#they were a minor (im bodily an adult)

[custercarnies]

Unfriendly reminder that introjects are not here for your entertainment. Dm'ing an introject you're "dating" the ghost/dead person of their source is disgusting and if you think you're genuinely dating a dead person who never even met you - seek help. I am so tired of people treating me like shit for my sources. Respect people's boundaries and learn some fucking decency for the dead.

[cosmossystem]

What’s a rad queer?

please excuse any spelling errors (we had wisdom teeth taken out and im a bit loopy, lol)

so this is a bit difficult for me to explain but if i had to put it simply, essentially radqueers are pro-mogai and radical inclusionists to the point of believing every aspect of identity can be a queer one. on paper, this sounds great! i love queer identities! but in practice, its a slippery slope, and results in... well, let me give some examples.

radqueers, by definition, also believe in a thing called "transx" or "transid", with the suffix "x" being replaced by... pretty much anything. the base idea, i believe, obviously takes from the trans experience-- whereas one might identify as cisgender or transgender, transid extends this to other aspects of the identity, such as being "cisautistic" (aka "born autistic") and "transautistic" (aka "transitioning into autism.")

this includes, but is not limited to (using their own terms) transage, transplural, transabused / transabuser, transharmful, transcharacter, transrace / trace, translanguage, and so on.

while some of these could make sense or encompass other experiences that arent necessarily harmful (such as transplural being, essentially, another word for created systems; or something like transage, where one 'identifies' as an age different from their body, which could theoretically account for a neurodivergent person's mental age discrepancy, such as being a minor alter in an adult body)... the vast majority of radqueer identities do not stop there, creating labels that arent helpful or actively encourage/foster harm -- such as "transabused" for instance, where one believes they should be, or wishes to be, abused in some way.

someone identifying as one of these labels, in our example "transabused", is often encouraged by the transx/radqueer community to "transition". this could look a number of ways, but in our example of "transabused" this could be something like looking for an abusive relationship on purpose or purposefully inducing trauma on onesself, or even lying to others that they were abused/exaggerating experiences in attempts to "transition" into being a victim.

it should be noted that certain transid labels have been "reclaimed" (i strongly dislike that word and its connotations, but its the best way i can describe it) and renamed by others, such as the transage label i mentioned previously also being known as "chronosian".

radqueers also encompass other things such as including paraphilias in the definition of "queer," which we believe to be not so much a queer identity as much as it is either a mental illness or a sexual deviance, in the most literal definition of "deviant" being "differing from the norm." this is a widely debated topic and its not our area of expertise, so i wont try to claim one thing or another--but regardless, while paraphilias can certainly influence a queer identity and they deserve spaces to express their experiences, it does not make one queer and they would be better suited for mental-illness-focused spaces.

that is where the "definition" aspect of this answer ends, so heres some personal anecdotes:

for us, we dont actually take issues with many "radqueer" identities (there is a time and place for things such as "transage" aka chronosian, or even "transplural" which is a stupid redundant word for created systems -- importantly, i do not believe these things are radqueer-exclusive) but its the reasons i mentioned above that we, and many others, do not agree with or support them. for instance lets look back at the "transabused" i mentioned before:

on the one hand, i wouldnt be against a kink relationship of this nature--if someone wants a cnc relationship, i wish them the best with that. on this blog, i believe we have spoken about being fully pro-bodily autonomy, even when it means the act of hurting onesself, such as self-harm or suicide. so that isnt necessarily what i find to be the core issue here.

i would, however, be against the labelling of it as "trans"-anything and claiming that a "trans" identity can go beyond the cultural definition of queerness. i would be against the idea that a "transabused" person should be allowed a voice when talking about issues affecting victims of violence, unless they had non-consensually experienced such violence. i would be against the idea that someone who is "transracial" (using the radqueer definition of "transitioning to a different race", because surprise, theyve stolen this term from adoptees of color) should be encouraged to transition to a different race they are not a part of, because race is a cultural identity and social construct with a loaded history, and not something that you can "transition" into having.

i support created systems, i support people using the split-attraction model, i support recovering paraphiles, i support mentally ill people and neurodivergent people and disabled people. i do not support the idea that something you can be born with or developed early in life, such as autism or ocd, can be purposefully transitioned into. i do not support co-opting mentally ill people's experiences for your own selfish gain, only to then turn around and call those same people "cis"-mentally ill.

i have a lot more to say about them than that, but ill try to keep this part brief. a while ago, our host was doing a write-up on the various pitfalls of transx identities, namely that most of them either arent queer identities inherently and are likely something else (i.e. transharmed, transracial) or if its a renaming of another experience that already exists (i.e. transplural, transage, translanguage). seemingly most radqueer identities are coopted from something else in a covert attempt to "tarnish" the validity of the original label, transracial and transage primarily being affected by that. but i wont go too deep into it.

anyway, were it not for all that, i would find this a really interesting conversation to have.

im highly intrigued by the people who have atypical dysphoria experiences, such as system members with different racial identities to their body's, or system members with differing mental illnesses, or how neurodivergent people feel as though their "true" age doesnt align with that of their body's, or therians and alterhumans discussing their experiences. i would even LOVE to use the term transplural if it werent for the connotations.

but like i said, its a slippery slope, and radqueers are more interested in harboring a harmful, "accepting" community than they are with actually deconstructing what it means to be queer or trans or plural or neurodiverse, etc. im sure scrolling through their tags for any number of seconds will show that, if youre curious, but i dont recommend it if you want to keep your sanity.

lastly, since i voiced my opinion here, i do want to also mention: i believe the way some antis talk about radqueers is reminiscent of the way they speak about other identities, such as endogenic and created systems or self-dx folks. the whole "you are hurting REAL queer people!!!" song-and-dance is so overplayed at this point. people like to point fingers with buzzwords instead of getting to the meat and potatoes, because that would be too complicated apparently.

you always hear "you cant be transautistic because youre a faker and hurting real autistic people!!" and almost never "you cant be transautistic because 'autism' is just a word for a group of symptoms that you do not truly display, and if you think you 'should be' autistic, you need to reexamine why that is," which is what i think would be more apt.

choosing to reiterate the same five sentences about being Wrong and Hurtful and Invalid over and over doesnt really explain anything and only continues infighting. also, it doesnt discourage radqueers from what theyre doing or from getting help and seeking a positive community, and instead it only helps to strengthen their cult-like ideas that anti-radqueers are bigots. (read more about that "cult" thing here. i dont fully agree with everything op says, but it was still enlightening to read from someone who survived an actual cult.)

i know its long, but i hope that helps somewhat. feel free to send more asks about this. like i said, i find it fascinating despite its problems.

