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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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In short- the bugs of Hallownest did not take it well. Lots of screaming about "The end of the world" and "past sins coming back to haunt them". Elderbug almost had his second heart attack and basically every bug, other than the Pale King children and Quirrel, hid for several hours. (Zote likes to claim he was the first to make contact)
As for why Dewi's Dad is in Dirtmouth? Well, he wasn't very happy when his 11 year old son told him about going into a 'mysterious cave' to see his bug friends. Adult supervision and all that.
#Elderbug: “Guess I'll die”#Dewi is a lot less intimidating than his Dad. (Despite both looking like eldrich horrors to bugs) He's very gentle with his movements#Compared to his dad who has no idea how to handle bugs at all and is frankly terrified that they are crawling all over him#But man. Dewi idolizes his Dad so hard#The Old Stag is here and Also almost had a heart attack. But he likes Dewi and was curious enough to meet his Dad. <3 why not at this point#Hollow is not wanting to explain their first meeting with Dewi to his Dad. Despite being possessed by an evil moth she-demon.#hehe I loved drawing these guys. tho this took wayyyyy longer than it should have. Anatomy is HARD#dewi#dewi's adventures in Hollow Knight#my art#ask stuff
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One of the biggest cultural shifts I've somehow never seen anyone else point out, to the degree i feel like I'm going insane, is the meaning of kinning changing
I saw a poll here where everyone agreed kinning meant really really liking and relating to a character and all the tags and comments agreed. The other option of "believing you are/identifying as the character" was met with disbelief by some as 'get help if you think that'
............when and how did this definition change so radically, because when I was a teen a decade ago, kinning only meant "i am this character". Otherkin still means "i am a wolf", right??
We used to have wars over kin drama! Insane discourse over doubles and kin ethics! The notion it meant "i really like vriska" would be alien in 2013!!! What happened!
#truly it just felt surreal to see like. habe we forgpt our history. yes i guess#there are multiple ways people ID'd as kin fictionkin but it still always literally meant “i am this in one way or another”#it was all over tumblr a huge part of culture here sermed to overlap with kin drama#obviously tumblr experience very subjective but i was like big inyo homestuck so thatll be why#dangenronpa was alsp huge and infamous fandom which had big kin drama to the point of memes#but anyway im just curious how ans when the definition radically changed
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so much happened in this whole episode but i’m still on fig infiltrating ruben’s dream, making it look like the place where his friend was murdered, and then disguising herself as kipperlilly & repeatedly saying different variants of “somebody needs to take the fall for this, and it’s not going to be me. it’s going to be you.” while adaine as the elven oracle shows up next to her. can you imagine waking up from that, the idea of a horrible truth being pinned on you by your friend to save her own skin while the personification of fate and destiny stands there, almost as a promise that this is GOING to happen to you. we don’t even know if this kid is guilty. my god.
#fantasy high#dimension 20#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#fantasy high junior year#fig faeth#ruben hopclap#lucy frostblade#the rat grinders#adaine abernant#kipperlilly copperkettle#watching fig terrorize him like girl!!! we don’t even know if he’s guilty!!!!#this might just be for me but i do not think 5 teenagers willingly brutally killed their friend idk#like there just has to be some other element to it and i am very scared to find out what that was#what if they were put in a position where they felt there was/there was no other choice… like oh my god#my comedy brain is having fun but my ‘this is a teenager’ brain is in such deep distress all the time this season#the rat grinders i trust brennan to not make u cartoonishly evil so i am holding u as gently as i can in my confused shaky hands#also with the devil’s nectar i��ve been wondering why they all seem so well-adjusted & now i’m curious if they’ve been intentionally-#changing their memories in a way so that either the trauma is lesser or they think they aren’t guilty. idk#but it seems like from how gertie was talking she was making it more recently so the well adjustedness from early jy doesn’t quite add up#they could have another source maybe??? idk i’m just low stakes 4 a.m. spitballing here#there’s also the strong possibility that they’re aware of what happened but they weren’t the ones who killed lucy. idk who knows#the way you could probably devil’s nectar yourself into believing it wasn’t your fault someone died… CRAZY IMPLICATIONS!!! CRAZY IDEA!!!#anyways the bad kids & the rat grinders don’t ever have to like each other but i do wonder if at least some of those kids deserve a chance
