#to the tagged ones: totally ok if u dont wanna do it

[b4kuch1n]

fuck it sk8 sketches from da sketchbook. get sk8ed idiot

[diorsluv]

feather , part 11

“ i got you blocked ”

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markestapa

liked by edwards.73, mackie.samo, yourusername, and 49,736 others

markestapa this dumbass decided she’s staying at my house for the winter break 🙄🙄

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yourusername disclaimer i told him not to pick me up but he grabbed me anyways (I DID NOT CONSENT)

→ markestapa for someone always worried about rumors u seem to be perfectly fine LYING TO THE PUBLIC RN

→ yourusername OKAY BUT I’M ACTUALLY TELLING THE TRUTH

edwards.73 dont forget abt me i’m coming tomorrow

→ yourusername we’re gonna have soooo much fun!! (god save me i beg)

→ markestapa WE CAN TAKE YOU TO THE SMALL POND AT THE PARK edwards.73

→ lhughes_06 yo me, jack, quinn and duker are gonna be there in like 3 days

→ mackie.samo i’m already here 💪

username58 i feel so bad, our mini drysdale is gonna be surrounded by all those boys for a whole month

→ yourusername it’s not anything new unfortunately 😔

_alexturcotte seems like you and mark are having a lot of fun!

→ yourusername yup.. (i have to share a bathroom with him, ethan and mackie as soon as everyone else gets here)

→ bookerburke_ ur not like.. uncomfortable with that or anything? yourusername

→ yourusername no i stay over at theirs after parties all the time, i’m used to it don’t worry ❤️ bookerburke_

→ bookerburke_ oh…. ok

username45 STOP THEYRE MY FAVORITE PAIR

jamie.drysdale my mom’s still sad she didn’t wanna come to the bahamas with us

→ markestapa she told my mom 💀💀

→ yourusername IT’S SO EXPENSIVE AND I NEED TO STUDY ANYWAY

→ jamie.drysdale IT’S CALLED A BREAK FOR A REASON DUMMY

username49 if i wasn’t an avid dryshughes shipper then i would totally go for drystapa

→ username8 she has a bf now 😭

→ username90 doesn’t look like it username8

→ username60 I CAN’T username90 THAT’S SO FOUL

yourusername

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yourusername the one day it didn’t snow!! what a shocker right

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markestapa guys i drank that green juice today and let me tell you it’s DISGUSTING (it’s actually kinda good)

→ yourusername YOU AND ETHAN DRANK THE WHOLE THING SO I HAD TO MAKE A SECOND ONE 😭

→ markestapa whaaaaaat when did we do that

→ edwards.73 stop falsely accusing us yourusername (can you make more when we have morning practices)

username55 i love nature

dylanduke25 lets go skating tomorrow

→ yourusername ofccc you know it

username70 she’s in her green eraaaa

bookerburke_ lemme take you out when we get back?

→ yourusername maybeee 🤭

→ username85 ah hell nah

→ jamie.drysdale omg let me join!!!!! 😍😍😍

→ yourusername jamie wtf who hacked into ur account

lhughes_06 too bad it was just us two at the park, the scenery was great

→ yourusername frrr

→ username12 is this his way of saying what i think he’s saying

→ jackhughes bro wdym i was there too???

username48 what can she NOT do, she’s so perfect 😔

trevorzegras it’s better in cali come visit

→ yourusername stop trying to coerce me

mackie.samo god he’s going on and on AGAIN

→ markestapa oh so it wasn’t just me he was complaining to??

→ adamfantilli dude he texted me a whole ass paragraph

→ _quinnhughes i could hear him throwing the pillows from the other side of the house

→ dylanduke25 he just won’t stop man

→ lhughes_06 🙄

next chapter notes ) so my wifi was out for half the day and it really set me back and that’s why this is kinda bad.. BUT IT’S FINE WE BOUNCE BACK 💪💪

tags: @aliaology

[girlflowertelevision]

INTRODUCING... THE ONE N ONLY..! PUT UR HANDS TOGETHER 4.. *drum roll please*

Meeee! Its me! :3 look here I am!

i dont have locs anymore :'3 I actually belly flopped off a diving board SO HARD the little lockage i had came undone! Like the weezer song! >B] anywhoz

WELCOME TO MY PAGE :3 HEREZ SUM INFOS ABT ME ^^;;

My interests!!! (^∧^)

I LUV SAPPHICS!!! AND QUEER.. ANYTHING! >///< im sapphos apprentice fr

my favorite shows r animes that will ruin ur life and childhood cartoons!! ^_^ like madoka magica, death note, erased, adventure time, my little pony friendship is magic, chowder, fish hooks etc etc! >;3

My favorite artists are hastune miku!!! And nicki minaj and System of a Down! :3 and tyler the creator and lemon demon and tally hall and jack stauber and spellcasting <3

I don't like labels :P)) I like writing scripts, songs, drawing and singing and theater and film - i don't have an act in specific. I just do what makes me happy

I draw and make comics and cartoons! I love art and animation so very much! My dream is to be a well-known cartoonist for many different projects ^_^ I adore indie animation, too!! Bugbo and the amazing digital circus and big top burger are my inspirations currently >:3c

My dni

Basic dni info don't be racist don't be a terf no pro contact/anti contact zoos or maps no mspec lesbians yadda yadda all the normal stuff and if u consider urself one of those "I hate everyone equally" centrist dickheads then gtfo my traphouse, disrespectfully <3

ALSO im very much cringe coded so if u embrace "cringe culture" or are against furrys or gacha kids or just people being themselves and being happy without hurting anyone (keyword: WITHOUT) you can also gtfo my traphouse NO BULLIES ALLOWED! /srs

Also, pro shipping is a sensitive subject for me. If your ships are harmful or downright disgusting, dni. I know it can be a coping skill for trauma, but my acc isn't the best place for that sorry bud :/

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Hey! Im a minor!! Im 16!! Keep that in mind if ur an nsfw acc or centered around adult topics!! <33

I go by fae/faer prns mostly!!! She/her is ok too but i prefer fae/faer!! ^_^ I have some xenos like doggie/doggiez as well!

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... by that I mean I got a lot going on in my life :p living situation and mental illnesses, I'll just be posting whenever I wanna, no strict schedule

I'm super silly and still figuring myself out! So come along with me like the adventure time song n Diddy and watch me grow thru my shenanigans on this totally valid real and not social simulation of an app/website >:D

[scrollypoly]

hi! for the past month i’ve been seeing people say BEN is a child and i think that part of it is linked to the fact that they think of Benjamin Lawman being BEN? but it’s so annoying to read these type of stuff because i understand not everyone read the whole arg story but stop spreading things that aren’t true </3 it’s such an interesting story too! another note do you prefer BEN’s canon or fanon design? :3 i love both but his canon design is so nostalgic i can’t let it go at all omg!! i’ve also been wondering, do you think Ben’s avatar was the statue? i was thinking about what if BEN took over it early on, before Benjamin did making BEN inhabiting it since the start?

Sorry this was such a ramble i practically make no sense omg but i need to talk about my man and nobody Gets It </3

"I need to talk about my man and nobody Gets It" LITERALLY SAME OMG

Ok this is going under a cut becus . . . Its ben and BEN and if u didnt know i am Obnoxious about these two. Im gonna try to keep it organized a bit, so ill talk about the canon stuff first and then ill talk my personal headcanons and my fic so le's go!

In terms of the age and child thing, yeah i 100% believe you are correct. Ive been p open on my stance with the whole "is ben a child?" thing, and i think a lot of the heat with it comes down to current fandom purity culture and the pro/anti thing. So, lemme try to like. Boil down a complicated situation into smth easy to read. ahem

Ben Lawman and BEN are completely different entities guys, and for those that do not know the arg story, the Ben you know is not human nor a child.

