#this has been like. a mini diary. sorry lol

[starredforlife]

sorry I’m just actually sick to death of being told I’m intimidating . I know it’s scary when a woman talks without apologizing for herself constantly but maybe uhhhhh grow up!!!

[susandsnell]

You're so right about Katniss! Her feelings for Peeta always felt like obligation - because he was kind, because he loved her and he deserved to be loved back, because he was what she was supposed to want and she'd be crazy not to - and she had mad vibes with Joanna. (The Katniss thing is also why I hated all of the MCU Natasha ships with guys. She's my second pick after Nina for character I am convinced is a lesbian.)

Thank you so much for articulating all this and sending it my way because I've felt nuts for years reading it this way (+ it's a pleasure to hear from you)! And that's with Joniss as a relatively popular ship, lolol.

I won't deny that him saving her from starving and later all they did for one another during the Games isn't meaningful, but you put it perfectly; the text keeps telling us he deserved to be loved back, he's what she ought to want. It makes a point about why she doesn't owe Gale, but wholly kind of sells us on her owing Peeta. The text makes a point of how Katniss, very realistically, has hang-ups about debt, and how the nature of Panem's totalitarianism is such that all kind acts are viewed as transactional rather than genuine, but then completely undermines this by providing little to no meat to how Katniss' real feelings developed from the ones staged for the Games. It's one of those cases where even if the guy isn't a Nice Guy, there's textual Nice Guying going on lolol. (I do also acknowledge that these books were products of the aughts and queer characters in YA were almost nonexistent, but having recently read Moth Diaries from 2002 which actively engages with comphet, I'm feeling spoiled lol.)

Likewise, the having children thing is like -- I get it, people can change their minds and her not wanting to be a mother was a product of the dystopian society they subsequently rebuilt as well as her own experience of maternal neglect, but given what the real world has always been wrt reproductive rights and just in general treating female queerness/nonconformity as a "phase you'll outgrow"/"you'll find the right guy and want kids eventually", I don't think I'll ever not feel gross about a character who does not want kids eventually ~embracing motherhood~ lmao. It could happen, but when the characters are fictional and hence in the author's control...it feels like propaganda, especially coupled with her repeatedly stating she didn't want a husband. And the quote from the epilogue is literally "It took five, ten, fifteen years for me to agree. But Peeta wanted them so badly." Which. Ew.

Contrast with Johanna, where things felt a lot more organic, less based on a sense of debt and more on some classic rivalry tropes that evolved into a sweet balance between an organic camaraderie and Stupid Sexy Flanders (I mean, the elevator scene? Straight girls do not react like that! "Johanna's motivational insults" and the relationship shift?)

Anyhow, thanks again for the message and sorry for the mini-essay/rant this turned into, haha. I'd be mega interested to hear your MCU Natasha thoughts, though, since your Nina tags were so accurate! (Equally biased because she was an early sapphic crush for me, haha.)

[hekateinhell]

I don't know if this is imposing or whatever, but I really like your blog. You have really interesting takes and I love your posts about Armand and you seem like a really fun and interesting person! Burnout can be tough, and ofc you are under no obligation to stay in a space that exhausts you, but if you feel like you have no impact on the fandom and the VC community, I promise that's not true

aww no that's not imposing, it's a very sweet thing to say and i appreciate so much!! 🖤

i do my best to be bubbly and enthusiastic on main most of the time lol i don't always succeed obviously. but also i think it's okay to be human since imo the human element gets lost so easily on social media.

for example: i've been told that i can come off as very self-assured/confident and that can make people think i don't feel much of anything, which is just not true!

and while i'm being vulnerable here, this past year on tumblr has been my first experience being active in a fandom. i never really saw myself as an "online person" except in the most superficial sense (i.e., instagram). it was just intimidating and not something that peculiarly appealed to me, so my first 15 years as a VC fan was just me vibing alone with my books. and then when i did decide to dip my toes into fandom at some point during a covid lockdown, i had so much to say!

i had armand/daniel meta out the ass, i was so fucking intent on legitimatizing lestat/armand as a ship since it was just Not A Thing lmao, and i needed people to cry with me about the beauty of armand and louis's arch from iwtv to bc. also just gradually transitioning my blog into a more adult space where people might feel more comfortable and encouraged to explore the kinkier elements of tvc in a way that's lighthearted and not have everything be so serious all the time! range is important and i hope i have that here.

in essence, i feel like i've dumped over a decade and a half's worth of vampire hyperfixation thoughts onto you guys in year's time and now i don't know what to do with myself in fandom. 😂 but i've really enjoyed my time here overall and i would be sad to leave after only a year.

it was one of the hardest years of my life personally for a lot of reasons, and having this escape and making these friendships on and off tumblr was a lifeline when i didn't have any others. i can't always be available to everyone or answer every ask (my inbox is currently in the hundreds and i'm mortified) but i try as much as i'm able to! and maybe it's normal, to have these cycles of ups and downs in a fandom? i don't know, but i'm learning.

sorry for turning this into my diary. i don't feel bad about humanizing myself because again, on social media i think people can stand to be reminded that's there's real human beings behind the screens, but i do feel a *little* funny about writing a mini essay haha (it's okay, i'll write something horny for you guys as soon as i have the energy, i have an excellent L/L/A prompt i want to tackle).

[sxxphyyzz]

this writer is tortured

during my childhood, like other friends, i had dreams of whom i would like to become. i liked to paint and draw and color - i could spend hours on end drawing anime characters, joined in art contests, and did freestyle painting with watercolor, crayon, and oil pastels. i knew i wanted to be become a painter, a person who creates art. art classes were my favorite, and my art teachers would ask my permission to have my paintings as preferences for upcoming classes. i was so proud of myself, until i discovered english at the mere age of 10. oh, i also wanted to become a lawyer lol.

i grew fond of english, and was pretty much fascinated with learning new vocabularies every day; simple ones like apple, book, restaurant (this one got me a long time memorizing it tho!). the best time in art classes changed into hours and hours of enjoyment in english classes. but i never thought i would have something to do with it, until the age of 29. years and years before 29, i partially realized that "wow, i like to write," alluding to a big collections of diaries and short stories kept in the drawer. but the thought of becoming a writer was never in my mind, i only treated it as a hobby while i spent time in university working on my bachelor's degree in english language. i had a good old time with english. i learnt so much about the depth of the language, like syntax, phonetics, linguistics, etc. i indeed tried studying german and korean myself, to realize i have a little fetish for languages and how words are construed in a way that touches deepest consciousness of a human, or conveys an extraordinary story that has never been told before.

i started something like a mini novel, after finishing an essay for my american studies in which i had to watch the movie callled "into the wild." it can be said that this movie has a big role to play in my determination to pursue writing while i was trained to become an english teacher. i love the storyline: poetically condensed. i kickstarted my writing endeavour with a series of paragraphs imitating diary entries of a fictional character. the storyline was randomly developed, or more exactly: i didn't care about the storyline, i just wrote for the sake of the words fizzing in my head at 3a.m. i wrote a hundred of mini diary-like pieces and another hundred of untitled stories. the best thing about writing is no one will ever know who inspires my stories (but you don't have to know?).

i still love to play with words. while i kinda stop making up stories about imaginary people, i use writing as a means to encapsulate my most twisted emotions, tell people about the worst tragedies of my life, and show people how their way of living have taken a toll on my way of living. all because, a writer, like me, can be tortured. taking the deepest kind of dig at my emotions is tedious, but this is something i've tried to come to terms with myself just recently. as an intj, i would rather bitching and moaning about people's shortcomings than spending a second discussing what-is-going-on-inside-my-head. i just don't. i want to avoid them altogether. i hate them. ew.

sometimes, i take a look back at my old pieces, and realize i have changed, for the worse or the better. reliving emotions and recalling moments where you are at the lowest are no easy. sometimes, i feel sorry for "her," and many other times, i have a hard-core cringe. yet, sweet memories are never tarnished as i catch myself smiling at brief moments of joy where i was carefree. i am so glad because i did record them in words, so i can read them over again. writing to me, comes as a mean of relaxation. it helped me overcome the darkest hours of my life when i didn't deserve the treatment from people wronging me. i poured my rational hatred, crippling grief, ongoing disappointment, sleepless nights, and dangerous thoughts into the pages, and i watch them sinking to the abyss of my undiscovered consciousness piece by piece.

i believe all writers are tortured. the kind of torture that goads them on to the better, dissecting layers and layers of emotions that are never dealt with. i believe i am tortured because i have endured such a long time figuring out myself and letting my hidden thoughts go unhidden. and a tortured writer like me is no fun to begin with because one day, who knows, you might be the inspiration to my story after catching up in an ongoing, unfortunate string of events treating me unfairly and poorly?

[stormblessed95]

Hiii Storm!

I was on tiktok and I saw this video where jimin threw a dreamcatcher on jungkook! I remember I watched some theorie abt that in the past saying that jimin gets sad bc jk rejected it but I can't remember properly, can you talk about this if you know?

I love your blog, read it everyday! ❤

Hi, this was from the end of Summer Package 2017 when they were all going over the gifts they bought themselves. You can find the subbed versions online, JK and then Jimin share their gifts from 1:02:00 minutes in. I've seen the theories you talk about, where it seems like Jimin is upset that JK rejected him or his words over the dream catcher. I disagree.

Jungkook shares that he bought a mini dream catcher. RM points out that it is very similar to the one Jimin currently has around his neck. JK shares a bit more about it and says he will put it up in his room.

Which is when Jimin takes it and points out that it's a necklace, not just something to hang up. JK says he won't wear it around his neck, to which Jimin says "okay then" and tosses it back into JKs lap.

