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lily-blue-blue-lily · 10 months

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episode 3x08 of lone star my most beloved episode of all time

#truly nothing makes me cry more #of all the episodes of lone star and also og 911 #definitely the one that makes me cry most #i probably essentially made this post like 6 weeks ago when i watched it for the first time #but i just watched it again #episode of all time for me #the parallels between the two plane rides!!#tks relationship with his mum!!!#the scene whilst the plane is landing!!!#the proof of tks character development!!!#the scene of his mum saying goodbye in the airport!!!#the paramedic scene working together!!#the acting!!#oh my god the acting ronen rubinstein i adore you!!#honestly all the acting is great #but theres just something about the contrast between flashback tk and current tk and the way ronen acts them that just gets me #i love this episode so much #id say comfort episode except its not because it actually hurts to watch #but i love it #911 lone star lb #im gonna find ways to keep this tag going on my blog forever lmao #(i still have two episodes of the show ive yet to watch for the first time but god knows what imma do after that)

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crossbackpoke-check · 9 months

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Why I Am Not Coming In To Work Today [abridged], Jess Zimmerman

part one | part two

#toronto maple leafs #HELLO EVERYBODY THIS HAS BEEN MONTHS!!! MONTHS IN THE MAKING BECAUSE i AM UNHINGED AND NEEDED THE PRECISE PICTURES THAT I KNEW I WOULD GET #like. seventy five percent of this has been done since the first time i posted this and while it has gotten better with time because #my narratives simply got more complex and there's so much of this that is For Me but don't worry i will explain but aLSO goddamn mitch coul #you have gotten married any later in the year. also willy you truly disappointed me by not getting an absurd haircut this year (now that #i've said this he's going to debut it on instagram like. tomorrow. but anyway that meant y'all got to enjoy my neuroses of #Loving Tyler Bertuzzi who is a goddamn leaf. the joys of having to wait to post this (was not a leaf at the time i started it) and anyway i #have at length i think had the breakdown about tyler in pigtails girl dad & how i got a bob & then tyler copied me which was rude. that's m #gender. ANYWAY starting from the top we got sheldon keefe documentation which was really just the personal decision that i wanted all the #coaching staff to be the markers in the poem/the bold & also at the TIME keefe hadn't re-signed &we thought it might be everybody out w/kyl #anyway the title of the scrap of an old lover's flannel is literally 'u think this is about sheldon & kyle NO it's about timothy liljegren'#bc. liljegren was on the marlies winning cup team & has had a contentious relationship w/keefe ever since & was healthy scratched in playof #& the narrative is sooooo. also at one point for the ryan o'reilly i was going to edit the stlb out of his grandma's shirt or cover it w/th #childhood dreams line but THEN i found the gio snapped stick one which was too perfect for 'crumbling copy' the ryan o'reilly To Me is so.#ur insane in ways u did not think for that one. like. how soft her hands were. his grandma you guys. he grew up a leafs fan. if he ever get #to lift the cup with her again i will lose my shit. the cup run a movie i remember nothing--OKAY the spezz one i knew i needed him stresse #but also i believe in the spezz/kyle narrative so. it comes up later don't worry ALSO SPEZZ FOLLOWING HIM TO PITT CAME AFTER I MADE THIS bu #the muzz tea one makes me a little sensy bc muzz was out with an injury for most of this season & it was a really scary spinal one & so yea #& then the simmer one just straight up makes me cry bc i love him so much & the work that he does for anti-racism in hockey means so much &#if you have that video open & watch it i promise you will cry i do every time it's so beautiful he had to be on comforted by beauty & sammy #boy is on the a man who doesn't know me because EYE remember the caps goalie tandems. baby lilya. the mo one is a little funny bc it is #solely due to wade's thread about mo rielly the coal miner homestead husband. that's why he moves to omaha also i think it suits him (quiet #OK NOW OLD MEN IN LOVE NARRATIVE this one's in contention for my fave bc it's spezz coping w/retirement fundamental meaningless of existenc #u heard abt tyler already that's for me the minchy picture was just too good i had found it earlier & i spent SO LONG looking for an empty #leafs rink picture for bathtub i have some cool construction photos but i wanted the melting ice ones (thought about tahoe lol) & the sprin #one i manip'd a lot bc i needed a spring picture bc playoffs clinch in spring & that one fit so coincidentally perfect bc it's 7 straight #seasons 7 guys so. :) & i KNEW i swore to god they did more milk advertising i knew i was gonna do this one from the minute i saw the poem #the milk patch & it took a hot minute BUT I FOUND THIS ONE this one's for funsies. AND THE PIC I WAITED SO FUCKING LONG FOR this is actuall #from kerf's wedding but i was like i know on god mitch is getting married this summer & that's about to be the drunkest shenanigans wedding #i'm waiting for the pics. & then i was BLESSED with this one which is beautiful & perfect & LOOK AT THEM. anyway the last one is bc

