#which they 100000% are but we don't need to talk about it!!!

[i-cant-sing]

I'm not sure what I want to write about but I have this very overwhelmingly strong urge to write about Platonic Yandere Gojo Saturo x teen/adult reader. And not like just light fluff, I'm talking about unhinged yandere Gojo- the one from the latest panels where he was fighting with Sukuna- that Gojo.

Like that Gojo just radiates "buffed up cool dad finally puts his foot down and is now actually low key scary".

Hmm, I mean I could see unhinged Shibuya arc Gojo just going absolutely feral as he drags you away from Toji (your dad) and begins to actively kill him, no matter how much you beg and grovel to spare your father's life. How you can't bare to see your dad taken from you again.

But Gojo? Nah, he doesn't care. He was serious when he took you in (kidnapped u from Naoya/Zenin Clan) and told u that he'll be the father you need.

And he doesn't even have any qualms about knocking you out either, he doesn't need u interfering mid battle and getting injured in the process. He might even hand u over to Yuta and others and cheerfully threaten them to keep you safe while he obliterates Toji, because yes Gojo is 100000% jealous of Toji and you bonding/being closer to each other than u are with Gojo. How fucing dare you??? Does he need to do the speech again?

"Through heavens and earth, I alone am tge honored one" or whatever 🙄🙄🙄

OR OR OR

Listen to me- Romantic yandere UNHINGED Gojo with reader who'd been selected by his clan, trained and raised by them for you to be Gojo's bride. Obviously, growing up Gojo was like "yeahhh, you're not good enough for me" and well treated her like absolute trash (he insulted her) which them lead the clan to be even more harsh on you because why the hell are you still not able to seduce Gojo????? So, basically poor reader is just being absolutely miserable throughout her life until one day the Gojo Clan is finally like "Alright, we gave it our best and Saturo still doesn't like u, so you can work as a maid in our house" and like instantaneously her life turns much better now that she doesn't have the pressure to be the trophy wife/heir producer for Gojo, and reader now can even leave the house to run errands.

But then Gojo notices that there is one less person who was constantly fawning over him, vying for his attention, and he's trying to figure it out who it is when he realises its you! And when he asks his clan about you, they tell him that they demoted u to a servant instead of future Mrs Gojo and Saturo is like "hm. Okay." And it doesn't exactly hit him how much this affected him until he saw you giggling away with some man.

He doesn't react immeadiately, still treating you like you're just nonexistent to him, but deep down, it eats him up the way you were touching that man's arm, the way you looked at him like he hung the stars for you.

Why tf weren't you like this with him?

Whatever. You're just... so beneath him. Why even bother thinking about you?

And then Shibuya arc happens. This man gets trapped in the prison realm and most of his thoughts are occupied by you, and how after be defeats Sukuna and the gang, he's gonna date you and you'll be touching his arm, looking at him with goo goo eyes.

Except when he comes out, for whatever fucking reason, you're fucking clinging onto some guys shoulders, acting like you're a damsel in distress, and if things weren't worse before, they certainly were when you kissed the man in front of him (okay but like u didn't know Gojo was watching u two. Like you were with your man in alley, kissing and hugging each ither lovingly after just barely escaping death from curses and then mf Gojo is just hovering in the sky above you)

Of course, now it's instantaneous death for your man, and then Gojo is just dragging you screaming and crying, and you're like "WHY? WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME??" And Gojo very cheerfully tells you, as if he still wasn't covered in blood from your man-

"I don't want my wife-to-be cheating on me."

Like whoa! Where tf did that came from???? And you're all like "What are u talking about??? Your clan ended our relationship- if you could even call it that?? Besides, you're the one who always said that we're not compatible because I'm beneath you."

And Gojo doesn't even bat an eye, as he goes "doesn't matter. You were born for me. You were made for me to marry, play with, discard, do as I please. So don't you ever even look at another man again, or I will be the one to rip your eyes out." And you know that he's capable of doing that after u just witnessed the live demonstration of your man being murdered.

Anyways, jealous Gojo, be it romantic or platonic, is dangerous unhinged Gojo.

Look at him, the tiny waist, the Toji Fushiguro fit.

[wonuwrites]

Seventeen Most To Least Likely To:

protect you from yourself

2.0 from this ask xo from @sharonxdevi

warnings: fluffy, angsty, some cursing, some food talk in Wonwoo's, stressed out Cheol + Jeonghan + kwannie :( , slight suggestive maybe if you squint, also I wrote basically a novel for Minghao's part. If you hate that, then go away bc we love Minghao here.

p.s I wrote most of this at 2 am after chugging 2 redbulls. It's gonna be chaotic as fuck and i'm not sorry whatsoever

listening to this banger of an album

M O S T

-> Minghao

Out of all of the members in Seventeen, I feel like Minghao always has an eye out for you and is always conscious of you.

I mean, if you need an example on how he'd be: look at how he babies friggin Vernon lmao.

He would do a lot of little things, like when you were being a passenger princess, because you would be. He would do this if there were bumps in road or whatever.

He also would always be holding your hand when walking and would walk by the road.

He'd peel your orange just so you wouldn't hurt yourself with a knife by accident.

Potentially might blow on food so you wouldn't burn your mouth lmaooo.

I don't think he would nag you like others would because he knew you were your own person and could do whatever they pleased.

However, he would always show how much he wanted to protect you.

You were his special person after all.

If you fell in front of him, he'd run to you and help you up. If you were laughing he might giggle as well and remind you to be more careful.

If you managed to get hurt and he was not around he would first make sure you weren't dying. Then he would just try to calm you down if you were anxious and just be there.

honestly, 100/10 type a guy. He's a walking green flag.

-> Dino

Honestly, maknae means nothing. Lee Chan is one of the more responsible members of Seventeen.

I mean in Nana Tour he was manager of money.

Just like being the manager, he would be the manager of your life?

He would constantly make sure you were okay and that any "obstacles" would not be in your way AT ALL.

He would be by your side constantly when you were out just to make sure you were safe and comfortable.

He'd be a bit more naggy than Minghao but that was just because he was nervous and was trying to convey that he was worried about you.

If you ever fell or ran into anything in front of him, I could see him either shocked if you were seriously hurt or laugh hysterically if you were fine and laughing as well.

However, if you got hurt when he was not near by, he would get so sad he wasn't able to be your prince in shining armor and protect you.

-> S. Coups

tbh you would stress him the fuck out lmfaoo.

He would try to hide it in front of you because he didn't want you to feel guilty for it. You couldn't help you were prone to accidents!

With being a leader of 12 other people, having you to watch after to was pretty much a given.

However, because of being leader he wouldn't be able to watch you as often as Minghao or Chan could which is why he is a bit lower.

Believe me, he would 100000% be number one if he didn't already have the other 12 to worry about.

When he realized you were more of a clutz then Mingyu he'd want to wrap you in bubble wrap and keep an eye on you 25/8.

Unfortunately, (or fortunately) you were a brat and would tease him often with "nOt NeEdInG hIs HeLp" it and that might trigger his brat taming kink lmfao.

If you were to fall or run into idk a wall he would just sigh and rub his temples LMFAO. I can see him being like "are you sure about that, sweetheart? Boom. a bruise. Let me just take care of you."

tbh he'd probably also sulk if he found out you got hurt and he wasn't there to prevent it. It would not be his fault but expect flowers, your favorite take out, one of his jackets, and him to be at your door asap.

-> Seungkwan

You also would stress him the fuck out.

Unlike Cheol tho, he would show you and admit he was stressed out.

Not to make you feel guilty but that was the way he was communicating why we would nag/being over protective.

End of the day, he wanted you to be safe and not hurt at all.

If he ever made you feel bad by his nagging, he would apologize and try to calm it down but he couldn't help it. He was worried as hell about you.

If you ever tripped or got hurt in front of him, he would just sigh and rub his temple LOL.

ngl he might even side eye you because he warned you.

You might apologize for it even though it was an accident which would make him apologize and then make sure you were okay.

If you were hurt when he was not around, he would feel sick. He wouldn't show you this side but he might get teary eyed until he knew if you were okay.

bc like I said... end of the day he wants you to be safe.

-> Woozi

Look bestie's been lifting weights for a few different reasons

one being, to be able to help you with things so you wouldn't strain yourself.

Like do you need to lift a box or something? He's got you babe

Need a door opened? Jihoon's got you pookie.

He wouldn't vocalize that he was doing anything to protect you, he just would.. do it

anyway where was I? Oh yeah

so Jihoon would always try to be there for you and would try to do things for you so you could be safe.

However, if you tripped or hurt yourself infront of him, he would be flabbergasted and by your side within seconds to make sure you are okay.

If you got injured when he was not with you, I can see him being a bit more logical then other members and would make sure you were okay and try his best to not make you feel foolish. it might be hard tho.

-> Jeonghan

Sooo, basically similarly to Seungcheol and Seungkwan you would stress him the fuck out.

However, he would try to play it off and act like he wasn't that bothered.

Believe me tho, he was.

He'd show his stress not in front of you tho.

He would sigh if he heard something crash in the other room with you shouting "I'm okay Hannie, I swear."

Ngl he might ask if you were dumb as a joke to try to tease you.

He'd tease you a lot actually.

He'd say shit like "Gotta do this because SOMEBODY will prob break an ankle or something and we can't have that."

If you got hurt in front of him, I can see him either laugh or go "Aigoooo~ my baby."