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at my best, I'm a sacrificial lamb at my best, I am something you could handle
#anya mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#art#//#spoilers#image lyrics: pressed - alvvays#top left refers to anyas trouble sleeping and inability to share what shes going through with anyone. also quilt stitching. curious#nobody can hear you scream in space and all you can do when your planes going down is try to breathe#daisuke my beloved youre surrounded by people who kept letting you down. then back up as a saintlike character in death. you must be dizzy#but wait. newspaper clippings in the background theyre totalllly talking about you dude. look theres streamers and foam and everything#on heavily overexposed film all you can make out are the darkest parts . or it could become a beautiful nuanced grey. isnt that great curly#i modelled his eye here in the shape of the first photo of a black hole. why wont anyone but jimmy look him in the eyes?#hi swanseas palpable guilt. i guess if you stop biting the hook he'll get bored and finally end this game of cat and mouse#the whole piece is haunted by jimmy btw . notice how the yellow arrows zero in on the Real Problems to him#this next part i wrote after watching a video on the board game in mouthwashing because i spent a lot of time choosing editions#daisuke: toys r us edition with his piece already in the home row so winning by just 1#(the lowered expectations towards him + the safety net his family provides... which would not actually matter much after the crash...)#swansea: the royal edition#standard used on the tulpar + theres a move where you can form a blockade with 2 pieces and nothing can move forward or break it#even your other pieces (they changed this to be more lenient on everyone else after the crash i mean in the newer editions)#anya: homemade fabric board with influences from diane allison-stroud. the one i used is called the reader#(an artist who recreates boards from the 18-1900s and designs new pieces many of which are decided to memories from her childhood#she often pays homage to her mother/grandmothers textile arts)#i swear i had inspo for curly too but i cant seem to find the one with rounded edges encroaching on the middle like i drew#little distinguishing his part from the board itself (jimmy) but of course those two are Very different and itd be wrong to mix them up#how could i forget jimmys fear of -itys and stubborn menu options of leave and do nothing. finally all the stars become the tulpar logo :)
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DAREDEVIL: BORN AGAIN | 1.01, 1.02 & 1.03
I'm not him anymore. And, I won't let myself be.
#Daredevil Born Again#Karen Page#Matt Murdock#Daredeviledit#Karedevil#ddba spoilers#Daredevil Spoilers#Not Revolution#GIF set#Mine#I'm aware the show's called Daredevil: Born Again and Matt Murdock is Daredevil. But he's not my fav character by a long shot.#I like Matt. His MO is a push-pull relationship. He doesn't trust easily. He's very self involved and he's naturally self destructive.#But currently there is too much Matt and not enough Other People. I'm missing my warm fuzzys. I'm missing the emotional element.#(I do not miss the ninjas. Do not bring back the ninjas.) I'm cautiously interested in the idea of Frank having#a f**ked up fanclub - who he has no interaction with and who are co-opting his symbol for bad. If that's what's even happening?#I'm curious about Matt and Fisk both falling into old patterns and mirroring each other. I like the tense undercurrent between Fisk and#Vanessa. I don't know where that's going but I'm happy to wait and see. I just need something to care about? I'm not sure what the goal is#Matt's life is too easy. He became a successful lawyer with a proper office with no effort and barely an inconvenience.#He now has the perfect law partner who keeps the office running and has no personal issues and never questions him. She even found him a gf#Now it's a little messed up that his gf is a therapist coz boy does he need some therapy but she is also not very interesting.#I want to see Karen's apartment in San Francisco. I want her to have a cat. I want her to be a reporter or an#investigator? Maybe she just comes back to NY on her own. Matt screws up BIG and she shows up. Because he needs family and#she's all the family he has left. I want bickering. I want laughter. I want tears. And glaring and eye rolls.#I did not sign up for a show where Matt pretends he wants to be a lawyer for 9 episodes.#If the original version of this show was 'Matt pretends he wants to be a lawyer for 18 episodes' I can see why they changed it.#(This is the least spoilery post ever... but better to be safe than sorry)
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It is a beautiful day, and you are a horrible research transport vessel. Things are progressing as normal (i.e. it's boring) when a SecUnit pings you, lies right to your metaphorical face, and then tries to bribe you with human media to give it a ride. This is as unexpected as it is unprecedented, and the sheer nerve of it is really to be admired. There's no protocol to this, so what should you do?
