCTOBER 18th | DRY ORGASM w/ Yuuta Okkotsu

☆ LIKE A GIRL! cw: gn! reader, multiple orgasm, sorta mentions of cnc? idk, "breeder balls" are used in a silly goofy way, pregnancy mentioned, yuuta cums a total of six times, unrealistic portrayal of dry orgasms. 1.9k

OCTOBER 19th | PROSTATE MASSAGE w/ Seishiro Nagi

☆ WHAT A STRANGE FEELING cw: gn! reader, anal fingering, twitching, hand job, crying and drool 2.0k

OCTOBER 20th | BONDAGE w/ Nanami Kento

OCTOBER 21st | FROTTAGE w/ Gojo Satoru and Geto Suguru

OCTOBER 22nd | A/B/O w/ Yoichi Isagi

☆ HEAT TALKING cw: Omega/bottom Isagi, Top/Alpha/Gn reader, omegaverse stuff (slick, claiming, scenting, etc.), isagi is in heat, readers pp could be read as strap or dick, marking/biting, slight blood, possesive behavior, instincts and stuff, isagi lowkey being feral 2.6k

OCTOBER 23rd | DRY HUMPING + CHOKING w/ Reo Mikage

OCTOBER 24th | SPREADER BAR w/ Zenitsu Agatsuma

☆ TWITCHY LITTLE THING cw: gn! reader, crying, reader kinda is pushy but Zenitsu is fine with it, VERY sensitive Zenistu, overstimulation 1.2k

OCTOBER 25th | RIMMING w/ Armin Arlert

OCTOBER 26th | PEGGING + PRAISE w/ Akaza

OCTOBER 27th | OVERSTIMULATION + EDGING w/ Megumi Fushiguro and Yuuji Itadori

☆ PICK YOUR POISON cw: Gn!/ sadistic/crazy?/meanish reader, weird amounts of cum...like a strangely alot of cum involved, frottage - mlm (ik ik i have another day for this only but i just had to include it), handjobs, bondage, megumi in subspace, megumi goes a little insane? reader checks up on him tho, orgasm denial, orgasm control 3.3k

OCTOBER 28th | EXHIBITION w/ Denki Kaminari

OCTOBER 29th | SADISM/MASOCHISM w/ Katsuki Bakugou

OCTOBER 30th | CONSENSUAL NONCONSENT (CNC) (DARK CONTENT) w/ Meguru Bachira

OCTOBER 31st | MASTURBATION w/ Izuku Midoriya

☆ LOST IN A FANTASY cw: fem/afab reader, izuku masturbates to your voicemail and pretends to fuck you, reader calls him baby, and he calls u hun, needy izuku 1.5k

TOTAL WORD COUNT: 54.3k - 21/31

[humanitys-strongest-bamf]

Drunk | #LeviMonth2024 Fluff Drabble

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{{ August 24 (Crime + Secret Relationship Part 1) | August 28 (Crime + Secret Relationship Part 2) }} Masterlist

You had the weekend off, so you spent the night out with some friends. Having just been dropped off at home since you were far too inebriated to be able to navigate home from the bar on your own, you stumbled in through the front door after finally getting your keys in order.

Your eyebrows furrowed together as you noticed the lights that were still on despite the fact that it was well into the night. Your blurred gaze eventually fell onto Levi. You blinked at your roommate in surprise, not having expected him to be there.

"...the fuck are you doing here?" you asked, your words slightly slurred.

You were too far gone to be able to tell, but there was a subtle hint of concern that appeared in Levi's eyes the moment you stepped through the door while barely keeping your balance. He had known that you had gone out partying, but the fact that you were coming home this inebriated was something he had not been expecting.

"I live here, dumbass."

His tone was flat, with an emphasis on the insult that betrayed how agitated he truly was inside.

You didn't immediately respond, having forgotten that he had insomnia, despite the fact that you had been living together for a few years already.

"Oh."

Levi let out a barely audible groan as he set his phone down and stood up from the couch, crossing the room in a few strides to meet you where you were at.

"What happened?" he asked, concern evident in his voice despite the stern look on his face. He reached out to gently take your hand, helping you to steady yourself as he led you to the living room.

"Was just out with friends!"

He raised an eyebrow at your nonchalant response. Even for you, this was a bit much.

However, knowing that you could take care of yourself at the end of the day, in addition to the fact that it wasn't actually any of his business, he let the subject drop, focusing instead on guiding you over to the couch.

Once he got you seated safely, he swiftly went to the kitchen, grabbing a glass of water for you.

"You didn't drive, did you?"

"Of course I didn't drive, dumbass," you grumbled as you returned his insult. You sipped on the cold water, with the shock of the liquid immediately beginning the process of sobering you up, even if it was just by a slight amount.

He sighed in irritation, giving you a second to get your bearings before tapping on your shoulder to get your attention.

"Come on, let's get you to bed."

You groaned, rolling your eyes as you felt him gently tug on your arm to get you to stand up, wrapping his arm around your waist to help support you.

"I'll be fine," you insisted. "I'm not that drunk."

"Sure you aren't," he grumbled under his breath as he began dragging you towards your bedroom, kicking open the door since his hands were full with keeping you steady.

Ignoring your protests, he ushered you into your room, gently laying you down onto your bed before switching on the lights. Even in his sleep-deprived state, he could tell that you were far too drunk to be on your feet.

The hygiene enthusiast in him was tempted to drag you into the shower so you didn't feel like ass in the morning, knowing that being in alcohol-reeked clothes in addition to being hungover only compounded into one another, but he also didn't trust you in the water in your current state—and he certainly wasn't going to bathe you without your consent.

He knew that it likely would have been fine if he had left you on your own. Yet, he found himself growing increasingly protective over you and your well-being. A part of that came naturally from having lived with you for so long, but he knew that there was likely some other reason underneath the surface that he just didn't feel like diving into yet.

Before he knew it, you had fallen asleep. The edge of his lips slightly turned up at how quickly you had gotten settled in after stumbling in through the door. He threw the blanket over you so that you were at least somewhat covered before dimming the lights and leaving the room, bracing himself for the overwhelming hangover you were almost guaranteed to have the next morning.

