anastasiabowe · 6 months ago
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I hope this isn't too much, but, can you write about JJK (Nanamin Toji and Choso) men and how they have a plus size girlfriend, and can you make it nsfw? It's ok if you can't! Happy Belated valentines day!💖💖
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𝙏𝙤𝙤 𝙋𝙚𝙧𝙛𝙚𝙘𝙩 𝙁𝙤𝙧 𝙈𝙚 - JJK men with plus size reader!
note: I loved writing this so much, this is one of my favorite requests! Also I'm making my way through requests for real this time💀
𝘾𝙤𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙒𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨:
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♡ 𝙉𝙖𝙣𝙖𝙢𝙞 - The Admirer
Not another day goes by without Nanami being infatuated with you. Nanami always stops dead in his tracks when he sees you every morning dragging your feet into the kitchen, lazily smiling at him as you wiped the sleep from your eyes. He always puts whatever he was doing or eating down so he can get up and help wake you up with kisses and coffee breath.
Nanami never found anything wrong with you whenever you looked unhappy at yourself. He usually asks you what's the matter and gets shocked every time you mumble out "I'm fat." It hurts him every time you say that, knowing saying it seals it deeper into your head, making it a reality. Nanami never knew what to say when you say that but the usual "you're not fat, you're beautiful!" Which he too knows is getting old. Nanami knew nothing he said would completely erase the idea from your head since he himself is quite fit and muscular. But, he does know one way as to which helps you temporarily forget.
"Not there, Ngh! I'm sensitive there!" You squeal when he is laying on you, softly sucking on your tits. You guys didn't have much time, but he knew how to get you going fast.
"just relax baby, you know this feels good." His deep voice rung in your ears as he slowly brought his hand down to your cunt slipping it under your dress. "You're so beautiful Y/n, especially like this. You make me insane for you, absolutely psycho." He groans as he felt how wet you were. Your lips were red and wet from you biting on them. Everything felt so good, and there was nothing you wanted more than to be like this.
Nanami took his time, even though you guys had a dinner to attend, he had to slowly bring you to your high so it could crash down in the ultimate euphoric finish. He knew you were close by the increase of you squirming and pushing his shoulder with your hand so he could give your boobs a break.
"Uh uh, move your hands." He lowly commanded as his fingers inserted into you. You let out a moan gripping the back of Nanamin's head pushing him deeper into your chest.
"I-im cumming! Don't stop Kento, please don't stop!" You begged as he sped everything up. His tongue flicked your reddened nipples and his thumb circled your clit at the same time as his fingers fucked you finally pushing you over into a coma.
You let out a choked moan and Nanami chuckled as he helped you ride out your orgasm, taking his fingers from your cunt and and licked/sucked them clean.
"So fucking beautiful, fuck, it hurts just to look at you so cute and perfect for me. Too perfect for me."
♡ 𝙏𝙤𝙟𝙞 - The Fondler
Always touching you somewhere. You used to think that maybe he genuinely didn't realize how touchy he was, but you soon realized that he knows what he's doing. You guys could be simply watching a movie on a 4 seat couch, and out of those 4 seats, only 2 were taken. He would be either pulling you as close as you could into him, if he'd be laying on you.
He seemed like the type to hate clingy girls but he's the clingy one in the relationship! I mean everywhere you go, he's maybe 3 inches away, body touching yours, and hands gripping somewhere, and what I mean by somewhere, it's ass, tits, or thighs. You guys would be in Walmart and he'd have his hand in your back pant pocket, every once and a while squeezing your ass cheek. You guys could be driving home, his hand obviously on your thighs, or you could be simply reading a book in bed, and he'd be laying over you, one hand on your tits and the other holding his phone as he scrolled or watched something.
"Fucking love this ass, but you already know that though." Toji chuckled as his hips and your ass collided every 2 seconds. He loved how your ass rippled when you both made contact. He loved how he could grip you hips and squeeze the flesh on them, giving him the perfect handles to fuck you into oblivion. He knows that no matter how much he loves you and your body you will always find some reason to fucking hate yourself.
All through this fuck session, he keeps finding more things that you had said throughout the day about how much you hated your tummy, hated how wide you looked, hated your thighs and how they rubbed against each other, how much you hated how your feet hurt all the damn time. He never hated any of those, he never hated you, he never disliked any part of you, actually, how could he? You were so fine in so many different ways that even he himself gets surprised by, but he shouldn't because you are ethereal.
"Can't. Fucking. Get. Enough. Of. You." Toji said breathlessly as he now had you in the mating press. His hard chest against your soft tits felt so amazing in a weird way to him. Having your cute face so close, and your thighs wrapped around him had him cumming faster than usual.
"Sh-shit baby, I'm gonna cu-" he groaned loudly as he finished inside of you. You giggled, shocked he came this quick, but also turned on by how hot he was.
He didn't realize how much you turned him on until he really started thinking about it. Shit, now he's gonna have to work on not cumming so fast just thinking about you.
♡ 𝘾𝙝𝙤𝙨𝙤 - The Overachiever
Choso always felt like he had something to prove with you, but definitely not in a bad way. He genuinely thinks you are way out of his league. Anything you complained about, he'd be there to do it better and more efficiently. If your feet hurt, he'd give you a whole massage AND he'd wash your feet. If you didn't like how the food tasted from a fast food restaurant, he'd go back and order a new meal telling them exactly what to do and how to do it better. He wanted to praise you, wanted to be there at your every need and desire. And when I mean every need and desire, I mean every need and desire.
Choso would do everything in his power to let you know how much he loved you. If you complained about anything you didn't like about yourself, that'd be everything he worshiped until you thought differently.
So when you complained about how your tummy couldn't fit into your jeans, he'd fuck you and fondle and praise how much he loved your tummy, "Fuck, I fucking love your tummy so fucking much, love it so much I wanna see it full with my baby, fuck imagine having my baby, oh that'd be so fucking hot." Even though you knew what he was doing and how it might be corny sometimes, it still made you love yourself so much more.
On that matter, if you weighed yourself and complained how you gained a few pounds, he will strictly fuck you by either carrying you or having you sit on his face, his favorite was the latter.
"Cho baby, I can't!" You whispered as he tried to tug you down on his face.
"Yes you can, and you will. Sit on my fucking face." His usual soft and cute demeanor was shifted into a dominant commanding demeanor. You only held yourself up by the help of the headboard, not even trying to lower yourself, afraid you might hurt him.
"Chooo, I don't wanna hurt you, please can we do something else?" You cried out. You did deep down wanted to sit on his face and have him ruin you, but it'd be so embarrassing if he'd tap your leg because he felt like you were crushing him. Choso only sighed and forcefully pulled you down catching you off gaurd. His arms locked around the base of your thighs, securing you onto his face. He even pushed his face up into your cunt to get deeper. You let out a moan as you felt him instantly sucking on your clit.
"F-fuck Cho, feels so good!" He chuckled sending vibrations straight to your core. His fingers dug into your thighs as his eyes rolled back. Your hand found its way to Choso's dick, you leaned back a little and started pumping his rock hard dick. You began to feel confident that he was okay, and you could finally relax, which Choso was so happy you did. You tasted so amazing, and he felt so amazing tasting yummy, and you touching him. Soon Choso came, and you right after. Your body shook as he continued to hold you down on his face, overstimulating you both.
Choso finally released his grip, letting you get off of his face and lay beside him. He had a cute smile on his face and looked so out of it. You laughed and he looked over at you. "We need to do this more often."
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goodlucktai · 3 months ago
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tagged by @bobtheacorn like...... 3 weeks ago 😭 my bad
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
283
2. What's your total AO3 word count?
1,353,670
which seems.......excessive
3. What fandoms do you write for?
actively, one piece and tmnt, but that is ruled by the demons in my brain that control the hyperfixation machine.
fandoms ive posted 3 or more fics for:
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles Natsume Yuujinchou | Natsume's Book of Friends Good Omens Final Fantasy XV Undertale Mumintroll | Moomins Series Harry Potter Young Justice 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia 陈情令 | The Untamed King Falls AM Percy Jackson and the Olympians Rise of the Guardians Voltron: Legendary Defender
4. Top five fics by kudos?
Exclusivity - 11,116
walk straight through hell with a smile - 9,152
Inanition - 9,039
there is thunder in our hearts - 8,161
trouble is a friend of mine - 7,842
5. Do you respond to comments?
i do try to but i can't always :'( and i feel terrible if i manage to reply to most and then forget someone and only realize it months later. but i read every single comment and i appreciate them more than i have words for
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
i tend to veer away from angst, but off the top of my head....
where the good men go or if i go i'm going on fire
7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
99% of my fics have a happy ending because thats my BRAND but i suppose give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around or the weekend we were in love OR put your empty hands in mine
8. Do you get hate on fics?
not often, but i recently had someone who REALLY disliked the way things change because i 'villainized' raph. which is definitely news to me, since raphael is the love of my life
9. Do you write smut?
nope
10. Craziest crossover?
i wrote a tmnt/one piece crossover once ? but now that we are actually getting a tmnt/naruto idw run it doesnt feel that weird to me anymore
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
only once if i'm remembering right ?? it was a long time ago and wattpad related, which is a site that i dont really understand and therefore tend to avoid
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
yes ! i'll often have people request to translate my stories and it blows me away every time
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
Devil took your hand was written by myself and @moogsthewriter
14. All time favourite ship?
ineffable husbands, wangxian, or leosagi
15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
how much time do you have 😭
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16. What are your writing strengths?
i want to say characterization and narrative voice. i'm also pretty good at maintaining a throughline, even if it sometimes gets a little wobbly
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
conflict ! i hate it ! i will avoid writing it at all costs ! i also tend to struggle with writing fight scenes, especially when there are several characters involved :') staging any kind of choreography is my opp
18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language?
i try not to but if it feels unavoidable i google the heck out of it
19. First fandom you wrote in?
honestly it was either digimon (which also inspired my og penname) or xiaolin showdown lol
20. Favourite fic you've written?
i'm stealing bob's idea and going top 5:
there is thunder in our hearts - this story came together so easily for me, like i knew exactly how i wanted to tell it from start to finish
the only hoax i believe in - a kfam fic in my top 5s why yes and i'll tell you why. because i poured so much of myself into this fic that they could probably read it at my funeral instead of a eulogy
traveling so far to get there - after party au raph and mikey continue to take up so much real estate in my brain and for what
now the darkness comes alive - this one is more recent but im so happy with the way it turned out :')
if we could stay all day in the sun - it was a lot of fun reimagining one of my favorite fairy tales and doing a bunch of unnecessary research for this story i will stand by it until the day i die !!
i'm tagging @mykimouser, @owletstarlet, @portgas-d-aroace, @mad4turtles, @camsthisky, @remedyturtles, @pickledcarrotsandradish, @swordsmans, @mangogreent, and anyone else who wants to !
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sibyl-of-space · 3 months ago
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oOOOOooohhhhhhhh i get it now. i have Identified the Problem that has caused the most recent amadeus-related crisis/spiral/whatever you want to call it.
there are 5-ish "roles" that i have taken on as a solo dev:
project manager
musician/sound director
programmer/implementation engineer
writer/narrative lead
artist/art director
and for each i THOUGHT i had figured out how to tackle them.
project management: I've had some experience managing collaborative projects (GBA collab album, mystery jam game), I also solicited advice from other indie devs I met at Seattle Indies Expo, and I *also* applied what I learned about how we manage projects in facilities at my day job using Asana and have applied that to Amadeus. I very consciously treated this as a skill to learn and taking that specific skill seriously has helped a lot.
music: ...I straight up went to grad school for this. I took like a billion units every semester so I could learn as much as possible about composition AND mixing/production. This is the one thing I actually have a strong background in. I have the skillset and I also have People I can ask for feedback and advice. The music is lowkey going to carry this whole project.
programming: I went into this knowing full well I have exactly One semester of Unity/C# under my belt and have no idea what I am doing. I have experience learning basic HTML and JavaScript and have reverse engineered most of Ghost Trick's code via ROMhacking, so I have a sort of janky skillset, but it's very amateur and I knew that. I have asked SO many questions to people who are more experienced. KNOWING that this is my weakest suit has let me ask for help when I need it, and also accept that even the most polished possible form of this game is still going to be jank as fuck. That's fine. My #vision will still come through.
writing: the whole reason I set aside an entire month to just focus on the Mystery Jam game was because I knew I needed more experience writing, and specifically writing mystery. I've spoiled the whole game to two different people who have writing experience in order to bounce ideas and get feedback. I've asked for workflow advice from a third person with writing experience. Identifying this as a weakness has helped me focus on improving it, and because of that I am really happy with where it's at right now.
Which leads us to....
...art.
My problem with art is that as of about 2 years ago, I was much more confident in my art than I was in basically anything else except music, because I have drawn stuff my whole life and have a shitload of informal practice at it. So I focused very heavily on the other stuff that was very obviously a weakness.
But, as we approach the final months of Go Time to finish the first episode... I'm like, hm, it turns out that the art and art direction of a visual novel are kind of important.
I *like* all of the assets I've drawn for the currently existing demo, but there are specific things about the overall look I don't quite like, and there is a specific metanarrative Thing that I have been trying to evoke with what I'm doing visually and I feel like sticking to that is at odds with making assets that look and "feel" right.
Basically I haven't really thought as much about art direction as I should have since finishing the demo because I kinda figured I could coast on the fact I consider myself a pretty good artist. I can make things that look Nice. But now that I've worked hard at my other areas of weaknesses, the fact I haven't really sat down with my art direction in the past 4-5 months is really starting to become obvious.
All this to say.
My "assignment" for this afternoon is to sit outside listening to all the tracks I've written (including new WIP ones no one but me has heard yet CUZ THEYRE AWESOME im SO excited about the new tracks im writing for this) and reading through my revised narrative with certain finalized plot points and concepts, and just sketching out visually what the game Should Look Like. I am almost certain I can still use the assets I've already drawn, like the sprites and backgrounds and icons and such, but I may edit them differently, or add to them, or otherwise change something about them. I just need to make some choices because I'm feeling stuck and I need to get un-stuck if I am going to finish this game AND I AM DETERMINED TO DO SO.
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camywamycam · 1 year ago
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what was left behind in the rubble P.3
702 words
soon to be harry x reader 
TW//WRITTEN AT 4 AM BY A SLEEP DEPRIVED TEEN!!!
A/N
I know this is a short chapter and im sorry 😭 I finished writing this at 4 am because I can only write at night since I'm with my mom and siblings all day and I refuse to write in front of them 😭 maybe it wasnt a good idea to start a full ass fanfic story with a plot 2 weeks before I leave for summer camp but yolo, ive decided im gonna have this fic go from the summer - hoggwarts and y/n will start acting a lot more like Sirius iykwim 
y/ns pov
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If you had been in the right mindset, you would have impatiently pushed Remus away the second he stepped foot into your room. However, at that moment, all you needed was a hug. You clung onto the soft fabric of his cable knit sweater, which carried the strong scent of chocolate, cigars, and parchment. Remus held you firmly in his arms, patiently waiting for you to feel comfortable enough to open up about your thoughts.
"I hate him," you said in a broken voice.
"You don't mean that," Remus replied, his uncertainty evident in his words. "He loves you, he just... doesn't know the right way to express himself, that's all."
"Well, he obviously doesn't have that problem with Potter," you spat, your voice tinged with envy. "When I traveled all the way to Europe to see my biological father, I was kind of hoping he wouldn't be a total dick."
Remus sat and listened attentively as you rambled, finally realizing how left out you had truly been. The other children never spoke to you, and neither did the adults, except for the usual greetings. The more he spoke to you, the more he learned about your experiences. He discovered that while you were neglected at Grimlands place, you had met a group of muggles who had welcomed you into their friend group so at least you hadn't been totally alone. In the mere 45 minutes of conversation, Remus had already learned more about you than your very own father.
You and Remus continued to chat throughout the night in the room which you had made your own. For the first time in a while when you woke up that morning you didn't feel absolutely terrible. you turned to your side and checked your phone notifications before getting ready for the day.
you tried to sprint down the stairs as quietly as possible knowing the other adults in the house wouldn't be so happy about you sneaking off to hang around strange people whom they knew nothing about. It was almost comical how much they tried to control you when you and they both knew they didn't care about you in the slightest. As you raced down the stairs you bumped into a pale boy with messy black hair and glasses that were a tad bit too large for his face. "black." he spat "potter." "and where do you think you are going?" he said sassily 
harrys pov
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it was strange seeing y/n actually dressed. since none of the kids went outside we mostly stayed in our lounging clothes. I took note of y/ns red top, flared jeans, a jean jacket that was covered in patches, and Converse. She actually looked quite nice... but I would never admit that. 
"out." that's all she said as she tried pushing past me. I grabbed a hold of her wrist "What's your problem? You've been acting rude ever since you got here. You could at least try to talk to your dad." she scoffed in my face "Oh I've tried. he's the one who doesn't want me here." "Maybe he would actually like you if you weren't such a bitch." I was shocked at the words falling from my mouth. did I say that out loud? my thoughts were confused as y/n turned around and punched me square in the nose. Adults rushed in as they heard me fall into a vase smashing it while holding my bloody nose. Mrs. Weasly scolded y/n “what on earth have you done!” she screamed at y/n but she just looked around with a red face and big eyes as she rushed towards the door slamming it shut, not that anyone cared.
"don't cry don't cry don't cry don't cry," you thought to yourself as you ran to your friends' house. luckily she asked no questions and just welcomed you in with open arms. you eventually told her what had happened at Grimmlands place and she was pissed. both her parents said you could stay with them as long as you needed. they even let you move into the guest room so you wouldn't have to continue sleeping on your friend's floor. you know that you can't stay here long since school is starting soon, but you might as well enjoy it while you can.
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furymint · 2 years ago
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2022 Creator Reflection
1. ppt meme
the thing im happiest with this year, tbh! i put a lot of work and care into each slide—and i think it shows. at the same time, this thing i made to help my writing be more accessible just became something that required a commitment to read from its length. i hope anyone that read it found it worthwhile! i love rereading it myself.
2. free
jillian’s prophecy attacked again. new florence + the machine song, new bri edit. my motivation to create things has been really low so i tried to limit myself to only devoting an hr or so to this simple edit. i think its cute
3. goal of the century
it doesnt look like i did a lot to this edit, but i added a lot of lighting to it. it was nice editing a picture of lselle and it reminded me a bit of how fun it was to have something i wanted to badly in the game as the seagull minion
4. the loneliest
this one took a few days to complete. i listened to maneskin a lot in the car this year to keep my spirits up, so its ironic that this is the only song i made something for. i used a lot of bad pics to make it so it was a greater struggle than it couldve been, but im still happy w the way it came out even if it didnt linger in my head afterwards
5. will it snow? [nsfw]
it took me a very long time to write this and, altho its not remotely close to my usual vibe, i think its well done. mostly i think it was a v good exercise for all that never made it into the final product. i wrote three different carriage scenes to find the heart of whole piece. 
❌ impulsivity > fury > humiliation > resolve
(hoare’s outside, nol jumps out w no plan but to confront him, realizes how stupid he is when hoare a) insults him or b) escapes him, and he determines that he can do nothing until the recital in the evening)
❌ impulsivity > rationale > protectiveness > calm
(hoare’s outside, nol jumps out w no plan but to confront him, realizes how stupid he is before he moves away, so he gets back in the carriage, still mad with adrenaline, embarrassment, and the #masculine impulse of protection all manifested in possessiveness, then a gradual lowering of hackles)
✔️ ostracism > fear > rationale > calm
(looping back to the fake community at the beginning, a return to his fear of societal expectations & his lack of a community where he can be himself, the value of secrecy, the joy of secrecy)
i always loved the original carriage scene and im glad i got to actually finish it. i didnt get to do armistice day this year and i also didnt finish may other things, but at least i have this.
