#and considering the fact that i am EXTREMELY extroverted. i am not having a good time lmaooo

[kindnessoverperfection]

[beanghostprincess]

i would care if you talked about luffy's issues please talk please tell me all your takes, genuinely (< anon who enjoys your takes)

I am so thankful you asked me this because Luffy is genuinely one of my favorite characters of all time, especially when it comes to shonen protagonists. I'm always saying I don't like shonens (says the one that watches a lot of shonens) but that's mainly because the main characters never feel... Well-written enough for me to like them. But, well, One Piece is different. With all characters, really. It's one of the first shonens I watch that I genuinely love and enjoy because of the characters (shout out to Mob Psycho 100 being one of my favorite animes of all time too because of that same reason).

Luffy is a very complex character and I think that's why he gets mischaracterized most of the time when it comes to the fandom. Some people make him too dumb. Others make him too childish. Others make him way darker and more depressed than he truly is. And I'd say that's weird, having in mind how much the show talks about Luffy and is focused on Luffy's POV, but I kind of understand because people aren't used to characters that are both optimistic and realistic at the same time. Most of the time people consider an optimistic character to be completely idealistic (a good example here is Uta. She is idealistic because she's been sheltered for so long and thinks something as complex as the corruption in the world can be solved with a few songs and love) and refuse to acknowledge the fact that somebody with hopes and dreams can also understand (first-hand, even) the suffering within the world. People like extremes. They like to make both Law and Zoro extremely edgy. They like to babify Sanji and Koby. They forget about Nami's character depth to make her only "the mean lesbian" of the group (that term makes me so fucking furious you don't even know). Etc. Etc. Etc. The thing is: Luffy has layers. His personality varies. He's optimistic. He's realistic. He's stupid. He's emotionally intelligent. He's impulsive. He cares about the safety of the people around him. He's careless. He feels guilt. He's confident. He's so damn insecure. He's playful. He's the most serious character too. Etc. Etc. Etc.

What I want to say with all of this is that Luffy, despite being always perceived as this childish, dumb, and careless character within the fandom, has so much depth and trauma he deals with every fucking day. I once saw somebody saying Luffy is "not smart enough to understand the feeling of sadness" and I started laughing because what the fuck does that even mean. And... Is that person watching the same thing as me? Because the guy has suffered the injustice of the world so many times and so many losses that I can't even count them.

Basically: People portray Luffy as if he hadn't gone through any type of trauma when OP has shown countless times that he has been through a lot. A fucking lot. Perhaps it's the fact that he's the one hiding it all the time in the show, always replacing sadness with the need to be stronger so he doesn't feel like that ever again (aka protecting everyone so he doesn't lose anybody again. And not even in a selfish way to not be alone, although we could say that he does feel like that to some extent. But because his loved ones do not deserve to disappear or die in those ways and he feels guilty whenever it happens because every time, he says it's because he wasn't strong enough to protect them) and that's why most people don't realize how much pain he has gone through. But that's not a very valid argument because we have a lot of arcs that prove it otherwise (Sabaody, Marineford, Film Red, Wano...). So, yeah, I guess people just don't know how to read.

Starting through chronological order, I want to talk about his abandonment issues and savior complex that always seem to go hand in hand.

Luffy doesn't like to be alone. He's a very empathetic and extroverted person. He doesn't like to be bored, always loving the company of somebody else. But, sadly, he has always been kind of alone? People come and go for him all the time, and you can't tell me that doesn't affect him psychologically. He's 7 when he meets Uta and Shanks and the kid has never been more excited! That's when his dream of being a pirate begins and it's the first time he has a friend. A real friend, not just random animals he manages to find or older people that sometimes take care of him. Luffy gets bored easily, so of course, Shanks and Uta, being something new, make his life brighter. With dreams and new experiences and hope for a newer, better life outside his village. And then Uta and Shanks have to go, of course, and he stays all alone again. From what we've seen, the only thing Luffy did when they weren't around was just... Waiting for them to come back to him. That's it. Luffy's joy basically comes from being with people, and especially when he's fixated on somebody in particular, he doesn't let them go. Then they come back... But Uta is not with them anymore. That's Luffy's first heartbreak, in my opinion. It's when he decides that he has to be stronger. He loved Uta so damn much. She meant the world to him. And suddenly she isn't there, giving him no time to say goodbye, and... He only has Shanks. But Shanks refuses to tell him the truth about what happened with her. So here you go! It's the first time Luffy loses somebody this dear to him and the first time Shanks betrays him enough for him to get angry at his hero. He ends up accepting it, of course, but not because he has moved on, but because both Uta and Shanks told him to be stronger. More mature. And he forces himself to grow up faster because he wants something. He wants to know where his friend is, and if Shanks refuses to tell him because he's just a kid, then he'll just have to grow up and become stronger. To become a pirate and to keep the promise he made with Uta. The movies aren't canon so I just keep thinking about Luffy wondering where Uta is, and it breaks my heart every time.

Then Ace and Sabo appear in his life and... They are literally everything to him. I like Garp. He did what he could do. Kind of. But he leaves Luffy on his own with Ace under the care of some bandits (Dadan we love you, queen). So he can't really blame Luffy for the way he turned out to be, honestly. The thing is: Ace and Sabo are, again, something new to Luffy. They are not just friends. They are his brothers, now. We don't talk enough about Luffy's maturity and respect for other people's dreams even when he's just a kid. Luffy literally was kidnapped and beaten up and he didn't dare to say a word about Ace and Sabo's treasure because he respected their dream. He's loyal and understands other people's feelings and hopes perfectly. His empathy and emotional intelligence are just perfect. Then, well, you all know the story, but these two become the most important thing in Luffy's life, not only because they are his brothers, but because they are the representation of their dreams and future. And then it crashes into a million fucking pieces because of Celestial Dragons and classism and rich people quite literally saying "We are burning down the poor because they don't deserve to live! Woohoo!". And it's Luffy's first time realizing that the world is unfair and fucked up and that there are people that believe to be superior to others, a thing that Luffy fights against all the time.

So, Luffy learns that the world is extremely fucked up at a very young age. He has first-hand contact with the abuse rich people inflict on others, in every way. He suffers from the torture that is fighting for your life in the world of pirating and thieves when he's not even a pirate yet. He's just a kid. What the fuck. And then he loses Sabo. His older brother literally is killed by a celestial dragon and he can't do anything about it. He can only cry, of course, he's just a kid. What is he going to do? So he decides to become stronger. Because he feels weak in the hands of what is the injustice of the world. He feels trapped by that injustice, in my opinion, and wanting to be stronger is just the path to freedom. Because freedom means being able to save the people he cares about.

And here's the thing: Luffy's need to become stronger always comes from the guilt he feels after losing somebody, blaming himself even though he literally could have done nothing at the time to save Uta or Sabo. He has a severe savior complex, not to feel better about himself (although you could say that it would certainly fix his fear of being weak) but to not lose anybody else. For some reason he always feels responsible for the faith of the people he loves, he's constantly putting others first and sacrificing himself and then feeling guilty and weak when he can't save them when it wasn't even in his hands to save them in the first place.

Kid Luffy goes through a ton of stuff in his early years and the fear of being alone... Of losing somebody he cares about... It haunts him. He sees Shanks and piracy as the meaning of freedom and strength. It's just that simple for him: If he becomes a pirate, he'll be strong. If he's strong, he'll be free. If he's free, he'll never lose anybody again.

And yet, even if he's confident he'll manage to do this... He's still a kid. He's still a little brother. Ace's little brother. He depends on Ace, too, because that's the one person he has left. Ace promises him he won't die because he's just as confident, and says this as if Luffy was stupid for thinking something could happen to him. Not to get too into Ace's character right now, but the fact that he's constantly wondering if he should be alive to then realize Luffy needs him to stay alive... Is so damn beautiful.

And then he literally dies in front of Luffy. Protecting Luffy. And Oh, boy if that doesn't kill him... But that comes after Sabaody! After losing literally all of his crew! God, stop hurting this guy already for fuck's sake-

Long story short, Luffy manages to get a family. Not a crew. A family. He's not alone anymore, and he proves constantly that he won't let any of them go or die on him the way it happened with Uta and Sabo.

Water 7 is... Rough for Luffy, to say the least. Because it's the first time he sees everything he has built crumbling down. Robin is taken by the Marines. Usopp wants to leave the crew because he doesn't feel like he fits in, even though Luffy knows he is perfect for the family (Usopp just can't believe him because, you know, insecurities suck). And he has to learn how to be a captain. A true captain. He has to make the harsh decision of fighting his best friend and letting him go (his worst fucking fear) at the age of 17 because he's the captain. He has to be mature. And strong. And he definitely doesn't feel like those now. Not when Robin is also on her way to be executed.

Usopp is leaving. Robin might die. And it's just like Uta and Sabo all over again.

So, basically, Luffy grows up too fast. He grows up too fast, with the fear of abandonment and being weak, and the weight of being the captain of a whole crew resting on his shoulders. Besides, he fights against the world government for Robin because he refuses to let her die thinking she doesn't deserve/want to live, and it reminds me a lot of Ace's story. Ace doesn't think he deserves to live but then stays because he realizes that Luffy loves him and needs him. Robin, thanks to Luffy, realizes that she wants to live and that she has a new family to fight for.

Nobody dies and Usopp comes back this time, so everything ends up turning out fine after all! Yay!

Then Sabaody happens and I swear my guy can't have a fucking break.

Who has suffered more, Jesus Christ or Monkey D. Luffy from Sabaody to Marineford? I think we already know the answer.

