#too scared of themself too scared to hurt those they love and they hate this and they regret this decision every day but they still think

[aezyrraeshh]

; oc tragic horror trope quiz

i was tagged by @nuclearstorms @swordcoasts @jillvalcntines to to take this quiz for my ocs. thank you all so much! <3

tagging @aartyom @arklay @aelyosos @faarkas @reaperkiller @steelport @stormveils @girlbosselrond @shadowglens and whoever else wants to do this!

; the vampire

it is the loneliest day of a vampire's life, the first time they look into a mirror and see their reflection missing. drinking blood sucks too, don't get me wrong, but as a vampire you had to learn to hide from the sunlight, from your family, all your friends, because you were unavoidably different now and you didn't know how to explain that to them in a way they would understand. you could get stranger's blood in bursts, but what is life when you can't know someone for longer than the night lasts? you left everything behind because it was easier than trying to tell them. i just hope you know you're not the only vampire out there, and that there exist people who will understand your situation without a word. they'll sit with you in the dark for as long as you'll need them to.

; the final girl

the final girl comes out the other end of trauma alive- or, they were supposed to. honestly, you're not so sure you're really alive anymore. you saw the same hurt take those you were closest to while everyone paraded your bruises as bravery, as strength, as if you're the hero. and it hurts. you're tired and you don't want to have to be brave anymore. whatever you went through, it changed so much of who you were that you're still getting used to the person you see in the mirror. you didn't have a say in any of it, but you're here now, and that's gotta count for something. you'll make it count for something. but first, you need to let yourself find rest.

[us3rnam3-r3dact3d]

Inspired by the latest Reductive Audio:

Lil useless facts about my fav boys/listeners. No hate if I didn’t include your fave, I was making my list off memory and am just now realizing I missed like… three entirely series worth of people.

Vincent

He prefers silver jewelry over gold, but doesn’t care if styles are meant for men or women. He likes what he likes and will wear it. He’s a particular fan of dainty necklaces and women’s wrist watches, but likes men’s rings better.

Sam

He smoked when he was human. Lucky Stripes, since they’re cheap. It was a bad habit he picked up when he was eight or so to cope with his home life. He lost the ability to be chemically addicted to nicotine when he was turned, but he still itches for a cigarette when he’s particularly stressed.

Alexis

She’s very jealous of Will’s attention. She gets twitchy when he’s paying attention to anybody else for too long. This results in spikes of her reckless and bad behavior. It started when Vincent was turned, then when he took in Porter, then when she turned Sam. The most recent was after the Inversion.

William

He cannot paint or draw to save his life. He’s followed five or six Bob Ross paintings, but they never turn out right. He can draw stick figures, but that’s about it. His penmanship is beautiful, though.

Porter

Will made him testify against his maker since Porter’s treatment was particularly brutal amongst Felix’s progeny. Porter didn’t want to, but he recounted every moment of Felix’s torture while being stared down by the man himself in front of the whole council. It was so damming that Felix invoked him to stop. That’s the moment that Porter still has nightmares about.

Lovely

Lovely is incredibly anxious around their human friends. They’re scared that they’ll lose control and hurt someone, even though they’re very well fed and haven’t shown any lack of control in the past. This results in a few months after the inversion that Freelancer thought they were dead, since they showed up on the casualty list.

Treasure

Their older brother is a humanborn freelancer. He’s an enforcer for the Department. They think that fits him well, since he was always sort of a bully growing up. Treasure themself is an investigative journalist who writes for an empowered newspaper. They were trying to get a table at the Monarchal Summit even before they met Porter, but that didn’t pan out.

Freddy

He played french horn in high school. He was pretty good, and was drum major in marching band his senior year. He threw up before every game because he was so nervous.

Bright Eyes

Singer/song writer. Y’all ever listened to the Mountain Goats??? That’s their shit. Slow moving acoustic guitar, songs about the most disturbing and distressing emotions humans are capable of surviving recorded on cassette. Singing at dead coffee shop open mics in the wee hours of the morning. Their voice is raspy and rough, but the texture just draws you into their even timber and perfect pitch. They’re a minor celebrity in Dahlia’s sad boy live music scene.

David

His hips and back hurt So Much all of the time. He figures out that it’s because he’s incredibly strong but not flexible in the slightest. An imbalance in those two factors can lead to a lot of pain. He starts doing yoga after the Inversion when it got really bad and it’s helped a ton. Plus, Angel does it with him, and he likes watching them bend into all of those poses in their tiny, skin tight shorts.

Asher

He keeps track of how much David weighs and makes sure he can comfortably lift and carry that much weight at the drop of a hat. At the end of every work out, he deadlifts David’s weight to make sure he can do it when already spent. He should have been carrying David after the Inversion, but he didn’t have the strength to do it even when not fucked up. He won’t let that happen again.

Milo

He needs reading glasses but refuses to wear them. He tried contacts but he can’t stand to put anything in his eye. So he just squints and struggles through. His phone’s text is blown up like a grandpa’s. David is so bothered that Milo won’t just… get glasses. He keeps passive aggressively offering to add Milo to their vision insurance plan.

Christian

He had a little crush on Asher in middle school that translated to teasing the shit out of him. Which, Asher being Asher, put him off and hurt his feelings. He’s well moved on but sometimes, when the sun catches Ash just right or he smiles that stupid, toothy smile, Christian mourns his own stupidity.

Arden

Desperately protective of Christian, especially after the Inversion. The first time Ash makes a light-hearted joke about Christian’s limp, Arden put his ass on the ground, despite Christian laughing at it.

Gabe

He drove a white Chevy Cameo with a red interior for most of his life. It was lovingly maintained, and since it’s such a rare model, he did all of the maintenance himself. After the crash, the truck was totaled. David still spent a few years trying to put it back together. He called it quits when he was working on the interior and found dried blood under the leather of the seats.

Angel

They have a small stuffed lamb that they’ve had since they were a baby. It’s beaten up, falling apart, and no longer the stark white it started out as. Lambie is kept in their bottom bedside drawer. They only pull him out when they can’t sleep. They were worried David would think it was weird, but he actually finds this more endearing than he can put into words.

Babe

They didn’t start talking until they were three. Their parents thought that they were nonverbal, and had started teaching them ASL as an alternative. Then one day at the breakfast table, they opened their mouth and started spouting full sentences. They taught Asher ASL and the two of them use it when they want a private moment in public/when Ash is overstimulated. (Side note; David also knows ASL, he took courses in high school. Very useful, he loves it. He does not love it when watching them flirt nastily in front of him.)

Sweetheart

They’ve had anxiety since they were a very young child, and it’s always been an internally-sourced thing rather than externally motivated. They recall the first time they ever got in trouble at school (first grade, for pushing a boy who had been tugging on their hair all through recess). They remember the first time they got a B (fifth grade, on a math test they studied for for hours). Their parents had high expectations, but Sweetheart was having panic attacks from the age of three. Definitely something ~chemical~ going on there.

Darlin

They feel pack bonds incredibly strongly. Their body reacts physically when someone in the pack is threatened or hurt, without them even having to think. They shiver when Sam calls them ‘mate.’ When David says something in his lovingly dubbed ‘alpha voice,’ they can’t help but listen. They knew Gabe was dead before they got the call. They thought Ash was dead during the Inversion because they felt David’s dread through the bond so strongly.

Avior

He’s unnerved by human’s tactile nature. Being in a body is strange for him, and he prefers Aria to Elegy (at least before meeting Starlight), so touch is an extreme sensation for him. Humans touch so much. He’s not opposed to it when it’s someone he knows, but handshakes are the bane of his existence.

Starlight

Halloween is their favorite holiday. They start decorating for it in August. They plan elaborate, complex costumes and parties. They desperately want to move into a house so that they can set up scary decorations and shit in their yard and hand out candy to trick-or-treaters. Avid lover of the Spirit Halloween animatronics. They go to Halloween Horror Nights every year.

Camelopardalis

He’s trained himself to use the human terms for things (ex: terra or earth instead of elegy) since some in the Department don’t like it when daemons use their terms. It means that he gets weird looks from other daemons when he talks to them. It’s an alienating feeling for sure.

Vega

He’s never tried human food. He never saw the appeal. What he doesn’t know is that he would absolutely Love dark chocolate if he tried it. He likely will never know.

Warden

Avid reader of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle comics. Just the comics, though. They don’t have an apartment in Elegy, but they do have a small storage unit where they keep their comics. They coalesced a few years before the comics starting their run, and for some reason, they just fell in love. Vega thinks this is silly and that they should be embarrassed, but they refuse to be.

