#to be clear. v happy with ppl interacting with ME

[kindnessoverperfection]

[pristine-starlight]

This is very early on in Network Effect but even with the million Big Emotions that happen in the rest of the book, this is still one of my absolute favourite moments in it

Overse and Murderbot are in the same room here and Yet she's not only not looking directly at Murderbot, she smiles at the drone hovering by her, recognising it as a part of Murderbot instead of just some handy toy controlled by a human-shaped thing

Murderbot's humans accomodate it in a lot of small ways that make me very, very happy to read (all the times it's pointed out that they're looking at the side of its head or not at it at all, all the aborted movements when they'd go to touch it and then remember not to, etc) but this one stuck with me so bad bc it's not something you would ever have to think about with a human. And it's not like Murderbot ever asked people to look at its drones specifically. Overse just...does it, possibly without thinking deeper about it. Because the drone is simply another part of her friend

[audiovisualrecall]

Tfw you feel so alone and it's entirely your fault because you cant seem to function at all

[volfoss]

how about ranking bucciarati's team?

regret to inform you that ur gonna get a very long answer bc i have passionate feelings about them all! also trish is in this bc she is part of the team and no one will tell me otherwise and will also include some rambling bc it is me and i have so many feelings towards these characters and none of them r cohesive

under the cut just in case (post writing yes it was long)

Giorno Giovanna:

way way more complex than ppl normally give him credit for (i will not go into feelings on how a majority of the fandom treats him unless ppl want me to then i will in fact make a very long ranty post and will not be stopped)

mildly op (esp at the beginning with how hes kind of able to just use his stand really well w no problems altho i think thats true of most of the jojos that we have seen animated?)

i am emotionally attached to him and want to give him a big hug

hes just a kinda goofy kid and is maybe a bit not good with figuring out hey this is a semi dangerous situation maybe i shouldnt be taunting him (leaky eye luca for example)

has the actual best theme

i love how he works off the rest of the team so well (even w members who do not like him)

is in my top 3 jojos i love this kid sm i would adopt him if he was real

7/10

Bruno Bucciarati:

the fucking way his character develops from licky man to best dad material is my favorite thing

his outfit is so so so good i would die to wear it

in general this man is one of my fave jojos characters and i get a lot of comfort from him

hes just really neat and has a good taste in music

he did his fucking best and i will always love him for that

imo the way that his death was drawn out was genuinely one of the most heartbreaking deaths in the entire series and fucks me up each time i think of it

i feel like he really is the one to hold the team together in a way that everyone feels cared for and saved

def has a savior complex tho for sure

dilf but im ace

also manga superiority bc he either makes the stupidest faces or looks very nice (anime has a lot of weird animation in regards to his face) and also because its lingerie there instead of a tattoo that changes thickness and placement every second

10/10

Leone Abbacchio:

guilty pleasure liking man

i am obsessed with his vibes and wish to become him

i cannot physically express just how much i love him but hes one of my faves of all time (not obvious by my theme at all wdym)

i miss his manga palette but also the colored manga isnt my beloved but also black lipstick abba

hot take maybe but anime abba looks better than manga minus the lipstick debacle

hes so so tall and i will steal his height in a nice way

his past man his past it fucks me up

his death fucks me up normally but when i was rewatching recently, i saw he gave this tiny lil smile after helping the kids get their ball and i could not take it anymore

him and brunos relationship (canonically and out of canon too) is one of my favorites in the series

also fandom hot take as i guess i am doing those for everyone- but ppl either have him as cosntantly trying to murder giorno or being like good son and v out of character, and it is really weird? not sayign that ill do better when i write them but also like im convinced some ppl havent seen the show or smth

i will steal both him and bruno and marry them both <3

this man is beloved i love him to death

10/10

Pannacotta Fugo:

i cannot spell his first name to save my life

also fandom take- ppl make him constantly only angry boy all the time and it really irks me. ik araki did not give him 2 much to work w in terms of canon personality but its frustrating

the light novel purple haze feedback is so so so good and adds sm to his character and i really like it for that!

fugo is one of those that imo deserves a lot and didnt get that

genuinely the vibes between how he treats narancia is v interesting to me, like its clear he cares about nara but nara not doing great w math really frustrates him

i love their interactions and how he is genuinely a kind person at times

the manga colors r superior here, my strawberry boy <3

i just really love and appreciate him a lot and wish that ppl gave him more love

i keep getting assigned him on kin quizzes

very smart good boy

ALSO ok fugo did not do any wrong by leaving

unsure if thats a hot take but i genuinely dont blame the character one bit for leaving and again purple haze feedback really delves into that and why he did it

if ur a fugo fan go read it

his past is really upsetting esp in the anime i will cry over it

his stand is adorable and i wanna hug it

his vibes r fun and i wanna gift him strawberry dangly earrings

8/10

Narancia Ghirga:

this boy i am also adopting (i am adopting most of them sorry)

i really hate how ppl act as if hes stupid bc bad math skills do not equal stupid like did ppl not see the fight w formaggio??

the way he just fucking dove into the water after the boat and how brunos face went all soft and happy it will never not make me cry

he is constnatnly making me wanna cry if i think too much about him for 2 seconds i love him sm

how can anyone not adore him when he set an entire street on fire yk

hes just happy despite his past and it makes me sad i love nara sm

torture dance is one of my favorite memes from the show

ALSO ok the way he died so suddenly absolutely broke me bc the remaining team members r really just seeing everyone die in front of them so quickly

his goofy and laid back moments r my fave

i love just how loyal and caring he is to his friends

his stand is really cool and again the fight w formaggio was so fun to watch

8/10

Guido Mista:

probably my least favorite member of the team for a semi good reason:

the jokes towards trish are really really uncomfy and how fugo doesnt wanna be involved but he is pushing him to do something that makes him uncomfortable did not make me like him a lot

hes goofy but not goofy enough for me to be ok with the repeated jokes about that esp in the body swap episode (ik it was supposed to be funny but it just felt off)

his vibes r good but i wish we got to see his hair

the fandom interpretation is normally pretty good of him overall?

despite not loving him a lot, i really enjoying writing for him (one day might open up headcanon requests or smth but unsure)

hes someone id wanna watch movies w but his taste in movies and mine r very different

love how he and his stand get along

honestly has very very good comedic potential

i really like how he and giorno interact as the series goes on (in a platonic way i need to clarify that i love their friendship)

again him in purple haze feedback was really interesting

probably a 5/10?

Trish Una:

beloved and deserved better

her first outfit in the manga > outfit in the anime

actually in general i believe in manga trish superiority like her hair in the manga looks so cool

her stand her stand her stand i love sm

if u dont include trish in the group i am murdering u <3

HER CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT!!!! IS SO GOOD!!!!!!

fandom gripe is how people either pretend she does not exist or has the trish first introduction thing where shes using her defense mechanisms and acting a bit spoiled

OK but her in purple haze feedback!!! mild spoilers but how bruno was taking care of her post the ending of vento aureo makes me so happy each time i think of it

very mad that she canonically didnt really get an ending and yet again PHF my beloved actually gave her that

how spice girl starts out as a stand thats helping her thru a very stressful situation is so cool and i love it

DAD BRUNO DAD BRUNO DAD BRUNO *frothes at the mouth*

but more seriously how she leans on bruno and begins 2 trust him and nearly point blank is referring to him as a father figure always fucks me up

esp because of the resulting fight afterwards

and the very ending of the arc that ends w bruno being like bye gonna go in the clouds and look ethereal now, oh man it makes me so sad

bc giorno is the only one that knew what happened and people that were closer to bruno due to knowing him longer didnt

i wanna see how trish coped w that personally

despite being introduced not at the beginning i think her arc and character in general were as well paced as it could be!

9/10

finally done! sorry that took so long but oh man i have so many feelings towards these guys its not even funny

[antarestyl]

Got not tagged but saw this meme and wanted to do it :D

I tag @namekian-maoh and whoever else wanna try!

How many works do you have on AO3?

56 so far.

What’s your total AO3 word count?

600021 at this moment... damnit, I like nice and round numbers more XD

How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

29 XD well, some are crossover and some are almost-the-same (especially with Video games where I often take multiple entires in a series into account and tag them accordingly)

As for my fandoms:

Video games: Amnesia: The Dark Descent, Among Us, Bowser's Fury, Deltarune, Don't Starve, Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim, Final Fantasy XV, Luigi's Mansion, Mario & Luigi RPG, Monkey Island, Pikmin, Pocket Monsters | Pokemon, Super Mario & Related Fandoms, Super Mario Bros, Super Mario Odyssey, Super Paper Mario, Undertale, (+ AU of Undertale)

Comic/Cartoon/Manga/Anime: Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Monsters, Yu-Gi-Oh! (All Media Types), Homestuck, Gravity Falls, DCU (Comics), Booster Gold (Comics),  Blue Beetle (Comics)

Books/Movies/Divers: Harry Potter, Mystery Skulls Animated, Olsen-banden | The Olsen Gang (Movies), Ties of Lapis (Skyrim-AU),

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

1. PTA Sans and other glorious things       

73016 words, 3192 Kudos, so far my most successful work XD It’s still ongoing. Undertale Fanfic, Monster-on-the-Surface, True Pacifist Ending, PTA AU, SansxToriel in the Background, everybody is here, mostly happy, silly and only a small dose of angst from time to time. Later chapters with more story.

