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So.

I live in New Zealand, and am on my last year of school - yippee! We have a 2 week break at the moment, and I thought to myself that this would be a good time to get on top of my mess of a life. Therefore,

Since Monday I’ve been waking up at 6:30am, eating SUPER DUPER healthy, working out (a lot) and following a strict skincare routine.

However, this evening I went to Korean barbecue with my friends, and got a massive vegetarian noodle dish.... Then, after that, we went to “The House of Chocolate”... (all you need to know about that place in in the name).... I ate so damn much...

I mentioned in my previous post that I have struggled with anorexia in the past, and right now, I am so tempted to go back to my old ways.. to not eat anything tomorrow, or the next day, while excessively exercising... I would love to say that I’m not going to do that, and that I’m going to continue with my healthy goals. But I can not pretend that I didn’t just consume 3000 calories or more. I feel so guilty.. and that’s the honest truth..

I am having a constant battle within my head... I regret everything. Help.

I hope someone can relate to this in some way..

I would love to be a person to advise people on what to do when they feel this way. But i can’t. Im still here myself... sitting on my bed, in my little caravan, crying over extra calories..

[myemotionsuck-blog]

NOTICE ME SENPAI

Sorry.

Just took a third pill of melatonin. Should probably be drifting off, but instead I’m sitting on my bathroom floor thinking of nothing.... I really need to have a shower..

procrastination Is a beautiful thing.

I’ve been on Tumblr for a while now for shit like pro Ana stuff.. I’m past that now and thought I’d make a dairy of thoughts through a new blog. Let’s think of this as a fresh start xx I’ve been told I need counciling, but instead I’ll just take meds and use this as my outlet.

Feel free to follow me if you want, I don’t mind. Just be ready for my emotions drowning your feed. Although, I’ll try to make every post worth something, so you can relate and chat about crap and stuff.

xoxo