#which is a problem bc then i need to reschedule

[otterandterrier]

If I got to yoga and everybody else skips on account of the fog/drizzle that has been plaguing us all day so help me god

[stupidnaturals]

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[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for getting upset because my friends said they couldn’t hang out with me?

TW: small mention of SA

Context: I(16m) am in a friend group with around 7 other people, including my bf (16m). Who I am currently living with because of issues at home. And because of things going on, like work, getting drivers licenses, and the school musical (which is, imo, the worst thing we have at this school bc of the toxic environment, toxic director, and child predators that were in there touching girls.) we haven’t been hanging out much. The last time we all hung out was for my birthday at the end of February, which I had to fight with some people to even go.

So, this starts with me making plans. ALWAYS. I’ve made the plans for this friend group every time without fail for the last year and a half. And I noticed we haven’t been hanging out as much and my boyfriend agrees, so I text everyone around 2 weeks ago and asked if they wanted to do anything. My one friend, we will call L, suggested that we go to a museum in the city. I asked her if Saturday at Noon would work that week and she and everyone else agreed. So, that Thursday, I made sure everyone was good with that, and I found out that she and my other friend, who we will call O, had to go in for a 7 hour rehearsal on Saturday. No big deal, I get it. So I rescheduled for the following Saturday.

The next Friday rolls around and me, my bf, and L are doing volunteer hours at our elementary school. I, again, check in to see if she’s going. She says that because she is so exhausted from the musical, she can’t go. I understand again, but here’s the thing. L thinks she HAS to do our schools play and musical, and got upset with me when I didn’t wanna go because I had been assaulted physically and verbally by other cast members and the director. L actively overbooks herself and then complains that she’s upset or tired or acts like she has to do these things. Her parents aren’t forcing her or pressuring her btw. But, I do understand needing some time, and I agree that I’ll reschedule again, because i want all of us to be there. And also, O texted me (after he expressed his desire to go really badly) that he couldn’t go because there was a parade that weekend. So I changed it to that Sunday. Me and my bf thought it would fix all the problems.

It didn’t. Both L and O came up with bullshit excuses not to go after it was THEIR idea to hang out! L said she had to “babysit” her 14 year old brother who is perfectly healthy and capable. Not because her parents asked her to, but because she said he will “burn the house down” and O said that his mom had to work and he didn’t wanna ask his dad (btw both of his parents are the nicest people I’ve ever met). So, I got very upset with them and I actually cried to my boyfriend about it. I feel like my friends don’t wanna hang out with me or see me. Especially bc O had got a new bf, who is cis (O is a trans boy) and his new bf has publicly been known as the “tboy/femboy chaser” and fetishizes trans people. When I expressed this to O, he said that I was making it up. They also are extremely inappropriate, and actively make out when we’re all trying to hang out or talk to them. One time, we were having a New Year’s party, and they took up the only couch, making out for 5 hours. O and L also like to point out that me and my bf never are apart, and that’s when I remind them that we not only live together, but he is in the main friend group. I’m tired of these guys making up excuses to not see me. So, AITA?? :(

What are these acronyms?

[fallinginreversefanblog]

Falling In Reverse in St. Augustine/FL, 10/17/2023

Falling In Reverse rescheduled the St. Augustine show from April 23rd to Oct 17th, 2023. Back in April Ronnie got laryngitis, he had to cancel 6 shows in total, almost all of them were festival shows so there was no opportunity to postpone them. He could only reschedule two: one from Popular MonstTour in Syracuse/NY on Sept 12th and from the radio shows this one in St, Augustine/FL on Oct 17th.

This was the concert I personally attended to, so everything I add here in this post is my own recording and shooting about the event, including the text which is about my own experience.

"Just Like You", recorded by my daughter who was with me at the show. (She almost dropped her phone bc of the crowd surfers lol).

The surprise was the song "Drugs" which FIR didn't play since Rockzilla 2nd Leg in Feb 2023. This is the only video not made by me, somehow I missed to click on REC button, so I had to borrow it.

The concert was mindblowing. Maybe Ronnie was super relaxed, maybe bc the rescheduling or the fact that it was the last one, he had an especially energic stage presence. It was an absolutely super phenomenal show!!! 

Ronnie sang with AMAZING vocals, from my spot I could CLEARLY hear all his high pitches, they were mindblowing. Even during "Popular Monster", when the dense musical background covers most of the high notes (on the record as well!), you could hear now all the tones sung out loud and amazingly clear by him.

It was obvious that Ronnie had a good time, because he spoke quite much from stage. I love him addressing to the crowd between the songs, he's so chill, on the loose and funny to the infinite.

Ronnie Radke splitting the crowd for "All Stars", and in the mean time talking about the canceling made in April bc of his laryngitis. He make us sure when an band cancels a show, it's always for a good reason ❤️❤️❤️

He made a longer speech before "Popular Monster" which I posted separately because it's too important to only hide here in a link. Among more he was talking about the fear of expressing feelings, which he considers the main problem of the current generation.

