#you can ignore this if you want

[forthehpfanboys]

My dad went back into the hospital.

I don't think I ever really posted about it, but about a year ago, my dad went into the hospital and had a pretty massive surgery. I won't go into major details but he did flatline on the table a bit before they finished.

Granted, he made it out alive and recovered but something's acting up again and he might be going into surgery tomorrow. We don't really know yet.

[taavisplushies]

i have a bad habit of spending all my money on stuffed animals. i’m going to try and stop. i have 2 coming in the mail, but after that i think i’ll be done. no more thrift store trips, no more mercari hauls, etc. i have no room anyway. my bedroom is crowded with plush. i should be saving my money for something important.

however…. i’m worried that i won’t be able to stop buying. it’s become some sort of addiction i think, like the joy when i get a plush is the only time i feel joy basically… so i’m not really sure how well i’ll handle not being able to buy. drawing used to give me joy as well, but i have an injury and can’t draw for a while.

i need to find something that brings joy besides buying plush.

(dw i’ll still be posting photos n stuff!! you just won’t be seeing any new plush for a while)

[spooksthescribe]

okay fellas

Today I found out that liking (❤️) someone's art is basically Tumblr for "I hate your art".

I had no idea.

I genuinely thought that I was doing the right thing, because I thought that liking people's art actually meant I like it.

But apparently that's not the case.

So sincerest apologies to:

@somerandomdudelmao

@donagotchi

@idiot-mushroom

@mishacakes

@elliwoods

@coffinpal

@fowlaroundtown

@hamburgrr/@squarefriend

My beloved friend @jthefruit

And many others.

You probably won't forgive me, which is alright (and I don't want to cause drama, though I accidentally might), but I am very sorry for making you guys think I hate your wonderful, beautiful and amazing art.

Spooks

[billygoat26]

I swear to fucking god I'm never gonna get a break...

Weekends are schoolwork for hours consistently

Weeks are non stop school work

I'm stuck in a program I NEVER wanted to be in and can't leave

I'm sleep deprived (that's my fault tho)

Emotions are a bitch (anger issues, depression, etc.)

And yet even if my mom knows about ^, she doesn't care. At least it doesn't seem like it.

And then she wonders why I never go to her for shit?! MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE IT ALL GETS USED AGAINST ME LATER!!

And I might have already lost a friend to suicide because my moronic ass didn't know how to respond to a message and I'm too scared to text and find out.

I just wanna be left alone, yet I want to talk to someone. But I feel like god forbid I talk to one of my friends about this it will be the same old story: they either don't know what to say (they legit say that to me... that shit doesn't help) or they don't take it seriously/ignore it.

I just want a break. Sometimes a permanent one sounds nice too. But what stops me from doing that? Ironically my friends and family. Actually, it's the same mind that tells me I'd be better off gone, but it's the thought of them being sad clashing with the thought of them not caring.

[savannahsdrabbles]

This is probably partially my period talking, but it genuinely hurts my heart to see how watered down Christianity is being made. Like it feels as if for a while people wanted to make it as palatable as possible to nonbelievers (ex: Christianity is good morals and being kind and loving!) And like… yes? But there’s so much more to it? It’s as if so many people are being fed only spiritual milk and picking and choosing what parts of the Bible they want to follow, when in actuality Christ called for us to lay down our lives and follow Him. People are foregoing the spiritual meat, and then just proceeding forward with floppy, halfhearted faith that is either empty or buckles under the slightest pressure. Just acknowledging that there is a God isn’t enough- it’s the bare minimum.

When being a Christian is boiled down to “God made you and loves you!” it ignores the facts that God is first and foremost the sovereign Creator of the universe, firmly in control of everything. Yes, God loves us and wants the best for us. Yes, He is holding us in hard times. Yes, He wants us to trust in Him. But He also calls us to follow Him. He says that if we love Him, we must obey Him. Being a Christian SHOULDN’T be easy peasy because it requires us to go against the crowd. Yes, we should speak the truth in love. But that truth is oftentimes not going to be popular.

My pastor quoted someone today - “Until sin be bitter, Christ will not be sweet.”

