#this went on a werid rant

[starlightshadowsworld]

The Wary Weretiger

"You know, I think therapy might be more effective than this." Said Atsushi. He didn't need to turn around to know Akutugawa was rolling his eyes.

"Shut up."

Atsushi raised his hand, catching the orange. "Huh, you even peeled it this time. Must be serious."

He wasn't exactly sure how they got here. Akutagawa had been hunting him down for his bounty.... And than one day just stopped. Somewhere along the lines this had become their routine.

Akutugawa ranted at him, Atsushi sat and ate whatever fruit he'd pick up on the way. Sometimes he'd voice his own opinion and Akutugawa would begrudgingly listen.

It was werid.

But not unwelcome.

It definitely beat having his leg cut off, that's for sure.

"Go on, out with it. I'm busy today." Akutugawa scoffed "and what could you be possibly busy with." Atsushi shrugged "well I still need to get a job."

It didn't matter how much he saved from what he stole from the Orphanage, it wouldn't last him much longer.

"I thought the Agency offered you a position." Said Akutugawa, carefully. As kind as Atsushi was he fought like a caged beast. He could and would ditch Akutugawa if the other offended him.

And Akutugawa didn't want to admit he liked his company.

Atsushi took a bite out of an orange slice "only because of my ability. They're nice people, but I'll find a job myself. Besides that would you my enemy and I am not dealing with that."

His leg would grow back but it was painful. And being on Akutugawa's not bad side was a nice place to be.

Not that Atsushi would admit it.

Akutagawa nodded, he could respect wanting to keep your pride even when you were at rock bottom. But even soo... "Is it so bad for them to want you for your ability?"

Atsushi paused.

"My whole life people have only wanted my ability. They've tried to rip it out of me because they felt entitled to it.... Do you really think I'd want to join an organisation that values it so highly?"

There was an edge to his tone, but also sadness. Akutugawa's eyes went wide in shock.

He unconsciously tugged his coat closer. He wouldn't know what to do if Rashomon was stolen from him.

Akutugawa felt vulnerable just taking a bath, he couldn't imagine how Atsushi felt feeling his ability get ripped out of his skin. It was fortunate that it clearly failed.

It certainly explained Atsushi's distrust of both light and dark.

"I suppose not." Said Akutugawa, going quiet in thought. He went back to his initial question.

"I was once in a situation like yours. I lived in the slums, it was there Dazai found me and I joined the Port Mafia. That became my purpose, and I'm lost without it. But you... You don't have that, and yet you seem satisfied."

Atsushi hummed, thoughtful. "I'm gonna say something, but right or wrong you're not allowed to stab me again."

Akutagawa scoffed.

"I stabbed you one time, stop acting like it was such a big deal.... But very well, I won't stab you."

Atsushi turned to face Akutugawa, putting his orange slices back into a tupperware box. "That isn't your purpose."

Akutagawa is taken aback. He wants to argue but something in him stops him. The way Atsushi spoke to him now was different to how he usually does.

He sounded like Dazai.

Dazai in the quiet moments, the rare moments when Akutugawa hadn't failed him. The all seeing look in his eye as he read Akutugawa like an open book.

"You had a purpose, one you cherished like a second soul. But you lost it. You tried to convince yourself whatever you consider your purpose now is it, but it isn't. And it never will be."

And yet when Atsushi spoke it was kind. It wasn't intended to tear Akutugawa down, quite the opposite. And Akutugawa found himself unable to look away.

"... How do you know this?"

Atsushi smiled, it was small and sad and it didn't fit him like his usual grin did. "You wouldn't be trying so hard to find your purpose if you truly believed you found it."

He looked away, giving Akutugawa some privacy in his own thoughts. "Ask yourself, who were you before the Port Mafia? Who were you back when you were like me? There's you're answer."

Akutagawa frowned, deep in thought. He'd been... He'd been weaker and pitiful. A small child who killed whoever went in his way, but killing hadn't changed in his life.

He was the Port Mafia's Rabid dog, he was still a killer so that wasn't it.

What had he been killing for? In the Port Mafia it was because those were his orders. Because the weak needed to be destroyed to make way for the strong.

Back in the slums it had been for survival. Akutugawa would've died many times over if he'd let those idiots survive. And Gin wouldn't have survived of he hadn't protected her from them.

Akutagawa froze.

... That's what it was. He had been a protector, his reason for killing down in the slums was to protect Gin and his friends.

His friends who were killed on the night Dazai found him... The night Akutugawa lost his purpose and tried to gain another.

But failed.

"I can't get it back." Whispered Akutugawa, suprised that he choked up at the thought. He hadn't thought of them in years.

"You can" Said Atsushi, looking at him again. "The circumstances may have changed, but the core premise is the same. You just have to open yourself up to that."

Open himself up? So Akutugawa had to find something else to protect? That... Didn't seem so hard, given the Port Mafia protected the city from the shadows. And Gin was still with him.

Had it really been infront of him, all this time?

"That's the difference between us" said Atsushi, quietly but Akutugawa caught it. "You had a purpose only to lose it. While I have never had one."

Atsushi chuckled and it was sad again and Akutugawa hated it. He preferred when Atsushi was genuinely happy. When his smile reached his eyes, his eyes that were kind and shined with light.

Now they looked so empty, so sad.

"You think I'm satisfied but I'm not. I have no dreams, no aspirations, my worth is tied entirely to my ability. I live to spite all those that want me dead, to stop them from taking the tiger if I pass on. I have no purpose, not really."

Akutugawa didn't know what to say, all he could do was nod in goodbye when Atsushi left.

He reached down, picking up the half of orange Atsushi saved for him. That he always saved for him, no matter how hard times got.

"You're wrong" he said to the wind as he walked away. "You're so much more than you're ability."

[rainbowchaox]

Speaking of? I love the ranchers and it’s not because the sole reason I got into ships which is usually right after the media when my wall gets full of art and fics and it’s because the fandom I usually start to ship. And not because I thought they were cute.

Hell honestly I barely knew Tango before Double Life. Like I knew who he was but literally never watched his content. I honestly was late on the bandwagon on both flower husbands (primarily because it seemed like everyone I knew shipped them and it was too much at the time and once I did ship them they decided that was end of offical content in empires 1) and Ranchers. (I do fancy me some flower husbands but at it’s height I was the person that refused to ship it because it was popular and everywhere lol)

The fans of ranchers were like slightly different in the way that it was like a less a tidal wave of content I saw and more them gushing how adorable they are. I Remeber literally my wall being full of like wishes and prayers for them to win (and we all know how that went.)

Anyways I started to watch them both. I never and I mean never rewatched the same two videos from both channels but I did with the ranchers. I never got into the MCYT shipping sphere more than liking art or maybe reading some fics my friends sent me. Like I said during 3rd life despite watching the flower husbands I was just lukewarm. It could be that I just hopped from dsmp and was a voice in techno chat which was like werid with shipping idk. I knew there was a solid shipping community ESSPECIALLY in dsmp and hermit fans.

I think what caught my eye was because how literally they never even knew each other that well but once they were forced to be soulmates it’s was so genuine and natural? Like it had a sort of easy going that I could dive into without knowing any of their history or inside jokes as a newbie with eyes that only knew Jimmy.

I knew Jimmy and his fanon by heart. So that’s why I was primarily interested in his pov. And Jimmy is bullied (affectionately) and that is well known by his fanbase. And how tango interacted with him was the complete opposite.