#: @shayewrites @littlerequiem @i-lev-you @humanitys-strongest-brat @mostlilo @dustbuniesworld @levisrations @ebechnasheim @moonchild-angel @jayteacups @bipolargatto @samackermaan @deepzombieyouth @levkuna @levisfavoriteteashop @ackermanswifee @ae-chidori @2dsimpomg @anti-cupid

[distortedclouds]

Not sure if this is an original thought in the slightest, but I do like the idea of post-rumbling Annie constantly fluctuating between severe insomnia, where nothing helps put her to sleep, and periods where she's constantly sleepy, dozing off a total of 10ish hours everyday and closing her eyes at every chance she gets

I think insomniac Annie would hate just staying in bed. She'd get up for something to do or at least go on a walk. Armin tries his best to help with getting her herbal teas whenever he can get his hands on some, they don't help, but Annie says they do because she appreciates (and enjoys) the process of Armin making her a hot drink and handing her a warm mug with immense love and care

Sleepless Annie is often cold, "borrowing" any jacket or scarf that she comes across (it's only a coincidence, of course, that after a couple of weeks only Armin's stuff are almost always conveniently within reach...). She's much calmer and doesn't speak often, always hanging around everyone else's background like a ghost. She likes warm foods and treats because the sugar helps keep her up (she doesn't like the taste of most caffeinated drinks)

There's also some dangers when it gets too severe. She's dozing off while standing/sitting and Armin convinced himself she'll one day fall asleep while taking a bath and drown (.... he's a bit dramatic)

Constantly sleepy Annie, on the other hand, is cute and much less stressful to handle 🥺

Who wouldn't want to just be walking into his office and, oh! what's that? curled up in a ball on his couch is Annie. He'll cover her with his suit jacket or maybe he begins to keep a small blanket at the office, just in case. It's starting to get cold, after all

She dozes off while sitting on the sofa with everyone else. Their lively banter makes her feel safe and comfortable to close her eyes, because their voices help keep nightmares away. In fact, she often ends up dreaming of weird scenarios influenced by whatever they were talking about

It's fine to sleep on the couch, Annie realizes, because she always wakes up in her bed in the next morning. And she can tell who it was that took her in. If it's Reiner, she wakes up a little cold and her neck hurts a bit. At least he takes her shoes off. She's positive it was Connie who let her sleep with her shoes on (Levi would've been appalled at the thought of shoes in bed)

Armin, though she always wakes up with the pillow at the right position under her head, an extra blanket over her legs with the edges tucked in to keep the chill at bay. Her shoes are by the door and there's her (or maybe his) cardigan on the bedside table in case she wakes up in the middle of the night for something

She likes to nap against his shoulders on the sofa while he goes through documents, or even just in the same room if he has a lot of deskwork. closing her eyes and opening them to the rustling of papers and quiet steps around the office if one of her favorites

[yourlocaltrashcan657]

Mental Hospital AU! Yandere! Attack on Titan x Female Reader

Chapter 3- Meeting Levi

“I have to warn you Y/N.. this next patient you have is the most dangerous patient we’ve encountered in the last decade.. I started working here five years ago after an incident.. and even I still find it hard to look at him..” Erwin stated.

“What’s his name?” Y/N asked curiously.

”Levi. He’s murdered multiple doctors and nurses no matter how many chains we put on him. He’s got a lock on his door that only i have access to.” Erwin explained.

”I see.. Sasha told me about him, at least I think” Y/N muttered nervously.

The walk to the room was quiet after that. Watching Erwin, Y/N saw that he typed in a 19 letter passcode, did an eye retina and fingerprint scan just to get in.

”From now on I’ll be accompanying you to Levi and if necessary, other patients.” Erwin said.

Y/N simply nodded before entering along with Erwin. The room was small and only had a bed and desk. The desk for some reason was in the middle of the room and there sat Levi.

He was handcuffed to the desk and looked up at the two entering the room only to glare.

”Get out. I’m not going to let you drug me Eyebrows-“ Levi begin to say before getting interrupted by Erwin.

”I’m not drugging you Levi. You should know I would never unless necessary. Y/N, you may sit I’ll just stand up for now..” Erwin said, allowing Y/N to sit at the chair opposite Levi. 

Y/N sat down, thankful for the somewhat useful table between them. She looked up at him and smiled at his deadly glare.

”Hello Levi, I’m Y/N L/N. I’ll be your permanent doctor and since it’s our first appointment together I’d like to get to know you. It could be anything, family, friends or hobbies.” Y/N said with a warm smile.

”Get out. Now.” He grumbled looking back down at his feet annoyed.

Y/N began to rest her chin on her hand and smirked. This was probably the worst patient she’ll have judging by his aggressive behaviour so she’ll have to be careful around him so he doesn’t hurt or even kill her.

“You can’t even tell me a bit about yourself?” She looked straight at him as he soon looked back up at her. He took in her details, she wasn’t like the other doctors or nurses. She genuinely wanted to talk to him.

”I hate filth.” He said and looked at Erwin before raising his hands and pointing his fingers at him. “And Eyebrows. No wonder you can’t pull any girls, you got them big ass eyes brows-“ 

“That’s enough, Y/N it’s break for all Doctors and Nurses so we better get going.” He interrupted quickly, going beside Y/N’s chair and helping her up like a nice gentleman.

Letting go of Erwin’s hand, Y/N looked back at Levi and smiled warmly.

”It was nice seeing you Levi, I hope you and I can get along. I’ll see you later then.”

As soon as the door shut, Levi looked back up. He felt a smile curve at the end of his lips. What was this feeling.? Maybe this person wasn’t that bad.. no. That was his insomnia messing his head up.. or not? She just had to be cleansed after he had touched the demons filthy hands, he wouldn’t mind doing it himself. It was for his darling.

[theshipsong]

reijean v-day 💝⚔️

see vee's prompt graphic for this. i tag anyone in any fandom, i want to hear about your OTP!!