Now, this is against a bunch of rules, and could be dangerous if you weren't so impressive and incredible, and you're technically an employee (and can probably rewrite the Univeristy charter at will (until someone notices and puts it back)) so those rules are for other entities.
So, what you should do is allow the rogue SecUnit with a broken governor module and a sketchy story aboard. If you check the files it dumps and find zero (0) malware (which is confusing), and it doesn't even try to trash the place or lay in wait to ambush a crew member, then you've got a good candidate!
Next, what you're going to want to do is absolutely nothing. Just watch it patrol your halls until it's time to leave. Continue staring at it while you're undergoing embarkment procedures. Maybe analyze it a little (you've got plenty of processing power to spare) when it finally sits down and starts watching media. Allow it to settle in and get comfortable while you stare at it and get further and further from port.
Now that you two are alone (intimacy is key!) and you've determined that watching media is all the SecUnit is going to do, it's time to make contact! Make sure to open by telling it it's only survived due to dumb luck, and letting it know you could melt its brain into putty. This starter will work to develop conversation naturally and smoothly, just like you've seen the humans do, and it will be smooth sailing from there!
This has been Perihelion's guide to making friends/finding life partners/fuck off Holism I had to work hard for this find your own
#murderbot diaries#murderbot#perihelion#it was not smooth sailing#it took ART about ten minutes to get secunit into a snit so bad it shut down out of spite#but they make it work somehow#tbh despite the rocky start if ART weren’t so ART i don't think the relationship would have lasted#ART is overbearing and kind of a bully and it earned its nickname very well#but i think thats why secunit can get along with it because it comes across as more genuine#mb was distrustful and a little patronizing to miki so while they COULD have been friends if canon hadn't happened it took it until miki#died to realize miki was being genuine about the friendship#whereas with ART MB can be like what we have is weird and I'm not gonna put a label on it#these tags have gotten away from me#anyway can you imagine ART having to explain to Iris and Seth WHY it let SecUnit on??#like it could have justified it any which way but at the end of the day art was bored and then curious and then intrigued
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Rereading the Sunlit Man and I am cracking up at the idea of the Cinder King reading about the Blackthorn's war crimes and Dalinar's "Unite them" and making that into a messed up bucket list "wow this guy is right I should set fire to people who disagree with me and I should unite everyone under my banner by force! this conqueror gets it!" Somewhere in the cosmere/ the beyond Dalinar's ghost is very disturbed. Cinder King's kicking his feet doodling fiery hearts around the blackthorns name not knowing that if they ever met he would be obliterated in an instant. Nomad has every right to laugh in this guy's face. Imagine being on the run for 300 years and then some guy with glowing red eyes on some tiny planet in the middle of nowhere quotes your old boss at you and asks your old boss would be proud of him. And then has the audacity to break an oath around a rosharan.
#very curious what that silverlight book said about roshar#cinder king: I read about your people off worlder! I'm going to unite my people like the conquerors of your planet! wh-why are you laughing#cinder king: *breaks an oath around a rosharan*#nomad: so you have chosen death#honestly I like the cinder king as a simple antagonist. he's a bully and rigs fights. He is just a bad guy. He's not ~tragic~ he's just dum#I don't think dalinar would be the one to obliterate cinder king. at least physically. I think adolin would knife him in the eye.#it's a good thing hoid wasn't physically on canticle because he would have been laughing at the cinder king the whole time#the sunlit man#stormlight archive#dalinar kholin#zellion#sigzil#just to be safe#wind and truth spoilers
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finally settled on a Silena design \o/ survived/revived!AU here just cause I wanted to give her a cute eyepatch and try drawing her scars. I've struggled with how to dress her for ages and what headcanons I wanna do for her but then I realized I can give her a saree and all my problems are solved <3
I imagine in a survived/revived au she's mostly blind in both eyes, it's just one requires more protection than the other ergo the eyepatch. Also it means her and Ethan match.
#pjo#riordanverse#silena beauregard#ethan nakamura#my art#i stuggle so bad with how to dress characters which is why i love pjo character design/ocs specifically. cause when in doubt. tshirt.#the aphrodite kids besides Piper give me trouble though cause i have to actually think about like. fashion. and how people dress.#and im very bad at that </3#sarees to the rescue though <3 theyre so pretty#if yall see me go wild in the next couple weeks just drawing Silena in a billion sarees i will not apologize#drapey fabric is fun to draw. draped fabric go brrrr#also if anyone's curious i always give her a moon hair clip thingy on her bun cause of her name - ''Silena'' is from ''Selene''
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🎉Popularity Contest 🎉 yipppeeeee




All vash is good vash. But which ones your favourite?