To me, Jimin just looked like well fine then, ignore what you are supposed to do with it then. Annoyed, but not upset. JK didn't look worried he had messed up. He just seemed to decide that yes, he wanted to wear it after seeing that it either did matter to Jimin, or just seeing that both Jimin and then Tae were wearing them "correctly." I don't think it was put on as a necklace to appease Jimin, I think he just changed his mind after seeing Jimin not amused with his silliness or just liking how it did look as a necklace.

He struggled before handing it back over to Jimin for help to get it on. Help which Jimin readily and happily gave him. Jimin who also was laughing and looking totally fine outside that one annoyed comment. He didn't continue to look annoyed or upset with Jungkook, the tone never continued and he giggled plently. So no, I don't think he was upset.

I've also seen people say that maybe stemming from that being upset at JK not wearing their "matching necklaces" is why Jimin decided to give it away. Which I think is a little disrespectful to how touching the thought and intention was with the Gift Jimin gave to V, which was clearly something he had been planning for, and not some spur of the moment decision. He talked about how lucky he was to have found it and been able to give it to him and how bad he felt that because he was so tired, he didn't give as much comfort as he could have to Tae when he knocked on Jimins door after his nightmare. It really is so sweet that clip. His little "I really like accessories, but this one actually isn't for me..." lead in to giving Tae his gift

And how he wrote about it in the end of day diarys as his most memorable moment of the day too. It was a very thoughtful gift for his best friend, it really didn't have anything to do with JK other than how cute it is that JK has one too and wanted to wear the necklace after seeing Jimin giving one to Tae to wear as well. And I'm just sitting here going "now both of his babies have a necklace to keep their dreams safe" 🥺

So do I think he eye rolled a bit at JK being bratty and wasn't amused. Yes. Do i think he was legitimately upset or hurt by it? No, I don't. I think this gets thought over a little too much personally. Lol but that's just my personal opinions over it all. We don't know them or really know how they feel about things like this or why they make the choices they do. This is how I see it though. You can find the full clips on daily motion in parts or on Facebook in full with English subs though. You can watch the whole thing yourself! And you absolutely should

Hope this helps though! Thanks for the ask and the kind words 💜💜 sorry it took me awhile to get to your ask!

[xxreader-writerxx]

OMG ur requests are open! Okay...so can u do a Harry Potter×fem!reader where Harry is readers best friend. She is maintaining a secret diary and Harry once finds it hidden *u put the place*. He thinks to tease u and flips the pages finding his name over pages to Find out u have been in love with him. HE ISNT SURE WHAT HE FEELS THO. He kinda likes u as well but maybe he wants to keep u safe or something. Or maybe he fancies Ginny and prefers u as his best friend.

I would keep it ur amazing imagination and ur talented writing.

PLEAAAASEEE CAN U DO THIS ONE!?

Also.. stay safe,stay happy!

Don't Read Diaries- Or Do.

Word count: 1k

Harry Potter x Fem Reader

Warnings: Angsty, Manipulation (Ginny's doing), Miscommunication, (Happy Ending), mini food fight. (tell me if I missed anything)

A/n: Omg first Request! This was pretty fun to write... I might've slipped an Easter Egg of myself in it- What I'm a narcissist/j I love Ginny to death I just made her mean to add plot convenience

Y/N= Your Name L/N= Your Last Name Y/H= Your House

Requests! Open!

(I'll write about anyone from Harry Potter! I'm desperate for ideas lol)

I walk out to the school courtyard, bag in hand searching for a place to sit. I see Harry, Hermione, and Ron laughing on one of the benches. Hermione sees me and waves me over. "Hey guys!" I greet and Harry pulls me in for a side hug. "Your out of Snape's class finally." He laughs and I feel my face warm from how close we are.

***

We spent the day roaming the castle and now, here I am, in the library writing in my diary. I'm doodling Harry's name like some sappy teen romcom but for some reason its therapeutic after a long day. I hear rustling behind me and I shove the diary into the hidden compartment quickly.

"Oh hey Y/n/n." Ginny greets smiling. "Hey Gin." I laugh out, flustered from the fear of getting caught. "Watcha up to?" She asks and I grab a book quickly. "Looking for a book to study. Luckily I just found it." I lie and she looks at the book I'm holding. "What does 'The History of Pygmy Puffs' have to do with any of your classes?" She asks and I start packing it in my bag quickly. "Pop quiz ya know how those go." I breathe.

Harry's POV:

I'm doing homework in my dorm when I hear someone banging on the door. I open it to find Ginny holding a book looking like she's about to burst. "What?" I ask and she giggles. "You won't believe... what I found." She coughs out. She hands me the book and I flip through it. "T-this is Y/n's handwriting..." I stutter and she nods looking like she heard the funniest joke. "A-And this is her writing my name all over the pages..." I continue, a blush forming on my cheeks.

"Well it might not be your name." She says quickly. "Well who else has a H in their name that she knows? That's age appropriate of course." I ask and she thinks. "Well it doesn't have to be a name.... It could be Hufflepuff! Like that one guy Perri in Hufflepuff!" She states and I look at it confused. "Who would do that?" I ask and she shrugs. "I did hear her talking about a guy named Perri a few days ago!" She states and I look at the book upset.

"Take this back. You shouldn't take her things." I tell her angrily. "What's wrong?" She asks and I shrug. "Dunno. Can you bring it back now? I don't want her to get scared that her stuffs gone." I say and she shrugs leaving.

Y/n's POV:

I go to breakfast and see my friend group. I go to sit next to Harry but he moves in the way. "Can you sit with someone else today? I'm saving this seat for someone." He mutters and Hermione hits his arm. "Harry!" She gasps. He shrugs it off, staring at his plate. I nod slowly, backing away. "Yeah no problem. See you in class..." I mumble, walking over to another part of the table.

"Hey Y/n!" I hear Ginny chirp. I wave sadly. "What's wrong?" She asks and I groan, plucking my food sadly. "I think Harry's mad at me..." I whisper and she puts her hand on mine. "No! No... He's just processing." She tells me and I perk up confused. "Processing what?" I ask and her eyes widen. "Y-You don't know? I'd think he'd talk to you about it." She tells me and I cock my head. "He... Found your diary..." She says, looking bashful. "Oh..." I say quietly, holding back my tears.

For some reason I get angry. Why didn't he talk to me? Is it so bad I might fancy him? I get up, walking over angrily. "HEY POTTER." I half-yell, getting a small group of peoples attention. "Yes?" He asks annoyed and I grab his goblet of pumpkin juice. "Next time reject the girl instead of acting as if she did something wrong." I say after pouring juice over his head. He gets up angrily and grabs Ron's juice, having Ron whine with his mouth full. "Excuse me?" He asks. "You heard me." I answer defiantly.

"Aren't you going to stop this!?" Ron asks the three older years nearby, two being his older twin brothers. "Nope." Becca, Fred, and George respond. "This is too entertaining Ronniekins." Becca states, leaning back as the twins nod.

He pours his glass over my head and I gasp. "Well you shouldn't write in your diary so confusing and reject you? That's not my job! It's Perri's from Hufflepuff. Who writes like that?!" He spits back and I furrow my eyebrows. I grab a hard boiled egg and crack it over his head. "Well you shouldn't have read my diary! And who the bloody hell is Perri!?" I yell back.

He looks over at Ginny who looks horrified. "Your crush in Hufflepuff! The one I confused for myself." He replies, pouring his now cold oatmeal on my head. "What the bloody hell do you mean?! You're my crush Harry fricking Potter!" I yell back, pouring an unwilling Ron's applesauce on his head. "You like me!?" He asks and I nod angrily. "You like me?" He asks and I nod again. "Well why didn't you bloody say that?!" He asks, pulling me in for a messy kiss, I could taste the applesauce dripping from his hair that seeped down to his lips in the kiss. His hands tangled in my oatmeal-covered hair as I hold his face lightly.

We finally separate and I giggle. "What?" He asks smiling a goofy smile. "Perri from Hufflepuff? Are you an idiot Harry Potter?" I ask and he chuckles, placing his forehead against mine. "Only for you." He whispers and I feel my face heat up. He wipes his finger across my cheek and tastes the oatmeal. "I think you owe me a breakfast.... I think there's a good place at Hogsmeade." He tells me and I bite my lip. "Can I invite my friend Perri?" I ask and he laughs, throwing his head back.

"You owe me a breakfast too ya know." A very sad Ron states, Hermione smacking his arm in response. "Sorry Ronnie..." I giggle.

[atopearth]

Collar X Malice: Unlimited Part 7 - Adonis Route

Honestly, I find the way Ichika joined Zero's side to be pretty iffy even back then in the original game, so I kinda hoped something like Kazuki dying would have changed here but I guess not.. I feel sorry for Kazuki that they reconciled but she still ended up joining Adonis alongside Akito, it must be a pretty big shock having to deal with that. (EDIT: guess he is gone..) Ichika being at the top and training people in marksmanship and stuff is very interesting lol. She looks all right with short hair but yeah, I agree with Zero, I liked the long hair more. Anyway, Zero wants her to find out if there's a traitor amongst them before the next X-Day (since the one 2 years ago failed) in 30 days. Anyway, it seems like you go through each of the Adonis' executors' stories so that's interesting. I'm just going to go from the ones I least like to the ones I like the most haha, and then leave Mikuni for last I guess. Well, Hana's story first then~

Kobayashi Hana

I guess Hana is as bright as ever. I quite enjoy seeing her try and dress Ichika up and make her cuter lol. On the other hand, seeing her mercilessly cut through that panda cake was pretty hilarious. One thing I enjoyed insight into was hearing that Hana has been avoiding going to Isshiki's concerts to avoid causing any trouble to them with the police just in case they come to crash it because of her or something. Honestly, I was pretty impressed. Like, she's always been pretty selfish, and she's always prioritised her love for Isshiki above everything, but to see that she could stop herself to protect him was nice in its own way. Even though she's a pretty ruthless killer, and even though she's obsessed with Isshiki, I guess she does think things through a bit so that Isshiki won't ever have to suffer because of her. Hmm Ichika seemed to reminisce about Kazuki, does that mean he died? Anyway, these investigations are short? Are they really just segments of story for Ichika to become friends with each person? Lol. I mean, Ichika literally did nothing but talk about random stuff with Hana lol. I actually find it rather endearing that Hana and Ichika can fight so openly about their feelings and understand that they actually do want the best for each other, it's kinda nice how they became good friends under such circumstances.