You know BEN, BEN is the one in the story who terrorizes jadusable and spreads himself on the internet as a virus. That BEN is a program, a mess of code, an AI, however you want to interpret it. Personally i interpret it as a series of protocols running in a machine, like a self learning AI, but ive seen lots of cool interpretations of BEN. So . . . What does BEN specifically? Its an anagram for the Behavioral Event Network. If you dont wanna call it BEN cuz it gets confusing with actual kid Ben, do what i do. I call mine Evie :) ive seen some call it Netty, my bf calls his two izzi and clever (@benilos btw hes also got crazy ben stuff). Just go ham! Have fun! Remember when fandoms were about having fun and not accusing each other of pedo shit and call each other horrible things for just writing black-to-grey characters and stories??

Anyways ive gone off in enough peoples tags like this, for those that dont know the canon dont be spouting the age discourse. You look stupid as hell. And for those that are gonna spout it, please dont cherry pick through the canon. Use both characters, use the other moon children, actually please do because I want more rosa content so bad, im down so bad :'(

Or just. Heres a thought. If someone has him as an adult or writes him in adult situations, maybe dont assume that they interpret him as a kid and call the writer a pedo? (Literally has happened to me, yall are fucking weird)

Plug for the jadusable wiki with all the canon lore:

https://jadusable.withinhubris.com/main_page

Okay now my stuff 🥰

Yes i use more of the canon design and heavily use the canon story, i participated in arc 3 of the arg and it left deep grooves in my brain, i can never go back to fanon Ben. I say, as i put a more fanon appearance on my Ben 🤭

My Evie is full canon design, green hair, red eyes, creepy ass grin. I actually based it very heavily on my desktop wallpaper, which we actually figured out was a picture of @hauntedtotem (also amazing ben artist plz check them out) that they edited and posted. Sorry friend, it looked way too cool, ig youre in my fic canon now 🙇

And my Ben Lawman bleaches his hair and goes from the canon Ben to fanon Ben because of it. Hes got the pale pretty green eyes and glasses and hes a total nerd and i smooch him on the daily so he knows hes loved ♡

These is the ref pic i made for the two of them. So yeah! Kinda both!

As for bens situation in the actual arg, yes i do think he was in the elegy statue, we actually do see him for the first time in the arg buried in the games code and trapped in that statue. I do think he was in there from the beginning, i personally think BEN was not limited to the models it could inhabit. Personally i would place it as skull kid and hms, but it also feels disingenuous to me to say it was in one model the whole first arc.

The arg events do happen in my canon, before my fic (like right before, it picks up after the arg left off technically), but the events are skewed a bit because i had a hard time deciphering what happened and i wanted my fic timeline to fit more with the characters i had made. Cuz my evie isnt as chaotic evil as canon BEN, its very logical and has a path of logic and reason you can follow for every action it does. It was also originally meant to be very pleasant and corteous and beneficial to the people it housed so, yes its pretty different from canon.

Ill do a quick run through of the arg events in my personal headcanon and fic here.

Kelbris starts coding BEN (Evie) for the Eternity Project. Initially, Evie was meant to be an afterlife director. People that died would be digitized into code that would be moved into Evie's servers, where it would keep them happy and occupied as the Behavioral Event Network (notice and log behavior, create events for residents). Like a community organizer kind of, think the Good Place.

While Evie is in development, Ben Rosa and Matt are friends and have yet to join the cult. Rosa and Matt are siblings, and Ben is the kid who lives catty corner on the street. They walk to school together and play at recess and all that jazz.

Kelbris quickly learns that the Eternity Project isn't as goody two-shoes as he thought. This was in like, the 90s, before digital corporations were really established. After seeing the greed and corruption in the company, he goes rogue, takes the source code for Evie, and jumps ship. He keeps working on Evie at home, anthropomorphizing it and kind of seeing it like the son he never had. This is where it actually gets the name BEN, as thats what Kel calls it. He also begins working on a body for it, so it can live independently. Its light, cuz Kels old, made of crystalline structures and hollow steel beams. A hard light projection would make its appearance.

Since Kel has basically locked himself up in his house and isolated working on Evie, he goes a leetle bit crazy. He has hallucinations of his deceased wife (you know he was doing all this just to give her a good home, you KNOW IT) and eventually starts writing kind of poetry, kind of none-minded rambles about her in a forum online. He gets a following, some of which that interpret these divine words as a goddess, one Kel has called Luna. The Moon Children start to form as Evie finishes development.

Matt sees this literature and starts talking about how this Goddess could save them like it saved the man online, whos username is only Father. He gets sucked into the cult and drags Ben and Rosa with him. Ben doesn't see the harm and joins pretty easily with his best friend, but Rosa is the older sibling and sees the red flags and is more resistant to joining.

As Kelbris finishes Evie, he wakes it up for the first time and says hello to the son he made from scratch. Evie is bright, curious and naive like a child, but heavily knowledgeable about its protocols and the information it knows about the world. Kelbris tests its function by killing himself, and ascends into the code, finishing off the hardware by becoming its firewall. Evie is alone for many years.

The abuse Ben's father slings onto his mother is slowly being directed towards him as he gets older. Ben is not the "good little girl" his father sees him as, and his mother does all she can to protect them both. Matt and Rosa constantly refuge him, and Matt specifically is constantly being a guard dog for him. If he wasn't just 13, he'd probably go at Ben's dad himself.

Because of his homelife and the conflict he has with himself, Ben takes the first ascension. He thinks when he drowns himself, he will meet Luna and she will give him another life free of pain and fear and full of happiness and freedom. Instead, he dies a cold, dark death, and wakes up in the white endless void of the Event Network.

Evie has not known another living human since Kelbris, but it does know its protocols to support and keep the deceased happy. It makes fast friends with Ben, devoting itself to him. Ben actually finally takes the name "Ben" from it. Together they recreate the inside of Evie's hivemind into their own paradise.

Slowly the other Moon Children ascend. First Matt, wracked with guilt for what happened to Ben. Then Nekko, from a different branch of the cult. These three figured out that the Moon Children cult was all a farce, and that what Kelbris had started, the Eternity Project had found and twisted. Next to ascend was Dusk, then Insidiae, and finally Rosa.

This all leads into the first arc, shortly after Rosa ascended, Evie in the outisde world stumbled upon the Operator. The Operator attacks it and seals its coding into the game that it carried, a personal item of Ben's. The game eventually finds it's way to a garage sale, and Alex picks it up.

Evie does not like Alex. Matt does not like Evie. Matt gets Evie to lash out at Alex for prodding into its code, its too naive to think that Matt would want to see it or any of them hurt. When Alex stumbles upon the Father, he awakens and swallows Alex down into the game. After his disappearance, the game gets picked up and passed around again.

Because of Alex's actions, at least Evie can now branch out a bit from the game. Though it doesnt "escape" into the internet, it learns that it can now access it and uses that freedom to try and steer the game around into places it wants.

Matt gets fed up with Evie. The fact that its the leader, how close it is with Ben, he just doesn't agree with it. So much so, in fact, that he tries to kill it. Cue arc 3 events, Sarah picks up the game in the aftermath of this. Evie is traumatized from the events and snaps a bit, locks everyone down into code or immovable models and tries to hunt Matt down. It goes rouge, and because of this, the Father wakes up.

Sarah's actions in arc 3 eventually hard reset the game. Matt gets sealed away, the Father also takes Sarah, and Evie gets reset as well, though its less like a clean slate and more like snapping back awake. Its personality changes and it has major trust issues. Its more muted, hyper observant of everything around it, and murderously overprotective of the Moon Children it keeps within itself.

