It's not fair to tolerate discomfort to make someone else comfortable. You're not less deserving of joy, rest and happiness than anyone else. You don't have to prove yourself worthy to have the most basic things in life, and I am sorry someone has made you feel like you should be perfect. You don't have to put up with so much only to prove you're not a burden on others. I hope soon you can let go of all this guilt and shame you have for simply existing. I hope soon you will feel more alive than ever.
I fucking hate being autistic in this society. I hate that I’m made to feel like a burden just by existing. That my mere existence is a problem. People wonder why our self esteem is so goddamn low oh maybe it’s because we’re shown and taught that (at best) we’re something to tolerate.
kinda wild to me this is the Final Thing from last summer i never posted :0 i’m still kinda hoping one day i’ll actually go back and re-board it and do some proper post prod. but at this point i KNOW i’m busy and will continue to be busy so. i hope y’all still enjoy this first pass as is :)
random stuff about the process for it under the cut if anyone’s interested
so all the boards in this pass were done late july/early august 2021, with about a month put into them all collectively. i was trying really hard to strike a balance between wanting the boards to look clean but ALSO do them as fast as possible, because that’s, y’know, kinda the whole point of boarding lol
the three pages of thumbnails i did took about a day per page with all the planning involved
i’d intended to do the whole song but i didn’t have a fully formed opinion about the ending of the actual show at the time, so by this midway point i ended up realizing i’d need to completely re-thumbnail the entire last half if i wanted it to make any sense. IT ALSO GENUINELY TOOK ME A WHILE TO REALIZE THAT I UH, DEFAULTED TO THE INSTAGRAM PORTRAIT FORMAT. INSTEAD OF AN ACTUAL VIDEO 1920x1080 RESOLUTION. I MAY BE STUPID
Trying to decide if my intense discomfort with 2x7 is because it hits uncomfortable themes, because it's not quite hitting the story beats right, a little bit of both, or ofc a secret third thing
sorry for like liveblogging menstrual hell for 24 hours straight btw it’s just like. Holy SHIT i feel bad. if i didn’t understand how periods work and that there’s not really an emergency i would be like “everything is so bad i want to go to the hospital” like that’s kind of the level of bad it’s been
Just wanted to second thatisbloodyfantastic’s comment from a few days ago about how wonderfully written your post about getting ADHD meds was. So cathartic to read!! I was just diagnosed with ADHD for the first time (in my late twenties 🙃) a couple months ago and I’m still coming to terms with it and struggling to find meds that actually work. Your description of that daily executive function struggle as “The Weighted Nothings” resonated so deeply with me I’m bringing it to my therapist and also stealing it as a band name sorry
lmao thank you, I didn't think that was still going around! go right ahead I'm proud of that description
good luck on your own journey! I sincerely hope it's way easier than mine was
My dads bribing me to put up with my transphobic uncle’s visit, which means closeting myself and getting misgendered for a week while he criticizes my appearance for being to masculine, but money’s money baby.
i'm not even particularly fond of magnus or anything but the way a subset of the fandom behaves towards fans of him/his shippers is deeply tiresome to see
It's always surprising to me how people think I'm lying or just being annoying about the food I don't like... I'm an adult and I eat what I should but there's tons of stuff I consider "edible" but not enjoyable or tasty by any means and people just don't believe that? "But you always eat this dish and don't complain" I'm 25, what am I supposed to say? This food is all icky and I don't want it? This would be great if you cooked it completely differently and with other ingredients? I hate it when you cook this but I might as well eat it? 😐
Kaeya is rather touch averse, cringing away from casual contact people give him under the guise of being distracted or idle movement. He's used to it, the Ragnvindrs and Adenlinde got him used to frequent affectionate physical contact, but it can still be entirely Uncomfortable if he's touched by someone outside those he is close to or someone he's otherwise Allowed to touch him.
is it just me or has all advice on the internet doubled down on "cut them off" as a panacea for all social ills - and not just columnists and talking heads either, literally everyone. i highly doubt i'm the only person on the planet who doesn't want to discard people places and things in my life just bc i am a little pissed off sometimes.
LMAO i like cunty pillow princess mello! i feel like i have schroedingers headcanons like. hes a top and a pillow princess and etc etc just depending on the day
Btw I know I just said this a few days ago but anybody who enjoys this needs to read Crush by morphinejunkie <- not going to tag morph and be annoying but go read it NOWWWW this fic made me believe in the potential of top Mello <3
The thing about chronic pain is that I'll be experiencing the usual horrors (pain and discomfort that isn't possible to fully ignore) but I'm not even phased, like this is just a normal Wednesday night for me.