He loses all of his crew. All at once. His worst fucking fear. They vanish right in front of his eyes and he can't do anything. He feels weak. He's shattered. Completely broken. But he's optimistic, still, because he believes in his crew and he knows they'll find a way to be together again! They've ben through a lot together, and they can find each other in a few days in Sabaody again. It's fine. But he has to delay it, of course, because his other biggest fucking fear is happening right now: Ace might die. His older brother might die.

So if you mix the trauma that caused him to have abandonment issues and a savior complex with the fact that Ace is the only sibling he has left and he is completely alone because his crew isn't by his side anymore... You get the most heartbreaking arc of the show! Awesome.

He does everything he can to save Ace. Ace complains about it, begging him to stay away from danger. And he refuses because he's his brother. He has to fight for him. And he does. And Ace dies anyway. Ace dies protecting him, too, and the hope that was left within him dies completely at that moment. Everything is shattered. His whole world is crumbling down. And I think that Luffy dies too at that moment.

For Luffy, losing Ace is not like losing a limb. Losing Ace is losing his everything. Ace meant the world to him. He was the representation of their dreams and hopes and past and future. He was the only person who knew Sabo like the back of his hand, too. And now Luffy is the only one carrying their souls. All alone.

That's probably Luffy's rock bottom. He doesn't think he deserves to be a pirate (or alive, either, but I don't want to get too deep into his suicidal thoughts I definitely think are a real thing because then this becomes too dark. But yeah. I think he does think about that too). He doesn't think he's strong enough. And he's completely broken.

There's this line from Fleabag that I absolutely adore: "I don't know what to do with it." / "With what?" / "With all the love I have for her. I don't know where to put it now."

Because Ace is gone. He's completely gone. And all the love Luffy has for him turns into grief and he doesn't know what to do anymore if Ace's soul isn't in the world to look after him. He doesn't know what to do if all the love and feelings he has for his brother go to waste. And it's his fault. Because he wasn't strong enough to protect him. Because he wasn't able to protect himself, Ace having to sacrifice himself for him. (And we know he feels guilty about this because he tells Sabo the second they meet again. He apologizes for not protecting Ace. He feels guilty about what happened still. And Sabo is just glad Luffy is okay because he knows his brothers too well to know already what happened).

Then our beloved Jinbe comes along (I love you. Please adopt me) and, following that quote of Fleabag: "I'll take it. No, I'm serious. It sounds lovely. I'll have it. You have to give it to me." / "Okay." / "It's got to go somewhere."

Jinbe reminds Luffy that he still has his crew. That he still has people who need him alive. People that love him and care for him. That he can't be weak if he has helped so many people already. That they're willing to take both the love and pain Ace makes him feel. And it's such a great character development for Luffy... It makes me go insane. He remembers his crew one by one and realizes that he's not alone anymore. That he has to be stronger for them and for Ace. And for Uta. And Sabo. Jinbe is there with him when the others couldn't, and it has nothing to do with Luffy's issues but I just want to mention how much I love Jinbe for this.

But he still feels the need to be stronger and the fear of losing his crew and the people he loves still haunts him. He tells the straw hats to meet after 2 years (that's a long fucking time. Like. Longer than the time they've spent together. Imagine the loyalty, damn). And it's... It's so beautifully written. The 3D2Y scene is one of my favorites because it shows the loyalty and love they have for each other, and how Luffy is willing to become stronger for the people he loves and the ones he has lost along the way. I literally have the tattoo. I am obsessed with the whole concept.

As I said, Luffy's abandonment issues and the fact that he wants to become stronger to never lose anybody again (Savior complex much?) still remain even after his character development. Because that's not something you get rid of. That's just how he is. And I think that, as long as he is with the straw hats, it won't be a problem.

Also I wanted to mention his reunion with Sabo! The guilt he feels for losing Ace? The way he clings onto his older brother as if they were going to take Sabo away from him? They're extremely codependent and I am here for it, honestly. Sabo would die for Luffy and Luffy would kill him if he did that. Also, I don't know where the fuck Sabo is now because I'm only watching Wano but I swear to God if something happens to him I will murder somebody with my bare hands. :)

Oh! And then it comes my favorite arc of all the show: Whole Cake Island (to the surprise of literally no one!). Luffy, in the beginning, is extremely optimistic when it comes to rescuing Sanji. He's simple like that. "If he doesn't want to get married, we rescue him. If he wants to get married, he just brings his wife with us!". And if Sanji didn't want to come back to them (truly not wanting to) he would accept it. But Sanji wants to. Luffy knows Sanji wants to go back to the Sunny with them. He knows Sanji isn't being true to himself. And God, he's desperate. Because Sanji is stubborn and his self-sacrificing and deprecating thoughts are even stronger than Luffy's, and he won't give up until Luffy lets him go. But Luffy doesn't want to fight him, he just wants his cook back. Because he knows that, no matter how much harm he does to him, Sanji is only doing it to himself (one of my favorite quotes from OP). So, Luffy goes again through the desperation of not losing a crewmate, but losing one of his wings. Without Sanji, Luffy can't become the king of the pirates. He's willing to die from starvation for him. Are you- Are you all aware that he almost fucking dies from starvation? I don't think we talk about that enough because what the actual fuck. There's this thing they tell Luffy (I don't remember exactly when or the exact phrasing) about him wanting Sanji back out of selfishness and not because of Sanji's well-being and... I partially agree? Don't get me wrong, Luffy does everything here for Sanji because he knows Sanji is suffering and lying to himself. But Luffy is selfish, too. Luffy doesn't want Sanji to go away because he loves him. That's his cook. He doesn't want to lose anybody else, even less knowing that they're going to be unhappy. That's kind of for me the confirmation of Luffy's abandonment issues. Like- He does everything for his crew, of course, but he's so scared of losing them. Then Sanji comes back to them, of course, and they have their own Pride and Prejudice moment. Not even Jane Austen can write shit like this.

I kind of want to talk about Wano but I haven't finished it yet (I'm like, on episode 1056) but I would like to mention how beautiful it is for Luffy to carry Ace's soul and promises like that. And also the responsibility he carries during the whole arc to save Wano? That's so- It's so fucked up. He's such a good leader and captain and everything I said in this post and all the things he does in Wano show that he will become the king of the pirates. I love him so damn much. I can't even write it down properly.

Anyway, summarizing everything: Luffy has a lot of abandonment issues and a savior complex that becomes unhealthy to the point of sacrificing himself and always carrying the burdens of everyone else. Because he fears he might lose his loved ones if he isn't strong enough. So. You know. It would be great if people stopped saying he's just childish and fun and that he doesn't have any character depth because he's probably the most complex shonen protagonist I've ever seen! He has suffered so damn much it hurts! Live Laugh Love Luffy! <3

[eternalwritess]

Hiya! I'd like to request a matchup for Hazbin Hotel, if that's alright. :)

Basics: My name's Sébastian. I'm a male (I am trans if that's important) and I'm bisexual. I wouldn't like to be paired with Alastor, Lucifer or Carmilla, if that's possible.

Personality: I'm an INFJ, though I do come across as an extrovert in online spaces. I'm typically very introverted, but when I'm around people I care about I get rather loud and obnoxious due to a fear of being ignored. I don't put myself out there as a smart person, but I was always very high up academically. I have a tendency to write or speak in a way that could be considered robotic. People have told me I'm really funny before, which I doubt. I constantly struggle to show those I love how much I care about them, and often resort to excessively love-bombing people. A lot of this is due to the fact I don't think about people unless I'm actually talking to or texting them, as I get extremely focused on other things. I often get called narcissistic by people because of it. The majority of my jokes involve innuendos or things like cannibalism, but my comedic timing is what others tend to enjoy. I get easily overwhelmed though, so there have been numerous times where I've just gone silent in a conversation. I struggle to navigate social situations, but thankfully I'm very good at articulating myself around normal people.

I'm autistic and have anxiety, which impacts a lot of my thinking and relationships.

Interests: Funnily enough, my main interest is in fashion, but I never have anyone to discuss it with due to my friends not being interested in it. My friends and family always come to me for fashion advice, though. I'm an emo, but I often dress in other styles to fit the mood or vibes. Other interests of mine include the skeletal system, nuclear energy and chemical warfare; an odd selection, I know. Hobbies of mine include: organisation, writing, drawing, crocheting and designing clothing. I'm currently learning German. My music taste is all over the place but I mainly listen to: My Chemical Romance, Waterparks, Melanie Martinez & Queen.

Love languages: I often give extravagant gifts to those I love. Another of my love languages is physical touch, I only touch those I really feel comfortable with though. I enjoy receiving pretty much any form of affection except for words of affirmation. I don't find spoken words genuine, it's a weird thing.

My type in a partner: I need to be with someone who is alright with me spoiling them spontaneously. I also would prefer someone who can be patient with me when I need it or will leave me be when I'm overwhelmed. I don't want someone who's talking all the time, I would appreciate constant texting over speaking to me a lot. I don't have many physical preferences, except for not wanting anyone who has severe health issues (mental or physical) because I have issues maintaining myself and wouldn't be capable of managing a whole other person.

What I look like: I have short brown hair. I'm below average height. I'm skinny, but I have muscular legs due to running and walking frequently. I have large blue eyes.

Extra: I run above average when it comes to temperature, so friends use me to warm up if they're cold. I also have a naturally lower resting heart rate than the average person.

(Hope that's enough info for you <3. Have a good day/night!)

𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕓𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕞𝕒𝕥𝕔𝕙𝕖𝕕 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙…

𝓥𝓪𝓰𝓰𝓲𝓮!

You most likely met Vaggie either at the hotel or at a group of people. Most likely some sort of fight in hell etc.

She would constantly guide you around the hotel making sure that you felt safe etc.