If you ever got hurt when he was not around, expect clingy domestic Jeonghan to nurse you back to health and nag you to be more careful.

He'd feel sick if you were ever hurt to an extreme and he wasn't there to protect you.

-> Joshua

first things first, he would like to say he was a gentleman to you.

yet if you were to fall he would laugh LMAO

not to be malicious but more like "what the fuck?"

You were so interesting to him and your coordination or er lack of coordination skills was so fascinating to him.

Like how could you be standing next to him then on the floor within 5 seconds?! there was no obstacles. wtf Y/N?!

If you were to get injured in front of him, like I said he'd laugh but if it was serious. He would quickly be godsent gentleman mode and would take care of you to best of his abilities.

If you got hurt when he was not nearby, he would make sure you were okay mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually, etc. Once he knew you were okay he'd prob make a cheeky comment just to make you laugh.

"Sometimes I feel like the floor gets more action than me? Fall on me next time baby?"

-> Wonwoo

No I didn't forget about Wonu I swear, I think he's toward the bottom and let me explain LOL

So, he would act like he was the best at protecting and would kinda act like Minghao, Seungcheol and/or Jeonghan.

He'd be a bit of a nagger kinda like Seunkwan ngl.

"Y/N, you need to be more careful. Kneecaps are important." "You need to take care of yourself." "Energy drinks aren't the only type of food you need to be healthy." etc.

However, if y'all were around Mingyu he was donezo and exposed.

Gyu would just be like "Hyung, you're one to talk."

Gyu would expose this poor man and would honestly protect you from his naggings.

However, if you fell in front of them after, Mingyu would realize Wonu was right in his nagging and you were a lost cause /lh LOL

If you ever were hurt in front of him, expect princess treatment. He would make sure you were okay.

If you were hurt when he was away, he would be one of the members that would drop everything and go straight to you. He would def be one of the more emotional members if you were hurt.

-> Vernon

tbh Joshua 2.0 LMAO

he'd laugh his ass off if you managed to trip over air in front of him.

Only time he wouldn't laugh on spot is if you accidentally banged your hip into a corner of the counter or something.

If anything, Hansol would just Hansol ya know?

Just a little "oh shit, you good?"

He'd do his best to help you not be so accident prone but after awhile, he just kinda realized it was bound to happen.

He still would try to help.

If you got hurt when he was not there, he would send you memes or something to lift up your spirits.

-> DK

Joshua 3.0.

He would fall to the ground laughing with you if you had tripped over air or whatever.

He would do his best to protect you from yourself but he also would try not to focus on your accident prone ways because he wouldn't want you to be embarrassed or feel bad about yourself.

Everyone has talents and yours is tripping over nothing or running into a corner every once in awhile.

Honestly, I could see him rate your accidents if he knew you were fine and just embarrassed LOL.

Like you would trip over your new puppy or something and he would be like "oooo i give that a 8 out of 10 LOL.

If you were ever hurt in front of him like actually, he would be soft and just make sure you were okay.

He might kiss it better? :')

If you were hurt when he was not near you, I could see him being similar to Wonwoo where he'd get emotional and just want to make sure you were okay.

He would call you as soon as possible and if he heard you rate your injury, he might scoff a bit but still laugh at your humor.

-> Hoshi

look, it's not that he doesn't want to protect you. he does.

A Tiger always needs to protect his Tigress ya know? I'm not sorry but pls still read my content LOLOLOL

Anyway, he would be similar to Joshua, DK, and Hansol where he'd laugh if you fell.

Most of the time, he knew you were not hurt.

Sometimes, he might compliment your spills and it might give him inspiration for a dance move.

Honestly tho, he is one of the more accident prone members too. Here's a comp I found if you don't believe me.

He'd joke, "we could be roomies if we both get hurt so it wouldn't be too bad." LOL

Jokes aside, if you ever did actually get hurt around Soonyoung he would baby you like no tomorrow. He might get a little emotional but that was because he didn't like to see his partner in pain whatsoever.

If you ever got hurt and he was away on schedules, he would be even more emotional. He'd blame himself. Even if logically it was not his fault, he would still feel awful he wasn't there to protect you.

-> Jun

He's a bit in his own world most of the time from what I've seen.

He still would try his best to protect you and make sure you were okay though.

I feel like maybe you would have to protect him more??

Or at least attempt too?

idk I feel like you both are so soft for each other that if one of you fell, the other would join the other person on the floor so you didn't feel alone.

If you were to fall or get hurt in front of him I can see him buffer a bit and then ask you what he should do.

He just didn't want to make situation worse.

If you were hurt and he was not there, he would be there as soon as he could just to make sure you were okay.

He'd NEVER nag you to be more careful. He just would want you to be okay.

L E A S T

-> Mingyu

Look he's too tall for his own good and sometimes his own limbs make him accident prone as well.

He really would try the best he could to protect you because well let's be real, out of all of Seventeen he would be the biggest simp.

However I can see him trying to help you up and falling in the process :(

There would be a lot of laughs though.

So much laughter.

Even if both of yall were a mess and occasionally accident prone, at least y'all could be that way together.

You both don't take that much serious and there would be other areas where Mingyu could show his "protective" and "dominant" side.

trust me he would too LOL.

If you ever got hurt in front of him, he would automatically go house husband and would wipe your wounds and carry you around like a princess.

shirt optional tbh

If you ever were hurt when he was away on schedules, he would be worried thoughout the duration of the schedule. If Seungcheol was there, he would tell him just to go check on you because he knew he was not fully there unless he knew his baby was okay :((((

ahhh hope this was okay <33

[cuntydreamgirl]

short n sweet review

(don't shit on me)

LOVE LOVE LOVE short n sweet wins #1 for the cuntiest most unhinged lyrics. basically sabrina carpenter is the dreamiest girl with the dreamiest voice.

here's my perfect ranking (excluding espresso and please please please):

sharpest tool | where's the hype for the best track on short n sweet? it's not being talked about enough BUT that's fine, i'll gatekeep. anyway, you're so hot and perfect if this is your #1. hear me out, it's very maisie x harry, it's bugging me that i can't pinpoint how but it just makes sense somehow. intro is heavenly, chorus is gorgeous, just perfect.

juno | pop fucking perfection. so close to replicating the serotonin I get from listening to guilty as sin? which says a lot because i am still addicted to that song. literally to die for, sabrina outdid herself with this one

lie to girls | sister to boyfriends by harry styles iykyk. self-explanatory. LOOOOOOOOVE

bed chem | "where art thou? why not uponeth me?" was all I needed to hear for this to be top 5. it's hot, flirty, and fun

slim pickins | okay dolly parton!!! she sounds insane!!! relate too this one too hard & it's not fair

don't smile | she's so petty and i love her for it. scrumptious track. i know i'll be ranking this one higher eventually. 100% sure it's going to be one of the most underrated songs of the album

dumb & poetic | short n sweet literally. should've been longer and vocals like honey. we needed more songs like this one!!!!

good graces | very ariana grande

coincidence | lyrics are so funny and clever

taste | ....mv makes it 100000/10 because they're both perfect gorgeous stunning and i do like it but it's just not a song i'd play on my own

overall i'm obsessed, infinite gold stars for how witty and fun she is. i don't know how to describe it other than that it's the perfect getting ready album. very high energy and girly. just imagine doing your makeup and hair while blasting this (unreal). BUT BUT BUT i won't lie, other than my top 3, i wouldn't really seek out any of these songs to replay over and over yk. i really REALLY wish we got more ballads and songs that showed just how powerful her vocals really are. and even though i know i wasn't wow'ed by most songs, i know they'd all be 10/10 live because she's an insane performer and the atmosphere would be dreamlike (kind of like tpwk by harry, i never ever ever play that song but live it was probably one of my favorites because of the energy). anyway don't come for me, i really do like it. I can't wait to listen to it as I walk through campus

[wh0lemilk0vich]

how do you think force feeding plays into ian and mickeys dynamic? obviously mickey eats his fill all on his own—he doesn’t need ian’s direction in simply eating, not necessarily needed to make eating sexy either. But, force feedings gotta heighten the experience for ian if he’s in a particularly dominant headspace or!! if mickeys being a whiny brat and needs something to fill his mouth?

or maybe they’re at a club and someone’s eyeing mickey up from across the bar and ian happens to be grabbing himself and mickey drinks—right next to mickeys little admirer— and he notices that ian’s drooling in mickeys direction too and nudges ian, saying something like “look at the ass on that big boy, bet i could fuck his tits too,” and at ian’s incredulous look he adds, “might be a little overfed though, probably can’t see his own dick.” And ian is overwhelmed with both possessive-derived anger and downright horniness, he turns around and smacks the bar to order whatever greasy pub food he can get his hands on and into his husbands fat belly—snatching up the food and grumbling all the way to his fat ass husband, “overfed?? fucker hasn’t seen overfed, yet.” …i think maybe then there would be some force feeding because mickey can, actually, see his dick. but ian’s about to make sure he won’t be able to for long.

Please I'm begging you never to stop sending me messages, this is so fucking delightfully sinful and I am gagging for more. I feel so seen!!!

You're absolutely right. Ian and Mickey do not necessarily see themselves as like a feeder/feedee gainer couple, obsessed with the growth and like internally motivated between them, BUT they fucking love the dynamic and Mickey is so fucking hot to Ian fat. The boy likes to eat and nothing's gonna stop him from that, least of all Ian who would have been more than happy just to be a witness, let alone a participant. And fuck if getting to take charge and fill that boy up until he's groaning, panting, hard and leaking doesn't make him go absolutely feral.

