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[skinwalkee]

i’ve gained 15 pounds since he has last saw my full body and i hope i die

when he sees me and i don’t weigh 130 anymore he’ll hate me

[skinwalkee]

just told my boyfriend about terrible things i’ve done in my past and i feel like i ruined everything and he sees me differently now i feel so bad

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I keep trying to change my looks (hair colour and cut, makeup etc) and I think something is just wrong with my face.

[skinwalkee]

tips that aren't the same list from 2006

you know exactly what dumbass list I mean, and none of that shit is practical, it's giving uwu ana butterfly and we all know it

hi, I'm angel, I'm a nutrition major, and here are tips to keep yourself safe and hide your eating habits that actually make sense. this will not be in any particular order, but

avoid ketosis. i know, i know, you heard it burns fat faster! it also makes you smell like a dog rolled in sharpies and makes you stupid. i'm not kidding, you will be slow as fuck. avoid keto at all costs, carbs are better and healthier than being caught and dumb

take electrolytes and pay close attention to your potassium intake. if you neglect this, you will damage your heart and muscles and run the risk of having a heart attack. i use liquid IV because I have POTS and need the extra sodium, but that brand is also good for ED-havers because it has extra b vitamins

take ultra strength prenatal vitamins. they contain extra folate, fish oil, and dha, all of which are necessary to protect your heart and brain when you're not intaking much food.

For other supplements, I recommend Metamucil to keep your bowels going, iron, vitamin c packets (will make the iron absorb better, I personally use the +immunity ones), b-complex, calcium-magnesium-zinc, and vitamin d. Make sure the b-complex contains b-12. Feel free to send me an ask or dm me for dosages because some of these will depend on where you live geographically or what food you are eating.

find a protein shake you like. I'm a muscle milk bitch personally, but fairlife, premier, etc, are all good. make sure it isn't a meal replacement shake, and make sure it contains at least 20g of protein. these contain vitamins beyond protein that will help you stay healthy. the protein will also keep you full. i recommend using it as milk in coffee because the coffee will also suppress hunger and act as a mild laxative without harming the bowels. don't take your iron along with this, as dairy will hinder the absorption of iron.

don't take laxatives. you're going to give yourself IBD. maybe once a month as an extra cleanout you can do a little miralax, but the natural route is always better. regularly drink coffee and drink specifically senna green tea, they're both natural laxatives. the metamucil i recommend will also keep you going. if you need a bigger laxative effect, blend a whole peeled and seeded orange, a few inches of peeled fresh ginger, juice from a whole lemon, add a tsp each of cracked black pepper and turmeric, blend with coconut water until it's a thin smoothie consistency. drink that, you'll be good.

the best thing you can do for yourself is hide your behaviors behind health food gym girlie orthorexic behaviors. nobody takes orthorexia seriously and they encourage those behaviors. you can cut out whatever the hell you want if you're crunchy and healthy about it.

don't go too crazy about it. old tips would tell you to act like you loved food and it's really obvious. being obsessed with food and cooking is weird and obvious. don't talk about food constantly and make it your whole personality to try to hide, it's bizarre and one of the signs they tell parents to look out for. you have to be nonchalant. food is whatever. you like it, you have favorite meals, but you get tired of tastes quickly, you're picky about textures, you don't like it once it gets cold, etc. it's just fuel and it's meaningless to you. you eat for your health, not for pleasure.

high impact workouts like HIIT and running may not be the best idea. some studies show that high impact exercise stimulates hunger hormones in some individuals. pilates, ballet, and yoga are low impact, high results, and give a very desirable aesthetic. they're also quiet and can be done with a yoga mat and maybe a theraband.

get a job. get a hobby. join a sport. being out of your house as much as possible gives you the largest opportunity for excuses. oh my job catered lunch, oh there were snacks at practice, oh so and so brought something to the knitting circle. this can also be an opportunity to earn or save money (or swindle your mom out of cash by obtaining money for concessions at games and then only getting a diet coke)

if you control your own food, maximize your nutrition. salmon, tuna, sardines. kale, chard, spinach. beans, lentils. berries. protein pasta. pasture raised eggs. the fancy filtered fairlife milk. your body will hold out so much longer if you're keeping it fueled with proper vitamins and minerals.

track your food using cronometer - if someone sees it on your phone and asks, you have a perfect built-in excuse. oh, you don't care about the calories, but it tracks vitamin and mineral intake, and you're trying to make sure you're getting enough of those because you have, say, an iron deficiency or you're worried you're not getting enough omega-3s.

anorexic hair is really obvious. it's from malnutrition and stress. absolutely ensure you're getting enough omega-3s and other fats in your diet (avocados, eggs, oily fish, nuts like walnuts) to avoid the anorexia hair and the sallow, dry skin. this is also why i insist you take vitamin d, iron, vitamin c, a b-complex, and a pre-natal with folate and dha, those will also protect your hair and skin health. also make sure you're trimming dead ends, get a deep conditioner and/or bond repair treatment, do scalp massages, and if it does fall out, start using a mousse for volume and get a cut to maximize volume to hide it.

keep up your oral, skin, and nail health, too. these can also be obvious indicators. if you're taking the vitamins and keeping to the foods i'm recommending, it'll help, but make sure you're brushing and flossing, use the nasty brown listerine, a good dry skin lotion like curel, and a nail oil. keep your nails short if they start peeling, but if they're peeling, you need to take more vitamin d and iron, or you could have celiac disease.

there's no such thing as a broken metabolism, and you can't boost or slow down your metabolism. those are myths. the only way to make your bmr higher is to have more muscle.

extra tip: if you start fainting, tell people you have or think you have POTS. work smarter not harder.

