#undersensitive

[slutforwings]

listen. youre all coming on this 'adulting' (throws up) journey with me. i bought an apartment and immediately got chronic back pain. the universe disregarded the fact that im only 23 n was like. you think youre ready to be a Full Adult on your Own? back pain be upon ye.

[ozymoron]

i hope the way i nearly fall over everytime i walk has captivated you babygi- OH FUCK

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

hi, i don't normally do this sort of thing, so sorry if it seems a little off.

I'm asking for help on whether or not i'm autistic. it's something i've never considered or seen myself as previously, but when i joined college i made friends with a lot of autistics (correction: all of my friends in college are autistic) most of whom are diagnosed and the majority of them have been trying to convince me i'm autistic.

The thing is is that i don't feel like i have enough traits to be considered as such. i have checked off maybe about 15 of them that we've all looked at together because someone else in the group is looking to get diagnosed through the college. however i don't experience any oversensitivity (and would argue i can be undersensitive if anything) and a lot of my social incompetence can be tossed up to a very sheltered childhood.

While I can go through the college to try to get a diagnosis, i'm nervous about having very little idea about which way the test is gonna go.

Do you have any advice or any traits in myself that I should look out for in particular?

Hi there,

Everyone exhibits a variety of traits, so it’s tough finding them. Here’s a test I found that I see as useful. As it shows how intense your traits are. Here’s mine for reference:

The test will be below if your interested:

Hopefully this helps some. Thank you for the inbox. I hope you have a wonderful day/night. ♥️

[colombinna]

Being autistic really is kind of like being a fairy. Your brain makes you operate differently, almost in parallel to neurotypicals, so it feels like you live in a different plane of existence (like the feywild). You sense things differently, being oversensitive to some things (personally, metals actually burns me sometimes) and undersensitive to others, you have intricate rituals, you have a view on things that can be described as ethereal, you get really obsessed with things others consider mundane, you speak in riddles, and people find you weird and quirky and can't deal with you properly, but others like you understand you perfectly because this is simply Our Normal.

Shout out to my fellow fairies

[autistpride]

Providing a sensory diet is important to all people, but especially autistic individuals.

It helps prevent dysregulation.

Some people are seekers and others avoiders and it can be different for each of the different senses.

Sensory seekers are undersensitive to input. They look for more sensory stimulation. People who sensory seek may look clumsy, be a little too loud or seem to have “behavior issues.”

Sensory avoidant experience sensory input more intensely than the average person, and they avoid it because it's overwhelming to them. People who sensory avoid may seem timid. They may be “picky eaters” or be particular about the types of clothes they wear.

If a person is overstimulated or burnt out they will likely be more avoidant.

[kanoyachi]

ushijima stims? asahi? kyanma??

ooohoho hello bart i am excited for this one.

ushijima:

- i think he is just a really big pressure stim guy. like i think it's comforting for him to just be aware of his body?

- he had to sit on his hands as a kid to keep them still (👎) but then actually really liked the feeling

- the sound bothers him a bit but he will pop his knuckles one by one by slowly and forcefully pressing on them

- he has a little foam stress ball that looks and is textured like a volleyball (a gym he went to in his first year of had a bowl of them at the front desk for anyone to take so he took one and has treasured it since). he likes feeling the grooves but he mainly will squeeze it in one hand.

- speaking of, he also really likes grip strength trainers because of the resistance when you squeeze them. this has had the terrifying (for other people) side effect of making his already ridiculous grip strength even stronger, because after a few months of using one it doesn't have the resistance he needs so he has to get a greater weight. goshiki has asked to see one of his grip strength trainers and was immediately horrified when he found he could barely move it.

- when he's incredibly upset or overwhelmed he'll press a flat hand really hard on the side of his head or back of his neck and keep it there. it helps ground him but the area tends to ache for a bit afterward :(

- not a stim but i think he has always had trouble controlling his grip strength. his hands are kind of undersensitive to pressure, which is why he likes pressing his hands against things so much. he accidentally broke a lot of crayons as a kid

- i don't think he doesn't very often but when he's alone he'll hum a low note just to feel the way it reverberates

asahi:

he is very nervous he is always doing things.

