#this is a rant and a vent through and through

[starscream-is-my-wife]

Sometimes a day makes you want a Starscream to bite and squeeze

[kuroashims]

when will people understand that skinny shaming is a thing and that it is as wrong as any type of shaming? stop telling us to eat. stop telling us to gain weight. stop telling us that we're anorexic and should start taking care of ourselves. well in fact stop telling whatever you may think about our appearance. many of us aren't skinny by choice and if you're uncomfortable with our pointy bones then stop looking at us or deal with it! friendly reminder that inclusivity doesn't only work for larger body types. you never know what struggles lie behind a frail silhouette, but shaming will never ever be the solution

[hadesknockedupintheunderworld]

The fans: Ugh Sonic was just so preachy. I mean obviously he's supposed to be the good guy, so any uncomfortableness I feel here and any way I feel like Sonic's choices are framed as being why some other people have shitty lives is just bad writing because he is obviously supposed to be right always, but this characterization makes no sense. Isn't he right for the things he did?

Ian Flynn, using Kitsunami to say the (barely even at this point) quiet part even louder: Hey it's almost like ever since the Mr. Tinker event we've been purposely running with the critique of Sonic as being more selfish than he appears. Sonic is upholding a system of Eggman v Sonic that currently benefits him and shuts down talk of how to improve the current system because he likes his own personal enjoyment and he's attached enough to Eggman that he'd rather Eggman pretend to be a good person than be stuck in prison for life. He doesn't even quite practice what he preaches. We are trying to show that the current hero v villain system and Sonic's recklessness currently affects some people poorly and that Sonic isn't a perfect hero.

[clonedchaos]

Welp, as I was googling some images for Yasammy week, I came across a thread and turns out one of my favorite Jurassic YouTubers is homophobic and a Yasammy hater…

(More ranting in the tags)

[saintobio]

hello am still alive but the corporate hustle is sucking the life out of me. i’m sorry sy11 is taking awhile but i’ll try to find time whenever i can 🥹

[zane-master-of-ice]

i am not feeling the greatest at the moment...

cole and jay received letters from their parents in the mail, and i am once again reminded of what i do not have. why is it that they get to have loving families and i don't? even kai and nya have each other! i know that it is not their fault, and i am being irrational, but it just feels so unfair, and i feel so alone.

they questioned me about the fact that i never hear from my parents, so i told them. i told them that i do not remember them. i told them that i have no family, i have never had a home.

sensei tried to assure me that i have a home here at the monastery, but i do not always feel at home here. the others can tell that i am different from them, and so i am treated as such, i overheard them discussing it earlier. they thought that i couldn't hear them, but i did. i know that they care for me, and i care for them too, but sometimes i am afraid that they will not want to be my friends anymore because there is something wrong with me, and it is not just because of my memory loss, there is something else that is deeply wrong with me. i don't know what it is, but i can feel it there all the time, and it hurts, and i want to understand it but i am afraid...

i am not really sure what the point of this post is anymore... i guess i just needed to get some feelings out. i hope that is okay.

[immortalsins]

what is it about my dads house that makes me want to end it all

[the-red-hoodlum]

me when I dont want oestrogen or progesterone but my mother has explicitly said she doesnt want me on testosterone (fair enough I guess??) or blockers (ok but wtf with that one I already have massive tits what more do you want from me smh 🙄🙄/silly /hj): so.. ignore the problem for longer then? :D

[nemo-of-house-hamartia]

ok, once more I realize that my own kindness and friendliness has been taken for implied consent, and as always, the troubles that are brewing now are connected to OCs.

So let me be clear and frank one more time, one last time, because I have NO INTENTION of going through what I went through in 2021.

While I am always immensely happy that my Original Characters are enjoyed and that they can serve as source of inspiration, they are NOT however a template for anyone to base their OCs on.

They are not something that you can take in their entirety, change whatever suits you, and then call it your own.

It doesn't work like that, especially because, and allow me to reiterate this once and for all, OCs are *immensely* personal.