💿 red

[plurillean-confessions]

HIYA!!! i gave super duper CRUSH on my sysmate which is adult, and im a minor??? (Were BODILY ADULT BTW IF IT MATTERS) AND DGEHRHHT i love him SOSOSOSO MUCH. and i think they love me too, but they feel guilty for that. sososo.... can sysmate adult/minor relationships be okay? like I LOVE THEM ITS MY INITIATIVE AHHSHDHDBBBBBB

sorry if it does sound weird im chaotic by nature srs

[Mod note: So long as everything is consensual, that's all that matters! In our personal opinion, as soon as you get into the realms of plurality and people sharing a brain and body, things are bound to get weird and messy and fall outside the realm of traditional meatspace morals & ethics. We ourselves have a family whose family tree is, in the most literal terms possible, a circle, so wethinks we'd be a little bit of a hypocrite to police others' relationships for being 'outside the norm' when we ourselves frequently fall way beyond it, most often completely unintentionally and only recognizable with some scrutiny.

Additional: We will make sure to tag relationships with these kinds of circumstances with things such as #tw age gap [mention], #tw incest [mention], etc to avoid inadvertently triggering anyone since we know these are sensitive topics for a lot of people, and we'll also always add #ask to tag in case there's something we missed!]

[witheredbonnie]

@randoms-random-blog-of-random since you were a coward and blocked me after whining on my post, i'm making this here for you and everyone else still defending scott cawthon in 2024 since yes i "found something" and i'm letting you know. also next time, if youre scared of debate, keep your shitty little opinions to yourself.

i made this post three years ago when scott posted it. its picking up notes again because his actions have been so washed over by people like you that there are fans today who had no idea and are discovering this for the first time. for three years his minority fans have been argued down and our feelings belittled by people like you.

this is not a reaction for notes or popularity or for "drama". scott cawthon has not changed, he has in fact doubled down on his feelings about being "cancelled" with his shitty self insert fanfiction Monster. scott cawthon didn't just make "dumb mistakes". im frankly stunned at your lack of reading comprehension, that or your willful ignorance. scott cawthon donated as much as he legally could to almost every dangerous bigot in power in the american government, and also to Trump himself, one of the biggest catalysts in the popularity of facism and radical bigotry, and who is a bigot and a rapist himself.

scott admitted in his post that he doesnt care about all of this, in fact he might agree with trump when he mentions he wants "america to be strong against its enemies" which i find interesting because if you remember the "enemies" that Trump insisted were a threat to america, it was all just racism. scott has a huge Mexican fanbase, and yet he insisted that Trump had a great foreign policy, Trump's foreign policy being that Mexicans are all drug lords and rapists. scott has a huge LGBT fanbase, and yet he insisted that actually the monsters in power who want to take our rights away are better for us

scott admitted that although other politicians have "nicer things to say" about his lgbt and minority fans, he claims to actually know whats better for us and that happens to be the american economy, not having our bodily autonomy. speaking of that, he admitted to being against the choice of abortion, he probably popped the biggest fucking bottles when Roe V Wade was overturned. and when people expressed that he was literally contributing to the oppression of 90% of his fanbase, he pretended he was being witch hunted just like his favorite president did. he cried cancel culture because he will not and probably will never actually reflect on his beliefs and actions. evangelical christians are kindof like that.

these aren't "dumb mistakes". these are purposeful, unapologetic actions he's taken to fund facism and bigotry in america. he knows this, he's an adult. he's also not just "some guy" anymore, he's a fucking billionaire. he owns probably the most popular indie IP in the world right now. we already were willing to give grace to scott's imperfections, but what cannot be tolerated is using thousands of his fans dollars directly against them. being anti choice, loving racist predators, and acting like you know better for minorities when youre a cishet white christian man is not "being imperfect", that's being a proud bigot. he and you can both pretend and delude yourselves into thinking he ~actually cares and is a nice guy~ but no one who ACTUALLY cares about basic human rights would proudly admit to literally being against them and supporting every GOP freak that is actively stripping human rights away. i dont know what more to say. if that's something you can ignore, you live with an immense amount of privilege.

also, its funny that youre asking for proof when scott's public political donations were brought up June 2021 and are the WHOLE REASON that scott even posted this on reddit in response to the backlash. it appears he's managed to scrub his own information off of opensecrets which is, fucking incredibly suspicious, but here's the original screenshot of some of his faves that he thinks are sooooo much better for minorities actually because theyll make the economy better and nothing else matters right? i cant imagine anyone who agrees with Mitch Mconnel actually gives a shit about you.

[centipussay]

iintroduction tiiimeee,….,,.,perchance :3!!!!?!

i am centiipede!!1!currently eating gushers.nyamnyamnyam ;3

(actual rp info under cut)

dni + warnings

dni - minors, zoophilia, adult x minor relationships

warning - this is all fiction! centipede is not a real person (as far as i’m aware) they’re just a tpof oc that i am roleplaying as. for shits and giggles.

ill mention topics such as gore, body horror, drugs, necrophilia i guess that’s a thing with centipede now, occasional self mutilation? and just about anything you’d expect from tpof? ok cool

centipeepee, 24, they/it pronouns, really fucking weird don’t let them bite you no matter how much they whine about it. probably smells like a corpse. they’re like a weird fuckin frankenstein thing, their body’s made up of other people’s body parts so some things like .. typing coherently aren’t the easiest.

(if you want a translation of centipedese, pls just ask!! i can add a coherent version of what they were saying under the original post!)

lore i guess under the funny images ⬇️⬇️⬇️

centipede’s relationship with fox is a bit odd. it originally came to fox as an item to be auctioned off, but was withdrawn by one of my other ocs, arachnid, who was a “medic” in fox’s little bunker funhouse. that bitch got an evil laboratory.

arachnid experimented on centi, dismembered them, used limbs of fox’s victims as replacements, whatever yeah you get it. centi was already weirdly masochistic so this whole experience just made them significantly more fucked up in the head.

fox saw this and was like damn you’re weird as fuck im gonna livestream you while you’re being cut apart isn’t that fun also you can live in this uhhh storage closet yeah isn’t that neat or something like that.

centipede fun fact! because of the constant experiments and body modifications, centipede’s blood and other bodily fluids are pretty fucked up. haven’t thought of the logistics of all of this but don’t let them bite you and do not let them break skin

also it likes gushers i guess

[antiradqueerguy]

Final post for real this time

Okay so i'm using my 3ds to post this because i found it in my closet, and the library closed.

i've noticed this in the trans age community and people really cant figure stuff out so i'm just gonna say what i think, even if you guys think its wrong, Creative differences right? \

Even if a transage child can bodily consent they are still a child, so i don't know why people are acting like this, they are a child so they cannot consent, i feel like that's a simple idea.