Soda Manabu

Honestly, I kinda wish we could just pick one character and continue until the investigation completes because it's sooo annoying having to press on each one like 7 times just to get a couple of lines of story each time Zzz. Anyway, gotta admit Ichika is pretty judgmental towards Soda, and actively tries to "fix" him and thinks what he does is "wrong", which is pretty annoying tbh. Just because she doesn't understand games, she thinks it's useless to Adonis, and then judges him for his eating habits? Lol. Anyway, at least she tried playing his game though lol, and even got lessons from him haha. I see, I can understand why Ichika would go to Zero for "revenge" but not sure about the "sadness" thing if that's what she's going for tbh. Losing Yanagi, Enomoto, Shiraishi, Okazaki and Kazuki is a big hit and I can understand it shattering her world, but going to Adonis is basically breeding everything that killed everyone important to her. Anyway, Sasazuka's pained voice telling Ichika not to go to Adonis really hurt. I'm sure he's really hurting over the fact he didn't notice the weapons that ended up killing everyone, alongside survivor's guilt of being the only one who survived out of the group, and then now not even being able to stop Ichika from going over to the other side.. It's painful to see. Anyway, lmao, Soda is probably a tamer little brother than Kazuki. His words are harsh but you can tell he only talks like that to protect himself, so any time he swears, I don't bother taking him seriously, he's a hurt little kid. It's cute how Ichika mixed his hated eggplants into the gratin and he didn't even notice, but he ate the whole thing happily🤣 He's so adorable lmao, especially when his face went red and he told her he'd eat her stuff again (even though she shouldn't hear it), and then he ran off🤣

It seems like Soda regrets his actions much more than I initially thought. He was able to get revenge, but now he's even more scared of death because of what he had done, and now he's just in this never-ending cycle of fear, needing to have Zero's power to protect himself, doing his bidding so that he won't die, but at the same time being so scared of his life that the only time he probably feels "safe" is when he plays his games. I love how happy he was when Ichika gave him a SS tier rare item and he put it on, locked it and kept it in a special box🤣 That's so cuteee. Definitely enjoyed Soda's mini part more than I thought hahaha, he's such a cute little kid, which makes it kinda sad lol. Soda blowing up and getting mad at Ichika for playing solo and saying she didn't need connections when she made him realise he wanted to start building connections because of her was really...heartwarming. Soda gave up on people and a lot of things thinking that he could never have them because that's how it was considering how people are, but he changed his mind after Ichika so insistently barged into his life, and now to say that it's practically useless would be extremely hurtful to him. I was really impressed with Soda, and I'm happy that he even told Ichika that she can rely on him more, he's such a sweet boy🥲

Uno Suzune

Lmaooo poor Shion, the woes of a big brother. I found it hilarious how Suzune would give him the green peas she doesn't like even though Shion hates them too, definitely something siblings would do🥲 I superrrr agree with Suzune about handwriting diaries instead of writing a blog! I mean, I have both obviously, but I definitely have different feelings when I read my blog and when I read my writing in my diary. Through my blog, I can easily read my exact thoughts and get to the gist of what I'm talking about, but with my diary, I can see stuff like when I started getting tired of writing, when I felt like changing my pen, and a lot of other feelings that can't be seen or portrayed properly in a typed blog, and yes, the memories of me writing all this usually comes back better when I've written it, mainly because I either say it in the entry or because I can actually remember sitting there and putting time into writing about my life/day.

Guess Suzune's pretty yandere for her brother if any kind of possible romantic interest from Ichika gets her other self to come out and threaten her about it lol. Anyway, it's cute how she’s starting to kinda think of Ichika as a big sister. Suzune willingly taking Ichika to Shion and calling Ichika Chi-chan is probably the biggest improvement you can get considering she could stab you as the worst case hahha. Well, Suzune was definitely cuter than I thought and seeing her so vulnerable, shy but wanting to protect Shion and getting out of her shell for him was sweet. Are there endings for each executor? Well, anyway, Suzune saying she would be sad if anything happened to Ichika was really sweet.

Sugawara Rika

Lmao, I forgot Sugawara is obsessed with Zero, this is going to be fun I guess. It's kinda funny that getting a 50,000 yen strawberry entices her lol, I'm surprised Zero approved it as an expense, like dang, can I have one too, I'm curious lol. Lmao when Sugawara wanted to keep the strawberries as a memento instead of eating it😂 She should have been convinced when Ichika said it'll become a part of her hahahah. LOL when Sugawara started lecturing Ichika about dressing better in front of Zero, and then tried to get her makeup to make her look better, but then Ichika runs away😂

Okay, I loved the girls dress up night with Hana, Ichika and Sugawara. It was so funny how they started arguing about what Ichika should wear and then became fast enough friends to recommend each other stuff and then wear it for fun. I loveee that they had a CG for their new outfits because they're all so pretty, I love them! I think Hana's is my favourite because it's so simple but cute in a different way from her usual. I guess it's kinda cute how in Hana's investigation, Hana focuses on Ichika's clothing fashion, but Sugawara takes it further or I guess mainly focuses on skincare, makeup and haircare haha. I guess it's nice that Sugawara is definitely much more open about standing up for herself and other women when it comes to men who try to objectify them or think of them as "lesser". She's become stronger. I think it's kinda sad to see that amongst all the other happy mini endings with the other executors, Rika's one with Ichika is actually pretty sad because it was through them bonding that Rika noticed Ichika's true intentions of revenge, and that's why they can never truly see eye-to-eye and be friends.

Ogata Tomoki

I guess I didn't expect Ogata to be the type to go to batting cages, but I even more didn't expect him to reserve sweets to make sure he can get them hahaha! It's nice that he enjoys wagashi though, I definitely should have tried it when I went to Japan, but I completely forgot😭 Aww, Ogata had such a sweet daughter! Whenever his wife wasn't looking, she would eat his hated tomatoes for him! Such a kind kid😭 I've never heard of monaka before, so I googled it and they look nice!! Kinda like an ice cream sandwich but not with ice cream and has red bean paste and other stuff inside I guess? I would totally eat it. Lmaoo at Ichika's impression of the typical salaryman😂😂 It's true though, I can't imagine Ogata going home to watch comedy shows with a beer in his hand🤣 Aww it was so cute how Ogata did an impersonation of a character in a drama because he got so used to doing it for his daughter. But lmao at Ichika though, telling him what he can improve on since Adonis might have end of the year parties he could use it for, imagine a bunch of terrorists partying for something so normal like the end of the year hahah😂😂

It's actually really sad how Ogata feels like he can't be a father anymore because he knows that he prioritises his current ideals and dreams more than his daughter. And I guess considering how long they've been separated and how much he has changed, it would probably feel awkward to try and be a normal father, but I guess at least through Ichika's encouragement, he's willing to try and reply to his daughter's letter of wanting to meet him. I think the reason why I've always liked Ogata is because he doesn't regret his actions. Like, he knows that he's killed people and that's why he doesn't want to see his family and get them involved with what he's doing right now, because he knows the gravity of his actions. But at the same time, his hatred for Fujii, the police and the whole mistaken arrest that led to such injustice for him and changed his whole perspective on life is something he can't let go of, and that's why it led him to Adonis and to fulfill his "new" ideals. He knows it's a path that will not necessarily have a "good ending" but he's willing to sacrifice everything for it, and I think that's what makes me attracted to his character. Anyway, LMAO at how insistent Ichika was on seeing young Ogata with a buzzcut playing baseball, absolutely hilarious when she was ready to tie him up with a rope and search his room😂😂 It's pretty sad to see that Ogata wanted to be like Isshiki and save people with his justice without faltering in this cruel world but he just wasn't able to do it because hatred was what fuelled him to move forward and not forgiveness or hope. But I'm glad he encouraged Ichika to listen to Isshiki's song and hear Kazuki's guitar, because seeing Ichika show her emotions again, even if just a little bit was nice...

Uno Shion

Aww, it's cute how much Shion cares about Suzune, but also so cute how he's embarrassed to say he likes chocolate🤣 It's nice that he's more cooperative than Suzune I guess hahaha. I never expected Shion to like to paint though, that's interesting. Anyway, it's pretty sad to think that the "outside world" was much more unforgiving to the Uno siblings, and that it was only after they joined this terrorist organisation did they get to feel safe and secure that they have shelter and food without people going crazy on them. In that sense, it's understandable how much more comfortable Adonis would be for them. Aww Shion and Suzune getting excited over a chocolate cake is so adorable. Them saving up to buy a home for themselves is so heartwarming, it makes me really want to cheer for them. I'm dying from how cute they are trying to feed Ichika the chocolate cake too because they really like her and think she's really kind like their mother was before. Shion buying a cheese tart for both Ichika and Suzune was sweet, she's like a part of his thought process when buying stuff for his sister hahaha. Lol when he just shoved it into her mouth instead of giving it to her like a normal person🤣 Lmaoo when Shion drew a portrait of Ichika stuffing herself with cheese tart🤣 To think that Shion was so serious about drawing that he's actually thinking about a future with it after the X-Day stuff..it’s so endearing.

