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arickaandherfictionalothers · 6 months

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Vampire f/os 🍷

Edward Cullen, Twilight (also Jasper and Carlisle in separate AUs)

Aricka x Edward Cullen, you fascinate me my darling

Aricka x Jasper Hale, my southern bell blood-singer

Aricka x Carlisle Cullen, you’re so classic

David Powers, Michael Emerson, Marko de’Este, Paul McCarter and Dwayne Lucia, the Lost Boys

Aricka x David, i need a cool rider, Aricka x Michael, a devil in skin tight leather, Aricka x Marko, blonde haired cherub boy, Aricka x Paul, if he’s cool enough he’ll burn me through, Aricka x Dwayne, His Juliet, her Romeo

Lestat de Lioncourt, Interview with the vampire

Aricka x Lestat, an eternal love for you

Sebastian

Aricka x Sebastian, my legacy is loving you

Walter De Ville

Aricka x Walter, I don’t need an invitation to love you

Roman Sienna

Aricka x Roman, my boyfriend’s a vampire

Dorian Gray

Aricka x Dorian, the vampire’s blood-singer

James Stark

Aricka x James, love you all my afterlife

Kalona

Aricka x Kalona, shelter me with your wings

@astralshipper @rosieshipper @hyperionshipping @yeehawselfshipping @letsgofoletsgo @tsundere-selfship @callsign-revenge

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musicalmoritz · 24 days

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I accidentally came across pop psychologists spouting nonsense on TikTok so pls share with me any mental disorder headcanons you have for characters. Could be TBHK or any other fandom, idc I want to hear them (ask, comment, reblog, however you want to share them is fine)

Obviously there are more serious ways to talk about these subjects and that is something I am actually in the process of dedicating my life to but as this is a fan account I figured I’d keep it lighthearted

I will be the first to say that writing Aoi with BPD and Mitsuba with DPD helped me sm with my characterization of them

#tbhk #toilet bound hanako kun #this isn’t me trying to get more asks again or reblog bait i just need to cleanse my mind from what i saw #or could it be both…?? the world may never know #i would love to write a full essay abt how pop psychology encourages ableism but i don’t want to invite more discourse that would make #ppl with other disorders feel worse or make me feel worse abt my own disorder #and the most aggressive part of it targets npd which i do not have so again i don’t want to needlessly make those ppl more upset #aoi akane #sousuke mitsuba #jibaku shounen hanako kun #jshk #headcanons #i’m conflicted on whether to tag specific disorders or not #i’m mainly thinking of personality disorders here but feel free to name any types you want #bsd #bungou stray dogs #had to mention that fandom

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mazojo · 2 months

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Yo why is Johnny Bananas on my reality TV emotional support show. AGAIN.

#we need to as a society move on from this man he will never stop appearing on my shows like !!!!! get out of my screen !!!!!#SKSKSKSK THATS SO RANDOM WHY IS JOHNNY BANANAS THE AFTER SHOW OF LOVE ISLAND HELLO #I Am? okay???? SKSKKSKS like did he just crash the show and decided to invite him in or #????? chile anyways over him already!#oh you guys don’t understand how cRAZY I’ve been the past 5 episodes I haven’t stopped watching this shit all day I need to be SEDATED #because the way I have been SHAAAAKING when I say all meeeeen when they catch me #serena is SUCH a legend I am obsessed with her she is my queen #THE WAY SHE GOT KORDELLS ASS CANT WAIT FOR THE GROVELING OF THIS MAN OH I am so #love island usa #love island #johnny bananas #I feel like I should put a tw with his name I swear it’s a jumpscare every time #drop giving this man a platform he loves that shit !!!!#I’ll wake up tomorrow to big brother him being the new houseguest at this rhythm I swear

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milimeters-morales · 1 year

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Hobie: hey Mrs. Morales, Miles just fainted

Rio: What?! stay with him i’ll be home as fast as i can- what happened!!?!?

Hobie: he got a small speck of white paint on a portrait he’s working on. I wiped it off but-

Rio: *hangs up*

#rio: i am at work. / miles: but mami you don’t understand i almost DIED from that literally it would ruin my life if that stained #i can’t blame him #because i almsot lost my mind and threw up when i spilled paint on my portrait #i just started over though #and you best believe Rio loves Hobie he’s invited to every dinner and he has his own spare blankets and pillows for if he needs to crash #miles morales #spiderman #spider man #hobie brown #spiderpunk #spider punk #rio morales

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collegeoflore · 4 months

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i just think there’s no point if he’s not a little scary is all. he just needs to be kind of freaky.

