#this post destroys me everytime it’s on my dash

[bubblyqueer000]

APRIL FOOLS JOKE POST Mondo Owada x Me PART 3!! THE FUCKENING :0

soz I haven't been posting. I'll make an update soon C:

still tho gotta do my yearly april fools day post!!

FUCKING SHIT WIENER COCK DOODLE!! HEY DICK NOSES IT’S BUBZ CHAN AND IM MAD. RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHDFNNJHBNJHBGBHNJHBGVHNHBVGBNBHHB

Okay so like last year that little cock weasel, monocumstain killed my boyfriend, mondo because he was mad he commited a hate crime and fucked me on the tables in the cafeteria, coating them in his dick cheese in the process. UGGGGHH

BUT ACTUALLY I WAS THE ONE WHO WAS REALLY PUNISHED BECAUSE I WAS THE ONE TASKED WITH SCRAPING HIS SMEGMA OFF OF EVERY SURFACE OF THE SCHOOL!!!! >:C

I was in the midst of using a metal spatula to scrape off his dried up mondo butter from under the tables when I felt a horrible pain filling my chest.

“Ow tf” I sayed

“Shut the fuck up” said Kyoto

“No you cunt, my stomach really hurts.”

“Well no shit we’re all like a million years old now and during that whole time mondo was fuckin destroying your organs.” Said toastermi

“…

…

Shit u right.” And then I felt another horrible fucking pain in my tummy!!! “AHHHHHHFHDNDNBDNDJDNDND NO YOU BITCHES IDK WHATS HAPPENING”

“maybe u need a nap c: “ Nina told me

“YOU DONUT SUCKING FUCK WAD HELP ME.” 

“DON’T WORRY YALL I GOT THIS!” Said sakura, kicking me as hard as she could in the stomach making my organs squirt out of my ass with a loud shlorp. 

“OH SHIT IN THE SINK GET HER TO THE SINK!” Shouted byakuya bc he thought it was my period and he was scared of periods and stuf. 

So yea soccer ball carried me over her shoulder into the kitchen and plopped me in the sink where I screamed and farted loudly lmfao. I really hope that no one actually gets turned on by this dear fucking god. 

“AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH” idk how birth works soz. 

So yeah I shitted out a bb. 

“What the fuck” Said everyone collectively. 

“Goo goo ga ga 😀” He goo goo ga gad

“HOW THE SHIT DID THIS HAPPEN?” 

“Because you had tons of unprotected sex with mondo.”

“Oh yeah ur right. Alright well… Idk ummm ill name u mondo after ur dad ig.”

“otay” he said bc that’s how babies talk according to fan fic writers wtf is wrong with you people??

“Acutually you can;t lol” said byakuya smartily. “Bc if u did that everytime you called him that hed think of how u fucked his dad or some shit.”

“Byakuya what the actual fuck. I don’t think you understand the absurdity of what you just said. Not only is that sexualizing my infant son, but it’s also an incredibly perverse interpretation of a healthy relationship based on love and respect, and now that he’s passed us on, it’s all the more insensitive.” I told him and everyone started clapping. I looked at the fuckin kid and thought and thought. “Wait wat was mondo’s brother’s name again?”

“Diarrhea.” Sayd makoto.

“LMAOOOOO k ur names diarrhea.” i told the child. 

“K lol.” he said. 

“Ermmm… ERRRRMM…. ERRRMEN AOT…… ERMINEM SLIM SHABBY SLIM ANUS….. ERRRRM…” byakuya erms.

“WHAT WANT BUTT FART???” I sowed   

“well everyone knows that babies need a mommy and daddy or else thre brains wont work. so im volunteering to be ur rich and morty. fuck wait no. rich baby daddy” he explammmed rickbabydaddily 

“??? Tf no!! richie bitches suck” and then I rapped the entirety of piggy pie by icp for everyone but it was a parody that fit the situation like that one mlp web series we all watched as kids that had the parody wreck it ralph op and there was also fuckin evelyn evelyn and confrontation from jekly and hyde parodies ummmm… hold on let me google it. PRINCESS TRIXIE SPARKLE BY MAGPIE PONY.

so I took a break from writing this and taking care of my bastard son to re watch that series and then the first four seasons of mlp and then like all of rainbow dash presents fuck i miss the early days of mlp lmao    

So anyways after that I came out of my room and Daiya II was like a teenager because I was watching mlp content for like fifteen years. 

“Hewwo mwommy” he said 

“Ew why do you still talk like that? Get that shit out of here.”

“Jeez you’re such a bitch.” He told me.

“:0??? >:0! Go to ur room you little shit!” 

“NO mom! >:0! YOU go to YOUR room!”

“Wait what.” and then my own son stabbed me. “Ow bitch u stabbed me in the tit.” 

“Yea but it’s dedly bc ur like 47893845748398.”

“...”

“...”

“SHIT” so yeah I fuckin died. 

“You… cunt.” I said and stoped living. 

When I woke up I was in hell. And who else was there???

Ur MOM! (sorry if ur mom is actually ded or somethin rip)

BUT ALSO MONDO AND DAIYA OWADA (the first one not my son)???? :0

“Hey cootie ;0” said doodie owada

“MONDO!” I cried running over to him.

“Am I a joke to you?” Daiya asked bc i ignored his dumb ass

“Wassup bbygrl C:” Mondo asked. 

“I missed you so much.” I told him. 

“Awww”

…

…

…

…

… 

“Kay let’s fuck already.” 

“K.” 

Our clothes all burned off bc my homophobic relatives tell me that I hell is hot. Then they bent me over. I suckked daiyas dick and took mondos in my ass. 

“Glucglucglucglucglucgluc” i said suckn dick. 

“Coom” and then I fake my organism. 

Soooo yeah were done and were just chillin wit angel hazbin hotel bc it’s hell. BUT IT TURNED OUT THAT DAIYA II WAS THERE BC HE WAS EXECUTED LMFAO

Anyways happy april fools day seeya next year :3

[suguwu]

omg omg bee

!!!

okay so i've thought of this before, but your aventurine and soulmate horror thing brought it back to me

i would also like to take this time to say i have no idea who he is and i don't play hsr or genshin and don't plan to but i'm holding your hand and following you blindly like a little duckling trusting your judgement you've never steered me wrong

cw: physical harm to oneself but not self-harm if that makes sense

anyways ever since i found out about soulmate au's and soulmarks and things my little black heart that can't let anything just be and must make everything ✨angsty✨ and hurt-no-comfort-y has always thought about a soulmate who burns their soulmark off or to be less gory maybe tattoos over it for whatever reason

like maybe they're undercover and can't risk it being used against them or maybe they decide that this way they can side-step the whole 'being forced' to love someone thing or maybe they have really bad trauma surrounding it or whatever

anywayyyyysssss yeah 👍🏾

sigh i feel like my brain gets more wrinkly everytime i see you on my dash i have so many ideas and no where to put them

sending kith-es <3

hi anon!!!

okay this time you should not trust me do not hold my hand and walk with me on aventurine he is a life ruiner. he gets his lil blond claws into you and never lets go. he haunts you. let go of my hand and run i will be the sacrifice for this (for him).

anyway yes yes yes! i think there's a lot of room in soulmate aus for this kind of rebellion and this kind of angst! i think the real question is does the soulmark make the bond? do they do it and it leads to nothing because the soulmate bond is more than that? bc then i'm thinking about people who lose their marks and therefore their soulmates in accidents too. that however is a whole different ball game!!

i think in the scenario you've mentioned there really are endless potential reasons to destroy your soulmark and it would be absolutely cool to see! it's definitely under-examined!! i can especially see it with people (like aventurine) who might want to regain control and/or freedom, which again begs the question of if destroying the mark destroys the bond!!

there's also how society would view it, etc., etc. maybe it's even considered acceptable or the thing to do in certain scenarios! i think i have a post somewhere where jing yuan cuts out his soulmark because it's what is required of cloud knights.

there's just a ton of room there to play and i'm enamored with it!!! it's so fun!!

sending many many kithes back to you <3

[rainbowbeanstyles]

To celebrate it being the last show of FITFWT, what have your favourite moments been of the tour? 💕💕

thank you and the other anon that sent this!! and to be honest i didn't reaaaly catch up with most of the tour🤣 i'll give you some at the top of my head, excuse me while i remember

MEXICO. just louis being here, the whole feqw show was an absolute dream to watch and i appreciate how much louis loves my country:'''), seeing all my mexican louies living their dream of seeing louis live, it was also really nice finding out some fellow mexicans and spanish speakers here in tumblr! there's so many! THE FLAG WRAPPED AROUND LOUIS. !!!!!!

another moment I really liked seeing was the kmm project back with its roots in chile, it looked wonderful and you can just feel the amaaazing energy and excitement, nobody beats latam fans lol

BACK TO YOU ANGELS FLY BACK TO YOU ANGELS FLY (def the songs im always looking forward to listen to when watching a live)

that time when louis showed up with a tanktop, i wasn't watching (FUCK), completely missed that moment and when i checked dash everybody was absolutely destroyed lmao it was so fun to witness

every picture of the scar<3 in all it's glory that little shitt

WHEN HE DID THAT DANCE. YOU KNOW WHICH ONE.

wasn't too specific but the whole tour was amazing, seeing louis grow and becoming even more confident in himself has been such a joy to watch, im proud of this man damn! every emotional speech coming from his big heart, everytime he sat down to admire the crowd and what he's been able to achieve, everything just simply perfect<3

ALSO being part of this amazing collab with so many great artists, hope we can post our art soon ahh!!

[plan-d-to-i]

Hi plan! Good day! I just want to vent a bit bc im seeing some j//c clownery in my dash. Everytime i see anyone post some clownery about j//c, i check their blog and yep, its another c//ql only (or at least someone that watched c//ql before reading the novel ig). Just proves how much the adaption did not give the novel justice 😢.

Also funny how they think they can equate wwx torturing wen chao to j/c torturing demonic cultivators 🤡. If I'm not wrong the only ones wwx really tortured are the ones he had personal business with (ie wc, wzl, and wlj) and the rest of the soldiers he ki//lled bc they are combatants and they ARE in a war.

I also read one post that said j//c tortured demonic cultivators bc he didn't want another wwx when... he was the one... that declared wwx public enemy number one even when it's not true... 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡

🤡 indeed. I also think it's slipping their mind that jc was only too eager to join in on the torture. In fact he had no problem getting in there and getting his hands dirty with Wang Lingjiao's corpse:

The doors to Wen Chao’s room were wide open. Only one female corpse remained in the room. The corpse wore light clothes. Half of the leg of a stool had been stuffed down her throat. She had killed herself by forcing herself to swallow the stool leg into her stomach.