They are an extention of the soul of the person that creates them.

So taking whatever suits your fancy and use it for the "aesthetic" or the "vibes" is immensely disrespectful and, dare I say, rather impertinent, especially when both characters happen to belong to the same fandom.

Now, I am not talking about certain tropes and subjects that are typical of certain genre, of course not.

We are all somehow reinveting something that's already there when we work with OCs and stories.

What I am talking about is taking certain specific idiosyncrasies that make a certain character unique, change them to suit your character, and then being SO IMPERTINENT to just call it your own and parading it around without even having the courtesy to quote the person that has inspired you, taking advantage of the fact that I am just a small creator with a small following.

This is a huge No No for me.

Huge.

I appreciate that other creators might have a different opinion or perspective when it comes to OCs, and while I do not share entirely in that, I sure as hell respect it.

But allow me to be crystal clear: if this happens to me, like it had in 2021, that's the *easiest* way to lose all respect I might harbour for you, and I seldomly get mad or angry.

I am always accomodating, always supportive, and I think I have proven it aplenty in the past few years.

But this is something that I cannot condone nor agree with.

And it's not just a matter of ethic, in this sense: it's a matter of also hurting me, and literally put my whole creative process into shamble.

It's a matter of having respect of others.

Now, you might say: who cares if they hurt you? they are characters that do not exist, just move on and have thicker skin!

Well, as I said above, for when it concerns myself, my OCs are an extention of my own soul, a way for me to formulate and explain feelings that sometimes I have a hard time let out; a way for me to actually face, fragmentize and analyze my own trauma through them;

and most important of all, they are OFTEN a love letter to both the world I am exploring with them AND my own husband and child, such as in the case of Jacob and Dorothea,for whom, as I said often in the past 5 years, I have poured A LOT from myself and my husband's own story.

You could say that it probably my fault for having bared my feelings so much and poured so much of myself into a character;

And you might be correct, because I have learned my lesson, and ever since Dorothea and Jacob, no other character has been infused with as much of my own being as they were.

but that doesn't mean that it stings any less when I see it unravels in front of my eyes.

I am tired.

[seventh-district]

“Why’s he call you Darlin’?”

on my knees begging my brain to stop trying to associate this song with Sam

[greennoobartist]

Before I start to ramble randomly over Vio like i always do at midnight lmao

I was curious...

How many of my friends and mutuals actually care about my age and my religion? (Anther rant terribly sorry)

After these vents and rambles I've given, i think that knowing my age would give an even deeper aspect and better understanding... Like.... Understanding the difference between my behavior what is like and what it should be....i think it would provide some more proof that im actually just dumb and blind... I mean....i sometimes think like....there's a reason i had those titles thrust upon me, it can't be just out of thin air, it wasn't out of thin air....

Im always trying to be honest to ppl but now I see how much im actually not honest....at least to myself... I feel like when it comes to seeing truth that ppl now here are telling me is obvious, i feel like im blindfolded and just stupid to see it and accept it...

I accept the support but what is this goddamn feeling telling me to just give up? Just to forfeit in my hopes and listen to what I've been told? Why can't I just accept what I know is true and is right and just live a right and happy life!?!?

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Actually... What am I saying?....

Happiness and childhood were a limited time offer in my life, or that's how I feel... Im not living the way I should, im aware of it.... I know im not okay and that my life isn't okay and that my environment isn't okay and that my family isn't okay and that my life as a whole has came to a seemingly never ending downfall and just isn't okay.... BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIX IT!?! I DON'T KNOW WHERE'S THE PROBLEM!!! IT JUST THERE FUCKING MAKING ME SUFFER BUT NOT LETTING ME DIE!!! I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE IT!!! LIKE A CJRSE OR POISON OR A FOREVER LASTING FLAME!!..... I don't remember my life before this era..... I don't remember the happy days anymore..... I don't know anymore what my life should be like.... I just know that it shouldn't be like this....cuz this is a shithole....