The forcefeeding is 100000% through and through part and parcel of brat taming and their reciprocal possession of each other. Who cares if there's a little toxicity when it's so fucking hot?

It would be one thing if this fucker at the bar just gushed about how hot his husband was. He'd be self satisfied and leave the guy alone knowing he had good taste. But of course the fuckwad just had to go and want what was his, and what's worse is he didn't even seem grateful for what a beautifully big, soft, plump boy Mickey was. How fat fat and gorgeous IAN and his love made him. He would show that fuck big. Absolutely ordering everything he could pulling Mickey away, hand feeding him everything bite by bite, catching eyes with the guy who at least had the decency to look both aroused and ashamed which would only fuel Ian on. Ian there feeling Mickey up through his jeans, popping the button for him, getting a big, possessive hand on his belly to rub it possessively, nibbling at his ear, whispering the most depraved shit "that's right Mick, eat up. If you want it long and hard, I need you big and soft. Keep eating fat boy. Fuck you look so hot. I can't wait to fuck your fat ass ragged when we get home. You'd like that wouldn't you? Fuck you're beautiful."

The next time they're at the club/bar, Ian purposefully runs into that guy again, gets back to the small talk, Mickey's visibly bigger. "Ya know, I remember what you were saying about my husband," venom dripping out of his mouth, "You were right about a few things. That ass on him? Divine, fucking beatific. The way those cheeks fucking swallow me... And his tits? Don't even fucking get me started. I mean, listen, I'm packing nine inches and I swear it disappears between those perky fucking puppies. But I've gotta tell you. You were wrong about one fucking thing. There's no over feeding that boy. There's only giving him every. fucking. Morsel he's worth. So let's get something straight, pal. I hear one more fucking word from you about my husband other than complete, utter, worshipful, unrequitedly devotional, unobtainable desire, and you, my friend, are a fucking dead man. Now how would you like to buy my big boy a drink, huh?" Clapping him on the shoulder and getting buddy-buddy.

This was truly so beautiful please please please send me more, this makes me want to write 😭😭

[anti-endo-safe-space]

These two posts piss us the fuck off so r a n t i n g y a y

https://www.tumblr.com/thegentlewonders/745509012285554688/reasons-endogenic-systems-make-endogenic-safe?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/heiiocoie/745318501866143745/anti-endo-safe-space-why-do-you-need-a-safe?source=share

[Posts in case people can't access them:

Post 1:

Reasons endogenic systems make endogenic safe spaces: Discrimination from not only singlets who refuse to understand, but also traumagenic systems who choose to discriminate against their fellow systems. There are also hate are groups being formed just for endogenic systems existing and getting doxxed for the same reasons, despite science backing up endogenic systems.

Reasons anti endos make anti endo safe spaces: th-the big bad endo called me mean...... :'(

Post 2:

”anti-endo-safe-space” why do you need a safe space. NOBODY is hating on you. “i was a-a-accused of being mean to people 😣😣😣” you tag every post with hatred]]

Oh, why do we need a safe space? Maybe because endos and endo supporters have gone out of their way to harass and attack anti-endos for believing in science? calling us "sysmeds" (YOU CAN'T MEDICALIZE A MEDICAL DISORDER) and "traumascum" (ONCE AGAIN, YOU CAN'T MEDICALIZE A MEDICAL DISORDER [it's an alternate term for sysmeds]), they attack people who say stuff like "i don't want any endos interacting because we have trauma related to endos" and they claim that every anti-endo thinks all pro-endos are faking (which like 90% of people do not) and also what science??? the carrds and reentries y'all link??? or that one 13 page paper that literally just says that the field is underresearched???? and let's not forget the things they say when anti-endos pull out sources. It's all "that's not true because [blank]!" and "well [blank] says differntly and they're DIAGNOSED so" and other bullshit. or they just ignore it completely.

And please, raise your hand if you want a safe space solely because endos called you mean. I've seen systems who want them because they have trauma relating to endos/pro endos, I've seen systems who want them because they don't want to be attacked for their beliefs, we personally want them because the amount of misinformation in the community is off the charts and has made us believe that we were faking all of our trauma (tied into the radqueer community a little bit but radqueers and endos are not inherently linked so yea) and that we were endogenic!!!

"nobody is hating on you" YOU ARE LITERALLY HATING SAYING THAT??? BRUH??? Not to mention the reblogs that said "me. i'm hating on them" and the fucking harassment!! like thanks anon, i really wanted to be told i'm lucky for being trafficked! i really needed that!! thanks a lot!! "you tag every post with hatred" ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT ANTI ENDO? FUCK ENDOS? ENDOS DNI? The fuck endos is true yea but y'all say the exact same shit about anti endos so don't even pretend.

just. endos piss me the fuck off. let us have our safe spaces.

Hey anon, we're gonna send a bit of a longer one to what you said because we 100000% agree especially because we've seen BOTH of those posts

Exactly. They've taken over any system space and if they're not included then your abelist meanwhile they claim to NOT have a disorder??? Pick a lane?? We created this because we literally have alters that split off because of endos and the harassment they've given, one's who's literal job it is to handle the harassment they can give. Look we know a system who's diagnosed but they say that not all trauma is valid, does that make them right? No because trauma is trauma, diagnosis doesn't mean they know everything

Exactly, we have this because they've given us trauma and honestly, they suck. They mock our disorder (Cheesegenic anyone?) and we're the villains for getting upset. Like no you did not have an alter split because you were eating cheese. That's not how it works damnit. We are so sorry you had them and they-who-shall-not-be-named (we don't want them coming after this blog because we don't tolerate them either, we've already had a few before) convince you that you guys were endo, we get that struggle

Yeah, they like to claim their the, and I quote from an actual endo thing (we dunno if it's from an ask or a post or what, we just woke up a bit ago) "poor oppressed people" and actual systems are lucky for their trauma because then they're taken seriously. We get that anger, we've had a pro-endo tell us we're lucky we were abused for years despite the fact we just mentioned we had PTSD.

Yeah we literally have fuck endo as a tag here because we had an endo come in here and tell us to kill ourselves so, we don't exactly listen to them, you know?

We agree whole heartedly. It's why we don't let them here, you've got a safe space here

[inkblackorchid]

So... about season 3 Aki.

Ok harsh contrast to my previous, excited post, but I did say I had more to yell about episode 75 and I need to get this off my chest anyway. Plus, I remember mentioning in a post that I need to talk about season 3 onward Aki anyhow, so might as well do that now! I am thinking Big Thoughts and I need to Scream.

Long, incoherent, unhinged rant incoming because I have 100 things to say and 100000 screenshots to post, but I am also tired and my brain is mush.

Can we please talk about all the jarringly unfulfilled setup the start of season 3 did for Aki? Because I'm starting to feel an urge to claw at the walls. I'm gonna go through this, piece by piece of damning evidence, because I need to vent my utter confusion and frustration somehow, I guess. Okay. So.

After giving us a bit of time to settle in after the timeskip into the pre-WRGP stretch of things, the itty-bitty portion of the story Aki occupies at this point starts off arguably strong. Yusei gets kidnapped, everyone's in a frenzy about it, but Aki's especially worried.

Then this. Funky new signer powers! Nobody's been able to do this before! I wonder if they're going to do something with that! (Spoiler: They're not.)

Then Aki "no sense of self-preservation" Izayoi gets herself in a bunch of danger trying to rescue Yusei and we get this:

Oh! Wow! Aki can control her powers now! (Which: how. Why did they never show us this. That alone could have made for a whole mini-arc. Why waste that????) That would give the writers so many cool opportunities to let her use them! I wonder if they're going to do something with that! (Spoiler: They're not.)

(Side note: I love this scene. I love it to death. They're both ride-or-die "who cares for my safety when yours is on the line" for each other and I love them.)

Of course, shenanigans then ensue, leading up to Sherry's marvellous introduction.

(Mwah. I blow her a little kiss.)

And it is at this point that Aki Has An Epiphany.

And to top it off, she gets some interesting interactions with Sherry, too!

So Aki resolves that she wants to become a turbo-duellist, too. And the thing is, this isn't a little one-off thing or something they never deliver on. They end up building this up for several episodes, bit by bit. First we get another mention of it at the pre-WRGP press thingy they all attend:

Then it's brought up again when Yusei accepts the first duel against Bruno/Antinomy:

(Also, side note again, but can I just mention that Aki also gets this moment the episode before:)

(Where she literally puts herself directly in harm's way in a public setting to protect people with her powers??? Like, I'm sorry, pinch me or something, but how does that not scream "badass good girl setup"???? HOW?)

So we get at least three episodes worth of buildup where Aki agonizes over becoming a turbo duellist to understand what her friends (but especially Yusei) are feeling when they duel like that, and then they finally deliver on it and episode 75 has her getting her license. And it's fantastic. Seriously. That episode is golden. Not just because it delivers on this promise, not just because it has a really cute moment between Aki and Yusei in it (regardless of how you read their relationship dynamic), and not just because it (as per my last post) showcases how much the rest of Team 5Ds cares about Aki (by literally building a runner for her and accompanying her to her exam and don't even get me started on Jack beating up those jerks trying to make her crash unprompted) but because it gives us just that smidgen more detail about Aki's character, too. Because the thing is, at first, she majorly sucks at driving.

