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I just booked my appointment for my first steps into HRT!!!

I need to get assessed by a mental health professional and if they give me the greenlight then I start! Im very excited!

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I forgot my heart burn med for one night and now im suffering

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Hey yeah so fun fact, DID doesnt require blackout. Stop fucking spreading misinformation. And before you get pissy

This is diagnostic criteria of DID.

Source: DSM-5 TR (330-331)

(I cut the separation of pages out for clarity and organisation)

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GUYS I WAS WORKING ON MY HOMESCREEN AND FOUND OUT OCTOCON HAS A FRONTING WIDGET??? WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME??? SIMPLY PLURAL UP YOUR GAME SO PLURALS CAN HAVE IT TOO!!! DEADASS ID THEY GOT RID OF THE BACKGROUND ID DEADASS USE THIS

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Meme dump

⚠️⚠️⚠️ tw for Eating Disorders, fakeclaiming mentions

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Pro endo Traumagenic DID haver here.

Love you endos frfr :) always so kind and sweet

Pro endos can have did

They aren't faking by default

Love u pro endos you all awesome, you lovelies

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THEY GOT BACK TO ME OMG GIYS I CAN TALK ABOUT PLURALITY AGAIN!!!

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Rip mine is the guy from mortuary assistant

Can you do one which is like 'your recently saved charachter in your gallery is in the living room with you how cooked are you'?

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My feeling is this:

You can have sexual feelings while Age regressed. But you are in a mental state where you are vulnerable. You are in a place where you are younger and need to be taken care of. By a caregiver going ahead and doing something sexual with someone regressed, you are perpetuating and re-instilling that their child self is desirable and sexualised. This does not heal trauma and can make it worse.

Age play is when someone in a consenting and adult state of mind acts as a child and does sexual things. This can be resulting from trauma but is not the same as age regression.

I genuinely do not believe that someone age regressed can consent especially if age regression is involuntary or hard to control.

ardyn - this might be a hot take but i think its very possible for age regression to bring sexual feelings. yeah its a coping mechanism. you dont think this coping mechanism can be used by sexual abuse survivors, and because of how trauma works it might make them hypersexual while regressed? i also think its possible for nsfw age regression to be separate from ddlg, not that i have an issue with kink, i just think its possible

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Fakeclaiming in system SA is about to make me actually crash out and take some people with me. Shit makes me violently upset.

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Due to recent posts on r/sc I want to make a very open statement

Tw: SA, CSA, invalidation of trauma, and in system SA

In system sexual assault happens and is typically the product of repressed trauma and replaying the trauma for some reason or another. Outside of this, I'm not an expert but theres no way its fucking real. Its happened to us in two ways. The first way was through the body, partial possession of the arm and the other was inner. I could physically feel it in my body. Maybe its some type of pathological tactile hallucination but that doesn't matter because

In the end, it still causes trauma. If it walks like a duck, smells like a duck, acts like a duck then its probably a fucking duck.

Now before someone says that im making fun of real sexual abuse victims, Id like to offer for you to shut the fuck up. I was sexually abused by a partner for 4 years and then I was violently assaulted by a stranger at 11 years old. I know what sexual trauma is and is like. I know what it feels like to have my autonomy stolen. I felt the exact same when I was sexually abused by an alter. Its possible and its real and its fucking valid.

I cant fucking stand this shit. You wanna know why? Because imagine carrying the assaulter with you everywhere you go. You dont get to rest, breath, exist without knowing it could happen again but now its actually realistic. It can happen anywhere and everywhere you go. You wanna argue its self harm? Is self harm involuntary? Is self harm something you fear like a predator stalking you? Just because you dont fucking get it, doesn't mean that its making fun of sexual abuse. Hey, let me ask this. If i have a dream of someone violently sexually assaulting me and now have the same level of trauma that a sexual abuse victims has, what's the fucking difference?

Mf piss me off. Its just ableism. Its just "your trauma isnt as bad as mine" and "your trauma isn't real". Which one is doing the trauma Olympics again? Because it sure isnt the people who just want to be taken seriously.

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Ive messaged support about the shadow ban over a month ago and more since. THEY STILL HAVE NOT GOTTEN BACK TO ME. Idk what to do.

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Guys ive been shadow banned since may 6th or smth. I just want my shit to be seen again

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Can we normalise having management as a goal for DID, CDD, OSDD, etc? Why do people act like integration is the only healthy goal for a disordered system?

What if I dont want to fix what isnt broken?

What if I dont want to live like it isnt my experience?

What if I dont want to hide it?

What if I want people to accept this form of neurodiversity as it is and not make me pretend its not there for their comfort?

Not all dissociative systems are dysfunctional and that doesn't take away from the dissociative systems that are. Your goal can be integration but why does mine HAVE to be for me to be valid.

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I said it before and I'll say it again.

Thinking you have to be ridiculed and validated by a doctor just to exist as you is directly contradictory to the idea of anarchy.

Thinking self diagnosis is invalid is the result of hyper capitalist ideals and is directly contradictory to the idea of anarchy.

Thinking human experiences are invalid unless medical research which is typically funded by the rich or the government backs up that experience is directly contradictory to the idea of anarchy.

You cannot be an anarchist punk and be anti endo / anti self-dx / anti human experience at the same time. Being such is against the fundamental values of anarchy.

made some angry little user boxes >:)

feel free to use !! credit not necessary but appreciated

-malachite he/it/shi/lyr/they

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Despite all of my rage, im still just 300 rats in a cage