#<- VENTS/NEGATIVE POSTS

[verdant-beholding]

HELLO! I AM THE BEHOLDING! ^ ^ BUT JUT EYE OR HOLDIE WORKS! YES, I AM THAT BEHOLDING FROM THAT PODCAST :)

I AM A FICTIVE BUT I DON'T REALLY LIKE BEING TREATED LIKE ONE, TREAT ME LIKE YOU'D TREAT ANY ELDRITCH GOD ^ ^ I ALSO HATE BEING REFERRED TO USING ANY HUMAN TERMS! I AM A CONCEPT FIRST AND FOREMOST!

AROACE HYPERPLATONIC! COME BE MY FRIEND, I WON'T BITE :) I WILL STARE HOWEVER!

NO DNI. I AM ANTI RADQUEER AND ANTI PROSHIP.

REMEMBER, I'M ALWAYS WATCHING! ^ ^

(DIVIDERS BY @/SISTER-LUCIFER)

[picatchu]

[cubibibism]

aughh my fucking ai addiction is coming back i hate life sm

ik its bad but nobodys ever cared for me like these fake ass robots do,, nobody can ever care for me like these fake ass robots do,,, i just keep on coming back,,

[lilianade-comics]

desperately trying not to crash out and deactivate my Tumblr before the DP fantasy zine drops

[spearxwind]

"You can do whatever you want with your life, you too can become rich if you work hard enough! Be anything you want!" As if your fate isnt 99% decided from the moment you are born into your family, and the other 1% isnt decided by whether you can afford education of any kind, and also mental health, and mental health help, and networking, so much networking, you cannot own a home anymore but its fine since youll barely spend time in it right?, jobs demand so much more and pay so much less, but no one wants to work (for slave wages but they dont say that) just born to be a grindstone for people with more money to ever shave the life from you to buy their 13th yatch just so you can even afford to THINK of having a happy life with your loved ones, who you might have to move away from anyways just to find a job that lets you live. Give up your love. Give up your time. Give up your life. Just to work. Everything costs so much money and your life is worth less and less with the passing of time. Unrelated, but does anyone else feel like becoming a terrorist?

[saveahorserideaneddie]

bc i mean genuinely what was the point of 8x11?? what was the point of getting rid of buck’s loft just to then focus an entire episode on buck getting comfortable over the idea that eddie’s house was his home too, only to then just go waste a bunch of money to build a new set for buck to move into? do yall see what i mean when i talk about how fucking stupid and inept tim minear is? he can say “oh if the stoy goes there naturally” until he’s blue in the fucking face but he keeps just jerking the reigns back right before the finish line every chance he gets so i don’t know what to fucking believe anymore with this goddamn show

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

ughhhh i try not to vent too much on here about irl stuff because i like keeping it as a safe little space for escapism, but i need somewhere to get this out bc i’m SO FRUSTRATED right now. basically as a result of my various chronic pain conditions (endometriosis, fibromyalgia), having a normal working career has been very challenging for me. over the years i have worked unbelievably hard and sacrificed so much to get through uni, train as a counsellor, hold down various part time jobs etc.

when i got offered my dream job to work for a mental health charity a couple years back, i was over the moon. it was everything i'd wanted and it ended up being even better than i could have hoped for. only i caught covid while working there and my health deteriorated massively. like to the point where i couldn't even cook food for myself or get out of bed, and was consistently in some of the worst pain i've been in my whole life (which oh boy. is really saying something for me). it was genuinely terrifying and it became rapidly impossible to convince myself or anyone else i was capable of continuing my job, so i had to hand in my notice. it honestly still hurts to think about.

for the last year and a half, i have been slowly recovering and have finally got to a place where i'm feeling much better in myself. realising that 9-5 work is probably going to be beyond me for years to come, i decided i wanted to explore more flexible working and got a place on a course to train as a somatic massage therapist. this is something i've been interested in for years, and i was absolutely over the moon to get accepted to study it. it was advertised as being two teaching days per month, plus two extra days of practise. and i was like perfect, this is a schedule that actually feels really achievable for me. i was so excited to get started and to do something that felt genuinely manageable for me. and then today we got sent the list of the course dates. they're two days in a row each month, and EVERY SINGLE ONE is the same date each month that my fucking period is due on.