Sera Akito

It must be difficult for both Akito and Ichika to talk to each other. Just seeing each other's faces would make them remember the past and compare it to the present, making their whole encounter just...painful to watch. It's so like Akito to hide that he dislikes shiitake mushrooms so that it wouldn't inconvenience Ichika and make her remove it from the cooking menu. Lmaooo at Akito being so scared of bugs, enough that Ichika has to call cockroaches dark fairies to make him feel more at ease🤣 I'm sure Akito must be hurting too, but his consideration for Ichika above himself really makes my heart feel so warm. Awww, my heart swooned when Akito said his ideal type was Ichika! If only there was an Akito route~ Anyway, I didn't expect Akito and Soda to really interact but lmaoo at Soda having spent millions of yen on in-game stuff, Soda is right though, gacha rates are cruel😭😭 Aww, it was so cute how honest Soda was about wanting to have defeated the boss with Akito instead of dumping him and killing it himself, since what Soda values is playing together with other people. So, Kazuki was stabbed by a guy who was influenced by Adonis into taking revenge against his bullies or something, and I guess Kazuki was killed when he tried to step in? Honestly, I feel terrible for Akito. He was already feeling doubts and guilt over getting revenge for his sister, but after experiencing Kazuki's death, he must hate his choice for joining Adonis even more than before. It honestly broke my heart to see Akito break down like that not knowing how he could atone for his sins in causing Kazuki's death. His heartwrenching screams really cut me and made me tear up from all the pain Akito must have been bottling up all this time. Akito will always be my favourite side character, I think his pain, his feelings and his emotions were portrayed so well.

Sanjo Keisuke

Aww, Sanjo's favourite food being ramen is very him, kinda hahaha. I can't imagine a 7kg bowl of ramen and having to finish that in 30 minutes😱 On the other hand, Sanjo being into arcades is kinda unexpected, lmaooo at Ichika thinking he would play the crane games😂 I didn't think about the fact that Ichika is a former cop just like him now, I wonder how he feels about that or whether he even cares😅 Lmao at Sanjo seriously answering Ichika what his type of woman is and then even describing the body shape with sound effects😂 I can't believe Ichika just tickled Sanjo and made him laugh like crazy, I would have liked to see that😆😆 I think it would have been so nice if Ogata was Sanjo's boss, I feel like their values and ideals of justice back in the day would have matched well since Sanjo probably desired something "pure" back in the day and hoped to be a part of an organisation that helped people, and Ogata was always helping people already, so they would have worked well together. It's just sad that they both got betrayed by their ideals of what the police should have been to them and others.

 The idea that you can't feel any fear because you don't value your life is a pretty interesting and saddening thought. Maybe because I get that feeling sometimes. I agree with Sanjo, Zero definitely doesn't truly care about those ideals of saving the weak that he keeps spouting, he's not like Mikuni, and that's also imo the reason why Zero believes that he and Mikuni will never truly understand each other. Ichika and Sanjo eating ramen together is so cute lol.

Mikuni Rei

Lmao at Zero calling Mikuni an old man for liking fish, disliking carbonated drinks and other junk food because they're not nutritional hahaha. Otherwise, nothing much to say tbh, Mikuni has always been a rather bland character to me? I like him, but at the same time I don't because even though it's interesting to see that he actually has "noble" goals compared to Zero, the fact is that Mikuni as he himself said has been told that he's a "saviour" of sorts, and I think that really exemplifies the type of person Mikuni is. Someone who believes that he can and wants to "save" people in his own way as if he is someone above them all, but at the same time, he is very apparently flawed exactly because he is like that. He's not someone who truly understands the people "below" him and he also doesn't seem to perceive that as something that can be helped, and that's why even though his goals are "noble", he's not really noble at all. But it doesn't really change the fact that Mikuni is kind in his own way though. Mikuni eating shrimp crackers is so cute😂

Saeki Yuzuru

To be honest, I've always liked the chill policeman Saeki, and I personally think Zero likes that version of himself too. I feel like he always enjoyed just talking about stuff with Ichika during their drinking charades, and had fun visiting her. But at the same time, I feel like because of the existence of Adonis and Mikuni, Zero never really allowed his negative emotions to be "accepted" in order for him to move on, so instead it just continued piling up inside to the point of indifference towards the world and others imo. Anyway, it's sad, seeing Zero and Mikuni happily play chess together. They really look like two brothers just having fun in their own way. Hearing them say that they've been doing this since they were kids makes it all the more saddening when they realised that despite how "close" they were to each other, they never really understood each other. In a sense, I feel like in the end, both Mikuni and Zero use Adonis as a way to get the things they want and feel like it's one of the only ways they can do it? I mean, I do feel like Mikuni treasures his relationship with Zero more than Adonis or anything else, because when it comes down to it, I feel like he tries really hard to understand Zero by trying to see things from his perspective and hanging out with Ichika, the one that Zero thinks understands him best and the one Zero likes the most. On the other hand, Zero seems to use Adonis as a way for revenge of his mother and as a way to vent those emotions and scars he got, but at the same time Adonis also granted him Mikuni (a brother), and it gave him opportunities and power.

Zero definitely loves Ichika in an obsessed way, probably the only way he thinks he can love someone, since he doesn't want to become "weak" like his mother was. So if he felt anything like love, he would prefer it to be a love that would destroy him, because in a sense I think I can understand that sentiment of wanting the person you love to solely focus on yourself and no one else, whether that is hatred or whatever emotion doesn't matter, because being the entire focus of someone else's is a sort of "love" to enjoy, so I don't blame Zero for his twisted "love" lol. Especially since you can tell how much he has always enjoyed his after work beers and just chatting with Ichika. I quite enjoyed their little date walking around reminiscing the past and discovering new things they missed out on, now I really want to eat crepes🥲 The ending where Ichika kills Saeki is pretty sad though. Seeing Saeki the most relieved and happy he has ever been is probably what made me kinda happy for him though. He still sucks, but like Ichika said, I can't hate him, because it was true that he did reduce the sadness of many (whilst creating sadness for many others too though) and at the core, he was like in a sense a guy who consumed so much sadness from everywhere around him, always in pain, always sad despite his appearance, and thinking that makes it difficult for me to truly hate him.

Overall, I like the Adonis route! Initially, I was a bit sceptical whether it was really necessary and whether it would be interesting at all but I really loved bonding with all the executors. Seeing more of the human and emotional sides, seeing them warm up to Ichika and become friends with her really made me enjoy the "what could never be" part of it all. I think I especially loved Akito's because of how emotional it was tying into Kazuki and everything. But I also really enjoyed seeing the different sides of all of them. It really makes me wish Ichika got an individual route with like Akito and Sanjo and Ogata because I loveee them🥲🥲

Overall Review

I definitely enjoyed CxM: Unlimited much more than I thought I would! In the beginning, Sasazuka and Okazaki's routes kinda made me wonder whether I really wanted to continue this, but I'm so glad I got through them because I enjoyed Enomoto's, Yanagi's and Shiraishi's routes a lot! If I ranked them, I probably liked Shiraishi's the most, then Yanagi, Enomoto, Okazaki and then Sasazuka. It's definitely what I wanted in a fandisk, which is more fluffy romance and just bonding with all the guys even more, and I absolutely loveeee the potential romances with Yoshinari and Minegishi, they were so unexpectedly nice. Definitely no plot but that's okay since it's a fandisc and I think it fulfilled really well what its goal was when it comes to more romance in the story haha. 8/10! I'm definitely going to miss the characters, I'm so attached to Enomoto and them lol.

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Sorry if you’ve already answered this but J was wondering if you could talk more the girls childhood/growing up? Love what you’re doing btw, absolutely adore how you’ve basically recreated the Winx world! 💗

Thank you!!! and sure thing! long post ahead

BLOOM: she never really had any problems family wise, Vanessa and Mike told her she was adopted at like…. Age 7 or so (in a positive affirming way obvi) and even if any kids teased her about it she never doubted her parent’s love for her. Even with Daphne’s spell helping her blend in with earth life, Bloom still had a nagging sense she didn’t “fit”, and got lost in fantasy books and art whenever possible. Growing up she deals with some body image issues that probably stem from the whole wrong fit feeling. Bloom grew up an artistic and quiet kid, Mitzi and Selina were her best friends from childhood, and because they both had really strong personalities, Bloom often repressed her own feelings in order to play peace maker. Up until high school, where Mitzi, who was always the leader, slowly started to turn into a bully in order to gain the approval/fear of her peers, targeting Selina specifically. Bloom was more of a follower at the time and just didn’t want to loose her friends so she didn’t stand up to Mitzi but tried to treat Selina as if nothing had changed, which was not cool with Selina and she not-so-subtly started to reject Bloom as a friend. Bloom, for her part, did get her shit together and stand up to Mitzi, loosing her only other friend right before her senior year of highschool (she was still technically friends with Andy but they had also just broken up and everything was awkward lmao). Bloom regrets not standing up to Mitzi sooner, and wants to rekindle her friendship with Selina (and Mitzi if she’s willing to tone down the bitchiness).  