They legit didn’t know Jack about each other so both of them fell into their base selves and just decided to be each other hype men. And I find that beautiful and no wonder why this pairing held me by my neck. I AM always weak for pairings like this. And always go for chemistry because I’m ace as heck.

Soon I became another Rancher Fan praying and wishing for their win somehow. I Remember ranting to friends how this pairing could finally beat the canary curse. And I remember when they eventually didn’t.

I never ever felt so strongly about silly Homoromantic esque blockmen. And I Remeber how the fandom of the ranchers all collectively went into what is best called a media depression. But even after like a week all the creatives decided NO and dropped amazing fics and art. That whole week of buff Jimmy art LMFAO.

And how excited everyone was about the reunion (still can’t believe the whole literal hearts eyes in Tango POV. The mad lad my beloved)

And yeah that’s why I think they will always be my ship in MCYT and why I adore it in all its forms. Team Rancher was just awesome at its height. And I think I know why everyone is or was into flower husbands at the ship height if this gives me any hints.

[sapphire-weapon]

Something that I really never understood, but why would ada tell Leon to leave the girl? what benefit would she have if he left her?

also something else that I would like to ask, the moment where ada obtains the sample and walks Leon seems to have a werid look at her that I can't really describe, I don't know if it's a look of confusion, or admiration. so what do you think?

First question answered here.

As for your second question -

I always saw Leon's expression in that moment as the "I don't have anything nice to say, so I'm not going to say anything at all" look. Like, I can almost hear the rant going off in his head of I can't believe this is fucking happening again. All this bullshit that I went through, and all Ada cares about is fucking walking away with some fucking world-ending bullshit for god only knows what kind of employer, and I just have to try to trust it, I guess, because Luis trusted it, so whatever. Fucking stupid. What is my job?? WHAT IS MY JOB. This is fucking ridiculous. It's such bullshit.

[ghxstzzz]

rant post

also first actual post so 😮😳✌️

so i like luv zero day smm but i was like reading stuff abt zero day and it made me think of one of my oppositions from school and made me realize my opp or something like is actually kinda cray cray cus they like (tw idk???) cut our friends w/ a blade without their consent and said they did it for fun and would show everyone their sh but like they really hate me cus like i told them off and like still they make me actually disgusting when i think abt them and like they talk shart abt me but idgaf cus im too cool for school✌️😳

also but like i will never be friends with them again cus they also called me spoiled cus my dad gives me money and since they dont have a dad im like a stuck up spoiled princess like double u t f but like they were also really werid cus they went to the mental hospital and when they came back they showed me a drawing of like a furry on a crucifix or like i forgot what its called (sorry im not good at spelling or anything) but like they had blood all over the drawing and i was werided out cus even tho i like stuff like zero day that like actually made me werided out cus im like cristian but i dont really go to church or really pray but anyways if like they find dis call 911 cus im scared they finna find meh •_•

(they said cus they dont have a dad n i do im spoiled)

ALSO SORRY FOR SAYING LIKE OR BUT A LOT!!😔

[chaoticdisater]

Reading chain of gold but also knowing like the rest of the time line is so odd, because I’m like “wow, you know in about 60-70 years from now everything you guys stood for and respect will be completely disregarded by your decedents,” like how do we go from the amazing being that is Anna lightwood to Robert the slightly homophobic/hating downworlders/being in a murder club, man like Anna would woop his ass and yes I know she’s not technically his direct descendant but your telling me that she wasn’t involved in every single one of her cousin/friends/siblings children’s lives no she was the coolest of aunts

literally try to change my mind you can’t.

I will also be forever shocked that we went from Will James and lucie herondale to freaking Stephan herondale,

We like never meet another morgenstar other then valentine or at least not one I can remember but I bet there still better then his ass.

Like, if we look at family trees here’s the herondale one

James herondale didn’t die until 1963 meaning yes Stephen was only alive for 3 over leaping years but his grandparent who had been raised by James and Cordelia lived until 1971 who had to have raised his child with similar ideals to that of his parents, like I just don’t understand, it’s not far enough detached that the family wouldn’t still have the same values.

This also might imply that the claves school it self teaches haterd towards downworlders and I cant prove for most of them lgbtq+ people’s but Robert and maryes were pretty um, homophobic so you can’t prove that all the circle wasn’t homophobic.

Except joslyn I refuse to believe that women was homophobic, she definitely thought downworlders were bad but I don’t think she was truely homophobic,

Maybe the kind of person who would say “but I have a gay friend” but I think she’s just mis guided

[thanksfortheflaglove]

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[hannahhook7744]

Why I feel Bad for Audrey and Chad;

Summary; What the title says also a possible justification for why Chad and Audrey act the way they do. And why they might hate the core four.

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Okay, so first off this is just speculation based on what is implied and what we see happen in canon. And now that that's out of the way, let's get this started. Mal has done alot of terrible things-- we know this and we know that some of the time, she really doesn't know better-- and by extension, so have her friends. And I know what you guys are gonna say, okay? I know. They grew up on the isle and are new to Auardon, and don't know any better!

And yes, while that might be true, keep in mind that Audrey and Chad wouldn't know that. They think they're just regular kids who know right and wrong just like them and just chose not to do so. And their families and other people in Auardon telling them that these kids are bad and no good and trouble probably isn't helping their case either. So yes, while we know the Vks don't know better it doesn't excuse their actions to the aks. Not that it really should to begin with, but moving on to my point;

Chad and Audrey have every right to hate them from their point of view.

I mean, just think about it. Just imagine you're Audrey. Your life is perfect. Your parents and grandparents are proud of you. You have good grades and so many accomplishments to be proud of. You have an amazing boyfriend who is everything you've ever dreamed that your family want you to marry and you have amazing friends. You have all of this one day and then the next, the daughter of the woman who tried to kill your parents is brought to your school.

You don't like her and she doesn't like you. You follow the rules to a T and she breaks them every chance she gets but when you complain, your boyfriend and most of your friends (i.e Doug, Lonnie, and Jane) dismiss you completely. So you stand by and grit your teeth and just try to avoid her and get on with your life since no one will listen to you. Your bestfriend (Chad) is the only one who listens to you and he rants with you. He tells you how your enemy's friend is obviously a gold digger who only wanted to talk about the wand and his castle and how she cheated in class and insulted his mother's dress. You listen as he tells you what he did and you decide not to interfere because it's not your business. You think he'll come to his senses or go through with his word. You listen to him complain about how her other friend completely went nuts on the field and how he was rewarded for it instead of punished when anyone else would have suffered greatly for it. And again you do nothing because you know there's nothing you can do about it. You hear from Chad how Doug, another friend of yours, is absolutely smitten with the blue haired friend (which you already knew) and how she dismisses him in her pursuit of Chad.

You, again, do nothing because you know Doug is stubborn and won't listen to you. So you let Chad handle it. You notice that Lonnie and Jane and other girls from school who you might be friends with have got their hair done by your enemy who used magic. Something no one is really supposed to use anymore. And your boyfriend dismisses you when you point it out and your concerns and insecurities. So you grin and bear it, even though your friends and boyfriend are acting werid and tell yourself that everything will go back to normal.