"It's okay to say how you feel sometimes guys, it's okay, don't be scared! I don't want you guys to hurt anybody, you know, and that's not what I'm trying to say is, I'm just saying when people talk shit about you, you need to fucking defend yourself." (Ronnie Radke)

Via Instagram

Now, with this concert the Popular MonsTour was officially over. We're all hoping for a similar own headlining tour in 2024 Summer as well. This moment we only know FIR is going to join Disturbed on a US tour in Jan-Feb-Mar 2024.

[paradoxesofgalaxies]

After constantly having to reschedule bc of weather, FiL was able to take S to get sheetrock (our tiny ass car couldn't fit it and FiL was able to borrow a pickup truck).

So we go to start prepping the spaces so we can hang it....only to discover more problems 🙃

The wall next to the stairs was missing chunks of sheet rock so I took down what was there and then we realized the upper piece wasn't cut straight and only has screws in one corner. So we need to take that down. Problem is, to put up new sheetrock, we have to figure out how to screw in the top which is about two stories up from the lower stairs... Which means we can't use the ladder bc stairs. So that's a conundrum

Then we discovered the 2x4s that had been left to put up as studs are too warped to use (one of them is both twisted and curved ><).

So now we need to go to the hardware store to get more lumber before we can put up the sheetrock. So S is taking a nap and I'm resting before going out to pick up my testosterone rx and get lumber and hinges (to be able to hang the door once we have the wall up.

Why must every project in this house produce endless side quests??

[azover]

I'm gonna tell y'all a story

So I had to travel to my grandma's house yesterday, had problems and delays all day, had to reschedule my plane bc I was late and the one I got had to take a stop with 45min wait, touched down and went to the bus terminal to get the next bus to my hometown at around 18. Next bus was due to 2:10 am 🙂 so I have to wait for 7 hours with 2½ hours of sleep, trying to stay awake.

The time comes around and there's 3 busses going to the same place bc there's so many people needing to travel at that time, one at 2:00, another at 2:05 and one more at 2:10. Everyone's confused as to which bus they have to take, the drivers are being harassed, whatever. I get my answer, put my luggage in and head up to my seat: 20, hallway. I'm one of the 1st ppl to get seated n I'm just chilling.

In comes The Asshole Supreme (TAS for short), also knows as Hijo de la Re Mil Puta (hdlrmp, not in use)

So, TAS seems to be shortsighted AF, trying to look at the numbers on nearby seats. Let me give you a picture of this guy: he has a camo "tactical" backpack, cream colored fabric jacket, and a militar haircut. Eventually he comes up to me with the intention of sitting down, he signals for me to get out of my seat since I moved my backpack to let him through and he didnt accept, so I ASSUME he can't fit. I get up, and I see this motherfucker sit down on MY seat. To summarize the discussion:

He asked for hallway seat so he MUST have hallway seat

He had seat 19 (window) I had seat 20 (hallway)

I called him blind for clearly not seeing the sign

He tells me to call the driver if I have a problem

I tell him that he should go since I arrived first

He doesn't move

People are still coming in

The sign in question:

I go to the driver n say that a guy doesn't wanna get out of my seat.

TAS keeps saying that HE asked for a ticket for a hallway seat, driver checks the tickets, I tell this guy "I have hallway seat, I arrived first, you don't have more rights than me"

And this absolute piece of shit says:

"What do you mean I don't? You're a woman"

To what I respond:

"Go to shit! I'm not a woman!"

TAS and another guy look up at me wide eyed, and then he looks down at my crotch,,, n says "well still, I asked for hallway seat, why are you disrespecting me? You're telling me to go shit when I didnt say anything, driver she's being hysterical"

"You told me I didnt have rights because I'm a woman, you ARE disrespecting me"

The bitch of the driver then says to TAS ",,,, the ticket sellers fuck up sometimes, why don't you go sit somewhere else to prevent some shit going down" (or something along those lines, the word "señorita" being constantly trown around between the two).

Hijo de la Re Mil Puta then proceeds to get up, ask the guy on the seats opposite to the renowned Seat 20 if he can sit next to him, and gets the window seat anyway.

I don't know if TAS was a cop or military like dude, but he sure as hell acted like one, so I like to believe that I put a cop in his place, even tho I had to get a Real Man in an authority position to move him away. I also like to believe I made him shut the fuck up, he really didn't see the trans card being played.

I'm not gonna shut up and take what a guy with a military haircut wants. I'm not gonna meekly sit somewhere else and look to the ground. If I had a box cutter I would've cut him to pieces because I bet he's a violent coward that hits his poor wife, and if I had the guts and the energy I would've threatened to sue the bus driver for calling me a lady. By law he HAS to call me what I want, it's Sir to you and to everyone else.

It was never about the seat.