- as soon as his hair got long enough he was playing with it because 1) texture nice and 2) he needed to do something with his hands or he'll explode. one the reasons he started tying his hair up is because he'd pull out strands without thinking. he still plays with the hairs at his neck that are too short to fit in his bun, just doesn't pull them out because it hurts a lot more to do it from there

- he tends to run the back of his hand over his facial hair without realizing it because Feels Nice

- y'know how asahi does the "swallow people" thing to calm himself down, where he writes 人 (person) over and over on his palm and then pretends to eat it? i think he eventually just starts to trace any kanji or shape on his hand because it feels good.

- someone (maybe noya) gave him a little round stone they found on the ground (yeah it was definitely noya. at least he washed it). asahi likes to roll it in his palms or just run his thumb over it in his pocket.

- asahi owns multiple pairs of fuzzy pajama pants and he will always run his hands over them when he's relaxing :3

- he crunches ice i don't even have any reasoning for this one i just think he deserves a cup of ice cubes

- rocking side to side is very soothing for him, although i think he also enjoys rocking chairs granted they don't go far back enough to make him worry about falling. bro will crochet in a rocking chair to cope with stress and his friends will tell him he looks like an old person doing it.

i did kenma here :3

[is-this-plural]

Flipping from oversensitive to undersensitive (in response to touch)

RATING: that sounds like autism <3 could be plural though so why not!

[nei-ning]

Now that I've finished reading book about autism, let me just tell you, it was VERY eye opening! LOTS and LOTS of things which match me!

Therefor I wrote everything down and now, I'm gonna do my best and translate the list here. It WILL be long so be prepared. There's few questions where I left my own answer. Those are marked with *

Disorder without impairment of intellectual or language functioning.

"This was it!" a decision of refusing to do something anymore

Inner knowing of being autistic but still not knowing / realizing it

Anxiety, endless hole in the stomach

Sentences / words get stuck to play in the head as a loop

Anxiety feels like an another living being who lives inside you

Always felt of being different from others

No any help from anti-depression medicines and countless of therapy sessions

Trying to fit in women's most common mental health issues: Is this guilt after all, shame, too strong desire to please, super conscientious all the way to exhaustion, reaching for perfection, having eating disorder while hating her body. Maybe just chronically depressed? I'm none of these.

I don't care what others think of me

I can manage but only about those things which I'm interested in

I ignore everything boring

My human dignity does not depend on my body

Is sleeping difficult? No since I fall asleep every evening like a sauna lantern (saunalyhty)

Fear of not being believed

I can behave. I warn I can fake and maintain a facade.

I want to be honest and open

When talking, words fall on the floor and are forgotten there. I feel powerless since it feels like none understands me.

I'm often angry when others don't get it what I mean

I'm in a contact with other people more than I could handle

I like to talk long about the same subject and I don't like it when the subject it changed quickly.

Difficulties with eye contact

Hard to work together since others don't think like I.

Others' slowness is infuriating.

I don't like repeating things. Saying it once should be enough

In social situations I act and fake. I fear people.

I can't handle of being interrupted. Example: If another person on the phone wants something else than what I have in mind in that moment.

I don't like changing plans

I get tired easily and need breaks often

Few powerful objects of interest. Many things don't interest at all

Oversensitive to sounds (always wearing headphones)

I'm smart on certain things but on others completely useless

Can't survive from simple calculations or can't follow simple instructions

Challenges in routines. Taking a shower and brushing teeth are very challenging. I can manage but it's very challenging / demanding.

Everything practical and physical demands a lot of efforts

(Small) Talking is difficult since I never know what to say

Autism is caused by biological reasons and is heavily inherited

Autism is not an illness / disease. You can't train yourself out of it and there's no medication to it.

Difficulties in communication and social interaction

Limited behavioral patterns and targets of interest which can, for example, lead to it that routines are important and changes difficult

Senses can be over- or undersensitive.