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dylanconrique · 1 year

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i can’t wait for the angst that’s gonna hit when tim hears a call over his radio that there’s an officer down, immediately ditching his post behind that desk when they give out lucy’s name and badge number to find grey to give him keys to one of the shops so he can get to the scene as fast as possible.

#*and this is icarly!#the rookie #s5 wishlist #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well #grey doesn't even fight him at all #he knows there's nothing he can do to stop tim from getting to her #so instead he demands they'll ride there together #oh and the way grey will be grasping at straws trying to ease tim's mind....#gosh anything to see more of that father/son kind of dynamic between tim and grey i really love it #also it's a good excuse to mark 'crying tim bradford' off my bucket list #and i don't just mean crying #i mean the puffy red eyed snot running hyperventilating kind of cry #i just... *clenches fist* i wanna see him emotionally crumble #as if this man hasn't been through enough already i want him to go through more 😅😅#like i truly can't think of any other triggers that would make him break down like that #except with genny #if anything happened to either genny or lucy he'd lose himself

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thedevotionaltour · 2 months

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thinking about daredevil yellow again im not. going to make it Guys.

#static.soundz #crying screaming and hitting the ground. so good. it made me cry really bad #bc whenever i think about jack n matt it always makes me think of me n my dad for various reasons #when matt said i couldnt feel his heartbeat inside me anymore. no words.#i rambled about it on my main but dd is very much intwined in an interesting and special way with my own heavy grief about my dad #and matt was a very important character to me during that time of my life for the exact same reason.#it's why i take a lot of very heavy issue when things try to make it so his dad died in his childhood as opposed to college #bc a) think it takes away a lot of the important nature of their relationship and b) my own personal projection #bc all grief at any stage is highly personal and unique and particular #but it really does feel like. matt is really just starting to become an adult (depending whether he dies when matt's in under or post grad)#(bc i can never remember which) but he's not quite a mega established one. there's still that lingering of childhood #so even though he's grown. it just hurts in a very particular way. they saw you grow up. but they didnt really see you become an adult.#they did not see the person you're going to be. that you are. that you're becoming. it feels like such a bizarre unfair moment in time.#bc why now? why not when i was younger? why not when i was truly an adult adult who is expecting to lose you now?#why at this moment and no other time?#but thinking about matt going i wish i told my dad how much i loved him.#more than anything when he goes 'i love you dad. did you hear? i love you.'#it made me cry like a fucking bitch. honest to god tearing up when i type about it. it wrenches my heart it twists it and it makes me wanna #drop to my knees and just weep and weep and weep. they are everything to me.#i have intertwined a lot of matt's grief with mine in a way that makes him so so so important to me. because as stupid as it fucking sounds #that comic and him as a character are everything to me. so genuinely. they were a lifeline my freshman year #when i was so depressed all i could do was read comics. or listen to music #i could do nothing else. i did. clearly. i did work and assignments. but dd was everything to me alongside dm #im sorry i am being an actual like nutbag in my tags im sorry i just have a lot of feelings. this story is everything to me ever ok? ok.

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aerticent · 9 months

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my love for Maven has evolved into something and no matter how hard i try i cannot put it into words and it’s driving me crazy

#i have a post talking about how his body is decaying from the inside out due to his soul rejecting his mother and that’s the closest i’ve #gotten so far at explaining my feelings for him rn #i’ve also stopped seeing him as this sad pitiful creature and am more so leaning towards he was a rage and resentment fillled creature and #his main ways of showing love went hand in hand with him putting Cal and Mare through the worst pains/horrors imaginable #he also is absolutely batshit like #bro is on the brink of madness the whole time it’s a wonder he never fully falls through #bet u money if he had been successful in killing Mare or Cal he would’ve fully lost it #cause like now what #this whole war and the two ppl he hates/loves the most r dead and it’s his fault #idk what i’m talking about #he got me feeling like #[CAR CRASH] [GLASS SHATTERING] GOOD LORD! [GENERAL COMMOTION] [BABY CRYING] WAAAAH WAAAAH [YELLING] [POLICE SIRENS] WEEWOO WEEWOO #he still is sad and pitiful but he’s also a rage filled monster who was given too much power without enough guidance #just running on hatred and whatever fucked up version of love he knows of #the closest he got to truly not gaf about literally anyone or anything was his reaction to Elara’s death #did all that running on nothing but anger and hatred almost killed Cal he was so enraged #does this make any sense?#he’s still baby girl sunshine loml 🔛🔝 tuck him into bed and read him bed time stories little angel

