#Complaining

[theworldoffostering]

You guys, I feel like I’m drowning. These past three weeks have felt unmanageable to me. Like, I don’t know how to keep going.

I’m walking alongside (trying the best I know how) the older girls as one navigates this break up and the other tries to transition to college. We got DD a car, but it still needs a few repairs. She was here all afternoon today working on it with DH.

I am waiting for the updated version of Ms. 6’s IEP to hit my inbox to send it off to the school. I am also working on her housing contract. Then I think I can step back for a few weeks. Still trying to figure out what’s going on with graduation. Her mom is back to letting her go to it and maybe allow her to stay for dinner, but it’s Memorial Day weekend and I don’t want to put a deposit down for a dinner somewhere only to have her not be allowed to attend at the last minute. I also don’t want to disappoint her. I’m unsure of how to proceed, so I’m just sort of frozen.

DS takes his civics test next week. You have to pass in order to graduate high school. He has prepared and seems like he will do well. He’s also pole vaulting and doing well at that for being a novice and having very little practice time due to the crummy weather we’ve been having.

Work is a lot right now. It’s to be expected due to the time of year. I can almost see the light at the end of the tunnel, but it’s a lot to slog through.

DH was verbally offered a job this week as a special education teacher. He is supposed to return to school to get his teaching certification in about a week, and is waiting for a letter of intent via email from the potential employer. It’s a lot. We are trying to manage the financial aid piece and we are up against a super tight deadline right now. His interview for the job was virtual, so he’s heading to the school next week to actually tour it and meet his potential coworkers. In the spirit of living in a small town, one of the women he used to live who was in live with him (for real)—the housing situation was work related—works at the school. She has legit not spoken to myself or DH since he and I got engaged so that seems like it will be super awkward (although she is also married now and has kids).

DH is finally seeing a decent therapist and between the therapist and neuropsych eval he had done during fall, it is apparent he is super depressed. Depressed is apparently his baseline and super depressed happens quite a bit. It is helpful to have it identified, but wow, it is a lot to live with. I am really struggling as his wife because he cannot do much and is not really emotionally available 90% of the time. He’s so inwardly focused, that he cannot focus on me, the kids, relationships, stuff that needs to be done, etc. I’m drowning and he cannot take on any of the workload. It sucks.

My endocrin had me take b12 supplements the last three months and my level actually decreased. I’m starting up with b12 injections next week. My TSH is also super, super low which means I’m hyperhyroid and should be losing weight, but I’m gaining which also sucks.

My endocrin is out of network for me which means my injections will be out of network. I have ZERO out of network benefits. The whole healthcare system is atrocious. I refuse to go back to the three endocrins I saw before I connected with my current one. They were all terrible, but in network. I need a super expensive full body scan but I for sure cannot pay for that out of pocket, so I’m waiting to see if my GP will prescribe it when I see him in June.

My crown also broke this week and when the dentist looked at it, I had worn a hole clear through the middle. He said it was due to grinding/stress. I wear a mouth guard religiously at night, so it’s happening during the day. :-/ Cue more medical bills. They glued my current one back on and can’t get me in to work on repair until June. I almost cried when trying to schedule with them because I just cannot even do all of this any more. (It also hurt wicked bad last time they fixed it so I’m somewhat terrified to return.)

That’s my list of complaints/brain dump. There’s more, but I need to wrap up some grading and get dinner going. I miss a life that was easier and less complicated.

[pterribledinosaurdrawings]

An old patreon post from last year.

[pdlcomics]

complain

[sporesgalaxy]

"whocares ita just a bug its just a bird its just a fish" ohhhh its just the miracle of life on earth . its just the beauty of biodiversity in my local area. its just millions and millions of years of tiny changes to a bucnh of little strands of amino acids and eventually all these circumstances brought us to this moment.but i only like this one kind of bugs so i want all the other ones to DIE I think their amino acids that took millenia to develop are DUMB AND WORTHLESS and who cares about them who cares I just want to have some stupid plants in my yard that wish they lived somewhere completely different so bad and I have to constantly battle to keep their sickly bodies functioning in this place they were never meant to live. because I saw it in a magazine

[theclasscalico]

Silly thing that bugs me: when a specific class of animal is separated from animals as a whole when talking about them. Ie. "animals and birds", or "animals and insects".

I keep seeing it with birds especially and I hate it.

[neongreengummiebears]

Not to sound like a boomer on main, because I love my phone- I do. But I really miss the day when I could hang out in public without having to hear everyone else's phones. I don't care if there are babies crying (because babies cry sometimes) or if other people are having conversations (because that's what people come to cafes and such to do) but hearing tinny little phone sounds blasting out loud out of their speakers drives me insane. I'm only in my 30's, why are you making me complain about how things were "back in my day" like I'm 80? Public phone noise is prematurely aging me. Send help.

[yb-cringe]

“man why is quackity not being super open about the legal process after its been leaked. why is he not streaming daily updates. why is he always so emotional its not like two people he brought onto the server that he was close to and cared about ended up being awful people and then he got absolutely fucking dragged through the mud for something that objectively wasnt only his fault yet since hes the most recognizable and available i guess hes the only option. this guy sucks therefore its fine to dox and send him death threats and threaten him with pictures of his locations.”

[wilbug]

"being aroace is easier than being alloallo because you dont have to worry about romance or sex!!" hey maybe dont say that?? maybe dont say being a minority is easier?? being aroace has completely ruined entire relationships for me. i am not safe in my own community. that is not easier for me or ANYONE at all

[sporkberries]

It’s always the red hood pfps bro

[vinceaddams]

Man, people on marketplace really suck at taking photos of furniture.

[pterribledinosaurdrawings]

Don't bring stinky gross muddy things to get tailored, I will send them back and my boss will agree with me.

[neverstopwinning]

friendly reminder that murder drones characters have oval eyes

everywhere i go i see people drawing them with realistic eyes and im like

"bro wtf"

[sporesgalaxy]

its worth it but sometimes it is tough to adjust to not having problems disorders when all of your most deeply ingrained mental expectations account for problems disorders

my brain has been playing the charlie brown football prank on me my WHOLE LIFE and now it is telling me i can kick the football. excuse me if i am not very eager to try kicking the football.

[haystarlight]

Hey I know you're all trying to be humorous but can we fucking stop with the jokes that are like "all men are horrible at sex always and only lesbians can keep women satisfied"??

They're not funny anymore

And I'm not just saying that because I'm a bisexual with a boyfriend and I love guys just as much as I love ladies

I'm also saying this because I bet there are lesbians that are bad at sex, too! Especially if they've come out of the closet very recently and have never been with another woman before

And also, gender identity and biological sex are fluid and complicated and don't always match and these jokes forget about that

[vincentbriggs]

I've been having intermittent trouble with my sewing machine's speed control and have an appointment tomorrow to bring it in for servicing, but ever since I sent the first email about it a few days ago the damn thing has been running perfectly smoothly just to spite me.

[yb-cringe]

the amount of people who think a coffee machine just makes coffee… insantly…like a drip coffee machine somehow Spits out coffee like a goddamn fountain- is insane