#the camera thing I don't think i fully understood but!!!

[forbebeandjam]

Kiss & Makeup | Bada Lee x Fem Reader | Fluff

Summary: You’re tired of chasing after her but she doesn’t want to give you up.

Word count: 1.9k

Warnings: mild cursing and make out.

A/N: Currently thinking about a part 2 smut for this one. What do you guys think?

"Wait! Bada wait!" You yelled as you chased after her. Your short legs were unable to catch up to her as she walked down the hall.

"Bada! Shit!" You said as she shut the door to the hideout. You never understood Bada. She hired you as her personal makeup artist three years ago and her attitude suddenly changed in the last few days.

You had to stay next to her throughout the filming of Street Woman Fighter 2 and it was draining.

Due to this, you knew about all of her deepest and darkest secrets. You knew that the relationship with her boyfriend was slowly crumbling away and maybe that's why her mood was changing.

Maybe that was the reason why she has been so mean and angry towards you. Because she knew she couldn't take it out on anyone else. And to be fully honest, you were tired of it.

Every time during touch-ups, she would be on her phone talking, or more like shouting, with her boyfriend about something. Whether it was about time, skills, cheating, or whatever other stupid things, you would hear it all.

So you had just come back from an agonizing fight. You had a pounding headache and you hadn't finished touching up her makeup since she decided to storm off. You sighed and leaned on the wall.

"Bada giving you a hard time again?" You heard a voice and your head snapped to where it came from. There you found Redy leaning against the wall as well with a sweet smile.

You were destined to have the same path but you gave up dancing for your family and you don't regret it since you always had Redy next to you to support your career and goals.

"Yeah. I don't blame her but I'm tired. I can't keep running around trying to get her ready for the camera if she doesn't let me," you said trying to fix up the makeup bag you had on your hand.

"Give her some time. Maybe she's just stressed," Redy said as she helped you put your things in order.

"But everyone here is stressed and not everyone treats me like that. I even do Jam's makeup sometimes and they are under more pressure but they are always nice. BEBE is nice to me as well so I just don't get why she's such an ass," you said causing Redy to chuckle.

"We all express ourselves differently. Is there something you do when she's feeling this way that might trigger her?" She asked.

"No... well... I try to get her mind off things by explaining what I'm doing and showing her the products but that doesn't change the fact that she's rude," you said.

"Ah~ I get it. I think she-"

"Y/N, can you come to touch up my makeup now?" You heard Bada's voice filled with sadness.

"Well, I have to go but I'll see you around," Redy said quickly getting up and walking away. You sighed and hung the bag around your shoulder to walk towards her.

You walked into the hideout and started patting away on her face using your brushes to accentuate her eyes and lips. You added a shadow to her beauty mark to make it pop and carefully curled her lashes with a hot wooden stick.

Suddenly you felt her grab your arm. You panicked thinking you had burned her.

"I'm sorry! Did I burn you? let me see," you panicked looking for aloe gel but she shook her head as she stood up.

"Why are you so quiet today?" She said with her raspy voice.

"Well, I just figured you weren't feeling well so for once I decided to give you some silence. I am also not feeling too well," you said.

"How come you were so chatty with Redy? You even called me an asshole. So, what is it?" Bada asked once more not letting go of your hand.

You dropped the brush as you felt her grip tightened around your wrist.

"Bada, let go. Now I have to wash and disinfect the brush," just as you were about to bend down to pick up the brush, she managed to pull you back up and pull you into her chest.

"Why are you so indifferent towards me?" She said.

"I'm not! Im just tired, okay?" You said as you pulled your wrist away and picked up the brush. You began to gather your things but paused in the process.

Maybe it was time to open up to her. Maybe it was time you told her how you really felt about her.

"I'm tired of always listening to your fights with your boyfriend. I'm tired of having to pick up the pieces. I am tired of having to deal with your attitude when you fight with him. I'm tired of chasing after you. I always have. In middle and high school, when we danced in the same crew, even when I graduated beauty school, I chose to be around you and I'm tired, Bada. I don't deserve this," you said as you closed your bag and swung it over your shoulder.

"I broke up with him," she said and you froze in your spot.

"Why are you telling me this?" You said as you looked through your bag for your car keys.

"You said you've been chasing me and I have to admit that I have been running away. I have been too scared and blind to see that through all my struggles you were right next to me. And you were right. I have been an asshole to you, and no matter how many times I push you away to not hurt you, you are still here. Why?" She asked this time. You felt her walking closer to you.

"Bada, let's not do this right now. you have to be on in fifty minutes and I really don't want you to be distracted," you said swallowing the true words you wanted to say.

She didn't say anything else and you made your way to your car. You knew she wouldn't follow you and you didn't expect her to. You planned to quit which was not your best option. You had no experience outside of being Bada's makeup artist and you were sure she wouldn't vouch for you if you found a new job.

Your thoughts were that she probably enjoyed having you behind her like a lost puppy. Or maybe she really liked your company but whatever it was, you didn't think your heart could take it any longer.

You couldn't believe that after all of these years, she had been so blind to your feelings. To the crazy love you have for her. How could she not see it after fighting your way through beauty school just to be her personal makeup artist?

You bit your lip as the tears threatened to escape your eyes. You couldn't cry. You refused to let anyone see you cry. You started your car and as you were about to drive, you saw a figure stand right in front of your car making you abruptly hit the brakes.

"What is wrong with you!?" You shouted as you honked at the dark figure before you. Suddenly they got in your car and took their hood. It was Bada.

"What are you doing!? I could've killed you. You need to be on that stage!" You said as you hit her arm.

"I don't go on yet. I have thirty minutes but I can't let you go like this. Don't walk away from me. I can't go onstage without you. I need you," she said as she gripped your arm. Her voice was filled with sincerity and her eyes were as teary as yours a few moments ago.

"What about what I need? It's hard enough having to deal with your nagging and attitude. You're never there for me," you said.

"Then let me be. Let me show you that I can be there for you. Let's start over again. Please stay," she said. You couldn't handle it. You were scared she was just messing with you again and the moment you gave in would all be the same.

"Bada don't do that," your last words come out as a sigh. You still refused to face her.

"Do what?" She said softly and you sighed once more in frustration. Turned to her harshly.

"Don't give me false hope. You will never see me the way I have seen you for all these years, Bada and it hurts, okay? It hurts to know that you will never love me the way I love-" Your words were cut short when she grabbed your head and planted her lips on yours.

A million thoughts and emotions rush through your body, making it difficult for you to process what is happening. Your heart was pounding fast and you were scared she might be able to hear it.

But that all went away.

It melted away when she moved her lips. You melted into her arms and moved your lips in sync with hers. Her tongue ran through your bottom lip asking for access that you gladly granted.

Your tongues massaged each other and you finally decided to break the kiss as you gasped for air. She connected your fishers with her not letting go of your face. You could see a small tear escape her eye.

You two shared a moment of stillness when she suddenly kissed your cheek. She placed a soft peck on your nose, your forehead, your chin, and then your lips.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for making you suffer like this. I'm sorry I made you cry and tried to push you away. I'm sorry I used you for my own selfish reasons but... I can't live without you. Don't leave. I can't go on that stage without you," she had you in a warm embrace by this time and you were speechless.

"I have always loved you but I thought my life would only affect your career path. Then you came back to me and I was heartbroken when I saw you look at me dance with a wide smile on your face. I knew how much you wanted to be on stage with me. Please let me love you," she said not letting go of you.

Your soft sobs began to fill the car and she just held you tightly until your cries died down. She slowly broke away from the hug to ensure you were okay.

"Am I dreaming?" You said as you sniffled making her chuckle.

"It's all real. See? It's real," she said as she grabbed your hands and placed them on her face while she kissed them.

"Can you please stay?" She asked one more time. You felt a heavy weight lift off your shoulders. A huge smile was painted across your face and she kissed your tear-stained cheeks.

"I'll stay," you said and a warm smile adorned her face. You two shared a moment till a loud knock interrupted the silence.

"Bada, we need to go now. Share your lovey-dovey moment later!" Tatter said immediately when you rolled down your window.

The three of you quickly rushed to the stage and you tried to fix Bada's smudged lips and your own eye makeup.

That night you saw Bada shine on the stage like never before. Her charisma and smile were radiating and her energy was through the roof all because of you, defeating the opposing team.

After Daniel announced the winner, she blew a kiss at you not caring if there were fans or cameras around. She was finally the happiest she could ever be and she was determined to make you the happier you could ever be, by her side.

Thank you for reading and let me know if want a part 2🩵

[ahollowgrave]

Hey! I love your screenshots so much! Do you have a guide on how you take them? Which mods, if any, do you use? How do you get the camera parallel to the ground at different heights etc? Any help would be amazing. Thank you!

Hey! Thank you! I love them, as well, and it’s always lovely to hear when others do!

Unfortunately, I am not much of a technical writer so I don’t have any guides.The reality is I spend hours and hours taking screenshots and I often feel like I luck into things looking nice.

But I can give you the same tips I give to my friends who have said it’s helpful advice:

Vanilla gpose is very good! You can do a lot in it without the need for 3rd party tools and I’ve found having a good, solid understanding of how gpose works is what really rockets shots into ‘oh wow’ territory. You really just have to touch all the buttons and see what they do and how they interact with each other.

The main thing is, for re/g-shade users: If it doesn’t look good in vanilla lighting, the preset isn’t going to make it suddenly stunning.

The second thing, for everyone, is: Play. Play is very important. If you’re not having fun you’re probably not gonna love the final result. If it feels like a chore, come back to it later! Play a different game!

The third thing, for everyone, is: These are not rules, these are not laws. Just because I do something a certain way doesn’t mean it’s the ‘right’ way to do it. Your eye is what makes your art beautiful.

I'm putting the rest under a cut because this wound up being three pages without the pictures because I ramble.

The parts of vanilla gpose I touch with every shot:

Camera Position: The first slider is your field of view. For portraits I set it to 200, but I tend to fiddle with it in all other shots until I get something I like. The second slider is rotation, very helpful to get to exactly 45 degrees or 90 degrees for shots. But you should also be able to use Q and E to rotate and this is fun to get neat angles on shots! Play with it!!

Depth of Field: I’ll be honest, I turn this sucker off because Reshade has ADOF which I think is better! But, I still suggest playing with this a little bit.

Lighting settings: You have three lights, each with three levels and each able to be a unique color. USE THEM. Find lighting objects in your setting that you can use to base the colors and directions off of. Is the moon full and above? Use a pale blue light as a rim light. 3a. Also, highly recommend looking at RL photography lighting set ups. This has been the most helpful. You can do a lot with three lights!!!!! 3b. Typically, I am mostly using two lights at type 1 or type 2. Sometimes I’ll use a third light, or that type 3 lighting, but it depends heavily upon the vibes. 3c. On this page there is ‘Character Lighting’ this makes your character brighter. I don’t use this at all because it tends to wash out shadows and shadows are an important part of lighting. I DO suggest that YOU use this to see how it works! A little is a lot, you know? 3d. THE MAIN THING IS TO PLAY WITH IT. Get weird with the lighting. Do really intense close up lights! Do funky colors! Cover them in bi lighting!!!!

Lighting Round Two: The one thing that my friends have said is the most helpful is telling them to use the Manual Birghtness Adjustment. This is on the general tab, not with your other lighting settings (circled in red). This controls the light of the WHOLE setting, including the brightness of your three lights. This is what really makes me go OH WOW. Turn it on, wiggle it around, be amazed. (Say it with me: Play with it!)

ADJUST YOUR LIGHTING.