Only it doesn't and everything comes crashing down around you. Your boyfriend sings a whole song about how much he is in love with another girl infront of all your friends and two whole schools. No adults do anything. Your friends don't do anything. Not even when he tries to Kiss her. Everyone is cheering and clapping and smiling and it hurts so you lash out using your other friend who hates the vks almost as much you do at this point. Then the girl and her friends continue to escape punishment no matter what damage they cause.

Made Jane so insecure that she tried to change herself with the wand? No punishment.

Tried to free their parents? No punishment and they got an A in their goodness class.

Knocked Chad out with a potion spray thing? No punishment.

Undid Jane's magic hair? No punishment.

Made an ugly portrait of you ? No punishment.

Runs away to the isle after continuing to use magic and after trying to erase your ex's memories so she wouldn't face any consequences? No punishment.

Your ex is kidnapped and no one is told until after the big party where a Glass picture is shown? No punishment.

These kids continue to hurt you and disobey eery rule you were ever taught and get no punishment at all because no one cares. And then you get to see your boyfriend propose to the girl who has destroyed your friend group and your life with absolutely no warning whatsoever and your grandmother blames it on you. No one cares if you're alright and you find out that you're one of the only people who wasn't invited to your childhood friend's birthday party. How would you feel? How would you feel if you were Audrey? Wouldn't you lash out too?

And then there's Chad. Chad who is Audrey's friend and the only one to stand by her through all of this while also dealing with what is going on. His whole friend group fell apart. Ben never apologized for hurting Audrey like he did. No one else ever did. No one gave them an explanation. No one cared that Ben was obviously spelled. And he is being replaced as one of the top players by Jay who doesn't follow the rules and gets rewarded for it. Evie gets to date one of his old childhood friends after brushing him off repeatedly in favor of trying to marry him so she could have everything he has. Gets to date his childhood friend after cheating in class and standing by the girl who caused his friend so much pain. Gets to date his bestfriend after insulting his mom and her dress. Mal gets to date one of his bestfriends despite all the harm he caused to him, Audrey, Ben, and the rest of their friends. After making Jane hate herself further and making Audrey feel like shit. Have you noticed that Chad never bothered Carlos except when he stole from him in the 2nd movie?

He didn't insult Carlos. He didn't mess with him like he did with Jay or Mal or Evie. He left Carlos alone? Maybe because Carlos didn't do anything to him or his friends directly. Maybe because he reminds Chad of his mom? Who knows. Point is, he only bothered Mal, Jay, and Evie that we know of. And same goes for Audrey (correct me if I'm wrong, I don't remember the books or wicked world that well). They lost everything when the vks showed up. They saw them get away with every bad behavior and lost their friend group because of it. Lost their respective roles and the respect of those around them (like Audrey's grandma). Why wouldn't they hate those 3?

Edited as of Jan 27, 2024:

Just learned recently that FG threatened to send them back to the isle after they stole a boat in tje books.

Don't know if the Aks would know that but just thought it should be mentioned.

[cherriesradio]

Mha relationship headcanons (Class 1-A)

Guess I’m doing headcanons now

(In order of seats cause it’s the first photo order on Google lol)

Gn reader

Yuuga Aoyama

He will lazer anyone who even dares to make fun of them

Always in need of attention

ALWAYS

if y/n is boing homework or something at their desk he’ll just dramatically sit down in their lap

“wHy aReN’t yOu PAyinG aTtENTion tO yOUr pReTtY bOYFriEnd?????”

“My little star” ❤️

Compliment wars

Y/n will compliment him once like “hey your hairs really soft today”

Shots fired

He is a rich kid and no one can convince me other wise

So one day he just randomly buys them like thousand dollar jeans and they just sit there like “???????????????? I mean thank you so much I love it but like ????????????”

Mina Ashido

Yeah she doesn’t have any hoodies anymore

“Girls” night is very important where it’s basically every other night where they sleep in each other’s dorm rooms but instead of going to sleep at 1am they go to sleep at 6am on a Friday

Every morning she puts a ridiculous amount of makeup on y/n and y/n the whole time is like “I am totally willing to go to school like this”

But by the end Mina just wipes it all off :(

Brags about each other CONSTANTLY

Kirishima and Kaminari made a whole mix tap of Bakugo telling them to shut up about each other

With Kaminari’s crappy beat boxing ✨

They both go to Momo’s dorm and all study together (let’s be real they aren’t really studying just kidding around) all the time

(If a female y/n) They get their periods at the same time and it’s so miserable cause they can’t take care of each other 💔

If Mineta hits on either one??

The next day the other will ask to train with him and he’ll think someone finally likes him back but turns out they were just trying to beat him up for revenge

Tsuyu Asui

HATES PDA

DON’T YOU DARE HOLD HER HAND NO

Headcanon she’s aromatic (aromatics can still want a romantic relationship with someone and fall in love and stuff, it’s just really unlikely) (feel free to tell me how it works; I’m in the community but haven’t done a large amount of research on aromatics)

Random compliments

Just randomly “hey *ribbit* your outfits really nice today”

💙 swimming dates or going to the pond💙

Double dates with the rest of the Dekusquad couples

Loudly cheers each other on in training

Y/n gives Tsu a frog plush and she’s to scared to sleep with it thinking she’ll drool on it or something so it’s on a shelf that only has special items

Remembers every little thing like they could say they needs to do something in a few months and Tsu will remind them

Eat Bento Boxes together at lunch all the time 🍱

Once y/n was like “what do I feed the pond frogs?????” And Tsu went on a long rant about how to handle frogs

She has a passion okay

Sends goodnight texts at like 8:30 and y/n finds it hilarious that she literally goes to bed at 8:30

(When they finds out about Bakugo they laughs at him and Deku mutters “he deserves it”)

“I love you” *internal panic, like that one spongebob scenes in his head where there’s a ton of little sponge bobs burning stuff* “uhhh um uh thanks” “WAIT IM SO SORRY I LOVE YOU TO SO MUCH” *bursts into laughter*

Tenya Iida

Study dates where they lose track of time and accidentally stay up till two in the morning

Definition of slow burn

Literally, for two years he clearly had a crush on them but didn’t realize it and at some point Deku and generally the whole Dekusquad got tired of it and Ochaco just yelled at him one day “YOU LITERALLY LIKE Y/N HOW DO YOU NOT NOTICE?!?!?”

He just like o ^ 0

Literally plans every date for weeks

He doesn’t love physical affection, he likes it just not all the time, prefers giving gifts and time to each other

Best listeners ever

(Slightly angsty headcanon) one time he had pulled a bunch of all nighters studying and failed a test from not taking in the info and cried and y/n comforted him :(

Literally thanks the universe every night for y/n because he’s a sweetheart

When his brother gets forced into retirement y/n comforts him SO HARD

Y/n would low key be on board with the “murder stain” plan if Iida told them

Cause they are best friends with his brother

When they first got together and they meet each other they thought he was super intimidating cause he’s the “if you break his heart I’ll break your nose” type but then became really good friends because of how each of them care for Iida (well that was what started it)

Doesn’t get jealous whatsoever

Y/n could literally kiss some guys hand or cheek and he’s just like “their a really friendly person and I trust them”

Arguments on who’s gonna pay for dinner lol and then he’s just like

“Oh my god what we split the Bill” like he just had the best smartest idea ever

And y/n’s like “ :0 that such A good idea!!!!!” Cause they are both semi himbo

Ochako Uraraka

As soon as Ochako said she was poor y/n just started randomly giving her money

“Hey Ochako how’s your day” “oh good good you” “yeah I’m doin good anyways here’s fifty dollars”