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pepprs · 1 year

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not doing good. at all

#purrs #today and yesterday ive been unspeakably depressed. and no one knows what to do with me and i don’t know what to do with me. but ivs been ge #getting absolutely SHIT sleep bc of my siblings staying up late and my sisters ocd stuff which is probably part of it. I now im wide awake a #and it’s 2 and im miseravle and can’t sleep and already did sleep for 2 hours and it didn’t help and im hungry and weak #i truly don’t n kw what’s wro ng with me. i want to be happy and normal but every day i have long moments where im trying so hard not to cry #and i think most ppl would excuse themselves to go cry or take a break or like. speak up and ask for help if they’re miserable but i don’t d #do any of that. i just hold it all in until i get so tired it disappears. and then when i do snap im too miserable and ashamed to actually b #be honest about how anyone can help me which only makes me cry more. atp idk what will help. im in therapy now im about to have some time of #km eating food i like even though it’s not the healthiest ive tried resting and getting sleep and whatever. maybe im just not cut out for #any of what im doing and i just need to detach myself from reality even harder than i am already doing apparently. idk nothing im typing is #making sense i just can’t fall asleep now and im so pissed at my siblings and im pissed at my whole family for not giving a shit that im mis #miserable and easily overstimulated by noise bc i could’ve had ghe room downstairs and im still being held hostage by redacted and being #shaken awake to redacted like last night and work is killing me for the dumbest reasons. i literally cannot keep living like this #delete later

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gorefetishizer · 10 months

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Masking my sensory problems less than before making my whole family worried cuz they interpret my body language in some way when i literaly just needed to come home take off my pants and watch bionicle videos in the dark

#MY BROTHER WAS CRYING CUZ HE ''DIDNT KNOW HOW TO HELP ME'' ????? dude i was just not talking......#like he wanted to like rub my arm to comfort me or something bit i obviously moved cuz thats more stimuli but like. why you crying #did i really look like i was in that level of emotional pain????? i just was momentraely not talking. and not making facial expresions #why do ppl have such extreme reactions to this things why do they interpret me like this!!!! i dont understand #its so confusing to me and it makes me mad. and they fucking. pity me???? like feel sad for me???? when im not sad!!!!!#why do they wanna emotionaly comfort me when im not! emotional!!!! im not having an emotional reaction!!!!! leave me alone #i dont need to be treated like they do why does it hurt them so much that im different. im finally not faking im actually happier like this #but why does it seem to hurt them so bad. it has nothing to do with them #and the nerve. the nerve to be simpathetic to me NOW. when they never where before. like they arent now if i dont show strong signs #that they deem aproiate #im pissed. im frustrated. i dont get it #i truly do not understand

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spaceman256 · 2 years

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Need to print something. Got new wifi recently. Printer needs to connect. The password is case sensitive. Touchpad keyboard cant do uppercase. Touchpad keyboard CAN NOT do uppercase. All the letters are lowercase. None of them are uppercase. There is no way to change this. The password is case sensitive. There is no shift key. There is no other page to switch to with the uppercase letters. Theres a page with numbers. Another for symbols. There is no uppercase. The password is case sensitive. The printers software acknowledges this. It cant do uppercase. I go to google. Find hp support forums. Others having the same issue. Some saying you can use the numpad to cycle through letters like old-fashioned texting. I try it. I type a row of threes. I tear apart the printer with my teeth.

#truly nothing makes me want to cry and scream and throw up more than when technology refuses to do something that should be so so simple #one might assume to check the user manual except i inherited all of this so i have absolutely no way to know where that is

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jlf23tumble · 2 years

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jen what do you think about these holivia kissing pics on release day? and how long do you think they’ll keep pushing this? curious to hear your thoughts on the whole situation!

