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Tw: Vent, gender dysphoria, being overwhelmed?

Sometimes I hate being trans/nonbinary so much. I am one of the lucky few that doesn’t experience dysphoria very often, mine mostly comes in waves but during that time it can be very overwhelming. My body doesn’t feel the way it should and when I look in the mirror my face doesn’t look like myself. (I don’t know how to describe it, it just doesn’t look like how I know my face is and it scares me sometimes)

It sucks because I don’t really have anything to help it? I’m not able to get any sort of binder as I’m asthmatic and find it would be a risk to my breathing, but my mother also won’t let me get trans tape because apparently it’s a risk of cancer? (I don’t understand her reasoning for that one) so I’m basically just left to wait it out until it temporarily goes away, while also trying to keep my anxiety in check as well.

It’s just shitty at the end of day, my thoughts tend to spiral more then usual during times like this and along with my anxiety and everything else, it just gets to the point that I want to scratch my skin off because I can feel my clothes on my skin and I’m too overwhelmed to deal with anything.

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born to write the beginning and ending, forced to write the middle part.

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Dazai: Is there any value to this thing we call living?

Also Dazai, literally a day after meeting Chuuya: Suddenly the idea of living sounds very pleasant

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HAPPY TRANSGENDER DAY OF VISIBILITY!!

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Just finished watching Ghostbusters: Afterlife AND I LOVED IT SO MUCH! THAT WAS SUCH A GREAT MOVIE! Love Phoebe so much <3

Going to watch Ghostbusters: Frozen Empire in the cinema at some and I really hope it’s just as good

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⚠️ The Magnus archives Ep 3 “Across the street” spoilers ⚠️

THAT EPISODE JUST SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME JESUS CHRIST?! “Not-Graham” staring back at her in the window?! My heart literally stopped. The other two eps I was completely fine with but DEAR GOD.

The “keep watching” in the notebooks?! I wonder if the others where all like that as well? Graham obviously knew about whatever the hell “Not-Graham” is, which was probably why he was so paranoid all the time.

In other news, I’ll be taking a short (few hour’s) break and watching some comedy! (Seriously tho I’ve really enjoyed the first few episodes! despite the fact I’m now paranoid about looking out my windows 🙃)

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Thank you to everyone who replied! I didn’t realise it was that easy since I’ve never delved into anything similar to this and was afraid there would be loads of sub-category’s, but I will definitely be starting it soon!

How would I start the Magnus archives? I’ve been wanting to get into it recently but it seems complicated so does anyone have any tips?

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How would I start the Magnus archives? I’ve been wanting to get into it recently but it seems complicated so does anyone have any tips?

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me writing angst: haha this is fun I hope someone cries reading it

me when my favorite show has even the slightest bit of angst: OH NO

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Me writing a scene with two or more people of the same gender and trying not to get the readers confused, while also trying not to overuse the characters' names or epithets

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WHY ARE THE NSFW BOTS BACK?! I THOUGHT WE GOT OVER THIS

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I’m a bit late but I’ve had no signal up until now (I don’t even know if this will post) but huge congrats to Amisey for hitting 1 million!!! Aimsey has been a huge help with my gender identity and mental health over the past year even just by being so transparent with everything and I can’t thank them enough, they deserve this so much! 🖤🎉

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I opened the app and this is the first thing I saw….AIMSEY CAN I HAVE A MOMENT PLS??

sorry man i can’t hang out i’m busy thinking about how icarus fell in love with the sun but didn’t survive it. yeah man it’s gonna be all day.

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This sadly got muted on TikTok so NOW ITS HERE!! (Ps: sorry Michela’s part is shorter, the audio was shorter then I thought it was!)

Find more of my stuff on TikTok!

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This is an old edit from before I made a watermark that I apparently forgot to post over here SO YOU CAN HAVE IT NOW!!

Find more of my stuff on TikTok!

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Ok just watched “The darkest minds” movie and absolutely fucking loved it. I love anything to do with powers and the way they did it was just 🤌 also didn’t realise how much I liked dystopian things (I should have done considering how much I like the hunger games movies) but now I’m wondering if I should get the the darkest minds book series and read it, anyone have any opinions if it’s worth it? (Also any recommendations to similar films?)

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Random generation loss drawing I did all the way back in June! This is my favourite and one of the best drawings I’ve ever done!