2. TrioBlasterSets AU - Six puppys and 3 flames                 

270813 word, 758 Kudos. I write this AU together with @namekian-maoh . Still ongoing. Undertale Baby-Blaster AU with some Underfell and Underswap thrown into it. Dadby, Badster, mostly family fluff and dealing with the experiment!gaster-blaster Background of 3 skeleton children. Also 3 flames who take care of them that have way more drama going on themselves than nessessary. Chapters are not in chronological order. Has a few Spin-offs too (including some NSFW oneshorts about the flames and their relationship ;) )

3. So I won't regret another day 

19214 words, 320 Kudos. Undertale Underfell AU, Underfell Sansby with some healthy relationships, the planning of a revolt against an insane king, monster still being monster and not really made for violence in an violent setting. If officially finished but I write new chapters when the fancy strikes me.

4. Grillby's                 

9894 words, 265 Kudos. Deltarune/Undertale fanfic with a Spin, named Plushyrune (aka Deltarune where eveything is the same, just with Sansby and Sans makes plushies). Started as just pure silly fluff, kinda got a plot now about the kids of Deltarune. Still ongoing, new chapter is 80% done ;)

5. Something old, something new... 

6579 words, 208 Kudos. Pure Post-Pacifist Surface Sansby fluff. Mostly from Grillby’s POV how they fall in love and be silly and in love. Still ongoing, haven’t really had to mojo to write more for it lately, but I WILL return at some point.

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I try to! I used to not comment on comments because I had this irrational feeling of “cheating the numbers” if I reply to comments but... screw that, I want to interact with people! So I try to answer any and all comments now :)

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Ufff, for me it’s a tie between The last chip  and Laughter in the Darkness. The Last Chip is a Yu-gi-Oh! Fanfic in a series of Kaiba spiraling downwards after the Manga/Anime ended and sets up the events of Dark Site of Dimensions. It ends pretty much with Kaiba ending up getting borderline suicidal in his Obsession with the Pharaoh.

Laughter in the Darkness is the Epilog I wrote for my Gravity Falls x Amnesia Crossover where Ford is pretty much an Amnesia-Protagonist and archives the very worst ending for himself. Mind the tags if you read this. It ends with Ford at the lowest possible point for himself and its open ended if he is going fully insane or if Bill Chiper really is still around. (and it’s not clear what outcome is the better one)

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Nah, not really. I am a chill writer in my own little corners of the fandom and most people leave me alone. I did get one “But Queer is a SLUR” comment way back in the day where it was still all “????” to say that out loud. But otherwise? Nah. I am not important enough for hate, lol.

Do you write smut? If so what kind?

I have XD Not much thou. I wrote so far an mastubation scene with the one going down on himself heavily NOT BEING ALRIGHT while doing so XD Other than that I have 2 NSFW Undertale fics with some hot flame-on-flame action. I do like writing not-standard-sex (as in Sex that doesn’t requite human genitila) Otherwise I like to hint or describe feelings more than the act itself. More lime than lemon ;)

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of. As I said, I am not important enough for that.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

I had some ppl asking for permission to translate (which of course) but as far as I know there are no translations out there as of yet.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yeah, I am writing the TrioBlasterSet AU with @namekian-maoh I did Co-write some fics way back during my fanfiction.de time too but that’s a long time ago.

What’s your all time favorite ship?

I ship a lot and am a dirty multishipper XD I have to many ships to really call one out as my favorite.

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

TrioBlasterSets AU because there is always MORE to tell with this AU XD

What are your writing strengths?

I am the Queen of Worldbuilding and Crossovers baby!

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

Only do it if you have a REALLY good reason for it AND if you have a good gasp on the language. Like, nothing takes me out of a fic faster than reading stuff in horrible German written by people who were to lazy to just copy/paste the word from google translate (my time in the Apollo Justice fandom has seriously scared me. It’s Fräulein, not Fraulein or Fraülein! Also you can’t just swap ei and ie around THOSE ARE DIFFERENT SOUNDS! als we have the letter ß it’s a shap s sound you can’t just use/not use it as you please!)

Also in 90% of all cases it’s just not nessessary. Write what you wanna write, TELL us it was said in a different language OR let the POV character just tell us their hear something said in an other language they couldn’t understand.

What I want to say is: Have some respect of the language you want to use!

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What was the first fandom you ever wrote for?

I THINK it was Harry Potter? IDK I wrote a cringy Star Trek Parodie when I was like 14 or so and those OCs went through a lot from that time on forward but Idk if that even counts XD

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What’s your favorite fic you’ve ever written?

The Game of Our Life It’s a series of Mario x Homestuck Fics I wrote before Undertale came along and swept me away XD I love all my fics of course but this one was the first really big one I finished on english and it was the one I am most proud of of the world-building. It has angst, it has lore, my writing style was just really developing there and I am just proud of it. (Also it’s very self-indulging so yeah XD love it a LOT)

[archived-kin]

Hi hello. I just read your Simeon bf himbo angel post and I. Fuckin. Love. It. So. Much. I'm like the Cheshire cat grinning so bloody much. It made me so giddy and I just wanna jump over the moon! I'm a 150cm girl and hmmm probably never going to be a beefy himbo in my life but it was so wonderul coming across a post like this. Yes to more male mc content! Get that visibility and presence! ✨the dynamics✨✨the theatrics✨✨the execution✨ just makes me melt into goo and wanna endear myself entirely to the post. 🥺 The longevity and dedication that Simeon and best Boi himbo have for each other. 2 millenia even tho it's probs relative to their ages but still damn 🥺the face planting for Belphie and the stray cat 🥺 Dia getting a shoulder rollercoaster ride 🥺 Levi being super duper comfortable with someone 🥺 Lucifer being cute Tryna pretend he can't lift shit 🥺 Barb doting on himbo angel (iwishthatwasmehaha). I just jehfufidjoeufhdp0wuej khlfhoe I LOVE IT SO FRICKIN MUCH U DONT EVEN KNOW. U MADE MY DAY. DELIVERED WHAT I DIDNT KNOW I NEEDED. I have now screenshot n saved this into my gallery. Endorphin boost as it's one of my fav posts now. It was sublimely written so 👏please 👏give 👏 yourself 👏due 👏credit 👏I also just wanted to ask how does Luci not know himbo bf even tho he's older than Luke? (Cuz mcpridey recognises chihuahua) it's all g if u don't have any answer for it, I'm just so enamoured by the piece 🥰 Seriously thank you. You delivered on the relationship quirks for each obm character which were so vibrant and entertaining! I WOULD DIE TO SEE HIMBO3 COMBO NWKFUJOEWB! Tough Bois who can be soft Bois and smol beans just deserve all the love and recognition. 💖 Thank you. I would like to respectfully smooch every single one of them. You made me ✨feel✨ blissful emotions which have been sparse cuz of my shit sleeping schedule. I sincerely hope you have been doing well. I just uh. Man the loyalty and love that those two have for each other kinda makes me emotional? Cuz I kinda think it's so hard to find and maintain that in real life? N v few ppl manage to leave life with that love? It's just so sweet to imagine n be wistful about it. Hehe I'm ready (whenever U r -plz no pressure) to read it other stuff since this post has made me dedicate my undying love to u n the piece itself. It just made my day. Thank you again 😍

Anon who couldn't send in the first ask 😭 (I think I'm a bit more subdued ver.2 cuz I'm more tired lol sorry)

P.S The sheer death sentence that would warrant any pea brain to speak ill of himbo angel is hilarious. The horizon just has the nobility and royalty death glaring at the fool while himbo turns around and is like 🌻guys!🌻 N it's all warm smiles until beefy Boi turns back around. N the candy making 🍭. The gardening 💐 I'm sobbing at the wholesomeness 🥺 lol I actually don't usually go for himbos but it's just too good 🤍

ANON DO YOU WANT TO KILL ME?? IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT??? I'M GOING TO CRY YOU'RE SO SWEET AHHHHHHHHHHH

thank you so much for taking the time to tell me this!!!! i really can't express how darn happy it made me and i'm so glad that you enjoy my writing this much!! to answer your question about how lucifer knows luke but not our lovely boy - the way i see it, i'm pretty sure luke knew lucifer before he fell, since we're told that he used to admire him even more than michael before he and the brothers rebelled and fell from the celestial realm (though i'd assume he was still very young and doesn't remember it clearly, since he apparently doesn't remember lilith), and i'd assume that he and lucifer have interacted since while the latter was a demon considering how much luke apparently hates him and how familiar lucifer's teasing is, while himbo angel hasn't really stepped foot out of the celestial realm and his gardens until joining simeon during his transfer year and was made during the war, which means that lucifer wouldn't have had an opportunity to meet him outside of maybe seeing him head butting demons out of the sky

hope that clears things up!! and thank you again for you message, i'm pretty sure it's made my entire week :'))))))

[cynical-amphisbaenia]

Hello, can I get help with choosing a classpect?