I don't really think anything about it, actually? Like it's no big whoop to me, they're cute, the outfits are on point, closeted relationships gonna closet, truly the best part for me was doin' a quick lurk on the shittier blogs after I got this ask and seeing how "tired" and "exhausted" they are, so they're gonna take a lil break--buh bye, don't let the door hitcha where the good lord splitcha! (Oh, they'll be back, gotta get those sweet, sweet notes, the validation that can only come from stirring up anxiety about rich white guys generally by shitting on the ladies associated with them specifically--tougher to do it IRL, I'd imagine). I did see some really great takes (especially these tags and the tags plus op's tags, respectively), so that's kinda fun, too

#idk what to tell ya #harry styles #does not want to be explicitly out right now #so he's not #and that's his right especially with the white-hot heat of his current career #the amount of conditional support his fans have #fascinating #here's a UO for free: i don't think anyone's really 'pushing' anything #it's like the people who will go to olivia's own social media and then bitch about what they see there #you follow blogs that reblog pictures #websites are a series of text and pictures #nothing's being forced on ya! follow some art or aesthetic blogs!#unfollow handwringers who cry about how they don't understand why this is happening to them (LMAO)!#break it up with something that doesn't make you anxious because pictures of olivia wilde kissing harry styles should NOT make you anxious #he's promo'ing two wildely different movies #he has more attention on him than ever before #it's not that deep (come message me directly for more of my ted talk if you want it)#i have seen some truly bad takes in some tags that ALWAYS crack me up #like no baby you didn't get the op's point literally AT ALL #oh i amuse myself

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all-thestories-aretrue · 2 years

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Shoutout to every artist that includes Caleb's scars in their work i love you all

#caleb widogast #critical role #it makes me emotional every time i see it #i dont have more coherent thoughts than this #but it always makes me want to cry #its me projecting onto caleb widogast hours apparently #with like 4 hours of sleep #seeing caleb show his scars and seeing him happy and loved and accepted #scars and all #it just breaks something in me #thank u to all of those who portray it so well #this fandom has some truly incredible talent #and like i know its not always appropriate etc etc given style and what have you #and tbh i know nothing about art #but every time i see it my heart bursts

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natandacat · 2 years

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The levels of stress I'm under are medically contraindicated so I'm making myself not be stressed by just embracing the idea of complete failure and powerlessness. Is it working? Mostly. My ability to focus on work is gone tough so that's annoying (I say while procrastinating on homework by writing this)

#just bitching #i can't even have a little beer to relax CMON #medical #i played 15min of cello today #im ecstatic that i can play again but its so frustrating like makes me wants to cry but i cant frustrating #that i cant play more than 15 minutes #i lost all my calluses too #the cello is just so important to me people dont get it #its like if you couldnt like. smile or laugh or cry anymore imagine that it would suck #im not even making art like when id raw or write its literally not even art to me its just me #i hate that i cant play 1h+ a day rn #like i dont need MORE grief like please thats jhst so much grief #i hate being physically disabled it sucks so fucking much #and i have to perform so that my uni doesnt kick me out and i cant speak up about the daily horrible ableism #no matter how demeaning and isolating #love being expendable. love being seen as an acceptable sacrifice #love being told i have nothing to contribute since i cant go to abled spaces that literally threaten my life #love that when i say those spaces dont have to be that life threatening in which case i could evolve in them im literally ignored #eyes shift conversations ends #'thats crazy' they say before dismissing my experience. yeah. it truly is crazy

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lapis-lazuliie · 2 years

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something that no one talks about with a cold are getting chills then sweating the next minute

that shit fucks you UP.

#just finished a coffee but instead of my body heating up it just went cOld #yes a cold fucking sucks fuck the people who say it's nothing lmao i'm. rotting. i feel rotten what's the difference #lmao remembers the last time i had a cold where i was eating a teaspoon of honey at midnight while crying bc #my throat felt like actual nails ::) fun times truly #can my body PICK A LANE PLEASE #are we hot or cold make up ur mind bitch #ik it's doing this bc something something fighting off virus but it's 😭😭😭 uufgkglglgldjd idk. just want soup and sleep and more soup #even tommy couldn't fix me fr :( SHUT UP LMAO #she speaks

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the-cooler-king · 21 days

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Oh yeah..... midnight gospel be hitting.... sitting in my bed fuckin. Crying. Get a grip girl