And not only is this realistic to a degree (learning to drive is hard, regardless of what you're learning to drive), it's also great, because you know what Aki's response to it is?

She keeps going. She doesn't let it get her down, she gets back up and tries again. (And from a writing standpoint, this is lovely because that stubbornness is great in situations like this, but you could easily turn it into a weakness in a different scenario if you wanted to.)

And not only does Aki learn driving the hard way here, she also finds herself confronted with jerks who don't want her to succeed,

(Ruka, sweetie, I love you.)

and she makes an absolute rookie mistake during her exam by trying to play a speed spell when she doesn't have the necessary speed counters.

And feel free to disagree, but I think this is also great. Because honestly? While driving a really damned fast motorcycle that I'm not super used to yet, and being expected to make solid tactical judgements in an overcomplicated card game—the rules of which are slightly different when you're playing it on a motorcycle—at the same time, I would likely also mess up like that and accidentally try to make an illegal play. But the thing is, the episode rewards her for sticking it out anyway by letting her pull off a really complicated driving manoeuvre to save herself from her envious turbo-duelling-license colleagues' cheap tricks, and by letting her score a really nice win from a tight spot, much like any of the boys would have in her position.

(Take that, you jerks. Dumbasses only get blurry screenshots.)

So Aki gets her license and is welcomed by the team as a fresh turbo duellist. Hooray!

(I love them all so, so much, help me.)

And we also get this:

Wouldn't you know it! Sherry's been watching Aki get her license with interest! And she seems to be mighty pleased with the result!

So. After all that, I don't think you could blame anyone (it's me, I'm anyone) for getting really excited about what Aki's gonna get up to from this point outward. Aki can control her powers now! And she got her turbo duelling license! And we've got a new, enigmatic side character who seems like she could have super interesting interactions with and play off Aki! I wonder what they're gonna do with all that.

*deep breath*

Sigh.

Seeing as I already know this show like the palm of my hand, I kind of dreaded getting past this episode because I know exactly what happens to Aki from this point out: Nothing. A whole lot of nothing. Okay, well, no. See, I went back and checked all the episodes I have left, just to make sure, just in case I forgot something (very likely when you've already watched the show three times, I know).

From here on out, during the entire pre-WRGP, WRGP, and Ark Cradle arc, Aki gets exactly three things to do:

She uses her shiny new turbo duelling license to fill in for Crow at the Team Unicorn match because he got injured. Which, on paper, is a perfect way to let her have the spotlight for a moment. Except, the only thing she gets that spotlight for is to last a hot four turns in the duel before losing spectacularly to Andre and literally never turbo duelling again for the rest of the show. (Like, yes. The moment where she summons Stardust Dragon is chefs kiss and legendary. But in light of the surrounding circumstances, it feels like a consolation prize to make up for the ensuing character trainwreck.)

Since Crow is technically still injured when they're meant to go up against Team Catastrophe, Aki trains to fill in for him there again. Except! They intentionally make her crash right before the duel, putting her in a short-term coma! And as the icing on the cake, when she wakes up, it also turns out she lost the powers she was only just able to control for absolutely. no. reason. None. They never bother explaining it, they don't even try to hint at why they might have vanished. (I have my own theories for why they had to let her powers vanish and they all start and end with the words "we couldn't be bothered to figure out how to write this character".)

At the very end of the show, the very end, after temporarily fridging Sherry, too, they dig both girls back up in order to let them participate in a three-way final boss duel with Crow. (Which is a fantastic duel, I love it to pieces. Genuinely.) You could argue that they tried to cash in on all the intrigue they set up between Aki and Sherry here, but—come on. At the end of the show? Seriously? Oh, and did I mention that for some reason, Aki's powers mysteriously reappear after this duel? For no reason? Again?

I just. It does not compute. They went as far as doing all this setup, letting Aki get the hang of her powers, letting her get her license, making her part of Team 5Ds, even giving us a new character that seemed like the perfect fit to let her bounce off of—and then, like some sort of kafkaesque reverse-miracle, they somehow managed to take a sharp left into "whoops, don't care about this character" and nearly wasted the entirety of that setup in one fell swoop. If it weren't for that finale saving at least a smidgen of it, I'd be holding a torch and a pitchfork over here. (Hell, I might, even knowing that Aki's final duel in the show is kickass.)

Please tell me if this is just me (15 years after the show released, I know, leave me alone), but this feels like they were literally loading Chekov's gun directly within view of the audience, only to later procede to toss the damned thing into the sea instead of firing it.

Okay. Okay, I think I'm done. For anyone who actually bothered with the whole post, first of all, thank you for your attention, secondly, sorry, but this does, indeed, still bother me ten years after I first found this show, so I had to get it out or it would have eaten at me forever. God damn it.

Anyway, if you'll excuse me, I'm going back to writing fics where Aki actually gets something to do right this second. If anyone's interested in giving a fic series where Aki gets a separate character arc that tries to stay mostly canon-compliant after the defeat of the dark signers a go, you can find my stuff here.

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yeah and like personally as a transmasc I prefer to write nonbinary or male whumpees just because I usually like to relate with that character and if they’re female I tend to get dysphoric— so yknow I get there are a lotta reasons people might not want to read or write female-centric whump (a lot of the community is cis women who may want to distance themselves from the situation/not want to project on the character being hurt, etc). but it feels weird it’s treated like a subgenre or a niche subject just for the gender of the character? like idk it icks me to no end how some people act like it’s immoral or wrong or weird to treat female characters like they would any other character. or that a female character being hurt is in no way comparable to a male character being hurt. not to mention that women inflicting pain or being the ones in pain can be so much fun to read and see and root for! like come on gimme more women covered in blood. give me deranged women and immoral women and obsessive women and pathetic women and women who cry and women who aren’t feminine at all and women with infinite unstoppable rage and women who are evil masterminds and women who get pissed that their favorite skirt got blood on it and women who aren’t afraid to fight dirty and women who will claw their way back from whatever life throws at them. let women be everything and more.

(i just want to clarify anon i said "you" a lot in this but i'm referring to the royal/collective use of you, not like YOU specifically. i love you and i am smooching your cheek)

((edit to clarify again anon i am 100000% also in agreement with you and i didnt mean for this tangent to sound like i was pushing back, thats my bad))

still boggles my mind that people read all of 8 words before deciding i was personally accusing them of burning their fellow women at the stake. like, you don't need to get so aggro trying to defend yourself UM ACTUALLY!!! if it clearly didn't apply to you? (unless i hit a little too close for home that they dont want to admit, methinks...).

Like how did you miss the ENTIRE rest of that post that was very clearly me talking about how much i love women and want more women and here are things i think we should do with women like ahhhhhh!!! women!!!! <3 i don't care if you don't like them!! i do!!!

and i want them to be feral lil fucked up freaks! i want them to be the saddest little meow meow!! she is my wife! she is my mistress! she is my doormat! forehead kisses and a knife in the kidney will be mutually exchanged!! i want them to be in touch with their femininity!! i want them to be upset that they broke a nail while manhandling someone!! i want them to keep a gun strapped to their thigh under a skirt!! i want them to use designer belts as torniquets and the sleeves from their favorite blouse as bandages!! long acrylic nails scratching down whumper's face!! enduring a higher pain tolerance because they've spent years wearing heels and corsets or dealing with menstrual cramps/symptoms!!

you're welcome to keep creating your men and your enby (both of which i still read plenty of) and whatever inbetween whump. but if you do decide on a rare and beautiful occasion to write lady whump.......................... i (me, personally, myself, yours truly) would love it if they were in daisy dukes covered in blood and wielding a tire iron

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lmao @cosmicjoke just curious...do you actually even believe what you wrote? or are you just that pathetically lacking in self-awareness? it literally takes an EFFORT to even scroll through how much you blabbered about me FOR DAYS, HOLY SHIT LMFAO. anyway, scroll away in this one i guess, since it includes some receipts from poor blameless wittle ewuwi fandom you're claiming is "mostly good" and just must be "defensive" to awful people such as myself :-(

Yeah, i said you woobiefied him (which is a degradation of character no matter how much you froth from mouth 🙂) and YOU wrote me 3 different wholeass paragraphs and in one of them accused me of sending you hate. And you still do, despite the fact i had literally no reason to do so. wanna suck up to eruri fandom that bad, huh? you're so fucking stupid and SO obsessed with retaining that moral highground you SO CLEARLY jack off to, you're even letting eruris who hate you using you to get back at me. who do you think those anons and sock accs you're chatting w are? "this dumb bitch comes at me with insults and accusations" what a hilarious sentence! can you write one sentence without projecting so intensely that you need to be in a mental ward?

"self shippers are so jealous uwu" OHHHHHH MY GOD LMAO. the fucking eruri rhetoric of GRAND PROJECTION. NO fucking self-shippers gives a fuck to eruri you absolute dumbass 😭 entire discourse happens bc eruris harass them (and other levi shippers) bc of THEIR OWN JEALOUSY holy fuck!!! how can you be so fucking disgustingly biased? and even though you know i also like rivaere and have no problem w other levi ships, you're trying to use me as a scapegoat to "prove" self-shippers are "homophobic" and against "gay ships" start discourse with real levi stans bc some of them also didn't validate your ridiculously awful levi takes apparently. even though you also should be well aware tons of OC shippers also enjoy or don't mind eruri, you're literally attacking people JUST bc they disagreed with you in a previous discourse, just like what you're doing to me right now.