If you ever made dark jokes around her she wouldn't care for the most part and would likely laugh as I see her as a dark humor type of person. She would probably even add onto the joke

Although if you ever mentioned the exterminations she would get somewhat closed off between you two and would seem cold, she would tell you that it wasn't your fault though and that it was her own stuff

"Don't worry about it... its my own bullshit, not your fault,"

You and her both likely suck at social situations and aren't very good at them overall she tries to avoid them every now and then you'll both go yo an event and don't often talk to people

Every now and then you might go up to someone to strike a conversation and she'll be right by your side, a bit like a guard dog but she'll be there

She may be a little overprotective of you and try to protect you a little too much, but seeing how you don't want to be lonely she'll probably open up a bit more trying to let down her guard a bit more for your sake

This is also because... lets be honest she's a little self conscious about your relationship and thinks that she's not good enough at times

"I'm... sorry about being overprotective, its just something about me I guess... guess you could say its in my blood or something"

That being said, while you requested someone without issues she does have some but they don't affect her too much. She has some guilt from the exterminations but doesn't let that get in your or her way

Every now and then she'll get a bit down thinking about the exterminations but can shove that aside. (Also almost everyone in this show is traumatized asf and the ones who aren't dont exactly suit some things you're looking for so she's the best i got, sorry-)

She'd totally take an interest in all of your interests and probably would know a bit too much about them-...

I think that she might take up crocheting with you, something to help calm her down and all. Although she'd be horrible at it

"I don't think I did this one right... mind helping me?"

I think Vaggie would love physical touch, an arm around your shoulder, waist, holding your hand etc.

Vaggie also doesn't talk too much and would be fine with just sitting in silence with you or hell even texting

While she might be a slightly dry texter she's texts a lot and fast, never leaving you on read

She would cuddle with you all of the time <3

[emeritus-fuckers]

grahhh now i rlly am tempted to know which papa you would match me up with!!

im a femme leaning non-binary person who goes by they/he, i just identify as queer. physical appearance wise: im 5'6, curvy n chubby (which im definitely insecure about unfortunately). i definitely look like like i listen to metal and rock exclusively, i have a wolf cut with neon green face framing highlights, (basically just think bright green 'e girl' hair) while the rest of my hair is dark brown. i usually wear glasses as i am as blind as a bat!

i dress mostly grunge, aka band shirts, baggy jeans, leather jackets and whatever cute tops i can scrounge up at thrift stores; ive been told that i look intimidating to talk to lmao. my makeup i wear is, of course, also dark and heavy. i just realized as im writing this that i basically entirely based my style off of Nancy from The Craft LMAOOO, yeah just imagine her but a bit more curve + strips of green hair.

im 19 and currently studying biomedical sciences at uni, in my free time i love drawing and playing video games like elden ring, i also love a good horror or sci-fi flick!! if this wasnt obvious already, i love metal and rock, ghost (duh), type o negative and nine inch nails are my fav bands ever. im generally pretty extroverted but i can definitely enjoy some alone-time if i get overwhelmed, as i am on the spectrum and can go non-verbal at times. i love talking to people, my friends all basically use me as their shield whenever we're in crowded social situations where human interaction is immanent, as im pretty much the tallest and most intimidating looking given how i dress and carry myself.

id consider myself pretty funny and gentle, id literally die for my friends; if youre close to me, i basically treat you as family. given that i am a ghost and metal fan i of course, have daddy issues. womp womp. despite all that id consider myself an extremely positive person and im the mom of the group, always there if you need someone to talk to or if you need a problem resolved. wow this is a lot, thanks if you even read it!!

This post is a part of Match-up Event. The Event ended on July 15th.

Your match is Primo

He's really good at building your confidence. He'll always tell you how beautiful and amazing you are.

While he puts his paints on in the morning you often join him to put your makeup on.

You help each other out, he's an expert at applying black paint or eyeliner incredibly neatly. He struggles more now he's older but still its impressive.

He's very interested in your degree, although it's not his area of expertise he finds it fascinating.

He loves it when you draw outside and keep him company while he gardens. He'll sometimes grow plants into fun shapes or beautiful patterns for you to draw.

He's happy to read while you play video games, content in your company.

He'll sometimes join in and he's much better than you'd expect. After all he used to play with Terzo and Secondo when they were younger.

He apprecaites greatly the fact he can talk to you if he needs.

He's also there for you, you can talk to him anytime whenever about whatever, he's a very good listener.

He can tell when you are getting overwhelmed and he makes sure to take you somewhere calmer. If you want to be alone he'll leave you be, he'll normally just go in the next room so he's around if you need.

Or he's out in the garden and you know exactly where to find him. He'll have a fresh pot of tea brewed like he knew you'd be ready to come out at that exact time.

~

Written by Nyx.

[malevolantkitcheen]

hai!! I saw you're JJK match works and they are really good so if they're still open I thought i could make a request? she/they (female) | Leo | ENFP bisexual so men or women is fine I don't really have preference Looks wise, I'm pretty tall around 165 cm, tan, dark brown eyes and short dark brown hair (I think the best way to explain my hair cut is like a wolf cut but not that many layers?), I'd say I'm thin and kinda flat, my hands are kinda veiny and my nails are uneven since I tend to cut them when I'm nervous Personality wise, I'm very extroverted so much so that I get energy from being around people I like, especially people I consider close friends (I'm an only child so sometimes I wish I had a sibling). I'm also very friendly I love making friends and I'd say I'm very loyal too I just like talking to people in general. I can also get a bit overwhelming for some people which I totally understand I'm the type of girl who flirts with her girl friends and teases them constantly but I also get really flustered when someone teases me. I don't like some people though and If I don't like someone I can get really rude and moody but I'm also really moody if I'm just not in the mood sometimes I tend to lash out at people but I feel really bad after. I also end up crushing on the worst people I've never been in an actual real relationship so I just crush on people for some drama in my life. Hobby wise, I'm a music girl I play guitar, piano, kalimba, ukulele, and I sing (I'm also currently learning how to play bass) I'm actually a lead singer in a band. I'm also interested in art, video editing, coding and gaming. Subject wise I like math physics chemistry and computer but they can get kind of stressful at times. I also love dressing up and buying random merch and cute things I've always wanted to cosplay and my clothing style changes every day I'm also a really big jewellery person and i love collecting fun earrings and stationary. Thank you I'm sorry if it's a bit too much hope you have a good day!! <3

For Jujutsu-Kaisen, i match you with

Yuji Itadori

(male match, send in a nother request if you would like a female match too! I am more than happy to do both! <3)

- At first, Yuji came across as relatively awkward, especially around you. He would mainly stick to following Megumi and Nobara around, but the two of you would share occasionally glances from time to time. He was hesitant to come and talk to you but you made it clear very quickly that you were far from intimidating. It took little to no time for you two to find things in common because as soon as you would find a topic of conversation, Yuji would let his words run away with him. At times he wasn’t a great listener due to the fact he was a little bit of a motor mouth when he got comfortable with his friends, but he would always realise eventually and be extremely apologetic, which you found adorable. Despite his very vocal opinions, he loved listening to you talking about almost anything and everything; he found you fascinating.

- At times you would worry that you were getting on his nerves because you were getting carried away with the conversation, but Yuji would always reassure you that it was more than okay and that you were simply just really interested in whatever you were talking about. You loved this about him because most people would get frustrated and just stop listening all together. He just truly understood you. Of course there were still some occasions where you would be a little off, especially if you hadn’t had the greatest of days. At first, Yuji didn’t really know what to do because he hadn’t been in these kinds of situations, more so because he didn’t want to upset you any further. However, it didn’t take him very long to figure out what the best ways to help you were, even it just meant sitting in comfortable silence with you, so you knew that he was there if you needed anything.

- Sometimes, Yuji would feel as though you weren’t interested in him as you would bring up other people on occasions, of course you weren’t doing this maliciously, but it still made him a little bit doubtful at times. Despite this, he was determined to stay by your side no matter what because you truly meant everything to him. He hadn’t really made any advancements towards you romantically but he didn’t really hide his feelings very well because much like you, he got flustered extremely easily and even just being around you would often make him smile and blush.

[wisteria-lodge]

burnt & exploded bird + badger secondary (bird model)

Hi! I've been doing a lot of introspection lately and I kind of wanted a second opinion about me?

I've been reading about the primaries and of all of them, Snake seems the least wrong, but it doesn't really feel right? Like, I prioritize my people over everyone else, but I don't do it because it's the right thing to do or because I care about my people. I do it because it helps me. I don't think I'm really capable of caring about people for who they are instead of what they provide me. When I was in grade school, I made a chart of how often I could interact with my friends to maximize fondness and minimize distaste for my innate personality.

Well, somebody's got some Bird somewhere.

And you're definitely an Idealist. Loyalists see people as ends in themselves, and you don't which is... totally fine.

Although this "distaste for my innate personality" thing... you had such a strong belief that you were such a huge problem so young? What happened?

Most of my conclusions from back them remain true to this day.

Oh. Yes. You're a Bird Primary. You built a system, you built it young, and you're still living in it.

Including an inability to suppress my extreme selfishness, an inability to understand how my actions will affect other people, and an inability to actually hold a decent conversation. I intentionally "befriend" people who like to talk more than they like to listen because I don't like talking to other people, but I quite enjoy learning. My people are the only ones I ever consider, but I consider them so I can keep them, not because I really care.

You know this is fine, right? To want to be around interesting people, and listen to them talk? You're a good listener, and that is a HUGE part of "holding a decent conversation." There is no reason you have to be some sparking, witty, extroverted charmer.

And all of this talk of "extreme selfishness" and "inability to understand how my actions will affect other people?" So far it seems like you make flow charts to try to understand how your actions affect other people. Is the problem that you're not omniscient?Something is up with your secondary, there's to much "I literally am incapable of being a person" for there not to be.