Jiang Cheng turned the corpse’s twisted face over. After he had scrutinized it for a while, he gave out a cold laugh. Holding the stool leg, he shoved it into her mouth, somehow managing to stuff the half that had been outside into her body as well. (Chapter 61)

... 🌝. Also revenge in the story is not a problem when it's aimed at the people who are deserving of it. Wen Chao & co more than earned their comeuppance. WWX doesn't say: always turn the other cheek. He says: take revenge on the ones who bite you.

Wei WuXian, “Take revenge on the ones who bite you. Wen Ning’s branch doesn’t have much blood on their hands. Don’t tell me that you find them guilty by association?” (Chapter 72)

Even Xiao Xingchen speaking to Xue Yang doesn't have a problem with revenge just the scale of it and involving people outside of it:

Xiao XingChen spoke as though he couldn’t believe Xue Yang’s words, “Chang CiAn broke one of your fingers in the past. If you sought revenge, you could’ve simply broken one of his fingers as well. If you really took the matter to heart, you could’ve broken two, or even all ten! Even if you had cut off an entire arm of his, things wouldn’t have been like this. (Chapter 41)

Inventive as WWX's revenge methods may have been when he just got out of the hellish Burial Mounds WWX pointed his revenge at those who attacked LP, killed the Jiangs, killed all of WWX fellow martial brothers, destroyed jc's core, and threw him into the Burial Mounds to die. In a way that WWX was their own creation. I see nothing wrong with it. It was dark but triumphant.

On the other hand jc lays siege to a mountain where he knows first hand are "the old the weak the women and the children"... and for 13 years after is kidnapping anyone who meets his very VERY weak criteria for "possibly could maybe perhaps be WWX". He's flaying them alive not bc they're a danger to the cultivation world but because he wants to kill Wei Wuxian... again. He either hopes they'll confess to being Wei Wuxian or he's pissed off they aren't WWX and he's letting off steam... I mean he wants Jin Ling to kill MXY/WWX bc he used a PAPERMAN! As Lan Jingyi says :

Not to mention, Chief Jiang suspects everything that moves. If he tries to catch everyone, when will he ever be done? (Chapter 11)

There's a clear bloody difference there. jc's revenge against WWX was never justified but even so he already got it through THE SIEGE. The siege that he strategized and led! against WWX! The siege that he strategized and led against Wei Wuxian that resulted in the death of WWX and all the ppl under his protection! But that wasn't enough for him. No amount of revenge is enough for him bc he's filled w hate. Even WWX comments on it :

Malicious fumes filling the pit of his stomach to the point of bursting, he lifted and brandished his whip. He cracked it against the floor right beside Wei Wuxian and spoke with a voice full of loathing. “You really do take that obedient dog everywhere you go!”

“He’s been dead for a long time, and I’ve already died once. What more do you want?” Wei Wuxian replied.

Pointing his whip at him, Jiang Cheng said, “What more do I want? If he died a thousand, or ten thousand deaths, it would still hardly be enough to extinguish my hatred! Others didn’t manage to eliminate him back then—great! Today I’ll go eliminate him myself. I’ll find him and throw him into a fire right now, then scatter his ashes to the wind right in front of your face!” (Chapter 24)

So yeah, it had nothing to do with doing the right thing. jc couldn't give two fucks about his ppl bc he was too busy with his rabid vendetta.

[siebenschoen]

the broken love I make to her

fandom: ikemen sengoku

pairing: mitsuhide x mc/mai, (implied hideyoshi x mc/mai)

warning: implied sexual content, suggestive language, unhealthy behaviour, self worth issues

a/n: this is part of my big, big draft pile and while I don’t think I’ll ever properly finish this or turn it into what I wanted it to be when I started writing it, I still like the parts I did write. so, I decided to polish it up until I was happy enough with it to post it - enjoy!

summary: mitsuhide gets the girl. and they nearly destroy each other.

She doesn’t usually stay. But tonight the idea of leaving felt strangely wrong. And so she remains, tucked beneath the thin blanket on Mitsuhide’s futon, bodies not touching, eyes staring far off into the distance. The moment calls for a cigarette like nothing she has experienced since she has jumped through time. A cigarette and a bed with a headboard to lean against. So she could sit there and give a bit more sense to her senseless staring - like a heroine in one of these dramatic European movies. Cigarettes after sex, she almost laughs, what a cliché.

She throws a quick glance at Mitsuhide next to her. His wild hair the only thing betraying his composed facade. She is sure that he would find it funny, if only he would be able to get the joke.

“Hideyoshi’s jealous, you know?”

“I do”

“Oh? So, does that mean our little mouse is going to run into the arms of her dashing hero and stop using me?”

“You weren’t complaining, last I heard.”

“Ah, but I was not.”

[...]

“He does like me, that much is true,” She chuckles, her lips brushing along his ear. “But how would he deal with my worst behaviour? He can barely handle me at my best.” She lets the words run over her tongue, tasting them, giving them meaning, before she lets them fall into Mitsuhide’s ear.

[...]

It doesn’t come suddenly. The weird possessiveness that fills him everytime he looks at her. It sneaks up on him, silently, on bare feet, overwhelming him before he has a chance to notice. He can’t help but feel like he has failed, somehow. It is his job, his worth, to know and notice things, so that this development escaped him is disappointing to say the least.

It doesn’t escape him, though, that there is a similar change going on in Hideyoshi. Mitsuhide noticed, even back when their dear mother hen still prided himself as Mai’s big brother. (Mitsuhide noticed and she noticed and for once that’s information he doesn’t know what to do with.) Hideyoshi does that less now. And the reason makes Mitsuhide’s blood boil. Calm, he tells himself, anger will do you no good.

So, he watches him watching her. And while he remains calm, he also hates himself. Hates himself for hoping that she might turn around and smile and blush for him. But Mai doesn’t, instead she walks down the hallway, off to see the seamstresses. The mouse does not love the snake. This is not a fairy tale, kitsune, a voice in him whispers. So, he walks past Hideyoshi with a raised eyebrow and a teasing smirk until the other man blushes indignantly, because that is what he does.

That night the door to his room slides open and Mai slips in, the same way she slips underneath his covers not much later as her hungry mouth devours his. And Mitsuhide delights in the fact that he knows what Hideyoshi doesn’t (not yet, at least). That their little chatelaine likes it rough. That he can handle her.

[...]

She comes to his bed more frequently after that, almost every night. And he teases her for her sheer insatiable hunger and basks in the fact that he can make her blush past her cheeks (all the way down). What does it matter that she avoids him during the day, when he has her all to himself at night?

But it is the delight he feels at the knowledge that she is hiding his - his - marks under her collar, that nearly frightens him.

(A man who has placed his worth in the shadows, should not seek to possess. For shadows can never settle, only wander along with the sun.)

[...]

It’s not that Mai doesn’t feel guilty. It’s just that she doesn’t let that stop her. And maybe, she wonders, that makes her a truly bad person. It also makes her realise that there is quite a difference between wanting to do something and actually doing it.

She knows that Hideyoshi has feelings for her. And she hates that she knows, because knowing makes her feel like she has a responsibility that she really doesn’t want to have. She also knows that she should talk with Hideyoshi, to let him down gently, to tell him that there is someone else if need be. (What does it matter, who that other person is?)

And she hates all this even more for the fact that there is a part of her that’s screaming. Screaming to consider, to think it through, because if she would just stop to think about it she would surely, surely realise that Hideyoshi is a great guy, loving and caring. And that she deserves to be with someone, who would never play games with her. (So, what if she desires the game?) But, ah, if matters of the heart could be so simple. If they could only be solved by thinking.

Then she would simply think her feelings away, the thought makes her smile. She would think Hideyoshi to not be in love with her. She would think Mitsuhide into an honest man. She would think herself to not be in love with him. Or maybe, just maybe, she would think him to love her in return. Her smile widens into a sad grimace. Putting it like this makes it sound quite tragic, does it not?

[...]

He is getting greedy. And that is always a dangerous thing. Greed is not meant for the ones like him. The ones who serve.

But the thing is, he can’t help it. The way he wants her, the pull she has on him. What is he to do? He is just a human and most days he barely feels like that anymore. He always suspected the crippling little part of his humanity that he seemingly does not manage to get rid of, would be his downfall. He just didn’t suspect a woman would be.

Well, he tells himself, it does make for a good story - a snake that finds itself a loving fool for a human woman and dies of his own fangs to please her. Maybe someone will turn it into a play, once all is said and done.

But all is not said and done. He still has a purpose, a master to serve. And he can’t rest, can’t fall, before the world they have worked so hard for can finally emerge - newborn and golden. So, he buries himself in work, in papers and missions. He eats little and sleeps less and vows to himself that he will send her away when she comes looking for him-

Only to find that he can’t. One look at his face - at the dark circles and tired eyes - and she is all soft and sweet to him and he cannot possibly deny her. Her fingers stroke over his cheeks and her lips flutter over his face and it’s all too much and not nearly enough at all-

And meant for someone else, he’s sure of it. Deserved by someone else. Oh, but he’s greedy. And that’s the problem, isn’t it? Greedy for something that couldn’t possibly belong to him. So, he let’s her give and give, though it hurts, and he takes and takes, as long as she still let’s him.

[...]

Masamune is the first to come to him. Of course, he is. Nobody is closer to him than the one-eyed dragon. (Except maybe Nobunaga. But Nobunaga would never advise, he would order.) And Mitsuhide expected him to, because he is still good at what he does, still one step ahead. (She doesn’t count, he thinks. She’s something else altogether.)

“Whatever you two are doing - you should get it under control. It’s not good.”

It’s amusing to see the ever so carefree, ever so wild Masamune serious. It’s even more amusing to see Masamune so serious in his concern over him. A smile sneaks on his lips, uneven and twisted. “Perhaps such a thing would be easier if you were to tell me what has you so concerned, my friend.”

“You know what I’m talking-” Masamune scoffs. His one eye focused on Mitsuhide. Equal parts furry and concern seem to be trapped in the dark blue. “I’m not joking, Mitsuhide. It’s going to destroy you. Both of you.” The one-eyed dragon pushes past him. “And the lass deserves better.”

The words hang heavy in the air as Mitsuhide watches the other warlord leave. His cheek hurts and when he brushes his fingers over his face, he finds that he is still smiling. He doesn’t stop. It feels carved into his features. Instead he stares at the spot where Masamune disappeared around the corner, thinking: she does, she does, she does.