💝 favorite canon scene:

these panels in the 57th scouting expedition right here.

in the anime the only internal monologue we get is from jearmin, which is a big rewatch tell of oh shit! why are reiner's thoughts private (armored hehe). but the ONE time, ONE time we get reiner's thoughts in this arc in the manga... it's about jean. and it's not like he takes over narration like armin did when he encounters annie alone, or like jean does once these three meet up. it's just one stray 💭 of "jean really... is different."

sure, other characters note jean's maturity since joining the corps, but recognition from reiner stands out here as a vote of confidence from marcel!reiner, AND four years later: when he still describes jean as "an irresponsible jerk who only ever thought of himself," even though reiner knows first hand that jean grew so, so much after trost. and it's his fault.

💝 a song that reminds you of them:

i previously posted SASAMI's I Was a Window, but another one that screams reijean to me is Till Death by Japanese Breakfast. briefly, it's about marriage, but she wrote a whole book about the context that this song and her relationship come from, which i highly recommend.

so many images in it are so post-rumbling to me: "get these days to go by like the swaying of a ship," (the studio recording starts with ocean sounds); "sing me to sleep, soothe this insomnia"; "your embrace healing my wounds / teach me to breathe, teach me to move." the beginning of verse 2, "steering on hostile waves of panic, like fighting a wheel that pulls to the right" makes me think of a later jbrekkie song, Slide Tackle, which IS reiner.

💝 favorite official picture/graphic:

back to back on the vol. 32 alliance cover baby!!

💝 favorite fanfic:

i have to say two:

vermin by @oxygenbefore1775: delicious cadet days, delicious fucked up time in reiner POV, delicious, smart tangling with the technological/material/cultural gaps between the walls and the rest of the world. how much of RBA's deep cover is culture shock? the total lack of guile jean has while running roughshod over the land mines in reiner's head with just "bunny." god.

from shiganshina with love by @fromriches-tosin: this is really the one that lured me in. it feels like a locked room, three-hander play, when even being in the wide open air (well, not reiner) is claustrophobic because two characters are intertwined and dug into one another. and as someone who has inhaled shelves' worth of eruri fic and doujinshi, vee's levi is one of my favorites.

💝 favorite fanart:

oh, this and everything by @mikibagels. one thing about reijean that goes so hard is jean's growth spurt, cadet and post-rumbling reijean both have height difference. similar vein, @valmendy illustrating reiner's flirting from never let me go: "i feel like i missed out on my little brother growing up." hello???

💝 why i ship:

i binged the anime so late, just in time for season 4, and when the finale came out i could hardly think of anything other than "we're scouts, we don't know when to quit."

back in my day (i'm turning 27 this month), one dude beating up another in shounen launched a ship, a fleet of ships, and kept it afloat for years, but yams gave us their more obvious, huge interactions in the last... fifteen chapters. but there's so much history between them that screams to be noticed on initial reread and rewatch: the reijearmin (horrendous throuple name) date that was the female titan arc, that jean keeps his cool when the 104th hop on the armored as reibert and ymir try to flee, the whole return to shiganshina, the echo i come back to of "the jean kirchstein i know only thinks of himself."

with jean's OVA, they're the characters whose moms we see the most of besides carla jaeger??? the difference between karina and jean's mother is vast, yet their sons turned out so similar, despite it all. so caring, so haunted by that care. jean takes his leadership in the post-time skip survey corps so seriously, he agonizes over his field leadership in trost, while reiner feels like he killed marcel and bertolt and doomed annie, and in his lowest, lowest moments still manages to protect and worry for falco and gabi.

also, another big why: you people. this is such a cozy pontoon. 😘 happy valentine's day!!!

[sunriseflamesart]

Characters that need a nap

- Levi Ackerman. It's canon that he has insomnia. But if you think about it he probably has chronic pains too. His joints are probably always aching, let alone scars and old mended bones. Just. I'm pretty sure that have him medicine and sleep for 8 hours would make him like. 100% less grumpy.

- Gojo Satoru. This silly bitch is super extra but his power is literally to see everything. My guy probably lives with sensory overload. Not to mention that since he is that strong and is probably really busy I bet he can't sleep much. How we turn his powers off and have him sleep in cozy environment? Pretty sure he'd calm down. Like, a lot.

- Sabaku no Gaara (first season). I mean. It's literally his whole thing in the beginning. Like damn I would be going feral too without sleep my dude. Like low-key just threaten Shukaku with a water spray bottle when he comes out. Wet sand is heavy. Let the baby boi sleep or suffer

I'm sure there are more but I'm sleepy and can't think really well.

Might write some "how would reader deal with this" imagine later.

[moved--naitfall]

@lausticzt asked:

❛   nurse .   give  my  muse  company  in  the  hospital .

𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐃  &  𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐅𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄

‘ He’s dead. ’ He was still breathing. It took all his strength just to keep on breathing. Didn’t they know he was listening ? He wanted to speak, but his body had shut down, only his conscience remaining. Witness to a familiar scene — he’s seen it happen before, laying helpless, his life at the mercy of others (and there was none). ‘ We got lucky. Our biggest threat covered in his own blood ’, ‘ I'll send a shot through his head ’. Oh. They wanted him dead.

The absurdity of human behavior could no longer surprise him — the soldiers he’d sacrifice himself for in a heartbeat, would turn their guns on him at the first chance given. Neither could the absurdity of his own nature — he held no resentment against them. He wouldn’t raise his blade even if he could still move his body. They still were his soldiers. Fighting in a world gone mad, desperately trying to make sense of their insignificant lives and all their efforts. An innocence he could relate to and gave up on many years ago — a painful transition he had to undergo, accept the futility of it all, in order to become strong enough to fight for a ridiculously hopeless cause. A few years ago, he could have been the one holding the gun, and pulled the trigger with no remorse whatsoever.

Suddenly, his body grew cold, and heavy. He was sinking, his body surrounded by water. He heard the faint sound of guns firing in the distance. Alone, running out of air, slowly losing the last of his senses, his consciousness (his existence) fading. It was peaceful. He wouldn’t feel any pain, or regret, a comforting numbness. Maybe, it wouldn’t be that bad for him to go– Zeke. He had to kill Zeke. Fulfill the vow he made on that day. Wait— Hadn’t he killed him? Hadn’t they killed Eren? Was it all a nightmare? Which was the real nightmare?