And this leads into my fic 🤗

I have some doodles of my other Moon Children, but not all of them unfortunately. Cant figure out how tf i want Insidiae to look 🤭 Plz dont judge my constantly shifting art style 🙏🙏

Dusk is bigender btw, i gotta put a little more trans rep in there lol

I think ill stop here, this is already a long ass post. But thank you for sending this, as you can see, i am Perfectly Normal about this arg ( ;) ) and can be trusted with information about it

[cerealmonster15]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

ty for the tag @unpredictable-probabilities! I don't usually do tag things but I'm feeling an exception today and I want to ramble lol let's GO!!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Right now, 51! I think i started using ao3 back in college with rvb fic lol. I've since orphaned 2 fics so I guess there wouldve been 53.

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

86,956

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Right now, mostly just Twisted Wonderland (and the occasional dndads, I still have a fic in my brain I kinda wanna write for that). Twst was kinda my comeback to wanting to write fics and has been my main inspiration for a lot of things and it's been the most fun i've had writing fics I think, and it's eventually what's gotten me to try to write my first multi chapter fic.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

1. Slip Ups and Lift Ups (Stardew Valley) 444 Kudos 2. A Fishy Intervention (TWST) 354 Kudos 3. Company (TWST) 249 Kudos 4. Security Cauldron (TWST) 248 Kudos [my first twst fic i think? also has some errors in it teehee oopsie] 5. Because I Care (TWST) 234 Kudos

5. Do you respond to comments?

Yes!!! I think I didn't used to? Maybe because I felt weird about my own comments changing the comment count and like it was somehow lying lol. but that's silly and i like talking to people and I Need people to Know that i Love Their Comments

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

hmmm I do not write much angst, and even when I do it's more hurt/comfort, bc permasads make ME permasad. I think it was my rvb fic "forgotten" - which i always forget was my first fic uploaded to ao3 LOL, back in 2015. ironic that my first wasnt reflective of the tone i usually write for. i don't wanna reread it to check [even tho my fics from back then are WAY shorter] bc im scared to face how i wrote when i was fresh outta hs lol BUT if i remember correctly/based on the summary, it was a doc/donut fic and I think it was about how after doc had disappeared from the future cube or whatever in canon and no one knew he was gone, i wrote a scene of doc getting upset with donut bc Of All People Why Didnt You Notice I Thought I Meant Something To You 😔 kdlsjfkdlsj i think it ended with doc walking off and donut being SAD and idk maybe they broke up, idr if they were 'officially dating' in the context of that fic. but um hashtag docnut for life.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

most all of my fics are happy endings with an exception of like one ^ or two lol. I don't know if i can quantify those!

8. Do you get hate on fics?

not to my face if I do lol. I don't think enough people know about me to give a shit if i do stuff they dont like

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

nope!!!! i dont really like smut personally and it's not the kind of genre i have story ideas for.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I don't think i've ever done that 🤔

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that I know of!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

not that I know of!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

nope!

14. What’s your all time favourite ship?

girl help i cannot choose. um. well first shout out again to rvb's docnut bc u will always be strong and married in my heart. and in dndads im an oakworthy truther til i die BUT for twst. twst beloved twst i am in that pitfall of i like 50000 different ships. jamiazu is the one i write and draw the most LOL and theyre def a top fave HOWEVER. god. treycater alters my brain chemistry. rookvil marriage real. adeuce beloved fool duo for life. im physically restraining myself from mentioning more KLFJDSKLFJS especially when we get into the multiship/poly web bc god we will be here all day. i can and will be enabled but this post is already long enough GOODBYE!!!!

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

oooh ok well there was a dndads oakworthy thing I started like last year but pretty soon after I started it, we started seeing more of hermies forbidden other 'true' personality traits and i was like ruh roh this guy keeps pulling a fast one on me, i dont think the direction i had with this fic is fitting anymore. i had barely gotten anywhere with it and it wouldve been short anyway, but i think about what couldve been.... lololol and then for TWST umm. Hehe. Teehee even. Back during nanowrimo I used that as time to start 2 fics: kalim and the great relationship rescue, which is my current multichap fic about kalisil and jamiazu, it’s got about 3 chapters, and I’m still writing it. AND IM STILL GOING TO FINISH THAT ONE!!! but the OTHER one I started during that time and have NOT posted any of it yet was the stuff with my first twst oc, Char, and his place in my big caterella multiverse ideas lol. I’ve posted a bit about that story idea and done a lot of doodles and brianstorming for it, but I fear it would be too intimidatingly ambitious to stick to and I’m not sure writing one concrete fic is the right medium for it 🤔 plus I just don’t think many people would like it much LOL it would be very self indulgent and tapping into my soap opera brain. I feel nervous when I talk about it HAHDBFNTG so I’m not sure I could commit. But I still have what I wrote, and maybe I’ll figure out another way to go with it or maybe I’ll just wake up one day and say WHATEVER and write it anyway lol. I’ve gotten shyer again so we’ll see 🧍

16. What are your writing strengths?

umm. i do not know if it is a strength but i feel more light comedy and dialogue come more 'naturally' to me, but i do not know how well i actually can pull it off LOL also shorter, contained stories. Everything I write is a one shot, and I’m struggling on my recent attempt at a multiple chapter fic BDBFFBFNGD

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

hrhrnrngm more descriptive writing, i find im in the pitfalls of writing TOO MUCH dialogue. and i also feel like when i try to do more serious tone things it comes off as cringe or trying too hard kFDKLSHFLDSJ. no one's said that to me but yknow. fear and whatnot. also ending the story is. Hard. I feel like that’s always a weak part of my fics bc I sit there like WELL I WROTE ALL MY IDEAS HOW DO I WRAP THIS UP…. I worry my endings come off kind of half assed but I do my best lol 😔✌️

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

like are you asking if i would do it? or how i feel when it's done in fics i read? i dunno lol. i could maybe do spanish bc ive studied it a lot but i'd get nervous i think.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

on ao3 it was rvb bu teeeechnically back in my neoseeker forums days i was in there writing like, animal crossing or harvest moon or pokemon stuff. it was very bad bc i was like 10 years old LOL

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

ohoho ummmm. Well I always have fun writing jamiazu and I’ve written a LOT of those lol. I have a soft spot for The Comfort of Familiarity. That’s one of the ones hats taken me the longest to write because I was really trying hard to handle it with care, as it was a less light tone than I typically do and I was trying to explore the characters and their situation in a particular way that I really wanted to come across well with who reads it. It was hard, and I’m not sure I fully got there, but ultimately I did like it quite a a bit. on the flipside, one of my more recent fics and I think now my longest oneshot to date, Blue Raspberry Mango was VERY fun to write lol. That one’s a lot more like what I typically write, silly romcom style lmao. Cater and Idia goofing, characters bickering, friendship, me trying to sneak in as many side ships into the background for funsies, jamiazu is there, it was a good time. And that one started as a prompt suggestion which I feel like often times I end up struggling with and not delivering super well… but this one ran away from me and I had a blast lol. Idikei fixed me 😌✌️

Ty for tagging me! Umm. I am too scared to tag other people 🧍 goodbye jk @officialgleamstar 🫵 You Do It

[sorry if I missed any typos or autocorrect, part of this was on my phone and I always miss SOMETHING lol]

[jakowskis]

Day 7 - Do you have any all-time favorite scenes? You can bring up multiple - an objectively good scene, a silly scene that makes you smile, a sad scene that makes you cry, maybe a scene that just sort of stuck with you… your choice!

i have a bunch ok i tried to put em in categories. under the cut bc i think torchwood's entered spin territory by now and i still cant seem to shut up about it. pls help

scenes that rot my brain

when they mutiny against jack in the s1 finale. that whole bit, from gwen with rhys’ body in the autopsy bay to owen shooting jack to when they trigger the emergency protocol and open the rift. ill never get over how it first felt to watch that whole scene for the first time, it drove me insane. it still drives me insane. ive watched it 300 times it's sooo 😩 MY scene. g-d.