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i have to confront more and more often that my drive to engage w ffxiv is almost depleted, and its a really really lonely feeling. i dont know what ill do in the new year about it. i know ill continue my literature work/research and keep drafting my outline for a complete transition of nol and eli into wwi austria-hungary. i want to write more!
past reflections:  2017 | 2018 | 2019 | 2020 | 2021
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saidtostaine · 2 years ago
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DID LISTTTTT ( Feb 18. 2023 )
- been such a long long long longggggggg time since i've done this but i realized how much better this made me feel so i want to do it again
💟 went to work early in the morning and did my usual stuff. cleaned the place before anything else and served some customers etc etc
💟 when i had nothing to do at work, i finished my stats and management assignmenttt, did some religion homework too but didn't finish it ( this is interesting since i didn't expect it to be so easy for me. i thought it would take up a lot of my energy but the flow was very smooth )
💟 after i got off work at around 3 pm, i did 2 loads of hand wash laundry ( IT WAS A LOT ) after a month or so of not doing any. ( it took me 4 hours 💀 but surprisingly i wasn't tired. most likely because i took frequent breaks. i watched wizard liz yt vids on my breaks bcs i love her so much )
💟 i rearranged my clothes cabinetttt. i wanted wanted wanted to do this for a long time now but i didn't seem to have the time nor the energy but now i finally did!!!! i also choose clothes that i will be donating soon since i want to have less things now
💟 i took a short shower, moisturized, and slipped into my fav comfy PJs <33 i always love this part of the day
💟 i ate dinner. AND IT WAS REAL FOOD. i enjoyed it so much, its actually been such a long time since i've eaten proper dinner so this was vv nice :')
💟 i had a massage earlier by this amazing electric massager while i was writing the half of this post. it was so relaxing i could feel my back bones rearranging and turning back to their original places
💟 NOW IM CURRENTLY HEREE writing this post, listening to perfect pair piano cover by sook on yt ( i omly discivered it earkier and ITS AMAZING i immediately fell inlove. check it out ) and so comfy under my sheets with my itadori stuffie and hot choco ☕ after this, im going to watch JJK and go to bed because its another day tomorrow!!! 😌😌
today was very fun and i feel rly good about myself. im so happy i started this again and that i am back to my recovery. everything will be just fine. i hope everyone a happy day always and forever
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mejomonster · 11 months ago
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Okay so
1. I read today that the james bond writer did his books in 2 week stints. By trapping himself in hotel rooms where he had nothing to do. Idk if true but lets imagine it is. I guess first, wow, go off. Second, i mean i guess it makes sense in that it works.. eliminate distractions, you might get more done.
I once wrote like 170,000 in about 2 weeks, 10 hour writing sessions, Xions Theme from kingdom hearts on loop (its the only song i can reliably use to focus with), and like fuck did i forget to eat or sleep but i sure did manage to write. Caveat: i was super determined to finish the story asap, i had a self imposed motivating deadline, and i had an entire plotted outline already done so i didnt have to do any plannign work i only had to flesh out my outline summaries into actual full scenes. I could not replicate it (cause honestly it was yikes for my health probably). But i could probably do 30,000 words in 2 weeks with the same isolate and avoid distractions method (since thatd be more like 4 hour writing sessions). Still, it would require focus im not super gold at unless gold strikes and i hit a period of adhd where im managing to hyperfocus om specifically writing and utilize it fully before it runs out (hence the whole 10 hour writing sessions until i finisjed and was so burned out i didnt write again for like a year) that said...i imagine even with focus issues, if i was trapped with no internet, in a hotel room with no car, yeah Id probably manage to eventually write even if it took hours first to focus and write in small bits.
And 2! Happy news, my new writing goal to get a sustainable habit built is going good still. Today I managed abput 1000 words before midnight! And lile 3000 words just free journaling in the morning. Im really happy about the night accomplishment im particular though, because in the long term Ill be able to write more often in the evening if my day is busy. So if i can manage to do it morning (like ive been able to) OR night, hopefully a habit will be easier to stick to.
Interesting for me, is the permission I gave myself to work on ANY wip, or even just story notes, is helping to get over the perfectionism motivation hurdle I had. Before this, i was pressuring myself to like "stick to one and write Chapters and finish it." Amd thats still like the Long Term main goal. But now that the pressure is less stiffly on focus on ONE and on only Final Scenes, im able to start up writing easier. Then once i start writing, its easier to get myself to focus on more writing.
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neowinestainedress · 1 year ago
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rebs i missed you soo much too but i can’t never find the time to come on this app again cause after i finished my internship they (kinda) hired me so i’m working + classes and doing my thesis and i want to KILL MYSLEF i’m always so tired nowadays and sleeping EVERYWHERE
but god where do i start… first of all i don’t remember if i said this already but CONGRATULATIONS ON GRADUATING I’M SO PROUD OF YOU REBS YOU ARE AMAZING!!! how is life treating you? what are you up to lately?
about the hits different review that i told you about the last time i sent you an ask i think? i still haven’t finished it but i will i SWEAR i was half through it if i remember correctly… i also want and NEED to read your new stories even tho i spoiled myself the other day and saw that mc ends up with jaemin and not haechan 😞 but it’s okay!!! i love jaemin
and now about the things i wanted to tell you!!
1. i saw nct dream in concert and i even got BARRICADE and it was such an amazing experience no one pushed me or anything so i really enjoyed it + i finally met two of my longtime ibf 🥹 but you WON’T BELIEVE WHAT HAPPENED AT THE CONCERT!!!!
I FINALLY SAW HAECHAN LIVE LIKE HE WAS THE ONLY NEO (except wayv ofc) that i was yet to meet and he was sosososo pretty i wanted to cry i couldn’t believe i was finally meeting the love of my life he was GLOWING (and not because of his sweat or smt like that) even tho he was a little sick i think? cause he wasn’t as playful as usual but i completely understand since he must have been so tired. we made eye contact so many times and i wanted to DIE RIGHT THERE he’s so mesmerizing and sexy and charismatic PLEASE HAECHAN JUST ONE (1) CHANCE like i could talk about him ALL DAY EVERYDAY
it was so funny to me the fact that haechan was the first one to come out when the concert started so he appeared and i SCREAMED SO MUCH i almost threw up within then first 3 minutes 😭😭😭 and the first time he went to dance in front of me and we made eye contact i literally froze ajshskdjsod like no thoughts head empty
mark my bestie (it was the second time in less than a year that i saw him<3) he’s just TOO good and i have THE PERFECT FANCAM of him dancing RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME
renjun is SO TINY and pretty like 🤏🏼 i wanted to hug him
jeno is GORGEOUS LIKE HELLLOO?? WHY ARE YOU SHOWING YOUR FACE FOR FREE FOR THE WHOLE WORLD TO SEE??
JAEMIN IS SO BIG HIS TITTIES ARE ENORMOUS and has the MOST big and beautiful smile i’ve ever seen he was so sweet the whole time
haechan is ….. god i could write a whole essay about him he’s just too pretty i spent 99% of the concert only watching him
chenle is so pretty too and so pale (just like jeno) and he did the most amazing adlibs EVER he was literally a cat so playful and cute
jisung………. he’s CRAZY. tiniest waist i’ve ever seen like HELLO WHO ARE YOU??? so sweet too my cutie
the concert was so much fun and they are amazing performers i screamed soooo much i wish i could watch them live everyday and im happy that they didn’t break their promise of coming back soon and with haechan too (for the first time this was his fourth attempt😭) the trauma from november is now gone (lies i won’t ever recover from that time)
2. and here comes the most exciting part and i’m literally exposing my identity rn but…………………………. haechan PICKED UP MY GIFT LIKE HE ACTUALLY TOOK IT WITH HIS OWN TWO HANDS 😭😭😭😭😭😭 and also it was the only gift he actually picked up from the ground since the other two were given to him by mark and jeno (you can search the candy performance in chile and you will see it 😭😭😭😭 kinda sad he didn’t open it since inside the bag was a teddy bear baseball cap + hanging from the zipper a shinchan as michael jackson keychain that took me FOREVER to find)
3. i’m on my way to see aespa right now i’m so excited<3!!!
4. i have a boyfriend… well not really i mean he wants to date me but i don’t feel like i love him enough and i even broke off with him last year but he just really loves me? even though i explained to him how i feel… the bad thing is that i was trying to “date” him secretly but i posted a pic of haechan on my ig that said “love of my life” so everyone started asking me who he was and shit so i had to tell them about my situansionahip because i couldn’t expose myself as a kpoppie 😭😭😭😭😭
and i think that is all about my life lately now tell me about yours rebs 🫂
I get you when I was writing my thesis I was on the brink of suicide too so I hope everything goes well and you can find time to rest!
THANK YOU! I’m struggling to find a job BUT this weekend I have the inauguration of the exhibition of my photos so I hope it brings something good. I’m having some health problems (funny thing, they’re not given by what I have but by the treatment I’m getting to calm down the illness) but overall I’m good.
Yes you did! Omg how much are you writing skdjfmk did it have a bigger impact than the sour series? I’m sorry for the spoilers, I try to wait to reblog but if I don’t answer after a while I just forget about it 💀I’m sure you will love Jaemin in the story!
1. I’M SO HAPPY FOR YOU! Finally a non-traumatic experience😭you truly lived your y/n moment omg and he is! I saw him years ago and I still have him impressed in my mind and I wasn’t that close HOW did you NOT pass out?  
👀 Drop the Mark fancam now 👀
You talking about Mark, Jeno, Renjun, Chenle: 🥰💞 the lomls, prettiest boys ever, smoll 🥰💞 You talking about Jaemin and Jisung: !!!BOOBS!!! WAIST!!!
I want to see them live so badly, I hope they can come to Europe (italy because i don't have money to spend on hotels and flights) 😭
no but seriously after everything that happened last time I’m so happy to know this time it was an amazing experience, you deserve it!
2. HE GOT YOUR GIFT OMG OSJDOFJOD you really are the chosen one please share a bit of your luck (no okay I’m convinced that this was destiny/god/universe/whatever you want to call it, paying you back for the trauma of November) is this the video? also how are you alive pt2? no because it must be so thrilling to know he has something you gave him 😭
3. have fun at aespa’s concert! Say hi to my girlfriend Ningning 😔
4. Warn him that if he dares to hurt you I will have to intervene (we’re not doing a traitor pt2) the Haechan thing took me out I’m sorry, it’s so funny 😭😭 but seriously do what feels right for you and don’t feel pressured just because he likes you a lot
About me there’s not much to say. Like I said I’m trying to find a job but I chose the worst field possible so it’s been hard as hell, I thought I found something but then she changed her mind after I did the trial (I was good, I was really good and she was impressed but for some reason she went from ‘being overloaded with work’ to ‘mhh you know how it is, you never know how much work you have, I can’t hire you’ lmao) and now I keep looking for something. But I’m quite fine when I don’t think too much about my future and feel like a failure lol
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druidgroves · 3 years ago
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healing hands
Summary: Trouble comes to Yelena’s door late at night.
Notes: ok i’ve finally finished what i think is a rite of passage for all trouble-mancers: having your mc heal him after he got in a fight <3 he belongs to @shepherds-of-haven but yelena is mine :) enjoy !
The soft sounds of the city of Haven drifted in through Yelena’s window as she prepared to settle down for the night. She hardly ever went to sleep at a decent time, but she did her best to make a relaxing atmosphere just in case sleep decided to come early; incense gave the room a bit of a lavender-scented haze, as well as the pipe of slow burning charch the mage had between her lips. Her bed was piled in old quilts and pillows she’d bought from the markets in Ashtown, the only light in the room being the grouping of candles she had on her desk, and she had even finally washed her favourite sleep clothes the other day for maximum coziness.
Currently, she sat on her bed with her sketchbook in her lap, and with a yawn, thought she might actually fall asleep before two in the morning.
That was, until a soft knock came from her door.
Yelena sighed, tossing her sketchbook onto her pillow and wiping the charcoal dust on her hands onto her pants before getting up. The knock didn’t sound too urgent, so it obviously wasn’t Blade or Tallys coming to her with sudden news. Sometimes she and Briony would hang out after hours in her room, though the strongwoman was out on a mission, so it couldn’t have been her. Maybe Caine was having trouble sleeping again? Or Chase leaving another note updating her on his progress?
Despite how frequently her usual thoughts turned to him, she didn’t expect Trouble to be outside her door, his face a canvas of black and blue and blood down the front of his shirt, a guilty smile on his lips. Yelena’s eyes went wide.
“Trouble! What in the name of the gods happened to you?!” she hissed, pulling away the pipe still between her teeth. The look on her face must not have been pleasant the way the gunslinger shrunk a little under it, despite having a full six inches on her in height.
Trouble held up his gloved hands–there were a few smatterings of blood across the knuckles, Yelena noticed–in an attempt to calm her down. This only enraged her more.
“Gods, Trouble–”
“Can you at least let me explain first?! You’re going to wake the whole compound!” Despite trying his best to whisper so as not to wake anyone, his voice came out more in a particularly loud stage-whisper. A door handle a few rooms down started to jiggle and at that, Yelena pulled the man inside by his shirt collar in a flurry, closing the door behind him.
Yelena turned on him as soon as she felt the lock latch.
“Explain yourself,” she demanded, putting the charch pipe back to her mouth before crossing her arms.
Trouble bit his lip, only to hiss in pain and stop due to the split in it. He had spent most of the walk here running his tongue along his teeth, making sure every one of them was still in his mouth and not loose.
“God, okay, just–just listen, alright?” he started. “I swear it wasn’t a bar fight this time, I promise.”
“Then what was it? Who did–” Yelena gestured to his face with the pipe, “–that to you?”
If Trouble didn’t know any better, he swore he could hear the undercurrent of concern and a little bit of protective rage under her words.
“I was on the way back from the bar this time. A few streets away from the compound I heard a scream in an alleyway and, well, you know me–I couldn’t just keep walking,” he said. For a moment, Yelena’s anger seemed to falter, her shoulders relaxing and her expression softening. Of course she knew he couldn’t walk away from someone in peril. Of course.
“So I go to check it out, right?” he continued, pacing the length of her room now. “I come up on two men built like brick walls cornering a lady with her dress all torn and–”
Yelena held up a hand for him to stop. She didn’t need to know much more to realize this wasn’t just another scrap.
“Did you get her back home safely?” she asked, blowing a bit of smoke out of the corner of her mouth.
Trouble nodded, perhaps a bit too roughly the way it made the headache forming in his temples flare. A beat of silence passed before she spoke again.
“Did you fuck ‘em up?”
Trouble grinned and gave a slower nod.
“Good. You’re forgiven,” Yelena said, the corner of her mouth quirked slightly. “But…why did you come to me? Surely there’s someone awake in the compound’s infirmary.”
“Welllll…” Trouble drew out, a hand going to rub the back of his neck, “The head healer told me that he was done ‘expending resources’ to heal my dumbass–whatever that means–and not to show up if I’m not dying or don’t have mission-related injuries.”
“Can he do that? You’re Vice-Commander.”
He shrugged and paused his pacing to look at her, “True, but…you tend to have a gentler hand when it comes to healing anyways.”
His eyes flicked down to her hands. Even now before bed, she had on a few bracelets and rings and the dark paint on her fingernails was chipped almost to nothing. If he had his way, Trouble would never want any other hands patching him up.
With that thought, he gave a short cough before looking back up at her.
“So what do you say? I’ll owe you one,” he said with a wink.
Yelena rolled her eyes fondly and nodded towards her bed, “Sit down.”
“Yes, ma’am.”
The bed sunk under his weight as he sat, careful not to sit on her discarded sketchbook as he did. Unexpectedly, she climbed up on the bed next to him, sitting on her knees. She softly took his chin with her finger and turned his head to face her. Now, the two were no strangers to physical affection–when they were together, it was rare that Trouble’s arm wasn’t over her shoulder or her arm wasn’t linked with his. But now, in the quiet of her room, on her bed with the fading sounds of the city coming in through the window, the simple act of her finger guiding his chin was enough to make his face heat. It felt…intimate.
“Put this over there for me, will you?” she asked, holding out her pipe to him. He caught a whiff of raspberry as he took it from her and placed it on the desk.
“Why do you use a pipe anyhow?” he asked as her hands began to glow softly. He could feel the bruises being pulled from his face as she worked.
Her eyebrows knit together as she slowly ghosted her hands along his jaw, watching as a particularly dark bruise began to disappear, “Well, for one, I don’t have to keep buying sticks of it, it’s cheaper that way. For two, I just think it looks fancy, but if you tell anyone–”
“My lips are sealed, Lena.”
She grinned, “And for three, it’s the way I always saw my–”
She stopped herself again, pretending like she was concentrating on a particularly nasty spot on his cheek. When she spoke again, it was quieter.
“Just the way I saw my father do it, I suppose,” she said. There was a beat before she continued, “Sorry, didn’t mean to bring the mood down.”
“No such thing when you’re around,” he told her in a breath. The way Trouble looked at her made her heart clench, all understanding and with unrestrained fondness.
In an attempt to change the topic, Yelena focused on the cut on his temple by leaning in, “Other than your lip, this is the only cut. Where’d all the blood on your shirt come from?”
“S’not my blood,” Trouble answered simply. “Caught one of the fuckers in the nose.”
“Should have known.”
She waved her hand over one last bruise before going down to mend the split in his lower lip. Her hands had been hovering over his skin the entire time, but before she could stop herself, her thumb pressed down and healed the cut as she dragged it along his lip. She could hear Trouble’s breath hitch as she slowly moved her hand to trace along his jaw one last time before pulling away.
“All done,” she said breathlessly. She was still leaning towards him, her nose maybe three inches from his own. This close, she could make out the different depths of blue in his eyes, the ring of gold around his pupil. Her eyes flicked down to his lips one last time before she turned away.
“I–Thanks, Lena. You’re…you’re a good friend.”
“No problem, not at all,” she said, not even looking at him. “I’m glad you came to me.”
He put his hand on her shoulder and squeezed.
“Glad I came to you, too. I should probably, ah, get to my own room now,” he said, then made to stand up from the bed.
Yelena put her hand over his, making him stop when she squeezed back. Taking his hand in her own, she pulled him back down to eye level. Her eyes, a bright orange like the fire she commanded, bored into his as she told him, “I get that you have a difficult time standing aside when someone else needs help, but just be more careful, please. I…care about you. A lot.”
He didn’t even have time to respond before she pulled him closer and pressed her lips on his formerly bruised cheek. He could feel it heat up under her touch in an instant.
“I, uh, yeah. Yeah, I’ll be more careful,” he nodded, his mouth suddenly feeling dry. “I care about you, too. We’re friends.”
Why did that word feel so strange in his mouth this time?
The way her expression, full of concern and some deeper emotion he couldn’t identify, fell at his words, he knew something was wrong.
“Does it have to be just friends?” Yelena asked softly, orange eyes just as intense and glowing as before.
Trouble’s brows dipped together, his heart rate picking up, “What?”
In a move that Yelena would later describe as “really fucking worth it”, she stood up suddenly from the bed and yanked the man down by his collar to put her lips to his. Trouble made a noise of surprise and nearly pulled away, only to find that doing so would probably make him regret everything. After a second, his hands made their way to rest gently, hesitantly on her hips as he returned her kiss with just as much passion. When she finally pulled away he attempted to follow, still craving her touch.
They stood there in the still flickering candle light, breathing and reveling in the moment before Trouble cracked a grin.
“‘Just friends?’” he asked, “What, did you want me to call you my best friend?”
Yelena laughed, pressing her face into his chest, “If that didn’t get my intentions across like I intended, I think I give up.”
Trouble put his finger on her chin, lifting it up to look at her. Even in the half-light, he could see that her cheeks were red.
“Don’t worry, I got exactly what you mean,” he said, going back in for another kiss.
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suguruverse · 4 years ago
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— HAIKYUU BOYS WHEN YOU PULL A APRIL FOOLS PRANK ON THEM
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includes - suna rintarou, oikawa tooru, iwaizumi hajime and bokuto koutaro
a/n - don’t ask why i posted this a day late but pls enjoy <33
published date - 02/04/21
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↳ SUNA RINTAROU
- sick of your bullshit 1.0
- he thought you just making his lunch like you normally do
- he often said that you didn’t need to but he always looks forward to lunch time when he gets to see what you made him
- so today when you made him lunch, he was not suspicious at all
- when he took a bite, he was like why? is? it? so? spicy?
- but he remained calm and just kept eating
- and by the time he was half way through his lunch is was sweating buckets
- his face was red, he was aggressively blowing his nose, sweat was dripping down his face and he was chugging bottles of water like it was nothing
- he didn’t even suspect that it was a prank, just that you have weirdly high spice tolerance
- his teammates were getting a little bit worried, seeing him stick out his tongue like a dog and fanning his face like his life depended on it
- yeah, you guys were gonna have a long conversation at home
- he had just finished his 4th water bottle when he received a text from you
lol text convo - sunas pov
m’lady: how’s the food baby? :)
me: why’s it so spicy
me: it tastes good but i think i’m dying
me: laugh out loud
m’lady: dang i didn’t think it would be THAT spicy
me: huh?
m’lady: happy april fools??
me: fuck you
m’lady: is that a promise?? 🥺🥺
me: shut up i’m crying rn
m’lady: then come home you dramatic bitch
me: i’ll remember this day you damn brat
- in conclusion pranking him sucks and he always gets you back for it
- except his pranks are 100% worse and probably emotionally traumatising
↳ OIKAWA TOORU
- this man istg he is so annoying
- this man is so needy and dramatic
- but that’s probably why you decided to do this
- he just has the best reactions for pranks
- yeah nah i have no idea what you were thinking when you decided to do this
- ditching a date with your boyfriend to hang out with your friends??