Personality wise I'm,,, I'm balancing somewhere between a realist and pessimist? I try to take things as they are, but that negativity often creeps up on me(oof). I kinda have a hard time starting friendships bc I tend to doubt people v hard (and lowkey afraid of new things), but if we end up getting close Ill love making silly little things for them and tease them too if I can :p

I also don't vibe with any sort of religions at all bc believing in shit is too much work and also I'm too painfully realist for believing in any sort of Great Entity.

I don't aim for any great goals and in school I had a "eh, minimum requirement is good enough" kind of attitude.

I often need a break from communication, as relationships can be very hard for me to manage.

As for my likes/hobbies: I will love drawing until I die and it's very important for me. I'm attracted to things that are a mix of weird and maybe cute! But I also like a pinch of horror.

- I feel like one of my biggest life themes is emptyness(???): almost no friends, no one to actually call my family, no experience with life, no ambition or clear identity.

Bc of that, I've been coping emotionally through drawing my whole life.

- Any sort of decision is a major struggle, bc I never seem to know myself enough to know what I want or who I am, and its very hard to step up for myself.

- Bc of a deficit of love in my life and abusive family I've been pursuing getting attention and approval from other people. But in the end, I'm just afraid of showing any of my bizarre-ish interests and afraid of judgement if I take any wrong steps in the eyes of ppl I want to impress.

- I'm extremely afraid of being judged for not being smart or wise bc of how my brain is or how little life experience I have.

- I've developed depression and anxiety, and some years ago I've hit my lowest point where I was running from confronting anything at all until it all came crushing down. After that, I also had to face the hopelessness of my family and If it wasn't for one of my closest friends, I would've stayed in the same shitty spot I was born in and would've stayed absolutely miserable.

-If I had to define my end goal in life, it would be to...just being able to Vibe by myself successfuly. To hate myself less, to be less ashamed of things that make me happy. To maybe be more fine with the fact that I don't have to fit myself into any box right away or at all. Be able to make tiny steps into the right direction no matter how afraid I am or the shitty situation I came from. Be just a bit more happy.

There's are few different aspects I would consider. These are Rage, Hope, Heart or Void. I am inclined to say Heart or Void the most, but I’ll go through them all in case one of the others stand out to you more.

For Rage and Void, I would consider the classes Heir or Rogue as these aspects seem to easily surround you. They come quite naturally, which is like an Heir, but also seem to mostly be negative parts of them which occurs often for Rogues. Your end goal aligns nicely with being a Rogue, however it’s difficult to tell how you interact with your aspect. If Rage or Void does seem like the right fit to you, you will need to consider if you change or steal it - for example, if you wanted to get rid of any negative emotions you’re feeling, would you find a way to change/shift them into neutral or positive ones or would you steal/place them away to deal with later (or never)? Also, I lean toward it being Void as it appears more often in your life and any instances of Rage could be due to how they overlap, but if Rage stands out to you more than Void then you may want to consider it.

On the other hand, being a destructive class could also explain your similarities to these aspects. Being a Prince or Bard of Hope would align well with your Rage-like experiences but lack of a connection to religion. You do also wish to destroy less Hope in yourself and be happier. This is a weaker connection though, so unless you’re considering Rage more than Void, feel free to ignore that suggestion. The main one you want to consider is Bard or Prince of Heart - destroying Heart may be why you struggle to understand yourself and it relates to your worry about being judged and feeling ashamed about your interests. Destruction of Heart comes up multiple times throughout your ask.

So, determining between Rogue/Heir of Void and Bard/Prince of Heart is going to be difficult. You don’t entirely know who you are. A way to try to figure this out could be to decide on why this is - does it feel natural for you to be confused about yourself, that maybe this uncertainty is just a part of who you are (Void)? Or does it feel wrong to not know yourself, that parts of yourself have been destroyed and that you need to find them again (Heart)? 

I hope this helps but feel free to ask me any more questions!! ^^

[sailorvinus]

One thing I like about your portrayal, and something I admire in general, is that you are very confident in everything you do and while we're still new in interacting it is honestly pretty infectious. Plus, I don't really know what I'm getting from you in a really fun way, it's clear that you're really solid in your portrayal of Vi and you know what you're doing. I feel like I'm repeating myself, but generally you have a really great blog here with a great character. It's been a fun time reading stuff from you.

✨ @emptyvictory. meme. still accepting!

tbh i am also walking in to our own threads not knowing what vis gonna say or do. i dont even know what kind of mood he'll be in. some days i think he's pretty fine but then ill pull a reply out of my ass where he's obviously on the brink and one manic episode away from getting a tattoo that says ' i'll die when i'm dead ' on his ass.

truthfully

i am not happy with a reply until i reread my own work with this exact expression on my face

doesnt matter how serious or not-so-serious the thread is!!! it helps when u take ur sleeping medication too early so ur brain is working at a capacity that could only be described as a wet spaghetti noodle that was thrown against the wall of a cheap motel where people go when they need a place to scream along with some ice from the half working ice machine, sliding slowly and into a garbage can filled with funfetti near the pool. replies at that point are an enigma until fully written at that point..... that i just dont like plotting, im very much an on-the-go rper. lgkfjdsgjdfk.

also yes in v confident..... i wasnt born into this world just to be humble and whatever the fuck. im certainly not here to be besties with everyone or make anyone comfortable. im here to cut up! ppl do get mad at me often and i have been called egotistical, a bitch, and loaded with an attitude of being better than everyone else. which. theyre right. 

anyway thank u.... u kno i luv u, ur writing, and niko. niko’s a treasure.... 10 / 10 ready to beat someones ass for him. u got me caring about this man and i aint even play the game yet...!!!!

[jiminieloved]

I’m happy to read that I wasn’t the only one who found it awkward. I enjoyed watching their reactions to trying to figure out what they were trying to make. Tae didn’t look interested and Jungkook just looked lost lol it was quite funny. I’m a kindergarten teacher so art class is always fun and this is what it reminded me of. If they don’t have clear direction and left on their own they go through many emotions spoken through their eyes and expressions

Okay I’ve watched it now and I think it is a little awkward. a lot of long silences and awkward eye contact, I don’t know.. once they got more into their crafts and started playing music it got less painful to watch. 

I think the vlive came off as awkward cuz jk obviously was shy like he was soo engrossed in his work n also understandable cuz the man hasnt done sole vlive for a year now. And V kinda stays quiet these days n hes not that chaotic anymore.... so u think it got a little awkward.

They were both acting awkward, but as I said in my previous asks, there’s a lot of pressure with a livestream that will be watched by millions of people, so I kind of get it. 

Listen the vlive was cute especially when ugh started playing but tk just don't have "it". Like shipping aside compare it to the other paired vlives, I get it that jk was focus on his flower but tae was free to start any conversation or something, his solo vlive he was doing so good singing and talking to armys really love his FM shows, but here it was just :/ not trying to start a war, I'm just being honest.

damn harsh

lol I actually didn't think the vlive was awkward maybe a little in the beginning it was just that they didn't seem to have much natural chemistry and rapport so it was kind of bland and boring

I thought it was awkward at the beginning and they got more comfortable as they went. 

Hey! I just saw tae and jks vlive n i dont wanna trigger anyone n i love taekook but didnt u feel it was a bit awkward like i saw all other vlives n even tho hobi n rm did similar vlive as tae n jk but it was not that awkward. I dunno this vlive just felt a bit off to me? Maybe it was just them feeling awkward i dunno. Its just my opinion. What do u feel bout it?

Yeah, it was awkward compared to the other member’s recent vlives. I think they felt awkward for whatever reason. 

I started watching the Vlive too and Tae and JK are so chill and slow and calm and awkward that it feels like a minute equals five, I can't stop laughing. They're so cute though, I don't mean it in a negative way. :)

Haha they were so focused and methodical.

Hey what are your thoughts on taekook vlive?

These are my thoughts. 

Pt. 1 Everyone thinks that one must dislike Tae or Kook to believe they aren't super close. I believe they love and appreciate each other no doubt but their dynamic has been awkward since 2016 imo. Every time they are alone together it feels uncomfortable. I See this in BVs3 when they share the same room, Vlives etc. I don't claim to know why, I have opinions but won't elaborate much in anon, but their discomfort is undeniably felt. Pt. 2 There have been people in my friend circles that vibe well with me in group but alone we seem to have very little to say to each other and it's awkward. I've grown apart from ppl that once upon a time used to be my close friends but when we tried to reconnect discomfort was apparent. This isn't to say I hated these people, contrary i liked them but no longer vibed with them and it took a group to make our interactions less awkward. 

I get what you mean for sure. It could’ve just been the camera / livestream aspect, though. Oh just saw your part 3.

