#the anons are plural

[is-this-plural]

That angel on one shoulder demon on the other trope. Also having your URL in my autocomplete by the first hyphen

rating: plural as HELL to have 1 (one) conflicting issue and immediately depict it as different versions of yourself, imo

[thestormfrontsystem]

Our system is like a home for me, and our body is like our house. I'm so thankful we have each other to share it with. Our dynamic is special. We're different people, but there's also something that bonds us together in a way that's just beyond words. It's like we're souls that were meant to be together. I couldn't imagine my life without you, and I feel so lucky to be in this body with you.

- Ollie (💚)

[pluralquotebook]

HOST: star with no planets orbiting it call that a solar singlet

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[bixels]

I like what youve done for Luna, but I just worry how Nightmare Moon might be leaning into "Evil Alter" stereotype which is very dangerous stereotype to perpetuate as someone who is not plural/system/has DID or OSDD/ etc. We are not a monolith in opinion so I do suggest looking for good resources from people who are writers and part of those communities if you wanna continue that general route with Luna and Nightmare Moon.

This isn't really fleshed out yet, but I wanna get to how Nightmare Moon isn't actually evil or even the "dark side" of Luna. Luna's arc in the AU would involve negotiating with Nightmare Moon and working to integrate her as a part of their identity, rather than reject and fear her.

[antiendovents]

The whole “make an alter” part of tumblr is crazy shit tbh. Like it makes me wonder what endogenic systems are on -🧊

REAL, CAUSE LIKE WWAHAT IS THAT!??!!?!!?? YOU CANT 'MAKE' AN ALTER JSUT FOR THE 'FUNSISES" OR WHATEVER

[tulpagenic-help]

content warning: anon hate ask & syscourse under the cut, suggestive joke

this is actually hilarious :D

> as a traumagenic

so am i. mentioned in intro. you ignorant bigot

> i think

you what now???

> i speak for the community

wow you must be so important

> please go fuck yourself

will you watch me 🥺😳

> there's people like you who want it

no i don't want another one... i already have a dissociative disorder

> "create" alters

i create tulpas and willomates :3

> see how we feel

like a fool?

> peace and love though

oooh so avoiding responsibility now i see i see

this is why i don't engage with traumagenic community as a traumagenic system. this whole "anti evil endos" movement is just built on harassment and gatekeeping. i have no tolerance for them, their stupidity, and their lack of education

this mysterious and Very Cool And Important anon didn't even look at my blog before sending this ask, lol. the fact i don't like the word "alters" (and therefore don't create them), that i'm traumagenic as well, that i'm not rq/transID and not trying to get a disorder i don't have?

yeah, their whole goal was to upset and harass me. but they failed! i giggled and kicked my feet when i received this. because it means someone was pissed enough to just blindly click on my blog, ignore every single post and make a whole ask out of their spite. it's an achievement, in a way!

this anon's system doesn't work very well, they suffer from it and now think that everyone else must suffer the same way they do

don't worry, i won't publish any more anon hate asks if i get them. today's an exception

i'm sending actual peace and love to systems of all origins. you matter and you're valid

[fictive-culture]

Fictive culture is: that classic hypothetical of "what if your life were a well-known piece of media in some universe and you had a fandom" is real, actually. And you live in that universe now! Congratulations!

- 🪶🧨 of 🖤🌇✨

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[fossys]

i dont think enough people talk about the stress of losing your abilities. whether your an introject or a brainmade with exomemories it fucking sucks

like yes i lost my magic and a lot of things i had relating to that and i fucking hate how incapable and weak i feel without it but. like also. i was a scientist. and now im struggling on our basic math. and i feel like a fucking idiot. i was so much more than this and now im upset over geometry. what the fuck man

[loverunderlights]

ahem

people who say “endo neutrals/apathetics/those not involved with syscourse/have no stance dni” piss me the fuck off

because what do you mean you require every single person who interacts with you to have a stance on syscourse?? okay so the singlets with no idea what the fuck that means, the people who don’t want to pick a side because no matter what stance is taken they’ll get attacked, etc. that’s no justification

what further pisses me off is people who say that being endo neutral is supporting

no it’s having no fuckin stance because see above

just really pisses me off and I need to tell the internet

sincerely, an “i believe plurality can be caused without trauma but should be kept strictly away from system and cdd spaces and create new terms because they are very different and encroaching on the spaces of the traumatised is fucked but i don’t think ‘plurality is only caused by trauma’ is fact but also endos gtfo of sys spaces” anti endo

[howlsofbloodhounds]

How would've Color reacted the 1st time Killer died and was replaced?

I think he would’ve reacted intensely. Especially if the first was immediately replaced, before he could come to terms with the first’s murder or death.

Killer not knowing who he is would be very triggering, and I think it would send him spiraling. Because it doesn’t register as death—that the Killer he knew is dead and this one is different—it registers emotionally as being forgotten. Again. As being abandoned.