[half-oz-eddie]

I've been playing that stranger things candy crush (I always forget what it's called lmao) and I was sending characters on those investigations.

I wound up sending Billy and Erica on an investigation together, and I started imaging them going on this stupid investigation together. in my mind it was so funny and I started to love and adore Billy, and see him in a new way.

Here was the investigation. when I realized the two of them could go together, I was like "haha this is fucking funny" and this scenario popped into my head.

Erica and Billy are in the park observing the babysitter with a kid.

Erica: Do you think this lady has mind control powers or something? Billy: No, watch this. -glares at a group of children- hey, sit down. Erica: They're ignoring you. Billy: Sit down, you little shits! The kids sit down on the grass. Erica: ...? Billy: See? No powers, just the power of persuasion. Erica: You just scared those kids! Billy: Listen, fear is a power, it just isn't supernatural. Can we go now? I wanna grab a beer. Erica: You better not drink beer around me! Or while driving! Billy: Then you drive. Erica: I can't drive! Billy: Then shut up.

[sageiii]

Writing Enemies to Lovers

For an Enemies to Lovers romance to make sense, their actions have to be equal or justified. What I mean by this is that they both need to cause equal damage on the other's life, or whoever causes more damage needs a justifiable reason.

For examples:

A attacks B's sibling so B attacks A's best friend=equal actions

A does nothing and B kills A's entire family=Unequal and unjustified actions

A does nothing and B kills A's entire family BUT A's family is full of terrible people who are actively trying to end the world=Unequal but justified actions

This is important because in the 1st and 3rd example A and B can build a romantic relationship after both of their attacks, but in the 2nd example the relationship would be unhealthy and full of fear + nobody wants to root for a relationship where B is attacking A for no reason.

[crawledoutofmordor]

@hawkinshellraiser

"I was pretty sure I'm sober but now I'm not so sure...are you me?"

[wilbyscoot]

It's so weird how you could suddenly feel nostalgic out of nowhere, even when there is nothing that relates to your past. One thing that always brings me a nostalgic feeling is sitting in a room after it had just stopped raining. I feel nostalgic every time, one that makes me sick to my stomach but in a good and confusing way. It's a mystery how this always happens but I always think about it when it happens. It's sort of addicting in a way. I can't find what makes me feel nostalgic but I keep trying to. I don't know where it comes from and I don't know how long it'll stay but I want it to stay and I want it gone at the same time. It's nauseating but it's good. It's sickening but it's welcomed. It's scary but it's gentle. It feels warm and cold at the same time.

[ohnoitsthebat]

College related rant. Skip if you want

The job of an academic advisor is to advise, not judge. And really, if I don't ask you for your advice, then you really shouldn't be giving it to me unsoliticited.

A little backstory: I decided to go back to college last fall and get a degree in Early Childhood Education. I've had quite a bit of experience in that field, but had been having trouble finding steady employment, so I thought that getting a degree would help. My state also passed a law where education at any community college within the state was free, so I figured why not take advantage of it?

Fast forward to a year later. I changed my mind and decided that I'd rather get a certificate in the field than a degree, mostly because I just don't have the time to devote to classes, and I only needed 3 more classes to graduate with a certificate, anyway. I'm not saying there's anything wrong with getting an associate's degree, and I might do that in the future. But right now, I just can't work it into my schedule, and also, our new governor is a conservative dickhead, so he'll probably get rid of this program as soon as possible.

Anyway, when I talked to my advisor (who is also head of the field) about my decision to change, she did this tsk tsk judgey thing and said that she would recommend that I get the associate's degree, rather than the certificate, because the certificate isn't really "worth it". (She didn't come right out and say it, but basically implied that getting a certificate instead of an actual degree would be a waste of time)

Okay, lady, so are you gonna pay for my transportation? My books and other supplies? Cause yeah, the state pays for the classes, but only 2 at a time, which makes it impossible to graduate. I have to pay for my books, fees, school supplies, and gas money. Yeah, obviously I know that getting a degree would be better, but I can't do that right now. And who is she to judge me? I've also gathered, from the few conversations that I've had with her, that she is grossly conservative (she told me she doesn't like the word "deplorable" and what it implies....hmm, wonder why?) so I really want to spend as little time with her as possible.

tl;dr my academic advisor is a judgmental bitty who is trying to push me into spending more money than i have for a degree.