She makes y/n a ton of hand made gifts and likes baking for them (I headcanon that she likes baking uwu)

If she buys y/n anything they know she was saving up for it and appreciates the heck out of it

Volunteers at the family business all the time 😌

Her bed is covered in stuffed animals and when she misses y/n she cuddles up to them and y/n find it so sad yet adorable

They would be nervous to tell anyone so it would be a secret for a while

Until one day Deku asks if Ochako wants to study with him and Iida and find them cuddling while reading

He definitely freaks out and blush’s but tells no one

After a few months they do tell the class tho they supportive

Okay the whole Dekusquad and y/n calls All Might Dad

When their older they go to pride parades (even if it’s not a lgbtq relationship) and wear “free mom/ dad/ parent hug” shirt and it’s adorable

Constantly touching each other

Could be hugging or hand holding or even as little as just having their hand on the others shoulder

Both find it werid how they somehow have the same taste in music

Part 1 (gonna be four parts lol wanna do the whole class)

[skiplo-wave]

Used to see some self-proclaimed "not like other girls" blogger on my dash and there was this rant post she made talking about how men who wear dresses publicly are mentally ill weirdos and that the majority of the world would agree with her that their parents didn't punish them enough, ending with a sign off labeling all gnc men as freaks of society that don't know how to act normal and when I went to her blog, there was a lot of untagged scat and fart fetish art there...

It’s always the werid fetish blogs that want preach about whats “ werid”

Fuck her and men in dresses look good and powerful

[gundhams-pandemonium]

Can Avoados Read Fanfiction?

(will post on Ao3 very soon, so if youd perfer the link please ask me! )

V3 Talentswap using Thh Talents and Setting. All talents we're randomized (all have been set). Every comemnt/reblog/like (and any questions for any of my aus) etc is highly appreciated 💕

"Hey, hey hey hey," The purple hair teen proded Rantaro's shoulder for the umpteenth time. The lucky student should reply, though at the same time he felt like it'd be more trouble then it's worth.

On the other hand, the constant poking was annoying, even for the patience he had. And it wouldn't hurt to hear him talk.

"Yes, Kokichi?" The fellow student gave a devilish grin, awaiting this moment. Rantaro felt that he had fallen in a carefully lain trap and had no chance of escape.

" ... Do you want to read my work?" He basically vibrated in excitement. What a hard read, first a creepy grin and then the extreme childlike exciment? Long ago he decided not to figure out the self proclaimed "Supreme Leader's" (his talent had to do with writing fanfiction yet he paraded himself with the former title) motivations.

He weighed the options in his head, if he said no then he'd be pestered again. Who knows how long that would last, perhaps until the night time announcement. If he said yes, he'd have to read and maybe listen to him rant about a certain show or characters.

Yes didn't sound too bad.

"Sure, I'd love to," Based on the 'innocent' smile apparent on the other's face he feared he may have picked the wrong choice.

Kokichi suddenly reached in his pocket and pulled out a folded up paper. It was promptly shoved into Rantaro's hands.

With caution, he carefully unfolded it. The teen watched with large violet eyes, and rocked back on the heels of his feet. He did his beat to ignore his companion and looked to the paper.

Written at the top was fine print, and a list of slang that went over his head. Lemon? RPF? MxM? Not Beta Read we die like men?

Alright, alright. He skimmed to the large title which was a just an H, then preceded downward.

'Rantaro Amami had the second biggest dic-'

"... Why am I in this... story?"

"Uhh, cause it's for you! Duh! I don't know what shows you like, much less the pairings for each one. So I whipped something up that was personal, nihihi!"

"Isn't fanfiction about fictional characters, though?"

"Ugg! Real Person Fiction! Amami-Chan is sooo uncultured! Just read it, don't question it."

He decided to continue, hoping that the first sentance would be the only one of it's kind.

'The thing about him though, is how he may have fuck-' He skipped that sentence 'But he'd never been fu-' He skipped that too. 'Kokichi Ouma was the only one who even dared to challenge the stud. By challenge that meant de-pantsing him in the middle of the hall and shov-'

"So! So! So! Soooooooo! Do you like it? Isn't it good? I'd say it's my best work yet!"

He didn't even get through the first paragraph; the writing was worse then Miu's mouth and that was a challenge in itself.

"I'm sorry Ouma. I didn't even get through half of it. I don't want to insult you but-"

"You... dont like it?" His purple irises widened, and his once lively posture stiffened.

"I just... It just the first sentence definitely caught my attention but in a werid way? It's definitely not my thing, sorry," He probably sounded harsh- but what was he supposed to say.

He looked to the boy, his head lowered. Rantaro found his mind screaming at him. He was trying to be gentle, though it was hard to find positives in something he couldnt even fully read.

"...you..." His voice turned, as rough as stone and his entire stomach flipped.

Maybe he should've lied, this was a killing game after all and he'd never seen Kokichi angry before. Sure, the teen wasn't even close to his height and he didn't look like he had a muscle on him. However, who knows what could be hidden in that backpack.

"Haha! That was made in less then five minutes! That isn't even close to being my favorite work!" His laughter rang through the air, and all the lucky student could do was stare. "Don't look so dumbfounded! I gave you a test and you passed! Not a lot of people have, they just go tell me there filthy lies about how it's better then the classics. I hate liars, they aren't allowed to read my finest work."

Rantaro didn't say how hypocritical he sounded, instead nodding at the teen. He definitely did expect something better from the Ultimate Fanfic Writer. Th said writer began to dig in the back of his bag, producing a small hand-bound book.

"Here! I've sold this one for over 200,000 yen, but you can have it for free for passing the test," He highly doubted anyone could sell any book (save for orginal copies of something 2000 years old) for that price but found himself unable to argue.

He still looked at it hesitantly.

"Oh, don't worry! All content warnings are on the first two pages, but be warned it could contain spoilers. Also, you won't need to much background for the series to read it but the names will be a little strange to someone who hasn't played the games or watched the show. Otherwise, It'd be completely passable as 'orginal work's. I hate that term by the way, my ideas are orginal! I'm just inspired by the wonderful characters of 'arson man trash-fire' and 'the guy who puts up with his shit for some reason' and 'Sassy Girl who hates trash-man but loves guy-who-puts-up-with-everything'."

Though he didn't understand half of what Kokichi was saying, he skimmed the first page of story text and he didn't see anything that told about his dick or the like.

"I do like to read before bed, so thanks Kokichi. I appreciate it," The teen rolled his eyes in response but was smiling.

Rantaro couldn't help starting it as soon as he could; he was curious by the actual fanfiction writer's ability. He didn't realize he'd soon be so sucked into the world that he not only missed the night-time announcement but only stopped when he heard the morning one go off.

Oh... this was good.

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Crisis thoughts/questions

Watched crisis and have a lot of thoughts moving around in my head. I like crisis.....if I don't think about it with any kind of depth. Because if I think about it really at all it kind of unravels (and I'm not even getting to thinking about it in depth). So this is a list of questions/concerns (I guess would be the wording?) of what happened in crisis mostly focused on the last two episodes.

1. Why were they stuck in the vanishing point for month's and we got no interactions between Kara and Kate or Sara? Like that would have been a great time for some bonding between any of them really but no we skip it all.