If a trans age adult cannot bodily consent they still cannot consent, "Zee why do you think that?," cause any other way is illegal and its a crime.

i know people might think i'm a anti now,

which I AM LMAOOO

made this blog as a fucking joke

seeing all of you stupid bitches think that "trans kpop" and "trans jpop" is real and all the other bull crap shit you and you stupid fucking communitys do is super funny. I'm not gonna tell you guys to go jump in a hole, or other crappy stuff, i just do think you are stupid, all of you,

"trans this" "trans that"

seeing all of the "im cis autistic and i support trans autism" ect ect. you guys are OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MIND. as a autistic person myself stop letting peoples fetishes and insane ideas consume them into thinking they are real, they are using things that you got bullied for and thinking that they are "so cute!"

none of the disabilities and races you fetishize are cute.

Now lets look at some of my favorites that i screenshotted:

"every time i see minors dni im closer to putting minors interact"

You are 20 years old and you want minors to interact with you, sounds fishy. not saying if you are anything but this looks really bad for you.

"puppyboy whore"

can you not, like what were you THINKING.

Legit any scene radqueer, your not scene anymore, i legit do not care what u think, get out of the community.

and to the people still here, to the bozos who type in rainbow and are radqueers using "trans _ disability" your ableist, which i feel is obvious if your using the term in the first place but if your ALSO typing in rainbow your 2x ableist, "whys that" BECAUSE I CANT READ IT, now it could be a skill issue but i take photos of these, and send them to others, and they also struggle with reading it.

Notes:

im not sending this from a 3ds, i have lied about everthing

my age , my name , my "identitys"

everything of this account is fake.

[n1ghtm3ds]

Okay yall know im totally against banning books but I also believe that a school library should be a safe place.  Stories that contain depictions of triggering things or downer endings should be labeled as such.  And yes, some books should not be on the shelves.  They should be easily accessible on the shelf of your local library, but they should not be provided to you through the school.  “A Handmaid’s Tale” and “Push” are both books that do not belong in a school library (which is a collection of books cultivated with the interest of minors in mind).  “Push” is one of the best books I ever read and I think it should be considered part of the required canon for an english/lit/writing major in college.  It was so effective that it gave me multiple panic attacks.  It contains descriptions of sex acts so graphic and specific that bodily fluids are mentioned.  It doesn’t belong in a school library.  If you are a grown person who considers yourself well-read it should absolutely be in your PERSONAL library, and it should be available easily and for free to anybody who wishes to seek it out at the PUBLIC library, but in a GRADE SCHOOL library it is simply too graphic.  I also dont think a grade school library should include books like A Clockwork Orange, or 1984, or To Kill a Mockingbird (the first time you tackle the subject of rape in school, it should not be one of these three highly problematic books).  The same way schools have to send home permission slips to show R-rated movies, they should stick to mostly YA in a library meant specifically for minors.  Kids like I was who want to read adult content can get a library card.  The school library should be a safe space with clearly labeled content and the school curriculum should not contain any material that may be re-traumatizing to a child as required reading.  In college you can make them read whatever you want, freshman year i had a teacher assign DeSade and I respected him for it, but state funded public grade schools should stick to media that doesnt stray too far from pg-13.  Let children be children.  Let the kids who are lucky enough to grow up slow not thinking of these things remain innocent.  Kids who the media will matter to who can handle the media will seek it out themselves.  Stop making 6th graders read The Scarlet Ibis *Fortunate Son plays in the distance* im getting ahead of myself but yeah just like there are r-rated movies there are books that shouldn’t be BANNED by any means but also shouldn’t be made available through the school itself much less included in the mandatory curriculum.  Like if ur an adult and you have not read “Push” go read it, if i were a parent and my 14-year-old took my copy and read it Id want to have a conversation to put some things in context and let them vent any feelings they may have from reading it but i wouldn’t be upset, but if my 9th grader came home with it as a school project I would be ENRAGED.  Like yeah some books dont belong in schools and these outrage-mills count on people not being well read enough to call their bullshit when they act like it is a problem when graphic adult material is made less accessible to minors.  

[curiokins]

Malevolent kincall?

Hello! Figured I'd make a post seeing if people wanna reach out!

We are bodily 26! And while we don't really mind minors, we prefer speaking to adults closer to our age.

Im Peter "Parker" Yang! Yeah! I'm the guy thats dead at the start of mal! I have very few mems as well I just recently kinfirmed. I remember most that me and arthur got along quite well! Given how rather different we were. I remember being a rather out going sunshine-y type of guy. Maybe a bit taller than arthur? Maybe same height? I'm not too sure. I did hold a lot of affection for arthur but whether that amounted to anything I am not sure.

There's one memory I only remember a small bit of.

Me and arthur were at the bar one night and we were joking and laughing along together. He said something as I was getting up and I was like "right right right well yeah-" as I was walking away, maybe to get more drinks, maybe to the restroom I dont know but the memory fades from there. It was all light hearted and in good fun jabs I know at least.

And im not sure if he would be willing to talk but we have a john doe as well! We are a DID system so hes an introject.

Id be happy to speak to anyone! Arthur the most really but I'd love to chat with anyone from mal!

[thenightmarebluntrotation]

this is hard to talk about but i need to put it somewhere, tw under the cut for mentions of grooming and kink

so we think of our traits as either being part of our shared hardware (the brain, the body etc.) or being part of our software (the individual system members)

some of our hardware includes being autistic, being a lion therian etc.

for the most part, kink is a software thing. the adults in my system who fulfil the role of sexual protectors each have their own preferences when it comes to kink, but there's one particular fetish which is hard coded into our brain and affects the entire system, whether we like it or not.

our host has been partaking in this fetish more than usual lately with his partner outside the system and i am frequently exposed to content related to it because we share a phone and are often logged into each other's socials by accident.

i am a sex repulsed ace, but i have memories of fantasizing about doing (activity) in a non sexual way with my crush at the time. the (activity) hardware through the lense of the echo software,

the problem is that i got groomed into this kink when we were bodily a minor. i used to take furry commissions on deviantart and didn't understand that a lot of the stuff i was being asked to draw was someone's jerk off material, because it's stuff that seems innocuous on the surface of you're new to the culture of the internet. i won't go into the specifics of what that entailed for us, but for context it's like how cartoonists used to get away with putting inflation and feet and muscle stuff in kids shows.