Autistic has to reason that what others can do naturally

Strong sense of honesty and justice

It's easier to focus on details than on a bigger picture

It can be hard to start a tasks or end them

Most autism tests are made for MEN only

Do I like to play games? Yes (PS4 etc)*

I pay attention on cars' register plates? Yes*

Numbers fascinate me: Yes and no. (I believe in angel numbers so in that sense yes, otherwise no)*

I don't enjoy reading belles-lettres: No, I don't.*

I enjoy gathering information about different subjects, like cars: Depends (I like plague / Black Death!)*

Do I like social happenings and meeting people: No

I have to rest and recharge long after being social

Autistic girls couldn't handle changes, didn't know how to shower, couldn't get their teeth brushed, were extremely sensitive to sounds, got temper tantrums at home, slept badly and they had no friends. They were lonely girls who didn't play with dolls but broke them or only brushed their hair.

To autistic child being held by force / against their will in order to calm them is very damaging. Touch feels uncomfortable.

Autistic understands everything literally

Parents never asked at home how school day was so I learned not to speak about myself

Using words wrong infuriates

Do you feel the need to share your experience with others or is it irrelevant? - It's not if nothing hasn't happened. I don't feel I have anything to tell.

Autistic is strict about details

Music, writing and drawing helps autistic person to release tension

Autism can also be caused by "mother's coldness" which has caused child to withdraw and shutdown.

Autistic girls are handy (drawing, making jewelry, hobby) or then they like animals (or both)

Focuses so hard on drawing (for example) that forgets to eat, go to bathroom etc.

Synesthesia (seeing colors or forms when listening music, getting a taste of something in mouth from words, music, people etc. Example: I once saw a man on TV and he tasted like beetroot!)

Doesn't feel like fitting in society's roles, like how you should look

No connection to body

Periods surprise every time

Doesn't realize being sick

Eating disorder is common on adult autistic people

Connection to anorexia

Overwhelmed by sounds and lights. Can hear fridge's humming or kids outside even that windows are closed. Chat happening at the back of the bus, neighbors. All sounds flood in brains.

Remembers a lot from what s/he has heard

It's important for autistic person to control the situation

Stimming: A way to express emotions. Can appear as sniffing something, stroking pleasantly feeling items, movement (exam: dance), singing, repeating words, biting / chewing, listening sounds, pulling lips etc.

Hands need to re-learn things constantly (like how to peel potato)

Hands can survive from small tasks, not from big ones

Hate towards it you should constantly be doing something

Hard to be around people who are constantly moving, their movement(s) gets on the nerves (aka pisses off)

Doesn't invite anyone to visit them since visits are exhausting

Addiction of routines. Same food every day, each summer the same vacation destination, doing things in specific time because then you can prepare yourself for them.

Easier to understand self-made instructions

Cleaning little by little (task per day) so that housework doesn't become overwhelming

Talking rudely to yourself, keeping yourself stupid

Hard to interact with others' conversation. Usual respond is weird look and: "What?"

Fight / disagreement with a parent. Doesn't get along with father or mother

Laughing at things which others don't get

Perfect rest from sounds and movements (exam: No TV on)

Desire to intervene in matters (exam: baking) if result is not perfect

Lack of sense of direction

Unable to try new route to a market (fear of getting lost)

Anxiety which comes from familiar thing having something new or strange in it, that I haven't "grow up" but stayed "as a child".

Doesn't understand why people scream in concerts, games etc.

Difficulties of getting a female friend (for female autistic persons)

Lack of empathy

Cognitive empathy: Doesn't understand how to react in certain situations

Can do emotional empathy

Let's others decide

Doesn't have strength to go through the same things over and over again with a friend

Easier to get along with boys

Ready to sacrifice a lot for a friend

Fictions affect deeply (exam: as a learning material)

Too critical

Constant collisions and misunderstandings with people

[wired-for-weird]

2, 12, 56 for the NSFW asks

Your 5 favorite spots to be stimulated.

You get 3 because my body is simultaneously oversensitive and undersensitive as fuck and the range of touch that's good is Pretty Narrow

Clit. Didn't used to be anything special before going on T but holy shit that bottom growth baybee.

Belly. I cannot fucking explain this but pressure or touches of any kind on my tummy makes me fucking Melt.

Scalp. head skritchies pleeeease

Do you have any kinks?

*looks into the camera* *looks at my blog* *looks back at the camera*

.....yea

Strangest/most unique place you’ve had sex? How about masturbated?