- um big mistake
“my love, are you ready for our dinner date yet?”
- yeah you weren’t, babes we going clubbing, but he didn’t know that
- and plus your outfit didn’t really speak ‘fancy dinner’
“oh tooru!! great, i need your opinions! what do you think of my outfit”
“darling, you look absolutely stunning, but a bit much for a dinner date don’t you think?”
“baby what? i’m going out with friends tonight, to the club, but don’t worry, i’ll be home early”
“my love?? we had a date tonight. did you forget? we’ve been planning this for awhile”
“tooru, what’re you talking about? i told you i was gonna go out ages ago”
“oh but-“
“oh shit tooru, i’m late, i gotta go, i’ll see you later okay? see you later my love”
- and you left, leaving your boyfriend heartbroken
- he literally dropped onto the floor clutching his chest hoping you would come home and see him, then cuddle him until the morning
- and there he laid for another 10 minutes in disgust
- how dare you leave your precious boyfriend for your friends
- you decided you were done pranking him so you enter your apartment to your boyfriend cracking open a new vodka bottle
“tooru!”
“oh... it’s you”
“um yeah”
“i thought you were going out with your friends. what? did you finally remember about the date with your handsome boyfriend?”
“tooru”
“no go away, i’m mad”
“april fools tooru”
- when i tell you this man gave you the biggest side eye
“hmph i knew that, i just wanted to see how far you would take the prank”
“okay baby, sure you did”
“pfft darling, don’t underestimate your lovely boyfriend, so come on let’s go”
“go where”
“cuddle, obviously, i still haven’t forgiven you”
- 4/10 dont prank him, he’s annoying
↳ IWAIZUMI HAJIME
- sick of your bullshit 2.0
- he swears you’re gonna give him grey hairs during his 20’s and let’s be honest you probably are
- he just worries about you too much
- he hates seeing you hurt, sick, stressed or just uncomfortable in general
- so you were hella cruel for doing this to him
*massive thud noise lol idk*
“OW, haji, HAJI it hurts please hurry it hurts so bad”
- all of a sudden your boyfriend becomes an olympic sprinter
“doll? what’s wrong baby? did you fall? is your ankle okay? do you want me to get ice? call an ambulance?”
“haji, please i don’t know, it just hurts so bad. please make it stop”
“doll it’s okay, just breathe, can you do that for me pretty girl?”
“mhm”
“good girl, it looks like you sprained your ankle, i’ll go get some ice, okay doll?”
“please hurry haji, it hurts a lot”
“it’s okay, i’m sorry, i’ll be back super quick”
- you were gonna cry, your boyfriend was being so cute and considerate
- yeah well wait until he finds out this was a prank
- in less than 2 minutes, he came running back with an ice pack
“here doll, does this feel better?”
“mhm, thank you haji, i love you”
“i love you more, c’mon i’ll carry you to the couch”
- ugh what a man
“hey haji?”
“yeah doll? what’s up?”
“happy april fools”
“huh?”
“i’m not actually injured, it was a prank”
iwaizumi: 😐😑😐
“i should have known, you fucking brat”
“hehe sorry, can i have a hug”
“no, hug yourself”
- 202/10 bc he’s husband material and has nice arms
↳ BOKUTO KOUTARO
- babie 🥺🥺
- you always loved leaving him small motivational notes for him and he loves it so much
- he always has the biggest smile whenever he sees a note that you wrote in his lunch or his duffle bag
- but today you put like 391 notes in his bag without him noticing
- so when he arrived at practice, he was hoping to get changed into his gear but was instead greeted with a pile of notes
- he picked one up at looked at it
“you look like the scum between my toes”
- okay that was mean
- so he picked up another
“your armpits smell like blue cheese”
- he could have started crying right then and there
- so he texted you
bo’s pov
me: baby :((
my pretty baby: what’s wrong my love? did something happen at practice?
me: did you put these notes in my bag? :((
my pretty baby: i did!! happy april fools baby!!
my pretty baby: did you not like it?
me: it was mean, should i read all of it?
my pretty baby: i spent all night writing it so yes
my pretty baby: but you don’t have to if you don’t wanna, some of them are really weird and mean
me: no i wanna, you worked hard on them!!
my pretty baby: are you sure? they might hurt your feelings
me: im sure!! im stronger than you think!! :))
- the rest of msby saw some of the notes and laughed
- atsumu texted you about how funny they were
- but sakusa told you to never do it again because he doesn’t wanna deal with bokuto crying ever 
- what a babe
- 827282/10 because he’s such a sweetheart
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bruh-changbin · 2 years ago
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fic rec tag game 😸
tagged by @aura-mp3 @seo--changbin @petrichor-han like a week ago and I just kept forgetting to do it so here I am now 😵‍💫
rules: recommended 5 or more of your own works that you would rec to someone asking what they should read first & explain a little bit about the work. these can be the most popular, the ones you think are underrated, or your own favorites! then tag five other writers 💗
1. read u, wrote u
smth about buff student librarian changbin wearing sweaters that can barely fit around his muscles is so yummy to me 😻 I really had a lot of fun writing this fic! it was for my spring fling collab which I had a lot of fun hosting and I’m v happy with how this fic turned out! there are some fics that you really have to grind out and squeeze your brain to finish and then there are some fics that just flow really easily which was this one 😸 also icky frat boy jisung was very fun to write
2. S.O.S - skin on skin
I have a vivid memory of writing this fic at uni while a literal snowstorm was happening outside and I was sat behind my laptop writing shit like “it’s so fucking hot let’s go to the beach” 😻 LMAO besides that this fic was also a breeze to write and im happy with it! I’m a huge fan of descriptive imagery in fics so I really tried to channel that w this one. also THANK YOUUU for all of the love on this fic it’s my most popular one and all your reblogs make me smile yas so glad you all liked sexy jakey lifeguard 😼
3. ghostface
by far my fav fic I’ve written for channie (I really need to write for him more lol). unlike the other two I kind of struggled with writing this ahhh idk I just found it difficult for some reason 😵‍💫 BUT I really love the insane got7+skz+reader friend group I had sooo much fun writing the dialogue and the dynamics of that insane friend group lol. also I remember seeing a reblog of this fic where someone said that this awoken their mask kink and let me tell you I have never been more proud
4. invasion of privacy
SO MUCH FUN TO WRITE!!!!! I wanna say this fic literally only took me like an hour or two to write (it usually takes me days to finish up a fic and be proud of it even if it’s short 😵‍💫) and it was so fun lol. I loved writing it in heeseung’s pov and describing like the inner turmoil he was facing for being a pervy roommate lol. I can’t wait to share part 2 with all of you (I’m hoping to be finished by the end of September?) and you’ll see if heeseung finally gets with hawt roomie (aka reader lmao) 😻
5. 01:19 am
short little time stamp 😸 this little fic is like my absolute dream very intimate but also very hawt and I’m a crystal whore so this really came from my heart. also the sound and smell of rain HELLOOOO my favourite thing ever. also hyunjin dyed his hair black again (I think? or is it dark brown…) so hair colour in this fic is accurate once again. overall this fic just has my favourite vibe love it
tysm yue, sage and rain for tagging me! I’m going to tag @drunkjaked @woniewhite @nyanggk @angelwonie @lix-ables @heetro @polalvsjy @lixesque more than 5 but whatever (only if you want tooooo 💗)
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ad-hawkeye · 2 years ago
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Semi Fifty Shades of Artem Question: But how would you rewrite Artem's 2nd anniversary PV? What would you have liked to see? Where would you have wanted the story to go?
HI. TOLD YOU I WAS STEWING ON THIS ONE. oh goodness, this took some time!! i just wanted to say thank you; this was oddly healing to type out HAHA, so thank you for the patience!
hmmm, i think this answer would vary for most people, so i’ll just get self indulgent and ramble on about what i would have wanted ;p so my disclaimer: i am not a card writer, and these ideas are kinda disjointed, but i hope you enjoy regardless!
i think if i truly had things my way, the second anniversary card for artem wouldn’t be a proposal at all; it’d just be a celebration of their first anniversary together. and it’d be focused around a major life event. maybe they’d move in together. or maybe rosa finally passed her exam. possibilities are endless.
this is bc in general, i feel the boys’ stories all go at different paces, and forcing them all to propose at the same time felt really, really weird. luke proposing this early made a lot of sense. artem proposing this early made no sense at all. and so forth.
but, okay. fine. if we’re working within the confines of what all of the second anniversary cards had with the required proposal, then i can work with that too. so LET ME AT IT!!
part 1: so i’d keep celestine’s wedding. that was probably the one thing i really liked about artem’s card. they just went about it. uh. wrong. but what i’d do is like. artem and rosa are invited to celestine’s wedding. we get some fun banter and antics (and i kinda wanna hear artem and rosa’s speeches). then artem catches the bouquet celestine aims at him during the bouquet toss (card art one + two, would line up perfectly with the preexisting card art). rosa is a bit flustered, and mentions in narration that she and artem had been talking about their future, and they’d both be open to getting married, but they never got to finish the conversation or confirm it for sure.
ultimately it is celestine’s big day, but rosa can’t stop thinking about the idea of marriage in her life bc she’s, well, at a wedding.
part 2: the wedding eventually ends. rosa winds up going back to artem’s place. now i’m aware this is going to play out similarly to the end of personal story 4, but just bear with me bc i really liked their quiet talk from that. artem lets rosa stay over for the night bc its late and they’re both exhausted. however, due to the excitement, they can’t sleep, so they’re up talking in the kitchen or something. artem doesnt make coffee bc he knows it’ll keep them up even more, probably makes hot chocolate since that seems to be their non-coffee thing.
they wind up talking about celestine’s wedding and how nice it was and how happy they are for them, but they’re both thinking about the obvious question and not saying it. until rosa laughs and is like. funny you caught that bouquet, huh. and artem’s like i’m pretty sure celestine aimed that thing directly at me. they laugh. and rosa continues broaching the topic until they’re both finally forced to address the elephant in the room, something they were both too anxious to bring up out of fear of looking pushy. after a long and touching conversation im too lazy to write about, it ends in artem asking rosa if she’d be interested in marrying him. it’s not an official proposal, just a late night, mature conversation between the two confirming what they want in the future, inspired by the events of that day. 
rosa says yes she does want to marry him, and coyly asks if this was an official proposal. and artem sheepishly admits he doesnt have anything proper planned that night, starts getting stressed in his artem way when things dont go the way he planned, and says he would want to surprise her with a more put together proposal now that he got the go. 
rosa says she was just teasing and that sounds perfect. they share a kiss. and optionally, if hoyoverse was so insistent on the “did they bang” aspect of the cards, they could put that here. and artem and rosa better be awkward about it. this is MY version of the card!! im CANNING the daddy dom foreplay goddammit!
part 3: splitting things up this way since the cards seem to require the boys dressed up in a nice little suit in a nice location to propose for realsies. a bit of an unspecified time skip happens (hey some of the other boys had a time skip and artem deserves one too) bc im trying to fit in both agreeing to get married + planning the proposal + THE proposal, which is HARD so just hear me out HAHA. so i’m thinking artem would invite her to a private, special place for the two of them. like i know this was mentioned in another ask, but there was nothing special about their proposal? no special location, no special callbacks. it BUMMED me out.
so i’ve been thinking about cards. my first thought is cloudbreak temple and entwined fate. you know how private and quiet the end walkway and overlook were? yeah, there. i know they go back to the temple for the personal story card, so if that’s too similar, it could be something different too i guess? like mentioned a while back, he could have mentioned the movie “about time” or referred to the shouldering of their burdens, or ANYTHING that shows up fairly often in artem’s cards.
so back to the nice location. he acts like it’s just a typical visit, but rosa knows something is up bc he is 1. a nervous mess, 2. dressed VERY nicely like more nicely than usual, 3. kept avoiding her gaze out of embarrassment the past couple of weeks (wow! ONE other thing i kept from the second anniversary card!)
winds up proposing there. she gets to tease him a bit bc she could tell it was coming. the still shot of him proposing is kept. she cries bc holy shit this is actually happening, huh. then the final, official card art would be of the kiss after this.
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alreadyblondenow · 4 years ago
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Sweet | Jung Jaehyun
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❤︎ Jaehyun x female!reader ❤︎ Fluff? Smut, Smut, Smut, Smut, Tiny bit of angst, College AU, Established relationship ❤︎ 2/4 for LOVE MONTH SERIES: Boys Don’t Cry One is a big number | You and your words | Sweet | He loves me, he loves me not |
Summary: Jaehyun has always been in love with you but he thinks so highly of you that he never tried pursuing his feelings for you. All throughout your college years, Jaehyun endured every heartbreak secretly whenever you have a new boyfriend and can only love you secretly in his own ways. Wild. College years was wild and its all because of Jaehyun. After college, you and Jaehyun parted ways but life will reunite you again in the most shocking way. Jaehyun’s wedding.  
Word count: 13,707k
Warnings: Sex, sex, sex, and loads of sex, unprotected sex, loss of virginity, making of sex tape (with consent), making of amateur porn? (with consent), cam boys and cam girl?? idk what to call that but they fuck live, mentions of alcohol, period fingering, mentions of tampon, dry humping, oral sex female receiving, mentions of blowjob, slight blowjob scene,  mentions of other idols, swearing, college students who just wanna have fun haha, kissing and touching, fingering, and slight nipple play, mentions of having sex with Johnny. AH SLIGHT BREAK UP SEX! 
A/N: PURE FICTION. PURE FICTION. PURE FICTION. okay, I know I said that this will be out on Jaehyun’s birthday but meh whatever I’m posting it and will post something else for hearts day. hehe. I hope you guys love this even though im just experimenting and trying to write longer fics, and seriously I wanted to write back to back smut with different feels so I guess im crossing that out of my bucket list. Also this is proof read once only so sorry. You may not be happy with the ending but I’m sure as hell happy with it so sorry. ​
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Humans are prone to fall in love with the wrong people and the only thing you can do about it is to forgive yourself and move on. No matter how much history you had, no matter how many special moments or intimate ones you shared… if you know that he or she is not the right person for you then, you know.
Like this moment right now. For exactly ten minutes, you will realize why you and a certain someone never worked out.
“Hey, boss you have a 10 am meeting. Planning for everything” Your assistant says as you double-check your schedule to see the name of the client she’s talking about. “That’s the bride though, 0% progress for the wedding” she added.
“Yikes” you murmur and ready your stuff, “let’s fix that and give her a beautiful wedding. I need you to take down everything she says while I talk to her” you straighten your clothes and fix yourself before you face the client.
The moment you enter the room, the bride greets you with a big smile like she’s saying ‘thank you for saving me and my wedding’ even though you literally haven't done anything yet. Oh, you love seeing those hopeful eyes in every bride. “I’m just waiting for my fiancé, he’s the one who recommends coming here and I have a great feeling that I will have a beautiful wedding because of you”
“And my team,” you added and finished her sentence, “I want to introduce you to my assistant, she will be taking care of every request you say during our discussion later”
“And I want to introduce you to my fiancé, Jaehyun,” she said with a big smile and walked towards his fiancé.
And just like that your ordinary day at the office became extraordinary. Because nothing is normal about Jung Jaehyun, nothing is normal about those dimpled smile that automatically makes your heart skip a beat.
“Baby, this is the wedding organizer” her smile has no hint of mock, she’s not even proud that she has a very handsome fiancé and obviously she doesn’t know who you are. She’s just happy that she’s marrying Jaehyun. That’s all. And in those eyes, you see that Jaehyun is in the right hands.
“Mhmm. Me, Johnny, and Ms. Y/n right here are dorm mates. So you’re talking to the best wedding organizer,” you snorted at what Jaehyun said.
“Thank you for that introduction Jung, now let’s talk about your wedding”
And so, you worked your magic to them the whole morning. Explaining things, showing stuff, asking them what they want. From the wedding reception, wedding dress appointments, and picking of cakes… she has no idea of what she wants. Good thing you do know what you’re doing and you planned everything smoothly after a few hours. And for hours and hours, you watched them smile at each other, lowkey flirted in front of you but you didn’t feel any jealousy, hurt, or regret.
When the exhausting meeting was finally done and finally you’re alone at your office, a soft knock brought you back to reality and a familiar voice was behind it. “Can I come in?” Jaehyun asks.
“Of course, it’s open” you watch him enter your office like he’s some kind of a ghost and made the room cold in an instant.
“I just want to say thank you for helping us out- thank goodness the world is small… Literally, the wedding will be a mess”
“Just doing my job Jae,” you smiled sweetly to him, “your fiancé is lovely-“
“I did love you Y/n. And I’m sorry for hurting you like that, I told you, you deserve better. I’m glad we both found our happiness” he flashed that dimpled smile again and thanked you one last time.
The little reunion ended with small smiles, nods here and there, and in just a few seconds Jaehyun is out from your office and quickly replaced by your assistant to give you your afternoon coffee. Awkward and curious, she placed the coffee in front of you. Obviously, she wanted to know your past with the groom. And when she finally dropped the question, you remembered everything, moments crashing and drowning you right this instance.
Eight years ago  
“Are you even trying, you’re no fun!”  
Your best friend shouts at you from the other side of the table, waiting for you to throw the ball, waiting for you to miss. It was just beer pong but you don’t know why the game was so fucking frustrating and no matter how hard you concentrate you can’t score. Maybe it’s because you’re all alone and you’re competing against your best friend and her boyfriend. Fuck that you thought, you don’t need a man.
“Fuck” you murmur and miss again. You watch your best friend’s boyfriend score another one and of course, you have to drink again. But just when you’re about to get the ball from drink, a stranger’s hand was quick to get the cup, remove the ball and drink the alcohol.
“Mind if I join and help you win?” He flashed you a dimpled smile that immediately made you smile back at him. You take back what you said earlier, maybe you do need someone.
“Come on! Let him in, maybe he’s a better competition” your best friend shouts once again. Oh, you’re very happy that you’re not going to the same college.
As you welcome the handsome stranger and gave him the honor of throwing the ball, you warned him first that your opponents can be very annoying but he doesn't seem to care and just let out a small laugh. Cocky you thought, but confidence looks sexy on him.
And finally. Fucking finally, your best friend had a taste of her own medicine.
“I’m Jaehyun by the way,” he was lowkey flirting with you and you’re not stupid to not notice. “Here, I’ll teach you how to throw” he put the ball in your palm and stood behind you, hands on your waist to keep you steady, arms raised together, and you swear his lips were so near at your nape that you got shivers whenever he talks. “let the ball bounce near a cup and it will land on one” he added. But how can you score if he’s making it hard for you? You did it anyways, threw the ball near a cup and he was right. It landed on the cup you wish to aim and finally, you’re starting to have fun.
The game went on and you and Jaehyun flirted, talked, and exchange deep glances the entire game but winning it at the same time. His one hand is always around your waist even if it's not necessary whenever he’s the one throwing the ball, and whenever the other team scores, he’s the one drinking the alcoholic beverage for you.
At the end of the game, you and Jaehyun won the golden prize which is very awkward when he showed it to you.
“All that frustration and competition for a condom?” you can’t believe that the prize is a single condom.
“We don’t have to use it, it can just be our trophy you know” he let out a small laugh and put the condom in his pocket, and changed the subject.
As the night went deeper, you and Jaehyun had your own little world in that corner at the kitchen with a beer in your hand while you talk about your interest from music to movies. It was pretty crowded but no one seems to care especially Jaehyun because he loves how incredibly close he is to you right now. Until a drunk person bumped Jaehyun and he accidentally spilled his beer on your blouse. Seems like the universe is making a way for you two to eventually hook up and use the condom.
“Shit-shit!” Jaehyun was panicking at the moment and he doesn’t know what to do other than remove his hoodie and cover you with it before anyone sees your see-through blouse and took you somewhere less crowded to help you clean up the mess he put you through.
In a stranger's room upstairs, he locked the door to let you change while he looks for something to dry your clothes with. Luckily, he saw a hairdryer and quickly plugged it in beside the bed and started drying your shirt.
You were conscious for some time, clinging to a stranger's blanket with nothing but your pants underneath it. You watch Jaehyun dry your bra, checking it from time to time if it's ready to go. And when it's finally dry, he hands it to you with an awkward smile but still managed to make your heart beat fast. “I’m really sorry,” he started, a quickly avoided his gaze from you again as you turn your back from him, put down the blanket, and wear your bra like there's no one with you.
“It was an accident, don’t beat yourself up,” you said, there’s no way he’s going to let this go you’re sure of it, so with all your bravery, you came closer to him while he's busy drying your blouse and kissed him on the cheek. “You've been saving me the whole night. You saved me from boredom and from losing and now, you're drying my clothes. So sweet of you,” you added and looked at him sweetly, resting your forehead on his and making the moment even more intense by putting down the blanket in front of him. Allowing him to see you with only wearing your bra and pants, inviting him to make this moment unforgettable for the two of you.