He couldn’t breathe. His throat closed, water filling up his lungs. He had to get to the surface. Even if he could move, he didn’t know how to swim. He was drowning. This wasn’t a dr—

Levi woke up in a violent coughing fit. He’d sit up, covering his mouth with his hand, trying to catch his breath. After long, he’d calm down, confused, still in a haze, trying to take in his surroundings. He was at a hospital. How many hours, how many days had passed, since they stopped the rumbling? He had been sleeping for the most time, beginning to lose track of time. Years of insomnia were his body’s defense against the cruel fabrications of his mind. Without that defense, sleeping longer would mean, nightmares he couldn’t escape from. Yet, there was no worse nightmare than the reality he had woken up in. A foreign place, his body damaged, the pain insufferable (physical or not). The purpose he had dedicated his entire life to serve was fulfilled. They had won, but lost everything along the way.

Feverish, they said he was. His body fighting some infection with a funny name. Quite ironic, the moment he allowed himself to rest, his body collapsed, gave up on him completely. He had been pushing his limits for far too long. Far too many years. The time for all scars to heal had come. A painful process he was forced to undergo, in order to stand back on his feet, and move forward.

In a lifetime of war, how was he supposed to find peace? His entire life he'd fight — for his life, for the life of others, for a cause — as if born to become a soldier. His edges sharpened, shaped into a tool. How was he supposed to turn back human, embrace the nature he was forced to deny for so long? When any future he used to dream of ended with dying on the battlefield, how was he supposed to accept the life ahead of him, ahead of them ? They weren’t soldiers anymore. They didn’t serve anyone, but themselves. They could only make choices for their own life, shape their own future. A different kind of freedom and the most dangerous of all.

In the short distance between them, lay an ocean of emotions, of everything they wouldn’t say. What were the exact feelings that brought her to his hospital room? He knew her heart, better than his own, better than anyone else’s, for he had been observing her closely for long, a challenge to understand, and a knowledge conquered kept close to his heart, valuable to keep. Still, despite claiming to know her, he couldn’t explain her presence here. Had she sensed his silent call for help? His shield had gotten damaged along with his body in the explosion, cracks making their appearance, ice blue eyes revealing the heartache within.

He wished to speak, but he was feeling weak. Not the same kind of weakness of his wrecked body, but an all-consuming heaviness of heart. ❝ You're here. ❞ He could start by acknowledging her presence, and maybe, he could later find the words to ask her to stay. ❝ How long have you been here? ❞ Had she been looking after him? What for? He wasn't strong enough any longer, nor was useful in any way. Fighting was over. There wasn't any reason for anyone to stay by his side.

Especially NOT for his heart, kept at distance, away from everyone's reach. A conscious choice he'd pay for. He should have been alone. Yet, she wasn't like anyone else. She wouldn't comply with reason. A sense of relief flooded within, calming his nerves — since when could the presence of someone ease the suffocating pain of everything he's lost? Those eyes of hers. Piercing, clear as if staring in a mirror, as if to clear the storm clouds his own carried.

[moved-naitfall]

@worldhell asked:

" i stayed. " - from farlan !!!

the receiver has told the sender that they haven't slept for several days due to intense nightmares, and asks them to stay the night so that they might be able to sleep. send in " i stayed. " for the receiver to waken the next morning and find the sender to still be sitting by their bedside, having stayed the whole night to ensure they slept.

Change. Contrary to popular belief, Levi despised change of things. Adaptability may be a strength of his — he'd be the first to change himself whenever needed in order to survive under any circumstances — but far too attached to any sentiments made as he was, far too accustomed to letting go of everything important, he'd come to despite change. If only he could go back to their first home, the place Farlan and Isabel made their own. If only he could go back to the same morning routine from when his squad was still alive. If only he didn't have to witness the command of the Survey Corps change hands. Far too attached, yet the first to deny the shackles of the past in order to keep moving forward.

Suddenly, they had found themselves in a situation where nothing was the same. A world without Titans, a dream far too unrealistic to have come true. Enemies to their supposed homeland Paradis — the two of them had nowhere to belong, not really, citizens of the underground, of darkness. Having killed sacrificed one of their own ( they weren't that unfamiliar with it, were they? ), someone placed under his care, Eren, the one Levi used to believe was humanity's hope. Having survived long after they had submitted to certain death.

Farlan was alive. They had lost everything along the way, but they hadn't lost each other. Fighting was over, even if only temporarily. Fighting for their lives was over.

He couldn't recall when was the last time he had slept in a bed, mattress and all. Their roles reversed, the one sitting in the chair watching after him, being Farlan. For long Levi hadn't been able to sleep at all, his mind beginning to deteriorate as days passed and he couldn't close his eyes for longer than a few minutes. Insomnia had kept him company for years, since he lost his mother, but its leash had never been this tight, suffocating him, until he couldn't any longer breathe on his own. Weakness of body and mind wasn't entirely unfamiliar to him, yet this would make it the first time he'd allow the other see him in this pathetic state ( a state he couldn't help )— or so he thought.

Who would have thought, nightmares would come to haunt him the most when the real nightmare was over? He hadn't exactly asked Farlan to stay — the two didn't need words to communicate. The other had noticed, the only one who watched him same way Levi watched others, with piercing concern. ❝ Thank you. ❞ Showing gratitude wasn't what was painful, but once again relying on him, once again placing more weight on his shoulders than he was supposed to carry. His driving force he had been for many years — living for Farlan, to protect him, care for him, stay human for him, from when they were both young and full of grand dreams of sunlight. How could Levi keep holding him down, to his own darkness? If only he wasn't certain Farlan wouldn't let go.

He grabbed the cane by his bedside, attempting to get up with intention to get to the kitchen, before deciding otherwise, a sigh following his frustration. ❝ Have you eaten anything? ❞ Still recovering, still healing, still struggling on getting used to his body failing him. He wasn't supposed to be moving much, but he couldn't stay in one place either. Stubborn even when pain meddled with his ability to think, to act, to pretend to be his normal self.

[bisexualalienblast]

It wasn’t a question of being a perfect fit. 

[l3viat8an]

It’s the beginning of summer here, and I am suffering from the US northeast humidity, so have some headcanons of the brothers with a heat sensitive MC.

Asmo is probably the most worried about MC’s perpetually moist state. Knows the heat and humidity can be damaging to hair and skin, so he demands MC follow a 32-step skin and hair care routine.