[buck-yyyy]

it’s 1:30 am and i have to work tomorrow which means i really need to go to sleep but i’m so so so stressed about work-

i’m riding my bike there tomorrow for the first time, and while i know there’s a designated place inside for bikes, i’ve not asked if it’s chill if i use it? and like i know that it is but i’m so self conscious about bringing in my bike and asking, while standing there with it, if there was a place i could put it inside- so i might just end up locking it up somewhere outside, but the problem with that is that i really really really cannot have it be stolen, and it’s hella common where i live for people to steal the wheels and other unlockable parts off your bike. so i know that i have to ask but i’m scared shitless to because it’s gonna be so awkward because i’m so awkward and i’ll be holding a whole fucking bike making it even MORE awkward and it’s just gonna be a huge mess, i just know it is.

i also have to ask for clarification as to whether i’m supposed to come in tomorrow morning and get off early or take the full day off, because i have an appointment that i cannot miss or reschedule, and i talked to my boss about it and he said it was nbd and i wouldn’t need to make up the day unless i wanted to, but i’m not sure if he meant for me to only come in for like an hour and a half (bc that’s how long i would be there for, as opposed to my usual four hour shifts) or to just not come in at all because that hour and a half wouldn’t be really much use. and he’s such a nice guy, i know i shouldn’t be afraid of asking him, but i really really am- i’ve read the email exchange asking about the appointment about a million times but it’s not clear what i’m supposed to do and i’m so scared to ask for clarification.

so now i’m on the edge of tears, im so stressed and scared out of my mind to come in tomorrow, and i really don’t know what i’m gonna do.

social anxiety is a cruel son of a bitch.

[celiaelise]

VERY confused bc I had a Dr appt scheduled tomorrow, but I also have a shift then. So this weekend I was thinking I needed to call and try and reschedule the appt, but I hadn't gotten around to thinking about it yet today.

But I just got a call from the office, telling me they could reschedule for the end of the month, and so we did that?? But they phrased it like I had asked about rescheduling previously, and they were following up, which I have absolutely no memory of doing!!! Like, it wasn't like, "sorry, we have to reschedule", or even, "would you like to reschedule?", just, "we can reschedule for this date and time."

So like I'm definitely glad that problem's solved, but, like, ??????

[starfxckersinc]

so I’m tryna work with this guitarist who’s very talented but she got super upset before our first rehearsal together when i misremembered her audition date, bc she’d scheduled it three weeks out, and we had to reschedule to Saturday instead of Sunday. then she got angry when she got there bc the drummer flaked (bassist and singer still there) and said she couldn’t be in the band if it was gonna be like that. I told her to start looking for a different drummer bc this dude has always been flaky. she tells me she can’t be in the group if this keeps happening bc scheduling issues are a big pet peeve of hers. I’m like okay. we make an agreement to meet on Wednesday and work on songs. she has to reschedule to Thursday, im fine with that. i clean my apartment so she’ll be comfortable and she gets to my place an hour late and then doesn’t remember anything we worked on the last time we saw each other which is fine bc I can handle imperfections in others. we have band scheduled for today at 2:30 and she cancels around 10:30 saying she doesn’t want to play with our bassist, who she thinks is terrible, and says she’s having doubts about the group but says she owes us one constructive band practice. but still says she doesn’t like the bassist and doesn’t want to work with him and isn’t excited about it. so I’m like okay, are you in or out regarding this project. and she’s like “I’m just expressing doubts” and then I’m like look, the entire time you’ve been involved you’ve been fairly unhelpful, and now you’re canceling a practice bc we’re not practiced enough and the drummer we agreed to replace hasn’t shown again and you hate the one steady member of the group besides me. if you want the bassist to be good at the songs we literally just revamped please put them in a Google drive file and maybe send him some tabs so he can practice, also here are the covers we’re doing, I’m deciding it now, practice these. If u need a drummer and a better bassist (our bassist wants to play rhythm anyway) ask around bc she’s ALREADY IN a popular band around here so she knows people.

and then she gets butthurt and is like I’ve been honest about not having time to do anything but rehearse and write songs and i was like okay but you’re canceling rehearsal because of these problems and you need to help fix them if they’re preventing you from rehearsing. and she’s like don’t take your frustration out on me and i said I’m not trying to but you’ve been pretty hard on people who are doing their best for you and if you want xyz you have to help organize it. and she’s like “well I’m really scatterbrained so maybe you could remind me” and it’s like no, I cannot do everything. i cannot do everything for you. I will help, I accept that I’m band leader, but you cannot complain to me and talk about leaving the band and then expect me to fix these problems that we’ve been upfront about since the start. you’ve been eviscerating my friend and complaining about the circumstances of a project you Know has been struggling to get off the ground and you’re refusing to help it get up. and she just left me on read and it’s like be a fucking adult. be a fucking adult person

[nathank77]

4/9/24

7:18 p.m

I passed out around maybe 8 a.m potentially earlier. On the half MG without anything else.

I probably woke up about 4-6 times but I kept my eyes closed and I heard weird hallucinations like screaming or laughing-thats how I know I am about to fall back to sleep........ it's all the same volume but I can still make out what I hear. A scream is still the same volume as a whisper.. but yea I kept my eyes closed despite needing to pee cause I knew I was done for bc of those extra hallucinations.... I don't hear those during the day.