#Its the trudy ep which is actually the episode that made me keep watching #I love love love this episode.....#Something about how.......... idk.... its a very profound ep that I can't explain and it's a nice cry #This ep kind of shaped my outlook on life especially after finding out about my friend dying #All the regrets and things left unsaid.... I make my peace daily by being really straight up #If I love and care about ppl I tell them... I say they are appreciated and cared for man #I am always thankful for people and I *love* people as a whole #And as long as the people around me intrinsically know that they are loved and cared for and cherished.... like that's it #That's the end game truly #I will never ever be sorry for that. This was THEEEE episode.#There's a lot of nuance behind my feelings best described by revolutionary girl utena #But still. I'm deep enough in my tags bc I'm crying over my s/o but not in a bad way #Fml I am so grateful to him as just an entity. As a person in my life even if our lives only intersect for this brief period of time #He hasn't been texting me much and we didn't talk much at work and I didn't even get a goodbye (rude lol)#But I know he was having a rough day. I know he needs a bit of tlc.#He could be on a downswing because I am certainly on an upswing #So I'm kind of like trying to focus on doing my own thing rn without worrying about it #Because I can't do anything about it so I might as well continue My Thang #But as I sometimes come to terms with us never talking again (gotta be prepared at all times to be ghosted)#I also come back to terms with needing him to really understand #how many people in his life depend on love cherish and admire him #And im not just talking about me... he has a lot of siblings and a not great mom. Two kids he loves.#He has always taken care of everyone else in his life #He deserves to really know and idk. It makes me think of this moment.#Realizing how much I dont ever want to question if he knows #I don't want to question if I could've done more or tried harder etc. I did my very best and didn't lie cheat steal or whatever #I am so grateful to him for letting me have that. Even if nothing can come from it in the end #Even if we should be torn apart!!!! Take my revolution!!!#Anyways. Here's wonderwall #Banger of an episode. Worth the rewatch

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ghostickle · 29 days

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#I wish I could go back in time never had met either of them #never trusted them never given them everything #I moved in with him because he begged me too I wanted to live alone #and now I’m getting fucked over #I do everything I can for people I pour everything I can into people #give them all my time and energy do anything I can to make them happy hurting myself in the process #and when they can’t get anything more out of me when they got bored of me I get treated like this #and left to rot #with nothing #and it keeps happening #I find a person who I think will genuinely care about me and love me the way I do for them #who truly wants me around #and I trust them #and they take that trust to use me and everything just keeps repeating #why can’t I just be loved #they only love me when they’re able to use me and make me into what they want #ghost rambles #they don’t even hide that they’re only using me by the end of it.#I’m there for every thing they struggle with whenever they feel alone #I get them presents I make them food and treats I get into whatever their interests are so they can show stuff off to me #but no one’s done it for me #they don’t even look when I try to show my art #they don’t care about my music #they were never there when I was struggling #shit there’s been times he found me crying with fresh cuts blade still out and just wants to talk about how everyone hates him #just wants me to drop everything to comfort him #ignores that id been crying couldn’t care less that I relapsed #it’s always about them

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phormlessblob · 2 months

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autism moment #271: genuinely crying tears because i bought a new phone which meant that i got rid of my old one which made me sad because i had developed an intense personal attachment to this old inanimate object for some reason and i didn't particularly want to get rid of it even though my new phone is objectively better and does all the same stuff better

#there is nothing i love more in this world than change <3 #see also: me crying when i went on holiday with my family as a kid because i wasn't used to the new place/change in place #so that was fun #truly i love that things that are objectively nice happening to me makes me feel like shit #i feel like a farmer putting down a beloved elderly dog #which is crazy for a piece of south korean plastic

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insanechayne · 4 months

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Barely slept, wake up too early for some reasons, now can’t get back to sleep because my brain decided to replay memories of him and make me anxious and sad. All I want is to talk to him again, at least to say my piece like I deserve, and I have to keep reminding myself he’s not coming back. Like a thousand tiny deaths a day. I’m so tired and I just want to cry

#i hate missing you #you were so toxic and narcissistic but because you left me you’re all I can think about right now #I didn’t deserve to have to go through this when you were the one always hurting me in the first place #yet here I am and I can’t escape this hell we’ve made for us #I’m so tired of pain and tired of trying and having to keep making it through the days #all I want to do is cry all the time now and that feeling never really goes away #kinda wish I were dead rather than having to keep going through this over and over again #I’ve lost better people than you but you were one more on top of a pile of broken hearts and bad memories #nothing of value is truly lost in your leaving and yet all I want is for you to come back to me #can I just be in a coma until this all blows over?#personal

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