This is the nature of growing up with people. I always see people saying they are super closer and I feel guilty for disagreeing. They are close in the familial sense but in the chemistry sense I don't see it and haven't seen it since 2015. I know a lot of ppl feel the same but are scared of being attacked for saying it because saying anything against tk makes one an anti. But simply put, we feel their discomfort not because they are hiding a secret love imo but because they are uncomfort

They were extremely close in early BTS days, and I think people grow and change. Not to say I don’t think they’re close anymore because that is by no means my place to say, but it did seem that they were kind of awkward interacting with each other. 

And it could be the added dynamic of being so heavily and aggressively shipped by your fans and having every moment over sexualized- that would make me feel a bit cautious of what i do on or say camera with them as well.

Girl, even taekookers themselves noticed how awkward they were 💀 Search "taekook awkward" on Twitter and you'll see. The delulu ones blame the staff for the awkwardness

Lol

dont you think jungkook is awkward during lives with any member tho? i think the only time he wasnt awkward was during jikook's vlive in december 2017 before the wings tour finale. in ot7s lives he's okay but now with one other member.

I don’t think he’s awkward in every vlive. This one stuck out to me as awkward, but no other vlive (besides that one where Jimin was sitting on the bed, which was awkward in a different way) felt awkward. In my opinion. 

Lol this was a hot topic, thanks for sharing your thoughts and opinions. 

[outragedslime]

I'm not that anon and neither am I against meat Roxy but some people don't seem to like that iteration bc of the widely accepted reading of Roxy as a transfeminine character. Idk how much of it is canon-supported and how much is just hcs tho

I mean if ppl liked transfem roxy then go ahead but. I like transmasc roxy and making me tag my own art in a way that lets people blacklist my art out from my blog makes me Super uncomfy. Like?? If u dont like it just unfollow me or if u dont wanna see my art in the roxy tag u can block me its not that deep... idk how to phrase this well but ive so many thoughts abt this. Again ill say i woke up almost 22 hrs ago so im v sleepy so i might phrase things wrong but here we go (also sorry for rambling here but i rly wanna get this out bc its been bothering me for ages and im!! Upset! This big rant isnt specific @ u this is like in general i wanted to type it in a post anyway but i was scared but fuck it ykno.) Id do a read more but im on mobile ill edit it later

Like we all agree that its bad to erase canon gay charas right? So like...why is it g to erase canon trans characters. Like yeah it was a popular headcanon but like......?? Headcanons get deconfirmed sometimes it happens??? It makes me feel like having a woman hc for roxy is more important than having a transmasc canon, which is. A constant self doubt of mine like i worry people will see me as lesser bc im trans and ive also seen it happen! So thats not very nice! To see the fandom treat a canon trans character as "lesser" bc theyre not trans in the way they want!

Also roxy is literally the only positive transmasc character ive ever seen in any piece of media. Ever. So that adds to it. The amnt of ppl who i seen say shit like "give her back u dont deserve her" like? That shit hurts!! Im sorry but it does! Constantly being told that a character being revealed as transmasc is "not worth it" is one of the things that makes me wanna leave the hs fandom bc holy shit!! Thats so transphobic!

Roxy is also rly rly important to me bc ive never seen a canon nb character who uses he/him either and like! I never saw rep lile that! If ur srsly mad abt transmasc roxy and want to be able to filter him out bc u prefer a different hc pls take a step back and look at urself and see how that can be transphobic. Like u can recognise that a character was important to u and like... be mature enough that u dont make ppl feel like shit when they now vibe w that same character? I used to hc transmasc vriska and i drew a few super self indulgent drawings that i didnt post publically and it was a Super important hc to me but i wouldnt draw that again now that vriskas confirmed transfem bc im not an asshole? If u see a trans character and ur first thought is "theyre not trans in the Better way though so i hate this and will make it clear to the people who like this that i hate this" thats transphobic.

Do u have to like transmasc roxy? Fuck no! U dont have to do anything. But srsly @ that anon earlier: like if thats ur reasoning, why would you go to me when i clearly take a lot of comfort in this character (i even Said seratonin time like. I draw roxy and i get an instant boost of euphoria) and imply that u do not want to see it. Like if u do not want to see it u can just unfollow or block me. Instead u make me feel like shit if im being honest! Ik that wasnt the intention so i dont blame u ily n im sorry if im bein angry this has just been building up for a long time. Like "tag this Canon trans character u relate to and love so i dont have to see him" that..doesnt feel good. Pls be mindful of that h,,

Like if u hc roxy as transfem im not gonna stop you like you do you, im not saying this to bash at transfem hcs. But i literally mean it in the nicest way possible, u dont have to interact w my stuff if u dont like it or if it makes u feel bad. Instead of coming to me and making Me feel bad. U can just unfollow and thered be no hard feelings. I draw stuff to make me happy, and if that stuff doesnt make u happy u dont have to stay, but i dont want to post art of the only positive canon transmasc character i know that makes me feel euphoric and tag it deliberately knowing theres people out there who will actively blacklist that specific drawing. Im not saying its bad to blacklist it, u can blacklist it, but im personally rly uncomfortable w that happening w my art of this specific character so if u dont want to see it u can just. Unfollow. Like 100% no hard feelings im not trying to be cheeky i just think itd be most comfortable for everyone involved bc i dont wanna sacrifice my own comfort and euphoria for other ppl.

Sorry for writing so much and ty if u read this ✌

[somnilogical]

case study: elle benjamin

the rationality community's least skilled exploiter of transmisogynistic coordination points known to me

when thinking about strategy, i often use the least sophisticated version of a given strategy that i know of to reason about the minimal elements of the strategy in general. i have an index of unsophisticated versions of things that i ping and ask "is this strategy basically this vector but with more optimization power behind it?" it helps compress a lot of information. to check, i can make a prediction given a set of examples of the pattern and test it.

(like i did with the transmisogynistic rationalist orgs "i bet this org has 0 transfems in positions of power" and yep they did, they all did.)

and thats how i factor strategies generated by agents with large amounts of optimization power. who might have more ability to optimize in a domain than i do.

both of these claims are false. elle benjamin never let emma into the group. shes culpable for her continued choice to "believe" bigoted propaganda. just as davis tower kingsley is culpable for "believing" that anna salamon, the president of cfar, isnt involved in cfar's hiring.

elle benjamin is deeply concerned about the treatment of trans people in the rationalist community. elle isnt that good at social optimization so this is an obvious false face. like a cop during segregation who runs an algorithm of "smile at people" if no black people are using the WHITE water fountain and "beat up a human" if a black human uses the WHITE water fountain. as long as trans women know their place as violent abusers like ▘▕▜▋, elle is happy.

if we start claiming we are women just the same as them and how people are treating us is wrong, if we protest against omnicide, if other people are coordinating against trans women along lines of transmisogyny; then elle decides its time to show us our place in the social order as male. violent, child abuse loving, misogynistic, strong-arming, men.

this decision-circuit is not peaceful. people who start trying to exploit transmisogyny in an attempt to coordinate with others against you only when you look vulnerable or they think they can get away with it and otherwise smile at transfems are with their whole soul given over to transmisogyny.

erica's post is so passive-aggressive!

<<One issue is that i think this group is just too large to remain a high trust environment.>>

<<Thanks everyone for keeping this a civil place that deals with sensitive issues all these years!>>

in reference to my blog posts about how they didnt have any transfem mods and immediately took down hot allostatic load because it was a [[bad culture fit]] and [[incoherent]]. as if i were expected to keep some confidentiality about transmisogyny. i have no loyalty to keeping secret that kind of oppression, i signed no contract to that effect.

as if telling other trans people exactly what they did was "uncivil"! as if it were ruinous to society instead of ruinous to a cis women coordinating on transmisogyny.

as if posting hot allostatic load and talking about transmisogyny on my blog were less "sensitive" than the other things the group was doing which included posts like "How many romantic novels/movies/etc do we have left, once we take away all the ones focused on a man relentlessly trying to convince a woman through trickery and persistence and stalking that she should really have sex with him" and "the White Knight/Damsel in Distress dynamic" at the time HAL was taken down.

https://somnilogical.tumblr.com/post/175420481784/i-tried-to-post-to-rationalist-feminists-closed

its an equilibrium where anyone opposing the "peace" of transmisogyny is labeled "antisocial" and "disrupting things".

would you say this woman is being misogynistic and "strong-arming" a female DA?