i drew a few commissions for this guy and he always wanted pics of his fursona doing (activity), and at some point i cottoned onto the fact that it was a fetish but i still needed the money. i was a very shy and non confrontational person at the time and he got me to video chat on skype with him for what i thought was a commission consultation after i begged him to keep it to dms or emails, and he just asked me a bunch of inappropriate stuff and wanted me to rp (activity) with him under the guise of it being our fursonas and therefore not creepy. he commissions several pieces of his fursona and my fursona doing (activity) together and i hated it but i was broke af and was like 'how badly can this really affect me, im smart, i'm catfishing nonces for money' and convinced myself i was the one in control.

anyway, not long after that, other bullshit happened in my day to day life and i went into dormancy, and julianna was not anywhere near as patient with creeps as i was. the guy messaged us asking to commission us, we cautiously said 'yes, but here's xyz boundary' and then he said 'i dont want a drawing' and tried to solicit nudes from us (still underage at that point) and julianna blew up at him and blocked him and wrote a vague journal about him without naming him, and he deactivated pretty soon after.

i am more affected by this than i thought i was now that (activity) is a big part of dandelion's life. it's not him that's triggering me, it's the reality of what happens when the hardware and the software are incompatible. hardware says we like (activity), echo software is sex repulsed ace and has trauma related to (activity). im more freaked out by my own body and involuntary sexual responses to certain things when i don't want anything like that

anyways im rambling, if you read this thank you have a nice day

echo 🌸🐇

[scrabble-scribbles]

ok. fuck you.

I am so tired, and im gonna try to put to words the realization I just had after arguing with another brain-dead adult

Queer people will NEVER be safe. never, not in this world, and not for a good, long time. No other minority group will EVER be safe, not for decades or centuries. You know why?

Any amount of bigotry aimed at my community is a threat. any bigotry has the chance to grow and grow non-stop, even if it starts with one person, it will grow. the argument that “you have rights now, you’re safe” is such fucking bullshit, and I genuinely do not understand how anyone can believe that.

You know what was a right? Abortion. Guess what is no longer a right, because bigoted people were left to their hatred, because “its a right now, abortion is safe” was used to quiet anyone trying to get the SCOTUS case codified? Thats fucking right. Abortion is no longer a right in the US. it was. but bigots were allowed to keep feeding their hatred, their ignorance, and because of that still-existing bigotry, no matter how quiet or small they might have been, got to remove my rights to bodily autonomy. 

The argument that once you have rights, they’re there forever, shows SO MUCH ignorance in how the world works. having rights means dogshit. a piece of paper saying “you have the right to live” MEANS NOTHING. 

I dont get why this is so hard to understand. having rights doesnt equate to saftey in ANY WAY. Black people have rights. they’re still killed by the cops. Queer people have rights. How many trans people have been killed by bigots already? how many kids have tried killing themselves because of the slurs thrown at them? How many queer people are homeless and starving because they were kicked out for their sexuality? Disabled people have rights, but if i wanted to adopt, I’d have to prove that my disabilities dont make me any less of a person. Disabled people still suffer from lack of autonomy, how many times have you seen a douchebag refuse to listen to a wheelchair user when they say they dont need help?

Having rights does not mean that bigotry is gone, it just means that the government (who we all know gives absolutely ZERO fucks about anyone) did the bare minimum to pretend they care so they look good for their voters, and stay in power. 

I will never be safe as long as queerphobia exists. I will never be safe as long as abelism exists. There is not a single minority in this world that will be safe as long as bigotry exists.

laws are written words. laws are fucking worthless. no law will stop the transphobic people from killing trans people. no laws will stop a racist cop from shooting an innocent man. no laws HAVE ever stopped bigotry.

what do they do? they tell bigots they need to hide, and be quieter with their plans and attacks. they tell minorities that our lives are only worth a few bits of ink on powerless paper. 

saying I have nothing to be scared of because the government codified gay marriage is one of the most ignorant things i have ever seen.

a law wont protect me from the football player who called me a dyke when he saw the rainbow on my shirt

a law didnt stop the TSA agents who refused to touch me when they saw my trans pin

a law didnt materialize to keep me from being shoved into a wall by a security guard when I tried going to the bathroom

a law didnt stop my friend from being strangled to death by someone who thought they were a threat for simply existing.

the law didnt help my friend who was assaulted when they accidentally let slip that they were queer  

a law didnt protect the people who were murdered simply for existing in public, or the people beaten for it.

We will not be safe until bigotry is gone. Never. we can’t be. until bigotry is gone, there will always be people who’s hatred overpowers their caution. there will always be people who hate me so much that they would risk going to prison just to hurt me, because in their eyes, my existence is something so utterly vile, something so horribly evil and wrong, that any method justifies getting rid of me.

I’m not safe. Neither are you. and we won’t ever be.

[fairycosmos]

hey hi hi! do you ever feel like growing up is just realizing all the ways the adults in your life have failed you? and then thinking "i will never hurt my nieces and nephews the way my aunts and uncles hurt me"? cause i do

(i didn’t know if you wanted me to answer in a voice ask but it’s a really vulnerable topic so i’ll answer like this lmfao) but YES absolutely!! everything i know about how not to treat a child comes from the ppl who were around me when i was little. even minor things i know my family didn’t actively think about - robbing me of my bodily autonomy, putting health and financial burdens on me and my sister, body shaming, lying - it’s so so damaging for a child to go through that. i think im like, hyper aware of how malleable kids are because of it. their brains are like play dough, anything can shape it. i wish the adults in my life had known or cared about that back then. sometimes i feel robbed of the person i would be now if they had. wishing you all the love and healing you deserve. adulthood so far just seems like a long process of unlearning it all and you are so so capable of that, more so than you realise x

[branzycrafted]

that syscourse post just came up on our recommended which i find so ironic bc i read the post saying littles shouldnt have social media while scrolling through my own social media account as a little like. oh. ok.

its such a weird take like. i had to be the host for a while so it was fine for me to be in high school and working a job, but not to be online? like? i drove us to school at 6am but i cant look at #webkinz on tumblr?

and not to mention like. if we see dangerous things, we switch. and even if we cant switch, i can deal with it enough to block them or get the post off our dash. even if im small i still live in an almost adult system and i still understand what the brain understands and know some of what the brain knows, and that includes stuff like curse words ill see online and what tags i should block so i dont see weird things. if im ever fronting "alone," austin is usually there by default so theres still an adult alter to help if i need it, and if he isnt or if its too blurry, i was still a host and had to have times where i took care of myself and protected myself otherwise we wouldnt have gotten by during the time i was our host. and when im like smaller i have like an army of people who adopted me as their younger sibling (/hj) to monitor anything that we come across online, and theyre all adults/older people and most of them are protectors whos focus on fronting with me is to keep my spaces safe.