Belphie didn’t really care bc he usually has the opposite problem. That is until MC admits they have heat insomnia and haven’t slept in days. Then he’s right on it, getting them one of those cooling gel mattress and pillow toppers, and an industrial strength AC for their bedroom lmao. Their room is always 65°F now (the perfect temperature imo irl lmao).

Both Mammon and Levi decide the best remedy for MC is to head to the beach! Yes the sand is hot, but the water is cold. Levi is a little nervous about seeing MC in their swimwear though… (Mammon totally isn’t suggesting the beach vacay to get out of school! He’s just worried about MC, ok!!!)

Beel keeps lots of frozen drinks and snacks around for MC at all times. Even buys extra so he won’t get to them all before MC lmao.

Satan researches and makes a bunch of cooling potions for MC to take to RAD and other places where there isn’t reliable AC.

Lucifer, in the same vein as belphie, has industrial strength AC installed in the whole house. Devil help anyone to dares touch the thermostat, no matter how cold the house is to everyone besides MC… (he tells them to “shut up and put more layers on if you’re that cold.” He himself refuses to put any on and just suffers through the cold in order to try and prove a point to his brothers that it isn’t actually cold.)

Bonus: Diavolo may or may not have made it a law that every non-private residence in the devildom is required to have AC, just to keep his cute human properly cooled. So now the entire devildom is freezing their nips off even in the summer months🫣…

-🌚

Plzzz it was 102 in the shade here and no AC yet because “it’s only may” I was dying today 😭

I’m right there with Beel eating all of the frozen snacks and drinks I neeed them!!!-

and where can I get a demon prince???? I would love to have it royally decreed that everywhere must be a comfortable cool temperature at all times!!

[humanitys-strongest-bamf]

hi I'm so excited for your dad Levi event I was wondering if you could do post war Levi

him and reader have been through everything together and never had time for romance but after the war they settle down and she gets pregnant because she always wanted a family

it was hard for me to not just dive into actual smut once i decided how i wanted to write this tbh

Mini-Us | 2K Follower Event | Post-War Dadvi Drabble

✧ word count ➼ ~700 ✧ notes ➼ post-war, fluff, suggestive but nothing too explicit

You knew the insomnia was hitting hard whenever you opened your eyes and the room was still shrouded in darkness. On some days, you'd get up right as the sun was rising, but this wasn't one of those days.

You heard some shuffling behind you and, upon turning, saw that Levi was also awake. From the look on his face, it seemed like he hadn't really slept since the two of you crawled into bed a few hours ago. You saw that he was shifting his weight to avoid placing any potential strain onto his bad knee and knew that it was flaring up again. It could've been what was causing his insomnia or vice versa, in which sitting in bed from not being able to sleep agitated it from him being stiff.

"Need me to grab something?" you asked quietly, your voice hoarse from just waking.

Levi looked over at you and shook his head.

"Just stay with me for a bit," he murmured.

"It's 4am," you teased, "where the fuck am I going to go?"

You smirked as you saw his eyebrows scrunch together into a frown, using this time to crawl underneath his arm and place your head on his chest. He tightened his grasp around you, pulling you securely up against his bare chest.

You nuzzled your face into the crook of his neck, taking in the scent of the soap he had used while bathing that was mixing in with his own. It was comforting.

"Ever think about having a kid?"

The question immediately prompted you to pull back slightly so that you could see his face. You blinked a few times as you looked at him in surprise.

"What?"

You could almost feel the disappointment radiating from him through just his body posture alone.

The two of you had been around each other since forever, having met early throughout your time in the Scouts. You grew close fast and feelings blossomed within the blink of an eye, but you never officially got together until after the war. There just wasn't any time, with the war against the Titans, and then Marley, and then dealing with the events that led up to the Rumbling.

"Nevermind," he grumbled, avoiding your gaze and beginning to turn away.

"Nono, wait," you protested as you reached for him to turn him back towards you. "I'm sorry, I just wasn't expecting the question. I'd..."

You trailed off as you pulled up recent memories of seeing Levi in the position of the fatherly caregiver: handing out candy to the child refugees or mentoring Falco and Gabi, which immediately prompted a small smile to appear on your face.

"I'd love that," you whispered. "You sure you'd be able to handle a mini-us running around?"

He blinked and looked right at you.

"I'm sure we'll manage," he spoke quietly, matching your tone.

You looked directly into his eyes, noting that the moon was reflecting off the gray of his good eye. You gently ran your fingers over his scars, always mesmerized with them and how it symbolized everything that the two of you had survived through.

He pulled you towards him, his soft lips gently pressing against yours. You let out a small 'mmm' as you moved your lips back against his, chills traveling throughout your body as you felt his hand drop from your cheek and down to your waist.

You reached to grab onto his wrist once you felt his hand traveling lower to give him pause, pushing back on his shoulder so that he was leaning back against his pillow. Your lips never lost contact with his as you slowly turned and raised your leg around him so that you were straddling him.

His hands grabbed onto your hips as your kisses grew more heated and you began to feel his tongue against your lips as the two of you got more and more lost within each other's embrace.

You shouldn't have been surprised when you realized a few weeks later that your cycle hadn't come, but you were—and so was he when you revealed the news that you were indeed pregnant with his child.

[pencilofawesomeness]

insomnia buddies

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Decided to do one of my beloved nerd-brotps, Levy and Jellal, for the secrets prompt for rare pairs week ( @ftguildevents​ ) because the idea wouldn’t leave me.

Nobody expects the two responsible noodles to enable each other’s bad sleeping habits, but sometimes, that’s what friends are for.

--

April X783

“What time is it?” Levy wondered aloud, stifling a yawn. She didn’t look up from her book though, or make any attempt to go check for herself, and judging from the singular flip of a page, neither did Jellal.

“I have no idea,” he said, a shrug in his voice. “Honestly, I’m scared to find out.”

Levy hummed in noncommittal agreement, finally tearing her eyes away from the pages to lean her head against the bookshelf. If she had to guess, they had already crossed over the four-a.m. threshold that promised that tonight was just going to be another sleepless one, despite their tentative agreement to try to head back to sleep by at least three. Unfortunately, her brain didn’t seem any closer to wanting to sleep; judging by the steady glow of Jellal’s magic, he wasn’t close either.