Of course, he's not stupid and did exactly what you had in mind. In one swift moved his lips are on your lips, hands on your shoulders to put your bra straps down, and you unclasped your bra and threw it on the floor before you started to kiss him more intensely.
Jaehyun kissed you exactly how you wanted to be kissed, with want and with lust. His breath and the sound of wet kisses sounded perfect as it surrounds the room. You felt him bite your neck then feel him smile against your skin when his intentions of turning you on even more is working.
Kisses became deeper, playful, and wet when he started to go down to your chest and started kissing the valley between your boobs. His big hands knead your right boob, while his left hand is placed on your waist. Oh when his tongue brushed on your nipple for the first time, you rolled your head back and arched your back as if you wanted him to do more and play more with your boobs.
And just like that the cold night became warm and you feel it getting warmer and warmer by every second and it’s all because of Jaehyun.
He flashed a dimpled smile at you when he saw that you're more than liking what he's doing to you and stopped to open the lampshade. The room was immediately softly illuminated which you thought is romantic even though everything that’s happening right now is totally unplanned.
"Your boobs have spit all over, wait let me get that for you" you were just about to tell him that it's fine but he was quick to remove his shirt and reveal his godlike body right before your eyes. “If you just want to kiss and touch the whole night, I’m fine with that but I am very horny right now that I got you covered with spit,” he said while wiping his spit from your boobs and chest using his shirt.  
If you’re perfectly honest, you’re nervous about what can happen in the next few minutes. But there’s no way in hell that you’re going to let this pass, it’s not every day a handsome man is eager to fuck you. You just have to suck it up, not tell him that you’re a virgin, perform and look like you know what you’re doing. "No, it's fine I'm horny too" and you proved it by kissing him again, cupping his face with both of your hands, and with all your strength you roll on top of him. "Wait here," you said as you push him back on the mattress when he tried to get a hold of you.
You went down from the bed to remove your pants and underwear, he did the same as quickly as he can and you think he's cute for being excited to fuck. You crawled in between his legs, sat nicely on top of him but the impatient guy sat up and met your lips again. One hand supporting his weight, one hand on your waist. "You're so fucking beautiful I'm having a hard time to breath for the last few minutes" he whispers so sexily while kissing your jaw, leaving his mark to remind you the next day about tonight.
For a minute, you felt shy because you've never been naked with someone in bed. But the way Jaehyun kisses you makes you trust him, the way he touches your body with care make you want him more. And again, those fucking lips just made you roll your hips against his hardening cock and it made you both moaned so good that he asked you to do it again. And so you did.
Letting his cock slide in between your folds is a new feeling for you. Not even grinding on your vibrator will give you such an amazing feeling. Grinding on Jaehyun's cock while his mouth plays with your boobs felt fucking good that your grip on his locks tightens but he doesn't care. But for someone untouched like you, you made sure you never forget the feeling whenever his tongue swirls while you roll your hips, how he bites your nipples whenever he feels you're slowing down, and the vibrations that share with you whenever he grunts a little too loud and you feel it all over your body.
Soon Jaehyun switched places with you, putting you underneath him to catch his breath and stop himself from cumming. He reached for your hand and hold it dearly, kissing your knuckles and the back of your hand. “Forgive me if I become rough tonight, I can promise an aftercare don’t worry,” he says and gave you one last kiss before he pulls away and gets the condom from the pocket of his discarded pants. Putting the protection in front of you to assure you, thank goodness to that condom you thought.
As soon as he crawls back in between your legs again, his hand moved around your body like he’s telling you he owns you, smiling in between kisses whenever he accidentally tickles you. Hands slipping in between your thighs and fingers brushed automatically on your very wet slit. You jolt because of the new feeling but careful not to show Jaehyun that this is your first time being finger fucked. So you closed your eyes to avoid his gaze but Jaehyun gave your ass a tight squeeze and put his thumb on your wet slit, admiring how wet he made you already which made you open your eyes again and moan his name deliciously.
“I like the sound of that,” he says, kissing your neck and down Jaehyun goes, kissing your body until he reaches your pussy to give you few licks before he fucks you.
The way he licked your wet folds made your toes curl and your legs spread even wider. Pushing his head away, crushing his head with your legs then spreading it wide again, and begged him but you’re not sure what for.  
“Jae- you eat pussy like a pro” or maybe you’re just telling that because it’s your first time being eaten out. That even the way he puts the right amount of force to stop your legs from closing whenever he flicks his tongue is perfect. And when he saw you relaxing and can handle the pleasure already, his hands cupped both of your boobs and pinched your nipples, making you moan his name loudly “Jae!-“ and arch your back as a sign that you’re almost there, and if he doesn’t stop soon you might cum now.
But of course, Jaehyun didn’t stop and made you cum using his tongue for the first time tonight. Your legs felt like jelly and you can even feel that your pussy is still sensitive. “Thought it’s going to be just a few licks?” you said weakly, wiping your pussy juices from his chin and planting a soft kiss on his lips as a thank you, but he doesn’t know that.
“Changed my mind, you taste good. I might even go for another round-“
And right before he goes down on you again, you stopped him and told him you’re still sensitive. Which thankfully he listened and kissed you instead of licking you. And when you’re finally good to go again, he holds you by your ankles, kiss your neck and touch your body for a few seconds before he finally lines his cock on your very wet slit. Sliding it up and down, teasing you and making you horny and even more aroused.  
When he finally pushed his cock in your hole, Jaehyun thought his dick will slide in smoothly because, one, he thought you’re not a virgin anymore and two, you’re dripping on the sheets but still he’s having a hard time pushing in. Then he saw your face, contorting like you’re in pain rather than seeing you furrow your brows, part your lips, and make beautiful sounds.
For you, it fucking hurts and you would rather suck it up than tell him you’re still a virgin and ruin the mood. But the man on top of you is not stupid and surprisingly he pulled out slowly and came closer to your body once again to face you, “I’m about to be your first time, am I right? You’re so tight and I’ve never encountered a hole like that ever since my first fuck”
Busted you thought. You thought of any more ways to get out of this situation but he looks like he’s okay with it. “Are you mad?” you asked shyly and avoiding his stare.
“No” he admitted, “Actually I’m turned on. But I’ll go slow and sorry if I hurt you at first. Want to try again?”
You nod oh eagerly to his question and finally, you can breathe and enjoy the moment. He gave you a few kisses before he continues and went back to lining his cock, he made you wrap your arms around his neck and asked you to spread your legs even wider. And when he pushed in again, there’s that good stretch you’ve been hearing so much about. The feeling of Jaehyun’s cock go slowly inside you was incredibly good even though he’s not fucking you raw right now.
“The condom is thin-“ he grunts and moaned a few times, “you’re so tight. And fuck you look hot. Does it feel good now?” he whispers and started to roll his hips once which made you both moan and let out sharp gasps.
He fucks you slow and deep until the sting from the stretch is replaced by pleasure. You rake his body with your nails, holding him on his nape, and grab a fistful of hair whenever he tries to give you a powerful thrust which you loved so you asked for more.
He sat on his knees and pull away from your body then immediately gave you a hard thrust, watching your boobs bounce with lidded eyes, kneading them whenever he wants to. In a matter of few minutes, his thrust became animalistic that your head is dangling on the edge of the bed, moaning and gasping sharply but the man above you kept on fucking you hard, savoring the condom and trying not to cum so soon. So whenever he’s on edge, he pulls out immediately and spreads kisses around your body, sucking your boobs until your nipples are swollen, playing with your slit until you’re cumming for the third time tonight using his fingers.
“Not yet, I want more time with you,” he says while kissing your neck and reaching for your hand to intertwine it with his.
“Jaehyun, I can’t take it anymore. Please cum already” you begged with ragged breaths.
“Fine, fine. Since you asked nicely, but promise me to give me your number after we fuck”
“I will if you make me cum using your dick” he was amused by your answer and effortlessly flipped you on your stomach and asked you to put your ass in the air. He kissed your shoulders first, making you feel safe before the grand finale. Hands on your ass while he slowly thrust in again and fuck, he does make your knees weak.
“You were just a virgin a few minutes ago, but now you’re begging huh, okay” he says before he gave you a hard thrust that made you land flat on your stomach but he was quick to lift your hips again and give you another hard thrust.
Thrust after thrust you feel the impact in your body and for sure your body will be sore the next day. You call his name over and over again but you’re not sure what you’re begging for because he is fucking you good. Hard but good. And when finally Jaehyun is on edge for the nth time tonight, he did not pull out and kept fucking you but this time he doubled his pace that you can only hear skin slapping and his beautiful moans.
“Fuck Jaehyun- I’m cumming again, don’t you dare fucking stop” you grip the sheets and arch your back more, taking every thrust Jaehyun gives you and shut your eyes close as you let go and cum for the fourth time tonight.
Thrust
Thrust
Thrust
He gave you three powerful thrusts before you both flop on the mattress and catch your breath together. Your bodies were warm and sweaty, the room smelled like sex but no one cares. You feel bad to the owner of this bed.
While you catch your breath and calm yourself down, Jaehyun busies himself with discarding the condom and looking for something to cover your exposed body before he makes a wrong decision like asking you for round two.
“Thanks” you said weakly when he covered you with the blanket.
“I hope you’re okay with me being your first” he says and lies beside you again, keeping you close to him.
“I’m more than okay with it” you kissed him on the lips like you’re keeping a souvenir, “I hate to ruin this moment that we shared but, we have to go back to the party” you watch him shook his head no and pretended to be asleep, “Mhmm. Come on, I’ll help you get dressed” you added.
To be perfectly honest Jaehyun wanted to stay with you for a few more minutes, he wanted to know more about you, he wanted to hold your hand just a little bit longer. “Stay with me” he asks of you, but you refused with a heavy heart. You exchanged cellphone numbers of course, but when you two got back to the party, hand in hand and back to flirting with each other, your friends are quick to get a hold of you. and the next thing you know you’re inside your friend’s car, on your way home and you couldn’t stop thinking about him.
On the next day, you woke up very sore and you couldn’t walk properly but the thought of what happened last night just makes you smile and all giggly. You waited for his text the whole day, checking your phone from time to time and hoping that whenever it beeps, Jaehyun’s name is on the screen but no.
You thought that waiting for him for a day is normal, maybe he got hungover and slept the whole day. But after a few days later, still you got no texts from him and that part is not normal anymore. You started to think that you’re just a one-time thing for him and you feel stupid for even thinking that Jaehyun can and eventually pursue you.
Everything that happened that night, should be forgotten and you should enjoy the remaining months of your summer before you finally move in to your college dorm. On top of that, you deleted his number and tried to forget the man who made you feel good in bed for the first time.
Now that you’re weeks away from officially being a college student, you decided to settle in your college dorm as early as now so you can have more time to know your dorm mates. Little did you know, that the world is incredibly small and you will end up being dorm mates with Jaehyun alongside his best friend Johnny who welcomed you with a big bear hug like you’ve known each other for years.
It’s not that you weren’t happy to see him when he opened the door for you, it’s just that... it was such an awkward moment because you’ve seen each other naked and... he didn’t call you back. Nonetheless, you pretended to know each other for the first time today, shake his hand and give him a hug. Which you didn’t want to end so soon.
“Hey, uhm… glad to see you settle in” he started and closed your door so Johnny would not hear whatever conversation you’re about to have.
“Yeah, thank you for welcoming me warmly. Johnny is sweet by the way” you said awkwardly while folding your clothes and putting them in your cabinet.
“Uh, about that. Uhm, can you uh-“
“Not tell him that something happened between us?” he nods slowly at what you said, “sure” you wanted to scoff so bad and throw a fit at him, but you didn’t want to ruin your move in day and just shrugged it off.
Starting that day, you tried your best not to be awkward with Jaehyun and really try your best to forget about the sex. The sex that felt good, the sex that can make your toes curl by just merely thinking about it. Although you had a hard time because whenever you touch yourself at night, you remember everything that happened between you two and you end up fantasizing about fucking Jaehyun again. But now that you’re living with him and you see him every day, it's not just about the sex now.
During the summer you were convinced that Jaehyun is a guy who had sex with you and left you hanging. But seeing him every day and knowing him even more by living together, the truth about Jaehyun slapped you so hard that you even liked him even more now. He is a warm person, whose heart is full of care and compassion, or maybe even more than that.
Eventually, you did forget about the sex and your little crush on Jaehyun. Thank goodness, you thought. You couldn’t have done it without a few hookups during your freshman year. And when everything is all nice and pleasant again between you and Jaehyun, you became good friends and started to look after each other.
You were like family in that small dorm during your starting years together. The two giant knows how to cook so a good meal is never a problem, you have study sessions whenever it’s needed and whenever someone is going through something, you were there for each other.
It was great and comforting because you do everything together. But not until Jaehyun realized that he’s not immune to your charms anymore and now he’s falling for you. Hard.
Over the years of living together, Jaehyun saw your true colors. Now he knows you’re more than just a hookup. You were a gem that he found in a stranger’s party and he was such a fool for not calling you back during the summer. It’s true what they say that regrets are always at the end. Now he can only admire you and love you in ways where he can’t ruin this amazing friendship that you have.
Jaehyun endured every heartbreak whenever he sees you with another man or hearing you moan from the other side of the room whenever you and your boyfriend have sex. And when that jerk broke your heart, his broke two times than yours because he can’t do anything to ease your pain, make you realize your true worth and help you move on.
“You don’t need that guy,” Jaehyun says as he pulls you for a hug while Johnny massages your toes. The two giants were a good support system, not to mention they really want to beat your ex’s butt but you told them ‘thanks but, no don’t do that’. And while you’re crying in Jaehyun’s arms, staining his hoodie with your tears, he promised to himself that he will never hurt you or make you cry.
Now that he’s frustrated and mad at himself because he can’t help you, he decided to help himself instead. He watched on the sides and used different girls to make him forget about you, which is hardly impossible by now because even the little things you do make him crazy. Like whenever you ask him to eat dinner with you when Johnny is out for work, or whenever you take care of him when he goes home batshit drunk and can’t even stand up straight.
For Jaehyun, his college years were all about yearning. Yearning for you, your attention, your touch, and your love. But even though you’re now single and have already moved on from your ex, he still can’t confess his feelings for you because he believes that you deserve someone better than him. Jaehyun knew he hurt you already, and he will not forgive himself if he does it again.  
Senior year
In a middle of a busy cafeteria, you, Johnny, and Jaehyun are thinking of ways how to earn money for your dorm rent. This semester made you guys bring out a lot of cash because of books and some of your rent money was needed to sacrifice for education. But now that you guys are a month late with your rent, you have no idea where to get cash knowing all too well that your parents won’t chip in.
“I could sell some of my clothes” Jaehyun suggested while drinking his coffee.
“Dude your clothes are all black, no one would ever buy those” Johnny bites back just to annoy his friend. “Though girls will buy it because it’s from you-“
“Stop it with your nonsense John”
“Or! You can sell some of your nudes, I already know a lot of buyers” Johnny added with an annoying smile.
“Or you two can just fuck each other because you’re the hottest guys on campus but your asses are broke” you tease them further but you have no idea that you just gave out the solution to all your problems. “What?” you asked them as they both smile at you, shy for no reason, and eyeing each other like they’re having a secret conversation using their eyes.
Johnny clears his throat before he starts, “You just suggested to make porn… and porn is good money. A few students do it these days” he clears his throat again before he continues, “We know because we watch porn-“
“Okay, I don’t need to know that part. What are you saying? Are you suggesting we make porn?” you said, eyes big as you look at them.  
“You suggested it. Not us. But yeah. It’s good money Y/n” Johnny once again explained.
“Well, okay. I’ll hold the camera while you two fuck. How do we do this?” you avoid their eyes as your body heats the more you talk.
“Nuh-uh, I’m not fucking Johnny” Jaehyun announces.
“Nope. Me too I’m not fucking Jaehyun, you choose Y/n. No hard feelings, but consider the size” he winks but you know that he’s just joking.
Good thing the awkward conversation was cut when your alarm went off and you have to go to your next class. You gather your stuff and told them to think of better ways to earn money because there’s no way you’re having sex with any of them. Especially not with Jaehyun.
The idea of making money through porn crosses your mind every five minutes and you can’t concentrate with your class. Plus, your landlord kept on sending messages reminding you that in three days, you’re going to be two months late with the rent. But still, whenever you imagine having sex with any of them, it gives you great goosebumps and you can’t handle the awkwardness anymore.
After your class, you were spacing out and still weighing things over regarding the porn making, and unexpectedly, one of your friends brought up ‘amateur porn’ and you’ve never been so nervous in your life. She was talking about how she and her boyfriend went live for a good twenty minutes and they made loads of cash, “and guess what, it’s all for fun! We were really just fooling around but apparently, people do love those kinds of stuff and they pay good money”
Your mouth almost fell when she mentioned the cash they earned for only twenty minutes. And in that twenty minutes, you can cover one month's rent pay already. You just have to cum in front of thousands of people. So with a mind blinded by the possibility of earning too much cash, you said yes to the idea of making porn. The only question is, with whom?
Johnny and Jaehyun stood in front of you as they wait for your answer after telling them what your friend told you about making porn. Of course you picked Jaehyun. Not because you miss him, and not because you have history, but because you don’t want to be awkward with Johnny. While Jaehyun on the other hand is feeling proud and hopeful behind that poker face of his, he thought that you chose him because you already know what’s in store for you if you fuck with him again and of course he thought that maybe you miss him.
“Johnny doesn’t really need to hold the camera for us right? We can just place it, and secure it somewhere” you added and watch Jaehyun agree without looking at you.
“You two have the place tomorrow night then. M-make sure you raise the quota and cover three months of payment... for safety” Johnny says to Jaehyun and you with a smile that says, ‘thank goodness I didn’t have to watch you both fuck’.
Before you sleep tonight, unexpectedly Jaehyun paid you a visit. And there’s that nervous feeling again, you feel like you’re back in your freshman days when you don’t know what to do whenever you see Jaehyun and you just have to pretend that nothing is bothering you.
Breathing in and out, you opened the door quickly and went back to your bed and under the covers to cover your exposed legs. Little did you know that Jaehyun already saw that you’re not wearing anything besides your lacy panties and an oversized shirt.
“Your ears are red,” you teased him.
“Well next time you should wear pajamas instead of your underwear to sleep” he winked and placed the mask that you’re going to be using tomorrow and sat on the edge of your bed.  
“What are you? A stranger? You’re so far, come here” you invited him under your sheets and lie in bed face to face like nothings bothering you two. You put your hand above his head and feel his soft locks, careful not to grip so hard and hurt the man you used to have feelings for.
This is why Jaehyun can’t move on from you. You always make him feel like he’s your favorite person in the world.
“Are you going to leave me hanging again after we have sex tomorrow?” You confronted him.
“That’s impossible now, we live together” he giggles and catches your hand so he could hold it.
“Just promise me after the sex tomorrow we’ll still be friends” you felt his grip loosen up like he became hopeless like he didn’t like what you just said.
“I was actually going to say that I want us to try again. Get things right this time”
And in that very moment, your world stopped and your body feels hot, suddenly you’re sweating and your heart is beating faster. To be honest you don’t know what to say.
Then,
“Kidding. I’m kidding. Just making you laugh before you sleep, and y-yeah. I promise nothing will change between us, cross my heart” he got up from your bed, turned off the lights and turned on your lampshade. “Sleep well okay?”
And just like that, he left again. You don’t know if you were relieved that it was only a joke or your heart broke because deep inside, you’re waiting for him to tell you that ever since Freshman year. Nonetheless, you do what you do best. Sleep it off and pretend nothing happened.
On the next day, you were at the kitchen preparing breakfast and spacing out while you flip pancakes. Most of them got burnt and you blame Jaehyun for that.
“I told you to sleep, didn’t I?”
There he goes again, startling you and flashing a very handsome smile at you like you’re not about to do something stupid later. “Johnny went to work early and took an overtime tonight just so you won’t get shy” he hands you a glass of water, figured you might need one because you looked so tensed.
“We can always text him when we're done” you added, he nods. And there’s the awkward silence again.
You finish your breakfast in one go, not even looking at Jaehyun. Usually, during breakfast, you talk mostly about your plans within the day but given the situation right now, obviously, you don’t want to know his plans because that includes you. Good thing the day went on normally. You cleaned the living room, he cleaned the kitchen, you cleaned your room, he cleaned his. You saw him changing his bedsheets and you think that’s a sweet gesture, you wanted to tease him but that won’t help you with your nervousness so you just smiled at him when he caught you looking.
When it’s finally afternoon and you’re going to fuck live in a few minutes, you were surprised at what he did to his room just so you won’t get nervous anymore. The golden ray of afternoon light was perfect and helped you calm in no time, Jaehyun lit some scented candles and lowered the thermostat of his air conditioning so you won’t get cold.