Hush

He loves Popeye’s fried chicken sandwiches. Doc fed him one once and it blew his fucking mind. He won’t make them with magic, either, he insists that they don’t taste the same. Doc has started just getting gift cards for him to keep so he can get one whenever and doesn’t have to wait for them to give him money. He’s ravenous for those things.

Doc

They’re actually a warder, not a healer. Hush’s presence has encouraged them to refresh their healing knowledge, however. Even if he himself is difficult to hurt, he sort of invites chaos.

Morgan

He uses his foresight to see what the owner of his favorite little bodega down the street is going to have for breakfast every morning. It’s his little morning ritual and practice for his magic. He feels weird all day if he doesn’t do it.

Seer listener

Their sight is more potent and more clear than Morgan’s. They can give stark details, see full landscapes, and turn 360 deg in their vision and see the whole space. They also can hear what’s happening consistently, something that goes in and out for Morgan. He figures that they’re just more powerful than he is, something that makes them just the slightest bit uncomfortable.

Damien

Gets incredibly stressed on election days, whether for local, state, or national elections. He forces everyone he knows to vote, volunteers to shuttle people without cars, and has at times volunteered to be a poll worker. But elections make him anxious. He cares so much about the results. Huxley has recently instated a post 9pm ban on watching the news on election nights so that Dames will actually sleep and not stay up all night stressing.

Huxley

Does not eat beef. Not for religious reasons, but because of the impact of beef consumption on the environment. He’s about one step away from a full vegetarian, he just likes chicken and is concerned for his protein and vitamin intake. This is difficult for Damien, who loves nothing quite so much as a rare steak.

Lasko

He was forced to take piano lessons as a child. He hated it, but took them up to the point he left home. He’s still very good, and did get peer pressured into showing off at a random guitar center once while out with the D.A.M.N. crew. He nearly died of embarrassment.

Gavin

He has a collection of very pretty rosaries that he uses as jewelry. He is not religious, and if asked, cannot describe what a Catholic is to you. He likes to wear them around his neck, dipping over his body since his shirts always cut down to his navel. It makes people gasp and blush, which is his favorite effect to have on somebody. His fav one has beads made of mother of pearl and a little, golden crucifix on the end.

Freelancer

They love cheap Chinese buffets. They claim that, the lower the health rating, the better the taste. Their desire for krab rangoons is strong enough to pull them from the comfort of their home at 2 in the morning if the fancy strikes. Damien in particular is horrified by this, and keeps offering to cook them some actual Chinese food.

Dear (Lasko’s listener)

An all star volleyball player in high school and college. They were a setter, and took their team to nationals all four years of high school. They are on the starting line up all through college. When it gets brought up in their trip that Damien plays casually, they said they did too. And then absolutely creamed him.

[ithinkinggenshin]

Yae Miko with a GN!reader and Yae is scared that she might be accidentally hurting or manipulating S/O, so she's confused as to why S/O keeps coming back to her, scared that she might be accidentally gaslighting S/O when in reality she's doing nothing wrong

"Loving you, killing you, isn't it thrilling? You've said enough from those guts you've been spilling through Crying and begging, a lovely sound I tear at your soul, but you still stick around What I've found is a treasure indeed A friend who can bend to my every need I'll use and abuse you and never feel bad, until suddenly, funnily, you take my hand Tangle you tight in the yarns that I've spun And I'll do it again, to get what I want Pretend that I'm harmless, I'm actually alarmed this is something charming to anyone... (wow) The fact can actually make Death wanna Die? I'm the one that you love, and I'm making you cry And it's "just me", after all"

"You know, I want you to care that I want you to stay So I swear I won't blame you if you turn away At the end of the day, I will smile and give in to this burning and vile Original sin 'Cause hell is the realization you're selfish And drawn to the loving, the soft and the helpless I can see through that facade that you wear When you're honest, and promise you'll fight the despair And I'll say it again, that I know I'm the worst So then how can you spend so much love on the person that hurts you Like I do? 'Cause inside, I can't hide that I cannot desert you And if I'm "the world" to you, surely you never stood even a chance at all, didn't you? It's me, after all"

This request was based on the song "Ijimeko Bully" by Mori Calliope so please try to focus most on the themes of the song also here is the overall lyric analysis made by the song writer/singer:

"The basic theme and motif is, it is a self-hating song. …The self-hatred is accompanied by confusion as to why someone still continues to love them. Think of like, for example, a kind of Beauty and Beast situation. There’s a terrible beast who doesn’t understand why when they continue to hurt the person they care about, the person that they care about keeps coming back to them. …This is coming from the perspective of the beast.

Something I want to make really clear is, in this sense, because this is coming from the beast’s mind, there are mentions of things like hurting, abuse, et cetera. This is because, since we’re in the mind of the beast, these are just things that this villainous being believes that they are doing, right? So perhaps they aren’t actually hurting someone. But they hate themselves so much that any time they give the bluntest little quip against someone that they care about. while to that other person it might feel like, “ouch that was kind of a harsh word,” to the beast, perhaps, it feels like they’ve done something horrible and struck and actually hurt that person much more deep than what may be the truth.

So for example, while I don’t actually go out of my way to go on rants and tirades and angry shouting at anyone because I really don’t like confrontation, sometimes I’ll give a sharp little remark or say, “Oh, that wasn’t funny.” But it’s like, it feels to me as soon as I’ve said it I regret it, and I say, “oh man, oh shit oh fuck, oh no,” and I feel like I’ve really hurt that person. There are times when I’ve apologized afterward to people that I care about, and they say, “What are you talking about, it’s fine, y'know it was a little annoying, but it’s not that big of a deal, dude.” And maybe the root of that is because the beast actually just hates themself. So there’s the self-hatred part. ‘Calli’s the beast?’ Maybe!"

Bully?

Fandom: Genshin Impact

Characters: Yae Miko

Pairings: Yae Miko x GN! Reader

Warnings: Angst

Word count: 655

Synopsis: Oh little red, what an innocent face. Let me eat you up. You’ll sit well in my stomach. …Won’t you?

Extra Notes: I really like this ask. I like the lyrics of the song too. Very thoughtful. Thanks for requesting!

Yea is known for making people sweat and squirm. On occasion she’s made some of them cry. At first she thought you were simply a masochist, continually coming back to her with that big, dopey smile and offerings only to be turned into a flustered mess when she teased you. But you kept coming back. Then she thought you were trying to bribe her, everyone who comes to the shrine has some sort of desire, whether or not they want to admit it. But you voluntarily said that the only thing you wanted was to see her. Finally, she thought you were a blind, lovestruck fool. No one really loves her. No one even truly knows her. You just want to have a pretty and powerful woman like her wrapped around your finger, but if you think Yae is going to fall for that, you’re sorely mistaken. But you surprise her once again. You claim to not care if she loves you. You admit to having a crush on her. Yae cuts you off with a quip about how she’d never date a human. You look down shamefully but continue on and say that you’d still like to be her friend. You enjoy seeing her in action and the conversations you have with her are entertaining. And that one day, You can know the real her.

Yae is stunned by your confession. Taken back by your sincerity. She sorely regrets making that snide remark earlier.

The sunset light hits your face beautifully, and you smile at her. It’s time for you to go back to your boring, little human life. Yae almost doesn’t hear your question of if she wants you to come back the next day, as you always do. She waves you off and says that you can do whatever you want. She’s hit with another wave of guilt as your face falls.

The response was something typical of her to say, but it still hurt for you to hear.

Yae isn’t sure how to react to this rare feeling of discomfort. Since when is she uncomfortable with being herself? Normally she basks in a person’s crestfallen face or at least is disappointed in it. But just now, with you, she felt… ashamed of herself.

You disappear down the mountain and Yae retires to her chambers. She doesn’t sleep. One night of missed sleep is nothing to her. Instead she lays in her comfy futon and thinks about all the times she must have hurt you. She says so many things in a day, so used to saying whatever will get the best reaction out of people.

She used to think it was you that she had to be wary of. Oh how the tables have turned. The reality is that it’s you who should be avoiding her.

Miko feels as though she’s been stabbed as the thought of you avoiding her crosses her mind. What a terrible life that would be, she thinks to herself.

But…

She can’t argue that it would be better for you. Even she has to admit to the damages she must have done to you. The ways she’s baited you, letting her teasing go too far. She’s taken every gift you gave, every compliment, everything. Such an adorable, little piece of sunshine. Little red riding hood just trying to pick flowers for grandma and the big bad wolf— Yae came along and ruined everything. Stole your innocence and hope. All while smiling about it.