[...]

He is so shocked that it almost shows on his face. Mai lies beneath him. Spread out on his futon, bathed in the late sun’s glow like a vision. She lifts her hand to his face, stroking his cheek. Her kiss bruised lips pull into a soft smile.

He has grown used to swiftly burning fires. Too hot passion that roughly burns. (And he can barely keep from scolding himself. To grow used to something is to grow predictable, to grow weak-) It’s so sudden that it almost feels like a punch in the guts, when she repeats it. “I would like you to be gentle tonight.”, her cheeks turn a lovely shade of pink, but still she smiles. “I would like you to make love to me tonight.” She leans up and kisses him - sweetly and fully on the lips - and Mitsuhide swears a part of him breaks.

But he gives in. Let’s himself break and heal together differently so that all his crooked edges might fit against her soft warmth. And he loves her. With all he’s got, with all he is.

When morning comes, she has left. Her scent lingering on the futon like the faint memory of a dream.

[...]

Maybe she put a spell on him.

[...]

It ends how it was always meant to. Because this could have never ended well and Mitsuhide knows himself enough to know this.

He is kissing her in the hallway, when it happens. It is greedy and lovely, with her hands in his hair and his around her waist, and it ends with the sound of books hitting the floor. He looks up to find Hideyoshi staring at them.

From the corner of his eyes he can see that Mai is flustered and pulling at her kimono. This was probably not how she envisioned her afternoon to go, when she had pulled him into the darker corner of the hallway earlier. This must be awfully inconvenient to her.

He debates whether or not he should say something, something teasing perhaps. But Hideyoshi’s shock never lasts long and his anger has always been quick. So, when Mitsuhide stares back at him, he sees that there is really no need for his teasing - Hideyoshi is already fuming.

And he can see why. Poor Mai having been seduced by the sketchiest, the unworthiest of all retainers. What a shock. What an injustice. A smile etches itself on Mitsuhide’s face. Hideyoshi oh so hates injustice.

Mai gasps loudly as Hideyoshi storms towards him. He can see her attempting to put herself between them - always too noble for her own good -, but she doesn’t succeed and then all Mitsuhide can see is Hideyoshi.

Hideyoshi is slightly shorter than he is, but stronger without a doubt and so he presses him easily against the wall, collar clenched in one fist. The other, Mitsuhide notes, is trembling at his side. He will hit me, Mitsuhide thinks and he can’t stop smiling. Do it, a voice in him whispers and hopes that Hideyoshi can hear it, can see the dare in his eyes. Do it, do it, do it - please, please, do it-

He wants it. He wants Hideyoshi’s fist to collide with his face and leave him black and blue. It would only be fair, it would only be just. He is sick and tired of getting what he wants. He is sick and tired of injustice. So, let it end, he thinks. It was always meant to end after all.

Hideyoshi’s fist connects with his cheek, sharp pain and dull throb. And it ends.

[cedobols]

i see anyone sending you love and honestly same. everytime I see your posts on my dash it's like getting a hug from a friend...just so familiar and comforting in some way. i just love your personality i guess, you seem like a person i'd want to be around and spend time with. love you <3

sorry it took so long to reply but i had absolutely NO CLUE what to say bc this.......jus destroyed me.... ive never had someone say sumn like this to me before and thank god for that bc u almost killed me anon. this is quite possibly the kindest thing in the world and im going to TREASURE it for life i hope u know that. to hear that my posts are like hugs???? that ud wanna spend time with me???? can u hear me crying nonnie???? SOBBING???? WAAHHTRFCK????

i love u. i cant thank u enough. this one is for u <3

[love-fireflysong]

J K and Z!!

J - Name a fandom you didn’t care/think about until you saw it all over tumblr

I mean I just started playing Dragon Age now didn’t I? Think that answers your question pretty handily I think lol. (Also debating on trying out Borderlands, but I’m terrible at and don’t prefer to play FPS style of games so I’ll have to think about that one a little harder.)

K -Say something nice about someone in any of your fandoms

Oh god, why would you ask me this one Ash????? I’m always terrified that I’m gonna leave someone out and make them think that I don’t like them when I love literally everyone I’m mutuals with lol. So fuck it, I’m just gonna say something nice about everyone and none of you can stop me!

@fudgeroach you are such a cool person and I love seeing how much progress you’re making in school and with you’re art that I cry a little inside everytime lol

@clumsybookworm18 i know we don’t talk a whole lot but I’m missed seeing you on my dash and I’m super excited and relieved to see that you’re back again and hopefully feeling a little bit better!

@elliepollie can’t wait to see what you have planned for when you feel ready enough to start posing again and I need you to know that that comment you left for me on baby it’s cold outside is the reason I’m even still writing in the first place.

@wacem I’m just gonna reply to all the nice things you said about me and say that I’m constantly honored that you’re taking the time out of your busy life with demanding jobs AND taking care of a toddler (cause I know how exhausting that one is lol) to even agree to not only draw that art for me but to beta read all my terrible, terrible grammer in the first place. Plus if anyone here is slow as a mollasacre it’s clearly me lol. 

@queenofbaws just thank you for always answering the multiple prompts i send you every week, still allowing me to send you the shit for (starve) sunday, and just dealing with me constantly sending you random songs and artwork. You are a saint for dealing with my undoubtedly annoying ass (even if we are on opposite sides of this pulp and pop war lol)

@jesus-hotsauce-christmas-cake while i don’t leave you comments like i should, please know that I have read everything you and ellie have been posting for maybe eventually will be our always and I’ve been greatly enjoying it. And it’s nice knowing that at least someone out there will enjoy what ever chrashley parents shit i put out in the future lol.

Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go (prompts optional but encouraged)

I’ve always had a loose idea for a Tales of Phantasia au where Dhaos is defeated and everyone goes back to the times that they’re supposed to, but with Cress, Mint, Arche, and Claus defeating Dhaos 100 years ago instead of Morrison (who actually died this time if I remember correctly) it changed history so much that two seperate timelines now exist. One being the ‘original’ timeline where Dhaos was released, Toltus Village destroyed, magic gone form the world, and the other where magic still exists but because Dhaos escaped to the future 150 later, none of the stuff that kicked off the beginning of the game would have gone down.

Would have been angsty as shit lol, and I would have tried to twist the Narikiri Dungeon game and Summoner’s Lineage into it as well. With instead of Arche reuniting with everyone 100 years later like she expected, she won’t be able to see them until over 200 years later when Narikiri Dungeon takes place, and then she’s left with the decision on whether or not to stay in her timeline where she can use magic and where her mother still lives, or travel back into the other timeline instead. No magic at her disposal and with an entirely different version of her mother that won’t really be hers, and having to get used to a new history and world, but being able to finally live out a portion of her life with Chester and the others like she never got to in the first place and has desperately always wanted.

This then would have spawned other fics in this universe, leading to one that is causing the two timelines to collide, but that’s neither here nor there lol.

[prorevenge]

Revenge on cheating wife (now ex) as well as the Karma that came afterwards.

So I am in the Army and I was married. I was approaching my first deployment to Iraq.

It was very stressful and it had my wife wanting me to find a way to stay and not deploy. Obvious things any wife would try to talk about. Anyways so we have no kids but both want them. So we talk about getting out of debt while I'm gone.

She talks to her best friend back home in another state where we are both from. Her friend agrees to let her move in and charge a modest 300 in rent so that we can get out of debt and start a family when I come back. A plan I was actually very pleased with.

I deploy she is there crying her eyes out saying she will miss me and loves me and we will start a family when we get back.

Fast forward 2 months. She starts acting distant. Not wanting to talk much on our scheduled calls or text back one or two word answers. We've been together 6 years she is never at a loss for words.

Anyway one day she says I need some space... she asked someone who is 10,000 miles away for space. I say why she says she just needs space. She wants to "find herself." So I remember back when we lived at home she had a guy who was always being borderline inappropriate. I'm not a very jealous person and I trust her. So I start seeing said guy on in basically all her pictures she posts with a group. Everytime he is in the picture. Everyone else changes but never him.

So for the first time I'm very jealous and uneasy about everything. So I clone her phone so I recieve every text she recieves as well as every text she sends. I'll never forget the first text I saw after cloning her phone.

"Hey babe, I'll see you after work want me to save you any of my leftovers?"

From her to him. It destroyed me. I lost 35 pounds in a week. I didn't eat or sleep I stared at the phone watching every conversation. Watching them talk about trying to have a baby. It was literally everything a married person fears.

I ask her if she is seeing someone and she says no she isn't. She is taking care of her self and she loves me blah blah. I don't say anything about recieving her texts for 2 months. Over this time she finally admits cheating and that he is so much better than me at sex, treating her right, and he does what she wants.

During this time she pays our debt off, gets tattoos with him (matching I love you tattoos), goes to shows with him, buying clothes ect. With the money I'm making. So this is where revenge starts.

I put a freeze on the account for a month in that time I change every password to every account to things she won't guess (Army jargon slang terms). I block her on fb and my phone so she has no way to contact me. She lost her car to repo a few months later, got kicked out of her place, had to sell her prized shoes and purses just to stay alive.

I then find out she got a job at her old restaurant. So I post all the text conversations I have with her and the guy talking about having babies that have time stamps on it as well as post conversations we had with the matching time stamps showing all of our friends what she has done. I then have friends call and complain at her job constantly on both he and her. They work at a restaurant so I also have friends dine and dash. They both get fired.

So she tries to call my command and tell them that I am abandoning her and she cant provide for herself. My commander knows what is going on. He does nothing because he had something similar happen. Then about a month before I come back she calls me from another number to tell me she is pregnant with his kid. Mind you I'm still gone so we cannot get divorced yet.

She moved away with him. 10 hours from me.

April 24 2018. She calls me 5 months pregnant crying uncontrollably asking me where she should go. Apparently they have a giant blow up fight she tells him she is leaving. She says she doesn't know where to go and I simply say "Sorry not my problem anymore."

Fast forward January of this year. She calls me from a mutual friends phone.

Her: "He hit me. Idk what to do,"

Me: "Maybe, you don't cheat on your husband when he is deployed for some guy who talks a big game."

Her: "Well I guess you are happy about this?"

Me: "No but I'm glad I know I'm not the bad guy in this story."

AND THEN THE NEXT MONTH

Her: "He is cheating on me with 2 girls. I'm sorry. I regret everything I did. I fucked it all up."

Me: "Yea you did."

