#trans guy blues

[rotinhellandyou]

my name, my current name, is a gender neutral shortening of my birthname. i like it right now. i’m pretty happy with it. so long as people actually use it and treat it like my name, and not just as an optional nickname.

today i heard someone else going by my name

using my name

and i’m usually not one to get hung up on names but this one kinda pissed me off

because it wasn’t just my birthname no

it was my name

just my name

multiple times and only my name

never the long version, only the short one

and it’s not like i feel the name belongs to me

it’s not just mine and i know that

but the fact that someone else was so easily called it

is so easily called it

it and only it with no variation

makes me feel like shit

someone else. a girl. is respected enough for that.

they respect it enough to use a nickname and a nickname only, when it isn’t even that important

they’ll respect a nickname preference that staunchly when it is truly a nickname

but people won’t call me my name

because it is my name

my actual name

not my nickname, my name

it’s my name. and people won’t use it. but they will as a nickname for another girl.

i am not a girl. i am not the girl my birthname suggests.

i am a boy. i am a boy who uses my name.

i don’t say “oh but my friends call me name” during roll call to imply a nickname.

i say “i go by name.” clearly. that’s it. i don’t leave room for interpretation or suggestion. i say what the name i use is.

this random girl gets respected enough for a name preference to be listened to.

but i, someone who am pretty clear that no my name is not a preference, it is in fact my name, am not listened to.

it just feels like they don’t deserve to have my name almost, even though i know that’s bullshit.

i would be so happy if i was called my name that much. i would be so thankful. i would cherish that. and it feels like others are just brushing that off and giving it up.

it feels like others are taking something i would kill and die for as nothing to ever be serious about. and even though i know it’s not directed at or even remotely about me at all, it still hurts a bit. hurts a bit to see someone taking something so important to me for granted.

[chainymail]

I know people clown the erect codpiece in plate armor but . personally. Sitting on a knight’s lap and grinding on this would uhhhhh

[vividrogue]

I've been working on this off and on for a bit, if I work on it anymore I'll ruin it

[agnesandhilda]

when michael kaiser gets animated he'll hit twitter like the meteor that killed the dinosaurs

[professorjjong]

Blue Night 231119

It’s the final episode of Blue Night before it goes off air. The hosts Okdal, who were weekly guests during Jonghyun’s stint as the host, played SHINee’s “Ode to You” going into the third part of the show.

Okdal: “We’re beginning the third part of the show by listening to SHINee’s ‘Ode to You.’ Listening [to this song] makes me think of our beloved SHINee… our beloved Jjong-D. Especially today.”

Cr. geeknim via professorjjong (kor➡️jpn➡️eng)

[windswept-fields]

In honor of Trans Day Of Visibility, here’s a mecore edit because I am, in fact, trans

[nerdyprudesmuststim]

paul stimboard !

⛧ with trans stims !

☾ rq'd by 🐘 anon !

x | x | x

x | ! | x

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[larrythefloridaman]

WOAH, HE'S BIGENDER? I DIDN'T KNOW THAT!

[sketchrobinart]

[rcrisdraws]

Woe upon those who question the love and wrath of devotion.

[Image ID: Illustration featuring two men dressed in Japanese clothing. The man on the left is slightly slouched, with his left arm clinging to the back of the man on the right. He has tan skin, short, choppy, black hair and beard, and round glasses that glint in a way that reflects light. He is dressed in a green kimono with its sleeves held up and deer hide chaps. in the bottom left corner a piece of the red war bow he's holding can be seen. The man on the right is standing with both arms at ease beside his body, his back slightly turned to the camera. He has pale skin, auburn-red hair tied up in a high ponytail and a thick beard. He's very thin and wearing a dark purplish kimono with the sleeves held up and black samurai pants. A pistol and a katana can be seen hanging by his belt. The left arm of this man, facing the viewer, is covered in bright red blood.]

[museofthepyre]

your art really fits your appearance... are you the real life sydney sargent? i'd be freaking out if you were sydney sargent ahh

Well, yes.

I could explain my multi-year spanning selfhood/ ID situation in depth… buuuut we would be here for hours. Short answer for all intents and purposes is: yes.

[7roaches]

assorted old and somewhat unfinished oc art (except the second one thats recent)

[jo-dracona]

Dose 2 was yesterday!

[softness-and-shattering]

How many homoreotic swords fights so far?

Taigen and Mizu x2? x3?

Mizu and horse man

Plus the whole conversation with Madam Kaji was just. Mhhm mhmm. I dont remember the exact wording and subtext now but.

[dallasurr]

Never thought I’d be alive to hear an animated character say “I’m trans!” out loud on TV. Damn. Dead End Paranormal Park is worth watching just for that. But also it’s insanely good so far.

[rainbluealoekitten]

ftm moodboard let's gooooooo