I am sorry but literally my only answers are Bed and Sofa. Everywhere else seems like A Lot Of Effort.

[v0latileromantic]

no but so much of jerome’s behaviour can be explained by autistic hyposensitivity & sensory seeking. clearly arkham never bothered with the raads-r but i will diagnose the shit out of him

behold my jerome autism notes:

speaks with unusual intonation, speech stereotypy, ‘odd’ and ‘rehearsed’ physical mannerisms, no grasp of when you should or shouldn’t make a joke, no grasp of how much eye contact is too much, sensory seeking by eating non-food items and jumping/climbing/getting into violent situations, his body is undersensitive to pain to the point that he can tolerate being mutilated, no social boundaries, demand avoidance, his intense focus on fun and chaos could easily qualify as a restricted interest, he wears gloves all the time (sensory issue). i could go on

[avensartt]

Alright I am suspecting I might be autistic so I'll use here to write down the reasons

(tell me if you know any of these are or are not autism traits)

Traits I know a lot of autistic people have:

• T-Rex arms (or as my dad calls them "mantis arms")

• difficulty making friends

• zoning out. a lot.

• not making eye contact when listening someone

• forgetting to actually listen when focusing on making eye contact

• auditory processing issues (I can hear it but cant understand)

• hyperfixations

• I've been to a gifted kid program and was told I was gifted when I was 6

• abnormal posture

• vocal and physical stims (stressed hand flapping, feet stomping, rocking, random animalistic noises etcetera)

Things I'm not sure are autism traits:

• early language development (I started talking in full sentences pretty early) [ this one might just be because I'm gifted ]

• I usually talk "silently and not saying the words fully" even tho I dont notice

I'm in huge doubt because my parents are educated people and they surely would have noticed if smth was wrong right? And they took me to a psychologist when I was young (the one that told them I was gifted) fairly often and she also didnt notice anything. But that might be because most research on autism was based on boys and it makes sence I was highly masking since I'm a girl and also gifted

• and when I dont talk like that I talk loudly and again, not understandable

• undersensitive to loud and "annoying" sounds

• oversensitive(?) to pain ( like my mom said I once wanted to get carried for 3 days because I skinned my knee) (or when after a dentist apointment my mom said she didnt scream/shout that much when she was giving birth)

it would really help if you told me more autism traits so I could see if I had them

Idk maybe I'm just being dramatic and these arent autism and I'm just weird like I font remember ever having a meltdown

[sonicasura]

The Doctor locked them both into something of an observation room, though it was empty.

Then? He began to ramble like a cartoon villain.

“So many humans have been massacred by the toys you call allies—you did see the Hour of Joy recording, right? What is it that drives you to continue working with the likes of 1170? In case it wasn’t clear, the toys here eat the dead.

A pity that I only have a limited time to test you before the Prototype gets to you… Let’s change the type of adversary you face, shall we? 1170, 1188, and 1222 all held basic human intelligence. The original smaller bodies are more animalistic in mind… And yet you came out on top in each instance…”

Doctor Sawyer let out a mocking chuckle at the fact the human teen managed to defy the odds time and time again, even in the recent case.

“Let’s test our respective pets. Oh, Yarnaby~ Seek and Destroy.”

Yarnaby looked almost one to one for his cardboard cutout—save for the fact his head split open to reveal two sets of teeth! He slammed himself into the observation window, then roared in annoyance and went into a hole.

Dart just stared incredulously at the sudden turn in events before looking at Huggy. The blue-furred monster narrowed his eyes, already knowing what the human teen was thinking. “Come on!” They argued. “He literally has wounds on the back of his legs. Obviously, the Doctor isn’t treating him too well.” A growl.

This discussion would be continued later.

.

.

.

Or not?

Yarnaby was sniffing? Rubbing? Searching around the turned over shelves in order to locate them both. The rainbow yarn toy’s “fur” looked matted to hell and back even in the low light. Huggy could only stare blankly at the vent nearby as he saw Dart getting several things out from their backpack for their crazy plan.

———————————

He had so many questions. One, how on Earth did a human get down here? Two, why was a human down here? Three, why was the human working alongside Huggy Wuggy?! Four, when did Huggy starting using a grabpack??? Five—what in the world was the human planning?