#like he’s just not hot enough if he’s not kind of scary and intense #his eyes need to be Too Red and his nails need to be Too Long and his teeth need to be Too Sharp #the true appeal of vampirism to me is that element of a predator lying in wait #and the ability to Seem inviting while actually being frightening and deadly #like vtm vampires are truly the ideal #they don’t look human unless they’re Trying (think using blush of life) but when you get too close #the image falls apart. there’s a part of your brain that KNOWS they are a predator and is afraid #i just think it’s so much more fun for someone romancing astarion to see him not as like Normal With Fangs #but as a monster and a threat and a predator and to continue anyway. is all #the joy of it rly is in a mortal recognizing that their life is in danger and choosing not to care #i want him to be a half-dead creature that sets off every alarm bell in your head but you keep coming back anyway #even if his 10 cha ass is fumbling at every turn. lmao #as a side note this IS why i keep writing him and xarrai in their weird predator show downs LOL #i’m obsessed with hunters being hunted. and love to torture him by knocking him down a peg or three LOL #漫言

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your-local-granny · 6 months

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Being critical of art is all fun and games until you are the art that is being critiqued :(

#God I was feeling so good today but duuuude I’m so scared abt the opera from purely a technical standpoint #like I’m not even stressed about fucking anything up anymore it just hit me that like. I invited people to see this and it might be bad :(#due to variables outside of my control!!!! I hate not being able to fix things #I would be less stressed if my mother wasn’t seeing it but tragically I’m proud of what /i/ am achieving so I really want her to be there!!#but I know it’s going to be SUCH a fucking let down after the other shows she’s seen at my school like #the productions she saw were SO GOOD on a technical standpoint and both of the productions this year were so bad :((((#like even conveptually I don’t even know if I’m fully convinced and I’m in the show!!!#And idk. It’s hard when you don’t have an extended family (or like much of a family at all)#so the only people coming to your show are like. Broadway technicians #the closest thing I have to an uncle is a lighting designer and a stage manager my mother knows #very fun sometimes. Other times I want to throw myself onto a pyre #Why do the stakes have to be so high why can’t they just be happy to support me :)) I shall never be the center of her world. Ah well #But also we would not be as close as we are without our shared love of theater production so. Catch-22 #And at the end of the day I’m more sad that I can’t be proud of the show #it’s not anyone’s fault it just is and I need to be okay with it #I worked really hard and it matters that I’m doing this #GOD SORRY!!!#vent #portal of rambling

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dragonheartstring360 · 8 months

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where there is no proof, there is no love

#like this IS how this is supposed to work right?#like you can’t just say you love someone #then constantly ignore them and make a show of showering other people with love?#like aren’t friends supposed to mutually reach out and check in and invite each other to things #and then have open and honest but nice convos about feelings and stuff #vs just snap their heads off when someone else asks for clarification #like doesn’t love follow a show don’t tell policy #like I could be going through the worst shit of my life but if you need me I’ll be there #isn’t that how that’s supposed to work #I’m genuinely so confused #or is this just CPTSD and autism fucking with how I view the rules of relationships and the friendship formula #personal #personal rant #cptsd #autism spectrum disorder #autism #left out friend #genuinely confused

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fischiee · 10 months

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y’all I am drunk as fuck but i am fed the fuck up. i am like hopelessly into this guy in our friend group bc he is so kind and wonderful and attractive and unfortunately he has decided that i am the one person to trust abt his love life and so i must apparently sit through him explaining his struggles with another girl while i am SUFFERING

like he is just so sweet and kind and YES it is a crush and yes i am putting him on a pedestal but he is nothing but kind and sweet to me and it definitely seems like he is flirting with me sometimes but i definitely cannot tell and he does talk abt this girl that he is very into OFTEN (she is for sure not me) and it’s driving me crazy i am so heart broken