Yep. Another sleepless night, then. At least she didn’t have any plans for tomorrow.

Levy turned back to her book, easily enraptured by the chapter, her mind happy to have an outlet to focus on. However, she was only another four or five pages forward when another thought hit her.

“Mirajane will find us down here.”

Jellal stiffened beside her, the implications dawning on him as well. “When does she come in again?”

Levy was awake, yes, but not awake enough to find an answer better than “early.” Unlike Chico, who hadn’t cared to mother hen them over bad sleeping habits and pulling all-nighters in the guild library, Mirajane would check in here when she came in to open the hall officially. Levy was even beginning to suspect that she was coming in earlier and earlier specifically to root out the hall for people like them. Which was…mostly just Levy and Jellal. (Master had given them both keys to the building, so it wasn’t like they weren’t allowed to be here or anything; but unfortunately, Mirajane wasn’t supportive of all-nighters in the guild library.)

“She’s going to kill us,” Levy decided.

Jellal closed his fist, his magic light flittering out. She could still see him by her script-lamp that she left on the bookshelf, though, so she saw Jellal’s face split into an almost devious grin. “Only if we get caught.”

Levy snorted out a laugh, her expression soon matching his at the thought of pulling one over on the great Mirajane. “Only if we get caught,” she agreed.

[melishade]

Number 3?

This ask game

CW Insomnia. Well I allude to it, but I don't outright say it.

"You look...exhausted, Captain." Levi raised his head from his upright hand and noticed Optimus staring at him in holoform. Levi merely scoffed at the Prime showing his concern and sat up.

"You don't look so good yourself, Prime," Levi shot back, "When's the last time you slept?"

Optimus appeared to think it over. "I am uncertain. Cybertronian recharge cycles are quite different from that of a human."

"Still, you look like shit," Levi declared.

"...when was the last time you slept then?" Optimus asked, "I know that humans require on average eight hours of sleep a day."

Levi didn't answer, and turned his gaze to the floor.

"Levi-,"

"I'm not answering that." Levi crossed his arms.

"...The Commander has made me aware of your condition," Optimus informed him.

Levi snapped his head to Optimus before standing up. "I'm going to kill four eyes."

Optimus placed a hand out in front of Levi. "She told me because I inquired about it. I have noticed certain behavioral patterns different from the others."

"That still wasn't her place to tell," Levi said.

Optimus lowered his arm. "I allow the 104th to rest in my alt mode after a long day. You are more than welcome to take that offer."

Levi crossed his arms and thought it over. He wasn't going to deny that the seat were comfortable. "...I'll come by later."

Later that day, Optimus waited patiently in his alt mode for the Captain. Part of him wasn't sure if he would accept the invitation. Levi was someone who was stubborn and mistrusting in nature, and that was not his fault. Levi grew up in a harsh environment like Megatron did. He...couldn't help but think about what would have happened to Levi if he didn't join the Survey Corps.

Optimus snapped out of his thought when he felt someone knock on his door. He turned his side-view mirror to see Levi waiting for him with crossed arms. The Prime opened his door, allowing Levi to climb into the passenger's seat. Levi slouched a little in the chair after Optimus shut the door.

"...so what now?" Levi asked.

"...you rest," Optimus answered.

"...I can't. I've tried," Levi insisted.

"Was there anything that might have helped you rest in the past?" Optimus asked him.

Levi stared up at the ceiling, searching deep in his memories and trying to figure it out. A distorted image of his mother came to mind, but...he couldn't hear her voice. Levi sighed, not wanting to think about it too hard.

"...stories," Levi confessed with a whisper.

"Excuse me?"

"Stories," Levi spoke louder, "...Forget it. It's..." Embarrassing, vulnerable, weak. He could feel hear Kenny scolding him for allowing himself to be so vulnerable.

"In Rome there was once a poor slave whose name was Androclus." Levi nearly gasped as he heard Optimus begin to narrate, "His master was a cruel man, and so unkind to him that at last Androclus ran away."

Levi sat there and listened. He listened to the story of the man and the lion, how they had found each other through hardship, and how the both of them had managed to earn their freedom. It felt so simple and childish, but he couldn't help but follow along. It was...it was nice and peaceful.

"...could you...tell another one?" Levi asked him.

"Of course," Optimus replied with no hesitation.

====

Hanji had searched the port for a while for the Captain, wondering where he could've possibly gone. It made her worry, especially since Levi was always on her ass about being organized. The Commander spotted Optimus' alt mode and ran up to him, deciding to ask him instead. She was prepared to knock on the door but-

"I would advise against that," Optimus whispered.

"Huh?" Hanji raised an eyebrow in confusion. That was when she noticed that someone was inside. She cupped her hands above her eyes and looked through the window to see Levi sleeping in the passenger seat. His arms were crossed, and his head was leaning against the window.

"Oh." Hanji could only muster as she backed away, "...Let me know when he wakes up."

"I will," Optimus said.

"Thanks." Hanji smiled as she waved goodbye to the titan.

(It was stated that Levi does have insomnia and I thought it would be a little bit interesting to explore that. It was no doubt caused by his environment. I can definitely say that much. Anyway, story I mentioned is here and you are more than welcome to ask from that list that is up on top. Thanks.)

[oswaldsleftbicep]

Can you write a scenario where Lucia, Levy and Lucas are woken up in the night by MC because they are scared?

lucia, levy, & lucas when their gn!so wakes them up scared

genre: comfort, angst

cw: anxiety, uncanny valley effects/derealization in lucia's part, kind of spoilers for lucas?? idk y'all should know by now askjdhs, insomnia

Lucia

❧ something had felt off all day, though you weren't quite sure what

❧ the two of you took a walk around town, and there was just something about the people around you

❧ maybe it was the way they were walking, maybe they were side eyeing the two of you, who knows

❧ it put you on edge for the rest of the day, and well into the night

❧ lucia was fast asleep beside you in bed, sleeping like a baby, while you were sitting upright, hugging your legs to your torso

❧ that uncanny feeling followed you home, and you weren't having a great time

❧ even the simplest things, like your bedside table or the chair across the room, were freaking you out to a near panic

❧ you look back over at your sleeping boyfriend, debating whether or not you should wake him

❧ afraid of looking at him for too long, you take a deep breath and push against his shoulder, gently shaking him awake

❧ it takes a few tries, but eventually he stirs awake and sleepily asks you what's wrong, and why you're still awake

❧ "i'm scared," you squeak out in a barely there voice, and it makes lucia's eyes widen, sitting up quickly to be at your side

❧ "love, what's wrong," he asks, more alert now, "what's got you so scared?"