[skinwalkee]

someone tell me to end it all or something

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Why is couplespo so much worse than regular thinspo like wdym i can’t be loved unless im deathly skinny…

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No matter how long I’ve been on edblr.

My brain will never be able to compute lbs to kgs.

🥸🥸🥸

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i think i’m i love with him guys omg

i hate this like wdym i want to be better for you…

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Being ACTUALLY fat with an 3d is a whole nother type of embarrassment

Like why am I actually overweight

Why does my bmi start with a 2

Why am I ALWAYS hungry

My body is plotting against me I swear

[skinwalkee]

50 reasons to lose w31ght ౨ৎ

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1. so your s/o can pick you up effortlessly

2. free piggy back rides from your friends

3. so you don't have to worry about being too heavy when you sit in someone's lap

4. so people will lend you their clothes (and they'll be too big on you)

5. when people buy you clothes, they'll get the smallest size (and worry that a size S might be too big)

6. someone from a k-beauty youtube video said "losing w31ght makes you 10x prettier"

7. to fit into p3tite and aesthetic clothes (eg brandy melville)

8. so you don't have the gross feeling of your skin touching (thighs rubbing together, stomach rolls, etc)

9. to look effortlessly beautiful doing anything

10. you'll sweat less

11. to look good in tight clothes

12. to be able to wear revealing outfits and still look cute

13. you'll look cute and small in oversized clothes, instead of looking b1gger

14. so you can wear a bikini

15. to feel more confident

16. people will treat you better

17. if you stick to it and work hard to lose the w31ght, then you'll be better than everyone who has failed to do so. you're willpower and self-control will be admired and envied by your peers

18. people will pay more attention to you

19. people will worry and care about you more

20. for the sk1nny/pretty privilege

21. to make people jealous of you

22. to prove that you can

23. to look good wearing anything, even if it isn't a good outfit

24. so you won't be anxious about being w31ghed at the doctor's

25. to look prettier in pictures

26. so you can go clothes shopping without being

insecure

27. no more dressing room breakdowns

28. so your s/o can fit their fingers around your wrists and their hands around your thighs (or so you can do it yourself)

29. for the th1gh g4p (duh)

30. to be small enough to use your s/o as a bed

31. so your s/o can easily lift you with one hand

32. so you don’t have to waste another summer hating urself

33. to be desirable

34. you'll have a higher chance of people stopping you on the street for photographs/modeling scouts/etc

35. to be more attractive

36. you'll use less products (body wash, lotion) if there's less of you (so you'll end up saving money too!)

37. people will take you more seriously

38. you'll be able to move through crowds easier

39. to boost your self-esteem, feel better about yourself, and be happier

40. you can purchase the smallest size when shopping online and you won't have to worry about it being too small

41. to be able to shop at cute online shops that only carry smaller sizes (brandy, yesstyle, other asian stores)

42. to look good while e4ting, instead of like a f4tt, greedy p1g...

43. to finally be in control

44. so you don't feel jealous/sad when you see other people's b0di3s/thln$p0, because THEY'LL be envying YOU

45. to have your pics/b0dychecks put in a thln$p0 compilation

46.to finally feel pretty

47. to take up less space

48. to be able to wear low rise bottoms

49. so you can talk about your w31ght and not feel ashamed

50. if you actually stick to it and r3strict, your appetite/ stomach will be a lot smaller once you reach your ugw, so you'll naturally e4t less!!

[skinwalkee]

ED rule that help me lose weight

Don't eat when you don't need energy.

Eat only before important things like exams, driving car etc or eat when you feel really bad but I mean REALLY bad.

Eat to live not live to eat.

[skinwalkee]

every time someone is cold and i’m not i feel a wave of disgust with my body fall over me

[skinwalkee]

✨ Friendly Reminder to Take Your Supplements✨

no seriously, take them. your body is probably running on caffeine and vibes at this point, and you’re definitely not getting what you need from gum and black coffee.

multivitamin: covers everything you "forgot" to eat today.

b complex: for energy and brain stuff. stop being tired all the time (probably).

omega-3: for your brain and joints. if your knees hurt, you need this. Also to make skin and hair gorg.

vitamin d: you’re not getting enough sun, let’s be real. this helps your mood too.

don’t make me nag you again tomorrow. just take them. pls.

IM SO SERIOUS....

anyways love y'all

Pro tip: take them whenever you eat something

[skinwalkee]

what weight do i have to reach so i can stop feeling like a wannrexic

[skinwalkee]

it’s 9am and still haven’t slept i think im not okay

[skinwalkee]

i’ve been so sad

i wish i could cry

i feel this overwhelming sadness that takes over my whole body but no matter how bad it gets i can’t cry i can’t do anything but sit in my head and think

it’s so exhausting i wish i could let all these feelings go