#ignore this #ignore me #anyway yeah im fucking wasted so sorry pals you get me being emo abt a boy who simply doesn’t care about me #and who i am telling all my friends that i don’t care about #but he sits next to me!!!#and draws doodles on my papers!!!!!#and smiles and looks at me and tilts his body towards me and like ajdbfb #all night he let me loop my arm in him and helped guide me but then he literally told me abt the girl he’s in love with #and he was giving me a ride and being. so kind so I gave him advice about how to like date/get w/ her but it simply hurt my heart so bad #im literally bawling my eyes out AUGH #sorry team this is what happens when you follow a theatre manor who has t even graduated #you get someone so horrendously dramatic and emo #AUGH #i can’t even make up my mind abt him but i do know i want him so bad #we were enemies now we just need to get to the lovers part #it’s just so sad that he had decided that he can tell no one else abt his love life and his secret crush except for me #bc like.. girl i want you to fail (just kidding he’s so wonderful and i want him to be happy)#but it does definitely hurt but also bring me such joy for him to be like “oh i only trust /you/ with this. im attracted to someone else.#he literally let me loop his arm in him and let me touch him all night #but the second he was drawing home he asked abt a situation which her and her inviting friends to a hang out with him #and it just brown my hearT #i just #agony #sorry team im feeling emo

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paradisetemporarilymisplaced · 1 year

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#how do I tell someone that I’ll be devastated if they don’t come to my wedding without pressuring them #I’m so stressed. only 14 more people are allowed to say no #we thought we were safe by inviting 235 people (we need 150 minimum) but evidently not!!!!!!!#every new no we get I die a little more inside #and like I’m afraid to reach out to people directly bc I’m convinced they’re all going to say no and I can’t handle that #idk man if you know me and want to come and aren’t offended that you didn’t get invited initially lmk??#you’re probably on the list of almosts that we thought we didn’t have room for #I’d love to have you but I get it if you’re mad to be on the b list lol #truly I’d love it if everyone I know was there but numeric constraints are a whole thing. you get it #personal ///

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cryptidunknown · 1 year

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do you ever have music that comes into your life at just the perfect time. because that’s how i’m feeling about so much (for) stardust. sorry for projecting my own problems onto song lyrics but this feels like the burnt out college student album

#op #fob #so much (for) stardust #what would you trade the pain for?#like a kid playing pretend in his father’s suit. i’ll never go i just want to be invited.#we’re told we gotta get ahead no matter what it takes but there’s no way off the hamster wheel in this rat race.#give up what you love before it does you in.#we could cry a little cry a lot #i just gotta figure out a window to break out. buried alive inside my dreams but it was all a fake out.#do you laugh about me whenever i leave or do i just need more therapy.#half your life you’ve been hooked on death #just another day spent hoping we don’t fall apart so drop a bomb on all the things we dreamed about #just trying to keep it together but it gets a little harder when it never gets better

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bloodlessdiamond · 1 year

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People don't actually care about you when you're suicidal. They just say they do or pretend because they are supposed to. No one really helps or tries to be there for you, or wants to change the things that are making you feel that way.

#me tells a friend I’m feeling really low and suicidal #them:#no don’t do anything I love you #it would make me so sad #then immediately #proceeds to not talk to me for weeks #me tries to go through my work counseling site #only female counselors #decides I could get over my think with women therapist #no available appointments in person in my area not during work hours #calls my doctor says I really need a med check #soonest appointment available in three months #can’t even get out of bed and only eats maybe twice a week #my dad who hasn’t talked to me more than 5 min in weeks #I’m inviting this random woman I’ve only known for a few weeks to come for the weekend #no one actually cares #they just don’t want to feel guilty when I do it

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loadsofcats · 1 year

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Have a feeling that, if more of you read Riders of the purple sage by Zane Grey, you’d be going mad over Lassiter