#Trigun#trigun manga#trigun maximum#trigun stampede#trigun 98#trigun badlands rumble#vash the stampede#vash the humanoid typhoon#vash the babygirl#trigun vash#monka mumbles#im genuinely curious#I’d pick manga just cuz I really like the vibes and the outfits and also cuz the outfit#but I also really like vash at the end of stampede. specifically when the hair goes up#I hope his hair stays spiked for the rest of the series. I just really like the spikes#there’s no way this hasent been done before but I’m still gonna make a poll cuz I#well. I just finished the manga last week and I’m still not okay that’s why#I also really like stampedes arm design! it’s very fun
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I FINALLY FINISHED THIS!!!!!!!! I might tweak some of the wording, but this is for my school project explaining what goth is ☺️🫶



#YIPPEE 🎉🎉🎉🎉#Of course; this is only a light overview and doesn't delve too deeply into the history of it all#Buuuuut if you guys would like for me to explain the whole deal with visual kei and it's history then I could maybe do it in the future :3#not now though my brain needs a break 💀#i procrastinated too hard on this#Also for those wondering why I put so much emphasis on the politics while most people say that goth “doesn't have any politics tied to it”#it's because every aspect is very much political!!!!!!!!!! even if people themselves don't recognize it as such#<- which is why everyone (including myself) shit on conservative “goths” LOLL#my art#school#school project#comic#educational comic#goth#goth subculture#goth history#alternative#punk#counterculture#To add/clarify: I said everything began in the 80's because a. the beginning of goth in the late 70's and early 80's really blends together#b. goth's heyday truly became what we know it as from the 80's onwards#and c. I was just too lazy to go back and change it 💀 LOL#if you guys are curious about anything lmk
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Hey I have to go on hiatus after tonight's episode and I'm not sure when I'll be back, and all orders are delayed. I'll keep you updated and hopefully it won't be long.
#partner of 11 years broke up with me#because he didnt want to pay rent anymore#and he is curious what life without me is like#so im moving back in with my parents and also playing videogames with friends all day#hopefully itll be done sooner than later and my brain can stop reeling#im feeling very betrayed#and of course heartbroken.#could vent a lot about it but it hasnt even been a week#and i probably want to keep that off Tumblr.#just enough context for you to know why im gone#vent in tags
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pondering that falon'din is associated with an owl, and those are also messengers of andruil. and he's referred to as "winged death" which is also mentioned to be something that elgar'nan deploys against enemies. and both falon'din and andruil are referred to as venturing into dark places, where no one else can survive/wanted to go.
and ghilan'nain was not initially an evanuris, but was antagonistic towards them and making a bunch of weird creatures. she was given the offer to join them in return for getting rid of the creatures, and accepted. but with "pride stopping her hand" from destroying a few. and when asked about trusting people to share power, solas says "I know that mistake well enough to carve the angles of her face from memory."
solas also has nothing good at all to say about falon'din, mostly calling him a bloodthirsty tyrant who went so far in encroaching onto other evanuris territory that mythal had to besiege his temple and beat him up to stop him.
but he says nothing about dirthamen at all.
dirthamen is described as having gone missing unexpectedly, scaring all his followers, because they were now unprotected. and caught between their own high priest wanting to lock them into the temple forever like a cask of amontillado, and other forces outside that wanted to take their secrets by force. there is one note that a dirthamen follower defied the evanuris and took on a forbidden (probably a dragon) type of form, and was judged by elgar'nan harshly. he apparently also invented the varterral to protect his town from a high dragon? wack, but also could indicate that he had worked with ghilan'nain on making it, since she's the only one who's otherwise mentioned to be bioengineering stuff.
dirthamen has very very few surviving statues or depictions, and is more associated with falon'din than as his own independent figure in the dalish myths. even his own temple includes mosaics of falon'din. there's a few statues that are probably dirthamen, but the most striking is in mythal's section of the fade behind the eluvian, which is a statue of a hooded figure, doubled over with a giant sword sticking out of his back.