All in all this woman destroyed my life. Put me into a deep depression I'm still dealing with. But I do feel a little better having proof that I wasn't the problem. To think if this happened even 10 or 5 years ago I would have come back to a empty bank account, an empty house, as well as seeing my then wife pregnant with another man's baby. She actually hit me up yesterday to ask for some money to help cover rent...

(source) story by (/u/CheapMexican)

[bearpillowmonster]

Persona 5 Review (Palaces)

Now I think it’s be interesting to split up each villain and review their arcs. First is Kamoshida, I like the layout of his palace. Sneaking along the walls and such and they really give you the drive to get rid of him. This is one of the only ones I actually got all the will seeds, I found that you only get the accessory if you collect the three, I don’t think there’s any bonus for collecting ALL of them from ALL the palaces though.

After that, they introduce something called Mementos which is basically everybody’s palace, a compilative place of where small distortions go that aren’t big enough for their own palace. This is kind of used for side missions, it’s not that bad though, the dark sections can be annoying but I see why they were put in there. You visit it throughout the game and after each boss, a new section gets added, going farther down. This is also one of the places to grind and a quick way to grind is to mow down enemies with your van using the dash button, rather than going through the trouble of battling, you even get their mask. That’s only if they’re not too far down though because the farther down you go, the tougher the enemies. It’s funny because once you get tough enough, going to the higher entrances, making enemies RUN from you while you’re mowing them down, it’s a blast. I will recommend though that you don’t piss off too many and get alarmed because they’ll come in waves, one battle after another and if you’re deep in Mementos, it can be scary.

Next is Madarame, I like the setting of a museum and the boss (better than Kamo) but I will also say that it was annoying to traverse, it built upon the urgency by adding legal action into the mix. This is probably in my top 3 palaces, I just don’t have a whole lot to say about it.

Kaneshiro (sounds like Kamoshida) I feel like his character is very one way, an easy prey, I’m fine with that but I’m just saying that the depth was better for the previous two. The boss isn’t exactly my favorite, it’s a little different between 5 and Royal so I looked it up and am accounting for both of them. I do however like the style of the bank and the vault is one giant lock, the enemies are probably some of the most annoying though with the introduction of the dogs.

Alibaba. Now this palace is actually pretty cool because it changes the context and way you do things, again with the real life interference as well. What I really like are the little hieroglyphics puzzles at the end of each section, those things are my jam but while I appreciate the variety and setup, this was one of the weaker palaces. The boss was weak as well, more of just a sponge unless I didn’t play it right (maybe I was underleveled? I mean I don’t think I even died tbh though) because it was really cool when you used the arrows but really dragging when she was in the air.

I will say that I took a break after this arc (about 35-40 hours in) not because I was tired of it, far from it actually, I was having tons of fun but traversing the palaces just seemed off to me at this point so I thought if I took a break and got a fresh perspective when I came back, it would be better. It was hard to detach myself from it because I really enjoyed what I had played thus far but it felt good to get back into the groove of it after a break. This was both a good place to take the break given the hours spent and what the next palace is, and kind of a weird place because after Alibaba you take the field trip but I would still recommend you take a decent break at some point because...

The next palace is Okumura. Now I’ve seen some flack about this one, saying it’s the least favorite of the bunch, so you don’t want to have the previous build up of hours hamper your experience since it’s considered the worse. Honestly I don’t think it’s that bad (the palace!) now the boss on the other hand is a different story, I understand that a CEO is only as good as their employees and the idea to use them is pretty reflective of the palace itself but it’s annoying because if you don’t have the right type of persona then you’re screwed because they just flee or blow themselves up, it’s just left to chance sometimes. I think it would be cool to have a race against him with the timer rather than a battle. It made me so stressed, not because of the timer but because of the stupid robots, it was easily the battle I spent the most tries on, I even had to go back and grind and fuse a new persona to finally beat him. (I was almost level 40 so you might have an easier time if you did more persona work than I did) but you don’t get any All Out Attacks either apparently. Also the story (though a bit nit picky) is easy to complain about but it’s not as bad as they say imo especially since the characters explain themselves afterwards.

Casino Master. This was probably the only spoiler I got for this game but I feel I would’ve figured it out anyway and it didn’t even turn out to be that big of a spoiler. Also the addition of the “Crow” should’ve been the “Raven” as an Edgar Allen Poe reference, it would’ve fit the character better in my opinion. I don’t like that they use the same card mechanic from the last palace, it makes more sense with this one but still. There’s an enemy in this palace that was bugged for my play through and it was only that specific enemy whenever I encountered them, it would say something like “it’s groaning” (which it sometimes does with enemies such as Regent) but for this one it just kept doing it and would get stuck, I just had to button mash a bit and then they would attack normally but just a small stain I’ll point out, easily patchable I’m sure. As for the story, I’m not quite sure what makes the palace in the first place, what is the distortion exactly? Other than that, another in the top 3.

The boss is actually kind of cool, in a way it’s the opposite of Okumura but an actual boss instead of enemies. It’s probably my favorite because of the design and style. I’m not done yet but honestly when I got about 1/3 of the way through this game, I thought it was a 5/5 but I re-evaluated and the one thing that I want is a bit of gameplay variety even if it’s just the bosses. I’ve talked about this before but it makes everything feel samey and while I know more or less all turn based RPGs are guilty of the same thing (so I can’t really hold that against this game) this one just seems so different. It doesn’t wear itself out, for turn based, it’s not so bad but it just leaves you desiring one extra step, an extra something everytime to say “This is the fourth-fifth-sixth boss!” rather than just chip damage with no weaknesses, some kind of reward for playing the way you do perhaps.

Armstrong from MGS Rising (yeah I didn’t have a codename for this one). I really like the setup, probably the best palace to be honest, in a way it’s sort of a compilation. I could see where people could complain about it even if I haven’t seen anything. This palace also has the best music, it’s very fitting and stylistic. There’s a little bit of a barrage of mini bosses throughout, I kind of like it but the last one before the big boss is tough because it’s 3 different sections, one after the other but it’s kind of a tease/warning to say “Are you really ready for the real boss? If you had trouble with this, then you’ll have trouble with him.” 

Let's talk about the final final boss (for what’s known as the ‘true’ ending route) because I apparently did the ‘true’ ending after looking into it, it doesn't matter who you picked for a romantic route, it matters what choices you made at certain points in the game, the ‘true’ ending is just the longest, there are different points in the game where it could end and be the other good/bad endings so yeah. Let me talk about it without spoiling anything, Notice I said ‘true’ with quotes. I'm going to summarize this reddit post I saw, justifying it, out of context. The boss is idolized, he's made by the people, he didn't make the people and because he's pretending, we were sent to destroy him. (In the grand scheme of things (story-wise)) because it bothers me that they make him out to be almighty. It is a persona and personas are figments of imagination, they're amalgamations of how the characters perceive their desire/distortion, not the real thing therefore it shouldn't be blasphemous right? That thin line is what's making me knock this game a little more because its material is so concerning. Also you’re stopping people from doing bad things, that’s ‘just’, correct? You’re defeating the seven sins, that’s ‘just’ (at least that’s what the will seeds are called). I guess they wanted to try and make it a true question “Are the Phantom Thieves ‘Just’?” They ask it over and over and in reality, I ask myself the same thing.

You can buy as seen on tv stuff, the big thing I’ll say helped me was the cleaning spray so snatch that up when it becomes available, I think it’s also available in Kichijoji but it lowers your enemy’s defense and I didn’t have that move for any of my characters. Make sure you have everything done that you want done by the time you reach the final date after sending the calling card and beat the boss such as confidants, a proper persona, side quests and a good amount of stat boosters and stuff. I can't say too many specifics on what to bring because you're going to play different than I did so just fill in the blanks, have cans of whatever you don't have as a move because it's going to be a stretch of fights and there really isn't room to turn back.

[nie7027]

Super5 headcanons part 3

Part 1 Part 2

{{Yeah im posting it again because very few people have seen the original post and Im a simple human that craves validation, so please if you like it reblog it. I doubt ill do it again but just in case i put a nifty tag so you can block it}}

Thank you everybody for saying such nice things of part 2 (as i said i wasnt that confident so it made me really happy to know you liked it) and sorry for taking so long but school is a bitch and almost killed my inspiration. Anyway here comes part 3

Minegishi: i just got out work. Can someone care to tell me what happened?

Hatori: uhh, yeah . sorry

Hatori: i got out of work like an hour ago and came home to find Shimazaki sleeping on MY bed

Hatori: Shibata was already at the gym and shimazaki hasnt waken up so i dont know much more??

Hatori: i dont know either what to do...

Shibata: is he still there? I told him to take my bed!

Hatori: well he clearly didnt...

Minegishi: ok but HOW did you find him exactly?

Shibata: ill tell you later guys. My next class is about to start

Shibata: And dont worry Hatori! i dont think hell wake up anytime soon.

Shibata: You should have seen him carrying the dog! It was cute <3

Shibata: in a strange way

Minegishi: dog?? WHAT DOG?

Hatori: did you just say "carrying"?

Shibata: sorry guys gtg

Hatori: shit WAIT

Hatori: where am i supposed to sleep now? I cant sleep on the couch!

Shibata: you can sleep with me

Hatori: WHAT? NO

Shibata: Do you prefer to wake him up?

Hatori: I pick the right side

Minegishi: No homo

Hatori: fUCk U

Shimazaki wakes the next morning to the sound of someone gagging to his right

"THE HELL IS THAT SMELL? WHY DO YOU STINK SO MUCH?" yells Hatori before letting out a muffled yelp when the pillow Shimazaki threw hits him square on the face

Shibata, probably alerted by Hatoris screams, comes running and asks from the doorframe "Whats going here?"

"THAT BASTARD SMELLS LIKE POOP AND NOW MY BED WILL SMELL TOO" says Hatori while pointing at the man on his bed who is just groaning clearly annoyed at being awaken

"Hmm it was probably the dog" says Shibata pensive and then looks carefully at shimazaki "You dont have more clothes dont you?"

"Holy shit! Thats true. Youve been using the same clothes since then..."

Shimazaki cant understand why it suddenly matters so much to them "No i dont. Now that that has been cleared up can i go back to sleep?"

"You have to change first. Hatoris clothes wont fit you. so take a shower while i search for something to lend you" says shibata and then turns to Hatori "you gotta go now or you are gonna be late. Dont worry todays my day off, Ill wash your bed"

"Thanks man" says Hatori and then quickly discusses something abouy dinner with shibata before leaving the apartment. Shimazaki can only stare. He just wants to sleep.