❧ "i don't know," you answer, tears beginning to fill your eyes, "everything just seems off and i don't like it"

❧ he looks at you slightly confused, "hm? off how?"

❧ "nothing seems right," you begin trying to explain, "ever since we went out, it feels like there's something different about everyone, everything. i can't look at anything for too long; it scares me, and i don't know how to handle it"

❧ he sees you beginning to panic, and pulls you so that your face is hidden in his neck, preventing you from seeing anything

❧ he holds you close against him with one arm, and uses his free hand to pet your head soothingly

❧ "there's nothing here," he begins to reason, "you're here with me in our bed, and nothing is wrong. just listen to my voice, and try to match my breathing"

❧ he spends the next couple minutes walking you through breathing exercises, never for a second letting you out of his grasp, until he sees you start to calm down

❧ "i'm gonna let you go now," he says after a while, "and when you're ready, look up at me"

❧ you nod your head, take a deep breath in, and slowly look up at your boyfriend, bracing yourself for that nasty feeling of anxiety again

❧ but you feel nothing but relief when your eyes finally meet his

❧ he stares back, looking out for any negative reaction, but when he sees none, he gives a small smile at you, lifting his hand up to brush against your cheek

❧ "how do you feel now?" he asks softly

❧ you hum and close your eyes at his touch, leaning more into his hand, "tired, i think i'm ready to try sleeping. will you hold me tonight?"

❧ he sighs out a laugh, "of course, my darling, come here"

❧ he pulls you to him once more, and lays the two of you down, making sure you stay facing him

❧ he stays awake until you fall asleep, caressing your skin and keeping an eye out for any shifts in your expression

❧ only once you're sound asleep does he go back to sleep too, holding you close and vowing not to let anything near you

Levy

❧ this one is totally your fault lol

❧ you decided to stay up late reading a horror book

❧ you thought you could handle it, you've stayed up late watching horror movies before, what harm can a little book do?

❧ a lot, apparently, because this wasn't just a regular horror novel, it was a horror novel from nightmare

❧ and man are their scary standards higher than earth's

❧ levy tried to warn you, too, but after a while he just gave up and went to sleep lmao

❧ so it wasn't really a surprise to him when you woke him up in the middle of the night, shaking where you sat in the bed, desperately calling out to him in a soft voice

❧ mans does not like to get woken up, so at first he's grouchy at you, grumbling out a "what do you want?"

❧ but when he hears your voice quiver out a simple "i'm scared," he's much more alert and willing to be awake

❧ he lets out a quick sigh before sitting upright, moving so that he's closer to you, placing a hand atop yours on the sheet

❧ "it was the book, huh?" he asks

❧ as soon as you nod in confirmation, he's quick to call you a dummy under his breath, but nonetheless continues to comfort you

❧ he'll ask about which part frightened you the most, having read the book already himself, and listens to your complaints and worries about the events in the plot

❧ "it's just," you begin, taking a second to think out how to explain your thoughts, "it's so different from what we have at home, on earth i mean. the horror, the descriptions and the content, they differ so much. and it's so unsettling"

❧ you look at his face carefully after your explanation, searching for any sign that he might tease you for being scared of something so normal to him

❧ but all you can see is understanding and concern

❧ he pulls you so your head falls on his shoulder, and his hand makes quick work of petting your head and caressing down your arm, soothing your anxieties almost immediately

❧ "all of that stuff," he starts softly, "is just made up; none of it is real, and none of it is going to hurt you-- like i'd let that happen anyway."

❧ he tilts your head up so that you're looking him in the eye, "got that? you're safe, y/n"

❧ you nod slowly, sinking back into his embrace

❧ after a few more moments of him holding you, he asks aloud, "can we go back to sleep now?"

❧ you let out a quick laugh and agree, the two of you getting back under the covers, book totally forgotten

Lucas

❧ you're awake. it's the middle of the night, and you're wide awake, staring at the ceiling for the fourth night in a row, unable to get really any sleep

❧ your mind is racing, thinking about the home you chose to leave behind to be with the love of your life, who is sleeping soundly next to you

❧ you think of your friends, your family, even the people you went to class with who you never really knew all that well, and you wonder where they are right now

❧ you think of your favorite tv shows, if grey's anatomy is still ongoing, if your favorite artist has released new music

❧ there's so much you don't know about the things that once meant the world to you, and chances are you will never find out

❧ you think about the date. nightmare uses a different calendar than earth does, but you determined that a year in nightmare is pretty close to a year on earth. you taught yourself how to convert between the two calendars and determine that on earth it's october 5th

❧ there's something important about that date, you just can't think of what it is...

❧ sitting up, you spend the next few minutes wracking your brain, trying to find out what's so important about today

❧ and then it hits you: it's your mother's birthday

❧ how old is she now? you think a while about that one too, and the longer you think about all the things you're forgetting, the more you throw yourself deep into a panic

❧ how could you be forgetting? it hasn't been that long since you left, right?

❧ a hand lands on your shoulder, jolting you out of your thoughts, whipping your head to face lucas

❧ "love, what's wrong?" he asks, voice showing no sign of being asleep, "you're breathing really fast"

❧ "it's my mom's birthday today," you whisper out, almost as if you're afraid to say it

❧ lucas furrows his brows, searching your face for what you're feeling, for clues on how to respond

❧ "you miss her, don't you?" he asks, trying to pin how you're feeling

❧ "i do," you whimper out, tears finally beginning to form, "how could i forget?"

❧ he's pieced the puzzle together, and feels a wave of pity and empathy toward you

❧ "forgetting is brutal, isn't it," he says sardonically, "feels like losing a part of yourself"

❧ you nod, sniffling through your tears, "what if i forget for good?"