#dragon age#dragon age meta#txt#dirthamen#i love the idea of ghilan'nain initially being friends with solas but then betraying the rebellion in favour of becoming an evanuris#ALSO it makes the ''he was a wolf and she was a halla 🥺'' Heterosexual Motif very funny if the halla was an absolute menace to society.#halla (threatening). the halla is committing atrocities like you would not Believe.#solas wandering up to a dalish clan and locking eyes with this mild looking white deer thing and just hearing kill bill sirens#andruil/ghil could even be like a somewhat cursed celene/briala parallel if briala had actually agreed to sell out her people#in favour of being's celene's lover/right hand instead.#so she narced on dirthamen who then gets killed/partially absorbed by falon'din#with most of his followers scattered/killed/forcibly converted to his service as falon'din goes on a rampage#until mythal steps in to make him knock it off#which then makes the others nervous that she was capable of stopping him + might start actively doing her job as Justice again#so they get together and set up an ides of march type of event that takes her out#and then are like ''yay! we can finally roll around in the blight even more like we wanted to :)''#so solas decides to just wall them off entirely#who knows what sylaise or june are up to in this theory#i assume they were just playing minecraft creative mode or the sims and didn't notice anything. just vibing.#anyway i wish this had come up bc i was deeply curious about my boy dirthamen....#he's the god of secrets! this dude should still be kicking around in some form. get back in there.#at the very least he should have a weird little cult or something remaining#personally i'm declaring that dirthamen was a spirit like cole.#who had the capability to remove memories#and that's a) how mythal managed to force andruil to ''forget'' how to access the void#and b) why the others killed him - perhaps to get it back? and why his followers were terrified without his protection#bc they had way too much classified information about all this world-endingly bad stuff
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#i was thinking about how many of these i watch or have an awareness of airing so i was like why not ask? i am very curious!#also i know the traitors is over now but i wanted to throw it in for fun#my answer is the pitt btw#but i also watch severance and doctor odyssey#polls
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nah the fandom does acknowledge it’s because of his abyss powers he became like this. they believe it more especially after seeing the effect on chasca etc
YEAH everyone acknowledges he became this way because of the abyss but what i'm talking about is like. his character stories make it sound like he gained some sort of cognitohazard Strife Effect that makes chaos constantly break out around him and i've never seen anyone talk about THAT.
Specifically these lines:
In those three months, the swordswoman taught Tartaglia how to pass through the Abyss unhindered, and more importantly, nurtured the ability to stir up endless havoc from within Ajax's trouble-mongering nature.
Shocked by Ajax's great strength and curious about how he invariably became the eye of a vortex of discord, Pulcinella inducted Ajax into the Fatui under the pretext of meting out punishment, ordering him to start from the bottom and take up the duty of serving the Tsaritsa.
Kind of make it sound like it's not an effect of his personality but rather some sort of passive aura he's exerting.
Of course, the reason no one talks about this could well be because it makes no fucking sense, when his personality itself is already quite sufficient to explain all the fights he gets into.
...Could also easily be a case of me interpreting lore way too literally again lol
#i made a 10k crackfic out of over-literally interpreting oceanid lore once. so.#aphelion.txt#ask#childe#tartaglia#genshin impact#the skirk line does say 'from within his nature'#but the fact that it's referred to as an 'ability' is weird to me#and why would pulcinella be 'curious' about it when it seems#very obvious from just looking at him that he will stir up trouble#Then again#Now that i've reread it a third time#It seems less heavily implied than i thought it was for a span of 6 hours#the concept of him having a supernatural ability to draw aggro is so fucking funny to me tho#even if this is the case i don't think childe is consciously aware of it tho#i want him to meet a psychic who's like 'can you fucking turn that off. my head hurts'#and he's like what. turn what off.
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i am neither easy nor immune o(-(
open for better quality | no reposts
#a date with death#casper a date with death#grim a date with death#adwd#two and a half studios#fanart#myart#doodle#hello i downloaded and played this game on a whim recently and have gotten all the endings#my favorite convo was during day 5 or 6? in which he asks about fav color/family/etc#i think it was really sweet how attentive and curious he was#and yeah it's very cliche of me but i liked the 'that makes my job easier... but why don't you have anyone??' lines#and of course the window scene and the flowers. and the nickname. yeah.#we all know why it was those little things rather than the banter and flirting that got to me hahaha#i think the last time i played a dating sim was. m.ystic messenger?? that was Ages ago#so this was nice lol
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