When I get old, I wanna be content and fun grandma.
I don't wanna argue with kids or control their life. I don't wanna be grumpy and always unsatisfied about things. I don't wanna be unsure about my own worth and scared of meating new people. I don't wanna complain about my health and everything being shit.
I wanna continue making lives of others pretty and fun. I wanna be kind and helpfull. I wanna continue to have hobbies and read books and invite friends over. I wanna cherish the decisions I made and people I met and each and every wrinkle I get.
Living a life without regrets is not possible for anyone. We fuck up, we make wrong decisions and we need to make peace with it.
I just wanna see it not like making bad decisions but making different decisions. Diverting a bit from a path I wanted to get to, like when you take a shortcut only to find the way is longer and harder.
But it still leads to the place you wanted to end up at, you just gain more experience on the way.
I wanna be content with my life.
World may be burning by that time, but still.
I wanna be myself to the end.
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mmm thoughts of private executioner!blade, who is high priestess!kafka's bodyguard. well, more like her guard dog, as many fearfully seem to think.
he is aloof and gruff and rough around the edges, his name capturing it perfectly. when in the eyes of the public he either keeps to himself or stands ready by kafka's side, but when out he lurks in the shadows ready and waiting to carry out her death orders.
you, yourself, haven't had very many pleasant encounters with him... if you can even call them that. that being said, you haven't had many pleasant encounters with anyone. notorious for your... less than pleasant disposition, for a lack of better words, you have more people who'd rather see you run through than those you can call a friend.
in a dog-eat-dog world, you had no choice but to protect yourself. that, however, ultimately became your demise.
"oh? so you're the one sent to kill me. can't say i'm all that surprised."
standing before you is the feared executioner. his sword is tucked inside the sheath attached to his hip, that ever-present dark swirl of an aura stifling the air. he doesn't say anything, instead opting to silently stare down at your slumped and worn-out form. you find that his gaze doesn't bother you; rather, it's oddly comforting knowing someone will see you in your last moments.
"i've never asked you for a favour before, so this will be my first and last request for you." in all honesty, you're not sure where this chattiness stems from. considering you're currently in a holding cell under the crime of attempted murder towards kafka (a poisoned wine you were most definitely framed for, though you can't say you were surprised) and are awaiting for your turn to be under the guillotine for your public execution, you probably should be a little desperate towards the private executioner in front of you.
and yet, your mind is nothing if not peaceful.
with a huff, you relay your request, "can you make sure it's quick? painless, preferably, but i'd rather you just get it over and done with."
silence blankets the cold chambers. moisture accumulated along the cobble ceiling drip in a steady rhythm, like a clock ticking away the seconds. it's unnerving, almost, how there is not a single sound other than your impending countdown.
"why?" comes his low mutter, effectively causing a ripple within the stagnant air. you almost think you misheard him, but his following words cease the thought, "why won't you ask me for help?"
had it not been for the abrupt shuffle and clanging against the metal bars, you would have never looked up to see him in your last moments.
his scarred hands gripping the metal until his knuckles turn a ghastly white and blood dripping from his palms is what greets your sight. as your gaze slowly trails up, you almost let loose a laugh of disbelief; who would have thought blade, the infamous guard dog of the high priestess, could make such a desperate expression? one looking as though his whole world crumbled before him, in which he can do nothing but sit and watch.
(you will never know of the anger and desperation which coursed through his veins the moment he heard of your predicament. had it been anyone else, he wouldn't have cared. but you're not anyone else; you're you — unapologetically, wholeheartedly. it didn't take him long to hunt down those behind it, cutting them down without thought and putting an end to their miserable lives. he rushed as soon as he could when kafka gave him the order, no thoughts other than you, you, you, occupying his mind.
you will never know of the anguish which overcame him when he found you in such a state, your once healthy complexion and defiant gaze reduced to nothing but a tiredness which had always sat quietly behind your disposition. he's almost positive the muscle which unwillingly keeps him alive tore at the seams from your request, the acceptance in which you displayed causing his mind to go astray. even as he damn-near begs you to rely on him for help — to run away with him to some place no one knows of you and start anew there — you merely smile, resigned and peaceful.
you will never know of how much blade is willing to put on the line for you, for you never made it to see the complete and utter carnage he wrecked in your name.)
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Apropos of nothing, there's something that's worth knowing about sequels and follow-ups - they don't typically happen unless they're pre-planned OR if the original work was a huge success. Since breakout successes usually happen because of luck, I think when something resonates with audiences such that they expect a good follow-up it should wait a while, build hype, and be crafted with considerably more care and experience than the original. Often that means experimenting, tinkering, and using new works to test certain creative concepts before committing to them in the anticipated follow-up. I think when artists/teams are given ample time and resources to do that experimentation, follow-ups generally turn out better than if they're just churned out immediately, lest they end up kinda samey and don't get to grow as much. And you get a lot of interesting other stuff to enjoy in the meantime!
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