#the puns with his surname would be insufferable it sometimes sneaks up on me #i love him very dearly #both him and jane #Jane for being exactly who she is; stubborn kind welcoming and seemingly dumb but actually quite clever #she has a ranch all to herself #and for lassiter…… his name is Jim. I was not expecting that #secondly he’s from texas and now i had to figure out how texans speak.#this one also sneaks up on me because i did not earlier have a) a realisation that texan accent Does Exist so i remembered that’s a thing #too and b) i did not ususally connect texan accent with cool people (sorry but i only ever heard it once in a blue moon from tv)#anyway I love him very much because in the first chapters he comes all like “Yes. The Black cowboy it is me. I am very dangerous.#Jane I will protect you and your friend.” and then he does and #Jane later invites him for dinner and the man just… dissolves into a puddle with heart eyes on it like “oh i… really miss #it is a-a-alright; you don’t have to invite me for dinner [insert that emotional crying cat] Lassiter can survive just fine”#He’s twirling his hat all that time in his hands like a nervous teenager #I mean he comes there all strong and brooding and whenever Jane speaks he just. Melts. Babygirl really #he goes to retrieve Jane’s cattle he loses his horse in the process!!!#and he still stays! Even when Jane tries so hard to deter him from killing who he came to kill hes like “oh well. Guess I’ll stay here unti #you… change your mind” and Jane’s like “I will not change my mind”. And he goes #“Oh well ill stay anyway you need help managing a farm on your own” and he just stays to “help”#i could write paragraphs about Jane as well but this is a Lassiter appreciation post <3 #book #books #it talks #tag edition #riders of the purple sage #zane grey

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cloneboywonder · 1 year

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im so CWCcoded

#anyway my apologies for gaslighting you all about not personal diary posting bc my dad just texted me goodnight and it made me sad #him and my mom both tried to call me all day I feel bad when I ignore them #bc I know they’ll be dead someday and they won’t be able to call me and I won’t be able to answer #and my brothers both tried to call me I know my mom narced that I was weird yesterday and now everyones scrambling to keep track of me #it’s very nice of them but I really do hate being reminded that I’m the family member that like #they’ve all quietly agreed is always going to have to be monitored and taken care of #I wouldn’t be surprised if Andy and Alex haven’t talked about who I’m going to going to live by when our parents are both gone #it was kind of funny Andy invited me to like go install a security camera with him today #I said no but I do think it could’ve been a fun experince #I was gonna see my mom but she didn’t want to go out again so I waited around until my dad tried to call me again #so then be brought me with him to a hardware store where he tried (and failed) to return paint or something #we love a schemer #and then we picked up Andy and got milkshakes but I was ill so he got me real food on the way home #but I’m going to have to find a way to throw it out tomorrow bc I didn’t eat that much of it and I don’t want him to be sad about it #and I have to clean my room bc Lydia will be here soon #I was weepy in the car and my dad kept saying it’s nice you’ll get a few days with her before the concert #I know :-(#to some extent I love that he’s so incapable of handling emotional moods bc he just puts on songs and complains about them #bc he knows I like to complain and I think he gets scared when I don’t talk and that’s his attempt at getting me to #I need to finish my costume and make bracelets and clean my room these seem doable #okay bye please don’t unfollow me #also I love the name doxing bc these are for me and me only and maybe burke when he logs on I love you #my posts

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southislandwren · 1 year

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I deeply love the freshman but she just called twice to ask if could jump her car at a location 30 minute drive away, I am pajama’d and blind in bed . No I cannot dedicate over an hour of time when it’s already my bedtime because surprise, I wake up at fuckin 4:25 am 🙃

NO FUCKING WAY was I awake typing this godforsaken post and my other friend called me for 30 MINUTES!!!!! You fuckheads I work on a farm do not contact me after 7:30!!!! Arggghhhhhh okay goodnight and anyone else who calls me is NOT getting an answer I am asleep GOODNIGHT !!!!

#and last night I got like 5 hours of sleep and I didn’t take a nap today. I shouldn’t be fucking driving anyway because I’m SLEEPY sleepy #I was like give me 30-40 minutes and she was like uhhh I will call some other people… yeah do that .#like if I do go for a drive this weekend I’ll still invite her but I’m getting a little sick of her antics #diary post #ugh. anyway if you find this E I do deeply love you fr but I told you I wasn’t going to be a good friend this summer #and I didn’t mean like teehee I can only hang out on Saturdays #I meant the likelihood I text back or see you in person more than twice a month is VERY low #and yeah this is on me for picking a stupid fucking job but like. I need to be sick of farming before I head to a city for 5+ years #I am exhausted down to my core. I relapsed in my bad habit on Saturday. I am barely functioning.#I don’t think I’ve eaten anything that’s not fruit or dairy products in the past 3 days. I am desperately waiting for an incident at work.#begging to the universe to let me get kicked in the head or something so I can have a few fucking days off PLEASE #anyway goodnight. now im all wound up and I’ll get another 5 hours of sleep #also ironic the second friend who called me was gossiping abt this guy at work that should just shut up sometimes #and im sitting there on the other side of the phone YAWNING after picking up and answering I am already in bed #and my friend is still rambling on about stupid inane work bullshit that I do not care about.#okay goodnight for real. I hate everything