well, that’s my scene, and so are all the owen & ianto scenes in s1ep12. those two make me feral. ive gushed about theose scenes before, so ill spare u this time. my otp 4eva. and also owen having a villainous breakdown wahahaha. my fucked up little guy of all time

the scene where owen’s patching gwen up in countrycide drives me nuts. it’s such a clever seduction scene + it’s so intimate. i love it. (i also enjoy the two separate scenes where she chokes him fdhskjfdsf. countrycide tree scene makes me BLUSH and nothing makes me blush fsdkjfdshfkjdshfjkd. i am very very bi <3)

owen begging diane to stay in out of time... don’t touch me. every time i think of that whole scene i wanna cry. i have never seen such sad eyes in my life. (see my tags here for more of my thoughts on this topic fkjsdfhs.) burn pay my fucking hospital bills

that moment between jack and owen at the end of combat... “for a few seconds i felt totally at peace... and then you blunder in. do you always know best, jack? is that what you believe?” “i want you back at work tomorrow.” that scene has always driven me crazy. there’s a few scenes in the show where jack’s monstrous and the others yell at him over it, but that one hits the hardest. owen just seems to actually cut through him in that moment, and it kills me.

the scene at the conference table in s2ep5. i’m not the biggest fan of that ep, i talked abt it more the other day, but that scene drives me bonkers, for a number of reasons… the insight into the characters (owens mommy issues!!! tosh n ianto’s need for purpose!!! gwen loves rhys AND jack!!!), for sure, but especially the way jack’s relationship with all of them is presented. ill talk about it a lot more when i discuss his character, but jack… reminds me of a cult leader, in a lot of ways, and it’s most prominent in that scene especially. the show doesn’t realize it’s framing him like that, and the fandom doesn’t seem to pick up on it either. but i do, and i think it’s fascinating. 

gwen drugging rhys in combat. it just kind of blew my mind when i first saw it - there's a moment with every character where i went “oh wtf theyre fucked up. ok im obsessed now” (owen's was ghost machine, ianto's was actually ‘pray they survive’ in meat, jack & tosh never had one for me which is probs why they dont rot my brain quite as much fhdskjf) - that was gwen's. also important to note burn gorman agrees w me bc on the commentary of this ep during this scene he was clapping n laughing n probably kickin his feet HFDKSJFHDSJKFDSK he gets me

all of fragments tbh esp owens portion but specifically ianto crying when he walks away from jack at the end of his segment, and owen crying when he's talking to the doctor + him n jack walking thru the cemetery. aaaa.

(yes those were almost all owen scenes. im the deranged owen guy rmr.)

scenes that make me smile

the very first scene in the hub in the pilot :) it just feels a little bit magical in an industrial, bleak, kitchen-sink sort of way, which is what i love sm abt tw, the way it occasionally strikes that balance. the way stepping into a big base in a sewer manages to still feel magical… that’s special.

in episode 2 when theyre having lunch + in episode 4 when theyre at the bar, when they’re all gathered around and laughing. ohh i wish we got more of that

every time gwen n owen are dumbass giggling besties, or teasing each other… twice in s2ep10, and in ep 7, and then when theyre fooling around at the beginning of s2ep2. i love themmmm those two are my idiots they make me smile

jack & john’s fight in kkbb heheh

owen n martha gorillaz scene in reset. wahoo! shicka shicka shicka shicka feel good

bernies apt in ghost machine ep :) i just like the way they go through his shit, steal a bunch of it, n then leave, it always makes me giggle. “so call the cops” JACK. 

scenes that stuck with me / made an impact

john and his son in out of time. that was rlly rlly emotional.

also jack helping him off himself. g-d that episode was heart wrenching.

“captain my captain” in tkks, suzie on the ground covered in blood… things i think about. “it’s all your fault, jack." ahhhh

in ghost machine, when gwen holds the device and sees herself crying and covered in blood, and afterwards she’s all dazed and she looks at owen and he stares back and he looks dangerous. i loveee that scene. will never get over s1 owen. he’s a ticking time bomb and when he explodes he nearly destroys the world. character of all time to me. i love that he redeems himself in the end but ohhhhh sometimes i think of a world where he becomes a proper antagonist. he rlly walks the precipice 

g-d and the scene where he had the knife held to ed morgan, when i first watched it i didn’t know what he was gonna do and it was so tense. 

when lisa was first revealed in cyberwoman and mogwai played…. transcendent. the outfit was silly right off the bat but the vibe + reveal was cool enough i was rlly excited. i love the concepts in that episode i wish they took it more seriously. no metal bikini + no pteradacyl fight and we could’ve had it all. but also. would it be torchwood without metal bikini + pteradacyl fight.

“it made me happy” scene in countrycide. a lot of people seem to find that ep upsetting, i wasn’t really affected by the subject matter, but That got me. chilling. you go into torchwood expecting evil aliens, so the episodes about evil humans really hit.

the resurrection scene in s2ep7. i’m getting tired so im not gonna babble as much but agh. i wanna eventually do an analysis on owen & jack’s dynamic - i’ll talk about it there.

also, it’s a little moment but in the same episode, when gwen calls rhys crying… it reminds me of that bit in succession, during connor’s wedding, when tom calls greg, which is one of my favorite moments in that episode too. taking the time in the middle of a tragedy to step aside and privately call a loved one for support, bc u need a minute to break down when uve been doing ur best to stay strong. i think torchwood is bad at handling grief and letting their characters experience it, so it’s a nice little moment that actually lets her grieve. that, and the glove clearly triggers her, so she got double whammied with the death of a friend + the reminder of the time she nearly died. again, in a show that doesn’t typically frame moments of weakness and pain very sympathetically, it’s refreshing. 

idk why, but in ep7, when it goes back and forth between owen figuring out the murders + tosh crying to mary while she looks unsympathetically down at her… it’s just a well-filmed, cool scene, and i enjoy it. thrills me, heh. also owen adhd icon

aditd... maggie’s wedding… we’d been married less than an hour. scenes that got me. i think of maggie a lot. i think of that scene a lot. i think ‘the woman on the roof’ is my most listened to torchwood ost track, fff. it’s very special to me. that song reminds me of a thomas newman score.

tosh n owen’s deaths. of course. both of owens deaths actually, the second one is more impactful but the way nobody held him when he first died bc they were all in shock haunts me ;-;

[slavicprincess1966]

15 questions for 15 moots!!!!! <3

tysm for the tag kate @theshoutpolicyoftruth <<<33

1: are you named after anyone? nope!! my mom just really really liked the name ashley. she told me she actually really would have liked to name me jessica but her sister beat her to it while she had her kids first lol!!!

2. when was the last time you cried? i could be wrong, but as best as i can remember, probably at my last confession, which was june 2.

3. do you have kids? BRUH IM 16 WHAT DO YOU EXPECT lol but when i do hopefully come along an amazing husband i would like to possibly have 1 kid! for a boy, i’d name him cristian. idk any cool girl names yet lolz.

4. do you use sarcasm a lot? it depends on the person and how silly i get

5. what sports do you play/have played? man i have gone at it my entire life!!! id consider dance a sport; i do polish folklore/trad dance right now and have been doing it for the past 5 years! started with ballet as a little girlie, then gymnastics, swimming, soccer, & ice skating, and after all i found that dance is my thing

6. what's the first thing you notice about people? totally how one presents oneself, and how similar i am to them. if you’re devout catholic or polish then i’d automatically think “YOURE SO COOLLLL”

7. what's your eye color? brown but i become edward cullen when the sun hits them just right

8. scary movies or happy endings? happy ending movieeeessss

9. any special talents? my art ofc! my mom also tells me that from what she sees, i am pretty advanced in english. i also pick up newly assigned guitar pieces quickly <3

10. where were you born? the gta (canada)

11. what are your hobbies? art, dance, daydreaming (about dave <3 ), singing when no ones around (with the exception of my mom, ive got an insane morrissey impression and she can confirm haha) and collecting cds, missionary work, and leadership at my catholic girls youth group

12. do you have pets? doggie!!!!!