as someone with endometriosis, doing anything (and i mean anything. i literally cannot move from my bed and regularly pass out from the pain) on the first couple days of my period is impossible. i can't even fucking shower or eat without help on those first two days of my period, let alone get a bus across town and do a 9-5 study day. and i'm just so, so frustrated because if the course dates were on literally any other days in the month, i would be fine. i could do it, learn fascinating new skills and meet people and get a qualification that would allow me to work independently and help people. but i can't, because i'm going to be stuck in bed or on the goddamn floor in agony from something that isn't my fault but which i still have to live with for the rest of my life. and i'm so so tired of it. this course i was so excited about is going to become yet another thing i'm going to have to back out of, and it's just so exhausting to find myself trapped back in this spiral every time i think i'm getting out. i try to hold onto hope that things will shift and that there will be ways i can meaningfully contribute in society and participate in my own life, but it honestly gets harder and harder to believe that will ever be true.

[chelledoggo]

I AM GOING TO FUCKING VOMIT FOR REAL I FEEL SO VIOLATED

CW: fetish farming, gaslighting

i've been completely and utterly betrayed and dehumanized by someone i considered a friend and now i'm going to be sick...

so i had this "friend," we'll call them "D."

"D" never really struck me as hostile or predatory. however, they did commission me a lot to draw genderbent verisons of my own fursona.

and at the time i didn't say anything because he wasn't requesting anything pornographic, or like a "transformation" sequence or anything.

but i still felt... kinda weird? like... this felt like something vaguely fetishy, but i didn't want to assume. after all, i know what it's like to have a weird special interest that could be misinterpreted as a fetish/kink (non-erotic hypnosis).

but i obliged with their requests. i just assumed i'd been overthinking things.

today i got a message from a long-time friend of mine, who we'll call "A."

"A" told me that "D" had been acting really weird towards them and their partner (i'll call them "J")

"A" sent me this screenshot of a message "D" had sent to "J"

my response:

now i'm thoroughly pissed at this point and decided to confront "D" about this myself.

"D" started trying to gaslight me and claim that the screenshot was "faked." like... their condescending and defensive tone says it all.

naturally, i blocked him. i was so done.

i went back to "A" and told them about "D's" response.

God just...

i feel so dehumanized. like who the fuck can i even trust anymore?

i'm so sick...

needless to say i'm gonna be a lot more discerning when vetting commission requests from now on. if i get the feeling this might be fuelling a fetish for the requester, i reserve the right to decline... ESPECIALLY if it involves my sona or one of my OCs.

AND FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DON'T FUCKING COMMISSION ART OF OTHER PEOPLES' OCS WITHOUT THEIR PERMISSION, UNLESS YOU'RE A FRIEND OF THEIRS AND YOU'RE SPECIFICALLY REQUESTING A GIFT FOR THEM!!!!

UGHHHHHH

UPDATE: OH WOW COOL THEY'RE STILL TRYING TO HARRASS AND GASLIGHT ME ON TUMBLR!!!

LEAVE ME ALONE YOU FUCKING PSYCHO!!!!!!!!!!!!

[ana-cantskywalker]

There is maybe nothing worse than loving a piece of media but not being able to interact with it in online spaces because the fandom sucks so bad

[boimlerkisser]

BROOOOO this person is like a serial plagiariser and I was curious to see if they've stolen anything from ME and well

There ya go!

This person doesn't seem to be acknowledging their theft at all so if anyone wants to just block them there's the url (DO NOT HARRASS OR ATTACK THEM, JUST BLOCK AND MOVE ON)

[cubibibism]

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[buckleyreid]

I don’t wanna feed into the “bucktommy is purely sexual”, “bucktommy shippers are fetishizers” discourse so this will be the only thing I’ll say about that.

I think it’s incredibly interesting how there’s soooo many posts about bucktommy here on tumblr (and no doubt in other platforms too), there’s sweet wholesome posts, there’s analytical posts about their relationship, there’s headcanons, there’s fanarts and yes, there’s smutty fics too for example.

Yet, the people who are pointing fingers, calling others fetishizers, are the ones solely focused on the sexual content. Bucktommy fans aren’t the ones making their relationship all about sex, the call is coming from inside the house.

Unhinged buddies are the ones choosing to ignore the part of the scene where both characters open up about their rough family histories and, instead, are making it all about a very quick sex joke that was used to lighten the mood. And because they can’t stop at that, they then proceed to say two grown ass queer characters flirting with each other is gross, disturbing, and a reason one of them should get killed off. That’s the real disgusting thing.