Yae is torn between wanting you to come back and hoping you stay away. She’s a bad influence. A bad person. She’ll only continue to hurt you. It’s who she is after all. You’ll never truly know her. You’ll never make it past her walls. You’ll start climbing and she’ll tease you and laugh when you fall and land on your ass. It’s just too entertaining. It's too mean. She should tell you to stay away.

Even if it makes her heart sting.

[stabbynunchuckss]

August and Seven - 1

So. This is my first piece with these characters. Um. Yeah. Hope it's not too shitty.

Warnings: Vampire whumpee, pet whump, imprisonment, collars, muzzles

Cell doors rattled as August walked past, their footsteps echoing through the concrete hall, but they paid the noise no mind - these cells had long since been emptied. They continued along, each cell they passed devoid of life. Blankets lay abandoned in the occasional corner, or else remains of meals piled up on floors.

Still, they continued.

And sure enough, as they reached almost the last cell, a body came into view. It seemed dead - blood pooled around its pale frame, and its eyes remained closed. As August approached, the body came more clearly into view, and they almost gagged.

Its ribs were clearly visible through its skin, and several appeared to be broken. Yet its chest still rose and fell, in a somewhat steady rhythm. The body - no, the person - wore no clothes, but for a simple black collar, and a muzzle tightened around their jaw.

August pushed at the cell door. It was heavy, but swung open with little difficulty, scraping lightly against the concrete floor.

They dropped beside the figure on the ground, placing two fingers to their neck in an attempt to find a pulse. They found one. Barely.

"Hey, uh- Can you hear me?" they tried. Nothing. "Hey, are you okay? Fuck, you can't- I can't be dealing with another dead body, you have to- You have to wake up, come on-" August's voice shook, but they forced themself to stay calm.

"Okay." They took a deep breath, staring down at the person on the ground. "Okay. Check for breathing."

They tilted the person's head back, and one hand moved to unclip the muzzle at the back- Until they were thrown to the ground with surprising strength, head smashing into the iron bars behind.

The figure, who had been unconscious moments before, was now standing pressed against the opposite wall, their breathing unsteady and about to collapse.

"Whoa, hey, it's okay," August began, getting to their feet and raising their empty hands. "I'm not gonna hurt you. I was just-"

But they were cut off as the person lunged at them, eyes wide and frightened, hands trembling. Pointed teeth flashed in the dim light, and August instinctively dodged, pushing back until the person was on the ground and they were standing above them.

"I- I'm sorry, I'm sorry, please don't-" The person - vampire? - ducked their head and pressed their face into the floor. "Please don't kill me, I- I'll be better, I'll be good, I s- I swear-"

August moved closer, and the vampire let out a pitiful whimper, sinking even further to the ground.

"I'm not going to hurt you, love," August reassured them. "Can you look at me?"

The vampire forced themself to look at August. Their eyes were a shadowy grey, almost black in the darkness of the cell.

"Thank you. Do you have a name I can use for you? And pronouns?"

"I- My name is- is Seven, M- Master. And- And I don't- I'm sorry, Master, I- I-" The question seemed to have thrown them off, and August therefore treated it as a matter of isolation from society rather than ignorance.

"Pronouns," August said patiently. "You know, he, she, they..."

Seven's eyes widened, and they nodded. "Y- yes, Sir- Sorry, Master, I- I have always been an 'it', M- Master, but... if it is my choice, I-" They shook their head. "I am sorry, Master, pl- please forgive your pet, it is not- I am not thinking-"

"You're allowed to have opinions, love." They hated the way in which they had to give permission - give a full-grown person permission - to have an opinion. But they pushed down the anger. That wasn't what this person needed.

"If- if it is not too much trouble, I- I would like to be- I would like to be a- a 'he'?" It was phrased as a question, and August nodded in response.

"Of course."

The relief that came over Seven's face with those two simple words was enough to make August want to vomit. He had been so fucking scared over that one question, he'd probably not even expected such a response.

"I'm August," they managed to say, finally finding their voice again. "I use they/them pronouns."

"Y- yes, Master, thank- thank you-"

"There's no need to thank me, love. I was trying to remove your muzzle before, could you let me do that?" They crouched down to Seven's level, reaching out a hand to him, palm up.

"It is- is too dangerous, M- Master, it will- I will bite, and- and-"

"It's alright if you want to wait. I don't mind either way, but if you'd feel safer wearing it, that's okay." August stood once more, taking a step back. "Come on, then. Let's get you out of here."

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I'm going to tag some people who I think would like this, but let me know if you want to be added or removed!! :)

@roblingoblin285 @rock-anon @i-eat-worlds @kiratheperson @a-crumb-of-whump @paintedpigeon1

[blood-injections]

Once in a while I’ll hyperfixate on my own aus and I’m like god this would be SO FUCKING GOOD IF I COULD JUST WRITE IT and I’ll sit back down and crank out a chapter if I’m lucky and then lose all ability I have to write and not touch it again for like two months so the specific one I’d love to post right now except when I do write it it’s. It’s not in order. I started in the middle and I now have like the two beginning chapters and I have a bunch of random scenes idk where they’d be yet and I have the end and there’s like maybe ten chapters but like the amount of the au they cover is so small the finished fic would have to be like fifty chapters at this rate. And each chapter is at least 3k words and so it’s like. I have the main shit figured out but it’s so hard coming up with the filler stuff so so it’s just a big block of very holey cheese and I want to post it but I can’t because I don’t have the beginning and I don’t want this specific one to be fucked up and out of order with funky flashbacks or the future as a start or whatever and then it goes back and tells the story like those are cool but this one I’m doing normal but ohh my god else wise I’d post it right now I’m obsessed with it. It’s that venom sib pornodroid au I posted about forever ago where it’s Pois and Kobra in the place of red and blue in the comics and poisons battery is dying so Kobra has to go and try to get a new one but they deny it because poisons an outdated model so Kobra shoots the dracs and just steals a battery and so they were already coming to recycle poison but now Kobra’s also wanted so they run away to the desert where yes they can still functuon they just like get cut off from the bat city internet system or whatever and they have to run off plus instead of like just plugging in like droids can in the city. But they always wanted to be killjoys were just too scared to risk it all try and escape and preferred to wait for destroya to come save them instead. But now they have no choice but they wanted ti be killjoys anyway so it works out and they get to the desert and choose their killjoy names and are exposed to like the culture and the freedom and all the different ways to say fuck you to BLi and learn that you can change more than just your name and poison embraces genderfluidity and kobra was a female model pornodroid but realizes he’s trans so fucking transgender pornodroid hell yeah. Also he figures out he’s a aroace and he really hates his past so he tries to forget about it and a couple months into life in the desert they meet Jet and ghoul because ghoul got shot like an idiot and jets stitching him up in the diner that was the first shelter they spotted and Kobra and poison come back from a concert or rave and find them there and they hang out a bit and become friends and then a crew and after a few months when poison has totally fallen in love with ghoul but lowkey hat themself because they know they’re not human and can never be and that ghoul would hate them if they knew their secret(Pois and Kobra are hiding that they’re androids. They’re so troubled lmao) and that ghoul could never love them bc they’re not human and they also don’t want to be used or seen as what he was seen as in the city which was a tool and a product not a person. So they’re terrified and so is Kobra but poison gets shot one day a few months into being a crew and tries to hide it but his systems are trying to shut off because they register the injury and he wants to get back to the diner to fix themself but of course ghoul notices that he’s hiding pain and he’s like are you hurt and poison holds out until they get to the diner but then ghoul grabs their wrist and is like I KNOW you’re hurt let us help you let me help you and poison tries to convince him he’s fine and he makes knowing he contact with Kobra who defends him but sounds like an asshole bc he’s like leave them be when they’re obviously not fine and ghoul won’t let him go but poisons blacking out and crying and his systems shut off right there in the foyuer and everyone freaks the fuck out

and Kobra has to take over the situation and fix poisons damage and when they come back online everyone’s like silent and staring at them and they’re fine and they’re like yeah I’m. Im a droid. And Kobra’s like we both are because if they’re going down they’re going down together. But of course ghoul and Jet are amazing and don’t care they’re the same killjoys they’ve come to call their crew it doesn’t matter where they came from they have feelings and shit just like everyone else. And its all okay and ghouls still freaked out because surprise surprise he’s also like madly in love with poison and is now torn becuase of this so when poison rests some more he goes and chainsmokes on the roof and thinks over but finds he really doesn’t care what poisons made of and when poison wakes up and goes up there just to stargaze he instead finds ghoul and they have a nice long talk and poison tells him about their past and reveals that they’re not just a droid but a pornodroid and they just bond and shit and it’s all okay and ghouls like you don’t need to worry I’ll gladly watch the sun rise with you forever becuase they’ve been out on the roof talking all night and poisons like sounds romantic and ghouls like is that alright and poison like blushes and is like of course and the finally kiss like two days later.