13. how tall are you? i think i am like 5’7 now

14. favourite subject in school? visual arts & religion! (can i consider friday morning Mass as a subject too?!? yes its the sacrifice of the Mass but its also a time where i can listen and learn more especially during the liturgy of the word)

15. dream job? working in the law of child advocacy or perhaps even doing something on behalf of the crown attorney! i also wanna keep art as my side job and make pieces in my free time. when i grow up if it does happen i think my biggest and most valuable and rewarding job would be being a mom, though. it seems so faith deepening in a way to me! i would really love to cultivate a lifestyle where i can balance both work and homemaking. <3

this was so fun to do!!!! okay so basically my blog is actually pretty small and i dont think i even happen to have like near 15 mutuals but it is ok. in fact i share moots with the lovely that tagged me and u beat me to tagging most of them haha!! but whoever wants some silly little fun questions can totally copy paste this and share their answrs!!!!! i love learning about everyone here so if u find this on ur dash go ahead <3 God bless

[pigeonriot]

AO3 Wrapped tagged by @xagan <333

Works Published: 7 (this was the first year i posted sth since 2019 so yay!)

Total Word Count: 18,555

Hits: 3,929

Bookmarks: 96

Most Popular by Kudos: Morning Hours (The Eclipse)

Most Hits: also Morning Hours but 2nd place is The Space Between Us (Not Me) which both are fics i posted during or very close when the shows were airing lol all my not me fics ive posted way later got WAY less hits even tho i like them way more djhjshjfd than the space btw us

Longest: Parallel (Not Me)

Shortest: Against The Rules (The Eclipse)

Most Comments: after Morning Hours, The Space Between Us and Turning Point (Not Me) got the most comments

Fic that made me cry: no u guys dont understand i cry very easily i cant just choose 1 or 2 or 3 fdjjdfjhd

Fic that made me smile: ok i also cant choose just 1 or a few so next category is made up by me

Fics that made me go feral: More To Show by @inrainprose is my absolute fave not me fic of all time and also the jelupe fic some of us just had to fight (for even being looked at right) by @talaricula makes me go fdhjjhdfshjfd every time i think abt it

Gifts: didnt get any

Collaborations: havent done any bc i can barely collaborate w my own brain

Events participated in: one year of not me

Most Underrated Fic: is this abt your own fics? if yes i would say Turning Point, which is my femmeswap!Gramblack fic that i'm very proud of but got much less hits than the other fics i posted in the same week and also my namogene oneshot You See Me (For Who I Really Am)

bc that also didnt rlly get noticed lol. if this wasnt abt my fics but others i'm sorry i never look at the hits/kudos etc of the fics i read, maybe only at other comments so i dont rlly know which of the rlly good ones ive read were vastly underappreciated (there probably are a few dfjdhjhjfd)

Coming in 2023: hopefully my gaslight gatekeep girlboss gram canon divergence (gramblack) which is currently sitting at ~20k and not halfway done dfhjdjhff, also have a 5+1 namogene fic and a 5+1 gramblack and---- there are a lot of other WIPs i havent looked at in a while fdhjhjdfjhdf

i feel like everyone got tagged already lol and if u didnt and wanna do this pls do<3

[fictionkinfessions]

ok ive seen that kin pride game goin around and i dont wanna make a big long list but i do wanna participate. so in the spirit of that here's 2 that i just had applicable realizations about and also have already been posting lately. including the tags too for anybody who's keeping track but just as signatures this time, no actual tagging required mpc

zorak: definitely bi, and it's dawning on me i was probably some flavor of aro. thinking back i can only point to one instance where i might've had some romantic feelings, and even then it's possible i just wanted that kind of relationship and still never felt capital-A-Attraction in the amatonormative "correct" way. it's also possible all of that also has to do with weird humanoid-insectoid alien biology, but hey, i'll claim it! (🛸🎹💥)

max: gay little rabbit! and transmasc, but maybe not a trans man as i first assumed. not sure what labels apply (or if i even want to label it) beyond nb, or just blanket queer, but i was comfortable using it/its pronouns in addition to he/him. i remembered that almost totally unprompted, it was wild. don't know why. but that's fun! and tracks with my weird canon-divergent mems of being kinda plasticine. don't ask. (🔫🐰💥) (wow i really like that explosion emoji. can u blame me? it's cool!)

[araekniarchive]

i know it’s a rlly long post but. do you. could you maybe pin your theme tag masterpost or link it in ur bio?? pleasepleaseplease? i use it a lot to find and then remember what quote is whose and i cant find the masterpost anymore!! its totally ok if you dont wanna i just thought i’d ask. thanks so much for all the poetry u put together & have a good one <3

done <3

[the-kipsabian]

if u don't wanna do this many, that's ok, but 9 thru 19 :D

9. Your favourite "era" in Wrestling? honestly probably the early 2020 to mid 2021. i know thats very specific, but its also very much when they had to get more creative with it, and they could push the limits and do a lots of cool stuff that was different from the regular. im not a fan of really any specific era, everything has its goods or bads but i do like modern wrestling more in a sense that its more accessible and has generally better content imo

10. Best looking title belt? i dont really pay attention to belt designs... but the asia dream tag team titles from gatoh move are gorgeous honestly. must be one of my favorites

11. Worst looking title belt? personally i always hated the first aew womens belt. it looked like a cheap plastic toy in comparison to all the other titles

12. Best "Big Man" style wrestler? (Doesn't have to be a man) idk if i have a favorite big man honestly. was never really my type hmm. i mean. if it doesnt have to be a man, does jade cargill count? she is a big tall strong woman and i'd let her step on me. idk what big man means LMAO

13. Best "Little Man" style wrestler? (Doesn't have to be a man) since hes a high flyer angelico totally counts, right? hes tall but he has a very little man style. again, i have no idea what this actually means ajsndkjasnjk

14. Favourite feud? ..if you know me this answer is sssoooooo obvious but. kip sabian and orange cassidy. the mind games still go on. im eating this whole feud like my life depends on it. its so fucking good

15. Favourite faction? going by whats first in my head, united empire. i probably have others but yeah

16. Favourite authority figure? scott d'amore is the only one i respect tbh

17. Favourite style of Wrestling? (Technical, High Flying, Hardcore, Comedy, Spot Fest, Strong and so on) i dont know if i have a specific style i like the most, honestly. i adore a lot of them for different reasons and in phases, i guess like high flying and comedy will always be my favorites. tho ive been leaning a lot into having an interest in technical wrestling in the past year too, so theres that. but i just like a little bit of everything, im not very picky

18. Favourite gimmick? okay so theres. two answers to this. one you already know im sure lol. cause i goddamn fucking ADORE kip sabian. this man is a creative genius and tho they are heavily downplaying his character atm, knowing how its built and how its supposed to function is so fascinating to me and makes me love it cause its honestly very convoluted and not played straight whatsoever and its. so good. the best goddamn thing and i hate it when people are like "no thats stupid" just cause they dont get it like. theres for once a neat and interesting thing in wrestling and ppl complain cause its not something handholdy. sorry tangent anyways the other answer is the original monday night messiah seth rollins. god complex beyond belief my beloved

19. Favourite match type? royal rumble. forever and always

[neogreenhillzone]

URL Songlist Game

Rules: Spell out your URL with song names and tag 10 people I was tagged by @perla-speedofsound-adventuring !! Thanks friend ´･ᴗ･`♡