LMAOOOO nobody's crying anything you braindead loser, and the only one getting "curb-stomped" is your pea-sized brain trying to generate a sentence that doesn't have five contradictions and failing pathetically. "if they just left a sentence exactly like what i had in mind uwuwuwu i wouldnt have started to froth from mouth uwuwuuw how dare they accuse me of woobiefying levi when i obv woobiefy him uwuuuwu 🥺" LMAO nobody is obligated to treat your fragile ass like glass, not my goddamn problem you're so fucking pathetic you start losing you GODDAMN MIND when someone strays a little outside what you deem as acceptable. i didn't throw insults or anything at first either, i just said what it is: that you woobiefy his character, and you clearly can't stand being told the truth. Once again: you %100000 woobiefy him and resent people who don't agree with you. the fact you're THIS vitriolic towards people (thanks for showing i wasn't the only one, at least!) acting like i tainted your honor shows that enough. you literally wrote a "call out" bc of one comment which YOU turned into a fight. you lack introspection madly and you constantly project, so ofc you're just gonna spiral into another fit of rage when you see this, but you can't fool people who are unbiased no matter how much you blabber on 🙂

Ohhh lmao, it reaaaaaaally couldn't be more obvious you have beef with people who like top levi. that's literally it. Do you fucking realize how goddamn creepy you are when you talk about how i must want to get "smacked around" by a man just bc i said you were woobiefying him? You're a fucking freak. You have no idea what i even like (since you're so curious, i enjoy a wiiide range of levi) but this doesn't have anything to do with what we talk, you think people don't woobiefy characters they like as tops? bc it's SUPER common in most fandoms. the way you immediate resort to talking about people's sexual fantasies is freak behaviour and shows where your true problem lies. and what does this even mean "what the actual reality of Levi's sexuality would likely be"? Do you think people who have trauma can't be dominant? "Assuredly wouldn't enjoy sexual aggression" Why, were you in the room when he was banging people? That's just your hc you're pushing as canon, AGAIN. You want everyone to act like their hcs are just ooc hcs, but they have to accept your hcs as canonical regardless of how much bullshit they are. There's this insane push against *any* top levi content from eruri stans which they dub exactly as you do even though it doesn't reflect the fanon at all, and it makes it TOO OBVIOUS what your real issue is. Lmao, an eruri shipper who has a problem w ppl who like top levi, what a fucking surprise! 🙂

also this is from that @p-ssypink imbecile who's also obv an eruri

stop projecting and pulling discourse out of your ass. "forced masculinization" levi is already a hypermasculine character in canon, you clown. which probably makes you cry :^) and what does this have to do with homophobia? you think all gay men are feminine? pretty sure such stereotyping constitutes as homophobia. anyway, i said "my deal is im in love w him" bc that clown said something like "your whole deal is your hate for eruri rather than stanning levi" i think that message was cut from the og. obv loving a character doesnt make anyone an authority. but "every eruri is out to get self shippers bc they're ego-maniacal lunatics who cant separate fanon from canon and only see levi as a smol bean omega bottom to be protected" Yes, you got one thing correct, congrats! :) 👏🏻 That's exactly how %99 of eruri shippers are like and anyone who has been in this fandom long enough knows that. But "to be protected" is misplaced, since they mostly get off on degrading and torturing him. sometimes they just like to pretend they have any sympathy for him since they've been accused of being levi haters since ALWAYS, lmfao, but don't worry, i can send you a lot where they admit that too. and ofc, the pretend sadness fits right into their agenda with that sad pathetic little doormat levi they want.

anyways. am i homophobic or are people who consistently emasculate a character in %99.9999 of their fanon bc they think being feminine or bottom is degrading the ones who are homophobic? or maybe calling him the f slur constantly, you'd think qualifies? you don't think treating him like a "little twink who's only job is to get fucked" is fetishistic and homophobic, is that tooootally okay for you? What about bullying and mocking people who think differently and forcing their hcs on them, is that fine?

"inability to top" hmmmmmm i wonder how do these people see t/b roles and why they're so aggressive about them 🤔

plotting to get a levi/oc video down....kudos on that courage to admit that on their main! 👏🏻

there are so many, this was veeeeeeery hard to pick tbh but here are just few examples. and no, these aren't just one off events or "bad apples" and all of these people are known eruris, and some have thousands of followers. you may accuse me of "making hating eruri my entire online identity" which is fine and dandy. but ENTIRE eruri fandom makes their identiy hating on what they deem is a threat to their glorification fantasy.

as a bonus here are some multishippers who love eruri talk about the same issue being so common as well 🙂

i think it should be clear why :')

and @jayteacups saying this nonsense, idk if theyre just playing obtuse but lmfao. some people just don't know mentality in shipping communities enough soooo

having an OC/self-insert have NOTHING TO DO with what im talking about when i criticize self-inserting/identifying etc with a character. and what i'm criticizing isn't even the fact they self-insert into a character lmfao, it's the entire toxicity it brings, bc through overly identifying w some inadequecy of a character (in this case it's obviously the fact levi's more popular and attractive than erwin that bothers them) they grow jealous and resentful, bend canon to alleviate their insecurity + derive ego wank and attack others who don't validate them. as a result, practically all they do is degrading levi in every way and use him as a validation device (and other characters too btw, just look at how they treat zeke) to make erwin come off "superior", gatekeeping levi bc they can't stand seeing him w other characters, even real life fangirls, both out of possessiveness but also bc it ruins their narrative where erwin's the "conventionally attractive" one. that's the reason for the push against people who like levi in a "hetero" way (read: Top, masculine, alpha, daddy, het, whatever bc they think it translates into "conventionally attractive" lmfao, and precisely why they love bi erwin but NEVER bi levi). and this isn't just against self-shippers, they treat every other levi fandom similarly, and these ships also get mocked as "self insert ships". ironic considering their treatment of erwin puts early ff.net mary sues to shame 🥴 they can't be honest about jackshit bc it ruins their glorification fantasy where erwin has to be the one that ship is all about. they're the definition of "have my cake and eat it too", they act like they barely tolerate levi just for erwin's sake but bitchfight over him every second with everyone, depict him as a one-sided simp for erwin, try to alleviate their insecurity by reducing him to a loser doormat while doing the exact opposites towards erwin.

⬇️ gotta be pretty self explanatory lmfao

^ Very famous and beloved people among eruris

despite the fact there's a lot of pushback, they'll still argue tooth and nail that women wouldn't like levi and would prefer erwin. Why do you think this is soooo important to them? :^) ⬇️ lol wonder why they want him to convince ppl he's "feminine" so bad! almost like it's bc they see it as unattractive and degrading! but sure, we're the sexist homophobes for hating eruri fans, right? oh and the white supremacist rhetoric also so common - bc i've never seen anyone refer to being blonde in MEN as a good thing outside eruri fandom - since it's a feminine stereotype. "tall DARK and handsome", no? :') But they'll use ANYTHING just to make erwin look better, so they're pretend it's related to generic beauty standards rather than, idk, fucking rantings from hitler's headquarters. maybe some other day i should post them calling him aryan, hmmm....

look at how they act towards even their own (rare good ones lmao) artists when they depict levi in a conventionally attractive way, they bash on it and call it "hetero" hmmm :')

Oh oops they already said the quiet part loud! 😱But going around shitting on artists and calling levi "erwin's submissive little bitch" is okay to you, right?

By the way, one of the anons cosmicjoke made a fake acc to come at me just now on twitter bc i called out one of the eruris calling levi f*ggot. Apparently according to them it's just no big deal, that's just calling levi "gay". :') linking it bc too many pics: https://x.com/emeraldsas77759/status/1801556666556559451

Just a small taste of what eruri fandom is like, since most people here on tumblr don't have a fucking clue. Anyway cosmic"joke", what an apt name. Now, you can puke blood all over all you want like the useless, pathetic eruri ass-kisser you are and write few other novels for my sake! don't get too comfy with those erwin stans who are now sending you their love instead of harassing you tho lmfao!

(^ bc they said levi had a bolo tie of his own and MAYBE he wasn't wearing erwin's bolo tie in the FUCKING OFFICIAL ART LMFAO)

"don't ruin the rep of our fandom they're not eruris uwu" Familiar argument, isn't it? :') bc THAT'S what they do, creating ungodly amounts of toxicity, shitting on everyone, intruding in everyone's spaces, then when they get even a little pushback, they start screeching like little rats trying to shift the blame on others. These are the people you defend when you defend eruris. But hey, you can continue to suck up to them, try not to step one milimeter out of line tho, saying levi isn't erwin's dog may get you death threats. Have fun, goodnight, good luck! 😘

[transaccordionist]

So we recently found out we have DID (Luna thinks it could also be OSDD-1b but i don't like that diagnosis and will like mentally death glare her when she mentions it💅) (also Luna might be a bit unsure and Logica might say we don't because of just her mental health stuff, but I KNOW AND I WILL NOT ACCEPT ANYONE DOUBTING US!.......Hehe :3)

It's very tiring because of just everything that has happened lately and everything new we need to learn but like honestly? Girlie is having fun<3

I can't stop smiling when one of our friends notices me. She said she loves me (she's so sweet I'm gonna cry just thinking of it🥹)

Anyways! We might post a lot here about it as we don't have any friends and family here and Luna would kill me if I told everyone without us getting a diagnosis >:(

Me and Logica(they said they might change their name though) both are getting more and more separate from Luna with each passing day and I am just so excited to learn more about myself!