“Thought I should make this special- not that I’m saying our first wasn’t “ he rambles and scratches his head, ears turning red and now you can see that he’s nervous too. “But come on, I want to do right for you” he caresses your shoulders and nods his head as a signal that you two needed to start.
The mood was nothing like your first, there was no sexual tension or any sign of desire to fuck each other. In other words, he looked like he’s just doing this for the dorm rent and you are too. That’s why maybe stripping in front of Jaehyun while your back is against him was easier than you thought. But you didn’t know that the man was craving for you. He wanted to be the one removing your clothes while his lips roam on your neck, make you feel good and wanted just before the live starts. He wanted to do that.
“Remember your promise okay?” You put on your mask and Jaehyun did too. He was still fully clothed and while you’re lying in his bed comfortably, watching him strip in front of you but not for you. The camera is right above your head so the viewers can imagine that they are the ones having sex with Jaehyun. If that won't give you a lot of money then you don’t know what will.
Jaehyun was a natural, you wanted to tell him that he does look like a pornstar but you’re not allowed to talk. When he finally crawled on the bed, straight between your legs and spread them according to his want, a shiver went straight to your spine and immediately made you wet. He shamelessly kissed your inner thighs first and went all the way up until he reaches your lips.
Finally. You both thought.
But his kisses were different and you wonder why. You feel like you’re not kissing Jaehyun because you know how his kiss can affect you, although his touch was still the same. He can still make you jolt and part your lips with just using his fingers and a few teasing here and there. And when he finally put his cock inside you, that’s the part where you finally believe that Jaehyun is indeed the one in bed with you right now. You will never forget how that cock feels inside you, “I miss you” he whispered very softly, hoping that the viewers did not hear it.
Time flies so fast that the live will end in ten minutes now and Jaehyun has been fucking you deep and slow like he’s savoring the feeling again. When you heard him grunt and moan, that made your toes curl and clench accidentally around him. Making him groan a little louder and fuck you a bit faster. You moaned so loud just so he knows you’re very much close to your high, and in just a few minutes you both cum together and the next thing you know he’s pulling out and letting his cum land on top of your pussy lips for the viewer’s pleasure.
Fuck you wish he didn’t pull out.
He grabbed his phone from above you and turned the damn timer off because you may not know, but the timer was screaming at him that his time with you is over. You removed your mask and he removed his too. And there you saw tears in his eyes, or maybe those are sweat? Nonetheless, you asked him what’s wrong and made him look at you. But instead of answering your question, he kissed you. Hands on both sides and cupping your face as he kisses you deeper.
And there’s that kiss you’ve been waiting for. The kiss that you’ve been wanting to experience again for years and years. You shouldn’t be happy, but you’re actually genuinely happy that your rent pay is late and you get to do this again with Jaehyun.
“I missed you too” finally you said it.
He smiled so sweetly to you and went back to the kiss, spreading your legs again, checking your slit if you’re still wet. And without further ado, he thrust in. Slowly again, but this time he’s proving a point. Like he’s telling you something. And now that you can see his face, you can’t help but feel excited and the butterflies in your stomach are very much excited too that you were smiling in between kisses.
“Ride me” he says, and effortlessly he trades places with you. Holding you on your back, lips still locked like you’re not planning to stop any time soon. And for your own pleasure, you guided his hands and made him knead your boobs. He did more than kneading, Jaehyun sucked your nipples and pinched them to hear you moan.
“A lot has changed Jae” you said, pushing him down to the mattress and intertwined your fingers with his, kissed them and placed them on your hips. You started rolling your hips without a warning, making the man underneath you close his eyes and part his lips. There are many things you wanted to do with him now that you had the privilege to ride him, but you decided to go hard because this might be the last time you’re going to fuck Jaehyun again.
You ride him like you didn’t have sex for years. Skin slapping from rolling your hips faster than he expected, letting your boobs bounce in front of him and letting him touch them whenever he wants to. “It’s hard to pull out when you’re on top, want to switch places?” He was struggling to talk, obviously he’s trying so hard not to cum yet but you’re good at what you’re doing.
“Not tonight” and that promise just made Jaehyun moan deliciously like he’s excited to cum now just so he can experience cumming inside you.
“Y-yeah. That’s right Y/n fuck me. Oh you fuck me so good! Shit- why did I ever let you go. Fuck”
The thing is, you love seeing him all fucked up and love hearing him praise the way you fuck him... but he chose the wrong words. And those words went straight to your heart. The words ‘Why did I ever let you go?’ repeated over and over again while you ride so fast that you’re overstimulating him already. He was begging for you to stop but it was too late when you heard him.
When you finally stopped, you see his cum dripping from your pussy even though you’re not yet removing his cock from you. You catch your breath for a second and came closer to Jaehyun. Good thing he has enough strength to hug you and roll you to the mattress so he could have the honor to pull his cock out.
“You’re right a lot has changed,” he says because his silly crush on you grew and grew and now he’s completely in love with you. “Let’s not shower together, I’m afraid I’ll lure you to have shower sex with me”
“And what’s so wrong about that” you bite back.
“Oh so you’re confident now huh,” he kissed you once again, and shit you never want him to leave your lips.
But every good thing comes to an end. You went back to your room and showered separately, as planned and when you went to the living room, he was all cleaned up and looking so fresh. He was wearing his glasses, hair almost covering his eyes, he looked cozy in his oversized shirt and his favorite plaid pajamas. “Come here,” He pats the seat next to him, signaling you to come watch Netflix with him. Surprisingly, his arms wrapped around you and kept you close to him, subtly smelling your shampoo. He giggled at the thought of imagining you taking a shower while smiling because the sex was fucking awesome.
He played a movie and watched it with you just so he can still keep you close to him. Not even halfway through the movie, he caught you sleeping soundly on his lap and slowly covered your exposed legs with the blanket on the couch. He pats and pats your head until his attention was no longer in the movie that he’s watching but his mind lingers to what happened earlier and eventually fell asleep beside you too.
It was very late when Johnny went home and caught you two all snuggled up on the couch, snoring and slept through to what you were watching. He had a hunch that you two had a great time, smiled and turned off the TV, and wished you both a good night's sleep.
“I have bad news” Johnny announces as you and Jaehyun wake up together on the couch, all smiles and in an incredibly good mood but Johnny was quick to ruin that. “The money you earned from yesterday’s live was not enough”
You don’t know why Jaehyun was still smiling at you even though what Johnny just told you completely ruined your day already. “That’s not bad news, right?” He whispers to you and gave you a look. “I’m okay with doing it again until we cover everything” Jaehyun says to Johnny while you three sit in front of each other, drinking your coffees.
“I’ll work double shifts at the radio station- are you fine with doing it again Y/n?” Johnny asks, and for a second there you feel like you’re in the hot seat.
“Y-yeah. I’m okay with it” you scratch your nape and awkwardly sip your coffee, “it’s easy money, I think if we do more lives we can cover three months pay”
“More lives it is. Don’t worry John, I’ll take other slots at the radio station too for groceries and stuff” Jaehyun added.
The live fucking continues and so is fooling around with Jaehyun, having better sex every after going live and whenever Johnny is not around. It’s like playing with fire, but you don’t exactly know if what you’re doing is wrong or right because you’re both single, so why are you guys hiding? You don’t get it, but you just go with the flow, enjoy what’s happening and hope for the best.
Every sex you have grown more and more intense to the point that your beds are moving and that gives you better reviews in live fucking. Not to mention the money is better now and you’re saving up faster than expected. But whenever the camera is off and you’re having sex without an audience, you guys fuck like you’re together and you love each other.
Sweet love bites here and there, sincere praises and longer kisses. For Jaehyun he feels like he’s having a dream because he gets to do the things he wanted to do with you. Remove your clothes while kissing you, whisper the things he has been holding back to say for years, and make you feel loved and important.
And just like the sex, your cuddling session became even warmer and sweeter. Cuddling after you take a shower has always been your thing, he visits you in your room with damped hair and you help him dry his hair, Netflix and chill, or order in and have a great meal together.
Days went by and you’re getting used to this sweet Jaehyun and you well know that’s dangerous. But you love every dangerous thing about Jaehyun. The following days grew extremely sweet and intimate. You sleep in his room every night and basically do everything together from now on. The only time you two were apart is during class hours but after that, Jaehyun is right outside your classroom waiting for you.
“What are you doing?” you giggle and try to finish the book you’re reading in bed when Jaehyun suddenly entered your room, crawled on your bed, and went in between your legs. Removing your glasses for safety, inviting you to fuck while Jaehyun nibs your ear and caress your legs. Oh his kisses always make your head turn and ask for more.
“Johnny is not around and I just took a shower, hmm? What do you say?” He uses that cute tone that can always make you stop what you’re doing and say yes to him. Forget the book, you can finish it later.
Removing your shorts and underwear while he continuously kisses you, smiling and giggling while he whispers ‘you always look pretty’ before he removes your shirt and exposes your boobs to him. You tried getting up and help him remove his clothes, but he stopped you and kissed you down on the mattress. “Nu-uh. Stay there I’ll treat you good tonight” he winked and proceeds to remove his clothes in between your spread legs, your hands roam freely in his well sculpted and fucking beautiful body.
Then he reached for your phone and took a nice picture while you two are kissing. The sound of the camera clicking made your eyes open, “send me this picture later. So I can stop missing you” you smiled and nod, then Jaehyun took one too many pictures so he could focus on you again. When he’s finally contented with all the pictures he got, he finally thrust in deep and slow while his mouth is sucking one of your nipples and he looks incredibly handsome.
This time, it’s you who grabbed your phone and took some pictures of him sucking your boobs and making you feel good, taking some pictures of his cock inside your pussy while he thrusts. Jaehyun had the idea of taking a video while you two fuck but this time, it’s for his and your eyes only. He took the phone from you and recorded how he fucks you good, and did not miss the part where you part your lips and moan.
“Jaehyun I’m almost there” you moan out, fingerings raking his nape or on his beautiful body. He puts the camera on the bedside table with a perfect angle of him fucking you, without masks or any cover. He intertwines his fingers with yours before he fucks you hard and fast. The camera that’s recording everything was completely forgotten and Jaehyun focused on making you feel good, making you cum at least two times using his dick and his fingers.
After your second high you were so exhausted that you were breathing heavily and Jaehyun is helping you to calm down while kissing your boobs and sucking them playfully. Even your cute moments like this was caught on camera and Jaehyun was more than happy about it.
“You okay? Want to cum for the third time?” He reached for your phone, stop the recording and went back in between your legs again and kiss you wherever he wants. You didn’t answer him ‘yes’ because to be completely honest you were still exhausted and he understood you well. For a good quiet minutes he was just staring at you, flashing his dimples, raking his fluffy hair and biting his lips at the same time. The silence felt good and not the usual awkward silence you have.
“The next live that we will be doing is going to be our last. And our dorm rent will be settled in no time” he started.
“And?”
“I’ll miss you”
Ouch. You wish he kept the quietness and peace instead. Just as you thought that life will now let you be with Jaehyun peacefully, here comes the heartbreak again. Truth is Jaehyun is still scared and very much afraid to hurt you that’s why he just wanted to fix himself before he could date you officially. He didn’t want to pursue his feeling with you just because you did porn together and fucked live, no you deserve better than that.
He loves you. So much, but he’s not ready yet.
You wanted to shout at him and asked him what else does he want from you? He is so good at making you feel like you’re always not enough for him and that makes your mind go crazy. He did it again. He left you hanging again when you’ve completely fallen in love with him. Turns out he’s not willing and ready to catch you. But as usual, you do what you do best. Shrugged it off and continue to live like it’s not bothering you.  
The live fucking and porn making stopped for a while because you and Jaehyun have final exams. And the awkwardness between you and Jaehyun came back in no time, nonetheless, it was a good week to have a breather and to let yourself think straight. But still, you can’t help but think about everything and miss Jaehyun.
“Are you on your way home?” Johnny asks Jaehyun through the phone.
“Yeah, just buying us dinner”  
“Good. Y/n is on her period”
“Am I suppose to be happy because I didn’t get her pregnant?” He chuckled proudly and having no clue what Johnny was saying.
“Take care of her she has period cramps dumb ass!“
“Oh right- right… sorry. Okay, yeah”
When Jaehyun arrived with the stuff that Johnny told him to buy for you and the dinner Jaehyun bought you, you were twisting in hurt inside your room grunting and very vocal about the pain while you hug the hot compress Johnny left you when Jaehyun entered your room.
“Ah- fuck it hurts” you groan and curl yourself, pressing that hot compress more on your lower abdomen and endure your period cramps. Jaehyun is just so sweet to stay beside you and rub your back while he watches you suffer.
“I want to help. Do you need anything other than that hot compress?” He was concerned and willing to make you feel better.
“Nothing I’m fine. You’re so sweet” you said in a little irritated tone but you’re not actually irritated with him. He scrolls through his phone with one hand, while the other is rubbing and caressing your back to give you comfort.
“Google says sex is good when-“
“I’m not having period sex with you, Jaehyun” but you do want him to touch you. Stupid hormones. Stupid period. It just makes you crave for him even more, desperate for even a kiss, or even just with his body closer to you.
“Are you horny?” He asks without shame, smiling at you and hoping that you say yes.
“I am” you admitted
“Just say yes, I got you” he was like seducing you, luring you to sin with him tonight while you bleed. And you like it.
“Okay” you answered softly. Shy but he knew you’re not that type anymore.
Jaehyun scoop over and went under the covers with you. Giving you that warmth that you need, making your body warm and comfortable, and basically giving everything you want. He intertwines his fingers with you, kissed your knuckles, and then your lips. Softly. Slowly. It’s every girl’s dream kiss. And just like his kiss, his hand creeps under the covers, all the way down until he reaches your thighs and spread one leg to gain access to your hole.
“W-wait. Let me just remove the tampon” shyly you inform him and discarded it quickly under the covers and throw it into the trash bin. Going back to the comfort that Jaeyun is giving you, his hand went back in between your legs and tease your clothed slit the moment you’re back under the covers. Smiling so handsomely and innocently while he lies beside you like he’s not doing something lustful under the covers.
“Do you think this will work-“ and just before you finish your question, Jaehyun ran a finger on your very wet slit which turned him on immediately. He flicked his finger, drawing small circles in your nub and listening to you moan while your grip on the sheets tightens and try your best not to close your legs.
“Do you like this?” his lips were very close to your neck and the way he talks to you was so sultry that even his words can make you moan.
“Mhmm. F-fuck Jae, my clit is sensitive” but your legs say others wise because you spread them even more under the covers and your hips voluntarily move to meet his fingers. When he felt your legs shake and hear your moans become higher than usual, he figured you were close, went on top of you and started to hump your thigh while his hand is inside your now ruined panties reaching deep in your hole making you feel good and over sensitive. Jaehyun grunted so loud and moaned deliciously beside your ear, moving his hips like how he fucks you and you feel his hard cock poke your thigh from the inside of his pants. Soon, Jaehyun came inside his pants and did not care about being embarrassed.
While you were coming down from your high, the man on top of you kept kissing you like you’re all that matters to him. Even though you well know that you’re just fooling yourself.
The night ended with Jaehyun sleeping beside you and further taking care of you after you both cleanup. But you woke up the next day without him beside you and thankfully, Johnny came out of nowhere to rescue you from your ugly thoughts. He came into your room with a cup of coffee and some bread for you, smiling like he has no problems in life and to be honest, you love how he’s always like this.
Since both of you don’t have classes today, you went to the groceries with Johnny and had a nice dinner at a fast food he loves. It felt great. It felt great to be with a guy who’s not Jaehyun. The man always keeps you on your toes and you feel like your head is always in the clouds whenever you’re with him but Johnny, he keeps you grounded.
“Shoot. The landlord is really testing me- he wants the money tonight or else they have to kick us out tomorrow. Fuck!” He says typing aggressively on his phone, telling Jaehyun immediately.
“Were not due until next week why are they doing this to us. We have no choice but to go live then” you said calmly, unbothered as much as possible because you just want this to be over now and move on from Jaehyun.
“You can't. You have your period and Jaehyun is not available- fuck why is he not picking up”
“There are other ways to make a guy cum Johnny. I’m sure you know that” you chuckle and shook your head in disbelief.
“Still, Jaehyun is not answering” he gave up and put down his phone.
“Well you’re available. I just want this to be over Johnny” clearly he didn’t expect you to suggest such a thing. You continue to eat your food in silence and so is the man in front of you. Obviously, he was bothered with what you suggested but it appears that he has no choice. You watch him fidget on his phone, maybe he’s not yet done contacting Jaehyun and still hoping that his friend will end up last minute but...
“Okay” he let a sigh of relief, “I texted Jaehyun that well do it but we're not going to uhm- uh, fuck. Blow job then? No more, no less? A bit of kissing maybe. Tell me what do you want? I’ll be able to do this comfortably if I know that you like what I’m doing to you”
“Hmm. Okay, let’s start by... be gentle with me. You’re a big guy and you know... what I mean”
“I may be big physically but I’m warm on the inside, being gentle is not a problem” he smiles and pour you a glass of water before he asks for the bill. “What else?” he added.
“Touch me, don’t hesitate. If you feel like my jaw needs rest then you can tell me to stop” he nods and told you he will surely not forget about that.
The conversation went on until you reached home and get ready for the live. Unlike Jaehyun who made you feel so nervous the day you had your first live with him, Johnny makes you feel calm and comfortable the whole time.
Now that you’re in front of Johnny, half naked with only your panties and your mask on, everything happened perfectly. It wasn’t perfect but it wasn’t awkward too, and quite frankly you had fun with Johnny. Even though the audience noticed that you’re not with Jaehyun right now, they can’t help but love Johnny’s hot body too and the way he fuck your face gently in front of the camera. Hands cupping both sides of your face as he thrust his long, hard and veiny cock in your mouth. Smiling through the pleasure whenever you purposely swirl your tongue and bob your head aggressively.
After the cum-filled and messy live with Johnny, you wired the money to your landlord immediately and secure the rent for good until the three of you graduates. Now you and Johnny can breathe normally after cleaning up and enjoy the warmth of your bed. “Do you like Jaehyun?” He blurted out, trying not to look at your exposed boobs but you roll your body and face the ceiling and so his efforts went to waste.
“Yeah but I don’t think he likes me enough. Y-you know what I mean” he shook his head to tell you he has no idea about Jaehyun’s intentions with you.
“Just have patience with him if you like him, after all, you’re the only girl that can do this to him”
“Do what?” you ask with eagerness.
“Did you really think that I won't notice you two fucking behind my back?” You laughed at what he said and laughed your shyness away, “but it’s alright. I figured maybe you like each other so I didn’t dare stop you two”
The giggling and laughing with Johnny under the soft light of your lampshade continued until you passed out and Johnny was the one who helped you get dressed. And on the same night, Jaehyun heard and saw you and Johnny laugh over a half closed door. Seeing your bodies close to each other made his blood boil and became jealous in no time. That’s why on the next day, Jaehyun was expressing his anger while you three are gathered in the kitchen. He’s not saying a word, but he kept on closing the cabinets a little too rough while he prepares his meal. Then it hit you, he’s jealous.
You confronted him and went to his room, closed and locked the door so Johnny won't hear the unpleasant conversation you’re about to have with Jaehyun. “Don’t be angry with Johnny, I’m the one who suggested it-“
“Like that’s going to make me feel better Y/n. Get out, you’re wasting your time” he turned his back and proceeds to fix his bed.
“It’s not like we cheated Jae. Were not together” you blurted as calm as possible. Little did you know that you just triggered something in him that makes him want to punch a wall and pour his anger out but he can’t. At least not in front of you. So instead, he shouted at you. So loud that you got scared for a second there.
“You know, I’m always afraid to hurt you but you! You don’t care if you hurt me!”
“Don’t act as if you love me, Jae. You never did. You never even tried!” You shouted back and walked away towards his door, banging it and walked straight to your room with tears in your eyes.
The fight was short but unforgettable.
Later that day, Jaehyun got worried when you didn’t eat lunch and dinner and your door was still locked and he can hear you crying from the other side. He kept on knocking at your door until you got annoyed and unlocked it but you covered yourself with your thick sheets.
“Come on why are you crying? Don’t cry over a stupid guy like me you don’t deserve it. I’m sorry” you feel his embrace and rub your back so you know that he’s sincere. And finally, you removed the sheets but still, you don’t want to look him in the eye.
You have a lot of questions for Jaehyun, and you think now is the perfect time to cry it all out and let him know what he’s doing to you. Why he didn’t text you back the night after you fuck for the first time, why he never ask you out when he promised he would, why he’s jealous all of a sudden.