like. even the syskids that act like real children like toby and like me half the time, our brain has still seen what its seen and knows what it knows, we wont like discover bad stuff through social media, we were traumatized to be here and know bad stuff exists bc we went through it. and we know how to handle ourselves to survive and to function, i wouldnt have been a host if i couldnt do that. theres syskids with multiple roles and syskids who are hosts and syskids who are older or agesliders and syskids who are protectors and syskids who just know how to take care of the system, and in general, syskids arent like singlet kids in the sense that we have the lived experience of an older person and the brain of an older person. a 6 yr old singlet didnt go to highschool, i did, i can handle myself online and talk to people like im older even if im not bc our brain is still older than me and at the end of the day its also my brain. im a kid, but im not helpless. it would be more dangerous for null to be online than it would for me, or for bug despite them being an adult. an alter's vulnerability and capability has nothing to do with age.

they were so confident like it was such a hot take and such a good cool thing like it was so profound but it was so not. like. literally not at all

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(I hope you don't mind me answering like this let me know otherwise!!)

YEAH!!! Literally I saw that and was like "Well I literally know of child alters who don't act like little kids like you apparently think they all do", they were so confident in their take and the replies were like lol you're so wrong

We have adults in-sys who have been more vulnerable than the children sometimes???? It's so not about age?????? And again it's REALLY bold to go out and claim that every system ever that lets their littles/syskids touch social media is an idiot and not keeping them safe. Cause that also is So Wrong!! As far as I know we've had syskids on social media to some degree while actively being with someone that was watching over them??

Also!! Body age goes above alter age!! That goes both ways, it goes for adults in minor-bodied systems and minors in adult-or-almost-adult-bodied systems or whatever. A 9 year old in a system that's like 20 bodily would not at all be on the same level as a singlet 9 year old—

I recall one reply saying they should replace it with "vulnerable alters" if anything and yeah I to some extent agree, like still not necessary 100% true but it's better than just broadly saying littles/syskids. Literally just,, any alter considered vulnerable can do whatever it's just that they should have someone with them to keep them stable or safe or vice versa.

And again I think it's so hypocritical how they said "let the kids live" but were actively making a point that would not be "letting the kids live" cause like you said if you wanna go on social media to look at webkinz you should be allowed to, that's literally "letting the kids live", letting them look at things that bring them some kind of happiness or comfort. "Let the kids live but actually don't just coop them up in headspace cause they're oh so unsafe otherwise" lol

Grrrr child alter can literally work a job but can't go on social media to look at content relating to a kid's game >:((( WE'RE HERE BECAUSE OF TRAUMA BUDDY LIGHTEN UP A LITTLE

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yesterday we got a bunch of hate on our sideblog for being self-dx and then they belittled us for being a minor. and when we turned off anons on the sideblog they were sending hate to, they flocked over to our main blog to send more hate. im really upset because we dont HAVE access to any mental health resources AT ALL and the last time we reached out to a school counselor, they blamed our trauma on us. the anons kept saying that i cant diagnose myself even though ive done hours of research and that im faking being a system because im a minor and cant get a professional diagnosis. we just feel like shit after all of that and we wish people didnt treat us like garbage for having no agency in our life and not having the privilege of a therapist or something

Hi there friend.

I'm sorry it took us a couple of days to get to this. People like that just want you to feel invalid because you don't fall into their perfect little vision of a System or what makes a System valid. Diagnosis is not an option for everyone and a well researched, well educated self diagnosis is still valid. Mental health care is expensive and inaccessible to a significant portion of the human population. To say everyone with a self-diagnosis is wrong is just unpleasant.

Did you know that we were self-diagnosed first? Though we have been professionally diagnosed now, we brought it to our therapist. The first therapist we had been seeing was in no way an expert of even educated on the matter. She took our research into the matter under consideration and she sent us forward to a specialist. We were diagnosed about six months later. Even she admitted it was a good thing we had done the research and brought it up. Another side note? We were absolutely a minor when we started to understand what we were facing. We were adults bodily when diagnosed, but we self-diagnosed ourselves as minors.

I finally tracked down the documentary we saw that put us on the path which was released in 2004. It is called 'Extraordinary People: The Woman with Seven Personalities.' We were under 19 when we saw that documentary, the first time we had words for the disorder. After that we couldn't stop looking into it, we were obsessed with understanding this thing that had been happening literally as long as we could remember.

All in all what I'm saying is that you're valid. If you've put the research in, if you've taken the hours to self reflect and look at your situation objectively, you're fine. Block those people, change you url if you have to for your own mental health. Either way, don't listen to them. They can't decide for you what your experiences are.

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im gonna talk about uhhhhhhhh… toxin, noham, and a rare game character because its Love Deadman Hour

so toxin is also a superhero universe character but shes actually not marvel!! surprise!! shes from an original universe and she was the first character i wrote for that universe. ive written her since i was eleven lol.

basically, shes lived her whole life in The Lab, under a man called Father. i wanna take a sec to point out this was YEARS before stranger things. so, she and several others are used for experiments to create superhumans, but most dont have powers and only develop extreme illnesses. shes one of the few who even survives, let alone actually develops powers.

no one in the lab is allowed to have a name (since theyre all kept there from birth or near it), and as an act of rebellion, she decides to call herself X, and carves it into a wall just under her bedframe. this gives her the inner strength to rebel even more, and she attacks an orderly during a test and runs.

her whole thing is basically that she was spliced with snake and toad dna. i honestly havent worked on the mechanics of that since i was eleven so like, dont @ me lmao. essentially, she has traits similar to that of a poison dart frog, so her body secretes a mucus that contains a strong neurotoxin. just a touch can paralyze a grown adult in minutes, and a higher dosage could easily stop bodily processes fully. this mucus also has a slight green hue, so it tints her skin. at best she looks somewhat jaundiced at all times

shes also immune to most poisons, she has long fangs, and her mouth is configured very not-human, so she has a small forked tongue and a gland that (when pressure is applied) sprays a venom… she spits venom. also, her eyes are all snakey too.

noham is another very old character! but not as old as toxin, i think i wrote him when i was like…. 14? 15?