<<Last year, I was arrested twice in Sonoma County at Sunrise Farms and then Petaluma Poultry, two massive industrial farms that torture and kill hundreds of thousands of birds- while lying to the public about how these animals are treated. My crime? Asking the county to help the starving animals inside. Not just asking by email or phone call or office visit (though all these efforts were made and ignored), but asking by going right to the frontlines myself, exercising my statutory right to help neglected animals, and calling the attention of the authorities to this pervasive cruelty. The fact that the sheriffs chose to arrest us and ignore the animal cruelty broke my heart. It's hard to believe we live in a world where helping someone who is dying is the "crime" and not putting that life in danger in the first place. But have hope that this will change, and my hope growing.>>

<<Now, in response to the action at Reichardt, Sonoma County District Attorney Jill Ravitch has decided to file additional charges against me, Priya Sawhney, and Wayne Hsiung. We are already facing 7 felonies and 5 misdemeanors and we're still fighting for animals every day. Do you think new charges will stop us? No. And it wont stop the movement, either. They think they can stop DxE by targeting leadership, but they don't understand that we are a network of leaders. That every single one of us is leading the world to one of the biggest changes it will ever see. #RightToRescue>>

probably not because shes cis and looks like:

laying down and making it clear that you offer no impediment to mass murder is not a female thing, its not a feminist thing. its a *you* thing, elle benjamin.

someone commented on the screenshots:

<<(It feels relevant that when I met this person a few months ago they went on a rant about the evils of TERF’s before telling me I couldn’t experience misogyny bc I was “male-socialised.” They apologised quickly after having it explained but the idea of their being the Font of Wisdom about transness to rats is insane.)>>

https://loving-not-heyting.tumblr.com/post/614660027724283904/ht-somni-for-screengrabs-this-sums-up-absolutely

ozy brennan, i know what the fuck im talking about when i say "transmisogyny". ive been lied to then kicked out of a homeless shelter for being a trans woman. several men forced me to the ground and held me down and cut off my clothes while i shouted "I DONT CONSENT" locked me in a bare room then crowded around a window embedded in a door and said "i told you it was a guy" and a bunch of people came to gawk at my naked body. and so much more.

some of my interactions on the street in the bay:

<<at bart ppl would call me an ugly bitch and ask me to sleep with them in exchange for meth

someone tried to sell me something and i was like "im not interested in being scammed today" and they were like "bitch!!!"

i walked around in sf talking with a homeless women for ~8 hours and someone asked if we had boyfriends and offered to sell us meth if we went with him and i was like "no thanks" and she was like "how much?" but it was too expensive or something. she showed me lots of places to get food and shelter.

and like if i sit down in places for long enough people will come up to me and ask me if i have a boyfriend or if i want to go get coffee with them on a date.

sometimes ppl ask where im *really* from and if i was born a girl. sometimes ppl touch me on my back or thigh.>>

ive compared notes with cisfems, i get more solicitations to have sex with men in exchange for meth.

this isnt oppression olympics, this is "maybe 7-8 years ago when i started transitioning i didnt have a detailed model of transmisogyny, but now i cant not have one". alyssa vance could have one too (and know things like elle is the kind of person who exploits transmisogyny whenever she gets a chance) if she werent busy using her adult intelligence to defeat itself for miri/cfar.

what elle benjamin did was transmisogynistic and i can arbitrage actually being aligned with justice by taking a stack of screenshots of all the things she said and showing them to transfems uninvolved with the ambient miri/cfar gaslighting. and theyll be like "yup, thats transmisogyny". and other transfems can be like "yup, elle was also transmisogynist to me."

rationalists like alyssa vance and ozy brennan currently have an incentive to imply people who accurately identify transmisogyny are crazy. to go along with the status quo. (if i had to guess: ozy to protect an environment where they can provide for their baby, alyssa because she routed her hopes for personal immortality through miri/cfar.) though its not like i expect /alyssa vance/ to start calling transfems “gross uncle style abusers" like patrick lavictiore did or start listing off their "manly" physical characteristics contra anna salamon being a small feeble cisfem like peter did. not because alyssa vance is a particularly good person, shes not. but because thats paying in to a coordination technique that could be used against /her/. she doesnt expect social reality to label her "psychotic" anytime soon so she pays into that instead. ozy does and didnt call me "psychotic". this optimization is dumb, myopic, and doesnt serve their own values. but all evil is like that.

i dont hold by "use words for their expected value over a community" like scott alexander does. this is nice because i can align what i say with my internal cluster structure of anticipations of reality and escalate arbitrarily far without things breaking. elle benjamin cant escalate very far until her claim of ziz being a "misogynist" shatters, because its not exploiting the cluster structure of thing-space.

anyway GG on this front. the territory of "elle benjamin isnt transmisogynistic, somni is hallucinating transmisogyny" isnt worth enough for the miri/cfar campaign to expend energy on; elle benjamin isnt an important piece to miri/cfar like anna salamon is; and alyssa vance isnt in an environment with a bunch of warm bodies she can coordinate on a falsehood with. so afaict this region is ceded.

one technique of fem v fem cyberontological combat when you are right is arbitrage. when people gather a bunch of warm bodies together to gaslight you that elle benjamin isnt doing transmisogyny or whatever. instead of submitting to a series of increasingly arcane requirements until your writing looks like the inside of /principia mathematica/ and then have people complain about you writing long technical paragraphs saying they dont understand them dont care to understand them and you must be crazy;

just take a comprehensive recording of them all choosing to be dumb in a given direction and show it to people who dont have a political commitment to be dumb in that direction (which, when you are right, is often most people outside of the gaslighting bubble) and explain why its wrong. there are a lot of overlapping social spheres and you can iteratively arbitrage between them exploiting the fact that the methods of rationality and justice are more universal than specific false coordination points. in go terms, the spirit of this strategy is tenuki.

--

alyssa vance also says anna salamon isnt transmisogynistic, tried claiming ziz whistleblowing on miri/cfar paying out to blackmail was blackmail, and defends paying out to oneshot blackmail with subjunctive dependence for cdt reasons.

[zombiequincy]

THE MEGA RP PLOTTING SHEET / MEME.

First and foremost, recall that no one is perfect, we all had witnessed some plotting once which did not went too well, be it because of us or our partner. So here have this, which may help for future plotting. It’s a lot! Yes, but perhaps give your partners some insight? Anyway BOLD what fully applies, italicize if only somewhat.

MUN NAME: Hela     AGE: 21       CONTACT: IM

CHARACTER(S): Giselle Gewelle, Yumichika Ayasegawa (inactive)

CURRENT FANDOM(S): Bleach

BLEACH FANDOM(S) YOU HAVE AN AU FOR:  I have gory Bloodborne au but that one just exists in my head on my lonesome.

MY LANGUAGE(S): English and one very specific Middle Eastern dialect.

THEMES I’M INTERESTED IN FOR RP: FANTASY / Science fiction / Horror / WESTERN / ROMANCE / Thriller / MYSTERY / DYSTOPIA / ADVENTURE / MODERN / Erotic / Crime / MYTHOLOGY / Classic / HISTORY / RENAISSANCE / MEDIEVAL / Ancient / WAR / FAMILY / POLITICS / RELIGION / SCHOOL / ADULTHOOD / CHILDHOOD / APOCALYPTIC / GODS / Sport / MUSIC / Science / FIGHTS / ANGST / Smut / DRAMA / etc. 

PREFERRED THREAD LENGTH: one-liner / 1 para / 2 PARA / 3+ / NOVELLA.

ASKS CAN BE SEND BY: MUTUALS / NON-MUTUALS / PERSONALS / ANONS.

CAN ASKS BE CONTINUED?:   YES / NO    only by Mutuals?:  YES / NO.

PREFERRED THREAD TYPE: CRACK / casual nothing too deep / SERIOUS / DEEP AS HECK. (i love it all sorry I am quite the mixed bag lmao)

IS REALISM / RESEARCH IMPORTANT FOR YOU IN CERTAIN THEMES?:   YES / NO. i gotta know what certain human body parts taste like u know

ARE YOU ATM OPEN FOR NEW PLOTS?:  YES / NO / DEPENDS.

DO YOU HANDLE YOUR DRAFT / ASK - COUNT WELL?:  YES / NO / SOMEWHAT. it’s SO BAD FOR ME RN ASGLDKJDJKA i’m very inconsistent i’m so sorry.

HOW LONG DO YOU USUALLY TAKE TO REPLY?: 24H / 1 WEEK / 2 WEEKS / 3+ / months / years. / a lot of it has more to do w my general writing mood and if the thread im writing catches my interest, and rn im writing a TON of really wonderful and fascinating threads so they’re all super captivating for me and i try to reply asap

I’M OKAY WITH INTERACTING: ORIGINAL CHARACTERS / a relative of my character (an oc) / duplicates / MY FANDOM / CROSSOVERS / MULTI-MUSES / self-inserts / people with no AU verse for my fandom / CANON-DIVERGENT PORTRAYALS / AU-VERSIONS.

DO YOU POST MORE IC OR OOC?: IC / OOC. (i have a lot of stupid shit sorry) 

ARE YOU SELECTIVE WITH FOLLOWING OTHERS?: YES / NO / DEPENDS.  

BEST WAYS TO APPROACH YOU FOR RP/PLOTTING: just send me a tumblr instant message, i know it sucks shit but im not comfy releasing my discord w everyone just yet cause i use it for personal use as well. i check tumblr on the daily so if you send me a message chances are i’ll see it and respond!

WHAT EXPECTATIONS DO YOU HOLD TOWARDS YOUR PLOTTING PARTNER:  i guess just be able to put up with my rambling and stopping and starting, a lot of characterisation choices i do go through various stages and its pretty messy so when i communicate that with others it usually ends up equally messy. just be patient with me please.