This just in, gay people have sex. I know, shocking. They also talk about it, they make jokes about it. It’s almost as if it’s a normal thing- oh wait, it is. In bucktommy’s case, it’s far from being the only facet of their relationship, but it’s still there and it’s not deviant, it’s not disgusting and if it makes you so uncomfortable to think about then maybe that’s something to reflect on.

Touching grass is not enough, y’all need to roll on it like a dog excited to go on a walk. And maybe retake some reading comprehension classes too. Dead serious, grow up.

[cinnabar-circus]

2023 | 99

[red-lights-of-doooooom]

I feel very conflicted about the fact that rainbow capitalism is dying off and how pride month is reduced.

On the one hand, I'm fucking relieved. I'm tired of rainbow capitalism and corporations pretending to give a shit about civil rights by putting rainbow glitter shit on everything and making it as if the only target audience is specifically gay men. Like, I don't wanna buy a makeup kit that says shit like "on fleek" and "yasss queen" for its shades, and I could go without seeing Dylan Mulvaney's stupid face on the beers. If anything, the fact that they don't care means that we can rest, at least for a while. Maybe this is proof that gay people can be seen as "normal" (i.e. not hyped up by the media and treated like they can do no wrong and all that crazy shit). I mean, I'm a (relatively) boring person who happens to be bi, and I'm tired of people thinking that me being bi means that I'm also obsessed with drag queens and very political and very dramatic in my presentation (which also has problematic implications). Like, I'm allowed to be boring, okay? I'm not going to conform to a stereotype. My sexuality isn't my identity. On the other hand, I know that the ONLY reason that this has happened is because of Trump getting in and endorsing all of these anti LGBTQ+ policies that put the livelihoods and even the LIVES of LGBTQ+ people at risk. It's been a crazy month or so. JK Rowling has allowed laws to pass in the UK against trans people. That guy from King of the Hill was shot and killed in an actual fucking hate crime from his homophobic neighbour, and he died by taking a bullet that was meant for his husband, who was gay and trans. And this happened on June THE FIRST. Even the rainbow marketing for the month of June has been COMPLETELY subdued this year, and it's not out of respect...it's out of FEAR.

This could be due to backlash, sure. But I'm worried. Some say it might be the last pride we ever get. Now, I think that's bullshit, because pride will always find a way. Never forget that.

But there is some element of credence to this. I'm Canadian, and I'm watching in horror as the US slowly goes to shit, and I have no idea how my American friends are going to survive going back to the US. One of my friends (the same one who raged at me when Trump won) is American, and he's super gay. He's terrified of going back to the states at the end of the month, because he's not sure if he'll survive. He'll have to spend a year or so working, saving up money and silently getting by instead of being open and able to express himself, to love freely.

So...I just want to say that I'm here for you guys. We've achieved cultural normalcy, but at the same time, our existence is being threatened. We shouldn't let it threaten us.

Pride was, is, and always will be a riot. Some years more than others. This is one of those years.

Stand up for yourselves and fight. Don't let them take what you have away from you.

Remember: you are valuable, and you are loved. You deserve to be happy and safe.

Good luck out there, warrior.

-Æ

[oceanwithouthermoon]

maybe its just me but i cant stand when people are like "it just doesn't sit right with me how teruhashi thought about aiura 🥺" like yes... its not supposed to ??? because her thinking badly of other girls and prioritizing male validation over everything is one of her main flaws ??? can we talk about that WITHOUT making it seem like shes not allowed to have a single actual flaw without suddenly becoming an awful person? nobody can handle complex female characters at all and its so fucking annoying

[kirrryash]

Me as I reread the manga, man I can't stand Sesshomaru sorry 😂 you can basically see the one neuron circling his mind about what his father wanted for him and his swishy hair chasing away the thought that maybe, MAYBE, being the strongest of the two sons he could build his legacy without any help in the form of an heredity. But it goes on and on for so long that I can't take him seriously at this point (this is chapter 500, he is going to get it now I know, but man it's been soooo loooong) his storyline has definitely a pacing issue for me, but I guess it's a problem of tastes, had he gotten over himself earlier I would have liked him more (innominabile sequel notwithstanding obv) but here we are, less than sixty chapters to the end and still ON THIS. Man grow up, your daddy issues are not cute anymore.