Doey could only watch from his vantage point in the ceiling as the human and Huggy were barely a few feet away from the Doctor’s “pet”. Said almost feral toy was getting far more frustrated the longer he went without finding a trace of anyone. The dough amalgam seriously debated on catching their attention, but the human acted before he could even blink.

They were climbing up the shelves with Huggy moving to stick his upper torso through a section. On some silent signal, the human jumped onto Yarnaby’s back and gagged his bisected full head mouth with an old shirt. The yarn monster thrashed like an upset cat yet didn’t have long to try to shake them off.

Huggy pulled the more feral toy into a full body hold in order to wear him out. Of all the crazy—Doey had his arms stretched out to intervene once this crazy plan ultimately failed. Minutes of thrashingcontinued as the human and Huggy managed to tire out Yarnaby for a bit.

…Then, the human started combing their fingers through the yarn monster’s fur? This caused them to nearly fall of his back as Yarnaby suddenly slumped a bit at the contact.

“Whoakay! Guess you really do go crazy if no one brushes your fur for a while.”

—ROB’d Anon.

I don’t imagine the Doctor employs his robotic bodies to physically interact with his “pets”, leaving Yarnaby undersensitized to non-hurting touches. Dart did this on a slight hunch.

Considering there are signs of Yarnaby being abused by the Doctor in-game, I don't think he ever thought about it. Dart is probably gonna give Doey a heart attack than an impromptu hug first. The poor doughman still can't believe a child even got this far into the factory.

[2dkapsddr]

January 26th, 2024 - SDVX EG, Taiko 14, PIU 2023 PHOENIX, DDR A3, Music Diver

met up with the same friend again today and had a MASSIVE insanely good session as opposed to last time. we got to explore a lot more than just piu and i introduced her to sdvx! (finally got a clear after a crash on 2 MINUTES FIGHTERS EXH HELLYEAH)

insanely competitive (but insanely brief) arcade taiko matchup with a very undersensitive drum on my side...

and then surprisingly only 2 sets (i think?) of piu where i got a sick SSS+ and EXTREME GAME on Vector S18!!!

similarly we did 2 battle sets of music diver. i was reluctant to play it since i hadn't played it in a really long while and couldn't remember whether pink/blue were the drum/screen... but after figuring it out in the first 10 seconds of a song, i kicked total ASS!! CHECK OUT THIS PUPA SCORE!!! GOD I LOVE THIS GAME SO MUCH, it definitely feels like the ideal rhythm game i like imagining in my head.

and finally, i ended my own session with some DDR A3 after friend had to go, but i got some neat scores and even did a weekly challenge set thing for Team Heron! (i couldn't join the team since i still can't travel everywhere for ddr tourneys, but i contributed in my own way i guess !) (first set pictured was an unfortunate set where i still had dot arrows accidentally active from way back when i played with CHI XU)

[banyanstuart]

Sensory Processing Disorder and Addiction: Understanding the Correlation and How to Address Both Conditions

An Exploration of Sensory Processing Disorder and Its Link to Addiction

Sensory Processing Disorder (SPD) is a neurological condition that affects millions of individuals around the world. One of the many implications of SPD is its connection to addiction; the relationship between them has been researched extensively. A recent study by Dr. Stuart of Banyan Treatment Center studied this relationship in greater detail, leading to some intriguing insights. SPD can be traced to an individual's sensory system. The sensory system is responsible for perceiving information from the external environment; the brain relies on it to process light, sound, and touch. In SPD, particular senses are oversensitive or undersensitive to the stimulus. As a result, individuals may avoid certain activities due to being overwhelmed by stimuli. Dr. Stuart's study aimed to understand how SPD can lead to addiction. He found that the oversensitivity of the sensory system can lead to individuals seeking out more intense experiences to manage their heightened senses. This can manifest as addiction to intoxication, drugs, and other activities. Below are the key takeaways from the study:

Sensory Processing Disorder (SPD) is a neurological condition that creates an oversensitivity to external stimuli.

SPD can lead individuals to seek out more intense experiences, such as substance use or risky activities.