It registers as: He doesn’t want you. He doesn’t care about you, and you are forgettable, and you aren’t worth remembering. It doesn’t matter what you do or how far you go and how much you tried: you don’t exist to him.

You don’t matter enough to exist to anyone. As soon as you’re not needed or wanted anymore, you aren’t worth acknowledging. You will always be alone, because as soon as they look away, you stop existing to them.

And once he comes to realize that the first is dead, then comes the grief, and sense of overwhelming failure.

And then comes the guilt and shame of treating the second as if he were the first, and the shame that he can’t seem to just stop feeling as if Killer chose to abandon him. As if he chose to forget him. As if he didn’t matter as much to him as Killer means to him.

Knowing how Color tends to be—how Justice and Integrity tend to be—he’d likely search for someone to blame and hate.

Himself is the most likely candidate—and he’d direct it all towards himself. Nightmare is next—Color directs all his hatred and disgust at Nightmare already. Hatred towards Killer? I don’t doubt it—but I do think he’d hate himself more for that, and would still take it out himself for being so “illogical.”

I think any hatred—it’s actually pain, hurt, fear, grief, anger, and betrayal, but in that moment Color can truly believe he hates his best friend—Color feels towards Killer in the moment is more likely to be immediately directed inwardly at himself or outwardly redirected towards Nightmare.

As if he can’t bring himself to ever genuinely hate or blame Killer, and instead he’d hate himself for ever feeling like he did. In these moments, I think Color would be less likely to outwardly explode at Killer—and instead may seem distant and removed, as he spirals and implodes on himself.

Perhaps he reacted in ways that others thought was overdramatic, or an overreaction, or unhealthy and not appropriate to the amount of time Color actually knew the first Killer—perhaps they even feel that Color couldn’t have possibly cared that much, that deeply, in what they view as so little a time.

Although it may not seem like it on surface, I do think Color tends to get overinvested in others and any type of interpersonal relationship in the shortest of time—and it can get self destructive.

Which is why I do think Color would require not only support from his friends after the first Killer’s death—and every other death afterwards—but I do think he’d have to not only be watched, for his own safety, but potentially hospitalized or put into a care facility if a therapist determines he’s an active danger to himself.

And I do think he’d definitely end up with a therapist in order to make it through Killer’s first death—who definitely would be trying to help Color with his tendencies to overinvest.

A therapist would also help him decide if continuing to try and help Killer(s) is what he actually wants for himself and his friend—rather than feeling like he has to because Killer’s his friend and no one else will or because no one else can because Killer will not let them —and how it effects Color, the souls (especially with addressing the souls’ opinions and feelings about Killer, and addressing the possibility of Perseverance doing what its meant to do and pushing Color to persevere in trying to save Killer—even if it ends up killing Color) and their life and other relationships.

I do think these moments are also what pushes Color to rely on Delta and Epic so much—because he genuinely believes he’d be dead a thousand times over if it weren’t for their support and efforts, even when he wasn’t easy to be around.

He knows they won’t leave him somehow sometime—after everything, even if the fear hits at points, Color is eventually able to remind himself and regulate himself of all the times those two could’ve left and didn’t.

Kindness and Patience can definitely help with this—Patience helping Color stay calm and resist acting recklessly or impulsively, while Kindness remembers every kindness everyone has ever shown them—and she remembers how they made Color feel.

And I do think it’d take awhile to build that same sense of security with Killer, to be able to remind himself of the times Killer stayed and either didn’t leave—physically, mentally, emotionally (and Color definitely has to regulate his knee jerk emotions to these moments, because it’s not always about him or something he did or didn’t do, not always something Killer has control of, and just because he’s gone now doesn’t mean he was never there or that he’s never coming back) —or wasn’t taken away. Especially that “taken away” part.

Can’t imagine how many times Nightmare could’ve ripped Killer out of Color’s arms. How many times he thought Killer was safe, only to suddenly turn out he wasn’t and Color let his guard down too soon.

[is-this-plural]

the world of inside out

yeah its plural. turns out explaining emotions as if theyre separate entities in your head is very very plural, for some reason,

[thestormfrontsystem]

It's always interesting when our Alter that isn't a kid person fronts while we're caring for our (irl) kids. Like they get annoyed so easily but they're still so gentle and caring even though he's an asshole to everyone else 🤣 he despises any children but tolerates ours in a loving way. -Storm (⚡️)

🙄🤨😒 -Accelerator (🕸)

[pluralquotebook]

"Alters formed during edgy phases are so funny. Yea this is my man Darkness the Destroyer. What's he do? Oh umm last week he filed our taxes"

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[interstellarsystem]

Hey! I'm psychotic, and a writer, and recently I stopped taking my pills and my characters have been talking to me. It's the best feeling in the world. They're with me through everything. I know them inside and out and they know me just as well. Then there's a bossy voice that tells me to take care of myself that I've just been calling Caretaker. I can sometimes let them come forward and see through me. I feel different when that happens, like I'm in the background, but I never really go away. Am I plural? (I do have trauma, but idk if that's where they came from). Is calling myself plural okay? Or am I just a person with psychosis?