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urbanfiltered · 2 days

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:-)

#okay spent the whole day with no one but myself it was weird and hard i hate.#i gotta become more detached from my loved ones i did spend most of the day in bed but not even sleeping?#i was just like ‘’i’m awake but i wish i wasn’t………’’#’’what is this feeling like i’m up and conscious but don’t want to do my things……’’#like you fucking idiot Please get medicated #i also cooked a very good meal and then spent the last 2 hours wondering if i should invite my bf over for dinner #except everytime i checked discord he was still gaming with the bros which ive learned is an important thing they need to do so i gave up #it’s so wild when i was single and made a good meal i was so fine eating it alone and now i just want to Share……..#this is so gay lol #anyways i caffienated but am resisting the urge to go out and am now Working instead if you can believe it #its true what they say #sometimes ‘self care’ is face masks and bubble baths but sometimes #it is about getting in the RING and finally doing the tasks you’re putting off that give u anxiety #i gotta catch up on my stupid emails and spreadsheets job so i can be at a bit more peace #pretending not to see my friends’ texts asking me if i want to come over haha !!

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insanechayne · 23 days

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#I think I’m lonely in a way I can’t fully describe #I have a partner and friends and family but still often feel alone even when I’m with them #I don’t feel close to anyone at times and I don’t know if it’s outside circumstances or just me #like with my partner being asexual we don’t really do certain activities that I’d like to partake in more often and I can’t hold it against #them for how they do/don’t feel but at the same time I’m craving a physical connection I can’t have and am struggling #doesn’t help that I think about sex all the time nowadays and would really like to be having it and experiencing/exploring certain things #it’s not always easy to take care of oneself that way and still also try to console the ace partner apologizing for who they are #and yeah hall passes are great but only if you have someone to use it on and I’ve never had anyone want to be with me sexually #moving on to bestie I don’t feel my same love and affection being reciprocated and that sucks because I really do anything I can for him #and am like that with pretty much all of mt friends where if they need me for something I’ll be there #but a lot of the time it seems like he really only wants to talk/hang out with me if he’s at work and I can come visit with him #any time I invite him to do something with me outside of work he flakes and so it’s not even worth inviting him anymore #and yeah there’s rare times where he’ll call me a bunch in one day but it’s always just to tell me some gossip from work #not that gossip isn’t fun but still don’t you want to jus talk to me? I always want to just talk to you even if it’s about nothing at all #I’m always the one putting myself out there for him and being there for him when he calls me but I almost never get that same response back #and it’s like I know he has a family so I know he can’t always drop everything for me nor would I ever expect that but just some matching of #my energy would be nice you know? but then I feel guilty/selfish because I feel like I shouldn’t ask that of him when he does have a life #away from work. and I mean I guess I do too but it’s different because partner and I don’t have kids and don’t do much aside from sit around #together or have tea or other things most often done at home. and I don’t live with partner full time yet so I also still have other freedom #outside of just being with them. and other responsibilities I take care of but not on the same level as a wife and kids I guess #idk now I just feel like I’m whining but tbh all this stuff is weighing on me and just making me feel really shitty #I don’t know how to fix these issues without sounding like a selfish bitch and I’m obviously not going to cut anyone off but I don’t really #see any other solutions forming either. so it’s like I guess I’ll just keep my mouth shut and keep feeling bad until the end of time since #that’s the easiest thing to do and then no one else is hurt or upset aside from me #I just feel like I’m destined to float through life never getting back what I need from my relationships but still giving everything because #I don’t know any other way to be. I don’t know how to set boundaries even for myself so I’ll just keep giving and giving until I’m dead #and yeah I guess I am still a lot happier than I used to be and I appreciate the people in my life #just sometimes feels like they don’t really appreciate me back is all #so now I have to lay here next to partner and have all this shit running in my mind and try to get over it on my own #reasonably I should just go to bed but the loneliness is gnawing at me and idk what to do to make it go away

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