Vanilla Gpose has a Motion Settings tab. This is what I use for my expressions but also a lot of ‘poses’ are just well captured emotes. A lot of this tab should be self explanatory.

The Eyes: The first eye has your subject turn to face the camera. You can have them look in a direction, turn it off, and freely move your camera around. The second eye is eye tracking. This is your friend! The head will stay stationary and the eyes will follow the camera.

Movement: Walk, run, sprint. Forward, left, right, back. Pause, play, reset.

Lip Movements: This, in junction with expression emotes, is very handy! Type 1 is minimal, type 3 is a lot more head movement. Pause, play, reset buttons.

Emotes: You already know what I’m gonna say. PLAY WITH THIS. Almost every emote can have an expression emote overlaid it and have lip movement added.

A personal favorite is /aback, /beam, lip movement 2, eye tracking.

Now. When you enter Gpose your subject is gonna be doing the animation they were last doing. To stop this, ground sit and stand before you enter gpose to start with a clean slate. However, this is also how you can get cool action shots. Using a dummy you can use an attack, reset the dummy, and enter gpose and your subject will be flailing wildly.

Some of the emotes and actions can move very quickly! To move things frame by frame we’re going to use the Disable/Enable Motion buttons. You have two of these at the top of the gpose settings.

Disable/Enable All Motion - This will pause or start all the motion of all the targets in your gpose! My Keybinding for this is 1 and I think this is the default for PC users. Disable/Enable Target Motion - This will pause or start the motion of your current target. (Tab cycles through the characters caught in your gpose.) My Keybinding for this is 2 and I think this is the default for PC users.

To go frame by frame by frame through an emote or action you’re going to freeze the character (1) and then, rapidly, you’re going to hit 1 then 2. (1 2 1 2 1 2 1 2) this unfreezes your subject and then refreezes them. Be mindful of your eye tracking and camera! One last thing: Take a LOT of shots. From all sorts of angles, with all sorts of lighting, with different expression. For every 1 screenshot I post there are about a 100 others that I didn't like as much.

Whew, okay, I think that covers the stuff I tell my friends. Sorry this got kinda long and it might be confusing because, again, I am no technical writer!

Now, I do use 3rd party tools but I’m only comfortable talking about those off anon! Other than Reshade. I understand social anxiety might keep folks from asking directly but I am a nervous person myself and just do not feel comfy talking about that stuff so publicly. But I try to be helpful where and when I can!

Apologies, anon, if this isn’t what you were hoping for in a reply but if anyone else reads this maybe they’ll learn a new trick or idea of idk something!!!

If you read the all thing that's fucking WILD and the only reward I have for you is my love !!

[lovewithmary]

(not) moving on — a max verstappen x stark!oc x charles leclerc series

★ fc: madison beer ☆ summary: evangeline "evie" stark is in love with her best friend, max verstappen, but he tries his best to keep her at arm's length. but what happens when she starts to get close to his fellow drivers in the paddock? ★ notes: I know I said you guys would choose the chapter BUT this one got away from me and I got impatient

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"Charles Leclerc, you are the world champion!"

Charles and Max stood on the 1st and 2nd podium respectively, followed by Lando on the 3rd. "You think she's watching?" Charles whispered to Max, who nodded while waving at the crowd.

Unfortunately, due to the agreement they and Evie had, Evie wasn't going to attend any races until their relationship was going to be revealed. The three of them had it all planned, so Max and Charles were now counting down the days until they could finally tell the public that Evie Stark was theirs.

They could've easily told the public that they were all together, but the three of them knew that their relationship was going to face some sort of backlash, especially with Evie being the only girl in the relationship. And the backlash would grow, especially when Stark Industries became a sponsor and then Charles became a driver for Red Bull.

Evie was fully aware and prepared for the hate she was going to receive, but Charles and Max were a bit apprehensive. No matter how much she tried to reassure them that she could handle the hate, they were nervous for her. So, to compromise, they were going to announce their relationship once the excitement of Charles being the new Redbull driver died down.

The sound of cameras clicking was all they could hear, so Max and Charles stood next to each other then Max rested his hand against Charles' back whilst they both held up their hands.

Once they got the signal, Charles and Max picked up their champagne bottles and started spraying each other and Lando, to which the McLaren driver tried to retaliate.

When the champagne started running out, Max took off his hat and started to shake his hair, droplets of champagne flinging in different directions. He saw that Charles was not doing the same thing, but he saw something or someone that made him stop.

"Schat?" Max blurted out without thinking, making Charles and Lando stop.

"Eva's here?"

"Mate, I know you're older than me but your vision should not be this bad—"

"Don't finish your sentence, Norris. But I'm serious, I think I see her," Max interrupted Lando.

Charles and Lando looked and they saw Evie standing near Christian and Geri, the Stark girl smirking at the sight of them looking at her and giving them a playful wave.

Max and Charles gave a look at each other, and the both of them immediately understood each other as they left the podium and made a beeline to the crowd to Evie. "I thought we were following the plan?" Charles asked.

"Well, I lied. Oops, my bad?" Evie shrugged and smiled at the two.

Charles then grabbed onto her and began kissing her, ignoring the whispers and gasps they were getting from the people around them. Evie yelped at the sudden movement but quickly kissed back, wrapping her arms around his neck.

They pulled away and her expression was one of disgust. "You taste like champagne," she said.

"My turn," Max said, and turned Evie to kiss her as well. He tried pulling her as close as he could to him as possible, her hands resting on his face while they kissed.

Once they had pulled away, Evie looked kind of dazed. "What happened to waiting?" she asked, referring to their compromise.

"Oops," Max started.

"Our bad," Charles finished.

eviestark's instagram

liked by maxverstappen1, charles_leclerc, and 34032012 others eviestark: who knew my type was world champions? 💜

but in all honesty, I'm proud of both of my boyfriends. they've worked tirelessly to get to this moment and I'm so happy to have witnessed this in person. here's to many more wdcs, boys, I love you both so much 💜

tagged: maxverstappen1 charles_leclerc

comments

charles_leclerc: amor 💜 ↳ eviestark: amore 💜 liked by eviestark

maxverstappen1: schat 💜 ↳ eviestark: maxie 💜 liked by eviestark

user1: evie disappears for a fucking year only for her to come back to reveal that she's dating two f1 drivers??? ↳ user2: AT LEAST NAME THE DRIVERS. MAX VERSTAPPEN AND CHARLES LECLERC

user3: are u going to disappear again 😭 I don't think I can handle you disappearing again ↳ charles_leclerc: not if we can help it ↳ maxverstappen1: she has to attend as many races as she can now that our relationship has been revealed ↳ eviestark: there's your answer 😭😭

user4: THIS WAS NOT IN MY BINGO CARD FOR THIS YEAR

user5: WE ALL THOUGHT HER AND CHARLES BROKE UP BUT THE TRUTH IS SO MUCH MORE INTERESTING??? ↳ user6: they said fuck love triangles and let's love each other ❤️

user7: okay but how did tony react? ↳ eviestark: well, before we told him, max and charles were shitting their pants bc of how nervous they were. but he patted them on the back and said, "good luck" 🙄 ↳ maxverstappen1: correction*** we weren't that nervous ↳ charles_leclerc: ^^ we were calm ↳ eviestark: translation: the both of them nearly ran out of the room when they saw my dad ↳ user9: LMAOOOOO TONY STARK IS SO UNSERIOUS 😭 ↳ user11: NOT EVIE EXPOSING HER BOYFRIENDS

user8: considering evie got stark industries to invest in red bull racing, is it fair to say that charles and max are the sugar babies?? ↳ eviestark: yeah ↳ charles_leclerc: yes ↳ maxverstappen1: definitely

user12: I can't even get one boyfriend, evie has 2 😭

user13: okay but do you live in new york or monaco now??? ↳ eviestark: it was 2 against 1 and no matter how much I tried to convince them, I moved with them to monaco :(

user14: SHE WAS AT THE RACE??? ↳ user15: I WAS THERE AND NO ONE KNEW SHE WAS THERE UNTIL CHARLES AND MAX RUSHED TO HER AND GAVE HER KISSES 😭

user16: "here's to many more wdcs, boys, I love you both so much 💜" I'M SLEEPING ON THE HIGHWAY TONIGHT

user17: is no one gonna talk about how many times SkySports replayed their kisses??? they had different angles and everything ↳ user18: they even captured christian looking at them in disgust (like a dad) and geri smiling at them

landonorris: will never forgive charles and max for leaving me on the stage and looked like an idiot by myself ↳ eviestark: they don't even need to do anything and you already look like an idiot ↳ landonorris: never visit the paddock, please ↳ eviestark: too late, I'll go to annoy you ↳ maxverstappen1: only to annoy lando? ↳ charles_leclerc: there are better people to see at the paddock, amor ↳ eviestark: don't worry, I won't forget about you guys 💜 ↳ landonorris: stop fucking flirting under my comments 😭🙄

[moumouton4]

having an itachi brainrot so i was wondering if i could request an itachi and fem reader nsfw where you two are recording a sex tape and at first he’s super shy and timid but once he gets comfortable he starts to praise you to the camera etc I NEED IT PLEASE

Imagine Recording A Sex Tape || Itachi Uchiha x fem!reader

A/n : I almost didn't write it. But then I thought about it and fuck it was so good in the end ! Thank you so much for the request ! I hope you'll like it 🌹

Warnings : sex tape, penetrative sex, missionary, cowgirl, praising, vanilla sex, rough sex, mention of urges, bredding kink, mention of masturbation, 18+ READERS ONLY and wrap it before you tap it

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I don’t give permission to repost my work, if you want to share it just reblogue it

Word count : 1477

You got the idea a little while ago when you were reading the last volume of Icha Icha

Since then each time you pleasured yourself or went at it with your boyfriend you couldn’t help but think what if you had put a camera there to record you

I mean it was a way of keeping memories right ? You’d just have to hide them really well for no one stumbling on the proof of your intimacy by accident

From the beginning you knew it wasn’t something he’d easily be comfortable with or accept

I mean he is overall really vanilla and reserved. He's not very adventurous in this area and prefers to stick to simple things where he's sure he's in control. The mere thought of it makes his face and neck flush with embarrassment

Unless he’s having those urges to mate like any young Uchiha men - that leaves him out of breath and especially flustered ( yes that’s one of my own hc )

So you made the gears in your brain work at full speed, looking for the right situation and the right words to ask him to join you in this fantasy of yours

So you waited, waited, waited… until ✨ the perfect day ✨

You had just returned from a short errand when you saw him cooking. You took a few steps before coming up behind him and wrapping your arms around his slim waist, bringing a smile to his lips

With your head resting against his chest, you couldn't help saying "Say, it'd be a good idea for us to make more memories of each other, don't you think ? More photos and videos..."

