#venting hahaha

[suntann]

i hate how so much of adhd management tips are like "here are some ways to maintain your focus and get things done on time!!: [anxiety inducing tactic] [anxiety inducing tactic] [anxiety inducing tactic] [anxiety inducing tactic] [anxiety inducing tactic]"

[offkilterkeys]

Being a Jane liker is so hard cause you go to her tag and it’s just a bunch of people lamenting how overhated she is and then continuing to ignore her, and being a Jake liker is so hard cause you go to his tag and it’s just tons of people making the most demeaning comments about him cause his character committed the crime of being annoying (unforgivable.)

[sysig]

You're still standing off to the side. Somehow, center stage has shifted from under your feet without you realizing, and you're standing in the wings, performing to no one.

Starring Role (Patreon)

[completewannabe]

please pray for me. i'm struggling worse than i probably ever have with depression and mental health issues. please pray that i can get the help i need and that i can be proactive enough to get things done for medication

[rosyhoneydew]

Against his better judgment, Tommy had actually been excited for the visit.

It had been over a year since he last saw Ron, longer since he'd seen his nieces and sister-in-law. They got along fine and all, they just got older and busier and life gets in the way, doesn't it? So when his big brother floated the idea of a stopover in LA on his way back from a business trip overseas, Tommy had looked forward to it.

Two full days to take him around, show him his city, let him see a little bit of what his life looked like these days. He'd definitely gotten overeager. He'd packed their weekend with stops in Hollywood, a proper tour of the city from the bird, and a few drinks with their friends, and Evan, of course. It'd been a while since anybody came to visit, in his defense.

They're at one of Evan's favorite breakfast spots when he starts to pick up on it.

Ron knows he's gay, Tommy had come out to his whole family a few years back, not really expecting much. A cursory this is who I am, take it or leave it was all that really needed to be said. He had been pleasantly surprised when his brother didn't so much as bat an eye. Sure, they didn't talk about it, but they never really talked about anything in his family. Par for the course on that one.

So it twisted in his gut when he noticed.

Tommy and I actually thought about taking a trip to Yosemite this fall. Maybe make a vacation out of our anniversary, Evan said. Ron had just grunted.

You should see Evan's place, Tommy had rolled his eyes, not without affection, I swear I should just move in there. Ron had cleared his throat and asked 'where the hell a guy could take a leak in this place.'

It's not a big deal, but Tommy feels his face growing hot. He feels stupid. Evan rests a hand on his back while Ron's away, but Tommy can't tamp down the impulse to shake him off when his brother makes his way back to the table.

The ride home is quiet, each of them unsure of what to say. Tommy invites Ron inside for a last coffee before his flight, but he declines. Gotta see what that LA traffic is about, don't I? Tommy nods, claps a hand on his brother's shoulder. See ya later, man. Ron's mouth tightens into something like a smile, nods once at Evan, and drives off.

He's quiet when they enter the kitchen, hands resting on the cool countertop. He feels Evan come up behind him, rest his forehead on Tommy's shoulder, wrap his arms tight around Tommy's chest.

I'm sorry.

Tommy sighs and fits his hand over Evan's. He lets himself wallow, just for a little while in his partner's arms. He's not okay today, but tomorrow he'll wake up in those same arms, he'll tell his friends at work about the docuseries Evan's been loving lately, he'll spend guy's night at Eddie's with his partner like they do every other week now. And he'll be okay.

[jasperyourmutt]

zonked out on the dog bed snoring up a storm. you come over and rub the soft spot on the top of my nose. i let out the most contented sigh

[motherdanger]

burning up sore throat and what not

[mochixkisses]

jealous jealous jealous jealous jealous jealous jealous jealous jealous. i'll rip the both of you apart. i don't care anymore. if that's how you want to play things, then fine. we'll do it the violent way. i'll string her up with your intestines and make sure you watch every second while i gut her like a fucking fish.

[imagoodone-iswear]

does anyone else have extreme trouble with backpaddeling or just feeling this urge to downplay themselves every single time something is supposed to come from myself?

everytime im stable with a decision and an opposing decision or an agreeing decision comes up, i immediately second guess and feel like i have to downplay this or change my decision because this came from ME so "yk its not that bad after all" or "im sure i just thought wrong its actually better than my brain makes me think".

yeah sure...

im so sick of saying yes but then being like "yk what, no,,, thats not my opinion, nah, its not even that bad, we can just do whatever you want its fine" after 3 years (/hyp) of pondering what the fuck i even want.

its so fucking annoying i cant even put it into words. and every single time too. i just have this urge to downplay myself, my thoughts, my opinions, my struggles, everything from myself. so i also backpaddle on a lot of stuff because suddenly im just "nah its not that bad, i swear".