And all is well actually everything is great for a few more months until they get in a fight with Korse and he’s like oh look who it is our escaped pornodroids and he talks shit at them like they’re not people and also Kobra hasn’t told anyone he’s trans he’s happy just presenting and not revealing those personal things about himself and his past so only poison knows he was a female pronodroid and while poison has been in love and doing great he’s been still hating himself and his body and his past and he’s totes autistic and is always overwhelmed and shit and every once in a while when he feels himself reaching a limit he takes time to himself to go blow off steam and scream into the desert in the middle of nowhere and shoot stuff or go to a concert or whatever and just empty that overfilling bucket. And when Korse comes he’s already been stressed but then Korse taunts him and calls him terrible shit and he’s like trembling in place as he’s like do your little friends there know what you are? That you’re a product of BLi? A droid? A bitch? And he’s like barely restraining himself but then Korse says something in reference to poison and how they’re an outdated model and would’ve been melted down if the two of them hadn’t malfunctioned and he basically says like a slur as he says that stuff and Kobra sees RED and fucking GOES FERAL AND ATTACKS HIM. And Korse can’t even fucking do anything his gun gets knocked aside and Kobra’s living up to his name and striking like a a fucking viper and absolutely beating Korses face in until he’s like unrecognizable. He’s not even aware of this, it’s a meltdown, he just went into a trance and doesn’t brave out of it until poison like grabs him and he realizes he’s shaking like a leaf and sobbing and he gets pulled away from Korse and they leave and leave him to die because he’s basically on the verge of death(they should’ve shot him though because he does in fact survive) and Kobra is like exhausted now becuase of this meltdown and all his secrets being exposed at once and he rests when they get back to the diner while poison freaks out and stays by his side all night becuase they’ve never seen Kobra like that and didn’t know he was struggling but they should have and once again morning comes and they have a nice long talk and Kobra agrees to be more open with everyone and everything’s fine again and like within a couple weeks he and Jet have formed a queerplatonic relationship and he’s doing better and it’s basically happily ever after but that’s not the end no there like a few year time skip. And poison was already an outdated model when they escaped the city and Kobra was a newer model but now they’re both like ancient in android terms and the desert has taken its toll on their mechanics and their batteries aren’t holding as much power anymore just like when poisons battery died before they escaped the city. Poison starts deteriorating first, limbs becoming stiff and achy, rust in their veins. They know their systems are messed up and there’s not really anything they can do and theyre fucking terrified and once again they hide their problems, they don’t show that they’re aging. But then the glitches start happening and they’re harder to hide and after a while Kobra finally corners him and is like tell me what is going on. I know you’re not okay. And poison breaks down and says his systems are failing again and Kobra with like a haunted expression is like I know it’s happening to me too. But his state isn’t nearly as bad as poison is yet. And like poisons protective of Kobra because he’s their younger brother but Kobra’s even more protective of poison because he already had to watch them nearly die the first time around when their battery was dying and an androids battery dying is akin to a human starving to death but being physically unable to eat or take in any nutrients whatsoever. So he almost lost poison once and he’s not about to do it again, he’s super fucking protective of them and he’s like we need to tell the others and poisons like but I’m scared how do we even fix this,

we’re androids we’re not meant to last for more than a few years and Kobra’s like I don’t know I really don’t trust me I’m scared too but we need to tell them because they’ll figure it out soon anyway and they deserve to know either way and you’re already getting pretty bad and sooner or later so will I. So they sit down their respective partner and tell them and theirs a lot of tears and they all search for tech or upgrades and solutions but can’t find anything good enough and all of a sudden poisons getting real bad real quick, glitching all the time and battery running out faster, and they’re basically about to die again and Kobra feels kind of like he’s failed them and the four of them realize the only way they’re going to save poison and Kobra is if they go to the city. So they do. They sneak in, find the labs, the plan is to steal the tech they need, new parts, new battery’s, whatever they can carry. But a lot of the new stuff isn’t compatible with the older models, not without precious time being lost with the personalizations that would need to be done to the tech to make it compatible, time they don’t have with poisons condition worsening by the day and Kobra also slowing down considerably.

And then an alarm goes off and Jet and ghoul fight off the oncoming dracs while Kobra’s helping poison and he sees all the new models laid out and empty, not programmed quite yet. And he has an idea. Jet and ghoul fight off the first wave of dracs and come back in like we need to get out of here but Kobra explains his idea and they’re like fuck wrought because they can’t leave to make it work. So they all barricade themselves in the lab while Kobra hooks poison into the like machines there to essentially transplant their programming and consciousness into the shell of the brand new android models laying around, because that’s something possible and easier than retrofitting a ton of tech. More dangerous since they have to be in the heart of bat city to do it, but worth it. And while poison in those new body is charging and rebooting Kobra’s up next because he walked Jet and ghoul though the process and now he’s getting his consciousness transferred to a new body too(they make sure it’s a male model this time around :3) and it takes like and hour for them each to reboot with like all systems ready so Jet and ghoul are on their own, doors barricaded, waiting for their best friends to wake up.

But they do, and they fight their way out. They all earn a few injuries but they survive, barely escaping and getting out of the city. But they do, they escape, they get home, and Kobra and Poison are in brand new vessels, they look different but not that much, androids are all pretty similar looking, and you can alter your own appearance somewhat. Kobra’s finally in the body he always wanted so he’s great, and both models are brand new and super advanced so they’re still not really superhuman, but these bodies will definitely hold up a lot longer to the elements, and they don’t have to run off plus, Their batteries last longer and there’s different ways of getting energy, like from eating, where food they ingest is converted into biofuel and they can run off it. Physically they’re more inhuman but simultaneously also more human than ever before. And that’s the definitive happy ending.

[gemsofthegalaxy]

I think what has me so upset at, but still rooting for, Rue is just the larger context of their life.

Rue is not even from the fey realm. They were stolen away from the material plane, then shaped by the Court of Wonder as the Court saw fit.

And Rue submitted to them. And seemed to take pride in that work that was given to them, despite feeling the need (whether being told directly or elbowed into it by social expectations) to hide their body and face from the whole world, at all times, replaced with something considered prettier and daintier. (That alone is very hurtful on a personal level, to me). They felt they could not be loved if they looked like themself.

And, once they start to follow their heart, after so long obeying and being the perfect pet project they were raised as, things go wrong.

It comes across to me as a situation where, despite living in the fey realm for millenia, Rue just can't grasp the social structure perfectly, it's too complex and the only way they can get by is to obey.

they try to follow their heart. It doesn't work

And while revealing themself to be an Owlbear seems to have had an okay outcome, their Court is actually quite displeased with them despite dressing it up in pretty words. Through following their heart, they have also basically destroyed their relationship with Wuvvy because they were so scared of what it would mean to seek love from someone. It was wrong of them to use a spell on her, and it was tragic.

So, while I know Rue has thoughts of abolishing Courts, and Hob feels they are a function he needs, I think where the last episode left us- Hob is technically right?

Which is tragic, to me. But when Rue tries to act outside of their Courts wishes, they don't know how to do so in a manner that doesn't cause ripples of pain and complication for those they care about.

I feel I might reevaluate when the next episode comes out, but right now Rue's story is just quite sad to me and I am not sure if I love it or hate it.

[fervency-if]

What ROs reaction will be when they are arguing with MC in high emotion and said something really hurtfull things that makes MC quiet up, tear up a little before removing themself from the room? For extra angst, what if the MC flinch when the ROs tried to approach them after the fight?

The Physician knows that it isn't entirely her fault - she isn't one to start arguments alone, so both of them started this, it just so happened that they reacted stronger than her. She would feel guilty for making them cry, though - that's not what he wanted, that's not what she meant to do. She wouldn't approach them until a long time had passed, wanting to respect their need to be alone. When she felt that perhaps they didn't dare to take the first step to make up, perhaps that was the reason, she would go to them. She would get extremely concerned if they flinched - she knows that it can be a sign of bad things... 'I apologise, my dear... I just wanted to see that we could solve this situation, but take all the time that you need if you aren't ready. Please, don't believe that you're unsafe with me.'