"Sure, that's a good idea" he really liked the idea of having memories of you that you could look at on a stormy day, sheltered under a soft blanket

"We could even extend this to the bedroom, it might add some spice" you tested the temperature with this request

"T-to the b-bedroom ?" he replied, the flustered shift clear in his voice

"Yes, you know when we-"

"I-I understood at first t-thank you" he stuttered

“So what do you say ?” you questioned excitedly

“I-I don’t know…that’s… new” he said, his hands staying momentaneously still. As if your proposal had kept him from thinking

“Yeah but that could be funnnnn” you trailed, nuzzling your face in his stomach

A wide smile crept of his face at your affection, he still looked unsure though “Maybe… I-I’ll consider it”

And from this moment you knew he was willing to try. In his mind, you had adapted to his urges very quickly, so he wanted to give his best when you came up with new ideas

He hides it very well but he's kinda impatient. The times before you introduced him to doggy style and cowgirl, and now they're classics for you - gosh he loves seeing you on top, it makes you hold so much power over both your releases, it's intoxicating

Meanwhile you are so cute. You’re so invested you buy 2 little cameras - dark so that they will blend into the dark - because Itachi prefers to do it in a subdued atmosphere - except during the urges when he's literally taking you everywhere he can - so that he doesn't feel he's being watched

When the D day comes though he struggles to really get comfortable. At first he doesn’t manage to be fully hard due to the anxiety creeping on him - so cute 🥺

“It’s fine we don’t have to use them just today. I can switch them off” you proposed

“N-no I need to make it” he said and despite his hushed tone you knew he really meant it. He was a winner and he wasn’t going to back down from a camera

Of course you do your best to help him relax and be fully hard. The foreplay lasts a little longer than usual, but that's okay. You like having him in your mouth and he likes being in your mouth

Once you’re both ready, you two get into position. You decide to go for a missionary - something you know he is fully comfortable with - to be sure that he enjoy himself even with the eye of the camera on him

When he starts to move, his comings and goings are a little slower than usual, so he needs a little time to adjust. But as time goes by, they get faster and faster, and finally, after about ten minutes, they reach their usual pace

Your idea of starting with a position he's used to works pretty well. You can tell from his hold on you that he's enjoying it, even if he's still holding back his moans.

But when the pressure becomes too much, his head comes to nestle in your neck, where he finally lets out some grunts - to your great delight.

After a moment, when it felt right you agreed on changing position. And this time your were the one of top - his weakness ahah

As arousal started to cloud his judgment, he felt his inhibitions vanish. His hands grabbed your hips and with his arms he dragged you back and forth onto his dick to get you into a good rhythm

His thoughts started to wander and he wondered why he had never wondered about what you guys looked like when you were making love - maybe because he was too shy. But there he couldn't help but think that the cameras will provide him with different points of view from his own. And he felt himself throb inside you at the mere thought of seeing your body arch into his, responding to his every touches

Without realizing it, he began to be more vocal, letting his sounds and moans escape like so many other times when you usually go at it. As he lost himself in an ocean of pleasure, his hips responded to your rocking as he thrust upwards

"That's what you wanted, isn't it Y/n ? For me to take you like this and for you to see it on video later" each of his words was followed by deep thrusts that left you breathless "As if that wasn't enough. As if you wanted more"

"Hhh Itachi I-" you tried to speak

You felt him grips your thighs tighter “But if you want more I’ll give it to you then” and with that he he pressed his feet into the mattress and gave you strong, hard thrusts

“Tell my little vixen is that enough for you ? Do you think you can take it ?” he teased not stopping his assault a seconde

A trail of curses and whimpers escaped your lips as you tried to anchor yourself with something. Though you did your best to keep responding to his actions

“Look at you giving your best for the camera mmh ? What a good little actress” he praised you making you tighten even further around him

“You must have fantasized about it a lot, didn’t you ?” you nodded weakly feeling your release coming

As your body arched his eyes grew hungrier “That’s it. Arch yourself it’s going to look so good”

In the end, his words and his rough thrusts got the better of you and you came undone in his arms. It only took a few more thrusts for him to follow you

And as if by magic, the sweet, shy Itachi had returned. He helped you down from his softening length and helped you to rest on his chest

Thinking back to what he'd said, he turned crayfish red "Was that an urge ? No no it didn't feel like it. It was less powerful - less animalistic. Was it the thrill of trying something new ? Maybe..." he thought

After that, he's so flustered, he makes sure the tape is hidden in a locked box, itself in a locked box, itself in a safe, itself buried in your garden

You explain to him that it won't be possible to dig up the box every time

"Every t-time ?!?" he almost squeaked

"Well it looked like you enjoyed yourself back there" you winked at him

"S-stop teasing me Y/n" he said hiding his face once more in the crook of your neck

But he can't help wanting to see the video right away. He's far too curious... he's way to shy to ask for it though. You may one day stumble on him watching it alone... jerking off

One thing's for sure though, one day the camera's going to be on during one of his urges and you can't wait to see how he pounds the fuck out of you, in those moments where he only thinks about one thing, stuffing you with his cum

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Taglist : @foxxymunson, @cl0vr, @ilovemanypeople, @glossy1pearl, @jane57sstuff

[adriswrld]

Retirement » Jay White ⁰¹

plot: jay white finds out abt reader's potential retirement at wrestlekingdom 17

trope: friends to lovers / he fell first, but she fell harder

pairings: wrestler reader x jay white / reader x (platonic) bullet club

a/n: he's hubby your honor 🤝 reader used to be in bullet club when kenny was leader btw! atp, y'all should just expect to see my oc azalea playing the best friend 😭

THIS WILL HAVE TWO PARTS!! THIS IS PART ONE!

"How's your neck feeling?" Sean, Y/N's personal camera man had asked after turning on the camera and filming. As she and her best friend who is also a WWE wrestler shared a YouTube channel, they were filming an episode of Y/N experience for WrestleKingdom 17. "Well, my neck is literally killin' me so I hope that doesn't effect my match later cause if it does the blame could go on Kairi and I don't want that obviously. People tend to blame the opponent if the champion has a bad match." Y/N shrugged, picking up her phone to check the time.

"I'm gonna get freshened up and then we will be leaving soon to pick up Azalea from the airport. I showered last night so don't even try to say anything." Y/N said, pointing at the camera before Sean switched it off. "I'll be waiting in the lobby, Y/N." Sean said, heading to the door and Y/N gave a nod with a tired smile. Y/N rubbed her neck with a tired groan, still hating that retirement was in the rear view for her. But if she wanted to preserve her neck, she had no choice.

Two hours later, Y/N was standing in the airport with Sean, Mercedes and Trinity as they waited for Pamela (Bayley) and Azalea to arrive. "Are you okay? You keep rubbing your neck?" Mercedes asked in a concerned tone.

"Oh yeah I'm fine, just a bit sore." Y/N lied, glancing at Sean who already knew the truth but understood why she was keeping it a secret. Before anything else could be said, they noticed Pamela and Azalea jog over to them after grabbing their luggage. Azalea grinned and pulled Y/N into a hug, Sean getting it all on video. "I am running completely on energy drinks right now so I'm little jittery," she said.

"Oh it's alright, Iz." Y/N reassured and Azalea pulled away to greet Mercedes and Trinity. Pam smiled and pulled Y/N into a hug, "It's so good to see you again. How are you doing?" Pam asked, pulling away gently, almost as if she was trying to be careful with Y/N and that made Y/N think Izzy might have told her about her neck issues.

"I'm doing alright, thank you for asking. Just a bit exhausted but I'll be okay." Y/N said, giving Pam a reassuring smile. "I'm so sorry I won't be able to join you all, I've got lots of things I've got to do today, I really wish I could join all though. Maybe tomorrow I can join you," Y/N spoke as they had all been discussing where to eat.

"It's okay, Y/N, we understand. We'll be alright," Azalea reassured and the three women plus Sean nodded in agreement with her. "All right. Just be careful, and have fun," Y/N said, hugging Izzy goodbye before gesturing for Sean to come on with her.

"It's probably just me but am I the only one noticing how much her moods changed? Like, she's not as happy and cheerful like she's always been, plus she keeps rubbing her neck like somethings wrong," Mercedes spoke as they walked towards the exit together. Azalea sighed and stopped everyone, causing them to all turn to look at her. "Don't tell anyone this but, ever since she broke her neck, she hasn't exactly fully recovered yet," Izzy explained.

"But the doctors said she was cleared?" Trinity added in confusion.

"She was, but a few weeks ago she started getting really bad neck pain so we went to the doctors and they said something was wrong. They said she was cleared but when she started wrestling it appeared that she didn't fully heal. It's actually extremely dangerous for her to still be wrestling. It's kinda like what happened with Paige's neck. It's why she was so urgent on dropping the title to you." Pam, Mercedes and Trinity were all to shocked and concerned to even speak.

"Does that mean she's retiring?" Pam questioned.

"Look, I'm not saying that she's retiring, but it's definitely in the near future for her. She obviously doesn't want to, but it's what's best for her health." Azalea corrected with a small shrug. She was the last person who wanted Y/N to retire but Y/N's health was more important than that. At least she got to say she had the greatest match of her career with her best friend.

"That does explain why she hasn't been in the happiest of moods," Mercedes mumbled sadly.

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"I called my very good friend Okada to help me out for my match yesterday but I just got off the phone with him and unfortunately he couldn't make it. But, as we are already here, I figured why not just train with Sean," Y/N said and Sean smiled. "It's gonna be a pain but I could use the training," Sean agreed and Y/N chuckled and nodded in agreement.

"It's supposed to be closed as of now but I was given a key a long time ago in case I ever needed it. So, let's go inside." Y/N smiled as she unlocked the doors and entered the building. As they walked in it appeared the lights were already on so someone must've already been there. "Oh it looks like someone's already here," Y/N said quietly.

They could hear voices and Y/N couldn't help but find those very familiar. She could pick out El Phantasmo and Jay White's voice anywhere. "I knew I heard my boys," Y/N grinned as the two men both turned to look at her, immediately growing smiles once they saw her. "No way, is it the one and only Bullet Club Princess?" ELP aka Riley grinned and slid out of the ring, walking towards Y/N with open arms.

"Aye, former BC Princess. Not anymore." Y/N playfully corrected as she ran into his open arms. "Oh come on, you'll always be the BC Princess." Riley playfully nudged her once they pulled away and he shook Sean's hand with a polite grin.

Jay sat on the ring, a small smirk tugged at the corner of his lips as he watched Y/N walk towards him. "Still a cocky lil shit, aren't you? Not gonna come and greet me like a gentleman?" Y/N joked, getting Jay to crack a small laugh as he jumped down and let Y/N bring him into a small hug. "Nice to see you again, princess." Jay mumbled into her hair causing her to mentally freak out but she held her usual chill composure.

"Mmm, nice to see you too, Jamie." Y/N pulled away and Jay threw her arm around her, pulling her into his side like it was a normal interaction. "You know you can still call me Jay, right?" Jay raised his brows, still obviously confused on why she used his real name. "Nah, I like Jamie," Y/N winked, flashing a smile, he shook his head in amusement and didn't argue with that.

"So, what are you guys doing here anyways?" Riley questioned, choosing not to tease Jay for his crush on Y/N.

"I originally was suppose to train with Okada this morning to prepare for my match but he got busy so he had cancel. Figured I'd just train with Sean," Y/N informed, crossing her arms over her chest. Sean nodded, confirming her statement as he held the camera. "You can join us then, Riley was helping me train for my match with Okada anyways." Jay offered, Riley also agreeing with him.

"Sounds good." Y/N accepted.

Sean and Riley trained in one ring as Jay and Y/N were training together in the other ring. Riley was helping Sean improve in his wrestling so that was a huge help for him. "I haven't figured out how I wanted the match to finish, you know? All I know is that I really want to pay a tribute to Kenny and Azalea in the match, but I already figured that out," Y/N said to Jay as they discussed how she wanted her match to go with Kairi Sane.

Jay licked the front of his teeth, wondering if Y/N was still involved with Kenny. "Oh, uh are you and Kenny still, ya know?" Y/N's eyes widened slightly, knowing where he was going with that and immediately shook her head. "Definitely not, we ended things in like early 2019. We're still extremely good friends though, he's always been one of my biggest supporters." Y/N pursed her lips, silently wondering why Jay asked about Kenny. "Why?" She questioned.

"Just wondering," Jay shrugged it off but Y/N was still a bit suspicious.

"Well, we should continue now, I want to be at the dome early," Y/N said, getting back on track. "Yeah of course." Y/N stood up from sitting on the middle rope, "Can I borrow the blade runner?"