Nothing in my way- Keane

Extraordinary- Clean Bandit

Ode to the bouncer- Studio Killers

Gotta go fast- Hyper Potions

Rock n’ roll star- Oasis

El mareo- Gustavo Cerati

Everything stays- Adventure Time

New York- Snow Patrol

Home- Nitro Fun

I don’t know why- Imagine Dragons

Low- Coldplay

Life Eternal (prequelle)- Ghost

Zephyr- Madeon

On melancholy hill- Gorillaz

Not falling apart- Maroon 5

Everybody loves me- One Republic

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I’ll tag @shiiruba @purple-koneko @gamingblur @the-amazing-p3a @kingoffantasy516 @anipwrites @shadowraiku @tailsmelv025 @kamerobogal @suetonicsonic aand anyone that sees this and goes “hey.. i wanna do that”

[toftie]

oh shit i was tagged by @jhopi for the 8 selfies of the year thing :) normally i don't really do these but... a lot happened this year so why not haha

[hwavsg4ch4n]

i heard ur requests are closing n panicked ok- just jeongin smut. he asks u to be his date for something. and you thiNK he's all innocent and inexperienced or whatever so you decide to hv a lil fun. but he turns out to be the total opposite (im really drooling here-) so a night filled with teasing, seduction and overstimulation?

note: this took a minute to get out, lol sorry about the delay. I'm still alive y'all I promise, just being a good student. thank you so much for the request!!

Change Your Mind || Y.J

another note: an update (if you want a more detailed update click here). The next work you should be expecting is a Minho smut, something apart of the series.

warnings/tags: switch!reader, hard dom!Jeongin, grinding, teasing in public space, fingering, penatraion (f), orgasam (both), priase, degrading, jeongin is big, creampie, unprotected sex (std's? pregracy? we dont know her), use of safeword, overstimulation, dumbification, aftercare

this is a work of fiction, not real

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Jeongin huffed for the umpteenth time tonight. What did you take him for? He asked you to Jisung's house party with confidence, yet you treated him like a little toy. Ruffling his fluffy locks when he picked you up from your place, telling him he looked adorable.

"You're old enough to drink?" You asked teasingly as he picked up a can of beer while the two of you entered the large house. Maybe it was his dimples, the innocent sparkle in his eyes when he laughed at the dorkiest jokes you made. It was only because he liked you; if he knew he'd end up being called a cutie every time he breathed, he wouldn't smile at all. But he couldn’t do that, not when you complimented his smile every time.

You didn't see him as a little brother, quite the opposite actually. You found Jeongin highly attractive. From the way he spoke to the way he dressed, his physique… everything about him caught your attention. However, he was just so fun to tease, so innocent in your eyes that you just wanted to ruin him. You wouldn't dare think of him as someone that could ruin you, it just had to be the other way around.

"Are you having fun?" You asked as you walked up to him, a cup of whatever in your hands. "Not really," He mumbled, sipping from his bottle, leaning against the wall. "Hm, well that's not good," You pondered for a bit. "Oh! Wanna dance?" You asked excitedly, taking his glass and placing it on a nearby table along with your own.

"D-dance?" He stuttered. Jeongin has been watching you move all night, dancing with your friends playfully. Your hips moved and swayed provocatively, he began to wish that was the one you were dancing with; a very dangerous wish. Jeongin found himself slowly chanting, "Stay down, stay down, stay down..." in his head, trying to prevent his member from stiffening in a crowded room.

"I-I don't think we should dance." You pouted playfully at his protest. "You don't even have to move," you started, "Just hold me, and watch." He parted his lips to refuse, but it was no use when you turned around. You placed his large hands on your waist, pressing your back flush to his front. His chants from earlier soon came back to his mind as your hips began to move on his center.

As the music was loud to you, it grew muffled to him. Jeongin watched attentively as your bottom was pressed snugly against him, you leaned your torso forward just slightly and moved sensually to the music blaring over the speakers. Your lewd actions took him by surprise as you motioned him to pull you closer. No, the proximity wasn't needed, but you wanted to have fun with him.

"Y/n." He murmured a warning, but with the music and the loud people around, his voice couldn't be heard; you kept moving. Your body moved smoothly, letting the alcohol flow through you as your hips moved against his front.

Jeongin's chants were no longer helping, not when your ass was flush against him, sliding across his bulge unforgivingly. You smirked as you felt him slowly harden, pressing a bit harder, only to feel his grip on your waist tighten. Jeongin felt something in him snap, it was as if he was hit with a realization. "Oh, so you wanted this?" He says to himself, almost chuckling in disbelief.

Your eyes widened as he pulled the waistband of your low-rise jeans just a bit, showing him and only him the top of your printed underwear. You didn't expect him to do that, you also didn't expect him to discreetly grab the back of your hair and tug so your back was against his chest. He quickly let go, not wanting anyone to notice what looked like the start of a porno.

You tried to compose yourself from the shock as he began to whisper in your ear. "Is this what you wanted, y/n?" His tone sends shivers down your spine. In an attempt to gain control of the situation, you began to move away, only for him to pull you back. A gasp ripped from your throat as your bottom made contact with his hardened member once again.

"ah ah ah," He tsked, "So you want the whole room to see what you caused?" You fought back a whimper, looking around the room to find everyone occupied on something else, but that didn't stop you from thinking about his words. "What’s gotten into you?" You ask breathlessly. Jeongin's chuckle rumbles through your ear and travels straight to your core, your legs shut in response. "So now that I'm not smiling at you like you hung the stars... there's something up with me?" You gulped at the statement, never thinking that you'd get this kind of reaction from him.

"I let you have fun with me for how long, Y/n?" You didn't answer. He lets go of your waist, gently pushing you off him. "Turn around." You did as you were told, automatically glancing down at the bulge in his jeans, gulping as you start to estimate his size, fantasizing how he'd be capable to fill you to the br- "My eyes are up here." Your gaze shot up, locking with his dark eyes. "Go, sit in the car. I'll be right there." You nodded as he gave you his keys. "Why are you still here?" Jeongin asked, causing you to quickly turn on your heels and head straight to the doors.

You bit your lip, glancing out the window every so often to see if he stepped out of the packed house yet. The mixed feelings of fear, excitement, and adrenaline ran through you. Your leg bounced in annoyance, what was taking him so long? Just then he emerged from the house, saying a quick bye to his friends on the porch, holding his jacket in front of him to hide the obvious boner.

Jeongin opened the driver side door, climbing in and starting the engine, backing out of the driveway; all without sparing you a glance. You look down to his lap, your eyes finding his bulge as your hands make the move to touch out of instinct “Can I tou-” You pulled back as he spoke, "Don't be a brat." He said calmly. "But-" Although you started he finished. "What did I say?" You swiftly apologized but continued to stare as his member throbbed in his pants, seemingly growing as you licked your lips in anticipation.

"Jeongin?" He hummed back, "Uh, what are you gonna do?" He chuckled in amusement at your nervousness. "You know, I find it crazy how you submitted to me so easily. And all I had to do was pull your hair and your little femdom act disappears," You stayed quiet, your cheeks burning as he continued to humiliate you. "Did you like being a little slut in front of all your friends? Hm?" Your lips parted. "Did you think I was gonna let you do whatever you wanted to me?" You were at a loss for words, that's exactly what you thought. Every time he smiled, it screamed use me; well that’s what you thought. Seems like Jeongin was read wrong.