But before he can turn his back and return to sleep Shibata is already on him hurrying him to the shower.

Shimazaki doesnt like the idea of giving up his clothes to Shibata (he doesnt like letting go of his possesions because Mental eye cant find inanimate objects and he learned early on life how easy it was to lose things) but even he is starting to get nauseous at the smell of trash and he isnt in the mood to deal with it himself

Shibatas clothes fit loosely but they are comfy, besides once he gets out the shower the man has breakfast ready for him (theres still a box of his favourite cereal) and leaves him to his own devices while he does laundry.

By the end of the day Shimazaki has his own clothes back and they are softer than he remembers ("its the softener" says Shibata, "the what?" responds shimazaki)

Minegishi and Hatori arrive later with boxes of take out and they eat together in awkward silence until Minegishi casually asks with a smirk if Hatori and Shibata slept well at which shibata laughs and tells them Hatori is a blanket hogger which in turn makes Hatori complain about shibatas snores.

The childish fight continues and even though Shimazaki doesnt take part in it he listens atently

At the end he returns to minegishis apartment that night and sleeps on the couch. Neither of them uttering a word of what happened.

The next time Minegishi asks him to go grocery shopping he accepts.

This is stupid. This was a waste of his time.

Shimazaki couldnt read price tags or labels and he didnt know what he was doing here or why Minegishi had brought him

At most he could tell apart boxes from cans and the weight of things but he couldnt differentiate whether he was holding a can of tuna from a can of yakitori sauce or 1k of salt from 1k of sugar without having to ask somebody else.

It was even worse when it came to liquids if the milk/juice failure was anything to go by

After the first few failures of trying to pick stuff Minegishi had tried to teach him about couponing and discounts but then again he had to ask him the price everytime and they both soon got tired of it

All he could do was to touch and feel the fruit and vegetables trying to tell apart the riped from the rotten/damaged

Looking for any bump, hole, softness...things Minegishi taught him

It was stupid.

Minegishi could ripen/fix any plant with his powers and they both knew it

This was a waste of time.

He hated every second of this and wanted to go already but Minegishi had been hellbent on him learning at least this and left him in the fruits section to pick whatever he deemed best while he finished the shopping.

And that was what he was TRYING to do when a store clerk had the brilliant idea of addressing him

In his defense they had been almost 3 hours here and he had been done since the first. The fact he didnt even know what the hell he was holding anymore except that it was round and ripe not helping his annoyance.

He turned to tell her to fuck off. He just wanted to intimadate her. Force her to leave him alone.

He may have gone a little bit overboard.

He opened his eyes.

"Excuse me sir. Customers arent supposed to grab the tomatoes with their bare hands. The bags are-AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"

Her scream could be heard all around the store

Before he could teletransport away the tomato he was holding twisted and tangled its newly grown vines around his hand in a tight grip. (The sight of it clearly didnt help the girl's panic)

"Dont even think about it" hissed a pissed Minegishi when he passed by his side on his way towards the screaming girl.

Minegishi couldnt feel more stupid than he was feeling a the moment.

In his haste to initiate Shimazaki on the path of becoming a civil person he had somehow forgotten the man was actually blind (not his fault it was so easy to forget when you have seen him destroying entire buildings).

He had tried. He had really tried to come up with any way to fix this mess of a trip but it was getting late and they hadnt even started their actual shopping.

So at the end he gave up and left Shimazaki to the only task he thought could keep him busy and at the same time allowed minegishi to keep track of the mans position anytime while he hurriedly finished the shopping. It was a good plan. What could go wrong?

The moment he heard the scream he knew everything could and will go wrong where it concerned Shimazaki.

Thankfully he could feel he was still holding something vegetal (a tomato?) so Minegishi quickly dashed (shopping cart forgotten) to the mans position and the screaming girl.

His first instict had been to go and calm the girl even though he didnt know what had happened but when he realized people were starting to stare he quickly grabbed Shimazakis arm and dragged him the way he came.

"The fuck did you do?" Minegishi asked once they were in another aisle safe from curious stares

"I did nothing!" responded Shimazaki somewhat offended

" As if! What did you do to her? "

"I didnt do shit to her! I was just doing the fruit thing you asked me!" he raised his hand to show the tomato still holding onto it

"And? Why was she even near you?" mineshiki asked while his powers disentagled the vines and took the tomato

"ITS YOUR FAULT APPARENTLY WE ARENT SUPPOSED TO PICK THE FRUIT"

"Huh? What? I always do-THATS NOT IMPORTANT! Why was she screaming?!"

"I told her off"

"What? People dont scream like that when someone tells them off, even when you..." Shimazaki was clearly hiding something "How did you do it exactly?" minigishi asks with narrowed eyes

"....i may have opened my eyes"

"Your eyes?" minegishi stares increduously "whats that- oh" hes about to ask what was that supposed to mean when he remembers Shimazakis bottomless eyes caused by his physic powers. He may have gotten used to his hollow stare but he still remembers what he felt the first time he saw it. The girls scream finally making sense "You never open your eyes unless you want to threaten someome...did you want to threaten a simple clerk?? "

"No"

"Then?

"i just forgot!" shimazaki huffed

"You...forgot?"

"YES CAN WE GO NOW?" irritation lacing the mans tone

It was that moment that Minegishi realized this trip was taking a bigger toll on shimazaki than he (and probably even the man himself) anticipated and sighed.

"Yeah, i was almost finished anyway lets find the cart"

Shimazaki silently followed.

They finished the shopping without any further accident and while they waited in line to pay something caught minegishis eyes. It was just what he needed.

There was a row of cheap aviator glasses hanging in display.

After some considerantion he grabbed one of the pair with the mirror lens kind and handed them to a now calmer Shimazaki "Here, put this"

Shimazaki who had been following Minegishis movements asked curiously "whats this?"

"Glasses. In case you forget to keep your eyes closed again people wont be able to see your eyes. Put them on and open your eyes. i need to see if they fit and if they'll work"

He miraculously did.

The frame was thicker than it was supposed to be for these kind of glasses (a crude imitation of the stylish kind people wear in magazines) but they fitted and the mirror lens hid perfectly shimazakis glowing irises(?) (Hell never know)

"How do they feel?"

"Strange"

"You could wear them only when you are out in public. They are cheap. Ill buy them and you can do whatever you want with them"

Shimazaki took them off and when it was time to pay he handed them to minegishi

Once outside shimazaki at first refused to teletransport the bags back to the apartment but complied once Minegishi told him he would force him to help carry the bags all the way if he didnt do it AND promised to buy take out to eat.

Minegishi thought the glasses had been left forgotten in the bags but the next morning while he was getting ready to work he noticed they were laying folded on top of a sleeping shimazaki

When Hatori and Shibata inevitably asked about Shimazakis new glasses(that he now used all the time) minegishi told them about what was now deemed as the "supermarket incident"

The next times they went shopping Minegishi stayed all the time with Shimazaki and kept teaching him about vegetables and any thing that came to his mind.

Once they finished (everytime quicker than the previos) it became Shimazakis job to drop the goods at the apartment in exchange of picking what they were going to eat that day

It wasnt exactly what Minegishi had planned but it was a progress (or that was what he thought until Hatori complained about tripping on shopping bags that suddenly appeared in the middle of the hall whenever Shimazaki dropped something there)

Shibata was annoyed because even though they all agreed Shimazaki was behaving nicer the others didnt still believe him about the whole puppy ordeal

so that, coupled with the nagging feeling he had left after washing shimazakis clothes and after hearing about the market incident made him come up with a plan

"A mall trip?? What for?" hatori asked perplexed

"He has just one shirt"

"So?"

"He has been wearing it since we were together, actually i dont remember him wearing anything else ever"

"Thats his problem!"

"HIS JACKET HAS BULLET HOLES " replied shibata getting impatient with how much it was taking Hatori to understand

"He probably likes it that way??" said Hatori still not getting it

"Actually ive been thinking the same. I noticed the bullet holes too" finally came Minegishis voice from the receiver. He was was working at the moment because if they wanted to do this he had to work a double shift to free one day. "I dont think he has anything else"

"See? Minegishis with me!" exclaimed thriumohantly Shibata which only made Hatori roll his eyes

"Fine! i get it! Ive seen the bullet holes too...but i dont get why does it have to be us?"

"Because we are his friends" easily replied Shibata causing Hatori to frown at this

"Are we really? When has he done something for us?" hatoris tone suddenly turning serious "You are literally asking me to spend one of my few days off shopping clothes with MY MONEY for a guy who wanted to kill me mere months ago?"

"We dont know that" said shibata

Hatori trew him a glance that clearly was supposed to mean 'you gotta be kidding' "Look, do we even know if he likes us back?"

At this both men kept silence until shibata dared to speak "he is wearing the glasses"

"God forbid me for forgetting those damn glasses! Guys, im just saying we are already doing so much for him for nothing! why do we need to do more?"

"Because thats what good people do" came Minegishis response and shibata nodded firmly making hatori huff. He was gonna regret this.

" fine! But do we even know if hes gonna like what we buy? If hes gonna even wear it? As you said we had never seen with other clothes"

"Thats why we are gonna take him with us!" said Shibata, glad that this was finnally getting somewhere

Hatori turned to look at the phone "didnt you said you believed shopping stressed him?"

"Mmm these last times had been better" said minegishi

"What if he actually doesnt care about the clothes or-"

"He does" replied Shibata and Minegishi in unison making Hatori stare confusedly

"How do you know?"

Shibata thought back to the hesitance he noticed on shimazaki when he handed him his clothes but didnt think the man in question would like it if he went and tell this to the others and was debating this when minegishi spoke again "Ive noticed someone has been using my softener and i doubt its the plants"

Hatori frowned and then sighed

"You both have settled your minds dont you?" hatori asked and then grumbled when an unison "yes" was heard

"Do you realize we are working with a lot of 'maybes' and 'probably'?"

"Maybe" said the voice from the receiver and Hatori could swear he could hear minegishis smirk

"C'mon man! We have done worse than this" said Shibata happily clapping Hatoris back

"Ugh FINE That bastard better be grateful" grumbled Hatori

This part forced me to think of shimazakis past and now i made myself sad (this isnt the first time he wears glasses)

So the market incident and the glasses scene was stuff i thought about since i started these and was really excited to write it. I hope i did them justice .

I didnt realize how much longer part II was compared to part I so i think part III ended in a nice middle ground.