Genuinely, if you in any way, for any reason, experience something you'd call being more than one person/entity/identity in a body? You can call yourself plural.

We know of people who call themselves plural based on their hallucinations. We know of people who call themselves plural based on seeing themselves as a spiritual medium. It's not all just DID/OSDD or something you were born with or created plurality. There's no one true plural experience--plurality is simply the sate of being more than one. It doesn't matter where they came from.

You might get some people arguing that "you can't know if these are real headmates or hallucinations!!" but ignore them. We're psychotic and technically because of that, we'd never be able to tell if most identity-things we experience are just a result of psychosis. But that doesn't and shouldn't matter--we experience them anyway. If you experience being plural, and later it turns out to be psychosis or something else.. You still had that experience. You still lived that way. It's a thing you felt and lived and it's a thing that was you, for at least some amount of time. And we think that's enough.

That being said, if you want to call yourself a person with psychosis, that's fine too. You can do whatever you want, it's your identity.

[antiendovents]

“Put this pro endo flag to let people know you are safe!” WHAT.

Why are endos acting like they are “discriminated against.” Having a system isn’t fun. I wish I wasn’t a system because it genuinely affects my life. It’s a DISORDER. Being an endo is the same thing as saying “I have PTSD without the trauma.” THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE.

This makes me so upset. My memories are getting worse and worse, and yet these endo “systems” are just “making up” alters for fun. Why are there pro endo people. Am I actually missing something??

I hate endo systems. I’m convinced that a small percentage are actual systems that forgot their trauma, and the rest are just making ocs while hiding behind the term system (its not fun btw!!)

— 🪱🪲

yeah, I really don't know why endos always act as if they're an oppressed class; you're not. You are the oppressors. They literally come from a movement that attempted to demedicalise DID completely, which would make many many systems suffer as they likely wouldn't have anymore accommodations or have access to the things their diagnosis gives them (which probably isn't a lot, but still). The only "discrimination" they experience (that's related to them being endogenic) is when people tell them facts, which, by the way, isn't discrimination. When someone tells you 'hey, what you're doing is hurting hundreds of not thousands of people (directly and indirectly) and you're spreading tons and tons of misinformation' that isn't discrimination. Your hatred for endos is valid and even if a small percentage of them are genuinely confused that doesn't excuse the misinformation and harm they spread / cause.

[syscest]

Dear mods... thank you for running this blog, and this ask might come off as desperate at first but it's really funny once you think about it in hindsight.

The thing is; I have alters, which have their own states of being, they can switch to the front and even some of them have their specific phantom sensation, some have their own writing styles, they have their own belongings in my room, their own social media accounts, we have a headspace, we have a subsystem AND they have their own headspace, I can talk to some in the headspace, we have shared and non-shared memories, in fact one of my headmates is reading this with me (can't let him know of all the intrasys on this blog or he'll get freaky with it though) and yet...

I fear that one day it'll turn out that all of this is not real.

Does it ever get better?

Yeah, I think so. We still have the rare off day where we feel tinges of that "you're pushing it" or "surely this is a bit fabricated" feeling - especially when we're experimenting with something new.

It's always a possible feeling, but i think it gets less frequent and especially I think it loses its bite - the different way I'm wording it probably shows some of that already.

For one, external support is huge - someone who knows you who can smack sense into you when you're worried that experiences they've SEEN HAPPEN are somehow complete acts is a serious help. Hell, having someone that sees you at all takes such a weight off - if you're stuck being the only one seeing yourself/ves, it can take a real toll trying to stay confident in what you're feeling.

But also, I think your definitions change? Your personal perceptions and experience actually matter a lot. Early on its easy to get caught up in this narrative of objective "realness" and be scared of delusions. But over time it's like - you are having this experience right now. you're there. you're in the experience, you're accepting it. you're talking to a gimmick blog on the internet about it. It's too late, you can't erase it anymore. If you say tomorrow you realised you're actually just a singlet, that's fine, but you will still have been plural today - not even you can take that away from you.

Lastly, and this is gonna sound dumb but, just plain old exposure. We've been going for three years now and we've seen ourselves shrug off all kinds of junk. We've had fronts stick for weeks and completely forgotten what switching feels like, only to have it happen out of boredom or external stimulus and be shocked to feel the cog move again. We've repeatedly assumed things about ourselves only to then realise that we are wrong and that the system works differently to the way we think it does. At this point, suddenly being a singlet would be like starting from scratch - our being a system is so much of us, being "wrong" just isn't as thinkable.

idk, I love us, and I think other people do too. try unrealize that.