Everything that i once loved about life.... All happy memories.... I just....don't remember them anymore.... I don't remember how my life was like.... 3 years ago...

I know i should seek help, i know i should go tell a certified person to help me.... But.... From previous post.... Backup....

I have no proof, i have no backup, i have no support from family, i have no one to back me up to at least make this sound real when it is... All talk but no proof... How can I make sure my family and the certified person will believe me enough to help me? I can't fight against this alone, i should ask my family to help me with this mental illness im fighting with to take care of it.... But i never told them.... How would they believe me?? How to make sure that ill make them aware that their cheerful and forever successful daughter actually went through such pain these 3 years? .... Possible abuse even... Oh my God.... Oh my God..... I could've.... I could've went through abuse and i wasn't even aware of it on time... And i never told anyone to prevent it on time..... Oh my God....

Am I actually being abused??? Oh my God.... Why.... Why was i blind..... I might've went through abuse completely on my own and bottled it up all on myself and let it boil within me and cause all this.... Actually.... Am I still being abused?.... Oh my fucking God....

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Am I being abused???

(Oh my God I should seriously seek professional help, none of y'all should be listening to this, it's not your business y'all are not classified or have to help.... Oh my God....)

[deostyx]

I say this as an artist who has been trying to make artists friends for years, we really need to get better at finding community with other artists again, instead of sticking to one fandom and to stop interacting once they/you leave it.

Fandom friends are just that, they are fandom dependent and though not required to make them more than that, some of yall need to see that the option exists.

I still follow people that made amazing fanart for a fandom i left ages ago, but i still love to see what they are working on and supporting them on it.

Shit ill say it, ive followed artists that were still beginners at the time, just because i was curious to see how their style would develop. And it pays off, the amount of pride i feel to see people working on a skill and growing is fucking beautiful and profound to witness.

“Thats parasocial” DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF!!! THAT PERSON HAS 300 FOLLOWERS ITS NOT PARASOCIAL TO FEEL HAPPY FOR THEM THATS JUST KNOWING A PERSON AND LIKING THEM!!!!!

And if you want it to feel LESS parasocial ACTUALLY COMMENT!! i Know that sounds backwards but its better than you feeling that way and then lurking about it when the art only has like 3 notes. Girl what!!!!!!!! Say something!!!! You could have an art friend RIGHT NOW IF YOU JUST SAID SOMETHING

[jarinnards]

I need to rant/vent about pre launch anxieties/criticisms, so if that's not to your taste, pretend you do not see 😑 Also I don't think I'll mention spoilers but I'll tag it just in case

Okay so. For starters I GREATLY dislike Rook. From literally everything I've seen (and I have watched almost everything that has come out) they talk without player input WAY more than even Hawke did. They feel like they very clearly have a personality Bioware wants them to have but since it's a Bioware game they're giving you some choices. Like?? Even the Inquisitor didn't have this much auto dialogue. I'm sorry but I do not like it. At all. Either give me a character I can make my own or give me a fully fleshed out one, I am not here for the halfway. I just reeeally do not like the game taking agency and having my character constantly interject without my input. It takes me out of it so much. I know I'm in the minority on this, but everything I've seen of Rook has put me off. I much prefer silent protags, I'm sorry.

And for the next one, it looks like you can't have conversations with companions outside of their scripted cutscene dialogues. Which??? I'm sorry what. For the game that says it has the most fleshed out, fully realized companions, you have substantially lessened the amount of interaction the player can have with them. (seemingly, may be different than I'm thinking) It's just a strange choice to make, I think? Why wouldn't you let players have little side convos like asking them about their pasts and their homes? That is such a weird fit for the game that says it has way better companions than the others. Getting to ask Solas about the Fade or talking to Dorian about Tevinter was such a highlight of the game and the characters for me. Having Alistair tell you about how he grew up with dogs and Zevran getting homesick whenever he describes Antiva... It's small convo moments like that which really help cement them as being people as opposed to just characters in a game, in my opinion. They're just as important, and I'm gonna be so let down if we can't have talks outside of scripted cutscenes.