Bird is the second closest, but it seems to imply a level of... put-togetherness? that I don't really have.

Yeah, I adore Birds, but Birds are crazy.

I appreciate logic and reasoning, but I'm self-aware enough to know that my decisions are mostly emotion and instinct and justified after the fact. I don't trust the "outside world" to convey accurate information to me, likely due repeated and continuous incidents in my childhood that I won't get into because it's a little too personal.

OH. You're Exploded. You're an Exploded Bird. Mostly likely you've dealt with some heavy duty gaslighting (sadly common) and this has messed with your ability to take in new information.

Best guess is that your secondary, whatever it is, is Burned, and you don't feel confident navigating the world using it.

I think I want to be a Bird and try to be a Bird but can't actually use any of its tenets. I am not a rational person.

And... that's Burnt Primary talk. "I can't reason." You're a Burnt Bird as well. I mean sure you have emotions, and bias, you're a person. But you like logic, you like coming up with conclusions and then using them as rules to live by, and you can think and reason. What does it even *mean* to say "I'm not a rational person?" Like, what, intrinsically rational? There are no rational four-year-olds, this is something that you build.

I think rationality is the best possible metric for morality you will ever find

Bird.

and I am incapable of judging on a standard that isn't "how will this help me". I use rationality as a tool to further my objective of maximizing myself.

What's the problem with that. That's just, existentialist philosophy.

I don't really like myself either, so I'm not really sure why it's an objective to maximize self-benefit. And even this isn't really the best portrayal of me? Because I think I'm acting for my own self-benefit. It's the best way I've thought of to understand myself.

No one is born not liking themselves. That happened at some point. And whatever it is, it seems to have to do with *how* you interact with the world (secondary) and not *why* you interact with the world (primary.) For having Burning and Exploding in your past, you seem pretty confident in your primary.

But the thing is, I automatically try to live up (or down) to people's expectations. This has hurt me greatly in life, both academically and socially. EX: I made a really weird first impression on one of my current "friends". They genuinely think I'm plausibly a serial killer now. I don't know how to tell them it was a bit, and I don't know how to stop acting like that around them. It doesn't feel like me while I'm not around them, and I don't think they like being around me either, but I am genuinely incapable of stopping.

Feeling like you got "stuck doing a bit" is generally an Actor Bird Secondary problem... but the idea that you can't switch out of it in the moment (even though you want to) and feeling like you're kind of only doing it because of inertia, that's something I recognize in myself. So I'm kind of inclined to say this is an automatic Secondary, Badger or Snake.

Also, it needs to be said, but if you were really as creepy and as off-putting as you seem think you are... no one would hang out with you. (unless... are you insanely good-looking? incredibly rich? Is that the context I'm missing? :)

You truly seem to believe that the multi-player version of your secondary is ineffective/incorrect/wrong. You're Burnt, in the terminology of this system. And I suspect you're being too hard on yourself.

For secondary, I feel weirdly split between Lion and Snake. Like, who I am is unchanging.

(Except when you're doing a bit.) (But I know what you mean. The 'neutral' you is always you, but that's the case for everybody.)

I will never compromise myself to fit in, even if it would help the situation.

Sounds like a You-Move secondary. (Lion or Badger.)

I have strong difficulties adapting to situations.

Prep-work secondary (Badger or Bird.) And some Burnt secondary language of course.

If you're following along, that gives us: Automatic, You-Move, Prepwork seconday = Badger.

However, I have noticed that these convictions of mine are probably false.

... that is something a Lion primary would never, ever think. To a Lion, convictions are internal and therefore true. But that doesn't work for you. You're a Bird, so you need your Truth to exist externally as well, in order to be secure and safe.

I change a lot depending on the person I'm around. EX: When I'm alone, I'm a paranoid mess that flinches at loud sounds (past trauma). When I'm with this one friend of mine who has a lot of issues with manic episodes and hates touch, I'm loud and bombastic, smiling and unnerving, and oddly physical considering the touch aversion of both me and my friend. When I'm with this other friend who's a bit more mellow, I'm almost actually nice. I say "please" and "thank you", which is also weird because this friend doesn't.

You've stopped putting "friend" in air quotes. I'll take it.

You'll call me crazy, but this sounds like Courtier Badger. You're unusual, and probably your friends are too, so it's going to manifest in some interesting ways, but that's what's going on. I know this is a process that gets called "mirroring," but the idea is not that you're reflecting back a duplicate of your friend, the idea is that you're responding to whatever they're putting out, and reflecting back whatever energy you think they need.

(I would not be at all surprised if your mellow friend finds the upped manners comforting... and your friend with manic episodes finds you being bombastic, tactile and out-there comforting as well. Like, I'd buy that. Maybe they get a lot of people tip-toeing around them and treating them with kid gloves, and the fact that you don't do that makes for a pleasant change.)

It feels like me when I'm there, but when thinking about it when alone, I don't recognize it.

^ This is a very real part of being a Courtier Badger, especially if your friends are very *different* from each other. Getting emotion "hangovers" or needing time to reset back to center after interactions is also very real.

Bird is also maybe an option, but like if I had no areas of expertise. Probably not, though.

Again with that burnt secondary talk. You almost certainly have a Bird secondary model, that you built very young when whatever happened to your Badger secondary happened. And started writing relationship flow-charts as a coping mechanism.

I think somewhere along the line, I internalized the fact that all my choices are the wrong ones and became terrified of having agency. I don't know how much this affects the evaluation, but yeah.

I hate to say it, but that's absolutely classic Burnt Bird.

That's me. You know now more about me than my therapist. Do you have a sorting?

I sure do. Maybe not the best news in the world, but then that's for you to decide. I've laid out what I think. And I'm doing to lightly suggest that you're working from some old data that is... no longer relevant. You are not nearly as bad at being a person as you seem to think you are.

[imightgetbetter]

i need some friendship advice….so my best friend is a bad texter (like really bad) she won’t reply for weeks and only responds when she’s at work (we work at the same place but different departments). I’ve talked to her about it and how it makes me feel like she doesn’t care about me or our friendship, it’s started to feel one sided. I’ve tried to not reach out as much and not answer her right away but i don’t know what to do anymore. I know she’s had bad days and can’t get out of bed but she prioritizes other things such as smoking weed and responding to a group chat we’re in. I just feel like i’m giving all of me and getting nothing in return. I don’t want to stop being her friend but I don’t know how much more I can give. I’ve tried to lower my expectations and tell myself to not rely on her for anything but I don’t have anyone else

hi friend. here are our thoughts:

bestie: Okay, this is going to come from someone who has 589 unopened text messages on their phone right now. So first off lemme start off with the simple fact that I HATE texting. The number one reason why being that I'd rather talk to someone and be able to actually fully focus on them and the conversation we're having vs texting them while I'm in the middle of my day having to focus on other tasks at hand. Examples being of running errands or dealing with craziness at work. I want the person I'm talking conversing to know that they have my attention, instead of me giving a lazy half-assed response because I'm pulling my phone out to message someone back while I'm in the middle of trying to make dinner or trying to problem solve at work. NOW, there is a second portion as to why I don't like texting and am so terrible at opening and responding. I am interacting with people and talking to people and around other people, about 14-18 hours a day give or take, and I am considered the extrovert out of our friends, but truly sometimes I just can't even try and force myself to socialize with people via a phone screen. I'll be honest and vulnerable on here and admit that I have been through some shit that has resulted in terrible episodes of depression and during these episodes, it is extremely hard to not only put on a fake smile and socialize with people at work because I literally have to in order to make money and pay bills, but to also do so during MY time with others. It doesn't matter if it's my best friend or a family member, somedays I really truly just can not respond to. I'm sorry you feel like the friendship is one-sided because I've also been in situations similar to yourself, and it hurts but sometimes you just have to stop and let them take care of themselves before you can mutually work on the friendship. Someone said something to me a long time ago and I've tried to carry it with me 'I can't care for or take care of others until I've taken care of myself.'. It almost sounds like that may be what your friend needs to do, take care of themselves and then work on the friendship with you. At the end of the day sadly you may lose a friend or become distant for a while, but I can guarantee that something good will come out of it. Whether that be that this friendship flourishes later down the road, or a new friendship happens with something else. The other thing to keep in mind is that sometimes we grow out of relationships and it can be difficult for one to express their thoughts or emotions to the other. My advice is to just have grace with this person, if you feel like a confrontation needs to happen for you to gain closure, great. If you feel like you need to just slowly let it fizzle out and end on its own, great. At the end of the day you are the only person who knows what it is that you need to do.

me: honestly, i am a really big communicator. i want to talk to my friends all the time, and the reason bestie and i talk so much is mainly because we live together, but before that, we had to make facetimes work and whatnot because she hates texting. i have a lot of friends that don't text, and it took me a very long time to figure out how to come to terms with the fact that everyone is a different communicator. but that's really what it comes down to. everyone communicates differently and you may need more communication. there have been people where i've said, this hurts me! i wish we talked more! and they express that they can't speak or they don't have the energy or whatever the case may be, and that doesn't mean they don't care (not playing devil's advocate but, this is my experience), they just can't right now. i think what you really need to do is take a step back and think about what you want in your friendships and what you can give! you can't give all of you, baby. you deserve to have that effort given back to you, and you will find people that do that. i have so many different friends now! friends i talk to every day, friends i talk to once a month. they're still your friend if they invest in you, but some people just can't invest every single day. i genuinely want the best for you and i think you are so sweet and you deserve to have all the best things with your friendships. i think maybe taking a step back and sitting with yourself and understanding what you can and cannot take is important here. self-reflection and understanding is the best thing you can give yourself at this time.