[brains4ne]

TW VENT

When you have a constant fear that you will be abandoned no matter how hard you try and how much you beg for that person to stay so you actively seek for attention crying for help and your scared of making friends cuz the thought of them leaving and replacing you is on repeat cuz it's generally happened so many times and you don't know how to stop it, I need the help to get better but I’m to anti social to talk to anyone in real life and I’m scared to take anti depressants since some of them make you gain weight and I already hate my body and looks enough I have to constantly cover it up with makeup or wear baggy clothes so I don’t look like the hideous pig I am I don’t know how much of this I can take I don’t know if I’m depressed or something but something isn’t right with me i use to be so happy a few months ago now my hair is falling out in clumps and I’m not eating as much anymore I don’t know what’s wrong with me and how I make it stop I just wanna be normal and not have these problems and whenever I am happy it comes to in a weird high where im hyper and I eat everything in sight for a few days then I loose it and return but to being just I guess “the normal” me. i try not to vent on here since I’m scared people will thing it’s a beg for attention but my friends basically all ignore me when I try to talk to them about this.

[excanadianbacon]

4 AM stir-crazy mix:

Lockdown by Rock Chse

Thunderstruck by AC/DC

Highway to Hell by AC/DC

We Didn’t Start The Fire by Billy Joel

Railway With a Heart of Gold (Cover by Nathan Sikora)

Levitating by Dua Lipa (Cover by JTWusky)

All I Want for Christmas is You by Mariah Carey

plrase help I need to go to sleep and stop mindlessly mumbling the lyrics to Billy Joel’s famed hot “we didn’t start the fire”

[unkownsimoperson]

I feel like I need to get this off my chest... (Vent?)

*inhale*

*exhale*

WHY ARE ZANE-CHAN(there was no black for Zane ( 'ω' )) SO FRICKEN CUTEEEE ?!?!?!?!?!?! \(≧∇≦)/ᵉᵉᵉᵉᵏ

Like the both look so good together. They've got the emo-kid- meets-cutesy vibe going on and I LOVE it!!!!

And it's the fact that they both understand each other so well, the both felt like outcasts from their family. And Kawai-Chan told him her real name AND HIM CALLING HER NANA IS SO CUUUUUTE!!!! (spoiler alert btw (ʘᴗʘ))

And their relationship has kind of like an enemies-to-lovers vibe (it was more like Zane was annoyed with her cuteness), and I'm here for it.

I only realised how amazing their relationship was when I rewatched Mystreet. Because my first time watching it I diverted most of my attention to Aarmau. But this time around, I paid more attention to the side ships, and I found Zane-Chan to be adorable.

The scenes where they would have a heartfelt conversation are what hooked me on this ship. Like the way they both felt comfortable enough to share how they feel is just... *chef'skiss*.

o(〃＾▽＾〃)o Thank you for coming to my ted talk.

Have a nice rest of your day, goodbye.ヾ(〃^∇^)ﾉ

[titan-god-helios]

i would like to take this moment to say:

fuck you. fuck you for being perfect. for giving me everything i could ask for and more, for accepting me like no one else, for letting me bare my soul to you and baring yours to me. fuck you for being so wonderful. so caring. so gentle. fuck you for being so good that i cant hate you or even trick myself into hating you to get over you. fuck you for being my corner of the world and being safe and loving and warm and then having to leave me out in the open with people all around, no corners to back into. fuck you for having a good reason to leave. fuck you for coming to me when it’s just simply the wrong time. fuck you for giving me a taste of something i will never have again, at least for an extremely long time. that if i want to chase again i need to build up from the ground with someone new. all while thinking constantly about how they’re just a shittier version of you. when i was with you, my entire being resonated with this warm hum of just rightness. you felt right. and now it’s all wrong wrong wrong wrong. and i have to wonder, will we ever be ‘us’ again ? is there even the smallest chance ? fuck you for being mine, when i never deserved you. (now replace every “fuck you” with thank you, and you’ll see both sides of how i feel.)

[astronomical-bagel]

when the nonverbal protagonist is nonverbal

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]