All I know for now is that I am a lesbian(gosh I love women), I hate men(though I hate non cis men less :3), I am 100000% a woman (I might be cis but I haven't gotten a lot of my memories yet :( ), and while I am trying to figure this out, I might not be aromantic like Luna! So exciting!

I have a feeling that I'm the oldest (Logica being the youngest) and Luna and Logica seem to think I fit a bit into the "caretaker" role? I mean I am the most responsible one and I do care for the two very much so maybe! I have called myself like a big sister but I don't know, I could be like a cool young mom. Poor Logica has more or less decided she will be the "protector" to shield me and Luna from mental and physical harm which is so so sooo sweet of her but I just wanna cry because she's such a sweet baby and especially when she talked about it, it was when talking about her being Asexual, like she's willing to go through getting sexually assaulted when sex disgusts her just to protect me and Luna? I wanna hug her and hold her and tell her it's all going to be ok, but I can't and I'm gonna cry about it😭

Also as you probably can tell, I'm the chatty one :P

Anyways I just needed to rant! Melody out!

-Mel~!<3

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IM PUTTING IN MY TWO CENTS HERE because I think the entire conversation about why people choose certain potions and routes within non-linear choice based game,s, or any game that provides some level of illusion of choice. I remember talking about this extensively in my Psychology class for Game Design, and though of course theres a multitude of reasoning, I think what peoples idea of fantasy or even coping is largely at play. I know one of your thoughts on playing questionable or morally challenging characters is because you already conform to a societal expectation to "be nice" or an upstanding citizen, and Honestly thats super understandable! Im not here to analyze anyone, but a good chunk of other people I talk to have some sort of revenge fantasy and I dont mean that in a bad way! Rebellion to rules that plague reality and the ability to let lose, or just an interest in consequences for your playthrough that dont actually affect you is another reasoning, albeit the rarer of the two options. On the otherhand, as someone who loves to make The Most Morally Good Characters, and is also a big baby when it comes to being mean in most video games, My "revenge fantasy" IS being nice, because we are all forced to tiptoe around the same sociteal expectations but even those on the other side dont have much power in helping people on a larger scale that video games allow! To be The Hero that helps as many people as possible, that has to power to fundamentally change the world for the better, that is a unrealistic reward of its own. And I know you also mentioned briefly how you see it as limiting, and I think to some people this might ring true of them allowing themselves to cave and actually enjoy the "morally questionable" decision making, however I think for the other half its not limiting? Its Highly Rewarding. Theres also something to mention in how Linear people are themselves, its much more common to hear about people replaying one exact route despite there being 100000s choices vs those who do every route imaginable, so the more likely someone is to lean one side esp in their initial playthrough, the less likely they are to want to go the other way. I HOPE THIS DOESNT COME OFF AS LIKE...A REBUTTAL, Its not! I think this is a genuinely facinating phenomenon that ive had to think and write about in school, theres so many layers to it Id love to discuss and love to HEAR discusssed so youre so smart for actually starting that poll bc Ive been enjoying searching through the replies of it

hfdsgfsdg Javi your enthusiasm is a TREASURE it most definitely does not come off like a rebuttal. And I think your points are really cogent and in line with what I've kinda been angling at, which is that they're two sides of the same coin of "indulging in a fantasy." And it probably makes me a bit of a hypocrite that I'm like "I just don't get why other people can't see the appeal of Doing Bad Things as an escapist fantasy!" even though I would also say with my whole chest that being the big damn hero who saves everyone and changes the world for the better holds absolutely zero appeal to me LOL It is truly just a matter of taste.

It's probably beyond the scope of a tumblr poll but I feel like an interesting follow-up re: people not choosing to behave badly in games, would be to ask people why. Like there's the obvious "it's usually not written as well/doesn't let you have the full game experience" reason which is valid, but of the remainder I wonder how many people would honestly say it's just not fun to be mean, and how many would admit that it makes them uncomfortable because they still feel the need to conform to societal standards even in their fantasy world. (I feel like this reads as me passing a judgment on either stance and I'm not! Just thinking out loud. In text.)

also lmao

Oh man I forgot to touch upon this in my initial ask BUT tldr; yes I think games that present themselves as choice based and yet lean heavily towards one morality (usually the good Guys) and dont give second thoughts to the other side, defeats the purpose of allowing players to play how they want. I think this is actually why the only game I like being morally questionable in is fnv, bc both "choices" actually present interesting outcomes. Theres also something to say how in games the good side rewards more which I think is stupid.

You are SOOOO CORRECT I think whenever I'm like "I think I just need to spend like 60 hours or so being completely feral" FNV is the first place I go.

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I'm kind of bitter about jungkook being singled out for the world cup with a possible solo song because he's conventionally Man and Het and the one people expect to like and enjoy football when that's always been jimin, who's also the best player too as far as we saw. But of course jimin has not been considered because he doesn't fit the mold. And I'm tired of jimin not being seen as a man enough, of being treated like lesser then, have the famous women treatment and insults thrown at him from everywhere. It's not fair

I wouldn't say I'm bitter, but it's more of the feeling like when you were expecting something and get something else lol. Pretty much the same as I felt when it was announced that With You would be a duet; I thought it was Jimin's solo but then it didn't turn out that way and I wasn't upset but there was that feeling of having to get used to something different than what you were expecting. I kind of feel the same way about the world cup thing because it was said at first that BTS would do the song, and obviously we all thought that it would be the whole group.

Now, Jungkook has always been BTS brand, if there's one way bighit could summarize BTS as a brand, it would be JK. He's quintessentially theee idol from his singing and dancing to his looks to the way he interacts with fans, it doesn't get any more idol. That's objective facts, and it's there whether anyone acknowledges it or not, maybe you don't like him as a person or whatever, but he is talented, that's what I mean by objective facts. And like you said, which is something I 100000% agree with, he's objectively Het and Man and commercially easier to digest than other members. Some people would even tell you he doesn't "look too Korean". Even if he turns out not straight, even then, his gender expression is not blaring any sirens and none of us actually know anything about his love life. So he's conventionally het, masculine, singer, dancer, attractive and hot, evasive enough to keep people interested but not actually telling, that's literally idol 101.

On top of that, he also has a lot of subjective elements "projected" (for lack of a better word) onto him, like he's the baby of the group, everyone loves a Jungkook ship, people see themselves in him because they see him as awkward, shy, gay, introverted, etc. Some people even think he's neurodivergent (which is a tremendous stretch). Idols kind of need to be a blank slate where people can see themselves reflected.

I've talked before about when there were news in 2018 that JK had bought his own apartment and bighit immediately put out a statement about how they "couldn't confirm". That was November 2018 and before that we already knew Taehyung, Yoongi, Jin, Hoseok had bought their own apartments and there were no statements about them but with Jungkook suddenly there was. This was when they were still "living together" on record, so I remember thinking they couldn't say the youngest had left home because then what happens to the happy family story? Mind you, late 2018 was the year almost everyone got their own homes and by 2019 they were already arriving to airports and schedules on very obvious designed sets that made sense with their known addresses (Hoseok+JK, Jin+Yoongi, Taehyung alone, sometimes with Namjoon, Jimin alone or sometimes with Namjoon too).

I strongly believe he was chosen by the company to represent the group in Qatar because of everything mentioned above, and he will probably keep being selected as the "face" of the group to participate in events that the group was supposed to participate in. Namjoon also fits a lot of what I said about JK, adding to that his position as leader and that he speaks English so I think he will be chosen to "represent" the group in the same or similar ways.

[nopeferatu]

i always feel so alienated when i see ppl talk abt the overrepresentation of tragedies within queer media and stuff bc while i do understand where ppl are coming from, i just enjoy consuming sad media in general lol so i cant truly relate to the frustration of not getting to see happy things.

and this isnt even me being critical of that argument bc i 100000% understand where it comes from, i 1000000% think its valid, studies have shown that queer people need positive representation to not feel so hopeless for their futures and stuff so like. i get it. i just like sad shit man! and i dont think we should stop having popular sad gay narratives altogether just bc of oversaturation.

i think its a hard convo to have bc we realize how rare the opportunity for mainstream gay media comes about and so i get that people don't want the "uber mainstream gay media" that happens twice a decade to be a tragic sad fest like they all are but i think maybe the answer is. we either need to change hollywood which is basically impossible OR we just like, stop looking to big hollywood studios for representation and start giving our money to independent studios who are making a lot of stories w queer ppl at the helm and stuff. because if we have a lot of different shows and films that involve queer people, then it wont matter if some of them are tragedies, and maybe then we can finally stop throwing groundbreaking queer media of our past under the bus and/or advocating for the death of queer tragedies when there are very much queers out there who love tragedies <- like me.