FLASHBACK (In the middle of junior year)
It was very late already and some crazy person is ringing your doorbell nonstop. This couldn’t be Jaehyun or Johnny obviously they don’t need to ring the doorbell because they live here and they know the code. That’s why you were surprised that Jaehyun is the one ringing it and turns out he is batshit drunk and can’t even remember the code. “Where is Johnny when you need him” you murmur, “Jae, help yourself too. I can’t carry you all the way up to the fourth floor,” you said sternly to the handsome guy clinging on to you, breath smells like alcohol, eyes lidded but can still appreciate your beautiful face.
When you finally carried him successfully back to your place, without any hesitation he puked on your sleepwear and smiled so sweetly at you like he did nothing wrong. You wanted to slap him and wake him from his drunken state but Jaehyun was quick with his hands and unbutton your sleepwear and used it to wipe the small amount of puke on the floor.
You cover yourself with your arms and walked straight to your room and get a clean shirt before you take care of Jaehyun. He was murmuring “sorry” as he sees you walk away from him and weakly sit on the floor with dirty clothes and hope that you will come back to him.
When he sees you all dressed up again with a damped cloth on your hand, he smiled and spread his arms like he’s about to give you a hug. “Why are you acting cute- here hold this while I remove your socks” you hand him the damped cloth and proceed to remove his dirty socks and throw it with your dirty sleepwear. He looks at you lovingly as you wipe his face with the utmost care, looking at your lips and thinking about kissing it but no. He may be drunk but he won’t do that to you.
“Go on a date with me,” he says while you continue to wipe his face and help him take off his hoodie. You giggle and boops his nose before you stand and help him to get on his feet, “try asking me again when you’re sober” you opened his room door and told him to don’t forget to change his pants and greet him good night.
But after a few minutes, you’re all tucked in bed and half asleep already when you feel a pair of arms cage you. You can still smell his breath and figured maybe Jaehyun is clingy like this whenever he’s really drunk, which rarely happens.
“It's so sweet, knowing that you love me. Though we don't need to say it to each other, sweet. Knowing that I love you, and running my fingers through your hair. It's so sweet” he sings a few lines from Sweet by Cigarettes After Sex and smells your hair until his breath tickles your nape.
Sweet. He’s not only clingy while he’s drunk, but he’s sweet too. “I think I like you more when you’re rarely this drunk” you turn your body and faced him. Seeing Jaehyun with sleepy eyes, lips curved in a weak smile, but arms conscious enough to keep you near him.
“Then I’ll get drunk every day if that makes you love me”
But on the next day, he just thanked you for taking care of him and forgot about the date. And on the next few days and following weeks, you hear him fuck different girls and have one night stands every now and then.
BACK TO PRESENT TIME SENIOR YEAR
“I keep on hurting you I’m sorry. Don’t cry, please. I hate that I’m hurting you. This is the reason why I can’t pursue my feelings for you. I’m a mess and I’m not ready”
And just as you thought that this day couldn’t get any worse. It just did. You look at Jaehyun as he tells you the truth and admits his true feelings with you. How he fell in love with you but chose not to pursue his feelings because he’s not ready and you deserve better. And from there you stopped listening to him and told him to leave you alone. Jaehyun was speechless and hopeless, he wanted to explain and express his long bottled feelings for you but you don’t want to.
All this time you thought that it’s you who’s lacking that’s why he can’t even try and ask you out. But now that you know the truth and he would rather make you feel small than swallow his pride and try to make things work with you, well you just can’t be around him anymore.
Graduation is approaching near and your dorm has been quiet ever since you finished paying the rent and Jaehyun got mad because of what you and Johnny did. You look at the quiet place while you eat your instant noodle and reminisce the good days you spent with the two giants who made your college years unforgettable and happy. Actually, they even made your life easier.
Days become even more lonely now that Jaehyun and Johnny became busy with their last requirements and you’ve been alone for a few days now. You wake up without the two boys, go to class or run some errands, they go home but you’re not home, and by the time you arrive home they have shifts to the radio station again.
Today is your birthday and you spend it with some of your classmates which are all sweet and you treat them to dinner. Johnny left a bouquet of flowers on your bed before he left for work, together with a sweet happy birthday card. And Jaehyun… well, let’s just say that maybe he forgot about it because being a graduating student makes you busy.
While you were having a nice dream of Jaehyun singing a happy birthday song to you with a small cupcake in his hand, in reality, he woke you up by patting your head and a kiss on your forehead, whispering ‘I’m sorry’ and kissing your face until you’re awake and what’s happening right now is finally registering in your mind. You wrapped your arms around him and decided to forgive him for being stupid and accept his apology. “Is this for me?” you point at the chocolate cake on the bedside drawer a blew the candle, making your room dark and only the soft light from your window lights up your room.
“What did you wish for” he came closer to you and rests his forehead on yours. Oh you missed his presence, but all you feel right now is the heartbreak and remember what happened a few weeks ago.
“You, Jaehyun” you whisper and closed your eyes, not caring if there are tears in your eyes. You’re not afraid to show him that you ache for him.
“I told you, I can’t-“ you didn’t want to hurt yourself further and listen to those hurtful words so you kissed him and pulled him on top of you.
Everything happened so fast and naturally. You removed your shorts, he was quick to spread your legs and free his hardening cock. Not even bothering to reach for a condom, he fucked you in the dark and whispered “I’m sorry” over and over again that it hurts your ear and your heart so you put your thumb in his mouth and let him suck it good while his thrust was slowly picking up the pace and you hear skin slapping surrounds your room
“Jaehyun-“ you moan his name when you felt that familiar feeling of being on edge but you’re not yet ready to let go. You’re not yet ready to let him go. So you tried with all your might to clench and stop yourself from cumming but what you’re doing to Jaehyun just makes him want to fuck you more.
And so he did.
He covered your mouth not because he didn’t want to let Johnny know that you’re fucking but because he never wants to hear your beautiful moans again. He closed his eyes so he could no longer see your face and dream about you underneath him, and with that, he continues to thrust so harshly that it’s hurting you so good and your grip on his shoulders will surely leave a mark.
Soon you failed and cum before Jaehyun could. You exchanged sharp exhales, gasps, and quiet grunts before he lies beside you and kiss you deeply the whole night. One last time.  
As expected, you woke up alone in your bed with a sore body. You stretched for a few minutes before you got out of bed and head outside to have breakfast. At first, you thought that you will be alone again today but turns out Johnny is free.
“Belated Happy birthday. Did you like the flowers I got you?” he greets you good morning and gave you a bear hug.
“I did. I put it in a vase, it’s in my room. Thank you” now that Johnny is here and you’re not alone eating breakfast, you can’t help but wish for Jaehyun to be here.
“Jaehyun is uhm… working. I can take you out today, let’s have dinner and celebrate your birthday again. What do you say?” he offers excitedly and even showed you a great restaurant from his phone.
When the evening comes and you and Johnny should be out by now but you were having a hard time to chose what to wear, Jaehyun arrived out of nowhere with a girl on his shoulders. Someone not familiar and they’re holding hands.
“I think your friends are going out on a date aren’t they babe?” the girl asks Jaehyun, like she's tying to get his attention but Jaehyun’s eyes are glued on you. Eyes that are very much sorry because he didn’t mean for you to see his new girlfriend after your birthday. So this is why Johnny was rushing you tonight. He didn’t want you to see Jaehyun with his new girlfriend because he knew it will hurt you greatly.
“Y/n-“ Jaehyun called you but you didn’t bother looking back and told Johnny that you’re ready now… even though your earrings don't match with your dress. If he can try and be in a relationship with someone else then what does that make you? Why can’t he try for you?
The night went on, carrying the lie that you’re okay but to be honest, you don’t want to go back to that fucking dorm. Good thing, Johnny was trying so hard to cheer you up and make you forget about what happened. Which is working and for that you’re thankful.
On the same night, you swore to yourself that you will never let Jaehyun into your life again and make you feel small. You will never throw yourself to him again, or even spare a glance and waste your time with the one and only guy whom you allowed to break your heart over and over again. But not anymore.
Jaehyun was nothing but sweet to you and that’s all he’ll ever be.
Five years later
When you came home from work, you caught your boyfriend cooking dinner with a glass of cold wine beside him. You greet him, “hey” and kissed him on the cheek before you wrap your arms around his strong built body.
“Tired? Hows work? I have big news” he says while stirring something from the pan. You told him he could tell the big news first because he looks excited, and so he did. With big smiles and overflowing excitement, he said that “Jaehyun is going to get married and I’m his best man!” you almost let out a laugh but you stopped yourself.
“Mhmm. Guess who’s taking care of the wedding....” you teased him. But just as you burst your boyfriend’s bubble, his reaction was quite unexpected.
“N-no, don’t tell me it’s you” he suddenly stopped cooking, he wasn’t mad. Just shocked at the moment and because of the big news.
“Johnny- Don’t tell me you’re being jealous right now...” you tease him further, “he’s like a college fling baby, and you’re the real deal!” you kiss him on the lips but he’s still sulking and went back to cooking.
“We both know it’s not just a fling” he whines.
“He’s getting married and we’re literally inseparable. What are you so jealous of? You know I saw Jaehyun looked at his fiancé and guess what,”
“What?” he turns off the stove and prepared two plates for dinner which you helped him do.
“He never looked at me that way, but you did” you see a shy smile on his face now and poke his cheek but he's quick to catch your hand and pull you into a hug. The kind of hug only Johnny can provide.
“Sorry, that was so childish of me”
“It’s okay. Dinner looks good, is this a new recipe?”
Soon after dinner, Johnny expresses his apology in bed in many ways he can, making you feel good and treating you right as always until it became too exhausting because you don’t think you could cum anymore after having your fourth…or fifth? To be honest you’re not sure anymore.
But even though you’re tired and exhausted, you still can’t help but reminisce. Throughout the years of forgetting Jaehyun, Johnny has always been patient with you and waited for you to heal from Jaehyun. Johnny brought you to the movies and went out with you while Jaehyun only promised. It's like Jaehyun kept promising you things but Johnny is the one keeping them.
“I thought you’re exhausted?” He kissed your shoulder to bring you back to Earth when he saw you spacing out. “Stop thinking. I’ll marry you too, you know that right?” oh you know that all too well, so you nod and kissed him. Whispered ‘i love yous’ over and over again, and thanked him for being the one for you. It was never easy for both of you, but still, you yearn for each other. Sometimes, love will point us to the wrong person so we could find the right person to us. Yes, Jaehyun was sweet, but Johnny is not only sweet in fact he showed his love to you since day 1.
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we are the kids from yesterday
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pairing: severus snape/reader
summary:   with your favourite holiday being halloween, you share that with your daughter and celebrate it in the many years to come
warnings: none that will strike too much attention but there is the following: 1. gilderoy lockheart being a sussy baka, 2. a little bit spicy ( making out ) but no smut is taken into action, 3. teasing and believe me there's quite a bit of it, 4. reader probably has a praise kink ( if you squint )
rating: general audiences  ( hints of mature themes but nothing heavy )
word count:   6588
author’s note: the title’s namesake is lyrics from the song the kids from yesterday by my chemical romance ( another emo title for a repressed emo )
i took the time to make a reference for sapphire snape which can be found below !!  so now you can go back and actually visualize our beloved sapphire :D
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author’s note: ok...wow, where do i even begin ???? this project will always hold a special place in my heart and i will genuinely never forget the journey i have come on with this. the clocks changed here in the uk, and i somehow woke up at 6am and told myself, i WILL finish snapetober today. and here we are !! after 31 days of writing, late nights, early morning last minute write up, a lot of tears, a lot of me talking to myself in the mirror like a blithering idiot, this is finally done !! its over, and im quite sappy about it but looking at the complete book of oneshots i've made,,,makes be unbelievable happy. i sobbed finishing this oneshot up and i am still crying now SHDHSHJF,, i literally cannot believe snapetober is over and i finished this book !!
my deepest thanks go to all of you, thank you all so much. whether you're a new reader, or whether you've been here since the beginning, i thank you all for reading my snapetober oneshots. it means so much that you all get to read my writing :'] this is most certainly not the end and i do hope you all stick around for more of my writing. again, thank you all so much for reading my snapetober oneshot book 🥺🥰💖 i hope you all have a wonderful day
this oneshot can also be found on archive of our own.
i hope you enjoy reading, comments and feedback is much appreciated
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꒱࿐♡ ˚.*ೃ꒱࿐♡ ˚.*ೃ꒱࿐♡ ˚.*ೃ꒱࿐♡ ˚.*ೃ
you were asleep in the bed you shared, stirring awake as you looked at the scene that unfolded before you.
you looked at the cot, your daughter sleeping deeply and then to your left you saw your husband.
you sat up and pecked kisses all over his jaw and his cheek, which slowly and surely woke him up.
“good morning my love.” you said.
“morning y/n.”
you both shared a morning kiss, you shifted slightly so that now you were on top of him, resting your head on his chest perking up here and there.
“did you sleep well my love?” you asked, severus nodded which brought a smile to your face.
you placed kisses all over his face and placed a small kiss to his nose.
“what on earth are you doing my dear?” he asked.
“just showing you how much i love every part of you sweetheart.” you answered.
severus didn’t argue, he let you do so. in fact it warmed his heart that you loved him this much.
your chin laid on his chest as you played around with his hair, letting it fall into your grasp. in the moments where you got some peace and quiet, you were both very close in each other’s touch, in a comfortable and poignant silence as you both held each other.
“you’re so beautiful y/n, my little kitten.” he said.
“kitten huh? you haven’t called me that one in a while.” you perked up.
“it simply rolls off the tongue so well, especially with you.” he admitted.
you giggled as you brought your hands to his cheeks.
“so you want to play this game hm? i’ll admit to you, you’re so amazing. juggling so much in just one day, i couldn’t be more proud of you.” severus said.
you giggled and your smile grew bigger.
“you’re such a good girl…hm?” he teased.
you sunk into severus’ hair, hiding away your thoughts.
severus’ fingers laid on your chin bringing them up so you both looked into each other’s eyes.
“what are you thinking of my dear?” he asked.
“you…”
“you’re always thinking of me.”
“i always will.”
you both shared a kiss, more deeper than the last one. you both heard sapphire making noises in her sleep, you both turned to her as your intimate moment was undoubtedly cut short.
“time to get back to our duties.” you said, pouting slightly as you wished for this moment to last.
you got off of severus’ body, getting out some clothes from your wardrobe. you had to go to hogwarts today, you were a visiting teacher at hogwarts. with the new roles of mum and dad obviously being handed to you by life, you split severus’ very stressful and chaotic work schedule between the two of you.
today you had to go into hogwarts, you wanted it to be the weekend everyday but unfortunately you couldn’t control time and you had a job to do.
you put on your work clothes, grabbing a hold of severus’ cloak and wrapping it over your body.
every time you put that cloak you always found yourself to be the most confident woman on earth.
“you know what that means don’t you?” you asked.
“i’ll be home with sapphire.” your husband answered.
“you’ll be fine with her right?”
“of course my love, i’ll call for a patronus if anything goes wrong.”
“you know what time to give her, her bottle right?”
“of course.”
severus left you to get yourself ready, he went to your bedroom who picked up sapphire who was wide awake by this point, giggling when she was in her dad’s arms.
the fact that severus knew what the routine was, put you at ease. you grabbed a hold of your bag and adjusting the cloak.
“right then, i’ll be off…have fun with her alright.” you said.
“i will my dear, have a good day. i love you.” he left a kiss to your head and you returned the affection back to him.
“i will…i love you too.” you said before leaving and apparating to hogwarts.
“be a good girl for daddy.” you said to your baby daughter as your kissed her head and left the home
severus looked up at the clock, it was almost eight.
he heard sapphires cries which deafened the whole house. severus had calmed her down, rocking her up and down gently.
he whispered little affirmations to her that calmed her down and left her babbling and giggling.
“come on sapphy, lets get you some breakfast.”
severus put out the baby food on the table and fed sapphire who had been slowly obeying her father and eating her food.
once breakfast was over and down with, he held sapphire in his arms and closed the kitchen door, now he was in the living and he put sapphire down and he sat down at the nearest arm chair.
he watched sapphire crawl around on the floor, soon her attention was grabbed by the fluffy teddy bear within arms reach. she had been waving it around for quite a whole and biting on the stuffed toy for a bit. severus looked down at his daughter with the toy in her mouth.
“now now sapphy, you shouldn’t have that in your mouth.” severus said softly, gently taking the teddy bear out of its misery and putting it on the window sill. he then sat back down and got back to reading his copy of the daily prophet.
but the reading was cut short as he looked at sapphire who was trying to stand up on her own and then her fingers reached up to the daily prophet.
“what is it sapphire?” he asked. sapphire had been babbling for a bit, he then smiled and put the newspaper down.
he went to the ground and helped his daughter try to stand on her own two feet. for a baby, sapphire was shockingly clever, being able to stand on her own for at least a few seconds before falling to the ground again. but luckily for sapphire, she never fell. her father was always there.
“keep still for daddy. there we go.” severus eventually let go of her hands,  sapphire squealed excitedly before almost stumbling forward but luckily severus caught her just in time.
sapphire giggled loudly as she looked up at her father’s face of relief. “you scared me there princess.” he chuckled when he saw her smile.
severus kissed the top of her head, lifting her to her playroom where she had the freedom to do whatever she pleased. severus looked around the room, a smile laid to his face as he looked at the toys that laid all over the place.
sapphire crawled to the huge fluffy swan that was in the corner of the room. she tried to slowly stand up without her father’s help but babbled when she found herself struggling, severus rushed to her and helped her up, soon she found herself flopping onto the fluffy swan.
the swan happened to be your patronus, so seeing sapphire so attached to his melted his heart. severus knew that sapphire’s patronus would be just like her mother and father’s.
sapphire went back on all 4’s and crawled away from her father.
“sapphire! princess come back.”
sapphire was trying to crawl away from her father but he slowly caught up to her and then begun to chase after her as slowly as she could.
“got you princess.”
severus caught onto her ankle and sapphire squealed, her hands on severus’ chest as she giggled away. sapphire’s laughter was all severus could hear, it warmed his heart that this was what he would wake up to on most days.
as time passed, severus managed to feed her once more. giving her the bottle of milk at your request.
once sapphire was well fed, it had been another round of playtime to which severus decided to play hide and seek. he had been so focused on his daughter, he didn’t hear you sneaking right into the home.
“sapphy, where are you princess?”
you heard your husband’s voice, he was trying to hold back his laughs. you leaned on the doorframe, watching your husband become so gentle around sapphire.
severus found his beloved daughter and attacked her with tickles until she had no giggles left in her.
“well looks like you’re having lots of fun.” you said, approaching your favourite people. severus’ brows furrowed and his cheeks became flushed, like he was caught doing something.
“welcome back my dear.” he pecked your lips and you took sapphire from his grasp.
“looks like you’re daddy’s little princess huh?” you cooed at your daughter, kissing her cheek and sapphire soon fell into another giggle.
“she’s a mummy’s girl, she was crying for you earlier.” he said.
“aww sapphy, mummy and daddy’s always here for you.” you cooed to the girl again.
“m-mamma.”
you both looked at each other in absolute disbelief.
were you hearing that correctly?
“sapphire, where’s mummy?”
sapphire’s hands were now on your face.
“mamma, mamma.”
you bursted into fits of giggles.
“what did i just tell you?” severus said, you both knew that sapphire will get round to recognizing her father soon, and that would be very quick.
“her first words, sev! can you believe you’ve just heard her first words?” you said.
severus was still in shock that he got to witness such a precious moment.
“she’ll find daddy soon, isn’t that right princess?” you said. sapphire only giggled.
you looked up at severus with a warm smile, and severus smiled back. kissing the top of your head, all three of you were on the floor as you were both in utter bliss that this was your daughter.
like you said, she was going to make the both of you very proud.
꒱࿐♡ ˚.*ೃ
“mummy mummy, look what i made!”
you had been downstairs in the potions lab you had finished making batches of calming draughts and you had done so for quite a while. so seeing your daughter sapphire made you a little bit too aware of how much time had gone past.
“sapphy sweetie, hello! why don’t we go upstairs eh?” you suggested, sapphire obeyed as she watched you clean up the potions lab, she was in such awe over how quick you managed to clean the room up.
“i’m sure daddy will teach you that soon!” you said, you grabbed a hold of her hand you went upstairs and sat her down on the sofa.
“sapphire, remember what did we say earlier?” you asked.
“not to go to the potions room.” she answered, letting out a small pout.
“good girl, you’re still very tiny and anything can happen in there and we don’t want you…to turn into a mouse!” you said tickling her sides as she then let out a squeal of laughter.
“mummy!” she squealed. you both laughed away, you were right though. you didn’t want anything to happen if she had gone into the potions lab without yours or severus’ permission.