he’s an alien, i wrote a whole culture and like half of a language w/ a different alphabet for him. his full name, sang noham (also transliterated as Sang No’am – the H after a vowel in latin lettering denotes that the emphasis is held on that syllable, since the writing system is syllabic) actually has a meaning. i forget what noham means, but Sang means “thousand”, and refers to his ancestry.

basically, noham is a member of a.. clanss? i guess? he’s a member of a clan that is considered “odd”, or an outlier, by many regions on his planet, because his clan evolved a split/forked tail. tails are like… a big cultural thing for them, theyre a huge part of most cultures’ beauty standards, so to have a forked tail is Kind Of A Big Thing. and basically, they used to be….. really poorly treated, and in the country noham lives in, they were banned from living within the cities and made to live in rural areas where there were often bandits, droughts, things like that. so his ancestor gathered an army that was absolutely TINY compared to the kings army, of all the able bodied people in the country of that clan, and they marched on the capital city. somehow, miraculously, they actually won the fight, though his ancestor refused to rule despite his victory. instead, he became a general. so now, being a general is like… its a family thing in the sang family. its basically expected of any firstborn, and the military basically hands it out if you can prove youre the real sang heir.

which is like, nohams whole holdup - he feels like hes got something to prove, but nowhere to prove it.

again dont @ me i was like 14 when i wrote this dkgjhdkgjh its got a lot going on with it that needs fixed badly

deadman dullahan… cant get TOO into his story cause i dont wanna spoil things and some of his backstory is like, a big plot point for his tiny sideplot, but hes SUPER fun for me to write

he, and all dullahans, are psychopomps!! they lead the dead to the next world

in this case, he leads dead humans into the world in which he lives, the Other World.

thts it. thats the name

hes so fucking old compared to everyone including many Otherworlders (who on average live longer than most humans) but for his own family and other psychopomps hes like….. the dead guy equivalent of……….. mid 30s? 40 ish??

because hes so old he doesnt like the thought of doing any one thing for the “rest of his life” because…. the time he has ahead of him is like……….. what hes already lived, again

hes just having a midlife crisis let him live

or mid-death, i guess

hes definitely kind of one of the wise-men archetypes of the story, like umma (which is a bit necessary for the type of story im telling, in a JRPG) but i like to think hes not, like, yknow. the hoity toity kind of wise man that makes you wanna break his own staff over his head

hes extremely mercurial as a person

and if you invite him into your home he’ll ignore you and only spend time with your animals. so you should invite him into your home

shockingly hes not got that much playtime………… hes important to the plot but still a minor character…….. F

try to make him do anything he doesnt want to do already and he will Punt You

also i posted about the screaming meemies a bit back. those are his. im not 100% on their relation to him but hes basically in charge of them

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On an album of bittersweet childrens tunes that she wrote greater than a decade back, the girl who came to get recognized only since the piano teacher offered what, in hindsight, seems like an eerie glimpse of her possess long term.

Im relocating away today to an area so far away, wherever no one is familiar with my title, she wrote inside the lyrics of a track referred to as Transferring.

When she wrote that music, she was youthful and vivacious, a piano Trainer and freelance music writer who cherished Beethoven and jazz, sunsets and river Appears, extended walks and every thing about Big apple.

On a type of beloved walks, as a result of Central Park in the bright sun of a June working day in 1996, a homeless drifter beat her and made an effort to rape her, leaving her clinging to daily life. Following the assault, the words and phrases to her track came true. She moved absent, from Ny city, outside of her aged lifetime, and all but her closest buddies did not know her identify. To the remainder of the earth, she was — such as the extra well known jogger attacked in Central Park seven several years earlier — an nameless symbol of an urban nightmare. She was the piano Trainer.

Now, about the tenth anniversary with the attack, she is celebrating what seems to be her comprehensive recovery from brain trauma. She is 42, married, with a small little one. She is Kyle Kevorkian McCann, the piano Trainer, and he or she wishes to tell her story, her way.

Her health practitioner informed her it might just take 10 years to recover, and Sunday was that talismanic anniversary. I really feel my existence has long been redefined by Central Park, she explained various days ago, her voice smooth and hopeful. Prior to park; immediately after park. Will there ever be a time Once i dont Consider, Oh, this is the 10th anniversary, the eleventh anniversary?

She spoke in her modest ranch residence within a wooded subdivision inside of a Big apple suburb. She sat inside a eating area strewn with toys, surrounded by images of her cherubic, darkish-haired 2-calendar year-previous daughter. A Steinway grand stuffed half the home, and at a single stage she sat down and performed. Her actively playing was forceful, but she appeared ashamed to Engage in various bars, and shrugged, instead of answering, when asked the title on the piece. She questioned that her daughter and her town not be named.

She phone calls that working day, June 4, 1996, the working day Once i was hurt.

Hers was the first within a string of attacks by a similar gentleman on four Gals more than eight days. The last sufferer, Evelyn Alvarez, sixty five, was beaten to Demise as she opened her Park Avenue dry-cleaning store, and eventually, the assailant, John J. Royster, was convicted of murder and sentenced to lifestyle in prison.

Nonetheless the assault to the piano Trainer is definitely the a single persons appear to keep in mind one of the most. Component of the fascination has got to do with echoes of the 1989 attack over the Central Park jogger. But it also frightened people in a method the attack about the jogger didn't simply because its instances ended up so mundane.

It didn't happen inside of a distant Element of the park late in the evening, but near a well-liked playground at 3 in the afternoon. It could have took place to any individual. The stress was heightened by the mystery on the piano instructors id.

For three times, as law enforcement and Health professionals experimented with to discover who she was, she lay in the coma in her hospital mattress, anonymous. Her dad and mom ended up on getaway and her boyfriend, also a musician, was in Europe, on tour. Last but not least, amongst her students acknowledged a police sketch and was in a position to recognize her from the medical center by her fingers, for the reason that her experience was swollen further than recognition. The law enforcement did not release her identify.

The very last thing she remembers about June 4, 1996, is giving a lesson in her studio apartment on West 57th Road, then Placing her long hair inside a ponytail and likely out for any walk. She doesn't bear in mind the attack, Though she has read the accounts in the law enforcement and prosecutors.

To me its similar to a actuality I realized and memorized, she reported. Like I had been a pupil at school researching heritage.

She does not contemplate The person who did it. I might need been angry for the minute, but not for much longer than that, she explained. How could I be angry at John Royster? He was declared not insane, but I assume by our criteria he was.

Dr. Jamshid Ghajar, her medical doctor at Big apple Healthcare facility-Cornell Medical Middle, as it was acknowledged in 1996, instructed reporters that she experienced a 10 % potential for survival. Physicians had to get rid of her forehead bone, which was afterwards changed, for making place for her swelling brain. When her mother made a general public appeal to pray for my daughter, hundreds did.