Haha i again didnt reach the scene i planned to reach(the prank) and at this pace this thing will have 6 parts. Someone save me

Anyway hope you like it and for those of you who dont know I am writing a Teru-centric fanfic about his decision to visit his parents and the aftermath and ill appreciate it if you could check it out (link here) and tell me what you think or at least share it so more people can see it because tumblr sucks and wont let me do it.

See you next time

[icharchivist]

At the risk of being sappy and of always showcasing my special interests in a “look at how special they are” light (but at the same time they wouldn’t be my special interests if they weren’t special for me would they) but

f/fvii is such a comfort game for me. I kinda have forgotten about that. 

I mean i’ve been on and off with this game series since 2008? and everytime i come back i come back hard and it wasn’t planned.

And in no way ofc it lessens my others special interests it’s just.... yaknow. Old friends and such.

And there’s something especially in that, 2015, when the remake was announced  was kind of a eerie time. It’s the last year i had my life more or less sorted together, well it was before it seriously went downhill i mean, it was when i was in art school where i made a whole lot of progress there (sadly also when my skin condition on my hand deteriored too much for me to keep it going), and I was processing a lot my mental health especially thanks to Cloud. (won’t do anyone the reminder on the reasons why i love Cloud that much nor why he’s one, if not the character i relate the most to huh that hadn’t really changed with the years and what can i say i have a soft spot for my badly-dealing-with-trauma favs)

I had one of my best url at the time (those who remember ichaichalivinglegacy are the true ancient mvps) and the fandom, at least the corner i was into, was so lively, there was always such a nice ambiance on my dash and i kinda miss talking to the people i used to talk to then

With the artschool it’s when i did the most progress in art and i think f/fvii, or well, at least Cloud must be one of my most drawn characters in my notebooks from back then ahah. And there was this thing that made me laugh that since my english classes in art school were... far, far bellow my level, to the point class was a torture, my teacher just let me do whatever i wanted as long as i was quiet, so it was “playing crisis core” time for me (which was anyway even more of a plus since it was in English so my teacher was eagger in letting me do). 

I also had enough saving that i had bought some merch from it too and tbh that’s something i neglected with time but there’s something so comforting in just coming back and putting on a necklace from your special interest and hold it when you feel unwell. 

It’s also the little things like how it’s in 2015 that i started to pick the habit to put very big ribbons in my hair when i was tying them up as a reminder of A.erith, this sort of things. And it’s the sort of little self care things that makes a special interest this special yaknow?the things that somehow becomes habit you carry on even when the interest faded.

I guess in a way i’m just nostalgic of an era where I had a little more control over my life despite all odds and where i made significant progress in my interests, even if health didn’t let me carry it on. 

(also fandom was much chillier back then, at least there. tbh the even reason I feel comfortable talking this loudly about f/fvii back on my blog is kinda unreal to me bc I was starting to get much more quiet bc “fandom culture” lately is... so vile. perhaps it’s seeing the d/a fandom tearing each other to shred, or just seeing the remains of others big fandoms that destroyed themselves with d/iscourses regardless of the quality of the original media, liking things became no fun. How wild is that that it became my outlook right? And I think perhaps, f/fvii was one of the last time i genuinely found it fun to be in a fandom (along with h/x/h although this one had its weighs))

i don’t know where i’m going with that post i guess i’m just. Rambling, remembering stuff. 

Genuinely coming back to the game and having fun with it and learning to love those characters again is just making me happy at least. That’s a good feeling to have.

and maybe seeing my disaster of a son being forced in a recovery path even despite the relapse may help me deal wiith my relapses a bit more. Or it will make me want to “pull a Cloud, forget everything, pull a new identity and pray it doesn’t blow up in your face” but it’s not like i will follow on this very attractive idea. 

anyway that’s always funny when i make this sort of posts to explain why the thing i’m into lately is ~so special~ for me and then like two weeks later i’m into something else that is ~so special~ for me and this is ridiculous but hey those are my feelings, and their backbones of a chocolate eclair I guess. 

But it’s nice. It’s soothing. 

I kinda needed that at the moment.

RantOver o/ 

[an-chan-thevolleyballplayer]

Kinktober 2017

Day 10 | Fucking Machine | Kiribaku | Part one

This is a first part to the oficial kinktober fic that I'll post tomorrow because it's not finished yet. I keep delaying things and this is the result.

"They won't catch us." Kirishima parroted his classmate for at least the twentieth time that day.

"Be quiet!" He knows he shouldn't be playing with Bakugou, but he just can't help it. In the boredom of this dark room, every attempt on a joke is a good one.

"It's easy to turn it on. Noone will know about our night visit." Kirishima imitates Bakugou's voice what only angers the other male more.

"SHUT UP!!"

"That wasn't manly at all.." Kirishima mutters under his breath, earning a groan from Bakugou and then he glances over to watch as Bakugou restrains himself from exploding and causing even more damage. He chuckles.

"Anyway it's not my fault we broke it." Bakugou finishes it, not even looking at Kirishima now, because they both know the truth, but Kirishima doesn't point it out and smiply stays quiet. Better stay quiet than talk about Bakugou's mistakes, he learnt.

"Doesn't matter. Do you know how to connect these?" Kirishima holds up a metal box with a lot of holes which are probably for connecting electric things, but he's not sure. He has never done this.

"No." Is Bakugou's simple answer, but he also reaches into the mess they caused last night and finds a few mechanic parts that may fit into each other. But they don't and so he just throws them away with an angry humph.

Kirishima sighs and leans back on his hands. He begins to regret the last night, even though he still thinks it was fun. But fun can be less dangerous and without a punishment.

He was just leaving the class with Bakugou, talking about an incident that happened earlier that day and about the cool heroes that helped with it. Kirishima adored the way heroes could keep their heads cool and their super cool quirks.

"I'll be a better hero." Bakugou exclaimed, more for himself than for anyone listening and drags himself in front of Kirishima. "I'll fight them all."

"You definitely will. Your quirk is the coolest." Kirishima agreed, speeding up to match Bakugou's pace. "Hey where'ya going?" He asked with curious eyes, the ones that always made Bakugou blush, and smiled brightly.

"Not your bussiness." Bakugou mumbled loudly and ignored the way Kirishima's face kept poping up in the corner of his vision.

"I want to join you!"

"Not happening."

"Please~" Kirishima whines, pulling at Bakugou's sleeve.

"Fine!" Bakugou bakred out, turning to Kirishima in irritation. "Follow me."

Kirishima quickly followed his classmate down the halls of their school. They passed the first floor, but they still went lower and lower.

"Where are we going?" Kirishima asked in anticipation.

That was the plan. To sneak out after school to practice a bit in the underground where teachers stored the robots, apparently. To practice, win against the bots that nearly destroyed them on the last festival and then leave without anyone noticing.

"Don't slack off!" Bakugou yells at him and throws a nail on him, which only hits the skin of his arm and bounces away.

"I'm not!" Kirishima protests, but doesn't say any more. Let's fix this so we can go home. Just a while longer and Bakugou will kill me.

Kirishima returns to his work, searching for any cables that could fit into the holes on his box.

But still, it was a good fight.

They agreed on turning on just one of the robots in the case they'll be set on a too dangerous level or something, or the button would be self-destruction. It was not, fortunately, and so the fight could start.

The bot wasn't quick nor strong, but could shoot slightly paralyzing bullets. They just exploded on your skin and paralyzed you for a second. That was a regular weapon, well known among the students and a favorite to use on pranks.

At first Kirishima fought his own fight, when the robot noticed him first. It was easy to dodge all of his strikes and it made a funny noise everytime he striked it with his power. Sometimes it even dropped some of it's shields.

Training one on one absolved every student on the academy and not was hundred times better at it than any bot they could find here. The bot was slow and he wasn't avoiding his attacts at all.

"I want some fun too!" Bakugou yelled at him and that was when the bot noticed him. He scanned Bakugou through his eyes and then made another funny noise, completely different from the ones it made on Kirishima and all of it's light turned red.

It dashed forward to where Bakugou stood, but it didn't get far because Bakugou's reaction was to laugh at it and blow it away.

"Nice one-OOf!" Kirishima wanted to praise him, but was stopped by a left hook to his head. The explosion turned on another few bots and they began the fight without a warning.

These were faster and stronger, though not by much. Both boys striked some of them down, by explosions, but smaller this time, afraid not to turn on whatever number of robots were hidden in the darkness of the room, and with Kirishima's strenght as a helping hand for Bakugou's fighting technique.

And it would end up nicely, without harm, but the bots were not happy losing. They had programmed in some intelligence, probably because they began to communicate with each other, the few of them that were still standing, in a weird way that contained clicking, changing the colors of the lights and in a few moments, they encircled them, trapping the heroes in the middle of angry battlebots.

Kirishima adored heroes that kept their heads cool during a fight, but this situation was so absurd he couldn't even believe it, not to keep calm. And Bakugou did not keep his calm as well. But he still found a way to escape them, as by making a big - enormous - explosion.

And that brings them to present. Long story short, the explosion was big. And it not only caught attention of everyone in the school halls, but it also gave off their location when the smoke from broken machines started to vent out of the room.

Couldn't run, couldn't hide, they were found by Aizawa-sensei, very annoyed that he had to interrupt his afternoon routine (probably taking care of his cats or reading).

And he forced them to fix everything they broke. Without help. They were banned from school until they fix everything, and Kirishima bets they won't attend school for at least a week.

"I think I've got this." Bakugou says, preoccupied with connecting metal pieces with the construction in which was placed the box that Kirishima doesn't remember giving him, so Bakugou had to take it from his lap while he was day-dreaming.

"Oh? Is it working?" Kirishima asks carefuly as if he's scared it will break down again if he speaks any louder.

"Lets try. If it does, then all it takes is to do the same thing with the rest of them." Bakugou says, less angry than before and hands the thing to Kirishima.

"Wha-"

"I'll just break it. You can try." Bakugou explains, ears red as he places it in Kirishima's hands that turn warm from the wave of electricity the touch caused. He gulps and looks down at the box. It does not look like the bots they were fighting against.

When Kirishima pushes the button, there is a dead silence in the room. He can hear his own heartbeat, hoping this to be enough, so they won't have to stay there any longer. The robots slowly wakes up, blinking and making weird electronic noises.

He holds his breath. It's working!

Long time nothing happens, only the lights on the surface of their bot blink, and then it moves. A mechanic noise fills the room as the bot starts working, stretching his limbs that appeared out of nowhere high in the air. They almost touch the ceiling and Kirishima wonders how could such long things be hidden inside the small box.

Bakugou shifts next to him, smirking at his creation.