"I'm not sure, you technically never joined my bullet club," Jay pursed his lips sarcastically and Y/N hit his shoulder playfully with a laugh. "You turned on Kenny, how could I possibly join your club without it seeming like I'm betraying him?" Y/N pointed out as she circled him.

"Easy. You could've just chose me. I would've treat you better anyways." Jay said, adding a little truth to his words. Y/N glanced down in thought, thinking into what he said.

"All right, let's get back to it."

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"Oh my god, your hair looks so beautiful, what the fuck," Y/N spoke as she entered the room Mercedes was in. "You like it?" Mercedes smiled, pulling Y/N into a side hug but being careful with her neck. "I love it. It looks amazing on you. It's like you burning the blue hair, putting that in your past and opening a new chapter as Mercedes, yeah?" Y/N asked. "Dude you got it perfectly. Yes, that's exactly what it means."

"I'm gonna get goin' but you call me if you need anything sweets." Y/N said, patting Mercedes's shoulder. "I will, thank you."

Y/N walked out of the room with her suitcase, going towards her personal locker room to drop her suitcase and bags off. "All right, now we are going to go search for the lovely Azalea who I'm sure is around here somewhere. She said she was by the ring since we last texted." Alice spoke, her hands tucked into her pockets of her joggers as Sean followed her with the camera.

"It's so amazing being here again. All the memories I've had here is just so surreal to me. It's gonna really hurt when I perform here for the last time. I'm just glad it's gonna be against Kairi. She's one of my greatest friends." Y/N and Sean both walked down to the ring, immediately did she spot Azalea talking with surprisingly, Jay White. She knew they never even met each other so that was kinda a shock to her seeing them in a deep conversation.

As Y/N walked up to them, Jay turned to look at her, "Why didn't you tell me you're retiring?"

Y/N blinked, being caught off guard with the sudden question. Y/N looked at Azalea with accusing eyes, "I'm sorry babe, but he was asking me why you always looked like you were in pain when you trained. He's really convincing, I'm sorry." Azalea frowned, suddenly feeling bad for telling Jay what was going on when Y/N trusted her with that information.

Y/N sighed, running a hand down her face exhaustion. "I'm not retiring, okay? We don't even know that for sure. Doctors just said that my wrestling days are limited if it keeps getting worse," Y/N explained. "Then why are you wrestling tonight if you know it can end your career? Are you insane, Y/N? Just drop the title before you permanently damage your neck." Jay argued, not understanding why she wasn't listening to everyone's warnings.

"I can't!" Y/N snapped, then taking a few breaths to calm herself down before she got even more upset and said something she might regret. "This is my legacy, Jay. This is my story and if I'm gonna go out, it's gonna be on my terms. Whether it ends tonight or next month, it's on my terms. You can hate me for it all you want, but it's my decision. Now if you'll excuse me, I've got to go see my friends cause it might be a while before we see each other again." Y/N plastered on a fake smile and walked past them to go find Okada.

Jay ran a hand down his hair, frustrated but also hurt that Y/N wasn't at least making an effort to preserve her career. "You're in love with her, aren't you?" Izzy tilted her head curiously, making Jay immediately turn to look at her. "Where did you get that idea from?" Jay scoffed in denial.

"Oh I don't know, maybe the fact that you seem to care about her more than you're letting on. And, I've watched her old YouTube videos of her backstage with the Bullet Club and I couldn't help but notice everytime she was with Kenny, you always held that jealous glint in your eyes. She even told me how you tried to convince her to join your bullet club. It was so insanely obvious. You're kinda lucky she's a little oblivious." Azalea smiled sarcastically as Jay rolled his eyes.

"Fine, maybe you're right. But, don't tell her, I plan on telling her myself, tonight." Jay stuck out his hand so they could shake on it, it took her a moment to think before ultimately shaking his hand in agreement.

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Y/N paced back and forth nervously, her title strapped around her waist as she watched the TV where Kairi Sane was making her entrance. "You can do this, just go out there, don't fall, don't be stiff, show everyone why you're the best. Do what you do best, win, wrestle and entertain." Y/N spoke to herself, trying her hardest to motivate herself but she was failing miserably, growing more anxious by the second.

"Hey, Y/N. Are you okay?" Jay walked up to them and Sean took it as a sign to let the two talk alone.

"Do I honestly look okay?" Y/N deadpanned then frowned, not liking when she came off as rude. "I'm sorry, that was rude. I'm just freaking out, or panicking or something, I don't know," Y/N rambled, breathing heavily, she leaned on the wall behind her.

"Shit, okay I was gonna do this later," Jay mumbled to himself before placing his hands on her shoulders and her hands went up to his arms. "What are you?-" Jay cut her off, pressing his lips gently against hers, in the process, distracting her from all her previous thoughts. Y/N practically melted into the kiss, immediately placing her hands on his, she kissed back. Hearing her music begin to play, they both pulled away and before she could get a word out, one of the workers dragged her away and up the stairs.

"What happened to waiting till after the show?" Jay jumped slighly hearing Azalea's voice, turning around he noticed her leaning against the wall with crossed arms. "I was trying to calm her down," Jay defended.

"Dude, you realized that literally could destroy her entire focus on the match? You better hope nothing bad happens, if it does, I'm kicking your ass," Azalea stated before walking off to go watch the match with Trinity and Pamela in the stands where they couldn't be caught on any cameras as it went against hers and Pam's contracts with the WWE.

"Shit," Jay muttered, running a hand down his hair.

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Y/N took a deep breath, trying to get a breath in as she just superplexed Kairi off the top rope and immediately performed a Blade Runner after. The match was almost over and it was one hell of a match. Kairi was killing it and some even thought she might actually just pull a win over the champion. But, Y/N wasn't gonna let that happen. She had to admit, the kiss was a little distracting. It was just so sudden and unexpected. She didn't even think Jay was single after seeing those rumors about him with a new girlfriend.

Y/N crawled over to Kairi, attempting a cover but Kairi kicked out at two. "Fuck! Just give up!" Y/N leaned against the ropes, running a hand over her hair in frustration.

Kairi stood up tiredly and immediately ran and knee'd Y/N before she could block it. She dragged Y/N to the turnbuckles and began to climb up the rope. The crowd automatically assumed it was over for Y/N the minute Kairi hit the insane elbow. But, as Kairi performed it, Y/N got her knees up at the last second. Kairi groaned and Y/N stood up and jumped onto the top rope, performing her finisher, the Royalty Deathdrop. It was basically a backflip off the top rope into a DDT.

She hit it perfectly. "ONE..TWO..THREE!" Y/N grinned and tiredly crawled to the bottom rope, attempting to pull herself up as they announced her name as the winner. The official handed her the title and raised her hand before she immediately collapsed back onto the mat, barely able to hold herself up. Her body was battered and bruised so it was surprising that she wasn't even unconscious.

Kairi stood up and immediately went towards Y/N, extending her hand in respect towards her competitor. The crowd watched in anticipation, waiting to see if Y/N would accept her hand. Y/N hesitantly took Kairi's hand and the crowd applaused. Kairi pulled the taller woman up and raised her hand, showing a sign of respect for the retaining champion.

All until Y/N's hand dropped, the music hit. The music of Mercedes Moné.

The crowd cheered, obviously most knowing who she was. Y/N sat down on the middle turnbuckle, watching as Mercedes ascended down the entrance ramp. Kairi stood near Y/N as they watched Mercedes enter the ring. A whole new look on her, she was almost unrecognizable if you seen her as Sasha Banks in WWE. This was an entirely different woman and she wasn't here to play games. She was here to make history, money and win championships.

Kairi looked at Y/N silently asking if she wanted her to stay. Y/N shook her head, waving her off and Kairi stepped out of the ring, letting Y/N handle her business. Y/N stepped up, not liking the disrespect of Mercedes. She didn't have to say anything, she just raised her IWGP Women's Championship right in the face of Mercedes, not backing down to her.

Mercedes stuck her hand out, Y/N looking at it in suspicion. She took it hesitantly and Mercedes smiled as they shook hands. A show of respect. Y/N went to pull her hand away but Mercedes held it tightly so she couldn't let go. She pulled Y/N in, making her drop the title and performed what looked to be a gory bomb only it was straight into a DDT. Y/N groaned as she hit the mat, selling it perfectly so it made Mercedes look like a huge threat.

Mercedes walked over to the title and slowly picked it up, then dropped it onto Y/N's barely conscious body. "Give me a mic," Mercedes stuck her hand out, leaning between the ropes, they quickly handed her a microphone and she slowly made her way back to Y/N.

"Y/N, awee, congratulations on making history tonight, once again. I also know a thing or two about making history," Mercedes grinned, the crowd cheering for her. "I am here, in New Japan and Stardom to make some more. Allow me to introduce myself. I'm the standard. The conversation. The blueprint, and the CEO of this women's division."

Mercedes kneeled down next to Y/N's body, the champion not even attempting to get up or open her eyes. "So Y/N-San, enjoy your IWGP Women's Championship while you can. Because at Battle in the Valley at San José. Imma leave you bankrupt bitch. And you can bank on Moné." Mercedes took the championship and lifted it up, throwing the mic to the side as her music played.

Y/N rolled out of the ring once Mercedes made her way out. She grabbed her championship and let one of the officials help her walk to the back. She held an ice pack against her neck, as Azalea rushed up towards her and Sean obviously shortly behind with the camera. "I need to lay down," Y/N spoke, letting Azalea help her walk towards her locker room rather than run to do the press conference. They could hold it back a few minutes for Y/N like they always did.

"I love you, but you need to chill out with these extreme matches. If this next one is your last, don't hurt yourself worse trying to prove yourself. You had thousands of people watching you tonight, I'm pretty damn sure they know you're the best." Azalea said, handing the title to Sean for him to hold it until they got to the room.

"I know, I'm sorry. I'll take it down a notch next time. Sean, you can turn off the camera, I don't wanna film right now." Y/N leaned her head on Azalea's shoulder in exhaustion, not seeing that Jay was standing outside her locker room door. But, Azalea and Sean noticed him.

"I'm gonna go get the ice, lots of ice," Sean excused himself, leaving Azalea to deal with that by herself.

"I need to unlock the door so I need you to hold yourself up for a few seconds, okay?" Azalea slowly moved Y/N's arm from her shoulder and instead of Y/N supporting herself, Jay immediately went to hold her up. Y/N looked at him and sighed, watching tiredly as Azalea hurriedly unlocked the door to the locker room.

"You're probably gonna need a cat scan," Azalea mumbled, opening the door and Jay helped Y/N inside. Azalea switched on the lights as Jay helped Y/N lay down on the couch. "After the amount of neck bumps she took, I'm surprised she didn't break it," Jay added. Azalea pursed her lips, agreeing with him and Y/N tiredly hit his shoulder. "Don't be an ass. I had to make it look like it was killing me," Y/N muttered.

"I'm pretty sure it was killing you considering you can barely stand on your own," Azalea deadpanned.

Y/N rolled her eyes and moved the ice pack from her neck to her forehead. "The match looked good though, yeah?" Despite her current situation, she still loved wrestling and absolutely loved being out there in front of an audience. Nothing could ever take away her love and passion for the sport. Retirement or not. She would always appreciate it.

"You never had one bad match and it hasn't changed yet," Jay spoke before Azalea could respond to her friend. As Y/N went to say something, the door opened and in walked Sean with the ice packs and Mercedes. "Got the ice, and a visitor," Sean tossed the ice to Izzy who caught it with ease before he grabbed the camera and turned it back on.