1b. Also while we are at it it's a timeless spaceless zone/place why did that human dude (who's name I can't remember mostly because he was literally inconciquencal although he had some good lines) grow a beard? (He may have had one at the start but I'm fairly sure he didn't) Also if he grew one why the frick was Lex still bald with no faical hair? Like what??? I'm so lost.

1c. Barry just took off?? Like the second everyone gets there he just runs away? (To find a way out I get that) but like he's gone a month and they're not sure where he went. (Also time should still not be a thing) He didn't like tell them 'hey I'm gonna look for a way out.' Which on that note if that's why he left wouldn't you want supergirl to go with him maybe like the other direction to get a scope of the area faster? Maybe find the exit. Either way it's he just disappears for a whole ass month. (And they know that because why? When it's a timeless zone.)

2. Juat a quick personal one as I used it in a theory. What happened the the kryptonite that Kate had that was a huge deal up until now??

3. What the hell was the point of Oliver tapping Barry's head and unlocking his potential like??? He was already in the speed force seconds ago so he could do it on his own if he just rested. And seeing as they are in a timeless spaceless zone he could have rested and then hopped to it.

3b. The whole speed force thing was janky anyway but like mostly the way they did it. (Though I did love the cameo by the actor from the movies completely random but I liked it.) I was just really confused, Barry dropped Kara Lex and the chow? Choi? (Whatever) the human off on a planet somehow in time before the anti monitor was created or like was it a different reality that had it's own infant earths? (Not clear at all or I'm supid.) And the whole we got attacked so you have to go find everyone in the speed force made no sense either mostly the 'find them were bonds were foraged.' I figured that ment foraged with him Barry but like they were random moments form the shows and I don't understand. Especially batwomans like what? Pls explain.

4. Oliver died twice why? I don't understand. (Like I get it but also it really dilutes his dead in my opinion.) And you can die as specter? (whatever that even is). Also they stood in a line and thought about how much they were a Paragon? Like I get maybe thinking about how much Hope you have in you but what the heck did like Sara think about? How do think about destiny or humanity or justice? That whole scene was werid as shit, or I'm missing something.

5. I don't even want to get into how merging basically every show together is (while cool) a huge ass mistake and headache. (The implications of that are so massive that I would need to write a whole ass epic novel just to scrach the surface.) Also supergirl got shafted the most with the world changing shit (mostly due to Lex) but like no other show or characters seemed to be changed that much. Also Kal now has two sons because that's something that would change for no reason? (Other than more to write about when he gets his own show.)

There's a lot of other things (in my opinion) but they are small and not worth mentioning. And then there's things where I could go on and on about how they could have done something different but to keep it relatively short I'm gonna end my rant here.

I like crisis I did but I have to just kind of shut down my brain in order to do so. Which isn't hard as it's made for entertainment over making total sence. (The writer me me has many questions)

Anyway what did you guys think? Did you like crisis? Have the same questions as me or different ones?

[the-mykie-show]

A Dante rant with a psa.

Some of ya'll were really out here staning Dante for some reason, but I saw right through that shit.

OK, I didn't know he was a whisperer until I saw the spoilers saying that he was, but I was extremely suspicious of him and did not trust him at all. I didn't think his bullshit of hitting on everything with a pulse was cute, I didn't like his arrogance, or his God complex and I knew he was going to turn out to be trouble either through just being an incompetent garbage fire of a doctor or actually being someone with malicious intentions.

Right out of the gate there were red flags everywhere with this dude, the first interaction we have with him he compared himself to a God and was sexually inappropriate towards an odviously distressed Siddiq. In 10.6 we see him unabashedly hitting on his patients, in fact the only interaction we see with Dante where he isn't screwing up or being creepy is when he's treating Lydia after the highwaymen attacked her, although that hardly counts because he's only in the scene for a second and it was a scene mostly focused on Daryl and Lydia. Even in the scene where he talks about suffering from PTSD (which I think was a lie because unless he has had extremely unrealistically successful treatment he doesn't seem to deal with any symptoms, and considering that survivors gulit and self balme is generally big parts of combat PTSD I don't think he'd be so full of himself if was really dealing with something like that) with Siddiq he manges to make it all about how amazing he thinks he is.

It almost seemed like they were trying to make Dante's personality some werid combo of comic Dante and pre redemption arc Negan and it did not work.

With Negan it worked, he wore his cocky swagger well, yes sometimes he was inappropriate and came off in the wrong way, but it never felt creepy to me, and certainly never predatory. With Dante it came off extremely creepy and wrong. Dante being a doctor I think made it worse. When a character like Eugene (who has done many a creppy thing in the past) or Negan (who had hit on women in situations where he probably shouldn't have) does something inappropriate or maybe even creepy they at least didn't do it in a professional setting. I don't give a shit if it's the zombie apocalypse or not, there should still be some semblance of respect and professionalism between health care providers and patients. Dante completely violates every rule there should be between doctors and patients.

Imagine if you went to your doctor and they hit in you the entire time they were treating you? You wouldn't think that was cute or Big Dick Energy™ you'd be crepped out and disgusted. Some of us unfortunately don't have to imagine what that's like, because it's actually happened. It's happened to me, because doctors like this do exist in real life.Which is why I really don't like that the TWD writers made Dante's behavior seem OK and none of the characters addressed it as a problem, it was treated as very "Oh well that's just Dante" and I would have preferred if it was made clearer in the writing that this behavior is a problem, and wasn't written to seem cute or charming. I was assuming that this writing would not work, and people would dislike Dante, I was shocked to see that he was actually growing on people and people were shipping him with other characters. Of course that could have been the writers intention all along, to be like "look at all red flags and foreshadowing ya'll ignored, haha punked you" but people should have seen through it because the dude was gross and hell.

And the fact that he spent so much time with Siddiq, made Siddiq feel he was his friend, and even opened him up to the possibility that he was suffering from PTSD and all along he was the one who forced Siddiq to watch his loved ones beheaded and put on pikes... That's really fucked up and was entirely unnecessary for him to do if he was only there to spy for Alpha. Why would Alpha tell him to do that? I don't think she did, I think he was there to help poison the water and gather information, maybe keep an eye on lyida- the rest he did on his own because he enjoyed it, he got off on knowing that he had a hand in traumatizing Siddiq and getting to watch the effects of that.

Dante is a nasty mother fucker, he's absolutely psychotic, demented, and disgusting and I hope he gets what he deserves, and I'm so sad we lost Siddiq over this asshole.

And please, please if you ever have an experience with a doctor who reminds you of Dante, while they may not be a murdering sociopath who is in a cult that wears the skin of dead people, they are dangerous. Learn from the mistakes of our characters and Run. The. Fuck. Away.

Thanks for coming my Ted talk, and RIP Siddiq, we'll miss you.

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:0 whats the tea?

I don’t know which tea you’re referring to but I’m having an emotional breakdown over vocaloid so I’m dumping vocaloid tea. Huge rant below.

The year is 2012, the vocaloid community is in a weird phase. V3 has been out and going steady for a bit, and a lot of the fans are demanding remakes rather than new vocaloids. The exploration of new languages is a new trendy thing in V3, however, people are mainly demanding remakes of lesser-known V2′s and even underappreciated V1′s. Miki is a popular candidate, as she has a stable fanbase, a decent voice, and her design is manifique, however, many companies are currently popping out new vocaloids who are beginning to grow individualized fandoms of their own. The big 5 (or 6 or 7 depending on if you include Luka and/or Gakupo in the major leagues) are getting their V3′s, but there’s a definitive copy-cat style going on of the big 5 with a lot of the newer vocaloids. However, someone new comes into the fray.