[imjustabeanie]

hello!! 🥹 if that's okay, may i get an obey me matchup??? <3

about me: my name is carolina but i mostly go by caro! my pronouns are she/her, i'm afab and demipansexual. i was in one long-term relationship before but it wasn't the best as my previous partner used to treat me really badly, and i defended her for being emotionally abusive like my life depended on it. i'm an ESFP and my ennegram is 8w3!! i'm italian and currently live in italy. i am studying to become a voice actor!

personality: i'm extremely talkative and random, i got told that by how out of context i am i could be a stand-up comedian. i always see the best in people and most of the times end up only seeing that and not the negatives, which lead me to bullying grewing up, but i just don't have it in my blood to be mean towards people. i'm a huge extrovert!

looks: i'm 150cm tall, have a round face, light skin and grey eyes. i have a wolfcut with face framing bangs and dye my hair scarlet red with the lowest layer and a part of my bangs on black! i am extremely into fashion, and am often wearing either "visual-kei" or "jirai-kei" my eyesight is also quite bad, so i wear glasses! specifically iron/silver ones. i also always wear red liptint.

fun facts: i'm a huge nerd (i quote what i remember from reading homestuck in 2020 on a daily basis for the funsies of it.) i speak english, italian and french. i love styling my friends a lot!

likes: fashion, otome games, digital art, just yapping about anything honestly, compliments and complimenting people, SHOPPING, cuddles platonic or not!!

dislike: fake people, wholeheartedly.

love language: my biggest is gifts giving, but i also am a sucker for physical touch and words of affirmation. (in giving!) on recieving anything is fine as long as the person loves me.

ideal type: someone better than my ex (it's really easy.) (SORRY FOR ALL THIS EX SLANDER I AM GETTING OVER IT STILL.) just not being mean to me is enough (jokingly is okay!)

Howdy! I hope you'll like it!

Your obey me match is...Asmo!

Not gonna lie, Levi is a very close match. He just...needs someone very patient with him in relationships given how jealous he can get. But Asmo is a very chill but loving partner.

Now I can understand if you consider Asmo as a little fake. He is but once you get into his inner circle he shows his true self. You just have to show that you accept all his sides, even the uggly ones. Also come on besides the twins, Simeon and perhaps Solomon all brothers have another side. It comes with the package.

Asmo likes your humor, he encourages your career and would glady promote it if you asked. Even if it's not his field he'd be happy to help his lover. Asmo shows his love by being appreciative of you and quality time. He's very touchy, loves complimenting you and takes you on nearly daily dates! He includes you in all aspects of his life. One of his favorite things is going shopping with you and doing self care routines/makeup together. He's for the cameras, if you have an issue with it warn him so he can arrange the situation. He'd never force you to anything, consent is the best beauty out there.

Asmo always stand up for you,his lovely nerdy lover. If anyone dared to bully you and he knew of it? (he'll know). You can be sure their social life is gone. It's messed up to bully, especially with someone as positive as you. Seeing the best in everyone is a lovely quality that he adores about you. He'll be mean for you don't worry. Especially to your ex.

Asmo definitely speaks italian and french. Vu ce qu'il représente et son âge c'est normal de parler plusieurs langues. Tout le monde dans OM sont dans le même panier. Asmo is also a sucker for your gifts and cuddles! He doesn't get jealous too so you can cuddle everyone peacefully. He always parades your gifts and makes sure to properly thanks you for em. It's good that you like physical touch and words of affirmation cuz that's exactly his love language.

[freetwitchfollowers]

RhexisGaming

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[sleepyivoryrose]

Today was my first day of trying to fit again into society (it sounds like a was a prisoner or something...) I went to a center where mentally ill people gather to talk and eat food and stuff...it’s organized by my caretakers. It went about as well as I expected, which is, not so good. I just wanted to sit out the one hour I was supposed to without talking to no one at first (I thought this might not be too difficult considering most people there are +20 years older than me, so the generational gap is strong) but I just had to sit beside the socially starved, extremely extroverted person in the room, who’s very first question was “where do you live?”, which is not exactly a good conversation starter. Considering that most people there are in a worse state than I am mentally, I shouldn’t be surprised. 

Anyways, I bailed after half an hour. I should have stayed longer and really go to my limits, but I was really not in the mood for a conversation. On the other hand...I’m seldom in the mood to talk with other people, unless I’ve known them for more then 5 years every single day. 

I’ll try monday again. 

Considering I am such a frikkin weirdo, it’s probably not easy to talk to me, either. 

Talking about caretakers, they’re teaching me how to do house chores. Very late, I know but...I never really learned when I was a kid from my parents. I mean, I did do some housechores at home, just not...everything. And my mom loves teaching about moral and ethics, but is not a very practical person for such things. It’s not laziness...at least not always. I’m just really good at blending out whatever I don’t like. Which was a necessity to survive my bullying days, but on a day to day basis as an adult it’s rather annoying. 

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I watched Oshi no Ko and Skip to Loafer again, like every Friday. Oshi no Ko was really dark, as always, but I think this time specially. Cancel culture is so real in this day and age. I bet it gives emotional scars. It’s very easy to jugde from behind a monitor, when you don’t have all the facts and weren’t even there. I am not a stranger to that either though, it’s so easy to write whatevers on your mind down, in a place where you feel safe, without the feeling to have any repercusion whatsoever. I’m working on it though. 

Skip to Loafer I always watch after Oshi no Ko, like a palette cleanser. I think else I would lay down on my bed, gaze fixed at the ceiling with a “real shit”. Although I have to admit, Skip to Loafer is getting spicier. Not on the level of Oshi no Ko, I think that would crush my very being if such a cute show happened to be torture pron (cough madoka magica cough). But they left this episode on a cliffhanger, so I’m curious. I don’t think it has its own manga...or else I would spoil myself a little bit. Just a little bit. To get the tickling off my nuts.

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My friend showed me a few minutes ago a caterpillar her mom brought into the car (by accident, I assume) and I thought it was rather cute, but my friend was hellbent on using it to tease her a little bit. It’s nice. 

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I wasn’t thinking about going out today, but maybe I will. I’ll decide spontanously. 

[prose-mortem]

ARC Review of Summer Reading by Jenn McKinlay

4/5 Stars

I absolutely loved Summer Reading and am considering changing my birthday plans to Martha's Vineyard, because the author made it sound so quaint and relaxing! I enjoyed this so much!

Our story starts when our FMC, Sam, accidentally knocks a cute guy's (Ben's) book out of his hands on her ship ride to Martha's Vineyard. Sam is going to be watching her 14-year-old half-brother (Tyler) for the summer while her parents travel abroad and will be trying to establish a strong sibling relationship with him. While dropping her brother off for summer robotics camp, Sam discovers that the cute guy she inconvenienced on the ship is actually the new local library director (and her best friend's boss). As Sam's BFF, Em, deals with the potential of serious illness and Sam's feelings for Ben grow more complicated, Sam has to face her fears about repeating the past and dealing with her own childhood trauma. Sam is a chef who has been passed over for a promotion at her high-end city job and is strapped for cash… and ideas for how to sustain herself for the future. Sam fears that Ben will reject her when he finds out that the reason she doesn't like to read is because she is dyslexic and struggles to absorb written material that isn't accessible to people with her diagnosis. Can an introvert and an extrovert, a book lover vs. a movie lover, and a successful director vs. an in-between-jobs couple make a romance work? As Sam tries to help Ben unravel the mystery of who his father is, she begins to discern between accepting what people have thrown at her in the past and truly claiming what she deserves.

There are so many things to love about this book:

Our FMC is dyslexic and I learned SO much about dyslexia from this book. The book is also written in a dyslexia-friendly font and makes words bold instead of italicized to increase accessibility for dyslexic people.

Sibling relationships are explored just as much as romance, and I found that entire arc fascinating and adorable.

I saw in the back of Summer Reading that Sam's best friend Em is getting her own book?? I am so hyped for that because I really related to her health challenges and want to see which direction she chooses to go with her life. If this turns into a whole series, I'm in it for the long haul.

The MMC makes mistakes, but overall he is extremely thoughtful and finds ways to bridge gaps between his and Sam's special interests. I do wish that he had clarified exactly how he would deal with stressful situations in the future, but his re-entry into Sam's life was pretty dramatic and entertaining. I think this works so well because Sam and Ben are not actually opposites. They both adore storytelling- Sam just needs to engage with content in a way that is accessible for her while working through her emotional wounds from a childhood that was hateful toward dyslexic people

Even though some parts of the book are sad, they are necessary for good storytelling. I've seen people asking why there is no lawsuit since Sam's workplace that basically fired her and didn't promote her seemed to discriminate against her for being dyslexic. While I think that would have been satisfying, the fact is that some people just want to move forward with their lives. Sam is also dealing with intense shame surrounding her diagnosis, so it makes sense that she is not in the headspace to jump into a legal fistfight. Maybe in a future book, this could be explored? Either way, I am satisfied with how things turned out. I would also love to find out what happened with the cookbook Sam was writing! The recipes in the back of the book look amazing, and I'm going to have to try them out.

All in all the author, Jenn McKinlay, jumped at the opportunity to make this book so much more than a romance, which is what really hooked me. I love it when authors take the time to develop an MC's relationships outside of romantic love and really delve into the side characters and backstories. I read this in a single night and I'm as invested in this story as I am in the Delilah Green series. Thank you to Netgalley, Jenn McKinlay, and Berkley Publishing for my ARC of this delightful read!