"Hey, I didn't see you backstage so I got worried. And I noticed you could barely walk so I wanted to come check on you." Mercedes kneeled down next to the couch as Jay moved out of the way for her. Y/N sat up slowly, still trying to control her breathing. "You didn't have to, but I appreciate it. How are you feeling?" Y/N smiled, taking Mercedes's hands in her own.

"I feel like I'm on top of the world. This is all I've ever wanted and honestly, I'm still processing it all. In a way, I finally feel free, ya know?" Mercedes smiled as she spoke, still running on adrenaline from her debut. It completely took her mind off the fact that she was possibly gonna be the one to retire Y/N at Battle in the Valley.

"I understand completely. I'm literally so proud of you, I could cry. You deserve to live your dream, you deserve all of this. Don't let anyone tell you different. You belong here." Y/N stated, being filled with nothing but joy for Mercedes. She couldn't have been more proud of her.

Mercedes smiled, feeling a tear fall that Y/N wiped away. "Thank you so much. For everything." Mercedes said, blinking away her tears.

"You don't have to thank me. Just show me who Mercedes Moné is, and that's all I need." Mercedes chuckled and nodded, being gentle as she hugged Y/N. "I can't wait to beat you," Mercedes teased, pulling away with a smirk.

"All right, don't get all cocky now." Y/N scoffed lightly in a joking manner.

Mercedes snickered and stood back up, now turning her attention to Jay as Y/N leaned forward for Azalea to press the ice against her bag. "I don't think we've met yet. I'm Mercedes, it's nice to meet you," Mercedes smiled humbly as she stuck out her hand.

"Jay, it's nice to meet you as well. I've heard great things," Jay shook her hand gently with a warm smile.

"Well, I should get going. Imma let you rest and we'll meet up tomorrow?" Mercedes said towards Y/N. "Sure thing," Y/N nodded. Mercedes and Azalea shared a hug before she exited the locker room.

"You two have five minutes, then you need to do the conference and we can go back to the hotel or finish watching the show. I'm sure you don't wanna miss Kenny and Will's match." Azalea said before grabbing Sean and exiting the room to let the two discuss the elephant in the room.

Y/N cleared her throat, and patted her hand on the couch, telling Jay to sit down. His sigh was barely heard as he took a seat next to the woman he'd been in love with since their first interaction. "I'm sorry I kissed you. I definitely shouldn't have done that without your consent, that was extremely out of line," he began, causing Y/N to turn her body towards him, groaning at the pain in the process. She had never been so sore in her life. That was another reminder that she had to hang up the boots sooner than later.

"I'm not mad that you kissed me, Jamie." Y/N cut him off, using her left hand to move his face to look at her. "You're not?" Jay feigned confusion, being so sure that she was upset with him. After all, she hadn't spoken to him until Azalea left, which kinda forced them to have to talk.

"No. I'm mad that you didn't do it sooner," Y/N said, catching Jay off guard completely. Jay blinked, not sure if he heard that right or if his mind was playing games on him. "I can't tell if you're serious or not. Can you repeat that again?" He asked, being serious but not at the same time.

Y/N chuckled but stopped when she felt the pain in her stomach. "Look, I've always liked you, from the minute we met. But I wasn't in love with you," Jay's face fell hearing that but she placed her hand on his, silently telling him to keep listening. "I was so obsessed with thinking Kenny was the one for me because I genuinely never experienced love before him. I told myself so many times that he was the person I've always wanted when in reality, he wasn't at all."

"Then when we broke up and a month later I came back to Japan, you and I met up and I finally realized what was in front of my face the entire time. You always cared about me, and checked in after every match and that's something nobody else even bothered to do. You treated me exactly like I thought Kenny would. And I'm so sorry for realizing that way too late. I've always loved you, and when I found out you had a girlfriend, it was too late to tell you that I was in love with you."

Y/N wiped a tear that fell from her cheek, never being a fan of crying even if it was a happy tear. Jay furrowed his brows in confusion, processing what she just said, "I'm sorry, did you say girlfriend?" He questioned.

"Yeah, why? There was reports on Twitter that you had some secret girlfriend or whatever," Y/N shrugged. Jay couldn't help but chuckle, making Y/N raise her brows, not knowing if she should be mad or not. "Y/N, those were fake. That girl I was with was not my girlfriend. Riley and Will tricked me into going out with her. They said it was a guys night and when I show up, they're not even there and she just got caught in the middle of their jokes so I felt bad and just had dinner with her anyways. I don't even remember her name." Jay said, sighing when he realized he could've had Y/N much sooner.

"Oh." Was all she could say.

Jay noted her embarrassment and gave a squeeze to her hand, "I really wish I could go back in time and tell you how much I loved you way sooner. I could've had you this whole time."

"Well, there's no need to wait anymore," Y/N spoke softly, hoping he got the hint. Jay leaned closer towards her, careful with her body as of how sore she definitely was. "Can I kiss you, Y/N?" Y/N smiled and nodded, "Of course you can, Jay," letting him press his lips softly against hers. The kiss wasn't rushed like the first one. It was perfect. It was...everything.

Jay pulled away with a cheesy smile, "You called me Jay," he pointed out. Y/N rolled her eyes and playfully pushed him back, "Shut up, Jamie," she scoffed. Jay grinned and pulled her onto his lap, mumbling small sorrys when she winced. "I love you, Y/N," he spoke softly.

"I love you too, Jamie," Y/N pressed a small peck to his lips.

[ante--meridiem]

Post is under the cut for typical Creepy Ex Landlord content but there's nothing new on that front, just me processing stuff that had happened while the situation was ongoing.

I've been half considering telling my new roommates the real reason I moved out from the previous place because I have reason to believe they'd be understanding and we've definitely reached the level of friendship where that kind of thing can be shared but I hesitate to even call it "sexual harassment" out loud and not on tumblr because to do so I have to interrogate whether I ever actually said no clearly and firmly enough, though at the end of the day I'm fairly confident I did and its failure to get through to him was him just not wanting to listen. I laid out my discomfort to him several times and he apologised and seemed really genuinely guilty/upset and I told him I didn't want him to apologise or feel bad I just wanted him to stop and then he'd go straight back to what he'd been doing before.

I guess what I'm stuck on though is, maybe it's just autistic inability to fully comprehend that people can be lying to me but his belief that he's done nothing seriously wrong or against my consent seems fully genuine. He seemed honestly hurt and confused when I blocked him as soon as I could because he'd really believed we'd still be ""friends"" after I moved out. There was this one time when he was telling me about a news article about a woman who got sexually assaulted and he was all wide-eyed I-just-don't-understand-how-people-could-do-that innocence about it and I truly understood what emotion the phrase "look into the camera like you're on the office" expresses, because really?

I'm pretty sure most of it runs on technicalities and plausible deniability because ok, if you do things without asking that you have plenty of reason to think I wouldn't be ok with then technically I didn't say no, and you can even be proud of yourself for stopping once I do get around to saying it. And if you plead and wheedle with me until I decide it's easier to give you what you want than keep arguing then technically I said yes. But what really throws me is how much he seemed to genuinely believe he was morally in the clear, rather than just having legalistic plausible deniability.

Like, by the end of it and by the time he found out my sexuality, even he couldn't convince himself that I secretly wanted him. Even before he'd found out, he'd mostly switched tack from "so what if you have a boyfriend, he can't tell you what to do" to "what's so wrong with me that you aren't attracted to me? :( I've been so nice to you :(" but he never seemed to have any level of cognitive dissonance over, if I had never had any shred of attraction to him and repeatedly expressed discomfort with him being sexual towards me, why I would have ""consented"" to all the things that I totally definitely freely consented to and he totally definitely never forced on me and pressured me into (please note heavy sarcasm). He really thought I'd stay friends with him, "friends" of course here meaning "we cannot have a conversation that stays for longer than five minutes on a topic other than him commenting on my appearance and asking me for pictures". Like, I get missing signals other people think are clear, but if I found out someone I'd thought was freely consenting to physical intimacy with me (giving him benefit of the doubt that he actually thought that) felt that way my reaction wouldn't be "too bad you're not attracted to me but we'll still be friends where I constantly talk about how pretty you are and what you should wear. I never pressured you into anything btw! Me going oh come on whenever you said no to me was just me being cute!", it would be "oh shit, did I pressure you? I'm so sorry and will leave you alone immediately if that's what you want." And then actually leave them alone.

And this "you cannot honestly believe you're innocent can you? If you really believe that maybe I somehow wasn't clear enough?" doubting on my side is all pretty standard stuff as these kind of situations go I'm pretty sure, and I feel reasonably confident most people would still take my side given full details, but at the same time... even on tumblr I see people making fun of the idea that you should ask verbal consent for every little thing as "puritanical", and while I'm reasonably sure those people are talking about "someone who's been flirting with you leans in for a kiss so you don't ask before going for it" situations and not, this whole thing, I can only think that Creepy Landlord had somehow convinced himself it was that kind of situation.

....anyways.

[whipplefilter]

Whipple. I want to start watching NASCAR but I have no cable or any kind of sports streaming service. We're not really a sports family. D8 Can I see anything on Youtube or whatnot? (I recently listened to my NASCAR fan uncle explain the mechanics of a race and I was surprised my attention stayed and I fully understood what he was saying. 😂 That's gotta mean something.)

I am always in favor of people getting into NASCAR! This coming weekend is the first week of the 2023 Playoffs Season, so no time like the present, I say!

NASCAR Classics

As this year is the 75th anniversary of NASCAR, they just opened up a massive library of archived race footage, with what they believe are the Top 75 Races of all time pulled out and highlighted.

YouTube Full Race Replays

Pretty quickly after the race (I want to say the day after), NASCAR puts the full replay up on their YouTube channel. These are kind of hard to follow because they're raw camera footage and don't include any of the graphics (displaying the running order, for example), but is also a great resource. They take the commercials out, though, so you get to see what the cameras were looking at while the TV was playing Wendy's ads!

Live, Real-Time Race Broadcasts

Live, real-time race broadcasts are hosted across a variety of networks. The first half of the season airs on Fox and FS1, and the second half on NBC and USA. Personally, I access it through a SlingTV subscription that I've made the decision to pay for, though if it didn't cost $30 more per month I think paying for Hulu Live TV would be better.

MRN (the Motor Racing Network) also streams (for free!!) live radio play-by-play for races, which you can access in a number of ways, among them the NASCAR.Com website, the NASCAR app, and probably MRN's own website as well. You won't get the picture, but the MRN announcers and commentators are EXTREMELY good at what they do, and generally agreed to offer much better race commentary than what's on TV, even if it doesn't come with a visual. There are people who watch the race on mute with the MRN coverage playing instead!

Supplementary Media

Fox and NBC both host regular weekday NASCAR TV programming (talking about the season, drivers, etc.), and they upload the audio of these shows up as Podcasts for free. If you're interested in learning more about how racing gets talked about, and the personalities that shape it, this is a great free option, as well!

Fox creates a "Radioactive" segment every Tuesday that they put up on YouTube that offers race highlights and snippets of team radio during the race--these are a great recap of a race and can often be pretty colorful/entertaining/even iconic.

NASCAR has a surprising number of really solid journalists, who produce both paid and free content online. Matt Weaver, Jeff Gluck, Aaron Bearden, Dustin Long, and Nate Ryan are all solid reporters, and refreshing voices in the face of a lot of clickbait and uh, poor journalism. XD

She's not officially a NASCAR journalist--she is a regular journalist who likes NASCAR--but Matt Weaver's partner, Cassie Fambro, also tends to be a solid source of NASCAR commentary on Twitter.

