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sex is great but have you ever had someone understand your attachment issues? yeah me neither missionary it is slow, tender, the kind where foreheads touch and eyes say all the things our mouths are too scared to.

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I want romance. I want laughter. I want the 3am love making. I want consistency. I want loyalty. I want the random looks of admiration. I want to know you're just for me. I want date nights and flowers. I want truth. I want priority. I want love that's pure and calming.

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Let me lay you down and run my hands along your body <3 studying every perfect hill and valley under my fingertips before letting my mouth join them. Softly kissing any skin I can reach, letting a occasional bite slip through just to surprise you. Your body is mine love :) now let me take care of it. I’ll play nice, I promise.

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Currently suffering from forehead kisses deficiency :))

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Sometimes I want to kiss you, hug you ,choke you , slap youu, fuck you , sit on your face, make out w u all day , cuddle w u, scratch you and the other times I don't want to get touched at all.

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Hurt a man by using anything but never with words :))

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I read a post of @manincaffeine and I realised another thing. There are also certain points of life when you blame yourself for everything and digest even the worst possible treatment from others, thinking that you deserve it.

There was this short period of time in my life, when I went through such a mental turmoil. I was hardly keeping up, everything was going south in my life, I was already hurting myself mentally and during that time, I saw many people treat me like I'm just a rag doll to use and throw away when done. But I thought that I deserved it all. I thought I'm withered enough to be treated that way.

But now I realise, I didn't deserve any of that. I was at the lowest point of my life and I was supposed to be taken care of instead of being used. Now that I've realised what my close people really take me as, I've reduced my already tiny circle of "loved ones".

And yes, there will be many parts of your life when you'll be draining yourself and people will do the same and you'll think that it's fine and normal. I would say, it's a part of our life. Life isn't all rainbows and charms. It has its own raw, ugly and aching parts. And we humans, can't really eradicate them totally, because without experience, a human is nothing but an empty tin can. But again, you should acknowledge that people are sucking the life out of you before it's too late and safeguard yourself from leeches who come out to be your close people.

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Sometimes, so much happens to you that you don't know what the hell is going on. I have lived through that phase. I guess we all have. It started with one person, a betrayal, a lie, and a heartbreak. And like a ripple effect, I found pain in all the other people and things as well. Somewhere, I blame myself too. I could have handled it better. I could have been more mature, more patient. But that's the thing about pain. It makes you go insane. You act on impulse. When you feel that seething pain in your chest, you don't sit and think logically. You just vent out. You feel so helpless, so alone. You feel as if everything and everyone is against you. You just lose that hope, that trust. You do the most wrong thing for yourself and your loved ones.

And that thing scared me. I was hurting other people around me too. I was so unfair to them. Even their harmless jokes used to trigger me into madness. I used to get so pissed at them for the silliest of things. I convinced myself that they were making it worse for me. But now I realize. It was never them. It was always what was burning inside me. I could not handle that rage, that pain, and that frustration. I wanted to blame someone, everyone. And that's why I pushed everyone away, even the people who loved me. I never hated them. I was just punishing myself more, maybe, weird, right? Or maybe I was just protecting them from the flames that were consuming me. I was just saving the people I love from myself.

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Nothing beats lazy makeouts and giving head while watching a movie >>>>>>

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Taking a life decision is really hard sometimes. After years of gap, getting back into studying feels tough. Leaving the city where I spent all my childhood and for the first time, leaving my parents behind to move to a new place and chase something bigger… it wasn’t easy. But yeah, I finally did it.

Idk where this decision will take me, but Im sure I’ll learn a lot from it. Here’s to starting a new chapter.

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Can we just live together and fuck every morning and night and afternoon and every single second of the day

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there is a lot of intimacy in never speaking again

like a final secret shared in silence

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I want a long vacation with no responsibilities and gross sex with someone who cares about me

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kissing that girl who overthinks things. mwwwah.

right on the lips no more overthinking for you beautiful

[manincaffeine]

Never kiss someone on the forehead, if you don't want to keep the person by your side, kisses on the forehead are a promise.

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ANYWAY i wanna go on cute lil dates and have incredibly disgusting yet loving sex with someone i adore who also adores me pls god

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In the era of clubbing , let's just sit together watch the rain, hold hands, have endless talk and call it a date?