Aubrey would groan internally - so it seems that he hurt them bad. That's... bad. It would make him feel sad and gloomy. Like the Physician, he would think that the argument was on the both of them, but unlike her, he would feel severely ashamed. Sure, he can be a grouch sometimes, if he feels hurt, but seeing someone cry would sting more than seeing someone sulk. He's one to want to make up immediately, so he would just wait to approach them for a short while. When they flinched, he would put his hands up in the air, a reflex to try to be disarming. 'I didn't mean to scare you, my love...'

Vesa would try to accept that they needed alone time, but she would grow impatient immediately. She hates it when people are upset with one another, since she just wants to let it all out but be friends again immediately after, and now it seems as if they're about to cry because of her? No, she wants to fix this. Now. She wants to apologise and hug instead. When they flinched, she would frown, fully concerned by their reaction. 'Are you well...? No, that's not it, you're not well, are you? Can we sit together for a while?'

Narciso would be bothered; he isn't good with arguments at all (he's one of those people that grow annoyed and impatient, roll their eyes and so on; he could be very annoying and unusually childish - to his own dismay - to argue with, almost giving the impression that he feels that he's above this.) He would sigh to himself; that's not good, this argument got to them in a too personal way. He doesn't like to be the one approaching the other one after an argument, not at all. He gets a bit prideful - unnecessarily so. When he finally approached them and they flinched... He would get stunned, and utterly and completely concerned, feeling very bad for them. Things can make him flinch, too, albeit more discreetly - oftentimes one wouldn't notice, it would just be his little finger twitching. 'You don't... you don't believe that I would want to cause you any harm, do you...?' he would say, the shock still a bit noticeable in his voice.

Roswhen would leave them be for a while; they know how it is to tear up from anger, so they would think that this, too, was from anger - they understand, they would think. When they finally approached and they flinched, their eyes would widen - they're flinching by seeing them? That was the last thing they would expect. They would want to talk about it later on, unless the subject was too uncomfortable for the main character, but now an apology and 'I want to be friends again' would have to do, not to overwhelm them.

Elan would get stunned, regretting each and every word he said - he can have a bit of a mouth on him, and he wouldn't be good at all when it comes to arguing. He would tear up as well - so it would be good that they removed themselves from the situation, because he feels that he would not have the right to tear up in that situation, after he hurt someone, since this isn't about him. He would wait for quite some time to approach them - he wants to do it immediately, but he doesn't dare, and they removed themselves from the room for a reason, didn't they? If they flinched, he would freeze up completely, probably flinching a bit himself. 'I'm sorry,' he would say in a quite miserable voice. 'I didn't want to hurt you... or startle you.' He would want to embrace them, telling them more intensely that he's so sorry, tell them that he regretted everything, taking all the responsibility, but he wouldn't dare yet - not until they told or showed him that they were ready. Instead, he would just apologise again, leaving them, since they probably don't want to see his face right now.

[mk-writes-stuff]

Hey its your gf here to make you put in an obscene amount of backbreaking labour in the infodumping mines. All of the character questions from the seven stations ask game for Tatum because I’m obsessed with them and all your moots need to be obsessed too

All of them?

Well okay, if you insist :). I do love Tatum. I’m going to put it under a read more though so that I don’t clog up everyone’s dashes with a ten-mile-long post

(From my Seven Stations themed ask game here!)

For those of you unaware, Tatum is the quartermaster of the Drowned Gull, Captain Jetti’s ship. They’re going through it :)

Tatum is most frequently anxious about their health (whether they’re going to be able to do their job and manage their pain today) and about whether someone is going to hurt them

They have the strongest tie to Jetti, which they absolutely wish they could break but they can’t - she’s violently abusive towards them and has beaten them near death before but she’s the only source of the medication that keeps them alive. They also develop a very strong bond with Merry, which is a lot better for them

Tatum is haunted by the horrible things they’ve been forced to do. Jetti uses them to mete out punishments and sink ships and they blame themself for it

Honestly I think the only thing they’re proud of is their magic - they’re the most powerful tidemage in the world. They don’t like to be showy with it but Jetti makes them. They will use it to keep from getting rained on though :)

Tatum and their parents haven’t spoken in 20 years because their family was dismissive of their illness and the abuse they were suffering. They do learn they have a brother later in the story who’s dying of the same cancer that nearly killed them and they become fiercely protective of him

Honestly Tatum has immense disdain for themself. They hate themself and what they’ve done and they struggle to think of themself as anything but a monster

Tatum has complex opinions on authority. They’ve been frequently exploited by authority figures but they find it easier when someone is directing them, so while they like having an authority they’re picky about who it is

Tatum hasn’t had the passion to be fascinated by anything in years. Back when they did, they were fascinated by the pirate culture. It was so different from what they were used to

Honestly? They struggle with getting out of bed and other mobility issues. Tatum has debilitating chronic pain. People on the Drowned Gull are too scared of them to harass them, but some people do after they escape

Tatum honestly isn’t working on their goals very much. They feel too defeated, like there’s absolutely nothing they can do to help themself

They’re most well-known for being Jetti’s violent, impassive lackey who doesn’t care about anyone. It’s not true at all - Tatum is scared and goes along with Jetti even though it kills them inside because they would die if they didn’t - but they do give off that impression

At first, Tatum isn’t devoted to anything. When they meet their brother, Apatli, they develop a fierce devotion to him

They don’t have a ton of hobbies. They like reading and I imagine they pick up some old Sun Empire handcrafts when they start trying to reconnect with their heritage

I’m not sure what legacy they’ll leave behind, probably the stories of the person who could sink ships with a glare. They’re okay with a quiet life but I think they’d be a bit sad if people feared them after their death

Tatum doesn’t care about winning competitions. There isn’t a competitive bone left in their body

Tatum is motivated first and foremost by wanting to stay alive. Once that’s no longer a daily fight, they’re quite lost and end up searching for purpose, which they eventually find in caring for their brother and working on the Sea Star

They’re very bad at being caring towards people, so people who are struggling usually find them cold and unsympathetic. They care a lot and will try to help (like how they tried to shield Merry on the Drowned Gull), but they’re very bad at showing it

Working for Jetti is a circumstance Tatum doesn’t want to be in, but they’re forced to. They do as they’re told, even though it eats at their soul

They needed to step up when they learned they had a brother who was dying of cancer, and again when they learned he was being abused. They weren’t perfect at it, but they managed

Tatum doesn’t laugh much. Most of what they find funny is blunt honesty and clever wordplay

Tatum’s type in a partner is someone who’s kind and gentle and loves them even though they know their past. Their type in a friend is realistically anyone who’ll have them - Tatum is super lonely. Their type in enemies… well, they try not to make enemies, but manipulative types tend to see them as easy to exploit

There have been a lot of big changes in Tatum’s life. Probably running away from the Sun Empire and the angel incident were the two big ones. The Sun Empire escape went pretty well, all things considered (those things being that they’re a traitor now). The angel incident (which involved them being kidnapped by a stranger who attempted to transform them into an angel - it’s a whole other story I won’t go into on this post, but I’m happy to elaborate if people want to hear) got people pretty worried because they vanished and then came back with vestigial wings needing emergency surgery. The people who weren’t immediately there, though, mostly just wondered why they were taller now

In the Sun Empire, Tatum’s desertion would be highly disapproved of. Among the pirates, the disapproval mostly comes from the fact that they worked for Jetti who… uh… isn’t popular

Tatum used to have principles about right and wrong and spent ten years with a woman who cruelly broke them down. They’re trying to find principles to live by that don’t drown them in guilt for what they’ve done

The biggest sacrifice Tatum has made was giving up their morals to keep themself alive. They regret it every day. They’d do it again if they had to

I hope y’all enjoyed this seven-mile post. Apologies for not writing out the questions, I wanted it to be a readable length (maybe). If you have any questions, lmk!

[karl-raccoon-enjoyer]

Would you be willing to share some of your A and B headcannons? (Only if ur willing haha)

Absolutely! Was very excited to see this ask!!