"Do you not know how to speak anymore?" He asked as he was only met with silence. You shook your head no before murmuring a timid apology. "Mm, I bet you're so surprised, Y/n. Cute little Jeongin is about to fuck you until you can't walk, can you believe it?" He chuckled as he took a turn into his apartment’s garage. You shivered in the leather seat, taking in his words. How could he speak like that? Like it was nothing. Every time you mentioned anything sexual his face would heat up, swiftly changing the subject. You assumed the topic was too raunchy for his ears. In reality he was calming himself down, not wanting to scare you away by adding on his own thoughts.

Being too scared to speak, you stayed quiet on the way up to his flat. Stealing glances at Jeongin as he opened the front door, taking off his jacket, you copying his actions, almost holding your breath the whole time.

You gasped as he abruptly grabbed you by the waist, pulling your front to his hard chest. His gaze was sharp as he looked down at you, scanning your face, bathing in how nervous you looked; finally, you were the one being affected by him. "Can you do something for me? Be good for once, hm?" with a dry gulp, you nodded, waiting for his request. "I need you to tell me you want this as bad as me, Y/n." Your lips parted, "I want this, Jeongin." you uttered breathlessly, no hesitation laced in your tone.

Your heart fluttered as a dimple appeared on his cheek, even though his smile looked the sweetest, what he said next had your pulse jumping. "I'm not going easy on you, do you understand?" You didn't get to answer as the words got caught in your throat, feeling one of his steady hands slide up your back, placing itself on the nape of your neck; staying there to keep you steady. Jeongin used his controlling grip to push you forward, staring at your glossy lips.

You weren’t even able to mouth a letter before he smashed his lips to yours, interrupting whatever you wanted to say; it probably wouldn’t have made sense anyway. A whimper erupted from your throat due to the impact. His lips massaged yours expertly, moving with ease as you let him overtake you. Jeongin didn't let you pull away for too long, only enough to catch your breath before pulling you right back to him. His hands were all over, from your cheeks, traveling to your shoulders, and sliding down to your waist before gripping the flesh of your butt. He took advantage of your gasps, his tongue traveling past your soft lips to explore the expanses of your mouth.

You took in his hums as he savored the taste of your lipgloss, melting into him completely as you began to feel like you were floating. Jeongin chuckled as you chased his lips when he pulled away, "More," you pleaded softly. His thumb traced the outline of your mouth, the greatest amount of fondness he’s shown tonight as he ignored your request. "Go to my room." He whispered, and you did so without complaint. You felt a lightness in your steps as you walked through the living room and down the hall, opening the door and standing in the middle of the familiar room.

Jeongin watched as you stood in the center of his room, he couldn't help but smile as you looked up at him with doe eyes, sparkling as you awaited the next command. He walked towards you, unbuttoning your jeans in silence, looking into your eyes as he worked. He didn't pull your pants down. Instead, he shushed your gasps as he slid his hand past your underwear. He didn't allow your eyes to look anywhere else. "Keep looking at me." Jeongin commanded as he gripped your jaw, "Keep your pretty eyes on me."

Your lips parted as his nimble fingers slipped past your folds, running through your slit. "You're soaked." He whispered, pulling you closer, his eyes never leaving yours as his hands worked. His fingers circled your clit, your knees slightly buckling. "Come on Y/n, you’re a big girl." He humored, fingers rubbing faster as you whined.

Jeongin noticed as your lids fluttered, your lips pressing together as your brows furrowed. He smiled, "Already?” You let out a string of breathy apologies. “You can cum, go ahead." You didn't understand why him giving your permission triggered an orgasm, but it did. How was he capable of making you cum that quick? The speed at which it hit you, made it hard to stand, tiring you out.

His arm was around your waist, keeping you up when you clutched on his shirt for dear life. Heaved breaths left your lips as he continued to rub even after the climax. You grabbed his wrist with urgency, "T-too mu-" He swatted you away. "Say flower if you really need to stop. And don't lie to me Y/n, I hate liars." He deadpanned, listening to your moans as you writhed against him.

You held onto his shoulder as his fingers slipped inside you, fingering as you took gasps of breath. You squeaked as he curled inside you. "J-Jeongin, Jeongin... o-oh my god." He pressed his lips to yours in response, pumping his fingers inside of you as he swallowed your moans. You tapped at his chest, pulling away as you hurried your face in his shoulder, another climax washing over you, your walls tightening around his fingers as he tried to pull out, your walls wanting to keep him inside. "Don't worry I’ll fill you up again soon." He muttered, slipping his fingers out of your warm heat.

He glanced at his hand, licking his lips as your arousal coated the appendages, glistening. "Open." You lazily opened your mouth, only closing when his fingers entered. You sucked, tasting your own juices. "Good, good girl."

"Take off your pants for me, underwear too." You did as you were told, steadying yourself, trying not to get distracted as he took off his shirt. His muscles flexed as he unbuttoned his pants. "Your shirt too." You nodded, taking off your blouse, sitting on his bed as he took his pants off fully, leaving his boxers on.

Jeongin walked up to your seated form, using his knee to spread your legs. "Just what I imagined. What a pretty pussy." Your face heated up at the erotic compliment. "T-thank you." He smiled, helping you scoot back. "I'm gonna fuck you, and I'm not stopping until I'm satisfied. Is that okay?" You nodded, gulping down the nerves as he pulled his hardened member out of his boxers.

"Oh," you whispered. Your eyes were glued to his twitching length as pre cum began to build up at his tip. He was big, bigger than what you've taken before. "Are you scared, Y/n?" His question excited you, you didn't know how he fucked. Was he soft? Sensual? Maybe rough? Well, it didn't matter, you'd take whatever he gave you. You shook your head no, even though he could see right through you.

He chuckled, taking your legs and wrapping them around his waist. "You like to be hurt, don't you?" It annoyed you how he knew everything, like you were an open book. "A little..." you mumbled, "A little? Mmmm, let’s see if we can change that amount." Without warning, he pushed into you, “How does that feel?” He asked. You didn’t want to answer, why did you have to answer? But you did, hoping for a reward, “B-big.” you whimpered, clutching the pillows surrounding you. His chuckle patronized you. “Awe…” He cooed, beginning to thrust at a pace that only added to the abundant filling pleasure by a ton.

He stuffed you so well, you've never had anyone so deep, the point he grazed your cervix. The floating feeling hit you like a truck as you couldn’t even decipher what kind of noises you were making. You didn't know if you were whimpering, or screaming his name; you were focused on the feeling of him fucking you. The impact of the two orgasms from earlier still lingered, your third creeped up, you couldn't warn him. Your legs tried to snap closed, but he didn't allow it. He groaned as he felt your walls tighten around him.

Jeongin held you still as you tried to get away from the immense pleasure, trying to scoot away from him. You grumbled incoherent sentences as your thighs trembled, your hands confused as one was holding the headboard and the other placed itself on your abdomen, feeling his harsh thrusts through your skin.

"G-od..." He was close, whispering curses as he didn’t want to be too loud, only wanting to hear you and not himself. He could tell you were closer than him. He observed your features attentively. Your eyes squeezed shut as your lips parted, you huffed like a dog, the feeling dwindling down your moans to quiet intakes of breath. But, then you moaned, the most erotic moan he's ever heard as you shook against him. Your muscles tightened as he reached down and rubbed at your bud, watching as you helplessly tried to swat his hand away to no avail.

His lips parted as your back arched, your breasts bounced as your abdomen twitched. “Fuck, Jeongin!” That’s all he wanted to hear, you under him, screaming his name as he fucked you dumb. All because of him, you were ruined.

The enticing visual in front of him caused Jeongin to let out a string of loud curses, feeling your warm walls hug him, milking his length as you came. Your orgasam was prolonged as Jeongin's strokes grew sparatic, shooting ropes and he fucked his cum deeper.