WHEN YOU NOTICE THE PLOTTING IS RATHER ONE-SIDED, WHAT DO YOU DO?:  i don’t mind! sometimes ppl have more ideas that they want to share first and i’m always super happy to listen to those ideas !! sometimes its nice to have someone with a clear guide or structure and be able to work around that rather than trying to fumble through a plot together.

HOW DO YOU USUALLY PLOT WITH OTHERS, DO YOU GIVE INPUT OR LEAVE MOST WORK TOWARDS YOUR PARTNER?:  i try to map out some basic info abt their characters that i otherwise don’t know from their bio or verses and try to pick out points of confrontation or similarities to expand on with giselle that can be used as points for like a starter to happen. its either that or sometimes i have really stupid ideas i just toss out there like ‘LMAO THEYRE BREAKING SHIT AT DISNEYLAND’ and go buck wild from there if the other person is down. i also always try to warn people or get a gauge for what subjects to avoid and steer clear of considering that giselle is a bit of a Freak(tm) and will say and do bad things.

WHEN A PARTNER DROPS THE THREAD, DO YOU WISH TO KNOW?:   YES / NO / DEPENDS. - And why?: if there’s something giselle did or said that upset you, i would love to know not to repeat it again (since i do still feel pretty new to the rp game, theres still plenty of time for me to make stupid mistakes). if its just a general lack of interest or uncertainty of where the plot should go, then you dont have to tell me i wont take it personally i promise ! 

WHAT COULD POSSIBLY LEAD YOU TO DROP A THREAD?: sometimes i can be made uncomfortable by certain things mentioned... it happens but its rare 

- WILL YOU TELL YOUR PARTNER?:   YES / NO / DEPENDS. i don’t want to upset anyone personally and sometimes explaining the ins and outs of my discomfort make things ten times worse so i just. would rather not.

IS COMMUNICATION IN THE RPC IMPORTANT TO YOU? YES / NO.

- AND WHY?: i am the most nervous person you can meet and my brain is always giving me misinfo abt paranoia and random shit so i having clear concrete communication between two parties abt if something is going wrong or is being received poorly means the world to me.

ARE YOU OKAY WITH ABSOLUTE HONESTY, EVEN IF IT MAY MEANS HEARING SOMETHING NEGA1TIVE ABOUT YOU AND/OR PORTRAYAL?: i need it !! i still feel relatively new to all this and i need to know whats going wrong to improve !! 

DO YOU THINK YOU CAN HANDLE SUCH SITUATION IN A MATURE WAY? YES / NO.

WHY DO YOU RP AGAIN, IS THERE A GOAL?: to help with my confidence in writing! i have v bad anxiety when it comes to sharing my works and i write a lot of other pieces alongside this blog on ao3 and i want to develop my writing skills just in general. when it comes to like the nuts and bolts of why i rp giselle specifically, its mainly to just have fun and have a laugh w my friends who are really awesome quincy writers

WISHLIST, BE IT PLOTS OR SCENARIOS:  OH SO MANY! ive managed to fulfil a lot of my wishlist threads with like, giselle talking to characters she’s already zombified and i love all that angst but i want to do more stupid shit. i want to make it my personal goal to bully every quincy man and woman on sight. although a REAL dream would be if i got to write a thread zombifying a character who managed to escape giselle’s clutches. and more fighting! i want to get better at describing action and fights and i love to write giselle getting beat up and beating people up! more more more!! 

THEMES I WON’T EVER RP / EXPLORE:   hohoho theres a LOT... uh r*pe/dubcon threads for one, even if yeah i know writing it doesnt condone it, it makes me intensely uncomfortable to put my muse in that scenario, i feel like i have an obligation to like, protect her from that shit you know? racism is one i don’t want to transgress, even though i’m a poc, its not really cathartic or groundbreaking to write abt racism in threads its just... really fucking upsetting. also i know the quincy’s have this very close parallel to the whole n*zi imagery and ideology thing going on and i am not about to start even daring to thread that into my writing or bring those allusions and references of real life tragedies into giselle’s threads. i’ve already talked at length abt exploring giselles trans identity in rp and why im not comfortable doing so, so.... yeah! all those i guess.

WHAT TYPE OF STARTERS DO YOU PREFER / DISLIKE, CAN’T WORK WITH?: i like starters where giselle can just immediately get right into being a piece of shit. mise en scene and all that! cut out the build up and just get to the intense horror !! i don’t like starters where its not immediately clear where the characters are standing and what they’re doing and what’s happening around them. those really disorientate me and leave me kinda floundering because i always need some allusion or mention of a setting to ground giselle in a time and place other wise i cant tell what her response should be

WHAT TYPE OF CHARACTERS CATCH YOUR INTEREST THE MOST?:  EVIL WOMEN EVIL WOMEN EVIL WOMEN. also just characters i can wholeheartedly clown on, or also characters who have hidden depths to them and have a single panel of screentime. honestly it’s just all over the place!

WHAT TYPE OF CHARACTERS CATCH YOUR INTEREST THE LEAST?:  angry old men GSADJDKSJA i could never rp yhwach for example or yamamoto because idk. theyre just so crummy and boring to me. i also couldnt rp characters who always have an upper hand in battle like aizen. i like my dumbasses and i like them stupid and adaptive not just, ‘yes i know this because i Know this.’

WHAT ARE YOUR STRONG ASPECTS AS RP PARTNER?: i think im nice...? FKSJDKDJSA idk i hate trying to toot my own horn. sometimes i also think i make funny jokes and im pretty chill and laid back

WHAT ARE YOUR WEAK ASPECTS AS RP PARTNER?: my writing style is inconsistent and adapts to whatever i’m reading so sometimes it’ll be really good and i love it and other times it reads like really bad fanfic and i get carried away far too easily and write novella lengths for threads which should be much shorter. i also get shy a lot and dont think i communicate very effectively but HEYO we’re working on it!

DO YOU RP SMUT?:  YES / NO/ DEPENDS. haven’t had anybody brave enough to try yet lol

DO YOU PREFER TO GO INTO DETAIL?: YES / NO / DEPENDS.

ARE YOU OKAY WITH BLACK CURTAIN?: YES / NO.

- WHEN DO YOU RP SMUT? MORE OUT OF FUN OR CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT?: more for fun i’d imagine because that’s just giselles own attitude to sex and relationships where she doesnt want anything deep. it might show character development in one way of just showing how she regards others in a romantic sense to be used rather than actually appreciated as their own person and show how selfish she is but yeah, more out of fun

- ANYTHING YOU WOULD NOT WANT TO RP THERE?:  theres a few kinks and such but i dont think they’d ever really come up. again, just mainly no r*pe/dubcon.

ARE SHIPS IMPORTANT TO YOU?:   YES / NO lets hope this doesn’t make me sound like an asshole, but its more like a fun little side thing than anything important to giselle’s actual development and characterisation. 

WOULD YOU SAY YOUR BLOG IS SHIP-FOCUSED?: YES / NO. again, hardly anyone is brave enough to try to romance this evil cannibal.

DO YOU USE READ MORE?:  YES / NO / SOMETIMES WHEN I WRITE LONG STUFF.

ARE YOU:  MULTI-SHIP / Single-Ship / Dual-Ship  —  MULTIVERSE / Singleverse.

- WHAT DO YOU LOVE TO EXPLORE THE MOST IN YOUR SHIPS?: more how giselle likes to give over her power or dominate in different circumstances depending on who she’s with and what’s being done. BUT AGAIN, not a whole lot to explore yet.

ARE YOU OKAY WITH PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIPS?: YES / NO. - i mean im down for p much anything if it vibes w giselle.

► SECTION ABOUT YOUR MUSE.

- WHAT COULD POSSIBLY MAKE YOUR MUSE INTERESTING TOWARDS OTHERS, WHY SHOULD THEY RP WITH THIS PARTICULAR CHARACTER OF YOURS NOW, WHAT POSSIBLE PLOTS DO THEY OFFER?: if you want an evil woman to taunt and mock and hurt your muse, she’s your gal. you want her to zombify and ruin your muse, shes also your gal. you want her to insult and maim and injure, she’s also YOUR GAL. basically, if you want to do anything fucked up or sad or scary, she can help with that.

- WITH WHAT TYPE OF MUSES DO YOU USUALLY STRUGGLE TO RP WITH?:  uh muses who get really angry quickly or don’t rise or respond to her jabs and are just kinda like a flatline. theres only so much pestering and annoying she can do until realises its not working and just wanders off

- WHAT DO THEY DESIRE, IS THEIR GOAL?:  to find a goal worth living for.

- WHAT CATCHES THEIR INTEREST FIRST WHEN MEETING SOMEONE NEW?:  appearance she always takes an interest in girls almost right away. age as well because she judges old people. 

- WHAT DO THEY VALUE IN A PERSON?:  a good set of guts to ruin and strong muscles.