STELLA: So Stella’s childhood is a little more complicated. Stella is the first SoLuna heir in Solarian history, and a very loud minority protested her very existence. Stella also had to stay close to the Second Sun of Solaria as a child, so she had a very solitary and confined early childhood in a wing of the Solarian castle. When she did figure out how to sneak out she was only 10 or so, and spent most of the time just wandering around the capital city. She didn’t have any problems in the city, but an off duty guard recognized her and took her back to the palace. Stella was then sent to an elite boarding school under a false name (Sasha), she formed close friends with Nova and Varanda, but the trio was the target of the rest of the school’s bullies (for various reasons). Junior high was peak nerd Stella, but she “princess Diary-ed” herself when starting high school and started placing all of her value in her appearance and status as a sex object. Her parents’ marriage was also starting to crumble and Stella felt like she had lost their love. Because Stella craves validation and affection, this lead to a couple bad relationships because the only way she could get people to “love her” in her brain was through physical intimacy, even if it didn’t really fill the void she felt. Nova and Varanda were her rocks during this period and Stella was able to learn to love herself first with their help. Stella was insanely nervous to leave her friends and go to Alfea, and tried to force friendships with other people originally, (this mostly lead to people thinking she was annoying and getting multiple censures from Griselda), and her first genuine connection on Magix was with “Prince Sky” (Brandon). Nova and Varanda were VERY worried when Stella first told them about “Prince Sky”(Brandon) and how fast they had gotten into a relationship and they may have stalked/threatened him on a visit to Stella but they eventually came around and started to like him. Stella being expelled was only kind of an accident, Varanda texted Stella in the middle of a Chemancy class her application to Alfea for the next year had been accepted and Stella got SUPER excited and blew up the classroom. She probably could have stayed in school but her response to Fraragona and Griselda’s “now what do you have to say for yourself young lady” was *giddy laughter* and “ i only wish the explosion had been big enough to send me forward to next year!!!!!” and griselda was like “either she goes or I go” and Stella was like “ya gurl i gone” of course her time back on Solaria didn’t go exactly as planned as her parents were just fighting every time they tried to do something together making her people pleasing/self blaming tendencies worse. 

FLORA: ahhh my baby So Flora does remember her father, not a lot and she feel guilty she doesn’t remember more, but she was only 7 when he died. Alyssa remarried when Flora was 13, and eventually she adjusted to having a younger sister who she loves very much now. Due to Rhodos’s nature preservation needing a lot of room for study Flora and Miele grew up pretty far away from any town and didn’t have a lot of friends. This is primarily why Flora and Miele are so close despite their age difference, and why Flora took her role as protector so intensely; she was the only one there (I mean besides the parents obviously). Flora did well in school though she was quiet and reserved, which made making friends even harder than living in the middle of nowhere. She figured out the best way to make people like her was to give them what they wanted, and this snowballed into Flora becoming kind of doormat not comfortable with voicing her true feelings and faking a lot what people expected from her. Flora has a lot of repressed…… everything (Bloom mostly just has a lot of repressed anger she’s good with other emotions lmao) she has trouble identifying what she’s feeling and for the most part is content to leave her feelings buried as long as the surface remains calm. The Winx do help her start to access her feeling more, and encourage her whenever she does voice an opinion. Helia is a perfect match for her in the sense that his quiet nature leaves Flora to express herself without trying to mold herself into whatever she thinks he wants (of course on the flip side this also means Flora and Helia have issues with communication and repression but that’s another topic). 

AISHA: hoo boy another complicated one. Aisha was raised in a strict environment, this mostly stems from her parents and their more…. anxious natures, but royalty on Andros is not as free as some of the other planets. Aisha’s world consisted of lessons and adults and rules and she had very little control over her own life. Aisha met Anne in a rare moment of freedom in the tidal gardens where Anne’s father worked. Anne was biding her time waiting for her dad to get off work so they could grab some dinner and was dancing. Aisha just watched her for a while before Anne noticed her and asked her if she wanted to play. The two formed a fast friendship, and Aisha finally started to feel like she had some sort of influence in her own life as she snuck out of lessons to play with Anne every evening she could(obviously their favorite thing to do was dance lol) Unfortunately Anne and her father disappeared one night. Aisha lost her only friend, the only social outlet she had, her one source of freedom, and couldn’t even figure out what had happened. Feeling so out of control lead to a pretty bad anxiety disorder for most of her teens, primarily triggered by the dark or being trapped in some way. She also has issues trusting others and letting people help her. Aisha started to act out, trying to exert any kind of control and relieve some of her anxiety. Her risk taking behavior got pretty bad, but she had started to tone it down after she met and bonded with Piff(royal business trip to Magix she skipped out on). Of course when the pixies went missing she wasn’t going to let her friendship vanish again and tracked them down with a not so healthy single minded determination.

TECNA: born to higher class parents, Tecna had greatness thrust upon her from an early age. She received extra training and education basically from birth, which she was fine with for the most part. Tecna grew up being able to handle academic pressure very well and met all of her teacher’s and parent’s expectations.  She and Riven had a brief collision as preteens in a school before Riven got expelled. Tecna’s one issue was that of her emotional intelligence, Zenith doesn’t really place an emphasis on that, so she was able to advance through high school very predictably until she attended a non-Zenith based workshop for magic. She found herself socially ostracized and very very confused. Of course Tecna had never met a subject she couldn’t master and emotions wouldn’t be an exception right??? Wrong. Zenith’s information about the brain and the chemicals produced was of no help, her teachers and parents didn’t understand why Tecna suddenly had this new interest in such an illogical subject, and worst of all, Tecna realized she didn’t understand her own brain chemicals. Tecna had a mini existential crisis, realized she had no idea what she even wanted to do with her life or why it mattered and applied to the Alfea Fairy program because “FAIRY MAGIC EMOTION MAGIC HELP” also it would offer her strong emotional experiences(transformations basically require it), the opportunity to work closely in groups, and personally obverse her dorm-mates emotional states. She got way more than she bargained for but doesn’t regret it a bit.

MUSA: my angst child T-T so basically, the first half of her childhood is p good, her parents work really hard and don’t always have enough money but the family unit is pretty stable. At around 12, Musa’s mom gets sick. Nobody is too worried at first, but she never seems to get better and she takes a big turn for the worse when Musa is about 16, Matlin is finally diagnosed with Core Failure Syndrome. CFS is similar to Core Fatigue, but while Core Fatigue can be remedied fairly easily with rest and magic, CFS is virtually incurable unless it’s caught really early. The causes are still unknown, and the symptoms (fatigue, nausea, cognition issues, and muscle weakness) can be prolonged but mild until it’s too late. In the later stages (extreme fatigue, numbness in the extremities, chest pain, joint pain, memory/focus issues, inability to keep food down)  all you can do is try to make the afflicted comfortable. Ho-boe is understandably distraught, and tries to freelance write for music but goes into a pretty bad depressive state. Musa has a few odd jobs here and there, and thats mostly what’s keeping them afloat among heavy medical debt. Musa latches on to her mother for emotional support as Ho-boe is super dissociated. When Matlin does pass as Musa turns 18, Ho-boe finally breaks, and violently destroys every last reminder of Matlin because he can’t deal with the pain. Musa, who has suddenly had her one emotional anchor cut off, is super freaked out and scared by this and it really damages their relationship going forward. Musa becomes incredibly anxious, and can’t really process her mother's death because her father won’t talk about it with her and is still shut off emotionally. Moving to Magix only worsened it as Musa rebelled and went after music with a desperate passion. Applying to Alfea was a way for Musa to get out of the house, and she and her father weren’t on speaking terms when she did leave for the college. Musa had planned on learning more magic to further her career as a musician, special effects infusing magic into a song rubbing shoulders with rich and well connected people who could possibly get her connected to the big shots in music….. The winx situations had her change some of her long term plans a little, but her connection with the group + her separation anxiety and fierce loyalty didn’t really leave any other choice lol 

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daddy diaries

“Why aren’t we going to the bakery today Daddy?” Hana asks her dad as he straps on her seat belt. 

“Because, we’re having breakfast at Yn unnie’s house instead.” After fixing his daughter’s car seat, Yoongi closed the door and walked over to the other side of the car to get into the driver’s seat. He straps on his own seat belt, turned the engine on, and reversed out of the parking space to start the journey to your house.

“Hana, sweetie, after breaksfast, Yn and I are taking you to Uncle Taetae’s house okay?” Yoongi tells his daughter, looking at her through the rear view mirror.

“Okaay~~” She happily answers, looking at the view outside the window. Yoongi lets out a soft laugh at his daughter’s contentedness. She doesn’t even question why she’s going to be at her uncle’s and why her dad’s going somewhere with her unnie without her. This makes it a lot easier for Yoongi. 

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“Text me if anything happens, and keep me updated.”

You and Yoongi both raise an eyebrow at Taehyung.

“Shouldn’t I be the one saying that?” Yoongi questions. He looks over Taehyung’s shoulder to see what Hana was doing. She was focused on the tv, and slowly munching on some strawberries that Taehyung washed for her.

“Well of course I’ll keep you updated too, it’s not the first time I babysat mini Yoongi.” Yoongi nods his head once, then tilting to the side to look at Hana again.

“Yah, Hana, be good to Unlce Taetae okay?” Hana turns to her dad and nods, putting the strawberry that she was holding on the coffee table before running towards Yoongi. She gives her dad a big hug before giving him a peck on the lips.

“Bye daddy, be safe,” she says, holding onto Yoongi’s soft cheeks. You couldn’t help but watch the sweet father daughter moment they were having. Yoongi’s smile was full of endearment. 