[inner-community]

i feel like... i have been dissociating so much more recently x_x which sucks because i was doing really really good - feeling like even without my meds and stopping therapy and doing more of my self-motivated work (art) i was doing really good and staying present...

i think it might in part be that we're still trying to get balance in zone out/fun/games mode when we're home but i am really feeling like it's just coming from avoidance (really stressed about multiple things that will require Many Steps to start. ik i should write down the steps but rn just having to DO multiple steps on smth feels impossible. and money is so sosososososososo stressful. i hate you tax season i hope all taxes are cancelled forever x_x i think the self employment tax should only kick in if you're making like. over 20k. haha.)

but yeah i really WANT to be doing aspirational things, i am doing better getting art done again after a while of not being able to do any... i just i just feel responsible for too much. and it seems unfair to make my wife take on more but i think that would be the best thing. im just stressed.

and i hate hate hate hate that i have to work on driving again because i have to - call the place i need to take my test at. study for and then do that test. talk to the dmv about my permit being suspended for my medicines i don't take anymore (they were making me get papers signed by my psych to say i can drive on them). THEN i can finally do the real driving class to get my license. i fucking wish i could scream and kick and throw a fit at the first lady who i did a driving test at the dmv with she was so mean. she claimed i was speeding when i was WATCHING MY SPEEDOMETER SAY I WAS GOING UNDER THE LIMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i just want to be able to drive so we can do all 100000 things that i specifically need to be able to drive for. (like my wife cant get a job if i cant drive her there. we cant move if i cant drive us and our things. i cant go to school this summer if i cant drive. it is fucking killing me and driving me MAD. its so much pressure that i think it makes me want to do nothing at all. because it feels like theres no tangible way to do all these things. AGH)

so i guess i just need to call the fucking place while im walking to work today. because also i feel so sososososososososo embarrassed talking on the phone at home. i dont want to be heard.

[almondbiscotti]

Stop It. Get Some Help.

I have a bad habit. (I mean, I have many, but this is the one I am going to talk about today.) I have billion and one places that I jot down notes for work. It is not healthy. It really is not.

I have no less than 4 separate notebooks that I take to meetings to note down meeting pointers. I have zero pattern as to what notebook I bring for what meeting or type of work. Literally, whichever one is the one that I see first on my table, is the one I bring along with me.

I also don't limit myself to physical notebooks. At times, I jot down notes on my OneNote application. Sometimes, I use the notes segment of powerpoint for my notes. Sometimes, I use rough paper that I have on hand. Other times, I use my phone to jot down notes. I might even sent notes to myself via teams messenger to myself. Variety is the spice of life right?

My point is, my notes are every bloody where. Now, you probably are thinking how the fuck does Nessa follow up with anything if her notes are everywhere? And to be honest, my memory is pretty good, and I am usually quite prompt with follow up so I can remember where things are and it's not that bad. I can nearly always remember the gist of what I note down so even I can't find it, I know it exists and will persist until I find what I need to find. So it hasn't really been a problem, at least not one big enough that I need to change.

But then today happened. I just spent 45 minutes searching for a set of notes on a meeting that happened earlier this month which I am 100000% certain I took. I was starting to wonder if I hallucinated the meeting notes because I flipped through ALL my notebooks, skimmed through ALL the papers I have on table, searched my frickin Whatsapp history because I thought I might have summarised the notes in whatsapp to my boss BUT ALL TO ZERO AVAIL. And we have a follow up meeting tomorrow and I really need to make sure I got my shit right fucccccckkkkkk.

Until I found it. I found the damn notes on my PERSONAL LAPTOP ONENOTE APP. LIKE WTF WHY. SISTER WHY. But the relief though. THE RELIEF.

I don't understand myself. I do not. Stop it Vanessa. Get some help. You need to get your shit together.

[benefits1986]

Salcedo x Binondo : My Kind of Yin-yang Sabado

Habang naglalaba at nagaalaga ng total of 4 babies ang Ravenclaw mom n'yo, kahit lumpuhan weekend, lalaban pa rin tayo kahit kanino. CHARAUGHT.

Slept soooo late kanina and had to drag myself outta bed because we had a series of revisits in the name of first too many firsts. Hahahahahahahahahahhaaha. Kalandian na naman po tayo but Shirakawago-kanal vibe. Can I just say, pagod na pagod na talaga ako pero gusto ko munang isampay 'yung mga damit ko para one less item off my weekend tambak errands list kasi bukas, dami pang gagawin, as in. Ginusto ko naman 'to, so KFINE.

Andami kong surprises today. Actually, sobrang simple ko lang talaga kahit parang ang arte, curated kuno and intimidating ako. SoKor x Japan x Baguio x Amazon from UK loot. WOOT. WOOT. As in. HUHUHUHUHUHU. Ang mo 'yung feeling na sobrang spoiled kong donut seeking for peace of mind szn ako? Ganun. Siguro kasi, sobrang dami lang din need to detox as we intentionally fill our glass. Need ko talagang mag-recharge as Haruki Murakami na: what I talk about when I talk about running. Pa-brainy 'yarn? Basta, ilang nare-read 'yung book. Hindi pa nabalik sa akin 'yung original book cover na version. So, ayun na nga. In fairness naman, ganda nung bagong cover kaso ang mahal po. As in. Ang mura lang nung previous edition. Going back to the loot. I got a bunso, my 4th baby as Ravenclaw pet mom. This time around, it's a Tamagochi na Harry Potter. HUHUHUHUHU. Pa-Xmas gift na raw kahit alam na scrooge ako. Sweet noh? Grabe talaga. As in kilig-kilig 100000 ako. Apaka babaw pero ganun talaga ako. Next is of course, a Royce chocolates. Hahahaha. Syempre, papaunbox ko sa frenny ko kasi namiss n'ya ako e and share sa office on Monday. TBH, I don't like chocolates except kasabay ng wine and cheese and cold cuts, so share na lang natin. Tapos tatay ko, wolfing them down e pinapapabawasan ko nga timbang kasi medyo mahina na pumadyak pero solid pa ring mambola. Hahahahahaha. Next is my Amazon pasabuy which is my crush Steven Bartlett's book, Diary of a CEO. Was hoping to get a signed copy sa pre-order kaso 'yung friend ko from London, hirap kausap. Hindi naman na ako choosy. Sana matapos ko 'to and ma-Venn Diagram ko kay Haruki Murakami. UGH. Ubos brain cells and ego na naman dito. Pero, gesi lungs for the greater good. CHZ. Forda bonus and the increase na pang-Wisteria szn x Oz hopefully next year. HUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHU.

And of course, the Good Shepherd ube jam from Baguio, my healing place na special delivery in Binondo today. Naubusan ako ng french beans na mura sooooo, next time na lang. Sanay naman akong mag-antay kahit madali akong ma-bore and mainip.

Was able to leave office work kinda early kahit may habols pa rin and arrived in Palanca around 8 pm for a reservation. Saks lang tbh. Pero okay naman 'yung attempt to fill the gap in the market ng modern Jap food, however, 'wag talaga magtitiwala sa TikTok at reels. LOL. Pero oks naman siya. 'Di na nga lang babalikan. Alam mo, madalas kasi, sobrang pa-indie ng mga food spots lalo mga Jap and SoKor ones. E hello, Dong Won and Hanakazu lang talaga malakas. Saka 'yung lagi kong nakakalimutang name na parang shady Korean resto sa Makati Ave area ang fail-proof.

Isa beses pa lang akong nag-Japan, pero, sobrang graphic ng food and culture and Kawaii comments sa akin, so tatak na tatak siya sa pagkatao ko. 'Yung 'di pa ako umaalis, kahit ikakahirap ko, gusto ko na agad bumalik ng mas marami pang budget na defying hyperinflation x 2 senior dogs + 1 kulit baby dog x 2 households. UGH. So ayun na nga. Jap restos in Pinas sobrang hirap niya pero dapat kasi nothing fancy. Ganun naman din mga walang magandang reviews and 'di trending local-approved spots sa Osaka, the kitchen of Japaaannn. Kaya sana lang, sana naman, makahanap na ako ng iba pang interesting na legit mala-Food Wars spots na Jap underrated spots in MNL. Nakakabore na e. LOL.

So ayun na ngaaa. Noong hayok pa ako sa work na akala mo pagmamay-ari ko ang kompanya kahit utusan lang naman ako, ganito siya. Drive at 6 am. Work until 12 midnight. 'Pag gusto mag-decompress ng kapurit na utak, sampa ng pa-Baguio sa Victory Pasay. Then, Baguio kagulo ng weekend. Balik Manila by 5 am then pasok sa work ulit ng 8 or 9 am. Ginawa po nating Tags ang Baguio for some time kasi nga, bobong nilalang pa tayo nung past life natin.

Or 'pag may work ng weekend, work until the morning and reward myself with Salcedo or Legazpi weekend market po tayo opo. May Cubao X or Antipolo drives, Pinto, Overlooking, Rizal, o kung anong pangtanggal shithole pa 'yan over the weekend ages ago. Tacca. Tapos balik sabak ulit sa Lunes. Pati long weekends, Christmas and New Year's Eve, work po tayo opo. Then inom ng malala. Then yosi. Then kain. Then kagulo. Then repeat... again and again and again. Kaya 'pag may work-related stuff akong natatanggap ng weekend, pet peeve ko 'yan. I cut it off. I don't wanna go there. Napagdaanan ko na kasi. Sorry... not sorry. Not anymore. Never again. Nakakaburn out. Nakaksuya. Kaya ko naman mag-work ng weekend, kung tutuusin lalo 'pag wala akong gala outside Manila lalo na ngayon, may AI na. HUHUHUHUHU. Full support ito sa org namin. IM LIKE OWEEEMMMM. Yassss, kween!

Pero, hindi siya sustainable. Parang gusto mo lang may patunayan. Bored ka lang. Or wala kang sense of work life balance. Or sadyang wala kang moral compass. Ako pinaguusapan dito a. I don't judge naman kasi basta 'di ako nadadamay. Kung baga, kanya-kanyang timelines 'yan.