[quoteablebooks]

Genre: Adult, Historical Fiction, Romance

Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

Summary:

London’s best and most covert spy tries to escape the man who has always adored her. INTELLIGENCER Agatha Woosmoss, the Wallflower, is the greatest intelligencer of her generation. And no one knows she exists. She has been invisible, capable, and cunning for well over four decades. Her greatest skill is in her ability to go forever unnoticed. Except by one man. VERSUS INTELLECTUAL Pillover Plumleigh-Teignmott is a professor of ancient languages at Oxford University. He’s tried to ignore his training as an Evil Genius and live a quiet life away from politics and intrigue. When an assignment goes horribly wrong, Agatha must hide and heal. So she goes to ground with the only person who’s always kept her safe, Pillover. Can Pillover hold onto the deadly woman who specializes in getting away? Will Agatha realize that patience is indeed a virtue, and that perhaps it is good to be noticed by the one who waits? Spinning off from the Finishing School series, this story stands on its own and spans decades but was written after Defy or Defend. May contain vampires, old injuries, lost love, and the reappearance of many favorite characters.

*Opinions*

Ambush or Adore is the latest Delightfully Deadly novel that follows Agatha Woosmoss, The Wallflower, and Pillover Plumleigh-Teignmott through their decades of loving and losing each other. Their story is interwoven between the events of all the Parasolverse books, each one of them pulling gently on strings that have a ripple effect on the world. While I am sure that this can be read as a stand-alone novel and the relationship would still pull at the heartstrings, there was something truly special after reading all the novels to seeing how these two characters who thought so little of themselves changed this universe so profoundly. However, that is kind of the point of Agatha and Pillover’s story, one does not have to be bright, flashy, and loud to make a profound difference. 

If you are the type of reader who is more interested in a cohesive plot instead of characters and their relationships, you may not enjoy this book. Especially if you haven’t read other entries into the Parasolverse series. However, I love character-focused stories, and Ambush or Adore is definitely a character-driven slow-burn romance and I couldn’t stop reading it. Agatha and Pillover constantly orbiting one another, seeing one another, for forty years, and never being able to be with one another, was the perfect among of devotion and angst for me. Carringer uses her characteristic witty banter, understanding of deep emotion, and eloquent writing to make you truly care about these characters who had just been on the periphery of other stories. I teared up at multiple points during the story, which is something I don’t usually do while reading. I feel as if this is not only Agatha and Pillover’s story but also a love letter to the fans of the Parasolverse. I am not sure the amount of enjoyment someone new to the series would get out of it, but it is an extremely fast read and probably would pique someone’s interest in the rest of the series. 

I’ve always had a soft spot in my heart for Agatha as I relate to her more than the rest of the protagonists in Carringer’s novels. While I enjoyed reading about her outspoken, brave, and sometimes brass heroines, there is something about a woman that nobody notices or cares about changing the world through the fact that no one notices her. Carringer never changes who Agatha is, she never becomes beautiful or becomes extroverted, yet she still has a loyal group of friends and someone who loves her for who she is, even if it also breaks his heart. As someone who considers themselves a bit plain herself, it was refreshing to see that Agatha never got some makeover to make the world see her, and Pillover, who was considered handsome, didn’t care about that at all because he saw her when no one else did. To be in her head, to see how little Agatha thought of herself, I wanted her to get her happily ever after, probably because I related to her so much. 

Pillover has always been one of my favorite secondary characters, starting as a grumpy little boy who refuses to admit he had ever had a positive feeling about anything but a book and growing into a man who did the same. He never took himself too seriously and even understood that his area of academia was obscure and while good at it, he was open to admitting when he didn’t know something or was good at something. Pillover never needed to be in the spotlight or even world-renowned like some of the other academics and Carragher’s novels. Pillover just wanted books, a fireplace, and the woman he love and that is something I can respect. There is also something so sweet and so heartbreaking about a man who knows that he is in love with someone at 13 and can’t do anything about it because of the type of woman he loves. While Pillover was human, he was almost never selfish and never asked Agatha to give him more than she could, meeting that with constant devotion and affection in his mild-mannered way. While Pillover would have survived as a confirmed bachelor, pining for his Agatha, I was happy that he was finally able to get his happy ending in the most Pilloverian way possible. 

Overall I absolutely adored the story it’s definitely my favorite Delightfully Deadly novel and one of my favorite in the whole Parasolverse. I think this story holds one of the sweetest and most heartfelt romances that Carriger has written in this universe. After reading through the whole series over the last year, I’m a bit sad that I don’t have any books left. That being said, if Carriger writes in this world again, I will be one of the first to read it.

[funkymbtifiction]

Hello! I'm looking for some typing help because for the longest time I've considered myself to be an ENFP, but I recently realized I also have ADHD so now I'm reconsidering. I've gone through the cognitive functions again and I'm connecting a lot with the ESFJ type (taking ADHD symptoms into consideration too.)

Could you give some examples of ENFP vs. ESFJ and how an ESFJ might look if she had ADHD? Thank you!

I can't do the latter, since I'm not super familiar with ADHD. But people too often confuse a short attention span with being ENP.

Ne-doms are intuitive dominants, which means they trust their instincts and hunches (without proof) about people, events, and situations, are good at reading between the lines, and make accurate predictions or assumptions (figuring out other's hidden motives, for example). They look at potential rather than practicality, and focus a lot of their time and attention on inspiring others to fulfill their larger potential. ESFJs are less impractical, less trusting of their hunches, and are far more talented at seeing what objects could become, in a different form (such as a familiar story put into a different location, or how that antique mirror could become a coffee table). They focus on and value building a life around what they see as important, eternal, what lasts, on being attentive to others' needs and in adapting their behavior and feelings to suit the situation, to put others at ease. They are not as intuitive, so people's motivations catch them off guard.

You can find more examples in the enfp x estj tag, or you can read samples of my book which talk about the dominant functions on the Learn MBTi page on funkymbti.com. :)

From a personal note, I can speak about the ESFJs I know compared to myself. I am all about conversation through writing; they are about direct communication and action. I am almost an introvert; they are extremely extroverted. I process my feelings on my own, after the fact; they process their feelings verbally as things happen to them (immediately). I spend a lot of my time reading abstract topics like MBTI, Enneagram, psychology, etc; they prefer to use those things. I collect lots of information before reaching any firm judgments; they reach firm judgments immediately, and then work toward collecting more information to change their mind. I see two sides to every story and they trust what they have personally experienced. I must choose to put myself into someone else's shoes to understand them; they automatically understand them, without needing self-insertion.

[aphrostarot]

Love Pick a Pile

What are the thoughts, feelings, and intentions of the person you are thinking of?

Remember that this is a general reading and some things may not apply to you. Do not try and force it to fit. If you would like a personal reading I am currently offering free readings. Dm me if you are interested!

Pile One (Amethyst):

What are their thoughts?

The Fool:

The Fool represents beginnings and being excited about newness. Based on the energy of the person you are thinking of, I get the feeling that you do not know this person personally. You may have only met this person a couple of times, but you are not close to them. This person wants to start a relationship with you and they are very excited about it.

King of Swords:

The King is overly analytical. They think with their heads and not with their hearts. This person believes that you are this person. They perceive you as being non-emotional and preferring facts over anything else. Despite the fact you may think this isn't you, this is just what they think of you, so it may not be accurate because you don't really know them very well.

The Wheel of Fortune:

As the card of fortune, it is often regarded as the card of destiny. Your person thinks that it was fate that the two of you met. They view you as their person, their soulmate, the one they have spent lifetimes with.

The Acid Queen:

Changes in viewpoints and epiphanies are associated with the Acid Queen. When you're together, your person believes you'll change their perspective on life and love. It is also possible that you have already changed their perspective. They may have had an epiphany when you met because they have gone most of their life thinking they don’t have a soulmate and then they met you and everything clicked.

What are their feelings?

King of Cups:

They are very tuned into what you feel, what you want, and what you need. They are extremely devoted to you, almost to a fault. They would do anything for you. They genuinely care about you.

Nine of Swords:

Currently, they are feeling pretty insecure. They feel like their feelings are not reciprocated by you and this upsets them. As if they are not someone you would ever like and that you will never like them. You may need to let them know how you feel if you have feelings for them.

Death:

When it comes to feelings, this card usually symbolizes that they do not feel that way for you and that there is too much on their plate at the moment. But with all of the other cards coming out we know this to not be true. This card suggests that they feel that you are this person. That you do not have feelings for them and that you are too busy to start a relationship.

The Mystic:

When the Mystic comes out in a reading it is telling you that you are in control of something in your life. When it comes to this person’s feelings they are feeling that you are in control of what happens next in this connection. It is up to you what happens next. The ball is in your court.

What are their intentions?

Nine of Pentacles:

This is a card of serenity, of having accumulated so much abundance in your life and now being able to celebrate it. Your person wants a happy and abundant life with you.

The Lovers:

They want to be in a romantic relationship with you. The Lovers shows a happy and healthy relationship. You are their soulmate and they believe they can have the best kind of relationship with you.

Eight of Cups:

This card represents letting go of the past and creating a new future. This person wants to start over with you. They want to begin a new life with you because they see happiness in you.

The Coquette:

The card of flirtation, desire, and chemistry. There is chemistry between you and they want to pursue a relationship with you. They want to flirt with you and show you how great they think you are.

What is the short-term outcome? (the next few months)

Six of Wands:

Since this is a card of success, it indicates that you and this person will make great progress in your relationship within the next few months. There is some success coming your way soon.

What is the long-term outcome?

Queen of Pentacles:

You will enjoy a homely life and family with this person in the future. This is a good sign if this is what you desire. You will be together for a long time.

Pile Two (Sodalite):

What are their thoughts?

The Fool:

The Fool represents beginnings and being excited about newness. From the energy of the person you are thinking of, I get the feeling you do not know this person. You have been manifesting this person into your life, and they feel your energy. They are excited to meet you and to start something with you because they can feel your energy and they love it.