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Definitely feel free to drop by and talk about things you're enjoying, ask any questions you might have, react, etc.!! Welcome to NASCAR!

[re-x]

Never Have I Ever Had My Sweet Revenge (4x02): He felt responsible for this mess

I have been thinking about this scene a little bit, and how it led to Ben's decision to give Devi the silent treatment later in the episode. Ben did not need to be in this scene, but he was. So there has to be a reason. And that reason lies in all these reaction shots they gave him. In #2, he looked at Devi and you could tell that he felt bad for the trouble she couldn't help but have created. And in #3, the camera lingered on him instead of following Devi as she walked out, which convinced me that his emotional state here was intended to be the focal point.

It is clear from the above that Ben regretted and felt responsible for what happened. He knew Devi was impulsive and sometimes just could not help herself. And now, with him at the center of a little love triangle along with Margot and Devi (something Grubbs reminded him of just 30 seconds prior), the only way out (at least in his misguided mind) was to remove Devi from the equation altogether. To save her from herself, he thought, even though not being able to speak to Devi would hurt him too (and we saw how difficult it was for him to tell her that in the coming locker scene). And to Ben, the simplest and most logical way to do that would be to say that Margot wanted it. I believe that the reason he did not tell Devi that it was his idea was that he feared would lead to another fight and he'd have to confront a number of things he wasn't yet ready to face. And so he chose the easier way out.

Little did he know, one or two episodes later he would learn that Devi actually understood why he felt the need to do what he did, and respected his decision, even if it did hurt her a bit at first. I think all of these things he noticed about Devi, about how she'd changed, and about how she respected the boundaries he had created around himself, all contributed to his ability to finally let down his guard and take that giant leap of faith later in the season.

I came to this season fully expecting that Devi would be the one to confess her feelings for Ben. But the way it turned out, it ended up being so much better. By making him be the one who had to make the season-long and heroic emotional journey to get to that grand finale, a big part of the season then became all about Ben choosing himself and his happiness.

Devi did not have to choose him, because her heart had always been his, and was firmly his this season. What Ben learned this season was that he couldn't wait for someone to choose him. He had to choose himself first, and telling Devi he loved her was not only a giant leap of faith for Ben, but also the ultimate act of self-love and self-respect.

Just one of the ways Ben's journey on the show was so intertwined with Devi's own. The writers did know best, after all.

To end this analysis, I had convinced myself long ago that the writers knew that doing non verbal scenes was a particular strength of Mr. Jaren Lewison (which it is, like it’s not even funny how good he is with this wordless acting thing), and in a recent interview (Euphoria Magazine), he confirmed that:

"The crew loves those. Every time that I don't talk or it will say in the script, ‘Ben clocks this or overhears that’...They really do enjoy my performances for the most part.”

[stormblessed95]

Sorry, this is a long one:

I've read a lot about the „hot and cold“ dynamic with JK. Like him apparently sometimes being distant with Jimin or not praising him enough. I know some people get insecure with that. And if they perceive it that way, that's understandbale, it really is (as long as it doesn't serve a toxic narrative). Everyone brings their own personal experience to the table. But I personally never perceived JK that way. But that might also be because I see some of my personality traits in him (even though we are overall vastly different personalities).

That being said, I want to share my experience and viewpoint when it comes to JK and him being distant:

He's just not always focused on his surroundings: Some of the perceived coldness might come from him sometimes not fully reacting or engaging with Jimins shenanigans on stage.

My personal experience: I find it difficult to react spontaneously. Especially when I'm either zoning out or fully concentrating on something. It takes me several seconds to get out of my own head, realize what's happening around me and react to it. And during those moments I'm 100 percent in 'resting bitch face' mode. And I do see that with JK, too. Didn't he say that he sometimes zones out? I saw many instances during interviews, when he wasn't really there and I can relate so much. Or when Jimin said, that Bam isn't very interested in his surroundings and JK said „like father like son“ (something like that).

To be honest, he does that with other members, too. When V took his hands to dance with him during a concert in France, JK was quite stiff during that. And it has nothing, I repeat, nothing to do with him being distant towards V. He might have been surprised and needed a couple of seconds to adapt. And then the moment was already over. And then there are times when he immediately reacts to V's or the other members shenanigans. So it's really not a Jimin thing.

Funny though, that when Jimin jumped up to him during the Las Vegas concert and his immediate reaction was to try and pick him up. That was a muscle memory moment if ever I saw one. Dude didn't even need to think about it.

He prefers to be more emotionally intimate in private during the right time and the right place:

I can also very much relate to JK not immediately answering calls or text messages. Those stress me out a lot. I love writing with other people on Tumblr, because I can always chose when I feel comfortable writing back.

But write me a text message in private: I can ignore that shit for days/weeks/months if I don't feel like answering.

And yes, that might make me a bit asocial. But on the other hand, friends and family can always come to me with serious problems and I will do my damn best to make them feel understood, comforted and cathartic.

I see the same with JK. He might not always want to be social, but he will give his everything to support those he loves: in private! Not necessarily in front of a camera. He feels much more comfortable making compliments in front of a camera, though. Funny though, how JK immediately answered during Jimin's Birthday Vlive. There's only one special person in my life, where I'm (mostly, lol) answering immediately. But that's me (doesn't necessarily have to relate to Jikook).

He's a master at expressing his emotions through art

And then we also need to consider his other big love language: art. I also feel much more comfortable expressing my feelings through my drawings. It is like second nature to me. That's why I find his GCF's, his tattoos (@roo-bastmoon mentioned it to me) and the fact that we could often see him filming Jimin such a big deal.

He loves art and art is his love. Him expressing himself artistically is him expressing his love. You don't always need words to express your love and appreciation.

If you made it this far reading my gibberish: lol, thank you.

Very well expressed opinions my friend. You don't always need words to express your love and appreciation. But people love to forget all the times JK has done just that too. You mentioned his art. But like, his ACTUAL art too. He gifted Jimin a drawing of himself back in the day as the first unofficial golden closet sketch. He drew a masterpiece of Dynamite Hobi as Hobis birthday gift. The members talk often about how he is generous and kind to them. He offered up his OWN computer as a prize on run bts. He makes an effort to meet Jimin halfway on the things that are important to him, like actually answering his phone when group chats otherwise get ignored indefinitely. He is one of the softest and warmest and sweetest members. When people see him out and about he is often remembered for his kindness and inviting energy. He shows how much he loves and adores his hyungs ALL THE TIME. The song Begin literally exists. And he does so much to showcase how close he is to Jimin. People who think that man is cold, don't know ANYTHING about him and haven't been paying a lick of attention. He deserves better. They all do. And these narratives only ever come from antis. Don't align yourself with their bullshit.

[lara635kookie]

Ship Analysis pt.2.

RedCrackle, CarmIvy and Carulia.

So, I decided to divide it in parts because we'll have to analyze Gray's character a little bit to understand Red Crackle more. I think this is going to have five parts or something because when I try to post things too long Tumblr goes all error and stuff. And I got a lot to say about Red Crackle.

Okay, to start, I haven't read the novel but I heard that there has some scenes of the novel that conflicts with canon. And I looked for Duane Capizzi saying that and couldn't find it. Second of all, this person seems to don't understand what is Gray's purpose at all. He's that interesting yet misterious unpredictable morally gray character. He's not truly good or truly evil, he's that one character we never know which side he's going to take. Both A.C.M.E and V.I.L.E.(specifically the personification of each, Chief and Maelstrom) talking about "seeing the world in shades of gray" while Gray in on the screen proves that. He never seems to fully embrace completely one of the sides until the very ending of the show. Even when he sticks to V.I.L.E. the good in him still shows. He's the second most sweetheart operative V.I.L.E. ever had(only loses to El Topo). Third thing is when Carmen and Player are talking about it Carmen says that Gray tried to "blow her out like a birthday candle" and when you blow a birthday candle, you can light it up again. Fourth:at the conversation they have on the train, Carmen says:"V.I.L.E. wants me stealing FOR them instead of FROM them" so why would Gray kill her if that's not what V.I.L.E. wants? V.I.L.E. wants her alive, on their side, and we know how V.I.L.E. manipulates their agents to do what they want. Besides Paper Star, I don't think we seen any other agent disobey V.I.L.E. Anyway, for me it doesn't make sense, and I always understood he wanted to make her unconscious and take her back to V.I.L.E. Perhaps V.I.L.E. said :"Convince her and if she doesn't want to, kill her." but I don't get why they would say that since they could just mind wipe her like they did at the finale but then again a lot of things about V.I.L.E.(and on this show overall) don't make sense but it adds a certain charm to it I guess, lol. But canon or non canon that he tried to kill her or not, even Carmen defended him saying he did that on "direct orders of V.I.L.E. which he doesn't seem to remember exists anymore." So if Carmen herlself forgave him, why can't you? I particularly like to think he would have stopped saying he couldn't do it, like we see him doing afterwards in the Himalayans. I like to believe that's the kind of person he is because homeboy listened to her telling almost the whole entire story of her life, when he didn't have to(my personal theory is that he was trying to avoid the moment the most that he could). And when he says "bye black sheep", the camera focus on Carmen saying:"You weren't listening, I go by Carmen now." with the crackle rod on, in front of her. He could have made it quick, but he hesitated. Intentionally or not, he gave Carmen the time to say that and fight back because he lowered his guard down. So these are some signals that, to me, indicate he wouldn't have finished the job, but you can believe whatever you want. The point is that he didn't knew V.I.L.E. would throw him away in an instance. He clearly looked confused before having his mind wiped.

Not much to add anymore. The apparent blandness of him as Graham Calloway is called "wasted potential". They could've done so much with Graham before he was Crackle again. Anyway, done for today. Part 3 is coming soon.

[ladytheoris]

for your event, could i ask for p1 c16? thank you sm <3 !

Prompt: He stares at you every time you look away

Getou Suguru X Reader

EVENT

Warning !!: Modern AU Politician Getou, I dont think this is exactly fluff, but it is

Your marriage with Getou Suguru was a pure business settlement. Your father being the opposition party leader, had to make that offer to make the public believe that the so-called rivalry just exists in the public. But everyone who is close to you know the actual fact; that even that decision was to pretend as a good man.

So was Getou Suguru. A stoic man who smiled only for the camera flashes. Each moment you stood beside him, and when he placed his hand on the small of your back, you felt a weight. It was not just of the title you held, being his wife, but also of the burden of the public eye that observed you like a hawk.

But there was a connection you both made amidst his schedules and public appearances. Was it more like friends with benefit or fallen-out lovers, you never understood. One thing for sure you could tell was that you made a great friend, Gojo Satoru; the co-owner of the multitude of businesses your 'husband' did. Yes, that came with public repercussions of scandals too, which limited your meetings to business meetings and dinners like the one today.

Suguru never spoke about the scandals to you, and yes it did haunt you. Was it because he trusted you fully to be his little faithful loyal wife, or did he just ignores the rumors that his best friend is sleeping with his wife? It was safe to say, he gave you mixed feelings all the time.

Today, the evening was daunting like usual. You wore an elegant navy blue dress that matched Getou's tie. His hand on your waist as the media took pictures of you both. The night was elegant and spectacular like it was planned, filled with top-class businessmen, their spouses, politicians and famous social media influencers. Amidst all this you did feel like a little girl lost in a carnival. But that was until Gojo Satoru decided to pop out of nowhere. You where standing by the bar, where you had previously been with Suguru, seconds before he left you there unsaid.

"How are ya, princess?" Gojo spoke.

You smiled and waved at him, "I'm doing great."

His voice gets muffled by the sounds around you, so he moves closer to your ear to speak. You did feel a shiver when his breath touched your ear.