[valtsv]

no idea how i feel about the fact that it's my dad's 60th birthday next week. on the one hand i guess it's cool he's lived that long. on the other he's reaching the age in my family where people start to need help and/or suddenly get sick and die and while i of course don't want him to have nobody and will do what i can if i must, my worst nightmare is that my own life will be cut short by being expected to take care of him and my mom and manage their affairs. i'm not the smart successful one with a big future of my family, my brother is. from their perspective i have very little to lose and they've been trying to get me to move back to the dead end small town i grew up in and did everything i could to escape for years now. they've manipulated and guilt tripped me and coerced me into situations my whole life over much less, and i don't look forward to the very real possibility that if i have to say no to being their carer in the next few years because i won't survive in any way that matters if i ever go back to live with them, i will forever be cast in the role of the wicked ungrateful child who tore my family apart. i'll still do it if i have to, but i hate that my relationships with the people i really love and want to maintain my connections to in my family like my brother and my aunt will probably be forever broken by resentment and bitterness if i do.

[alexmey-does-an-arts]

ghhh i am just. sinophobia its fucking everywhere on the western internet it is just SO widespread and accepted. and even when people aren't actively sinophobic they're just utterly ignorant about. any aspect of chinese (hell, even pretty much all asian) culture and i never see people even ATTEMPTING to learn about it. i have not met a single white person who has pronounced my last name correctly. It is one of the most common family names on the goddamn planet. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

[drinking-with-cupid]

Disclaimer: this is gonna be salty

So... When people like a villain, they'll usually say "of course what they did was bad, but they're such a well written character" or similar stuff. They love the character for their design, their backstory, their arc, their fights, their abilities etc. But they'll always make sure to not defend the character's actions, because they're a villain after all, right?

Well, here's a personal experience that bothers me. And I might be biased saying this, but I'll say it with my whole heart and I'll die on this hill.

Doflamingo did nothing wrong.

Dressrosa was rightfully his.

Many people say that Doflamingo is their favorite villain. But they all agree that what he did was wrong. Well, fuck that. I will always defend him and his actions. He was the true heir to the throne. Just because his father threw that life out the window doesn't mean he had to. He never wanted to. And just because he took back what was rightfully his, people go around saying shit like "ohh he's so baaaaad". Well, fuck you and your opinion.

You wanna know what Dressrosa looked like under his reign?

And wanna know what it looked like after ThE biG hErO LuFfY sAvEd EvErYoNe?

As some of you know, I couldn't continue watching one piece after the Dressrosa arc. I developed a hatred towards Luffy that is so strong it makes me physically tense up when I see him on screen. Same goes for Law.

And in case anyone cares, in my little perfect imaginary world, none of these "canon" events ever happened. I live a happy life with - and as part of - the Donquixote family on Dressrosa. Because that's how it should've stayed. Doflamingo didn't deserve anything that happened to him.

[feelo-fick]

molten/molted/molded

also yes i do actually have a flamingo mug thats sorta chipped, and it is a little ugly, here it is :

its not super chipped, but i was still devastated when i found out

[kattythingz]

Hot take but Ed's crippling daddy issues and his trigger-happy attitude around older male figures in his life are completely valid and make a lot more sense when you, too, have crippling daddy/mommy issues

Stop forcing Ed to forgive Hohenheim 2024 :) Please :))

[themlemever]

Guess whose mother tried gaslighting them today?

[the-writing-mobster]

Hey guys! This is gonna be a tough post but I just need somewhere to vent a bit, I've been through the ringer this past week. This is kind of a personal post too? So by all means scroll by if you don't want to read stuff about medical emergencies...

...

Kay. So... I had to take my mother to the ER due to complications with a recent surgery. Scary. Emotional. Exhausting.

Recovery for her will be a long and very difficult journey. Painful. She's doing better now and she gets stronger everyday but it's still a deep concern for me. I know the first week after she's released from the hospital will be extremely tough for everyone, especially her.

Personally, I've been really emotional. Crying on and off. Trying my best to be strong for her. So tired. So tired.

We were hit with a bombshell that she could have cancer, but the very next day were relieved to hear pathology reports showed the mass that'd been removed last week was benign, so that's def one less thing to worry about and a huge weight lifted off our shoulders....

All that being said — Honestly?

I could really use some kind words. Encouragement to help me get back into the right mindset to continue with art and writing. That's my safe space, you know?

Anyway, thank you all, and thank you to my wonderful mutuals who have been listening to me vent these past couple of days.

🫶🏻