And then the bot makes another noise. It's the one that he made at Bakugou yesterday, Kirishima realises and is about to say that the robot wants to tell them something, but then it dives its mechanic limbs down and encircles Bakugou waist.

It’ll get more nsfw in the second part i swear

<< Day 7 | part 2 >>

[kunalkarankapoor]

The reason of my smile : Kunal Karan Kapoor

Truth be told, I don’t know how to write anything except petty fiction, but the urge that I need to pen down my thoughts has been pecking at my brain, nagging me for a while now, so here I am. And all this is about someone who is much more than just a TV celebrity to me, someone who brings a huge grin to my face everytime I think of him, inspiring me in many real life situations. No guesses, he is none other than the dashing and the most amazing actor I have ever come across, Kunal Karan Kapoor.

Honestly, I had seen Kunal on screen long ago, but never noticed him. I do not really remember the days of Maayka as I was too young but the flashes of me being disgusted by Angad in Pratigya is still fresh in my mind. Such was his portrayal of the character Angad! He made me hate the character to the core, but now when I watch the same scenes on YouTube, I actually smile and blush. I mean, I smile at a local goon teasing a girl. Seriously? I laugh at myself for doing so, but then I realize the reason behind it, is, of course, the magic of Kunal Karan Kapoor

I went back and watched a few scenes of Yudi in LRL and believe me, he’s beyond cute. It was especially super-duper fun to watch him as Madonna. Can’t explain in words! Take a bow, Kunal for portraying Madonna so amazingly and for sure, playing the role of a glam doll was not easy but he did it with ease. The suicide attempt scene of Yudi gave me the shudders – goosebumps, brought a wave of sadness that remained with me for long. And then came Pratha and Amreek… The MOST adorable character EVER! Kunal and his Punjabi accent made me smile so much in awe that it hurt my cheeks. Trust me, I can sit all day, hear him speaking Punjabi and keep grinning. No doubt as Amreek, Kunal created wonders as always.

So when did I start noticing him and falling for him is something I ask myself. It was during Na Bole Tum. It just happened. I only know that I began to admire Mohan during Prateek track, which continued increasing until the end of Rashmi track when I finally realized that I have fallen head over heels in love with this television character.

TThe lone tear from Mohan’s eye after he joked about his confession during Rashmi’s engagement shattered me so much so that realization dawned and I knew that I just so cannot see tears in the eyes of this guy. I clearly remember the episode after this when Mohan sitting by the window said,

“Waah Mohan Bhatnagar! Mazak mazak mein jo serious tha, woh bhi mazaak banke rehe gaya. Khud hi apne dil ke sachchai pe hasna padha tujhe”.

Sigh! That’s all I did when I heard him saying the lines. I then saw his eyes. So pale and somewhere moist. My heart turned heavy, overwhelmed with emotions, of pain and hurt, and at last when he mockingly chuckled at his fate, trust me, something inside me… died!

There are MANY beautiful moments in the show that made me love the actor’s natural performance. The off-screen segments, the interviews and the impact it had on me nailed down the fact that there is no other actor on TV that I have ever adored the way I do Kunal Karan Kapoor. It all started with his down-to-earth nature, smiles and laughter, way of talking, genuineness in every segment, obsession with his hair, moody nature, passion for traveling, attitude of putting heart and soul ito his performances… the list simply goes on. I do not know whether I even make sense or not, but in a nutshell, I would say that… I love Kunal Karan Kapoor as a human being and an actor.

As days went by, my love for him kept growing. I started admiring and respecting him for the way he is. He inspires me truly. I remember the first time I got a job, I was irritated because I was too lazy to handle my school and work together. But then I thought… Doesn’t Kunal work for all days and even until midnights? So why can’t I? I should be motivated by my favourite actor and at last, I was. In fact I still am. Currently I am doing my second job and believe me, whenever I feel tired of handling it, I just need to remember Kunal’s struggle to reach where he is today. Nothing is easy, but he overcame every hurdle in life to establish himself in the midst of the crowd, and so I decided that I should take inspiration from him and do the same. But to be honest, most often I do feel that I won’t be able to do it anymore, but the next moment, Kunal comes in my mind and off I go!

I don’t know what else to write. Coming back to the show, another power-packed performance was from the episode when Megha tries to commit suicide, thinking that she was a burden on Mohan and Mohan gets angry…

“Ek kaam karo na.. Nanhi ko maardo, Addu ka galaa ghotdo, main phir se truck ke saamne khadha ho jaata hoon. Phir jo karna hai karlo….”

I was speechless and had goosebumps. My eyes went teary and my heart seemed to be ripped apart really badly. All the emotions together. Trust me; I never felt that way ever while watching any character portrayals on screen. Another heart-wrenching yet super amazing performance by Kunal was just before Mohan left home post Addu went missing. He did not have any dialogues, but his eyes and the tears in it said everything. Especially the moment left me in awe when he held the photo frame of Nanhi and Addu close to his heart and looking helplessly at Megha, trying to make her believe in him and his love for his kids. Throughout the scene I wished I could just get into the screen and hold him tight, making him believe in himself and support him while he is vulnerable. Sigh!

One more scene of Mohan that stands apart in season 2 is his imagination of Younger Nanhi at Awaaz India corridor after he finds out that Navika is his Chawanni. To be honest, the entire episode right from him protecting his daughter from Daddaji to his provoking her to speak up against him just to be sure that she was his Chawanni was bang on. He did not have so much of dialogues in the latter scene, but his teary eyes spoke so much… Sigh! To express happiness of meeting his daughter after 12 years and on the same time, the pain to see hatred for himself in her eyes is NOT easy at all, but he did it flawlessly as always. Followed by, the corridor scene ended up making me cry. Mohan helplessly tries to make Nanhi believe in himself but he fails, so he just looks on painfully. No dialogues yet again his eyes did the magic and at the end, when he burst out into tears, trust me, I broke down too.

Another scene of Mohan that stands apart is his conversation with Beera after he asks Navika to consider him dead. In a drunken state, he said that he hates his name and existence. My eyes immediately turned moist and all I wanted to do is to get inside my computer screen and hug him tight. I so wanted to tell him that he’s not wrong, instead the ones he loved did not deserve a gem like him, which shows how Mohan Bhatnagar had become a certain individual for me by then, someone I love and cared for. And this is certainly not easy. Making the viewers relate to the character is only possible when the actor works hard. Kunal did much more than just working hard. He breathed the character and put all his heart and soul in it and thus making it relatable and surely an important individual in my life. Mohan was never perfect but Kunal made me love his imperfection

. I fell in love with Mohan’s nature and emotions because perhaps somewhere I started seeing myself in him in some cases. I love and respect his attitude of loving his family with passion and devotion, so much that it eventually destroyed him but he never ever complained about it. So much feelings for just one TV character – not an easy task for an actor to make his viewers do so, but Kunal did it with ease, perfection and flawlessness. Even as Mohan, when he flinches, looks on, says nothing at all, thinks about something or just smiles for any reason – I can feel everything. In his every single scene, he blew me away to a different world of Mohan Bhatnagar which was full of happiness, laughter and pain.

Days went by, and my admiration knew no bounds. Everything was good until I found out that Mohan was going to “die”. On one side, I was depressed so much that I was quiet the entire day, but on the other side, I was super excited to see how Kunal would perform in this scene. And as always he didn’t disappoint me. Forget about disappointing, he did much more than what I thought. I still remember the moment when I watched Mohan falling off the cliff. I just could not cry as I always would, watching any emotional scene, but honestly I felt as if one of my closest persons left me for the time being, of course because I had a firm belief as well that he’s not gone. But even after knowing that he will come back and not would not be a different person but Mohan only, I was still depressed and feeling low.

Then Vasu entered the show – a personality completely contrasting from Mohan Bhatnagar. His attitude and intensity are the two things that made me love him. Kunal made sure to make both characters completely different in every way, and he did it too as always because the mannerisms of both the characters were poles apart. On one hand, Mohan was a soft and caring person. On other hand, Vasu was cruel and intense with a mysterious aura around him. Kunal did both the roles with perfection. Period.

Finally came the day when I heard the show would end. I did not react, perhaps because I was too busy with my family commitments, but when the D-day arrived, I had no words at all. I was numb because I knew that I won’t be able to watch Kunal on screen for a very long time.

That’s my journey as a Kunal fan, experiencing his magic and continuing to love him more and more. Yet wondering if I have said everything. Honestly there is much more about him that I feel which I cannot express, but for sure that he’s the first TV actor I felt for, like this. I remember the morning of 4th May 2013 when I was checking live updates of ITA in a half-sleepy state. Since I live on the other side of the world, it was morning, I could not wake up but I could not afford to miss the live updates either. I was so desperately waiting to know who the best actor winner was and when I heard that it was Anas Rashid, I was upset, but then I realized that I never expected anything good from any award shows. Suddenly I saw a picture of Kunal holding the ITA trophy in his hands. I was shell shocked. My half-sleepiness flew out of the window. I jumped and literally started bouncing on bed, shivered in sheer joy, pride and happiness. I don’t know what else to say to express my feelings, would just say that I felt as if I was the winner and won something great myself.

Now when he is not there, I would just say that I miss him loads. Just a glimpse of him makes me happy these days, and it was simply proven today when I was feeling low as there was no updates of him in the event and ended up getting mad at everything, but when I saw his picture, my heart calmed down and I felt happy again. In the midst of all, I even tried distracting myself, watching and getting into something else but all my attempts failed miserably and ultimately I came back to where I belong… the task of loving, admiring, respecting and missing Kunal Karan Kapoor. I would not lie if I say that the other reason of my smile and happiness besides my mother and few close friends is HIM. Even when I am depressed and feeling very low, he cheers me up and brings me back into the world of happiness in some way or the other. Just a thought of him and hearing his name would make my lips curve immediately. Everything reminds me of him, e.g. the books on the shelves at my workplace. I definitely sound crazy I know but all of this is true. Kunal Karan Kapoor has become one among the most important people in my life. And..I dream to meet him, hopefully someday; Hope afloat even after a decade.