The greatest vocaloid in the history of mankind has just been released. The beautiful, the one and only Aoki Lapis, has graced the world with her perfect demo, her perfect design, and her perfect name. Her voice is crafted like that of an angel, and she is ready for all your basic vocaloid needs. She can sing cute, happy songs. She can sing painful, sad songs. Her voice is like that of a lonely puppy, ready to make or break your heart at a moments notice. Will she smile? Will she cry? The choice is up to the fans. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT THEY FUCKING DID?

THEY IGNORED HER.

FUCKING INSTEAD, A YEAR OLD VOCALOID WHICH HAD NO FUCKING FANBASE UP UNTIL THAT POINT DECIDED TO START PICKING UP PACE.

Tone Rion, WHO’S INITIAL FANDOM WAS COMPRISED OF MANY FUCKING LOLICONS [aka PEDOPHILES] DUE TO HER FUCKING RIDICULOUSLY CHILDISH YET SEXUALIZED OUTFIT, started gaining traction despite her initial rocky start, ENDED UP WITH A LONG-STANDING FANDOM WHO STILL PRODUCE MUSIC TO THIS FUCKINGDAY. And I mean HER FACE IS EXACTLY LIKE FUCKING KAAI YUKI, A FUCKING KINDERGARTEN AGE VOCALOID. Tone Rion sounded so fucking bland, so fucking generic. Her voice is like that of if you put a hundread different fem vocaloid voices through a neural network and made it produce one of it’s own. It’s so fucking bland and has no emotion in it, AND YET GUSSS FUCKING WHAT?!?

SHE GET’S A FUCKING V4, AND THEY REDO HER WHOLE DESIGN BECAUSE THE WERID SEXUALIZED SCI-FI MAGICAL GIRL KID WITH TIDDY WINDOWS WAS KINDA A BAD IDEA. NOW SHE HAS A SUPER FUCKING CUTE DESIGN AND A NEW (IMRPOVED) VOICE BUT YOU FUCKING KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO AOKI???

SHE’S FUCKING DEAD, SHE HAS NO FANDOM. SHE HAS NO SONGS. THE ONLY SHIT SHE GET’S IS FUCKING COVERS AND TO WORK WITH OTHER VOCALOIDS. MERLI COULDN’T EVEN SAVE HER ASS, AND HONESTLY I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW MERLI GOT FUCKING RELEASED BY HOW LITTLE THE COMMUNITY PICKED HER UP.

They did my fucking girl SO WRONG.

So yeah, FUCK TONE RION. FUCK ALL HER INITIAL FANS. And FUCK EVERYONE WHO LEFT AOKI TO DIE.

IT’S 20 GODDAMN 19 WHY IS TONE RION POPPING UP IN MY GODDAMN YOUTUBE FEEDS?!!? I DON’T WANT THIS SHIT.

Especial shoutouts to FUCKING MEW, WHO Y’ALL FUCKING ALSO DROPPED LIKE A DEAD RAT, Cul (who’s fanbase was actually pretty solid for a while but fizzled out), and finally Galaco and Chika who everyone seems to have forgotten existed despite some somewhat proficient producers using her.

Also I’m still bitter Miriam wasn’t as loved as she should have been. It’s like everyone forget’s she ever existed.

SO YEAH THAT’S THE TEA. FUCK TONE RION’S NEW V4. Apparently she’s been out for a year but I just hadn’t of paid enough attention while scrolling away apparently.

ONE MORE THING SINCE THIS HAS ALL JUST BEEN ABOUT MY HATE ON V3:

Y’ALL FUCKERS DIDN’T PICK UP SACHIKO ENOUGH FROM V4. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU ALL SHE SOUNDS SO GODDAMN AUTHENTIC?!?!? Like GODDAMN Sachiko is fucking god-tier like Aoki and y’all sleeping on her. HER BOX ART? GREAT. HER VOICE? GREAT. HER EMOTION, HER EVERYTHING??? FUCKING ON POINT. She’s got that rougher, deeper voice y’all loved about Luka, BUT LOO KWHAT YOU DID TO HER. Y’ALL LEFT HER FOR DEAD. Sachiko is EONS ahead of Luka in terms of rough, deep vocals, and god she sounds so fucking realistic because of it. It makes her emotion in depressing songs or creepy songs SO MUCH BETTER.

[Please note I’m angry at the community as a whole, and not individualized people and you should not feel in any way responsible for my anger. It is not your duty as a fan of something to show appreciation for lesser known characters or aspects of it. The vocaloid fandom, however, has a trend of picking up lesser-quality vocaloids in favor of the more robotic voices. Look at fucking SONIKA, one of the worst vocaloids to date MECHANICALLY WISE, NOT EVEN JUST VOCAL WISE, with her strong fandom and usage. And yes, the power of a producer using lesser-quality vocaloids and still making jams with them is a testimate to their skill, but it’s still painful to see the fans in turn also pick up said vocaloids because they want to be like their favorite producers rather than experiment with something new.

I used Maika fans as a example of “unproblematic fans” as most Maika songs are from Spanish! Vocaloid community, who really don’t have enough vocaloids to start discourse about lol. The only real discourse I saw on the spanish vocaloids was from the English and Japanese communities, who were super fucking shitty on Bruno and Clara but for ~some reason~ loved Maika. Honestly, Spanish Vocaloid community I’m so sorry y’alls first vocaloids went through such a hard time. Hope y’all get more vocaloids soon, y’all are such an awesome fanbase and I see y’all with all the subs you guys make. Keep being loud! Be seen! They’ll remember you’re a epic market!

Please note most of my critique is on the English vocaloid community, however also partially on the Japanese vocaloid community. It is very common for English producers to use non-english voice banks, however there’s a definitive trend to it all I hate. The Japanese vocaloid community is a lot harder for me to critique, however as a consumer of both english and japanese community creations I can fucking say that both of y’all assholes left my favs to die.]

TLDR: Tone Rion was initially a loli-bait style character who was made as if a mix between “robot magical girl” Miku, and Kaai Yuki with one of the most generic voices to date, but managed to get a V4 (and a VERY WELL NEEDED redesign I actually approve of as it’s more just to look cute rather than to be creepy) and a steady community while my fav Aoki just was thrown away and not even the underground community picked her up enough. I will reinterate here though, most Tone Rion fans now are not creeps. They’re just digging the cute remake of a vocaloid they may have some kind of nostalgia for just because they were hyped for all the new V3′s coming out at the time. Like, modern Tone Rion fans I’m more jealous of you rather than angry at you. Old fashion Tone Rion fans (especially those who didn’t like her new design) can go choke, that was a shit-tier design and she had an awful voice. Her new one is actually not bad, but still pretty dead in comparison to our lovely Lapis.

I will say a reason that most vocaloids “die” is caused by fans liking producers who make funky songs, and then buy  the same vocaloids of their favorite songs to mimic their producers rather than to explore new vocaloids. This leads to a cycle, ultimately leaving barely any room for new vocaloids to be explored. If a popular producer doesn’t pick up a vocaloid, or even if they did but didn’t utilize them enough (often because the vocals don’t mix well with their style or because the mechanics behind the voice are shit. Despite Circus-P getting a copy of Galaco she still died pretty hard, and she actually had a pretty alright voice and cute design. I think that one Yandere-style lolita-fashion vocaloid, can’t remember her name despite loving her, also beat her in popularity as she’s still being used quite decently.), and so that vocaloid’s popularity will be almost nothing.