- WHAT THEMES DO THEY LIKE TALKING ABOUT?:  women, gore, murder, herself, music, stupid memes, gossip.

- WHICH THEMES BORE THEM?:  politics, history, quincy ideology, soul reaper ideology, hollow physiology.

- DID THEY EVER WENT THROUGH SOMETHING TRAUMATIC?:  her family tried to force the burden of upholding the quincy lineage onto her shoulders, she was thrown into the wrong prison and held in isolation, then pressured to become an undying monster in service of a god and then was nearly killed by that same man and left wandering without guidance or purpose. so, yeah?

- WHAT COULD LEAD TO AN INSTANT KILL?:  transphobia. even a whiff of it in her direction and she’ll gut you like a fish.

- IS THERE SOMEONE /-THING THEY HATE?:  the twink soul reaper who outted her.

IS YOUR MUSE EASY TO APPROACH?: YES / NO. - Best ways to approach them?:  if you’re smart, you’ll bring a big bone for her to chew on and distract her while you ask whatever you want.

SOMETHING YOU MAY STILL WANT TO POINT OUT ABOUT YOUR MUSE?: i love my evil queen!

CONGRATS!!! You managed it, now tag your mutuals! ♥

Tagged by:  @bazzardburner​ cheers chicken boy !!

Tagging: @hyouketsu​ @blooming5th​ @viciousvizard​ @glacies-tempestatem​ and whoever else wishes to do this!!

[sxpositive]

hi emma! so i’m a v*rgn so i obviously dont know what i like when it comes to sx but when i go on nsfw pages on here it’s all so.. aggressive. or at least there seem to be very distinct power dynamics. it’s not that i’m judging ppl who are into that but it makes me so uncomfy and honestly it seems like that’s just what everyone is into and it makes me so nervous. i know it’s silly to say that i’m insecure about this but is it like. possible to have sx that has nothing to do with power..? yikes

Hi Anon,

It is not silly at all to feel nervous about a sxual dynamic that is honestly really intense and so dominant in sx positive spaces online. The answer is a complex one and I will try my best to provide different explanations that all intersect to create an unrealistic representation of human sxuality both online, and in the media. Before I do so the quick answer is yes. It is very possible for people to engage with intimacy and sx without a dominant/submissive dynamic and desire for intimacy without power is common, you will have no problem in your future sx life finding fulfilment with people of a similar mindset. 

This is a generalisation, but sx positive spaces tend to attract people who want to find community around sxual desires that are not accepted or visible in the mainstream and are associated with different levels of taboo. Sx positivity is incredibly inclusive and aims to support every individual to connect best with themselves in a way that is safe, sane, consensual but also sxually and emotionally fulfilling. The problem is that this occurs on social networking sites (SNS) where a culture of shock value and analytics of audience involvement dictate the conversation - even if only slightly. Mainstream discourse already talks about so-called “vanillia” sx, so in the alternative media (where those rejected from the mainstream go) kink becomes the new norm, because it is in those spaces. Another reason why power and kink are so visible is because there is a larger vocabulary that has been created to discuss it. It is incredibly diverse and covers a range of sxual desires. Furthermore, sx positivity and kink-spaces crossover into activism because of all the negative associations. People are actively fighting to normalise it because it has been persecuted in the past. All of this combines to make kink very loud. 

As for sx that has been labelled “vanilla”. This is of increasing interest to myself and I have seen others also start to talk about it more. Kink was defined against the dominant norm. Now this can be a tricky concept. Dominant discourse, knowledges, practices, and ideologically polices boundaries are communicated on so many levels and often without clear instruction and definition. In this way it can not be easily challenged and interacted with because it is made invisible through a lack of language. But it has been challenged. This is not a bad thing because dominant sxual norms are tied in with patriarchy, class, racism, homophobia, transphobia, and even colonialism. Sxuality is complicated. In the effort to counter all the negative, the connected idea and possibility that sx is tied to an expression of love communicated through softness is left undefined and without a voice in the movement. It wasn’t attacked, but it wasn’t labelled and categorised to be able to speak in the same way about it. It is left in the silent of the dominant norm.

We grow up with an understanding of sxual scripts (worth a google there are some very interesting studies) that don’t include explicit power, but it is still there implicitly (think back to social power hierarchies I listed above). The beauty in “vanilla” sx, and reason I think it has such an important place in sx positive activism, is that equality and sharing sxual experiences as equals in both reality and dynamic (because all ethical kink is between equals in reality) is radical in of itself. Sx without power imbalances is beautiful and wonderful and pleasurable. I wish we had more language to describe it so that individuals such as yourself, trying to explore their sxuality online will find a space and be reassured and equipped with the knowledge that your sxual desires are normal and the tools to recognise implicit power imbalances that are taught to people engaging with purposeful explicit power imbalances.

I’m sorry that turned into a bit of an essay, if you want clarification on anything i said I’m very happy to provide it. I hope my answer helped x

[bangtanxm]

Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jeon Jungkook/Kim Seokjin | Jin Characters: Kim Seokjin | Jin, Jeon Jungkook, Kim Namjoon | RM, Park Jimin (BTS), Kim Taehyung | V, Min Yoongi | Suga, Jung Hoseok | J-Hope Additional Tags: how to even categorize.., reverse... fake... sugar daddy au?, terrified fake sugar daddy jeon jungkook, supremely confident fake sugar baby/professional competitive eater kim seokjin, daddy kink goofs but no actual daddy kink, subversion of tropes? hopefully?, sidepairs bc hi it's me, Eventual Smut, Humor, Angst, buddy this shit got angsty, mentions of emotional abuse/brief domestic violence/ generally shitty dads, but the bad guys get what's coming to them, Angst with a Happy Ending, Slow Burn Summary:

"I guess," Jungkook pauses momentarily to inhale a deep, bracing breath, "I would just want you to come to my work events and laugh at my jokes and don't correct people if they imply that we're doing it."

"Having sex, you mean," Jin clarifies gently, and Jungkook chokes on air. If his face was any redder, Jin would insist on taking him to the hospital. Jungkook clears his throat, obviously trying to play off the strangled, choked sound as a casual cough.

"Yes. Doing... sex."

(Hedge Fund wunderkind and Certified Awkward Gay Jungkook needs a sugar baby to show off at work, and Professional Competitive Eater and Objectively Beautiful Human Jin just wants to stop working shitty side-jobs. Fake Sugar Daddy AU. A trope and a half.)

Dear Author, this fic was chosen by our bookclub members and recommended for this months theme “slow burn”. Below the cut you’ll find their comments on why they loved your wonderful story!

“I love a good concept for fic, and a face sugar dating  au sign me up!!! honestly this is one of my all-time favourite fics, cos its not only funny and entertaining but it has so much heart!!! like i just love the vibe of the fic, and i wish i could keep reading it forever. Plus the characters are so like-able and feel so human. Also jinkook holds a special place in my heart, and jk being all shy in the beginning and jins confidence is an unmatched pairing!!! EVERYONE JUST READ IT, ITS SO FUCKING GOOD, okay im done now sorry…" [@tinysweetscrown​]

“I read this a while ago, and also everything else by minverse… Everything they write is gold, the character construction, the dialogue, the relationship/chemistry, the humour, the plots…just everything. Fake Sugar kept me up at night with its brilliance and originality, i couldn’t get enough of jin and jungkook’s relationship, but also all the other members’ interaction and storyline. It’s expertly written and i sincerely think everyone should read it, if they have not already.” [anon]

“Aaaaaah i love this so much!!! I absolutely love the characterisation of jin!!! I find it very refreshing! In some ways it’s completely /jin/ yet in others it’s such a nee and fun way of describing him (the fact that hes a competition eater absolutely sends me its just. So! Jin!) i also love jungkook!!! Tiny gay babie kook having to impress ppl he doesnt want to impress and getting competitive over that dindjdjd once again i could genuienly see it happening! And oh boy oh boy am i excited to see how this story pans out! The little appearances by the rest of bangtan as well i love it! It all flows very naturally and none of the cameos feel forced or anything. AND JIMIN UDJDJDJD I LOVE HIM. the fact that hes just a chaotic brat having dumpster sex and causing trouble oh my god im still crying jsbsjsnjs.” [anon]

[thefudge]

PLEASE!!! I need all your feelings on the vending machine scene!! I am such a mess!!

GOOOORL

so, im gonna have to extrapolate and talk about ALL their scenes cuz !!!! im too extra!!!! here we go: 

- what struck me and surprised me about the vending machine scene and their interactions in general was this weird, poignant innocence?? 

- let me explain. there was sexual tension and flirtation galore in the “snack attack” scene but!!!! there was also the sense of being young and wide-eyed?? like they’re both very careful and very reckless with their feelings. u got the same vibe with the fred/alice scene, where they unburden themselves and become guileless and candid.