“Of course, say bye-bye to Yn too,” he says, slightly pushing her towards you. Hana jumps into your arms and tells you bye-bye.

“Okay Hana, we’re going to go now,” Yoongi says, walking out the door with you. Taehyung picks her up and the two wave at you and Yoongi good bye.

“Wah~ your dad’s really growing up now isn’t he?” Taehyung says when the door shuts. Hana whips her head towards her uncle and nods, making Taehyung laugh. She doesn’t even know what he meant by that.

“Did you write on your wishlist that your dad get his hair dyed back to black by the way?” Taehyung asks, he was quite confused when Yoongi suddenly walked in with a head of dark hair. Hana laughs.

“We went to the hair salon yesterday,” she answers.

“Oh thank goodness. His hair was looking crunchy.”

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“Where are we going anyways?” You ask Yoongi when the two of you got in the car.

“It’s a surprise,” he says.

You purse your lips, “fine.”

It was silent after that, but then Yoongi stretched his arm to turn on the radio. You gently nod your head to the music and looked out the window. It was weird. It’s only you two now, when the only time you would see each other before was with Hana or the gang.

You couldn’t believe that you and Yoongi were going on your first date. When just a few days ago you were just chillin in your bakery eating breakfast because of Hana’s birthday wish. Which was to eat breakfast at the bakery everyday until her birthday. Which makes you wonder.. is this date actually because of Hana or does Yoongi genuinely have feelings for you?

“Hey quick question,” you say, breaking the silence. Yoongi answers with a hum.

“Is this date really from Hana’s list or do you actually.. somewhat like me?” You ask carefully.

Yoongi lets out a small laugh and you reply back with a nervous one.

“That was just an excuse, even if Hana did write that in, I wouldn’t hurt you like that,” he says, taking a look at you before turning back to the road.

You nod, bitting the inside your cheek and turning back to the window. The car ride was silent once again. Besides the low sound of the stereo and Yoongi’s humming. But you didn’t mind. It was a comfortable silence and you were busy with your thoughts.

It’s only been a week since the two of you first met but why has so much already happened? It was like fate for the two of you to meet. Kinda like what Hana said the first day you saw her. The day your bakery opened was the day she was looking for a cake. It was kind of a coincidence. Then not long after, you end up being close friends with Taehyung, who was one of his best friends and then you were welcomed into his group of friends and now you were seeing each other everyday in your bakery because of his daughter’s wishlist. It was crazy how fast everything was happening.

“We’re here,” he says, pulling you from your thoughts. You turn to him before looking around you. He laughs at your puzzled state. It takes you a while before you let out a surprise gasp.

“lOtTE WORLD?” You turn to Yoongi with wide eyes and he has the cutest gummy smile ever.

“I thought it’s best for us to come here for our first date don’t you think? We can try out some new things to get to know each other more.”

“I haven’t been here in forever,” you say quietly.

“Well let’s get in there now then.”

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daddy diaries

❀part thirteen: surprise❀

→ singledad!yoongi x baker!reader

a/n: okay so i had the idea at first for their date to be an amusement park but was like idk maan maybe an ice skating (??) date and then the two asks i got was those dates so wOw great minds think alike ?? LOL but the amusement park one was my sister’s ask and like she had a good point there and i like the idea. also, idk if you guys know the variety show we got married? but my sister and i used to like watching the yongseo one and they did that as a date and i watched for this haha. anyways im babbling but i felt like this was getting long so i’ll write part two tomorrow maybe.

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TVD 3x03 Review

I’m skipping to 3x03 because me and initiumseries already did 3x02 in a drunk review even though for some reason I label it 3x03 (maybe I was still drunk when I uploaded it):

1. I like that when Damon asks Katherine where she is and she says, “Staring out your window, pining away” this fool actually looks around. She isn’t there, Damon.

2. I didn’t realize how whiny Nina is as Katherine until now, my god.

3. “Details are all a blur.” “Well that’s a crying shame.” Translation: YOU DON’T REMEMBER US, STEFAN?

4. Yeah I hate it but in 3x03, when Stefan’s feeding on that woman in the car, Paul is slick there because as an actor he’s relishing the opportunity in being bad, it works well for him.

5. Rebekah’s introduction is pretty good. Just rolling up on Stefan, licking his cheek and talking about the date he just killed. This is why I never understood why when people think of Bad Boy Stefan/Dark Stefan and his partner in crime they go to Katherine, it’s Rebekah he’s the “bad boy” with.

6. “Chicago was magical.” “Yeah well I’ll take your word for it.” Legit Klaus’ utter look of disappointment when Stefan brushes off Chicago is hilarious. Omg, those two.

7. Oh look Damon just in Elena’s bed, she’s clearly uncomfortable and he’s making a sexual joke. Omg totally in love!

8. Oh Look Damon rifling through Elena’s underwear drawer.

9. Caroline’s dad’s logic doesn’t make sense considering that Caroline isn’t going around killing people for blood. She uses blood bags. She has it under control. He can’t turn her into a non-vampire so this entire process is a waste of time.

10. I will say the shot of her being tortured by the sun was good.

11. Damon forcing Elena to read Stefan’s diary is literally just him trying to knock him down a peg in her eyes.

12. I was going to say I find it interesting that as a ripper Stefan would continue to write in his journal but in the ‘20s Stefan doesn’t have his humanity off, he’s just off the deep end with his ripper nature so he’s manic, which means he does feel and Stefan probably feels things the most profoundly on the show so it would make sense he’d journal.

13. Stefan as a Ripper is also just a bro. Which I find funny.

14. “What is this?” *shows a picture of Stefan and Klaus.” “I told you, Stefan, Chicago is a magical place.” LOL. Be boyfriends.

15. HA. Yo I’m sorry man but Stefan grabs Klaus and pulls him around to face him, Joseph’s face JUST looks turned on. They can’t help this shit and it’s HILARIOUS.

16. They tried to recreate the Klebekah scene with Steroline but the latter felt flat for SO many reasons. First of all, with Klebekah, their victim is panting, which adds a really disturbing sense of eroticism to the scene. Second of all, Stefan starts touching Rebekah AS they feed on this woman. Third of all, Claire and Paul just had better chemistry.

17. “I’m bored, I want to go.” “Then go without me I’m not your girlfriend.” Says Rebekah to her brother meanwhile her brother and Stefan are eye-fucking the shit out of each other after Stefan and Rebekah were getting off on killing an innocent woman. Legit the three of them together are MESSY.

18. There is so much inappropriate tension in this scene.

19. And again, Klaus looks so turned on at Stefan committing violence, he STAYS adjusting himself, like omg.

20. This is the second Black female bartender that Damon’s flirted with that’s ended up dead.

21. I think what I actually enjoy about Elena reading Stefan’s ripper diaries is that she flips through it looking for hope (one of their fundamental themes) and she gets to the 30s where Stefan says the bloodlust is easier and Lexi’s onto her next project, which is getting him to laugh and she smiles, assured. I like it because she didn’t have to see that he was “cured” she just had to see that he was better.

22. The closet scene! AND their love theme plays. 3x03 is definitely not an underrated scene among SErs but I always like talking about how layered it is in terms of the characters and in terms of chemistry. I bring it up a lot because Lupita Nyong’o brought up a point about chemistry:

“Chemistry is something that you pray for as an actor because it is so hard to fabricate. It’s so much easier to just have it and then, you know, work on other things, on your intention and your action and all that. Trying to fabricate chemistry is just … it adds another … it’s a lot of energy.”

And I think a prime example of this is 3x03 because even the way Nina spoke about the scene, about how at that point, it had been the longest time she and Paul had gone without filming a scene together so seeing him really felt like seeing him for the first time and the feeling of the scene

And like I’ve said before, Elena being in the closet is Stefan’s past/his darkness and his future/his light converging in one space.

But also what I like about SE and the way TVD had written them is they give them mini tests within the relationship that they then overcome. For instance, Stefan is super far gone, he’s off the wagon, he’s been murdering people for months, is he so far gone that he’ll turn on Elena? And for a second it looks like he might when calls Klaus over but he doesn’t because he just gives him a vintage.

Stefan is drinking human blood, Elena doesn’t like it, is that going to be a choice that tears them apart or brings them together? Elena chooses to be in it with Stefan by giving him her vein.

There’s constant tension between Stefan’s vampirism and SE love and SE love always wins out. 

23. “I had an hour to realize what a bad idea it was to leave you here alone, process it and move on.” Damon, you’re a dick.

24. Klaus is so in love with Stefan and I find it hilarious because this isn’t brotherly at all.

25. These stares. Get a ROOM.

26. Yeah see Candice is good at screaming when it comes to being tortured but when it comes to crying she’s adequate at best.

27. KLEFAN WHY ARE Y’ALL SO CLOSE?

28. Touching chests and shit.

29. Klaus: I forgot what it was like to have a brother.

Me:

30. It always bothered me that when the vampire use vampire speed in the show and slam each other against things like walls and doors, nothing dents or cracks. They do it in Mr and Mrs. Smith for godsake and they’re not even vampires!

31. That was a BAD shot of Ian, man, he looked old as fuuuuuuuuuuuck.

32. “Well I am torn, you see, I promised Stefan I wouldn’t let you die but how many freebies did I really sign up for? And clearly you WANT to die otherwise you wouldn’t be here...” Jo’s delivery is on point.

33. I’ve said it before but the, “You shouldn’t be here.” “Where else would I be?” and Elena’s head tilt like of COURSE I’d come after you, of COURSE I’m here, of course, of course, of course, is really just pure SE.