"Why are you alone here? Where is that husband of yours?" He asks.

You shrug in response.

You could feel the prying eyes of gossip-mongers staring at the both of you. Maybe that was the reason why you felt the room temperature suddenly plummet down.

"There are rumors going around about us, Satoru. Don't you feel uncomfortable?" You ask Satoru who was actively searching the bar menu for a treasure.

"One sapphire martini please," he looked at you and smiled. "Why fear when the infamous husband of yours doesn't care?"

"That is one reason why I am asking you," you told.

He hummed tapping his fingers on the counter, "two reasons possibly. One, your husband actually doesn't care about you."

Your eyes widened a bit. Was that actually a possibility why Suguru doesn't question those scandals? Told by his most trusted friend, so that can be a fact too. Afterall all that was shown to the public was a show, maybe he even faked a bit of affection too.

"Hey, don't wander off anywhere yet, I haven't completed my possibilities" Gojo snaps you out. "Two, he knows I have someone even better to play with waiting for me in my home."

"What?" You chuckled, "you got someone and you haven't introduced me to them?"

"That is not the whole point of this conversation." Gojo claps his hands lightly when the bartender places his drink in front of him. "Geto Suguru seems like a bad man, but he is actually not."

"Why would you say that?" You ask him.

Gojo takes a sip from his drink, "Woah this thing slaps hard. You want some?"

"Nah, I'm fine." You tell him.

"Because each time I talk to you, his eyes are right here. Like right now." He smiles. "Now don't ruin the fun by looking, Mrs. Getou"

"Each time you think he doesn't care about you the way you do, you are wrong."

"Why would you tell that," you asked him.

"Otherwise how would you explain the way he looks at you now?" He tells.

You were out of words. All throughout this marriage contract with Suguru, you never felt that he considered any of your needs on his lists. But that doesn't mean he never considered them at all.

"Princess, he stares at you all the time you look away from him." Gojo waves his hands to whom you assume might be the center of this whole conversation. "And I would be a big liar if I tell you that stare doesn't mean jealousy when I am the one talking with you."

"Suguru has got a pretty messed up way of showing his attention and love." Satoru continues. "But one thing I can assure you is that he genuinely does see you as someone important in his life. He wouldn't have been in this marriage of two years if that wasn't the case."

"Hello, Mr. Getou!" Satoru stands up giving Suguru a pat on his shoulder. "I think this is my cue to leave you both alone. Enjoy the night you both." Satoru walks into the crowd, leaving an awkward silence between you and your husband.

Suguru sat beside you and pulled your seat closer to his. You were surprised. He was not the type to show any form of affection, not publicly at least. He then proceeded to hold your hand in his, playing with your fingers, your wedding ring in specific.

"Our life is not something we got to decide till now. But let us decide what happens next." He tells with a smile.

o(〃＾▽＾〃)o

[skepticalarrie]

Yes, I do watch Larry videos for joy and for comfort. But still, sometimes I feel so sorry for them, that all this smirks, longing looks and secret touches where caught on camera. Especially in the early years, when they appear so pure and therfore so vulnerable. Those interactions where not meant for the public eye. I think it has been Niall who once said in an interview that they forget the cameras around them bevause they are so used to them. Am I the only one with this conflict?

I understand where you're coming from, absolutely. There was a time when I questioned myself a lot about whether we should really keep looking and sharing those moments because I totally agree there's a big level of intimacy there, especially when they were very young, that I don't think they fully realised how much they were exposing themselves and their relationship at the time. But after so much signalling and assurance from their side through the years, I understood it was something they were proud of and not vulnerability. As for feeling sorry for them, this is always a feeling I particularly try to stay away from, because I don't think it's a good feeling or something that moves people forward. I think the reason they chose to share so much with us is a symbol of resistance and it's about being extremely brave, so IMO the last thing they would want from us - or anyone - is people feeling sorry for them.

[hello-im-not-a-possum]

A Secret Leak: Jailbreak

The GENT company was having a very... eventful night. It all started when their recovered machine had been set up, tested, and nothing happened no matter what they did. Some workers assumed that either the idiots at Archgate broke it or they didn't recover the right items for the pedestals. But shortly after they called it quits for the night, chaos happened; The room they were storing the machine in was suddenly covered in splatters of ink, security cameras were torn out and broken, several guards and a man wearing nothing but a cartoon mask and tattered ink stained pants were knocked out, all of them with either bite marks, slash marks, or Inky hand prints over their mouths and noses...

But luckily, before things could get too out of hand, GENT had everything under control and the presumed perpetrators had been captured and led away.

"Keep moving, freaks." The man in the GENT Commander Guard uniform shoved the angel and the wolf forward, earning him an eye roll from the former and a growl from the latter. "We don't have all night..."

"I still can't believe this is actually real.." One of the gawking onlookers murmured. "I read the files but seeing it is something else..."

"Shh! They can hear you..." Another onlooker shushed the first.

"They're so creepy... Is that fur or skin..?" A third onlooker shuddered. "And why are her eyes so big..?"

The wolf snarled at the already frightened onlooker, looking like he was about to bite him but the guard pulled him back by his overalls.

"Down, Fido, we're almost there."

He rolled his eyes and huffed in annoyance as the uniformed man took him and his companion into the Head of Security's office.

"I caught them, it was a tough fight, but enough bullets seemed to make them more... compliant."

"Do you think there's more out there?" The worried head of security asked the guard. "It looked like there was a lot of ink."

"It's unlikely, but we can never be too careful." He replied while gesturing at them. "Sure, most of it is 'dead' ink, but we should keep those unconscious guys under quarantine and not take what they say at face value."

"Why? What happened back there?"

"These monsters... They really mess with your head, make you see and hear things that aren't there. I bet those poor saps will try to tell all sorts of things when they wake up, fully believing them to be true." The Guard adjusted his face mask and shot the pair a cold yet knowing look. "I bet they'll even try to convince us that some of the guards are actually ink monsters too.."

The ink woman with horns kept her head down while the wolf bit his tongue.

"So, given your expertise on... them. What do you recommend?"

"Well, it's far too dangerous to keep the machine and the items here... Keeping the entities that it creates permanently terminated is much harder than we originally assumed." He fidgeted with his gloves. "When I originally informed him of the case, our CEO Mr. Alan Gray recommended moving them all to a small, relatively isolated location and continuing our projects and testing there. I can't help but agree with him given the current circumstances. Its unlike anything we've ever seen, and the less people that get hurt or god forbid succumb to the ink... ...The better."

"I see, and what will you need to make transporting them easier? Reinforcements? Special equipment?"

"Yes. Although I might have to vet the sh- -the other guards as well as the truck driver myself." He cleared his throat. "In a delicate situation like this, the last thing we need is a group of untrustworthy people all handling something we do not yet fully understand... But we might start off with a small group and add in others later, time is of the essence after all and the sooner we get this thing out of our building, the better."

"Understood, smart choice." The head of security nodded. "Do you have anyone in mind?"

"Yes, and I've already sent them to prepare a truck, we'll rendezvous after you and I are done clearing everything up and then nobody else will have to worry about getting attacked by monsters tonight."

"I see, good to hear that at least some of us are being efficient.." he sighed with a shake of his head. "Anything else to report or comment?"

"Nothing that comes to mind, but I'll call if I think of anything."

The head of security nodded in thought as he signed off some papers.

"Okay, you and.. them are good to go. Stay safe."

"You too."

The masked man nodded as he left, taking the ink woman and the wolf with him and entered the elevator. He looked around the inside of it, not spotting any cameras. When he didn't see any and the doors came to a close, he looked to the wolf.

"Coast's clear," a gruff voice left the toon's mouth "you can take it off for now."

"Thank the Lord..." He shuddered. "It feels so vile to have a face that is not my own."

The man took off his uniform jacket and shirt and took in a deep breath as his facial details erased themselves and the color of his skin faded into pitch black, making him look more like a mannequin made out of ink than a person. And also prompting the wolf to grumble and take another canister of colored ink out of the angel's satchel.

"If I known it would take so much, I would've made more of these things-"

"Not yet Tom." The angel put her hand on the wolf's. "It's a long elevator ride and Sammy could use a break."

"He didn't give us one." Tom sneered at the Ink man. "In fact, he enjoyed his role a little too much..."

"I could say the same for the two of you, you know." The prophet gave the wolf a glare in return. "Was biting the guards necessary? Or stabbing them? It only took me seconds to harmlessly knock them out-"

"Harmlessly? Harmlessly?!" Tom huffed. "Give me a break, you poisoned them with Ink, Mold, and probably a mix of whatever other garbage you're made of!" He jabbed his finger into Sammy's chest.

"I gave them a 'poison' that will be cured with time as they will not have access to more. May I remind you that they were your ilk before the Ink? And yet you tore into their flesh without hesitation. No less, you ripped them apart with your teeth like a wild animal..."

"Boys, stop!" Allison pushed them apart and got in between them. "I know we... don't have a lot of common ground, it's hard to trust each other given our history, but we're so close, we can't fall apart right here and now.. We can go our separate ways after we get this done. Okay?"

The two stayed silent, but at least stepped away from each other, which was probably the most Allison could get out of them.

But it did leave the elevator in awkward silence for a couple of minutes.

"...Out of curiosity, why did you agree to join the plan?" Allison asked the Prophet to break the silence. "Alice agreed for the Projectionist's sake, Tom, Henry, and I agreed because it would free us from the studio, but what did Joey promise you?"

"He has nothing he can offer me, not even freedom."

"But then why..?"

"He and I agree that the Machine is the Messiah's birthright and I am willing to help him get it out of here on those grounds alone."

Both the angel and wolf looked at him oddly.

"...Why would Joey want the Ink machine to be in the Ink Demon's hands?"

"He does not." Sammy stated, refusing to elaborate for the rest of the ride down.

"Finally, you made it." The guard sighed in relief when the elevator opened up. "The machine and the other two ink monsters are loaded up in the truck."

"Are the guards who brought them in there too?"

"Yes."

"I need to speak with them in private, thank you."

"Oh, of course..." The guard nodded as he entered the elevator while the three left. "Good luck.."

"Thank you, I'll need all the luck I can get." the man in the uniform chuckled as they headed out to the set up truck.

[yourtoradorasextendedwarranty]

Communication is Nuanced

So I've been seeing less traffic than usual, likely because I tend to post very doomer stuff. Or rather, stuff that makes people feel very doomer.

As such here's a topic that's less such and also kind of important for people to understand.

So above are the types of communication in general when it comes to verbal communication. Now something that tends to go hand in hand with is Nonverbal communication which can be seen with examples below.

Now why am I talking about this? Well fact is, These are the two most prominent forms of communication as they are often the best forms of communication. Reason being is because we transmit a lot of information through nonverbal means more often than not. It's one of the reasons that sarcasm is easier to notice when it's verbalized and you, or when you can see the person. It's normally communicated by an eyeroll or a shrug or even through vocal inflection.

Which brings me to Tumblr and other forms of social media. Most platforms like this one have one very huge issue. Purely as a matter of the technology, we communicate through written text or emojis or in some cases we do both. We do this as a means to imitate nonverbal communications like gestures, facial expressions, etc. Though in truth they do not have the same fundamental impact as actually seeing the nonverbal forms of communication in real time. Something simple like an eyebrow raise during a conversation can have a different meaning depending on where in the conversation it takes place.

However, in text, most people have to guess when it takes place even assuming you send an emoji to imitate it. As such, when communicating with people online, it's very important to do your best to loosely understand what is trying to be said, and ask questions if you do not fully grasp what is being said, or if you think that they could potentially mean something else.