I woke up at 4:45 p.m..... my HSV2 inhibitor test and gonorrhea/chlamydia urine test was today at 4:40 p.m..... I ran out the door... drove to Quest, it's close... thankfully I had an extra pair of glasses in my backpack... I didnt have time to grab my glasses out of my case on my desk before I ran to Quest bc I really wanted to get it done. So this is one of those time where the whole having spare pairs of glasses is really helpful.. they saved my ability to be able to see when I was driving.

Luckily Quest did the tests..... I hate circadian rhythm disorder... I didn't want to open my eyes, I usually wake up to my alarm and I didn't this time. Back before I had psychosis I didn't wake up to my alarms but since Xanax I've been waking up to them almost everyday... when I opened my eyes I truly thought it was like 3 p.m... bc my alarm was set to 3:30 p.m.

My hallucination really is, "happy birthday," "I've got a birthday present," "that's the depressing part," and hearing my own thoughts being repeated which is maddening. I'm starting to regret aligning with it bc it makes it hard to say listen to a song/tv while thinking something out like what I got to do to today, etc... even without other types of chatter..

Anyways I await the results. I don't have chlamydia or gonorrhea. I know that hsv2 test was a false positive, yet I'm still worried..

I hit CVS, and then took a shower. I'm home now writing. I have an appt with apple later about my phone number bc it's associated with another account.

I was going to check out some Eyewear places near me but of course with my circadian rhythm disorder, and the time frames its impossible. Maybe I'll start with lens crafters on Saturday and then next week my schedule is less busy and maybe I can make it work.

I'm anxious about oversleeping tomorrow bc of my T-Shot... at 3:45 p.m... I'm so sick of being tied down to this appt every other week. It can't be later than that.... if I could do it myself or have my gf/family/ or anyone reliable do it, I would have significantly less obligations to fulfill every single month. I mean it's a fucking chore. This month alone in total its 3 appts..... it's actually really a huge source of stress. If I could do it myself or have someone else to do it, well I would have had 2 ultrasounds this month, 2 Quest appts, and one dentist appt...

Anyways, maybe I'll game later. Maybe I'll just stare at the TV mindlessly. I got to take a 1MG tonight/tomorrow at like 4:30 a.m so hopefully I can fall asleep earlier and get 7 hours and wake up before 3 p.m.....

I have that stupid dentist appt bc the doctor couldn't see me the day of the cleaning on Friday... I might just cancel and reschedule I need down time. All these optical centers near me close at like fucking 5-6......... it would be cool to be able to swing by a few. They are close together. Maybe I really will reschedule cause like if I go to the dentist, I expect to get my teeth cleaned and see the doctor that same day and only come back if they find a problem...

I still have my ultrasound next Wednesday at 4 p.m on my lower region. I'm worried about that... making the appt. Then them finding something... despite their being no reason for me to think they'll find something.

I just feel like between circadian rhythm disorder, sleep issues, the voice always screaming to get my attention. My constant auditory hallucination forcing me to drown it out and my ocd always being there forcing me to make rules, avoid things, my life is so stressful.

I got my refund back and I can afford glasses. How can I fit going to a few stores locally into my schedule when I'm always going to the doctors and oversleeping...

I have my disability appointment on the 16th at 1:30... idk if I'm just going to reschedule it, maybe I'll take 1 mg and try to make it so the damn thing gets off my fucking to do list and I get my fucking back pay. I'll feel like fucking shit...

Beyond that my arm still hurts from my fall. The x-ray came back clean. I waited until my doctors appt and had her send me in a MRI... it got denied so I sent in the appeal paperwork...

But yea I'm trying hard to stay on the ball, everything is counting against me.

I thought something, what if Elise brings up brendan if I ever run into her. Well if she excessively brings up their plans. I'll assume she's happily married and I will be happy for her but I'll have to cope with that potential of us being together not ever happening.

If she brings up he is with the girls I'll assume nothing. If she says they talked about divorce I'll just listen and say I'm sorry. My jaw might drop a little. That's what I'd do..

Although I don't expect her to show up Saturday. I hope she does.

[im-a-goddamn-cat]

i have a zoom meeting appointment with this advisor in a couple hours about registering for classes and i'm nervous af

[edward-snowdenhands]

Digitally signed my offer letter this morning so now I'm like actually officially hired i think?

Anyway, still need to tell bossman I'm quitting but he cancelled our one-on-one AGAIN

[thefallenbibliophilequote]

The Asgardian Way

Loki x Reader

Summary: you get your period on the most unfortunate time- on date night with Loki. Embarrassed as you are of the topic from past experiences with boyfriends, Loki shows you that unlike mortal men- Asgardians view this time of the month for women in a much better way.

Word count: 1,849

Warnings: period talk, fluff, shade on Christianity, some shade on human men, Loki being the ideal boyfriend we all deserve.

A/N: this was requested by @the-departed-potato and while I do not take requests I just really had to do this one because this was like just perfect for me specifically to do. Sorry it took so long! Sorry if this sucks!😅 I also truly had to hold myself back from giving even more shade on Christians of old times because damn I could write a whole essay about those people and how they spread misinformation that changed real history to fake mainly bc of witchcraft. This is not beta read so all mistakes are by yours truly!