34. “When I’m done with him, he won’t want to go back.” Idc, the writers had to know that that the line was DRIPPING with innuendo.

35. “I don’t want to see you, I don’t want to be with you.” SE did this so much better than DE did because it wasn’t hyperbolic and the inflection in Paul’s tone, the shocked stillness of Elena is just done so WELL. And their circumstance is also SO MUCH sadder than DE’s was because DE’s issue was literally just that Damon was trash.

36. Aww Forwood.

37. Oh Klaus stabbing Rebekah because she wants to leave, I just wish they made them Cesare and Lucrezia. Go all the way. Cowards.

38. Klaus: Look guys, we’re an Ot3 again!

39. See when Rebekah throws over the casket, it should break apart.

40. Stefan’s hair really was stupid in the 20s.

41. “Have you seen these two people before?” “No.” “OK.” That’s it?

Alright guy, thanks for reading!

[ruffiorocks]

Latest Supergirl Episode

Soooo i just finished the latest episode and wow! I really enjoyed that! Only a few issues with it lol, so here’s my review:

. Kara hits Lex with full strength even after she shatters the Lexo suit! She has really got to stop hitting humans with full strength! By right the guys body should have shattered into pieces and he should be dead! Thank God Lex gave himself powers! Kara did NOT know this!

.Lex in the courtroom ‘better make it 32 life sentences’ was such a Doctor Evil moment!! 

.James in the courtroom, talking about his scars and about Superman..... yawn......... next witness please! If Lex had done that surely we would have heard this before.

. For F**ks sake EVE! I was hoping for some double, double agent reveal! Buuuut! We still havent had the scene with Lena and Eve with the gun in Lena’s hand at the Luthor mansion! Has Eve turned on Lex? 

. Russian Kara breaking a guys hand when he says she’s ‘just a little girl’.

. Russian Kara only remembers the name Alex! My heart!

. Cliche manipulation though ‘bad Americans are bad and the cause for all evil ever’. 

. Melissa’s Russian accent though?!

. Lex and the chess games in prison! 

.Russian Kara’s reaction to chocolate! Lol

.Why is she throwing those books on the ground?! Its giving me anxiety! 

.Lex can just leave because he has a hologram! Ahhh brill! 

. Lex in a wig! Hahahahaha!!! 

. Linda Lee!

.Otis Graves has a heart! 

.So glad Russian Kara had a mind of her own and questioned Lex and went out of her way to get to know the real Kara Danvers, thank God it was played out so well.

. So Lex definitely knows who Kara is, so its official Lena is the ONLY person in National City, America and apparently Russia who doesnt know Kara is Supergirl.....*sigh* thats not going to end well. 

. When Russian Kara started to talk about Lena i had fan fic flash backs! Make more happen people!! 

. For the love of RAO i hope Lex added something extra to his dose of Harun El after Lena went to save James! Because i do NOT need a super powered James, a super powered Lex, two Supergirls and Superman! No just NO! Stop trying to make James relevant! You almost had it right 2 episodes ago when he picked his camera back up (but instead of helping people who were being beaten up the ‘ex hero’ took pics instead). 

. I love how Kara writes nice things about Lena in her diary! Look how they are telling us about their friendship rather than showing us! 

. Russian Kara says Supergirl ‘acts on emotions and has no discipline’ am i the only one that thinks that is spot on?! 

.Russian Kara’s suit though?! She has pants! Goodbye mini skirt! 

. I hope Alex talks to or is taken by Russian Kara and gets through to her! Alex Danvers is Kara’s heart after all! 

.I hope Mikhail shows up again! 

.Wait.. didnt Russian Kara say that it was just Mikhail and his mom but she’s often working? Where did she go after the house was blown up?

.Lex as a hologram in Lena’s office though? ‘I just realized i you haven't asked why i want the Harun El?’ Lena ‘I assumed homicide!’ hahaha! 

.Im sorry, but Russian Kara adopting a perfect American accent that quick that sounds EXACTLY like Kara who she has never met or even remembers? I dont think so, not unless Lex had her watching footage of Supergirl hope speeches in that container! 

. NOT a fan of the show making Cancer into an amusing moment where Lex just gives it to himself like its nothing! 

. Lex saying what we’ve all been thinking, Kara affording that loft on a reporters salary? I cracked up!

. I get that Lex is making Americans seem greedy to Russian Kara but why is she surprised about the amount of food in Kara’s fridge? She’s Kryptonian to, surely she needs to eat just as much as Kara?! 

. Poor Lena and being tied to chairs with Zip ties or being kidnapped and bad s**t happening in her office, she cant catch a break can she? Poor Love! 

. Jon Cryer is killing it as Lex Luthor! Those of us who scoffed at the idea? Hang your heads in shame! I am! 

OK thats about it, but all in all a good episode!! 

[low-hazard]

just long post ahead about my silly little life because tumblr is the occasional diary i guess !!

im really happy in the relationship im in right now, i’m with a partner who puts the same effort back as i put in, appreciates me and doesn’t take me for granted, makes me feel loved and does sweet small things like surprising me with boba when i feel bad, understands me and supports me when they can’t understand, challenges me to try different things and embrace the things i love, so much and it’s just…..wow!!

it’s a big difference from my last relationship, which wasn’t bad but it also…wasn’t great. that’s not to say my ex was a bad person but they weren’t a good partner. but what i have now?? it’s amazing and i couldn’t be more thankful. i really really hope things work out for the long term with them :D

i also graduate college next semester! majoring in CS and i can finally leave LOL i don’t hate the major per say and i do wish i could have figured out the part i might have enjoyed earlier, but also mannn no more school stress!! ive been working at an internship this summer and it’s going really well, and living with a group of other college queer college students this summer has been so so fun! it definitely makes me feel less anxious about striking it out on my own after college :,)

it has sucked being away from my college friends but it’s also been fun getting to catch up with each other and talk about all the exciting things we’ve been up to! i feel more like my age now after this summer and being more independent, and i’m happy that my friends get to experience it too. very excited to see them again!! :D

i’ve picked up film photography and hopefully with my brother getting an old camcorder from storage in the elementary school i used to go to, i can try taking up videography and editing!! i think making little films capturing life would be really fun. ive also been getting back into art and am thinking about what kind lf stuff i’d want to make. im just glad to have the creative spark back i think

my lovely car that i’ve owned now for a few months is my favorite thing, it’s a lovely ride and MAN that pickup is so sexy….i feel very lucky to be able to have it :,) ive been supporting myself entirely on my own this summer and i’m very fortunate that my job and situation let me do that! i had enough money to cough up when my car had a major problem to get fixed which definitely hurt OTL but you know…it’s good to feel like i can support myself.

there are still things that are negative, like recent situations within the country and monkeypox, or the mini depression spirals i have, but i want to hold the good things in my life close. i have a good base to stand on, and a life that’s more filled with love than ever before. even when times get rough, i hope to still have that love to make bearing the pain easier. i hope everyone gets to have that.

sorry for the long post haha, but if you read this through, thanks for taking a look into my life :) i hope you’re doing well too, and if not, i hope you know that you are capable of changing things even a little bit to get closer to where you want to be

[lifeofkya]

Hey guys! It’s 3/6/22 sorry for not blogging for like three days. I just started work again and been trying to focus on myself. I had an interview on Friday for manager and I hope I get it! My boss said she would call me yesterday but I haven’t gotten an call.. I’ve been also hanging out with Luke! On Friday we just watch Batman rises because he has never seen it. We passed out before the movie was over. I love sleeping with him. Plus he’s beautiful to look at while he sleeps. He hit me in the face a lot while we’re were sleeping thoo…he’s was still cute though! I had to leave him that night. We don’t stay the night at each other’s house because of parents…it makes me cryyy..not really thoo.. I be missing my 80 pillows. Luke has like two and that just doesn’t sound right. I had to work Saturday even though I was off. My boss asked if I can pick up her shift because her dog got attacked!! Like wtf while she was walking it!! The whole thing was that a person and their dog was walking, the owner didn’t have the dog on its leash and that dog attacked my boss dog! I would’ve been fighting if my dog got attacked. My boss dog had to get stitches…it was bad but he’s okay now. Even when she told me all that, she still didn’t tell me about my promotion. Today right now I am in the car…stuck with luke. He popped two of his tires while trying to take me to this beautiful park. It sucks and he was very very mad. I feel bad for him, especially because the love and time he puts into his car. I hate to see him deal with another problem. It’s funny because every time we do something we always get stuck. Like we went up the mountains once when he was driving an old mini van and it started smoking as soon as we were at the top of the mountain. We had to wait for his dad to come and get us and also go get a trailer for the van. That was like 2 hours of waiting… we also got stuck in snow once but we managed to get out in like an hour, lol. Heeeyyyyyyy it is 3/7/22 and I had to stop writing because Luke was very curious what I was writing and I haven’t told him about my blog because I wouldn’t be able to write anymore…it’s like trying to read my diary in front of mee..I told him that if he can find it without my help, he can read it. Luke then, playfully tried to take my phone. Soo what happened yesterday??

[mycosmicbackyard]

Dear Tumblr #3

A little diary about the things I never talk about…

How are you guys? Happy International Towel Day 2018! Head over to my IG: theuncosmiclibrary and take a look at my little salute (o7) to International Towel Day <3

It is so warm now. I don’t like the heat a lot. I mean, I am grateful and all after loads of winter, but... I prefer a bit wind-weather. Always been like this. 

But, the flowers are blooming and they are so beautiful, I should’ve posted some pics for you guys, of course, didn’t think of that. 