I think one of the reasons that political and social discourse is so bad honestly is that people have gotten so used to communicating online that they have lost the ability to see nuance. Moreover, they have lost the understandings of nonverbal communication along the way with it. Now a days sarcasm isn't seen so much for what it is, so much as often it's seen as an attack.

Hand gestures, even common ones with very trivial meanings are not taken out of context of what they used to mean. Even so much as a shrug now, which was the universal "I don't know" or "It can't be helped" is misunderstood by people frequently. Language used to have a level of normalcy to it. Verbal and Nonverbal communication didn't often stray from it's original meaning, even when slang was involved.

Long story short, language and meanings are important. And asking honest questions not with spite or anger, but asking questions with the want of understanding seems to be a lost art. It's not bad to ask questions. And often times you should. Not everyone is good and conversing with others. Some excel at verbal, some excel at text based, some excel at nonverbal. Communication is how we live, thrive and survive as a species. And we need to stop warping and changing language to suit the wants of small population groups. Especially when that change alienates the other 90%+.

We as people need to start doing our best to actually learn proper communication, and start realizing that of the varying forms of it, written is the hardest to get your meaning across with. As such, we need to learn the nuances of it, and start learning to ask questions, and talk to people before we make the worst assessments. Mind you, take this all with a grain of salt. Some things can be extrapolated from and understood without deeper understanding, but we will not always know when that is the case.

As and example. I was sending out a tweet to someone asking if the camera on the new iPhone was worth upgrading for. However while thinking out everything in my head, I typed out, "At that point, just aim for a mid end newer camera", when in my head what I was thinking was, "Most newer phones are not worth upgrading for in general especially if you are on the prior model. Cameras especially are not making leap and bound upgrades that make the prices worth it. So if you would WANT to upgrade for the use of a better camera, you should just get a camera."

As you can tell. Those two things when held side by side are the same in meaning. However, the first with out the second, ends up getting the response I got which was, "I was asking a question about a phone". Which I could grasp was probably an annoyed response. But I have no one to blame buy myself for not actually putting into words what I was trying to express. And that's a thing that I myself need to also work on in regards to communication.

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[Begin video transcript.]

[Transcript begins from the floor, the camera propped up with an object facing someone's pant legs. Random boxes in the background, the room has almost no lighting, with the exception of a small light shining barely out of frame.]

?: I think I’m done with watching, Rose.

[Voice unidentified: Please try again later.]

?: I don’t believe there is a future for the foundation. Not with Showfall running everything.

?: Dude… What the fuck are you talking about?

[Voice identified: Rose.]

?: You don’t know what I’ve seen… What Showfall keeps in those damn tunnels. Something beyond my scope. Beyond what I could even conceive. I’ve seen the face of the Devil.

R: Dude I…-

?: I went into the tunnels… God, how long has it been? Fuck… months?

R: WHY? Why though?

?: Well I went there to try and find Edgar. Mostly since it’s kind of my job… was… but I also-.

R: Also what?

[The legs in frame unsteadily shift weight]

?: How long do you think he had planned it? I mean, I know there was a plan. I just didn’t think he would actually… I mean, surely he was just putting on a show, right? That’s what you showfall bunch are all about? Playing characters?

R: No… And if you say something like that again I'll kick your ass.

?: Right.

...

?: Rose, do you think Edgar killed himself because of me?

[Rose sighs.]

R: No, I think he did it because he felt there was no other way, it was die or be showfall's forever plaything to him I feel.

?: …Maybe it was for the best then. Maybe Edgar made the right choice. I would’ve done the same, knowing what I know now. Seeing what I’ve seen.

R: Dude… I… Can I show you something, maybe it will help… Maybe it won't.

?: You’re not going to kill me?

R: No you dumb motherfucker, you haven't given me a reason to.

?: Hm. I never understood you, Rose. I can stand on my own, for a bit at least.

R: Dude… I- Ok storytime I guess. Wanna know why I'm not scared of the security?

?: I suppose not. Where are you going with this?

R: They made me into one. I uh… Don't fucking like talking about it, but if it helps so be it huh?

[The figure shifts their weight again]

R: So. I uh… Hm, it uh was when I died? Or well… I didn't die cuz the gunshot didn't instantly kill me. Oh uh… Yeah my gun backfired on me once, anyway. Yeah a uh woman named Mai dragged my body, turned me into one of those… Things and threw me in the forest.

?: Things? You mean what I saw… That horrible amalgamation of man and machine…?

R: Yeah they uh… God, I'm really going to bring this up to the person who stalked me for months.

[Rose sighs and begins walking to sit in frame.]

R: They… Made my sister into one, it uh… I don't actually fully know if she's even… There anymore

[Rose's legs seemingly move, as she tries to pull something out of her pocket.]

?: You had a sister? They never mentioned that in your files. They must have deleted her off of their databases entirely. I’m sorry for your loss.

R: I don't… Fully think she's dead, I have some hope?

?: That’s good. Hope is the fuel that keeps us burning. It’s how I survived for so long down there. I only ever planned to be gone for a week at most, but I had no idea how big those tunnels were. I had no idea those… things existed. We have no record of any of Showfall’s experiments. And yet they’re essentially our only clients.

?: But I don’t think it matters anymore, now that I know. I’ll try and see if I can un-fuck the watcher program, show them my findings, but… I think it’s over. Showfall has so much more power than I ever realized. Even if we wanted to completely raid the premises, we would stand no chance against those things.

?: It’s only a matter of time before Showfall takes over the Watcher Program. We have held our technology over their head for too long

R: Great… MORE shit to worry about.

?: It won’t be the first time they’ve done this, you know. Showfall has some dark history. Their money is dirty, worse than ours even. We always knew Showfall was ahead of us technologically, but I had no idea they were doing this.

[Rose sighs again.]

R: Wanna know something?

?: Sure, hit me.

R: When I escaped. I had a whole plant on my back. These fuckers did not catch me.

?: Like, a regular potted plant?

R: No. A potted plant in a backpack. They might have been busy with other rebels but like… Dude.

?: That is a rather impressive oversight.

[Rose looks over to her phone, finally noticing the camera.]

?: Has that been recording me?

R: Showfall tech. I hate you SO MUCH.

[End transcript.]

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BLEACH: Thousand-Year Blood War - The Separation episode 2 review

That beginning meeting among Sternritters gave me major flashbacks of Aizen and his meeting with his Espada. Was that intentional? More than likely yes, because of nostalgia reasons and for us to see nothing has really changed; "villains" still making plans how to defeat "heroes". Though, there was one tiny difference and that was the lack of tea. Oh yeah. Something about villains sipping tea when having their villain meeting gives such a sophisticated feeling, (even if they all wouldn't be that sophisticated) yet now...it's all business. After all, the Quincies are here to bring "peace"! I really liked how they made the camera angle move when they showed the meeting among all Sternritters and the top of the table surface was this episode's name. It felt very smooth and seriously gave that villainous meeting vibe.

This episode made me think something, and I'm not sure if it was really ever addressed in the manga, but how long does Quincies live? I know Yhwach is like a special case, but the way Askin talked and all the other implications before that...make it sound like Quincies too can live 100-plus years and still remain in their youthful appearances. Does this mean if they live in the World of the Living, only then they'll age normally like humans do? But as long as they're at Soul Society where is Reishi, it's a different story? Because if we think about the last cour, at least to me it seemed like Ryuuken aged normally. So did Masaki and because they were considered 'elite' Quincies, we can assume they weren't run-out-of-mill ones...so, does the location matter when comes to aging? Or, the fact if Quincies are Sternritters or not? Because we've only seen so far mostly Sternritters' POV of things, it could be they're a special case, but even so...I couldn't help but think that especially when they talked about Quincy King's rising and the time it would take.

And sunflower Mayuri makes an appearance! He really looked ridiculous, but still very loyal to his style: ridiculous but in such a way it was also a smart move. I'm not sure what kind of texture or animation technique the staff used, but the fact Mayuri's (and Nemu's) outfit seemed to be 'alive' was a very neat trick. They could have just gone with yellow and white colors that glow a little bit, but nope! They went over that little extra mile to give Mayuri's and Nemu's outfits that specialty that one would expect and wait for from Mayuri.

But man...working in a place like his lab at the moment, would be one form of torture as it seemed just so...bright. Must be nice, when one doesn't have migraine issues, eh?

Heh, Askin being all '-ck this sh*t, I'm out' toward Mayuri, when he at first measured how much effort it would take to take down Mayuri. xD And then Mayuri slaying back. Talk about two smart people going all 'too much effort' versus 'needs more time to craft such a plan I can crush you fully'. Though, that last look Mayuri gave to Askin...oh boy. He seriously wanted to crush Askin, like the lil' bug he was in his eyes.

Never understood why Toshiro had that cloth wrapped around his head, because earlier he didn't have. It just...ditto. Made me think of Rambo or some sort of other action movie where the "hero" has a bandana around their head...but Toshiro is supposed to be that cool guy, so heat shouldn't be a problem with him, so why? Though considering his opponent is Bazz-B, heat will be soon a problem for him...and yes, I can see the irony, that was before the heat problem, lol.

I must say, I really liked how Rangiku and Toshiro worked together against Bazz-B! I had missed such synergy, and especially Rangiku teasing Toshiro! Rangiku's explanation was a bit over the top, but it was still super cute! Especially when Toshiro clearly resisted his urge to roll his eyes while Bazz-B was just staring in there, probably thinking 'lots of words, I don't get anything!' Lol. But yeah. That was a super cute moment between Toshiro and Rangiku and reminded just how good a captain and lieutenant combo they make~. Unfortunately...it just wasn't enough this time around, despite their brave attempt to go against Bazz-B.

As a side note, I must admit I still find it pretty ridiculous how people explain in the battle against their opponent the 'trick' they're using...that's just begging trouble against them.

That moment with Omaeda and his sister was very touching. Despite the fact, Omaeda has been...well, not my favorite character (and probably either not many other people's), that moment was still touching. A bit of cliché hero talk, but at times those are needed, eh? Especially if a little girl is scared and crying.

Luckily Soi Fon came to the rescue, because while Omaeda's attempt was...well, okay, it wasn't enough. Not to mention, I just loved how Soi Fon acted all badass when she showcased her shunko! And yes, while that wasn't (at least yet) enough, I still liked how Soi Fon ride on her thrill over the fact she had managed to master her own shunko.

What caught my attention was how Soi Fon called BG9 in the subtitles 'freak', while in actuality she called him 'bakemono'. It was a small thing, but because of that, the meaning got a bit changed. While "freak" would have suited BG9, because of what he did earlier to Soi Fon in cour 1, I think 'bakemono' was a bit more suited as it can be translated as a monster, and in a sense, BG9 is exactly that. (Because he is basically a walking weapon, a robot, an entity that shinigami probably hasn't seen ever before.) Even so, despite the light tone difference, both are okay when thinking about the context. But even so...with my limited Japanese knowledge, it just caught my attention. ^^'

And once again, Urahara to rescue! Good thing Mayuri didn't cut him off right away when he heard his voice, since Gotei 13 is in a dire situation and will need all the help they can get.

Hmm, that ending with Ichigo walking toward the torii gate was interesting. I had to google a bit to find out what "irazusando" at the end meant, but I wasn't disappointed when I did!

I found a person on Reddit explaining it like this:

"It means "no entry Sandō".

A Sandō is a path/road leading to the entrance of a Shinto shrine, with a torii (the wooden gate Ichigo is walking towards) marking the origin of the path."

Very interesting. I can't wait to see how Ichigo will make his way to the torii or if will he meet more struggles when going toward it, as why else he would have that wooden sword with him? (I'm just waiting for a jumpscare in here...)