No one is allowed to repost my writing or steal or copy my work! Reblog on tumblr is fine.

Masterlist

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It's been going on for months now, the shameless flirting, the gentleman behaviour, and the devious looks he sent your way that completely contradicted his actions and left you a blushing mess even when he only opened the door for you- then he would wink at you.

It wasn't until one night that you gathered up courage to ask him out.

You were staying late at the Avengers Tower, you wanted to finish working on the new gadget you had built with Tony at the lab so he sent you to bring the two of you some coffee- he knew it was useless to tell you to go home and sleep- last time he tried to do it you called him a hypocrite and conditioned one of his suits to blast him if he gets close to you. You found it hilarious. He made sure to update the security of his code.

You went to the kitchen when you happened to overhear a conversation of two gods.

"Why have you not taken her on a date yet, brother?"

"I wish to court her properly, she deserves to be treated like a lady." You heard Loki respond to his brother. You leaned on the wall, trying not to get hopeful and to get the butterflies to calm down.

"Y/N is a fine lady, however, I heard from Stark that midgardian women might mistake courting like ours as mere jest." You smiled a bit at the scoff they both let out.

"Mortals continue to baffle me." Came Loki's comment, before Thor continued- not letting the subject go.

"Ask her on a date, I'm sure she will appreciate it." He encouraged his brother who wasn't as sure.

"I think, brother, that she is different- she will appreciate the old delicate arts of courting." He was not wrong- you were always old fashioned. But now at his admission, you stepped out of the shadows and into their view.

"While I do appreciate the courting, I'd love it if you would ask me out." Loki turned around at the sound of your voice.

"How long have you been standing there, darling?" he fidgeted with his hair.

"Long enough," you stepped down the stairs to stand in front of him. "What do you say about this Friday night at six? There is an art exhibit at the museum, I think you'll like calling out all the inaccuracies."

"Yeah, I'd like that." He gave you a small shy smile, and you completely forgot about Thor who stood on the side, watching it all unfold.

"This is great," he said. "You two are finally going on that date, see brother I told you-"

Thor stopped when he looked at Loki who sent him daggers at ruining the moment. You only chuckled.

"I have to go get Tony and I some drinks, so I guess I will see you then." You were about to turn around to head towards the kitchen when Loki took your hand in his, making you turn around, then he kissed the back of your hand lightly, bowing with a small smile at the blush on your cheeks.

"I look forward to it."

It took you a couple of second to function after he did that, mumbling a quiet goodbye you turned around and refused to look back at the smirking god.

•

You have gone with the god for a couple of dates now and then, sometimes you didn't see him for a whole week because of meetings in Asgard and while you were sad that you didn't get to see him-you were glad he was gone on that exact week every time.

You have been seeing him for about 2-3 months now and it was great- up until your period decided to come early. Right on your scheduled date.

You were nervously pacing your apartment thinking how to tell Loki that you can't go out with him tonight. You didn't want him to see you like this- he is a god, and you- you are a mortal woman who was having trouble getting out of bed because your body decided to punish you for not being pregnant this month.

Your body was so sexist.

Suddenly, a knock on the door.

Groaning, you got out of bed and headed for the door, checking who was there you were puzzled when you saw Loki there, dressed to the nines. Surely you didn't waste so much time, he must be early.

"Dear, are you okay there?" he called you.

"Yes, I'm fine- just a moment!" you tried to make yourself look presentable in a rush just so you could open the door to the dashing prince who was awaiting you.

You opened the door with a smile, which he returned.

You were used to acting like you were okay while your cramps were killing you from the inside but it seems like the god of lies could not be so easily fooled.

"Hi Loki, I was not expecting you this early." You laughed courtly, "And I was actually meaning to call- I'm not feeling so well today, I'm afraid I have to postpone our date tonight."

Loki walked into your apartment, kissing you on the cheek before pulling back to study you.

"I wanted to see you sooner, so here I am. But now that I am here- well tell me what is wrong, dearest?" he frowned when he saw you slightly clench your fists.

"Oh, I'm just not feeling well, I won't be good company and I won't be able to enjoy a lovely night with you I'm afraid."

"I'm a healer my love; you always seem to forget my magic," he smirked slightly causing you to laugh- which was not good right now for you.

"I remember your magic powers very well when you prank me." You countered. "But no, this is not something you need to worry about."

He reached out and took your hand with a small laugh. The door locked itself with a wave of his hand as he took you to the couch.

"I'm afraid you will have to do better than that to fool the god of lies." He took both of your hands in his and you were sure he could see your embarrassment with the way he was gazing into your eyes, "Now tell me, what is wrong?"

"You really don't need to- it's kind of embarrassing-" you started to mumble, lowering your head.

"I'm still here, aren't I? What kind of man will I be if I am not taking care of those I care about?"

You pulled your hands away from him, embarrassed as you mumbled something he couldn't quite put together.

"What was that?"

"I'm on my period." You closed your eyes- not wanting to see his disgusted look. "See, so you don't need to be here, I can take care of it myself and we can reschedule our date to a week from now."

