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I want to be morning skinny all day

Do you have tips on portion control? I can keep up small portion always until noon and then I'm so hungry, i eat thrice what I intended ?? :C

tbh it’s a process, my evening bloat was my morning skinny just a month ago.

I would recommend splitting small portions through the day, like meals but wayyy less, i do that bc i dont like fasting lol

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hii guys, i’ve been really off lately due to tests and life… i dont promise a comeback but i still try to check on tumblr sometimes. Anyways i got a 91% on MATHS!!!!! and 90% on history!!

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300 followers, felling famous 💀

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when theres no food in ur house that you wanna eat😍💕💕>>>>>>>>>

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sorry ive been so offline, my phone broke and i had to get it fixed, im back noww

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What kind of meals do you usually eat?

usually i eat some low cal toast and eggs (i posted abt it), pancakes, and some rolls that i don’t know the name of, and they’re 100-200 calories (kinda high but i need to get my intake up)

it takes a while for me to get actually hungry so i don’t eat much throughout the day, but i prioritize eating before my fast so it can be a bit easier lol

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A weird side effect of starting this account. I'm now convinced I need a heart shaped bowl.

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TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! 😭❤️

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this might be long... sorry 😅

So I don’t know if you need a trigger warning but here it is: calories, weight, food, etc…

It’s weird because I started trying to lose weight in mid June (then i was 234 lbs 🤮)

and then 3-4 weeks ago I’m getting more and more obsessed over calories eaten and the ones I’m burning by walking A LOT and swimming. (I've lost 36 lbs so far since I’ve started). 

I’ve even made another blog about these kinds of things. 

Over the last 3 weeks it’s all I can think about.

And I’m getting more and more anxious about food, especially if I don’t know what I’m going to have (calories and stuff).

Even thinking about fasting and stuff (i've done a 24 hour one today).

And I’m anxious about that cause I tend to obsess over things and numbers a lot in general so…

The thing is… I don’t want to be thin though

Just Very slim I guess idk

But losing weight feels good.

And people are starting to compliment me/notice.

I don’t notice any difference though…

But having said that, I don’t really want to stop what I’m doing.

Am I developing an ED?? Or just overreacting?

I don’t think it’s just me saying this but you def have an ED, bc EDs aren’t just about wanting to be skin and bones, it just varies between people.

And normally people say “i just want to be comfortable in my own body” but even if they lose 100lbs they still feel “fat” and want to lose more, this is the dangerous part about having eds, and thats prob happening to you, seeing that you lost A LOT of weight and even people are seeing differences and you aren’t… (or maybe not but just trying to help you)

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GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IN LESS THAN A WEEK????????????? THANK YOU SO MUCH YALL 💕💕💕 😭😭

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had the best day today!!! prob had 800-900 cals but i DIDNT COUNT 🥺!!!!

(i don’t actually want to recover but this was a very special day to me 😊)

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guys i just did a 18 hour fast and forgot to mention lol

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So this might be a stupid question, but how do you know if you’re developing an eating disorder/tendencies?

honestly that’s a really good question!!!

here goes a really informative post with all research made by me:

you may have to look at some behaviors and attitudes like:

- extremely frequent dieting, and control of food becoming primary concern;

- insecure and worry with weight, calories, carbohydrates and fat grams(others too);

- refusing to eat certain foods (fear foods), and restricting against whole categories of food (like carbohydrates, dairy);

- looks uncomfortable eating around others;

- food rituals (eats only a particular food or food group, excessive chewing);

- skipping meals or taking small portions of food at regular meals;

- extreme concern with body size and shape;

-frequent checking in the mirror for perceived flaws in appearance;

- wanting to look unhealthily thin;

- wanting to fast and doing it for unhealthy periods of time (varying from days to weeks).

Now some specific Eds to separate each one! (some may have the same characteristics as others)

4N0REX1A NERVOSA:

- may dress in layers bc of insecurity;

- extreme worry with weight, food, calories, and dieting;

- some make frequent comments about feeling “fat”;

- wanting to have a body weight inappropriate for their age, height, and build;

- presence of packages of l4xatives;

- drinks extreme amounts of water or non-caloric beverages;

- maintains an excessive, heavy exercise routine.

BUL1M14 NERVOSA:

- evidence of binge eating, including disappearance of large amounts of food in short periods of time;

- also evidence of p^rging behaviors, including frequent trips to the bathroom after meals, signs and smells of vomiting;

- presence of packages of l4xatives;

- drinks extreme amounts of water or non-caloric beverages;

- does self-induced v^miting;

- dental problems, such as cavities, discoloration of teeth from vomiting, and tooth sensitivity(bc of the above);

B1NG3 EATING DI1S0RD3R (BED):

- secret recurring episodes of binge eating (eating in a discrete period of time an amount of food that is much larger than most individuals would eat);

- feels lack of control over ability to stop eating;

- feelings of disgust, d3pr3ss1on, or guilt after overeating, or feelings of low self-esteem;

- may steal food;

- evidence of binge eating, including the disappearance of large amounts of food in a short time period.

OTHERWISE SPECIFIED FEEDING OR EATING D1S0RD3R (OSFED):

Because OSFED has a wide variety of eating dis0rd3red behaviors, any or all of the following symptoms may be present in people with OSFED.

- frequent episodes of consuming very large amount of food followed by behaviors to prevent weight gain, such as self-induced vomiting or st4rv1ng (fasting);

- evidence of binge eating, including disappearance of large amounts of food in short periods of time;

- self-esteem overly related to body image;

- extreme dieting behavior (reducing the amount or types of foods consumed);

- expresses a need to “burn off” calories taken in;

- evidence of p^rging behaviors, including frequent trips to the bathroom after meals, signs or smells of vomiting;

- presence of packages of laxatives or diuretics.

AVOIDANT RESTRICTIVE FOOD INTAKE D1S0RD3R (ARFID):

-limited range of preferred foods that becomes narrower over time (like picky eating that progressively worsens);

- fears of choking or vomiting;

-may have no body image disturbance or fear of weight gain.

RUMINATION D1S0RD3R:

- repeated regurgitation of food for a period of at least one month. Regurgitated food may be re-chewed, re-swallowed, or spit out.

Other Food & Behavior Concerns:

ORTHOREXIA:

- cutting out an increasing number of food groups (all sugar, all carbs, all dairy, all meat, all animal products);

- an increase in concern about the health of ingredients;

- an inability to eat anything but a narrow group of foods that are deemed ‘healthy’ or ‘pure’;

- may have body image concerns.

C0MPULSIVE EXERCISING:

- Exercise that significantly interferes with important activities, occurs at inappropriate times or in inappropriate settings;

- intense anxiety, depression or distress if unable to exercise;

- Exercise takes place despite injury or fatigue.

This is just my research and my own and other experiences, if i missed/used wrong information please let me know! 😊

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i love planning so much that i could detail every single thing for every day for my entire life…

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i had 800-900 cals today and started another fast at 3pm, prob going to break it at 11am (20 hour fast 🙈)

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what. the. fuck.

guys is this real? 😵

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ive been so depressed lately… having a alcoholic and manipulative mom is draining af ☹️