Queen of Wands:

Passion and ambition characterize the Queen of Wands. They are quite friendly and extroverted. They are extremely social and spread happiness and joy wherever they go. A high sense of self-worth is also present, and they would never allow anyone to belittle them. They strive to succeed in their careers and will not give up until they do. This is how your person thinks of you, and they love it.

The Empress:

Empresses are people who are very warm, loving, sensual, and beautiful. They are extremely intelligent and creative. In addition, they make great parents and nurturers. Another reason why your person loves you is because they think of you as this type of person.

The Siren:

They think of you as a siren, minus the part of leading men to their deaths. They think of you as desirable. It's as if you're a magnet to them; they can't resist you.

What are their feelings?

Knight of Wands:

This is a very sexual card. You are very desirable to this person, they lust after you. It is important to note that this card does not indicate romantic feelings, but purely physical.

Three of Wands:

This card doesn’t point to any particular feelings. It does however say that their feelings will be revealed to you soon. So do not worry.

Five of Wands:

Based on the energy I am receiving from this person I would say that they feel like they have to fight really hard for your attention. They do not want to give up but, they do feel like it is a battle to get to you.

The Alien:

The Alien shows that there is an interest in you from an unknown force. Since this person can feel your energy, they know that they want to be with you. They will do whatever it takes to get to you, to be in a relationship with you.

What are their intentions?

Knight of Pentacles:

It is common for pentacles suits to want to get married and settle down. As this person is represented by the Knight, this means they are not in this position yet, but they hope to be soon. Knight of Pentacles is the slowest moving court card, so, yes, they want that commitment, but they do not wish to rush it. Therefore, they will take it slow with you.

Knight of Cups:

They plan to be completely devoted to you. They want to do all sorts of romantic things with you, they want to be your prince charming. They want to sweep you off your feet.

The Lovers:

The Lovers show a very harmonious relationship, complete with attraction and perfection. The relationship is based on deep love and trust, which allows you to overcome obstacles together. This person wants this with you.

The Courtesan:

Courtship and luxury are the themes of this card. You will be treated like a king or queen by this person. A Pride and Prejudice-style courtship is planned. They want the longing looks, the touching of the fingertips that leads to a happy ending.

What is the short-term outcome? (the next few months)

Three of Pentacles:

As this is the card of learning, you will learn more about this person during the next few months of this relationship. There doesn't seem to be any meetings in the near future, but you'll learn more about them and their energy.

What is the long-term outcome?

Judgment:

This is a card of making decisions, so it indicates that something will happen that will take your relationship to the next level. The energy of this pile feels very strong, but from a timeline perspective, it doesn't appear like there will be much progress for a while. Spirit wants you to know that something will happen, but not right away.

Pile Three (Rose Quartz):

What are their thoughts?

The Emperor:

You are viewed as the Emperor by this person. They view you as someone who is in authority and enjoys being in authority. A person who likes to be in control. They think you have gained the respect of the people around you and that you are a great leader.

The Moon:

This card depicts deception, or not being able to see things clearly. There is strong Pisces energy with this person, maybe a Pisces moon or Pisces Venus. You are idolized by them, and they don't see you for who you really are. They overlook your flaws and only see the positive aspects of you.

Six of Cups:

This is a soulmate card. They consider you to be their soulmate. You have spent lifetimes together, and you'll likely spend many more with them. Based on the energy I am receiving for this pile, it feels that you already know this person and may already be in a relationship with them.

The Alien:

The Alien symbolizes someone who is curious and loves to travel. They see you as a very curious person, particularly in regards to the unknown. They think that you love to travel especially to places that you can learn things.

What are their feelings?

King of Swords:

Feelings are not important to this King. They would rather look at the facts than their feelings. In this relationship, they are not feeling with their heart, but instead are thinking with their head.

King of Pentacles:

They want to be your provider. They want to be the ones who pay for your dates and open doors for you. Their feelings for you revolve around their need to be a caretaker and they want to be yours.

The Hanged Man:

They are wondering where they stand with you. As a result, they are beginning to doubt whether you want a relationship with them.

The Final Girl:

The Final Girl is the woman who is left standing in spite of having been through so much in her life. Your person feels that you are this person. They think that you are extremely strong and worth fighting for.

What are their intentions?

The Lovers:

The Lovers show a very harmonious relationship, complete with attraction and perfection. The relationship is based on deep love and trust, which allows you to overcome obstacles together. This person wants this with you.

Three of Pentacles:

They want to know more about you and spend more time with you. It is only by spending more time with you and finding out more about you that they will be able to learn how you feel about them and if you think you are compatible.

Ten of Pentacles:

They want to settle down and start a family with you. They want to have an abundant life with you and they want you to be happy with them and their abundance. With the pentacles coming out so much I would say that this person definitely wants to provide for you and be your caretaker. They want to make you happy and they think that providing for you will do that.

The Headmistress:

The Headmistress is in charge, usually of young girls who fear her. This person wants to be in charge of you, they want you to rely on them. They see you as someone who has been in charge for so long and now they think you need a break and they want to be able to give you that break.

What is the short-term outcome? (the next few months)

Four of Wands:

Stability is represented by this card. Spirit says that for the next few months, your relationship will be stable. No problems will arise, so don't worry.

What is the long-term outcome?

King of Cups:

When this card shows a future outcome, it signifies a marriage. In the future, you and this person will get married, as predicted by the spirit. This isn’t happening anytime soon but it is something to look forward to.

Pile Four (Amazonite):

What are their thoughts?

Page of Pentacles:

This is the card of being a student but not having the right amount of resources to pursue what they want. Your person thinks of you as this type of person. They see you as passionate and driven but also lacking the finances to do what they want.

The Magician:

In the same way that you have manifested this person into your life, they have also manifested you. Despite the fact that I do not believe you know this person personally, I do believe you have met this person before. They perceive you as someone who can fulfill all their desires, which is why they are manifesting a relationship with you.

Three of Swords:

They see you as someone who has been through a lot, especially heartache. They think that you are so used to pain that you seek out pain because you don't feel comfortable in a relationship that doesn't hurt. They want to help you heal. They want to show you what true love is. Remember that this is how they perceive you, it doesn’t have to mean they are correct.

The Spinster:

Spinsters have been alone their entire lives, and they prefer it that way. Some view them as the person you don't want to become because they are alone. Due to the amount of hurt you have endured, this person perceives you as someone who prefers to be alone. They want you to heal. They believe they can help you accomplish this.

What are their feelings?

Nine of Pentacles:

A traditional relationship is what this card represents when it comes to feelings. Traditional gender roles are what they want.

Eight of Swords:

They do not like to be tied down, especially to someone who they feel is out to hurt them. They fear that you will hurt them and that you will treat them as just another person who isn't worth the fight, based on how they perceive you and your past relationships.

Four of Cups:

They worry that you will become bored with them. They think you will leave them, and this makes them nervous. Because they feel like you would never pursue someone like them, they are very insecure, especially when it comes to you.

The Muse:

You motivate them to be better and strive for better. They feel like they can help you and inspire you too. They feel like they can inspire you to do better and to strive for better. They feel like they are just the person you need, to help you heal.

What are their intentions?

Seven of Wands:

They see you as the person who has gone through a lot. They may even think that you have mommy/daddy issues. Because of this, they think that trouble follows you wherever you go. They intend to help you heal, so you won’t face as much trouble when you’re with them.

Judgment:

They have their mind made up. They want to save you and they will do whatever it takes to help you.

The Lovers:

The Lovers show a very harmonious relationship, complete with attraction and perfection. The relationship is based on deep love and trust, which allows you to overcome obstacles together. This person wants this with you. They want to show you what real love is and what it feels like.

The Courtesan:

Courtship and luxury are the themes of this card. You will be treated like a king or queen by this person. A Pride and Prejudice-style courtship is planned. They want the longing looks, the touching of the fingertips that leads to a happy ending.

What is the short-term outcome? (the next few months)

The Moon:

Moon knows the future, but it won't tell you. It tells you to keep going on the path you are on, and the truth will be revealed in time. Your Spirit Guides do not want you to know how the near future will be for you and this person.

What is the long-term outcome?

The Emperor:

The future you share with this person is set to last a lifetime. Your relationship will be very strong. One that holds a lot of power, be it in society or in your friend groups.