It was not a problem to you- you knew the drill- but having to explain it to a clueless god felt humiliating to say the least.

"Is that all? Why didn't you tell me sooner?" You opened your eyes to a puzzled god.

"Because it would make you uncomfortable," you replied, suspicious of his reaction.

"Why on Odin's beard would it make me uncomfortable?" He frowned at you and looked you over. He started peppering kisses on your hands.

"Because it is my period?" You knew he is a god, but maybe asgardians women didn't get that. "Here on earth, men tend to be disgusted by it, they don't like to get involved in it or talk about it."

He huffed out in surprised anger- that you did not expect. The god in front of you did not know how human males could be so awful.

"Well that is preposterous! Women are to be worshipped at those times!" you stared at him-he had always treated you differently, unlike anything you have seen on earth before. You knew Asgardian ways of manners were much old fashioned and yet so different all the same.

"Then tell me, how do asgardians see it?" you leaned on the back of the couch, facing Loki and pulling a blanket over you. You liked how safe he made you feel, but this still felt weird to you- you were not sure how to react- to what extent it goes. So, curiosity got the better of you, "because if I'm being honest, this is kind of embarrassing."

Loki sent you a smile with a twinkle in his eye.

"Darling there is nothing to be embarrassed of! You are naturally as powerful as a thunder storm, a tornado- lightning cowards before you and your power!" he was going to make sure you understand it, he had never been so baffled by humans before. "You hold the ability of life- eternal life- in every drop of blood that falls from you- from the most powerful being in all the realms. For a couple of days each month- you are being shown your true power even through your suffering- and in that time you, my dear, are more powerful than a god. You should be nothing but worshipped. That is what the gods of Asgard know it to be true."

"Do they really all think that?" you felt a sharp pain suddenly and Loki came closer to you, put his usually cold hand on your stomach and you felt comforting warmness ease your ache.

"They know it. The people of midgard knew it too at some point, but then some people who thought themselves gods- I think they called themselves Christians- decided that the bleeding was a show of witchcraft and called it a sin and spread many lies about it, which now I see are still believed to this day. You see, they were quite stupid." You laughed at the disgusted look he gave you, which in turn made him smile. "You know, I probably shouldn't tell you this but…"

"You never obey such rules." You laughed and put your hand over his one that was comforting you on your stomach.

"In one of Thor's travels he bathed in a river filled with the menstrual blood of the powerful Giantesses. That was to give him enlightenment and eternal life."

"Ew, did he actually do it?" you scrunched your nose and Loki kissed it.

"That is not disgusting- that was powerful and very well respected. When he came back, he was the smartest I have ever seen him."

"I hope he took a good bath after it…" you chuckled and smiled at him, "Thank you for this, the Asgardian way of thinking is way better than that of earth."

"Now, dear, while I do have a preferred way to help take away the pain-" you blushed under his gaze. "Tell me, what is it that you desire? Tell me, so I can worship you as I should."

You kissed him then and you knew right then when he kissed you back that the Asgardian men are way better.

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[fuck-customers]

OMG IM FINALLY FREE! I’m the 🦋anon who sent asks about how I would always be scheduled to work by myself being forced to give up breaks and lunches and then they started having problems with my availability due to school. WELL DO I HAVE A STORY FOR YOU!! So the store manager who’s really nice and understanding has to take a medical leave so we’ve had an acting manager. Cue said acting manager changing every fucking thing and acting as if he’s permanently taking over the store, fucking up everyone’s schedule, etc. So due to all the bullshit I decided to put I my two weeks so my last day would be the 11th (it’s currently Sunday the 5th as I send this in) well yesterday I went in for a morning and saw the asshole there bc the assistant manager called off so he starts bitching about how I was a no call no show for Thursday EVEN THOUGH I WAS TAKEN OFF THE SCHEDULE and how he’ll let it slide this time and blah blah blah I was LITERALLY two seconds from walking out right then and there. So anyway later in the day the asshole leaves and my co worker who loves to bitch about everything comes in. Now when she gets there at 11 I let her know that I’m going to be leaving early at 1 (I was apparently scheduled until 3:30 but didn’t know that until I was actually showed up resulting in me always thinking that I was only scheduled until one and therefore making an appointment that I’ve been rescheduling at 1:30) due to my appointment and having a shit load of school work due. Usually that’s not a problem my co workers are like “do what you gotta do school is important” but today bitchy co worker acted like it was the end of the world because I guess the other guy who was supposed to be there was also leaving early at 1 (which I didn’t know) so she calls the asshole to bitch resulting in him texting me telling me that he has me down for 3:30 and we can’t leave the co worker by herself on a Saturday and all this other bullshit. I then first try to text the person who supposed to come in next to see if he can come in early but he’s not replying so I text asshole back telling him that no one is replying and I have to leave because I’ve already rescheduled this appointment multiple times for work plus I has a large amount of assignments for school due by the end of the day and with all due respect my professors aren’t going to accept the excuse of work for why my assignments aren’t done plus it’s not fair that I’ve been left alone for 5-7 hours in a Saturday and no one helped me to find coverage. Asshole texts back essentially saying too bad so sad sorry if you leave without finding coverage then you can get disciplinary corrective action. When I tell you I was HEATED when he said that I called my mom and was like “I need to convince from just cutting my shit short today and officially ending my time here” she was just like “no you do what you gotta do” so I texted asshole back and was like “then since I already put in my two weeks I’m gonna go ahead and quit and be done today because this is unfair. I’m going to save you from having to file corrective action for me by just being done today and therefore you don’t have to worry about me for the rest of the week” (he had already tried to schedule me on days where my availability says I can’t work due to school and taking care of my sick grandmother and he didn’t even care) at first he texted back and like “sorry you feel that way best of luck” and again when I tell you I was HEATED like as I was closing down my drawer and writing down numbers I was shaking so bad that I kept dropping coins and I don’t even know if my numbers were legible but idgaf at this point. Then as I’m gathering my stuff to leave he calls the store phone to talk to me because he knows that I won’t answer if he calls me phone and now his tune has changed does like “well just think about it I don’t want you to quitting” and a bunch of other bullshit that I honestly just tuned out BUT THEEEENNN he has the nerve to be like “well who’s there with your co worker now? is anyone there with her? did the other guy already leave?” and that just set me off even more like BITCH THAT IS NOT MY FUCKING PROBLEM YOURE THE MANAGER NOT ME IM DONE I NO LONGER WORK HERE. And when i tell you the amount of relief I felt once I got in my car when my mom picked me up. I literally cried the whole way home. I’m just glad I don’t have to work there anymore and deal with my mental health taking so many hits on a daily basis