“now what is it you’d like to show me?” you asked, sapphire unravelled her piece of paper. what was before you was a plan of the living room.
“its almost halloween, can we paint the house?” she asked, you couldn’t help but let out a giggle.
“well we can’t paint the whole room orange, though i will admit the house does need a little retouching.” you said.
“although i do have a better idea, come with me.” you said, gesturing your daughter to follow you.
you went to the cupboard under the stairs and turned to the room opposite the potions lab, you picked up a box and you opened it in front of  sapphire. she picked up the decorations and smiled.
“yes! yes! mummy these are perfect!” the 9 year old happily replied, you did nothing but watch her get excited over these decorations.
“come on, lets go put them up. we can surprise daddy with it!” you offered, and sapphire nodded.
you helped her put up the decorations in the living room, you had put on some muggle music to help her get into the halloween spirits. she giggled and started doing little bops here and there.
it wasn’t rare of you or severus that you also made her accustomed to the muggle life. since you and him were both half-bloods, you both had a duty to cherish and protect her from all sorts of harm from the wizarding world the muggle world.
“mummy, what’s daddy’s favourite song?” sapphire asked as she was putting miniature bats all over the house.
you knew this answer, and it made you smile even more knowing how intrigued she was.
“well…daddy’s favourite song is also my favourite song too, would you like to hear it?” you asked.
“yes yes yes mummy!” she nodded and that prompted you to go to the music player and put the song on.
“loneliness is the cloak you wear, a deep shade of blue is always there…” sapphire looked over to the music player.
“that’s daddy’s voice!”
“the sun ain't gonna shine anymore, the moon ain't gonna rise in the sky. the tears are always clouding your eyes, when you're without love, baby.” then she heard both of your voices together.
“mummy that’s you!” she giggled.
you and severus always wanted to share that song with sapphire, you obviously beat him to it. but to make it even more special, you and your husband made a special recording for sapphire so that it would always make her happy, and would cheer her up at her lowest points.
“the sun ain't gonna shine anymore, the moon ain't gonna rise in the sky. the tears are always clouding your eyes, when you're without love!” you both sang as you fell to the sofa taking in your now newly decorated living room giggling away. and as if by chance, severus had arrived back home.
“daddy!” sapphire squealed jumping into her father’s arms.
you smiled warmly at your husband who had gotten back from hogwarts.
“i see you decorated without me…you both wound me my girls.” he dramatically pressed his hands to his chest and the both of you giggled away.
“welcome home sev.” you said pressing a kiss to his cheek.
“you showed her the song.” he picked up that the recording of you and him singing was playing around the house.
“looks like i beat you to it sevvy.” you giggled kissing him again, both your attention turned to your daughter who had been begging for a little halloween party.
to which neither of you couldn’t say no.
“daddy, you’re supposed to be something for halloween.” she said.
“what’s wrong with my costume sapphire?” he asked raising a funny little brow at her.
“its very you.” she quipped.
“well…i am very scary.” severus admitted.
“no you’re not.”
“yes i am, but you my sweetheart don’t see it.” he admitted.
you quickly got changed into a quick costume. you slid down the banisters of the stairs and showed your little family the costume you had.
“mummy’s a princess!” sapphire said.
“yes she is, she’s my little princess.” severus said, sapphire hadn’t picked up the fact he was teasing her mother.
your cheeks heated up, giggling and hiding your flustered state in his hair. severus hugged you from the side as he looked down at his daughter and hugged her too.
it wasn’t a party party so to speak, but it was something that made sapphire happy. you and sapphire both danced away whilst spooky music was playing in the background. severus watched the scenes unfold and he couldn’t help but join in.
even if he did have two left feet.
sapphire giggled at what looked like severus’ little jig, severus lips curled into what looked like a smile. you smiled at your husband who looked like he was having a good time.
after what seemed like hours, sapphire had been exhausted and fell asleep on the sofa. she was laid on your lap as you and severus both decided to flick on a movie to watch together.
“i’ll take her to bed.” you said as you carried your tired 8 year old to her bedroom. you tucked her into bed and kissed the top of her head.
“sweet dreams my love, we’ll see you in the morning sapphire.” you whispered before putting one of her teddy bears beside her before you turned on the night light and closed the door on her.
“did you turn on the night light?” severus asked.
“yep.”
you both inevitably relaxed on the sofa, you put on a fantasy adventure movie. your preferences were no doubt completely in sync with one another.
you beamed when the title screen had come on, you were watching robin hood: prince of thieves with him.
bizarrely, severus actually liked this movie. it was the first muggle movie that he had watched with you, he was completely hooked onto it with some of the dialogues from the script still stuck in his head and the ongoing debate that severus must have been an actor in a past life.
“locksley! i’m gonna cut your heart out with a spoon!” you both recited alongside the movie, falling into laughter.
“see look, the sheriff on nottingham is basically you. its so uncanny.” you said getting up and pointing to the screen.
“darling i’m telling you there is no way i could be him.”
“you look like him.”
“no i don’t.”
“yes you do.”
“no i don’t.”
“yes you do.”
“no i don’t.”
“yes you do.”
“no i don’t.”
“yes you do.”
“no i don’t.”
“yes you do.”
you bickered a little on this topic for more than 10 minutes before eventually you continued to watch the movie
“why a spoon, cousin? why not an axe?”
“because it's dull, you twit! it'll hurt more!”
you both recited again wholeheartedly. you couldn’t help but let yourself relax in severus’ arms as you watched the movie go into absolute chaos.
when the movie ended, you lazed around on the sofa as severus held you in his arms. he looked around the house for a moment, drawings that sapphire had done were all over the walls as the halloween decorations accompanied it alongside. it was a pleasant sight for him to always come back to.
“you know y/n, you are a wonderful mother…and i’m so proud of you.” severus said, kissing the top of your head as you then looked up to him and smiled.
“you’re a wonderful dad.” you replied.
you sat up slowly and kissed him softly, as you both pulled away from the kiss as the house fell into a comfortable silence.
“she’s gonna make us proud that one.” severus said.
“oh just you wait till she comes to hogwarts.” you said, winking at him as both shared a few laughs and kissed each other once more.
“i love you severus.”
“i love you too y/n.”
꒱࿐♡ ˚.*ೃ
new things had been happening for the snape family. you would be starting out as the new muggle art teacher, severus was back in potions and had applied to also become the defence the dark arts teacher but again, failed at the hands of gilderoy lockheart.
but aside from that, your daughter sapphire tatiana snape was starting hogwarts. you couldn’t have been more happier.
but you knew that sapphire would face a few hardships here and there, you reassured her that if anything were to happen to her, you instructed her to come to you or your father and they would help her till the very end.
“sapphire go to the front here, i’ll be at the table with your dad okay.” you said.
sapphire nodded and stood at the very front. you went to the front table and saw the new defence against the dark arts teacher.
“oh hellooo there, we have a new flower blossoming here…” gilderoy approached you.
“gilderoy…” his name left great disgust in your tone.
“ah she knows my name. and who might you be?”
“y/n, y/n-”
“snape.” you turned to see your husband, who just so happened to finish the sentence.
“y/n snape.”
gilderoy gulped slightly, looking at the couple.
“shouldn’t you be in dumbledore’s office signing your entire life away to hogwarts?” you quipped.
“very well…i should be going, nice to see you both.” gilderoy choked out before walking away.
you looked up at your husband and let out a giggle.
“what a blithering idiot.” you muttered.
“he won’t last two seconds here.” severus said.
“does anyone in the d.a.d.a post ever last more than 2 seconds?” you said.
you both giggled to yourselves as you both made your way to the front, looking at the great hall filled with kids.
as the new 1st years got assigned to their houses, you both eyed sapphire who had been fiddling with her jumper. anxious to see what her predicament would be.
“sapphire snape.” minerva called.
you stepped forward, your fellow 1st years muttering things about the girl. they hadn’t a clue who she was and what her goals were but it made them ever curious.
“slytherin!” the sorting hat called without any hesitancy.
the students in the slytherin table cheered and applauded. even you and severus stood up and clapped for your daughter who had been greeted and congratulated by the many students surrounding her.
you both looked at your daughter who happened to wave at you, you and severus waved back with pride.
she was going to be a great addition to slytherin and the pair of you knew that anyone who hurt her would eventually have to deal with them.
with both her mother and father teaching at hogwarts, sapphire snape was the unstoppable girl.
she would not be beaten.
sapphire looked over to her mum and dad who were just about to head out to their own classrooms.
“mum, dad! wait up!” she called, you and severus both turned around and saw their daughter approaching them.
you perked a smile and let her join you. some of the students in the other houses were in absolute disbelief that severus snape had a family.
severus snape…the potions professor…had a life?
to them that was uncalled for.
“who was that getting all weird with mum?” she asked.
“that is unfortunately your new defence against eh dark arts teacher…gilderoy lockheart.” you sighed, severus didn’t even bother saying his name considering he literally took the job he wanted.
“he was getting all cozy with you mum.” she muttered.
severus only chuckled at the worry his daughter had. she was most definitely a mummy’s girl.
always have been.
“don’t worry sapph, your father here took care of it.”
“you stood there and it was enough to make him run away.”
“i told you, i’m the scariest thing there is.”
you and sapphire giggled, ruffling her hair and accompanying her to the dorms.
“are you sure you’ll be fine here?” you asked.
“yes…maybe…” her expressions soon turned little as she begun to worry about the year ahead.
“come, lets go to dad’s class. he’ll make you the best lemon tea there is!” you offered.
that was enough to put a smile on sapphire’s face, the three of you went to the classroom and there severus was, brewing a lemon tea for his favourite people in the world. severus was never one to pick favourites in his life but of course, if you or sapphire were mentioned he would pick the both of you in a heartbeat.
“now what’s on your mind sapph?” you asked, both you and severus paid very close attention to your daughter who had been very anxious about hogwarts.
sapphire explained that she was worried about being lonely, that she wouldn’t have any friends at hogwarts, considering she saw groups of first years who had known each other before, perhaps from a muggle primary school. she was worried that people would pick on her because she was a snape and that people would hurt her much like her father had been hurt.
it was a mixture of 1st year blues alongside new worries that kept the poor girl awake at night. you’d often remembered in the days counting, she wouldn’t be able to sleep in her own bed, sleeping on the sofa out of nerves.
“sapphire you will have a good time here at hogwarts, trust us. we’ve both been here…well i don’t know the school just as well like your father but, this is all very new to me too. if you have any problem here, come to me or your father.” you reassured her, as you both sipped your tea you looked over to severus wondering if he had any advice in him.
“your friends will come to you soon, whether it be a day, a week a month…maybe even two years. i can assure you sapphire that you will never be alone. you have us, and obviously you’ll be on your own for some time and that is all in good time.” severus said.
“you’re sapphire snape. you’re gonna do the unstoppable, the unthinkable but you’ll make me and your father proud.” you comforted your daughter who had now been smiling over the advice her parents gave her.
slowly accepting it into her own.
“thanks mum, thanks dad. you’re the best!” she said, her smile didn’t leave her face.
“come now, let us accompany you to the slytherin dorms."
when you left her in the common room with her fellow house mates, you looked over to some of the students who  had shot glares at the couple before they both walked off.
as time slowly progressed sapphire looked like she was settling well at hogwarts, she accepted the fact that most of her time was spent alone, but that was completely fine. it showed her focus and dedication to her studies. she answered every question that every teacher asked her and that garnered her house more points than ever.
but today had been pretty bad for the girl, she was unfortunately made crash dummy of the day for the pathetic defence against the dark arts teacher.
whilst everyone had been swooning and falling head over eels for him, you held a grudge. you weren’t going to forgive him for attempting to flirt at your mother.
you and severus had already been in the call for quite a bit so seeing sapphire’s uniform completely ruined shocked you and severus.
“can i please scream…can i please scream?” sapphire asked.
you grabbed your wand and put silencing charms all over the room.
“be our guest.” you said.
sapphire had let out screams of complete stress, to which severus actually covered his ears.
after a few more screams, you noticed that by this point she was going to damage her voice, you shot a look to severus that instantly made him get up and get his daughter a calming draught.
“sapphy honey! that’s enough” you said comfirting your daughter as she let out a few pants after her screams.
“that felt good.” was all she said.
“sapphire you’ll damage your voice if you keep screaming this viscerally.” you said.
“here…” severus offered her the calming draught which sapphire cautiously took sips from.
“was it lockheart?” severus asked.
sapphire nodded.
“and he unleashed a hippogriff into the classroom and of course i had to be professor lockheart’s crash dummy.” sapphire said, with such detest in her voice.
severus waved his wand and now your uniform was instantly back to normal.
“thanks dad.” she said.
“there’s going to be a halloween ball soon, are you going to join?” sapphire asked her parents.
“i’ll be there, your father on the other hand probably won’t be there out of second hand embarrassment.” you teased, to which you were greeted with a book being playfully whacked against your head.
“relax i’m kidding!” you giggled.
“eitherway, staff and students alike have to be there plus your father can’t resist taking house points for any prank he sees fit.” you added.
“dad won’t take any house points from me right?” sapphire couldn’t help but ask.
“we would never do such a thing to you, and beside you impress us more and more each day.” severus said, pressing a kiss to his daughter’s forehead.
“oh oh i have to go, i promised to help professor flitwick today!” sapphire quipped, she hugged you and hugged severus, both as tightly as she could before waving goodbye to her parents.
“she’s doing so well here.” you said.
“sapphire has no doubt learnt from the best.” severus admitted.
you only smiled up at him and pressed a soft kiss to his lips, to which he obviously couldn’t resist.
“oh y/n…you’ve been such a bad girl.” he mumbled.
“have i really been a bad bad girl?” you teased.
“teasing your professor is something you can’t get away with.” he held back a smirk as he looked into your eyes for a moment.
“we’re both professors you idiot.” you joked.
those were the last things you said before he pulled you into a deep kiss, your lips colliding with his as the scent of parchment paper lingered all over the classroom.
you pulled away when you weren’t able to cath your breath, “you have a class soon.” you reminded him.
“class can wait…it looks as if i need to teach my favourite student…a lesson.” he admitted deeply.
“favourite student huh? i’d never thought you’d be this…scandalous.” you teased.
severus then took you into his stores and closed the door, he pinned you to it as he placed several kisses all over your lips, he then found himself leaving love bites all over your neck as you let out a soft moan.
that was pleasing to the ears.
his hands felt at your waist as you wrapped you arms around him and you let him leave love marks on your shoulder. you tilted his face to meet yours. your lips made his way to his neck, leaving a mark on there.
you both shared one last kiss. making it as tender and passionate as possible, before pulling away
“such a good girl…” he murmured.
your cheeks heated up as you perked a shy smile. “you’ve been so good my love.” he whispered again.
“i guess i’ll be returning the favour soon sev.” you smirked.
“i’ll see you at the halloween ball then…professor.” you winked as you let out a giggle and walked out, making your way to your classroom.
severus watched you go, severus’ eyes had been filled with love, such desire. the fact that he was loved, only made his heart warm. you were the reason he married you, your personality was what made him thrive. and it warmed his heart at how kind you were, to the people around you, to your little family.
that was the life he lead.
꒱࿐♡ ˚.*ೃ
when the day of the halloween ball arrived, you helped sapphire get into her ballgown.
“do you wanna show dad?” you asked, sapphire nodded going outside and there her father stood. in his usual attire but inside, he was beaming.
his daughter made the whole world shine, “sapphire you look lovely.” he said kissing her head.
sapphire did a little spin and smiled at her mum and dad who couldn’t have been more proud.
you all entered as a family which deserved some looks here and there.
“your father and i going to patrol the event okay, you’ll be fine right?” you asked.
“i think so.” she nodded.
“right…have fun okay.” you said, letting her go into the crowd.
the patrol had been as usual, severus took house points for any misbehaviour, you were there to comfort and have casual chats with the students and staff.
severus looked over to his daughter who looked as if she was looking out for someone.
as the hour passed, sapphire looked sad. and alone, she looked to her parents who had been dancing together, no doubt she was happy but this year was solidified.
she was going to be alone.
sapphire walked out which sparked the attention of you and your husband, as you searched for sapphire you knew where she would be…the astronomy tower.
you both knew that students couldn’t be up there, how she managed to get in was besides the point, your daughter was sad and you both had to comfort her.
she cried as you both hugged her lovingly, reassuring her that everything will be okay.
severus looked over to you, it looked like he had a trick up his sleeve, you grabbed your wand and both waved your wands around the astronomy tower, which was decorated in the same halloween decorations she was familiar with when she was younger.
“you…still have them?” sapphire sniffled.
“you know your mother by now.” severus said.
“we can have our own halloween ball…right here.” you said. sapphire smiled at that idea. you put on the music player and what was always playing was the family’s favourite song.
“the sun ain't gonna shine anymore.”
“the sun ain’t gonna shine anymore.”
“the moon ain't gonna rise in the sky.”
“the moon ain't gonna rise in the sky.”
“the tears are always clouding your eyes.”
“when you're without love!”
the three of you danced to that song, singing the lyrics back and forth to one another and you both fell to the floor. nothing but laughter and happiness radiated from this little family.
you and severus wouldn’t have wanted it any other way.
you would do anything to make your daughter happy.
severus would do anything to make his wife and daughter happy.
and that was something he swore to do.
꒱࿐♡ ˚.*ೃ
“didn’t think you two would go off to the halloween ball without me huh?”
you both turned back and saw your daughter in that beautiful dress.
now she was in her fifth year, almost all grown up. she looked over to her mother and father, your smile still lingering as you both let her join in with you on your walk to the great hall.
“you look absolutely lovely saph.” severus said.
“why thank you dad…you too don’t look so bad for someone who wears the same 3 cloaks over and over again.” sapphire said.
you giggled at how playful your daughter was.
“so saph, i hear you have a partner for this dance…is that correct?” you asked, severus shot a look at his daughter.
“relax dad, we’re not like that…we’re just friends.”
“that’s what they always say, next hour she’ll come to me with a ring on her finger.”
“dad!” sapphire giggled.
“oh look there he is now!” she beamed going over to what seemed to be the lucky boy.
cedric diggory.
“a slytherin and a hufflepuff. that’s something you don’t see everyday.” you said, nudging his arm a little.
“mum dad, i assume you know who he is.” sapphire said, bring cedric in front of you both.
“cedric diggory, your reputation proceeds you.” severus said.
“likewise professor snape, professor l/n…snape? i take it.” cedric said, confused at what to call you.
“oh call me professor l/n snape. i merged the two names together so that nobody would get confused. its nice to meet you cedric.” you said, shaking his hand.
“cedric’s partner couldn’t make it so he asked me and i obviously said yes.” sapphire smiled.
“she’s quite lovely for a slytherin.” cedric admitted.
“oh you, hush or we’ll miss out on the pumpkin canapes.” sapphire said, playfully punching his shoulder.
you and your husband couldn’t help but giggle at the two. their daughter really hadn’t changed and you couldn’t help but smile at her growth.
“go on, have fun okay…oh and sapph, meet us at the astronomy tower when you’re done.” you said.
“will do mum, don’t have too much fun without me.” she said, waving to her parents before being ushered away by cedric to participate in the dance.
you looked over to severus, who looked out for his daughter with for once, a smile to his.
“are you crying?”
severus looked over to you and wiped away the very obvious tears that ran down his face.
“no i wasn’t.”
“yes you were.”
“no i wasn’t.”
“yes you were.”
“no i wasn’t.”
“yes you were.”
“no i wasn’t.”
“yes you were.”
“you were crying sevvy, admit it.” you giggled which was then replied with a simple roll of the eyes from severus.
“that’s our daughter right there.” you said.
“she’s grown up so fast.” severus replied.
“are you proud of her?” you asked.
“i’ll always will be.” he said.
“and do you know what y/n…i’m proud of you.” severus said pressing his lips to yours lovingly.
you smiled and hugged your husband as you oversaw the scene at hand. but before you could get intimate with one another, you heard a bang nearby. you looked over to your daughter who pointed at the situation at hand, both of you relieved that she wasn’t apart of it.
“50 points from gryffindor.” severus bluntly said.
that was greeted by groans and mutters from the gryffindor students.
that aside, you looked over to your daughter who looked like she was having a good time.
when the ball was over, sapphire bade her goodbyes to cedric. leaving to go to the astronomy tower, “mum what was it you wanted?” she called.
sapphire looked over at the scene that unravelled, a dinner table and around them.
the halloween decorations.
the same ones.
she never got old of them.
“mum, dad…i love it.” she beamed.
“come along saph.” severus said, ushering her to join.
with no hesitation sapphire joined them. the three had a halloween dinner fit for a royal family.
you and severus told sapphire stories from the early stages of their relationship, whilst sapphire spoke of the ball, how divine hogwarts looked and whilst she picked up only a few friends along the way, nothing could compare to the love she had for her family.
the night was concluded when the three of you decided to do some stargazing, looking up at all the constellations.
sapphire was in complete awe of the sky, how beautiful it was. she looked over to you and severus who had been sat on the balcony.