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[crab-in-a-pocket]

reserved farmer headcanons + meeting the bachelors for the first time!

wanted to make some generally reserved farmer headcanons to kick off this blog and bc i see a lot of very friendly farmers out there and i... am not one of them LMAO

additionally, there's reference to a supposed volatile relationship with a (former?) loved one (projection time!)

also i forgot to open my askbox bc idk how to tumblr ?? i think it's open now (i hope).

tw: drinking and alcoholism, references to past trauma, one Bad Word (sh^t!)

when you first meet everyone, it's a quiet greeting and maybe a witty remark, but you don't stay for any chit-chat

close-lipped smiles are your signature move, along with the Man Nod whenever you run into someone

you are, of course, a nice and courteous person but you don't feel the need to say hello to everyone every damn time you pass by them because, really, you're too busy rushing to Pierre's for some seeds or lugging around foraged beach stuff

okay, maybe some of them think you're a little cold and an introvert who has... problems

but you're not! you are a strong and emotionally stable farmer who gets Shit Done and prefers to observe over participate and think over talk!

mayor lewis is extremely puzzled and almost mistakes you for someone else-- it's been over a decade and people change too much, too soon. he makes a remark about a wishing well your grandfather had built long ago (remember the well? how you fell in it that one time?) and you nod along politely (i didn't fall, i climbed in because i desperately needed my wish to come true)

it's nice to meet people who aren't as temperemental as the tides. maybe, for once, you could have a proper relationship with someone.

alex

easily the most annoying and extroverted person in town what with his obsession with sports and loud, brash personality but you two get along fabulously because you had that same passion for gridball in college before you were too busy being a corporate slave

he's a little surprised that you sit next to him at the saloon but he goes along easily and the conversation flows between the two of you easily, ranging from future plans (thinking of going pro... think i'll make it?) to the weather without sounding like you're making fake smalltalk (i wanted to play pro, too, and here i am now. if you really want it, you'll have to leave this all behind)

there's something genuine about him that's intriguing and it leaves you wanting to find out and see what the real alex is like inside because you can see through that wall he's made

and there's something enigmatic about you, who is reserved and quiet and seems to be a simple open book, when in fact, you are a very attractive onion with many, many layers

sam

you think he's immature. a wildchild, a manchild, a wildmanchild, really. sam, on the other hand, is drawn in by your calmness and how in-control you appear to be-- when you offer to play a game of pool when sebastian doesn't show up, he's delighted at the opportunity to know you better

okay, so he is immature and a wildmanchild but there is a softness in him that surprises you every time he shows it-- which is frequently around you

he has a soft smile to counteract his proud one and he's so in awe of how you get so much stuff done every day (i don't know how you do it, that's gotta be tough), every week, and every month (you'd like the responsibility, i think. to me, it's one big project i need to finish)

he has instant crush on you because you're so cool even though your line of profession really doesn't evoke much awe. i mean, you're  attractive, you are so in control of your life, and you have a really cute smile whenever he compliments you-- how could he not?

shane

bit bold of you to sit next to him at the saloon because every knows he's can be a real asshole, but he glances at you with a hint of awe and more than a hint of annoyance. you elect to ignore this and choose to order a whisky on the rocks (if you don't drink, call it apple juice)

whisky: shane's a touch impressed because you look like a lightweight. well, it's nice that someone can hold their liquor. he makes a remark about it (planning on getting drunk, huh?) and you raise a brow at him, looking a little haughty and tell him that it's your drink for the week. he's annoyed at your remark and starts an argument that surprisingly, settles down into a civil conversation

apple juice: he snorts at that and makes a remark about meeting penny for your lessons the next day. you play along and sip at your drink, making witty remarks (thank yoba for hangovers. it's the non-drinker's edge, really. just like not having liver failure). he's not sure if he should be annoyed or impressed at your cool-as-a-cucumber personality, not sure if it's too big city or too closed-off

you offer to buy him a pizza if you can take a away his beer-- at any rate, he looks like he'll end up with liver failure the way he's going. shane aquiesces and devours the entire pizza. your conversation is slow and punctuated with his loud chewing but you're pleasantly suprised that he's quite smart and well-read about whatever you're interested in

the fourth time you sit next to him, he turns down your pizza and doesn't say a word. neither do you and it's almost like it's back to square one until you realize that he hasn't made a single salty remark about anything. you decide to try again the day after tomorrow-- nothing comes too quickly to people like you and shane.

sebastian

it was the necklace you wore that caught his eye. a shining teardrop stone hanging off a gleaming silver chain. he had spoken before he could stop himself and watched as you smiled and told him he was right-- it is supposed to be a Yeti's tear.

you're pleased to meet someone who is also a homebody and a touch more reserved than a lot of other people in town. he's easy to get along with (oh, you're kidding, you really have the signed edition?) and he's got pretty good taste when it comes to literature-- after all, who can refuse a good sci-fi book? (of course i do, i'm dedicated fan)

oddly enough, your conversation is quick and eager and not all reserved. instead of the companionable silence everyone assumes you two to have, you two nearly talk over each other because you finally have someone to complain to about everyone's over-friendliness and he finally has someone who understands what it's like to be trapped in a small world

you tease him about the corporate rat race and he fires back at you about being a part of it. you like sebastian and he likes you-- it's as simple as that.

elliot

he had heard of you through leah who had heard of you through emily who had heard of you through gus who had heard of you from lewis. it was a long grapevine and he's not sure how much of the truth was preserved and it's almost a relief to meet you because, to be frank, he's tired of being the town's newcomer.

first-- you're not peppy and overly cheerful at all. second, you are definitely not hot-tempered. and third, there's something so fascinating about you, something hidden under your calm, pragmatic character. he finds a kindred spirit in you, save for the flowery words and, admittedly, the vanity.

you're amused to meet a writer living on the beach. the cabin was built by one of your grandfather's old friends, a rather surly man who had taken a liking to you when you were much younger. while the hut is in no way fancy, you can't help but consider how pretentious and, contrastingly, humble the writer must be. pretentious in such a way that he thinks living in a sandy, damp shack is a way to beat writer's block (it's odd, it's rarely a choice people make) and humble in such a way that he accepts and bears with living in a worn house with little complaint (it's admirable, if not a little silly!)

you find yourself in his company late at night when you can't sleep and it's so easy to open up to him because he's kind, he listens, and most importantly, he's not embarassed to admit he's got faults, at least to you. you let him see past your collected facade and into your cracked heart far sooner than you think and elliot doesn't mind at all

harvey

you might be the most mysterious person in town simply because of the way you present yourself. he finds himself always stuttering a little whenever you're around because of the way you watch him, set in a relaxed stance, your gaze flat and cool. later, he realizes that it's your resting face. he wonders about what you'd look like if you smiled-- really smiled

he's touched at the fact that you buy him coffee whenever he had to patch you up-- which is frequently, given your liking for the mines. you're adorable when he gives you general anesthesia. he had run out of local anesthesia and you needed a fair amount of stitches and though you told him that you have a high pain tolerance (stitches are far more painful than you think. i really don't want to put you through that), he insisted and you let him (fine, fine. get on with it, doctor). you had let out several inappropriate jokes under anesthesia and your cheeks had hurt from laughing non-stop

harvey's entranced. there's no other way to put it-- he's bewitched by your bright character hiding under that collected facade. he never pries for your secrets because he's got secrets, too. you like harvey because he's sweet and compassionate and even though he has to put up a firm, professional affectation, he wears his heart on his sleeve.

you see him as a friend at first, all platonic and it seems to be the end of it. but one day, as you hand him a coffee, he laughs and smiles and hands you a coffee just the way you like it. you're falling for him so hard and fast you think someone's put a spell on you that makes you notice the minute expressions on his face and mull over the way he talks to you. you're in love with him-- you can only hope he feels the same way too

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Hello, I just found your blog, I loved the beastars scenarios!! Also congrats on the 200 followers!!! From your event, can you please do a fic or a match up ( you can choose ) regarding beastars?

If fic: fem reader ( can be a feline, maybe a cheetah/tiger or fluffly cat with spots!) x Jack? ( reader blushes wayyy too much next to him, she’s friendly and funny but next to crushes she just error 404, gets extremely shy and quiet, a bit self conscious bc she’s bigger than Jack? And doesn’t know if he will be into it ) maybe they confessing or having their first date together?

And if you want to go with a matchup ( I’ll be brief with it cuz I don’t want the request to be huge! ) : fem, bi, INFP, (in this case it’s for beastars, I think I’d be either a feline or a sheep! With curly hair ) shy at first glance but very friendly! my friends says I’m really funny, I have a obnoxious laugh that makes everyone laugh as well, I like reading, drawing, playing games and taking naps lol, I’m lowkey chill until we are playing games, I get extremely competitive and it’s hard to control it at times, very affectionate if I know the feeling are reciprocated, but if I’m not sure I close off myself a LOT. Secretly hopeless romantic, it’s so easy to make me blush it’s a pain in the ass really ahrbbtjdksos

and i think that’s enough right? Sorry for the long request, hope this wasn’t too much and hope you have a good day!

Match-up for 200+ followers event:

A/N: aww thank you anon! I might even write the fic (although we will see with my motivation) but I hope you like my match-up! If not then please, feel free to send in another ask (my brain might not process some things that you are trying to say)

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Shadow pairs you up with….

JACK

Runner ups: Juno (idk, I feel like you two have a opposites attract thing going on and I am LIVING for it) Pina (hopeless romance stuff) Sheila (you two have a lot in common)

Explanation as to why Shadow paired you up with Jack:

Personality:

Jack is very outgoing and extroverted, so when he see’s you doing your own little thing in the corner of the room he couldn’t help but stare at you for a few moments. The way that you looked and everything you were well beautiful to say the least. So he asked Legoshi about you, Legoshi stared at Jack and then at you and then at Jack. The male gray wolf then explained what he knew about you (which was not a lot considering the fact that you were a new student that had just joined a couple weeks ago). Jack walked over to you and started to talk with you. Once you slowly opened up to him Jack seemed to fall more and more in love with you. The way that you talked and your laugh that seemed to make the whole room smile. You were naturally funny and you brought out the child side of Jack that he could have never ever found if it weren’t for you always laughing and playing games.

Likes:

Jack doesn’t really get the whole reading thing but he might get into some comics and show you some of them. When Jack was hard core simping trying to impress you he would read novels. This one time he was reading a book (and also trying to show off the fact that he was reading the book, if that even makes sense). Everyone was giving him weird looks and then you had to go up to him and say that the book was upside down. Jack was sooo embarrassed and lied to you, saying how he was learning how to read upside down. For drawing he can draw a stick figure. And that is it. But he LOVES watching you draw, the way that you sketch and then put the whole piece together in amazing to him. When you are in artist block he will take you out to the park and laugh as you scribble words down on a small notepad to help you get out of artist block. For you liking to play games Jack LOVES that. It is my personal head canon that Jack just LOVESSS video games, anything video games. That was the main thing the two of you bonded over and one of the reasons you two became friends. For taking naps, he is a dog so he likes taking naps with you and curling up to you (he just wants his cuddles :( )