Just after 8 days, she came outside of a coma, very first inside of a vegetative point out, then in the childlike condition. As she recovered, she slept minor and talked continuously, sometimes in gibberish. I used to be finding mad at people once they didnt respond to these phrases, she mentioned.

Like an Alzheimers individual, she had very little shorter-expression memory and would forget about site visitors the moment they still left the place.

More than a number of months, she needed to relearn how to stroll, gown, read through and publish. Her boyfriend, Tony Scherr, frequented everyday to Engage in guitar for her. He inspired her to Enjoy the piano, in opposition to the recommendation of her Bodily therapists, who considered she could be frustrated by her inability to Participate in just how she after experienced. Mr. Scherr played Beatles duets together with her, participating in the left-hand aspect while she played the best.

That was my most effective therapy, she stated.

In August, she moved back again household to New Jersey, along with her father, an engineer, and mom, a schoolteacher. She visited outdated haunts and identified as pals, making an attempt to revive her shattered memory. I used to be really obsessed with remembering, she said. Any memory decline was to me a sign of abnormality or deficit.

Her therapists thought her progress was fantastic, but her two sisters protested that she wasn't the deep thinker she had been.

What bothered her most was that she experienced dropped the opportunity to cry, just as if a faucet within her brain were turned off. Just one night time, 9 months soon after she was damage, she stayed up late to look at the John Grisham movie A The perfect time to Eliminate. Just following her father experienced absent to bed, she viewed a courtroom scene of Samuel Jacksons character on trial for killing two men who experienced raped his young daughter.

The faucet opened, plus the tears trickled down her cheeks. I thought of my moms and dads, my father, and whatever they went through, she mentioned. Minimal by little, my emotion returned, my depth of intellect returned.

Urged by her sisters, she went back to school and got a masters diploma in music instruction.

Not anything went very well. She and Mr. Scherr split up five years following the assault, while they remain buddies. She dated other Adult males, but she often explained to them in regards to the assault instantly — she couldn't assistance it, she claimed — plus they in no way called for your 2nd date.

We now have to search out you a person, her Good friend David Phelps, a guitar participant, mentioned four decades in the past, prior to introducing her to Liam McCann, a pc technician and novice drummer. For at the time, she didn't say everything with regard to the attack right up until she obtained to understand Mr. McCann, after which you can when she did, he admired her strength.

Mayor Rudolph W. Giuliani, who had frequently visited her at her bedside when she was inside the clinic, married them in his Occasions Sq. Office environment. She wore a blue dress and pearls. While she was Expecting, within a burst of creative imagination, she and her pals recorded Whilst Have been Youthful, an album of childrens tracks that she had composed prior to the assault, including the track Moving. Her ex-boyfriend, Mr. Scherr, produced the CD. On it, her spouse plays drums and he or she plays electrical piano.

Is her existence as it had been? Not precisely, although she is unwilling to attribute the differences to her accidents. Her very last two piano pupils still left her, devoid of calling to explain why, she stated. She has resumed participating in classical tunes, but uncomplicated pieces, mainly because her daughter isn't going to give her time and energy to exercise. As for jazz, I dont even try, she stated.

She would want to drive much more, sensation stranded while in the suburbs, but she is definitely rattled. She tries to be content with keeping house and caring for her daughter.

Dr. Ghajar, a scientific professor of neurological surgical treatment at what's now termed Ny-Presbyterian Healthcare facility/Weill Cornell Professional medical Heart, who operated on Ms. Kevorkian McCann once the attack, said last week that her volume of recovery was rare. Shes fundamentally regular, he stated.

Other industry experts, who will be not Individually acquainted with Ms. Kevorkian McCanns circumstance, are more careful.

Regaining a chance to Engage in the piano might include an almost mechanical course of action, a semiautomatic remember of just what the fingers must do, mentioned Dr. Yehuda Ben-Yishay, a professor of medical rehabilitation drugs at Big apple College University of Drugs. At the time Mind-injured, you will be generally brain-injured, For the remainder of your daily life, Dr. Ben-Yishay stated. There isn't a get rid of, There's only intensive compensation.

The more telling Section of a Restoration, in his perspective, is psychological, and on that score he counts Ms. Kevorkian McCanns marriage and youngster as a significant victory.

For her element, the piano Instructor is aware she has modified, but she has designed her peace with it. I used to be type of a hyper —— I dont know if I used to be a Type A, but I was ambitious, she suggests. Why was I so ambitious? I had been a piano Trainer. I dont understand what the ambition was about. I actually did come back to the individual Im purported to be.

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On an album of bittersweet childrens tunes that she wrote over a decade back, the girl who arrived to be recognised only as being the piano teacher presented what, in hindsight, looks like an eerie glimpse of her very own foreseeable future.

Im moving away currently to a spot so distant, where nobody is aware of my title, she wrote within the lyrics of a tune identified as Shifting.

When she wrote that song, she was youthful and vivacious, a piano Trainer and freelance new music author who cherished Beethoven and jazz, sunsets and river Appears, very long walks and every thing about Big apple.

On a type of beloved walks, by means of Central Park in the brilliant Solar of the June working day in 1996, a homeless drifter defeat her and made an effort to rape her, leaving her clinging to life. Once the assault, the words to her song arrived real. She moved away, out of Ny city, outside of her aged existence, and all but her closest pals didn't know her identify. To the remainder of the environment, she was — just like the additional famed jogger attacked in Central Park 7 yrs previously — an nameless image of the city nightmare. She was the piano teacher.

Now, about the tenth anniversary of your assault, she is celebrating what seems to be her comprehensive Restoration from brain trauma. She's 42, married, with a small little one. She is Kyle Kevorkian McCann, the piano Trainer, and she or he desires to inform her story, her way.

Her medical professional explained to her it would acquire 10 years to Get better, and Sunday was that talismanic anniversary. I feel my lifestyle has been redefined by Central Park, she stated a number of days ago, her voice comfortable and hopeful. In advance of park; soon after park. Will there ever certainly be a time when I dont Believe, Oh, this is the tenth anniversary, the 11th anniversary?

She spoke in her modest ranch property inside a wooded subdivision in a Ny suburb. She sat inside a eating home strewn with toys, surrounded by images of her cherubic, darkish-haired 2-yr-previous daughter. A Steinway grand stuffed fifty percent the home, and at just one issue she sat down and played. Her playing was forceful, but she appeared ashamed to Participate in quite a lot of bars, and shrugged, rather then answering, when questioned the identify with the piece. She requested that her daughter and her city not be named.