[yesimwriting]

Hi! I have been having an off day I’m kinda exhausted and anxious slightly snappy haha. I was wondering how would the darkling react to an anxious reader that he cares about. 😊

a/n ive been a little MIA but im working i promise!! i felt really apathetic about writing for awhile bc of some personal stuff but ive been trying to get back into it bc im genuinely happier when i write :)

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- ok so i think how he reacts to an anxious person that he cares about depends on where you're at in the relationship,, which might be kinda a 'duh' but it needs to be said for how im setting this up lol

- bc if he's kinda just starting to figure out his feelings, i think he'd be so surprised by how much he cares that he has to hold back his immediate reactions, bc he may have his faults but he's def protective once he realizes something is affecting/hurting the person he sees as the sun

- that protectiveness stems from wanting to be what makes you happy, he wants to feel like he's your shelter so that he feels like he's good enough for you. He wants you to be happy so he can feel your warmth but he also really wants the redemptive feeling that comes from knowing that he's your protector in a way.

- he wants to protect and make you happy so bad, sometimes you need to be like 'umm...i really appreciate that you want to torture the person that bumped into me a little too hard on a bad day,, but maybe let's not??' especially if you are still in that phase where he kinda scares/intimidates you bc you know him more as the General

- not only are his more over the top reactions a little scary bc you don't want to offend him by not wanting to talk about it to avoid blowing the situation up,, they're also confusing

- bc you had no idea he cared if you lived or died let alone cared if you were nervous or not?? but sometimes it makes you feel really comforted, bc if someone as hardened as the darkling can care that much about how youre feeling than you can't be as awful as you're feeling

- and it's also comforting bc he's clearly strong and powerful and when he puts a hand on your shoulder and stares at you like you're the only tangible thing in the world and telling you that he's not going to let anything happen to you,, the rational part of your anxiety is appeased to say the least.

- alright but that's at like the first stage of the relationship for him, bc i feel like he def has like twenty stages he goes through before finally being in a committed relationship bc even though he wants an attachment and love so badly bc he hates his eternal loneliness, he has a lot of layers to work through before he feels secure enough in you as a person to risk vulnerability

- so if he's at the point where he's accepted what he feels for you,, but has yet to really act on it, this is where he starts to give himself away a little

- like you'll mention being stressed about training in the Little Palace, or not getting along with someone and he immediately jumps to encouraging you. It's kinda funny bc at first he seems like he's just trying to be a supportive pal bc at this point ur sorta friendly (at least more friendly than anyone else is with the darkling) but then he kinda losses himself in talking about how amazing you are.

- and if youre feeling anxiety/bad bc of someone in particular, you better not mention their name unless you're 100 percent sure you're furious at them.

- sometimes it causes some strain bc you don't necessarily want him to get involved, and he's not above lowkey guilting you into telling him the full story, but it's not really intentional. He just starts talking about how much trust he puts in you and you just let the little things go after making him promise to leave things alone.

- if your anxiety is general,, or just bc of a. bunch of little things and he's at a point in which he's accepted how much he cares about you but has not told you yet,, he'll try to hide how soft he feels, but sometimes he slips up.

- honestly, i wouldn't be surprised if a really big relationship milestone came from that.