Also my fav V4, Sachiko, was also discarded despite her BEAUTIFUL voice and design, because of her extremely rough voice not fitting the ~cutsy~ style of most vocaloid fans. For fucks sakes she’d be perfect for the Hagane fandom but we’re pretty fucking dead right now. Not even Yandere! vocaloid fandom picked her up and that’s such a disappointment man.

Thanks for stopping in for the tea anon! Hope you have a lovely day :D

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Kombii - “Ślad” (“Trace”) ⁽ᵗʳᵃⁿˢˡᵃᵗᵉᵈ ᵇʸ ᵐᵉ, ᵐᵒʳᵉ ⁱⁿᶠᵒ ᵇᵉˡᵒʷ⁾

𝒲𝑒 𝓁𝒾𝓋𝑒 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝒶 𝓂𝑜𝓂𝑒𝓃𝓉, 𝑔𝓇𝑒𝑒𝒹𝓎 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇𝓎 𝓈𝒾𝑔𝓃. 𝒪𝓃𝓁𝓎 𝒾𝓃 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝑒𝓎𝑒𝓈 𝐼 𝓈𝑒𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝓈𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑒. 𝒮𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑒 𝑜𝒻 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒.

𝐻𝒾𝒹𝒹𝑒𝓃 𝒻𝓇𝑜𝓂 𝓌𝑜𝓇𝓁𝒹 𝓌𝑒 𝒷𝑒𝓁𝒾𝑒𝓋𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒 𝒽𝒶𝓈 𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓅𝓅𝑒𝒹. 𝒪𝓊𝓇 𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝓅𝒶𝓈𝓈 𝒷𝓎, 𝒾𝓉 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓁𝒶𝓈𝓉, 𝓁𝒶𝓈𝓉 𝒾𝓃 𝓊𝓈.

𝓞𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓸𝓽𝓽𝓸𝓶 𝓸𝓯 𝓶𝔂 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮’𝓵𝓵 𝓫𝓮 𝓪 𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓮 𝓐𝓯𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝔀𝓸𝓷’𝓽 𝓫𝓮 𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝔂𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮. 𝓞𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓸𝓽𝓽𝓸𝓶 𝓸𝓯 𝓶𝔂 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮’𝓵𝓵 𝓫𝓮 𝓪 𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓮 𝓘 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓴𝓮𝓮𝓹 𝓲𝓽...

𝒯𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝒷𝑒 𝓃𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝓉𝓊𝓇𝓃𝓈. 𝒲𝒽𝒶𝓉’𝓈 𝓅𝒶𝓈𝓈𝑒𝒹 𝓌𝑜𝓃’𝓉 𝑔𝑒𝓉 𝒷𝒶𝒸𝓀, 𝐼 𝓀𝓃𝑜𝓌. 𝒲𝑒 𝓌𝑜𝓃’𝓉 𝓂𝑒𝑒𝓉 𝒶𝑔𝒶𝒾𝓃 𝓃𝑜 𝓂𝑜𝓇𝑒, 𝒾𝓉’𝓈 𝒻𝒶𝓉𝑒… 𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝒻𝒶𝓉𝑒…

𝓞𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓸𝓽𝓽𝓸𝓶 𝓸𝓯 𝓶𝔂 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮’𝓵𝓵 𝓫𝓮 𝓪 𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓮 𝓐𝓯𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝔀𝓸𝓷’𝓽 𝓫𝓮 𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝔂𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮. 𝓞𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓸𝓽𝓽𝓸𝓶 𝓸𝓯 𝓶𝔂 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮’𝓵𝓵 𝓫𝓮 𝓪 𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓮 𝓘 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓴𝓮𝓮𝓹 𝓲𝓽...

𝓘’𝓵𝓵 𝓷𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓰𝓮𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓽𝓪𝓼𝓽𝓮 𝓸𝓯 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓵𝓲𝓹𝓼, 𝔀𝓸𝓷’𝓽 𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓰𝓮𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓬𝓸𝓵𝓸𝓻 𝓸𝓯 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓭𝓼. 𝓞𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓸𝓽𝓽𝓸𝓶 𝓸𝓯 𝓶𝔂 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓪 𝓯𝓮𝔀 𝓶𝓮𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓼 𝓘 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓷𝓪 𝓼𝓪𝓿𝓮... ...𝓪𝓽 𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓼𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼. 𝓞𝓷𝓵𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼…

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𝓞𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓸𝓽𝓽𝓸𝓶 𝓸𝓯 𝓶𝔂 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮’𝓵𝓵 𝓫𝓮 𝓪 𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓮 𝓐𝓯𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝔀𝓸𝓷’𝓽 𝓫𝓮 𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝔂𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓞𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓸𝓽𝓽𝓸𝓶 𝓸𝓯 𝓶𝔂 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮’𝓵𝓵 𝓫𝓮 𝓪 𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓮 𝓘 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓴𝓮𝓮𝓹 𝓲𝓽...

𝓘’𝓵𝓵 𝓷𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓰𝓮𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓽𝓪𝓼𝓽𝓮 𝓸𝓯 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓵𝓲𝓹𝓼, 𝔀𝓸𝓷’𝓽 𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓰𝓮𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓬𝓸𝓵𝓸𝓻 𝓸𝓯 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓭𝓼. 𝓞𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓸𝓽𝓽𝓸𝓶 𝓸𝓯 𝓶𝔂 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓪 𝓯𝓮𝔀 𝓶𝓮𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓼 𝓘 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓷𝓪 𝓼𝓪𝓿𝓮... ...𝓪𝓽 𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓼𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼.

𝓐𝓽 𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓼𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼...

For this I blame @paperhats-and-evil-schemes and his “one day he’ll die and I’ll be alone” fic.

Here’s how I translated the lyrics (+ which parts differ form original).

I wanted to find a no-lyrics version of this song (like piano/acoustic cover, caraoke ver. or sth) BUT THERE WAS NONE. *insert 20min rant on that* So yeah... sorry if it’s difficult to follow the text while listening to Polish lyrics x___x”

Pictures may look werid but I’m not gonna apologise for this, I spent way too much time on it anyway :P  It was supposed to be only a sketch. I didn’t want to do a full lineart-color-shading fanart so I just went yolo with flat base colors + RGBY colors for messy shading/lineart ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[here will be link to this on Deviantart (rants on song versions and writing in Sai might be included)]

[the-secret-garden-party]