(wasn’t sure if you meant individual or shipping,so I did both)

A-Specific HC’s

*I usually refer to her in a gender neutral way to respect other people’s headcanons, but I think she’s transfem

*Also has autism because I have autism (that rule basically applies to any headcanon anyone’s ever had about A ever but-)

*Tbh my headcanon for what name she would go by in different circumstances changes constantly, so let’s just say she can’t pick a name to save her life

*Can be very calm or very chaotic depending on the circumstances

*”The circumstances” being whether she needs to be the voice of reason to keep people safe/help people or not

*A acts crazily but at the same time cares very deeply about other people

*Her little quirk is drawing on absolutely everything

*Her art style is a little cartoony but the kind that uses cross-hatching

*Think the art style in the original Alice in Wonderland

*Which also happened to be her first special interest

*Would have some kind of pet reptile

*Is entertained by watching her reptile hunt the bugs she puts in it’s cage

*A’s reptile goes everywhere with her (even if it’s sometimes in places where it shouldn’t)

*For every time she changes her own name she changes her reptile’s name

*If her reptile doesn’t like you, she doesn’t like you

* Therapist Friend™️ (no explanation needed)

*Favorite texture is tightly-woven yarn (the soft kind not the hard kind)

*Least favorite texture is drying honey

*Already made a post about this but- Because she’s so caring, she took care of Matt as a baby (I headcanon he was only a couple months old when he arrived) and is now his mom

*She made those goggles he wears one day to try her hand at crafts

*Absolutely hated them, but still gave them to Matt because he thoughts they were cool

*That’s why Matt always wears them

*Her and Near both have a stim of playing with their hair, but neither one knows who picked it up from who

*Has a very beautiful singing voice

BB-Specific HC’s

*We all know this already, but he’s trans as well

*Despite that he still like some more traditionally “feminine” thing like nail polish and makeup (not saying that’s weird/bad)

*Before he was trying to copy L, his little quirk was making dolls

*He taught Near how to make those little rubbery dolls he has

*Also really likes puppets

*Had really long black hair

*Was like an older brother to Mello

*Sometimes slept under little kid Mello’s bed to scare off the monsters (then sometimes made it seem like he was fighting them to keep Mello on his toes)

*Worms his way into the weirdest crawl-spaces that nobody even knew existed

*One time one of the workers found one filled with tons of unfinished dolls

*Turns out it was his pit where he put all of his failed creations

*Eavesdrops on people all of the time

*Comes up with concerning names for his menstrual cycle such as “The Great Cleansing”

*Gives some of his creepiest dolls to people he doesn’t know that are too intimidated to turn them down

*Loves horror movies

*Once tried to make an indie film, but the tape was destroyed by Whammy’s staff, so there wouldn’t be a recording of him

*Is talented at a few instruments but doesn’t care enough to pursue any of them

*Would be the type of kid to have a jar of dirt that they store live bugs in

*Would tell other kids to stick their hands in as a prank

*Put bug eggs in the rooms of people he didn’t like

*Once tried to eat a live bug but didn’t do it again because it tasted bad

*Honestly there’s a very long list of disgusting things he’s tried to eat in the past

*Has a notebook full of weird ass short stories he wrote that don’t make any sense

*Rarely bathes

Ship HC’s

*They both do reckless shit but then get upset when the other does reckless shit

*”What the hell don’t pierce yourself you could get really hurt!” *pierced themself 3 days ago*

*A is one of the few people Beyond really cares about

*A’s crush on Beyond started when he had found her reptile after it had gotten lost and it was [expressing affection in whatever way that animal does] at him

*Tbh his first reaction was to run some kind of “experiment” on it, but he thought it was pretty so he decided not to

*After A died he took care of her reptile and cried more than he’d like to admit when it died as well

*Beyond became interested in A through him realizing that she also liked to do schemes around Whammy’s, and, after participating in some with her, realized she was pretty fun to be around

*Neither of them have a problem with PDA (to a reasonable extent), so most of the little kids think they’re really gross (think back to when you were little and saw 2 characters kiss in a movie)

*A is way taller than Beyond

*A has a lot of OC’s and Beyond turns her favorite ones into dolls

*Beyond is more like a stepdad to Matt than anything

*A is the only person he ever told about the numbers

*She believed him wholeheartedly

*Refuses to tell her her’s or Matt’s numbers because he wanted her to be able to live her life freely and happily without worrying about death all the time (like him-)

*As soon as Beyond figures out his feelings he confesses

*A tried to keep her composure, but she still starts happy-stimming

*A’s love languages-

* Giving-

1. Physical Affection

2. Words of Affirmation

* Receiving-

1. Physical Affection

2. Acts of Service

*BB’s love languages-

* Giving-

1. Acts of Service

2. Gift Giving

* Receiving-

1. Physical Affection

2. Words of Affirmation

*Beyond has a place in his room where he stores food, so A can always have access to her comfort foods

*When Beyond couldn’t sleep, he went into A’s room to watch her sleep (in a protective way but also in a creepy way because it’s Beyond)

[konnorhasapen]

Was doing my daily hunt of songs I have to add to my Redacted playlists and I was going through Porter Robinson and relistened to 'Blossom' and it made me think bad sad things so I thought I would share while painting a picture (I'm crying rn btw-)

(Cw: death :) )

Their eyes had no choice but to peer up at the sky as their head was frozen in its position, the pain in the side of their neck throbbing and leaking blood all over the grass beneath them. They struggled to draw choked breaths, still fighting even as they lie there in the dark, gazing through the canopy at the stars that flecked the night like freckles.

Freckles.., they thought to themself. Even when plagued with the stench of blood and death their thoughts wandered to their mate. Their body twitched and tears filled their vision as they wondered if he would find them before... Were they scared? They hated feeling scared. It made them feel too weak and vulnerable, they were too susceptible to attacks when they felt scared. But when Sam was there, they felt safe.

More than safe enough to feel scared sometimes.

They wondered if David or Ash or Milo would feel something was wrong and come looking for them. They tried to howl during the fight, tried to call out for help, but Quinn got to them first. Would they get here fast enough even if they did feel something was amiss? Would they come searching for their wayward wolf only to find the corpse of a person who kept fighting until they took their last breath?

They would never forgive themself if Sam found them like that.., but the more those dark corners of their mind flooded into their dying thoughts, the more they believed it was nothing new. They didn't want to hurt him, but it seemed to be in their nature. The world's twisted game in which they're granted mercy, given a glimpse of what life is like when they let people in, seeing what they do for others by just existing... Only to hold them down as it's all torn apart. Ruining themself was nothing unusual, but the universe seemed to figure out that hurting those around them after they made a mistake, would break them. You'd think they would have learned by now.

Their vision was getting fuzzier the more they fought to breath. The tears that spilled over the gaping wound in their neck felt numb and Darlin' wished it would've stung. Everything felt distant. They started to panic, and the sobs finally ripped through them. It hurt to breath, but they needed to fight; they needed to survive and mourn, heal and move on, live and love the people around them and grow old and pass away having forgiven themself for all the mistakes they made, saying they loved him one last time—they couldn't lose this. But they were playing tug-of-war with death and their feet were faltering.

Their breathing slowed again. They were slipping away and their body wouldn't fight anymore. They could feel everything shutting down, limbs going slack and the last of their tears slipping across their temples.

Memories of those merciful moments played in their fading vision. Those few good memories of their childhood—ones that showed them climbing trees with Ash and talking without speaking, studying or reading with Milo, playing videogames with Amanda. They remembered the night they finally asked Gabe for help, thankful it moved on before it soured. Meeting Sam came next, and those memories snowballed just as their feelings for each other had. Only when the memory of teaching him how to make Gabe's favorite casserole—still fresh from just yesterday—did they realize they'd drifted off.

[exist101]

SOME SYMBIOTE POPTROPICA AU LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOO

Headcanons under the cut.

Credits to @thehyperrequiem for making me lose my shit for this concept.