But what I HAVE thought about is my career further. It is no secret that I am staying at home because we are a foster home and I am paid to do that. But that won’t last forever. And I won’t continue to be a sign language interpreter forever. 

So what do I do then? Well, I have decided to NOT study! And I believe that is one of the best decisions I’ve ever made!

That being said, I am starting with Psychosynthesis in autumn. Of course in Norwegian at another place, but it is all the same thing. I’ve wanted this for so many years, and now, I’m finally taking the step!

In all these years I’ve felt that “I don’t deserve” or “should waste away money” on this. I’ve always felt obligated to “do the right thing”, but now... except from taking care of my responsibilities (which I already do anyway) ... no. I don’t want that life anymore! I have plans for how I want to live. I want to LIVE, you see, and that means actually not sitting in front of a PC all day long either. Writing is going to be a part of my life, but not all of it. 

So, I am doing this! For me! I feel so free!

I am also doing a little mini-education of magazine journalism, This study (in Norway) has reached such a high status in such a short time, no big price tag, just the real deal: a journalist giving all her tricks on how to sell articles to magazines. I am jumping on the opportunity. So both psychosynthesis and magazine-journalism will start this fall! 

What do I do with my writing, then? Well, I continue of course. Those 4$ I get in monthly on Patreon are at least something, and while the concept is to build an “actual” cosmic library inside of Patreon, I am just going to continue on that task. I have one never-ending poem, one space-story and one guided tour in the cosmic backyard as reward tiers - and to be honest - I think they are awesome!

Of course, if you would like to support me on my journey I am more than grateful! I have also started a Ko-Fi account, but of course if you’d like to be a member of the cosmic library, my Patreon is here.

Stay well my friends! Don’t forget to breathe and meditate, and if you haven’t already, start to do so now.

Namaste. (btw sorry @shafath but making poetry on insta just takes too long. You just gotta make do with this entry, lol)

[imperfectweirdoxo]

So writing has always been apart of my life since I was in grade school. I always kept a diary or journal and still do. Sometimes when I’m out and about words and sentences come to me, LOL, it sounds weird, I know. No I am not hearing voices. But whenever these words come to me, I get this sudden urge to write. It’s like I get triggered by certain words or phrases, not in a bad way, and it gives me the urge to write them down, and start forming a story. I’ve always wanted to write my own series, but I use to put limiting beliefs on myself, saying that was too much work, or simply being lazy, because if I’m going to write a bomb ass YA fiction series, it takes research and time, and you have to come up with character backgrounds, and a plot and it just sounded like a lot and I really hate research 😭 which is why everything that I would write were just mini stories. See yeah, look at those limiting beliefs. I’m going to do it though. I’m trying to figure out what exactly my series will be about. Something that’s not EXACTLY like everything else that’s already out there.

Any way! Here’s a mini story that I wrote. It’s untitled. Tumblr is my safe place and has been for some years.

He didn’t like short hair at all. He hated it. He liked long hair on women, and hated when women cut all of their hair off. It was something about long hair that made a woman sexy. But when he saw her, none of that mattered. She was different from the last time he had seen her. She was happy and she had a glow to her. He could see the shape of her face. It was angled and beautiful. How had he not seen that before? Had he really been blinded all this time? Short hair brought out all of the features of her face that had been hidden to him. The shape of her eyes, her lips, her nose. She was truly beautiful. He wanted to reach out and grab her face between his hands and kiss her. But he couldn’t. It was too late. He felt a pang of hurt in his chest, right where his heart was. And he felt so stupid that it took for them to break up to realize how beautiful she actually was. He thought about all of the other girls that he had called beautiful, and how he had never said it to her. But they weren’t in comparison to her. And even though he was too late, he had to tell her because she needed to know that he was truly sorry for not realizing what he had.

“Wow” he said. “What are you wowing about?” She said. “You’re beautiful and it’s killing me because it took me all of this time to realize what I actually had.” “Um thanks, I guess.” She said. He couldn’t contain his feelings for her and it all poured out. “I want you to really know that I truly think you are beautiful. I love your hair like this. The shape of your face, your eyes and lips; it all so perfect.

[darley1101]

The Ultimate Choices Tag Game

Thanks for the tag @jadedpixiescribbles

1. Which of your MCs would win the hunger games?  I would have to say Devon from ILITW. She knew how to adapt to her surroundings and didn't hesitate to do what she needed to do. I have complete and total faith in her ability to dominate the hunger games.

2.Which MC is your favorite?  Now this is a hard question because I love each of my MC's for different reasons. Since I can only pick one, I am going to have to go with Ava from Perfect Match. Not only is she beautiful, she's smart and not afraid to get her hands dirty to save the people she loves. (Especially Damien.)

3. If only ONE LI (from any Choices book ever) could be transported into your real life and be your real life partner, who would it be and why? (I hope you get I what mean) This is a tricky question for me. My husband is lot like Chris from the Freshmen so it is kind of like I already have one of the LI in real life lol That being said, I would probably have to bring Zig. Not for romantic purposes but because I think he would make an amazing friend. He's so loyal and supportive.

4. To which character do you relate the most? This is probably going to be my longest answer. Hana is the character I relate to the most. I grew up with all these expectations of who I should be. We didn't have much because my mom was a single parent. She always found a way to pay for things like dance, swimming, cheer, softball, glee club, etc. I spent a lot of time honing skills that could 'help' me get into college because it was going to be the only way I could go. There was also the way people in our town looked at me. When you live in the projects, that is where you are expected to stay. It still hurts when I think about the people who said I was going to be just like all the other girls who grew up in low income. Pregnant and a drop out by 16. None of them seemed to care that I only had eyes for one boy. A boy that was probably just using me for easy sex according to most of them. He came from money and college was something he didn't have to worry about. I spent most of high school feeling not good enough for him or trying to prove myself to others and to my mother. Feeling lost and not good enough really sucks. (For those who are curious, I'm still with him. We've been married since we were 19 and have 2 amazing children that have grown up entirely too fast.) So yes, I feel like Hana. I struggle with believing in myself or believing others when they tell me I'm good at something because I don't feel that way most of the time.

5. What was the first book you’ve ever played? Most Wanted. In general, I like crime mysteries. I was actually really disappointed in Most Wanted though. I didn't like Sam and I hated that they started hinting at a romantic involvement. I just wanted the crime solving folks.

6. Which book have you replayed the most times? The Royal Romance. There's just something about the characters that make me 'feel.' And that isn't an easy task.

7. Would you rather have Hero 2 or Most Wanted 2? Is it wrong of me to say neither? Both books bored me to tears.

8. Did you like LoveHacks? Oh yeah. I am a sucker for friends falling in love with each other. Since that is the premise for most of the book (okay maybe not but for me it is) it was an easy mini series to get attached to.

9. Did you like RoE? I really wanted to like it. It had an interesting concept but there was such poor character development I couldn't get into. The MC came across as this 'what do I do, what do I do' ninny who, no matter what choices you made, was stupid enough to sleep with any guy who said the right things. Don't get me started on Nana. I understand that she wanted her grandchildren to 'earn' their inheritance but the way she went about it was wrong. I also don't think she was all that great of a person when she was alive either. The aunt didn't develop those feelings overnight or without something stirring them up. Plus, trying to force the nerdy twin into doing outlandish things? Not cool. Things like tattoos should be personal, not forced.

10.Which MC (in your opinion) is the most beautiful? (you can post a pic of them so we can all admire them). I know most won't agree because I see this face getting a lot of hate but I think the LH/HFTH/TRR MC is the prettiest.

11. Which female character (from any book) is the prettiest in your opinion? For me, it would have to be Sloane. She is so sweet and that smile...ah! She's just adorable!

12.Which male character (from any book) is the most handsome in your opinion? This is so hard but I have to say Mark from LH. He's such a doll.

13.Which character is the most intriguing? Maxwell from The Royal Romance. Everyone sees him as this fun loving guy but I think there is more to him then that. And I think it would be cool to see other sides to him.

14.If you could befriend one character from any book, who would it be and why? It would probably be Madeleine. A lot of people hate her, but I think she is the type of person who once she gives her friendship she is loyal until her dying breath, plus she is honest without bias. That is hard to find and something I look for in a friend.

15.Which MC has the best outfits? Red Carpet Diaries for sure. I would wear every single one of those outfits.

16.Into which book would you rather be transported and live the life of that book’s MC? Home For The Holidays. The love she shares with her mother and brother, as well as the way her hometown respects her, is just so sweet. I didn't like the way we were forced to 'promote' Holly's awful book but I did like the rest of the story. Who knows, maybe one day I will re-write the thing in a more likable manner.

17.List 5 characters that you dislike the most. Victoria from RCD (the way she originally attacks the MC is a deal breaker for me. I don't care how angry you are, you don't physically attack someone) Nadia from Perfect Match (I just want to shake her and tell her to knock it off most of the time) Jane from ILITW (she was the one who led them to the meeting house, she's the one who insisted on befriending the evil demon living inside, and she's the one who turned her otherwise docile brother into a jerk who was willing to kill. I have so many more reasons but those are the main.) Marty from LH (he knows what a sexist pig TJ is but yet he does nothing about it. And to me that is worse than TJ being a sexist pig.) Emma's mom in HSS (She just comes across as a little too desperate and unable to live without a man in her life.)

Some people I think might enjoy doing this are: @blackcatkita @jax-matsuos @kingliamthirst @trianiasti @mfackenthal @tmarie82 @laniquelove @josieschoices @endlessly-searching-for-you @debramcg1106 (sorry if you have already been tagged and no pressure to do this!)