❧ sensing your panic, he intervenes, "you won't. i won't let you forget, not this time." he wraps his arms around you and holds you close to him

❧ you blink in confusion at his last statement, but choose to focus on the former, brushing it off as him saying his regular nonesense

❧ he suggests some things to help you remember and cope with being away: writing important dates on a calendar, celebrating birthdays and major events, keeping a journal describing your favorite songs and movies and shows, making portraits of your friends and family, anything to keep record of your life on earth

❧ you listen to all of his suggestions, leaning into him and crying it out as he caresses your skin and places kisses to the top of your head

❧ "it'll all be okay, my love," he kisses your knuckles, "we'll work through this and make sure you have those memories forever. you won't have to say goodbye completely."

❧ letting out the last of your tears, you nod in agreement, finally feeling worn out and tired enough to sleep

❧ lucas feels you droop against him, and situates the two of you so you're lying down again in each other's arms

❧ "just sleep now," he tells you softly, "and we'll figure out the rest in the morning"

❧ you hum in agreement, letting out a sigh as you finally drift off into sleep, lucas following you shortly after

[loveackermannn]

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no major warnings! just a slight make out sesh LOL

a/n; more vampire!levi!! kinda self indulgent since i wrote this on the brink of my insomnia and it's currently 1 am right now (might explain some typos??). also, if you guys have any ideas of your own that you'd like to add on/share, my inbox is open! i hope to interact w/ more of y'all on here T.T anyways, i hope you enjoy <3

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On particular nights where you couldn't shut an eye no matter how many times you twisted and turned on your bedside – you often found yourself sitting on the sill of your window, moonlight shown in through the cracks of the sheet of pane and an unfinished book resting in the palm of your hand.

Eyes following the words on the page but you couldn't seem to turn to the next... You realized you had been skimming through the same sentence about 7 or 8 times. Huffing you set your book down in your lap, not bothering what chapter you had left on and glanced out into the midnight blanket that canvased the sky.

You were slightly annoyed at the fact that you couldn't succumb to sleep sooner, since you actually wanted some decent sleep. The past few nights have been restless to say the least and the only reason (person) that was the cause of this nonsense, was an all familiar face that racked your mind.

A pale yet sharp face burrowing into the depths of your skin, gunmetal globes that pierced through your own with one single glance, jet black strands curtaining his face in the most alluring way possible – it felt almost criminal how perfect this man was. Levi was his name and every part of him was chiseled to be molded into some sort of god, except ironically, he wasn't a god.

Far from it in honesty, but the thrill of a romance with something very much the opposite of what was considered "good", definitely tempted you more towards him than you expected.

Forbidden might they call it.

Despite that, you didn't care. If anything, you very much welcomed him in every aspect of your life. In the beginning, both of you knew not to get so close as it was too risky for either of you – but what's love without a little risk? It became too much for the two of you to bare, every chance was an opportunity and there was no hesitation.

Now, it's been far too deep to turn back and with visits only being at night, sometimes you couldn't stand being away from him for so long.

But he must've heard your thoughts, as you jerked back at the sudden noise knocking beside you

Levi was instantly recognized in your view and you bolted on your feet to unlock the handle of your window. Swiftly situating himself inside your room, he felt a pair of arms wrap tightly around him along with your smaller body crashing into his hard chest.

You pressed your face further into him, not wanting to waste a single moment of his presence.

His calloused fingers settled on your hair and began long strokes from your scalp to the ends. A hand rested on the small of your back as he cradled your body against his.

Lips made its way down to your ear and you shivered from the slight puffs of his breath against your lobe.

"I'm guessing someone missed me hm?" he whispered softly. You could hear the smile in his words and you simply nodded against him in reply.

He hummed at your gesture and brought you back to your bed with your body still propped against him in his lap. He swayed the both of you from side to side while occasionally, twirling the locks of your messy strands in hand.

Nothing was said for a while, not that there needed to be any words distributed to make the experience more enjoyable – everything always felt right no matter what. But Levi wasn't stupid, he knew something was off from the start. That's partially why he came here in the first place. While it was always a routine for him to visit you in the late hours and tidy up your place, he intuitively felt as if you needed him right that second. And now, he was here.

He still felt your rhythmic breathing on his chest, but he knew you weren't asleep – you hadn't been for a while.

"What's been going on y/n?" he starts out quietly. He patiently waited for your answer as you seemed to ponder your words carefully.

"Mm i've just missed you is all."

Blinking back at you, he pulls away for a moment to see how dark the circles of your eyes became since the last time he saw you. Why hadn't he noticed sooner??

You grew concerned at his deafening silence as he continued to inspect your face. You held your breath in the time he stayed attentive to you, then finally, "you haven't been sleeping".

For some reason, it felt more direct than his usual tone with you and he quickly takes note, rubbing circles into your cheek with his thumb. "You need your sleep love. You don't have to wait for me every night. I'm far from anyone you should be losing sleep over", he lightly chuckles and your gaze falls down to the floor. He didn't want to push you to speak more of you didn't want to, he was just expressing his mere concerns for his beloved.

"I don't know how to explain this, you've just been on my mind lately. It's like I can't stop thinking about you. It's not a bad thing of course, but I just... wish we had more time together. I wish we didn't have to make this whole thing a secret or only see each other at night." you confessed not only to him, but yourself as well. It had been the first time you confided with your truth and it left Levi speechless.

"Sometimes when you're out hunting for the night and don't come back, I worry sick over if something happened to you. It's not until the next night that I finally see you in one piece. I get to breathe after that." You look back up at him, intertwining your fingers with his and kissing the rough knuckles on each one.

God, he's so in love with you. just as you are with him. It doesn't take long for him to react to your actions and words, and pull you in for a profound, breathless kiss. It felt exhilarating. It felt real. He was real. He wanted to prove to you that he was and that he's never going to leave. You tugged at his collared dress shirt for more while he positioned his hands on the curves of your waist. Mouths dominating over each other and hands struggling to keep still – it was definitely a much needed moment.

You were the first to pull back for a break of air, panting in one another's proximity and taking the time to ground back to reality. He smoothed your hair down with the gentle movement of his hand and bumped his forehead with yours.

"I'm sorry for keeping you waiting mon amour and for making you worry all those nights. but I will do everything in my power to come back to you. This I swear."