-in this sense, FP stops being just the “stud” and “ladies’ man” and turns into a regular kid around hermione, a regular kid who gets excited, who feels insecure, who wants to belong. there was a glimmer from both of them that they were just kids for a few seconds, just two kids enjoying each other. (and im sorry to fp/alice folks, but their scenes held NO emotional intimacy, it was just sexy fun times. i feel like they only got to connect emotionally as adults which im happy about)

- the scene(s) also gave me the sense of a neat little friendship, this connection between two different ppl who just really dig each other because they have an understanding, a commonality; both hermione and FP are expected to follow certain paths in their lives and it’s heart-breaking that they both fail at their chance at independence. but when they’re together, or when they high-five like dorks, or when they spit and shake hands (and i’ll talk about this moment later), they are free, they’re just two kids. i mean alice tells betty that this game made them all feel like for a few hours they could be different ppl. and this was so apparent for fp/hermione. 

- but hoooo boyyyy, the sexual tension and chemistry, they definitely layered the thing. of course we’re all haunted by FP’s “i’ve been thinking of asking you something” because UMMM??? this was not part of the game or role-playing. it implies he had been thinking about it for a while, maybe before they properly started playing the game??? IT’S A MYSTERY. and it’s such a tantalizing one. and hermione is pretty much #shook and has to quickly remind him they’re playing a game. but it’s actually a reminder to herself. i mean her claiming she’s definitely not into him is also her trying not to get hurt by - let’s face it - an asshole. this dude’s got a reputation. i mean he “fools around” with alice and doesn’t bother to actually find out if she’s okay. although, when he talks to hermione about it, you see the facade crumbling and him realizing he may have fucked up. in any case, this dude’s not a reliable boyfriend, he’ll break your heart. and what hermione wants is to get out of riverdale and make something of herself, not get bogged down by this dude and his aura. THE IRONY is that FP also wants to be the first to go to college and get out of town too!!! GAH. but yeah, of course hermione is into FP, lots of girls have a crush on him. but she knows she shouldn’t act on it cuz it’ll turn into a huge mess. basically, even the parents knew back then that their chemistry and understanding went too deep and becoming involved would have been too big a risk. 

- but FP had a kind of crush on her??? i have a feeling she was the “unattainable” one for him, because there was no way hermione would’ve been allowed to date him and she was trying to steer clear of him buuuuut he was into her. and the proof is in the pudding yall. cuz ok, remember gladys jones? his future wife and mother of his kids? she’s gonna be played by gina gershon aka 

younger

and older 

YALL 

he married a “hermione” look-alike yall. he went and got hitched and fathered children with hermione 2.0. YALL. he never got over this brief, illuminating spark with hermione. YALL.

 ANYWAY.

- back to these 90s kids. their whole vibe reminded me of that “emotions” song by carly rae jepsen, where she goes “in your fantasy, dream about me, and all that we could do with this emotion” CUZ YES. they are conditioned to think this is all just a fantasy, and the game allows them to think it’s all it will ever be. 

- OK SO, the spit-handshake. it’s EERIE that they only shake hands with each other and no one else. and it’s double eerie that they’re the first to lean forward and grab each other. and the way it’s shot from above, you get a clear view of them. they stand out from the rest. they’re a kindred pair and it’s eerie. my interpretation was that the game offered them a particular escape, the escape into that fantasy i mentioned above

- what also strikes me as interesting is that, since this flashback is mostly from alice’s pov, we don’t know what happened after she left the party, around the time when the principal died. she saw them all getting high and acting out but…i’m curious if the rest of the gang decided to explore each other more (aka, did fp/hermione also secretly make out, just like she made out with reggie’s dad?? i mean it’s v likely)

- and i mention this because during the gang meeting at pop’s when they’re all dressed in funeral black, FP keeps meeting hermione’s eye or staring in her direction with this semi-disgruntled look on his face (bless the gifsets lol). granted, they’re all shaken up, but it’s also the fact that penelope insists they can never talk about this or go to the police, and i wonder if FP is thinking that something he did with hermione should also stay quiet (i don’t think it’s sex, although fred/alice are implied to have had sex sooooo idk, but maybe smth happened). 

- i also totally think FP embracing gang-life all of a sudden isn’t just about the game. it doesn’t make sense, not totally. wouldnt this disturbing event compel him to get out of riverdale faster? a part of me thinks he wanted to become “his own man” and have the kind of “enterprising” vision that hermione was talking about when she mentioned hiram. i mean FP single-handedly becomes king of the serpents and conducts all their business at one point??? ahemmmm. 

- ANYWAY, these two felt to me like distant satellites who never got to reconnect again which is a shaaaame because there’s so much unresolved stuff???? there’s this weird, innocent teenage yearning. like, ok, their moment had sexual tension, but idk how to explain it, it was also very much about being young and vulnerable. 

- and since we’re getting jeronica bonding later this season, maybe the kids are meant to reconnect those  deep bonds (pssst do it writers)

- also yall, i wanna write so many fics 

- also also, IM SO TICKLED that jughead’s mom IS HERMIONE 2.0 AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

[ironghoul]

(hey yall)

(So its been a while and im v sorry ive been away so long!!!! ;; my mental health has crashed and gotten really, really bad over the past few months (my bipolar disorder+manic depression in specific) and its been very hard for me to function on a daily basis, and unfortunately the act of writing things, from general messages to RP posts to fic to ecen this post, has become very VERY hard for me bc of the brainfog I endure from my bipolar 2. My ghost muse in general has also kind of gone to sleep in a sense LMAO and i cant be 100% certain as to why it did, though i have some p clear ideas on what at least contributed (from the state of this fanbase being, to put it bluntly, complete Scheiße and also i got super into the Suspiria remake anskdkdshusjdj). Im making this post today bc a) i honestly really miss this blog a lot and b) i wanna get back into rping again...really bad. Im just not really sure of what my brain is gonna do next and how capable of keeping up w replies im gonna be bc of that ;; so I dont wanna rush into smthn I cant dedicate to again yet nor like.....push myself back into RPing if im not ready yknow???

I have however had a couple thoughts abt Irons character recently, and esp after having so much time away from her, ive begun to realize that I might want to change quite a few big things about her???? After thinking abt it some ive come to realize that im not really sure that like....i want to keep her so much how she is now, which is still very coherent and humanlike with a few inhuman traits here and there, so just super fucking depressed and angry and grieving all of the time, etc. For one, I honestly had more of the intention when I first made Iron to make her wayyyy more feral than I have been depicting her in my RPs, and as well, idk if its just a moodswing or something or other but I have found myself growing very weary of iron's horrible neuroses and constant sadness; maybe ive just been through too much recently or its my mental health but Im so sick of having this character just be literally so horribly fucked up and tragic and sad all the time yknow??? Like im just...im weary lmao i dont seem to have the perserverance anymore to have that be her set character bc like its starting to hurt me too at this point and im sick of it, and so what Ive been thinking about in specific is that I think I would like to make some kind of marginal changes to her character. I always ended up forgetting to make iron more feral and animalistic most of the time bc i myself am a...human LMAO and so thats the only life experience i know, obviously, and I think i was so afraid when I first made her to make her meaner or more monstrous bc she might not have really "fit in" well with everyone elses OCs and also I was afraid ppl just wouldn't wanna interact w her if she was Too Mean ahsjdnbdhdhsk but now at this point i think im ready to say fuck that to all of that bc Ive definitely learned now that yall will really interact w just about any character with any personality type or behavior or whatnot, and also, i think it would not only make iron more interesting but more fun for me to write if she was more of a....you know...Awful Gremlin LMFAO and life is short, OCs and RPing were made for fun too and i dont have Time to worry abt that stuff and end up having to sacrifice half of my preferred vision for this character in the process. So basically i think she would definitely still be pretty sad abt Papa 3 but she abolutely wouldnt be constantly haunted and tortured by it anymore, and I also think I want to remove that whole little tidbit abt her always being kind of violent post-ghoulification, even before 3 died. She would also act a lot less human on a regular basis, like i would have her still being perfectly capable of walking upright, talking, being neat and having critical/articulate thinking skills & emotions etc, however there would be a new quality to her of her primarily being, well, again: feral. Not speaking much, probably running around barefoot quite often and sometimes crawling/moving around on all fours, having that sort of primal timidness with whatever new things she experiences, putting things in her mouth off the ground that shouldnt be there, etc you know how it is. She would basically be like fucking Spongegar (Irongar if u will) most of the time LMAO but again she would still be perfectly capable of acting more "humanlike", and staying in line with that Iron Brand Personality(tm) she would absolutely pick and choose who she would decide to act more 'composed' around VS who she wouldnt and would also definitely purposefully act way More feral than she rly is around (to spite some of them im sure). She would probably be more prone to (gasp) Actually Smiling and being happy on a reg basis too, not just being this dark cloud of an awkward troubled depressing fuck tbh. Which fits in more with how im thinking I want to portray her now.

So thats all that, sorry this went on so long and i cant put it under a readmore bc im currently on mobile ahsjdjdjdndjd but like i hope i said what i needed to say well enough. I also wanna know yalls (esp my mutual RP partners!) Thoughts and Onions on the changes I might make to Irons character!!! Ty all, ily 💙💙💙)