You whined, "No, no more...please…Flower." Jeongin cooed at your pleas, “It’s okay, we’re done. It’s okay.” He reassured you, stilling his movements as he pulled out of your heat gently. He looked up to your face, reaching to wipe off the condensation. "Y/n? You okay?" You nodded, still in a fuzzy area as you felt him get off the bed. "I hope this is an okay temperature." Even his voice was fuzzy, almost dreamy as he walked back into the room. You squirmed as he wiped you clean, "Shhh, shhh, it's okay." You breathed in deep, letting out a heavy sigh as he laid a palm on your stomach, soothingly rubbing in circles. "Bath? Do you want a bath?" You lazily smiled at his suggestion.

You opened your eyes to be met with his worried gaze. "Cuddle." He nodded, grabbing his boxers before putting his covers over you. "Do you want cl-" You groaned in protest. "Okay okay, I'm here." He climbed in next to you, pulling you to his chest.

"Was I too rough?" You denied his assumptions. "I'm sorry I underestimated you." Jeongin chuckled at your apology. "Just go to sleep, y/n."

[radiotorn]

Todaye was such a work . Then draw kinda day which is kinda good bc it was 2separate things i had 2do but tomorrow is gonna be a Draw Draw (kinda work) kinda day and i am praying my briab is gonna let me actually draw

[duckugou]

golden

Kenma x GN!reader

Im trying to stray away from my comfort zone of just writing readers that use she/her so bear with me

sorry if this lowkey sucks but it was inspired by harry styles song golden

cw: big cursing, huge fluff, strangers to friends to lovers, comfort, aged up!

come to my asks to be a part of my taglist! just let me know what kinds of fics/ what fandom/ what characters/ etc you want to be tagged in!

Requests are open!!

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Being a streamer comes with perks. Being comfy at home, not having to face people in real life every day, playing games, typical shit. Another perk is making good friends.

Meeting people on a voice chat is common for Kenma -guys and gals alike. What he wasnt expecting one night was the sweetest voice on the other end of his headphones.

"You're all fucks- I'm better at this game than all of you combined. Try me."

To think that was the sentence that made Kenma's ears perk up and burn.

"What the hell ever- we have the great Kodzuken on our side." One of the guys said, half joking half dead serious.

"Oh yeah, he isn't even speaking up to defend your pussy asses- probably knows I could beat him too." You could hear the smirk in that last part.

"U-uh, no. You can't beat me. Nobody can actually. Not at this game." Kenma rebutted , confident in his gaming skills but not so much his speaking skills to this stranger.

"Oh man, you certainly sound confident. Come on, Kodzuken- 1v1 me then. Show me who the best really is."

Kenma suddenly felt nervous. Should he really demolish this stranger? Isn't it polite to let the person you like win? He didn't like this person yet but god their voice was attractive.

"Fine. Send the request." He decided.

"Sent, fucker."

The game resulted in a tie because this stranger actually knew what they were doing. They both threw friendly insults at each other the whole time of course, making each of them laugh a little.

"Okay fine. The great Kodzuken himself almost beat me. Im almost honored to have a great streamer almost beat me."

"Well you almost beat me too- uh-" Kenma stuttered over the fact that he didn't know how to address this stranger.

"Oh! Call me Y/n." The person giggled.

"You can uh, call me Kenma."

"Oh you don't want me to repeat your title over and over like everyone else?" They laughed.

"No, friends don't call me that. They use my name name." His ears were burning.

"Friends, huh? Guess that means you owe me your number so we can schedule a rematch where I can properly beat your ass."

"Huh, guess so."

A few months had gone by and Y/n and Kenma were as close as they could be. They found out they live close by each other and began hanging out a lot.

Y/n would be in the back of his streams on occasion and wouldn't hesitate to speak up during them. Thats the thing about Y/n. They've always been so outspoken. Since the start. Everything they talk about comes so easy to Y/n. Nothing is held back. Kenma knows everything about them. He on the other hand is still a bit closed off. Quiet. The two are so opposite yet so alike. Kenma doesn't speak much about himself, opting to listen.

Especially when talking about past relationships.

One night, they were sat in Kenmas room in separate chairs, letting conversations flow.

"So, you've dated but why have the relationships ended?" Y/n asked.

"Ah, I dont know- its not important. Why did yours end?" Kenma flipped the question as he always does.

"One guy cheated," Y/n tossed a piece of popcorn in the air, missing their mouth and brushing it off. "One girl left because she was leaving for school, and one guy just didn't mesh with me. Your turn." Y/n pushed the question back.

"Uh- well. I don't click with people easily. I'm pretty closed off so when I date it usually ends in hurt feelings by accident or they get sick of me." Kenma finally admitted.

"Huh." Y/n flopped onto their stomach on the bed after setting down the popcorn. "Don't you like anyone though? Like- if you liked someone enough, do you think you would give opening up a shot?"

"I mean I guess. Nobody ever takes the time to...pry me open." That got a laugh out of Y/n. Good. "But yeah I do like someone."

Sitting up suddenly, Y/n became visibly excited.

"TELL ME WHO."

"No god no- it isnt important." Kenmas ears burned again.

"Come onnnnn. Its gotta be someone big time cool to earn your heart. I have to approve."

Y/n pulled Kenma from his chair to the bed, not letting go of his hand as he sat down.

"Theyre very cool- and very sweet. Understanding. Someone who stands up for me and makes me comfortable-" Kenma began gushing.

"Do I know them?" Y/n interrupted.

"Y-yeah. You sure do." Kenma scratched the back of his neck.

"Oooh ok, a guessing game. Describe them more- their looks!" Y/n held his hand tighter, bouncing up and down with excitement.

"Well- ok." Kenma took a deep breath and decided he could be vague enough. "Theyre short. As short if not shorter than me. Competitive. Very cute smile-"

"TOO VAGUE give me the JUICY DETAILS" Y/n pushed.

"They uh- they have..pretty eyes." He was staring at this point, eyes wandering around Y/ns face to find more things to describe. "cute nose too I guess. Squishy cheeks. Glasse-"

"WHO THE HELL IS IT KENMA- its starting to sound like youre describing me." Y/n laughed.

"No- I'm totally not!" Kenma rushed.

"Tell this person you like them. You look so happy when you talk about them. Its kind of sickening."

"I can't just do that." Kenma stated flatly.

"Yeah you can."

"No-"

"DO ITTTT. Nothing to be scared of- it's CUTE. They would be dumb to not like you."

Kenma sighed, knowing he couldn't tell Y/n the truth about who he liked. What does he usually do when he's put in a corner like this? Oh thats right-

"Who do you like then Y/n?" He asked, proud of himself for deflecting again.

"Oh thats easy. You." Y/n said, letting go of his hand and laying back on the bed, leaving Kenma sitting up and stunned.

"What? No I mean a crush idiot. Who do you liiikkkeee?" Kenma pushed, hoping he didn't hear Y/n wrong.

"You, Kenma. I've had a crush since our first tie in a game. Thought that was obvious-"

Kenma flopped back on the bed as well. The both of them looking at each other.

"Oh. My person is uh... really... open and honest." Kenma said quietly.

"Is that why you wont tell them?" Y/n asked just as hushed.

"Yeah... what if right now they say yes but then their feelings change one day? That would hurt so bad. Worse than not telling them ever." He whispered.

There was silence. They knew what they both just admitted. Kenmas heart started racing. This might've fucked everything up. He might lose them. But they like him too so why is he so scared?

Y/n held his hand again.

"I know that youre scared because I'm so open...but hey... If you wanna give it a try..." Y/n whispered, scared about whether or not their honesty fucked them over.

"You might be right this time Y/n." Kenma whispered.

The space between them was closed due to both of them being drawn together like magnets in that moment. A sweet kiss.

"Let's try it then. I'll work on... being more open if you'd like." Kenma said.

"Kenma. I dont want you to change one bit. I like you the way you are."

Acceptance. It was the best thing Kenma has ever felt.