— Bidzie Meghan — (December 16 2013)

https://happenstanceee.wordpress.com/2013/12/

On the day of party  (Happy 2nd Anniversary of NBTNMKK )

"what's up Saumya, put that lazy bum of your's to work " Bidz shouted."I thought Bidz had given up in organising", Saumya said flabbergasted."She can never give that up. Instead I have given up on her", Amanat sadly told Saumya who laughed it off. The first to enter the Party hall was KKK who was elated to see the preparations. With everyone around drooling over him , he silently took a seat in the corner where Amanat, Sonali, Bidushy, Lakshmi & Poo clustered around him. Saumya was receiving a courier which read " for kkk" Sonali was peeking in and asked... "kkk ki kiran? " Saumya started laughing and said " No Dumbo, Kunal Karan Kapoor"  Sonali :"Oh yeah! My bad " It turned out that the production house had arranged another party and everyone was there. Amanat was disappointed because all her hard work would go in waste so she stayed back and rest of them left. Everyone was confused as to how they would go when KKK came in with his car and everyone jumped in it. As soon as the engine roared , Bidz said "why would you buy a car, you like bikes , you said that in an interview" Poo objected, " No, he never said so " and just when this was going to turn into a catfight, KKK interrupted, " yes I like bike more but does that mean I can not have a car... stop it you guys. I loev you both" Well that was enough for them to get lost in their dreams. Amanat was sitting at the steps in tears and thinking how her friends went with KKK to production's party when two tiny little hands closed her eyes and two caring hands took her inside the hall. Who took her inside the party hall where everyone was enjoying the party and Amanat was amazed. She had tear in her eyes, happy tears this time that her friends persuaded the PH to shift the party to this hall. She looked at Ashnoor, Jayshree and Akansha who had brought her inside the hall.Ashnoor said , "apne itne efforts kiye the, hume toh ana hi tha." Aakanksha intervened, " ha dadi amma bilkul sahi keh rahi hai " KKK added, "aur na wo party bahut fiki bhi thi tum jo nahi thi" flirtingly. Amanat blushed . Others (Siddharth, Asya, Manish, Reem, etc) pushed all of them on the floor where everyone was dancing. And that night everyone rejoiced and danced their asses off.

https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/topic/3874067

[jamescarstairz]

so i was going to think of some show to recommend but then you said 'tell me about your favourite characters' SO LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT MAGNUS BANE WHO IS MY EVERYTHING AND I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HIM. EVEN THOUGH HIS MAGIC COULD LITERALLY DESTROY THE WHOLE WORLD, HE IS STILL THE KINDEST PERSON WHO WOULD DIE TRYING TO SAVE THOSE HE CARES ABOUT AND I WANNA CRY CAUSE HE DESERVES THE WORLD AND ONLY ALEC LOVES HIM MORE THAN I DO congrats on 600 followers! you deserve all of them and more ily

Reading this was better than any show rec tbh. I love Magnus with my whole heart, he deserves not only the world but the entire fucking universe and more. Thank you Marta ilysm 

url: not my thing | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | Jem Carstairs

icon: not my thing | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | Malec

theme: not my thing | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | Magnus Bane

mobile theme: not my thing | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | Clizzy

posts: not my thing | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | Jace Herondale

overall: not my thing | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | Heronstairs

following: nope, but you’re awesome | i am now | yep | ALWAYS AND FOREVER

compliment: *cracks knuckles* Okay so, I love you. You are most definitely one of my all time favourite people on this site, you’re just so lovely and funny and talented. As confused as I was when you first changed your icon, I’m so glad you did cause this new one kills me every time he looks so damn good. Everytime you change your sidebar gif it’s the best surprise ever cause it’s always perfection. You’re also the cutest thing on this here planet and I love you to pieces. You an your blog make me the most happy and I’m so gald we are mutuals cause I don’t know what I’d do without you(r thirst on my dash). Damn you’re amazing okay, I’m going to stop before I ramble too much but know you mean the world to me and make me so happy ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

WANT ONE?

[needlepunk-a]

♥

// The worst thing that’s ever happened to me…

Okay so one in a different fandom there was this person who created a blog of this character that is AGGRESSIVELY shipped with the one I still play over there. At first I was happy to interact with her since I hadn’t RPed very much with anyone of said character before but…almost everytime I reblogged inbox memes she’s send romantic prompts and even more so with NSFW memes. Every thread would get pushed into a coupley situation until basically I became uncomfortable with her and stopped replying and unfollowed. Like, it said right in my rules (even way back when) that I can’t deal with forced ships.

So a few months pass and she still appears on my dash b/c others i follow still RPed with her. And just after a duplicate blog of my character deactivates she changed her blog icon, blog title, blog theme, and URL, and messages me saying “Hey, wanna RP? I don’t ship [insert name of ship here] so it’s cool!” But I’m kinda suspicious so I just tumblr search her old url and immediately her new one comes up along with a few asks I had answered of hers.

Kindly, I just said “I’m sorry, but I remember RPing with you back when you were [old URL here] and you made me really uncomfortable. And I kinda feel like you’re lying since you seemed to always try and make the ship happen. I’ll have to decline RPing with you.” And then she just went on a ramble for several ooc posts describing the situation (but thankfully didn’t call me out by name) and talking about how much she hated herself and that she didn’t feel like she belonged in the RP scene at all and she should just leave, but it didn’t stop there no no no noooo! She went silent for a few hours and came back just to post about how she was having thoughts of suicide and didn’t see a point and being alive anymore.

Like…girl, I know you got shit you dealin’ with outside of your blog, obviously, but calm down! This is a single moment in time over a small disagreement with 1 person! Don’t let that be what destroys you. Anyone and everyone should be able to be better than that! It’s not personal, it’s just RP. Don’t take it so seriously.

But anyway, that’s the story of the first and only time I actually almost left the Dangan Ronpa fandom.

[iheartcactus]

Look, a page of excuses, my specialty!

I've been so hideously inactive. As I am filled with excuses, I have prepared a list. Excuses are my natural specialty. That and complaining. I can make an excuse for anything. Even things that aren’t me.

My mobile is so screwed up, it's winter, and I have been behaving and not shopping. (Also Tumblr made me mad. Not like, the people surprisingly, but the actual tumblr page being thing itself. It was making searching impossible.)(No offense.) (Unless you’re Tumblr itself.)

I still have plenty of cactus, which I'm barely overwintering, and so many orchids. I missed at least seven in my count.

Mobile hasn't updated my dash since like MAY or something, It also eats some of my posts, occasionally spitting them out weeks later. I... only post via mobile. (For the record, the post it won't load that is stuck on top is a reblog from Kihhi.)

Garden puppy Link is full of demons. These demons are really cute and love moving all the plants around where they see fit. Also tearing them apart and breaking pots. Also he's HUGE and is not aware of this. Once Link is legal age he's starting his landscaping business. In hindsight, I should have expected a dog named Link to break pots.

I've actually been working fulltime! ...Which means I get home really late and it's dark. I'm a lead floral designer and eh. I feel I could de better, and I'm also worried I'm the main designer. I did go to design school though, and like, no other floral designers have. I'm still not healthy enough to do the kind of design I went to school for, but hey. I spent the first few years out of school being sick as hell and it's getting better. Also Valentine's is coming, please send help. Like, more designers would be great. I get paid to play in flowers all day though.

I've been attempting to save money! So much money saving. (Not really.) I'm trying to buy a new car. My car is thirty now. I mean, it's awesome, people literally jump out of their car in traffic to tell me hi, which is actually terrifying, and it's a goddamn tank, but I dream of decent mileage. (I had one of those randomly exploding airbags they have all those recalls for and I'm legitimately HORRIFIED of modern cars.) My car and I have had so many magical adventures together, including finding people trying to pick up people with it, people trying to pick up ME with it, finding people taking pics with it, and being asked to sell it at least once a week. Anyway, I need a newer car and I have a decent amount of money.

I haven't been going to the nursery very much. For multiple reasons. I have less space since THINGS, I have a PUPPY and it makes me really sad.

I've habitually always gone to the nursery all the damn time since I was little. (I used to have one INSIDE my neighbourhood as a child, it was a literal block away.) My relatives got sick and I needed to take care of them, and I got unrelated sick. Eventually they died and I spent more time at home. Finally I found out what I was sick with and decided to resume doing things and went flowery shopping by my home as I was progressively getting better. An employee there apparently had the same life rearranging disease wherein I can't enjoy most the everything I love (I was so happy when they thought I had porphyria like you don't even it was so easy) and eventually I fell in really serious for reals love. I found a reason to behave and get better and someone to relate to, but one of us decided being healthy wasn't worth tiptoeing around life and being sad, and uhh, it wasn't me. Vi vanished, and I stopped shopping religiously because like, I was in this soul crushed devastation, and then I got a puppy. (This isn't why I got a puppy, no. This is why I keep spending SO MUCH MONEY probably though.) Said puppy decided destroying plants is SO MUCH FUN, so like, less plant shopping everywhere else too. Eventually I was all, no, need plants, horrible soul crushing be damned, and it was so hideously painful, and apparently, our mutual friends thought we ran off together. Noone knows where Vi went, and they were all hoping I knew. It's been nearly two years and I'm still absolutely devastated, and everytime I go shopping there it makes me so hideously sad. At this point I really don't think I'll ever honestly get over this, and never want to feel love again for so many reasons. And planty things really remind me of it.

Also Lowe's has random level plant quality. Sometimes it's glorious and sometimes it's how did you kill a spath I don't even. Anyway, I've been buying so many orchids because I can do that at the grocery store. Also I've been having much better luck with orchids than previously expected.

I want a new phone. I want one bad. I actually have an Amazon phone. Like, all sorts of people are like wtf is that phone real? Once I encountered Peter Noone and he was mystified by it and interrogated me. It's weird. Anyway, it's goddamn near indestructible. It's been buried, thrown, dropped, bounced on concrete, spilt things on it. So many things. if I get another phone it will implode the moment my filthy little hands touch it out of fear. So for now no updating for my goddamn app.

Also it's winter. That too. IT FROZE AN ENTIRE DAY. I'M SURE MOST OF YOU HAVE ENCOUNTERED THAT FOR SOME GOD FORSAKEN REASON BEFORE, I'M ASSURED THAT'S NORMAL BUT THAT HAS LITERALLY NEVER HAPPENED TO ME. Like, if you’ve ever read A Hundred Years of Solitude, and he touches the ice and says it’s the greatest invention of our time, that’s me. I do not subconsciously accept that ice happens naturally. (No, I have never experienced snow.) This weekend was seriously the coldest I've ever experienced in life and it was terrible. Days over 105 are so much better than winter. It seriously also went from like 80 to 30 in one day, bless u Texas and your terrible excuse for weather.

Meanwhile I'm sick with a low level cold. I've had it a week and a half, and probably will at least the rest of this week. Whooo. I'm... I'm really delirious. This probably made no sense. I'm gonna go catch some Pokemon, cause I'm literally one whatever the hell they replaced gyms with into Moon.