Still excited for the game but. God, I'm anxious and concerned. I'll gladly eat my words if it comes out and all of this was pointless worrying, but these are very important aspects for me, so if they turn out to be... Not the best, I'm gonna be ridiculously disappointed.

[crazylittlejester]

what the fuck is the american college experience because when I walked out of my class thirty minutes early the professor asked me where I was headed off to in a rather condescending way and I had to look him dead in the eyes and inform him I was having an allergic reaction before just fucking walking out, and on my way to the campus health center/urgent care a very smiley lady gave me a ten dollar Ikea coupon…? Saying no to her was not an option. And now I gotta sit here for a bit and when I go home I gotta write a 12 page paper on how the criminal justice system in this country sucks because apparently having health issues isn’t enough to get you an extension on an “optional” paper since it was assigned last week. and when I told my friend all this they said “average college experience”

[hypotenussy]

You know what? Maybe I'll get through college purely for the sake of learning to write strong academic papers to prove my mom wrong about things.

[guiltycorp]

mmm im sort of glad they released arcane survivor jayce skin voicelines in league before act 3 drops because my expectations for it were rising a bit too much lmao... before it i almost convinced myself that yeah, viktor's character arc will lead him to manipulate jayce into transferring his soul to a new mechanical body + focus on a new strategy for 'healing' societal issues that isn't 100% evil and bad (while still having its drawbacks re: will and consent) and fighting noxians would place the zaun side in a better position to bargain with piltover for equal rights and a stop to exploitation (with an open ending sure but still), or even a straightforward revolution with zaun getting its independence through a violent protest that piltover wouldn't be able to curb due to being stretched too thin

but uhm.... all of this looks kinda... sigh

i really doubt they'll have the time in the remaining 3 episodes to develop both his and Viktor's motivations to fit those new ideas, feels like more of the same 'it all happened off-screen, trust that it makes sense' journey saying that Viktor is 'still worth saving' feels especially yucky all things considered, like pls stop trying to save that man and let him act and choose for himself for once in this season maybe? never thought i'd miss the times when Viktor was doing unsafe experiments, getting illegal drugs from evil mentors and accidentally fridging random female assistants, but mmm that sure didn't get a proper continuation for him did it... just like with Caitlyn, or even Mel or Jinx, we just can't seem to get a proper development for the obviously Questionable things the characters choose to do, it's all kind of swept under the rug or cancelled out by magic interference i guess, or they changed their mind off-screen so it's fine now now that i think about it, Jayce is the only one who was allowed to somewhat grow and change organically, and yet this arcane adventure of his might end up ruining even that... well maybe Vi too but she didn't have a concrete focus this season, just more of the same 'should i reconnect with my sister/father or kill them off for good' and lesbian angst (if she still goes back to enforcers after this i just... fml) did Ambessa's warmongering get the best of her or was she cornered by the Black Rose shenanigans with no better way out? did Isha have any purpose aside from giving us false hope that Jinx will get better and have a happy ending? will Mel have any relevance aside from the new magical one and managing her own mother? does Viktor want to 'supersede nature' and get rid of human error element now because of his own character journey or because that's just what Hexcore is leading him to do?... will Caitlyn show that she still doesn't get why Zaun is the way it is or will she also go 'yeahhh i made some mistakes, but now we fight a common enemy yay, and i'll be a bit less strict in the future without making any meaningful changes to the status quo... it was all them foreigners fault' it's just all so... aghhh

and yep now i am expecting that the piltover/zaun conflict is overrr because they have to come together to fight Ambessa and whatever is going wrong with the magic, sighhh social conflict plotlines are a little too spicy for our animated league adaptation i guess... ...this is the only voiceline implication i like and even then i can't help but imagine Viktor the damsel in distress begging Jayce to fix the mistakes they both did instead of like, participating in that himself

bonus points if that promise won't even be to Viktor fghgfhgf