“i’m so proud of you y/n…my love.” severus said.
“i’m more proud of you, severus.”
you both shared a soft kiss, which was interrupted by your daughter who said, “still here… don’t think you’ve forgotten me yet.”
you and severus only laughed, shifting up a little so your daughter could join you.
“soon it will be another day at hogwarts.” sapphire said.
“it’s never another day sapphy, you have us.” you assured her.
“i know…i just don’t want this to end.” she said.
“your adventures will never end sapphire. and we will be here for you every step of the way.” severus said, pressing a kiss to sapphire’s forehead. she looked up at her father with a smile.
sapphire embraced her mother and father, looking up at the night sky.
“we’re the snapes. our adventures will never end.” you said.
“mum…dad, you’ll still be here right?”
“always sapphire.” severus said.
“always? i like that word.” your daughter said.
smiles were left on you and severus as you all took the scenery in.
“i love you all.”
“we love you too sapphire."
the snapes, the family filled with laughter and love.
everyday was another adventure with your husband, with your daughter.
you didn’t want this to end either.
their motto they stuck by…
always.
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title: out of my mind (part 9 / final chapter)
characters: baji x reader, toman peeps 🤍
prompt: you don’t know if you should tell baji you like him because is he even interested in other people?
summary: here's what baji did after what happened between the two of you on the rooftop!
a/n: hello everyone! before uni officially tie me to its depths I give you the last part of this series! this is a bit longer than the rest! I kinda want to split it into two parts but I guess this is better :) AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SUPPORTING ME ALL THE WAY <33 I would not be able to write this much without your support! I appreciate all your kind words, your likes, and reblogs! It makes me very very happy that I can give out some content that you guys enjoy! I hope that you would love this one! I really really poured out my heart into this and I've thought and mapped this out again and again before I publish this final version. have fun reading lovelies! ily all <3
Series list: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8
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You wiped your hands off your handkerchief and folded the damp side in, before having a last look on your reddened-face in the mirror. Slowly, you search for your phone that's kept inside the right pocket of your cardigan.
Pres: Hey y/n! Think you can pick up the pamphlets and flyers we’ve pre-ordered for the festival? They’re ready for pick up, the store manager just messaged me.
Y/n: Oh yeah sure! Just message me the location. I’ll be there!
And just like that, you had the excuse to have a time alone. You can finally put down the facade of being okay on the outside. Hopefully you can recuperate this time.
Lucky. You thought.
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“Baji-san! Where are you going?” Chifuyu shouts as he asks the captain who instinctively stood up and came marching towards the door.
“Ya said it didn’t you? Ya asked me if I knew what went wrong, and I know exactly what did went wrong,” Baji said, not stopping on his tracks as he fishes out for his phone in his pocket.
“Yeah and?” the exhausted blonde asks between breaths, continuing to follow Baji’s brisk walking.
“And I’m going to fix it,” Baji says with eyes full of intent, only taking a halt to look at his vice-captain one last time before running towards the stairs to the 4th floor.
He couldn’t miss this chance again.
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Just as when you were about to leave the front building of your school, you saw that the sky is getting dimmer. Good thing you’ve always kept an umbrella inside your locker.
Y/n: Kennyyyy, please tell Mikey I’m going out right now to pickup the pamphlets and flyers for the festival. I also texted him but you know he doesn’t check his phone so often. Please wait for me at school before going home!! <33
🐉 Ken: Wait for us. We’ll go with u.
Y/n: Don’t bother! Am already out! And I think it will be just a few piles of paper!
🐉 Ken: Take my bike. Or Mikey’s.
Y/n: It’s alright! I’ll just take the bus to and fro!! It’s not that far :))
🐉 Ken: Okay if you say so. Update us ‘kay?
Y/n: Will do! I’ll be just around the 3rd district! See ya later! 💛
You took the bus going to the 3rd district to pick up some of the promo materials for the festival just as instructed. It shouldn’t have been a difficult task —no. You’re just supposed to ride a bus, get the goods, hop back on the bus and finish your duties for that day.
But the afternoon sky says different.
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“What'dya mean she’s not here?!” A frustrated Baji slams the council table upon learning that you are in fact not in there.
Fuck. Did I lose her again?
“Um, well,” one of the trembling council members try to reply to an obviously infuriated student.
“Well, she’s on duty right now for festival prep an—,” Baji cuts off the officer.
“Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I know,” he rakes his fingers through his hair.
“Then where the fuck is she?!” He says, desperate and frustrated at himself.
“She went out to fetch the promo materials by the third district for—,” Baji didn’t even let the officer finish, he just immediately thanked her and left the room without another word.
Once again, he took out his phone and dialed a number.
Hello Mikey?
Yeah. It’s Baji.
Oh what’s up Baji?
"Baji huh? What’s he up to?" Draken says from the other line.
Oh good Draken’s there.
Yeah, Ken-chin’s with me. You need anything?
Yeah. I need help.
Ya know where y/n is? Council said she went to the 3rd district for some festival duty shit.
Oh I don’t know she did. Hold on.
"Ken-chiinnnn, you know where y/n is? Baji’s looking for her," Mikey shouts over at Draken
"Yeah, yeah, hand me the phone"
Hey Baji, y/n went to the 3rd district for some council duties.
Yeah, yeah but do you know where?
She didn’t tell me. She said it’ll be just some quick work and she’ll be back right after. Call her if you want. Or wait here, she said she’ll join us after her duties.
Ah fuck. A’right, a’right. Thanks Draken.
But deep inside he knows full well that this can’t wait.
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The bus ride to the 3rd district only takes up about 20 minutes. You’ve been there waaaay too many times to know just how long it should take for you to get there. However when light rain started to pour, the road got wet and slippery and so all vehicles must reduce their speed.
3:14 pm — classes will end in a while, but a lot will probably stay for festival preparation.
You checked your phone to see if any new messages came in, and you saw the president’s instructions about the location of the shop.
“Huh, this shouldn’t be too hard to find,” you said to yourself and proceeded to plug in tour earphones and played some music.
The rain might take a while, and your ride must be longer this time. You didn’t mind though, you needed to take off some time anyway.
As far away from him as possible.
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3:27 pm — just a few minutes and the bell will ring any time soon to signal dismissal.
Baji keeps on shifting on his feet, and tapping them on the floor as he sits in front of his locker, back against the cold metal, ready to storm off the place and chase after you.
As soon as the bell rings, he immediately walked through the building exit and didn’t mind the drizzle on his head.
With with hands combing his hair, and teeth clenching on his hair tie, he wasted no time running to the bus stop.
He knows that the bus station is just 2 blocks away from the school, he can make it dry enough to catch the earliest bus possible, right?
Wrong.
Water droplets start to stream in the ponytail he’s tied before. The rain is going on stronger and stronger as he walks. By the time he reached the bus stop, no bus was there but rather a clump of people trying to stay dry under the small shed.
With frustration all over his face, he bit his lip and searched his head for a way to get to you.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Looks like he’s running out of luck today.
Baji came back to a konbini he’s passed on his way there, and took out his phone that’s been luckily shielded under his pocket by his school blazer.
He punched your number in his keypad tapping on his shoes while he waits for you to answer, but his eyebrows just draw closer to each other every time he’s greeted back by failed phone call.
He called you thrice in a row now, and there is still no answer.
Onto his other pocket, he tried to reach out and fish whatever money he’s had with him just to get to you --a cab or a train or whatever that’s faster than his legs. But unfortunately lady luck has been in a deep slumber at that moment.
I have no other choice but to take the hard way don’t I?
And so, he wrings his soaked ponytail, grabbed the umbrella he borrowed from the store and started running to your direction.
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3:32 pm — it took you more than 10 minutes later than expected, before you have arrived at the bus stop and the rain is relentlessly pouring.
You have prepared your umbrella before taking off the bus, but it can’t be helped that the gust of the wind through the droplets fall on your face and on your clothes.
By the time that you have arrived in the shop, blotches of water is already visible on your skirt and your blouse. Even a part of your socks are already a bit damp, and you eyeglasses has been foggy from how cold it has been outside.
Upon entering the shop, you closed your umbrella to leave it by one of the racks to prevent it from leaving droplets all over the floor. You wiped your face and your glasses, trying to look a bit more presentable before heading to the counter and collecting the pamphlets.
“Um excuse me?” You called to the man behind the register.
“I’m y/n-chan, and I’m looking for Yamada-san,” you spoke softly.
“Hm?” The man slowly turns to you and adjusts his glasses to see you better. “I’m Yamada, what can I do for you?”
“Oh, Yamada-san, my classmate by the name of Asano placed an order here about a few days ago, I came here to pick it up,” you said as you hand him the receipt as a proof of the ordered pamphlets and flyers the other day.
The man took a while reading all the contents of the receipt as he squint his eyes to see it better before heading back out to get the prints for you.
When he returned back, you immediately checked on the the pamphlets and flyers that are neatly stacked and covered in paper. It has always been your habit to double-check since it’s a waste of time to do things twice, especially in this kind of weather.
Unpacking the pile, you looked at the promos checking if the print quality is good and if the contents are correct. You’ve turned each print slowly, careful not to crumple nor fold them.
Upon the completion of checking the first batch, you’re almost halfway through, and all you have to ensure is that the flyers are of the same quality. However, upon opening the stack, you have found a completely different promo material endorsing a new okonomiyaki store that’s going to open a few blocks away.
Noticing the seemingly switch of prints, you start to approach Mr. Yamada and alerted him that he must have given you the wrong stack.
“Oh, is that so? But that’s the only pre-printed order that has been prepared for today,” he says with a worried look on his face.
“Can we just approach the store that must have gotten our orders instead?” You suggest to him with a soft smile, trying to hide the slight panic that’s creeping up on you for the possibility that you’d go back empty-handed.
“We can do that,” he said scratching his chin. “But you’d have to wait y/n-chan, I’ll still have to call all of the stores who have picked up their orders today, and with this rain, it’s impossible to safely transfer piles of paper,” he warns you.
“O-oh, is that so?” You said scratching the back of your neck. “That’s fine! I can just wait here,” you said back.
You need all the time away anyway, waiting here is not so bad.
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4:11 pm — by the time Baji has arrived at the 3rd district he already looks like a mess.
His hair disheveled — black locks dangling in front of his forehead already soaked in water. His trousers and his blazer are mapped with water droplets everywhere, and his legs are about to give out --not that he minds though.
He tried to make another stop before locating you.
In a pet store he’s came across, he entered and started scanning the pets displayed from the glass wall and dialed your number on his phone.
Ring. Ring. Ring.
Ring. Ring. Ring.
Please pick up the phone. Please pick up the phone.
But there is no answer from the other line. All that’s Baji has heard so far was the operator telling him that the other line is busy or unattended for god knows how many times.
Goddammit.
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4:13 pm — While you were waiting for the owner to contact the other customers, you tried your best to dry yourself inside the store. So you didn’t actually notice that you’ve been having tons and tons of missed calls.
You actually forgot to message your friends that you’re going back on a much later time, and that the rain today seems to be unforgiving. You’re so fixated in trying to get your mind off of what happened earlier that you convinced yourself that it is interesting enough to look throughout the store.
Magazines, newspapers, posters --you’re looking at all the samples and displays one by one. You started to get engulfed into inspecting them. Pictures after pictures, your favorite artist and idols are even featured in some one them. No wonder why you almost yelped when a special ringtone suddenly rang.
Just like you were pulled back into reality, you scurried to search for your phone that you’ve shoved in either of your pockets.
“Hello mom?” You asked nervously, she usually doesn’t call you all that much and you’re scared that she might be worried that you’re not home yet.
“Yeah I’m at the 3rd district. Why?”
“Draken told you?”
“Oh okay. I’m sorry mom. I’ll update them,”
“Yeah. I will.”
“You take care too,”
“Bye. Lov—,”
Your call was cut short when you noticed that your mom's line was suddenly cut off.
Your eyes wandered on the upper right corner on your phone only to see the signal fleeting. That must have been the cause why the call was suddenly dropped.
When you close your phone you were surprised by a ton of notifications reading almost over 30 missed calls from whoever.
Shit.
You know you have promised Draken and Mikey to be with them after class, they are now worried sick that the rain is this hard and you’re all alone.
You have to call them back.
But as just when you are about to dial their numbers, your phone rang and you mindlessly put the phone over your ear and hurried outside to catch some signal.
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Despite the rain persisting, Baji is so desperate to see you right now. He didn’t come this far just to go back home and have another yet unresolved conflict with you.
Still damp from the rain and cold with the wind, Baji didn’t mind trudging the sidewalk to find that goddamned printshop.
Umbrella on one hand and phone in the other, he hadn’t stopped calling you the moment he’s left the pet shop.
Please pick up the phone.
Please pick up the phone.
Without minding his surroundings, he was just continuously walking reading all lit up signs, searching for the one that reads a printshop.
He doesn't care how hard the rain is pouring, he doesn't mind if he has to search for the entire district just to get to you.
He needs to see you.
Buried in his own thoughts of you, he suddenly ran into something.
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"Shit!" his phone flew a few steps away when something coming from his right suddenly hit him.
"Can you fucking look where you're going?!" he is mad, but he is also frustrated at the same time as he hurriedly chase after his phone.
"I swear, if I fucking lose her, then I don't know wh--" fear can be traced in his voice, and he suddenly turns his head to the roadblock he's hit earlier.
"B-baji.." you said, standing in front of the printshop, phone over one ear, and mouth agape.
You can hear your voices echo through the phone call.
Oh it's him.
Dropping his demeanor from the earlier interaction, you could swear that everything happened in the blink of an eye.
Your cold shoulders from the pouring rain is suddenly enveloped in a warm embrace, his arms wrapped around your torso as you rest your head on his chest.
His heart now beating like a drum, and you were suddenly pulled back into the night he sent you home. When your arms was around him, maybe this is the exact same thing he's felt when your chest was pressed against his back --holding on for your dear life.
Your eyes wide open, still processing everything that's happening. Just a few hours ago you left him alone in the rooftop because he doesn't feel the same way right? How did you end up like this?
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"I thought I'm gonna lose you," Baji says in a solemn voice, muffled as his lips press onto the top of your head.
"H-huh?" you spoke softly to him, but you cannot lie that you were caught off-guard by what he said.
You slowly backed a little to give some space between the two of you and you looked him in the eye, your face plastered with a confused look.
"What?" you asked again to make out something of the situation, and your voice is full of disbelief.
"I'm here to see you," Baji said without holding anything back.
"B-but.." you can feel your lips tremble unsure of what to feel.
"Y/n.." he stepped closer to you, and placed both hands in either one of your shoulders.
"Listen to me," Baji says looking directly at you, but you couldn't dare to meet his eyes. You let yours stick to the ground.
"But I said, you didn't have to say--"
And he cuts you off.
"No. Not this again. I came here to speak to ya. I'm not gonna go away with even a word left unsaid,"
You could feel that his grip is starting to put a pressure around your shoulders, but it wasn't meant to hurt you. It's as if he is trying desperately holding onto something that's slipping away.
You could feel that you're about to melt down any time soon, so you mustered up your courage to say the next few lines to him.
"No Baji. No. You do not have to look at me like a pity party. You do not owe me anything. Not even an explanation." you look at him with a sharp gaze to feign madness over frustration and confusion all at the same time.
"You don't--" you took a pause, and the words just came spilling out of your mouth
"What the fuck do you not get Baji Keisuke?!" you look at him as you grip your hair down.
"I loved you, okay?" your eyes now teary and your hand waving in a motion. "No, no, no, no, no, no. Scratch that. I still love you."
"But how many times do you want me to profess my goddamned love for you only for you to say nothing back!" you look intently at him as if begging for an answer.
There was a moment of silence between the two of you.
"I'm done, I'm through," you said at him, shaking your head and you turned your back on him.
"Not this again!" his whines as he stomped his feet on the puddle, was enough to make you look back at him.
"See? Y/n, I have been looking for ya the whole day. And why is it that every time I want to talk to ya it always ends up like this?! Ya say everything you want and I get to say nothin'!" he was looking at you with eyes wide, asking for you to listen to him .
"Oh?" you said sarcastically.
"Then what do you have to say for yourself then?" you provoked him but tears are already pricking your eyes.
He let out a sigh and started slowly.
"I'm sorry that I've always picked on ya, didn't know how to strike up a conversation,"
"I'm sorry I pretended not to hear what ya said when I gave you a ride home, I just can't think of words that could match yours,"
"I'm sorry if you think you've made a fool of yourself every time you've confessed to me,"
He took a moment to pause
"And I've heard each one of them, loud and clear"
You've felt your heart skip a beat.
"I--" Baji for nth time, searched and searched and searched for the right words to say.
In fact, he realized that he does not have to say a lot. He only needs a few words.
He gulped, took a deep breath, and made an unbreakable eye contact with you.
"I love you,"
And it was the moment you swear you're about to go out of your mind.
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a/n: aaaand there you have it! that's the end of out of my mind! I'm sorry if you've felt that the end was just that. I felt that it's both a climax and a resolution kinda thing when i ended it like that soo sjdhasjkd. I'm thinking of making a bonus chapter after this if time permits <33 I HOPE YOU ENJOYED ALL OF THIS :) tysm for all the support and the love <33
taglist: @hanabihwa @q-the-rockaholic @prettysettersq @tsumusfattytuna @galaxyfruits
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I demand a part 2 of the uni exchange!eren right now
(But fr pls don't take this as something rude im just joking but for the love of god please do a part2)
full disclosure, this story wasn't supposed to have a second part BUT i think this is what went down afterwards!
and no worries love, i know you meant good! thanks for clarifying it tho! <3
me: let’s not go overboard with this also me: writes a second part that is longer than its original version :/
read part 1 of the uni exchange student!eren
word count: 689
warnings: none exept for heartache
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it’s been a couple of days since you accidentally met eren on the streets and you can’t shake his lovely memory out of your head, you can’t help but reminisce what you two had and its inevitable ending
not uni exchange student!eren was the same but, of course, there’s no way either of you could know the other person’s feelings and thoughts
you decide to take action by first checking to see if the social media platforms of his still exist and are active
some accounts were deleted but luckily he still had the same phone number so he appeared on a messaging app, a green circle next to his contact
not seeing how or why it’d be weird to talk to him after all these years, you click his contact and start typing
“hi! how are you? i hope everything’s working out for you! i was just wondering, i’m in (name of town) for holiday, any chance you’re around? would love to catch up over a cup of coffee! no pressure ofc! take care! x”
“this is y/n btw, from uni (in case you don’t have my number anymore)”
eren’s face lights up when he sees this notif, he’d never deleted your number, he just never could. the fact that you took the initiative to text him gave him the sign that he needed to reach back
“hello! of course! meet me by the (name of monument) at noon? coffee’s on me!”
you guys do meet a few hours later and it’s WOW
you literally stare at each other for a good while, smiling and giggling at each other
eren touches the back of his neck with his hand, obviously too awkward to say a word
you break the silence with a hug first, before adding “it’s been such a long time, i don’t know where to begin! how was your day?”
your question stirred up some talking while you were walking together to a cafeteria that was close by
he briefed you about finishing his studies, getting his first job that he quitted (because his boss was a dick, he claimed, but you took that with a pinch of salt, knowing it’s eren we’re talking about), he’d been saving for a few years though and started his own business, a small restaurant with dishes from all over the world that he promised to take you the following day
you were skilfully avoiding the subject of relationships, but he brought it up, asking you what your situation was
you’d been in a long, yet toxic relationship that finally took its toll on you. you were now broken up and happy about it, thus gifting yourself a few days off in this beautiful city
he, on the other hand, had been dating this person on and off, for a few years, it was a confusing situation were things weren’t too serious but they also weren’t a friends with benefits thing, he didn’t seem to mind talking about it much tho so he filled you in with how they were, in fact, not at their prime currently
you’d already spent about 4 hours together, mainly catching up and him showing you around town
your catching up session was close to its end and you felt the air between you get awkward again
“so, lunch tomorrow, yeah? would love to have you taste my special dish! took your advice and removed the turmeric too”
“i’ll be there, no doubt!” you said and went in for a hug before saying goodbye
as you both pull away, he pulls you in again and gives you a passionate kiss on the lips
you pull back, startled at what just happened, but kiss him back right after
“i wish i could’ve said goodbye like this before leaving you that day” he mumbled not moving further away from your face
“that was 6 years ago eren, don’t dwell on that” you said, not moving away from his embrace either
“not telling you i love you in person has been haunting me ever since”
“it doesn’t have to anymore” you said before giving him one more kiss
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