- like you crying one night and the darkling finding you, and then him taking you back to your room and promising to stay so that you don't have to feel alone and then the next morning you wake up and he's holding you

- at first ur like ?? but he acts so normal you're like maybe that can be platonic? but then it starts happening more and more and neither of you mention it and then when you two finally do get together youre like 'ohh? im stupid'

- and if your anxiety comes from your worry about him?? wow--he'll have to stop himself from kissing you

- this is a man who is so used to being hated/feared that the concept of someone worrying about him so much they physically don't feel well?? that would hit him STRAIGHT in the chest, and he'd be so quick to pull you to him, and then you'd be like--are you ok??

- wouldn't be surprised if that's how you found out he had feelings for you,, like he'd say something like "i didnt know the brightest star in the sky could want to protect the darkness instead of banish it. You're the brightest light I've ever known, it was more than enough for me that you weren't repulsed by my darkness...and now..."

- anyways,, if you were already established together and you were anxious, he would have no need to hold back

- if he notices your hesitant to let him 'help' he might do a thing or two to reduce sources of your stress without telling you...which sometimes leads to you getting a little mad, but depending on how extreme his actions were, he normally smoothes it over quickly

- i mean,, it's just how he shows that he cares, he's never had someone that could snap their fingers and get rid of his adversaries or reschedule a thing or two to make his life easier

- he sees no harm in it,, and even though sometimes other people may give you a bit of a hard time bc of his evident favoritism,, you know it just means he cares

- if he goes really far, you're more willing to be mad at him, but honestly when youre upset all you want is to be near him bc there's nothing more comforting,, so you agree to hold off on arguing lol

- i mean there are always lines that get crossed, so there are times he cant charm himself out of your anger, but the longer youre together the more he tries to hold off on doing things that make you really angry,, unless he feels like the person really hurt you, then nothing can stop his anger

- if youre actually together he's much more quick to comfort you physically if youre feeling really anxious,, he'll kiss you everywhere until he's all you can think about, which works for when your anxious over small things

- if your problem is larger, he cant exactly kiss it away though i cant say that doesnt help but it's still comforting and relaxing bc duh,, so i feel like he's really touchy if youre upset

- kissing sometimes leads to other stuff,, but that should be its own fic/headcanon bc i have a secret head cannon that feeling needed or like the only one his partner has is a turn on for him bc it returns some of the power he feels like he gives up by letting his partner care about him

- might have to write that fic now that im thinking about it....

- if youre so anxious you dont want to be touched, it'll be a little harder for him, but if he reaches for you and you back away he'll try to talk you down and remind you that he's not going to let anything happen and as long as he's breathing he'll make sure you're okay

- if youre officially together and youre anxious about something small, he's actually surprisingly nice to talk to,, before you were close you felt like you were bothering him with small, insignificant things,, but once you know that he cares about you he's a patient listener bc he likes being really present with you when he can bc he's busy so often

- sometimes if youre worried or upset he jumps to anger towards the object of your distress before comfort, but once youre at the dating part, you know that that's just how he is, and anger is how he shows love in a way?? lol, so you just have to clearly tell him that you'd rather him stay with you then rush out and like smite someone, he'll stop and comfort you

- sometimes how much he cares makes him angry at himself bc he begins to question if he'd pick you/your happiness over his goal, if he can't convince himself that you'd never get in the way of that, he gets a little cold until he feels assured in his loyalties or at least assured in the fact that your happiness would never conflict with his goals

- that can happen at any point in your relationship,, i feel like it'd happen more when he's unsure about his feelings bc seeing how much he cares about someone that's nothing to him makes him want to banish his nerves

- overall though,, once he cares about you, whether he's fully accepted it or not, he'd burn the world down to make you feel okay again,, or stay in bed with you for awhile, or both--whatever you want, really

[pandapuffgirls]

i was watching a vod of wilbur explaining his writing during the first “season” of the dream smp and i was thinking abt how it contrasts the current arcs

wilbur said he didn’t want his writing to be character based but instead be about the environment and how characters react to changes in their environment and so overall, it tells one cohesive story and doesn’t have plot lines where one character does their own thing and then come back to the main story

i think the current writing is everyone writing their own character arc, which is fine and they should be able to do that if they want bc it’s their character; however, the problem is that there is a lack of communication between people (ex. niki not knowing the festival was on tuesday and her having to reschedule one of her streams) which then bleeds into a lack of cohesiveness among everyone’s character arcs. the audience is overloaded having to catch up on each individual stream and it doesn’t tell a greater story about the smp.

i wish people’s character arcs would intertwine and expand each other’s bc now i’m just left confused like jack manifold is doing something insane and somehow got his lives back? is that even allowed? niki and fundy could have pushed the downfall of lmanberg even further if they were included and have some even better moments of them talking to tubbo and tommy abt what lmanberg meant and why it wasn’t worth saving

this isn’t hate directed at anyone writing but a genuine criticism bc my mind is just muddled by all the events and in the end... lmanberg was destroyed and nothing came out of it... ppl continue to do what they do and i feel like the plot as a whole didn’t move anywhere. maybe there needs to be a single authority figure over the creative direction who takes inputs from everyone abt their character and bc i just rly want one cohesive plot that intertwines all the characters and moves the story along aside from blowing up the same place over and over again (which would be a lot of stress and work on that one person so i understand why ppl don’t do that but still)