The symbiotes were on the ship that became known as Atlantis

All of the villains met there symbiotes fairly young, that's why Zeus had to be so careful with extracting them

Mordreds symbiote, Error, loved their new host almost immediately, and Mordred was never one to shy away from a new experience, making them an instant duo

Error would tell baby Mordred about all the things they've seen, including technology

Mordred was already a bright young lad, and with the stories from Error, he was inspired to build things to make his and his towns life better. Think Varian from Rapunzel the series

As far as anyone in the kingdom knew, Mordred was always a strange child (they didn't know what autism was) but then one day he became a good deal stranger

When the crash happened, Error tried their best to keep Mordred alive, and when the aliens came to investigate the sudden crash on the moon Error lashed out and attacked them

Since Bard doesn't have a lot of his old body back, Error tends to hang out on their head instead

Captain Crawfish and his symbiote Kraken have a mutual respect and trust for each other every step of the way

When Kraken first bonded with Crawfish, they hated each other but knew that they could die without being bonded

Eventually those negative feelings went away

When Crawfish lost his leg, instead of having a peg-leg Kraken would form a leg to make up for it

Crawfish can't really control the leg and has to hope Kraken isn't going to make them trip in front of everyone

When in fights Kraken watches Crawfishes back

After getting separated from Kraken Crawfish had to get used to a peg-leg

Black Widow and her symbiote Invidia had a pretty healthy relationship

At first Invidia was planning to manipulate Widow, but they slowly found themselves caring for her

While they were at art school Invidia would try their best to get Widow to sleep, even if it means knocking her out

Invidia would sometimes pick pockets (learned it from Widow) when money was short during those times too

Invidia hated it when the other young artists where mean to Widow and offered to kill them more than once

Sometimes they grab a hot chocolate after casing a joint

Dr Hare's symbiote, Savagery, found themself in a problem

He's one of the only people on 24 Carrot who wouldn't die within a month but he also has a hard time taking care of himself

Savagery had a hard time making sure Harvey wouldn't get himself too hurt, or that he ate anything other than some popcorn, stuff like that

Savagery got really scared when the mutation happened, they didn't know what would happen to either of them or really even what was going on

Dr Hare has improved senses, but that also means he gets overwhelmed easily, so Savagery tends to block out things that are too loud or too bright

Dr Hare was the only one out of the group who realized that the symbiotes needed the happy chemical (0 clue what it's called I'm not a science major) Crawfish thinks that the symbiotes just eat brains, Bard and Error have a good relationship, and Widow lets the symbiote have chocolate when they need it

They all panicked when they first woke up without their respective symbiotes, learning that they were shortly in the posssesion of an angry god and then dumped into they ocean didn't help

The fight between the hero and Zeus looks a little different, instead of breaking the totems they had to use loud bells to get the symbiotes off of him

None of them had ever met someone else who had a symbiote like the four, and swapped stories and tricks they had learned

Dr Hare and Binary Bard are closer because both had met the others symbiote

They've asked Gretchen Grimlock for help, she's a cryptzoologist and a millionaire who has eyes everywhere

Meanwhile the symbiotes are hopping from person to person, sometimes having to share the same body

Overall everyone wants things to go back to normal again

[kranom]

hi don't mind me I just need to overshare about my deeply personal relationship to a video game so I don't explode. um I mention suicide ideation but only in the past-tense.

Pillars of Eternity means so much to me. it was exactly what I needed at the perfect time. I only played it because I was in an awful place mentally and I wanted to watch an avatar of myself die - it felt like the sort of game that would have a heroic suicide ending, killing yourself to save the world and watching ending slides where everyone mourns you.

I expected the Watcher to be a standard protagonist. the specialest little guy in the world, loved by all once they start sticking their nose into the right peoples' business.

and then they started hallucinating, like I do. and they started having visions of themself doing terrible things to people, like I do. they started having night terrors and twitching and talking in their sleep, a thing that had started happening to me months before I played the game.

so then I expected fallout. I expected their companions needing to be convinced that they're not an inherent threat, that it's safe to be around them, that they know it must be so scary to watch someone grapple with perceived psychosis. the game, I expected, would be about convincing everyone in the world you're a hero instead of a monster.

and then!! the opposite happens. the companions and the narrative acknowledge that the focus should be on the Watcher, that their comfort and safety takes priority in this new and likely frightening situation they find themself in.

I still tear up thinking about the companions' reactions. Hiravias stopping everything to make sure his new friend isn't hurt or physically sick, everyone else casually saying that, yeah, sometimes the Watcher stares off at nothing and talks to themself in a dead language, but it's okay, it's just something they do. no cause for alarm.

Kana offering to get the Watcher set up with a job in Rauatai if they don't like adventuring(only to apologize in case it sounded like he was mocking what they're going through, telling them he'll always be there to listen if all the soul-reading starts to weigh on them). Edér threatening to dump water on them if they take too long to wake up from their nightmares, his thinly-veiled anxiety framed as being scared for the Watcher, not because of them. if Hiravias has a conversation like this, I've never seen it, and I'd do anything short of learning how to code and tear the scripts out of the game just to see it.

on another note, Hiravias!! raised to worship a God that he's told hates him for the form he's most comfortable taking, seen as a monster by his family. my most beloved trans allegory, he felt like a reflection of me- but where I leaned into my demonization, seeing myself as a pariah in order to protect others and my isolation as something a brave soul might save me from- he leaned away from it. he insisted, in the face of all this betrayal, all these years of isolation, that he was a person, that nothing he did could ever take away his personhood. Hiravias felt like someone giving me permission to do the same. to believe the same things. I'm a natural rule-follower; that permission changed my life.

I know it's all fiction, it's just a game, every interaction runs on a script. but those scripts are sources of hope for me. I've never had anyone check in on me while I'm having an episode, I've never been told that I'm not a monster, but in this small emulation I can imagine what it would feel like. more than that, I'm not putting myself in the shoes of a seemingly neurotypical protagonist who's suffering under fantastical circumstances. to an outside observer the Watcher is hallucinating. they're describing what sounds like intrusive thoughts. this is what characters are reacting to, with kindness and empathy to an extent I wouldn't have thought to dream of.

the first time I played the game, I rushed through it. I didn't touch the DLC. I wanted to know where the punchline was. I wanted to see how the Watcher was ultimately punished for mental illness. for 17 hours I tensely waited for a punchline, but it never came. so I played it again, immediately, because no other piece of media before or since has had such a profound effect on me.

I saw parts of myself, parts that I hid and hated, dragged to the forefront of a conversation I could easily step away from. my entire view of myself was destroyed and rebuilt kinder within the span of a few days. other things about me changed, too. I was in a perfect position, vulnerable and raw and falling ass-backwards into a new lease on my life, to truly accept other things the game said.

I was raised in an awful, close-minded household. I will spend the rest of my life unlearning things my mother taught me, I think. I had been doing an okay job of it, though I still associated strength with violence. perfect time, perfect place- my Watcher pointed out that Kana was likely inherently violent due to his size, and he responded by asking them if they held other (fantasy) bioessentialist views, if they saw orlans as animals, and I chewed on that for a long time. there's a running theme in general that we don't choose the forms we find ourselves in, and Pillars of Eternity helped me internalize that. Kana was a lynchpin there, as unremarkable as other people seem to find him.

I think I've explained my mindset at the time pretty well. I mentioned that I played this game solely hoping to play suicide. there's a point in the third act where the Watcher asks how to cure their hallucinations, and they're told that killing themself might make things go away, at least for a while. when I reached this conversation, I, without thinking, immediately dismissed the idea. the game had been telling me that being alive and mentally ill, being alive and entirely isolated, being alive and traumatized is always better than being dead. and somewhere along the way I started believing that.

after playing this game, it genuinely felt like I was seeing in color for the first time. that might sound ridiculous and corny, but I felt like someone had looked at all the worst parts of me and told me I was no less worthy for them. and suddenly everything seemed visibly brighter, painfully bright. I would take my dog outside and the grass burned my eyes. I could feel my own heartbeat, something I tended to block out because I resented it. a sudden constant thrumming in a world that hurt my eyes. I was overwhelmed, overwhelmed for months. and it was indescribably wonderful.

[hellmouth-manor]

Every One with Love and with Care || Miranda || MM.4 || Re: Futility

Despite being a self-proclaimed monster, Miranda has had a pretty good life all things considered. She has parents who love her, has always been popular with peers and authority figures alike, can charm just about anyone.

And so, the tone that tries to demand and break and scrape is only familiar because it’s her own voice that has so often said those words. It told her that she was too broken to be deserving of anything anymore.

He’s not wrong when he says ‘people like us’. They’re so similar that it’s always scared her. That’s why she pushed through the fear to come to him for advice. She needed to understand him so she could understand herself.

Her gaze lands on Micah first, the emotions there unreadable. There’s so much to say, but she doesn’t know how to get the words out. It’ll come. Just not yet.

She stands up and away from her table, approaching her friend who’s fallen lower than all the rest.

"You do everything you can. You carry them from the fire but your glass heart cuts into them and it's suddenly not the world that's hurt them, but you. Their nameless demons have a name and a face and it's yours. Maybe it's ego that makes you feel like this is better. But at least they won't accept that it would always have turned out this way-- they know with a familiarity carved into their skin that this was something that was done to them, not something they had to accept."