Dr. Stuart of Banyan Treatment Center has conducted research into the relationship between SPD and addiction, leading to some intriguing insights.

This article sheds light on the complex relationship between SPD and addiction. It is important to remember that addiction is a complex disorder that has a variety of underlying causes. For those who are struggling with addiction, there is help available – Banyan Treatment Center provides comprehensive treatment services. To learn more about Dr. Stuart's findings, please check out the full article here.

[autistpride]

Interoception is the least known and least understood sensory system.

Interoception sense controls automatic motor movements and is the awareness and ability to detect and attend to the inner body sensations.

Automatic motor movements is our unconscious movements such as blinking, breathing, flinching, etc.

Inner body sensations are hunger, thirst, tiredness, pain, bladder, bowel, body temperature, illness, arousal, recogniseing emotions, and more.

The insula is located deep in the cerebral cortex and is in charge of recieving and decoding these sensations.

So basically it's how we feel and how we understand ourselves.

Oftentimes autistic individuals have struggles with interoception in that we are either hyper aware, hypo aware, or a mixture of both.

Other things such as hyperfixation, meltdown, shutdown, or burnout can affect a person's interoception.

An oversensitive aware person would feel these sensations more quickly and strongly than others.

Being oversensitive aware can cause problems for a person as the body is interpreting the signals for these things and the person may not be able to focus on other needs or meet these needs.

An oversensitive aware person may be told they are overreacting until it is a more serious issue. This could lead to a meltdown or shutdown.

An undersensitive aware person would not as quickly feel these sensations as others.

Being undersensitive aware can cause problems for a person as the body is not interpreting the signals for these things meaning it's not uncommon for someone to go hours without a drink, food, or using the toilet. This could cause the person to recognise suddenly and urgently a need.

An undersensitive aware person may be told they are overreacting and shamed for not doing these things sooner.

It’s simple! If a neurotypical person is hungry, they eat. When feeling full, they stop eating. When thirsty, they get a drink. Tired, go to sleep. Cold, put on a coat or use a blanket. Hot, remove layers or use a fan. Need to use the toilet, they go.

But for oversensitive aware Autistic individuals they may recognise these cues and have more intense feelings. They may feel hunger as painful, have a low tolerance for pain, feel tired or needing to use the toilet more frequently then others without a medical reason.

But for undersensitive aware autistic individuals may not recognise these cues. They may need to be reminded to eat, to use the bathroom, have a high pain tolerance, or when to get some rest.

So if your autistic individual if becoming dysregulated consider internal issues as a cause of dysregulation.

Ask how long has it been since they ate, had a drink, slept, used the toilet, are they dressed appropriately for the weather, etc.

[mindingmyownbrain]

You’ve heard of hypersensitivity. Now get ready for...

Issues With Hyposensitivity/Undersensitivity in Autism

Many people on the autism spectrum have difficulty processing everyday sensory information. Any of the senses may be over- or under-sensitive, or both, at different times.

Sight and Hyposensitivity

Objects appear quite dark or lose some of their features.

Central vision is blurred but peripheral vision quite sharp.

A central object is magnified but things on the periphery are blurred.

Poor depth perception, problems with throwing and catching, clumsiness.

Sound and Hyposensitivity

May only hear sounds in one ear, the other ear having only partial hearing or none at all.

May not acknowledge particular sounds.

Might enjoy crowded, noisy places or bang doors and objects.  

Smell and Hyposensitivity 

Some people have no sense of smell and fail to notice extreme odours.

Some people may lick things to get a better sense of what they are.

Touch and Hyposensitivity 

Holds others tightly - needs to do so before there is a sensation of having applied any pressure.

Has a high pain threshold.

May be unable to feel food in the mouth.

May self-harm.

Enjoys heavy objects (eg weighted blankets) on top of them.

Chews on everything, including clothing and inedible objects.

Proprioception and Vestibular Hyposensitivity 

A need to rock, swing or spin to get some sensory input.

Stands too close to others, because they cannot measure their proximity to other people and judge personal space.

Finds it hard to navigate rooms and avoid obstructions.

May bump into people.

Text (apart from the title) taken from: https://www.autism.org.uk/about/behaviour/sensory-world.aspx