She calls that day, June 4, 1996, the working day After i was harm.

Hers was the primary in a string of attacks by the exact same gentleman on four Girls in excess of 8 times. The last target, Evelyn Alvarez, 65, was crushed to death as she opened her Park Avenue dry-cleaning shop, and ultimately, the assailant, John J. Royster, was convicted of murder and sentenced to life in jail.

Still the assault around the piano Instructor may be the just one individuals appear to be to recollect probably the most. Portion of the fascination must do with echoes on the 1989 attack around the Central Park jogger. But Furthermore, it frightened men and women in a means the attack about the jogger didn't simply because its situation had been so mundane.

It didn't happen in a very remote Section of the park late during the night time, but near a favorite playground at three within the afternoon. It might have took place to any one. The strain was heightened from the secret of your piano instructors identity.

For three days, as law enforcement and Medical practitioners tried using to discover who she was, she lay in the coma in her medical center mattress, nameless. Her dad and mom ended up on getaway and her boyfriend, also a musician, was in Europe, on tour. Finally, one of her learners recognized a law enforcement sketch and was in a position to determine her while in the clinic by her fingers, since her facial area was swollen past recognition. The police didn't launch her identify.

The last thing she remembers about June four, 1996, is offering a lesson in her studio apartment on West 57th Street, then putting her extensive hair inside of a ponytail and heading out for just a wander. She does not keep in mind the attack, Even though she has heard the accounts in the police and prosecutors.

To me its just like a point I figured out and memorized, she stated. Just as if I ended up a college student in class studying record.

She won't think of The person who did it. I may have been offended for just a instant, although not a lot longer than that, she explained. How could I be indignant at John Royster? He was declared not crazy, but I guess by our standards he was.

Dr. Jamshid Ghajar, her medical professional at New York Clinic-Cornell Medical Center, as it was known in 1996, explained to reporters that she experienced a 10 p.c prospect of survival. Medical practitioners experienced to eliminate her forehead bone, which was afterwards changed, to produce home for her swelling Mind. When her mother built a public appeal to pray for my daughter, thousands did.

Right after 8 days, she came outside of a coma, 1st in the vegetative point out, then in a very childlike point out. As she recovered, she slept minor and talked continuously, at times in gibberish. I used to be obtaining mad at people today every time they didnt reply to these phrases, she explained.

Like an Alzheimers affected individual, she had minimal short-time period memory and would ignore visitors as soon as they left the home.

In excess of quite a few months, she had to relearn ways to wander, gown, examine and produce. Her boyfriend, Tony Scherr, frequented on a daily basis to Perform guitar for her. He encouraged her to Perform the piano, against the advice of her Bodily therapists, who believed she could well be disappointed by her inability to play the way in which she at the time experienced. Mr. Scherr played Beatles duets together with her, enjoying the left-hand part while she played the best.

Which was my finest therapy, she said.

In August, she moved again house to New Jersey, together with her father, an engineer, and mom, a schoolteacher. She frequented old haunts and known as good friends, striving to restore her shattered memory. I had been incredibly obsessive about remembering, she claimed. Any memory loss was to me an indication of abnormality or deficit.

Her therapists thought her progress was fantastic, but her two sisters protested that she wasn't the deep thinker she had been.

What bothered her most was that she experienced dropped the opportunity to cry, like a faucet inside of her brain were turned off. Just one night, 9 months soon after she was harm, she stayed up late to view the John Grisham Film A Time for you to Get rid of. Just right after her father had long gone to mattress, she watched a courtroom scene of Samuel Jacksons character on trial for killing two Males who had raped his younger daughter.

The faucet opened, along with the tears trickled down her cheeks. I considered my moms and dads, my father, and the things they went via, she stated. Small by minimal, my emotion returned, my depth of intellect returned.

Urged by her sisters, she went again to highschool and got a masters diploma in tunes schooling.

Not all the things went nicely. She and Mr. Scherr break up up five years after the attack, although they continue to be good friends. She dated other Adult men, but she usually informed them with regard to the assault straight away — she could not aid it, she reported — and so they never termed to get a second date.

We've got to seek out you someone, her Good friend David Phelps, a guitar participant, reported four many years ago, just before introducing her to Liam McCann, a pc technician and amateur drummer. For the moment, she did not say something regarding the attack until eventually she obtained to find out Mr. McCann, and then when she did, he admired her toughness.

Mayor Rudolph W. Giuliani, who experienced normally visited her at her bedside even though she was inside the hospital, married them in his Occasions Sq. Business office. She wore a blue gown and pearls. Whilst she was pregnant, inside of a burst of creative imagination, she and her friends recorded When Had been Youthful, an album of childrens tunes that she experienced written prior to the attack, including the tune Moving. Her ex-boyfriend, Mr. Scherr, generated the CD. On it, her partner performs drums and she performs electrical piano.

Is her existence as it had been? Not just, though she is unwilling to attribute the variances to her injuries. Her last two piano pupils remaining her, without the need of contacting to elucidate why, she stated. She has resumed enjoying classical audio, but straightforward items, for the reason that her daughter doesn't give her time to observe. As for jazz, I dont even consider, she explained.

She would like to generate much more, sensation stranded within the suburbs, but she is well rattled. She tries to be content with being property and caring for her daughter.

Dr. Ghajar, a medical professor of neurological surgery at exactly what is now named Ny-Presbyterian Clinic/Weill Cornell Medical Centre, who operated on Ms. Kevorkian McCann following the attack, mentioned final 7 days that her volume of recovery was unusual. Shes generally standard, he claimed.

Other specialists, who're not Individually familiar with Ms. Kevorkian McCanns situation, are more careful.

Regaining the chance to Participate in the piano may well contain an Practically mechanical system, a semiautomatic recall of what the fingers really need to do, mentioned Dr. Yehuda Ben-Yishay, a professor of medical rehabilitation drugs at New York College School of Medicine. When brain-injured, you will be generally brain-injured, For the remainder of your life, Dr. Ben-Yishay claimed. There isn't any heal, There's only intense compensation.

The more telling Section of a Restoration, in his view, is psychological, and on that score he counts Ms. Kevorkian McCanns marriage and little one as an important victory.

For her portion, the piano teacher is aware of she has improved, but she has built her peace with it. I was type of a hyper —— I dont know if I used to be a Type A, but I was ambitious, she states. Why was I so bold? I was a piano teacher. I dont know very well what the ambition was about. I actually did return to the person Im alleged to be.