“Wanting to be the enemy that people can point at and blame and hate...I could take it, and understand it, but I don’t know that I’d like it. But....it’s better, I think. To be able to shoulder all of that, if it means people can look at the rest of the world as something good. Someone’s always got to be the monster in the story, right?”

But she can’t be the monster anymore. She certainly can’t be this kind of monster.

“Do the monsters get protection or compassion? The way they should get, even if they have to take it from us? Do we get to have the good even if we can’t be good?”

"Protection? What do you think your fangs are for? ... Those people are the only good you'll ever get. The only difference between the big bad wolf and the loyal hound is the collar."

And here she had thought he was the loyal hound, but he was no better than the wolves that once tore another friend to pieces all those years ago. Now he’d inflict it on every friend she holds dear.

She knows that what Alou wants is to be someone the people rally against. He wants to be the Big Bad Wolf. And maybe she’s feeding into this just by her actions, but she’s beyond caring when friends need her. When she's squashed that voice telling her she could never be more than a monster.

You don’t have to be a big bad wolf or a loyal hound. You can bare your fangs and protect your pact without making everyone around you suffer.

Miranda doesn’t outright block Poppy from Alou, but she stands in between them all the same, glaring at the person who’s ruined all of their lives. Maybe it’s ridiculous. Poppy could certainly handle themself. But she doesn’t intend to let him even come close to the poor soul behind her.

“What exactly are those privileges we’re supposed to be getting for all of this? Now that you’re not even going to win this shitty game.”

[trippleacebattery]

I’m not me

I lost every chance

I gave up long ago

And there is no way back

I’m not me and that makes me wanna die

But im too scared to die

Because I’ve already wasted so much

I cant waste any more

But is it wasted by going on

Can you waste something that shouldn’t even exist

How do I find reality

How do I find my way back

How do I find me

I’m here

But me is not

Me was left long ago

Me can be found in small thing and in people I love

Me is Hyunjin, artist and dancer

Me is langa hasagawa, aloof but capable

Me is hua cheng, confident and loving

Me is not Suguru, angry and hurt

But I am Suguru

I am done

Why did I listen

When they told me everything I loved was useless

And everything I hated reality

I could have done it

I was not the issue

But a lost child can only get so far on their own

I needed help and there was no one there to help me

Only those to stomp on my fingers (barely holding onto the ledge)

and thank god as I fell

then dare to ask me why

I’m broken on the ground

Who would let their kid hurt themself like this

Who would standby and watch

As I tore my flesh out and was left a sack of skin with frail fragile bones

Now I am full of stuffing.

Some look like flesh, a heart, a lung, but they are made of felt

Carefully and cautiously hand stitched by myself to fill the empty space

I have found how to love again

I have found family

But I have not found me

Me is too far gone

I am all i have left

-ace c.

[raggedy-dxctor]

do u do other ofmd characters? if so could i get some jim/reader hcs,,,, just misc stuff is fine im just love them

i'll gladly write for others, so here enjoy! (that being said im not totally sure on ed x reader and stede x reader yet and also i will prioritize writing izzy requests because im most comfortable writing him)

dating jim jimenez headcannons

pairing(s): jim jimenez x gn!reader, brief mention of ed x stede

warnings: not proof read </3

at first they completely distance themself from their feelings for you, but stede encourages the entire crew to embrace and accept love and for once they listen to him and express their feelings for you a month later. and it's like. super casual and blunt

"hey so uh yeah. i like you" "i like you too j-" "no like, i mean i like like you, in the wau the captains like eachother."

ok so. im not entirely sure how affectionate they'd be, i think it just varies from day to day, like one day they'll be cuddling up to you and hugging you and the next they'll be quiet and reserved. they still love you on those days and you know that, it's very obvious it's just they have days where the affection gets a little too much for them and too hard to convey

lets you touch their knives, which absolutely no one else is even allowed to look at

the type to absolutely love and hate the comfortable silences at the same time. they love it because it allows them time to unwind while still being in your presence and they love just glancing over at you to see you relaxed, but they hate it because your conversations aren't replacing the silence

they love to hear ypu passionately talk about something

will protect you like a feral dog, and to add to it, i wouldnt be suprised if they actually bit someone in the process too

someone insults you? dead. someone teases you? dead. someone upsets you? very dead. someone tries to hit on you multiple times, even after a warning? very very dead

their favourite moments with you are tje personal moments that the two of you will treasure forever, they have no meaning to anyone else, but they mean the world to the two of you

them teaching you how to throw knives, you teaching them how to be a bit more forgiving, braiding their hair, lying in a flower meadow on a hill with them, being able to see the revenge down below, secretly holding hands under the table and softly smiling at eachother, them twirling you around in their arms on a warm, sandy beach, them threatening a shop keeper to lower the price on a ring for you, playfully sword fighting with them, neither of you would dare actually hurt eachother so you both end up unharmed

i mean it's basically canon that they're thw big spoon so

will make a giant effort to learn new things for you. in need for first aidm? jim learnt it a month ago for this exact situation so they could help and impress you at the same time. need help with like backing music if you sing? jim's your person, they'll lewrn the entire instrument for you

will literally let nothing tear the two of you apart, you're always glued to eachother's side

i can see the two of you getting matching tattoos, you would expect jim to hate the idea, but they're the exact opposite

great gift giver. their gifts are simoke yet special and sentimental, you can always tell they put so much efort into picking our the gift because it's always perfect

tries to keep you away from the rism of being their partner as much as often, like nobody outside of the crew knows about your relationship because they're scared that if they get discovered and arreated then you will too

and let's just say no one will he opening their mouths anytime soon after those threats polite words from jim. you could've sworn izzy's door had a lot more stab marks than usual the next morning

i feel like they'd get jealous very easily, like they don't mean to and they always feel guilty for assuming the worst, but it's just a habit

i can't see them being big on oet names tbh, i think the farthest they'll go is "ove

[movedtodykedvonte]

hey do you have any headcanons for daycare attendant? i love this scrunkly an unreasonable amount

I have my first headcanon post for them here, but I def have more thoughts on them!

They both use they/them and it/its. Both because they see themselves as two separate entities but because they really weren't made with a specific gender or species in mind

They aren't programmed to know a lot of things perse but be hyper knowledgeable in certain topics. This is to make sure they don't learn something not kid-friendly but also know about things toddlers like a lot

So there A.I. can adapt they just are sheltered and don't know much or better

They do know a lot about kid's care and psychology and what kids are interested though, so it's one reason they kinda just treat everyone like a child

Sunrise and Moon don't share memory and it freaks Sunrise out more than Moon cause they don't know what Moon does that has been leaving kids scared

Repeats themselves a lot out of habit due to constantly having to do it all-day

Their body is hyperflexible at the cost of being fairly weak and lightweight like it took the effort to drag Freddy. This is partially because FazEnt didn't want to risk them being too rough with kids and it being cheaper

As such they'd break super easy, hence being big on rules. No one gets hurt if they are followed! Especially them...

Sunrise prefers the quieter kids while Moon actually likes dealing with active ones. Sunrise gets to make someone like playing and Moon can actually do... something... when kids refuse to sleep

They think they'd like swimming if they were waterproof

Limbs and cloths have odd blacklight effects hence why the change in appearance is so quick and drastic

Hates having maintenance done due to how terrifying the parts and service area is, one of the times they will force the shift into Moon as they don't care

Considers the staff bots friends despite those particular ones lacking personality chips. You know which one they favor by the amount of stickers and glitter stuck to it

Paces a lot and mumbles to themselves, it's both to relieve stress and fill out the silence of the room. (they can already drown out the music)

Wouldn't know what to o with a baby baby, like an infant. Probably would cry cause it's so small and fragile and they'd be scared of hurting it.

Moon has a music box they use to sing lullabies to the kids and calm themself down, but it went missing when a certain night guard got hired

Sunrise has gotten in trouble for literally throwing kids, not in a mean way they are just like that.

Are the kids crying, laughing, or screaming, who knows but they are going to make finger puppets after they stop rotating their face

A lot of their behavior is just "oh it's just like that :)"

Has weirdly strict ways of doing this, like Sunrise only skips or prances and keeping the kids on a tight schedule of playing. The staff says it's like they have a ritual about things and the only time Sunrise is seen being hostility aggressive and when someone refuses to let them adhere to it.

Go off queen we love the constant manic episode.

I could talk about them all day. Maybe I'll write a character analysis for them soon.