Mahirap siya to be honest lalo 'pag tapos ko errands ko ng Saturday night. HAHAHAHAHA. Kaya lang, ayoko ng balikan ka-adikan ko kasi ang lala ng singil niya. Ang taas ng interest. Ang laki ng karma sa katawan at katauhan. DAMNNNGURLLLL. This morning, I revisited Salcedo, my first after pandemic and the dreaded lockdown. So much time passed, and seeing the OGs and the new breed is a mixed vibe. Salcedo started I think 2004. Not sure if legit top search ko kanina sa market mismo. Happy to back and happy to look back. :) And seeing the OG na expat (Madge) na ex-graphic designer turned baker and seller na machika in English with a twang, alam mo 'yung, malayo na pero, malayo pa. Also, 'yung solid na solid na paella negra na napaka mahal na, mhie. JUSQ. Pikitmata kasi nostaglic feeling ko in every bite. Lahat ng kamalian ko at kung ano mang progress ko kahit onti-onti pa ngayon, nagsama. Saka 'yung taho. Dalisay. Parang organic soy kinemerut siya. Saka basta. Iba talaga as a taho girly ang go-to, theoretically. May bounce yung sago. Hindi masyadong durog. Hindi masyadong buo 'yung pagkahalo nung taho sa baso. Sakto 'yung timpla based sa preference mo. Parang indie film shot so early in the morning. Kaka-Food Wars binge watch ko talaga 'to e o because of the four kinds of smokin' shrooms overload ito? :D

Sarap din kasi mag-people watch and social experiment na walang stimuli dito. As in. Mix of the 1%, the middle class and the masa. Para siyang Parasite, Pinas edition. LOL. Kaya, I keep coming back and saya lang kasi 'yung isa naming kasama as a probinsiyana, ngayon lang siya nakapunta and definitely, babalik siya with her hubby na super mukhang walang gagawing mabuti sa earth pero gentle giant na nagtanong kung saan ako nagpa-tat. Tapos nagpatat agad-agad ng Jap dream tat niya on the spot. Hahahahahahahaha.

Next, syempre, since busy talaga weekdays ko saka hindi ako nakakareply agad-agad sa personal PMs, hinataw natin today. Derecho Binondo after check out. Sana kasi may condo na lang ako sa area na 'to ng Makati kaso syempre, wala tayong pambili. LOL. One Salcedo Place ba 'yun or something similar or mas maganda apartment sa side ng Bosco pero 'yung hindi binabaha, please. CHZ. Ngayon din. CHAR. O, easy. Hindi ka nepo baby, mhie. :P

Ying-Ying po tayo for Binondo though bias ko Wai Ying. Ako lang 'yun. Pero in all honesty, mas maganda service and vibes ng Ying-ying. Mabait naman din sa Wai Ying kaso kakagaling ko lang doon a few months back with my travel buddies ata. 'Di ko na matandaan tapos 'pag umaabon, wala masilungan. E balmy day pa naman today in Manila.

Another first of many (LUHHHNDI MO. LUL.), I hope. :p Hahahahaha. And had the usual order pero tried out the Singaporean bihon something kasi nagkamali ng basa fog brain ko. Ganda pa ng table kasi framing is spot on tapos sakto hapon, wala ng rush masyado ang dayo crowd ng Binondo. HAHAHAHA. Next stop: photowalk in film early morning sa Binondo. United + craft beer + Daan Raon/Quaipo/Lawton. Bike in Intramuros pero ang lala ng pila ng Bambike. UGH. Kain ng ice cream sa Batalan ba 'yun. Oweeem. Basta dun. Then sunset in Intra + wine sa taas ng Bayleaf. Puro revisits ito. Putok na putok Strava walk edition dito. Photowalk ulit 'pag may energy pa sa Intra pero parang pagod na ako agad, tina-type ko pa lang ihhh. Basta dapat umayon sa weather na 'di biro makuha these days. LOLOLLOLLOLLOLL. Abangan. Need ko na yata matuto ulit mag-drive because ang arte ng mga babaeng independent pero pa-thirst trap na complicated overthinkers na hindi mo alam kung anong gusto andito naman ako FUCKKKKK... why not? :D Honestly, 'pag XX kasi, sobrang lala. Pati PMS nagkakaproblema agad. Tapos, ang daming drama. Tapos may side notes pa na: alam ko busy ka sa work kaya 'di ka nakareply... with pa-effect eyes. Aynako. Tusukin ko mata mo. Arte. Kainis. Puwede namang bullet points lang. Pero cutie chixxxxx kasi ihhh. I'm marupoklore talaga 'pag pa-sweet girl na flatypus. AHAHHAHAHHA. As in. Maroon heart pa. LOLOLLOLLOLL. Digital nomad pa ihhh.

Pero gusto ko na lang passenger princess Fiona, tbh. I fucking hate Manila drives kaya wala na talaga akong tiyagang mag-drive. Kakapagod tapos for sure 'di naman na puwede ang road rage and lit gas pedal. HAHAHAHHAA. Gusto ko na lang talaga 'di na lang ako magiisip at gagalaw kasi pagod na talaga mhie. LOL. Gusto ko na lang may maglalaba ng damit ko, magsasampay. Magluluto. Maglabas ng basura. Alagaan 'yung Tamagochi ko. Masahe ako pag stress ako. Tagalista sa grocery. Tagapamalengke ng sapsap. Taglinis. Tagayos ng kalat ko. Taga-gising ko. Tagapatulog ko. Taga-kalma ng delulu ko. Taga-ayos ng PL ko. Tagakain ng tira ko. Punasan ng kulangot ko 'pag tinotopak ako. Taga-hype. Pumalot ng poops ng 3 pet kids ko. Magpunas ng wiwi nila na sinasabay nila lagi sa meeting ko. Susunod sa lahat ng gusto ko ng walang reklamo, arte at drama. At syempre, super sungit ako kahit anong gusto, because Imma girl like that. Kuha na lang akong tambay na willing maging yaya-caregiver-driver noh? Ang mahal ng billable hours niyan for sure. Hahahaha. Kailangan ko talaga ng fundings na malala kasi andami kong listahan. Or baka gusto na lang maging plant na self-sustaining in this lifetime para less complications. :D :D :D :D Babaliw na naman meeeee. Saan 'yung ying-yang dito? 'Di ko na rin sure. ;P Bahala na lang si Batman. Pagod na meeee. Tapos na rin ang labada pero spin ko pa ulit ng 2x para mabilis maya-maya tuyo na. Then, pet babies kasi naiwan ko sila home alone since last night. Nagpapaawa na naman. Nagpapansin na naman na akala mo, buong lakas ko ng weekdays, nasa kanila na kahit gapang lusak mode na naman po tayo, pero go lungs para sa dog food at meds and maints nila.

Detox muna ako Sunday plus align meant sa calendars para sa work, para sa life. <3 Thank u, universe. You are sooo interesting this Q4. Keep it coming para hindi ako ma-bore.

[millenialfanfictionaddiction]

Hey mom! It's been a while but I just wanted to get this off my chest b3cause school drama sucks.

Basically I'm going to NYC for a competition but here's the thing, the last time we went on competition trip there were so many messes the teacher had to get involved bc it was THAT bad. And the thing is that I can already feel that something bads gonna happen between me and a girl I'll call, L. She basically went behind a very good friend (ill call em IG) of mine's back and sent their convo to their ex (L was friends with both IG and their ex) and then L also has an odd sense of humor that isn't really funny most of the time. AND THEN another girl from my group just told my good ass friend (call em A) that they "didn't want to work and that it all sounded too hard 🥺" LIKE GIRL YOU LITERALLY PAYED $1,400 DOLLARS FOR THIS TRIP AND NOW YOU DON'T WANNA WORK???!! BSFFR

AND IT GETS WORSE! I also JUST found out that my ex is:

1. on the school watch list for potential school 🔫er.

2. Spread PRIVATE information about TWO of his friends to other people and then proceeded to still call em his close friends, like what????

3. is a pathological liar

4. brought weapons to school

5. tried to break up his friend group for literally no reasons by making up lies about his friend group shit talking his friend (one od the ones he spread private info abt)

6. punched a 12 year old girl bc he disagreed with her and his ex-partner (ye she punched the little sister of someone he was dating, idk what went through his mind to do such a thing)

And that's all that I can remember at THIS moment. God knows what else he's done. I would’ve never in a million years dated him, had I known this.

Anyways mom, my life is 100000% hectic rn and I feel like I'm in the middle of a high school drama TV show. smh, wish me luck on NYC, I can feel that I'll need it 😔

First off hi Pluto!! It’s been a while for sure!!

Second off, wow.. just wow! That’s honestly so much to be going through! I’m so sorry you have to deal with all this stupid drama! It sounds like everyone is turning what could be a really fun time into drama which just ruins it for everyone!

Also you’re ex sounds awful! A lot of times we don’t find out things until after we’ve either A) left the relationship or B) been involved in all the crap surrounding it. Don’t blame yourself for what you didn’t know!

Also I wish you the best luck in NYC!!!

Side note: you can totally stop reading here if you’d like to skip my “mom input” 😅 I can honestly say I have no idea what is like being a teen today. I was a teen in the early 00s. Essentially “social media” and “the internet” we all know now, wasn’t like what it is now. I didn’t have a phone until I was 16 and I never had free internet access until I was in college. The things I hear about teens, the internet and just in life makes me feel like my teen years were a cake walk. It’s funny looking 15 plus years back and laughing at the drama that happened in high school and how it seems so insignificant. I really hope things settle down for you!