March 24th 2022

I had school testing today for dual entrollment so I can take 2 years of college while still in high school so then I don’t have to worry abou it after guarduation and it would be easier. But of me being well me... I failed it so now I have to do the retake. I can’t wait to tell my parents.. The math was the WORST I hated to so much. I’m so bad at math, I want and I need to do this. I also kinda made myself finish quickly so then I could be able to go my 6th period (anatomy) which is my favorite, and I didn’t want to miss that, I hate missing that class. But maybe that’s why I failed in the end. I don’t know :/ it’s lunch at the moment so I have anatomy next and I’m looking forward to it. I like learning about blood and bones. Theres this kid in a couple of my classes and they went on this whole rant about them not supporting Hot Topic because they steal from artists but then turns around and buys a rip off strawberry dress from amazon how does that make sense, why say you don’t a company that steals from other artist then go and support a company that steals from other artists???. Let’s just call that person A, they don’t listen to anything and constantly trauma dump for no reason and randomly, it happens all the time in anatomy and if someone meantions something good and exciting they have to make it about themselves and turn into something sad, don’t get me wrong it’s good to do that but not in the middle of class when we are trying to learn about crap, It’s so fustrating and it brings me down and I’ve always been a gloom and doom but oh my god it’s starting to making ME feel bad... That’s a issue, a major issue. I can’t stand it, I have tired to help them but then they get mad at me, I told the guidance dean person some shit they where doing and they got mad at ME, but they where the only bitching and moaning about needing the help and all of a sudden it’s my fault, at this point I don’t think I care, why should I care? and a couple nights a ago A made a really fucked up joke about me then tired to gaslight me, what the actual fuck. Next time I am not helping them, becuase what are they going to do expect it??? I’m so sick of being fake nice to them. It’s getting boring and worse, on tuesday they made me a fucking candle... what the actual hell, it’s so weird and random and they keep giving me gifts that I clearly don’t want that I end up throwing out when I get home anyways and I have stated before hand to A that I don’t like the gifts and I don’t want more gifts but they don’t listen. Its extermly werid and makes me uncomfortable. What will it take to be listened too? My mom & dad don’t listen to me either so why would I be all shocked and surpised the only person that actually listens to me is my therapist and even then I don’t even know if she does. I like her advice and she’s nice but I am not so sure if she listens to me. I hust realized that A is wearing a light up flower crown in a cheap ripped off verison of the strawberry berry dress that instead of strawberries its cherrys and is wearing strawberry shoes with it INCULDING strawberry earrings, we get it you like fruit, and It’s so ugly too but oh my god. They keep trying to apologize for what they did the other night but why should I expect the fakest apology ever? I’m tired of fake apologies and I’m not even bothered. I fucking hate lunch so much, I have A in this class and it already makes it suck because of this but now 2 seniors chooce to fight RIGHT NEXT TO MY DESK pushing it off fully, I can’t stand this at all and they got mad at ME for yelling at them to stop and they didn’t even apologize not like I would believe it anyways but still. They refuse to do the bare minimum. And I just noticed that my senior year I won’t have any friends... My BEST (and only) FRIEND is graduating junior year because they got the qualifations for it... next year is the last year I’ll have her with me, that fucking hurts, I’ve been fake happy for the longest time since she’s told me because I don’t think I can handle the fact that I am loosing my best friend at school. I know we are still going to be friends but then who am I going to talk to at school, I don’t have any friends and I hate people. This is going to suck. High school is supposed to be my best four years then why doesn’t it feel ike it’s the best, it’s sucked worst than anything more. Lunch is almost over and I can’t type for any longer so I’m going to go and hopefully I am able to update everything or something. 

Sincerly Me

[patheticcpeach]

Life update 2021

Feb 2, 2021 4:04am

Currently watching the bachelor season 25 and its just full of drama which is so good lol. I live at my dads house now, i don't know if I ever told tumblr about the horrible roomate. I just feel like i need to rant about things that are pissing me off so I can sleep better because I feel like no one really cares about me or my opinions which can be good but at the same I want something, some feedback... so here we go!.

So in last august, a so called friend asked me to move in with her, her boyfriend and dog. It was beautiful 2 bed/2 bath, garage, apartment. Brand stinking new. Only people with good credit could even apply there. So she asks to me go have dinner with her and her sister which is great, considering the fact that I havent seen her since RT school. So we have dinner and it was good, then I start to tell her how badly I was struggling and it was just horrible breakdown. SHE QUICKLY ASKS ME TO MOVE IN WITH HER. Without the boyfriend knowing, cazy I KNOW. so desperate I agree and she makes me take things from my car. I was completely inshock, the very next day I gather all my stuff from jacobs house and I leave corcoran. finally so I thought. The next couple months were full of growth and just beautiful. THEN BAMMMM.. shit hits the motherfucking fan.

Itwas' thanksgiving night and I had went over to her family's house, I chose her FAMILY dinner over mine !! thats how much respect I had for her, I realized that the boyfriend wasnt as at dinner, so I ask because It was really weird that he wasnt there. Now her family dymaics is crazy but I have ALWAYS kept a safe distance and just focused on myself. There was several moments where I caught red flags with their relationship, but that was not my place/issue to deal with so I never cared about it. THE NEXT DAY, i realize that she still wasn't home which was werid and even the dog was gone. I was working 8-5 all that fucking week so i paid little mind to everything. That night when I got home, she still wasn't there. fine i guess? and he had been drinking and I was like okay//// lol\\\\\ i go to work the next day, and come home same thing. Then I leave my room for split min, and I ask if he was okay and he was drinking already so i was like okay??? and he starts going on, and i was just there to be an ear honestly. I guess thats where I went wrong.. (((keep in mind this is my POV))((obvi)). we were talking about things for about 30 mins when we decided to get more to drinks, I only had one and i wanted to get white claws and he wanted to go, but FOrGOT ABOUT THE FUCKING RING DOORBELL SHIT. so she sees us leave together then I make him go back and she calls me so fast, it was unbelievable. I still went to go get the white claws because he told me it was fine and that he would protect me?? MY MISTAKE. i get there with a pack of claws and not even one fuckinf sip before she enters the room with her parents. my heart drops. she is so fucking dramatic, FIRST OF ALL:::::: then they asked me to leave the room>???? WHAT>

in a panic, I call chels, jbony and i tell them, of course they don't do anything. then noah calls me and I tell him and he imediately helps me and is willing to pick me up with gabe. lovelies. I get a bag packed because I have work tomorrow morning and as i open the door, she dares to ask me to stay and have a quick chat. the vibes are COMPLETELY OFF, i was full of panic and mad because she has no right to get at me for NOTHING AND ITS NOT MY FAULT SHE IS INSECURE WITH HIM. the thing that pisses me off more is that they kept making the point "what if he had gone and driven off somewhere, you would have been responsible" ?????????????????????????????????????????????????? to this day i have never heard anything more stupid. [IF THEY CARED ABOUT HIS WELL BEING, DONT YOU THINK THAT THEY WOULD HAVE ACTED ON IT PRIOR] LITERALY THE DAY BEFORE. HE WAS DRINKING AND COULD HAVE TAKEN OFF BUT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN MY FAULT IF HE DROVE OFF THAT DAY!!!!! sis just say that your mad that he was talking to me and move on. so I full of rage and leave. slamed the door shut.

the next few days, are awkward.. they didn't not talk me at all, left the room when I was there and i was so confused. After yelling and complaing about how childish i am???? yet, you can't face me to tell me that you don't want me there. so they text me to say that i make them feel uncomfortable. alright. So i was looking for places and asking my dad if i could stay at his house, thank god he loves me and had a spare room. He didn't let me sleep there either. great. the next days were even more shitty and they were being little bitches about everything. but i got out.

in the long run, i knew in the back of my mind, i knew it wasn't going to work out. so noah and gabe want me to move in with them but i don't know how to tell them that i'm scared to live with close friends who are in a relationship because i don't want things to turn like they have before.

these past couple of days i have been wanting to get revenage on them for doing me so dirty but most of the research says to just let it go and it bothers them that I don't do anything more than me taking my anger out. BUT they still owe me my deposit 200 + 40, for throwing out my wine and white claws. I want to show up at his job and just confront him about my money. because i want it. fuck them.